http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:FallenSnowman&section=today deviantART RSS for by:FallenSnowman en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 19 Dec 2009 10:17:01 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/23760130/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/23760130/ Wed, 18 Mar 2009 08:54:57 PDT As I meet more people, watching and learning as ever,
I come to see that the act of living is just too simple.

No man can ever know the truth of Satisfaction.
He only believes it to be real.

No man will ever be happy, in truth.
He can only be subject to pleasure

Morose as this is, There is no excuse.
No excuse for lying down and giving up.

The yellow lines we watch fly by are evidence that we move.
Only not so.
We go places, but we do not see them, We do not live them. We do not breathe them.

Still, there is no excuse.
It must be said that trying is the only way.

Simplicity is life. Trying is simple.

FallenSnowman

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/23760125/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/23760125/ Wed, 18 Mar 2009 08:45:46 PDT
I'm not sure how many of my watchers have really cared to notice however... but for those who have I am grateful.

I've been investing most of my time in old-school film photography and, seeing as I have a distinctive lack of scanner, I have not been able to post my new art work.

As for my "poetry", I have no excuse, just not inspiration.

However, it has come to my attention that I may just be seen as lazy, and therefore I will be updating henceforth.

Merci Beaucoup,
FallenSnowman

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/20468458/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/20468458/ Sat, 13 Sep 2008 08:53:15 PDT
Do I ever really know?
Does anyone?

So many questions.
No answers to be found.

The woman I loved, she don't want me no more.

The home I had is no more than a cold wooden box.

Whatever it is. Whatever you need.
I can't give it to you.

Justifying the unjust.
Satisfying the greedy.


A pain in my heart,
A stake through my lung.

It's too late.
It was never on time.

My train has de-railed.

You will be the one that I missed.
I will be the one you never knew.

A pop can tab to never forget.
Forgotten, I lie on a hill.
Surrounded by everything that has forgotten me, everything that never was, that could be if not for me in the way.

I love you, I wish things could work, I wish I could be more. I wish that I wasn't so useless. One day maybe you'll look back and think, "things could have been done differently." But then, everything could have been done differently. That still doesnt mean things wouldn't have worked out the way they already have.


Tu ne quaesieris—scire nefas—quem mihi, quem tibi
finem di dederint, Leuconoë, nec Babylonios
temptaris numeros. ut melius, quicquid erit, pati!
seu plures hiemes, seu tribuit Iuppiter ultimam,
quae nunc oppositis debilitat pumicibus mare
Tyrhenum. Sapias, vina liques, et spatio brevi
spem longam reseces. dum loquimur, fugerit invida
aetas: carpe diem, quam minimum credula postero

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/20004201/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/20004201/ Sun, 17 Aug 2008 12:32:22 PDT As if I had ahome to begin with.

Home is where the Heart is.
My heart is dead

Love, not so unconditional,
Why have youcome here?

To mock me?
As I lay on the floor.

As I bleed out from my superficial wounds.
Imagined, yet more pain than anything before.

And now I have become sour.
Those who make me stay as they leave.

This world is a bitch,
And then you die.

So fuck it all, I don't want to prolong this anymore
Why are you making me?

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/19694948/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/19694948/ Thu, 31 Jul 2008 07:37:14 PDT
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Comfort has never been more appreciated,
Never has it been so far away.

I've forgotten the meaning of being me
Of being together, I'm wholly unwhole

One day I had words to say
One day I was too late

I gave myself away,
Not expecting anything back

So why, with no expectations,
Did you run away?

You said you weren't happy,
I did all I could

I'm just not enough
So evacuate my heart.

Covered in Rain,
One would think that pain would just wash off

I suppose I'm used to it,
But waking up is hard, when it takes me five minutes to remember you aren't here

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/18665182/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/18665182/ Wed, 04 Jun 2008 15:50:58 PDT I need to make this one for myself, no on else can do it for me.

I Entered the miracle, thinking it would be wonderful.
I don't doubt it is, but it sure is stressful.

I Entered the miracle, trying to make the most for us.
I haven't forgotten the beginning, but it seems you have.

I Entered the miracle, knowing it would be hard to keep up.
I will not give up, until you give up for me.

I Entered the miracle, thinking happy thoughts.
I hope you were happy too, or will be soon.

I Entered the miracle, no I don't want to go back.
I'm still in the miracle, are you here with me?

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/18295353/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/18295353/ Mon, 12 May 2008 19:06:28 PDT Drowning In Society's "Norms"

What Is Normal?
Normal Is Being A Fucking Zombie

FUCK THAT SHIT
You Won't Find ME Wearing A GodForsaken Short Sleeve Dress Shirt
And A Striped Tie

No Fucking Way
Not ME

Sheep=Follow=Allthewaytotheslaughterhouse
==IE HAVING MADE NOTHING OF YOURSELF

MAKING SOMETHING OF YOURSELF DOES NOT MEAN MONEY, POWER, RESPECT!
MAKING SOMETHING OF YOURSELF MEANS NOT MAKING ANOTHER GODDAMNED SOMETHING OF SOMEONE ELSE!

I Will Not Become a Fucking Zombie
Not By My Choice, At Least

It Seems It Is Forced Upon Us,
We Can Go Nowhere Without Becoming A Zombie

FUCK THAT SHIT

DO NOT BE A SHEEP
DO NOT FOLLOW

DO WHATEVER YOU WANT

DO NOT BE AFRAID OF DEATH. IT IS NOTHING TO FEAR, ONLY A PEACEFUL END TO THE ZOMBIE RELATED ILLNESS WE CALL LIFE!

there is of course, a slight chance im wrong, in which case we're all fucked anyway

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/18122218/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/18122218/ Thu, 01 May 2008 18:04:00 PDT I'm supposed to get out before it's too late.
Before I crash and burn.

Who cares?
France
Scotland
Germany
Africa
Everywhere
Anywhere
Not here

Let's run, and never look back.
Never too far gone,
Never far enough.

Run, like our legs were light
Fly, like our hearts were dark
Flee, like our minds were closed
Run




Run



Run



Fly



Bye

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16874565/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16874565/ Thu, 14 Feb 2008 03:45:57 PST And finding You aren't real.
The most terrifying thing I know
A man like me could feel

You eyes, they entrance
Like Your smiles, they enhance
I Love You
You Love Me
That's they way
I like it to be.

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16839759/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16839759/ Mon, 11 Feb 2008 20:21:12 PST And everything in it.
I wanted to catch you
When you fall
I wanted to talk to you
When you needed me

I wanted...

But I can't

I wanted to give you all I have
So take it, and run

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16806716/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16806716/ Sat, 09 Feb 2008 20:08:44 PST we've become accustomed to the light in this room but now it's our chance to open the curtains
we've not even begun to comprehend the outside world but suddenly they thrust us into the open space of live
we've started to fly, or spiral more like, downwards, and outwards, and sideways, and slantways.
we've got to take control
we've got each other, you and me.
we've got to think on our own but as a team

we've got this last chance to make it right
so let's you and me strive for light.
we've no more options to delay
one choice to make; go or stay?
we've found ourselves and yourselves too
now time to decide which one is you.

Crack the window, let in the breeze
I wont try to rhyme that with "ease"
Because it's not, won't ever be
But you and me, that's all I see.

We've spent all night in this place
Unlock the door, put foot in space
Put On Our Dresses, We'll Be Optimists

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16755455/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16755455/ Wed, 06 Feb 2008 14:13:25 PST cuz im a fighter, we're all fighters.
theres only one choice...fight it or die
so im fighting it, im fighting for breath, for precedence, for life.
and it's all you that gives me reason
im breathing, im living, im fighting, for you

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16744868/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16744868/ Tue, 05 Feb 2008 19:28:14 PST
and so it begins

we hung up, and i had this sudden urge to cry, to punch the wall.
not because you were gone, but because im confused about you not ever being there.
im freaked out. i want everything that you are. i need everything that you are. but i dont know how to get it. it's not like i can reach out and grab it. it's not like it's something i can just trip over, and be surprised about finding.
my mind is racing, i can't even type out the right words now. im lost. im scared. im cold and alone on the hottest day in the most crowded space. all i know is that i love you and it scares the shit out of me. i dont know why. i dont know what im doing, where im going, or what lies ahead.
i can't see the screen for the veil of tears that is welling up over my eyes. you will never know the true emotion that comes with each taste of salt that pours down my cheek.

and im still scared, maybe because i dont know if this is real, or maybe because it's real and i am telling you about it.

i can never tell what feelings belong to me, and what feelings are just made up so i can get you to look at me, get you to talk to me. i worship you, what you think of me, how you see me. my looks, my personality, who i am.

I AM SCARED OUT OF MY FUCKING MIND

and i dont know where to go. i dont know how to move on from this.
when you leave, and your life turns from here to then, i will be left alone, and im scared.

when i begin to realize the mess of my life that i have made, i am scared

when one day, i break down in the halls of the prison i have created for myself, maybe i will understand, that happiness is not meant to be, not for me. but i have you for now, and while i may not be able to talk to you properly. while maybe i make you think im just with you for your body. i love you. more than ive loved before

im scared

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16727674/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16727674/ Mon, 04 Feb 2008 17:33:52 PST
really, i find it intriguing, though again i dont know why.

seems lately i don't know anything. or am i trying to not know anything?

does it matter? does anything matter? with no purpose to life..then what is matter?

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16727431/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16727431/ Mon, 04 Feb 2008 17:19:15 PST
To Jump
And Never Land

To Fall
And Never Hit Rock Bottom

To Fly
Even When It Is Impossible

Can You?

Will your mind let you soar beyond your ability to understand exactly what it is that We need?

Blissfully

check it out
[link]

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16680578/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16680578/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 19:42:50 PST Where I Tripped On My Way
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]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16582996/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16582996/ Sat, 26 Jan 2008 14:50:17 PST im begging for a reason

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16475730/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16475730/ Sat, 19 Jan 2008 13:43:43 PST My bones ache, my back breaks
I lay alone, Stone cold,
No more can I stand to be here
I feel useless,
No longer can I do anything right

Why do I feel aged?
My mind is young, I can still run
I want to jump, to fly, to cry
Still, you laugh, you joke, you jest
Breathing has become a struggle.
My body can take it,
My heart wants not.

I cannot be helpless, I will not be
I want you, I need you
To bring me peace, to let me be
So tell me, can you let me be?
All alone
On my own

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16391676/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16391676/ Sun, 13 Jan 2008 17:04:04 PST | Room Enough |
|______?______|


Maybe

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16371434/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16371434/ Sat, 12 Jan 2008 11:31:29 PST so yeah, check it out, hold it dear, love it, hate it, break it.


The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
with a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm handing on to the words you say
You said that I will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16368898/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16368898/ Sat, 12 Jan 2008 08:18:31 PST Even so, I knew it was still there, for I had a shadow.
Without light I know there can be no shadows.

Go on. Prove me wrong.
Show me.

I love You

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16266147/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16266147/ Sat, 05 Jan 2008 06:41:59 PST Even a tiny metal circle can bring me down
Like it's closing around my neck
Suffocating me
Letting go at the very last second
Just to spite
Maybe metal is a metaphor for flesh
For fingers?
Reaching slowly for my throat
No.
She can let go
I think
I hope
I trust
I can...I will
I love you
Metal, is just a metaphor
But it's real enough for me

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16237291/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16237291/ Thu, 03 Jan 2008 09:28:30 PST Your skin makes me Cry.

Angels say they can make you Suffer
They give and take like a vicious Lover.

Just in case, I will leave my things Packed
So I can run Away

Do you know what I mean when I say, "I don't want to be Alone"?
What I mean when I say, "I don't want to be Alone"

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16122278/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/16122278/ Thu, 27 Dec 2007 10:50:12 PST Tears apart my soul.
It leaves me blind,
Crippled, I'm not whole.

Perhaps this is all I have to write to you today, dear journal, for perhaps, this is all I need. But, perhaps, on that note...this is less than i need..but all I have. A quartet of words, a foursome of lines, is this it? does it end here? Do we feel this is a fall while we run? Tune in next time, to find out, if our infamous blunder [whom some may call a friend, some may call a foe] can make it out alive.
[now here is the part where you imagine a black fade-out screen, followed by static mumbling, as if a talk radio station wasn't tuned correctly]

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/15894816/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/15894816/ Tue, 11 Dec 2007 18:59:04 PST
Forever to be seen by the wandering.

Seen by those lost

But help they will not find.
When finding you are mine.

Beneath the candles found above,
I give you all I have, my love.

To prove to you that all I seek
Is confidence for the meek.

Finally, heart, take flight
And in flying do you cleanse your fright,
And in cleansing one must to spite,
Love, for love shall give us might.

In ending can we say this last,
In meaning more than lasting end.
For in ending do we state the last,
But lasting do we never end.

Love for love's sake is all I can give.
In cliche's words, to love, is to live.

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/15838943/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/15838943/ Fri, 07 Dec 2007 18:47:32 PST Thinking it just may be my last.
My last day,
My last breath.
Thinking she should be my last.
My last try,
At least for a while.
Then it didn't work out with her.
She lied,
I died.
I tried, tried to win.
I lost, again.
When I brought that to the light,
I realized that I had known it was coming.
The impending doom, like a black cloud on the horizon.
I fell asleep for a while






I woke up one morning, thinking,
Thinking it was just another last day.
Another last breath.
The cloud still loomed overhead.
The rain still poured on me.
But something felt different.
It was a happier day,
Something about the way the sun squeezed through the black.
Then my eyes caught sight of you.

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/15656295/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/15656295/ Sat, 24 Nov 2007 21:16:07 PST walking
crawling
sliding
falling

done
hit the ground
it hit back

tripped
faceplant in the middle of the road
yellow lines dictate my entire soul

done

done running
done walking
done crawlilng
done sliding
done falling>>no, not yet

not done falling until i've caught you first

]]> ~FallenSnowman http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/15626281/ http://FallenSnowman.deviantart.com/journal/15626281/ Thu, 22 Nov 2007 19:25:51 PST I turn and she’s gone
Try to fix what is not broken
Or was not whole to start

She is here again
Majestic in all she is
Why is my hand not in hers?
Why is her head on his shoulder?

Phone rings
I answer
She says she loves me
There’s that word again

Love

Bittersweet

I hate how I love you too
I love how I hate you
I’m afraid, afraid of your love
Afraid of your hate
Afraid of you

Love

Do you really?
Or am I just the “right now”?
Is it an addiction?
Or what makes us whole?

I feel so empty
Feeling like I’m screaming
Every word, every letter
A Yell, crying out
Tell me
Is it worth it all?
This mess
This mess I thought was love

Show me a man without love
And I will show you a dead man walking
He cannot see, cannot breathe
He is free, but trapped
Encased in his own loneliness

On fire, to hear the words from your mouth
Soaked, by the wave of you falling on me
Exhausted from running your race
From keeping up with you
Trying to not be alone
I need you

I don’t
Not now, nor ever


I do
Always and forever

And it’s despicable
How I hang on each breath you take
How the every beat from your stone heart kills me
And keeps me alive

Like a dream
Like being woken
By a splash of cold water
There is no where left to hide
There is no where left to run

The end
End of what
End of the beginning?
Beginning of the end?
I wanted what I couldn’t have
What didn’t want me

But does she lie?
Does she keep it from me?
Just to keep me here
Just to torture me
Or does she think it will keep me safe?

The screaming
Behind my eyes
In my own mind
At me, from me

Love

Bittersweet

The fear is what brings me to a close
What shuts my eyes
What keeps me awake
Maybe it’s true
That which I cannot rid myself of

Love

]]> ~FallenSnowman