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Recently I've been hearing a lot about a site called Swagbucks and so I thought I’d use it and give it a try.


Final verdict?

I’m having a hard time staying away from Swagbucks.


There's no reason you SHOULDN'T be using Swagbucks.


If you routinely search for things online via a typical search engine, then you’re searching without the possibility of winning something. Any time you search on Google, your odds of winning a prize is 0%. Even if your odds of winning a prize on this site is like 0.01%, that’s better than nothing, no? Plus, given the facts that most people make multiple searches a day and that winning percentages are higher than that small number, you’re essentially throwing away money if you’re not using this site.


You can win Swagbucks by shopping online. Or by recycling your old cell phones with them. Or by reading their blog and following their Twitter account. Or by…well, you get the point.


while researching this article, I won $2 Swagbucks ($1 Swagbuck and then another 15 minutes later). Now while those can’t be redeemed for anything worthwhile on their own, you only need 45 Swagbucks for a $5 Amazon giftcard. Given that you start out with $3 Swagbucks when you sign up, I’m already 11% of the way there after 1 day.


So for now, I’m drinking the Swagbucks Flavor Aid. Are you going to make millions? No. Are you going to make hundreds? Doubtful. But is there the opportunity to win enough Swagbucks every month to snag a free giftcard or two? Heck yes.
Can the same be said for using Google or Yahoo?

Exactly.


Use the code BeMine to earn a free Swagbuck.


have no idea how much longer this code will be active for, but it’s my experience that they die quite fast.


So what are you waiting for?!

Sign up here:
[link] com/?cmd=sb-register&rb=319493

]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/22663507/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/22663507/ Sun, 18 Jan 2009 22:37:28 PST
Here's the link:
[link]

Forest Faerie Fashions was the original name of my shop. I didn't care for it much so it didn't stick very long.

The next idea was Rayven renn, which was a character I came up with when I was a little kid and the idea stuck :]

Thanks for listening!

Rayven

P.S

I also have a personal myspace, so feel free to ask for that and I just might give it to you. :]

]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/22492590/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/22492590/ Fri, 09 Jan 2009 17:46:52 PST
If any of you would be willing to spare a minute and fill out the very tiny form (seriously, it's basically name, state, and city - make it up if you want to just make sure you use a valid email) it would really be appreciated.

Go to [link] click on Downloads, fill it out and when it asks you what StreetTeam member refered you, please put Kelsey Bair. If the 'Enter' button is not working, just click after "Kelsey Bair" and click enter and it should work.

Thank you all in advance! *hugs everyone*

]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/17856117/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/17856117/ Mon, 14 Apr 2008 20:33:07 PDT ~+I am currently...+~
Feels- Sleepy
Thinking- Beedddd...
Hating How fast time goes by
Watching- My cat stare at me because he wants to go to bed
Listening to- The heat running
Talking to- The kitty
~+ The Good Stuff +~

My friend just referred me to this website where you take surveys online and get paid to do it.



The website is called Treasure Troopers.



Shes a close friend so I know its not a scam.



She's been doing it was quite awhile and she showed me this months check that she got in the mail the other day..

It made me really jealous lol

So I signed up and its a blast! Totally legit.



Has anyone ever used or heard of this website before? Please share your tales and experiences..

[link]
My Etsy Shop :

[link]

[url=[link]

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Clubs!!
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]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/17572296/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/17572296/ Sat, 29 Mar 2008 11:29:44 PDT ~+I am currently...+~
Feels- Awake
Thinking- SPRING!!!!!
Hating My runny nose
Watching- My cat run around and be stupid
Listening to- The heat running
Talking to- The kitty
~+ The Good Stuff +~

I finally got my braces off.

Yes, finally.

They were removed on Tuesday March 25th.

I had them on for 2 years , which was only supposed to be 1 year so my teeth would look nice for my senior pictures.

I am so happy they finally came off.

Thank goodness.

I was tired of everyone thinking I was 12 because I had braces.

It's also kind of amusing because Nick has never seen me without braces.



Simple rant.

I know I have been submitting nothing but jewelry as of lately but im on a kick.

Sorry to my watchers who originally watched me for other stuff. I will come back eventually.

Oh and good news.

My last day of school is May 27th and my graduation is on May 30th.

It keeps getting closer... and im nervous as fuck!

I don't think I am going to walk just because I really don't want to. I just want to get my diploma and GET OUT!

Today was the last day of my spring break and lets see....I did nothing.

Yay.

Thanks for listening haha

Kelsey

My Etsy Shop :

[link]

^T3h Stock Account!!^:



Clubs!!
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]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/15985433/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/15985433/ Tue, 18 Dec 2007 11:14:22 PST ~+I am currently...+~
Feels- Sickly
Thinking- hm..maybe i will start updating this more
Hating the cold
Watching- police lights
Listening to- Ims
Talking to- Noone Really
~+ The Good Stuff +~

So yesterday was my dreaded 18th birthday. I have been dreading this birthday for who knows how long now. I wasnt excited at all, and the legal ending of my childhood just doesnt sound all that wonderful to me.

But anyways... it ended up being pretty good.

I recieved alot of my birthday and christmas presents early because i am going to Illionois for christmas with Nicks family. (although we are currently broken up, but i am pretty sure we are getting back together.)

Nicks gift was my favorite.

He got my bees wax chapstick (which i am totally addicted to) Wyvernhail by amelia atwater rhodes, and a 2 pound bag of sour patch kids.

He surprised me with FLOWERS they are gorgeous and smell really good

and he took me out to dinner at apple bees.. and made the people sing to me haha i turned so red. but the free cheesecake was totally worth it.

and then we went to the movies because i had won free tickets. the movie sucked and was stupid but i cuddled with him the entire time..

there is still hope.

and i have realized that noone in the world is like that boy.

he means everything to me.


My Etsy Shop :

[link]

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Clubs!!
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]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/15921090/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/15921090/ Thu, 13 Dec 2007 17:20:21 PST ~+I am currently...+~
Feels- Amazed
Thinking- wow i havent updated this sucker since April 2006...o.O
Hating the cold
Watching- not a damn thing
Listening to- Deftones - Change
Talking to- Myself
~+ The Good Stuff +~

Hello everyone! ^-^ and wow, yes as it is noted up there i have not updated this sucker since April 2006. I guess that goes to show you exactly how bored i am today. Well not exactly bored, just really..desperately in need of an update and im sick as usual so i figured today would be perfect.

Anyways.. i have been with a boy, named Nick. and we were dating for the 18 months..but are currently broken up. So things in my life are really..T___T right now. I'm actually pretty depressed.

And it's my senior year of high school...and i started going to a new school. Kinda shitty but i guess i don't really mind too much.

Oh and did i mention my 18th birthday is on Monday? THIS Monday...the 17th of December.

Pretty scary...

Oh, and i've turned from my love photography.. its not allll gone..but yeah. I've been making and selling Jewelry now and I LOVE IT. i am addicted and i want to go to college for jewelry design.

I have been posting some of my random designs here and there..so be sure to check them out when i actually get around to listing something :]

heres my store (www.etsy.com) on etsy...heres the link :

[link]

Thanks for reading my updated nonsense ^-^

Kelsey

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Clubs!!
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]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/8442068/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/8442068/ Tue, 11 Apr 2006 19:27:36 PDT ~+I am currently...+~
Feels- Braced lol
Thinking- ugh...
Hating certain people wanting certain people
Watching- CSI
Listening to- Tv
Talking to- Fred
~+ The Good Stuff +~

so yeah i got my braces today...and its definetly different. i look like a fucking crack head 13 year old. LMAO. but its all good. they are orange and totally match my shoes. :]

i'll be your winter coat
buttoned and zipped straight to the throat
with the collar up so you won't catch a cold.

i want to take you far from the cynics in this town
and kiss you on the mouth
we'll cut out bodies free from the tethers of this scene

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Clubs!!
,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/7259236/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/7259236/ Thu, 08 Dec 2005 19:34:19 PST
I did not know the boy personally, but i knew of him... and i think it is just sad .. sick and wrong that his life was ended so early when he had so much coming for him in the future. yes i didnt know him , but i heard he was a GREAT guy.. i know he will be missed.
At school today..it was just unbearable...everyone was crying and the atmosphere was depressing...me and some friends left after second hour because we couldnt take it anymore..

It aint fair you died to young
Like a story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away

Brandon Kenneth Cole
12-18-87 -- 12-06-05 ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6994189/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6994189/ Tue, 08 Nov 2005 19:31:16 PST chew with your mouth open, sing off key,cry
at the movies, or act like an insane person...
&& all it does is make him love you even more

i want a boy who will give me his favorite sweatshirt
& he will always whisper something sweet in my ear.
even if we are a million years old,
butterflies will still go crazy inside me

you know that moment when you kiss someone
&& everything around you becomes hazy &&
the only thing in focus is you and that person
&& you realize that that person is the only
person that you`re suppose to kiss for the rest of
your life && for one moment you get this gift &&
you want to laugh && you want to cry because you
feel so lucky that you found it && so scared that it
will go away

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed
to ever let you down, probably will. You will have your heart broken
probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts
too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with
your best friend . You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll
cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone
you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've
never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of
happiness you'll never get back.



i want to be
everything you need;
every sight you see.
making you go c r a z y;
slightly your disease.
a love without a cure;
no uncertanties for sure.
the closest thing to alcohol;
that calls you back for more.



when he’s not around
there is always something missing in my smile ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6822907/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6822907/ Thu, 20 Oct 2005 20:46:28 PDT ~+I am currently...+~
Feels- sick
Thinking- mercury posoining :-p
Hating this empty feeling Watching- tv
Listening to- tv
Talking to- noone
~+ The Good Stuff +~

i got tagged so i have to now type 20 things about why i rock!


1. i have bright orange converse
2. i have the ability to stay somewhat skinny no matter what i eat
3. i have such dark eyes, they look black
4. i dye my hair more than you do
5. i am obsessed with taking pictures
6. i dwell on the past
7. i can sleep long than you, and then continue sleeping!
8. i like music , except country
9. my current favorite movie is lords of dogtown
10. i love johnny depp
11. i love star wars..(expecially hayden christianson! grroowwl.)
12. i like anime!
13. i like to read, my fave author is amelia atwater - rhodes! and than of course manga!
14. i have an older brother
15. i cant play any musical instrument
16. i wish my hair didn't hate me
17. if i wasnt so ugly, and uber shy that would make my day
18. i would be happy if i had my drivers liscence
19. birch run sucks my nuts
20. i have more totally rad socks than anyone i know.

im tagging
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Clubs!!
,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6769718/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6769718/ Fri, 14 Oct 2005 20:14:39 PDT ~+I am currently...+~
Feels- Tired
Thinking- only 2 more months
Hating sore throat.... Watching- the news
Listening to- the news
Talking to- Cassi and Jimmy
~+ The Good Stuff +~

Happy birthdaaaay ...... my sexy katy! happppy birthday to yoooooou!. ~hope you had a great one


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Clubs!!
,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6444719/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6444719/ Wed, 07 Sep 2005 19:16:29 PDT ~+I am currently...+~
Feels- Sick
Thinking- i wish blake was online..
Hating School.. Watching- CSI
Listening to- Tv
Talking to- Jake and Kayla
~+ The Good Stuff +~

Im going to post livejournal posts from the last few days all in one..cause im bored and i havent updated this in awhile.

Whys It Okay For Girls To Grab Each other And Kiss
But When Guys See Other Boys Do It They Think Its Breath Takingly Repulsive?, Stop Being Such A Fucking Hypocrite.
Loves Love. I Dont Give A Shit What Your Sex May Be...

I don’t feel like .. happiness is possible for me right now .. or ever .. I am so exhausted .. I am physically exhausted .. but more .. mentally than anything .. I guess...im sleepy...

hey everyone i dont feel like updating..i had the urge..but then...wait..nope. sorry maybe another day

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Clubs!!
,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6237409/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6237409/ Mon, 15 Aug 2005 19:22:42 PDT Good night my love.

Have you ever just woke up one day .. and realized that something was just .. missing .. that you didn’t feel complete .. not really feeling like you really fit anywhere .. not feeling like you have a purpose or a place here .. I’m not really sure how to explain it .. but .. feeling like you could just disappear .. you could run away .. and no ones life would change .. it’s odd .. that feeling .. especially when you know you have friends who care .. I’m not sure what’s really going on with me anymore .. I have these little spells .. where I just drift away .. and think about all of these things .. I think about things that have happened .. or .. how I wish things were .. just .. everything .. I hate it .. whatever tho .. I’ll get over it ..

It’s funny sometimes how much I just .. don’t trust people .. like they tell me one thing .. and .. in the back of my head I’m just like .. “yeah right” .. ::sigh:: .. I guess it’s just like self defense tho .. right? .. never trust anyone and you’ll never get hurt .. and yet .. I still let myself get into these situations where, whether I trust them or not, I’ll eventually get hurt .. hah .. guess it’s just my self-destructive side coming out .. whatever tho .. life is pain .. right? .. it’s weird tho .. how I can fear talking to someone about something because I am so afraid that it will change things .. and how .. no matter if things are going good or not .. I still wont talk to this person .. because .. I’m afraid to make things worse .. because .. things can always get worse .. lol .. I’m such a chicken, aren’t I? .. ah .. I don’t even know what the hell I’m talking about anymore .. just .. thinking .. I tend to do that a lot when I get no sleep ..

Fuck I’m tired .. well ... fun fun ..

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Clubs!!
,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6203419/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6203419/ Fri, 12 Aug 2005 00:30:58 PDT
Everything is so infinite. Life. Love. Pain..
What does a single drop of water matter to the ocean? What does a lonely blade of grass matter to an entire meadow? What difference do I make in this world? Why do I really matter?

If I had known how my life would turn out, would I have changed anything about my past? Would I have made the same decisions? Would I have chosen the same friends? Knowing it would always end in heartbreak, would I have ever fallen in love?

..Yes. I probably would. Because what is the point of life if you never really live?

Life is full of pain, love, and emotion. That is what drives us all. Where you end up just depends on how you deal with the pain, embrace the love, and whether or not you listen to your emotions.

(sorry for the ramblings .. I’m quite tired)

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Clubs!!
,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6132025/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6132025/ Thu, 04 Aug 2005 12:02:47 PDT Darlin' you give love a bad name

I have so many emotions all bottled up within me right now. So many things I want to say to so many people. But instead of voicing my pains and problems. I shall simply stay silent. And let this torment grow inside of me. Allowing it to eat at my soul. Like a slowly spreading cancer. A painful new disease.


I wish the feelings that I have for some of my friends were not so unrequited all the time.


It’s been so long since I’ve cut. And it’s getting so much more difficult to restrain myself.

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Clubs!!
,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6122412/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6122412/ Wed, 03 Aug 2005 12:16:53 PDT
Love is like a loaded gun pointing straight at your heart. Your survival depends merely upon the one whose finger is on the trigger.

The more you care for a person, the more power you are giving them to destroy you. With every ounce of trust instilled within a person comes a gallon of pain in return.

And yet, we are all searching for love. This weapon of mass destruction. When, placed in the hands of a human, can become the most dangerous and painful thing in our world. While, at the same time, being the only thing that truly makes life worth living.

So, the question is, to love or not to love?
To live or die alone?

To hold a rose with deadly thorns..
..Or to never truly feel?

i just feel so numb inside. i wish i could fade away....i've gotten to the point where losing touch with reality seems better than going through another day..what the fuck do people see in me? im a horrible fucking person. why would someone waste precious time on me? why would they even care about the nothing that is me? i dont deserve it. i dont deserve my friends..i wish so bad every fucking night that i could get as far away from here as possible..as far away from this place as i can...simply because i am not worthy..

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Clubs!!
,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6106596/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6106596/ Mon, 01 Aug 2005 21:59:56 PDT
the last few days have been extremely awesome and fun . i am friends with cassi again, and i am very happy that we are friends again. i went over to her house on thursday or friday. we stayed there with her cousin beth . beth is awesome and alot like me, i had fun sleeping on the top bunk and scaring her. we went to my house and broke in, cause i dont have keys..i crawled on the roof and went through the window. lmao. it was freakin great. then we went to freeland to cassi's cousins house. met some new peoples. kyle, kyle, luke, matt and ian. they are interesting, they are like 12-14 but they act alot older. we played spin the bottle with me , beth cassi kyle and kyle. it was hilarious. we watched scary movies with luke, who is hilarious! he was so scared it was great, kyle and kyle called and we told them as a joke that me and luke made out! kyle m, got really mad and it was pretty funny! it made me laugh alot because i think luke it gay! the next day was fun too...we hung out with bre, cassis other cousin. we went around the neighborhood lookin for everyone, who we couldnt find. then finally we found kyle and kyle who had been looking for us. we went to ians house..noone was there, so we just hung out in his house. . its not like anyone would notice if we messed it up or not. we took his matress and were riding it down the stairs. it was fricken fun as can be. then we played truth or dare! i had to make out with kyle who is 13!!! it was so fricken weird...i felt like a child molester. ;_;..he was hot and all but 13!! and not to mention cassi likes him, and i like kirk. i mean i like kirk alot, and according to the ouija board im going to marry him and cassi is going to go out with kyle tomorow. yaaay! we attempted to do a seance , and i got cassi bre and beth into the pagan thing. the seance didnt work thouhg. *tear* im such a retart "i just ate the tip of my stick." i dont really feel like updating anymore at the moment, im making cassi a livejournal . cause shes sexy. im still at her house, but i will prolly be leaving tonight or tomorow.

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Clubs!!
,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6019716/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6019716/ Sun, 24 Jul 2005 09:45:17 PDT
Yea i havent really updated about how thursday we went up to melissa's (shes awesome and im so stealing her dog.) and hung out with her and travis. travis is 12..but whoah hes gonna be hot when hes older. well we also hung out with kirk (he is cute :3) and his friend Blake. (whom is also cute, and kinda looks like kipp who is hot) they came home with us on thursday and stayed the night at my house until about 4 something friday. they are awesome! i wish they lived closer..i wanna see them more, and become better friends. cause they are awesome hehe

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Clubs!!
,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6006805/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6006805/ Fri, 22 Jul 2005 17:47:19 PDT
So, if you can read people like books...i wish i could read you..

..and i wish you could read me...
you know.. sometimes I just wish that more people could read between the lines.



"I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
Where I would impress you with every single word I said
It would come out INSIGHTFUL,
or brave,
or smooth,
or charming
And you'd want to call me

And I would be there EVERY TIME you need me
I'd be there every time

But for now I'll look so longingly waiting
for you to want me,
for you to NEED ME,
for you to NOTICE ME."

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6006798/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/6006798/ Fri, 22 Jul 2005 17:46:04 PDT
Jul. 17th, 2005|10:34 pm

Today was the family reunion..i had to wake up at the crack ass of dawn, so im really tired right now. the ride there was long and boring of course (so was the ride back) I love this park where the reunion is held, it's a nice place on a lake and it has a waterslide. last year i went on the waterslide and rode the little bike things but this year i felt to old.. They added a skate park and a mini golf course since last year. Of course me and kristi hung out at the skate park, searching for CUTE guys our age...of course we didnt find any. Some guy was hitting on us, he was kinda cute. "Hello Ladies. Hello. What are you up to? Nothing..." lol im not to much into chatting with people, im not a people person. i enjoy keeping to myself. we watched him and a few other people skateboard for alot of the time. he ended up asking us if we wanted to play dodgeball later..O.o..hahah yeah..right. Okay so there was this guy at my reunion, he looked really bored so to be nice we asked him to come swimming. he looked about 16..so he says he'll meet us after he finishes his cigarette...wtf? lmao he turned out being 18. it was nuts. the whole thing itself was rather fun, i hope its there next year to. When we got home i got into it with my mom..of course. when doesnt that happen? she's so stupid sometimes, and she doesnt listen to anything i have to say. im going to be fucking 16, and she wont let me ride my bike past certain spots, but i've done it many times without her knowledge, but a few days ago me kristi and lindsay rode up to mcdonalds and clumsy me hit a curb and wiped out, i had my dads radio taped to the front of my bike...it broke the antenna and scraped it up. she found out i rode my bike past my "boundaries" and she freaked out on me. i think its really stupid, shes was like you lied to me, blah blah blah. i AM supposed to go uo north to wixom lake with kristi on thursday so we can hang out with melissa and kirk(<3) and now she might not let me, i will be so pissed off if she doesnt. so what if i am boy crazy, most girls my age are. blame the hormones lol. tomorow im going over kristi's early in the morning and we are going to hang out with chris. Then on Friday, we are going to ann arbor again..YAY! i dont feel so hot right now, so i think im going to eat something then go to sleep...

yeah this is a old entry, the date is in the beginning, i felt like updating. sorrry but i like livejournal better

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5945394/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5945394/ Fri, 15 Jul 2005 19:44:31 PDT
yah i know i havent really updated in awhile. i have basically been with kristi for a long long time. lol. im not as depressed as i was in my past couple entries. im not friends with cassi anymore. shes stupid, and you know what i dont care that we are fighting. if she decides to apologize to me, she can shove it down her throat and choke. Kristi taught me how to drive the four-wheeler...suicide? i suck at shifting lol. right now me and her are babysitting a 3 year old named andrew. he's a cutie. lol. tonight and tomorow we might hang out with lindsay and some guys. maybe. Sunday is my family reuinion. NO JOE AND JOSH WAHOO! hopefully that wont make it boring and hopefully there will be lots of hotties so we can go babe shoppin.

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Clubs!!
,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5859933/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5859933/ Wed, 06 Jul 2005 18:53:28 PDT
Would you buy something, like a picture frame or whatever, if it was broken?

That's the way I see myself.

Who would ever really want a spirit, a heart, a soul as broken as mine?

Why take something damaged when there are so many more perfect items out there?

Who would ever really look at a shattered piece of glass and think Wow, that's beautiful. It's exactly what I've always wanted.

It'll just never happen

i cant believe my "close" friends would be so heartless, yes i led her to believe i was completely fine..but am i ever? it hurts..i only met him once but still..how could you.

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5823595/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5823595/ Sat, 02 Jul 2005 19:23:19 PDT what hurts more is
I would still die for you.

“Sometimes I just want to know what it's like to be you
We're making out inside crashed cars
We're sleeping through all our memories
I used to waste my time dreaming of being alive
(now I only waste my time dreaming of you)

Turn off the lights and turn off the shyness
All of our moves make up for the silence”

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5805095/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5805095/ Thu, 30 Jun 2005 19:17:19 PDT
this summer has been crazy fun! i totally love it. hehe. i have barely been home at all and i enjoy that more than anything. i dont really feel like updating this dumb thing, nothing that important that i feel like telling you has happened so meh! . lol

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5677566/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5677566/ Fri, 17 Jun 2005 14:29:55 PDT
lets destroy each other cause we're too cool
for love lines & soft kisses over cheap wine
smoke me baby like your last cigarette and
whisper to me say you`ll never forget could
break my heart a little more? shove my body
up against yours and kiss me like you mean it

friends..friends is good. just friends. for awhile. until school. nick im sorry buddy. but it really didnt feel any different to me, cause i NEVER get to see you

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5651064/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5651064/ Tue, 14 Jun 2005 22:09:48 PDT
Today - Great day. went to ann arbor. lots of fun. went shopping with mom and michelle. Bought some Japanese Candy..went into tons of stores. i saw a pair of jeans for $202...o__o..oh my gawd. lol. well it was great fun. star bucks and mongolian bbq..too bad i suck with chopsticks and i dropped a squid on my pants.. lol. i wish i had alot of money, they had some super freakin awesome jewelery there. *hates having no money* mom said i should save up and go later in the summer, but i think i'd rather save up for the ren fest.

Nick - i love you, i hope everything works out between us. im glad we decided to give it a try. even if it doesnt work, friends forever.

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5608453/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5608453/ Fri, 10 Jun 2005 10:39:29 PDT
The nights are getting colder.
The red light's on, it's over.
To give up now doesn't make much sense.
So this is my goodbye.
Surprised, because I thought I could walk you home tonight,
but you're leaving me here on the defense.

Goodbye, I'm not going to waste this time,
this light that burns will keep on fading.
Goodnight, I'm not getting up off of this ride,
I'm holding tight until I can feel alive.

I've written you this letter,
got it back return to sender.
But I just can't remember you being quite like that.
Misunderstand, we're holding hands,
we're at the beach, we're throwing sand.
As the lights just go up all around us,
I can't believe it's over.

I'm sitting under falling stars.
Do you miss me where you are?
I'm making plans to be with you.
But have they come unglued?
What am I do to without you?

The nights are getting warm again.
They've let you go, I let you in.
Everything you're saying sounds right tonight.
The waves are crashing on and on.
We're running even if we're wrong.
This force is driving me to test the speed of light.

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5593623/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5593623/ Wed, 08 Jun 2005 21:53:16 PDT
Have you ever had one of those days where you’re just very.. blah about yourself?

Yeah.. this was one of those days.

I just hate so much about myself. Just, everything. I see these cute girls walking around, or i see my friends who are all so much prettier than me and I guess I get jealous. I think I probably get more sad than jealous though. I guess in my head they’re just.. better than me *shrug*. Whatever though. I guess I’m used to it.

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5563315/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5563315/ Sun, 05 Jun 2005 18:33:56 PDT
well this has been a great begining vacation. i have been with kristi, lindsay and cassi the whole time. its fun fun fun. i dont really feel like updating though. i saw nick...*sigh*...i miss him to death. everytime i see him its only breifly. we definetly need to hang out sometime soon..

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5535493/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5535493/ Thu, 02 Jun 2005 18:40:10 PDT
well, tomorows a half day and the last day of school. im sad yet im really excited. SUMMER WAHOO!

Today - Hung out with Kristi and Olivia. studied for exams while they got their hair did for 8th grade graduation. of course i went with them. kristi looked adorable and olivia looked cute too i wore my black dress with the pink slits on the sides. (anybody say hooker?) well yea..i had to sit in the bleaches during the ceremony for over an hour..crowded by people and dying of heat stroke. oh my gawd it was aweful. then while me and my girlies were bustin the moves on the dancefloor it was pretty fun. well i pretty much just stood there and watched them bust them moves, it was still amusing. BUT of course my fun times are always always ruined, because dumbass mr. preston kicked me out!! so? im not an 8th grader..i was last year. maybe im just reliving my experience. its not like i was bothering anybody. dumb jerk needs to get the corn cob outa his behind so he doesnt walk like a penguin anymore! ! yea so i had to leave everybody..tear tear and ruth had to go out of her way to take me home. well at least my friends will be in the high school next year. yaya

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5500807/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5500807/ Mon, 30 May 2005 09:39:38 PDT ~+I am currently...+~
Feels- Awake.
Thinking- i should but i dont wanna
Hating nothing at the moment
Watching- not a thing
Listening to- none
Talking to- tyler, matt
~+ The Good Stuff +~

schools out for the summer on friday, im so excited. it doesnt seem like summer yet, or the end of my freshman year for that manner. yesterday i stayed the night at ricci's it was awesome, although i was starved before the sweat lodge. it was worth it. then we pigged out and i passed out on the floor. good times.

Oh, and i wont be updating my stock account for awhile. perhaps later today, but i am sick of it as of now. no good ideas for pictures and i have too many of me.

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5457643/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5457643/ Wed, 25 May 2005 13:20:04 PDT
Star Wars was Fucking awesome.

Today was a bad day, i dont wanna go into it too much..the words of a friend broke my heart and made me cry alot..

i need to Just stop thinking about it.

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5446865/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5446865/ Tue, 24 May 2005 10:03:32 PDT

im so excited! in a few hours i will be in the theater watching the new star wars movie. i am so freakin excited. i havent been able to concentrate on anything all day. right now i am in english class, but i already finished doing my romeo and juliet report, and book talk. so i have nothing better to do other than update. the movie is at 4, and its the digitally remastered version, which has an extra 10 minutes. i am such a dork, but i cant wait. Katy's riding the bus home with me, and my mom and cousins are going. i wanted my older brother to go, but he has already seen it twice. what a loser, lol. i never see my brother anymore. but..er..yeah. i am very very excited. i cant wait, im hyper and excited..and yah. i have been dying to see this, and i finally get to and my best friend is going along so yay! well..im going to find some other way to amuse myself. i will type a long entry on if i liked it or not tomorow.

~byes

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5375392/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5375392/ Mon, 16 May 2005 16:26:51 PDT im so excited that school is almost over, this year has gone by amazingly fast. it rocks hardcore. i need to raise my grades in the 14 days we have left, or im going to have a miserable summer. yupp..plus my computer is being a bitch. its all spyware infected. well...my sleep deprived ramblings are finished..i think i might go take a nap for a hour or two.

]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5225563/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5225563/ Sat, 14 May 2005 21:23:00 PDT ~+I am currently...+~
Feels- Lonely
Thinking- Pain
Hating Pain
Watching- nttin
Listening to- oh hell yes michelle branch XD
Talking to- Scott..<3
~+ The Good Stuff +~

Stolen from torahizeme who stole it from Yusei.

Step 1: Pick out 15 movies you love.
Step 2: Pick your favorite quotation from said movies.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what movies the lines came from.

1. “You are not special. You are not a beautiful or unique snowflake. You're the same decaying organic matter as everything else.” ~ Solved by (FIGHT CLUB)

2. “You fuckers think just because a guy reads comics he can't start some shit!?” ~ solved by (MALLRATS)

3. “You know there's one major hole in your story, there is no fucking way on this planet, nor any other I would ever be in some fucking sorority.” ~ solved by (THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT)

4. “Real love is forever.” ~ solved by (THE CROW)

5. “When you grow up, your heart dies.” ~ solved by (BREAKFAST CLUB)

6. “I'm gonna hit you so hard that when you wake up your clothes will be out of style!”

7. - “So, what's your story? I mean, you got a guy, or...?”
- “Yes, three big ones, and they lust wimp blood so quit bugging me or I'll sic them all over your weenie ass!”

8. “Are you gonna bark all day, little doggy, or are you gonna bite?” ~ Solved by (RESOVOIR DOGS)

9. “Watch your heads!”

10. - “Where are we?”
- “Corner of Bumfuck and You Got a Pretty Mouth.”

11. "Listen to yourself, all right? You met a 'cool guy on the internet.' This is how these sexual predators work. Next thing you know, he'll want to 'arrange a meeting', uh, where he will gas you, stuff you in the back of his van, and make a wing chime out of your genitals." ~ solved by (EUROTRIP)

12. “The official toxicity limit for humans is between one and one and half grams of cocaine depending on body weight. I was averaging five grams a day, maybe more. I snorted ten grams in ten minutes once. I guess I had a high tolerance.”

13. - “You are without a doubt the worst pirate I've ever heard of.”
- “But you have heard of me.” ~ Solved by (POTC)

14. - “Why didn't you write me? Why? It wasn't over for me, I waited for you for seven years. But now it’s too late.”
- “I wrote you 365 letters. I wrote you everyday for a year.”
- “You wrote me?”
- “Yes... it wasn't over, it still isn't over” ~ solved by (THE NOTEBOOK)

15. “what if you could go back in time, and take all those hours of pain and darkness and replace them with something better?” ~ solved by (DONNIE DARKO)




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~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5212951/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5212951/ Thu, 28 Apr 2005 13:12:48 PDT ~+I am currently...+~
Feels- Crappy, but better.
Thinking- i wanna download this song
Hating a certain person
Watching- notta
Listening to- i think its called blue jeans..i dont know who sings it but i like it.
Talking to- Katy, and Christian
~+ The Good Stuff +~

I guess sometimes I do just give up. I just stop seeing any reason for trying so hard to be happy. Should a person even have to try to hard just to keep a smile on their face? I dunno.

I can only imagine how annoying it must be to my friends when I let myself get so depressed like that. I remember when I used to be sad all the time.



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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5169479/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5169479/ Sat, 23 Apr 2005 17:14:24 PDT ~+I am currently...+~
Feels- Fucking Freezing
Thinking- need..heat..
Hating being without jimmy
Watching- absolutely nothing
Listening to- Manson - Redeemer
Talking to- nobody
~+ The Good Stuff +~

yea so today is april 23..and guess what..its fucking SNOWING outside..hm on tuesday wasnt it 80 degrees? welcome to michigan!! LMAO i hate it here, so bad. the cold is making me all depressed..cause today is a bad day. meh. its a aweful day and im super lonely. *tear* but i guess i cant do anything to change that. yea i know im EXTREMELY conceited so i guess me and my hot chocolate will cry like fat bitches and cuddle in a blankie. ;_;



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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5114982/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5114982/ Sun, 17 Apr 2005 19:17:56 PDT ~+I am currently...+~
Feels- Gloomy
Thinking- CAFFEINE
Hating lots of things
Watching- tv
Listening to- the gorillaz - feel good inc
Talking to- nick, and brandon
~+ The Good Stuff +~

today i am sleepy. i went over katys friday night, shes a cracker but i love her. they have baby chicks..cuteness..after that mommy picked me up, and we picked up kristi..then..STARBUCKS. im a fucking caffiene addict. ;D kristi and me fight constantly blah i dont even know why she asked to come over. but im gonna deck her one if she doesnt keep her mouth shut. she left already today..we fought yesterday a bit, today wasnt too bad. she needs to realize shes not the queen of the universe. *_*. so meh..today is my lazy day.. being i cant do anything. and im sleepy. damn why does everyone like want me to go outside? i dont wanna go outside okay! god..just because when i was little i was a major tomboy doesnt mean i am anymore..i like being pale, even though i look kinda dead because im normally tan. i cant stand people trying to run my life..ugh...IM SUCH A BITCH. i should just go away, things would be better if i did..haha...this is me when im half asleep and not in a wonderful mood.



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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5014713/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/5014713/ Wed, 06 Apr 2005 09:05:22 PDT ~+I am currently...+~
Feels- Hyper
Thinking- School sucks
Hating School
Watching-
Listening to-
Talking to- Ricci, sarah, and josh
~+ The Good Stuff +~

im at school right now biatches. we are supposed to be in health but naaah. we got our work done . hehe i love subs. we stopped at the lunch room and talked to katy and jimmy. haha. i printed out a picture of bam for sarah. lol. SHE LOVES ME.


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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4961586/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4961586/ Thu, 31 Mar 2005 14:13:04 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- in need of sleep
Thinking- about him. <3
Hating america
Watching- nothing.
Listening to- lautsprecher - omnibus
Talking to- Nick
~+ The Good Stuff +~

sorry i havent really updated. nothing to update really. this break has been so fucking boring. so um yea. the last two nights i have been at ms ricci's home. i love her house. her moms a pagan, and her house is full of pretty things and its peaceful. she has alot of interesting books and furniture. they all have gotten a lady to paint a picture of one of there spirit guides. that would be hella awesome. so yea. im looking into being a pagan somewhat. im pretty much happy without a religion though. im very sleepy. limited sleep is never good. at 3 in the am or later, and waking up 7-8. gah. i wanna go to sleep, but im depreiving myself. being katy was there, i got my very LATE birthday present from her. yippee. the used poster. and its dead hot. i cant wait to put it on my wall. i made ricci watch the grudge it was great. shes a pansy. hehe...but um. the nights before i went to her house. i got into a horrible fight with my mom, she is thinking about kicking me out. i will live with katy..or someone else... she choked me and i have a good sized scratch on my neck. damn. im such a bitch. lol. i want to get out of this town. i hate birch run. its a fucking farming VILLAGE. i want to leave..i wanna see the world. i cant wait. i have big plans, and big dreams. they will all probally burn down miserably like everything does..for me at least. well..anyways. yeah.. i dont really know what to right about. i am a very boring person. hm. katy might come over on saturday. she hasnt come over since we moved here..thats been like a year. she went over to my dads on my birthday..i am happy. then hopefully we can hang out with nick and jimmy. i look forward to it. but um yes..i think i am finally out of useful information and if you bothered to read all this im sorry for wasting your time.

You find a Glimmer of happiness in this world
Theres always someone who wants to destroy it.

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4846396/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4846396/ Fri, 18 Mar 2005 13:57:18 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- Numb.
Thinking- nothing
Hating my heart
Watching- blinking IM
Listening to- shine down - simple man
Talking to- Tyler, Jimmy
~+ The Good Stuff +~

I don’t think these experiences are making me any smarter. But perhaps they are making me stronger. Who knows, maybe someday soon I'll just go completely numb. Wouldn't that be nice.


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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4804063/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4804063/ Sun, 13 Mar 2005 16:57:37 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- Drained.
Thinking- cds...
Hating heat
Watching- flashy blinky thingy
Listening to- senses fail - handguns and second chances
Talking to- matt,katy, casey.
~+ The Good Stuff +~

im so flippin tired out. *dies* dance dance revolution is addicting as hell. i was gonna make my journal friends only. but maybe not, im lazy. certain entries definetly. but this one doesnt need it. well anyways. yeah im super tired.

Stainless heart that never speaks,
Reads like a story never sold.

What if you just forgot,
what you were told?

You can't replace,
You can't retract,
You can't forget
To get whats back.

And the rain keeps falling down.
And the rain keeps falling upon my face.

I look in my shattered mirror.
Pieces of me is all I see.
Shattered, broken and misplaced.
What do I have to say?

I'm just another sububarn heartache,
Blending to waste away.



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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4753138/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4753138/ Mon, 07 Mar 2005 16:12:03 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- Sick
Thinking- blank.
Hating myself
Watching- jepardy
Listening to- sense feild - save yourself
Talking to- Tyler, shae
~+ The Good Stuff +~

I don't want to be me anymore. I want to be someone else.

Someone prettier. Someone skinnier. Someone smarter. Someone with more drive and determination. Someone who treats others they way that they deserve to be treated. Someone who doesn't let others walk all over her. Someone who shows her appreciation for the people that care about her. Someone who doesn't get emotionally involved and hurt so easily. Someone who actually deserves something better. Someone who's a better friend. A better daughter. A better person. Just, someone better than me.

I am not good enough.


This is something I must work on.


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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4736245/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4736245/ Sat, 05 Mar 2005 16:31:42 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- Suicidal
Thinking- i hate everything..
Hating everything
Watching- my self fall apart
Listening to- shinedown - burning bright
Talking to- matt and jake..
~+ The Good Stuff +~

i just fucking hate everything. i cant stand to breathe anymore..everything i do is fucking wrong..i cant take it..i dont wanna be me anymore. i dont wanna be here anymore..im so fucking upset and its so stupid..the worst part is i dont have anybody..nobody to talk with, nobody to cry or smile with..i feel all alone...alone..i just wanna cut..and damnit i havent in awhile..but i just did. you wont be hearing from me for a long time. im going to be stuck into my room and given nothing but bread and water..this fucking is so ignorant..i hate school..i hate people..i hate my parents..i hate everything..i just wanna die..im shaking so bad..i cant take it..these scissors are dull..damn...i wanna be alone..but i wanna be comforted..i hate this.. i found this poem..i think its one of my older ones..my head hurts to bad to think..i just wanna..explode..im so sorry..

Shunned by my own
They took away my few shining stars
All that's left are tears
And my heart's left with tears
I guess I'm not a part of what they call family

You tell me off, without remorse
Tell me to go to hell
And of coarse
No apologies as always

Might as well kill me
I'm useless to you
Not much left as you can see
You've taken it all
I've taken the fall
Now I crawl to my grave
To late to save

Paralyzed by the thought of tomorrow
Just please release my sorrow
It's too much to swallow
My soul is now hollow.

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4709739/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4709739/ Wed, 02 Mar 2005 09:34:29 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- bored
Thinking- ..meep.
Hating my headache
Watching- kristi and mom sing karaoke
Listening to- RA - please call my name.
Talking to- Tyler
~+ The Good Stuff +~

heeelllo i havent updated in a little bit. las vegas was great. didnt see any hookers though. rats! i got Katy, and ricci some rocks. my grandma and brother a keychain..and my dad and grandpa a shot glass. i bought myself this nifty shiny rock. i forgot what kind it was .. x__x..

im *SiNgLe* again. lol. i dont care, im happy. "im not with stupid anymore." lol

two snow days in a row! holy craaap. i love it. kinda borin though, and i miss my friends.

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4633400/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4633400/ Sun, 20 Feb 2005 22:12:08 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- exhausted
Thinking- wow im excited
Hating my headache
Watching- the twilight zone
Listening to- Screeching Weasel - i wanna be a homosexual
Talking to- Noone.
~+ The Good Stuff +~

Well, today was interesting. i don't even wanna talk about. cleaned, packed, locked us out of the house. yeah coldest day, no keys. sitting by the doors at rite aid. haha nice. it snowed alot. im really tired. my brain hurts. i talked to jordan today, i miss him.
Im leaving for my trip tomorow, well actually today in a few hours. im really excited. prolly by the second day i'll wanna kill kristi, thats how it was in florida. im going to miss school, holy crap, am i going to miss everyone, mason the most. . hopefully i will have some pictures, and a nice long entry for you when i return on saturday. in case i die. , i love you all very much. lol expecially satan's butt floss. hehe.

-toodles with love.


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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4579659/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4579659/ Mon, 14 Feb 2005 12:46:08 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- Cranky
Thinking- food...
Hating valentines day
Watching- Ambush Makeover
Listening to- Senses Fail - bite to break skin
Talking to- Noone.
~+ The Good Stuff +~

Roses are red
Violets are blue
I'll rip out your heart
and feed it to you....

yay today was a snowday.

Happy Fucking Valentines.

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4514166/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4514166/ Sun, 06 Feb 2005 17:31:51 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- Sore
Thinking- ouch..
Hating everything.
Watching- Television
Listening to- Nothing
Talking to- Noone.
~+ The Good Stuff +~

WOW! weird ass weekend.

Saturday - Went to ricci's. 8 of us there. Me, Katy, Ricci, Kimber, Josh, Jeremy , Scott and trevor. it was so fun. we stayed up until 5. we played karaoke revolution ALOT! so much i now have a extremey sore throat and am losing my voice. we also played ddr max 2..ALOT! im getting better at it! i can actually get B's on songs now. woot. i wanna buy it, cause that games just kick ass. we watched the new Resident Evil. i think the first one was alot better. we told ghost stories..Ricci scared the crap out of me and kimber. ;-;...the weekend was alot of molesting. haha. truth or dare! not as bad as it normally is..T.T..it was really awesome though.

Today - left ricci's around 3ish. went out to eat my my mom, uncle, aunt and cousins. went to arbys biznatch. CHEESE STICKS! *drool* had those and some curly fries and a icey. icey was nice on my swollen throat. Came home..wanted to go to sleep..Tried to go to sleep...was awoken by some people screaming..mom yelled at my to come downstairs..there was a raccoon in my yard and some kids on there bikes leaving..the stupid animal kept wandering between our yard and the people yard across the street..it was all wobbly. looked like it had rabies or something..mom called the cops..the dude came..the raccoon let the guy walk up to him..you could tell it was sick than..i am scarred..i witnessed the dude beat the thing to death with a stick..i felt so bad..but the guy said it was sick and there was something wrong with it..after that i took a nap. it turned out the three kids screaming were my friends friends from birdgeport that i never met..kinda odd.

but yeah..Sooo goddam tired today. Not even cool!

Quote:

Wickedpyro651: do you have a pet raccoon

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4496430/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4496430/ Fri, 04 Feb 2005 13:20:40 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- Cheeky
Thinking- ahh stomach..><
Hating food
Watching- Flashy thingy
Listening to- Radio
Talking to- Noone.
~+ The Good Stuff +~

Ah. today was MUCH better. im so glad its friday. sunday is ricci's birthday...im going over there saturday i also joined a new club, check it out.

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,,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4489514/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4489514/ Thu, 03 Feb 2005 15:21:23 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- Moody
Thinking- Food..
Hating Cold..
Watching- commercials.
Listening to- Radio
Talking to- Noone.
~+ The Good Stuff +~

Im trying my hardest not to let anything bother me, its just not working. Im sitting here crying. This past week has literally been shit! I hate this, damn, if one person's not mad at me then something else goes wrong. Cant anything just go right for once? Just one time! People are literally making me feel like shit. Im doing my best to not let it bug me, but its just not working...Right now i feel like i dont have any one to go to ..
i love my friends..i honeslty do..i know i am just a burden..but i feel so alone.. i just wish i didnt care anymore...rob me of my feelings..let them bleed out through my veins. i need to quite bitching. i need to get overmyself..im lucky to have a house, money, food..my life doesnt suck. i love my friends alot. if it wasnt for them..than damn. i dont know. maybe i'd run away? i wouldnt kill myself..thats just ignorant...i might be better off somewhere else though..hah i just like to bitch about everything. I've given up on everything.

i feel poetic but its not happening. havent wrote anything in a long time.

To everyone i care about, sorry for being a bitch lately.

i complain too fucking much.

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,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4454618/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4454618/ Sun, 30 Jan 2005 15:20:40 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- pessimistic
Thinking- Yey Movie..
Hating Commercials.
Watching- WITHOUT A PADDLE..again! x.x;
Listening to- Submersed - Hollow
Talking to- Chelsey, Kelsey, Jake
~+ The Good Stuff +~

So, i didnt have a very productive day..woke up with a phone call from kristi. -__-; she wanted to go sledding..im a lazy ass and didnt feel like doing anything today.
I actually Cleaned my room! it must be doomsday or something..i also cleaned the bathroom, and the kitchen. wow..amazing.

Watched Troy. Omfg Brad Pitt is Drop dead gorgeous..and orlando bloom..man if i ever saw them in person i'd just jump on them.

I hate feeling like a common teenager with common problems.
School, boy issues, problems with parents. Oh yeah - rotten teenage life.

I am a sad little person. i blame school!...o.O

*drops dead*
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,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4447262/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4447262/ Sat, 29 Jan 2005 17:32:41 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- Depressed
Thinking- meh..
Hating Bladder.
Watching- WITHOUT A PADDLE
Listening to-midis
Talking to- Derek, Katy, Cory, Chelsey
~+ The Good Stuff +~

Fill in about me? o.o

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
I committed suicide:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I lived next door to you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Mannerisms:

we. Randomness. for some reason i am very depressed right now. i was really happy earlier..stayed the night at katy's had alot of fun at her house. we played dance dance revolution trying to burn calories. i weigh 115. woot. i guess i have been listening to sad music. damn sad music..ah well. i will try to be happy..happy Kelsey..no need to be sad. should be happy. the reason im sad is so very stupid. im not even going to mention it.
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,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4429084/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4429084/ Thu, 27 Jan 2005 13:50:27 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- Okay
Thinking- eh..headache..
Hating my nose..o.o;
Reading- Tithe - Holly Black
Listening to-Midtown - give it up
Talking to- Nobody..*alone*
~+ The Good Stuff +~

so today was kinda boring. everyday is pretty boring lately. *sigh* ah well.

1 - watched this dr suess sing along thing..o__o holy shit..scariest thing ever. omg..nightmares. >.<

2 - worked on things with katy. talked to her for a bit. laughed at christie and amber e cause they have gym . haha! < 3

3 - i hate this class. mrs baker needs to die. honeslty. got some homework. -.-

4 - mr knoll was gone, mrs vitany (really old scary lady with a big nose.) for a sub. class was pretty quiet..didnt really do anything.

5 - english..eh..its okay. we got assigned seats. yay i sit by kc. someone to talk to. lol

6 - computer lab..working on funcky snowman project..o__o;..fun. haha. talked to random people. mainly emily. bugged nick.

i am happy cause i like someone..its never gonna happen..but i can dream. i always go for guys that are gonna break my heart..lol..this will be interesting..making a fool of myself infront of him...i dont want anyone to know who i like..so im keeping it a secret. hes a sweetie..really adorable. gotta get the guts to talk to him more.

I never know what to do, what to say to you
one look and you’ll knock me out
put me on the floor with a 10 count
I don’t wanna make a scene
I gotta make you see

that I’ve been waiting for a guy like you
and I know there’s nothing I can do
don’t it make you hurt
don’t it make you feel
like the world ain’t on your side
like you’re never gonna get it right
no I can’t fight
I can’t sleep at night
just thinking about you boy
I’m a fool
for you
yes I am

you been on my mind
since I saw you walking by
I knew I had to know you better
you were everything
but I didn’t know what to say
so you just walked away
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,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4411839/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4411839/ Tue, 25 Jan 2005 14:00:02 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- Indescribable
Thinking- ah! *hiccup* T.T
Hating hiccups
Watching- the dog being stupid.
Listening to-Future leaders of the world - let me out
Talking to- Kc
~+ The Good Stuff +~

Hey Biznatches. hows life? im doing exceptionally well. i did get my hair cut, and i dyed it red. i love it. i am very happy with how the lady did it. makes me happy in the pants.

i hate my new classes, and my new teachers. they can all suck mah balls. Mrs Snider...she seems okay. me and ricci sit next to each other so thats good. i love my global studies class..with Katy, Alina, Amber B, Amber E, and Christie. *LOVE* mrs Geister is gonna have such a headache. lol. than 3rd hour is math...flippin mrs baker smells like ass. i cant stand her. i wish i could bang my head against the desk and knock myself out..or wear earplugs and spray alot of perfume. mr knoll is amusing. kinda stupid humor. ANTS! lmao. ricci, carrie, emily and sarah are in that class. mrs Oeming makes me wanna jump off a building. shes blind in one eye and it always rolls in the back of her head..o__O;...its creepy. gotta love design 2. thats my fave class.

i am actually gonna try and do really good this time. cause i can get outa exams..and mom said if i do good i can get my belly button peirced! hot stuff.

*love*
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,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4352749/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4352749/ Tue, 18 Jan 2005 15:01:48 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- Pessimistic
Thinking- Gym Sucks.
Hating Winter
Watching- Malcolm in the Middle.
Listening to-Dont Die Cindy - unclothed and honest
Talking to- Nick, Derek.
~+ The Good Stuff +~

Yes, i am alive. but there isnt much to write about. my life is boring, and its all going to hell yet again. me and justin arent working out. going to break it off tomorow. poor kid. why do i have to hurt people so bad? i am a lazy fuck, so i will not write much. if i dont go to sleep soon i wont wake up, but i cant sleep when noones home..paranoia. o_o i have been rather busy lately. we have exams this week. study study study. i am hoping to get pink tips soon and i hair cut'; return true;" onmouseout="window.status=''; return true;">hair cut'; return true;" onmouseout="window.status=''; return true;">hair cut, its getting long..

i have a bruise on my ass from chapstick. i had it in my backpocket and i fell. it hurts like hell.

The upcoming few days are going to be a real bitch, rather busy.

Everyone's relationships are dying. X( its so depressing. everyones sad. i am going to go asexual i swear, guys just arent worth it damnit.

This is so stupid. meh.

i am not planning on getting a new boyfriend for awhile. not interested in anyone. i dont think anyone is interested in me..dunno. *sigh*..i will update when i can
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,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4272365/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4272365/ Sat, 08 Jan 2005 19:20:46 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- Mellow
Thinking- i wonder how the dance is going..
Hating Wedgie. x_x;
Drawing- Nothing.
Listening to- Senses Fail - Cute when you Scream
Talking to- Nobody.
~+ The Good Stuff +~

Was Supposed to get my Hair Cut today. but the stupid place was closed. i wanna get it shortened..maybe alot. layered a bit more. choppy. and pink tipped.

Tonight is The Dance. The one im NOT going to. Justin asked me..but i really just didnt wanna go. bleh. dances suck. i dont like them. ah well. i promised nick that if i wasnt grounded he was gonna drag me to the next one. which is in the spring i think. i dont like getting dressed up unless its warm so thats all good. haha

Sometimes i just feel so stupid. Im Such a Bad Girlfriend..and a bad friend. Sorry Everyone. Meh. i just dont know right now..i feel..like im changing alot. but i dont think i am at all. its weird. and confusing..

i ate alot of cereal and chex mix..i feel kinda ucky. :\

Me and Kristi Are Planning on Going to a hotel in Birch Run after school sometime..4 bucks a person with a pool and hottub..i need the exorsize. we will invite lots of people..it will be interesting. i need to buy a new bathing suit. eeeh..i dont like full body ones..so i gotta get a bikini but i dont wanna be seen in one. x__x;

I have homework in science..wont be on tomorow because of it. Mid Terms are coming up soon. i hope i do well and pass. im failing gym and algebra....im a failure..hah..

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,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4148642/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4148642/ Fri, 24 Dec 2004 19:16:34 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- Cheerful
Thinking- i want more wine
Hating Buttcrack revealing Pants..T_T
Drawing- Nothing.
Listening to- I saw Mommy Kissing Santa Clause
Talking to- Shae and Jake.
~+ The Good Stuff +~

today was awesome! hope everyone has a merry christmas eve. <33

i spent alot of time with my family. didnt feel good this morning

i got fight club from my brother! cant wait to watch that. <3 that movie

50 dollars from my grandma and grandpa.

OMG! i feel stinky.. i got soap and shampoo from my dad and grandma..maybe cause i complain about not having kinds i like alot. hehe

From Mommy i got : (mostly things From one of my fave movies, The Nightmare Before Christmas. )

a new Hoodie! YES! its dickies and comfy. hehe
a Sally Blankie
a jack shirt that says "what does it all mean?"
a Jack Night Light hah
the nightmare before christmas sally pajamas, that say "will we ever end up together?"
a jack pillowcase
12 kinda of cocoa, Marshmellows and Chocolate
a nightmare before christmas purse
tnbc patches lock, shock and barrel, 4 pins and a happy bunny bandana

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,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4120063/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4120063/ Thu, 23 Dec 2004 13:01:03 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- Flirty.
Thinking- i have to pee
Hating Vacuum
Drawing- Pictures of Boy Love in my head..XD
Listening to- taking back sunday - Just Like Heaven
Talking to- MY IMAGINARY FRIEND
~+ The Good Stuff +~

Why are you so far away? she said
Why won't you ever know that I'm in love with you?
That I'm in love with you.

You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You're just like a dream.


Today was average, no snow day its snowing outside right now..so hopefully i can pray for tomorow. Tomorow is the last day before christmas break. WOOT! we go back january 3rd. The Though of no school makes me tingly. hehe we have heat. the landlord fixed it and nothing was stolen. woohooo..

first hour - WEIGHT LIFTING! im going to be muscular..XD

Second hour - Sub. Did all my worksheets last night..-.-; so i just goofed off with Katy and Ricci.

third hour - we are watching Holes. Good Movie. i liked it and the book

Fourth hour - Sub again..XD did absolutely nothing but read through Katy and Ricci's Rp the whole hour..

Fifth hour - Computer lab. goofed off with liz and Katy. hehe

Sixth Hour - ART! drew this really creepy bunny thinger...i feel so hated. i should just stop talking to people..cause i just get annoying and on there nerves cause im so stupid..

at 6:30 i get to go to my Cousins Christmas Band Concert Thinger..weee...fun..i get to put up with joey..im shaking with excitement. -.-; maybe there will be some hott bridgeport dudes i can talk to , or i;ll see some of my buddies. that would make me Happy.

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,,, ]]> ~FallingInPlace http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4111621/ http://FallingInPlace.deviantart.com/journal/4111621/ Mon, 20 Dec 2004 14:04:06 PST ~+I am currently...+~

Feels- Numb.
Thinking- why me?
Hating Winter.
Drawing- Something on paper with a needle haha
Listening to- Arguing.
Talking to- Jimmy, Nick And Kristi on aim.
~+ The Good Stuff +~

why me? its really extremely cold. its prolly like
-99999 outside right now and our heater has to die! mom turned it on when we got home and it started on fire, smelled really gross. so now we have no heat, prolly for the night. my toes are numb..XD...its really snowing outside so, hopefully we wont have school tomorow.

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