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]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/28151658/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/28151658/ Wed, 04 Nov 2009 21:03:02 PST
I.am.hardcore.

Okay, so! Sunday after work I went to Montreal and ~sweetxfaith and I stayed at the Hilton Garden Inn! Man, that place it so ritzy o_____o; Anyways, back to the point! We travelled there to attend a concert. Opening for Hollywood Undead and Atreyu was The Sleeping and Escape the Fate!

When the show finally started, we were in the fourth row, give or take. Now, I knew this would not do. For our main bands I was determined to be up front and let the bands know I was there, and who I was. I figured "Hey, we've only got 3 rows to scootch through, this should be a cinch once everyone's moving!"
Under normal circumstances, this would be true However, when the opening band (The Sleeping) commands a wall of death as soon as they start, ideas like that have a tendency to get run through, and when a wall of death is involved, I mean that quite literally As soon as both sides of the wall collided, we were swept a few rows back in a torrent of concert-goers Dx As if that wasn't bad enough, we couldn't make our way up, so we decided to enjoy ourselves with The Sleeping's infectious energy =w=

By the time Escape the Fate came out, our beloved ~sweetxfaith found herself in a sort of concussion-like state, as a crowdsurfer curb-stomped her cranium, most likely unintentionally xP They opened with "Situations", a crowd favorite judging from their reactions xD Craig was insanely in-the-zone as he commanded our attention, and when my absolute favorite song, "This War Is Ours (The Guillotine Pt. II)" started, I was ecstatic Luckily my concert buddy ~sweetxfaith was back in the show, just in time for Craig to order a second wall of death! We were in front of our side, so I ran full throttle into my opposition, face first! I somehow managed to hold my own, and got in a few damn good shoves, and didn't fall once, despite weighing less than 130 lbs The solo was a thing of beauty, as our god stepped onto a platform for his sweeping storm of energy that circulated through the crowd and commanded attention! His fingers danced on the frets and we watched in awe, struck dumb like a bunch of fools <3

After Escape the Fate, honey and I headed for a drink at the bar, and we downed some Smirnoff Ice xD That shit's good! o_____o

We headed back after that and attempted to maneuver our way to the front from the side, which didn't work out so well Dx It seems people weren't stupid when it comes to the revered front row positions v___v But being the determined little fucker I was, I made my way to the front row for Atreyu They kicked so much ass it's unbelievable! Next time I have the chance to go see them again I'm doing it o____o The bassist had curled up his mustache and it was hilarious cos he played with it during the performances xD It didn't take long for the singer to relieve himself of his shirt, his tattoos for all to see. I could make out "passion" across the bottom of his stomach God, the insanity I screamed as hard as I could, suddenly not caring about pitch or tone and just ripping my throat! It was amazing!

When Hollywood Undead made it to the stage, they were welcomed with applause from every inch of the venue Their onstage antics were so fun and energetic! There was even some fanservice as two of them held hands for a brief portion xD but man, was it ever fun!

My favorite moment definitely had to be when the guitarist jumped down to give attention to the fans, after he managed to get his arms back from the swarm of fans, he proceeded off to the side--where I was! He glanced in my direction as I reached my arm out, and he grabbed my hand and shook it http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/27965055/ Sun, 25 Oct 2009 17:30:38 PDT DarkChihiro

RULES:
1] Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2] For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3] YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.


IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY?
Failure by Designer Jeans - From First to Last

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
The New Patron Saints and Angels - AFI (Ahah, I'm no saint. I am SO going to hell xD)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Stay Away - Nirvana (Err...okay? So, antisocial? o__o )

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
The Hanging Garden - AFI (Gardens are pretty, so I'll take that as pretty )

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Goodbye, Goodnight, For Good - Alesana (Err...to commit suicide...? o__o nahh, I refuse to die, that'd make the wrong people happy)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
3 Day Weekend - Rise Against (I love long weekends =w= )

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
One Winged Angel - Final Fantasy VII (That can mean so many things o__o; )

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Crossing the Frame - Coheed & Cambria (So I cross the line a lot, big deal. These are my angsty teen years, so tough! xD)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?
The Art of Losing - Rise Against (Ahah In a way, yes)

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Break Away - Tokio Hotel (Erm, sure? o__o)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND(S)?
No One Cares - Atreyu (That's not always true v__v I know they care, most of the time..)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Two As One - From First to Last (AHAH, YES!! xD <3)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Surrender - Billy Talent (Ugh, so true Dx)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Tilting The Hourglass - Alesana (So I want to be a timekeeper? o__o)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Sweet Temptation - Lillix (Why yes she is tempting >w< )

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Miss Murder - AFI (Lmao that would be awesome xD we'd be like moshing at my wedding, fuck yeah! <3 )

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Annihilation - A Perfect Circle (omg so true xD I want to have this played at my funeral for sure )

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Come On, Come In - Velvet Revolver (Ahah xD Sure, why not?! )

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Those Who Fight Further - Final Fantasy VII (HAH!! xD)

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/27843699/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/27843699/ Sun, 18 Oct 2009 20:09:04 PDT __> It's like Quebec's Dairy Queen for god's sake, but hey, a job's a job *shrugs* Plus it's $9/hr and it goes by really fast, and it's actually sorta fun o__o Plus I can have as much fountain drinks as I want for free while I work, so yeah. I an cover up my piercings rather than remove them so thats also a plus Hopefully I'll have enough spending money for when I go to the concert on Nov. 2nd!

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/27766074/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/27766074/ Wed, 14 Oct 2009 16:06:50 PDT
Thankfully though I might be able to be working at a cafe called Inn Cafe as an extra body for about 2 days a week max until more work becomes available! I'm so happy about that! And I also handed in a CV in at the Chinese restaurant down the street as a dishwasher, and the lady said there shouldn't be any problems with my piercings at all xD *jumps around for joy* so hopefully I can work there and ditch that grease-house Valentine before they start to rely on me too heavily Also, a call center named Gextel called today concerning my CV I dropped off there, so I'm hoping they hire me too

Not only that, I handed in a few CVs at a few other places and left my name at some others too! x3 I just hope I can get jobs that don't care about my piercings xD

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/27752757/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/27752757/ Tue, 13 Oct 2009 20:15:40 PDT

Visit!

So, I got to go back home for a small visit for Thanksgiving weekend. Spent most of it with my darling, ~sweetxfaith and whatever friends were available Although I couldn't hang out with everyone, I still had loads of fun! I didn't get to drink, as I couldn't even down a shot of Bailey's Dx well, one thing at a time *shrugs* So yeah, had fun~! xD

Possible Job~?

So it turns out this morning I got a call from a fast food place down the road I dunno what it was concerning, but hopefully it's for an interview! x3

[EDIT] It was an interview Hope it goes well~!

So yeah, I think that's all for now. Just chillin' with a brew and got In Flames goin'



"If I ever, if I never
Make me understand the thought whatever
Make me see, make me be
Make me understand you're there for me

Take this life, I'm right here
Stay a while and breathe me in"

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/27491353/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/27491353/ Tue, 29 Sep 2009 17:39:22 PDT Still No Job~

So yeah, no luck at a job, but I've been handing out applications and CVs left and right. The dude at the grocery store was a giant dick and won't give me an opportunity to clear up our misunderstanding on my academic situation. That, by the way has updated!

Things have been rather nice up here though I'm glad to be so close to the city :3 That brings me to my next topic, my education!

College Boy~

So, browsing my options in education earlier today, and I stumble upon Dawson College's website. I saw that it was situated in Montreal, my future destination, and was immediately intrigued. I looked for career programs under my sister's advice, and found Illustration and Design! It's a 3-year course and there are plenty of jobs I can get with it, and the best part about that is that I'm already in Montreal! Not only that, but the course is cheap enough to pay straight out of my pocket! It's $130 plus whatever other expenses including books and shit, but come on! I can walk out 3 years from now and get a job easy! I'm going to be a college boy, guys! Fuck yeah~! xD

Visiting~

I'm going to be visiting all my friends and family down home next weekend! I wanna drink and party though xD Woo, can't wait! x3

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/27197988/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/27197988/ Sun, 13 Sep 2009 19:01:37 PDT Relocating :.

So I moved in with my sister, who lives like an hour outside Montreal today. Her son, my nephew has been so hyper it's quite a handful x3 But, being 3 years old, he's quite hilarious, so it's not as if it's a bad thing. I'll be getting a job at the grocery store down the road in the next few days, hopefully. Minimum wage here in
Quebec is like $9/hr so I should be able to do some much needed clothes shopping soon :3 Not like money'll be much of a problem. French is like the main language here, however, so that'll take some getting used to

Concert [Nov. 2] :.

So apparently Hollywood Undead, Escape the Fate, and Atreyu are going to be in Montreal on November 2nd, so me and are going to be going to see them :3 Another band named The Sleeping is supposed to play, but I don't know who they are so I'm mainly going for Atreyu and Escape the Fate xD Can't wait

Fresh Start :.

So, yeah. It's a fresh start up here. I miss my friends, and our drunken (and sober) misadventures, but I can start over here. No one knows me here, I finally got away from all of the pestilences of my everyday life in C'ton! I just can't believe it Things are going to be hard for a while, but this is a good change of scenery for me. I love being close to the city

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/26719088/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/26719088/ Thu, 20 Aug 2009 17:47:52 PDT Mental Health

So, I went to the Mental Health Clinic on Friday, as I mentioned. Turns out I was clinically depressed, and now I'm on happy pills until further notice. They help with the occasional thoughts of suicide, so they're doing their job. Been quite calm and mellow, happier than before for sure. Can't drink whilst on my meds, but hey, sacrifices must be made! People keep congratulating me on going for help on my own, but I don't see how people can live with the pain and not seek help!

I spent from Friday to Monday in the psychiatric ward, and that was just about the most boring thing ever! Somehow, now everyone knows that I was there, and my ex (who's half the reason I was there in the first place) found out, much to my dismay, and wasn't shy about sharing the news. Lovely. Still no apology, though. Still doesn't even look at me, as if she's above me for whatever reason.

Well, even if it's with Corey and not me, I hope she's happy. I've realized that all I can really do is wish her the best in her ordeals and life. Her family, too, I guess. They've all done a lot for me, and thanking them is really all I can do, even if they ignore my existence and give me empty threats. I'll learn to let it all go eventually, as I'll be seeing a psychologist regularly.

Wish me luck, guys! :]

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/26441858/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/26441858/ Fri, 07 Aug 2009 10:12:21 PDT Art Skills..?

I finally started drawing again after a long absence! I hadn't drawn in a while because I thought everything was crap and just sorta gave up, but recently as I said, I started drawing again while listening to Avenged Sevenfold which must have put me in the mood. So has The Used

So yeah, glad to be doing what I love again

Road Trip!

The last week of this month my roomie Corey and I are going to Moncton to get some clothes for the new school year. Money'll be tight 'till then, but I think I can manage. I need to get a new belt, as my favorite black studded one broke D:

Mental Health.

After a few attempts at suicide that I, as always, was too scared to go through with, I'm thinking I'm in the need of some professional help. Therefor I am going to go to the Mental Health Center and see what's what.

The breaking point, you ask? I sat up in bed hugging my knees in the dark while literally freaking out and crying until around 5:30 when I passed out from exhaustion. I remember the frequent fits of writhing around screaming for my stupid memories of almost "doing it" with my ex and what she looked like without her clothes, to stop. As usual, I couldn't manage to push them aside. Big surprise. Now for some reason I get totally petrified every time I see "her". One day afterwards when I worked with her, we almost came in contact by accident and I almost freaked out and burst into tears. I should really ask my boss to stop giving me shifts with her, but I don't think I'm strong enough to admit these things to my boss as a reason.

As I'm sure a few of you, if not all, are thinking I'm posting this up here for pity and/or sympathy, I guess I should expect as much. Maybe I do want pity, I don't know anymore. I just feel like telling someone, even if it's just a stupid dA journal. I'm also saying I may be inactive for a while longer. I need to get this straightened out.

Nothing left to do now but let the "attention whore" jokes fly.. ¬_¬;

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/26111330/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/26111330/ Wed, 22 Jul 2009 15:16:28 PDT Updates...

Hey all, been inactive for a good while, due to lack of comp as I'm sure you're all aware. Sorry, can't be interesting to watch me when I don't update for months at a time Dx

So anyways, what a hectic summer. When I'm not working at the Stupidstore with my ex (who has no sense of humor and is just creating needless drama in my life and being a snobby bitch), I'm playing D&D with Trev and the gang. My old friend Corey moved into the room beside mine so now we're roomies x3 Not to mention I'm always screwing up my shift order in my head so I get calls from work saying I should be there atm when I thought I had a closing shift or w/e D: they must be wanting to fire me pretty damn soon, cos that happens a lot.

Grad / Prom

Although it's a relief to have graduated, the ceremony was overly long and boring, not to mention I lost my flower halfway through and I couldn't pick it up cos I had to stay still Dx Oh well, at least my naive ex provided a laugh with her bad makeup job that made her look sickly and dying xD

Prom was okay once I got past her attempt to make me jealous by bringing the boy she openly flirted with during our relationship to prom as her "date". Well, whatever *shrugs*

Stacked Rubbish / Disorder / Nil

Anyhow, just got 3 of the GazettE's CDs (Stacked Rubbish, Disorder, and Nil) from Hong Kong! *ecstatic* and currently putting them and other stuff onto my ipod via Reb's comp, which I hijacked while she's occupied with FFIV on her lappy x3 must get home to clean soon, though D:

Return

Once Corey gets his lappy we'll be getting internet and splitting the cost half-half, so I'll be able to buy a scanner and make use of this account D:

So that's about all, laterz! x3

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/25010634/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/25010634/ Fri, 29 May 2009 07:10:40 PDT and I'm so anxious and/or nervous!

I wanted to go out of the norm, as always, and be more punk rock, thanks to the suggestion from

I ordered my all-black tux, no tie, vest or shoes I hate ties and vests, and I'll just wear my converse x3 I'm planning on a bandit/muffler type scarf like Reita wears, but around my neck, for show xD Can't find the perfect one yet, though and eyeliner :3

My hair is what I'm most nervous about I'm planning on a GazettE hairstyle, but all black. After asking I determined it'll be a Reita haircut, so I'll be showing up to prom with a mohawk xD I'm worried the hairstylist will fuck my hair up just before prom *cries* my hair is like my baby, and I'm wondering how it'll feel having shorter hair in the back...

SO YES those are my plans for prom :3 Wish me luckkk xD

I should really get to drawing again ._.

ALSO! I'm sorry for being such a GazettE freak lately @_@; I really can't help myself, they're all so sexy @w@ that's right, I said it.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24992953/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24992953/ Thu, 28 May 2009 07:32:01 PDT
Twilight itself was okay. I rather liked the way it was written. Meyer tended to go on tangents in the middle of thoughts, but I do that too so I overlooked it. The plot was lukewarm and I was rather surprised to find it wasn't half bad. Not great, but not terrible. Most of the reason for this was because it's more of an introduction to all the characters. After the whole 'James the hunter' sequence started, it immediately began to lose it's edge for me D: When the bad guy is never actually there then it just seems stupid to me.

Granted, I found Edward to be a rather sweet romanticist when it came to Bella. Otherwise he was overprotective and kinda bland.

New Moon kicked me in the face. I was hoping after the introductions in Twilight, the story could actually start! I was wrong. The first 3/4 of the book is just Bella becoming increasingly morose due to Edward's having left. I must say, the series is nothing without Edward. I wanted to just stop reading the book several times. Jacob was mildly entertaining, but the whole werewolf concept was so easy to see coming, even for me. The book picked up rather well, however, when Bella went to save Edward. I loved Alice's excitement for the yellow Porsche x3 That was the best part of the book for me.

So far, Eclipse is finally getting interesting, as I'm at the part where Rosalie's back story is revealed. Finally, something worth the wait. Also, the whole attempt by Charlie for "the sex talk" was hilarious as he's just so clueless to his daughter's relationship.

Anyways, so far the series has picked itself up, now it's just a matter of keeping my attention. As long as Bella stops fawning over Edward every chance she gets, things seem like they'll be fine. All in all, the series is okay. Definitely not worth the hype and hysteria it's been given, but that's not to say I find it absolutely appalling. It's easy to see it's for an early teen audience. It's...okay.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24885877/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24885877/ Fri, 22 May 2009 06:23:49 PDT 1. Jon
2. Jon-boy
3. Jon-of-the-than
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:
1. Fate: Eternal Hybrid
2. Lucid Scapegoat
3. Kaori Winters

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
1. Talk to Annabel and Tyler
2. Listen to The GazettE
3. Slack off in Intro to Accounting and do this quiz

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My drawing abilities
2. My look
3. My taste in music

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Insanely jealous
2. Annoying at times
3. Vain

THREE PARTS OF YOUR ORIGINS: I'll assume this means...Ancestor stuff?
1. I have no clue Dx
2.
3.

THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
1. Being hated by people I care about.
2. Being without my favorite types of music.
3. Being alone without any friends.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Torn black jeans
2. Black BFMV shirt; Black BFMV hoodie
3. Two belts; wristbands

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Music
2. Money
3. Clothes x3

THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS:
1. Ashe (my guitar)
2. Hair straightener
3. Clothes

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. The GazettE
2. An Cafe
3. Alice Nine

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1. Laugh
2. Draw
3. Love

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. "Filth in the Beauty", The GazettE
2. "Rainbows", Alice Nine
3. "Kakusei Heroism (The Hero Without A Name)", An Cafe

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Get my own MacBook :3
2. Apply to a college and get accepted.
3. Get a guitar amplifier and learn a song.

THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:
1. My first time...
2. Taking my anger out on Kerri and her family.
3. Having dating Kerri

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Understanding
2. Unconditional Love
3. Little "I love you" reminders almost every day

THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'VE GIVING TO THE WORLD:
1. Art
2. A relatively mediocre story (Hybrid)
3. Meh.

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in order):
1. I love Visual Kei.
2. My prom outfit is inspired by Reita.
3. I'm straight? *shrugs*

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. Legs
2. Nice eyes
3. a not-flat chest (no particular size, just not flat)

THREE EMOTIONAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
1. Confidence.
2. Compassionate.
3. Faithful.

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Cheat.
2. Admit rap is music ('cos it's not! it's just speaking quickly to a beat).
3. Get into porn.

THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
1. My old bed sheets :<
2. My friends from EIS
3. Not having to pay for room and board Dx

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. A MacBook.
2. A guitar amp.
3. The GazettE's entire discography :3

THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE:
1. J-Rock / Visual Kei
2. Music.
3. My friends.

THREE OF YOU YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
1. Drawing.
2. Listening to music.
3. Playing guitar.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Quit my lame job and go somewhere more worth the effort.
2. Shower.
3. Not go to work.

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Graphic Designer.
2. Concept Artist.
3. Manga Artist.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY:
1. Japan.
2. Montreal.
3. Toronto.

THREE CARTOON CHARACTERS:
1. Lucy / Nyuu
2. Laharl
3. Yuki

THREE BOY’S NAMES:
1. Uruha.
2. Ruki.
3. Reita.

THREE GIRL'S NAMES:
1. Yuki.
2. Junko (poor thing)
3. Misa.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Learn a GazettE song all the way through xD
2. Buy "Stacked Rubbish"
3. Learn to play bass.

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ OR DIE PAINFULLY
1. Anyone who wants to do it.
2.
3.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24839095/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24839095/ Tue, 19 May 2009 12:48:04 PDT A. It's Fate-EternalHybrid. Fate is an old OC I had that I got bored with soon though xD My current OC (Kaori) is a hybrid, I love them, and eternal is just a profound word to me xD

Q2. Why did you join this site?
A. 'Cos it relates to art, and I love to draw and create x3

Q3. What fandom were you obsessed with when you joined?
A. Disgaea: Hour of Darkness, Lucky Star, Kingdom Hearts, etc.

Q4. How many watchers are you currently watching now?
A. Like a lot.

Q5. Your first gift ever was to?
A. I didn't give any out yet

Q6. List five things you are a fan of?
A. Visual Kei, Anime/Manga, Video Games, Love, and good fucking music.

Q7. List four people you look up to the most?
A. DarkChihiro, BONEstien, Lady-Zelda-of-Hyrule, and zeldachan.

Q8. How many pets do you own?
A. Like none xD

Q9. Name 3 aspects of your personality?
A. i. I can be hyper and bouncy when I'm excited and/or happy
ii. I can be really hysterical when I'm drunk xD
iii. I try to be considerate of others, but I sometimes fail and end up being selfish Dx

Q10. If you could have a power what would it be?
A. The power to play guitar like a GOD!

Q11. Who was the last person you talked to?
A. Nick, Breean, and Annabel.

Q12. Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
A. Kerri.

Q13. Write the first five things that pop into your head?
A. Alice Nine, Prom (on my mind a lot lately), Reita (bassist of The GazettE), muffler scarfs, and Visual Kei x3

Q14. What are the things you wish you could do better?
A. Sing and play guitar :3

Q15. Do you like who you are?
A. I guess so x3 I don't mind myself. It's a slightly love/hate thing depending how I act.

Q16. Summer or winter?
A. Forever summer! xD

Q17. Rain or sun?
A. Sun. The Rain is nice, but I try to avoid it since I straighten my hair. Every now and then I'll stand in the rain to help my thinking process, it's very calming and beautiful.

Q18. List 2 odd things about yourself?
A. i. I'm so silly when I drink xD
ii. I wish I was rich :3 so I could stop mooching off others like a bum Dx

Q19. Pop or Hip hop?
A. If I must, then Pop-Rock or J-Pop, not the mainstream bullshit over here.

Q20. How many scars do you have?
A. Four, one on each big toe, one on the right side of my groin, and a few on my left hand that I count as one xD

Q21. Do you wear spiked wristbands, Collars & belts?
A. Indeed, I wear one studded wristband, one belt/bracelet, and I wish I had a collar x3

Q22. Do you own anything from Hot Topic?
A. Yes, my 3-row black studded belt.

Q23. Nyc Trpp or Lip Service?
A. Meh.

Q24. Steak or Chicken?
A. Steak for the rest of my days xD but it's expensive so I never get any Dx

Q25. Favorite Colour(s)?
A. Black, white, red, and purple.

Q26. Anime or Manga?
A. Either one is fine, I look past the fanservice in anime.

Q27. Beer or wine?
A. Cruzan Raspberry fucking Rum with Coke :3

Q28. Goth or Emo?
A. Visual Kei! Take that! xP

Q29. How many pairs of shoes do you have?
A. 2 or 3.

Q30. What is the most amount alcohol you ever drank in one day?
A. Almost all my bottle of Cruzan, 2 days ago.

Q31. Cold or Hot?
A. Warm, a happy medium.

Q32. Favorite pair of pants?
A. My tighter ones with the holes in the knees! They're so comfy!

Q33.Do you like your user name?
A. I guess, it's okay.

Q34.Have you tried any drugs?
A. Nope. Drugs fuck with peoples lives, so I stay well away.

Q35. If you have? what drugs?
A. None...

Q36.Do you have a myspace/Facebook page?
A. Fuck no, it's a bunch of bullshit!

Q37. Pizza or Kebabs?
A. Both.

Q38. Are you are nice person?
A. Normally. I try to maintain composure, but a few choice things make me really mad, I can get very hostile.

Q39. How old are you?
A. 18.

Q40. Spikes, studs or eyelets?
A. Studs! xD

Q41. Do you like your music loud?
A. Fuck yes! x3

Q42. Kind hearted?
A. I try to be. doesn't always work, but no one's perfect, neh?

Q43. Holden or Ford?
A. A fucking Corolla xD

Q44. Annoying?
A. I can be x3 very easily.

Q45. Do you like PLZ accounts?
A. The what now? 0_0

Q46. Do you own a car or motor bike?
A. Neither -_-;

Q47. Do you like The Presets?... ]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24715852/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24715852/ Tue, 12 May 2009 06:24:56 PDT Uhm, my real name is Kaori Winters. I don't really have any nicknames worth repeating, to be honest None that are positive anyways..

2. Interesting... what's your current age?
I'm currently 17 years old.

3. Uh huh. What's your favorite food?
Uhm, to be honest I'm not permitted to eat solid food. Father thinks it will make me fat because he's worried I may eat to much, therefor I live on an all-liquid diet. Much to my dismay -_-'

4. And your favorite drink?
I must say I adore milk :3

5. Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
My lover's name is Hitoshi :] He is without a doubt the most beautiful man I have ever seen, and I'm lucky to have him all to myself!

6. Aww! Have you two kissed yet?
We passed that stage in the relationship long ago

7. Classic question! What's your favorite color?
Uhm, I personally prefer black and darker colors, but I've been making acceptions for Hitoshi's sake He loves to see me in colorful attire xD

8. Who's your favorite author?
To be honest, I'm not very drawn to literature. *shrugs*

9. Now what's your biggest fear?
Uhm...well...losing Hitoshi would probably be the worst possible thing that could happen to me.

10. *stifles a giggle* I'm not laughing *bursts out laughing*
I must say, you bring rude to a new level, laughing at someone's biggest fears.

11. Awesome. Who's your hero?
Well, I would have thought that would be plainly obvious by now. Hitoshi.

12. Ok, who is your worst enemy?
That would have to be my father.

13. What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
I'd rather not think of the outcome of that fight, Hitoshi's nowhere near strong enough to defeat my father, as he is an Overlord.

14. Interesting... what would you do if you met your creator?
Somehow this question just seems obvious to me -_-'

15. Okay, I'll contact them right now. Done! Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?
I'd have to say I want to be a woman worthy of Hitoshi's beauty, so I would like to be beautiful.

16. What's your worst nightmare?
Letting my father sell my body to the other nobles again, the thought makes my heart lurch.

17. What's your lifelong dream?
To usurp my father and take his place as our Netherworld's new Overlord.

18. What would you do if your lifelong dream came true?
Uhm, I'm not really sure. I'd really like to break down the racist stereotypes of my kind. You know, hybrids.

19. Ok, where's your favorite place to relax?
My luxurious queen size bed, next to Hitoshi. *sigh* He's so soft and warm.

20. Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
I really like to shop, but Hitoshi gets bored of that quite quickly, so sometimes he brings me over to his apartment, where he tries to teach me how to play guitar I'll never be as good as him, though x3

21. We're done! Now tag whoever you want.
You! (If you have OCs)

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24597283/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24597283/ Tue, 05 May 2009 07:43:48 PDT
Kaori - Nothing new there yet design-wise. I'm missing a signature clothing style, but I'm hopefully going to get to it soon. Looking for a japanese name for Kaori's dark side, even though she won't be introduced until later. Same goes for her light side, Yuki is rather generic, so I'm thinking of sticking the name to her mother, it seems to fit her better. Her backstory is being edited and her relation to her father is one of those 'hardly see you' bits, where he just hires servants to raise her because he's ashamed, etc. I'm actually quite proud of her design now x3

Hitoshi - Name is going to stay. Finally got around to a final design that works from all angles. It's simple but tasteful and not generic like my earlier attempts. I'm still tweaking his backstory so it'll fit.

Kuroshin - Renaming, yet again. his current name is just a rough anyways to last until I could find a better one. Haven't looked yet. Got a design down face-wise, and I'm thinking of a hard, bulky build, but not overly apparent, if that makes any sense...probably not. I'll be making him a noble, and I'm thinking of a coup d'etat for his rise to power, so maybe I'll have to put him in charge of the Netherworld's army, I dunno. I kinda want to make the opening of the series with the coup d'etat itself...then Kaori leads a revolution and usurps him.

Any suggestions welcome I guess, since most of this is still up in the air.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24376519/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24376519/ Wed, 22 Apr 2009 12:23:10 PDT Soon, this year, too, winter will come
You who was by my side isn't here
What should I think?
I wonder if "I want to see you" is no good?

I wasn't your favorite, right?
But for some reason or another, we started dating
You were attracted to something I didn't have
And we both started liking each other

I knew that cliches like
"Let's stay together forever" Don't come true

We're walking different paths
But you won't leave from my head
If you would turn around for me once again,
I won't need anyone but you

"I want to see you" but I don't know either the town you live in,
Or how to tell you
This winter, I wonder, with whom,
What will you spend your time doing?

When I think about how, for sure
I'm the only one who has feelings, it's painful

The time and places we spent together
You disappear from my words and actions
You've become something important to me
I realized it after we seperated

Back then I loved love, right
But now, my heart strains and can say that I like you

When I want to return to the time
That we innocently laughed together, I stare at the window
My overflowing tears melt the snow scene that I saw with you
Soon, this year, too, winter will come
You who was by my side isn't here
What should I think? I wonder if "I want to see you" is no good?
The snow begins to fall

Love this song, it's so true.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24359569/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24359569/ Tue, 21 Apr 2009 12:24:05 PDT Also, I'm finally waking up to smell the roses, and they're not that sweet. I'm finally realizing that the faults in the relationship I shared with that beauty were not my fault. She's pretty much just eye candy now, since her core's rotten with selfishness and an annoyingly stubborn attitude. I'm finally realizing that eye candy was all I was to her, too. In the beginning, she claims to have fallen in love with me at first sight, which is such bullshit. I had curly hair, wore generic clothing, and was average, nothing special. But because I eventually grew to wear my hair straight, and garbed myself in little to no colors, she since fell out of love, the naive child.
Call me bitter. Hell, call me an ass, but I refuse to take all of the blame for how something so pure and beautiful between us fell into decay so quickly. Since I arrived from camp, she's changed, and I want nothing to do with this new bitch in her soft skin. Maybe this is the selfish bitch Madison told me about, maybe she went back to being the bitch she was. Either way, unless the girl I love comes back out, I'll erase her from my life completely, and since it's obvious she has no intention of pulling out the knife she plunged into my heart, then I'll take it by the blade and rip it out myself. She's not the one I love...not anymore. Even if she's in there somewhere, I won't bother to search for her, because she didn't bother to search for the 'old me' she claims isn't even there to find, without even bothering to look. I guess I'm just not worth the trouble.
I'll just wipe my tears and walk away from this, and bury what's left of me in the wake of a new life I want to make for myself, one where I can be loved unconditionally without fear of being judged, one where I can be happy, and most important, be myself.
I'm not even going to bother to explain myself to anyone who responds negatively to this journal, if you don't like it, then don't look.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24339114/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24339114/ Mon, 20 Apr 2009 07:51:26 PDT
"I'm going to be flying into space!"

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24276776/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24276776/ Thu, 16 Apr 2009 15:57:17 PDT says I don't compliment her a lot, so y'know what? I'm going to lay it all out on the table, even though that leaves me vulnerable. It's not like she doesn't know most of this already anyways. Feel free to ignore this journal, everyone but at least.

I love her, I've always loved her. More than anything on earth, even though the anxiety from her lack of decision-making is eating me alive. She may not be a size 2, but I honestly don't care about her size. In fact, I love that she's not skinny as hell and decides not to conform to society's vision of so-called beauty. Her shape is so lovely, I swear, it drives me mad. She's so soft, too! Gahh! That's why I can't stop asking for hugs, she's so adorably soft.

She also smells so good it makes me eyes water. She's the most amazing person in the world to me. Sure, she gets on my nerves, but that's what makes me remember that she's human, and not the goddess she seems like to me. Her personality is unrivaled, and we always had a lot of fun when we were together, and I could be myself with her the whole time, I guess I just never was lately. She's just such an extraordinary girl it still seems like such a dream, that time we spent together, laughing and having random tickle-fights (which she would always win, by the way).

Furthermore, she's just so breathtakingly beautiful to me it's unbelievable. I know it's what's inside that counts most, in fact that's my favorite part of her! But she's also beautiful outside, she just doesn't hear it enough, so she thinks she's not.

Her nose is a bit big, but so's mine, so I don't really care, I still loved kissing it when we were together, and I'd do anything to again. Her eyes-even though they're devoid of color most of the time-are such gems to me, they're so beautiful I could just melt when she looks at me. Those cheeks are so full, and it's just so cute I can't resist poking them or pinching them even now! I love when she smiles, because her cheeks pull poke out a bit more, and I love it ^_^ That smile is like my heaven on earth. AND even though everyone says she has a flat butt, I still love that, too xD (Sorry, not trying to be a perv). Her hair always smelled to lovely, just like the rest of her.

Yes, I screwed things up, really bad in fact. I technically abused her without realizing, and I can't believe I was idiotic enough to do that! What the hell was I thinking?! At any rate, now that I'm aware of my misdeeds, I want to try and make things better. Maybe I can, and maybe I can't, but I want to at least try, and I'm not willing to let everything we had-and maybe still have-go to waste like this, this means too much to me. I took her for granted and this is where it went wrong. I want to make it up to her, because she deserves better from me.

These points taken into consideration, no matter what anyone says about her, I'll still love her. No. Matter. What.

There, I've laid out all I can think of at the moment. I hope it satisfies. I mean every word.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24224300/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24224300/ Mon, 13 Apr 2009 16:41:41 PDT
This will be a rough draft of Hybrid's storyline. From her point of view, I figured I'd throw the beginning into her teen years, then do memories and flashbacks, dreams, etc.

Well, here's hoping I don't fail epically!~

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24158245/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24158245/ Fri, 10 Apr 2009 03:33:40 PDT
At any rate, I'm not quite sure what to do. I would like a lot of things, naturally, but a new job seems to take priority. Hopefully, with what experience I have in customer service (1 year and 1/2), I can get something that will pay better. If not, then I would rather not have to deal with the people around here being as stupid as many of them tend to be. And having to speak french is such a pain. Some customers won't even associate with you if you don't speak french, bunch of dumbasses.

Second comes an amplifier for my electric guitar. I'd want one that'll last me most of my life, so I won't have to buy another one due to cheap quality, etc. I plan to pawn off my black guitar, anyways.

Thirdly, some new clothes and accessories would definitely be nice. This however, is Campbellton, so I don't expect too much. I only have one good pair of jeans, the other (my favorite) ripped a few nights ago. I'll probably get them sewed.

Fourth is a computer, but that'd mainly be for entertainment, which can probably wait to get until I can afford one. I've decided against senseless spending, thanks to some friends.

Lastly, something to take the edge off, since my hormones are driving me nuts. Nothing alcoholic or dangerous, but fun rather. I wish I attracted some sort of interest from people, even if I were only to turn them down, just to know I'm viewed as attractive in some manner. But no.

Yes, I may be a virgin, but that fact is beginning to burden me. It's not as if I wanna go out and have sex with any random person, but it's just...since the breakup, I've been feeling useless and unworthy of everything good in my life. All I can really do to stave off that feeling is hang out with friends, or go shopping, usually with them, too. My ex wants to be my friend, but she always has something to do when I ask to hang out. *sigh* I'd hang out with Tim, but he hasn't given me a date yet, and I don't want to pester him. My life just seems so...boring now. I really wish I knew what to do with myself.

I am aware of my randomness and whinyness, but I'm running on absolutely no sleep at 7:30 am. There was no point in this journal really, sorry to bother you guys.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24141832/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24141832/ Thu, 09 Apr 2009 06:17:43 PDT I Try, I Really Do!

I try to be calm, I really do. I guess some people just bring out the worst part of me, a part I'd rather keep inside.

I guess it's about time I realize where my real friends truly lay, and hopefully old company will become new. Yes, I complain, and I'm sorry I do, it's just habit.

I was raised in a rich Christian home, where my family (3 sisters and sometimes mother) busted their ass to get me what I wanted, I realize that now. This however, gave me a habit of seeming to think I deserve everything I desire. Since I was a kid, I've always had a problem with the word "no", when it came to material posessions.

Since I'd always got what I wanted, I was used to it, and it took a very special person in my life to teach me I was wrong. Even though we're not together (because of my past mistakes), I hope she'll see how much I stll love her. Anyways, I've slowly started to change, and I must say, I've improved greatly. It's not over, but it's closer than before. As a result of this habit, I don't expect much more out of my friends than usual, just rather have a lot of patience with me. Yes, I can get annoying, yes I'm slow quite often (with or without the blond), and I'm way too sensitive for my own good. I want to help people, but I never know how to begin. Really!

Yes, I complain about being poor, but usually as more of a joke, or a "sorry man, I'm poor, can't help you on this one, maybe next time". Occasionally I'll whine about it for attention, because every now and then I like attention. I don't expect my friends to blow up on my and tell me how to spend my money. I appreciate the thought, really I do, but the execution was rather lack-luster. I expect a certain level of maturity on their part, because I don't care how you look at it, flying off the handle at the smallest thing is quite childish (or the person's just stressed).

Being 18 and living on my own, I like to think that gives me a little maturity, being aware of the outside world instead of the bubble my family made for me by showering me with Yu-Gi-Oh! and Magic cards and video games. Sure, I know how to live on my own, more or less. I can get by just fine. Yes, I splurge, but because I'm under stress and the occasional Monster/Amped will give me a much needed pick-me-up. I try to incorporate as much of that luxury lifestyle into life as I can, and even though I'm not all that successful, I wish I had a close circle of friends who understand my plight. Yeah, Nick and Trev do, and thank hell they don't bitch at me for complaining, because I just need people to listen and understand.

At any rate, I'm glad I got this off my chest. This however, does not mean it's time for people to suddenly taking shots at me again. I simply stated my mind, because none of them would listen. If anyone starts a bitchfest, I'll ignore it, I'm saying that right now, so don't even bother.

Skinny...

Okay, Madi spoke her mind, and I feel like spewing my thoughts on the matter.

Yeah, I'm relatively skinny for someone like me. This doesn't make me healthy, trust me. I skip breakfast almost every day, and often don't eat lunch at school because I want to save my money for something more worth it. I'm probably very unhealthy, it wouldn't surprise me, because I don't exercise, either. I don't eat healthly, either.

Madi's not the only one who's sick of the media and their protrayal of a "perfect body". Not everyone has to be structurally concave to be beautiful! My ex, ~zeldachan was the most extraordinary girl I'd met in my life (and still is), and she was definately no size double-zero. I hate how humanity has come to this, I really do. Sure, I wouldn't say I'd watch a 300lb girl with a crew cut strut around in a bikini, but come on! I understand that we've all got our preferances in the opposite sex, but in my own opinion, anyone who only likes size zeros is just undeniably shallow. There, I said it.

As long as the person's comfortable with the way they are/how they look, then people shouldn't harass them to lose weight. If people want to do it for themselves, then that's good for them. I say FIND YOUR OWN WAY, and don't let others tell you you're too 'this' and not enough 'that'.

I'm done now.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24110302/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24110302/ Tue, 07 Apr 2009 11:18:32 PDT
Am I really supposed to keep myself from falling apart? I want to be nice, but when I see her smile, without me being there to cause it...I just lose myself, it's unexplainable. Why can't she just let this be? There's was never a friendsship there to go back to, so why can't she jut leave me alone? Can't she see how it hurts me? No matter how many times I tell her, she just keeps doing it...I can't live like this. No, I don't want to live like this--live at all if this is how it's going to be from now on.

Why can't people see why I'm acting the way I do? I have good days and bad days, sure. But the bad days are far more numerous--days I just don't see the point in life, and I just half-heartedly meet the world with a blank expression. Can people really expect me to be happy now? I fail to see the logic in that.

If only I could escape to a world without her...I can't even dream without it being of her. Ugh....

Living is way too hard at this point in time. At work, I have to put up a front for the customers that I don't feel they deserve. She shows up and I have to NOT cry, dammit.

People seem so much more critical nowadays. I myself am like glass, where anything they say is a sledgehammer to me, I swear. Can't the world just try a little harder to understand the pain I can't hide from my face?

She's just...so cruel.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24038410/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/24038410/ Fri, 03 Apr 2009 10:29:04 PDT News Concerning Me~

Yeah, I've just been so busy lately with moping about my breakup for over a month and a half now I think. I swear this is the most painful thing I've ever had to go through, and death seems so warm and inviting. *sigh* But I'm apparently not allowed to end my own life according to so I shrugged and agreed. I want to die so badly, it's not even funny anymore..

But...her cruelty is so astounding..Why can't I stop loving her?!
Even now, she wants to be "friends" with me because she "still wants me in her life". I spent two years telling her I'd give my life for her at any given moment without hesitaion, doubt, or regret. We met, then went out soon after, so there's no way I can simply be her friend..
I wish it were that simple, I do. I want to be nice to her, but my heart and body somehow refuse to, strange desires to glare at her spring forth from nowhere, and it's annoying, really.

What's more is that since we've broken up, I've heard nothing but love songs at work! "My Life Would Suck Without You" by Kelly Clarkson, "Love Story" by Taylor Swift, "Not Meant To Be" by Theory of a Deadman, "Thanks For The Memories" by Fall Out Boy, "Everytime We Touch" by Cascada, and the list goes on. I've had to retreat to the employee washrooms to hide myself in my tears, on many occasions. To make matters worse, she ALWAYS seems to show up the nights I work so it sends a pang through my chest and tears to my eyes. She won't even look at me with her mother around. I seriously want nothing more than to carve my heart out and throw it away if this pain is all that it's good for! I'm not kidding. And please don't comment saying anything like, "Stop feeling sorry for yourself, you just want pity, etc." I'm doing this as a healthy means of venting. I'm afraid of those reactions, because when I'm defending myself I become such an idiot, I hate myself for it.

Twilight~

I've also started reading the Twilight series out of curiosity, and I can see why so many of my friends found it such a good read. I ignored the hype and clear blatant obsession with it, because frankly I can't understand it--it's good, but not that good. I mean, this is the book people are physically hurting each other over? How utterly foolish humanity is. Not to mention it's a young teen book, too. Ugh. But I like the way Meyer wrote it, the style. I'm on New Moon and so far all the beginning consists of is Bella becoming increasingly morose. This didn't help lighten my mood about my breakup at all, in fact it made it worse.

With just sadness you tell me "That's the truth...
It's okay to get hurt..."
Don't forget.
This heartbeat is attracted to the you that knows pain

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/23498291/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/23498291/ Mon, 02 Mar 2009 20:53:22 PST
So now I'm just sitting here nodding my head from side to side while listening to "Reila" and "Silly God Disco" by The GazettE, meanwhile my lips are permanently glued to the straw from my Iced Cap. HA! I'm having a chibi moment as my head's bobbing and I wanna draw it xD Mark's yelling at the TV while playing Call of Duty 4 on his Xbox whilst being a douche, nothing new there. Sabrina's pissed at him and asleep behind him. What an odd night.

So. Two people didn't show up for their closing shifts, so I had to try and cover for them for an extra hour even though I only worked 'till 9, and a friend bailed me out half an hour past 9. Those french girls are so unreliable, since one of 'em left almost half an hour early, to make matters worse. Luckily it was storming out, so not all that many people were there, so me and a friend were just having a grand ol' time working xD

I just noticed...this journal doesn't have much direction...oh well!

The GazettE makes everything better, because everyone knows sexy J-rockers makes life easier! xD One look at Reita, Uruha, or Ruki and I'm sure most of you will agree. If not, you're either a homophobic boy or just plain weird in my book. But that's okay, chances are I'll be your friend either way. Here's how they break down in my book: Reita = sexyyy, Uruha = unnaturally beautiful by male standards, and Ruki = adorable! xD

Once my color fades out, I'm trying for Reita hair, so ALL BLONDE!~ I hope I can pull it off, and I'll also need to grow my hair out a bit. Wish me luck! xD

Life is hard lately, but that's....eh what am I saying?! It's not okay =S I wish I had reference pictures so I could draw more, but no one has a printer -dies inside- Oh, this song makes me cry inside...

"Reila.
Ienakatta kono kotoba wo.
Reila.
Ima Koko de kimi ni utau yo.
Reila.
Dare yori mo kimi wo aishiteru.
Reila.
Aishiteru. Aishiteru."

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/23236297/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/23236297/ Wed, 25 Feb 2009 06:16:52 PST Choose one of your own characters.
Make them answer the following questions.
Then, tag three people.
Feel free to add some questions of your own.

Character: Kaori Winters

1) What gender are you?
I'm a girl.

2) What is your age?
I am 16 years old.

3) Do you want a hug?
I'm not falling for that one again!

4) Do you have any bad habits?
I tend to think down on myself, if that counts.

5) What is your favorite food?
Food? I'm not allowed to eat food.

6) What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
...that is food.

7) Are you a virgin?
Um...no...but what business is that of yours?!

8) Have you killed anyone?
Yes. Many have met their demise at my hands.

9) Do you hate anyone?
I hate the Overlord. Doesn't everyone?

10) Do you have any secrets?
None that I'd spit out willingly.

11) What is your favorite season?
Spring, when the sakura trees are in full bloom. Hitoshi takes me to see them.

12) Who are your best friends?
Your pathetic attempt at sarcasm is laughable!

13) What are your hobbies?
Sleeping -.-

14) What is your favorite drink?
Um... Hitoshi's blood? o.o'

15) When is your birthday?
December 13th.

16) What age did you die?
I'm still alive, if anyone cares.

17) Are you nice or mean?
I do try to be nice, but it get's hard to sometimes.

18) What do you think of your creator?
My mother? I cannot say, I don't remember much about her, to be honest.

19) What is your weakness?
I'm not to tell that to anyone.

20) How long can you stay under water?
A while, I suppose. My body is different then everyone else, so I can last a long time.

21) What do you do on a regular day basis?
Sleep.

22) Do you love someone?
I love Hitoshi with all of my heart.

23) Does that person love you back?
Y-yes, of course he does!

24) Do you like me?
I remain indifferent.

25) What do you consider fun in the day time?
Playing with Hitoshi! ^_^

26) At night?
Sleeping with Hitoshi <3

27) Do you like meatballs?
*grumbles*

28) Do you like Chef Boyardee's meatballs?
*twitch* Ugh!

29) Are you gay?
No, but I am bisexual, if it matters any.

30) Say that you were trapped in a closet with your lover for 2 days straight. What do you do if you start to starve in ONLY A 2-DAY RADIUS?
Uhm, what Hitoshi and I do together in small confined spaces is none of your concern! Besides, I feed off of liquids, so his blood would do juuuust fine! He's got plenty. <3

31) Wow, really?
*clenches fist* YES!

32) What is your place of origin?
I was born in my father's Netherworld.

33) Who are your parents?
That's none of your concern.

34) Are you wearing underwear right now?
O-of course! You fool!

35) What’s your occupation?
I do not have one.

36) What makes you unique?
I am a hybrid of demon and angel.

37) Do you have a phobia?
Being alone in the world.

38) Is this quiz over?
I sure hope so, you're giving me a migraine.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/23002264/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/23002264/ Wed, 04 Feb 2009 13:00:17 PST Age: 18
Height: Dunno
Natural hair colour: Neutral brown
Eye colour: Steel Blue
Skin color: Pale?
Glasses/contacts?: Neither
Piercings: Both ears
Tattoos: None, but getting one soon
Braces: No
Mannerisms: Please, thank you, speaking recklessly
Other distinctive markings: Scars, left hand defect

FAVOURITE
Colour: Royal Purple \ Black
Band: The Gazette \ Linkin Park \ Cancer Bats \ Bullet for My Valentine, etc.
Video game: Disgaea 2: Cursed Memories
Movie: Any Jim Carrey movie
Book: Hayate the Combat Butler (Manga)
Food: Chocolate
Game on a cell phone: Tetris
CD:LP Underground 8.0
Flower: White Rose
Scent: Chocolate \ Mint
Comic book: I said managa above
Cereal: Reese's Puffs
Website: None
Cartoon: Elemental Gelade (Anime)

DO YOU
Play an instrument?: Guitar, I wanna try bass.
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?: Doubt it
Like to sing?: Yup
Have a job?: Yup
Have a cell phone?: Yup
Like to play sports?: Not really
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Girlfriend
Have a crush on someone?: Nope
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?: CANADA!! We rule up here, that's why we're on top xD
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?: No way in hell
Have any special talents/skills?: Drawing
Exercise daily?: No, I'm a fat kid inside
Like school?: No

CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?: No
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?: Yup
Speak any other languages?: Yeah, French and a little Japanese
Go a day without food?: Yup
Remember your dreams: Sometimes
Read music, not just tabs?: No, but I can read tabs
Roll your tongue?: Nope
Eat a whole pizza?: If I'm hungry

HAVE YOU EVER
Won something in the lottery?: No
Snuck out of the house?: Yup
Lied to get out of trouble?: All the time
Had a computer crash?: Yup
Gotten lost in your city?: Yeah
Seen a shooting star?: No
Been to any other countries?: Nope
Had a serious surgery?: Appendix removal
Stolen something important to someone else?: No
Solved a rubiks cube?: As if I'm that smart or patient!
Gone out in public in your pajamas?: Yes
Cried over a girl?: Yes
Cried over a boy?: Yes
Kissed a random stranger?: Nope
Hugged a random stranger?: Yes
Been in a fist fight?: Yeah, a few times
Been arrested?: Close, but no
Done drugs?: Hell no
Had alcohol?: Yup
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?: Yes
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?: Yup, plenty of times
Sneaked into the opposite sex's bathroom?: Nope
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?: Yeah, it's not fun
Swore at your parents?: Yeah lots of times
Kicked a guy where it hurts?: By accident
Been to a casino?: No
Ran over an animal and killed it?: Nope, don't drive
Broken a bone?: No
Gotten stitches?: Yes
Had a water balloon fight in winter?: Nope, not yet
Made homemade muffins?: Yup
Bitten someone?: Oh yeah, hard, too!
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?: No way, that's for people with money
Burped in someone’s face?: Yes

WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth: This morning
Cried: A few nights ago
Went to the bathroom: Chemistry class
Saw a movie in a theatre: A few weeks ago, Bride Wars
Read a book: Months ago
Had a snow day: A few weeks ago
Had a party: Years!
Went to a doctor: Last year
Tripped in front of someone: Today
Went to the grocery store: My last shift there ._.
Got sick: Last weekend
Got cursed: Never
Called someone: When i had minutes on my phone

DO YOU PREFER
Fruit/vegetables: Fruit
Black/white: black WITH white accented clothes and accessories. After all, it's important to have balance!
Lights on/lights off: On
TV/movie: TV
Body spray/lotion: Spray
Cash/cheque: Cash
Pillows/blankets: Pillows!!! Zaaaaaa!
Headache/stomach ache: Stomach ache, they go away faster.
Paint/charcoal: Charcoal!!!! xD
Chinese food/Mexican food: Mexican, our chinese food is fake
Summer/winter: Summer
Snow/rain: Snow
Fog/misty: Fog
Rock/rap: J-rock, BITCHES!
Meat/vegetarian: Meat, steak = love
Chocolate/vanilla: Chocolate, what a dumb question xD
Sprinkles/icing: Icing, sprinkles are too crunchy
Cake/pie: BOTH!! Or just cake with some ice cream on it
Strawberries/blueberries: Strawberries!!!!
Ocean/swimming pool: Swimming pool, no critters to bite you!
Cookies/muffins: Cookies!!!! zOMG!
Wallet/pocket: Wallet,... ]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/22978926/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/22978926/ Tue, 03 Feb 2009 07:40:04 PST New Developments ~ 18 Nao!

Okay, so I turned 18 on Friday...but really, what's the big deal?! I mean, I know everyone says 18 is a milestone or whatever, but why is that? I can't drink until next year (not that I really would anyway), so what's the bid deal...voting? HAH! Right. I don't feel any more mature either...meh.

Oh, and I'll submit a whole sketchbook's worth once I can use a scanner that ISN'T grafted into 's body!

College + Grad.

Life scares me...it really does. I'm freaking graduating this year! That's scary as fuck! Then I haveta go away to college after another year here saving money. The stress alone'll kill me, not to mention that I've neglected sending in applications or transcripts to any colleges yet! Especially since I don't know which one to pick! ARGH!! I'm currently checking one in Miramichi but I dunno, nothing's for sure.

Fuck my life.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/22748351/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/22748351/ Thu, 22 Jan 2009 21:48:12 PST
001. Name → Jonathan
002. Nickname → Jon, Fate
003. Status → "Emo" according to the labels
004. Zodiac sign → Aquarius
005. Male or female → Male, but sometimes hard to tell
006. Elementary → No
007. Middle School → No
008. College → No. Where do high-schoolers fit in here?!
009. Smart → Meh, I guess
010. Hair color → Naturally neautral brown, currently blonde bangs
011. Long or short → Mid-length
012. Loud or Quiet → Both, depending on my audience
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
014. Phone or Camera → Both
015. Health freak → I wish
016. Drink or Smoke? → Neither, and damn proud of it
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → My girlfriend x3
018. Eat or Drink → Um, both...don't we all?
019. Piercings → Two, want at least three more
020. Tattoos → None, want one for Birthday

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → Ears, both
024. First best friend → Justin
026. First crush → Dunno, some nameless girl in a backwater town, who became a whore
027. First pet → Shippo, my kitty
028. First big vacation → Montreal
030. First big birthday → None

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → Nothing
050. Drinking → Juice
052. I'm about to → Go to bed
053. Listening to → The Gazette
054. Plans for today → Exam (1:30 am)

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → Meh
059. Want to get married? → Yup
060. Careers in mind → Concept Artist, Manga Artist, Video Game Designer, Graphic Designer

WHERE'S 61 - 67? um...

WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
068. Lips or eyes → Eyes, girl
070. Shorter or taller? → Neither, girl
072. Romantic or spontaneous → Both, girl and boy
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → Arms, girl
074. Sensitive or loud → Neither
075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship, girl
077. Trouble maker or hesitant → Hesitant, girl

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → Nope, don't use 'em
081. Ran away from home → Twice
084. Broken someone's heart → Plenty of times I'm told--Personally I don't really care
085. Been arrested → Almost
087. Cried when someone died → Grandma

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → Meh, not really
090. Miracles → No, not on their own. We as humans make them happen
091. Love at first sight → Not personally
092. Heaven → Yes, but not God
093. Santa Claus → No
094. Sex on the first date → Depends on the purpose of the relationship
095. Kiss on the first date → If you fancy the person, then yeah, sure.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → The one I'm always with, in my heart <3
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → Not yet
099. Do you believe in God → Not the Christian god, that's for damn sure
100. Post as 100 truths and tag people → Go fuck yourself! Hell no

Tagged people: Whoever has enough time to kill!

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/22590119/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/22590119/ Fri, 16 Jan 2009 06:38:28 PST Kosuke

Lately I've been wondering more about a side project of mine. It's nameless now, but it focuses on sexual harassment and parental abuse. Long story, but mommy dies when Kosuke is young, and around mid-teen years, daddy starts raping him because of his girlish figure, whom his father claims he got from his mother. -shrugs- He reminds his dad of his mother, bodily, I guess, and since his dad blames Kosuke for her death, he beats him for "ruining his life" because he went into depression after the death of his wife.

Kosuke refuses to tell anyone, 'cause he knows his dad'll go to jail, and his mother always taught him not to intentionally hurt people, etc. Also his passive and gentle nature makes it hard for him to stand up for himself, so naturally, thanks to daddy, he's naturally submissive.

One of his teachers, however, sees that something's wrong with Kosuke and the two begin to trust each other. The beatings get worse, yet when Kosuke can't take it anymore, his dad puts a gun to his head with a threat, and so he's forced to take his clothes off for daddy (who's a drunk, obviously, if you never figured that), yet again. Good ol' daddy takes out a whip after that and gives our poor main character a few souvenirs around his body.

On multiple occasions, however, his dad goes to far and it scares Kosuke even more than usual, so he starts crying. Dad wants him to be a man (and claims the reason he rapes him is to "treat him like the girl he is"), so he gets mad and works him harder and more violently.

Once, he leaves for a short amount of time, just long enough for Kosuke to call his teacher and cry desperately into the phone for help. Teacher drops his cell and runs like hell (school's only a few blocks from Kosuke's). Once he gets there, he finds Kosuke's dad's corpse lying beside the bed with huge stab marks and bleeding everywhere, his hunting knife beside him. He also finds Kosuke curled up, crying with daddy's blood all over him, naked except for a torn button-up shirt.

I'd rather not divulge the rest right away. Too much for one journal entry. I'd like to know what you guys think, though.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/22407786/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/22407786/ Wed, 07 Jan 2009 04:49:42 PST Epiphone Les Paul Special II~

Upon visiting Bert's, our town's local music store, we set out for an amp for my electric guitar and fixing up the guitar itself. I got it restrung and tuned to drop D. After having my guitar handed back to me, all fixed up and ready to go, I decided to take a look around. Suddenly, I noticed a red Epiphone guitar all by it's lonesome, hanging there beside the starter kits without a price tag.

I looked at it for a few moments, and noticed it was built lefty! o_O; Needless to say I was shocked. A friend of mine asked the store keeper if I could try it out, and after he agreed, we plugged me into a reasonably large amp, and he left to find the price. Once I played to opening to "Note to Self" on it, my eyes got really wide, and I just turned to my friend who was beside me. "I fucking want it!" I said as spastic as possible.

The shop keeper unplugged me after returning, and took a look at the guitar's body.
"A second hand guitar, $195, and not a single scratch on the thing, either." My eyes got wide again with excitement. Needless to say, I bought the cute thing.

A Heritage Cherry Sunburst finish, it's such a beautiful guitar. I simply had to have it! I'll get the amp another time, and likely my next ID picture will be with my new baby.

I still have yet to name the guitar, though. I named my black one Lucy (reference to Elfen Lied), and now I need a suitable name for this one.

EDIT:

Ashe?

I wanted a powerful name to suit my new guitar, but a kinda tasteful one, too. That's how I named Lucy, my black guitar. Ashe was the name of the main character in an online manga called Misfile, and I love the name. I like giving my guitars female names because, well...I'm just effeminate like that I guess. Naming it something like "Paul" or "Jake" just makes me upset.

I think Ashe fits the color scheme of the finish, and adds a subtle elegance to the guitar. I dunno, maybe I'm thinking about it too much. I just don't like naming my things with names I find stupid. I like taking the time to do it right.

Some feedback from friends might be nice. I'm still naming the guitar Ashe, but I'd still like to know everyone's thoughts about it.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/22197437/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/22197437/ Thu, 25 Dec 2008 18:45:31 PST Practicing Guitar updates~

Whoever says my deformation doesn't change anything are wrong. I swear, trying to pick the same string four consecutive times up then down is a bitch! I've been trying to learn the opening for "Ride the Wings of Pestilence" by From First to Last on my acoustic guitar for like over an hour already!

I mean, sure, that sounds so newb, saying "I can't get it after an hour" but LOOK AT THE DAMN TAB! it's just two fucking strings, the fingering of one doesn't change by the way, it stays at the 7th fret. The active one goes from 8th twice, then to 10th, then 11th. It's so simple, but the goddam pick keeps slipping out from the only two fingers I can use to hold the fucking thing. I'm hoping this isn't the result of my deformation.

Maybe it's because playing is harder on an acoustic, and it's meant for an electric. Maybe it's because I'm just getting angry too quickly, but I'm scared to fuck with this. I've wanted to play guitar so badly since I was a kid. If my deformation takes that away I'll be so pissed! It's these times I feel less than normal thanks to that fucking would-be hand of mine. I swear, if they ever say they can do a hand transplant with a very high success rate, I'm fucking lopping this piece of shit off.

Anyways, that is all.

Victory!

I finally nailed the opening for Ride the Wings of Pestilence, and not only that, but Note to Self, too! I could cry. I'm so happy.

I guess it was just that my sweaty palms included my fingertips, not to mention I had hair creme on them, so naturally my pick slipped.

Next, all that's left is to rig my electric to the right tuning and buy an amp with my holiday bonus. Then I can learn the rest of the songs, as I'll be able to notice my mistakes better through one. Also, it's hard to learn the rest on acoustic due to the fact that Sonny's vocals overpower the two guitars through the chorus'.

For once in my life, I finally feel like a musician. Amateur though I may be, that feeling of immortality you get when nailing something on a guitar is still there. I guess I'm on my way, then. I wonder how many of my friends will truly support me on this one.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/22183376/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/22183376/ Thu, 25 Dec 2008 07:06:10 PST Xmas

Mmmkay, so Christmas time, woo! Yeah okay whatever. Enough of that.
Things are pretty quiet this year, the whole family is down now, and my nephew's going nuts over his presents. "One more!" he always says. Funny as hell, that kid. ANYWAYS.

I've nothing to do, as usual. It didn't take me long to retire to the family computer. Got FFTL on looped. I am SO bored.

Still haven't gotten anything for xmas, but hey, I'm 17 now, so I guess I'm considered too old to spend money on. I have to participate in this $25 gift exchange thing with the fam. I bought a gift card from work. Tee-hee, I'm so sly >.>;

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/22060939/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/22060939/ Fri, 19 Dec 2008 05:41:11 PST 25 Things about "me":

Standard
1) Where do you live?
Behind my school/Canada.
2) What time is it?
9:36 AM

Family
1) What are your parent's names?
Don't care and neither should you.
2) Do you have brothers and sisters?
3 sisters.
3) Who is your favourite family member?
No one.
4) Do you get along with your family?
I guess.
5) Where do you fit in? (youngest, oldest)
Nowhere.

Friends
1) Who is your best friend?
That's a hard choice...I dunno. Who considers me their best friend? o_o;
2) Do you think you are popular?
Among most people, I suppose. Everyone seems to know me. Popularity is bullshit anyways.
3) What's your favourite thing to do with your friends?
Just hang out.
4) Where or how did you meet your best friend? N/A.
5) Would you do anything for your friends?
Yup, anything within reason.

Love
1) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? If so, what is their name?
Kewwi <3
2) How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?
Dunno.
3) Have you ever been in love?
Not before her! <3
4) What is the craziest thing you and your bf/gf have done?
Is that really something I should be posting on dA?! o_o;
5) Is there anyone you dated previously you wish you were still with?
Looking back now, I'd rather die.

Favourites
1) What is your favourite colour?
Black, purple, pink.
2) What is your favourite song?
Right nao it's "Secrets Don't Make Friends" by From First To Last.
3) What is your favourite band or musician?
Right nao it be FFTL. That could change within like 5 minutes though.
4) What is your favourite book?
Graphic Novel: "Rosario + Vampire"
5) What is your favourite food?
Like, I dunno...tacos? ._.
6) What is your favourite drink?
Monster/Stoked <3
7) What is your favourite subject in school? Most any Fine Art.
8) What is your favourite element?
Darkness or Light. Very contradictory, I know.
9) What is your favourite website?
I agree with Madison, this is a trick question! ._.
10) What is your favourite television show?
Anime, so maybe Makai Senki Disgaea, or Lucky Star.

This quiz was written by ~Jerkass and taken from ~quizzes. Fun.

EDIT: I should be getting some more artwork in soon, guys. Sorry about that.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/22044032/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/22044032/ Thu, 18 Dec 2008 05:40:27 PST Kingdom Hearts Re: Chain of Memories.

When my friend told me they re-released Kingdom Hearts: Chain of Memories for the PS2, I started freaking out, and here's my reason for that:

You know how Japan got two Final Mix versions of Kingdom Hearts I & II? Yeah, they had extra cutscenes, areas, enemies, and keychains! It pisses a lot of American and North-American fans off when those versions only come in Japanese. I mean, it sure pissed me off when I beat Ice Titan in the first game and got nothing to show for it! ._.

Well, This is exactly how it happened for Chain of Memories. Originally, the Japanese were the only ones gifted with a PS2 version of the game that came as a side with Kingdom Hearts 2: Final Mix, and we were stuck with the crappy GBA version! So once I saw they'd re-released it in english, I jumped at the chance to own it! A few of my friends bought it too, when I told them.

We're all avid Kingdom Hearts fans over here.

Updates.

Will be posting an ID picture soon, once I can find one of my friends who'll help me make it prettyful. Then you'll all be able to see my new hair!

I also would like to point out that I am in love with this guitar! I swear, I could make love to this baby! (obviously a joke) [link]
But it's $600+. It' does however come in lefty, so I'm happy.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/21991961/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/21991961/ Mon, 15 Dec 2008 05:10:02 PST
Are You,

1. Perfect?
Naw.

2. Tall?
Average.

3. In your pajamas?
I'm in class, I sure hope not o_o'

4. Left-handed?
Nope. Have you seen my left hand?! o_o'

LAST...

1. Friend you last saw?
Tyler, :devdeathcomeseasilyx:
2. Talked to on the phone?
Mark, bleh.

3. Person to text to?
Mark, again. -sigh-

4. Was today better than yesterday?
Not really. Neither were that great. The day before rocked, though! ^_^

FAVORITES:

1. Number?
Six.

2. Color(s)?
Black, Purple.

3. Fruit?
Dragon Fruit, Pears.

4. Place?
With ~zeldachan

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:

Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
A: Go back to sleep ._.

Q: Do you have anything that's bothering you?
A: Yes.

Q: What's the last movie you saw?
A: I don't remember, The Dark Knight maybe?

Q: Where's the last place you went?
A: Work.

Q: Do you smile a lot?
A: I try to. ^_^

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: Not really.

Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: I do my best to be.

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
A: My bed, silleh.

Q: When was the last time you cried?
A: Dunno.

Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?
A: My girlfriend.

Q: Rate life as of right now one being bad ten being great?
A: 8.5

Q: What do you hear right now?
A: Clicking of a thousand mouses. -in class right now-

Q: Does anything hurt right now?
A: My back, but that's always hurting.

Q: What's your favorite month?
A: June.

Q: What did you do last night?
A: Work and get groceries.

EIGHT EMOTIONS:

1. Are you missing someone right now?
Yes.

2. Are you happy ?
Um, neutral.

3. Are you sad ?
Not really.

4. Are you bored ?
Sorta.

6. Are you nervous ?
Nope.

8. Are you tired ?
Yes, big time.

ABOUT YOU:

001. Real name?
Jonathan

002. Nicknames ?
Jon, Jonny-kins (that's a pet name, but yeah).

003. Eye color ?
Blue.

004. Zodiac sign ?
Aquarius.

005. Male or female ?
Male.

009. Smart?
Doubtful.

010. Hair color ?
Black and pink.

011. Tall or short ?
Average height.

013. Sweats or Jeans?
Jeans, every time.

014. Phone or Camera ?
Both.

016. Drink or Smoke?
Neither.

020. Tattoos ?
None currently, but I want one.

021. Righty or lefty?
Righty.

FIRSTS:

024. First best friend?
Justin!

025. First crush?
Is now a whore.

027. First pet?
Ran away.

028. First big vacation?
PEI.

049. Eating?
How the hell should I know?!

050. Drinking?
I prefer water or pop.

052. I'm about to:
Sneeze.

053. Listening to:
Teacher bitching.

054. Plans for today?
School and visiting my lovely gf.

079. Drank bubbles?
Wha?

080. Lost glasses/contacts?
I don't wear 'em so no.

081. Ran away from home?
Yup, twice.

084. Broken someone's heart?
Yup.

085. Been arrested?
Hell no.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

090. Miracles?
Yup.

091. Yourself?
Somewhat.

092. Heaven ?
Yes, and Nirvana <3

093. Santa Claus ?
Oh god, no.

094. Love ?
Duh!

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

097. Do you like someone?
Yush, I luvvles her, and I'm pretty sure she loves me back! -glomps her-

099. Do you believe in God ?
No way! We make our own fate, dumbasses!

100. Answered the truth on all questions?
Yup.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/21876460/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/21876460/ Mon, 08 Dec 2008 05:15:12 PST
I mean, there are definitely guys I find attractive, but I'm not sure if that's just normal for boys to be attracted to the odd guy here and there. Anyways, I'll just play it neutral and see what happens.

This doesn't by any means imply that I'm not attracted to my girlfriend anymore, I've just been thinking a lot. That's all.

Plus, I really want a pair of snakebites on my bottom lip, but my friends seem to be in that 'in between' part when I ask them what they think. Some seem like they don't want me to get 'em at all, my girlfriend especially. If I do end up getting them, I won't be able to kiss her for a month, while they'd be healing. However, I think I could survive that, since she's barely into any of our kisses anyway. I know I'd miss it though, I mean, who wouldn't? She's got the most kissable lips ever! ^_^ -hugs her tightly-

But yeah, slight update on that: I want to be more intimate, but she doesn't because she doesn't want that to be my sole interest with her. While I can understand that much, I'd kinda expect her to trust me more than that after 2 whole years together! -sigh- But granted, since she took away that portion of the relationship (entirely), I've become such a total pervert with her in public. I mean, if I jokingly poke her boob or something, I'll usually make sure no one's looking first. Usually...

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/21778229/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/21778229/ Tue, 02 Dec 2008 05:22:58 PST That's just the way I am, and it's the way I've always been. I'm not going to change for anyone.

I have little to no discretion, because I believe censorship on others is wrong, so why bother censoring yourself? I trust my friends to know when I don't mean what I say when I insult them. Sometimes they get the wrong idea, but it seems like people have been getting the wrong idea as of late, and no matter what I try to do to fix it, they fly off the handle for something else almost immediately after we patch things up.

As if my life wasn't hard enough right now as it stands! -cries into corner and dies-

Let's re-cap:

-I have a psycho mother trying to find me
-I'm picked on somewhat for my femininity as a male
-I have one, sometimes two domineering sisters that I wish would stop interfering in my life (although I do appreciate what help they are, really)
-I'm living on my own
-I'm living paycheck to paycheck with little to treat myself with in between
-The hours I get are shit
-Whatever hours I do get interfere with my schooling
-My landlord just recently relieved herself and me of a psycho woman on medication who kept trying to force her way into my room
-I'm in my most stressful year of High School
-I am currently failing 3 classes in that most stressful year, and my controlling sister is stressing me out about it even more
-I'm a naturally stressed out person (I stress over anything)
-I come from a rich past family, so I'm a spoiled brat who always wants his way
-I have a hard time admitting I'm wrong (though I can occasionally, with some help)
-I have a deformity on my left hand that gets me dirty looks ALL THE TIME! Usually it's the fucking ignorant french people I serve at work
-I have a problem with authority
-I always have to be right (which is a quality I wish I could rid myself of, and currently working on)
-I am way too sensitive for my own good, so I get hurt so easy it's not even funny
-I shoot my mouth off whenever I feel necessary, which is not often

And so many other fucking problems that are too numerous to list! LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE ABOUT IT! I'm not trying to get pity by whining about my life. I just have enough going on right now!

When I think about all that's happening at once right now, I just want to break down..
It's as if there's this enormous amount of pressure on my ribcage and I get a sick feeling and want to lie down and not talk to anybody.

That's my life. Half the reason why I'm so bitchy and asshole-ish lately. Sorry guys..

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/21675286/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/21675286/ Wed, 26 Nov 2008 05:38:01 PST
Axe: Swing! xD
Chainsaw: Silent Hill
Dog: Colette Brunel
Cat: Final Fantasy 7 (when you go back to Nibelheim)
Crow: Death Bringer
Television: Album cover for From First To Last's self-titled album.
Plastic: Surgery xD
Metal: Armor
Fire: Flame dancer
Water: Drowning
Pigeon: New York
Pie: Blueberry <3
Blood: Metallic taste <3
Death: The ultimate liberation (Lady Yunalesca, Final Fantasy X)
Bunnies: Ringololoooo
Flowers: Field
Sun: Star
Frilly pink dress: Yay! Can I wear it? o_o

What first comes to mind when you first hear the following adjective?

Hot: Billy Kaulitz <3
Cold: Ice
Wet: NO! Get away from my hair wetness! EVAL!! -hisses-
Fried: Chicken
Funny: Tyler getting injured
Sad: No more pie Forlorn: ...eh?
Happy: Kill
Hyper: Tranquilizer
Depressed: Attention-seeking scene kids -kills them-
Bouncy: Boobs ^^ -grabs gf's-
Stiff: Lmao! Ur so gay, 'nd you don't even like...PENIS!
Stretchy: Bra straps! ^^ -giggles-
Wobbly: Chair
Dark: -ness = <3
Bright: Light

What first comes to mind when you hear the following verbs?

Jump: Fall
Walk: For poor people
Run: For athletic poor people
Drink: Yays! Sustainance!
Fight: to Kill
Rant: to Make your Point
Complement: DeviantART
Sit: Down
Stand: Up
Spin: Out of Control! KOTOV SYNDROME!!
Call: Phone
Whistle: Pervert
Ask: Shut Up!
Beg: -ing is for Dogs
Give: to Receive
Take: to Give
Slash: Claws/Talons

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/21642290/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/21642290/ Mon, 24 Nov 2008 05:27:56 PST

Count your numbers and multiply by three.
Then title this journal "My life is ___% happy."

[x] You have a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[x] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[x] You have an iPod/ mp3 player.
[ ] Your parents are still married.
[x] You have more than 2 best friends.
[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.

T 0 T A L: 15


[x] You dress how you want to.
[x] You hang out with friends more than once a week.
[ ] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[ ] You have never been beaten up.
[ ] You never cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[ ] Your room is big enough for you.
[x] People don't use you for something you have.
[ ] You have been to a concert.

T 0 T A L: 12

[ ] You have over 50 friends on Myspace.
[x] Your parents let you have a Myspace. (my parents don't give a damn)
[ ] You get allowance.
[ ] You collect something normal.
[ ] You look forward to going to school.
[ ] You don't wish you were someone else.
[ ] You play a sport.
[x] You do something after school.

T 0 T A L: 6

[ ] You own a car.
[ ] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[ ] You are happy with your appearance.
[ ] You aren't self-conscious at all.
[ ] You have never got a failing grade in your life.
[x]You have friends.

T 0 T A L: 3


[x] You know what is going on in the world. (more or less)
[x] You care about so many people.
[ ] You are happy with your life.
[x] You know more than one language. (i know bits and pieces of french and some japanese)
[x] You have a screen name.
[ ] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to 5 songs. (much more than 5! Hey, what are we dysfunctional teens for?)
[ ] You don't have any enemies.
[x] You are a generally nice person.

T O T A L: 18

T O T A L: 54%

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/21529456/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/21529456/ Mon, 17 Nov 2008 05:34:38 PST
*What is your name sir/madame?: Jonathan Boivin
*How old are you?: 17 years old.

*What is your pet's name? Shippo (ran away)

*How would you describe your personality?: I talk too much in my opinion, and I ramble on and on about nothing. However I have some nice friends, only a handful, but that's all I need. Quiet for the most part, but I'm quite materialistic and greedy when it comes down to it.

*How about your love life?: Great! In fact, today is my 2-year anniversary with my little hunny-bun! ^_^ -glomps her and smooches-

*Your hobbies?: Drawing, practicing guitar, listening to music a hell of a lot.
_____________________________________________________________________________

~ALL ABOUT THE HAIR~

*Color?: Brown.

*Straight?: No.

*Curly?: Yeah. >_<

*Dye it a lot?: Yeah.

*Straighten it a lot?: Yup.

*Curl it?: Hell no.

*Braid it?: Whenever hunny-bun is around to do it for me.
_____________________________________________________________________________

~EYES~

*Describe those unique eyes of yours.: Not so unique. I'm told they are neutral blue, but have slate-colored accents which apparently give my eyes a steel-like color.
_____________________________________________________________________________

~THE FAMOUS: SEXUALITY~

Are you a total pervbag?: Anyone who knows me will say yes.
Are you in a relationship?: Of course I am. With a very lovely girl,
Do you really love that person?: Duh, of course! There's no one I love more. She can be quite naive and childish, but given the right circumstances it can be cute sometimes.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/21105357/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/21105357/ Wed, 22 Oct 2008 04:52:12 PDT
]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/20996742/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/20996742/ Wed, 15 Oct 2008 05:04:30 PDT [x] You drink a lot of tea.
[ ] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[x] You use the word "bugger" or the phrase "bloody hell."
[ ] Fish and Chips are yummy.
[ ] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[ ] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs (bad question >.>
[ ] Its football...not soccer.
Total: 2


Australian
[ ] you wear flip flops all year.
[ ] You call flip flops "thongs", not flip flops.
[ ] You love a backyard Barbie.
[ ] You know a Barbie is not a doll.
[x] You love the beach.
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing
[ ] You're a sports fanatic.
[ ] You are tanned.
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan.
[ ] You have an Australian something.
Total: 2

Italian
[ ] The Sopranos is a great show.
[ ] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[x] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[x] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[ ] You know Italian songs.
[ ] You have dark hair and dark eye color.
[ ] You speak some Italian.
[x] You are under 5'10''.
[ ] You know what an Italian horn is.
[x] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world!
[x] You talk with your hands.
Total: 5

Spanish
[x] You say member instead of Remember.
[ ] You speak Spanish or some.
[x] You like tacos.
[ ] YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr. (oh HELL no!)
[ ] You are dark skinned.
[ ] You know what a Puta is.
[x] You talk fast occasionally.
[x] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[ ] You know what platanos are.
Total: 4

Russian
[ ] You say villain as: Vee-lon.
[x] You get short tempered.
[x] You know of somebody named Natasha.
[x] You get cold easily.
[x] Rain is fun for you.
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[x] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
total: 5

Irish
[ ] You think beer is the best.
[ ] You have a bad temper.
[x] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y or L.
[x] You have blue or green eyes.
[ ] You like the color green.
[ ] You have been to a St. Patty’s day party.
[x] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have red hair.
[ ] You have/had freckles.
[x] Your family get togethers always include drinking and singing. (unfortunately)
Total: 1

African American
[ ] You say nigga/nukka casually. (as if!)
[ ] You have nappy hair.
[ ] You like rap. (really bad question! Argh!)
[x] You know how to shoot a gun.
[x] You think President George Walker Bush is racist. (I think a lot of Americans are racist. Not all, but some.)
[x] You like chicken.
[x] You like watermelon. (I can't help thinking the chicken and watermelon reference is to a song from the MMVAs)
[ ] you can dance.
[ ] You can 'sing' gospel.
Total: 4

Asian
[ ] You have slanty/small eyes.
[x] You like rice a lot.
[ ] You are good at math.
[ ] You have played the piano.
[ ] You have family from Asia.
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[ ] Most people think you're Chinese.
[ ] You call hurricanes typhoons.
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total: 2

German
[x] You like bread.
[x] You think German Chocolate is good.
[x] You speak some German.
[x] You know what Schnitzel is.
[x] You hate it when stupid people call you.
[ ] You went to Pre-school.
[x] You're over 5'2.
Total: 6

Canadian
[ ] You like/play/played hockey.
[ ] You love beer.
[x] You say eh.
[x] You now what poutine is.
[x] You speak some French.
[x] You love Tim Horton's.
[x] At one point you lived in a farm house.
[ ] You watch/watched degrassi.
Total: 5

American
[ ] You hate foreigners.
[ ] You hate non - Christians. (quite the opposite, I think religion is a total lie)
[x] You're lazy.
[ ] You abortion
[ ] But love the penalty.
[ ] You don't read
[x] You shop at Wal-Mart.
[ ] You think this survey is rather biased.
Total: 2

Belgian:
[ ] you grow some small vegetables in the yard.
[x] you like french fries.
[x] you think Belgian (or Hungarian) chocolate rules.
[ ] you know that the 'official best beer in the world' is Belgian
[ ] you speak both Dutch and French
[x] you like Belgian waffles.
[ ] you call a pub or bar a café.
[ ] you fully realize and acknowledge that your football team sucks. (Canada has a football team?! o_O'http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/20903486/ Thu, 09 Oct 2008 10:13:51 PDT
The idea to cross-dress came from the fact that I'm just a naturally feminine boy and my friends suggested it I think. A couple friends suppourt me in my decision, yet my gf is still wierded out about it.

At any rate, that is all. *bows*

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/20663107/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/20663107/ Thu, 25 Sep 2008 05:12:04 PDT
2) Name Backwards: tyaF

3) Were you named after anyone?: nope

4) Does your name mean anything?: It means Fate, der.

5) Nick Name(s): You really have to ask?

6) Screen Name(s): Fayt / Xean, etc.

7) Date of Birth: January 30

8) Place of Birth: Dunno, dun care.

9) Nationality: Canadian

10) Current Location: Canada, duh!

11) Sign: Aquarius

12) Religion: Whichever one I want on that specific day XP

13) Height: *shrugs*

14) Weight: Uhm...around 133 or so

15) Shoe Size: 9 or so in regular shoes, 8 in Converse

16) Hair colour: light brown

17) Eye colour: blue

18) What do you look like?: I look like your average stereotypical emo, a poser really, but I love the way I dress so I don't care if I come off as a poser. I'm as emo as they come.

19) Innie or Outie?: Innie

20) Righty, Lefty, both: Righty, can't really be lefty with my birth deformation...

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?: Straight, but I find Bill Kaulitz so sexy it's scary.

22) Best friends?: Nick, Tim, Justin, Annie, Amy.

23) Best friend you trust the most: errrr....

24) Best friends {your sex}: Tim, Nick, Justin.

25) Best friends of the opposite sex: Annie, Amy.

26) Best Bud(s): Redundancy! I hate it!

27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend: Have a girlfriend! ^_^ ~zeldachan

28) Crush: If I can still have a crush during the relationship, then yeah, sure. Her sexy side is my crush @ w @

29) Parent(s): Hate 'em both at the moment

31) Favorite on-line Guy(s): er...Justin?

32) Favorite on-line Girl(s): Girlfriend!

33) Funniest friend: Nick?

34) Craziest friend: Jerred

35) Advice Friend: Amy?

36) Loudest Friend: my friends are quiet ^^

37) Person you cry with: Gf, duh.

Do You Have...

38) Any sisters: Yup, 3.

39) Any brothers: I wish

40) Any pets: There's Shippou, but he ran away T_T

41) A Disease: Stupidity count?

42) A Pager: Nope.

43) A Personal phone line: Nope

44) A Cell phone: If only! *cries*

45) A Lava lamp: Nope.

46) A Pool or hot tub: Neither...I suck T_T

47) A Car: Nope.

Describe Your...

48) Personality: Annoying, clingy, selfish, spoiled, and very sexual, etc.

49) Driving: Don't have a license, wouldn't know.

50) Car or one you want: Don't have one, and by the price of gas, don't want one.

51) Room: Small. Bed, desk, mirror. Really just a place to put my shit in.

52) What’s missing?: A lover.

53) School: Sugarloaf Senior High School

54) Bed: One person, nothing special.

55) Relationship with your parent(s): Don't want 'em in my life right now.

Do You

56) Believe in yourself: Hell no. Dumb question.

57) Do you believe in love at first sight?: I guess.

58) Consider yourself a good listener: Yeah, pretty much. Lots of people feel comfortable telling me their problems 'cos I listen.

60) Get Along with your parents: NO.

61) Save your e-mail conversations: Nope.

62) Pray: Only when it makes me feel better afterward.

63) Believe in reincarnation: Yeah.

64) Like to make fun of people: Only if I can't stand them, like REALLY can't stand 'em.

65) Like to talk on the phone: Yes!

66) Like to eat?: Yeah, but I eat too much.

67) Like to drive: I don't drive.

68) Get motion sickness: Only when I've had milk beforehand.

69) Eat the stems of broccoli: Yeah!

70) Eat Chicken fingers with a fork: Nah, not really.

71) Dream in color: Yep.

72) Type with your fingers on home row: I dunno or care.

73) Sleep with a stuffed animal: Nope.

74) Right next to you: My bookbag....I'm in class right now.

75) On the walls of your room: A picture my love drew me, and a mirror.

76) On your mouse pad: No mouse pad.

77) Your dream car: Meh.

78) Your dream date: One that ends in a bed with the person naked beside me, dammit!

79) Your dream honeymoon spot: A bed, lol.

80) Your dream husband/wife: The girlfriend I have now!

81) Your bedtime: Whenever I feel like going to bed.

82) Under your bed: Dust.

83) The single most important question: "What does sex mean to you?"

84) Your bad time of the day: Morning and when I'm denied sex.

85) Your worst fear(s): Spiders *cries*

86) The weather... ]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/20449699/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/20449699/ Fri, 12 Sep 2008 04:42:28 PDT
At any rate, I revisited the idea, and have devised a backstory and storyline for him. I've changed his race from human to Fallen Angel, and the reason for all of this will become clear once I post the story. I'll be posting it soon if I have the time. I can only use the library computers for an hour though, and there'll be days when I can't get on anything, so don't expect too much

That's all for now. Felt like updating. Laterz!~

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/20422490/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/20422490/ Wed, 10 Sep 2008 12:44:54 PDT
Also, I've recently been questioning my orientation...again >.>; Since I'm attracted to Bill Kaulitz, I'm not sure what to make of it, maybe it's just because he looks like a girl somewhat. Either way, I can't get him outta my head, and have started drawing pictures of us -together- like lying down together, him pulling on my pants (to try and get 'em down), etc. Since this new development, my gf has been getting sad when she saw them, but has not done anything but mope about it, not even trying to attempt to make me stop. She dislikes it, maybe even hates, but she just mopes! I don't know what to do when she mopes, as she does it WAY too frequently. I'd tell her to get a backbone, but that'd just make things worse.

I'm probably not bisexual, but I don't know what to think. Many of my friends from school who read this'll probably start calling me a poser or whatever, but I obviously don't care, which is why I still posted this journal...or rather, rant.

At any rate, you who've read this are now free to go back to your lives, and think what you will about me.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/20386358/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/20386358/ Mon, 08 Sep 2008 05:38:25 PDT
Guys are supposed to fill this half out.
Turns me on = ON
Turns me off = OFF
Doesn't matter/make any difference = DM

Here we go! ^_~

Has a nice butt: DM

Plays musical instrument: DM

Is taller than you: DM

Is shorter than you: DM

Has green eyes: DM

Has blue eyes: ON

Has brown eyes: DM

Has hazel eyes: OFF

Has long hair: ON

Has med. hair: DM

Has short hair: OFF

Drinks alcohol: OFF!

Smokes cig's: OFF!

Smokes weed: OFF!

Has blonde hair: DM

Has brown hair: DM

Has black hair: DM

Has red hair: OFF

Calls you just to say hi: ON

Creative: ON

Compliments you: ON (very much so)

Shaves her legs: ON

Wears jewelry: DM

Has bigger feet than you: OFF

Has smaller feet than you: ON

Belly piercings: DM

Doesn't party: ON

Likes to party: OFF

Wants to party: OFF

Laughs a lot: ON

Funny: ON

Skinny: DM

Rides a street bike: OFF

Tattoo: Depends what and where.

Honest: ON (Totally!)

Open: ON

Shy and quiet: Dunno how I feel about that one.

Licks lips: DM

Lightly bites: ONN! (Yes!!)

Talks dirty: ON ON ON ON ON!!

Leaves you random comments: DM

Competes with you on stupid lil' stuff: ON

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/19602226/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/19602226/ Sat, 26 Jul 2008 06:09:55 PDT Also, got Hail Destroyer, new Cancer Bats album, kicks ass like no other. I swear.
Oh yeah, newest development, my fucking mother forgets to come get me at 10 after my shift, so I'm there 'till midnight before I call my gf's mum to come get me. AHH! Get the the hell outta here God! Where are you when I need you dammit!?
So, since I've been living with her in Matapedia, I've been going absolutely nuts, that fucking woman has got some serious psychotic fucking issues! I kid you not!!
Only thing really keeping me sane is:
1) My girlfriend, just being there to help me through it all (just a payphone call away)
2) My music - Cancer Bats lately, Bullet, Tokio Hotel, 30STM, etc.
3) The drawing I do when I'm so damn bored I can't take doing nothing anymore!

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/18899448/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/18899448/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 19:12:04 PDT MAD!

Tonight I started going through Amy's music and I found A Perfect Circle. After listening to it for a while, and looking at :UnnamedDeviant:'s yaoi and I came up with another rape story so yeah, I'll be posting it soon, probably.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/18895331/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/18895331/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 15:01:37 PDT
All moved in now! ^_^ Things are much better here! Have two younger sisters for a change, and my girlfriend's only a 5-10 minute walk away Doesn't hurt.

Whoever makes me an icon gets several sketches! Yeah I know this is probably a vain attempt, but here goes nothing, neh?

I getz a new camera, so I'll be uploading more pictures soon ^^.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/18839904/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/18839904/ Sat, 14 Jun 2008 14:47:20 PDT

Amy was here <3


Jon's mean to me =/





]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/18639303/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/18639303/ Wed, 04 Jun 2008 04:41:32 PDT FREE!

Oh my word, my drawing has gotten better since I revisited 30 Seconds to Mars' first album, and now I wanna go see one of their concerts since I saw the bonus footage from their first album which, by the way, is much better than their newer one in my opinion! They look so cool with their on-stage theatrics! Jared Leto may be a big whore in Hollywood, but I still think he's cool *nodnod* I wanna make a new name 30STM inspired, Like Capricorn or Zero or something, I have NO CLUE!

I'm going to be updating my gallery soon guys, I'm sure you're all dying to see my newest works. Yeah, riiight. X3

EDIT: I seriously can't wait for the move, and it's as if my family is trying to convince the person taking me in not to! Argh! I say, ARGH!! But the fact that they snooped around my journal entries is still baffling me! I can't even vent!

I am also thinking about getting a tattoo for my birthday, but maybe sooner. I'm not even sure if I have to be 18 to get one But I think I'll want a Bullet for My Valentine rose, or maybe the 30 Seconds to Mars symbols...I dunno, something small but cool. My friend ~Untoldlies wants me to draw a pair of cute little angel wings on her wrist, so I may look around dA for ideas.

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/18555004/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/18555004/ Thu, 29 May 2008 05:25:07 PDT
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes. (Oh yeah, all the time!)
[x] I have many scars. (Not because I'm emo, because of my operation at birth, my left hand is covered in scars, plus I have one in the inside of both my big toes, and one on my groin area )
[x] I tan easily. (Unfortunately)
[x] I wish my hair was a different color. ((Black! >.<)
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo. (I want one)
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. (Very!)
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. (A stupid grade 8 girl told my girlfriend's mom I was hot, gahh, gross)
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings. (Nah, only two)
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[x] I've been kicked out of the house. (In the process)
[ ] My biological parents are together. (Yeah right!)
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday (Big time!)
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school
[x] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school. (Both! XD)
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job (As if!)
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried. (Plenty of times XD)
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[x] I was born with a disease/impairment (Does a deformation count?)
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I've had measles

Traveling
[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada. (Duh! I live in Canada! XP
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan. (I wish!)
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. (Out of reflex, just an accident. Also hit girlfriend's brother with a slipper there, again, unintentional)
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping. (I wanna though)
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten sushi. (Not a fan of fish, bleck!)
[x] I've been snowboarding. (I called my board 'Genesis' Not dorky at all, neh?)

Relationships
[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship (With my perfect woman! ^^)
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumped more than the dumper. (You're surprised?)
[x] I miss someone right now. (Yeah, my girlfriend's passionate side T__T)
[x] I have a fear of abandonment. (Big time!)
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've... ]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/18442164/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/18442164/ Thu, 22 May 2008 05:15:45 PDT
Still so hard to believe her mom is so nice to me when she's only met me once! Guess I made a good first impression *shrug* Those are important after all XD

Wahh my girlfriend left for her band trip today and I'm lonely since she was in all of my classes! T_T

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/18284294/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/18284294/ Fri, 16 May 2008 04:47:25 PDT friend from Matapedia flats, but my gf doesn't like the idea since she's my ex, *sigh*. But oh well, we'll see what happens. Blehh...Ever since, I've been so irritable and pissed, and I keep taking it out on my love >.<*
I gotz 3 new CDs! ^^ Queens of the Stone Age, "Era Vulgaris", Theory of a Deadman, "Scars &Souvenirs", and Thousand Foot Krutch, "The Flame in All of Us". wooo! But I have no means of putting them on my iPod since my "parents" took away the computer again! >,<*

*Edit*
My friend from art class, Amy (~Untoldlies) said her mom would be willing to take me in! ^^ Woooot! She said her sister was all like, "Does that mean I'm going to have a brother?!" and I laughed. Then again, now that I think about it, this means I'll have two younger sisters now after I move in after exams, or maybe sooner, depending on how quickly my attitude boils around my "'rents". Apparently I'll be taking the basement and we can sorta convert it into a room in which I'll have the privacy I need. This is exciting! ^^
I still can't believe they invaded my privacy though! >.< They tell me to have respect, the nit-wit hypocrites!

]]> ~Fate-EternalHybrid http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/18123265/ http://Fate-EternalHybrid.deviantart.com/journal/18123265/ Thu, 01 May 2008 19:10:03 PDT yamicool's journal, so I decided to do it with my own OC. Kaori, again! Duh.

Rules: pick one OC, and answer the following questions about him/her/it. Enjoy!

I picked Kaori. Yes, again.


Section One - Questions About Yourself.

(1) What is your full name?
Kaori Winters Datenshi

(2) How old are you?
16

(3) Where’s your home town?
The Netherworld

(4) What is it that you do exactly job wise?
Whatever Father makes me do. Right now he's selling my body like meat in exchange for rising in nobility. I also fight in the Netherdrome, a coliseum in town.

(5) Do you have any annoying habits?
Snoring.

(6) What is your darkest secret?
There's another 'me' deep within my soul that thrives on hatred and neglect, whispering words of sin in my consciousness. If I don't find a way to calm this inner self, she will eventually come to destroy me....

(7) Have you ever been in love?
Yes, I currently am in love, with a Fallen Angel.

Section Two - Others Around You

(1) Is there someone you can always count on in your life at the moment?
Yes, Kouta, my love.

(2) Is there anyone you hate?
Everyone...except for Kouta..

(3) If so why do you hate them?
They all hate me for being something I cannot help but be, an angel-demon hybrid. I can't even tell if it's a good reason to hate me anymore, it's been so long....maybe I deserve it...I don't know.

(4) Is there anyone in your group that you’d rather get rid of?
I don't belong in a group. I would however like to get rid of many people.

(5) Is there anyone special that you’d give your life to protect?
Kouta, my Mother.

(6) If you could make one persons day today who would it be?
Kouta.

Last Section - Pick One!

(1) Tea or coffee?
Tea. Much more calming, and I lose enough sleep as it is.

(2) Wine or beer?
Beer. I've had a bad experience with wine. One of my Father's 'clients' decides he'd find it sexy if he got to pour it all over my body, then lick it off himself...the sick bastard..

(3) Marmite? Love it or hate it?
What is a marmite? *tilts head slightly*

(4) Muffins or cupcakes?
Can't say, I've never eaten either, or any other solid food before in my life.

(5) Love or lust?
Love. Lust is filthy, and serves only as an excuse to rape the weak..

(6) Peace or war?
War. Killing is the only thing I can do to release all of my pent-up anger.

(7) Cats or dogs?
I don't care. Honestly I'd tear them both apart, given the chance.

(8) Life or death?
What does it matter? I live in between the two right now, so I don't really care about either. If I had to chose, I'd say death. Maybe then I'd find escape from this madness.

(9) Kiss or hug?
For me...? But..I don't deserve love...and I don't have friends..

(10) Angels or demons?
Neither, they're both every bit as racist as each other.


Done! I tag anyone who wants to do this..

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I'd probably end up hurting myself, or going literally insane, they might have to lock me up so I wouldn't hurt myself..yeah...

2. What will you do if you do not share the same feelings as the person who likes you?

I simply say "I think you should go after someone else." That's it, that's all.

3. What is your favorite video game and why?

Right now Rock Band, but the spring for my whammy bar is gone T_T I was such a whammy whore..I'm so sad now

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?

More scared than confused, but a bit of both. Life always finds a new way to fuck me over.

5. What's your ideal boyfriend/girlfriend like?

The one I have now. She's got faults, but that's what makes her so perfect to me ^^

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?

Being loved in return is one of the best feelings ever, I swear to god.

7. If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?

All I could really do is accept it and try to move on, really depends on the person.

8. If you give someone a reason to lose trust in you, you would....

Try as hard as I could to take back that reason, no matter how vain it seemed.

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently which you'd like to say something about?

Yeah, yesterday I was "jokingly" attacked with 14 'cripple jokes' which weren't so funny to me, more enraging than anything. However, it made me realize who my real friends aren't.

10. How do you want to live your life?

Securely, surrounded by people who share my love of music and passion for artistic expression, but are positive in most aspects. Financial security couldn't hurt, but it's unlikely.
In truth, anywhere away from most (not all) of my family.

11. Is being tagged fun?

Depends who by, this tag was fun. ^^

12. If you find out that your best friend is going out with your boyfriend/girlfriend, how would you react?

Slap my girlfriend hard on the cheek, and glare at my best friend with every last bit of my being. Run away and just end it all..

13. Who is currently the most important person to you?

My girlfriend.

14. What is your favorite phrase or quote?

"Respect is a lie. It's merely a form of fear people instill in others to get their way with them."


14. What is the most predominant color around you?

Black, just look at my clothes. Maybe some white.

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor?

Poor and married. I'm used to being poor, so I'd just blow my money if I were rich and end up fucked, financially.

16. What kind of sounds are the most annoying?

Babies who don't stop crying, ugh.

17. Would you give your all in a relationship?

If with my girlfriend or a friend, yes. With my family, probably not, more or less.

18. What do you see music as?

An escape from this filthy world.

19. What type of friends do you like?

Ones who accept me for the way I am in every way.

20. Do you have any favorite pairing(s) in any fandoms?

Erm, not sure what that is.... gonna stick with food and say rice and chickenballs.


That's it! ^^ Now I tag ~zeldachan, ~Untoldlies, and ~Rekiah.

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