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_{Ahem. Yeah, that was pointless. Sorry! 8D;}

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/28589295/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/28589295/ Thu, 26 Nov 2009 11:53:27 PST

I just wanted to say thanks for giving.

Thank you: My friends that I see every day at school. I can't begin to describe how boring and sad my life would be without you guys to brighten my day and make me laugh. I've never met anyone like you two and I'm more than thankful to have you in my life. Thank you!

Thank you: My friends on dA. You guys are the ones who have pushed me and encouraged me to become a better artist. When I first started out here on dA, I was just befuddled by all of the absolutely fantastic artists and the only thing I wanted was to be as good as them. But I was discouraged every time I tried to improve. However, with the friends that I've made along the way, it's been made possible for me to keep going. I'm not bragging or anything, but if you were to show the me from 2-3 years ago a horse that I drew yesterday, the me from the past wouldn't believe that her future self drew it. That's how dramatically I've improved, and I'm going to keep working at it until the me from 2-3 years in the future won't believe I drew a picture from years before that. You guys have always been here to offer words of comfort in my darkest of times too, especially over the past few months, and I don't quite know if I could have made it through so easily without you beside me. You guys are beyond words. Thank you!

Thank you: My family. Oh goodness, I don't know where to begin. My family, although we may not get along as much as we probably should, I'm thankful for them. What fun would a perfect family be, anyway? No matter how many times we've fought, the good times and laughs that we have together seem to outweigh the anger by so much more. We've all experienced dark hardships this year and I think that although we were all feeling the sadness, we all helped each other through. My family also provides me with the artistic support that I absolutely need. Without a family to back an artist up, I think it would be a much lonelier place. Thank you Mom and Dad, for never quitting your relationship for us. Thank you for continuing to teach us about everything we'll need to succeed in life. Without the knowledge we've acquired from you, we'd be half the people we are now. Thank you, Colton, Cauy, Jade, and Justina - although you all drive me off the wall on almost a daily basis, life would be so dull without you. You guys are the ones in charge of testing my patience! Thank you!

I'm thankful for the roof over my head, the clothes that I take from my dresser every morning, the hot water for showers and the hot food on the table. I know that not everyone in the world has the chance to enjoy all of these things on a regular basis, but I still pray for them and hope that one day, they will live just as well as you and I.

What are you thankful for?

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I'm planning on doing a portrait of Hysteria in acrylics for my Breadth Portfolio, and the background is going to be solid black with her against it. I was planning on doing a color concentration that focused on blood on her facial scars, and keeping her skin tones and hair grayscale.

Do you think I should go with that idea or paint her skin and hair in color?

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/28514189/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/28514189/ Sun, 22 Nov 2009 17:05:15 PST
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Think back eight months ago, were you single?
Yes.

What do you carry with you at all times?
Sketchbook, iPod, phone, pen and pencil, and an eraser. x3

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you text messaged?
Eddie (a kid from French class).

How are you feeling?
Very mixed feelings...

Is something wrong right now?
What's your definition of "wrong"? x3

Are you mad at someone?
"Annoyed with" is a better term.

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
No, I woke up at 8:00 this morning for some weird reason.

Are you jealous of someone right now?
"Angry with" someone who is playing with the emotions of someone I care about.

Do you have a piggy bank that’s actually shaped like a pig?
lol No, but that'd be cool.

What’s the last thing you put in your mouth?
Frappuccino. <3

What are you suppose to be doing right now?
I don't really know...

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Yes. x3

Could you handle a long distance relationship?
No because I wouldn't put myself in a long distance relationship (unless there were certain circumstances).

Could you cry right now?
I could make myself cry if I tried really hard.

Do you ever think about stuff and start crying?
Only if what I'm thinking about is important enough to cry about.

Are you okay with the life you live?
I couldn't ask for better because a perfect life isn't a life.

Did you enjoy your day today?
It's only five in the afternoon and I've still got some drawing to get done!

Do you have a tattoo?
No. But once, I used a washable marker and tattooed my WHOLE left arm and went out wearing a tank-top. People stared!

Would you ever get any piercings on your body, other than your ear?
If you give me a fake lip ring, I'll wear it.

What was the last thing you spent money for?
I can't remember...

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Zayde.

Do you call it fall or autumn?
I use Fall in a conversation and use Autumn when I write about it.

11:11… Make a wish?
Only if I happen to catch it. x3

Honestly, who makes you happy most of the time?
My two best (human) friends , my two best (animal) friends , my Mom and the twins.

What were you up to at 9pm last night?
Working on ~ferralsoul's trade and watching paranormal documentaries. Yeah, I have an obsession with the paranormal.

Do you hold grudges?
It really depends on the situation.

Pick a word that starts with the first letter of your first name?
Continue.

In the past seventy-two hours, have you been under the influence?
I haven't been under the influence in the past 16 years.

Who was your last text from?
Hank (a very stubborn guy friend).

Who was your last phone call from?
Zayde.

One thing you’re looking forward to?
Free time. x3

Are you shy at first when it comes to meeting people?
It depends on who I'm meeting. ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/28478041/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/28478041/ Fri, 20 Nov 2009 21:52:12 PST

I want to get so much done! So much personal art that I've been meaning to do! Lately, all my art has been are piles of sketches and AP stuff. @_@

Are any of you on vacation yet?

On another note...

I watched New Moon today. Yeah, I know what you're thinking. But really... I don't want to sound harsh, but the only thing I really liked in that movie was the werewolf action. So wonderfully done, especially the fighting scenes. They made those wolves so great. Other than that, I didn't really like it all too much... Sorry, fans. But just because Twilight isn't my thing doesn't mean that I hate it or its fans. I can't stand it when people assume that.

Anyway, before I go off on a rant...

Gotta go do some stuff or something. Bye y'all!

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/28224533/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/28224533/ Sun, 08 Nov 2009 18:22:43 PST [link]

AMAZING. The picture on this camera is unreal! I took a whole bunch of photos, but I still have to download the software. But when I do, I'll post them! I couldn't get any of Tucker though, because he's got a critical fear of this contraption. He won't let me get anywhere near him with it! Silly guy ~

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/28116558/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/28116558/ Mon, 02 Nov 2009 22:18:26 PST
Why the freakin' crap is it so hard to draw with a tablet on a MacBook?! I seriously can't draw a smooth line! They're all shaky and messy. This is gonna take some getting used to...

_{Oh, and am I the only one who thinks that Zac Bagans is INSANELY hot?! 8'D He's my husband. I swear. xD Those armsssssss. *-*}

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/28055984/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/28055984/ Fri, 30 Oct 2009 23:54:09 PDT EDIT: HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!! OMG I'm so excited, you have NO idea!!! Halloween is definitely one of the best days of the year. I hope you guys have an awesome day!! <3333

ENDIT

FIVE MINUTES TO HALLOWEEN.

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/28036756/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/28036756/ Thu, 29 Oct 2009 20:31:50 PDT EditEditEdit: NOW THERE'S 8! The people of tomorrow must like my art.

EditEdit: Now there's 6!!!

Edit: Now it says there are 4 pageviews! LOLWHUT!

On my statistics, it says that I have 2 pageviews on October 30th...

Freeeeaky!

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27987681/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27987681/ Mon, 26 Oct 2009 23:32:45 PDT It definitely was NOT one of the scariest movies ever though. As a matter of fact, it was just sort of creepy, not really all that scary, if that makes sense. It was just enough to give you the chills and watch your back when you're alone, but not give you nightmares or make you lose sleep.

Anyhow, here's a game. Play it. Please. 8D

Between You and Me Game
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. I'll tell you my favorite thing about you.
9. I'll tell you my least favorite thing about you.
10. If you play, you MUST post this on yours.

I hate it when you're tired but you can't sleep... I hate it so much. Dx

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27944186/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27944186/ Sat, 24 Oct 2009 15:38:24 PDT Paranormal Activity and surprisingly, I'm pretty apprehensive about it. Has anyone seen it yet? Is it really as scary as they say it is? Movies about paranormal horrors really scare me. If I watch a movie about a human killer or something, it doesn't scare me. But if it's about evil spirits then I freak out.

HALLOWEEN IS COMING!!!

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27807394/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27807394/ Fri, 16 Oct 2009 23:20:13 PDT
I really haven't laughed that hard at a movie in a long time. The humor was something that really brought it to life and made it just that much better. Not to mention that the film had to have some humor to balance out the sadness. It was so depressing! Just... a lot of the things about the story line were pretty saddening, especially the ending. But, regardless of the sad aspects, the characters were very unique and I love the way they made them look so much more realistic. I just wanted to huggle Carol.

Another part of the film that I found to be interesting was the psychological side to it. I mean, you could see that there was a lot of child psychology put into Max and the way he acted because of his family environment and such; but also in the "Wild Things." The little sidebar tangents and arguments they would get into really portrayed child behavior well - especially the temperament and actions that they had. I dunno, I just thought it was pretty neat!

Not to mention that Max was so cute that I want to kidnap him...

Aaaanyway... lol yeah, that's my rant on the movie. xD I loved the book as a child and I think that they did a pretty decent job of "modernizing" it as a film.

Meh... tired, need sleep. Good night everyone.

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27789284/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27789284/ Thu, 15 Oct 2009 22:12:29 PDT some love. She just lost her second pet in two weeks, Houdini the snake. She could really use the support. I hope you start feeling better soon, hun. I know that it's hard and you won't feel better right away, so take the time you need to heal.

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Nothing else much to say, really. This week has been pretty bad for the most part. I've been reading so many depressing journals here on dA, too, and it can just be such a downer, reading about these horrible things happening to such wonderful people.

I just can't wait for the weekend.

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27707377/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27707377/ Sun, 11 Oct 2009 13:19:10 PDT So thank you all so much. I can't explain how grateful I am for all of my friends.

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This tag looked pretty fun to do, so I figured I'd steal it from .

1. Why did you join this site?
I remember the first time I saw an image from someone here on dA on Google. It was from , and it was this picture: [link] I will never forget it.

2. What does your username have to do with you? Is it a combination of your favorite things, or a character of yours?
Well, it's hard to explain.

Basically, when I created my dA account, I was on a big fate kick. x3 I was a very strong believer and I still am, just not as ardently. The wings part of my name symbolizes the importance of birds in my life. I know that I don't draw them often or show that they mean a lot to me, but they do. Growing up, my mom had parrots and cockatiels and love birds and all those other exotic breeds. I guess I just took a liking to the creatures so they stuck with me.

The "broken" in my name, as depressing as this sounds, symbolizes how fate can sometimes "break" a free spirit for a while. Since I see birds as free spirits, it seemed to fit.

I know, I was a sad little child. x3;

3. What is your current icon of?
My stallion OC, War Cry.

4. How many watchers do you have and how many people are you currently watching?

I have 257 watchers, while I watch 170 people.

5. Do you have more than one account?
I remember making a plz account some time ago, but I don't remember what it was. x3

6. Name 3 of your favorite artists on DA.

I'm going to have to exclude my friends, seeing as I couldn't choose from all of them!

(didn't see that one coming, did you?), , and . I have many more but these were the first three that came to mind.

7. What deviant do you admire because of their personality?
Oh, I admire so many people here... I can't choose one.

8. How many people on here do you actually know in reality? Post their avatars.

/:iconcatori-911: - We met in elementary school.
/ - We met in 6th grade.


9. Do you comment, fave, or both?
Both.

10. What do you typically post on deviantart?
Horses n' stuff. 8D

11. Do you participate in clubs or contests... ]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27658056/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27658056/ Thu, 08 Oct 2009 19:59:15 PDT
I came home from school today to discover that Spurs has died. I cried so hard that I threw up, and even then, I couldn't stop crying.

My mom said that when she let Spurs out to play, he immediately ran down to Tucker's corral and slipped under the fence. Tucker can't stand dogs and he tries to paw them every time they get near him, and... Spurs just got too close...

I don't know why Spurs did it. I don't know why he went straight for that corral... I don't understand... I don't understand why these things keep happening. Do I really deserve it that much? I thought that... Cinch's death was a freak accident. We've never lost dogs as puppies before like that, so we gave it another shot with Spurs. And now he's gone, too.

Everything was going so well for me. I've been so happy lately; I've been in such a great mood. Everything at home has been fine so far. And then today... today just brought it all crashing down.

I can't think straight right now. I'm so... I can't think of how to describe how I feel. I'm sorry you guys, but I can't take this anymore. I don't know what to do. I... I can't find an answer.

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27643425/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27643425/ Wed, 07 Oct 2009 23:55:20 PDT


This. This laptop has to be the coolest computer I've ever touched. It's AMAZING! I can't believe I've been with freaking PC all these years when THIS has been around the whole time. x3

Now I just have to install Painter and Animation Shop and I'll really have things running. :3

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27624176/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27624176/ Tue, 06 Oct 2009 21:11:16 PDT It really means a lot to me, guys.

I had a pretty awesome day! I was going down my driveway this morning and I discovered that my friends totally decorated it for my Birthday. There were tin foil balls all over the fences in pretty little designs and "Happy Birthday!" signs all over. It made my day. I just have the best friends in the world.

I don't feel like I'm 16 yet!

*Sigh* I'm just so happy right now ~ <333

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27576439/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27576439/ Sun, 04 Oct 2009 11:09:41 PDT But thanks to those who commented and helped me out. I appreciate it.




9. Oh my goodness. Tim Burton has yet to let me down! What a fantastic movie it was. The characters were all so creative and adorable! And not to mention that the effects and overall animation were wonderful. Although, I wasn't too hot about the ending... It was okay, I guess, but not how I would have ended it. Definitely expect fan art and a fan character. ;D

In other words, I might be getting a Macbook on Wednesday! Since my Birthday is on Tuesday and we don't get out of school early that day, I have to go down to Zayde's on Wednesday to get the computer - but that's OKAY! 8'D I'm just so stoked ~

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27531269/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27531269/ Thu, 01 Oct 2009 22:48:50 PDT
Because someone else doesn't like something that I like to draw, it makes my art "gay."

People can be such f*cking b*tches.

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27438482/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27438482/ Sat, 26 Sep 2009 22:43:40 PDT
...

...

So last night, I was hanging out at the mall with a bunch of friends and we ended up staying there until around 9:00 or so. My mom called me at around 7:00 to tell me that she and the rest of the family were going out to do errands, so I was like, "Okay, it's a little late for that, but that's cool. :3" More time for me to horse around at the mall, right?

So I got home at around 10:00 or so and my family still wasn't there. *tears-of-blood911 stayed with me until close to midnight, bless her soul , because I was a little afraid of staying home alone. I dunno, I just had a really uncomfortable feeling. I had called my mom a few times and asked her where she was and she wouldn't tell me. She was acting really impatient and all she would say that she was "out." So I didn't even want to argue with her. Catori came up with the theory that my family ditched me and went to Mexico.

But my parents FINALLY got home and Catori went home, too. So my dad tells me to get the "stuff" out of the back of the car, so I obey, duh. xD So I opened the trunk and you know what I saw?

...

There was a carrier kennel. A small kennel. So I picked it up and looked inside and in it was a Mini Aussie puppy. Blue merle, two blue eyes and a mottled nose. "Surprise!" my mom said excitedly. I can't even tell you what I was feeling then. I swear I thought I was going to drop the kennel because all I thought of was Cinch and the first time I looked into his kennel. This little guy has the same look in his eyes. I took him out and hugged him and I just started crying. I wasn't sad or anything, but it was just such a comfort, I guess, because I can tell that he's going to be another beautiful soul.

I'll post photos of him soon.

So in other news, I'm headed to a dog show in Antioch with my mom, so wish us luck. I'm hoping we can get those points!

Okay lol, so here's something I don't understand about schools. In our English classes, all they make us read are depressing books/plays. I just finished reading Death of a Salesman today and dude, THAT play was depressing. So was Their Eyes Were Watching God, The Poisonwood Bible, Tale of Two Cities, and Catcher in the Rye. I can't really think of a happy book we've read. xD All while they're trying to make students optimistic and happy, they're making us read these totally suicidal, sexist and racist novels. I dunno. Kind of humorous.

On a final note, my scanner is being a Buttface McDouchebag and not wanting to work, so I can't upload any traditional things until I get it fixed. Dx But I promise I'll get it figured out soon. D:

Wow, that was a long journal... Thanks if you read all of it!

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27366260/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27366260/ Tue, 22 Sep 2009 21:31:54 PDT

All my friends have them and I felt left out. So if you have an account there, look me up! Just search "Courtney Cutchen" and you should find me. Not too many of us Courtney Cutchens out there.

Oh God AP art is killing me. I'm already behind by one whole piece (I only have 2 completed and I'm starting my third) and my teacher is like, "Go, go, go!" She's really nice about it though, which is good. It's just that it's hard for me to work on something on such a strict schedule; especially if I don't like the piece I'm working on, which is the case right now.

Nothing much else to say other than I'm up to my ears in make-up work from the week I was absent! I JUST finished a small part of it.

HOLY CRAP, I just realized, my Birthday's coming up! It's... in two weeks. I can't believe I'm going to be 16...

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27301118/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27301118/ Sat, 19 Sep 2009 13:50:10 PDT Zayde (what I call my grandpa) called me today and he lectured me on the importance of the SAT. I KNOW THIS ALREADY FOR JOE'S SAKE. He made it sound like I wasn't working hard enough and that being sick is no excuse. So whatever.



Happy New Year, guys!
I'm headed over to my grandparents' house tonight to celebrate Rosh Hashanah, so that's a positive I guess. I've gotta say that my grandmother's matzo ball soup is the best freaking thing ever. Hopefully it will use its magical powers to heal me.







_{We're getting more and more people who want puppies so this means that my Macbook isn't far away. >3}

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27272398/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27272398/ Thu, 17 Sep 2009 22:31:57 PDT
Guys, watch at least one of these videos. Seriously.

[link]
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Talk about talent. I'd kill to be able to do that! This guy is brilliant! I seriously watched these videos with my mouth wide open. It was crazy watching how he paints these things. It just inspires me to work even harder on improving my digital art.

But yeah. Nothing much else to say. Still home sick but my stomach problems have gotten much better, and now it's just a sore throat and constant sleeping. xD; My dad told my mom to take me into get tested for mono (my DAD telling me to go to the doctor is a once in a lifetime thing, seriously) because I've been sleeping an unusually large amount of time, and I have these random streaks throughout the day where I literally can't hold my eyes open and I just crash on the nearest bed or sofa for hours. It's kind of weird... >___> I can't think of any way I could have gotten mono though because I didn't share a drink with anyone and no, I didn't kiss anyone. Unless I just can't remember that I accidentally did something, there's no way.

I dunno. All I know is that I want it to go away.

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27238064/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27238064/ Tue, 15 Sep 2009 23:58:36 PDT
I've stayed home from school Monday and Tuesday and I'm debating on staying home tomorrow, too. I have some weird stomach bug going on right now and it's really random. My stomach starts hurting at random times in the day and it's REALLY bad at night. Since I can't sleep with the harbringer of death lurking around in my tummy, I get really crappy sleep. Then it's hard for me to get up at 6 or so in the morning to go to school. D: And on top of that, I can't really eat. I usually go through phases where I don't eat very much at all (maybe 300, give or take, calories a day) but I can't even finish anything. Then my stomach gets pissed at me and growls for not eating and I'm like, "WTF MAN IT'S YOUR FAULT. D<" ... lol Okay, so I don't really talk to it but you get the point. 8D And I'm really freaking out because I don't want my grades to slip and I've already missed two or three tests/quizzes since I've been gone. And my emotional state is totally out of whack. I'll wake up feeling maybe pretty bad, but then I start feeling happier, but then I get pretty negative and depressed, and so on. But for the most part, I just feel pretty down because of a certain thing going on in my life right now. I dunno, it's just weird. :<

I'm falling behind on my AP Art projects already and it's only the beginning of the year. The only one I've completed is the portrait I uploaded last and my goal was to finish one every week.

STRESS SUCKS, DUDES.

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27065713/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/27065713/ Mon, 07 Sep 2009 01:22:50 PDT

[link]

That video is my favorite of them all. The beat is AMAZING and the graphics rock. I just wish it was a full song. D:

Anyway, I'm going to include some car pieces in my AP portfolio and I had not expected it to be so hard to do. D: It's difficult to draw a proportional car on a huge piece of paper. Cheona cannot do it. Dx I just went through like, 4 sketches of HUGE GTs and I don't like any of them. I admire all you autoartists out there so much more now. I don't know how you do it.

Yeah, this journal is pointless. Sort of an art update but not? It's late and I'm so bored so please forgive me.

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26986844/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26986844/ Wed, 02 Sep 2009 21:36:31 PDT ... For the first question, that's pretty personal. >___>

2. Do you ever lie about your age?
Does a 15 year old really have to lie?


3. Do you prefer "sensitive boys" or "tough guys"?
I like me them tough boys. _{But I also like it when they go sensitive on ya. ;D}

4. Do you prefer blond or brunette guys?
Meh... brunette, en general. SOMETIMES blondes ~

5. Are you currently single?
Single and PROUD.

6. How many things in your past do you regret?
Uh... I'm supposed to keep count of these things?

7. Do you have a best friend?
I have 2 ~

8. What do you want to be when you grow up?
A vet. But a psychologist, too... D:

9. Have you ever kissed two people in one night?
lol I'm not a hussie... >___>;

10. Where do you shop to buy most of your clothes?
Hot Topic, Kohls, sometimes Target ~

11. Who was the last person you hugged?
Jade (or was it Justina? ). x3

12. Have you ever had your heart broken?
I wouldn't say "broken," but I was pretty darn hurt.

13. Have you ever thought about suicide?
I'd never do it.

14. Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't have them?
Yeah.

15. Have you ever felt like killing somebody?
YEAH.

16. If you could change anything about your past, what would you change?
You can't ask me to answer that! There are many, many things I would change.

17. Do you like your life?
Yes. I feel that I'm blessed and I am extremely lucky to be where I am right now.

18. Do you shop at Hollister?
I vowed to myself YEARS ago that I would never set foot into Hollister (or Ambercrombie). I'd probably die of suffocation due to the excessive amounts of noxious fumes in the air. O___o

19. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
Never had one so no.

20. Did you forgive them?
WHAT did I just say? xD

21. Who was your first best friend?
A girl named Chelsea. Unfortunately, she got involved with the wrong crowd and well, she goes to a continuation school now, so we don't talk anymore. I feel sorry for her. lol I remember we used to bring our imaginary friends (or "Ghosts," as we'd call them x3) to class in elementary school.

22. Have you ever skipped school?
Several times my mom has said that I can stay home. x3 I only skipped a class ONCE freshman year... >_____>;;;;;;;; Never did it again. I never told anyone because, well, I was embarrassed. >__> It wasn't even worth it because it started just pouring down rain and I got totally soaked. And it was in the morning so the comic book store downtown was closed, too. :/ But I tell ya, getting back into the school is trickier than getting out. Sorry that I never told you, Eva, Ori.

23. Has anyone ever cheated on you?
No.

24. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
Yes. xD

25. If so, why?
I can't remember why (or even who I slapped). xD It wasn't anything se... ]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26924346/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26924346/ Sun, 30 Aug 2009 20:17:02 PDT But I'm comfortable knowing he's going to a very good home, so that's all that matters.

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26867530/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26867530/ Thu, 27 Aug 2009 23:54:09 PDT boribaby but first saw it on ~CatWoman4ever's journal. x3

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say To People
1. I'm perfectly capable even though I'm a woman. Where the Hell do you get off thinking that women can't even feed horses correctly? Well I have a fucking newsflash for you: YOU'RE WRONG and your sexist opinions are wearing my last nerves. You worry about what goes on where you are and I'll take care of my own Goddamn animals here. Got it?
2. Get it through your head that I don't even want to look at you anymore. Next time you say one word to me, you're going to really, really regret it, pal.
3. You two are the best friends I could ask for and I love you guys with all my heart.
4. Sometimes you really annoy me.
5. So... I draw morbid things sometimes. Does that make me sick? No. So get over it.
6. I miss you, sweetie.
7. You're 13 years old and you think you're a man. Well, guess what! You're not! You don't think education is important? Where the Hell are you going to go in life if you don't even finish high school? You think you can just move out when you're 18 and be done with everything? Ditch your family and head on up to Montana? Good fucking luck. You're going to one day come to the realization that your family will always be there for you. Blood is thicker than water. You think you can spend the rest of your life on the racetrack? I love the track because of the horses, not the people, which is the aspect YOU'RE caught up in. There's about a handfull of good ones there, and the rest are fucking trash. OPEN YOUR EYES. And I swear to God, if you continue treating Mom like the dirt you spit on, I'm going to kick your ass. And I mean it.
8. Please stop pushing me so hard with my studies. I know it's important but it's getting ridiculous.
9. I know you mean well but sometimes you can be a little overbearing.
10. No, I'm not "too obsessed."

Nine Things About Myself
1. I love living where I live. I don't know what I would do if we had to move into town.
2. I don't know how I'm such a horrible cook when my Mom and Dad are amazing cooks.
3. I love celebrating Jewish holidays when they come around. Passover is the best.
4. I like all those old TV shows, like That 70's Show, The Nanny, The Fresh Prince, and Family Matters. Those new TV dramas drive me nuts.
5. I am such a bad procrastinator. I swear, I wait to write huge papers and do big projects until the last night.
6. I look at women more than I do men. Not in a perverted way, obviously , _{(and yes, I AM straight)} but I just study women more. I dunno.
7. I'm a huge rights... I wouldn't say "activist." x3 But when it comes to equal rights for women, colored people, gays and animals, I can get defensive.
8. I believe that you don't have to go to a place of worship to be a true believer.
9. I dwell on things, death especially. It never really leaves my mind.

Eight Ways To Win My Heart
1. Don't backsass me! D<
2. Be kind. Speak nicely to me and I'll do the same to you.
3. Don't make me cry (unless it's for a cute reason, like proposal or a cute poem or something lol).
4. You better respect my friends if you want to even talk to me.
5. Do fun things with me! Let's go out on weekends and get together with friends! I don't want to sit at home with you and read magazines or something.
6. WASH YOUR HAIR.
7. Love animals as much as I do. If you don't think that my (or our) animals are family, then you're out of here. I never want it to come down to "It's me or the animals." Because you know which one I'll pick!
8. Be a decent conversationalist. I love a good convo about something intelligent at least ev... ]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26804927/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26804927/ Mon, 24 Aug 2009 19:52:33 PDT
Over the break I had a lot of time to think and heal and I spent a lot of it just sitting next to Cinch's grave. Tucker was there for me for such good support and with his help I pulled through. It still hurts and I think of him often but it's just another thing that I have to overcome. It makes me think of just how unpredictable death is. At least I know he's in a very happy place now.

But just as good and even more than a help as Tucker was, was you guys. I logged in today and I saw all of these beautiful, beautiful comments on my last journal and even some notes of support. I couldn't help but cry because I guess I just didn't realize how great of friends I have here. Everyone who left a comment really helped me out and I can't tell you how warm I felt when I read all of the wishes of peace to Cinchy baby. I didn't reply to the comments because, well, I don't know if I could thank each person enough. I would sound too repetative and here I want to thank every one of you from the bottom of my heart. It means so much more than you know.

Today was my first day of school and it doesn't feel like we even had a summer at all! It was so short. My classes are French 2, AP English, AP Studio Art, Agricultural Biology, and U.S. History. My teachers are all lovely. My English teacher says that we're going to be reading One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest and I'm SO excited!

Here I come, junior year.

That's all from me for now, and thank you all so much again. I couldn't ask for better friends than the ones I have now.

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26704420/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26704420/ Thu, 20 Aug 2009 00:49:23 PDT
Cinch, our Australian Shepherd puppy, died today. He was 16 weeks old. I won't go into details on how he died because I can't handle talking about it anymore. He was one of the things in my life that I cherished most, even though we've only had him for a short while. He was my love and I'll always remember him.

I love you so much, Cinchy baby, and I hope God is taking good care of you. You are my heart and I miss you already.

Rest in Peace
2009 - 2009

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26663230/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26663230/ Tue, 18 Aug 2009 02:28:18 PDT Is this really happening? I mean, really? I feel like I just finished my freshman year. I hope life later on doesn't go by as fast as it goes by now. I'm sure that the full shock of being a junior will hit me later. x3

I still have so much art that I didn't get done! I know I won't have a lot of time for personal art when school starts because I'm taking a few AP courses, one of which is AP Studio Art, which I'm so stoked about. But like Catori said, I don't think I'll post projects from that class on here. It depends.

I go to get my schedule tomorrow (or in several hours, since it's 2:30 a.m.)

_{... I'm sorry, I'm not in a very good mood right now. I saw this picture [link] and... I just started crying. I miss you.}

I'll update more later.

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26578018/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26578018/ Thu, 13 Aug 2009 20:40:47 PDT

Guess what this means!

Cheona gets a MACBOOK!! My mom surprised me! She came back from the vet's today and told me that tests showed that Delilah had pups in her, and then she was all, "I'm going to get you a Macbook with the deposit money," and I about fell over. This is going to be the first Mac that I've ever owned, but I LOVE them. My Zayde has a huge desktop and it's the best thing ever. And this will be so much better than my dinosaur of a laptop. I swear, the one I have is like... 7 years old. >__> I'll be getting it after the puppies are born. <333

Cheona is a very happy soul right now.

_{... I guess I talk in third person when I'm happy. x'D}

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26571550/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26571550/ Thu, 13 Aug 2009 14:51:26 PDT [link]

Look at that picture and tell me who you think the character looks like.

I'll give you a hint: 's OC, ScarletWind. That's who. This person claims to have adopted "Winter" from another deviant who clearly stole the design from Spidey. Not only is the design stolen, but the art itself is copied from a commission that Spidey ordered from . Yet when Spidey reported the deviation as a theft, dA replied with, "The similarities are inconclusive, therefore nothing has been done about it."

This is blatant theft. Sorry, but in my book, it just is. And now poor Spidey is putting all of her art into storage and possibly leaving dA. Thanks, thieves, thanks.

This turns my gears.

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26555454/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26555454/ Wed, 12 Aug 2009 20:19:44 PDT
Please go look at Tom Chapman's art website, [link]. I was introduced to him by my dad, who used to handle Tom in the gate when he was a jockey. I actually know this guy! His art is just drop-dead gorgeous. My dad told him that I'm an artist and he wanted to see my work, so I e-mailed him my portfolio. He said that he thinks that my art shows a lot of promise! lol Sorry, I'm just really stoked right now.

/END EDIT/

I was tagged by the lovely .

10 things about me...

1. Almost more than half of my art is inspired by music.
2. When I become obsessed with something, I become OBSESSED. I go all out. xD You all remember my Joker stage! (It still hasn't ended, btw. xD) But the newer stage is TFs.
3. I don't post nearly half the things that I write. The main reason? Because I just don't feel like it. I have several stories, a couple of which are fan fictions, and I'm pretty proud of them. I don't want to pose them though because of the possibility that I might blow up on the first person to throw around the term "Mary Sue." Not that I would be worried about someone labeling my stories that, because they're not anything close to it, but I just have a thing with bashers of writing. Pour example, in a gift art that one of my friends drew of Hysteria, someone labeled her a Mary Sue. I didn't say anything because I don't like starting drama. But seriously, let the artist/writer have their f*cking fun, okay? If the character is basically an exact copy of another character in the fandom, then that's a little overboard, but if the character has maybe 1 or 2 similarities with another character, let it freakin' go, okay? Bashers need to find something better to do with their time other than finding and harassing writers. Seriously. _{lol Mini rant! 8D}
4. Lots of people that I know (especially from school) find my obsession with insanity and morbidity to be rather unnerving. I won't bite, I promise. My father HIGHLY disapproves of my interest in the insane, the schizophrenic, and in psychology, but I still would love to become a psychologist. I'm fascinated with the way the human mind works - especially the unstable human mind.
5. When I was a little girl, my parents would say, "Do the jig, Courtney!" and I would get up on the nearest table and start dancing.
6. I tend to stay away from debates about religion and politics.
7. I always think of interesting things to write in these tags but when it comes down to it, I forget almost all of them.
8. The first ever drawing book that I was given when I was younger was Lee J. Ames's How to Draw 50 Horses. That was what really launched my artistic interest.
9. There are so many things I want to do with my life. I want to be a professional artist, I want to be a psychologist, I want to be a vet, and I want to be an artist for Dreamworks. (Sadly I don't think I could... ]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26484928/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26484928/ Sun, 09 Aug 2009 13:43:20 PDT
You guys know that I'm taking my SAT classes to prepare for the test. So I took a diagnostics test about a week ago, and I got 90% or so of the reading comprehension and language arts questions correct, so I was very happy about that. My math sections, however, were not so great. I didn't bomb them, but they weren't as high as they could have been. It's mainly because I haven't done math ALL SUMMER LONG. When I don't do something for a long period of time, I forget it. Math has always been my weakest subject, anyhow. So a lot of the math was formula based, which is the content that I had forgotten. They provided some of the equations for us in the booklet, but I couldn't remember how to work some of them out.

So I got the results and showed them to Zayde (my grandpa) and I was all excited because I thought he'd be proud of me for scoring so high in the English portions. All he said was, "Nice work, but we need to really work on your math. I'll hire some tutors for you." Sorry, I guess it was rude to hope for a nice praise for my good work.

Now he's trying to get me into all of these tutoring sessions with different people and it's just really stressing me out. I understand that he just wants to help me, but I mean, he's being really dramatic about it. I don't want to deal with this shit right now. I get great grades in math, but I just am not a good tester when it comes down to it. I freeze up and forget a lot. The only reason I get A's and B's in math is because I do every single homework assignment, do well on quizzes, and I participate in class.

My grandma just called me and said, "You're going back to school soon so you really need to buckle down and work on your SATs. You NEED to practice for them, otherwise you'll never have the future you want! I want you to have a good future, too, so study hard." I DO study! I don't think they realize that. I've been studying for this crap all summer! They really discourage me sometimes and make me think that I can't get into vet school. I've really been considering just going to art school and being done with this.

They just make me feel like I'm so stupid. I have horribly low self-esteem as it is.

Sorry about the pathetic rant again. I'm just in a terrible mood right now. Feel free to ignore this all.



]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26474283/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26474283/ Sat, 08 Aug 2009 22:59:48 PDT love it if you could help me with this. I use Painter X, but everyone else who has animated uses Photoshop or an actual animation program. But I guess Painter is the same as Photoshop, with some exceptions. Again, please, please help! I'll love you forever! :'D

_{If you don't know how to do it, then please don't say, "Sorry, but I don't know how." That's obviously not going to help me.}

--
COLLABS:
- W.I.P

Reminder List:

_{= Idea
= Sketched
= Inked}

"Hey There" (Little Thunder and WindRunner)
"The Beginning is the End is the Beginning" (Tyrant)
"Nothing I Have Ever Known" (Tucker and WindRunner)
"Tonight We Ride" (???)
"The Hills of Old Juarez" (Little Thunder)
"Siete Leguas" (Siete Leguas, Poncho Villa's horse)
-No title yet- (Bumblebee)
"That Big Roan Caballo" (Thunder)
"Feel Good Inc." (Clay?)
"Native American Prayer" (War Cry)
"Dream Car: Cobra" (Surge)
"Something Seems Off" (Clay and GT)
"Friends are Friends No Matter How Small" (Kisha foal and Jesus the spider cricket)
"Bone Daddy" (Jack Skellington horse)
"Foal Series" _{Separate pieces} (War Cry, GT, Unnamed, Clay, and Thunder as foals)
"Love Let Go" (WindRunner)
"The Dark Knight Series" (TDK Horses for each track of the soundtrack)
"The Spirit Series" (Whichever horses I want to draw for each track of the soundtrack)
"Reference Sheets" (ALL of my characters)
Wish me luck! http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26403485/ Wed, 05 Aug 2009 13:46:37 PDT for catching my kiriban! Your prize is in the process of line art ~ I think that's my last one for a while. I have to get some of this art done!

Yesterday we drove over to the deserts of Nevada to pick up a Mini Aussie. Her name is Sonora and she's the cutest little thing ~ I didn't take to her much at first, but she's really starting to grow on ol' softie Cheona. x3 This dog came from the middle of the flippin' desert, not even exaggerating. I don't know how the breeder (and the DOGS) survive out there. I like hot weather but that was ridiculous! I hope to be posting some photos of her soon.

I'm getting TONS of art done and I have so many sketches that I've done from the list below, lol. x3 Bud (the horse we got off the track a while ago) is going to be leaving along with my dad's hellbitch mare to go down to Texas. My dad's brother works on a HUGE stud/racing ranch and although they won't be training Bud to be a racer, since he obviously can't be one, he'll be a pony horse and JC (the mare) will be a roping horse. I'm gonna miss Bud. :'< I've got a pretty neat photo of him that I'm posting right now ~ I'm also wanting to go back to the track some time soon so I can take more photos of the horses. I'm determined to get a good straight-out-of-the-gate shot.

Anyway, that's it from me.

--
COLLABS:
- W.I.P
- W.I.P
- Waiting

Reminder List:

_{= Idea
= Sketched
= Inked}

"Hey There" (Little Thunder and WindRunner)
"The Beginning is the End is the Beginning" (Tyrant)
"Nothing I Have Ever Known" (Tucker and WindRunner)
"Tonight We Ride" (???)
"The Hills of Old Juarez" (Little Thunder)
"Siete Leguas" (Siete Leguas, Poncho Villa's horse)
-No title yet- (Bumblebee)
"That Big Roan Caballo" (Thunder)
"Feel Good Inc." (Clay?)
"Native American Prayer" (War Cry)
"Dream Car: Cobra" (Surge)
http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26367611/ Mon, 03 Aug 2009 20:17:02 PDT Remember: the kiriban number this time is 31,111!!! And like what Catori is doing with her kiriban, I'll take the closest number to the kiriban. (Keep in mind that it can't be, like, thousands of pageviews off. xDD Make it a decent number plz.)

... School starts at the end of the month. HOLY SHIZZ. Summer went by WAY TOO FAST. D'8 I better get crackin' on this art list! I'm working on things that aren't even on it!

--
COLLABS:
- W.I.P
- Not started yet
- Waiting

Reminder List:

_{= Idea
= Sketched
= Inked}

"Hey There" (Little Thunder and WindRunner)
"The Beginning is the End is the Beginning" (Tyrant)
"Nothing I Have Ever Known" (Tucker and WindRunner)
"Tonight We Ride" (???)
"The Hills of Old Juarez" (Little Thunder)
"Siete Leguas" (Siete Leguas, Poncho Villa's horse)
-No title yet- (Bumblebee)
"That Big Roan Caballo" (Thunder)
"Feel Good Inc." (Clay?)
"Native American Prayer" (War Cry)
"Dream Car: Cobra" (Surge)
"Something Seems Off" (Clay and GT)
"Friends are Friends No Matter How Small" (Kisha foal and Jesus the spider cricket)
"Bone Daddy" (Jack Skellington horse)
"Foal Series" _{Separate pieces} (War Cry, GT, Unnamed, Clay, and Thunder as foals)
"Love Let Go" (WindRunner)
"The Dark Knight Series" (TDK Horses for each track of the... ]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26327635/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26327635/ Sat, 01 Aug 2009 22:32:08 PDT [link]

According to Family Guy, Optimus Prime is Jewish!

Uggghhhh, the time of the year that I have been dreading has finally come. Tomorrow I start my SAT prep courses with Kaplan. I know it'll help me but it's just a pain to be there for 4 hours at a time. And we have to take a full SAT exam the first day, so that sucks, 'cause I've forgotten like... all my math, lol. And math is the category that I suck in the most as it is! English and language arts is fine though, since it's one of my favorite subjects. :3 _{I'm so bringing drawing paper lol.} We get graded on our first test, so wish me luck! I think I'll need it. >_____>;;; I hear that the SAT is easier than the PSAT. Is that true (whoever has taken it)? This course definitely helped me with my PSAT last year.

--
COLLABS:
- Waiting (Sorry, I'm gonna get Sally's ref up right now! D: )
- Waiting
- Waiting

Reminder List:

_{= Idea
= Sketched
= Inked}

"Hey There" (Little Thunder and WindRunner)
"The Beginning is the End is the Beginning" (Tyrant)
"Nothing I Have Ever Known" (Tucker and WindRunner)
"Tonight We Ride" (???)
"The Hills of Old Juarez" (Little Thunder)
"Siete Leguas" (Siete Leguas, Poncho Villa's horse)
-No title yet- (Bumblebee)
"That Big Roan Caballo" (Thunder)
"Feel Good Inc." (Clay?)
"Native American Prayer" (War Cry)
"Dream Car: Cobra" (Surge)
"Something Seems Off" (Clay and GT)
"Friends are Friends No Matter How Small" (Kisha foal and Jesus the spider cricket)
"Bone Da... ]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26288633/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26288633/ Fri, 31 Jul 2009 01:01:51 PDT
It bothers me so much. We live out in the middle of almost nowhere. We have one neighbor way up the road. It's pitch black all around us and even though we have many dogs to warn us if someone does happen to come up to the house, they are all on the other side of the house. What can they do? Although we do keep our biggest (and most intimidating) Bullmastiff girl in the house with us, it's still scary. We've had drunk drivers race through the fields and almost run into our living room. We've had druggies drive all the way out to our house thinking that we sell drugs (this is because the owner before us used to be a big dealer, and he was eventually busted for it). And they STILL remember where we live, even after years and years. It's scary shit. One time, my dad had to hold a guy at (unloaded) gunpoint in the front of our house, because he could have been pretty dangerous, as we waited for the cops to come. As it is, they take about 30 minutes to get to us. A lot can happen in that time. Another time, a man and this terrified girl came wandering through our fields and up to our house. My dad caught them and the man said that he was "just taking his girlfriend back to the creek so they could talk." BULL EFFING SHIT. He was going to murder her back there, I guarantee it. The look on this poor girl's face was absolutely horrid. They left immediately and we never saw them again.
We have a HUGE cabinet in our living room filled with tons of different kinds of guns, but what use is it if we don't know where our ammo is? My dad hid it and he's the only one who knows where it is. My mom doesn't know how to load a shotgun, a rifle, or a handgun. I know how to load a shotgun and a pistol, but I don't think I'd be able to protect myself in time in such an intense situation.

So every time my dad leaves, I hide several knives throughout my room. I just take them from the kitchen - they're ones we never use. The big ones. I know to some of you, it might sound creepy or just weird, but it gives me a sense of security knowing that I have something to protect myself with in case of an emergency. But I sometimes do truly wonder if I suffer from slight paranoia. I mean, even if I'm outside in bright daylight, and a car comes driving down our driveway, I become VERY afraid. I have the strong urge to run and hide. I don't know why. I'm not a coward, it's just an odd thing about me. Is it weird? I have an extremely active imagination, which always runs away with me. I think of the most horrifying, terrible situations and it seems as if they come to life. Sometimes I get so enveloped in my imagination that my eyes start playing tricks on me, as well. I've had so many nightmares all throughout my life about just... awful things happening in my own home... I just... ugh.

Sorry about this big rant... I just need to talk to you guys right now. I need to get it out. I'm afraid.

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26265628/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26265628/ Wed, 29 Jul 2009 22:27:55 PDT
Okay, I have NEVER had so many ideas for pictures stuffed up in my head at once. I seriously can't get them onto paper! I feel like I'm artistically challenged now! I mean, just LOOK at this freakin' list! And it just keeps growing!! <sub>Don't worry, the collabs have nothing to do with this massive art clog.

= Finished
= Idea
= Sketched
= Inked</sub>

"Hey There" (Little Thunder and Unnamed)
"The Beginning is the End is the Beginning" (New character?)
"Nothing I Have Ever Known" (Tucker and Unnamed)
"Tonight We Ride" (???)
"The Hills of Old Juarez" (Little Thunder?)
"Siete Leguas" (Siete Leguas, Poncho Villa's horse)
"The Power of Observation" (Unnamed, Thunder, Clay, and GT)
-No title- (Bumblebee)
"That Big Roan Caballo" (Thunder)
"Feel Good Inc." (Clay?)
"Native American Prayer" (War Cry)
"Dream Car: Cobra" (Surge)
"Something Seems Off" (Clay and GT)
"Friends are Friends No Matter How Small" (Kisha foal and Jesus the spider cricket)
"Bone Daddy" (Jack Skellington horse)
"Foal Series" _{Separate pieces} (War Cry, GT, Unnamed, Clay, and Thunder as foals)
"Love Let Go" (Unnamed)
"The Dark Knight Series" (TDK Horses for each track of the soundtrack)
"The Spirit Series" (Whichever horses I want to draw for each track of the soundtrack)
"Reference Sheets" (ALL of my characters)

Anyway, I seriously need some money. I lost my wallet (which had $30 in it and every one of my student ID cards since 2nd grade). D: And since there's no one for me to babysit, and sinc... ]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26235593/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26235593/ Tue, 28 Jul 2009 14:37:39 PDT
Slot 1:
Slot 2:
Slot 3:
Slot 4:

... I know, I'm such a sucker. >___> I look forward to these collabs, guys!

Here's just a list of arts that I'm working on. It's mostly for me so I can remember them all, lol.

= Finished
= Idea
= Sketched
= Inked

"Hey There" (Little Thunder and Unnamed)
"The Beginning is the End is the Beginning" (New character?)
"Nothing I Have Ever Known" (Tucker and Unnamed)
"Tonight We Ride" (???)
"The Hills of Old Juarez" (Little Thunder?)
"Siete Leguas" (Siete Leguas, Poncho Villa's horse)
"The Power of Observation" (Unnamed, Thunder, Clay, and GT)
-No title- (Bumblebee)
"That Big Roan Caballo" (Thunder)
"Feel Good Inc." (Clay?)
"Native American Prayer" (War Cry)
"Dream Car: Cobra" (Surge)
"Something Seems Off" (Clay and GT)
"Friends are Friends No Matter How Small" (Kisha foal and Jesus the spider cricket)
"Bone Daddy" (Jack Skellington horse)
"Foal Series" _{Separate pieces} (War Cry, GT, Unnamed, Clay, and Thunder as foals)

... As you can see, I have many more ideas than I do actual work. But that will change soon! I promise! 8D; I think a lot of you will also recognize some of the titles to be songs... ]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26222594/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26222594/ Mon, 27 Jul 2009 23:42:26 PDT

Omg, today was SO hot. It was crazy! And lucky for me, my dad wakes me up early and is all, "Hey, I called the horseshoer and he'll be here in a couple minutes. Come help us out." In this weather? NOOOO WAY. D8 But I ended up spending almost the whole day out there anyway. I never even ate anything because I was too busy drinking as if I was dying of thirst. But Tucker got a bath, which was fun ~ :3 And greasing hooves is hard when my dad's hellbitch of a mare keeps trying to bite me in the butt.

Anyway, I'm still working on a lot of art from when I was on vacation, I'm just slow. xD; It'll be up soon, I promise. Have you ever had so many ideas that you couldn't get them all on paper? That's me right now. It stinks. x3

So about the collabs...
I'm working on coloring lineart from a collab with right now, and I'm having a blast with it! I had no idea how much fun it was to color someone else's art! xD So here's the deal: I'll open 2 slots for collaborations, but I would rather that I do the coloring part (cause I'm on a roll! >D). So if anyone is willing to do some lineart, then speak up! I'll probably be choosing from who offers, so please, please don't take any offense if I don't pick you. I hate it when people get upset when they don't get chosen for something like that; it makes Cheona a very sad wolfer. I'll note the two people who I choose.

Slot 1:
Slot 2:

On a random note... Have you seen the new Oxyclean commercials? They totally suck!! Come back, Billy! We miss you! <sub>LOL... to be honest, when I was a little kid, I had a crush on him just because I liked his voice. ROFL I KNOW, I WAS A WEIRD LITTLE GIRL.

I want to see Transformers again SO BADLY. Dx</sub>

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26210528/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26210528/ Mon, 27 Jul 2009 11:45:25 PDT )

I just realized that all these years that I've had Cheona (my fursona, for those who don't know), her name has meant NOTHING. It's supposed to be Chenoa that means "white dove," NOT Cheona.

I'm a bad Native American.















_{*Still can't believe it*}

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26190635/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26190635/ Sun, 26 Jul 2009 13:03:21 PDT
Mom and grandma got into a HUGE fight on the last day. Lots of cursing, there. >___> But then they made up like... 5 minutes later. I would have uploaded some art last night, but there was this huge, scary-lookin' buff dude in the computer room, and he was using the only laptop internet connection. Even though, technically, he had to get off after 20 minutes if someone was waiting, I didn't want to end up bound, gagged and stuffed in a hall closet.

But that's not the point! Point is that I'm back after a 6-hour drive. I missed the dry air and dust of my house. c8 And I have a BUTTLOAD of art to upload, so get reeeaaadyyyy! 83 I'm also headin' over to the asylum today, so I'll get to see what it's all about. Even if they don't let me walk around the halls (which I KNOW they won't let me do), I will at least be able to observe the place from a farther point.

_{Can you tell that I'm excited and totally hyper?}

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26161029/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26161029/ Fri, 24 Jul 2009 22:29:20 PDT

So as many of you said, the next day was better. Although I had a pounding headache (which lasted ALL NIGHT), it was okay. ^^ I got the freakin' SUNBURN of the century! I was at the beach, and I had been in the water for like... 3 hours. I was a fish lol. So I got out and took off my wetsuit, and decided to lay down on a blanket. Well... Cheona wasn't so smart and she fell asleep with nothing but her bathing suit and a towel over her upper body. I can't even TELL you how red my legs were when I woke up. I was sleeping for almost an HOUR! No sunscreen or anything! I'm so stupid!

Anyway, this whole beach scene is really inspiring. I've taken some photos and I've been working on lots of art (beach and non-beach-related) that I'll have to upload when I get back on Sunday.

_{Goodness, La Jolla is hot guy central. <3}

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26117525/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26117525/ Wed, 22 Jul 2009 21:03:37 PDT wake up feeling like crap? Then the rest of your day goes completely horribly? Yeah. That was me today.

I woke up late for breakfast and found my family down in the lobby already eating. Oh well, no big deal. ^^ So then I eat a pancake, almost throw up because the Lord only knows why, and then we go to the beach. I was trying to look on the bright side because I love the beach, so I thought it'd be fun! So I get there and the beach is COVERED wih seaweed. I lost one of my beach shoes in the ocean, and when I went into the water, the seaweed kept tangling my legs and I kept stepping on it. I can't stand seaweed in the water. Then I got a lot of saltwater and sand in my eyes, so my eyes have been irritated ever since then. So then, the day goes on and then it's time for dinner. Almost threw up then, too. I dunno, it was something weird about the food. So when I got back to the hotel, I thought, "Hm, I think I'll go to the hot tub." They always calm me down and I felt like that's what I needed. So I slip my phone into my swim shorts on the way down to the pool. I get there and forget that my phone is in my pocket, and I get INTO the water. All of a sudden I felt this vibration against my leg, and then I realized that I was a freakin' MORON. I tried to dry my phone off but the camera kept flashing and it was malfunctioning. I'm so upset right now... I mean, I know it's just a phone, but it was my Batman phone... I loved it so much... So I only got to stay in the hot tub for about 5 minutes. And on top of ALL of this, there's been a lot of tension between my family today and the twins have been upset the WHOLE TIME.

I know vacations are supposed to be fun, but I just feel like crying right now...

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26087949/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26087949/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 13:25:47 PDT Right now, I am in La Jolla, CA! It's right down near Mexico's border, near San Diego. :3 Unfortunately I can't use my own computer because it costs money and I don't want to pay that, so I'm using a computer down in the lobby's computer room. I hate the keyboard lol. D< I think I might be able to hook up my own computer down here so I can submit art, but I'm not sure. I'll see. But even if I can't upload, I'll have bunches of art to submit when I come back! I'm just SO psyched to be going to the beach! It's very inspiring!

Oh, and , my part of our trade is halfway done, so it'll be posted first thing when I get back! I'm sorry for the delay!

So! For my kiriban, the hit will be 31,111. Hope someone catches it!

That's all for now! I'm off to the waves! Be talking to you soon!

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26056467/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26056467/ Mon, 20 Jul 2009 00:51:39 PDT
Anyway, I talked to my mom about the local mental institution, in Fremont, and she said that she thinks they have a volunteer program for people to help out with the lower cases of sick patients, or maybe other work that isn't so demanding. You know, more like the patients in therapy, rather than the clinically psychotic. I don't think they'd let a young girl work with crazy murdering men. So when I turn 16 in October, I'm going to call them up and ask about it, because I would LOVE to work there. How do you think THAT would look on a college application?

So... yeah... that's pretty much all I have to say right now. I'm working on some art right now, so look out for that.

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26018662/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/26018662/ Sat, 18 Jul 2009 02:21:11 PDT Remember: Kiriban is at 30,100!

First off, I'll do the feature. She featured me for the feature tag so I figured I'd just give her her very own journal feature (seeing as my other feature journal is way old).




A special extra:

Many, many of you probably know who she is, but I'm puttin' her out there anyway! D<
She's so, so talented and sweet, so you should totally go to her gallery and fave and
comment and watch her. She's very fun to talk to and her art is getting better
all the time.

Now for teh paint fumes! 8D

LOL I was helping *tears-of-blood911 paint her room a few hours earlier. She's got a herd of zebras painted on the main wall with stripes all around them, and we painted the stripes exotic purple. The zebras are gonna be lime green! We still have looots of work to do though.
And right now it's... like... 2 in the morning. No more painting for Cheona.

G'night!

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/25996563/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/25996563/ Thu, 16 Jul 2009 23:26:14 PDT
Now for kiriban, lol. 8D;

So, since I'm already REALLY close to 30,000 pageviews (thank you so much, btw), I thought I'd set my kiriban at 30,100. As usual, the prize is a picture from me (preferably 1 character). You know the drill: first person to send me a screencap of the kiriban page in a note wins the picture.
Good luck!

I also wanted to thank you all for the watches and favorites and lovely comments lately. I really appreciate all of your support. So thanks so much!!

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/25976808/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/25976808/ Thu, 16 Jul 2009 02:07:36 PDT Now I can stop worrying about my family and other adults looking at some of the... less preferable art in my gallery, to say in the least. I can just send them the link to my portfolio! If any of you wanna see it, just ask (you have to have a password ;D). So far, it's only my favorite equine art/photography from this gallery, so you've probably seen it all. I'm still working on it.

But anyway, ILU dA staff. *Glomps them*

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]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/25975682/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/25975682/ Thu, 16 Jul 2009 00:03:06 PDT

<sup>My gallery!
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Put your content inside the SUP tags.</sup>

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]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/25776541/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/25776541/ Mon, 06 Jul 2009 14:36:58 PDT He didn't cut it as a racehorse because he had trouble jumping out of the gate as fast as the other horses do, so his owner (one of our good friends) decided to spare him the miserable life he would have had and take him off the track. He wouldn't of lasted long there. So my dad took his father over to the track to look at him, and he decided that he would take the horse. So now the horse, who I've started calling Bud, is staying at our house until my grandpa can find a good home for him. I'll post pictures that I just took soon. I'm trying to stay away from him because I don't want to get too happy with him being here, because then I know I won't want to let him go. But it's so hard! I fall for horses so easily. x3

It was really funny in the beginning, because the horse wouldn't go to anyone after we put him in the corral. He ran from my dad, his dad, and my brother, but when I got in there, he freakin' followed me around the pen.

So yeah, that's just the update for today. Tucker's getting pretty jealous of all the attention going to the new guy. ;D

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]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/25739245/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/25739245/ Sat, 04 Jul 2009 17:01:03 PDT I love the 4th ~ we can see 3 different fireworks displays just from sitting on the hill next to my house. It rocks. I hope you guys have a nice one!



Anyway, here's the rumors part. It's not bad or anything, I just wanted to get my thoughts out there. So I've been reading around and whatnot about the next Batman movie (because I'm obsessive like that), which is supposedly called Gotham City, and I've gathered that the Riddler and Catwoman are almost certainly going to star, but I've also seen and read about Harley Quinn being in it. What? You cannot have Harley without the Joker. In my opinion, she isn't really her own villain. Don't get me wrong, I love Harley, but she's more of a sidekick to the Joker than anything else. And I swear if they're casting another Joker, there's no way it's going to fly. Heath outdid any Joker role they could have hoped for. So now I'm really curious. _{Even though this is not final.} Anyone know anuthing about it?

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]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/25705795/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/25705795/ Thu, 02 Jul 2009 22:47:18 PDT I was so ecstatic! Except for the part where I looked at my art again and decided that I hated it. Not only does the coloring suck, but the anatomy of the horse is horrible. My dad and I were standing there giving it a thourough critique ('cause he's pretty much an artist too) and these people were standing around us, asking, "Wow, is that your picture?" And I was all, "Uh... yeah. *Ashamed*" But they didn't call it ugly or a pile of waste, so I was happy. I'll have to take a picture of it (because it's like, 11x20 or something) and show you guys. But whatever. 2nd place!

LAST year when I entered a silk painting I did, I never even got it back. I was SO ticked off. I never even saw it in the gallery! I really liked it, and I'll never see it again. Oh well...

So, yeah, I just wanted to let you guys know that.

I've been on a roll with my art lately. I'm pretty proud of myself, actually. ^^ It feels so good to be able to sit down and actually complete something I like. Not some limited art class project, not some half-arse sketch thing because I still have homework to do, and not some crappy sketch. Actual art! 8D

... Oh gosh, sorry. I'm so hyper right now. >___>; Pardon me. I have a feeling I'm forgetting something.

_{Does ANYONE know who the dude in the picture above is?! It's driving me nuts! xD}

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]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/25640387/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/25640387/ Thu, 02 Jul 2009 10:47:58 PDT

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Yay! New journal skin! ... Anyone know who the dude in the photo is?

I've decided to open commissions for a little bit. I could really use some money. c: I've also decided that I'm just going to limit the commissions to one character per page. Just because of how I feel. Not up to doing multiple on one page right now. >___>

Lineart (uncolored)
-One character: $15
Each additional character: $5
-Detailed background: $8
Simple background: $5

Lineart (colored)
- One character: $15
Each additional character: $7
- Detailed background: $9
Simple background: $7

Shipping is $5

I usually do my commissions in Prismacolor pencils, but if you have a request of a specific medium, I'll see what I can do.

Rules

1- I will add the first 14 people to comment on this journal to the Promotional List.

2- For each of those 14 people, I will put their avatar and three deviations I like from their gallery on the list.

3- If I feature you, you'll have to do the same in your journal, putting me on the first place, completing this way the list with 14 people.

The idea of this is not to get a free feature, it is to spread art around for everyone!

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3.) http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/25633612/ Mon, 29 Jun 2009 20:09:49 PDT EDIT:

OMFG. I was submitting my Bumblebee sketch, and I JUST noticed that I was subscribed!! OMFG THANK YOU SO MUCH !!! ILU SO MUCH! You're getting MAJOR gift arts.

/EDIT

LASKGFFSK. I just went and saw Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen. I can't even explain how KICKASS it was!!! HOLY CRAP. They totally outdid themselves. I can't understand how some think it's not good! Any of you think so?
Bumblebee is still my all-time favorite, though. And Optimus was just sexy as hell. But I did cry like crazy at one point in the movie. Those who have seen it will probably know which part. D': My brother looked at me and he was like, "Are you seriously crying?!" and I was all, "*Sniff sniff* Y-yeah. D'x" I cried for 5 minutes, not even kidding.

You'll be seeing lotsa fanart from me. Definitely. I don't care how hard they are to draw. I'm DOIN' IT. >8D

/Fangirling (sort of... )

Oh, and I'm really sorry guys, but I had to delete all the journals (with the exception of a few) from my inbox. I had 200+ journals in there. >___> It was bad. So I apologize if I didn't catch something important! D: And I'm thinking of opening commissions again, but I think I'll limit them to one character per commission. I don't want to do huge projects right now. And a single character is easier for me to do as opposed to multiple. What do you think?

_{Bumblebee FOREVER.}

]]> ~Fates-Broken-Wings http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/25551508/ http://Fates-Broken-Wings.deviantart.com/journal/25551508/ Thu, 25 Jun 2009 19:49:10 PDT

Nothing much is going on. I volunteered at the ranch below mine today for a few hours. It was fun.


And... yeah. Just wanted to update. >____>

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Anyhow. If you want to see some major skill, go check out 's gallery. This guy has some serious talent! Please go look at his art!

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