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Climactic Battle

~Final-Preacher — Tue, 09 Oct 2007 23:50:48 PDT

There exists two forces, a good and an evil, an id and a super-id - no room for the ego, no room for the superfluous emotions - just the heat of battle and the everlasting conflict.

And I'm losing.

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I'm not up to much. A little bored with life, maybe. I want to play Tennis or grab a pair of roller-blades as the fall sets in, something to help me get through the 6 days a week when I'm not stabbing things. I might need to start wearing some sport-geared orthodics; my feet hurt like crazy after just a little fencing footwork.

But on the topic of Escapism, I want some. Video games go so far, but... to really escape the dredges of the tide washing upon you, one feels the need to find more than little breaks here and there. I may just have to focus, though. On one hand, my life laments woes, long enough to rival the decimals of pi, but on the other hand, i really do have it easy... Meh.

I suppose it's about time I grew up and stopped pretending to lose.

I rarely ever use DA. But that isn't news to you.

~Final-Preacher — Thu, 09 Mar 2006 01:29:36 PST

But I may start visiting it more often... I recently lost my old computer due to OS corruption and sooo I'll need to download my work and start from where I left off.

Either way, if anyone's missed me, I do continue to blog on my xanga : [link] and feel free to leave me a note there.

Woah... dewwatch spazzing

~Final-Preacher — Sun, 12 Jun 2005 12:46:18 PDT

well, me and my friend browsed DA just the other day and well, we ended up Faving and watchig a whole lot of people... under my name, so well, if you came by to thank me for the watch, your welcome!~ of course you are, I'm watching you cuz i like your art, and also because my friend likes your art as well... But then again, I do apologise for the writers out there, This was a graphic art faving spree, so only pics were really taken into account... But i should like more writers on my watch list... I want some good reading and also, someone who would in turn crit my work, sometimes... graphic artist don't make for the best critiquers for writing... You kinda need to read the whole thing while you can look at visual art and observe it on a whole too easily... So if your a witer, and you're reading this, PLEASE crit my stuff, and I promise, I'll try my best to give you a one to one crit ratio. It's only fair... and If I like your stuff, I might crit more of it too...... which is good... for you.... I think.... I hope.... yes, it should be... .. .

I'll stop now.

Woah.. Free Subby thing-a-ma-thingy

~Final-Preacher — Sat, 21 May 2005 11:40:48 PDT

I have the free subscription thinger this week, which sucks, I'm not gonna use it... not this week much anyway... but yeah, seeing my Dev watches organized helps. that's pretty cool I guess.

Mood: le "screwed"
Listening to: Final - Diru

Well, I moved my last Journal to scraps... I kinda lost my ISP binder, for real this time... I left it on the bus, so Je suis le "screwed" bad french grammar I know, but tis an old thing I used to say.... So yeah. I have 6 freaking Isps due this week. Calc, Physics, English, Writer's craft, Philosophy and Bible.... Its my English and Writer's craft that bothers me, those require the massive amounts of work... guh... and a lot is gone.

If it sounds interesting, it just might, actually,

~Final-Preacher — Tue, 17 May 2005 11:33:55 PDT

I'm not really posting muhc of a journal, I have my Journal to do that on... But here I'm in WC class right now and I jsut typed up about a page for just random ideas that I wonder if anyone would give me ideas to expand it... I'll upload short Bios of these characters in my scraps a little later... or I'll do that now.... okay done. Haha

Okay here it is, the stuffu: (and before you get to accuse me, Yes I stole the name Canti form FLCL, but in this story, Canti is the name given to this AI vending machine... Using a Cold fission engine, he/she/it takes raw energy and converts it into what it is that you buy).

In this form: "The title of the idea: the idea itself; how much work I've done on it"

Mervielles French Lesson: Never spell an Europeans name wrong, he warns, Not unless you want a bulls rage. Later on, Mervielles taunts General Dela-Tauros by Calling him De la Taro (Taro is a type of sweet potato).

The Generals Cat: The name given to General Dela-Tauros black cat. After the cat ran away from home one day, The General retired. R + A are talking to some people and then get on the topic of cute animals. No one knows what the two of them are talking about but when they say its a baby cat, everything grows quiet. The people of this village know of only one cat and that is The Generals Cat. It is rumored that the cat brought the General victory in the last war, but ever since it got loose, only misfortune falls on those who cross paths with it.

Opening Intro Sequence: Kiel is nostalgic. They talk for a bit and head back home to the Military town. There is a security check that was just installed at the border, Arjun has clearance, so he introduces himself and the other three are lead into a quick interrogation (excuse for Character introduction). Driving in, Arjun gets called for emergency duty, and Kiel has to go to his Bands jam session. Rita and Joe talk a bit here. Joe wants to say something but doesnt because Kiel is still in the car.

The plot: It's an ongoing rebel strike/ countering outpost where a village was fashioned. Any members of the military outpost live here, and continue to face rebel threats on a frequent basis. General Dela-Tauros is the one in charge of the outpost. Some lines used by rebels and Military:
Id do anything to kill you military scum!

Rita and The Generals Cat: After talking to a depressed Joe, Rita goes out. She ends up secluding herself feeling useless about her worth to the group and hides so that no one sees her crying. The Generals Cat is the only one who sees her crying. Sensing no intention to kill, TGC comes over to comfort her and also find some affection in return. As soon as Rita touches the cat, she is granted a gift, the life of a black cat. Wherever she goes, her path leaves a trail of misfortune, and as long as her indomitable will does not fail her, she is virtually indestructible. Not to mention that she can escape most precarious situations with the most annoying luck.

Rita and Canti: In order to try and save Arjun, and in the process, Kiel, Rita tries to enlist Arjuns long time comrade, Canti, the vending machine. But alas, without a job at hand, Rita is broke, and Canti does not or rather, cannot work for free. It takes the raw energy of a silent cold fission reaction inside Cantis wonderful body for him to be able to create matter such as any buyable item, or to transform. As Rita starts to get angry, Canti turns to walk off. Ritas hand (or luck, this is after the the meeting with The General's Cat") hits a man walking by, he falls unconscious and drops his wallet from which fall many coins. Canti turns around at the sound of coins against pavement. Rita smiles a wicked grin. Next thing you see, Canti has turned into a hybrid of a vespa and a motorbike, and the two of them speed towards the rebel base.

I'll upload stuff, but mostly editing.

~Final-Preacher — Wed, 11 May 2005 22:52:43 PDT

I have a story that I must fix up this weekend. MUST!~ and then I'll post it here. I refuse to post it - well, I might as a scrap - without fixing it first. I'm also working on a twist that takes A Drop of Water to a new level, actually making a part of the second half of "Prelude: The Chronicles of Matthew". The main character is going to be Hiu-Fung in this story, the old man that he's talking to is a politician, and the type of Politician who runs a shadow government. Hiu-Fung is an assasin. He first makes his appearance in my works when I wrote the newest piece I'm uploading... its just another scrap for reference- I wrote the pargraph for a writer's block demoliting thing... the first line was "So Im supposed to be meeting the man of my dreams." (My teacher is female) and I wrote that down before she said "the woman, for the guys" so I ended up going, ah forget that, I'm too lazy to erase it so [blah] I called up my feminine side and looked up Wendy Tran, who sees Hiu-Fung for teh first time, and falls in love with him. Its Uber short, but I did have a strong writer's block at the time so meh. I'm gonna post another thing too. Another part of the first book, "The Mercantilion", where Hiu-Fung is told to go and kill Mathew. its also in a first draft form... so I'll be expecting a few reviews...

Halucinagens

~Final-Preacher — Sun, 03 Apr 2005 20:37:54 PDT

I rem once having an msn convo with ~ swiftsword about how some fruit candy made the kids and adults start seeing a city building burst into fruit shapes and how the cnady must have been loaded with LSD (thats not MSG you ramen freaks, and not LCD you computer nerds!), or somethign like that. And now, One of the worlds most famous globolizing chain, no, not Sony, I refer to MacDonalds, who has joined T3H League of Toxicating Buisnessmen. Picture this Ad:

A women is walking around her house with her eyes virtually bulging out of her head, she is carrying a cat somewhere, and the house is a mess, the ceiling fan is on, wasting energy. She stares out to the side where she starts talking to her self, "Two days ago, I splurged my savings to make a new impression (its like Ecstasy for the market economy), yesterday, I opened up like never before (drugs AND alcohol? Children I warn you, this is a very dangerous combination)." Then you see her facing a full wall window, her face is nearly pressed up against the glass, and she says "Today, I ordered for a pool-boy..." You see her backyard, there is an inflated beachball, and a dog walking somewhat sideways, and she opens her eyes een wider to lok at the screen. She says "And I don't even have a pool!"

I was quite stunned, I don't normally watch Tv, so if you got that ad, then the Canadian media is catching up to America, hoo-boy. But then the Mystery was explained. She proudly proclaimed, wearing her shoes in her bed, that she was on a 'diet' of Macdonald breakfasts and coffee. She even continued to say, "Tomorrow? I don't even know what I'll do!" - Clearly, a cry for help; a pleading little emo-esque woman doping herself on something more illeagal than Ali-G, her sense have lost themselves in chemical pleasure. Whats the plan here? Is this Darwinism at work, or a force out to capture hordes of evil zombies? All I know is that I'm glad I don't watch Tv.

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... Where is Luya? <--- Resident Z0mbi3 Qu33n.

Other random ads you may have seen and their advertised side-effects:
-Trix : Halucinagenic proprty induced by aromas, the yogurt makes you see the world in two, sometimes three colours, the cereal may contain as much as seven.
-Nestea - iced tea : Nerve numbing prperty induced by consumption of a brown, semitransparent liquid. drinkers are seen losing all balance and falling backwards within moments of drinking. Some have had outer body experiences, wehre one felt like he fell, then halucinates himself/herself swimming inside the bottle. Animal testing also results positive.
-Popsicles : http://gprime.net/video.php/shardslight well, I'll let you see for yourself,there has to be something dictive in this, nothing like a good old nicotine lick with your glass.

I'd be interested to nkow what other brands have ads that clearly display the result of chemical brain distrotion, or even a deviation

In the maintime, some news: I'm getting an EBB gun, a Combat Delta Silver actually, its one slick beauty. I want to get dual but since its a Japanese import, its quite expensive, I'm thinking of getting one now, one later, I also wanted to get it with a laser sight. I call it Treble Clef, its younger brother will be Bass Clef. I might simply get that pistol by itself, and a ton of magazines for it. here is a link to the Ninja skills I'd like to pair up with my AEG : http://gprime.net/video.php/hopphopp
God, I wish I could do that. Imagine BBing with someone who could do this.

OMGosh! Poem with the word "bleed" with

~Final-Preacher — Mon, 21 Mar 2005 14:20:25 PST

Listening to : L'Arc's ROUTE 666 and Hide's LEMONed I SCREAM (shame) *is in love with latter song!~*
Mood : iono... kinda sick, so like Grumpy?

I never thought this would happen, in all my time on DevArt, I never expected to find anything so emo-esque as this...

[insert "remarkthatmakequiteclearmythoughtsoneem o" here]

Yes, I have come across a poem (unnamed, shall remain anonomous) that actually (in the second line too, wastes no time) mentions the word "bleed", and its capitolized, despite the fact that its at the end of the sentance. If that were all, the poetry is actually quite childish (poor grammar, the rhyming was very forced), and it was pretty much 'OMGosh, slit my wrists cuz i'm not the one you want emo".

Okay, with all this said, I'm not gonna jsut burn this person's dribble. I'm making it my personal 'do good for the day' movement to pull these people away from emo... if they wish to remain there, I'll try to help them write as high grade emo as I can. quite honestly, I pity the girls who get a card with THAT kind of stuff written on it.

*Edit : Just another note, I'm also looking for suggestions on how to crit Emo/Screamo works*

Enjoy my very minature and badly written essay. *in the comments*

hmm, the love of a passing generation.

~Final-Preacher — Sat, 19 Mar 2005 23:45:40 PST

I was watching another chesy 1947 movie (1947 = Year when British rule over India was terminated, like Indian Independance year). Anyway, it got me thinking, and I asked my mom about her parents, cuz they lived during that time. It didn't affect them much, they were South Indian and the whole thing was in North India for the most part. But still, I learnt something really romantic...

Look at you, you're blushing,
You've never smiled like that before.
Its love in your eyes,
Who's the lucky guy?

Look at you, you're hiding,
My boy has grown up a little more.
Its love in your eyes,
Who's the lucky girl?

My mom's parents met each other at work. And they quickly became close, and they loved each other, and their parents approved. For their time, such a thing was rare. I kinda feel really happy inside that i'm a lot like my grandfather. He looks so handsome and inteligent in the picture we keep of him, and everyone in his family loved and respected him. I'm gonna make a song about them, about my mom and about me. kinda inspired by Jay Chou about the topic, cuz he did that a lot. My idea so reminds me of a song he did, but all I remember was one line that meant "the love of every Generation, is the love I have for you".

pook i submitted somehting wooo!

~Final-Preacher — Sun, 13 Mar 2005 09:49:50 PST

HI!~

*ahem*
now for formalities. I don't really know if anyone has been waiting for me to post anything really, i'm sure my last deviation will come as a surprise entry to most of your mailboxes, maybe this journal as well, a pleasant surprise i do hope, nonetheless. I have been busy and well Da had not allowed me access to my own site when i tried to revisit it before... I do not know why, maybe i chose the wrong time, perhaps the server was down. I would liek to say that i am working on a few projects. I do still face difficulties in writing novel type tories, the middle (I find) is the hardest part, I often come up with an idea, and then twist it until I've come up with a story, or the summary of it from beggining to end, working out the flavour, the meat in the middle is really my hardest task. If there are any writers out there reading this (preferably ones more experienced than I, but all are welcome), please crtitique my works, and also give me suggestions to follow up on the continuations.

I have not Abandoned I will be waiting for you at Yasukunai Jinja , that story (in my opinion) requires far more skill than I posses now, and I want it to be written well, as best as I can; I really like the idea of it, and I want the best for it.

My newest work however, I feel is perfect for my current skill, and in a little while i shall also present to you The Last of Dreams a short story that seemed to recieve pleasant apprecition, only I did omit something I was supposed to leave in, untill I fix that, please await it patiently. HA!~ i am now done.

I return....

~Final-Preacher — Wed, 25 Aug 2004 19:03:28 PDT

i dunno i have returned but not with much.. i had a couple projects but i never really got into them yu know? i think i need some exterior motivation for this... just one of those ppl who would do everything for someone else, placing myself on the lowest priority sometimes.. i feel like a such a women, (to all women, don't be offended, males have a different view of being a women than you do) and kinda like i need someone else do to anything... comic party's main dood realtes to this, and the writer form Read Or Die (Nenene i think?) also had the same problem. And like them i guess, if i could find one person, or maybe just one special person who wanted to read it, or who i wanted it to be read by, then for them i'd do it. but i do't think i do.. bwah, i'm such a loner... lol. (laughing away the pain) uhmm yeah, more random lyrics...

Oh, I can see what's on your mind...
The pain of feeling left behind...

But i couldn't have you to understand...
The pain i feel when you hold my hand...
You need to know that I lied to you, it was nothing I did to hurt you,
But untill the end, you won't know it's true...

Oh-o oh-a,
Won't you set my mind free!
I can't decide what to let be,
When I choose from A through C...
And I can't just FORGET... ~what you mean to me~...

ugh the rest blurs, later i guess... ja ne

w00, celebrate... uhmm yeah~

~Final-Preacher — Mon, 12 Jul 2004 20:29:53 PDT

I hit 500 congratulate me, escepcially cuz a couple days ago I was like, c'mon, 499, one more! - yeah anyway.
I got these lyrics as an diea to start something, check it out:

(i think this stuff is kinda like a chorus, i just can't rem where i got the melody from).

~Just an ordinary world, keeps calling back to me,
I close my eyes and turn to see my dream,
Just an ordinary girl, keeps running back to me,
I can't have you if i love this dream..!~

just the chorus, what do you ppl think?

And anyways, i've also somehow come up with another storyline i want to write about, but i'm going to do this differently, in episode style. maybe i'll turn it into an anime or manga, it's shoujo anyway. Look forward to Lost Souls: Resurection, when teh time comes, it will be nice... right?

"and all teh light that light the way are bli

~Final-Preacher — Mon, 05 Jul 2004 18:52:46 PDT

Oasis, good band ne? I don't post much things of importance do I? No I guess not... maybe cuz nothing important happens anymore... No that isn't true... Important things are happening, I just don't always realize stuff, thats all. Well, now that I think about I do have a lot to say... I don't want to end this on a bad note so lesse now...

Violin classes..! A new friend of mine is kinda giving me short Violin lessons... I think I'll just practise fingering on my guitar for now, but I think im going to save up and buy myself a violin... She plays it quite beautifuly and playfully, something that makes me smile, always. Its so very kind of her to give me these lessons, I feel so happy! I have loved and wanted to play violin for so long... And I never chased after that dream, I feel glad that I am now... And you know... There is something unreal about her, not jsut her playing... Everytime I even jsut glance at her I think to myself she can't be real... She is pretty, and a very nice person, with such a cute personality too! I am not intrested in her anymore than as a friend (so don't even think about it Zack) but... It's almost like she vexes me (but in a good way). I don't know how to describe it, everytime I look at her the world zones out... It feels nice, I sometimes think i can feel things I almsot gave up on feeling ever again... not love, but iono.. something else, something nice anyway... Once, i flet lost in this world for someonelse, but she I was in love with, This girl, I've only known for half a week, and she brings all of this up... (funny thing tho, she looks liek you) And yeah I'm serious, I don't look forward to more than violin lessons and ...friendship from her... But what an angel... maybe, somehow, that's what she is... God bless you girl, you make my life warm again, and my 'peach' lips smile again... My "Strawberry Eyes" glow, atleast one more time before the Wind turns to Ice... God Bless you Quiny, And ahead of time, thank you so much for the lessons.

Currently Listening to: WIND by Akeboshi

Current mood: Blissful, like a petal dancing in the wind, Blissful

Can't reply to lot of stuff stop read rest stop

~Final-Preacher — Sat, 26 Jun 2004 20:16:43 PDT

Bloody pay per letter... I'm sorry but i can't comment on a lot of peices now, my days are becoming very busy. I started summer school at this private school and i have to catch up cuz I started late... taking french, something I used to hate, but now i like... or... I grew to like... yeah anyway, lotz will be said soon, but for now, I got to go and work.... I forgot I have that on my bill ( l'addition) as well.

Call of Ivory keys and bows

~Final-Preacher — Tue, 22 Jun 2004 00:43:50 PDT

Ehrmmm... I've begun to compose... eek! i know i know it's nothing big but to me it's like this whole new step.... and in my head i have two things...
One: "OMIGOSHOMIGOSHI'MSOEXCITED!" and then there is "... I hate base clef..." No seriously, I HATE base clef.... if you don't know what i'm talking about, think the left hand music... didja know it was written in a different scale - sometimes it is, and in the base clef. Maybe, maybe not... anyway - if I learnt it, I might not hate it as much... only a slight bit less tho... And I don't know how to note for violin... my favourite instrument i don't even know how to note... how pathetic... so for no, I'll stick to cocals, Piano and Guitar... Drums will follow... i want to learn 'proper' notation for it... and Violin will become an addition... This is the beggining and it will take me forever at first, but I'm learning still along the way so the pace will speed up... I will also be teaching myself Piano and have a friends sister teach me Violin...
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But my point for saying all this is, If you have any suggestions on how to note, or know of any good melodies/ rifts/ chord stuff, please stop by, and share... I got some notation for the vocals in Gackt songs... and I'm looking for stuff like that...

Test posts here.. DA mucked up again..

~Final-Preacher — Fri, 18 Jun 2004 08:47:18 PDT

Damn it, and I was in the middle of so many things too... Well, I was going through my messages and stuff... Everyone is scared to psot empty comments, YOU CAN POST HERE< I DON"T MIND! I'll have a journal with lots of comments.. commentless comment but hey, they count for something... Oh! Angie, what i said was aong the lines of GACKT CHAN IS MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE'S MY SQUEEZE TOY, MY PLUSHIE, MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND I WON'T SHARE HIM!!!!! IF YOU DON'T WATCH IT, HE'LL BE MINE FOREVER AND YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!! ... Yeah uhmm if you don't know gackt then you'd understand... and you wouldn't fully get this unless you read Gravi... ... anyway... yeah, I hope posts are back up soon, they are the best part of DA!

ANIME NORTH highlights and events

~Final-Preacher — Wed, 26 May 2004 08:49:04 PDT

wow, this was really great! cosplayer's galore, DDR extreme and what not. The dealer's room was meiocre, the artist's alley had some really talented artist's in the making there, one was my friend who made $700 selling her art, go Shelley!~. hehe, On Saturday I tried what was called the straight jacket challenge. five dollars down, and then you try to get out of the thing in ten minutes or less. if you can, then you win 50 and you original five back!~ I ended up loosing, but I could have gotten one arm out... jsut not in the time limit... but i got a bunch of random people taking pictures of me and stuff, it was kinda cool. plus the guys next to them gave me a free sketch of me trying to get out.. only they spelled my name wrong.. grrr.. and signed it saying anime north /05...
but anyway, then there was the kelsyes incident, where we tormented the waitress by asking her to make new bills and what not... i got her to threaten to kill me... yeah i end up bragging about something stupid like this... i know... but it was all right in teh end... teh atm got revenge by saying i had no money... dasmn thign scared me, hadn't even bought anything yet! luckily it was jsut an old crappy one that does that sometimes,i got my money out fine...
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Now the coslpayers wooha!~ megami sama! there was a really good vash, sasuke galores, a couple kakashi but the best one had a "make-out paradise" book too!~ and a zabuza... But he didn't do it so well or else i would have jumped for someone to take a picture with me and him... there was awhole cast lot calling themselves the Viva Rocks and i didn't have my camera but i'd have taken a picture of them i f i could... Yunas was done by the tens and pretty well too, a lot of poeple really spent time on their hair and costumes for this one, the two android units form Xenogears, Kos-Mos and the other one i don't know it's name... and my freinds favourite CATS! i didn't see him myself but i heard he did it pretty well and all... I wnted to go as Naotoa or as another Sasuke but i didn't finihs all the things for my sauske and Naota's costume involves me bringing my guitar and my mom was against that... my old carboirdguitar broke.. but i guess i should invest in fixing it for CN Anime coming up... yeah and i can, my sasuke will be equiped with the Chidori!~ lighting blade aka thousand birds!~

Annie the Musical!!~

~Final-Preacher — Sat, 22 May 2004 05:24:34 PDT

wakakakakka!~ i just saw a school musical preformance of Annie and I was amazed, such a small school, yet such large dedication and magnificance was demonstrated on the stage... It was really something for people to see... I never saw the movie but this musical, I've been told, outmatched it by a thousand fold... I've decided to include the lyrics to my favourite scene... (oh yeah, the entire American cabinet was made up of chinese cast, and Roosevelt was my favourite character in this!)

[ANNIE]
Just thinkin' about
Tomorrow
Clears away the cobwebs,
And the sorrow
Till there's none!

When I'm stuck a day
That's gray,
And lonely,
I just stick out my chin
And grin,
And say,

Oh, the sun'll come out
Tomorrow
So ya gotta hang on
'Til tomorrow
Come what may
Tomorrow!
Tomorrow!
I love ya Tomorrow!

Ikes: "child, stop that!"
Roosevelt: "Ikes! No,no child, what were you saying? It's okay go on."
Annie: "oh-okay (repeats last verse)
Roosevelt: "Ikes!"
Ikes: "sir?"
Roosevelt: "Stand up!" (Ikes stands up) "Now sing!"
Ikes: "What?!"
Roosevelt: "I've decided, if my cabinet is going to be anything, it's going to be optimistic about the future, now sing!"

Roosevelt while Ikes sings: "Louder Harold... I can't hear you... That's it Ikes!"

[IKES]
The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
Bet your bottom dollar
That tomorrow
There'll be sun!

[PERKINS AND IKES]
Just thinking about
Tomorrow

[ANNIE, PERKINS AND IKES]
Clears away the cobwebs
And the sorrow
'Til there's none!

Roosevelt: "...Solo for the President!"

[ROOSEVELT]
[singing] When I'm stuck with a day
That's gray and lonely
I just stick out my chin
And grin, and say--

[ALL]
The sun'll come out
Tomorrow
So ya gotta hang on
'Til tomorrow
Come what may
Tomorrow!
Tomorrow!
I love ya
Tomorrow!
You're always a day away
Tomorrow! Tomorrow! I love ya, tomorrow
You're always a day away!

I really find this song so inpirational and uplifting, and it comes from my favourite scene from the entire musical, which was to say the least, amazing and beyond compare of any other Annie! Just by hearing a chinese Roosevelt sing! that was the highlight, and he sang so well too! I have a picture of him falling of his wheelchair and also of him in red boxer shorts with an American flag over his crotch handing out flowers to the key production units of the preformance. neheheh!~

To everyone that didn't get the chance to see it, sorry, it kinda sucks to be you... And if your one of the so-called friends of mine who didn't come, then it's your loss, really big loss...

Battle Royale... I really wanna see this now...

~Final-Preacher — Wed, 19 May 2004 15:17:02 PDT

heh heh... Battle Royale i gotta see this thing... found a bunch of people doing this questionaire; "Which Battle Royale character are you?"
I found it very intresting, makes me want to see this movie now... best way to get unbiased results is to not have seen the movie or whatever first, so i've been told and it makes sense... this is friggin accurate...

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"Aww, you sentimental sap. You genuinely a good guy. You have very strong feelings and sometimes you get confused about how strong they are for certain people. This can get messy when you start dating someone, while knowing all along you love another person. You should be true to your feelings and not leave confessions until the last minute. Yet, even in such a case, after being shot down (quite literally) you're still concerned with other people's safety over your own. You're a very good friend. Take more chances and more opportunities for yourself, though."

okay i got shot down by the girl i love... see i told you it's accurate... now i really really wanna see this movie... but wait a sec, my W.O.C. is a GPS device? and i have 0 kills? i don't like that number... now I'm going to do this again but using how i was before 'her'

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"There was really nothing you could do. You are an excellent leader and you tried your damnedest. You got your friends together, you built bombs, you hacked into a complex computer system, and you even knocked it out for awhile. But you can't control everything, unfortunately. Emotionless psycho's might always be just around the corner, though. So look into some surveillance equipment, maybe. Just a thought. You are a very giving individual, though. You're willing to sacrifice it all when the time comes. "

damn... this is pretty accurate... feel like ocean's eleven gone wrong... i liked the orriginal better btw, some one actually died in it (not in a gun fight either) and it was more real really... new one was too good for my taste... but you guys, do this quiz!
Which Battle Royale character are you!

Got the shit kicked out of me... by love...

~Final-Preacher — Mon, 17 May 2004 16:30:30 PDT

I did it again... Good lord is there no mercy for those who feel teh most? are you trying to wane out my kind? because at this rate, you will succed... despite my strength, despite my fire, the rain which pours from my heart, my tears douse everything... and i find myself once again at the crucible of my own guilt and judgement... I swear i tried to abandon what i felt but i could not... Is it sucha crime to love etternally? I know i deserved punnishment but is this the way you meant ot fufill my promise? my silent oath? because if it is, you haven't kept up with your word... I found out this saturday, taht i would never see her again... and after all the blooddrenche battles we've had, i still found out that i loved you. granted, we both tried to push each other away... we both have proof... just why is it that i did not succed where you did not fail? because i knew you too well... and i couldn't bear to see you in pain even when you looked at me with such a straight face... this is how saturday evening went...

she walked in: "okay i have five minutes..."
me: "five.. okay" (to teh guy with me) "excuse me for a minute wiill ya"
her: "so what did you want to talk to me about?"
me: "well, i know we went through a lot, but can we be frineds?"
her: (quickly) "no..." (then more slowly) "it would never work out..."
me: (pained) "you're... you're the most beautiful person i've ever met... it's really such a shame if we can't even set things aside to be friends..."
her: (most important atribute is mumbled while tunring away, to run) "yeah it is..."

I caught up to her later, watched her face as i would enver see her again...
"why? why won't it work out?" - "i just have this feeling, i can't explain it..." - "i see... well... take care..." and with that the curtains have closed... god damn it... if any of you understood this as i do, than you would slap me in the face... You see, i wrote it likethis for a reason... it was all an act, on both parts, me and her.... and if seen by anyone who was playing close attention, it would be so goddamn obvious... She was in pain... and the one who caused it was herself, in remorse for the pain she casued me.. but her animousity towards me preventing me, the only person who could heal those wounds from doing so.... oh the irony bites in now... God damn it, if your reading this, please, please understand i want this pain to end, i would forgive you in a second if you would only let me... to everyone esle... pleae help me... being stuck in a rut... i don't know what to do... knowing i can't do anything, but the growing feeling that i have to... why must someone so heartful be tormented... why do the heartless win in the end? life is not fair... why god why? must i feel so much? is it the gift of empathy proving more to be a curse than anyone thought possible? why?
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I'm back... with cool new stuff!

~Final-Preacher — Sat, 08 May 2004 12:56:53 PDT

heheh, i've gotten it fixed, my computer is back up and running and i have posted a couple new deviations... or posted one and created the other on the spot. Well anyway, just as rant, could you guys-reading-this-as-you-visit-my-websit e-from-a-link-on-my-work please comment on my devs? It's just so blank when so many people come and read it and no one comments, it's like everyone is just here for sampling it and then they leave...

In other news, those of you who know what's been going on in my life, my new lit peice should be of some intrest, darker than what most of you know me to be but only true. Got another song up, found out that I had a bunch of unfinnished songs that I want to work on... As soon as this friend of mine who said she wanted to compose using my lyrics gives it back, monday it should be... Found some old stuff I should toss and old stuff that sould just need a bit of re-vamping and voila, yeah so await some good stuff here. what else? uhmmm let me see, found out using a lot of math and drawing any five cards from a 52 card deck and hiding one of them, and placing the remaining four in a certain order, you can identify (or derrive) the last card! It was pretty cool, my math teacher says he'll teach it to us, but only after he gets rich off of it. I want to learn it! All I now is that the first card is used for the suit, and you have to use the rest of the numbers to cue the last detail, hey I could always just guess, I have a 1 in 12 or higher chance!

NAI!!!!!

~Final-Preacher — Wed, 05 May 2004 06:26:08 PDT

uhmm so u guys know, my computer is under attack from a worm... it's been hit, it's been taken out, executed most mercilessly. won't be online except very infrequently. wish it wasn't so... sorry!

Live or die, I won't do it, I can't do it alone!

~Final-Preacher — Thu, 29 Apr 2004 18:00:32 PDT

Blargh.... soo alone... soo sad... I need people around me... You know when your around all these people and you feel like you need your quiet time? Then you take it only to realize you need poeple around you, cuz that may be the kind of person you are? Then you go back BUT you still can't stand them, WHAT THE HELL do you do then? Make new friends? hell that's easy, all of a sudden just go out and meet new people, that makes so much sense... So instead of either, I'm giving myself more work to do, to distract myself, but it doesn't work because every second I have to think I'm just thinking I'm missing something... Somebody please explain what I am missing? Why is this so freaking empty? I just spent 5 ours tutoriung someone in math and I come home to feel lost? What the hell is up with that? Somebody please explain... I don't know what to do anymore... guh... so pained...

stuff... feels good

~Final-Preacher — Mon, 26 Apr 2004 19:29:22 PDT

ahhh, i'm so relaxed, so much tension cleared the past few days, it's all feeling good... Well, thnigs are deffinetly turning up for me, i've found myself back in my old position as some sort of officirator for my friends... everything seems to be good... maybe now i can work on the chapter two huh? it's been a while since I even looked at it. Been so distracted along the way. nehehe it's time for a come back, I'm alive! so go me! I rock! i sure do (just go along with my self encouragment k?). Anyway, i have to actually work on this stuff, got so many windows open i'm not sure how to focus here. lates people! keep watchin for stuff.

17 going on... well still 17

~Final-Preacher — Sun, 25 Apr 2004 19:54:05 PDT

Well I saw this movie, 13 going on 30 with my mom... and I was watching this movie and I was just thinking about my own past relationship and in the middle of the movie, one thought came to mind: I was the girl. What the crap. That was so messed up, I had been acting exactly like that girl, aside from talking to little kids... or hitting on them for that matter. And 'she' was the guy, I played a little movie in my head where we took the roles. Hell, even managed to reinact some of the scenes. So I was just thinking, doesn't it/wouldn't it make more sense if we solved our differnces, went back in time and got together? Well I think it does, it does, so now, I should forget highschool in a few years or find some magic fairy dust which will take me back in time. Damn it, where the hell can I find magic fairy dust at this time of night?

"Guh..." journal entries are popular...

~Final-Preacher — Sat, 24 Apr 2004 07:32:00 PDT

"A time, a place, one that is not here, not nowperhaps I could have loved you. That you claimed to love me, well, as clichéd as it may be: what is love? I cannot know for I have never experienced it. But I believe that when I love, I will not have to force it, I will not have that nagging feeling in the back of my head telling me, This is wrong for you. And because I believe that, I will listen to me mind, as I usually do. When I said yes, I listened to my heart. Now when I say no, I speak from my mind. I have always been logicalmy mind is more me than my heart" From "A time, A place" By L.N.Y. Wun
This piece was dedicated to me... it said a lot of things that someone else couldn't. I won't link to it, if you want to read it, it's on Fictionpress.com, you can search for it there. I'd like to believe that I got over it, but every time i read this it hurts me so much inside. Something masochistic inside doesn't let me stop, I really can't read it enough. Sad to say, I've been addicted to pain. No the whole point of this blog was not a whine out to everyone, it still has purpose (I hope). And the point is this:

This is really a shout out to everyone who understands what true love and the lack of this is. I once loved this girl, held her closer to me than my own life. And I still do. Why you may ask? Even after the pain she has caused? Even after I've said I got over it? That's because that is how real love works... unlike movies, doors never close. I would welcome her back now if she did come back, I would have the same feelings renewd with joy and maybe stronger but never less. Never. What I'm trying to say is that, even when you've reached rock bottom, and the sky falls down upon you, if you have a hope, even a glimmer, it's worth it. It can keep you going for as long as you need to. Really, I believe that true strength can be measured by how hard you hold on. I'm not trying to say that I'm futtily holding on to her, I'm saying I haven't given up on her. She was really, my inspiration for almost all of my work. She is that great, I don't want pity, I don't deserve hers, but I pity myself for loosing out on something like that. >> For more, read "A Drop of Water" by me... it explains this to some extent.

Mood: sad and pained... could you have guessed?
Song: "Crucify my Love" by X-japan

It's up. and i'm down.

~Final-Preacher — Wed, 21 Apr 2004 10:13:55 PDT

Kayo, it's up. The first chapter of my story. chapter two is coming out smoothly and soon I might add. :woot: anyway, it's a two to one vote, *sorry ashara* Chapter two will be titled: The Dance of Falling Leaves and Carnage for this chapter, i'm going to spend a couple days watching chinese gang movies, just for tht fight scene when one of the best freinds die... yes it will be so... one of tham will die. can you guess who? quote form FLCL "Oh Brother! I was just a stray bullet from a gun anyway!"

"No! Don't leave me here!"

yup yup... breath in, breath out... I'm feeling naughty...
Mood: ehrr.. ya.
Song: Vannila by Gackt... have you seen the video? I want that kinda hair!
Ps: Gackt likes to teach dancing... and making fun of talk show hosts that he teaches dancing too. I like watching Gackt dance and make fun of talk show hosts.

i have things to upload but i'm not gonna.

~Final-Preacher — Tue, 20 Apr 2004 13:42:25 PDT

yeah.. so like i said, i have things to upload but i'm too tried today to actually do any of that. but instead here's what i'm going to do, i'm going to work on chapter one cuz i want a small break to consider things in chapter two. i'll have to replace the chapter on on fictionpress so this is my first priority. And by the way, exactly one month ago was the worst week of my life, i had just had my heart broken and school opened up. Wait-a-go God. Anyway, *think happy thoughts* I'm going to be renovating my story and working on chapter two. and maybe i'll organize things on my comp. I have a bit of a poll going on tho, it sounds stupid but which is teh better name "Dance of Falling Leaves and Carnage" or "Dance of the Falling Leaves and Carnage"? yes the 'the' makes a big difference. think about it a litte and add comment here to answer.
Mood: super focused.
Song: M.A.Z.E. by Kumi Koda

darn, was a bit to hasty

~Final-Preacher — Mon, 19 Apr 2004 17:08:11 PDT

[blah] my first chapter has some major grammer errors in it. I'll be needing to update that earlier. guess i was to in a rush to put it up that i forgot to really go throuhg it once. meh, i'll do that as soon as i find myself in writer's block, excellent way for me to get past it then... In other news, well no other news, i managed to get a bunch of stuff up and well previews that ellicted the intrest of many people in tha matter of a few seconds... namely that cat.. eheh eheh... well if you guys want to see what kinda of story this is going to be, it's good for a rough idea. i'm sure you can follow the story line well even with the errors. don't worry before i put up chapter two i'll work on it. take care y'all. lates

workloads...

~Final-Preacher — Mon, 19 Apr 2004 07:50:51 PDT

i am school right now. comp science is a fun class, if you plan to do your work in five miutes and spend an hour doing whatever you want. which i do. anyway, after dling nuumerous songson k-lite, namely j-rock songs by L'arc en ciel, god they are good (but not as good as Gackt!). but anyway, I'm working on a new short story now, I don't know what i've called bit but it seems that i'm not the only one who has looked at this topic. It's based on what i think are called the Sino wars, when japanese warriors invaded Chinese borders to increase their land. Its still a bad memory for many chinese cuz it happened not so long ago (like 1840-50's) and affected many of them. Just two days ago i saw a movie called "Running on Karma" where the heroine in the movie had to die to pay for all the bad karma placed on her because she was the re-incarnate of a japanese soilder during the sino wars. It was a sad and funny and romantic movie, even if it had a bad turn out. ahh. i'm going to look forward to this new jet li movie: Hero, my friend made some funny pickle jokes during a muted trailer of that. heh heh, something about when the sky was filled with arrows and then the screen went dark and he said "phew, glad those arn't pickles!". Anyway, I'm going to post the story up on my other website first and then put it up here, just cuz it's easier. I'll let you guys know when the chapters are up. "Chapter one: The Man Named Rohikki!" is due atleast by the end of this week.
mood: seriously drunk
song: Hear Me Cry by Hikaru Utada

preview tags

~Final-Preacher — Mon, 19 Apr 2004 06:36:30 PDT

okay.. i just noticed that under teh preview pics, they have placed teh copyright thingy. well here's teh thing, the peice is mine, teh pics are always not going to be, i am not an animator and that is obviously not my art. so just fair warning to ya'll the previews are just pics i have on my comp which i think matches with teh peice. that's all. phew glad i didn't get knocked over for that yet.

Lets start things off

~Final-Preacher — Sun, 18 Apr 2004 13:42:42 PDT

K. I've been here a lot to check out my freinds stuff and recently I've been making stuffu (sorry i tend to speak engrishu sometimes) on my own: so i made me an acount... yay! - feeling all warm and acount-y inside... anyway; I'm going to posting my stuff on here and blogging every now and then... Hope y'all are in the mood for some good emotional stuff cuz if it's one thing i'm good at it pouring out my raw emotion into words. The aspiring and great (and now deviant) Final Preacher is here! one final word, Good morning to YOU, Niggaah!~

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