http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:FireflyDreamer&section=today deviantART RSS for by:FireflyDreamer en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 05 Dec 2009 21:52:51 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/28493851/ http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/28493851/ Sat, 21 Nov 2009 17:49:02 PST I has many pictures to post. I dunno when I will, though. I WANT A TABLET OR THAT COOL LITTLE LAPTOP THINGY ANDREA HAS. D:>

Stealin' it, kthxbai. :3

]]> ~FireflyDreamer http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/27508790/ http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/27508790/ Wed, 30 Sep 2009 17:44:21 PDT SO UH YA.

I have a number of pictures I need to post on here so people aren't bored with me. BUT - ... Uh, I'm kind of in the middle of a possible move. Yeah. I'm sick of my family, and it's possible that I'm moving to Oglesby, a town a few hours from where I live now. I basically burned everything on my computer to a blank CDs and whatnot, so all my art & other miscellaneous bs is not here. That's that.

I hate my family c:

And disreguard the mood thing at the bottom. It's really supposed to be 'raging', but it was taking too long to load. :3

]]> ~FireflyDreamer http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/25905220/ http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/25905220/ Sun, 12 Jul 2009 18:29:53 PDT I dunno.
Stupid. Stupid stupid stupid.

I've got four new pictures to post here. But I'm not even sure that I will because I don't feel they're good enough.
Because it doesn't seem any of my efforts are ever good enough.
I sound depressed, yes?

Good.

]]> ~FireflyDreamer http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/24875703/ http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/24875703/ Thu, 21 May 2009 15:10:26 PDT So things are definitely different, yet again.

I've lost my touch, I swear. I simply don't find comfort in drawing anymore. :/ I hope I get over this soon. Because I'd be just one huge waste of decent talent. ):

But on a happier note, - ... I'm happy. :]

]]> ~FireflyDreamer http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/23924848/ http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/23924848/ Fri, 27 Mar 2009 21:11:50 PDT So much has happened; where to start?

My life is literally going to hell. Everything is just... ugh. Frustrating. Infuriating. Disappointing. Ammie has returned. I thought I should be happy, but I wasn't. She wouldn't even look at me. After everything we had been through, I didn't even receive a glance. My heart still drops every time I look at her. Shouldn't I be over this? Over her? It's been two years. There is no time for us anymore; she is so unreachable, untouchable. Everything has changed between us. We went from being engaged to becoming strangers to one another. When she first arrived back, and I saw her, I ran away. I literally ran away. She had changed so much. I didn't want her to see me and be disappointed in what I'd become; for little did she know, I had changed as well. We only started speaking again a few weeks ago. She's been here for five months. It's sad, isn't it? Pathetic, even. Pitiful. It took me almost five months just to utter "Hello" to her. God, I miss her. It's killing me. It really is. But after all the deception, the lies... I don't know if she'd ever have me back. I doubt it. I seriously doubt it. But there's always that slight glimmer of hope that she'll remember every moment we spent in each other's embrace, every touch, every loving gaze. Ammie, I love you. Like I said, Forever and Always.

Aaron is being difficult. I'll just leave it at that.

]]> ~FireflyDreamer http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/23175428/ http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/23175428/ Fri, 13 Feb 2009 14:00:21 PST I don't remember who I stole this from o.o'

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- Available: Yep. Have been for quite some time.

- Age: Sechzehn Jahre alt. :]

- Annoyance: People who step on my pants while I'm walking. ]:< And go through my things.

- Allergic: Cats. Dust. Pollen. Perfume. Pretty much anything airborne.

- Animal: Ferret <3

- Actor: HUGH LAURIE OMFG.

B
- Beer: *gag* I prefer the fruity drinks. >.>

- Birthday/Birthplace: Charity's 13th birthday. Good Lord.

- Best Friends: Mloply. Mando. RAYNE VASCAN MMMM. :]

- Body Part on opposite sex: TUMMIES :'3

- Best feeling in the world: NO COMMENT. o.o

- Blind or Deaf: Deaf. I'd hate to lose my ability to see D:>

- Best weather: Cloudy. Smells like rain. Cool breeze. <33

- Been in Love: Unfortunately.

- Been bitched out?: Not really. I don't do anything wrong most of the time. And when I do, people are too intimidated by me to say anything about it. :/

- Been on stage?: Unfortunately.

- Believe in yourself?: lmfao. Good one. xD

- Believe in life on other planets: Oh yes.

- Believe in miracles: I believe karma makes miracles happen.

- Believe in Magic: Nope.

- Believe in God: Yes.

- Believe in Satan: Yes.

- Believe in Santa: :/ No.

- Believe in Ghosts/spirits: Yes.

- Believe in Evolution: Ehhh.

C
- Car: MINE SUCKS. D:>

- Candy: Skittles. Mmm.

- Colour: Violet.

- Cried in school: Yes. So many times.

- Chocolate/Vanilla: Chocolate.

- Chinese/Mexican: Chinese.

- Cake or pie: Pie. The cake is a mo' fuckin' lie. D:<

- Countries to visit: Germany. :]

D
- Day or Night: Night.

- Dream vehicle: A car that runs.

- Danced: I used to. For like 13 years. Ew.

- Dance in the rain?: Done it.

- Dance in the middle of the street?: Done that to.

- Do the splits?: Used to be able to do it.

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- Eggs: Scrambled.

- Eyes: Brown. :<

- Everyone has: lied. Except maybe Jesus. >.>

- Ever failed a class?: Yep. v.v

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- First crush: Some guy named Koltin. Haha.

- Full name: Kali Rae Clayton

- First thoughts waking up: "I DUN WANNA."

- Food: I wish I didn't need it.

G
- Greatest Fear: Already came true.

- Giver or taker: Giver. >:3

- Goals: I live day by day.

- Gum: I don't like gum.

- Get along with your parents?: Haha. Funny. YOU'RE SO CLEVER HAHA.

- Good luck charms: Nope.

H
- Hair Colour: White blonde.

- Height: 5'4"

- Happy: Never. D:

- Holidays: Halloween, Christmas.

- How do you want to die: Slowly and painfully. And right in front of my ex.

- Health freak?: Ehh.

- Hate: Being so... melancholy.

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(In guys/girls)
- Eye colour: Ice Blue.

- Hair Colour: Black. Or light blonde.

- Height: I don't care.

- Clothing Style: I don't care.

- Characteristics: They have to have to HAVE TO be honest with me. I don't like liars. D: And they must talk a lot.

- Ice Cream: SPUMONI AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

- Instrument: PIANO. Or clarinet.

J
- Jewelry: Snakebites. Rawr.

- Job: DUN HAZ.

K
- Kids: Not anytime soon.

- Kickboxing or karate: Ack. Neither for me.

- Keep a journal?: Yep.

L
- Longest Car Ride: Like 16 hours. D:>

- Love: Her.

- Letter: Y.

- Laughed so hard you cried: So many times. xD

- Love at first sight: Never happened for me.

M
- Milk flavour: I can't drink milk. XDDD

- Movie: Prayers for Bobby. I bawled like a baby.

- Mooned anyone?: Nope.

- Marriage: Been engaged.

- Motion sickness?: I get that easily.

- McD's or BK: BK. Mmm.

N
- Number of Siblings: Three. All younger than me.

- Number of Piercings: Two.

- Number: 7, 13.

O
- Overused Phrases: Too many to list. ;]

- One wish: That I could lose weight easier.

- One phobia: Being alone.

P
- Place you'd like to live: Uhm.

- Pepsi/Coke: Coke.

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- Quail: ...? I'm at a loss here.

- Questionnaires:

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- Reason to cry: Her.
~FireflyDreamer http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/22123073/ http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/22123073/ Mon, 22 Dec 2008 13:46:13 PST I don't know who I am.
In all seriousness:
I forgot who I am.

Who am I to you?
Do you know who I am?
Give me an idea.

Do you know anything about me?
My past? My present?
Will you be a part of my future?

What are you doing?
What's going on?
Make me see, make me understand.

Let me see, let me understand.
Let me in!
I want to save you. Cure you. Heal you.

"Those words call out through the ages.
I'll send them to you.
Suspended in silver wings."

What of them?
Do you know them anymore?
Have you forgotten all of us?

No acknowledgment.
No whispers.
No "I love you."

What happened to you?
Was it even real, these past months?
Do you see me?

Am I invisible?
You don't pay attention.
You don't care.

What is the truth?
Was I just a doll?
To play with until you got bored?

Your touch, your embrace.
Your warmth, your kiss.
Forget our past.

What about now?
I've realized things.
Give me a chance.

I was wrong.
I've changed.
But I'm the same.

I'm sorry I ignore you.
I'm sorry I don't know what to say.
I'm sorry I don't know how to make you see.

You fight me.
I'm under your skin.
I can feel it.

Promise me you'll try.
Let your guard down.
We're not forgotten.

So give me something.
A clue. A memory.
Look through my eyes for a change.

Do you see now?
Do you know?
Do you understand?









I don't.

]]> ~FireflyDreamer http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/21954337/ http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/21954337/ Fri, 12 Dec 2008 20:33:28 PST Ehhh. It's been too long. I come back to like 1000 or so messages ): Dun wanna.

So I realized today that last year was the best year of my life, despite all the drama. Just so happens that last year was the longest time I had spent away from Rayvn and Amelia. That proves that they're just killing me. I want out, and it's because they're back, ruining me over and over again. Every time I pick myself up, they push me over harder than the last time.

And he's not helping at fucking all. God, why do things have to be like this? Why do I keep getting replaced? Why do my fucking promises mean nothing anymore? WHY DOESN'T SHE CARE?!

I want out of this shithole town! I want to start over! I want to be around different people. I want to escape the lie I lived for two years when I was with Rayvn and Amelia. I want to be as far away from them as possible.

Someone, take me the fuck away from here...

kthxbai.

D:

]]> ~FireflyDreamer http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/19867997/ http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/19867997/ Tue, 19 Aug 2008 14:00:47 PDT Haha. It's been quite some time since I last wrote. Two months? Sounds about right. Summer flew by.

I know, I know. You only get like 4 pictures from me this summer. How sad for you. Believe it or not, I've been slightly busy. Not really. But kinda.

Did I complete my corny-as-hell summer goals?
Haha. Some. I did beat Final Fantasy XII. My WIPs, no. I did pass Driver's Ed, but with a D+ ;-; And I don't think I lost 30 lbs. More like gained 60 lbs. ;A; Sad, sad Kali. Still, Armando and I were epic vampires :]

lolz

My hair is falling out. People say I should quit dying it. I say, BY THE HAMMER OF THOR- ... no.

Anywhoo, Rayne and I are starting a joint art shop on GaiaOnline. Which means I'll be posting some of my arts from there LOLOMG

I've some news. Ammie's finally gone. Will I ever see her again? I am doubtful. But maybe her leaving is for the better. As much as I love her and hate her, I am definitely going to miss her. Over two years we spent in hell with each other.
Over two years we said words we maybe didn't mean.
Over two years we cried, laughed, lived, and died with each other.
I am never going to forget her, and how much we changed each other. Too many memories I have of the two of us to forget her. The three days and three nights in Plainfield. The carnival, the kiss atop the ferris wheel. The tent, the fireflies by the pool, the fires in the woods. The ridicule, the slander, the hurt, the rumours we endured. The hospital, the park. The plans we had for the future. I can't even look at some of those places anymore without a tear falling.
I loved her.

And I lost her.

EDIT:I'm about a hundred hits away from 2k hits.
I will be doing kiriban for whoever can get a capture of it c:
Which means, I'll do absolutely whatever you want :3

]]> ~FireflyDreamer http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/18816586/ http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/18816586/ Fri, 13 Jun 2008 08:35:55 PDT So. Bleh.

I finally got my Final Fantasy XII game and book back from mi padre.
Happy I am C:
I've been playing it almost nonstop.

I've been watching soap operas a lot lately o.o
Mainly As The World Turns.
...
And mainly the Luke and Noah story :'D

They are so fcuking cutee <3
And I've been in the mood to draw.
So everyone knows nothing good can come from this o-o
...
*coughNUKEPICTURECOMINGUPcough*

Noah's hair is impossible for me to draw, so I'ma make it a lil' different.

lawl

I still need to finish/start Pharyn's picture of April. She asked me months ago, and I still haven't gotten any of it done. I think I'm done with commissions forever. They're too much of a hassle, and I always end up doing them for half of what the original price was D:>

And I'm doing a picture of Charity's RP Character Rayne. G-LOL dress and hair and errything xDD I should've been done with it months ago. But I haven't gotten around to colour it.

With... MY NEW PHOTOSHOP LAWLS C:

DAUSBVSJANSDAKL and like, I'm reallyy corny.
I made goals for myself this summer.
Ew.
Anyway.
I plan on:
¤ Losing 30 lbs.
¤ Beating FFXII
¤ Passing Driver's Ed D:>
¤ Finishing all my WIPs
¤ and... be an epic vampiya with Armando :3

WHICH WILL BE NEXT WEEK MUAHAAHHAHAa

WE WILL BE MOAR EPIC THAN YEWWW
LOLZROFL
XD
...
I'm hyper.

]]> ~FireflyDreamer http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/18711263/ http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/18711263/ Sat, 07 Jun 2008 09:27:23 PDT So... uhm... yeah. That hurt. Really bad.

Maybe it's a reality check. Maybe it's just another one of those small miracles that keep happening that keep me from slipping away from reality again. Maybe I deserved this.

I look back on the dates; they were less than a month ago, which means months after we got back together.

This is shit.
I can't believe him.

With a guy.

Am I that bad a girl? Am I just a horrid person who deserves this kind of bullshit? Am I giving him what he wants? Am I just overreacting? I just logged in to check on my account, and I searched a little, and there it was, plain as day.

;~;

I don't need this right now. I've had my fcuking heart broken enough times, I don't need this. I don't need any of this!! I'm so sick of it all!!

I'm so fcuking sick of everything. I'm sick of life, I'm sick of getting hurt, I'm sick of having to fcuking walk home in the stupid-ass rain, I'm sick of feeling rejected, I'm sick of feeling like a third wheel, I'm sick of feeling left out, I'm sick of not belonging, I'm sick of fighting about everything, I'm sick of love, I'm sick of relationships, I'm sick of this heartbreak, I'm SO GODDAMN FUCKING SICK OF EVERY GODDAMN THING THAT EVER FUCKING EXISTED EVER IN ALL ETERNITY.

Fcuk...

I just want my old life back. I want things back to the way they were. Things were so good back then. I was happy then. I didn't know what I had till I lost it. I took everything for fucking granted. I had all I ever wanted. Now, it's gone.

Just fucking gone.

Forever.

]]> ~FireflyDreamer http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/18276264/ http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/18276264/ Sun, 11 May 2008 15:46:25 PDT So I'm back, kind of, I guess.

I'm really crushed. Heart-broken. Hurt.

Everything just sucks now.

I'm mostly pissed at myself...

And someone else, but it doesn't even matter because they're not here anymore.

I don't know about any new projects. I'm in a slump and not exactly working on anything specific.

I did a new watercolour last night, I don't know if I'm going to post it... It's kind of a personal thing, but of course, nobody would understand it even if I did post it.

So there.

]]> ~FireflyDreamer http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/18037002/ http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/18037002/ Sat, 26 Apr 2008 10:55:06 PDT So yeah. I don't know. Taking a break, I guess. Been in a really horrible mood as of late, can't take anything anymore, sick of everything, wishing I was somewhere else, and just plain depressed.

So. Yeah. I don't care.

]]> ~FireflyDreamer http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/17961313/ http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/17961313/ Mon, 21 Apr 2008 14:53:51 PDT c: So I've been in a weird mood lately. In and out of depression. D: It's weird. Maybe they're just normal teenage mood swings, I dunno. But one minute I'm happy and joking around with Elizabeth and Armando, then the next I'm shunted to one side and thinking about crying. ;3; It's just weird... Though I know nobody that actually reads this journal. <-< SO. I don't even know why I continue to update this thing. X] WOO!! *rolls around*

D: I'm in a weird artistic mood, too. I dunno, things come to me, awesome things, then before I can even get them down on paper, I forget and it makes me a sadface. ;~; <-- Like this one. c:

So yeah. I'm also really excited because I just discovered that one of my favorite manga [[ Vampire Knight CHYEAHH ]] is possibly going to be an anime? C: WOO! *rolls on Zero* X3 Yeah. Anyways. *cough*

HO'SHIZZ TEH UPCOMINGZ

1. Sonja's family portrait still in the works. I have the lineart all done n' stuff, but it's just not a piece of work that motivates me to finish it... DX

2. Ammie's kids. c: ... All 12 of them. -.-

3. April!! XD I need to get that done for Pharyn o-o

...

Ferran Trinity

Add me yeahhh

]]> ~FireflyDreamer http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/17828779/ http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/17828779/ Sun, 13 Apr 2008 09:24:22 PDT Woo! I dunno. I feel like I need to update again. DX

So. Yeah. I did a picture of me and Rayne a while back. Finally posted it. > 3< And I finally uploaded the picture of Ferran and Caleb. C: Meh's happy camper. X3

Yesterday's band contest was... decent. We got pretty good scores. Elizabeth was in a horrible mood and I had to comfort her on the ride home... I am a psychic, though. I predicted I was going to cry, but it wasn't for the usual reason... @.@ omfg XD I laughed to tears. Friggin' Malcolm... And then the panties on the floor... Then Darby. Oh, my Lord. XD Wow.

But yeah... I got home and then I threw up. ;3; I need to quit being a fatty and eating all kinds of junk. I think that's why I got all sick... -.- But then I got online && I was RPing with Ammie until we were both so tired we fell asleep at the keyboard. XDD God, it was awesome. X3 We were both typing like drunks when we said goodnight to each other. O: Ohhh && I got to talk to Caleb. <33

What you can look forward to:

1. Sonja's family portrait!! D:

2. Ammie's kid's picture. e.e Damnit, now there's 12 of them... T^T

3. Ammie requested a fluffy Nemayna x Aubrey pic. She wants to piss Rayvn off. So I said okay. ^w^

4. Pharyn wants a picture of her new RP character named April. c: So I'ma do that too... o 3o

@.@ As soon as I'm done with these requests, I'ma open my 6th Gaia art shop. DX Hope this one doesn't suck like my other ones.

Hit me up sometime :]] The name's Ferran Trinity

;D

]]> ~FireflyDreamer http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/17794830/ http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/17794830/ Fri, 11 Apr 2008 12:14:26 PDT Well. As you might have noticed, I've finished the picture. ^-^ The little void in my soul is filled. XD lmfao Not really. But still. X3

It turned out better than I expected. The skin turned out wayy different than I wanted, but I'm pleased with the outcome. C: See my happy face? That's a rare occasion. Take note of it. D:< It'll be gone in about a week. So enjoy it while it's there.

So a lot has happened this week... Rayvn is no longer a friend to me. I still hate, loathe, detest, and abhor Victor. Rose is trying to be my friend in regards of Rayvn, but I want nothing to do with her. Ammie's going to Florida for a week and I'm going to miss her. There's a band contest tomorrow, and I know I'm going to end up crying again. I always do when I go on band trips. For some reason or another, I end up crying. -.-' Goddamnit. To top it all off, I'm not going to be able to Roleplay for a friggin' week. D: Now I am a sadface... ; 3;

So onto the projects in progress! Wooo!!

1. Sonja's picture!! I have the base sketch done. She asked me to do this picture months ago, I don't know why I've procrastinated so much ;~;

2. Ammie and Aria's eleven children. I have to get out my old, giant sketchbook for this picture. xD

Woo! X3

]]> ~FireflyDreamer http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/17751938/ http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/17751938/ Tue, 08 Apr 2008 17:21:26 PDT So. You may have seen me randomly carrying around a sketchbook, those who see me in good ol' reality. Well, it's my new project.

You see... Well, it's definitely too long and complicated to explain in mere words in an online journal that I know nobody reads anyways. But that's beside the point; what I'm trying to get at is I drew a picture consisting of eight original characters of mine's headshots. Mind you, I drew this picture in... October of 2006? You know, back when two girls mercilessly pulled at the line separating my reality from my fantasy? ... You remember? That one time? You know, when those two girls tore me apart from the inside? Ruined my life? Gave me a golden heart to hold on to, then shattered it into a thousand pieces without remorse? ... No? Well... o.o' Whoa. [/angryramble]

*cough* Anyways. It was a long time ago. And my artistic style has improved and been altered so much since then that you wouldn't believe I drew that old picture if you looked at it compared to some of my recent work. I would post the old picture, but it's on lined paper, in miscellaneous-coloured inks, and just plain shabby. D: I guess I could show you sometime, but meh... Not anytime soon, I wager.

Anyhow I've been working on recreating that picture in my newer style. I'll bet you anything that in another few years I'll look back on both of them and think, "GOD I SUCKKEDDD." lmao. It always happens. X3 Besides the fact that I'm a better artist than I was then, the eight characters in the picture have... well... grown, in a sense. They may not have grown physically, because they are immortal, but... Some have gotten married, some have divorced, and some have even had children. I may sound a little insane saying this, but they've become my family. Retarded, right? X3

So. Yeah. Expect new picture of eight people you don't know rather soon. :]

Upcoming projects:

1. Ammie requested another picture of Ferran Trinity and Caleb Silver. :] Already done, coloured in coloured pencils, needs to be scanned.

2. Ammie has also requested a picture of her 11 children. It goes hand-in-hand with the picture of my 11 children. XD Good luck figuring that out.

3. I want to do a shounen ai picture. I've been playing with the idea of a Fain and Saber picture, but I need to get in contact with Ammie and get Saber's description... ; 3; Why must we be so difficult...?

[/incoherentramblings]

]]> ~FireflyDreamer http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/17633357/ http://FireflyDreamer.deviantart.com/journal/17633357/ Tue, 01 Apr 2008 13:27:36 PDT I dunno. I doubt anybody will read this piece of crap, so I'm just gonna rant on about things I know you don't care about.

I guess I feel... rejected right now. I feel... used. I'unno how it all happened... I mean, Ammie and I were close. Really close. To the point of knowing almost every one of the other's thoughts. We were inseparable. We loved each other. Then some things, terrible things, happened, and we stopped talking. I hated not talking to her. I missed her like hell. Every waking moment spent without her had the potential to make me insane.

After months of endless pain, I finally brought up the courage to say "Hi" again. Things sort of went back to the way they were, except... She was no longer mine. She had found some boy as her comfort. I... didn't know what to say. But I had to be the good friend. So, I was there for her. I listened to her when she complained about him, I gave advice for when she needed it, and I gave her comfort when they broke up.

I wanted to be hers again. I wanted to hold her again. I wanted things to be like they were last March, when she first asked me out. So I "told" her that Ferran still loved Ammie.

...

She never replied, and she hasn't brought it up. But she has "flirted" with me a lot, and she has showed signs that she might still like me like she used to. Then she decides she wants the boy back. She asked if it upset me. I never answered, but my tears could tell you that I was beyond upset. I thought that, maybe for minute, she actually liked me. I thought that, maybe for a minute, things would go back to the way they were. I thought that maybe, just maybe, I might be happy again.

I don't know what she's doing. Does she like playing with my emotions? Does she like tearing up my heart? Does she enjoy seeing me hurt myself? Does she find happiness in seeing my sorrow? I... don't know.

Every single day I ask myself these questions, praying to any higher power there is out there that there is an answer, but I still...

Don't know.

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