http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Flip-Side-BPM&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Flip-Side-BPM en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 20 Dec 2009 12:33:54 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/28895808/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/28895808/ Sat, 12 Dec 2009 04:50:27 PST
My mom woke up at what I thought was 9:30 (turns out what I thought was a "9" was actually a "4") asking if I'd ever "hit a fat kid with long dark hair in the balls with a crutch". At a normal hour when I wasn't half asleep from just getting woken up after only getting about 4 hours of sleep I would've been confused by this so I was well beyond baffled baffled and said that I don't recall ever doing that and asked why.
TURNS OUT she was asking because our house got toilet papered and that was the story the said fat kid with long hair was telling the cops that were in front of our house.
From what I gathered the story goes like this: Sarah and Cody (my brother's girlfriend and friend) were leaving our house when they saw that it had been toilet papered. They go back to the garage to tell my brother and when they come back out they see the kid take off. So Cody takes off after him and ends up chasing him almost to downtown and running in circles and eventually clotheslines the kid. My brother calls the cops and they come out. The kid turns out to be a kid named Kody Crum (which is ironic because he was being chased by Cody) and what he tells the cops is that I'm "such a ****ing fag." and that I "hit me in the balls with a crutch." So now it's a hate crime and my brother is yelling and screaming about everything saying things like "I might not get along with my brother ever but no one's gonna **** with my family." which I suppose is him being nice to me.....sort of.....indirectly anyway. The cops make him clean up as much of the toilet paper as possible (there is some of it on our roof still, which really toilet paper was a bad choice if you think about it. I mean, we are one of the only house on the street that doesn't have trees in our front yard so.....I think egging or forking would've been a much better choice but anyway...) and remove this sign and tiny American flags they'd put in our front yard (I'm not sure what all of that was about....The sign said something about "Singers Wanted for an a Capella group" and had the word "Ghost" written on it with marker. I have no idea if that is suppose to mean something or what...Oh, and the flags? The cop thought we were just patriotic when my mom mentioned them) before they hauled him away.
There is just a whole lot of weird things about this really. Like, I know this Kody kid kind of, but I've not talked to him since I had a class with him my junior year (two years ago) where he either was sleeping in class or just not there so there weren't a whole lot of words exchanged, and even less of me hitting him in his boy bits with a crutch. Also, even though he said he did this by himself, there were tired marks in our yard. I think I'm gonna ask a couple question but I can already take an educated guess of a small group of people that would've been involved. Not that I plan to be vengeful or anything, but I would like the satisfaction of knowing who all are sad enough to not move on with their lives.

On one had I think this is funny buuuuuuuuut on the other....it really hurts.

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/28794551/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/28794551/ Sun, 06 Dec 2009 19:23:08 PST
I hope it's the latter...





Yesterday I received a phone call from a recruiter for the Marines who was doing just that, trying to recruit me....It was an interesting 7 minutes (to say the least) that brightened my day.
When I was handed the phone and told it was for me I was quite befuddled because no one calls me on our home phone. It was the recruiter who introduces himself, though since I'm terrible with names I forgot it promptly. He asked what all I was doing and wanted to see what the Marines could do to help. I fumbled to tell him very subtly that I'm not what the Marines are looking for, to which he quickly asked why not and I told him that I felt awkward saying why to someone I didn't even know. He explained to me that over the course of working there he had heard some pretty wild things and assured me that I wasn't going to top some of them as he tried to weasel out of me why. The topic then steered away a bit and he asked if I was working or going to college and things like that before asking if I was a musician. I said yes, which prompted him to ask me many different questions about that (which if I didn't know better I'd say he was genuinely interested ((which to some extent I'm sure he was)), but what I really think was he was trying to recruit me from the Marine band as I remember the very same thing happening while I was still in high school when some Marines were there).
Then (I'm not really sure how) he ninja'd his way into getting me into answer this little check list thing of sorts for what makes me qualified to be in the Marines. He asked about my age, if I was US citizen, if I'd had any major run ins with the police, if I did/do any illegal drugs, if I had an detrimental past injuries, etc etc etc. From his check list I was pretty much an ideal candidate (if I had a lobotomy that is)......until he asked if I had ever had any surgery. I told him "Not as of yet." and he asked if I was planning to get reconstructive surgery or whatever. Once again I had an awkward period where I tripped over my words and out came a response along the lines of "Well....umm...several of them...uhhh...the biggest being....uhh ....in the......... well.....crotchular region....."

Then there was silence....

Which was followed by a reply of "Oh....well....you actually managed to top all of my other stories.....If I was a chick I'd be a total slut, ya know? That IS what you're talking about right?". I said yes and he asked what I was planning to change my name to. So I told him and he replied with a blase "Cool, cool. Well good luck with that.". Then goodbyes were exchanged and that was that.

I'd been feeling rather down prior to this because I felt manly and gross and by the end of talking to this Marine I felt so much more feminine by comparison and it made me feel good.

But

I have two questions: 1. Why is it that the first thing people usually ask is what I plan to change my name to? I'm not bothered by this at all but it just doesn't strike me as the first thing that they would ask.
And 2. Why do almost all men at some point feel the need to say "Dude, if I was a chick I'd totally have sex with everyone I saw." or some variation of that? I'd like to know rather than just simply write it off as men being pigs or something brash like that...even though that seems to be the most logical answer...






And today, I went out with my friend WitheringOctopus (as she is known on here) and we went aboot thrifting and we tried on a bunch of clothes. I bought several new skirts, some new tops, and a pair of caprices. I also bought WitheringOctopus these very cool patchy jeans for all of her help with everything and just for going with me in general since I don't feel comfortable shopping for clothes by myself yet, though I MORE than enjoyed her company. When I was paying for everything at the last store we stopped at some macho jerks tried to make fun of me by saying "Did you try all that on before you decided to buy them." and I responded shortly by saying that I did before I payed and we left. I wasn't really bothered by what they said until much later. I don't really want to give them the time of day by worrying about some jackhole comment they made as if it matters but still.....I find myself doing just that as if it DOES. I have a boy body, I know... ]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/28710760/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/28710760/ Wed, 02 Dec 2009 14:03:58 PST Also after a few tries I have gotten the hang of straightening my hair and I love it. I also have figured out how to do my eyebrows and I feel like my whole face is just more lively and well kept when they're done.

Also (THIS IS THE IMPORTANT THING THAT WARRANTS ME TO WRITE A JOURNAL ENTRY) next week I finally am having my consolation. Wednesday of next week I am going in and a doctor will run an evaluation to see if I am mentally stable enough to start taking hormones. I think I'm more than mentally stable so I'm finally taking that first step down the road to becoming a girl. I'm so excited! ^^

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/28534251/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/28534251/ Mon, 23 Nov 2009 17:36:12 PST
"I apologize if this is sporadic and/or unorganized in nature. That's just how my thoughts are as of late.

I really don't know what is compelling me to write this. I mean...I haven't wrote a journal entry outside of my "Memoirs of a Gypsy" (what I wrote on the road) in months...I think it's that I've just got so much bottled up inside that I need to let it all out. Like, I talk to my sister about just about everything and I love that but it's like a garden hose being used to release the rising water from behind a dam. If I don't find a larger way to release the pressure then the dam is going to reach it's limits and and crack and overflow and eventually burst and....well I'm sure it goes without saying that such an event wouldn't be anything short of devastating.
Over the past few weeks I have been going out on occasions (with atleast one person with me because I haven't the confidence to really do so by myself yet) dressed up as Harmony Moon, my girl self. I love her, I love BEING her. She's been trapped inside for so long that it's feels unbelievable to let her out.
When I was younger I'd just do things. Not worry about whether or not it was masculine or feminine. Children are blissful like that. When I was maybe 3 I asked for Barbies for Christmas. I don't actually remember this first hand but there is a home video of it and my parents have brought it up countless time over the years when given the chance to share it.....and when they do both they and whoever they were telling it to would laugh and laugh. "Oh my! How messed up you must've been as a little boy to want to play with dolls. They are for girls." I imagine they must've thought as they laughed at me.
Another thing I remember is being at a lock-in type event once and as I lay off to the side, minding my own business, eating ice cream I noticed these two girls whispering to each other and blatantly pointing to me. They came over and asked me why I was laying like "that". I asked what they meant and they told me that I must be a FAG or something because I was "laying like a girl" before laughing and running off. At the time I didn't even know what a "fag" was. I was rather self sheltered back in those days....I still am I guess. It's instilled this endless innocence in me that I'm sort of proud of.
Once when I was very little I asked my mom why girls can wear pants but boys can't wear dresses. What she told me went something like "Because they just don't. Any boy that wants to wear a dress is messed up." I recall crying that night...I don't cry anymore though...I can't. I used to be able to cry freely. If I felt bad I could let out a single tear or I could sob uninhibited depending how bad I felt. But "boys aren't SUPPOSED to cry" I was told. If I ever did then my brother would make fun of me by calling me a "sissy" or a "baby" and my dad wouldn't stop him. He'd just tell me to "Suck it up."...so I did...and now I can't cry anymore. There are so many bad things I'm feeling inside right now and I want so badly to cry but I can't. I want some sort of release, to alleviate the pressure but I can't....I hate it. I've had to act for so long that the character I played has become apart of me. I want to kill me. Not Harmony, I want her to live. I want the boy role I've had to play for so long to die and never come back. I HATE IT! I hate it so much. I used to look at myself in the mirror and think "I can tolerate this.", but not anymore. Not since I've let Harmony out. When I look like I've always felt, a girl, I feel amazing. I feel complete. Like the turmoil between what I look like on the outside and what I feel like on the inside is gone. There isn't anymore gender clashing and I feel at peace with myself. I can stop pretending and don't have to monitor every little move I make so as not to risking doing something like "laying like a girl". I love being Harmony Moon so much....
Only problem is that sooner of later I have to go back to being Craig (which is my real name by the way), the act, the sham, the boy that is just that...a BOY. I feel stifled and bottled up and want to die. The joy that being a girl gives me is mimicked by the suffering that I have to go through when go back to being a boy. It's like small tastes of Heaven before being sent down to Hell. It feels like I'm being punished for being born a boy, like I have to punish Harmony because she isn't what the world wants to see. They want to see a normal, masculine boy fitting perfectly into his gender role even though he secretly wants to die. They DON'T want to have to face the very happy girl because she is a "freak".
When I go out in public as girl most people don't stare or point or anything, I don't even know if they notice...but then t... ]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/28479054/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/28479054/ Sat, 21 Nov 2009 11:28:16 PST
...

I'm transsexual and am going to be embarking soon down the road to sex reassignment surgery, more commonly known as a sex change. This road is known as "transitioning".

There.

Feel free to ask whatever you'd like and comment as you please...
Though please keep them positive because I'm getting more than a fair share of negativity from my parents and others as is.
Honesty is perfectly fine but please don't be mean, I don't need that right now...


EDIT:

I decided to add a pic
[link]
(I apologize for the quality as it was taken with my camera. Also, ignore that I blinked)

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/28358053/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/28358053/ Sat, 14 Nov 2009 16:36:46 PST Headed through Pennsylvania, which is quite boring since there are only mountains and trees there. It was much better once I got to the east side where I passed through Philly and embarked on a quest to find the iconic steps (which I had no idea were an art museum) from the Rocky movies and the statue. Eventually I found them and then had to go on a much longer quest to find a parking space. I took a couple pictures (as you've seen some of) and ran up the steps and pumped my arms at the top. A number of people were staring at me and I'm sure the locals probably wanted to push me down the stairs since they see that sort of thing a million times on a daily basis and I'd imagine it would get old, but I don't care because I can now check another thing off my list of things to do before I die.
After Philly I got lost and wound up in New Jersey where, it would seem, is the only place in the US that still has full service gas stations, which I'd never encountered before. The first time I stopped in New Jersey to get gas I got out of the car and this little guy came running out of the station at me and my first thought was "Oh crap. He just held up the gas station and is gonna steal my car.". Following that I saw a sign that said "The Land Of Make Believe" and pointed to the left without telling me what it was or how far it was so I thought "You know...I don't care what it is. With a name like that I've GOTTA go check it out. I hope it's linked to Mr. Rodgers somehow.". Turns out it was a theme park for little kids and I road around on a tiny train for poos and giggles. After that I got lost in Jersey City for a bit (which was a shithole) before deciding to head north to Maine for some lobster and whatnots. I had no idea where I was going except I needed to go north and east. When I hit Canada I figured out I needed to stop going north and start drifting east more.
Around that time I got lost on a mountain at 2:30 in the morning when my "Low Fuel" light came on. OF COURSE running out of gas on a mountain wouldn't have been bad enough in of itself since they don't put gas stations on mountains. There were no lights, I'd seen no cars for atleast 40 minutes, my cell phone couldn't find any service, there was no shoulder to pull off to, and I had just seen a sign that had a big deer on it and said "Next 24 miles" underneath. Needless to say that was not the best situation to be in, BUT there was a melody of 80's rock gold on the radio so it wasn't all bad. I drove for about another hour before the mountains took me downhill, and by this point I wasn't willing to waist anymore gas so I killed my engine and shifted into neutral to let my car coast downhill. Unfortunately without the power steering my car gets a bit of rigamortis and doesn't want to turn very well, though that didn't stop me from reaching the bottom of the mountains and a main road. My car managed to make it another 3 miles to the only nearby town and was sputtering when I pulled into the gas station, which didn't open until 6 and it was about 5 so I parked at the pump and got a little sleep before hitting and ATM (I had $7 on me at the time) and fueling up.
Following that night of stress I managed to reach Maine the next day (or later that day I should say) and it, more specifically Portland, holds the spot as being my favorite place that I've visited. I ate several Maine lobsters (for low prices), which were the best I've eaten, visited several neighboring areas, hit up some thrift shots, and all around had dandy time for the few days I was there.
The day that I decided to leave Maine I stopped at a (rather deplorable) Wendy's to get something to eat really quick. At the time it seemed good but within an hour following it I got those sort of explosive stomach gurgles that are signs of approaching doom. (By the way, this part may (( by which I mean "will")) get a wee icky for comedic value so if you so please go ahead and skip the rest of this paragraph....though now that your curiosity is peeked why would you go and do a silly thing like that?) By this time I was already out in the boonies, as there is a lot of in Maine, and I was frantically searching for a bathroom. I however, did not find one and the pressure was reaching magnitudes rivaling deep sea submarines so I pulled my car over, shut my lights off, and hurried to the side of the road. "Things" ensued and I felt very relieved....that is until I dropped my keys. Three things then passed through my mind 1) I hope they didn't fall in something, 2) I hope while I'm feeling around for them I don't put my hand in something, and 3) I hope I don't step in the previously eluded something. Luckily I dodged all three of those possibilities though then I had the chance to realize I had no toiler paper...or tissues....or... ]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/28158526/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/28158526/ Thu, 05 Nov 2009 10:32:49 PST
Freedom that I'd never once believed I could have and I wasn't so careless as to let it overwhelm me into a life of decadence.

I covered thousands of miles and a number of states.

Saw many new things, ate new things, experienced new things and good or bad loved all of them.

Most importantly I wasn't tied down or distracted from myself. I wasn't influenced by anyone other than me and my mind and it really helped me to dig deep into who I am.
Granted, it was a bit lonely at times I still had the kind of profound exploration that a lot of youths experience in college, only freer. I didn't have classes or tests to worry about. No partying, no relationships, nothing to focus on beyond the phenomenon that had manifested itself as who I am, whether conscious or subconscious. In doing so I've finally come face to face with a BIG fact about myself that has always been there and is really very obvious if pointed out, but denial is a bitch sometimes....maybe I'll share it with all of you sometime, but now? Not quite ready yet. It's a BIG change and I'll leave that at that for the time being.



I kept a journal of my travels and maybe I'll post a trimmed down version of that on here one day but I've got a lot that needs to be taken care of first.

I really could've kept going on the road for another month at least. I had/have the finances to do so and I'd finally figured out all the tricks and workings of life on the road, but I didn't. Maybe I'll go into that later too since it's directly linked to the prior mentioned thing.





As soon as I saw my home town I started to feel chained up and stifled......

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/27880047/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/27880047/ Tue, 20 Oct 2009 20:53:33 PDT



All of my stuff is packed up in my car (aside from what I will be using in the next...12 hours or so). Tomorrow I'm finally heading out on the road with gas in my tank and rockus tunes in my radio. You all are MORE than free to leave me messages and I'll be sure to get to them when I can.



Much Love
~~~~~~~~~



Freedom is my profession

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/27703724/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/27703724/ Wed, 14 Oct 2009 17:47:57 PDT
Goodbye, and much love

Here is an update on some things: As I told swantonextreme21,

"Yeah...and as of right now (I believe) I've told everyone who needs to know. My dad gave me his blessing, my grandma tried to guilt me into stay, called me stupid, and shoved Jesus' genitals in my face, and my mom is pissed and doing what she usually does when I do anything she does approve of (or anything at all in other words) which is no matter where the "conversation" goes she'll always bring it back to one point that she clings to for dear life as her strongest point and is now doing her angry crying to one of her friends on the phone because "I'm a terrible son" or something like that and how she's ALLLL ALOOOONE."

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/27478322/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/27478322/ Mon, 28 Sep 2009 22:58:55 PDT The more I am ushered into the "real world" the more I believe it's sole purpose is to steal any and all whimsy and innocence from people's lives. I don't care how much people might get paid or what sort of degree you have if you are working from 9 to 5 and hate your job then you suck at life. I would like to stress very strongly how I'd rather kill myself than do something I hate for most of my waking hours.
I will say right now, emphatically that I will either save rock music or I will die trying, and I'm not just saying that for the sake of the expression. Success or brains on the floor. Those are the only options. Life not spent doing what you love is a waist of life and I will NOT waist my life.
If you're reading this I'd wager that aside from maybe five people you either don't give two shits and/or just think I'm being dramatic to which I have to tell you that you don't know SHIT about how I do things then. Everything must be bigger than everything else, all has to be bombastic and over the top, and if you do not go big in everything then go home.

"Driven" would be a much more appropriate mood than "obsessed" but they don't have it.

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/27340622/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/27340622/ Tue, 22 Sep 2009 12:03:43 PDT

EDIT: Today I showed up, they didn't care, charmed them with my hip 70's ness, payed, and left. Then I went and got a smoothie.

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]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/26955617/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/26955617/ Tue, 01 Sep 2009 11:22:20 PDT
"Looking for 3 people with ROCKSTAR attitudes to work with loudspeaker company.
Must be 18+ and have valid DL
Suit and tie need not apply.
Paid Training
Company Vehicle
Compensation: Paid Training - $800 - $1000/wk after training
FREE BEER"

I went in for the interview today and it seems pretty legit and from what I've been told (which wouldn't surprise me if it was blown out of proportion a bit) I'll get paid once a week generally between $500 and $1500 depending on how well I do and based on experience, I only have to work weekdays with Saturdays optional, I can wear anything that I'm comfortable in, and perhaps the most important don't have to cut my hair. Seems like a pretty good gig so we'll see how it ACTUALLY is when I get home from it tomorrow.

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/26837622/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/26837622/ Wed, 26 Aug 2009 13:52:48 PDT
The plan is simple enough:

1.) Leave Ohio
2.) Use the money I've saved over the years to stay afloat until I get a source of income
3.) Find musicians to become band mates (as it stands in my imagination right now: two guitarists, a drummer, a bassist, and a piano player)
4.) Sacrifice anything and everything to save the world from the stagnant ninnypoo that infests modern music, thus fulfilling my roll as (perhaps FAR too righteous) rock and roll martyr/Christ

While some kids decide to go to college and change their major a dozen times before they realize they don't know what they want to do I know what I want to do (or to be so bold, what I feel I'm DESTINED to do) and know how I plan to do it. Sounds simply right?

Yes

But their is always a catch.

Location, location, location.

It wasn't at first because I thought I'd move to California since that's where the biggest music scene was in the 80's and there was also the summer of love and everything, however since then it's been taken over by nu metal, pop, and rap which I really should've seen that coming a mile away.
After that I looked over many placed before setting my sights on Detroit since it's produced more music than any other city in U.S. history (Specifically The White Stripes and Alice Cooper) but with the economy taking it's hardest hit there...it terms of livability it's not the best choice...and then there is the issue of Detroit being best known for it's garage rock so technical ability could go out the window their.
After THAT I was suggested Portland, Maine (which I hadn't even considered before) by my friend Baz on here and after doing some research (as I've done with many other cities and areas) it ranked high in a number of poles such as:
It being voted the most livable in the U.S. this year,
One of the best places to relocate to,
One of the most artistic cities in the nation,
One of the most "fabulous" (as in gay) cities in the U.S., and others.
So that all seems good but after examining the music scene I have my doubts. There have never been any substantial acts to come out of Maine (to which I've been told "Well you should be the first." and that would be lovely but perhaps there's a reason for it) and it's most prominent form of music is country..... THOUGH there are smaller punk, rock, and metal scenes as in all cities, but I have to wonder on how many free musicians there are with the same aspirations as I myself.
I'm on the fence with Detroit and Portland because they both offer good things though lack largely in others. Portland has the FAR better economy and other good things about it so it would be the smarter place to live but Detroit has the history and the more certain music so it would be a smarter choice from a musical stance. Portland is certainly a safer choice but rock isn't supposed to be safe. Safe is what produces radio friendly (s)hits that I hate. My head it saying "Portland" but heart is telling me "Detroit Rock City".
So as I said, I keep waiting to see if I'll get an answer but I'm not so it would seem I'm going to have to gamble with my life.

P.S.
This headular tug-o-war is why I haven't uploaded much of anything in a very long time.

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What the fuck is that?

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/26503996/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/26503996/ Mon, 10 Aug 2009 11:44:13 PDT

How am I feeling today?
Tutti Frutti- Queen
Haha how delightful ^_^

How do my friends see me?
Shoot To Thrill- AC/DC

What song describes my friends?
Comatose- Skillet
What a shame

What is the story of my life?
Story of My Life- Social Distortion
ARE YOU SERIOUS?! WHAT WERE THE ODDS OF THAT COMING UP?!

1 out of 4612.

What is the best thing about me?
Open Arms- Journey

What is today going to be like?
Growing On Me- The Darkness
Oh....I guess I'm going to get genital warts...bummer

What is in store for this week?
Tie Your Mother Down- Queen
...
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...
I should hope not...

What song describes my mom?
Double Talkin' Jive- Guns N' Roses

What song describes my dad?
Tush- ZZ Top
...
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...
Um...
...
...
moving on....

To describe my grandparents?
Touch-a, Touch-a, Touch-a, Touch Me- The Rocky Horror Picture Show
Oh....
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This scares me.....

How is my life going?
The Awakening- Alice Cooper

What song will they play at my funeral?
Burn In Hell- Twisted Sister
Awww....that's not very nice...

How does the world see me?
Flying High Again (Live)- Ozzy Osbourne
You know...that's is pretty accurate

Will I have a happy life?
Totally Stupid- Andrew W.K.
Oh...Dragsville man...

What do my friends really think of me?
Liar- Queen
Well I should hope not....
(Queen's been showing up alot)

How can I make myself happy?
Try (Just A Little Bit Harder)- Janis Joplin

What should I do with my life?
Same Old Thing- The Black Keys

What is some good advice for me?
Holding My Own- The Darkness
Umm....this song is about wanking.... o_O'

How will I be remembered?
It's Raining Men- The Weather Girls
HAHAHAHAHAHA ok this is a good one

What is my signature dancing song?
Bang A Gong (Get It On)- T. Rex

What is my current theme song?
Epic- Faith No More
OH GOD YES!

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Don't Drink The Water- Stone Gods


STORY TIME!

LIFE STORY:
Opening Credits:
What Do You Want To Be- Slash's Snakepit

Waking Up:
Pretty Tied up- Guns N' Roses
Oh....how kinky....

First Day At School:
Steady, As She Goes- The Raconteurs

Falling In Love:
What's Your Name?- Lynyrd Skynyrd


Fight Song:
Fat Bottom Girls- Queen

Breaking Up:
Hysteria- Muse

Prom:
Welcome Home (Sanitarium)- Metallica
Yeah that's pretty accurate for my feelings on prom.

Life's OK:
The Meaning Of Life- The Offspring

Mental Breakdown:
Cleansed By Fire- Alice Cooper

Driving:
Lovin' Every Minute Of It- Loverboy
That's pretty much the opposite of how much I feel about the act of driving.

Flashback:
Johnny, I Hardly Knew Ya- The Dropkick Murphys

Getting Back Together:
Gimme The Prize- Queen

Wedding:
No More Mr. Nice Guy- Alice Cooper
Hmm....so appearently I'm going to be abusive....how sad...

Birth of Child:
Welcome To The Jungle (Live)- Guns N' Roses
SPLENDID!

Final Battle:
Ich Bin Die Sehnsucht In Dir- Die Toten Hosen
I have no idea what that means...

Death Scene:
You Know You're Right- Nirvana

Funeral Song
Face Down In The Dirt- Mötley Crüe

End Credits:
Endless Rain- X Japan

What song describes my mood right now?
Black Diamond- Yoshiki

What song do I listen to when I’m depressed?
Superstar- Sonic Youth

Happy?
Porno Star- Mötley Crüe

Scared?
Everyone's A Little Bit Racist- Avenue Q

Bored?
Party Hard- Andrew W.K.

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/26336241/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/26336241/ Sun, 02 Aug 2009 11:32:25 PDT
RICH KID
[ ] You go tanning.
[ ] You own something from Coach
[ ] You have over 10 pairs of jeans.
[ ] You own something from Prada
[ ] Usually when you ask your mom for money she gives it to you.
[ ] You like going to the mall.
[x] You own an iPod/MP3 player.
[ ] you love Starbucks.
[ ] You have been called a brat.
[ ] You have tons of shoes
[ ] You hate buying things that are on sale
[ ] You have more than one house
Total: 1

GOTHIC
[ ] Black is one of your favorite colors.
[x] You have thought about death.
[ ] You've attempted suicide
[ ] You wear chains.
[ ] You like heavy metal.
[x] You've shopped at Hot Topic.
[ ] You have worn black lipstick.
[ ] Your hair was/is dark.
[x] You dislike preps.
[ ] You have/want piercings.
[x] You're going to/or have a tattoo.
Total: 3

PUNK
[ ] You can skateboard.
[x] You wear plaid.
[x] You like Converse.
[ ] You hate MTV.
[ ] You have/had/want/wanted blue, red, purple, or green hair.
[ ] You dislike pink.
[x] You hate preps.
[ ] You wear/have worn skateboarding shoes.
[ ] Shop at Pac Sun
Total: 3

GEEK
[x] You love the computer.
[ ] You like Star Wars.
[ ] You are supposed to/wore/wear glasses/contacts
[ ] You get straight A's
[ ] You like reading.
[x] You were/are in a band.
[ ] You have a curfew.
[ ] You always do your homework.
[ ] You never miss school unless you're sick.
Total: 2

EMO
[ ] You've been depressed.
[ ] You have black-rimmed glasses.
[ ] You like the band Thursday.
[ ] You cry easily.
[ ] You like emo music.
[ ] You hate being called emo.
[x] You keep a journal/diary
[x] You have written a sad poem.
[ ] You have/had a sad MySpace layout.
[ ] You think emo kids are hot
Total: 2


GHETTO/GANGSTA
[ ] You like rap? -depends-
[ ] You are in a gang.
[ ] You wear rubberbands in your pants.
[ ] You have had a freestyle battle.
[ ] You have worn converse with the tongue flipped out.
Total: 0

HARDCORE
[x] You like loud music
[ ] You love the Ninja Turtles (the cartoon yes, if there is a band named that ((which is what I am assuming) then no)
[ ] You never walk anywhere.
[ ] You wear slip-on shoes.
[ ] You love Normal Jeans
[x] You wear band t-shirts.
[ ] You love to 'hardcore' dance.
[ ] Your hair has been dyed more than one color.
[x] You wear blue jeans. (ummm...doesn't everyone?)
Total: 3

PREP
[ ] You love The OC
[x] You have a tiny dog.
[x] Your usual outfits consist of bright or cheery colors
[ ] You LOVE buying shoes
[ ] You shop at AE, HOLLISTER, A&F
[ ] You love/like to shop
[x] You like jeans.
[ ] You like Paris Hilton
[ ] Getting your nails done is a fun thing.
[ ] You wear big sunglasses
Total: 3

ATHLETIC
[ ] You watch the Super Bowl
[ ] You own track shoes or other sports related shoes.
[ ] You collect your jerseys.
[ ] You have/had had a special shelf for trophies and awards.
[ ] You have/had posters or plaques of famous athletes.
[ ] Your garage/shed consists of sports equipment.
[ ] You have/had a space in your room for awards and/or plaques.
[ ] You have a large amount of medals.
[ ] You belong/belonged to a school team.
[ ] You are going/have gone to a sports summer camp.
[ ] You have a specific number preferred for your jersey.
[ ] You are/were on a select team
Total: 0

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/26262486/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/26262486/ Wed, 29 Jul 2009 19:24:56 PDT
PICK YOUR ARTIST:
Frank Zappa seems like he'd be the most fun

ARE YOU MALE OR FEMALE:
Return of the Son of Shut Up 'n Play Yer Guitar

DESCRIBE YOURSELF:
The Muffin Man, He's So Gay, Teenage Prostitute, Stink Foot, I'm The Slime

HOW DO YOU FEEL:
Why Does It Hurt When I Pee?

DESCRIBE WHERE YOU CURRENTLY LIVE:
City Of Tiny Lights

IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD YOU GO:
Let's Move To Cleveland

YOUR BEST FRIEND IS:
Willie The Pimp

YOU AND YOUR BEST FRIENDS ARE:
Plastic People

WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE:
Peaches en Regalia

FAVORITE TIME OF DAY:
Invocation & Ritual Dance of the Young Pumpkin

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A TV SHOW, IT WOULD BE CALLED:
You're Probably Wondering Why I'm Here

TO YOU LIFE IS...:
A Token of My Extreme

YOUR LAST RELATIONSHIP:
Broken Hearts Are For Assholes

YOUR FEAR:
A Few Moments With Brother A. West

A FOND MEMORY:
The Eric Dolphy Memorial Barbecue

WHAT IS THE BEST ADVICE YOU HAVE TO GIVE:
Don't Eat The Yellow Snow

THOUGHT FOR THE DAY:
My Guitar Wants To Kill Your Mama

HOW WOULD YOU LIKE TO DIE:
G-Spot Tornado

YOUR SOUL'S PRESENT CONDITION:
Carolina Hard-Core Ecstasy

MOST FAITHFUL COMPANION:
Suicide Chump

YOUR MOTTO:
Jesus Thinks You Are A Jerk

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/26235241/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/26235241/ Tue, 28 Jul 2009 14:22:18 PDT 1) Post these rules
2) Post 8 true things about yourself

1.) My favorite color is magenta
2.) I don't consider techno to be a legitimate form of music
3.) Unique article of clothing tickle my fancy
4.) I enjoy rope climbing
5.) I don't play piano nearly as well as I wish I did
6.) If someone has horrid spelling, grammar, or misuses words then I WILL correct them
7.) I've been single for well over a year and I'd like to keep it that way for a very long time,
8.) THOUGH I have this somewhat infatuation with Alexa Chung

.:FIRE:.

[ ] You have a short temper.
[ ] You often act on your emotions without thinking first.
[ ] You are very competitive.
[x] You like to play with fire.
[ ] You are not a strong swimmer or you can't swim at all.
[ ] You prefer warm weather over cold weather.
[ ] You often lose control over yourself.
[ ] You can be quite reckless.
[ ] You sometimes hurt people without realizing it.
[x] People have often called you insane.
Total: 2

.:WATER:.

[x] You have a calm, laid-back personality.
[x] You like to go to the beach.
[x] You rarely get angry.
[x] When you do get angry, you know how to control it.
[x] You think before you act.
[x] You are good at breaking up fights.
[x] You are a good swimmer.
[x] You like the rain.
[x] You can stay calm in stressful situations.
[x] You are very generous.
Total: 10

.:EARTH:.

[x] You are physically strong. (I guess....)
[ ] You have a close connection with nature.
[ ] You don't mind getting dirty.
[x] You form strong opinions on issues that concern you.
[x] You could easily survive in the wild.
[ ] You care about the environment.
[ ] You can easily focus on your work without getting distracted.
[x] You rarely get depressed.
[x] You aren't afraid of anything.
[ ] You prefer to have a strict set of rules.
Total: 6

.:AIR:.

[x] You have a free spirit
[x] You hate rules.
[ ] You prefer to be out in the open rather than in small, enclosed spaces.
[x] You hate to be restrained.
[x] You are very independent and outgoing.
[x] You are quite intelligent.
[ ] You tend to be impatient.
[x] You are easily distracted.
[ ] You can sometimes be hyperactive and/or annoying.
[x] You wish you could fly.
Total: 6

.: DARKNESS:.

[x] You spend most of your time alone.
[x] You prefer nighttime over daytime.
[x] You like creepy things.
[ ] You like to play tricks on people.
[ ] Black is your favorite color.
[x] You prefer the villains over the heroes in movies, TV shows, videogames, etc.
[ ] You don't talk much.
[ ] You are an atheist.
[x] You don't mind watching scary movies.
[x] You love to break the rules.
Total: 6

.:LIGHT:.

[x] You are very polite.
[ ] You are spiritual.
[x] When someone is in trouble, you never hesitate to help them.
[ ] You believe everything you see or hear.
[ ] You are afraid of the dark.
[x] You aren't violent.
[x] You hope for world peace.
[x] You are generally a happy person.
[x...maybe?] Everyone loves to be around you.
[ ] You always follow the rules
total: 6

(I have no idea what those element things were for....)

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/26016935/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/26016935/ Fri, 17 Jul 2009 23:14:28 PDT
Ok so earlier today Timothy Frederico Bamako (which is certainly not his real name but we'll just call him that) sent me these lyrics:

"It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you"

Why did he send me these? I don't have a clue, but if HAD to take a guess I'd say it's because he has a blatant crush on me (if it's not creepy, very old men then it's annoying, really young boys...*shakes head and sighs*). Though these don't even really fit into that anyway so that just puzzles me more...
ANYWAY so I Google the first two lines to find out who they're by and they're by Maroon 5. So I ask him why he just sent me random Maroon 5 lyrics and he ignores the question and answers "Do u like them?". ((Now I don't really like Maroon 5 nor have I ever, but far be it from me to turn "Do YOU like them?" into "Give me a list of reasons as to why you think they suck." because I know that everyone has their own taste and no one likes to have something they like to be the victim of an unprovoked attack.)) So I answer with "No I don't particularly." and that's it and OF COURSE Timothy Frederico Bamako has too play the role of the sleeping bear poker by asking why not to which I quickly tell him that he doesn't want me to go into that. He then proceeds to poke the sleeping bear in the eye by asking again and saying that he really wanted to know....

I warned him didn't I?

I tell him how I feel that Maroon 5 is a lack luster pop rock band with poor (at best) song writing and instrumental skill, who has nothing note worthy to convey in their lyrics, very limited/predictable vocabulary, and THE BIGGEST OF ALL that their singer easily has one of the most annoying singing voices I've EEEEEEEEEVER heard.
I am then quickly told that I have "no taste in lyrics" and that I "just don't get the feeling or message they are trying to portray" and that it goes over my head ALL before taking a cheap shot at Guns N' Roses for no reason.
My answer to such a bold statement is that I sincerely doubt that lyrically Maroon 5 has the sort of depth to go over my head when I listen to so many more complex bands and musicians (Pink Floyd, Frank Zappa, Dream Theater, Bad Religion, and so on and so on) and that I asked what does Maroon 5 really write about that EVERY other pop rock band of this era doesn't. It's been several hours and I've still yet to get an answer.



Now I don't like to be a jackass and tear apart bands that people like but I avoided saying why I didn't like them and gave warning didn't I? The cheap shot at Guns N' Roses is really what bothered me the most. HE brought up Maroon 5 and basically lead the conversation to where it went, but let's be logical here; I don't recall ever asking for his opinion on Guns N' Roses. Now I had just voiced a very negative opinion of a band that Timothy Frederico Bamako (hehe I still like that name) liked so it's not surprising that he got defensive, but HE had asked (twice) why I didn't like them and I did NOT ask about GN'R.

Now I realize it might be annoying that I'm putting this on here but I'm looking for input on this. If I was or wasn't out of line for it and any other opinions or anything else on anyone's mind from this situation.

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Well it doesn't matter whether you do or not because it's a delightful sweet and sour fish dish.

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/25761344/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/25761344/ Sun, 05 Jul 2009 20:12:53 PDT ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Ok so a week ago or so I was on Youtube and was watching Deep Purple perform "Child In Time" back in '72 and there is this one guy who is just raging about how "gay" Deep Purple is and how only "fagets" like them and things of that nature. Now this guy's username was something like "Judaspriestdude321" (you get the idea) so I write a response like "Oh well last time I checked Rob Halford is a flamming homosexual so I don't think you should be saying anything about gays period, let alone Deep Purple or their fans." This fellow was appearently SO enraged by my comment that he felt the need to send me a message accusing me or being gay (not that he knew that I ACTUALLY was but he was using it in the way that Hilary Duff has been fighting OH SO hard against), making very bold sexual comments, ATROCIOUS spelling and grammar mistakes, and for liking Deep Purple he hopes my mother dies.
I respond to that by simply commenting that he made numerous spelling errors and if my mother in fact did die how would that make him feel. I never once insulted him or even swore or anything (though I was condescending because I thought they deserved that much atleast).

The End of The Back Story
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
This is the response I got back from the chap today:

"hahahaha u r a faget is that u in ur pic u like like like a dushbag an lol good for u ur mom dieing i shit on her grave an go fuck ur self an ur lil spelling an grammar shit this aint school this jus cp shit an ur a real dumbass for tryin to sound like a smart ass bitch ass faget so y dont u ur mom ur dad go fuck abunch of gay sailors"

Hmm....that might in fact be the most explicit run on sentence ever.
Here's what I sent back before blocking him post haste:

"Well you showed me a thing or two. With as much as you like to bringing up homosexuals I will assume this is some sort of tactical sexual advancement, for which, I accept. Now get on your knees and smile as you prepare to have your spinal cord broken from the inside out. That seems like a fitting death for someone who hopes someone else's mother dies because of their musical taste."

The moral of the story (if this story has moral) is that spelling and grammar mistakes still make you look like an idiot on the internet. If they think that with all the other people who do it on the internet (or lack there of) it will seem less stupid well they are sorely wrong. It just makes them looks like an moronic. It's kind of like when a girl does something really stupid but then say "Well I'm blond." and then laughs to try and cover up the stupidity that is still lingering in the air. That also is no excuse. If you're stupid don't blame is on your hair color (especially if you say "Well I'm blond." when you actually aren't), but that's a whole different kettle of fish.

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/25568317/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/25568317/ Fri, 26 Jun 2009 13:49:30 PDT

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]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/25462624/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/25462624/ Sun, 21 Jun 2009 21:41:33 PDT The Dropkick Murphys were really good but I didn't really get to watch them because there were a large number of large, presumably drunk, Irishmen, slamming into me the whole time so I didn't really get to see them but they sounded good. As soon as there set started some A-hole grabbed me and threw me to the ground. Yeah I'm tall but I'm a featherweight so....*shrugs* Some guys helped me up so that was all well and good but when I was down I lost the shirt that I'd just bought (BUMMER). After they played "Shipping Of To Boston" they were done with their set and a bunch of guys were yelling for them not to go and how the Offspring sucked which made a lot of other people around me mad and then there was this fight that almost happened by me but later the two guys made up like bros.
When The Offspring came out it was really awesome. They had very good lighting and there playing is very true to their albums with tons of audience participation and they played all of their best songs (minus "Hit That"). Earlier in the night I got elbowed in the eyed by some guy that was crowd surfing during the Dropkick Murphys set and during the Offspring's set I got kicked in the head early and then during their last song, "Self Esteem", I got hit in the face by a flying size 10 and a half Chuck Taylor.
So I walked out of the concert sore all over, out $30 because of losing that shirt (not counting what I payed for the tickets), covered in sweat (atleast half of it wasn't my own), and not able to hear so well but it was worth it.

Though that being said I learned that there are several A-holes in moshing that make it less fun. The two worst ones are the guys that are well over 200 pounds but still think they can crowd surf and the guys that feels the need to mosh during slow songs, like The Offspring's "Gone Away" (which Dexter even played on piano), or when no music is playing at all.

Once again I'm not in a "Sunny Mood" but the little dancing loading man is there eternally.

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/25443581/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/25443581/ Sat, 20 Jun 2009 22:16:42 PDT
"Crazy, Drunk, Angry, Passionate, Loving...this is me hate it or love it. I live like theres no tomorrow. And i almost always get wut i want bc im a motha fuckin princess!I love attention and wen im wit sum1 then i hav 2 b the center of their affection. U either love me or hate me theres no inbetween wit me. And if u think u kno me then u probably dont bc im really unpredictable. I find that i hav mor respect for ppl wen they say shit how it is and no other way bc it shows that they have balls. If u talk 2 any of my ex-bfs then ull find that im pretty hard 2 hold on 2 bc i dont take ppls shit and if i feel like if my mans done me wrong then i usually stop talkin 2 them and find sum1 who will treat me right. Im easy 2 get along wit and i dont start shit wit ppl unless they start it wit me bc i believe in karma wut goes around comes around. I hav a hott temper but i only use it wen i hav 2. I love alcohol bc no matter how bad things r u can just forget about everything wit alcohol. I hav lots of different kinds of friends"

There are so many things wrong with this that it's very likely the worst possible thing I've ever read. Whether it be the EXTREME butchering of the English language (Hello pet peeve. Would you care for a muffin or some a croissant?), the fact that they are narcissistic, self centered, and utter lack of empathy, or SO MANY OTHER THINGS that if I wasn't listening to Queen right now (since one cannot be mad when Queen is in their ear) I'm prolly be pacing around the room, waving my arms and yelling (not talking) to myself about how, by the end of reading this, it had gotten on my last nerve and did not get off of it no matter how many times it yelled out "NO MEANS NO!"

Let's count, in order why this makes me SO-VERY-mad: (This part is gonna be redundant so feel free not to read it. It's kinda for my own knowledge anyway because I wanna see how many things it actually takes to make me mad)

1. That the person is addressing the fact that they're angry and frequently drunk as if that's a good thing
2. They take the Chris Farley method of life where they live for their own self satisfaction in decadence.
3. The fact that they acknowledge that there's a spoiled bitch *ahem* I mean a "princess". As if that's not the golddigging, pampered snob mentality....
4. The fact that they acknowledge that they're an attention whore as if they're proud of it.
5.That she like to repeat how people only "love or hate" her as if it's some sort of justification for a rotten personality.
6. That they think they're trying to play "unpredictable" as deep and interesting when I'd be willing to bet that they're only unpredictable when drunk and really....who isn't?
7. They have been and will continue to slaughter the English language and litter this with 2's in place of the word and many incomplete words such as "wen" or "hav". Is it really so hard to type one more letter?
8. The fact that she will simply stop talking to any boyfriend if she "thinks they did her wrong". So lacking evidence, most likely for minor offenses, she's break up with someone without giving them the respect enough to even tell them before moving on to another guy like a whore. I hope you have syphilis.
9. "Im easy 2 get along wit"...I really doubt that. People appearently alot of people hate you and there's no in between remember?
10. I refuse to believe anyone ever "needs" to use their temper.
11. Alcohol doesn't make you forgot anything and people who think it does are the dumber than the mentally challanged.
12. Bullcrap I bet all your friends are drunken whores like you.

And so the total is an upwards of 12. Okey dokey then.

Also I'm not really in a "Sunny Mood". Every time I try to change my mood the little dancing loading man is there and he doesn't go away no matter how long I wait.

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]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/24722514/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/24722514/ Tue, 12 May 2009 14:52:52 PDT
]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/24641123/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/24641123/ Thu, 07 May 2009 18:58:46 PDT Yeah, I hate band, it's no secret, and I probably bring it up so much people are tired of me saying it but it's true. I didn't want to play a damn concert tonight, I didn't want to play ABSOLUTELY pissy poor songs at said concert, I didn't want to be involved in any damn award ceremony, I didn't want a fucking beer mug, I didn't want any of that but sure enough I got it all. Before the concert the female parental unit said something that I'd never heard her say to me before. She told me that she was proud of me for doing band. Now the fact that she said she was proud of me PERIOD should have touched me immensely BUT seeing as how the person that I can't stand more than anyone else in the world just said that she was proud of me for doing the one thing that I can't stand in the world so all I could tell her was "Fuck you." before leaving for the concert.
Now fast forwarding past the concert itself to the award ceremony: I had told Barbaro (our band director for those of you that don't know) last week that had I no intentions of sticking around for the ceremony and he made a big deal out of it and argued with me about it before eventually calling my mom yesterday. So upon being forced to attend, though in my normal clothes atleast (trying to look on the bright side), they have the slide show and people are cheering and clapping and I step forward to get my mug and that moment for the rest of the seniors probably was a very honorable moment for them but for me I felt like a whore. I mean what the fuck was going on? I was surrounded by formally dressed pricks who don't give a damn about me BUT still are in a group that is supposed to have an intense sense of belonging, getting an "award" that I didn't want, while a crowd of people who didn't even know who I was cheered for me. NO! Don't cheer for me! I don't know who you all are and I don't care so don't act like you give a damn about me. I would have preferred to have had the significantly smaller group of people who actually know me cheer for me no matter how people might have perceived me as a "loser". I don't need the illusion of belongingness in receiving a beer mug. I don't need to be those people's tart. To those of you that know me well enough that you actually clapped for me and not just because it's "right" to clap then I thank you from the bottom of my heart and I want to tell all of you that I love you all very much. I really do mean that. The rest of those people though? I don't need to their praise for something I do well but don't enjoy (hence the whole "whore" thing). There really isn't much worse of a feeling than being praised for something you dislike so very much. I flipped off the slide show and marched my way up to the band room and left the mug for Barbaro with a note saying "You can keep your mug" in it. That little trophy is something I don't want anywhere near me. After rereading all of this I'm sure it all sounds every so dramatic but I'm an extremist so it's just how I react to things but since I started writing this (as with just about anything I write) the feelings I had at the beginning have been expelled and I don't feel that way anymore so I suppose I'm done writing.""

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/24601553/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/24601553/ Tue, 05 May 2009 13:27:46 PDT especially since I've been kinda slacking but summer is almost here and I've gotta take my new camera out for a spin so I'll be posting some new pictures sooner or later. The last picture of me I have on here is back from like December or something so it'll be nice to put some new photos on here to show off my even longer hair and my GREATLY evolved sense of style.

Looky forward and see what all I've got in store...

PEACE!

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/24332470/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/24332470/ Tue, 21 Apr 2009 17:50:17 PDT
For example I learned that I, and I assume other people, aren't as hungry as they think they are. The last time I ate was on Sunday and not once since then did I actually think "Hmm I'm really hungry.". What I was thinking were things like "Wow, there are an awful lot of food commercials on TV.", "I've got an AWFUL lot of free time when I'm not worried about eating.", and "If I'm not eating because I'm hungry and I've got all this extra free time now who's to say that most of the time I, and everyone else for that matter, isn't just eating out of boredom?"

So over the duration of this little experiment I only drank water and chewed gum and that was all and as I got up this morning and looked at myself in the mirror I thought "Hmm...I really do look good today." which, considering the circumstances, was more than likely a very unhealthy thing to think and if I didn't have a good grip on things would most likely lead to an eating disorder. So after about 48 hours without food and I thought that about myself it really put into perspective what models and other people with eating disorders are thinking (though this wasn't target for this).

The only negative side effects I really had was a rather consistent headache and lack of energy, both of which I expected. Once the summer roles around and I'll have the luxury of sleeping in and not having to get up an go to school I would love to do this again to try and last out the full 5 days so that I can substitute the energy I'd get from food with more sleep, and I assume the sunny weather will also help supply me with extra vitality (if only mentally).

There were several complications I wasn't prepared for when starting this that I will be more aware of when I attempt this again. Among these were the lack of energy (which I was expecting but I didn't get the proper amount of sleep and fatigue caught up with me), the headaches which I assume is from low blood sugar so I think I'll need a bit of sugar next time around, the lack of food and how my body was going through it's supply of stored fat made me feel colder than I ever have before (though I wouldn't have let anyone know that AND me feeling it was a good idea to were flip flops today which was a no no) complications with the female parental unit that made her pester me with questions as to why I was not eating, etc.

I hope to last the full 5 days when I attempt the five day fast this summer and will be home by myself so I shant have the annoyance of the female parental unit and have a leg up over the other disadvantages the next time around and I hope I can find what learn what I'm trying to. Overall I wouldn't call this a fail experiment so much as just preperation for the next time though I am still a bit bummed out. I feel that I could have lasted the entire time but it just seemed as though it would have been healthier to cut anchor here and try again so as not to do some major damage but diving in when I didn't know how deep the water was.

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/24246894/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/24246894/ Tue, 14 Apr 2009 20:31:11 PDT
Last Thursday I left and it was a BRUTAL bus ride down there that took somewhere between 22 and 25 hours (I lost track).

Friday: We went to MGM studios (yes, I know it's been renamed but then new name can blow it out it's poop shoot) and that was fun for aboooooouuuuut and hour. We went on the Tower of Terror and The Aerosmith Rockin' Roller Coaster and there's not much else to go there so we just wandered for the next 4 hours, occasionally complaining about how we hadn't showered since the morning before and how we just wanted to sleep. Then after we FINALLY left there we went to the hotel and all showered before heading to Downtown Disney which was fun.

Saturday: We went to Magic Kingdom and that was much more fun than the day before because we were clean and had actually slept. Then later that night we marched in this parade in front of thousands of people and blah blah blah moving on. Then we watched the closing fireworks show before packing it in for the day.

Sunday: We went to Blizzard Beach and I got FRIED! I HAD put sunscreen on but I had ALSO gone down Summit Plummet which is a 12 story water slide where you can reach speeds of up to 70 mph so I'm thinking my sunscreen didn't stand a chance. After spending the morning and early afternoon at the park we headed to Epcot where the group I was with spent most of the day exploring the different countries and eating exotic food. We watch the fire/laser show to close up the day and then went back to the hotel.

Monday: We had to be up at 6 for checkout (I was SOOOOO not happy about that) before we went to Hard Rock Cafe for breakfast before going to Universal Studios for the day. Over the course of the day I kept getting lost from the groups of people I was hanging out with so I ended up spending a reasonable part of the afternoon walking around by myself and at one point or another I ended up going on just about every ride twice. BUUUUT the biggest deal of the ENTIRE trip was when a friend of mine told me he had seen Hulk Hogan in the park so I spent a good part of my time alone looking for him and getting on rides that I though he might be on. Just when I was convinced he had left the park I ran into him as he was (or atleast I assume he was) leaving the park. I ran over to him and was like "Mr. Hogan" (to be respectful) and told him how big of a fan I was and he said he appreciated it and compliment me on the clothes I was wear, most notably my bandanna because he was also wearing a blue bandanna that day, and I shook his hand before he said he had to go and walked away. Now I wish I'd been able to get a picture but he seemed to be in a hurry and I figured he was prolly tired of fan pestering him for autographs and pictures all day so I can think I made a classy mood by asking to shake his hand instead. His had was HUGE by the way. I'm pretty sure we were the same height but his hand like...ate mine. It was like shaking hands with a group of bananas. But anyway after we left the park we IMMEDIATELY hopped aboard the buses and headed home.

Tuesday: After driving through the night (and was seemed like a hurricane) we finally arrived home today at roughly 6. We went from the it being in the 80's and 90's outside and sunny to it being the 40's back here and very rainy and pissy. Upon exiting the bus I found out whoever was responsible for unloading my suitcase APPARENTLY thought it'd be a good idea to leave just mine outside in the rain which is where the lameness started. I call my mom for a ride and she proceeds to tell me that she "doesn't want to have to go out in this kind of weather" so after some time I manage to persuade her into picking me up so I don't have to haul all my stuff home in the rain. When I arrive home I immediately take a shower and things start to turn out alright....UNTIL I look in my room where I keep all my guitars and every and find out that my acoustic guitar case had been thrown across the room and knocked over my guitar stands and both Metropolis (my acoustic) and my Jackson had been knocked to the floor. When I ask about what happened I learn that my brother threw it off my bed (because we ALLL know that setting it down gentle is FAR too much work *rolls eyes*) so his girlfriend would have somewhere to sleep and it turns out she didn't even sleep in it. When confronted about it his argument was that "it was his case anyway and he could do whatever the fuck he wanted with it". Now this is true, it is his case BUT it had been sitting in our attic for an extended period of time with nothing in it so I fail to see what the problem is other than him being a selfish little baby. BU... ]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/24126509/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/24126509/ Wed, 08 Apr 2009 09:16:12 PDT Mama OOOO
I don't want to die!
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all!"




Really only that first line applies here but I love "Bohemian Rhapsody" so I went and put the rest of it for kicks.
ANYWHO
Tomorrow I'm heading down to Florida and I'll be back next Tuesday or Wednesday or something.
Try to not miss me TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooo much all my beautiful people.

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/23718717/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/23718717/ Sun, 15 Mar 2009 19:15:14 PDT
And real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning, tattoos, piercings and silicon breasts...

2. Gay Marriage Will Encourage People To Be Gay

In the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3. Legalizing Gay Marriage Will Open The Door To All Kinds Of
Crazy Behavior

People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has
legal standing and can sign a marriage contract. Lamps are next.

4. Straight Marriage Has Been Around A Long Time And Hasn't Changed At All

Hence why women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5. Straight Marriage Will Be Less Meaningful If Gay Marriage Were Allowed

And we can't let the sanctity of Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage be destroyed.

6. Straight Marriages Are Valid Because They Produce Children

So therefore, gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our population isn't out of control, our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7. Obviously Gay Parents Will Raise Gay Children

Since, of course, straight parents only raise straight children.

8. Gay Marriage Is Not Supported By Religion

In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

9. Children Can Never Succeed Without A Male And A Female Role Model

Which is exactly why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10. Gay Marriage Will Change The Foundation Of Society; We Could Never Adapt To New Social Norms

Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.

Repost This If You Think LOVE Makes A Marriage!

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/23558208/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/23558208/ Fri, 06 Mar 2009 14:23:28 PST
Okey dokey. Now lets break this down so that you'll see why this wannabe dramatic scene is so hilarious if you haven't already.

Ok so for starters I can assume that with as cocky as she was being she assumed she was going to bust my nuts with this "news" when IN ACTUALLITY people have been telling me for some time now that she makes fun of my behind my back. Short after storming off she texts one of the girls at the table at the text reads "Let me guess, he's been ranting about how horrible I was and trying to justify himself." and she (her name twas Katie by the way) OF COURSE reads it out loud because everyone is pretty much making fun of Marissa at this point for her little speech and she texts her back with "No he actually hasn't even mentioned it but everyone else is really pissed at you for dragging them into it and saying that they said things that they really didn't." and then Marissa responds with "What? I never did that." (which is once again read out loud) and I think this is just a fun little example off getting caught with one's pants down and then trying to cover their ass.

SO TODAY I wore my tutu to school today for only the second time (I had to ease my new classmates into something like that) because I know full well that she hates it and she just glared at me a bunch and said "freak" under her breath every time she had to walk near me and things like that and it just made me laugh and laugh and laugh. I mean I wasn't really planning on wearing it today but after yesterday I thought it seemed right and was sorta my way of silently going "See I couldn't really care less what you think." and giving her the middle finger.

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/23489516/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/23489516/ Mon, 02 Mar 2009 13:08:14 PST
]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/22488000/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/22488000/ Fri, 09 Jan 2009 13:33:24 PST
First of all, over the past few months I have been working with my friend on a series of pictures that are suppose to be getting posted some time soon in the near future so be sure to check them out and show him some love

and one a less businessy note I have some funny things to say

I wore my tutu to school today Much to my surprise it was received very warmly ^_^ While the reactions were ranging from "What the fuck is wrong with that kid?!" to the opposite side of the spectrum where people were saying things like "Oh my god! I love it!" and "You're my hero now" people were overall very warm about it, particularly girls.

To put it simply I had a blast today. I don't know if it was that people liked how unexpected it was or that I was so committed or that none of them had ever has that much confidence or that I'm just a really big guy or what but somehow everything worked out and spawned some interesting conversations with people I didn't even know and got some very good quote such as:

"Oh can I wear it?"

"Can we put it on the news?"

"Lemme ask you this. Is it more embarrassing that I'M wearing a tutu and you're making fun or me or that YOU could get beat up by the guy in the tutu?"

"Wow you must get a lot pussy wearing that thing with all that confidence" (I thought this one was just weird )

My personal favorite "It takes balls to wear a tutu"

and many more.


Oddly enough I think I may have started a trend because a LOT of people were asking where I got it because they wanted one. Most of them were girls but there were even a few guys who wanted to know

So I guess it just goes to show that if you truly do something out of the shear enjoyment of it and not for attention AND can pull off a really unique idea with such an air of confidence then people will respect respect you. They might not think it's as cool as I do but I'm thinking that they atleast respected the fact that I pulled it off ^_^ It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy now...after the week I've been having it feels SOOOOOOOOO good to have that feeling.

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/22326530/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/22326530/ Thu, 01 Jan 2009 08:09:53 PST
Ok in other news. I'd like to apologize for not being on much lately or posting any new pictures in a while. My internet has been a horrible piece of crap lately so it's been a real turn off for going on the computer in addition to it taking somewhere around 71 hours of uploading for me to be able to put a picture on here.

I also got my wisdom teeth ripped out on Monday and that's...that's been quite an ordeal. Apparently I danced alot when I got out of surgery from being loopy from the laughing gas (and that doesn't really surprise me because I do it alot normally anyway). But anyway, on Monday I bled and ached all day, on Tuesday I was swollen, still bled, and couldn't fully close or barely open my jaw, and yesterday I was even more swollen but I stopped bleeding and with some effort I could eat things other than Jello, milkshakes, ice cream, and pudding (which for the record I have been sick of eating since about Monday afternoon). Today seem to be feeling back to normal except I still can't chew with the back half of my teeth and my face is still swollen.
This whole wisdom teeth thing has just been a big smorgasbord of things I don't like. I used to be the fat kid so when I lost weight I was like "Well I'm glad I'll never have to look like that again" and then here I am with a swollen fat guy face (suckage), I was on medication for 3 years that made me lips, nostrils, and skin very dry and cracked so, once again, when I was done with that I was like "Well I'm glad I'll never have to do that again" and now I'm all dried and whatnot (suckage), (and now I'll just speed through the rest of them) I don't have a very big sweet tooth and the only things that have been shoved down my throat are sugary things that I don't particularly care for, I don't like being stuck in my house because I don't like being inactive and I my home life is...well we'll just keep it simple and say "bad", and of course the biggest problem of all is that my biggest love in life, singing, is kinda hard to do with four stitched up whole in the bad out someone's mouth and that's been torture.

And since people keep saying this to me I'm going to address it now. "Well they were going to have to come out eventually and now you won't have to worry about them" Fuck you! Here's how the trip to the dentist office where I learn that I "had" to get my wisdom teeth taken out went down.

Dentist- "Well I'm looking at the X-ray here and it looks like your wisdom teeth are starting to come it."

Me- "Ok...? And...?"

Dentist- "Well normally the wisdom teeth get impacted and have to get taken out, but with the angle yours are coming in it looks like you won't have to worry about that.

Mom- "Oh no, I think we're gonna get them taken out anyway."

Me- "Wait...what?!"

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/21822622/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/21822622/ Thu, 04 Dec 2008 20:17:27 PST
*The Offspring released "Rise and Fall, Rage and Grace" after the longest gap between released that they ever have had.

*Queen + Paul Rodgers released their first album without the late Freddie Mercury, and while it pales in comparison to their work with him, it's still good to see Brain May and Roger Taylor putting out songs.

*Former frontman of The Darkness (a favorite of mine) Justin Hawkins formed a new band, Hot Leg. They were supposed to put out their debut album this year but due to some delays it's set for early next year.

*Speaking or The Darkness the remaining members have formed the band Stone Gods and released both the album "Silver Spoons & Broken Bones" and the low-key EP "Burn the Witch". Both had no impact in America but had a warm welcome in their homeland of the UK, where The Darkness had the most success.

*AC/DC released "Black Ice" which is their first album released since 2000 and (like The Offspring) this is their longest gap between releases. It topped charts worldwide.

*Metallica released "Death Magnetic" which is (in my opinion) their best album put out since 1991's "Metallica" aka "The Black Album"

*Mötley Crüe released "Saints of Los Angeles", and while I love all of The Crüe's work I would have to say this is my favorite album by them. It is also their first album in 8 years and their first to feature the entire original lineup since '97.

*Alice Cooper released "Along Came A Spider" which was a return to his "Welcome To My Nightmare" roots. This is Alice's highest charting album since "Hey Stoopid" in 1991.

*Motörhead released "Motörizer". This album was widely commercially overlooked but for very positive reviews from critics and is one of Motörhead's strongest albums in years.

*Amanda Palmer released her debut solo album "Who Killed Amanda Palmer". It was a large critical success and carried a favorable response from her original Dresden Dolls fan base.

And finally the most anticipated album ever...

CHINESE DEMOCRACY!

Axl Rose may have gone through over a dozen new band member following the breakup of the original lineup of Guns N' Roses, 13+ million dollars (and that's only an estimate from 2005), and it may have taken him well over a decade but he finally brought democracy to China....well not really. In fact this album is banned there. But after the longest break between albums in history without a band disbanding all together, more money spent on a single album ever, and nearly endless criticism it's out.

Is Chinese Democracy worth the 17 year wait since the Use You Illusion albums? No, no it is not. Is is still a damn good album? You bet your ass it is. It's got a much different (by which I mean more somber and heavier) sound than Guns ever had before it's still a good album. Aside from the second track "Shackler's Revenge" (which really I just hate the intro for it) I feel every song is very well done and have very high production values (which they should after all of that time).

I would like to point out though that it's very obvious that Axl is getting older since his voice is suffering somewhat on several track, "Madagascar" in particular (though it does give it a somewhat grittier sound so I don't know if that was planned or not) which is one of my favorite songs on the album regardless.

All in all it was a wonderful year for music as 6 out of my 7 favorite bands/artists released new albums this year (Ozzy got a bit of a jump on things early with "Black Rain" last year) as well as several others that I'm big fans of (Metallica, AC/DC, etc).

With all that happened this year...I'm not really sure what all could happen next year though...I think the well might be empty until it rains again, but like they say "When it rains it pours".

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/21238807/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/21238807/ Thu, 30 Oct 2008 19:58:04 PDT
[X] gotten kissed
[X] gotten a phone taken away in class
[X] gotten suspended
[X] gotten caught chewing gum
[X] gotten caught cheating on a test
Total so far: 5

[X] arrived late to class more than 5 times
[X] didn't do homework over 5 times
[] turned at least 3 projects in late
[X] missed school just because you felt like it
[X] laughed so loud you got kicked out of class
Total so far: 9

[] got your mom, dad, etc. to get you out of school
[X] text people during class
[X] passed notes
[X] threw stuff across the room
[X] laughed at the teacher
Total so far: 13

[] been in a fight at school, fist or verbal
[X] took pictures during school hours
[X] called someone during school hours
[X] listened to iPod, CD, etc during school hours
[X] skipped a class period
Total So Far: 17

[] threw something at the teacher
[X] went outside the classroom without permission
[X] broke the dress code
[X] failed a class
[X] ate food during class
Total So Far: 21

[X] gotten a call from school
[] couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly
[X] didn't take your stuff to school
[X] given a teacher the finger when they weren't looking
[X] curse during class/school
total so far: 25

[X] faked your parents signature
[X] slept in class
[X] cursed at your teacher
[X] copied homework
[X] got in trouble with the principal/the vice principal
total So Far: 30

Multiply by 3

Total: 90%

Damn....I must be one bad kid....

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/20675004/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/20675004/ Thu, 25 Sep 2008 18:30:50 PDT "...needs to sell his '92 Saturn SL2" Hmm...well I'll be sure to get right on that *rolls eyes*

Q: Type in "[your name] looks like":
"...the next James Bond" Oh...well he DOES get all the ladies in the movies...

Q: Type in "[your name] says":
"...no same-sex shagging for James Bond." Well...that's unfortunate...luckily I should have more opposite sex shagging that I can handle if I'm the next James Bond

Q: Type in "[your name] wants":
Well the first thing I got was "...to go nude in first Bond film" but I'm gonna just skip on past these James Bond ones so the next one is "... Amy Winehouse." ...hmm...well she is very talented if anything...

Q: Type in "[your name] does":
"...the 'yes dance'." Hmm...well I do enjoy my dancing

Q: Type in "[your name] hates":
"...This." Uh huh...well I'm actually enjoying it

Q: Type in "[your name] asks":
"...Us." That's rather short and dull. =/

Q: Type in "[your name] goes":
"...berserk!" I'M CRAZY MAN!

Q: Type in "[your name] likes ":
"...pie." DAMN RIGHT!

Q: Type in "[your name] eats ":
"...pie." HELL YEAH!

Q: Type in "[your name] wears ":
"...Lady's High Heels." Hmm... =/ ...I'm much less excited about this than the pie...

Q: Type in "[your name] was arrested for":
"...having sex with a man in airport men's room." I don't seem to remember this...was he atleast good looking? I mean I know there can't be THAT much to choose from in an airport men's room but still...

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/20528666/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/20528666/ Tue, 16 Sep 2008 20:15:17 PDT On my literal bed? My guitar

When was the last time you threw up?
Quite some time ago

What's your favorite word or phrase?
Hmmm...at the moment I think it'd be "I believe in a madness called now."

Name 3 people who made you smile today?
The 2 barkeeps at Ziggy's and Steve

What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
Sleeping

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Working out

What is your favorite holiday?
Halloween

Have you ever been to another country?
Nope

What is the last thing you said aloud?
I'll do it eventually

What is the best ice cream flavor?
Vanilla banana

What was the last thing you had to drink?
Water

What are you wearing right now?
Whatever you want me to be wearing sexy

What was the last thing you ate?
Fries

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

the next part is for girls only...guys u can try to answer if u want or just delete this section xD

What color is your bra?
I'm not wearing a bra. Does that turn you on?

What guys are you into?
If celebrities don't count then no one, buuuuuuuuuuut if they dooooooo Kurt Cobain, The Rock, Dane Cook, Yoshiki, and several others.

Are you currently Frustrated by a boy?
Not that immediately comes to mind.

Do you have a best friend?
I don't care for that term...

Have you ever had you're heart broken?
Nope...can't honestly say that I have...Been hurt but nothing has ever broken.

Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
I wanna say that at some point I might have but I can't think of a time where I ever would have.

Have you ever cried your self to sleep?
Only once

Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
Yep

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

did anything wake you up this morning?
My awful sounding alarm clock

Where are you?
At the computer?

Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
I'll be optimistic and say yes, but my hopes are prolly gonna get shat on at some point.

Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
Nope...I'm unloved like that....

Ever thrown up in public?
Yep

Passed out because of alcohol?
Not a drinker

What's on your mind RIGHT NOW?
This survey thing?

Where would you like to live?
A number of places...England would be kinda nice or Australia.

What kind of house would you like?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH don't even get me started

What do you want to be when you grow up?
In a rock band or a professional wrestler.

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Sure as hell not Ohio!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
True or False time

You like someone?
Eh...is there a world that's less than "like" because some girls have caught my eye but I wouldn't say that I "like" any of them.

Been suspended from school?
Double true

Sang karaoke?
BIG true

Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?
False

Laughed until you started crying?
False

Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
True

Kissed in the rain?
How many times am I gonna answer this fuckin' question? SERIOUSLY?! I think it's on almost every one of these that I've done. True

Sang in the shower?
BIG true again

Sat on a roof top?
True

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
True

Played a prank on someone?
Oh my yes...True

Broken someone's heart?
Hmmmm <_<' ..... >_>' ......maybe.....

]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/20492067/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/20492067/ Sun, 14 Sep 2008 15:31:23 PDT ( ) smoked a cigar
( ) kissed a member of the same sex (not yet )

( ) are / been in love
(X) dumped someone
( ) been fired
(X) been in a fist fight

(X) had a crush on an older person
(X) skipped class (kinda)
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone die

( ) been to Paris
( ) been to Spain
(X) been on a plane
( ) thrown up from drinking

(X) eaten sushi
(X) been snowboarding
(X) met someone through internet
( ) been in a mosh pit (if only...=/ )

( ) taken pain killers
(X) liked/loved someone who you can't have
(X) layed on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(X) made a snow angel

( ) had a tea party
(X) flown a kite
(X) built a sand castle
(X) played in the mud
( ) played dress up

(X) jumped into a pile of leaves
(X) gone sledding
(X) cheated while playing a game (I don't remember doing so but I'm pretty sure I have at some point)
(X) been lonely
(X) fallen asleep at work / school

(X) watched the sunset
( ) felt an earthquake
( ) killed a snake

( ) been tickled (not ticklish)
( ) been robbed / vandalized
( ) been cheated on
(X) been misunderstood (every damn day )

(X) won a contest
(X) been suspended from school (twice =/)
(X) had detention
( ) been in a car / motorcycle accident

(X) had / have braces
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(X) danced in the moonlight

(x) hated the way you look
(X) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced (maybe...only by myself I suppose. You'd be surprised what a work out it is )
( ) questioned your heart
( ) been obsessed with post-it-notes

(X) squished barefoot through the mud
( ) been to the opposite side of the world
(X) swam in the ocean
( ) felt like you were dying

(X) cried yourself to sleep (only once, twas a while ago...)
(X) played cops and robbers
(X) recently colored with crayons / colored pencils / markers
(X) sang karaoke (every day baby )
(X) paid for a meal with only coins

( ) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(X) made prank phone calls
( ) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(X) kissed in the rain (I wanna say I've answer this like..3 times already)

(X) written a letter to Santa Claus
(X) watched the sunset/ sunrise with someone you care/cared about
(X) blown bubbles
(X) made a bonfire on the beach or anywhere

( ) crashed a party
( ) have travelled more than 5 days with a car full of people.
(X) gone rollerskating / blading
(X) had a wish come true
( ) been humped by a monkey (Wait...what? o_0' )

( ) worn pearls
(X) jumped off a bridge
(X) screamed "penis" or "vagina"
( ) swam with dolphins

(X) got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cubes
(X) kicked a fish
(X) worn the opposite sex's clothes
(X) sat on a roof top and watched the stars (often)

(X) screamed at the top of your lungs
(X) done / attempted a one-handed cartwheel
(X) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours (I wouldn't recommend it...it's pretty awful...)
(X) recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about (does AIM count?)

(X) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(X) climbed a tree
(X) had/been in a tree house
( ) been too scared to watch scary movies alone (NEVER!)
( ) believed in ghosts
( ) have had more then 30 pairs of shoes
( ) gone streaking (*sigh* if only...)
( ) visited jail

(X) played chicken
(X) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(X) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(X) broken a bone
(X) been easily amused

(X) caught a fish, then ate it later
(X) made a porn video/got asked to make one (they asked me as a joke though )
(X) caught a butterfly
( ) laughed so hard you cried
( ) cried so hard you laughed

(X) mooned/flashed someone
(X) had someone moon/flash you
(X) cheated on a test
(X) forgotten someone's name
( ) French braided someone's hair
(X) gone s... ]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/20428807/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/20428807/ Wed, 10 Sep 2008 19:01:25 PDT I've got NUMEROUS ideas for things I want to do but I rarely get to do them because when I actually get the time to do them (as I've said a few times in the past, when I work on a picture it's always a lengthy, time consuming project) on the weekends my mom steals the camera from me (she takes it to weddings or something and DOESN'T TAKE ANY FN PICTURES so it's a complete waste and is just depriving it from someone who could actually use the damn thing) so I've got nothing to take said pictures with.
Now despite my lack of camera I've been working on some very wide ranges of writing and have uploaded two of them. Now "You Tell Me"....well....eh it's not my best work by far and was just written to illustrate how fake some people can be even though they seem sooooooooo "deep". Though in an..."odd" twist I used a first person perspective so later on after thinking about it that might have turned some people off to my work so I'd just like to point out how that, like much of my work (specifically my more recent work), are based on real thing but are fictional writings. As for "Oh, Blue Desert Rose" well...I'm rather disappointed with how unnoticed it's gone. I put many meticulous hours choosing the words used in that very precisely as well as fine tuning it's content just ever so perfectly and considering how personal of a meaning it has to me I was hoping it would would generate much more notoriety considering the magnitude of it as compared to all of my other works. Tis a crying shame... =/
But I digress, there will be more work coming soon. I have "commandeered" the camera so that I make sure I get it this weekend to work. I also did a "photo shoot" with an actual professional photographer, as apposed to just me setting my camera up on the timer, so I'll be sure to upload some of the shots that I like as soon as I get a hold of them.

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While the studio version of this song is amazing the live version is what really captivates me, specifically Yoshiki. Yoshiki wrote this (as well as most of X Japan's other songs) song almost completely on his own and he is the band's drummer as well as pianist. During this song he has to switch from drums to piano several times to play both parts. I give my HIGHEST recommendation for this song and the live performance (which I'll post links to at the bottom of the page). While watching Yoshiki play his a-MAZING piano solo that is over 8 minutes long he put so much emotion and so much of his soul into it I actually cried and I haven't cried in...well it's been a very long time. In my honest opinion I feel like this song is one of the best pieces of music ever composed.

Part 1 [link]
Part 2 [link]
Part 3 [link]
Part 4 [link]

EDIT: I just realized how the links were screwed up so now they're fixed

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What was the format of the album? (tape cassette? Vinyl record? CD? 8-track? etc..)
CD.

What is the 1st album you ever had?
The original NOW.

What is the 1st concert you saw?
Weird Al (the ticket was free )

What is the 1st musician you had a crush on?
Joan Jett (I still do )

What is the 1st band that made you love music?
Ozzy Osbourne

Name at least one song that you loved at one point in your life but that you hate now?
The entire Linkin Park Minutes To Midnight album.

Which song reminds you of your childhood?
Kick Some Ass by Stroke 9

Which song is like your teenage years?
Coma by Guns N' Roses

Name 5 of your favorite bands
Ozzy Osbourne, Queen, Alice Cooper, Guns N' Roses, and Mötley Crüe

Name 3 of the bands you hate the most
The Beatles, The Doors, and Hanna Montana

Name the most annoying song that you know


Name a song that you can’t resist dancing when its playing
A.) Paradise City by Guns N' Roses
B.) Kickstart My Heart by Mötley Crüe
C.) Detroit Rock City by Kiss
D.) All Of the Above

I'm gonna have to say D.

Name a song that you consider the worst ever
Imagine by John Lennon

Name a song that you wish you had wrote it
Smells Like Teen Spirit (It's so FN easy)



Do you like the following types of music:

Rock and roll?
It was rock and roll by when Elvis was around. Now it's just rock so shut up.

Punk?
Some.

J-Pop?
Other than X Japan no.

Grunge?
Mostly only Nirvana but there are a few other good ones out there.

Reggae?
If you can find a good song out there then hell yeah. Just no Bob Marley.

Death Metal?
Fuck you

Screamo?
Fuck you

Hardcore?
Fuck you

What is the most beautiful song you have ever heard?
The Show Must Go On by Queen.

What’s the best album to have a romantic evening?
A custom burned CD with songs that me and my date love.

What song would you put if u wanted to have a passionate kissing session?
I Was Made For Loving You by Kiss

What song would you put if u wanted to have sex?
Animal (Fuck You Like A Beast) by W.A.S.P. (Doesn't get much blunter than they eh? )

If you could spend 1 week with any band/musician alive or dead who would it be?
Freddie Mercury.

Have you ever met someone from a band?
QUITE MAKING FUN OF ME!

Who is the best band in the world today?
Alice Cooper

Who’s the worst band in the world today?
The Jonas Brothers.

Which band has the best gimmick?
Alice Cooper and his twisted shock rock image.

Which band has the worst gimmick?
Ugh...don't get me started...

Which band do you think are the most ugly?
My Chemical Romance, The Jonas Brothers, or Marilyn Manson

Which band do you think are the most beautiful?
Musically or esthetically? Musically is Queen and esthetically are The Donnas

Which dead musician do u think should still be alive today?
Hmm...Kurt Cobain, Randy Rhoads, Freddie Mercury, I can keep going but those are the first 3 to come to mind.

Would you have loved to go to Woodstock 69?
Love? No. Like? Yes

Have you ever been to a concert and came out disappointed?
Not as of yet.

Which band is the most stupid?
Hanna Montana

What is the worst album you have ever heard?
Minutes To Midnight

What is the worst album you have ever bought?
Frankenstein Girls Will Seem Strangely Sexy by Mindless Self Indulgence.

What song are you ashamed of loving?
I'm not really ashamed but for the sake of the question: I'd say Loving You by Minnie Riperton (I don't care what anyone says this girl had some SERIOUS pipes on her)

What band are you ashamed of loving?
Once again for the sake of the question: I'd say The Village People



Do you (love, hate,don’t know/don’t care)
Britney Spears?
Hate.

Madonna?
Hate.
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~~~I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.
I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.
I'm a NEGRO so I MUST carry a gun.
I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a ditz.
I'm JAMAICAN so I MUST smoke weed.
I'm HAITIAN so I MUST eat cat.
I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be sexy.
I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy.
~~~I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS. (If being with a man isn't that far off for me ((I still much prefer women)) then call me what you will. I still don't like the term)
I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape.
I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.
~~~I SPEAK MY MIND, SO I MUST BE A BITCH/BASTARD!
~~~I'M A GAY RIGHTS SUPPORTER, SO I WILL GO TO HELL!
I'M RELIGIOUS, SO I MUST SHOVE MY BELIEFS DOWN YOUR THROAT!
I'm ATHEIST so I MUST hate the world.
~~~I don't have a RELIGION, so I MUST be evil and have no morals.
I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.
I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.
~~~I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay.
I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.
I TAKE (OR USED TO TAKE) ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, SO I MUST BE CRAZY!
~~~I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.
I'M IRISH, SO I MUST HAVE A BAD DRINKING PROBLEM!
I'm INDIAN, so I MUST own a convenient store.
I'm NATIVE AMERICAN, so I MUST dance around a fire screaming like a savage.
I'm a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a whore.
I'm a DANCER, So I must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore/queer
I WEAR SKIRTS A LOT, SO I MUST BE A SLUT!
I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs.
I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob.
~~~I WEAR BLACK, SO I MUST BE A GOTH OR EMO!
I'M A WHITE GIRL, SO I MUST BE A NAGGING, STEAL-YOUR MONEY KIND OF GIRLFRIEND!
I'm CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars.
I'M NOT A VIRGIN, SO I MUST BE EASY.
~~~I FELL IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN/WOMAN, so I MUST be a home-wrecking whore/bastard.
I'm a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be an irresponsible slut.
I'm POLISH, so I MUST wear my socks with my sandals.
~~~I'm ITALIAN, so I must have a "big one". (well....*cough* )
I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin.
I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life.
I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.
~~~I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS SO I MUST BE LOOKING FOR ATTENTION!
~~~I'M INTO THEATER & ART, SO I MUST BE A HOMOSEXUAL!
I'm a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be fucking them all.
~~~I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be a player.
I HAVE BIG BOOBS, SO I MUST BE A HOE!
I'm COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer.
~~~I WEAR WHAT I WANT, SO I MUST BE A POSER!
I'm RUSSIAN, so I MUST shoot steroids, yell alot, and seem angry all the time, and be a communist.
~~~I'm GERMAN, so I must be a Nazi.
~~~I HANG OUT WITH GAYS, SO I MUST BE GAY TOO!
I'm BRAZILIAN, so I MUST have a BIG BUTT.
I'm PUERTO RICAN, so I MUST look good and be conceited
I'm SALVADORIAN, so I MUST be in MS 13
~~~I'm POLISH, so I MUST be greedy
I'm HAWAIIAN so I MUST be lazy
I'm PERUVIAN, so I MUST like llamas
I'm a STONER so I MUST be going in the wrong direction
I'M A VIRGIN SO I MUST BE PRUDE.
~~~I'm STRAIGHT EDGE so I must be violent.
I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly.
I'm BLACK so I MUST love fried chicken and kool-aid.
I'M A GIRL WHO ACTUALLY EATS LUNCH, SO I MUST BE FAT!
I'm a SKATER so I must do weed and steal stuff
I'm a PUNK so I must only wear black and date only other punks
I'm ASIAN so I must be a NERD that does HOMEWORK 24/7
I'M MIXED SO I MUST BE SCREWED UP!
I'm MUSLIM so I MUST be a terrorist.
~~~I'm in BAND, so I MUST be a dork.
I'm BLACK so I MUST believe JESUS WUZ A BROTHA
I'm MORMON so I MUST be perfect
I'M WHITE AND HAVE BLACK FRIENDS SO I MUST THINK I'M BLACK!
I'm HISPANIC, so I MUST be dirty.
~~~I'M NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, SO I MUST BE A LOSER!
I'M OVERWEIGHT, SO I MUST HAVE A PROBLEM WITH SELF CONTROL!
I'm PREPPY, so I MUST shun those who don't wear Abercrombie & Hollister.
I'm on a DANCE team, so I must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.
~~~I'M YOUNG, SO I MUST BE NAIVE!
I'm MEXICAN, so I MUST have hopped the border.
I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat.
I'm BLACK, so I MUST love watermelon
~~~I'm BI, so I MUST think every person I see is hot. (I suppose you could call me that if you must...I'd still much prefer just to be called by my name)
I'm an ASIAN GUY, so I MUST have a small penis.
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I would really appreciate feedback on all of this. Like just tell me if anything I'm taking is actually halfway decent. Now I don't mean just tell me nice things because that's what I want to hear, I mean REALLY tell me. I respect brutal honesty and that's really what I'm hoping for here.

EDIT AS OF JULY 31st AT 10:35pm: Does anyone actually read my these for me? I don't even know why I friggin put these up...bleh... -__-

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Now the grandmother part aside I must say that I rather did enjoy running around so that my crotch was on full display for anyone who passed by to see and posing naked (though mostly covered) in front of the camera. I suppose that just means that I'm completely comfortable with my body. Like they say "Embarrassment of one's body is from hatred of one's body."

P.S. I love the word Embarrassment because it says Em-bare ass-ment and I don't care how cheesy anyone might say that is because I love it.

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For starters I suppose I'd just like to point out how I'm completely dissatisfied with how the world is. Not my life as I always can accomplish what I set out for myself so that is very gratifying, but it's more so that when I hold any sort of level in which I rely on people they don't meet it by any stretch of the imagination. I don't have high standards by any means for what people should do and as a matter of fact I set low standards so that people can only impress me, but even then they seem to be nothing more than disappointing flops. I'm always displeased with how cliched and generic everything and everyone around me tends to be. Now one could assume that it's because high school is just a cesspool for the latest fad of vanity and ignorance, or on the flip side where kids go against the things that are "popular" just for the sake of blind rebellion and just want to get a rise out of people by being "different" though they are not because really they are just like every other rebel of the age so they're just a self defeating curse. Now as I said one could ASSUME this but I've seen it outside of high school in people who have been for many many years so this really just leads me to lose hope for the future of mankind. I on occasions will see people who actually do have imagination and aren't hampered by generic thought process of "oh you can't do that cause people will think badly of you" (or whatever many peoples' insecurities are) and I find it to be one of the most beautiful things in the world. I so regularly see things that repulse me with how much I'm forced to look at or deal with it that when pure originality actually comes along I almost feel like crying, but the problem is that I feel as though I've lost that ability. I used to be a avid crier for a number of years, but then I just seemed to hit a wall and would cry perhaps once a year, but I don't seem to remember when the last time was. I often times feel as though I am going to cry but all of that is trapped inside so instead of crying with tears I cry with my words. I may very well be doing just that right now for all I know.

I often find myself wandering alongside the road, miles from my home, and I don't realize that I've been doing so for a number of hours mumbling numerous song lyrics that either made a real impact to my life or relate in some way to it. Once I realize that I've been doing this I will then pick a destination that I didn't have before. For the longest time I never understood as to why I would do this or why I never realized I was doing it, at first I thought I might have some sort of mental disease, but I soon discovered through my own soul searching that I was looking for something and that my sub conscious was looking for that something with a very strong will. Once again I did not know what I was looking for but I knew I'd know it when I saw it and what I found I was looking for was people with the same feelings as me. I wanted to find people who are purely different, people that I could find something in that I respected, just some little thing that I found so beautiful that I would feel as if I would overflow. I myself am a man of large stature being that I am as of now 6 foot 5 so by that logic should play sports yet hate them (I am however in wonderful shape), I have an IQ of 176 give or take a few depending on the test with my high score being in Abstract Concepts/Thought Processing, and have the rarest of all of personality traits on the "Myers-Briggs Type Indicator" being INJT which is often called the "imaginative mastermind" and the "scientist" (ironically science is often my second lowest score on IQ tests above only math). So with all of those things alone I am bound to be different and standout from others so this of course leads me to have never the ceasing feeling of being the only one like me which gives me both feelings of wondrous significance and agonizing loneliness. It's strange really how I don't know what I'd do if I actually managed to find someone, or even more amazing several people, who actually is what I often find myself looking for. I suppose I'd just be happy with the feelings of not being alone and accomplishment for actually meeting that unknown destination, but I suppose that being how I've become such an independent and strong person I'd want to help them with things in life. There are so man... ]]> ~Flip-Side-BPM http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/16486450/ http://Flip-Side-BPM.deviantart.com/journal/16486450/ Sun, 20 Jan 2008 08:10:06 PST
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