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[X] I know how to make a pot of coffee.
[ ] I do my own laundry (thats iffy)
[X] I can cook for myself
[X] I actually enjoy intellectual conversations
[X] I think politics are exciting.
[x] My parents have better things to say than my friends (well than some.)

Total: 5

[x] I show up for school and or work every day unless I'm sick
[X] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse.
[x] I've never gotten a detention
[X] I've watched talk shows to point out the credibility of it all.
[X] I drink coffee at least once a week

Total So Far: 10

[X] I know how to run the dish washer and or do the dishes.
[ ] I can count to 10 in Spanish. (why not german or french.)
[x] When I say I'm going to do something I do it.
[x] My parents trust me
[x] I can mow the lawn.
[X] I can make adults laugh without being stupid.
[x] I remember to water my plants.
[x] I study when I have to. (dont have to much XD)
[X] I pay attention at school.
[x] I remember to feed my pets

Total So Far: 19

[X] I can spell experience without looking it up
[X] I clean up my own mess.
[ ] The first thing I do when I wake up is get Diet Coke.
[x] I can go to the store without getting something I don't need.
[X] I understand jokes the first time they are said.
[X] I can type fast.

Total So Far: 24

[X] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour.
[X] I can look at someone hot without thinking of sex.
[x] I realize that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[X] I can read a book and actually finish it. (thats hard? ._. )
Total So Far: 28

Now type in, "Your deviant IQ is __!!"

28 / 31
sweet.

maan its fun being angry.
its also fun reading. -xx

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/25083983/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/25083983/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 07:23:55 PDT I currently do not see the rave about it..its very plain compared to jane eyre

HOW OLD DO YOU ACT?

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee.
[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar.
[ ] You own a credit card.
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car.
[x] You've done your own laundry.
[ ] You can vote in an election.
[x] You can cook for yourself.
[x] You think politics are interesting.

TOTAL SO FAR: 5


[ ] You show up for school late a lot.
[x] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket.
[x] You've never gotten a detention.
[x] You have forgotten your own birthday. (and she got upset at me for it. bah. I can forget mine if I like XD)
[x] You like to take walks by yourself.
[x] You know what credibility means, without looking it up.
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week

TOTAL SO FAR: 11


[x] You know how to do the dishes.
[x] You can count to 10 in another language.
[x] When you say you're going to do something you do it. (for other people. XD)
[x] You can mow the lawn. (non-petrol style! XD)
[ ] You study even when you don't have to.
[x] You have hand washed a car before.

TOTAL SO FAR: 16


[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up.
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name. (they would if it were in perth! D< )
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out.
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need.
[x] You understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[x] You can type pretty quick.

TOTAL SO FAR: 20

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment.
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party.
[x] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay.
[x] You have been to the beach.
[x] You use the internet every day.
[ ] You have been outside of your country 3 or more times.
[x] You make your bed in the morning. (its a kind of huff.)

TOTAL: 24

Am I An Average Teen?

[x] Mother
[x] Father
[ ] Step-Father
[ ] Step-Mother
[ ] Step Sister
[ ] Step Brother
[ ] Brother
[ ] Brother In Law
[x] Sister (really half but shes always been there!)
[ ] Sister In Law
[ ] Half sister
[ ] Half brother
[x] Nephew
[ ] Niece
[ ] Boyfriend/Girlfriend
[x] Mobile phone
[ ] Own bathroom
[x] Own room
[x] Have/had a swimming pool
[ ] Have/had a hot tub
[x] Guest room
[x] Living Room
[x] Own computer
[x] Own TV
Total: 11

[ ] Full size/Queen bed
[x] More than 8 pairs of shoes (wow.)
[x] MP3 Player/iPod
[x] PS2/3
[x] Nintendo DS or PSP
[ ] Gameboy/Advance
[ ] Gamecube
[ ] xbox/xbox 360
[ ] Wii
[ ] Your Own Laptop
Total so far: 15

[x] Basket ball net/hoop
[ ] Air hockey table
[ ] Pool table
[x] Ping pong table
[ ] Foosball table
Total so far: 17

[x] Night stand
[x] Stereo in bedroom
[ ] DVD player in bedroom/portable
Total so far: 19

[x] Go shopping at least once a week
[ ] Expensive cologne/perfume
[x] AIM/MSN
[x] camera on phone
Total so far: 22

[ ] Go Cart/car/quad
[ ] Guitar/drums/bass guitar
[ ] Piano/Keyboard
[ ] Any other instrument
[x] Traveled out of the country
[x] Traveled out of the continent
[x] Had a personal trainer (it was for tennis woo.)
[x] Expensive jewelery
[ ] Met a Celeb
Total so far: 26

[ ] Straightener/curling iron (If I had $50..)
[ ] Have been to a batting cage
[ ] Have $100 on you right now in your pocket/wallet
[x] Credit card or ATM card or debit card or bank card
[ ] Have a TV in your room
[x] Mirror in your room
Total so far: 28

[x] Window in your room
[ ] Been to Paris
[ ] Been to Rome
[ ] Been to the Bahamas
[ ] Been to Mexico
[ ] Been to Jamaica
Total so far: 29

[x] Parents have a car
[ ] Have owned or own a Jet ski/boat
[x] Had/have Camped
[ ] Been to 3+ states
[ ] 80+ buddies on facebook/myspace (not sure)
Total so far: 31

[x] Home cooked meal almost everyday
[ ] Been in a limo
[ ] Been in a helicopter
[x] Own a camera
[ ] Have been to Disneyland/World more than 2 times
Total so far: 33

woo average. bahaha.

1-25 = Ghetto!
26-40 = Average Teen! That's me baby!! 30pts
41... ]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/25046504/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/25046504/ Sun, 31 May 2009 07:54:23 PDT Let's all see how pathetique I am.

Level 1
( ) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
( ) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex

SO FAR: 0

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love (I think?)
(x) Dumped someone
( ) Been Fired
( ) Been In A Fist Fight

SO FAR: 2

Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
( ) Skipped Class
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone/Something Die

SO FAR: 4

Level 4
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your deviantart Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking

SO FAR: 6

Level 5
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met Someone Through Internet
( ) Been in a Mosh Pit

SO FAR: 8

Level 6
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Can't Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
( ) Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 11

Level 7
(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
(x) Gone mudding ...
(x) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 16

Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
( ) Gone Sledding
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO far: 20


Level 9
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 21

Level 10
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed/Vandalized
( ) Been cheated on (you mean relationship dont yew.)
(x) Been Misunderstood

SO FAR: 24

Level 11
(x) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
( ) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car/Motorcycle Accident (the car went off the road, accident? luckily didnt slide over the hill.)

SO FAR: 26

Level 12
( ) Had / Have Braces
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) Danced in the moonlight

SO FAR : 27

Level 13
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes (it lasted a day.)

SO FAR: 31

Level 14
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 35

Level 17
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Coloured With Crayons / Colured Pencils / Markers
(x) Sang Karaoke (I'll live it down.)
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 40

Level 16
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 43

Level 17
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus (school said to.)
(x) Watched The Sun Set/sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere

SO FAR: 46

Level 18
( ) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Roller skating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey (thankgod. XD)

SO FAR: 48

Level 19
( ) Worn Pearls
(x) Jumped Off A Bridge (That hurt. my ankle. ur.)
(x) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
( ) Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 50

Level 20
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
( ) Kicked A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top (As a kid. Never'd do it now.)

SO FAR: 53

Level 21
( ) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about

SO FAR: 56

Level 22
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House (had one lalala)
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 59

Level 23
(x) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes (close. no cigar. XD)
( ) Gone Streaking
(x) Visited Jail

SO FAR: 61

Level 24
(x) Played Chicken
( ) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused (you have to or people g... ]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/24956229/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/24956229/ Tue, 26 May 2009 06:56:33 PDT
For people that hate stereotypes: If you think people should just shut up and stop, put this on your profile. (BOLD the ones you are.) Remember these are supposed to be insulting, because they're proving a point.


I'm THIN, so I MUST be anorexic.
I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.
I'm BLACK so I MUST carry a gun.
I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a ditz.
I'm JAMAICAN so I MUST smoke weed.
I'm HAITIAN so I MUST eat cat.
I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be sexy.
I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy.
I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.
I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape.
I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.
I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.
I'm a GAY RIGHTS SUPPORTER, so I WILL go to hell.
I'm a CHRISTAN, so I MUST think gay people should go to hell.
I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.
I'm ATHEIST so I MUST hate the world.
I don't have a RELIGION, so I MUST be evil and have no morals.
I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.
I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.
I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay.
I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.
I TAKE ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.
I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.
I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem.
I'm INDIAN, so I MUST own a convenient store.
I'm NATIVE AMERICAN, so I MUST dance around a fire screaming like a savage.
I'm a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a whore.
I'm a DANCER, So I must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.
I wear SKIRTS a lot, so I MUST be a slut.
I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs.
I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob.
I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth or emo.
I'm a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.
I'm CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars.
I'm NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy.
I FELL IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN, so I MUST be a home-wrecking whore.
I'm a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be an irresponsible slut.
I'm POLISH, so I MUST wear my socks with my sandals.
I'm ITALIAN, so I must have a "big one".
I'm EGYPTIAN, so I must be a TERRORIST!
I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life.
I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.
I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention.
I'm INTO THEATER & ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.
I'm a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be fucking them all.
I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be a player.
I have Big BOOBS, so I MUST be a hoe.
I'm COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer.
I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.
I'm RUSSIAN, so I MUST be cool and thats how Russians roll.
I'm GERMAN, so I must be a Nazi.
I hang out with GAYS, so I must be GAY TOO. I thought gay was full male. not. female. alalala.
I'm BRAZILIAN, so I MUST have a BIG BUTT.
I'm PUERTO RICAN, so I MUST look good and be conceited.
I'm SALVADORIAN, so I MUST be in MS 13.
I'm POLISH, so I MUST be greedy.
I'm HAWAIIAN so I MUST be lazy.
I'm PERUVIAN, so I MUST like llamas.
I'm a STONER so I MUST be going in the wrong direction.
I'm a VIRGIN so I MUST be prude.
I'm STRAIGHT EDGE so I must be violent.
I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly.
I'm BLACK so I MUST love fried chicken and kool-aid.
I'm a GIRL who actually EATS LUNCH, so I MUST be fat.
I'm SINGLE so I MUST be ugly. (all signs lead to yes lol)
I'm a SKATER so I must do weed and steal stuff
I'm a PUNK so I must only wear black and date only other punks
I'm ASIAN so I must be a NERD that does HOMEWORK 24/7
I'm CHRISTIAN so I MUST hate homosexuals.
I'm MIXED so I must be screwed up.
I'm MUSLIM so I MUST be a terrorist.
I'm in BAND, so I MUST be a dork.
I'm BLACK so I MUST believe JESUS WUZ A BROTHA
I'm MORMON so I MUST be perfect
I'm WHITE and have black friends so I MUST think I'm black.
I'm GOTH so I MUST worship the devil.
I'm HISPANIC, so I MUST be dirty.
I'm NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, so I MUST be a loser.
I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control.
I'm PREPPY, so I MUST shun those who don't wear Abercrombie & Hollister.
I'm on a DANCE team, so I must be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.
I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.
I'm MEXICAN, so I MUST have hopped the border.
I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat.
I'm BLACK, so I MUST love watermelon
I'm BI, so I MUST think every person I see is hot.
I'm an ASIAN GUY, so I... ]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/24213435/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/24213435/ Mon, 13 Apr 2009 03:32:22 PDT
You’re a 90’s kid if:

You remember watching
[ ]-Kenan and Kel
[x]-Doug
[x]-Ren & Stimpy
[x]-Pinky and the Brain
[x]-Rockos modern Life
[ ]-Animaniacs
[ ]-Gargoyles
[x]-Hey Arnold
[ ]-Out of the Box
[x]-Bear in the Big Blue House

[x]-You’ve ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!
[ ]-You just cant resist finishing this . . ."In west Philadelphia born and raised..."


You remember:
[ ]-Step by Step
[x]-Family Matters
[x]-Dinosaurs
[x]-Boy Meets World
[ ]-Full House
[x]-You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
[x]-You remember reading Goosebumps

When everything was settled by:
[x]-rock paper scissors
[x]-miss mary mack
[ ]-When kick ball was something you did everyday
[ ]-You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time on a tape
[x]-You remember Super Nintendos and Sega Genesis
[x]-You remember The Original Game Boy
[x]-You always wanted to send in a tape to America’s/Australi's Funniest Home Videos... but never taped anything funny.

You remember watching:
[x]-The Magic School Bus (trippy man.)
[ ]-Wishbone
[ ]-Reading Rainbow
[ ]-Ghostwriter

[x]-You remember when Yo-Yos were cool
[x]-You remember those Where’s Wally books.
[x]-You remember eating Warheads and Splashers Gushers (warheads. still eat those XD)

You remember watching:
[x]-Batman the Animated Series
[x]-Aladdin
[x]-Ninja Turtles
[x]-Ghost Busters
[ ]-You remember Ring Pops
[x]-If you remember when everything was "da BOMB!"

[x]-You remember boom boxes .vs. cd players.
[ ]-Making those little paper fortune cookie things, and then predicting your life with them
[ ]-You played and/or collected Pogs
[x]-You had at least one Tamagotchi, GigaPet, or Nano and brought it everywhere you went

You watched the original cartoons of
[x]-Rugrats
[x]-Wild Thornberrys
[x]-Power Rangers


[ ]-All your school supplies were "Lisa Frank" brand.

You collected
[ ]-Beanie Babies. (I did have Beanie Kids, but they're different I think?)
[x]-Pokemon cards (I still have them!)
[ ]-Carebears
[ ]-Silver dollars, which were cool to have

[x]-Everyone watched the WB

[x]-When everybody knew all the pokemon by heart.
[x]-When digimon was still on.
[x]-If you even know what an original walkman is...
[x]-you know the Macarena by heart
[x]-"Talk to the hand"
[X]-You went to McDonald’s to play in the playplace and it was still sanitary.

[x]-Before the MySpace frenzy.
[x]-Before the Internet & text messaging.
[x]-Before Sidekicks & iPods
[x]-Before PlayStation3 or X-BOX 360
[x]-Back before X box period
[x]-Before Spongebob.
[x]-When light up sneakers were cool. (THEY SO ARE 8D)
[x]-When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs
[x]-When gas was $0.95 a gallon.
[x]-When we recorded stuff on VCR (Still do. supernatural.)
[x]-You had slap bracelets! (I think? )
[x]-You actually played outside until it was dark!
[x]-Way back before we realized all this would eventually disappear...
[x]-Post this if you smiled at least more than 5 times.
[x]-And if you remember at least half the stuff on here....
Re-post with the year you were born.

Did something called ColourRevelations.
What it said about me is interesting. real. interesting.

''You are a very sensitive person and you try hard (perhaps a little too hard) to make favourable impressions and to be recognised by your peers. But you have that inherent need to feel appreciated and admired and you are easily hurt if all of your endeavours go by unappreciated or not acknowledged. Stop trying so hard.

In actual fact you are not willing to exert yourself in any way. You have that truly 'laid back' attitude and are unwilling to extend yourself or exert undue effort. You feel that to move forward - be it in your life style or in business relationships - would require more energy output than you are prepared to give at this time. You want to take life easy and your attitude is such that 'Enough is Enough'.

Loneliness is soul destroying and at this time you feel lost and lonely, perhaps it is because you feel so frustrated that you are prepared to go out of your way to become emotionally involved with someone who could accept you for what you are. You are egocentric, antagonistic and quick to take offence, although it must be said, you can control your pent-up up emotion and thus avoid open conflict.

Matters have not gone well for you. You are expe... ]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/23911814/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/23911814/ Fri, 27 Mar 2009 05:36:51 PDT
The Teenage Life

Mark if applies:

[x] You're single.
[] You're in a relationship.
[x] You like someone.
[x] You're confused.
[x] Sometimes you really hate your life.
[x] You hate certain things about yourself.
[] You've said "the world is out to get me" before.
[] You told someone you wanted to makeout with them.

Have you ever:

[] Slapped a guy
[] Skipped class twice.
[] Kicked a guy in the balls.
[x] Liked a good friend.
[] Hooked up with two people at the EXACT SAME TIME.
[] Had two or more boyfriends/girlfriends at once.
[] Kissed someone way younger than you.
[] Hooked up with someone in front of your parents.
[] Hooked up with more than 3 or more of ur top friends.
[] Planned to hook up.
[ ] Made-out with more than 5 girls/guys with the same first letter in their first name.

Do you:

Like someone right now?
not really. my heart doesnt freaking work D<

How's it going?
well I'll let you know when something is 'going' D<


Do you fall for the wrong people?
....D<

Think of someone you have liked. Do you regret it?
well yes. it.was.stupid. and lalalala.

Have you ever loved someone?
yessum.

Have you ever shop lifted?
yessum.

Have you ever liked the "most popular Football player/ cheerleader"
I abhor the notion of cheerleaders and football...oh good luck buddy.
XD

Ever got into a fist fight?
I want. to.

Have you ever cheated on someone?
no sir.

Favorite Color?
Green I suppose.

Shop?
I. did have one. blast D<
oh. pulp fiction. my current bookshop.

Number?
6

Best Best Best Friend?
lost two.
Savato

Longest Realtionship?
OHOHO

Shortest Relationship?
; D




homai. math. a fail. weeoo.
english. a decent. yey.
computing. a mangaify. nuhu D<

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/23911813/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/23911813/ Fri, 27 Mar 2009 05:36:50 PDT
The Teenage Life

Mark if applies:

[x] You're single.
[] You're in a relationship.
[x] You like someone.
[x] You're confused.
[x] Sometimes you really hate your life.
[x] You hate certain things about yourself.
[] You've said "the world is out to get me" before.
[] You told someone you wanted to makeout with them.

Have you ever:

[] Slapped a guy
[] Skipped class twice.
[] Kicked a guy in the balls.
[x] Liked a good friend.
[] Hooked up with two people at the EXACT SAME TIME.
[] Had two or more boyfriends/girlfriends at once.
[] Kissed someone way younger than you.
[] Hooked up with someone in front of your parents.
[] Hooked up with more than 3 or more of ur top friends.
[] Planned to hook up.
[ ] Made-out with more than 5 girls/guys with the same first letter in their first name.

Do you:

Like someone right now?
not really. my heart doesnt freaking work D<

How's it going?
well I'll let you know when something is 'going' D<


Do you fall for the wrong people?
....D<

Think of someone you have liked. Do you regret it?
well yes. it.was.stupid. and lalalala.

Have you ever loved someone?
yessum.

Have you ever shop lifted?
yessum.

Have you ever liked the "most popular Football player/ cheerleader"
I abhor the notion of cheerleaders and football...oh good luck buddy.
XD

Ever got into a fist fight?
I want. to.

Have you ever cheated on someone?
no sir.

Favorite Color?
Green I suppose.

Shop?
I. did have one. blast D<
oh. pulp fiction. my current bookshop.

Number?
6

Best Best Best Friend?
lost both.
Savato

Longest Realtionship?
OHOHO

Shortest Relationship?
; D




homai. math. a fail. weeoo.
english. a decent. yey.
computing. a mangaify. nuhu D<

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/23842684/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/23842684/ Mon, 23 Mar 2009 02:20:12 PDT

1. I've come to realize that my boobs:
have a alot to improve on.

2. I've come to realize that when I talk:
I never say things as grandly as I'd like to.

3. I've come to realize that, when I love someone:
I overthink everything in our interactions.

4. I've come to realize that I need:
courage.

5. I've come to realize that I've lost:
my way.

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when:
I have to think about any of my past actions.

7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk:
I'm happy and nothing stops me.

8. I've come to realize that money:
is always a planned source.

9. I've come to realize that people:
are stupid...but if I generalize I miss out.

10. I've come to realize that I'll always be:
seperate unless I change. but they say you shouldnt change. so. Idk.

11. I've come to realize that I love spending my time with: a book. nothing better than knowledge.

12. I've come to realize that the last time I cried I was: today.

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone is:
decent enough.

14. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning: I wasnt ready to go into the world.

15. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night: I think about the day.

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about: not making a mistake in relationships.

18. I've come to realize that when I get on Deviant Art:
I realise how commerical it is...but thats a part of the attraction.

19. I've come to realize that today:
was an okay day.

20. I've come to realize that tonight I will:
spend my time doing maths instead of my reading.

22. I've come to realize that the last person I kissed is: someone in primary school.
-cringe- repressed thoughts for a reason. hur.

24. I've come to realize that i'll never be:
what I want.

HARD.
1. Will you answer every question honestly?
to an extent.

2. Have you ever stayed up all night while drunk or high?
If I had the opportunity to maintain the drunk state then yes.

3. Have you ever punched anyone in the face?
I wish.

4. Do you miss anything or anyone?
mmm.

5. What makes you laugh no matter what?
people stupidity. thats what makes a joke after all.

6. Have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past five hours?
no.

7. Who was the last person you talked to?
father.


HARDER
1. Do you get butterflies around the guys/girls you like?
No.

3. Will you get married?
probably not.

4. Will you be doing drugs in the near future?
If there werent any repurcussions both physical and social, yes. but since there are, no.

5. Do you lie about your age?
Why would I need to?

VERY PERSONAL
1. Are you happy with yourself?
right now? heavens no.

2. Would you change yourself for the person you love?
...no..I'd make compensations..but.no. and thats why I am alone 8D

3. What do you tell yourself when times get hard?
I plan an escape from the problems.

SECRETS
1. When did you last cry?
2 hours ago.

2. Do you believe in religion?
I would like to.

3. What is currently on your mind?
things..mainly a headache right now >>

6. Has a guy ever seriously punched you more than once?
nup.

SHOCKING
1. Have you done bad things with your parents nearby?
yees.

2. Have you started a horrible rumor about somebody?
no.

3. Did you ever fail the school year?
probably this year or next.

4. Have you ever done hallucinogenic drugs?
I sorely desire so.

5. Have you ever been too drunk to remember a certain night?
that'd be nice.

6. Do you think your future will be a good one?
If I change expectations, yeah.

THE DEEP STUFF
1. Do you think you were raised well?
To an extent.

2. Do you have a secret that you've never told ANYONE?
I've forgotten it by now.

3. How do you handle stress?
pace.alot.

4. How would you spend your last day alive?
playing music.

5. Do you hide things well or do you have a guilty conscience?
I dont hide well.

True love
1. If your parents got divorced and you had to pick mum or dad to live with, who would you choose?
well its either australia or germany.
I'd go with my mum but...australia is everything I k... ]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/23585724/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/23585724/ Sun, 08 Mar 2009 04:36:44 PDT
Frustration is frustrating.
And so am I.

Not looking forward to seeing 'A Time To Kill' again.
I really don't believe I can handle watching that scene again. I know its great and makes us all realise and that. But I already knew that and dont need it shoved in my face again. I do what I can, where I can.
This is just salt in a wound.





Book List
~ Prozac Nation - Elizabeth Wurtsel
~ 1984 - George Orwell
~ To Kill A Mockingbird - Carl Lee
~ A Clockwork Orange – Anthony Burgess
~ The God Delusion – Richard Dawkins
~ Lucky – Alice Sebold
~ Of Mice and Men – John Steinbeck
~ The Children’s War – J.N Stroyar

ADDITIONAL (Just good books I chance by)
~ The Green Mile - S.K

Yeah those books are on the top of the growing list.
If I ever find any copies they'll be read.

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/23442820/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/23442820/ Fri, 27 Feb 2009 23:44:58 PST
Also searching for good music, any suggestions?
I am particulary looking for german music.
That'd help.

Finished Prozac Nation.
It was an interesting read, made me depressed XD
But its where I am going I guess.

138 days to HP:HBP ~ : D

school is nergh. I want to leave history for the fact I dont think I interpret cartoons that well.

I've downloaded so much music I'm worried about having to do alot of work on slow internet for health. I'd stop...if I stopped finding good music.

Ohh got 7/10 for my english. thats okay apprently. which reminds me of english homework due..and math..and health..

...

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/23246304/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/23246304/ Tue, 17 Feb 2009 01:24:34 PST I am making a list. And checking it more than freaking twice >>
Do not suggest Twilight series.
I. can. not. take that seriously no more XD I thought it was a nice book. Not great, but nice. But now..I just laugh at it XD Stephen King agrees with me.

Had an inclass essay for english today.
I epic fail XD Might get put down a course? Oh I would love that : D
Its annoying to finally get into the flow of writing IN THE LAST FIVE MINUTES.

Cannot walk properly. So annoying D: <


Anyone got some music to share? :3
Or love. love would be nice D: <

no love today.
-hobbles-

Oh the ending of young dracula -draws in breath- was good and suited the show. buuut. was really an ending. open ended filth D: < I cannot deal with that for something I love so much. bah. Its because of that ending I cant walk.
Anger makes all the dance moves this year.

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/23115099/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/23115099/ Tue, 10 Feb 2009 05:11:47 PST
...well lemme tell you this day saves alotta relationships D: < and probably breaks. its worse on christmas and you still love it : D

But I am not sure why its so bad. Celebrating love is a good thing and doesnt have to be with your ultimate special one ^_^ just people you love.


An update of updates : D

Wheehee I love baking ^_^

School is so easy right now. and I have jinxed it. XD
I never thought I'd love computing : D

And did you know that Walking With Dinosaurs ~ 1999 ver. is narrated by kenneth b : D mr lockhart. mr romeo on tape. HE IS EVERWHERE.

>>
<<


How could Dracula once be Weasel....nuhuhu ;_;
Ily still. <3


Onto the project of rainbow jell-o 8D
...or jelly. for Emma. XD

much love <3

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22994602/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22994602/ Wed, 04 Feb 2009 00:13:39 PST
YOUR BOY SIDE:​
[x] you love hoodies
[x] you love jeans
[x] dogs are better then cats
[x] its hilarious when peopl​e get hurt
[ ] shopping is tortu​re
[ ] sad movies suck at times /get a heart./
[x] you play XBOX 360/ PS2
[x] you played with Hot Wheels as a little kid
[]at some point in life you wanted to be a firefighter
[x] you own a DS PS2 or Sega
[] you used to be obessed with Power Rangers
[x] you watch sports on TV
[] gory movies are the shit
[x] you ask your dad for advic​e
[] you own like a trillion baseball hats
[] you used to colle​ct baseball collector cards
[] baggy sweat pants are comfo​rtabl​e to wear
[x] its kind of weird to have sleep overs with a bunch of people /no sleepovers are just creepy./
[x] green/black​/red/blue/silver are one of your favour ite colours
[x] you love to go crazy and not care what other people think / at times. /
[x] sports are fun / of course! : D /
[] you talk with food in your mouth
[x] you have fished at least once
TOTAL = 14

YOUR GIRL SIDE:​
[x] you love to shop
[x] you wear eyeli​ner
[] you like to wear the colour pink
[x] you go to your mum for advic​e
[] you consider cheer leading a sport /AHAHAHAHA/
[] cats are better than dogs
[] you hate wearing the colour black
[x] you like going to the mall
[x] you like wearing jewelry
[x] you cried watching walk to remember
[x] you have a highwaisted skirt/shorts in your wardrobe
/once. and will again./
[] shopping is one of your favorite hobbies
[x] you take around one hour to shower and get ready /doesnt make a difference >> /
[x] you are/ were in gymnastics / tumbling
[x] you smile a lot more than you should
[x] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes / it adds up if I dont throw them out. XD /
[x] you like wearing dresses when you can
[x] you like wearing (BODYSPRAY) / perfume )
[x] you like high heel shoes
[ ] you like putting makeup on others / I like suggesting. :3/
[] pink is one of your favourite colours
[] chocolate is the best /NUHUHU/
TOTAL = 14
Repost this as "Boy/Girl Traits''


URMMM. D:

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22976545/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22976545/ Tue, 03 Feb 2009 02:59:25 PST
...shes gets free advertising..no complaints! : D

1) If you HAD to get a tattoo where would you get it?
shoulder blades

2) If you HAD to dye your hair a color…
But I have : D
but I would love red...or blue black.

3) If you HAD to get a piercing (not ears) what would you get?
wrist. because away it goes in 6 months XD

4) If you HAD to change your name, what new name would you choose?
Adrianne.

5) Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?
One person.

6) Would you move anywhere if you could?
yeah : D

7) If you were given the chance to go to Paris, would you go?
of course :3

8) If you were given 10 million dollars to keep, what would you do?
...set away for uni. some money to family. some charity.
and a major holiday around the world.

9) Would you eat a live tarantula for $1,000?
nu. D: <

10) What makes your bedroom unique?
the fact that there is no space on the floor.

11) What’s your favorite season of the year?
winter for the coolness.

11) Do you like cheese?
oh it can be nice : D

13) Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2008?
not really. and I wouldnt wish to go back.

14) If you HAD a choice, which gender would you choose?
well I would normaly say male...because well its better in so many ways. but then...I would miss feeling pretty.

15) Have you been involved with the police this year?
nup.

16) Are your best friends still your best friends?
Yes?

17) Got any tattoos or piercings this year?
:\

18) Had a haircut yet this year?
yes. I maintain she raped my fringe.

19) Been in a hospital this year?
Nope. Have never had to go to hospital for myself.

20) What woke you up this morning?
my body clock : D because I nearly had a heart attack when I relied on my alarm clock.

21) What color shirt are you wearing?
black.

22) Are you crazy?
ohohoho ; D

23) Does anyone call you baby?
yes and I call them back. <3

24) Regular Cheetos or hot?
hot cheetos? yew whut? D:

25) How’s your heart lately?
getting even more eratic and unsure. but more happy too.

26) Favorite fruit?
urr. apples.

27) Are you scared of spiders?
yes >>

28) If someone doesn’t like you, it’s usually because…?
I aint friendly? D:

29) Do you wear the hood on your hoodie?
yeah

30) Do you like being around a large group of friends, or two best friends?
large group is better to have fun and let loose.
being close allows for bonding.
I want both D: <

31) Do you like roller coasters?
no. even the kids ones concern me.

32) Do you care what others think about you?
everyone does.

33) Do you think you’ll be married in 10 years?
who knows.

34) Are you afraid of the dark?
yeah.

35) Like your life at the moment?
year 11 stress...but its going well.

36) Where were you last night?
on my bed.

41) Last person you said I love you to?
Emma. I love you too.

42) Describe your life in one smiley:

so many bad things and good things can be of that.
WIN. -run-

much love <3

-- Young Dracula. Gods. is Castle Awsome or whut. : D
Ily Dracula :3 --

== Emma gets a speeecial mention best wishes for the new year love. cant wait to hear from you. ==

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22935453/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22935453/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 04:23:32 PST So much fun :3
Two days full of costume, giant pocky and photos. so many photos. XD and of course a grand finale of the host putting on a dress and dancing with another man XD Go John go.

Me and went into the satruday cosplay competition :3 oh that was so much fun on stage, once the lights hits you..I just wasnt nervous anymore. and was perfectly happy to do anything like dancing singing or ANYTHING AT ALL. Thats a scary thought >>

Posting up photos when I get them all :3 so you dont get like 80. XD
I plan to post up cosplayers photos on one deviation.
But theres alot..so maybe two. XD

well new school year tomorrow.
its feels kind of like a year of expectations.
waiting to be met. and I wonder if I can sometimes.
classes are harder, things are more complex.
but we'll all keep up :3...with 15 hours of study a week.

....yeah right XD well..I'll try in any case.

no balthier... D: <
but a female kakashi. that was..interesting XD
and this really nice random girl O_o

It feels good to be home though. Can relax.
It was a nice adventure :3
I'd like to do it again sometime.

much love :3

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22896200/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22896200/ Fri, 30 Jan 2009 00:03:03 PST
15 HOURS mann : D

I'd better got some decent pictures :3

ohohoho with captain danger hips ; D

got my hair cut. she raped my fringe. and its uneven.
but I like it now. its..refreshing :3
and it makes me look gay....which works fine XD

so much fun to be had : D
and then year 11. >>
textbooks soo expensive. no like $500 D:

I may have forced her to buy me sparkly pencils and a purple finliner. But thats nothing compared to the calculator. touch screen : D

~~
Try listening to 'Hey Lady' by Thriving Ivory.


~~
and the show 'its me or the dog'
is great okay serena? D: |>
the party hat says so.
<3
its victoria stilwell. c'monn.

I think I gained a new fave actor...but I forget who.
XDD

anyway.

WAI-CON.
Due : 14 hours and 58 mins.

-dance-

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22817879/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22817879/ Mon, 26 Jan 2009 20:45:20 PST





hah. only 39. died before 40.
you suck author person D: <

much love <3

additional : //

Leave a comment and I'll:
1. respond with something random about you.
2. tell you which song or movie you remind me of.
3. pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. tell you my first memory of you.
6. tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. tell you my favorite thing about you.
9. tell you my least favorite thing about you.
10. is to make you put this in your journal but you dont have to.

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22817831/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22817831/ Mon, 26 Jan 2009 06:46:35 PST I hate to make more dA drama..or even call it that.
It'll be minimal.
...


How could..why people even advertise it likes it great to be that. WHY. why make others feel like it is. why not let them have their own choice and not be pushed by peer pressure. fucking why have these great lines...THAT ARE SO STUPID. THAT ARENT REALISTIC. ...and why..would you do that to yourself girl. love you so much. I'm there to help but I can hear it and see it in you..you know it isnt right for you. you dont really want it.
...if you think that...then I must look the same to you.
...and that..gods.



I tried minimal. and Yevon it is.
It feels nice sometimes to see things in writing.
Because if I dont post this. Its like denying.
So. I have.


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]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22814522/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22814522/ Sun, 25 Jan 2009 23:30:07 PST
Chain == ~ + + + + - >


More then 20= Uke
Less then 20= Seme

1-[x] you like to be consent in everything ( I do like having permission..and giving : D )
2-[x] when a person confesses his/her love to you and you don’t like him/her, you start feeling very tense and/or you don’t know what to say.
3-[x] you enjoy listening to smooth and relaxing music
4-[x] you are quite hyperactive (sometimes. when you dont see me )
5-[ ] if you don’t like something, you start crying and you don’t care if you start talking too loud
6-[x] you love candies or any type of caramel
7-[x] you like making others blush (BLUSHING NUUUU...)
8-[x] you sleep with a doll/ teddy bear/ pillow in your hand...
9-[x] you’re usually shy with the opposite sex
10-[x] you like romantic- funny anime
11-[] between L or Light cosplay, you prefer L ( dont watch death note. )
12-[ ] you have listened “an café”
13-[ ] you like listening to it (above band)
14-[ ] you have 1 or 2 songs in you pc of “an café”
15-[x] you are innocent and a little clumsy (Just a little. so annoying D: < )
16-[x] you smile at kitties
17-[ ] you usually say –kawaii-
18-[x] you like plushies ( n_n )
19-[ ] between light blue and blue, you prefer light blue
20-[x] you hate Paris Hilton because she is an idiot
21-[x] you have been lost in a shopping center/parking/cinema
22-[ ] you have called to the mistaken number twice or more
23-[x] you cried with Pocahontas' ending
24-[x] you have used a very feminine dress or shirt
25-[x] you call your pets with cute names
26-[ ] you believe that yaoi/yuri is the best ( haha no. XD )
27-[x] you're easy to convince (It isnt funny >> )
28-[x] some men scare you ( how about them all D: < )
29-[ ] you have seen Pucca and you like it
30-[x] you have pink/red clothes or they are decorated with flowers
31-[x] sometimes you start looking at the clouds and you get lost in space
32-[x] you’ve said “Kyao” or something like that before
33-[x] when a person of your same sex gets angry with you, you’re at the defensive ( that or submit. SUBMIT. )
34-[x] you like j-pop
35-[x] you have cried for more than one movie/TV series
36-[ ] you watched gravitation and you felt like Shuichi
37-[x] you smile with no reason
38-[x] you usually are very positive (you dont believe me do you. XD )
39-[x] when there’s a rainbow, you run out to see it
( : D )
40-[ ] you usually don’t understand what your parents say.

....I'm okay with that : D
Its more cuter anyway >>

Tags > : D


and anyone else.

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****
WAI-CON. 5 DAYS.
: D

.....*puff puff*
If there isnt a Balthier I will cry D:
;_;

But it shall be fun!

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My father bought me a watch..green : D
isnt too bad. the green is horrible...but not from far away. :3

~~~~~~~... ]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22773364/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22773364/ Sat, 24 Jan 2009 02:21:52 PST From journal~

Age when you first read Harry Potter : 6 :3

Favorite Book : dont have one D: I like different parts..deathly hallows ending was great..but the thirds book plot was more interesting. ;_;

Favorite Character(s): Severus, Draco, Luna, Hermione, Harry, Minerva, Remus

Ily them all <3

Favorite Proffesor(s): Snape ( of course :3 ) , Lupin , McGonagall OH I LOVE THEM ALL <3

Favorite House: Slytherin

Favorite Quidditch Team: Ravenclaw ( blue looks so good XD)

Favorite Couple Shipper? oh my D: < so many.
HP/SS LL/HG HP/DM
LOVE <3


Favorite Magical Animal: D: urr. urr. hippogriff.

Favorite Magical Place: The Great Hall ~

Favorite Weasley: The Twins

Favorite Pet: ohjesu. D: < stop the faves. urr rats <3

Favorite Order Member: ...well..TOO MANY -shot- remus.

Favorite Class: I hate this person..>> but potions..is like the great teacher..but transfiguration is the awsome magic...and DA is the awsome combat skills.
...I WONT CHOOSE.

Favorite Wizarding Snack : chocolate hobnobs.
XDD

Favorite Gryffindor Student: D: < -searches database-
well hermione is there but..well..but...why not ravenclaw ;_;

Draco or Harry?: D8 <
BOTH. PENORS . RULE .

H/Hr or R/Hr?: ...weell I dont want her body wasted on ron but they are so good together D: argh.

Snape or Lupin?: ....I HATE YOU. Snapes great but Lupin is more realistic. But I...I...;_; -run-

Crookshanks or Scabbers?: I like the rat..not the pettigrew D:

Harry or Ron?: ohumgee. rons better for easygoing while harrys more serious..harry does emotional stupid things while ron does forgiveable stupid things. but I like harry. but ron. and it will go on >>

Crabbe or Goyle?: Vincent ~ XD I forget which one that is.

Canon/Fanon Draco?: because asteria greengrass can go die D: < canon.

Canon/Fanon Snape?: canon. so many. possibilites : D

D/Hr or D/G? : D/Hr

H/D or H/SS? : my favourite pairings..ur ur. the first is more realistic but the second more sensual. D:
BOTH.

Favorite Slytherin: D: ..Draco? cause he lives?

Cho..annoying or not? : she was okay.
Actually. She led Harry on D: <
~~Books~~

Did you Cry when Cedric Died? I did my little shudder.
Did you cry when Sirius Died? No. XD I nearly did for Harrys reaction.
All time favorite part ? WHEN EVERYONE LIVES ON IN CANON.
Were you mad about the whole H/C mistake?: It wasnt a mistake D: <
Do you like Viktor Krum?: ...hehe.
Do you like Cho Chang?: She lead harry on. Thinking on her character..no.
Do you like Fleur?: ...weak but okay.
Do you like Cedric?: yep.
Do you like the Marauders?: james can go die as far as I'm concerned. and he did. SO GOODY D8 <
Light side or dark side?: twilight :3
Are you a Luna fan?: Sure?
Favorite Marauder? Remus ~

Harry Potter Movies

Do you like the movies as much as the books?
Yes...if I dont concentrate XD

Hottest HP actor?
.... ;_; dont make me list them. so. many.
...ohkay : D evanna lynch, tom felton, alan rickman, david thewlis.
ah -swoon-

What do you think of Ruperts long hair in GoF?
It actually suited him.

Daniel Radcliffe or Rupert Grint?
well I dont know them D: <

Was the werewolf too bad?
...which one? XD the image was bad. could have been waay better. ever heard of CG?

What scene did they leave out in the movie you wish they hadn't?
...so many. mostly detention with snape. and harry.
D: < damn you yates!
no if I was doing this after the films all done...jesus christ XD

Favorite movie moment?
...urr. magical class moments : D

Favorite Movie?
hopefully deathly hallows pt.2

Was that how you imagined the basalisk?
I didnt imagine it. I just went on XD

Do you wish Richard Harris could still play Dumbledore?
Yeah he did good. But Gambon is doing okay.


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Stupid favourite questions...>>

Minor Updates.

Mary cut my wig today : D thankyou
Wai-Con Goals made :3
WATCH OUT BALTHIER. <33

School starts soon. I am abandoning physics XD ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22573093/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22573093/ Wed, 14 Jan 2009 06:40:26 PST
Moving on.
Tag. Emma. Sending letter soon <3

1.Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
'work out the rough age of a similar dragon, percentage of its length to that of a''
Working With Dragons , Lesson 2 cont. ~ Dragon Biology - Ageing Dragons
Dragons Dragons : D

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you reach?
A rainbow candycane

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
urrm. was watching baltheir heal fran na/-slapped- <3

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
11:20pm

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
11:23pm

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
The kitchen clock

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Went to the city : D

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
Cosplay Pre-reg forms

9. What are you wearing?
paul frank shorts (still have them thankyou paris XD ) , blue shirt someone gave me D:

10. Did you dream last night?
Yes. It will be classified as one..or maybe a night dream? I was playing FF12. Such a cool dream : D

11. When did you last laugh?
Good question. Too many jokes today to remember D:

12. What are on the walls of the room you are in?
Posterss <3 and a cork board. oh ( XD ) and urr hooks

13. Seen anything weird lately?
myself in a wig D: I am not meant to be white haired.

14. What do you think of this quiz?
Shameless!

15. What is the last film you saw?
X-Men 2...again XD

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
I love this question : D -ohboy-
Ookay then ~ Clearly some charities, spend on gaming things/tokyo underground/ebayy, money for uni and all of my life problems : D

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know about.
I like Pie 8D

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
well..I'd have to debate..nuu I know!
Create this awsome system where people who do wrong without reason DIE 8D

19. Do you like to dance?
It is so much fun in your underwear <3

20. George Bush:
"Is someone who has become a scapegoat to make everyother government appear better. He has done wrongs but he has also done right.''

Yeah no one blames the fucktard who decided to create Israel did they? D: NUU.
Lets just make a new country for the jews, place them surrounded by arabs.
THATS A SWELL IDEA MAN. REAL SWELL 8D

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Roseann

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Jeremy

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
YES 8D

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
'' Harry Potter is real and guess who's waiting for you...you just jizzed didnt you?''
''...Nu'' >>

25.Tag six people who must also do this in THEIR journal:



:icon/// oh screw it D:

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22447347/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22447347/ Wed, 07 Jan 2009 07:18:24 PST

Rules:
Go to urbandictionary.com and type in your answers to the following questions.
Post the first definition it gives you.
Tag 3 people.


1.) Your name?
Julia~

a name for girls. Most julia's are artistic, smart, romantic, beautiful and also very charming. Julia's can get whatever they want if they try. They can be very sexy so watch out! They are romantics and love old movies, art and books. they love old stuff! They usually aren't very athletic but if a julia is athletic she's kick butt! they have great fashion sense and usually look smokin'. A julia will most likely become a mother because they love kids. They are very successful in life and there is just something about them that draws people in. Also they are ah-mazing dancers!

( yurr right. )

2.) Your age?
15

Any girl under eighteen who lies about her age. Closley related to the term jailbait but more devious.

3.) One of your friends?
Crystal ~

a freaky, wild, spontaneous, and party girl with a love for life...and sex

4.) What should you be doing?
sleeping ~

To masturbate furiously in your room while praying that your grandma doesn't come in.

(ohkayy I actually ment the resting..)

5.) Favorite color?
green ~

yes... it is most definitely referring to the marijuana... and also, upon occassion, any substance with similar uses. too, properly, of course, it is a golfing term, but that;s really not very much fun, now is it?

6.) Birthplace?
perth ~

The most isolated capital city in the world. Population of 2 million people.. white sandy beaches.. beautiful weather.. sexy easy-going people.. and cool kangaroos.

7.) Month of your birth?
October~

NUDY MAGAZINE DAY!
- what day is it?

- ...october...

(stupid billy madison.)

8.) Last person you talked to?
Rossi ~

to give hardcore intercourse to anything with 2 or more legs
''I walked into my house and there's my dad doing Rossi with my cat! ''

9.) One of your nicknames?
Jules ._.

1. someone who gives AMAZING head.
2. good sexual assets
"you wouldnt expect it but when she got on her knees she was a jules!"
"bitch she had the jules!"

( I had to choose the 3rd examp. for this one XD )


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Do what you wish. Amusing :3


[i]I ate a grate and jizzed in my pants...[/i] XD ahh. edward cullen. bahahhaa.

Got Lolita todayy~ The disc had minor freeze ups all the way through. ruined it a fair bit T_T I dont like Lolita or Dolores Haze. Betch does not deserve to do that with Jeremy Irons D:
The film would make a dandy journal response on irons character Prof. Humbert <3 Poor thing.

Going to get my wig soon and then Mary, we have to go eat at a patisserie or something :3 photo photo <3

...I do believe the fleas are gone, dare I say? : D

much love <3

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22387015/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22387015/ Sun, 04 Jan 2009 04:20:30 PST
Pepita my rat died today. Won't forget that sight.

My cat brought in fleas. I want the house fumigated. I also want to kill someone for not getting flea protection earlier like they should.

Wai-con coming up. Getting wig soon~ Pre-registering tomorrow.

Crystal is over in Queensland. Hopes she is having a good time. Life is so dull without talking to you.

Bought Lolita (with jeremy irons) and getting that soon. I prefer the paedophile film compared to stealing beauty. XD

christmas and new years have passed.
christmas hopefully wont happen next year. new years was blank as usual.

year 11 coming up. scared shitless of exams. I am so screwed for journal responses, essays and exams. though for english I will get a good teacher either way. not sure about doing physics. might change it to health or catering or media.
mr nielsen will be pleased T_T

Did I mention fleas suck? well they do but..argh. FUMIGATION PLEASE.

so yurr.
best wishes for the new year~

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22386972/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/22386972/ Sun, 04 Jan 2009 04:13:25 PST
Emma~ Is to blame for tags in this one. much love dear.

~The Movies~

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 85 films, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 239 films on this list. Copy this list, go to your own journal, paste this in. Then, put x's next to the films you've seen, add them up, change the header adding your number.

( ) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
( ) Boondock Saints
( ) Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane (That's "Flying High" to us Aussies)
Total: 4

(x) The Princess Bride
(x) AnchorMan
( ) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Labyrinth
(x) Saw
(x) Saw II
( ) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
( ) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
Total: 8
Running total: 12

( ) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
(x) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
( ) American Pie 2
( ) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total: 5
Running total: 17

(x) Harry Potter 1
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4 (horrible! D8< )
(x) Harry Potter 5
( ) Resident Evil 1
( ) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
( ) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch
Total: 7
Running total: 24

(x) Finding Nemo
( ) Finding Neverland
(x) Signs ( the mel gibson one D: )
(x) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
(x) White Chicks
( ) Butterfly Effect
( ) 13 Going on 30
(x) I, Robot
( ) Robots
Total: 5
Running total: 29

(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x) Along Came Polly
( ) Deep Impact( possibly. rings a bell.)
( ) KingPin
( ) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) Joe Dirt
(x) KING KONG
Total: 6
Running total: 35

(x) A Cinderella Story
( ) The Terminal
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
( ) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumber & Dumberer
( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
( ) Halloween
( ) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber
Total: 3
Running total: 38

(x) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(x) Practical Magic (like 3 times T_T )
(x) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
( ) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window
(x) I Am Sam
( ) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
Total: 4
Running total: 42

( ) The Day After Tomorrow ( I have it. havent watched it XD )
( ) Child's Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
( ) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
( ) Just Married
(x) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
(x) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
( ) The Grudge
( ) The Grudge 2
( ) The Mask
(x) Son Of The Mask
Total: 4
Running total: 46

( ) Bad Boys
( ) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Lucky Number Seven
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x) Ocean's Twelve
(x) Bourne Identity
(x) Bourne Supremecy
( ) Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
( ) The Fog
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
( ) Curious George
Total: 6
Running total: 52

(x) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
(x) ET ( so badd. )
( ) Children of the Corn
( ) My Bosses Daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
(x) War of the Worlds (tom cruise is shocking. )
( ) Rush Hour
( ) Rush Hour 2
Total: 4
Running total: 56

( ) Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
( ) She's All That
(x) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
( ) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
(x) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(x) The Terminator
(x) The Terminator 2
( ) The Terminator 3
Total: 3
Running total: 59

(x) X-Men
(x) X-Men 2
(x) X-Men 3
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
( ) Sky High
( ) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
( ) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Little Mermaid
(x) Freak... ]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/21026549/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/21026549/ Fri, 17 Oct 2008 04:22:34 PDT

1) Choose 5 couples you ship and where they are from:

Couple 1: Harry Potter & Draco Malfoy (Book/Film - JK Rowling - Harry Potter)
Couple 2: Bella & Jacob
(Book - S.Myer - Twilight)
Couple 3: Adriane & Zachery
(Book - Avalon)
Couple 4: Misuzu & Yukito
(Anime - Air)
Couple 5: Rogue & Wolverine
(Comic/Film - X-Men)

2) Now, create children for them. Create at least one for each couple, but create no more children than 10 all together. Be sure to specify age and gender:

But I dont want Mpreg D:...adoption! : D

1. //ADOPTION// Darrow - male - 14 C1
2. //ADOPTION// Dean - male - 14 C1
3. Riarne - female - 8 C2
4. Edward - male - 8 C2 (BWAHAH)
5. Lyra - female - 12 C3
6. Jeremy - male - 13 C3
7. Mitsuki - female - 9 C4
8. Saito - male - 12 C4
9. Aiden - male - 14 C5
10. Serena - female - 16 C5



OK, here goes:

3) 5's mother has a heart attack, how do 7 and 2 react?
*Mitsuki* is in another country..far awaay.
*Dean* would try to cheer up Lyra&Jeremy with all nighter of gaming.


4) 10 falls in love with 8. How will their parents take this?
Both parents concerned would laugh at the long distance relationship and pity Serena as Saito is gay.

5) 1, 2, and 5 go to a concert but don't come back. What is 9's initial reaction?
Aiden would bet on whether Darrow would make it 'home' with Lyra.

6) 8 wins an award. What for?
Outstanding attendance record XDD

7) 3 is having a birthday party. Where will they go? Who will they invite? What will they do, and for how long?
*Riarne* Being only 8, it would remain in Forks, wereterritory. She'd invite only Mitsuki to explore her homeland for the night~

8) Couple 4 catch their child/children watching a porn movie. What do they do?
*Mitsuki9&Saito12*..jesus christ.
Yukito would punish Saito and berate Mitsuki.

9) 2 brings home a pet. What is it?
*Dean* a rock XD

10) Do 2's parents approve of the pet? If not, what do they do about it?
Harry and Draco are concerned that both Darrow and Dean are interested in a rock with a pen smiley face. They leave it, deciding 14 is too late to change the mind.

11) Mid terms are coming up for 7 and everyone else in their age group. What do they do?
*Mitsuki9* She is studying her grammar?

12) The school is on fire. How does 9 react?
Aiden would flaunt his powers, to impress Dean, though he would only try to save the canteen.

13) If 5 had to date 1, 7, or 10, who would they pick?
Lyra would pick Darrow as well she isnt interested in boobs D:

14) 6's parents are having a divorce. What does 6 do? What do their friends do?
Jeremy would rally up Lyra to help convince them to remain together as wolves should mate for life...and their mother is basically wolf in human form.

15) 3's parents are hosting the annual family reunion on the same night as their favorite band's last concert in the country. Which do they go to?
Riarne has quite an extensive and loving family..she would spend the time with them as they are her pack, therefore her life.

16) 8 gets lost in the woods. Who comes to their rescue? (parents don't count.)
Saito would be screwed..until Mitsuki would stumble along with some friends and the dog, Potato 2 : D

17) 4's family died in a fire. Who do they move in with 8's family or 7's family? Why?
Impossible. This would be one huge freaking fire that would have to destroy werewolves, vampires, the whole of Forks to be exact. It is not going to happen.

18) When 9 grows up, they marry 2. What do their parents do?
*Aiden & Dean*...Aiden must be pleased at this..

Well Deans adoptive parents cant exactly disagree...major contradiction. They'd be concerned about the whole magic/nonmagic problem of knowing and things. Rogue would support and Wolverine would well..reject it. Until about 3 months later.

19) 7 is a contestant on American Idol. Can they manage to pull out a decent song?
Sure, if americans like japanese music sung by 9 year olds.

20) 1 is off their medication. What happens?
Darrow would become exceptionally paranoid.

21) 9 and 5 are drunk out of their skulls and one of them passes out. Who is it, and what does their comrade do?
Aiden14 & Lyra12..who would give Lyra alcohol..your INSANE. She would pass out because she really cannot handle her fermented vegetables :3 Aiden would laugh, and put her on teh bus.

22) Zombies invade... ]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/20867499/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/20867499/ Mon, 06 Oct 2008 23:48:24 PDT
RULES:
Do the "Letter MEME". Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment, informing them that they have been tagged. Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and finish your Journal entry.

-> How you do the Letter Meme:

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister


2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes


3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife


4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out


5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk


6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed


7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks


8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service


9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college


10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about... ]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/20515589/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/20515589/ Tue, 16 Sep 2008 02:53:47 PDT
Damn it Emma, no birthday rompage for you!

The RULES:
1-POST THESE RULES IN YOUR JOURNAL
2-EACH TAGGED PERSON MUST POST 8 FACTS ABOUT THEM SELVES IN THEIR JOURNAL.
3-AT THE END, YOU MUST TAG 8 PEOPLE AND POST THEIR ICONS IN YOUR SAME JOURNAL.
4-GO TO THEIR PAGE AND SEND THEM A MESSAGE THAT THEY HAVE BEEN TAGGED.
6- NO TAG-BACKS.

hmm, scratch 6 : D

~ I have found a non-cringe worthy alan rickman film GOLD.

~ Taking out human biology books is fun ^^ Learning where certain muscles are really helps.

~ finished les miserables

~ wrote a craptastic essay around 5 or 6 this morning..I dont know..my clock is broken.

~ Did I mention my clock is broken?

~ I am currently reading 5 books and 3 fanfictions.

~ I dont believe it would be a bad thing to live with the penguins XD

~ My maths teacher hates calculators...they are my new love. XD


> :3

TAG:



:iconmiharu_chan:


lawl I dont talk to many on dA
Go for your life.

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/20035934/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/20035934/ Tue, 19 Aug 2008 06:18:45 PDT
Umm... apologies for taking so long..XD but..I love you?

1. Name: Julia (too..feminine..)
2. Nickname: Julie, waffles, young harry..or is it draco now serena? XD
3. Birthday: : O nuu. you only get 1993
4. Place of Birth: Australia
5. Zodiac Sign: Libra (nothing to do with tampons...)
6. Male or Female: Female
7. Education: Public..?
8. Schools you went to: Uh..Lymburner, Belridge. My education is AWSOME.
9. Occupation: I want one T_T
10. Residence: My bed? Owo
11. Screen Names: Hoffnung

__Your Appearance___
12. Hair Colour: Dark Imitation Black Brown :3
13. Hair Length: shoulder? it's growing..
14. Eye colour: some say hazel..or dark brown. I DONT FREAKIN KNOW. -facedesk-
16. Height: over 150..I know this XD
17. Braces?: nope.
18. Glasses?: No. Maybe one day.
19. Piercing: Sure.
20. Tattoos: ...yeaaaah.
21. Righty or Lefty: Left-handed. Special. :3

___Your 'Firsts'___
22. First best friend: Paris
23. First Award: Merit? O_O
24. First Sport You Joined: Basketball
25. First Pet: FISHY.
26. First Real Vacation: Camping did not happen..
27. First Concert: Robbie Williams.
'keep turning down your lovelight..did it again.' XDD
28. First Love: Don't you love para-social relationships? Realistically, none. Why would I hope. Never speak of this again..

___ Favorites___
29. Movie: Brokeback Mountain, Treasure Planet, Remember the Titans
30. TV Show: Midsomer Murders, Air,
31. Color: Red, green, blue, black
32. Rapper: cock-knocker XDD
33. Band: too many..
34. Song Right Now: My World - Sick Puppies
35. Friend: interesting question.
36. Candy: I forget.
37. Sport to Play: Basketball, tennis, badminton, chess. I maintain chess is a MENTAL SPORT. XDD
38. Restaurant: I hate dining out.
39. Favorite brand to wear: emo-riffic wear
40. Store: Borders
41. School Subject: Media, English
42. Animal: Wolves
43. Book: Science fiction/Fantasy
44. Magazine: ralph (ahaha not really. XD she knows who she is..)
45. Shoes: Flat thingies.

___Currently___
46. Feeling: Craptastic. Angst.
47. Single or Taken?: What do you think?~
49. Eating:
50. Drinking:
51. Typing: short responses on msn
52. Online?: Sure.
53. Listening To; sick puppies in my mind..
54. Thinking About: Alan rickman dropping his pants...DEAL WITH IT XD
55. Wanting To: get drunk/feel pain/run/read. It's all crazy in my dead heart.
56. Watching: Supernatural
57. Wearing: School jumper, basketball shorts.

__________Future__________
58. Want Kids?: Questionable.
59. Want to be Married: I dont see much spiritual gain in marriage.
60. Careers in Mind: Anayltical work.
61. Where do you want to live?: Cold dreary place.
62. Car: one that isnt on a television screen.

__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex___
63. Hair colour: dark I suppose.
64. Hair length: ...
65. Eye colour: ...
66. Measurements: Not too much shorter please
67. Cute or Sexy: Cute..if it's female. If male..masculine.
68. Lips or Eyes: both.
69. Hugs or Kisses: both. affection people! jeez.
70. Short or Tall: ...
71. Easygoing or serious: serious is good..we'd work. cause I'm not serious much.
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: spontaneous.
74. Sensitive or Loud: both?
75. Hook-up or Relationship: relationship.
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: I find reserve better than those.


___Have you ever______
78. Kissed a Stranger: nein.
79. Had Alcohol: Yes.
80. Smoked: nein.
81. Ran Away From Home: nein. those are nightmares.
82. Broken a bone: nein.
85. Broken Someones Heart: Yes.
86. Broken Up With Someone: Define your terming.
87. Cried When Someone Died: Alot of times.
88. Cried At School: Never. Nearly did. But no.

___Do You Believe In___
89. God: Religion is support..I dont need that. Not anymore.
90. Miracles: Nein.
91. Love At First sight: Thats called infatuation..not love.
93. Aliens: it's probable.
94. Soul Mates: I dont believe in souls..not the way it's commonly def... ]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/20015684/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/20015684/ Mon, 18 Aug 2008 03:24:11 PDT [link]

Gomen. I havent put up a journal for some time. So alot of updates and an important notice for HP!

Danke Shoen Mary, for this subscription...which will probably end soon..XD but it was interesting not to wait for adverts to load.

40 hour famine weekend, just went by. This year World Vision was instead trying to slow down child trafficking. Spent it at Crystals with Jaymie and Courtney. Interesting times Yes..well too late now to say much,if someone wants a sponsor..sponsor them!! It makes everyone so happy T_T

Harry Potter : Half Blood Prince movie is being held back till next year, 17th July!
However, I dont know if this will do much, a petition is running...sign it D: I dont care if it will be better if it takes longer XD You know why? Because Alan Rickman isnt getting any younger T_T

so..sign it..for everyones sanity...
[link]
Something else I heard was that they'd release Twilight now when HP:6 was meant to air..only in america. T_T Why not HEEERE. We liiiive.

Hmm. Hormones are annoying. Decidedly. I dont enjoy teenage angst much. Because it hurts hitting walls T_T

162 deviations..63 deviations...nyeeh.

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/19305905/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/19305905/ Thu, 10 Jul 2008 07:42:37 PDT
Level 1
( ) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
( ) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
SO FAR: 0

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) Dumped someone
( ) Been Fired
() Been In A Fist Fight
SO FAR: 2

Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
( ) Skipped Class
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die
SO FAR: 4

Level 4
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your deviantart Friends
() Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking
SO FAR: 6

Level 5
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding /skiing
(x) Met Someone Through Internet
() Been in a Mosh Pit.
SO FAR: 8

Level 6
(x) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Liked/loved Someone Who You Can't Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
() Made A Snow Angel (sand angels just arent the same...)
SO FAR: 12

Level 7
() Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
(x) Gone mudding
() Played Dress Up
SO FAR: 15

Level 8
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
( ) Gone Sledging
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
SO far: 19

*Lack of Level 9*

Level 10
(x) Watched The Sun Set
() Felt An Earthquake
() Killed A Snake
SO FAR: 20

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized
( ) Been cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood
SO FAR: 22

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended From School
() Had Detention
() Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident (cars nearly falling of steep egde..nu thats no accident..)
SO FAR: 23

Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) Danced in the moonlight
SO FAR : 24

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
(x) Pole Danced (it was for fun..nya. )
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
SO FAR: 29

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
() Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying
SO FAR: 33

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Coloured With Crayons / Coloured Pencils / Markers ( nihaha, my wall )
() Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
SO FAR: 37

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
() Kissed In The Rain
SO FAR: 39

Level 18
() Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About ( I care about family x_X )
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere
SO FAR: 41 ( I am so lame..your just not asking the right questions D: )

Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
() Have Travelled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey (my friends dad did..XD )
SO FAR: 43

Level 20
( ) Worn Pearls
(x) Jumped Off A Bridge -- not a deadly bridge of course
(x) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina" ( all the time.. )
( ) Swam With Dolphins
SO FAR: 45

Level 22
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
(x) Kicked A Fish ( Its fun.. >_> )
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes ( I will buy boxers >> just decent looking ones that dont have women on them )
(x) Sat On A Roof Top
SO FAR: 49

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel (It worked once. Never again..)
(x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about
SO FAR: 53

Level 24
() Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone (I did it anyway.. Bad idea. )
SO FAR: 56

L... ]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/19305566/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/19305566/ Thu, 10 Jul 2008 07:13:44 PDT
Point b) I was tagged. joy? maybe. I couldnt choose between two people for one answer..so..yeah. Answers. yay..maybe not.

1.) Horse, Sheep, Tiger, Cow, Pig

2.) a- power, b- companion, c- mobile, d- sensual, e- immortal
(sensual..better than gods gift XD )

3.) yellow - Paris
orange - Savato
red - Emma
white - Crystal
green - Serena

4.) 6. Friday

nihaha link~: [link]


I finally changed the icon O_o

Nyaa, I watched the movie Dogma today. Alan rickman was the voice of god or the Metatron.

^^ Nyaa..fond memories..it's a really..shoddy film..and he touched her at the end..nihaha I fell off the couch at that point..but it was adorable. I'll be replaying his scenes tomorrow, nihaha It's the longest he's had in a film..-faint- or watch jeromy irons..either way.

Watched Sense & Sensibility before that. Now..the only reason I bring this up, was because I knew so many of the main actors. About every 2 minutes I'd say 'Oh my fucking god it's...!'

They had
~ Alan Rickman
~ Imelda..sta-something..umbridge woman
~ Hugh Laurie
~ Hugh Grant
~ Emma Thompson
~ Madam Freakin Pomfrey!

Thing is, these are such good actors, that you dont reference them to previous characters..well except Imelda Staunton..I saw her in this crazy rat movie O_O and I cannot get her irish accent out of my mind.

It was crazy nya. But fun ^^ I was giving myself chinese burns half the time..stops me cringing ^^ poor col. brandon..for a time at least.

I'll continue raiding my mothers stash of films Byebye~

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/19158555/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/19158555/ Wed, 02 Jul 2008 03:26:35 PDT
Sometimes..people arent who you think they are...sometimes..they hurt the people most dearest to them and lie in their faces. what strikes me is, that they changed so suddenly..being against one thing and then doing it? thats just..horrible. and to lie to someone you care about, with a straight question.

I hope you suffer for it and maybe learn before you get hurt..cause..I dont want you hurt..as much as you hurt her..you don't deserve it..I just want it to stop..but it wont..how long will it take before you will? what has to happen, to make you stop?

I don't know..it's all rather angering and hurtful. really deep.


Stupid english homework...nyaah. I deserve a break of spastic music..

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/18995089/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/18995089/ Mon, 23 Jun 2008 04:56:59 PDT
I stole it from who stole it from who nicked it off who stole it from ...

. YOUR REAL NAME:
Julia

2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle.)
Jul-izzle
''Hows the weather today?"" ""Julizzle mate. Raining in July." -shot-

3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (fav color and fav animal)
Black Swan Maiden
(..yay.)

4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, and current street)
Kirsten... Lymburner
(lymburner is shitastic)

5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name, first 3 letters of mom's maiden name)
Ehljuhor

XD is star wars in mexico?~


6. YOUR SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd favorite color, favorite drink).
Ocean Blue Slushy.....yay lawl.

7. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, any letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden name, 3rd letter of your dads middle name, 1st letter of any 2 relatives first name, last letter of your moms middle name).

Ulkouei


8. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (dads middle name and your middle name!)
Rudi Kirsten.

theimages.


9. YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one your pets)
Black Bella

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/18692438/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/18692438/ Fri, 06 Jun 2008 07:01:44 PDT I can no longer say I havent searched my name...T_T

I have the feeling Julia Roberts will come up...


RULES:
Go to Google and type in your first name and the phrase. Copy and paste the first sentence/phrase you get that makes sense. [Or that is awesome. :B]

Q: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search.
A: Julia needs an adoptive loving family. [...it's better than I need sex...XD ]

Q: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search.
A: Julia looks like beautiful woman in my opinion.
[oh gosh ]

Q: Type in "[your name] says" in Google search.
A: Julia says lyrics by wet wet wet [...o_O ]

Q: Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search.
A: Julia wants to make pregnancy film
[ not that obsessed. gah. Julia Roberts making a film.. [link] ]

Q: Type in "[your name] does" in Google search.
A: Julia does grafitti

Q: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search.
A: Julia hates taking the pills...[..I knew it..]

Q: Type in "[your name] asks" in Google search.
A: Julia asks asks Sean if he wants her to buy him pornography
[....]

Q: Type in "[your name] goes" in Google search.
A: Julia goes to london and puts up a bloomsbury hotel
[yay.]

Q: Type in "[your name] likes " in Google search.
A: Julia likes poptarts....[ XD ehehe...]

Q: Type in "[your name] eats " in Google search.
A: Julia eats airplane [thats make all the sense..]

Q: Type in "[your name] wears " in Google search.
A: Julia wears mommy's shoes...
Q: Type in "[your name] was arrested for" in Google Search.
A: Julia was arrested for possesion of crack cocaine...[why havent I heard of this?]


got you back...

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/18249897/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/18249897/ Fri, 09 May 2008 23:00:14 PDT taggeded Julia. n_n I love you too, so whenever this happens again, I'll always tag you! That okay hun? n_n

1. Post Eight Things about You...
2. Tag Eight People
3. Die in 7 days (I'm going to die next saturday? O_O )

1. I had a bob haircut as a child. ( no really, the photos don't lie -_- )
2. I love reading science fiction/fantasy
3. I seem to pick the characters that die. WAH.
4. I learnt the romaji, hirogana and something else in primary school. Mrs Kennedy would be proud of me XD
5. I prefer dark to day, but am scared of the dark. (LAME )
6. Reading makes up a quartar of my life.
7. The first harry potter book made me interested in reading books other than Spot.
8. I severly condemn people who don't give a fuck about earth, saying that we'll all die someday. Be scared Jaymie.

Favorite Video Game Characters
1. Aragon - LOTR
2. Xiahou Dun - Dynasty Warrior 3
3. Polar Bear - CTR (the bear always wins!! n_n )

Three Nicks you use
You mean nicknames? D:
I don't really no...Savato insists 'julie' is my name..Mary says something about waffle buddy? XD

2 Truths and a Lie
1. I have never dated in life.
2. I enjoy colour-coding jeans at salvation stores! n_n
3. I can sing the 'Air' opening theme perfectly.

3 Things you're wearing
1. My Chemical Romance loose shirt
2. Denim shorts
3. Uh....O_O

3 Things essential to your daily schedule
1. Music - I will die when my iriver does.
2. Daydreaming - I get extremly depressed or angry if I don't. Oh nuu.
3. Eyeliner - n_n <3 I'd look dead, more than usual, without my onyx eyeliner.

3 Favorite bands (theres too many! -flail- )
1. Within Temptation
2. Eskimo Joe
3. Jame Blunt (I don't care if he isnt really a band XD )

3 Things you look for in a relationship
1. Loyalty
2. Respect
3. Acceptance of alot of affection n_n <3

3 Things you look for in a girlfriend/boyfriend
1. Understanding
2. Can make me forget about the world existing
3. Open affection (affection.affection.affection.)

3 Physical features you look for in a girlfriend/boyfriend (physical doesnt really count to me but I have a few tendancies.)
1. dark eyes/hair
2. taller than myself
3. pale (not always...I'm picky D: )

3 Favorite Hobbies
1. Reading
2. Gaming
3. Dish washing n_n I'm weirddd.

3 Careers you think you would have/study
1. Counsellor
2. Photography
3. ....?

3 Places you want to go on vacation
1. Tasmania (mania.mania.mania)
2. Canada (cold.cold.cold)
3. England (do they sell ginger tea?)

3 Things you want to do before you die (I only have a week to do these things D: ! )
1. Finish V.P.M and Air
2. Tackle nd nuzzle someone I likeded n_n
3. That squirrel flying suit thing..I wanna glide in one of those..
=[


Uhh....I tagsss


and whoever else..wants to do these things...~ RAWR.

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/18206717/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/18206717/ Wed, 07 May 2008 04:53:03 PDT
Not really in an order...I just..had to do this though D:


~ Cake - or maybe I just don't like cake that much? D: -

~ Sausage -shudder. Dont like those either..but imagine. sahseeg. -

~ Ugly - the words sounds like it's meaning -

~ Cartoon -....car..toon...? carhtoohn. This has nothing to do with cars! -shot- -

~ Skunk - I have nothing against skunks! Just the way it sounds...-

~ Smear -why not the word spread? DDD: (haha pap spread XD ) -

~ Faggot - meant to be an insult..but really..to a person or the english language ? -flails- -

~ Bob -...*eye twitch* -

~ Funny - why not amusing? WHYYY -

~ Emo -Someone just give me a reason why it's wrong to express emotions and someone give a DECENT definition between emo and goth other than 'emo's are goth try-hards. goths are cool.' DD: -

~ Teddy/Ted -why does remus' s kid need to be called that? It's just...nergh >< and on subject of names, gary? DDD: -



I don't remember the others... XD

I promise, I will write something for someone, I don't know if they remember. But I said I would. I don't use a name for reasonsssssss.

Inseperable Was written for english, after me and savato had a nice..chat..about how realistic this was. With Juliet coming back from the 'dead'. Moving on

Moving down from science as I won't be doing psyhics or chemistry for what I want as a career. I'm screwed if I change my mind though. I don't think I will though. Something I kinda always wanted to do. Fair enough, if other people need it, why should I do it, because I have a minor interest or just cause I may be good? -shrug-

Reading some books right now...yay?
~ Tsubasa Vol.5
~ Dark Palace - Frank Moorhouse (still going)
~ Fell - David Clement-Davies (still going)
~ The waterless sea - forgotten (re-reading)
~ Fallow Blade - Cecelia Dart-Thorntan (need to really..get that one done..)
~ The Heart of stars - omg I should know this. GAH. :\ (why am I re-reading this DD: )

nergh want to watch petit cossette...real bad. -facedesk-

Enough for your mind now, go dream about a nice glass of cold coke....the drink.. D:

~

Clubs:

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/17936010/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/17936010/ Sat, 19 Apr 2008 23:17:27 PDT ~ maybeh not. Nothing much to read, just updations. For the mere sake that I do not bounce around the house and stack jumping a chair in my socks.

I'mma excited for some good reasons?~

My mum wanted the movie for 'Vampire Princess' but could only find it attached to the whole series, which was what I was looking for awhile back.
So she bought the whole series + movie from ebays!


I'mma sad for lame reasons?~

Air anime..is just..has too many sad moments. -facedesk- Cried three times now. nergh, it's either really triggering or I'm just lame. Probably the latter.

Also only has 13 episodes. Nergh. Why not 20 or something? Why is every anime I find, under 15 episodes?


Maths homework...I'll..do that on monday.. at school.

Happeh Birthday Mareh <3 Might be late...but it happens? D:


RAIN!!! It's raining right now~ been getting alot of rain =]
been getting colder, finally! under 20 degrees ~
howevers tried out a hot water bottle in my bed while watching HP:3 . It takes long time to work thoughs.

And severus looks good in a dress. You know he does. XD picture time?

I can now turn on the television whenever snape is on in HP:3. It's weird Same for no' 2.
Nya, this makes me happy : ]

Leaving on a good note~ hoping that a current story turns out happy and Harry doesnt kills everyone. Save him Draco!


Clubs~ ( I don't remember...oh noes.)

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/17155018/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/17155018/ Sun, 02 Mar 2008 19:12:29 PST
Just wanted to update...uhmm...alot of things have happened...things I wished hadnt but have and have learned from it..

I'm going to try and learn to be competent at german because I think it would be awsome to speak another language. Fluently. Also so I dont just sprint whenever my grandmother calls...

Found a video of daniel radcliffe getting kissed by a man while accepting an award. Watched that alot of times
He did it on rove too...adorable.

Still looking for a job...-facedesk-

Seeing james blunt..in march..I think it was.
:edit: Didn't realise it was march..

School..is as interesting as ever.

Oh, german grammar is horrible b.t.w it's either feminine/masculine/neutral
sie/er/....XD
-_-

Doing snorkelling at school...joy..no really, lets just go to a beach with huge rocks lined across the front, less than 1m in.
Becuase thats so much fun, go into freezing water, chancing getting minced by rocks, landing on a stonefish.

It's all worth it though..saw this huge school of black fish with a yellow outline. Different sizes, was awsome... M.A.A.C will be better though. Been there before.


Feel extremely guilty..I dont know..




~ Emma ~

Miss you Emma. Come live with me. My phone fucked up and has frozen. I disagree with you. You have changed for the better and I want to explain why but it isnt fair on a journal and my phone has died and that'd be painful to text that all out.
Get your sexy arse on msn.

Have faith and keep on daydreaming, it can always save you. Well from the really annoying people Not the teacher..


~ B.T.W femslash is better XD
~ B.T.F.W Zoombinis are awsome and I wants the game baack D: It was so sad..made my heart breaks.

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/16667876/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/16667876/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 01:44:01 PST and I, in a normal conversation ~


I Phail At Life says:
"Jeeves... the people in the audience are scaring me. Release the hounds!"

I'm Your Worst Nightmare, Bring It, We Can Take It There. says:
'Hounds released Mam. They appear to be drinking your coffee..''

I Phail At Life says:
"GET OUT OF MY SHOE! DAMN YOU!"




That somehow turned to something about eating 6 grains and a song came out..and I can see it, with like 'australia home' kids singing it..XD




'For every girl and boy, theres something you must know'
'6 different types of grain, down their throat, must go'
'and if we fail this duty, to our digestive family
we can surely guarantee,
a death in the upcoming week'~

and I'm actually singing that right now in my crappy high pitched singing voice...




I love you? ~

Reading beginner philosophy...XD Sophies World. Very interesting. So, I have come up a with my own quote.

~ Maturity is when we accept what does and doesn't happen in the world. ~

Ehehe O_O....

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/16637336/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/16637336/ Wed, 30 Jan 2008 00:23:46 PST marshmallows D:

Tagged by Emma
8 Random Facts
~ This has to be the 5th time I've done one of these '8 random facts' things.

~ I have 30 scars on my right thigh and 17 on my left. This happened in Bali because of bed bugs and I kept on scratching...even though bleeding....and I see more now from mosquito bites this year -_-

~ I hope to get B in maths this year, which is good for me ^^ Because I don't like maths -_-

~ I have 121 artists on my iriver and 1135 songs.

~ There are more artists on my media player that I want to put on there, got into them recently ( seether, garth brooks, apocalptica, enter shikari, moby, placebo )

~ I like to eat mango chilli philly XD what kind of a flavour is that anyway...and how the heck do they come up with them?

~ When I was working at Wendys, and the song 'Cuz I Can' by Pink became popular, I would feel very sick everytime I heard it because it said 'icecream. icecream. we all want icecream.' I like it now though...and I did before I worked there...and I dont really like icecream much anymore -_-

~ I am waiting to see if some pictures I had taken on new years day with Mara turned out good It was on a phone though...But I hope to make on of the shots in the whitfords bathroom my ID XD

I am so boring I know lawl. XD


Story take from Kayla

Meh Storeh.

Hi, my name is: Julia

but you can call me: Julia? XD Whatever you wish..wait no, I sound like a hooker. Er...

Never in my life have I: seen snow...

The one person who can drive me nuts is:......... ...........
^^ check out the space between the dots..next question..

My high school is: a thing to educate me and keep my busy and let me see friends...

When I’m nervous: my gaze moves back and forth to whats intimidating me. Graze my teeth over my lips. Tremble. Shuffle back and forth.
This how I look when I do speeches.

The last song I listened to was: Too Late - Evermore ~ Remix

If I were to get married right now it would be to: I wouldnt because I'm not fully grown. If I were 20 or so we all know who Those who don't...thankgod for that XD...

My hair is: It's looks like dark red/purple/brown but I'll re dye it black before you see it

Last Christmas: Was nerve wracking as always. I don't like receiving gifts. So, dont give me anything this year save a freakin card D:

I should be: ....training my pokemon to beat Rossi? Lawl.

When I look down I see: Shorts and thighs ? lawl. and mosquito bite scars -_-

The happiest recent event was: I have managed to do some exercise every morning while laughing my face off at a show called ' Planet Cook ' XD 'and a spoonful of imagination, lets get cooking!' 'is that a yes to the yeti?' XD

If I were a character on Family Guy (or insert other TV Show) I would be: Can I be a guy? Lawl....if female..theres like nothing to choose from...XD uhhh... well maybe Rachel from neighbours from the drama she is in, cause I support her and I was crying when she said 'it smells like you' DD: So like...just the part where she is in love with Mr Henderson. Love has no age limits bitches. I will debate this with youuuu..

By this time next year: I'll be writing another one of these journals.

My current gripe is: things.

I have a hard time understanding: math..lawl

If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be: My mum...friends..sister...dA...family.

I want to buy: Cd's, skinny leg jeans, bathers, pocky, starbucks (we dont have them in perth..in every... ]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/16574060/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/16574060/ Fri, 25 Jan 2008 22:35:36 PST
DeviantArt to me...is like an open journal. I can explore thoughts, feelings, the world and have people explore with me. Friends on dA slip inside my mind and experience a part of the twisting ride of thoughts.

Recently though, I have beaten my gallery from 118+ deviations to 74. And I'm sorry to it because I deleted alot of my favourite writings, expressions, comments and faves and I wish them all back. (albeit, alot of it was not the most artistic veiw however it let me express myself and veiw others opinions.). My scraps, will also go through this and I will edit my signature and have deleted all but 5 journals.

Why?

To put it simply in a elongated way. Would you let someone else know things that they could use to hurt you? Would you show this to people you don't know and don't know if you can trust them?

DeviantArt is one of those places where I unwind and fall free. One of the places where I can talk to friends and explore their work. It is also, one of the places I didnt think people from my school would visit.

I merely do not think they would visit this place because...I did not percieve it to happen...Because I do not know them and they do not know me. Perhaps that was my short coming.

At school, I try not to be noticed...I try to be the nice person who is in the background. Because I do absolutely crap with physical pain and emotional pain. I just stop what I'm doing and think about it. I do not keep on going until I have found a solution as I tremble.

I havent suceeded in this so well.

DeviantArt has alot of what I feel on it and most people at school would not approve. True, why should I think they'd care or worry or talk about me...because I am merely being cautious and very paranoid.

On the internet, where I know people that I dont have to deal with in life whom I do not know or trust, I will proudly state who I am and what I feel like.

However sexuality is not an entirely open thing at school. They use 'gay' 'faggot' and such as jokes to people who are not, to tease. And I would be fine, that is their opinion, I could deal with that in class. However, I have sport and outdoor ed this year. This means change rooms.

And for some blasted reason, whenever someone is found out to be gay or lesbian or bi they immediately think the person is either 'checking them out' or 'hitting on them'. Perhaps not all, but...I've seen so many people do it, it just isnt funny.

Apart from the fact that I'm not interested in perving on other people...

Apart from the fact I change in a shower stall....

Why the bloody hell would I do that!?

To me, it's school. That means, I want to learn something. I want to get educated in science, s+e, english, media etc.
I don't..no..I just don't. Outside of school, thats different.
In school, I want to learn something about history, chemicals, media programs etc.


And I want to change my deviant account and then wonder how they found this one in this first place. So I don't know...
And I'm probably over reacting, I have friends who will help me cause they know I'm bi and I'm weird and that funky jazz.

I just dont want to deal with change rooms. And I want to be myself on deviant. But I don't think I can.

And I know, I'm not the only one who is, there probably are some in their groups, and it will be 'cool' for them or some crap like that.



And this is all pathetic D::

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*raises hand slowly*

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So..I will delete it and alot of other journals.

Is there a conclusion, something in the box, did I break the lock?

No...breaking off from internet was good. But then a little..worry came and my mother caught me upset and then I felt good after her words and I've changed since that time. I then visited a church, because a friend said it would be good. So I went, felt very good and so happy. My father didnt really approve saying it was all 'trained' 'american offspring' from that point I refused to talk about it. It's not like I will just go preaching on everyone.
So went back to a dull lull of thought.


Pokemon Pearl is going well. I now own a leafeon, a very cute pokemon...also own a houndoom thanks to Rossi
And my sister got a ds and she's geting pokemon diamond or pearl and then I will battle her ( gently XD ) with my huge penguin. Or the sort of electric cat.





The next journal will be a blank so no point in really looking.

]]> ~ForbiddenFears http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/16296131/ http://ForbiddenFears.deviantart.com/journal/16296131/ Mon, 07 Jan 2008 05:13:00 PST Aylian Isnt that a cool icon? XD Moving on...

The first deviation that would attract my following of her unique works was a pecil work of the brokeback mountain poster pose with severus and remus. Already, one can see the unique work, that you wont find anywhere else.
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She also has quite an intresting sense of humour, when she started putting up drawings of her two cats, Miles & Thissy. Using their odd habits, such as collecting dimes (which I refuse to believe a cat does XD) and technicolour, it balances to a cute deviation, especially when Bean comes along. Such a cute name XD Beaannnnn :3
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Most of her gallery though, consists of HP fanart, drawing in the incredibly difficult expressions of severus snape, I must applaud her, because she made it work I can't really choose another favourite from there, cause there are far too many which I insist you check out.
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Her calm and easy going nature is a mind you must get to know


2. Josie-mouse Naww :3
I just have to say, Josie, your leavers photo is so adorable *squee* I wanna nuzzle chuu :3 rawr. [link]

Josie does alot of written work, alot of deep and ambiguous words are used as she gains more confidence in herself (you know your good at it :score!: ) All of her poetry is different, setting no trends or things to be expected. So it's difficult to choose a few faves as they all hold something to me. In every piece I've found something to relate to, something totally different from mainstream, something that really shows the writer's skills and thoughts. Keep that ink flowing
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3. RoushFan Brandon, can I use your name? Too late now >:3

The sketches he does is just absolutely amazing, making it a really realistic tonal work. I've watched him working on sketch for a gift (via webcam..dont asky why XD) and just to see it all come to together is quite something. I want to link more than 3 but I'll leave up to you to browse his gallery.
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If you enlarge, take a time to look at the details.

He also does paintings, (what dont you do Brandon? XD), with colour, most actually look like a photo...but there not..I dont think...XD It's hard to describe his style, so just go take a look okay?
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4. damnedlostsoul I havent gone through all your gallery I dont think...D:

Uhh..I never got around to finding out your name.. (It's Rob! XD)
Well what I do know is that you run a weekly collab, called the conspiracy of mount olympus, inviting other people to join in on the weekly theme. longing, infinity, seven, balloons Were some of the themes which you dont really expect one on balloons..much..so..here it is XD
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I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

Repost this if you believe homophobia is wrong.

Found here: [link]

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