http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:ForgottenPhantom&section=today deviantART RSS for by:ForgottenPhantom en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Thu, 26 Nov 2009 21:16:42 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/27874977/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/27874977/ Tue, 20 Oct 2009 16:06:59 PDT and this time i don't want to talk to anyone. ever again.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/27786425/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/27786425/ Thu, 15 Oct 2009 18:52:44 PDT i almost did! heeeeeeh.
i haven't been on in a while i've been really super stressed out because college is coming up and i have to do papers and essays and scholarship stuff and drawings and the truth is, i'm not doing any of it! i'm just looking at it waiting for it to do itself...not like that.
but seriously. i'm stressed and nothing is coming out right.
and guess what that makes me. more stressed.
and every time i look at my stupid icon i get really pissed off that the billie jean michael jackson is squashed. like seriously, do i have to do it all over again to make my a.d.d. self feel more secure?
whatever.
i have 244 DEVIANTIONS and 205 MESSAGES,
so if i haven't replied, or thanked you yet, hold tight.
actually, i'm kinda waiting for my mouse.
so i like totally tripped on the cord and ripped it out of socket. so yeah. i need a new one. thank yous are so much easier with a mouse.
dang.
i feel like my journal entries are all real boring, but i have to say i'm pretty proud of my deviantart site.
it's been with me through a lot and it's kind of amazing.

the thing is, maybe something has been going on in my life, and maybe something is wrong. maybe i just don't feel like talking about it because i've kept my mouth shut for a few years. and why would i want to open it back up.

well.
i really can't wait until winter.
tis the best season.
goodnight.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/27638366/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/27638366/ Wed, 07 Oct 2009 17:45:27 PDT

i know i haven't been on a lot.

THANKS SOOOO MUCH FOR 20,000 PAGEVIEWS.

_{i love ya guys.}

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/27178786/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/27178786/ Sat, 12 Sep 2009 20:51:46 PDT and the fact that we can never be, like, 100 percent happy. we always have to find SOMETHING wrong. like...oh yeah, that's cool, but THIS is way not cool, and that minuses out what would originally be 100 percent cool. you know?

i don't know. it doesn't seem fair that God would punish all the Eves in this world and make us all oversensitive and fall in love with boys and need to be protected, while all the Adams don't give a crap about anything and are all layed back and like yahhh whatevahhss. well whatev. idk. it just doesn't make sense. and like, we have to make babies and all they have to do is till gardens? and no one has a garden anymore cause there are so many grocery stores. and if that's supposed to be a stupid metaphor like, some women are the ones that make the money in the relationship. like, wtf. guys have it so easy.

i wish i was a guy,

cause if i wasn't a girl,
like right now i'd be 100 percent happy.

p.s. christmas present-me-20,000 pageviews-thank you :]

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26985308/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26985308/ Wed, 02 Sep 2009 19:52:56 PDT in honor of michael being buried.

sept. third - he will finally rest in peace. <3

[link]

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26940930/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26940930/ Mon, 31 Aug 2009 16:34:26 PDT WOW, August!! <: I'm blown away by the watchers this month. i love you all! individually! <:

http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26884386/ Fri, 28 Aug 2009 20:59:48 PDT - so i'm going to do stuff for you...

...like randomly selecting michael jackson songs and rating them from best to better :

18. It's The Falling In Love
17. Human Nature
16. 2,000 Watts

15. Heartbreaker
14. Smooth Criminal
13. She's Out Of My Life
12. They Don't Care About Us
11. Cry

10. Keep The Faith
09. Who Is It
08. P.Y.T. (Pretty Young Thing)
07. Scream
06. Will You Be There

05. Thriller
04. Black Or White
03. You Rock My World
02. Billie Jean
01. Wazupwicu


(In case you didn't get it, the number one is a joke. But, well. Kinda not. You love it.)

...and telling you some michael jackson quotes :

“In a world filled with hate, we must still dare to hope. In a world filled with anger, we must still dare to comfort. In a world filled with despair, we must still dare to dream. And in a world filled with distrust, we must still dare to believe.”

“The greatest education in the world is watching the masters at work.”

“Lies run sprints, but the truth runs marathons. The truth will win this marathon in court.”

“I am bewildered at the length to which people will go to portray me so negatively,”

“There's a Mother's Day and there's a Father's Day, but there's no Children's Day. It would mean a lot. World peace.”

“Let us dream of tomorrow where we can truly love from the soul, and know love as the ultimate truth at the heart of all creation.”

“And the dream we were conceived in will reveal a joyful face... and the world we once believed in will shine again in grace. Then why do we keep strangling life wound this Earth, crucify its soul. Though it's plain to see, this world is heavenly. We could be God's glow... Heal the world.”

“If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with.”

_{...and showing you some good michael jackson youtube moments :}

like, here is michael jackson rehearsing for we are the world :

[link]

and eddie murphy giving michael and award :

[link]

and (probably the best one) michael and emmanuel luis dancing :

[link]

and a crazy fan crawling up a levitated object during one of michael's concerts. i can't explain it but it's crazy. and fun to watch :

[link]

and some cute and funny moments :

[link]

and possibly the funniest and coolest video ever :

[link]

and young michael jackson singing my girl :

[link]

and the thriller dance part, learn it :

[link]

and a young michael interview :

[link]

and a great michael jackson commercial for pepsi, of him younger and older singing 'i'll be there'...they could've done better with the younger voice, though. still, so sad! and slightly amazing :

[link]

and michael jackson on the dating show :

[link]

and all the private movies are good, start with the first :

[link]

and all the funny stuff is good, start with th... ]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26882829/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26882829/ Fri, 28 Aug 2009 19:32:09 PDT I MADE THIS MICHAEL JACKSON CHAT ROOM FOR MICHAEL FANS TO GET ON TOMORROW. SERIOUSLY, ALL DA MJ FANS NEED TO CHAT TOMORROW IN RECOGNITION OF MJ'S BIRTHDAY!

[link]

PLEASE. LET'S CELEBRATE ALL DAY TOGETHER WITH THE FRIENDS WE'VE MADE ON HERE!

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26818297/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26818297/ Tue, 25 Aug 2009 14:17:59 PDT two months......rusty says it best though. [link]

let's talk about tribute stuff.
here's the songs i found:
*cry out of joy - akon
*better on the other side - chris brown + other people
*billie jean is waiting for you - henry gorman
*where you are - the game

anyone find any other songs?
how about art books?
how about anything else?

i know they're making a tribute cd,
and his birthday is saturday, lots of shows should be on,
and his movies coming out.

any more events i'm missing?

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26807940/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26807940/ Mon, 24 Aug 2009 23:38:17 PDT YOU! i'm serious. give me some things i could do on my last day of summer...some fun things. i don't want to waste it.

even though, i kinda have to waste some of it.

i'm going to the dentist.
can you believe that?


last day of summer.



i hate my life.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26678695/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26678695/ Tue, 18 Aug 2009 19:00:57 PDT YOU NEED TO APPRECIATE PEOPLE WHEN THEY'RE ALIVE. BECAUSE THEY AREN'T ALWAYS GONNA BE.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26657405/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26657405/ Mon, 17 Aug 2009 19:06:37 PDT i don't know what's wrong
but every time i pick up a pencil these days, something is terribly wrong!!!

everything i've done seems to suck really bad. i started a thriller picture. SUCK. i started a bad picture. SUCK. i started an in plaid picture. SUCK.

i don't know what the freak is going on. i think it's like this:

i always draw in sections. three weeks i'll draw. three weeks i'll take a break. three weeks i'll start to draw again.

but this time, i don't WANT to quit drawing!!! i love to draw, i want to break this habit, drawing is all i can do!! i really want to keep drawing. michael jackson is the best and i want to appreciate him through my art. i've seen people's mj art on here that's AMAZING. i wanna be as good as that. but i can't if i don't practice. my hands won't let me, though! they're saying, 'this is more than three weeks i won't draw anymore!'

it sucks.

i'm taking tomorrow off, i told my mom DON'T LET ME DRAW TOMORROW! so we're gonna dance all day.

then HOPEFULLY by wednesday i'll be back to drawing good again...cause i don't want to wait. i want to continue!

ugh.

life.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26647612/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26647612/ Mon, 17 Aug 2009 10:40:43 PDT Well Ive been tagged by
so here we go:

Rules:
1) Copy and paste all of these questions into your journal and answer all of the questions.
2) Tag at least 4 other people
3) NO Tag-backs!

Personal Questions

My Name?
N.A.

My Nickname?
michael jackson's wife

DeviantArt name?
Leah Rose

Country?
NA

Gender?
girl

Favorites

Favorite Color?
gray

Favorite Food?
panara bread

Favorite TV Program?
so you think you can dance/the oc/ugly betty/degrassi/pushing daisies/project runway

Favorite TV Channel?
abc, the n

Favorite Book?
my sister's keeper..jodi picoult

Favorite Moment?
motown 25

Favorite Song?
"will you be there" michael jackson - me and dane's theme song :] <3

Versus

Dark or White Chocolate?
dark

Sour, sweet, or spicy?
sweet

Desktop or Laptop?
laptop [i guess]

Ice cream or cake?
ice cream

Cartoons or Anime?
CARTOONS!!

Wii or Dsi?
wii

Sega or Nintendo?
nintendo :]

Rock or Pop?
POPPP!! :]

Finally last question

My favorite Deviation?
"The Legend of Michael Jackson"

Now I tag:

1)
2)
3)
4)


P.S. MORE PEOPLE SHOULD TAG ME ON STUFF! :]

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26638013/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26638013/ Sun, 16 Aug 2009 21:08:58 PDT i wanna stay at home with my mommy,

laughing and messing up,

while trying to learn intimate michael jackson moves.

why isn't that a career choice, anyway?

i wanna stay at home with my mommy,

she takes me to walmart and turns the song when human nature plays cause she hates that song.

i wanna stay at home with my mommy.

i have the best mommy.

i don't wanna go to college

i wanna stay at home with my daddy,

watching him do the michael jackson crotch move,

and laughing because he pins it.

i wanna stay at home with my daddy,

because he buys me ice cream when i'm sad,

and always bothers me.

but that's okay.

i have the best daddy.

i don't wanna go to college

i won't be able to moonwalk at college.

what kind of a world is that?

i won't be able to see my parents at college.

i hate college.

don't make me go.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26607052/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26607052/ Sat, 15 Aug 2009 10:34:26 PDT i hate the scene in seventeen again when that stupid girl cries.

she gets worst actress in the world award. ugh.

but when mike and scarlet say "landscape design" in the beginning. they're so good at saying landscape design.

in a different note on the same note, the climax in that movie is the best. zac does so good in the crying thing. i always feel that. he needs to do more serious roles. the no words on the paper thing...genius.


landscape design.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26593069/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26593069/ Fri, 14 Aug 2009 15:49:28 PDT
"this is it" tour in theatres october 30.


i'm gon' cry.


_{"This film is not only a tribute to an artist who created excitement every moment he was on stage, but also is a fitting gift to the millions of fans worldwide who loved him and who he devoted his professional life to entertaining. John and I are thrilled to be working with Sony to build on Michael's musical legacy in a way that will generate significant proceeds for his family and for children in need." -McClain}

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26556884/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26556884/ Wed, 12 Aug 2009 20:33:07 PDT and no one can reach me.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26515795/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26515795/ Mon, 10 Aug 2009 21:52:44 PDT + four shirts
+ jackson 5 - greatest hits
+ off the wall
+ thriller
+ michael jackson - number ones
+ dangerous
+ invincible
+ seven drawings
+ military jacket
+ fourteen dollars for the heal the world foundation
+ TIME - The Special Commemorative Edition"
+ Michael Jackson - The Magic, The Madness, The Whole Story
+ two posters
+ thriller jacket
+ tons of inspiration & will to go on
+ two bracelets

and i don't even have money.

>> wow, michael jackson is my hero like...above and beyond. the more i know about him, the more i love him. i feel bad for people that aren't obsessed with him. i really do. what an amazing human being! i just can't draw anything else anymore. i'm almost finished with another picture. i just did it as a sort of break and experiment. but for that, it's not too bad.

>> it's someone's birthday today.

>> my mom thinks i'm black.

>> people can't help it if they're gay.

>> they're really milking the hannah montana two guys thing.

>> what is your favorite lyric from michael jackson?

>> school starts pretty soon.
who cares?
i told off someone that liked me yesterday,
and i don't want to see them.
not really.
i can be harsh.

>> doctor tomorrow for all that after surgery stuff!! then more michael jackson stuff all day. i'm thinking painting! :]

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26486420/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26486420/ Sun, 09 Aug 2009 15:00:25 PDT when there's a degrassi marathon on?

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26447601/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26447601/ Fri, 07 Aug 2009 15:15:08 PDT it's sort of great and slightly hyperventilating when you have a friend like:

i love you sophikemoo :]



thinking of drawing rihanna...any opinions?

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26377936/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26377936/ Tue, 04 Aug 2009 10:32:15 PDT it's really sad and slightly pathetic when the best dream you've ever had is the dream where you're ex best friend gives you a small note answering yours saying only that him and his girlfriend are fine, and you're just happy because he actually said...well, wrote something to you.

the best dream you've ever had?

well that just must be a really pathetic feeling.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26306992/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26306992/ Fri, 31 Jul 2009 21:09:44 PDT he's lonely tonight
and his friends are outside
but hes stuck in the house
and to him it's alright

he's watiting for someone
to come set him free
and when he looks out the window
let it be me

he found his files
with me on the disc
he got his pencil
and marked my name off the list

he's waiting for someone
to give him a sign
to give me a choice
to accept or decline

but he wont sign his name
because he wants to be
with somebody else and
let it be me

im waiting for a call
or a text or a line
to say he's been waiting
for me all this time

and it's killing me waiting
but i'll do my best
let it be me
and you can decide the rest

but if there was one
who was out there tonight
with one single star
and hope shining bright

and it lets me decide
to forget about someone
let it be me
and let it be him

if you are a big michael jackson fan and haven't watched the interview with oprah in 1993, then you have to watch it. it's great and hilarious. start here. [link]

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26264264/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26264264/ Wed, 29 Jul 2009 21:02:35 PDT if i were somebody else?

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26177824/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26177824/ Sat, 25 Jul 2009 19:57:49 PDT i freaking love degrassi.

seriously.

degrassi michael jackson and jesus christ have been the only things keeping me alive this summer.

i just love degrassi.

seriously.

i love the way they say soary when they're apologizing and the way they have humungous climaxes in thirty minutes so that you're never bored. they always keep me entertained; i've watched them at night all summer, and every friday when the new ones come on.

i used to not like it so much and think it was lame but these new characters rock at acting and the plot lines are crazy, too. i just love it all; it inspires me to write. it's like sometimes you can predict what's gonna happen and it's that but like 14 times more awesomer.

one of the best characters is the hott blonde one. he's adorably blunt. i'm too lazy to memorize names.

i just watched this one part where this guy said the word gay and the gay guy beat the snitch out of him! oh my gosh. i love this show.

here's a funny quote from it: oh, love. enjoy it when you're young and beautiful.

in other news, i had a great time with my bff nick today :] he's freaking awesome.

and today is one month. :[

also, i got really excited yesterday for something that's not going to happen tomorrow. so i think i should just not set myself up and never get excited because every time i do, i get let down, but every time i don't i get surprised!

pleaseeeeee share my stuff with your friends and enemies!! i would loveeee 20,000 pageviews soooooon. :]

here's a quote from our favorite guy:

they told me a man should be faithful...and walk when not able...and fight to the end, but i'm only human.

love you guys<3

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26096013/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26096013/ Tue, 21 Jul 2009 20:39:29 PDT


http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/26073228/ Mon, 20 Jul 2009 19:10:46 PDT REVIEWS

<sub>hancock

this was a well composed movie with creative twists and an entertaining plot line. everything from the script to the characters is more than exciting!! i really enjoyed watching this character grow and find himself. a very entertaining movie. i never expected any of the twists or turns. the writer captured you and made you think you were smart for thinking you knew what direction it was going in, then ripped the knowledge from right under you. it was actually quite brilliant to go through. will smith is an amazing person and actor; a great all in all.

harry potter and the half blood prince

a good movie for harry potter. all of the three main actors took bigger steps in their acting career; dan actually came through for us on the felix felicis, ron (as always) on the love potion and laughs, and hermione with the whole love deal. i really enjoyed this film. the love part of it made for more of a relaxed audience for the harry potter films and took a much needed break from the dark magic. the films almost lose their magic as they progress, but this movie didn't stray too far from the book and was time managed almost perfectly.

my sister's keeper

i saw this preview and immediately bought the book. the book was excellent; a must read. the movie, however, could be easily passed up. this movie did not follow the book and though i usually enjoy movies made from books and am fairly open to things, i felt like this movie would've been alright, been though it strayed form the book, but it was very poorly made. i did enjoy a few parts; the dad taking the girl to the beach, the scrapbook, the boyfriend (kind of), the light humor, the sister moments. i did enjoy the little girl that played anna more than i thought i would. and cameron diaz more than succeeded at playing the mother role. she went above and beyond in her acting, making it almost alright to watch. i would never watch it again. the music subtracted a lot, though the new ending wasn't so bad, after all. i like the fact you can pick which one you like better. i like that a lot.</sub>

NEWS

<sub>chris brown?

devynee said chris brown gave an apology? i watched it. i have two sides. i mean, on one hand it looked like he was reading everything. anyone can put on a sad face and read stuff to a video screen. most singers are good at acting too, right? shouldn't we have heard an apology far before this? i mean, yeah he was told to hush about it, but five months is a long time to shut up when you're remorseful. on the other hand, i mean he probably did need to write it down to read it because he'd be blubbering and mess up if he didn't. i probably would've done that, too, he just wanted to get the point across. also, it's somewhat none of our business. if he apologizes to rihanna, then that's between them and the public shouldn't have to get to see all the juicy details of what went down, but still, since the fans and public have seen what happened, the abusing and all that, i feel like we should be a little in the business because we have a right to be apologized too, also. i am so split on this. but in reality, people makes mistakes. he's not the first guy that's done this. he's always in the spotlight, and no one knows except for him what he's going through. we all go through breaking points, right? his was bad; really bad, but we don't know what we would've done in his situation because we don't know what he was going through. what he did was inexcusable, but let's face it. his career is basically over. if he gets popular, it will be an almost sad miracle, he had the best times already and he's still young. he's got to be feeling that. my prayers go out to him and his family, and also rihanna and hers. rihanna did NOT deserve that, she's a wonderful girl. still, none of us know every detail of what went down between them, but whatever went down went a little too far. i'm just going to keep them in my prayers and shut up.</sub>

>>>chris brown's video apology: [link] <<<

MICHAEL JACKSON

_{i love michael jackson so much, it's not even freaking funny. don't push me.}

P.S.

_{i freaking love my mom and dad and best friend devynee so much, it's not even funny. i thought i would be sad hanging out with devynee again, cause everything in my life started getting more sad at one point, but let me tell you, we're still the same people. she's like my sister. no, she is my sister. i just love her so much words can't describe how much she means to me. she's always there for me. and we talked about michael jackson all night and she laughs and listens to what... ]]>} ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/25998685/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/25998685/ Fri, 17 Jul 2009 03:17:51 PDT because isn't that what it's called when it's 5:30 and you haven't been to sleep yet?
i have just been lying in bed.
well, not the whole night, i guess. i did go in the movie room and watch bolt at around 12...
i don't know, maybe i just don't like animals or something because i just wasn't that fond of that movie.
it was like they were trying to hard to make it funny.
i don't know, maybe it wasn't my thing.
i really wish there is something to do when i can't sleep.
my feet are killing me.
i'm going to a mall today, i'm so excited!
i am having trouble thinking of things to write.
i really have to pee.
sometimes i find myself daydreaming of getting stuff for back to school.
i just love shopping for back to school stuff, it's one of my favorite things in the world, getting all my folders and outfits ready and my room clean.
i love that part.
but then school actually starts, i hate that.
but you know, it can't be that bad this year, you know? at least i don't think.
i mean, school can't be that bad if you get to see your friends everyday.
i have been so depressed-ish lately.
i feel like i have cabin fever, or something.
cause isn't that when you feel like you're locked up and can't get out and are getting driven crazy?
i bet there's a scary movie for that somewhere.
i can't wait to go to college.
which is sad, because i sort of just realized my two best friends from school and i won't really be seeing each other at all once high school ends.
we don't really keep in touch at summer, and isn't going to college, so i won't really see her until i come home on weekends, and maybe not all the time then because i want to spend time with my family and mostly i'll be coming home for church and to be with my parents and she'll probably be doing something when i have a chance to come home.
and is going to be going to a close college, and i probably won't get to see her either because she's always busy with her job and all her church stuff/friends.
the only person i'll be seeing everyday is my best friend which is good because we don't get to see each other hardly at all ever!! i am really excited to be in the same college as her because it'll be like gsa every day, and those were the best/worst/mostly best days of my life. sometimes i get so excited to think that we will be hanging out and seeing each other every day and doing our art together in fencil's room. i'm really excited to share that with her again. i remember going in her room in all hours of the morning and meeting her for breakfast and walking with her around campus, and just laughing with her. we had so much fun together at gsa, and i think college will be the same. we will both have so much fun together, and she inspires me to be a better artist slash person, i can't wait to see her everyday.
but still, it'll be like i'm moving on.
like, this is my last year for sameness. i will never see and every day for weeks and months at a time ever after this, the truth is i will probably hardly spend as much time with them again, ever.
maybe we'll catch up sometimes and we'll definitely probably say we will, but we said we'd keep in touch and hang out this summer, maybe i just feel cut off from everything, i feel like every one is too busy for me. every one has a job or is doing something with their summer, and i'm stuck at home. well, calls me, but i feel like everyone else is distant.
i don't know.
senior year.
it's kind of scary and exciting at the same time. i have to enjoy it, it's my last year of high school. i just hope that doesn't mean my last year of having my two best friends from high school.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/25847689/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/25847689/ Thu, 09 Jul 2009 20:29:35 PDT thank god michael jackson existed.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/25442977/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/25442977/ Sat, 20 Jun 2009 21:33:41 PDT tell me you love me and leave me again
its just a bonus that nobody wins

cause the funnest part is always the chase
but you need to back up and give me more space


\\turn the light off i dont feel sorry for oyu
ilove rachel shes the best ever! shes way cooler than you.

anyway- im dawing an awesome pic of me and my bf stephen.
you guys are gonna love it

==

moods wont load which is why im always amood-u..sed

wait, that was supposed to be funny.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/25383781/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/25383781/ Wed, 17 Jun 2009 22:48:59 PDT -round one
you never said two words.
just pinkies crossed,
and a thousand absurds.
we never thought we'd
make it this far
without loving each other,
but loving's so hard.

-round two
i think you made me wanna quit.
with a thousand maybes,
and never any yeses.
i kept on fighting cause i knew i'd win.
but you kept on making a mess out of this.

so it's been three years...
and we're not over it. oh.

[how can you say you want to start
right now.

in a text message, i feel like i could cry.

and how will you know
what im thinking about

when you cant even look me in the eye]

-round three
i told you what i felt.
disc crash; my player starts to melt.
i need to restart this game if i ever
wanna make it through this part again.

-round four
you say you know what i mean,
but you dont feel it;
you dont wanna be mean.
i keep on telling myself,
it'll be better after you do.

but its been three years,
and you're not into it, so...

[how can you say you want to start
right now?

in a text message, i feel like i could cry.

and how will you know
what im thinking about

when you cant even look me in the eye]

..

now youre saying :
"it's now or it's never"
not letting me pause to see what sounded better.
it's hard to think about which one's better for me,
basically.
im all out of words that should be said.
i think the routine was controlled better in our heads.

i scored the goals without making a sound.
i feel ilike i made you lose (me in) this round.

i waited here with sweaters and with tears,
to hear that you need me after these three long years,
i waited so long for not even a kiss,
to hear you tell me that you love me like this?

i braved the cold and i tried not to cry,
i told you everything i was feeling inside,
and i tried to hide when you told me the truth,
you needed me but i was fine without you.

these games we play
have got to stop.
in a text message,
you put me on the spot.
is this a joke to you
and am i just pretend?
i will text you i'm sorry
and is that how we'll end?

these games we play are tearing us apart.
in a text message, you broke my weakened heart.
i am so tired of trying this hard.
i think we'd win this game if we just stayed apart.



i'm confused and need a friend.
but no one is here to talk to.
not even anyone.

this makes me terribly upset.

i won't get to sleep tonight.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/25381186/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/25381186/ Wed, 17 Jun 2009 19:52:41 PDT was a day i need to never forget.

i have been listening to
relient k
for
like
ever.
i can't stop.
i just
bought their new
cd.

it's pretty much
the best.

i feel like writing for a boy
but he doesn't
want me
to write for him i don't
think.

i am going to have
a slumber party
tomorrow with my two best
friends
and
maybe three best friends
and then
we're all going to
that
amusement park.

that is gonna be a lot of
fun.

i'm going to go get my cell phone.

i just got my cell phone.

and kenny
texted it.
and i just ruined all chances of
being coy
by telling him
i loved him.

oh well it's all good and fun
in the name of love.

that kid
makes my day sometimes.

in a good
way.

wish he was going
to
that amusement park.

wow hes a fast texter.
just texted back.

haha i just made up a nickname for rachel it's
hottbob sexypants.

haha.

my journals never
makeany sense any
more ever.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/25250428/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/25250428/ Thu, 11 Jun 2009 15:47:09 PDT oh yes i di-id!

that is my boyfriend stephenjerzak as my icon.

art show april 12, '09. (:

--

sooo, it's 6:45, and i'm gonna go listen to me some jerzak and hit the sheets, i'm pretty tired from staying up until fourrrr yesterday and writing stuff that was pretty lame..

i'm working on a new picture called "panera bread mornings" :]

pretty bummed i won't be here when jerzak releases his three new songs, but i've learned to deal. i'm gonna have a lot of fun at ichthus and will talk all about it later.

now i have about seven hours in the car to work on this picture; 14 in total.

so...i'm pretty sure it will get done. :]

keepintouch<33

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/25244037/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/25244037/ Wed, 10 Jun 2009 20:52:58 PDT is it me or is it the both of us
i don't know which one to trust
i've been contemplating life
and telling you all about it
now our two hour long conversations
sometimes get too crowded

stay up late with me one more time
talking about things we both like
i could ask you anything about anyone
and you'd know
cause you've been worshiping false gods again
so much that you may never get the chance to grow

well you never wrote me back or wanted to talk about all that
well i let you leave this place for days and days and asked
hows your hopes and dreams working out for you and me
and you smiled through all white teeth and you said to me
i don't believe

cause i spent all my downer time
always wishing you were mine
and now i know you and you're the same as who
i've loved my entire life
except you're worse
cause you lost all the ones you hurt

stay up late with me one more time
talking about things we both despise
i could ask you anything about anyone
and you'd know
cause you've been spending all your time
worshiping those lines inside those songs
you never had the guts to write

cause you spent all your downer time
thinking these things were never right
and now i know you are just the same as everyone else
who never really had a clue what to do and
i think you're worse
cause you loved all the ones who weren't worth it
and you lost all the ones you hurt.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/25224299/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/25224299/ Tue, 09 Jun 2009 19:43:41 PDT i am all art-ed out,
and it hasn't even been much after a week since school got out
or whatever
and i have been drawing all day
and i am almost done with hot air balloon but im not yet,
although the time did go fast while i was doing it,
it was fairly easy to paint.

ummmm.
i have been staying up every night until three in the morning lately,
but today i went on my mom's computer and downloaded great music
that should be but isnt on itunes
so maybe i will lay in bed and

a) listen to music

or

b) read spud

or

c) write fishyum

or

d) all of them because i still probably won't get to sleep until three.

i got herbs today so maybe i will stop being so depressed and wishy washy.

anyways, i thought i would update and tell you some stuff,
but i think that's all
cause chad is talking my ear off and i can't really concentrate on what i'm saying anyway.

peace.love.truth.jerzak.

holy crap, i'm an animal.

don't forget, no updates until april 12, 2010 because that's when my art show is gonna be!!! but keep in touch<3

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/25187326/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/25187326/ Sun, 07 Jun 2009 20:46:00 PDT sooo...this site is going to be a little boring for a while...
like, a long while!!!
i am not going to be updating anything new (that's any good) until april 12th 2010.
that's right april 12, 2010.
i'll say it again just for spite.
april 12, 2010.
now, this is because i'm having an art show that day and refuse to show ANYONE what i'm working on until then.
i want it to be a big surprise for the people i love! (:
sooo yeah, no updates until april 12, 2010.
but i'll still be on here, checking messages and talking to everyone.
and you'll have a butload of stuff that week.
sooo just get excited for that(:

and i nevershoutnever!!! so maybe i'll post another pic or two from here and there.
just not everything.


okay, loveyins(:

oh and don't forget!!!!!! april 12, 2010.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/24986640/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/24986640/ Wed, 27 May 2009 19:37:32 PDT
their party lives are nothing new,
im at home with nothing to do,
and what makes me so different than you
you had the life i wanted too

you said dont do it, you won't be the same!
i swallowed the drink that spelled out your name
i pointed at you but im probably to blame
i looked at myself and now we look the same

you looked at me at the lake that night
and screamed in my ears till the stars turned to light:

their time has come but ours is coming!

you tried to stop me but i kept running!
im out of breath but im still trying!
you told me no, but i know you're lying!

i hold your hand and start to smile
you said you love me and i feel like a child
i see this reflection; it's driving me wild!
and you asked me if it could stay for a while.

i wanted to be you so i let you in
but you weren't what i thought so i tried to pretend
i stood in the rain and looked at you as you grinned
you told me so but i'll never give in!

this party life is for people with balls,
but i think it's braver to not go at all
i held out my hand but you left me for her
i'd rather be home with the life i had before!

their time has come but ours is coming!
you tried to stop me but i kept running!
im out of breath but im still trying!
you told me no, but i know you're lying!

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/24968179/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/24968179/ Tue, 26 May 2009 19:23:57 PDT there are only 10 days until summer, and im really excited about that.

im going to make my second booklist on here so i can copy it from my other computer:

[] "High School Confidential" Jeremy Iversen

[] "Spud" John Van De Ruit

[] "Local Girls" Jenny O'Connell

[] "Better Than Running at Night" Hillary Frank

[] "Impulse" Ellen Hopkins

[] "STSTTH" Saul Williams

[x] "Inexcusable" Chris Lynch

[] "Go Ask Alice" Anonymous

[] "The Pigman" Paul Zindel

[] "The Boyfriend List" E. Lockhart

[] "Mercy" Jodi Picoult

[] "My Sister's Keeper" Jodi Picoult

[] "This is What I Did:" Ann Dee Ellis

[] "In The Break" Jack Lopez

[] "In The Eye of the Storm" Max Lucado

[] "Stop Walking On Eggshells" Paul T. Mason and Randi Kreger

[] "Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone" J. K. Rowling

[] "Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets" J. K. Rowling

[] "Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban" J. K. Rowling

[] "Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire" J. K. Rowling

[] "Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix" J. K. Rowling

[] "Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince" J. K. Rowling

[] "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows" J. K. Rowling

[] "An Abundance of Katherines" John Green

[] "Firestorm" David Klass

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/24792880/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/24792880/ Sat, 16 May 2009 19:18:54 PDT i freaking hate that little six year old selena gomez. she thinks she is sooo coooool because she is going to duet with forever the sickest kids, but you know what? shes not that cool. not that cool at all! she could never actually be as good as they are! she sucks at singing, her voice is dumb and sounds like a two year old and shes all 'tell me something i dont know' okay ill tell you something you dont know, stupid. YOU SUCK AT SINGING so please stop!! she cant even act good. she plays in that stupid another cinderella story. people only like it because they are so desperate for anything good that they'll take whatever they can get even though its lammeee. like, um seriously, wasnt that movie ALREADY MADE!?!! no but omg its soooo cool now cause selena is in it and she is a big girl and cusses in it! oh that makes you so cool selena gomez!! you can cuss, whoopie. well the hilary duff one was way bettter, i cant believe they didnt sue them for PLAGARISMMM!!

shes all in that wizards show like omg im a mean disney character im bad blah blah, well nick jonas dumped your sorry face cause its UGLY and youre a SKANK! she is so cheap she only wishes that she could be as awesome as miley cyrus so she dated nick jonas but then he realized he was mistaken - she probably cast one of her stupid spells on him to get him to like her anyway cause she is WAYYYY to nasty for nick jonas!!

omg it pisses me off shes like 'omg me and my BFFFFF demi lovato. omg yeah we're so cool cause we played in barney' its like HELLOOOO .. she thinks she invented the term BFF and is all omg i get to play the cool girl on princess protection program. okay goatmez, youre not as cool as you think you are. and in teen vogue she says shes all mysterious and dark. yeah? well then go mysteriously fall off the face of the planet. OMG she is so annoying, i hate her. and shes not even pretty, she has a chubby fat face and looks like she just enrolled in sixth grade.

whats wrong with the world that they like her so much! they must be desperate to like someone cause she is LAME. there are so many more talented people in this world to like and everyone picks the dumbest one who couldnt act if her stupid jacob black boyfriend depended on it. wake up world!! selena gomez needs to go back to where ever she came from ! she needs to use her money for good and get a ticket back home so we never have to see her ugly face ever again...whyyy...whyyy did teen vogue do a cover shoot of this six year old with no talent.
whyyyyy did nick jonas date that...thinggg.... eughhhhhhhh.

but her and demi have a cool youtube account so it's all good! that was so funny when miley and mandy made fun of them on theirs....wow, thank you, SOMEONE needed too. hahahahahaahaha. "you wanna know whyyyyy!"

that was a trick question.

yeah, i'm done.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/24263992/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/24263992/ Wed, 15 Apr 2009 20:05:42 PDT if you know how to make icons, like the ones that move and stuff, like the one i have, and are willing to make me another one, i will be really happy!! i really need one, i will give you what you need to make it, like all the images, i just don't have photoshop to put them together.

anyways, check out her------>
she's really good!!

i am so tired. i have been listening to taylor swift a lot and trying to write new things.
i can't wait till summer.

but more importantly, i can't wait to see 17 again. writing that almost made me cry, i am so excited to see it. he just makes me so happy. i just can't wait to see it 17 times.

okay.

someone please make me a new icon, i am so sick of flippy hair boy.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/23856983/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/23856983/ Mon, 23 Mar 2009 20:22:44 PDT sometimes, don't you just get sadish when you look on google and see that there isn't one of those nifty little designs with the letters?

i am looking forward to this summer.

i have a headache so i dont think im going to make this very interesting.

in fact, i'm not.


good night and good riddance! (i never knew that was how you spelled riddance!!)

like rid dance. like dance! like 0-|-< !!

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/23839034/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/23839034/ Sun, 22 Mar 2009 19:40:02 PDT i've started putting "ish" at the end of every word i say.
it's just a habit i picked up.
ish.

okay, let's start this journal entry!

here are some quotes that i think are fun/funny/niceish/weirdish/interesting:

life is a test and i get bad marks.

i say "baby i love you" and then i walk out the door you said "i love you too" but you dont mean it anymore...

lets do something unexpected and impress the world.

i was the glue that kept my friends together;; now they don't talk and we don't go out.

i'm a real big fan of yours, but i'm quite the joke to you.

your heart will be the only thing that's keeping me alive.

when i am silent, i am listening - not abandoning.

the chances that i have to make you smile, aren't coming around.

what's wrong with me that i can't make you stay?

i don't want to be persistent, but i miss you i miss you.

i'll sell you a quarter for fifty cents.

don't be that note i can't hold. don't be that joke that i told and told till it got old. don't be that hand around my throat till i can't breathe.

so anyways, thought i would share those.

this makes me want to write a new book...

" teenage boys and teenage girls in the backyard;; snuggling a bottle;; ready to fall in love;; makes some mistakes;; slip off your summer dress;; lay it on the mattress;; forming into you;; put your hands straight over my neck;; cause you know you know i cant say no;; what goes around comes around;; what goes around comes around;; and if you cant count on me you can count on your friends;; you flew away like the smoke from a cigarette from my mouth;; and i exhale and exhaled and exhaled till nothing came out;; is it me or will i never truly know what chemicals will make me feel you again;; feel you again baby;; feel you again;; you are cold on the couch and its three in the morning;; and the tv's still talking to you;; but you get what you get;; and you sleep alone;; so i guess i suggest no excuse;; so pack up your shit and walk yourself out;; cause you can't stay here "

...so i might!!

but im still working on tell me how it goes and it's going good, and i like it!!

now i'm tired, so i'm going to sleep.

just a random journal entry to let you know the only dead i am is dead tired. (:

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/23737689/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/23737689/ Mon, 16 Mar 2009 20:53:51 PDT so why did i just go in the kitchen and get cheerios? i even spent the time to put in those little colored marshmellow things that are in the other cereal in my cheerios.
well...i mean, i didnt individually take out...ugh, just shut up!
i also got (cause i know you're interested in how fat i am) these nasty looking chip things.
hold on, let me see what they are called.

okay, theyre called cheesy nacho tortillaz with a z.
even when my mom bought them, she's all "these are nasty looking chip things, and the thing about them is they don't taste better than they look"
so why did she even by them?
and more importantly,
like,
am i that hungry to just go to my cabnit at 11:49 PM and get out nasty looking chip things and pour chocolate milk to go along with it just to satisfy my hunger that isnt even satisfied with nasty looking chip things.
like wtf.

i dont think the last of my chocolate milk even deserves to be in the same company as nasty looking chip things.
i feel kinda guilty cause it always treats me so good.

okay lemme taste onna these...

euchhhh. they are so hard!! and nasty/chewy.
and how come i dont care?
how come?

how come i keep eating nasty looking chippppppps!!?!!

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/23581234/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/23581234/ Sat, 07 Mar 2009 19:56:07 PST HEY WHATS UP?
OMG MAYBE I SHOULDNT HAVE STARTED LIKE THAT, BECAUSE USUALLY PEOPLE ONLY START LIKE THAT WHEN THEY ARE PERSONALLY TALKING TO SOMEONE. IM NOT PERSONALLY TALKING TO ANYONE, THIS IS JUST A RANDOM JOURNAL ENTRY. OH AND I WANTED TO ASK YOU SOMETHING (WELL NOT YOU PERSONALLY CAUSE I REALLY DONT THINK I KNOW YOU) BUT WHEN YOU ARE READING THIS, ARE YOU SPEAKING IT ALOUD IN YOUR HEAD? WELL NOT NOW SILLY, CAUSE NOW I KNOW YOU ARE JUST BECAUSE I WROTE THAT! BUT BEFORE. WERE YOU? IM PRETTY SURE I DO THAT A LOT WHEN I WRITE OR READ. AND I DO IT IN A BRITISH ACCENT. HEY NO COPYING!
GUESS WHAT I HAVE?
AN IPOD SHUFFLE!
GUESS WHAT YOU DONT HAVE?
AN IPOD SHUFFLE!
OKAY SO MAYBE YOU DO. I DONT KNOW CAUSE I DONT KNOW YOU PERSONALLY.

ANYWAYS, I AM JUST WRITING THIS JOURNAL ENTRY BECAUSE...

1. I HAVEN'T BEEN ON DEVIANTART ALL MONTH.
2. I HAVEN'T UPDATED MY JOURNAL ENTRY ALL MONTH.
3. I LOVE SQUINTING MY EYES AND LOOKING AT MY WRITING ON JOURNAL ENTRIES.
4. USING CAPS MAKES ME HAPPY. ALOT.

OKAY SO NOW THAT YOU KNOW THAT CRUCIAL INFORMATION, YOU SHOULD ALSO KNOW THAT IT IS VERY SAD TO ME BUT YES I MISSED SEEING THE JONAS BROTHERS MOVIE. I WENT FRIDAY TO SEE IT BUT IT WASNT EVEN ON! I WAS PISSED! AND IF I WASNT USING CAPS ALREADY ID BE USING THEM NOW! MAN I WANTED TO SEE THAT. WHY WOULD ANYONE IN THEIR RIGHT MIND KEEP A JONAS BROTHERS MOVIE OUT FOR ONLY A WEEK? THEYRE PROBABLY LIKE OH SINCE ITS ONLY OUT A WEEK MORE PEOPLE WILL GO SEE IT. WTF. NO THEY WONT. CAUSE BY THE TIME THEY GO TO SEE IT, IT'LL BE OUT OF THEATRES! WTF!

YOU KNOW WHAT PISSES ME OFF.? PEOPLE THAT ARE SO OBSESSED WITH MYSPACE THAT THEY RELOAD THEIR PAGES EVERY LIKE TWO SECONDS TO SEE IF THEY HAVE ANY NEW COMMENTS. OR PEOPLE WHO CONSTANTLY GO TO THEIR ONLINE NOW PAGE TO SEE WHOSE ONLINE. LIKE WTF. THATS SO DUMB.

HOLD ON, I HAVE TO GO SEE IF SOMEONE IS ONLINE NOW.

OH NEW COMMENTS!

OKAY ANYWAYS.

UMMM I JUST FINISHED A DRAWING. WELL ITS NOT ALL THE WAY DONE. I THINK I MIGHT POST THINGS TOMORROW. UM. MAYBE I WONT. IDK. UMMMM IM TRYING TO THINK. I KNOW IM GONNA WORK ON A CHRIS BROWN MARKER THING SOON. AND MY BFF SARAYA AND HER BF WANT ME TO DRAW THEM. SO I GUESS I'LL DO THAT. MAYBE.

OKAY.

I THINK IM GOING TO GO TO SLEEP. WELL MAYBE NOT SLEEP BUT GO CHECK OUT MY COMMENTS OR SOMETHING. I HATE PEOPLE LIKE THAT. HAHA!
OMG.

I AM SO
.TIRED
.RANDOM
.POWERFUL

OKAY, I'LL TALK TO YOU LATER.
WAIT, MAYBE I SHOULDN'T END LIKE THAT. YOU'LL TAKE IT TOO PERSONALLY.
UMMM.

BYE.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/22951146/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/22951146/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 19:12:53 PST nothing will ever be the same.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/22922922/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/22922922/ Sat, 31 Jan 2009 12:27:39 PST hiiiiii,,

okay so here are a few things going on in my life.

first off i like this guy but not really i mean only a little bit but nothing there is going to happen even though i keep on thinking about when we made out all the time,, not when we made out all the time but when we made out once and i THINK about it all the time. do you know what i mean??

anyways we keep talking a lot

second off that one guy who was once my best friend but then got too cool and then might be my friend again because he actually humbled himself to talk to me and now we are talking but then we just randomly stop talking and then we talk and then we dont and its just so confusingg!!

its like why cant people just be honest with eachother?? i have decided that i am going to be completely honest with everyone and everything because i feel like a lot of my life i have just lied to everyone to either make myself look good or to make someone not feel sad,, but i have decided that i am going to be honest and if people dont like it then im sorry but i just cant lie all the time anymore!!

and also this is something else that bothers me. when everyone,, like,, makes people wait for stuff,, like are they just thinking 'i am not going to text this person today because THIS happened last night' or do they just randomly forgettt?? because i dont understand why anyone would just randomly decide that? maybe it is to make the other person ccrazyY? because its working.

and then if someone doesnt reply to you on myspace,, or just waits forever to sign on,, or just doesnt call you back when they say they are going to call you back or just acts like they really like you when you are there with them and then they dont act the same when youre alone??

i mean are these things we need to worry about or are they just random things. like maybe these guys dont even know theyre doing anything wrong and think everything is normal or maybe they like to make us feel stupid. i really dont know!!

all i know is that there is this one guy that is really nice that i really like,, this guy that i got a valentines thing for today at the walmart.

is that totally dumb?? well i dont care cause i honestly felt like getting it and i think he'll honestly like it(:

but other than that i am looking forward to not getting anything for valentines day!!! i mean,, its not like i wanted a really pretty necklace or a really really nice cute ring or anything.

w/e.

this journal entry is kind of random and spread out just because im not really paying attention to anything im writing because everything in my whole life is weird now and is making me not make sense when i write!!

w/e.

okbye

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/22684843/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/22684843/ Mon, 19 Jan 2009 23:56:11 PST one day, i want to open my deviantart site, and there will be 500 messages, and all of them will be great and fun to read.

one day, i will open my email to see that all of the people i love have sent me an apology.

one day, i will check on my deviantart site, and there will be 20, 000 pageviews and i will love every one of them individually.

one day, i will get my own kind of zac efron, and he will treat me right and we will be together forever and i will believe in that kind of stuff.

one day, i will have a youtube account with my friends that everyone will want to watch and it will be funnier than selena and demi and miley and mandy.

one day, i will be the author of sooo many wonderful novels and people will love them so much they will make movies and youtube videos and banners and pictures and fansites about them and me and all of them will be inspiration so people like me now can know what they can really do if they put their mind to it.

one day, i will be on ellen degeneres.

one day, i will be on oprah and she will let me meet the real zac efron and also get me a car.

one day, i will cash my check for one million dollars.

one day, i will believe in miracles, and fairytales, and happiness all over again.

one day, i will own a beautiful house, and will buy another one for my parents.

one day, i will have dinner with josh schwartz.

one day, i will say 'i told you so' and laugh really hard for a couple of days.

one day, someone will believe that all these things can happen, and they will help me come through.

one day, i won't have enough time to sit at home, and write something like this.

one day i'll actually do all these things.



this is my new years resolution.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/22381396/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/22381396/ Sat, 03 Jan 2009 19:50:47 PST 53 days until Jonas Brothers 3D concert in theatres February 27th!!

102 days until Seventeen Again hits theatres, with my baby, gaaa - love you zac(:

96 days until the Hannah Montana movie!!

PLUS!!

Jonas Brothers new CD comes out this summer!!!

Jonas Brothers tv show "JONAS" is coming to Disney Channel in May!!!

Zac Efron's Footloose version is coming out this year!!!

There are a ton of Disney movies coming up that look cheesy, which is just totally terrific:

→ Princess Protection Program
→ Dadnapped
→ Alice In Wonderland
→ Camp Rock 2

Plus, a lot of other cool stuff is happening like...

→ My little cousin is going to be 14, and the other one is going to be 11 and the OTHER one will be 10!!
YAY!! I love little kids so much more than old people!! (no offense old people)

→ I'm going to be EIGHTEEN!!! um...ew! i still feel like I'm FIVE. wow, that one really comes as a shock...i don't think i'm ready to grow up!!

→ Chris Brown will be releasing a new album(:

→ Joe Jonas will most likely break up with someone in a 17 second phone call...yeah, you didn't think he could beat his record, did you?? he's def talented in that area(:

→ Zac Efron will get even HOTTER!!! (yeah - i'm not sure if that's possible, either)

→ And we all, I'm pretty sure, will be leading our lives through confidence and self assurance, and will get far and mightier than the year before, leading us to greatness and shameless famousness...

...yeah, me neither.

Well, if you guys can think of any other reasons to stay sober, let me knoww!!

peace&&love&&oranges

strawberries and oranges are just as pink as tangerines

is that it, dev??

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/22287986/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/22287986/ Tue, 30 Dec 2008 20:12:35 PST hey, how come no one ever comments my journal entries?
it must be because they're extremely boring.
everyone must just see them in those little boxes that only gives you a few lines to read and by the time they scrape their eyes over the few lines, they realize they aren't interested and drag their mouse over the x and just like that, bam!!! you don't have to listen to any of my issues.
well too bad for you, i'm telling you about them anyway.

first off, it's new years eve tomorrow and for those of you who just fell onto the center of the earth and are like "beep beep what the beep beep news years eve eve what the beep beep" its like...the night that people actually have an excuse to go somewhere and party till 12 and after getting completely toasted and trashed.

fun stuff.

anyways, i'll be doing some hardXcore partying over at my friend's house so don't bother to call or write. we know how to party like it's 1872 and our parent's are watching!!

second off, the book that i was reading...you know, the super super sad and depressing one that i was at least HOPING would end good. Yeah? well it didnt end good. so don't bother reading it or anything. im majorly depressed now. and im mean, it's like on. this depression thing is kickin' hard i might have to go to some hardcore therapy or something, you know?

my poor self for reading such a book...

i feel SO BAD for me!! omgz!!

anyways, it's the start of a new year and all that and i'm super jazzed to be getting rid of 08, seeing as it def isn't one of my favs(:

hopefully, though, next year will be a little more kind to me
KNOCKONWOOD.

i hope you guys don't get sober till 2010.

peace!

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/22259738/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/22259738/ Mon, 29 Dec 2008 20:31:12 PST i am pretty sure that cecelia ahern went to Depressed University and studied with a degree in Agonizing Romances,
attending a class entitled "How to depress hopeless romantic seventeen year old girls when they just want to read a nice little novel with a happy ending and how to keep stringing them along and torturing them by never letting the people that everyone know are supposed to be together NEVER ACTUALLY END UP TOGETHER"
i swear
this better have a happy ending
if i wasnt so lazy, i would probably cry

the only good thing about this novel is that i have set a new standard for my future husband.

it goes like this:

--->ALEX STEWART OVERALL!!!
+zac efron everything-ness
+andrew mcMahon talent-ish
+leonardo diCaprio lovesick-ness
+rupert grint humor-ish

P.S. I CAN'T BELIEVE SLUTTY BETHANY IS PREGNANT!! OMG, MY POOR BABY ALEX!! UGH, IS ANYONE ELSE IN THE WORLD READING THIS BOOK!?

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/22243242/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/22243242/ Sun, 28 Dec 2008 13:14:16 PST okay, so im getting better, thought i'd write a journal entry that wasn't so depressing to leave up here for a while.
i am working on a lot of things right now.
like...

+drawings (stupid ones, that im not excited about..i would much rather be drawing celebrities..ugh, w/e)

+writings (none that are even closed to being read yet, but hey, im buying ink soon and that's a step i've been stuck on for a while...hopefully, i'll be stuck on one book for a while..it's my new years resolution!)

+readings (i just bought eight books-no lie(: im so excited to start on the pile, right now im reading one called 'girlfriend in a coma' and it is sooo good. im gonna start reading a few at a time though, i just can't wait. i wouldve started reading earlier today, but i had to clean - my mom is at her sisters, so i cleaned some and i am working on an art project now for elmer-face-uggghhh! but i've worked on it for about 23 taylor swift songs so far && it's almost done, which is good - seeing as i have to finish three after break, so far ive got almost two done. yay for me. but i wanna read): )

+wii-ing (of course it's the new generation-you can say that without being a creep..but it's still creepy(: (i just got dance dance and ive been dance dance-ing it up for...like...ever. seriously. what did i do without a wii?? it's totally balancing me(: ))

+taylor swift-ing (i had to get her cd. she's so good. i love all the songs! she makes me happy with her cute little country voice and funny little squinty eyes!)

so this is my life now.
new years eve is coming, and i'm going to my friend's house to party it up with her and her people. i'm jived about that.

all in all everything is slowly recovering from the hurricanes...let me know what everyone's up too...i cleared out my deviant messages and am ready to start my new year(:

ohhh and in case anyone wasn't sure i have the best parents in the world. withoutadoubt. now...that makes you a little jealous, doesn't it?

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/22174128/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/22174128/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 18:56:13 PST you got it!

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/22149853/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/22149853/ Tue, 23 Dec 2008 19:41:01 PST hey hey hey, it's that time again!

it's really fun for the people who get to enjoy this time of the season. i feel really happy for them. that's very exciting - to look forward to this holiday and have it actually follow through as a wonderful christmas, like all the songs say.

the past two years, though, none of it's actually, well, followed through.

i guess this time i thought it would be the way i wanted it to be, though. you know the whole family-friends-christmas thing. i mean, im only seventeen, a girl can hope, can't she?

but oh well, i have a plan to turn this whole mess around. since i can't be serious about anything, i am just going to make a joke about this whole thing!

and since no one i talk to really cares to take me serious or listen to anything i have to complain about, maybe i could just..um..think about it. and then make a joke about it later. and then have one of my friends call me ridiculous, and have no one really understand, and have them all be on the wrong side, and then it'll all just go away.

cause thats me. leah. just one big joke(:

and a joke of a life

and a joke of a family

and a joke of a friend

and a joke of a christmas.

well there i go again.
next time i won't invite you to my pity party.
you probably wouldn't have come anyway.

oh and don't bother replying to this one.
i don't think i'll read it.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/21556371/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/21556371/ Tue, 18 Nov 2008 18:46:52 PST right.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/21194213/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/21194213/ Mon, 27 Oct 2008 21:02:58 PDT it's officially...um..4 minutes since i last updated my journal, but i looked at my old journal entries and i just reminded myself that sometimes i can be creative, so i was like hey, why not write another random journal entry with random and creative things and if people dont want to hear it, then they can delete the entry!
yay mouses!
only on paul my mac my mouse is built in the computer and i cant do anything i can do with a real mouse.
i dont even know how i got the little clicker in here to write this journal entry.
its like some sort of miracle just occured, go tell the kids in africa theyll have water tonight!
okay so
who else doesnt shave their legs in the winter just to see how long the hair can get !!!
in case you were wondering i was just talking to the girls.
anyway.
i always say my friends and i do that and have a competition to see whose hair is the longest by the end of the winter, but the truth is we do that for a week but never really get anywhere with it because my other two friends shave theirs and i dont .. i only use that excuse because i dont feel like shavin!
and tomorrow i have like 18 tests i didnt study for,
yeah, are you surprised?
nah, me neither.
man i am so tired, im always staying up late and i dont even know why.
and im going to school dressed up as a cat on friday,
just because its halloween and i can.
so.
read my other journal entry,
or just comment me about zac efron and we can talk.
cause im drained so im hitting paul and leaving town.

goodnight ciry lights<33

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/21194021/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/21194021/ Mon, 27 Oct 2008 20:46:10 PDT hola controla

lets talk about high school musical 3 and how hott zac efron is! it should be illegal omgg=]

well let me think of something good that is happening soon cause we need some of that.

um.
i am--
+writing poems
+writing books
+drawing zac efron+lindsay and lane+random girl
+going to get something posted soon
+excited for christmas, omg
+excited for tomorrow because it is going to snow
+going to marry zac efron.

i feel like i never get anything done.
like.
i havent gotten drawings or writings done in longgg time.
i work on them a lot, they just dont finish.
i feel like i dont work as much as i need to.
im just lazy, i guess.
and.
well.
i know no ones going to read this but isnt it nice just to write because you want to sometimes?
i dont know.
sometimes even though no one will read something, it feels good to get it off your chest.
and sometimes its for the best that no one reads it.

does anyone have the faintest idea what i am talking about?
















me nerither.


goodnight city lights<33

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/20969767/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/20969767/ Mon, 13 Oct 2008 13:02:47 PDT this is a series im doing called
who is this
soo its like
i draw someone famous and you guys have to guess who it is and yes it will be someone youll know not like tom from art class or something, hah.
soooo if youre the first person to guess correctly, ill give you FOUR people to choose from and you are supposed to pick one and ill draw that person and on we go!
ill do about a milli of these before i do another series, ok?
so everyone can have a turn.
yay.
and our first winner is

cause she knew that
<--------
was rihanna.
goooo !!!!

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/20691619/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/20691619/ Fri, 26 Sep 2008 17:38:32 PDT and sometimes it feels wrong,
but sometimes it feels right
i mean,
if you dont get in trouble youre not a teenager right?
arent teenagers meant to experiment and mess up sometimes?
how come im not allowed to do that?
i dont know.
maybe i should just give up on this whole thing.
or maybe i should just try to live happy and not worry about it.
maybe people shouldnt care so much in the wrong way
and start caring the right way,
for the right things.
not the stupid things that dont matter.
ugh.
i just wish that i had some pizza rolls right now or something.
something to make me feel better.

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/20570051/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/20570051/ Fri, 19 Sep 2008 14:47:27 PDT

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/20031753/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/20031753/ Mon, 18 Aug 2008 21:49:28 PDT okie, so im sitting on this computer for like the fiftieth night this summer..its sooo boring, but its all their is to do this late at night. omg. cause no one is on aim, except boring people who are like:

bp1: hey
bp2: hey
bp1: sup
bp2: nm. u?
bp1: nm.
bp2: cool.
bp1: ready for school?

bp2 has signed off.

like wtf you know? we werent even done with our boring people convo.
and i just love it when old people are all 'omg..young people. they are always like wtf this and w/e that...like, who understands that lingo?' and were always like wtf is lingo.
i love it.
and my dads like telling me that i need this paper that says what words stand for. hes all 'w/e means whatever' and im like omg dad your amazing.
haha.
but he is.
really.
because what yold guy knows that! yold because, hes like old but still young, you know? omg now im making my own lingo. how fun is this. and im not even to this journals point yet.
the point to this journal is procrastination. because i have 74 messages and all of them are favs and watches cause i already checked my 736 deviations. none of this is the fish that keeps getting longer either, this is really my site life cause i abandoned this baby so long.
so im sitting here and im like.
holy mother of mary.
i dont want to write fish yum
but i know i have to or will beat me up.
so im like
okay i got a pete jordan chapter down so thats good.
im not into right now but i will be later, you know?
and so i just get done finishing this one fish yum. it was so funny. it made me laugh and i just got done watching hannah montanna..you know the BEST EPISODE EVER. when hannah and jackson have to share a bathroom and then lily and oliver *love* have to pretend like theyre them and then they get so effin hungry so they have to create a distraction so they can eat and stuff and at this point your like omg billy rae cyrus is like the gayest actor ever. then you realize he knows and is trying to convince lily he doesnt but they end up getting in trouble. *relief* billy rae is good again.
then hannah and jackson realize theyre bff.
blahblah blahblah.
ANYWAY, i get online, like i do everynight cause im the lamest person ever. like, tiny tim lame, you know what i be sayin?
so yeah...and then im like well i should do my messages..or, like, well, i should write fishyum or whatever.
but i decide to come on here and write a journal entry thats like omg super long and has nothing to do with anything, just because i am me and there is nothing more pleasant to me than writing things that no one reads slash cares about. hehe.
ummm. so yeah.
i am totally not excited for schooll...not excited for anything.
read breaking dawn. Hated IT! umm if your gonna disagree dont do it in this journal entry...
hmmm...sooo yeah!!! i love you guys so much. keep faving and commenting and ill get back to everyone as soon as i stop being lazy.
thanksthanksthanks!!
love you!

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/19799424/ http://ForgottenPhantom.deviantart.com/journal/19799424/ Tue, 05 Aug 2008 22:23:23 PDT
no longer leaving, im back for good, kittens.
warm yur shmikkens, im hurr to stay!! (:

sooo comment me for welcome backs. (:

and comment all my pikkas! i know yall missed them . (:

eww and

TEAM MILEY

&&&

TEAM JACOB x45897353298ie8975438

theres even an ie in there, windows!!

yeah take that selena and edward! (:

]]> ~ForgottenPhantom