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]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/19977832/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/19977832/ Fri, 15 Aug 2008 20:52:46 PDT I downloaded the background melody. Oh lawd, the nostalgia is fucking overpowering, and it's a good sleep-inducer. And its 05:51 and I can't type for shit. Good morning and goodnight.

]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/19765251/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/19765251/ Mon, 04 Aug 2008 06:27:05 PDT and its should be a bit longer. But I'm just writing for the sake of writing xD

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"PLEASE SPREAD THE WORD ABOUT THIS! COPY AND PASTE THE CONTENT OF THIS JOURNAL INTO YOURS


No freaking joke. There's a predator stalking DeviantArt. And he's going under different names in order to hide his true identity. I was asked to copy and paste this to my journal. If you are a member of DA you MUST do the same!

Here is the copy from pepsi-the-hedgehog84's journal:

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THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT! PLEASE READ! THIS INVOLVES YOUR SAFETY ON DA

I am begging you to read this, there is an online stalker (!jere1234, !Caeruleum, !kyakuchuu -- all the same person) who recently attacked a dear friend of mine,*Kays-elle-belle . DA has resolved the situation, but this situation is something people need to be cautious and aware of. He has been blocked but theres always a chance that he'll make another account. Im going to post what's in her journal and if you notice any patterns of similarity, please contact DA IMMEDIATELY. This guy has gone thorough great lengths to contact my friend such as making new accounts and pretending to be other people who he's not. If you would, PLEASE copy this entire message and let other DA members know about this threat. the more people know, the better chance users have of not becoming a victim. So please,read, copy and post this again so this information can spread and no one else gets hurt. There is safty in numbers and this sort of thing needs to be stopped!




Read on to see whats in her journal and if you have any questions, contact her here *Kays-elle-belle . She'd would be more than happy to answer any questions you may have so this can be prevented. Please let this word spread.

:devkays-elle-bell:'s Journal from this morning-

"I am begging you to read this, it will explain the last journal and also warn so this won't happen to YOU.

!jere1234 IS !Caeruleum IS !kyakuchuu.

This man is most likely a serial killer or sexual predator of some sort. Deviant art staff is handling this for me right now. The man originally added me as Jere1234 and then he notified me that he would be switching to Caeruleum. He asked that I add him. Thinking he was just some nice man who liked my artwork I said "Sure, why not?" On this account he began writing some poems about and TO my girlfriend Kayla, and I. I began to find this odd but being an overly naive and trusting person I was polite about it, commented the poems, thanked him, so on. He wrote a poem about a lifestyle choice that I thought he spent alot of time critisizing for being different than his own and I believe I posted a comment as simple as "Gosh, what have you got against that, anyhow?" The man literally flipped out. He not only wrote two journal entries condemning me and calling me things between immature and evil, but he also sent me notes telling me how "disappointed" he was with me. A man that I don't know in real life, have only talked to online for a few days, is "disappointed with me." He blocked me, and I blocked him back.

Not long after I began to get several favorites and then a watch from the account !kyakuchuu. I noticed the similar style of poetry and similar interests but I hate people who make assumptions and I'd rather not be one of them, so I just figured it was another poet with similar interests. "Kyakuchuu" soon after began calling Kayla and I "muses" and writing poems about us as well. 2KL he called them-- and informed me that this meant "To Kayla and Ellie" There is a numerous list of them in his gallery. He favorited absolutely every work of mine with Kayla in it along side of me and also any of my pictures that showed my feet. (foot fetishist, obsessive personality: bad sign) He wrote me notes telling of his extensive admiration for Kayla and I, his plans for other poems about us, thanking me for being his "inspiration". All of this seemed very creepy, but I was always thinking, what if this is really just some eccentric old man minding his own business, and he just hasn't got anything better to do. I would hate to just hurt some innocent old man by lashing out at him for no reason. HOWEVER upon talking to Kayla about this, she has taken criminal justice classes. She said that many of these traits sounded like BAD traits and BAD signs. She told me about a type of serial killer called "collecters" Who will collect information, pictures, anything about their subjects, and obsess over them, for a long time before they make any move. She told me that alot of the time these men will be too smart for their own good and seem kind of innocent but mostly very mysterious. I have never let on in this site where I live as far as I know, all of my friends sites that are nearbye me say they live in different places (Luxembourg, Canada, UK, anywhere...) and I was afraid that the longer I spoke to him an... ]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/19694714/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/19694714/ Thu, 31 Jul 2008 07:15:28 PDT
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a dreamer, my dreams sometimes define my waking life
Neurotic, I easily get nervous when confronted with unexpected or new situations.
Cynic/Romantic, I usually alternate between these two extremes, cus love is both wonderful, but life and love can still be so damn hard.
A poet, I write poems that tells tales from my heart
Reader, books=essential
Obsessive Compulsive, I get thoughts that sticks for a loong time, and it sometimes affects me a great deal, but only a few periods every year
Melancholic, I usually think about my past, forgotten thoughts and remembered faces, I live my life partly in my past.
Loyal, I never cheat on anyone, I tell no lies to friends, well if I do I feel like utter crap afterwards, but I never say anything bad about any of my friends to anyone
Loving, I love with a strong passion, a long lasting fire.

Just wanted to express myself in writing.

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I feel lucky that I'm above most of this. I was once someone who hated upon certain subcultures I need not mention here, but I'm human after all, and I've learned from it by taking the time to get knowledge about the subcultures I've disliked. In a perfect world people would search for wisdom and knowledge, not going around and learn only from what the TV preaches and newspapers tell.

Meh...


/rant

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]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/15912937/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/15912937/ Thu, 13 Dec 2007 05:03:02 PST This makes me kinda excited, so I'm writing a bit here. Cus she seems special, such compliments she gives "From your personality I would say you were made by God himself" and this is a beautiful comment. Just wanted to share a little moment of light in my life, as I mostly write sad stuff in this journal!

]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/15836013/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/15836013/ Fri, 07 Dec 2007 14:56:42 PST You're just preachin to the choir
I've gotten dull as old barbed wire from livin'
Last night I watched the evening news
It was the same ol' nothin new
It should have cut me right in two
But it didn't
I don't know why it didn't

But I wanna feel somethin
Somethin thats a real somethin'
That moves me, that proves to me I'm still alive
I wanna heart that beats and bleeds
A heart thats bustin' at the seams
I wanna care, I wanna cry, I wanna scream
I just wanna feel somethin'

If you're tellin me thats just how it is
I don't buy it cause once I was kissed
By a red-headed girl with cherry lips
On her porch when I was sixteen
And I felt it somewhere in my soul and time stood still and I couldn't let go
I can't tell you cause I don't know how I got so cold
When did I get so cold

I want something that makes me feel alive. Not a robotic zombie! Don't we all really? Don't we all get really tired of always being okay'sh? Don't we all feel alive when on fire of any kind? In the heat of moments that shape personal history? I hate days that's forgotten two days after it has gone away.

]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/15334353/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/15334353/ Fri, 02 Nov 2007 16:31:26 PDT How I grieve now you're gone
In my dreams I see you
I awake so alone

I know you didn't want to leave
Your heart yearned to stay
But the strength I always loved in you
Finally gave way

Somehow I knew you would leave me this way
Somehow I knew you could never.. never stay
And in the early morning light
After a silent peaceful night
You took my heart away
And I grieve

In my dreams I can see you
I can tell you how I feel
In my dreams I can hold you
And it feels so real

I still feel the pain
I still feel your love
I still feel the pain
I still feel your love

And somehow I knew you could never, never stay
And somehow I knew you would leave me
And in the early morning light
After a Silent peaceful night
You took my heart away
I wished, I wished you could have stayed

]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/15076896/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/15076896/ Mon, 15 Oct 2007 17:03:29 PDT The dance we shared 'neath the stars above
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end, the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I'd have had to miss the dance

Holding you, I held everything
For a moment wasn't I a king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say? you know I might have changed it all

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I'd have had to miss the dance

Yes my life, it's better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I'd have had to miss the dance

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]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/13562708/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/13562708/ Sun, 01 Jul 2007 10:49:28 PDT It's taken me so long to do this.
I'm falling asleep and I can't see straight.

My muscles feel like a melee,
My body's curled in a U-shape.
I put on my best, but I'm still afraid.

Propped up by lies and promises.
Saving my place as life forgets.
Maybe it's time I saw the world.

I'm only here for a while.
Patience is not my style,
And I'm so tired that I got to go.

Where am I supposed to hide now?
What am I supposed to do?
Did you really think I wouldn't see this through?

Tell me I should stick around for you.
Tell me I can have it all.
I'm still too tired to care and I got to go.

I get to go home in one week.
But I'm leaving home in three weeks.
They throw me a bone just to pick me dry.

I'm following suit and directions.
I crawl up inside for protection.
I'm told what to do and I dont know why.

I'm over existing in limbo
I'm over the myths and placebos
I dont really mind if I just fade away

I'm ready to live with my family.
I'm ready to die in obscurity
Cause I'm so tired that I got to go.

Where am I supposed to hide now?
What am I supposed to do?
You still don't think I'm gonna see this through?

Tell me I'm a part of history.
Tell me I can have it all.
I'm still too tired to care and I got to go.

I'm still too tired to care and I got to go. (6x)

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Martin S reporting xD


Why is it that if you write that you're sad in modern times and automatically you're an emo and all that BS. It helps me to write down stuff when I'm sad , that does not mean I'm seeking attention or anything. *Sigh* Humans can all be sad, shouldn't be illegal to show that part of humanity too.

Today my stomach is killing me. And I've written several new poems. I'll submit as the time goes or something. Feeling really tired.


Martin S signing out

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]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/12038802/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/12038802/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 10:53:10 PST I'm going back to all those wasted years.
I see the rise and fall of the world I lived in.
This time it doesn't seem real at all.
But I took the fall and on came all the changes.
All i had could not be saved - it was far too late.

Everyone leaves. In the end.
Everything dies. In the end.
It doesn't matter how hard you hold on.

I'm going back to the times you went away.
I thought you thought that I was that monster.
I see the rise and fall of the world that I made.
I always wanted to take you with me.
And then I saw some people for the people that I thought they were.
In your painful absence.

Everyone leaves. In the end.
Everything dies. In the end.
It doesn't matter how hard you hold on.

How hard can you?
Do you want to hold on?

How hard can you?
The all leave in the end.

How hard can you?
We all die in the end.

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Downloaded the BLS Discography. BLS fuckin' rules all!
Get on your knees and worship me


Today I'll watch anime , play WoW and some other mundane stuff just an ordinary day

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]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/11650601/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/11650601/ Thu, 01 Feb 2007 17:09:19 PST I really-really miss you.
Mommy says you're safe now,
In a beautiful place called heaven.
Oh, I'm thinking about our younger years

You are the greatest Daddy. Now nothing can change what you mean to me


Maybe some day I can visit you in Heaven okay?


Dammit , I miss you so damn much dad...
Fuck it, I try to find some light.. oh well /rant

]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/11472954/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/11472954/ Wed, 17 Jan 2007 17:17:10 PST Though I'm soon one month closer to military service, looking forward to it^^

Though I miss a bit of love in my life.. but it will come when the right girl for me comes along

]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/11422608/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/11422608/ Sat, 13 Jan 2007 13:24:20 PST and playing Dead Rising on my 360 <3

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]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/11197151/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/11197151/ Tue, 26 Dec 2006 06:07:36 PST Everyone gets affected by them, everyone yields to them. No matter who you are, or where you're from, my gods are there. Both the good and the wicked. They are called Love and Hate, and they have many children. Some bad and some good. But still they rule supreme.


I am thinking about the loose threads in my life. Like why my ex hates me so.. I've never gotten any explanation. And it bothers me. Because I don't like to not have the chance to make things right. I just want to ask her why she hates me so. Nothing more and nothing less. I dunno what I have done wrong.

]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/9133034/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/9133034/ Wed, 21 Jun 2006 02:45:39 PDT This is how you die of heart ache..

Quote of the day: It burns , it rips it hurts.. ]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/8362399/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/8362399/ Tue, 04 Apr 2006 10:03:41 PDT
Like you're a boat, sailing on a black terrible ocean, knowing that under the surface , theres limitless pain, and therefore you try to sail faster and faster until the boat sinks , and everything hits you. And you emerge changed, with missing pieces and new ones, the time for change. ]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/8155495/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/8155495/ Tue, 14 Mar 2006 05:46:38 PST


man , I love days off school. Freeeedoooooooooooom!

My gf said ok to the Pennywise tattoo as long as I didn't overdid it. Which is okay , cus its not cheap to get really big tattoos. I just love clowns , before when i was a lil brat I hated em , but hate turned into luv.

I'm in need of a party this weekend , I don't wanna be alone up in this shitty forest all weekend ]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/8148537/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/8148537/ Tue, 14 Mar 2006 02:52:19 PST



I hate fur-wearing people , i hate the 1s making and taking the fur of those animals , i want to blow it allup , and burn it down. Those fucks less worth than the animals they kill. I could ramble forever on how i hate em , but i'll cut it short here and say: theres fake fur to be bought , no need to wear freakin dead animals around you. ]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/8146769/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/8146769/ Mon, 13 Mar 2006 07:22:10 PST 2. I want a ATI card for my comp
3. I want a tattoo on my back, motiveennywise the Dancing Clown
4. I want my own apartment
5. I want to move in with my gf
6. Get a job, a grown up life(lol)

and they're all sorted by time. ]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/8139274/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/8139274/ Sun, 12 Mar 2006 13:57:08 PST



Came home a half hour ago... so boooored...

My msn is vampirelord_6@hotmail.. lol please , add me and talk to me..BORED senseless , i hate sunday nites..


Been a great weekend though , one of the first ones since my dad died.. Been over three months already, can't believe my family's still standing. Still not turned emo , lol if you can look past the whine. And this here journal


They found Mary Bellows cuffed to the bed

With a rag in her mouth and a bullet in her head

O poor Mary Bellows

She'd grown up hungry, she'd grown up poor

She left her home in Arkansas

O poor Mary Bellows

She wanted to see the deep blue sea

She travelled across Tennessee

O poor Mary Bellows

She met a man along the way

He introduced himself as Richard Slade

O poor Mary Bellows

Poor Mary thought that she might die

When she saw the ocean for the first time

O poor Mary Bellows

She checked into a cheap little place

Richard Slade carried in her old suitcase

O poor Mary Bellows

"I'm a good girl, sir", she said to him

I couldn't possibly permit you in

O poor Mary Bellows

Slade tipped his hat and winked his eye

And turned away without goodbye

O poor Mary Bellows

She sat on her bed and thought of home

With the sea breeze whistling all alone

O poor Mary Bellows

In hope and loneliness she crossed the floor

And undid the latch on the front door

O poor Mary Bellows

They found her the next day cuffed to the bed

A rag in her mouth and a bullet in her head

O poor Mary Bellows

So mothers keep your girls at home

Don't let them journey all alone

Tell them this world is full of danger

And to shun the company of strangers

O poor Mary Bellows

O poor Mary Bellows ]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/7760369/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/7760369/ Tue, 31 Jan 2006 11:19:10 PST
I hope someday we'll all get better. This ain't life, this is hell. The one comfort is that you're in a better place, and we'll meet someday again. When curtain falls on my own life. Bye dad , I love you. <3 ]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/7721299/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/7721299/ Fri, 27 Jan 2006 08:58:35 PST
I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me ]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/7621711/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/7621711/ Mon, 16 Jan 2006 15:03:17 PST In a mirror the memories make me cry, scream and beg.
I see the family, my family. I see the strong figure in the background.
My dad,so gentle, so safe. So filled with life,so true, so wise.
Everytime I cried, I knew there was dad to help me. He would help me on my legs, no matter what.. No matter what I did, he never disappointed me, he never let me down. He was always there, pushing me in the right direction. I miss you daddy, no strong hands to guide me anywhere. Fatherless.

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back... ]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/7571316/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/7571316/ Wed, 11 Jan 2006 06:49:40 PST ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/7561089/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/7561089/ Tue, 10 Jan 2006 05:06:49 PST ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/7504818/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/7504818/ Wed, 04 Jan 2006 02:51:14 PST ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/7420629/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/7420629/ Mon, 26 Dec 2005 07:42:08 PST ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/7254335/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/7254335/ Thu, 08 Dec 2005 09:35:17 PST
I have a girl which I love, and I will never quit or I will never leave her. Cus she means so much to me <3 Tomorrow she will show me her love again, and then I will be fixed and allright. Christmas time makes me sad, nervous or twisted in my head. So much memories in every snow flake. Every date a tear in itself, every santa clause a pain in the heart. Well I will survive this Christmas too. Cus I have a beautiful girl that loves me more than anyone ever has or will. I'm so thankful I could cry, no matter what happens the morningstar will never fade. You are so beautiful , so sweet , so kind, so delicious.

No one has ever showed me life like you, every time we crashed , love fixed itself. True love never dies, it only takes a break and then continue on brighter than ever. Can't wait to see you my girl <3 ]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/7200006/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/7200006/ Fri, 02 Dec 2005 01:38:18 PST well tuddles to be honest miip miip ]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/6879055/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/6879055/ Thu, 27 Oct 2005 04:03:56 PDT
I'm doing so great this week , reaaaah--eeeaaally I am , even tho I can't seem to get in touch with any1 on here I'll just have to try harder methinks


Oh well , anyways today I am home from school and plan on doing as little as possible

Tomorrow I'll go to school , have a big Norwegian test , then I'll get on a buss two o'clock and travel to Drammen. To my girrrrl I go , god forsaken dammit , it's gonna be so heavenly grrrreeeeeat. Lets all rejoice aiiiit

]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/6493335/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/6493335/ Tue, 13 Sep 2005 10:44:36 PDT og du trenger meg hehe ai knåw u luv mi beibi <3 ]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/6271532/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/6271532/ Fri, 19 Aug 2005 14:01:11 PDT
Hvorfor må hun lide..? Hvorfor skal aldri hun få litt lys i livet? Jeg har prøvd mange ganger å hjelpe hun ,men hun er veldig syk og jeg er ikke et mirakel ,ingen doktor... jeg kan jo bare være der for henne ,men hun slipper meg nesten aldri inn lengre... Sykdommene gjør henne så ustabil at man aldri vet hvordan hun har det eller hva hun går igjennom.. Skulle så inderlig gjerne hjelpe ]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/6172656/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/6172656/ Mon, 08 Aug 2005 20:35:49 PDT Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

CHORUS
Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here no there



Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

CHORUS

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain
Little out of touch, little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train never comin' back
Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins
Runaway but it always seems the same



Man ,I feel lonley and miserable here in my house in the empty woods.. ]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/6144442/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/6144442/ Fri, 05 Aug 2005 18:59:59 PDT
Energien min er bare en illusjon ,ingenting motiverer meg lengre.. For det meste vil jeg bare gå ut i skogen og aldri se mennesker igjen. Skjønner ikke hvorfor jeg skriver her.. Jeg vil bare ha alt for meg selv,all driten som skjuler seg under overflata. Men her vil sikkert Catharina lese det:/

Jeg orker ikke å bry meg... Jeg savner hun..Jeg savner så mange..

Alt går så jævlig i sirkel ,jeg tror jeg er på bedringens vei ,men så ender jeg tilbake i samma grøfta.. Faen jeg har meg selv til å takke for alle mine problemer, jeg er så patetisk som drasse på meg alle små ting... Jeg hater mine problemer ,jeg bærer dem med meg ,og jeg blir så sint på meg selv.. Jeg vet nok hva de fleste syntes om meg.. At jeg er en følelsekald sadistisk person som ikke tar en ting alvorlig eller klarer noen ting.. Alt jeg gjør er å sutrer ,men her sutrer jeg bare til meg selv ihvertfall.. Her slipper jeg alle kommandoer som "Sånn må du ikke tenke." eller "Slutt med det tullet" ... Hadde jeg enda bare hatt en bryter som gjorde meg om til en person verdig noens kjærlighet.. Men uansett hva jeg prøver så er det bare meg selv som kan hjelpe meg.. Men jeg klarer ingenting selv, jeg er latterlig redd for å bli sviktet eller rett og slett være i veien...

Heh når tanta mi og greier var på besøk så snakket de sammen ,men når jeg sa noe falt det bare platt og de så på hverandre og bare snakket om noe annet... Jeg må bare lære meg å holde kjeft rundt andre mennesker... Særlig i familiesammenhenger... Jeg er liksom en generasjon med ingen andre i nærheten av aldern min i familien... Så jeg har alltid vært den ensomme ,mens de eldre og yngre har hatt 4-5 å henge sammen med og bare være en fuckings familie... Mens jeg er bare Martin ,raringen ingen helt forsto seg på.. Det har alltid plaget meg... at jeg ikke kjenner noen i familien min .Jeg er bare i veien for alle ]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/6015772/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/6015772/ Sat, 23 Jul 2005 19:39:33 PDT
I can't rely on my friends anymore,my problems can't be lifted unto other shoulders anymore. I'll get through it if I'm strong,and if I'm not well... then I really don't wanna think about the results. My problems are getting a too big chunk out of my every day life and I just need to get rid off em. But when doing it alone it's always hard. We'll see if I'll get through it. ]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/6003854/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/6003854/ Fri, 22 Jul 2005 10:55:35 PDT
Catharina is going away on Sunday ,I hope her headache will end today or something. I hate seeing her suffer in any way. I'll miss her but I'll also wish her the greatest weeks of her life. And when she comes back I'll be very happy

And she's coming to my birthday the 28th of August! Man ,can't wait! I'll try and make it as romantic as humanly possible cus I really miss the romance in my life now! ]]> ~FrostWinds http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/5996237/ http://FrostWinds.deviantart.com/journal/5996237/ Thu, 21 Jul 2005 14:19:26 PDT
'm on the healing route but I think I'll always be scarred ,no matter where I turn and who I meet. This scares me also ,but I try to keep my chin up and face all the hardship. Sometimes I crash all together and my friends pick up the pieces of me and pull em together. I'm afraid of being nobody ,of being forgotten.

I've always been forgotten , by most people ,but still a bunch stays and without em.. I am truly nothing.

Sorry if this is kinda dull and whine-like ,but I need to get it all out of my head. The thought fly around in a never ending rush, I found some safety in Catharina's arms ,but I'm afraid of disappointing her ,by being the same shitty me. But hey,I'll survive it all and end up scarred and stronger. ]]> ~FrostWinds