Wassup?!

Yup! Hillary is back and tired from spending two weeks with that special someone I always talk about: Louis. It was a lot of fun and I wasn't bored one bit! We took some really good pictures and did a lot. It was really really fun. I couldn't have wished it any better.

Anyways, I have a few things to do. x__x
I still have that art trade with =Rizou and ~Shauna--xOx to do and I wanna draw some of my own things (If I ever THINK of any).
I won't have much time to draw on my tablet though (Drama Camp and I go to my Paw Paw's to sleep.) So yeah... please be patient with me still. D=

Haha, I only had 22 messages when I got back.
You big meanies. XD

Anyways, I'm just in an art slump and I'm trying to find an awesome monologue.
Aside from that, I saw Get Smart, The Dark Knight, and Step Brothers.
Get Smart was great.
The Dark Knight was BRILLIANT.
And Step Brothers was really really funny.

In other news:

They're so cute...but this is cuter:

Yes, I'm whoring your art out, because I love you that much. >:U <3

Is it?
It is!
International Free Hugs Day!X)
Now go give someone a hug

You know how I said I was going to do the campaign at my own mall?
Well the plans are still up but a bit rendered.
You see, my first friend (Who I made plans with a month in advanced) totally gave me last mintue news and that totally bummed me out.
But now, my friend Katie will be driving AND doing it for me! So, that seems good too.
I seriously can't wait though.
Wish us the best of luck!
I have no regrets!

Oh, this might be why I'm a bit slow on notes and comments. Please be patient! I'm going to sleep right now and I think I'd be too tired to comment on anything tomorrow.

I hope everyone had a good fourth of July! ...or at least enjoyed blowing up stuff!

Remember!
Peace, Love, and Free Hugs! X)


-Hillary

Update
How did it go?

I need to say it was actually pretty fun. X)
It was just me and my silly friend Katie sitting on a bench with our signs, but we could only stay for an hour.
But out of the hour, we got like, 17 to 20 hugs. I felt great doing it I must say. X)
But then a bitter, old, security lady was like: "You can't do this." Why? Something about selling our bodies... _gayness.
Of course we did as the woman said and threw our signs out, but what I really hated was the fact she was just GLARING at us when we sat at the food court after. I looked over 5 times and she was still like: >___>.
You could tell she was a total bitch X)

And yeah, people DID talk about us.
So?
Not like there going to remember our faces a year from now. X)
So really, I don't regret doing this Free Hugs thing at all. I was prepared for the 'what ifs'. But, you gotta break the rules sometimes to have a little fun eh?

But yeah, the trip at the mall was still fun with and without our hug signs.
It really did feel good to give someone a hug... I really enjoyed it.

...Anyone wanna roleplay?
Art trade?

Note to self:
Actually KNOW what your doing on the computer.

It's all reinstalled. But everything is gone.
EVERYTHING.
Wah.

I'm just glad that blue screen is gone.
It feels like a huuuuge bitch slap to the face.
;___;

...and yet, I feel pretty optimistic.
I didn't have much. _{but old art, old post, and itunes. ;~;}
Boooo.
What a whore.

P.s: I wanna roleplay. I'm so BORED.

-Edit-

It seems in the process of restarting the whole system, my speakers nor sound will work at all. I tried unplugging and plugging back in every cord I could find. And no, my computer is not at all on mute or it's volume turned all the way down. (Why do they even HAVE that troubleshooting page?!)
Would anyone know how to enable the sound cord or read this hardware? Or would you know any case like this that you could give me a few pointers on?
Fixed I had to extract the audio things from this folder.
I'm thinking I need to do the same thing to my scanner...

I also have a bit of a problem with Itunes.
Has anyone ever purchased music from there and had to move to a new computer?
I mean, I put in all my account info and I'm staring at my previously bought songs.
Now how in the world am I suppose to get that group of songs to my new, blank itunes?
Should I just plug in my ipod or will the automatic syncing totally wipe out my ipod?
Someone, please, I need answers!

If you guys don't know how to do any of this, just ignore this update.

Also, my tablet is acting weird. It moves really really fast, what's up with that? guuuuh. I hate reinstalling EVERYTHING. DX
and my scanner won't work.

Everything is fixed.

P.s: Louis is gunna be here in 11 days! AYYYE! MINE. *cling*

Hello my duckies.

Well, I'm back from the middle of nowhere. It was actually quite fun, but you know that feeling of getting back home and sleeping in your own bed? Yeah, I love that feeling.
Anyways, while I was up there, I didn't have much time to draw. I only drew one thing but I do plan on spending more time playing with my tablet and OpenCanvas. There my new affair. that and the Sims 2 for the Gamecube.
Do you know how hard it is to play the Sims, draw, AND talk to someone at the same time?
It's quite difficult. You should try it.
And I swear, I cringe everytime I see those Sims get off the toilet and not washing there hands after. I don't know why. I'm a neat freak like that.

Wait, I was suppose talking about Tennessee!
That was great! We hiked in the woods and saw alot of nature, went swimming behind the cottage, and went on a party barge.
I got hella sun burned. X)
Now I'm peeling. But it's sal'right!

As you guys may noticed on my title, I'm gonna be gone soon again. I need to do a Free Hugs Campaign at the mall on July 5th with a few friends of mine. I think it's gunna be a blast! I will also be gone for two weeks spending time with Louis on the 13th. Now THAT will be fun. I'm so anxious.

I might submit a few more things before July hopefully, I've been really into my tablet! I've also been in a commissioning mood.

I also feel I NEED Gem a more...actiony outfit. (I'm keeping the skirt one, but she can't fight perverts and dinosaurs like that!)
"What about that sketch on your past journal?"
I don't like it ><; I feel I'm making Gem look like a boy.
I don't want to make her look like a boy, but I don't want to make her look like a woman (busty, tight clothing).
I was thinking leggings and a jacket...
Any Suggestions?
I would love you forever. ;;

Oh jezzum my family is bugging me. ._.;
My mom has been bringing me down with mentioning my depressed Paw Paw over and over again like it's my fault but he told me it was my Mom's fault but he told me not to tell. She also kicked Paco (my chihuahua) out of the house because she brought some other dogs in the house and Paco started marking his territory. Now she bought him diapers and she's yelling at me, telling me my dog is my responsiblity. Yeah, this happened ALL when I was on vacation. It makes me a bit sad so I've been kinda locked up in my room till now.
She's a butt head and she's depressing meeeee.

Other than that I feel great! I love that new piece I added for Angel, I think I out did myself.
And I got much to look ahead from! I just got a few speed bumps with my yappy mother.

Anyways, thanks for reading this if you did.

That's right. I'm gunna be hiking and swimming all this week. It's gunna be sweet fun.
Bad thing is I won't have my computer. Because we are in the mountains, but it's really good to have this computer time right now. I've had been internetless for a few days really because I just moved in a new house and AT&T are really slow. Boooo. But I'll be occupied. Yaaaay!
I might even draw more too so that's the ticket! I actually need to color a few Team Curse pictures...wow I'm lazy.

That bad thing is, I did actually draw something, like, good...on Paint. Hah, but it was on my other computer...that doesn't have internet. And I didn't have a CD. Oh, cruel fate.

Ah, but once I get back, you guys have something to look forward. OH YAH.

So yah, I'm just giving you guys a heads up why I'm not on the computer so much. To tell you the truth, I'm going to have a really busy summer. I mind as well make the best of it! It's gunna be great!

Oh, and just a wonder: Has anyone heard of the movie Paprika? It's by the dude who made Paranoia Agent. It's friggen awesome. Watch.

Well, I'll miss you guys, and of course just note me for important things or news. Love youz and be looking forward for some drawings.

Yeah...for vacation on Friday the 13th.
Dun Dun Dun.
Ah well, catch me in Tennessee. It's gunna be so much fun and nature like. I love you nature.

Anyway, it's about time I update my journal. Nothing much is really going on. I got out of school, I passed with all A's, and I won a free computer.
How did I do that? Freshman are hella' spoiled.
Okay, so we had a raffle but still. It's great.
I'm gunna sell it though because I really have no use for it. Bulky monitor and still has a Floppy Disk Drive. OLD.
So, be looking for that on Ebay. Which actually, I think I'm going to be going through some of my old things and sell them. I love organizing too. I'm serious.
But with all seriousness, I don't think you guys rightfully care.

No one really talks to me anymore on this. No one even comments or actually takes my real art serious. The anime and Sonic communities depress me with that. But, I don't think I'll quit. Just makes me feel odd when all my Sonic art gets like a crap load of faves and comments and my real art is like, "Oh...it's okay."
Really though, don't worry, I'm working on something awesome in OpenCanvas right now. It's gunna be super. The thing is, I really have no idea how to use my Art Programs. I fail at being a digital artist. D:

I've been lazy to I must admit though. I mean, I'm preparing for a few things.
Tennessee Trip
Louis Arrival
Drama Camp
and Free Hugs Campaign...which I REALLY wanna do. I'm trying to convince a few of my friends to do it with me. It's so dang heart warming.
International Free Hugs Day is on July 5th. Keep that in mind!

Oh, and I'm moving into a new house.
Ho' crap I get my own room.

Anyways, I'm pretty happy, being lazy these couples of days while working a bit on my computer picture. Really, I'm not making a big deal at all out of, "Y WONT U GUIS LISTON?" It's just awkward. Like being some old actress dieing for attention. HahHar.

So...tell me.
How is everyone else's summer?

That's right! After this week, I have about 2 more weeks.
Wow...I gotta say, this school year has gone by so fast. I did have a lot of fun being a freshman though. Actually, I went to the award ceremony just the other day and I won awards in:
English I
Algebra I
Art
Speech
MS Studies
A & B Honor Roll

So yeah, I'm really quite proud of myself.
But, I do admit, I did have a HUGE break down the next day and I was just angry at EVERYTHING. I was a bit sad today because I needed to talk to someone in particular...and so I did and I'm so glad that we got to chat. I must admit, I got really emotional. XD How embarrassing.
Anyways...

I'm finally working on my last project! That's right, LAST project in Art. Thank God! I'm so tired of deadlines and certain topics to draw. My last project is, of course, self portraits. Oh Jeezum.

Hopefully, I can get some doodles of Sonic stuff up sooner or later. I REALLY wanna draw Team Curse. I feel very guilty, it's hard enough to catch a conversation with them! We need to talk on those personal forums I do say.
But, I also wanna draw more Gerrick and Neon! Especially Neon. I love that flower man, and he really needs more attention. I mean, a very nice character design and quite a quirky, paranoid personality. Now that's my kind of man! Wait? You mean he's a plant? Oh, okay, never mind. Cindy still wants to gnaw on Angel's head though.

I also am aware I have an art trade, but please, do give me time. It's almost the finishing day of school and I need to keep most of my concentration on my work.

To put how my life is in a nutshell:
I feel quite positive and happy now, a bit paranoid and working on my school work now, but sooner or later, I should be updating more with my Sonic sketches. Love you guys! Keep it Swingin'.

P.s:

IFLU<3

I'm feeling pretty good actually...
I just came to make a journal. You know, a journal...
Okay, I also made this journal because I really wanna say sorry to the people that I hardly talk to anymore. D=
I noticed some people lose a bit of patience with me because I don't comment or say hi anymore... Yah, you can totally blame that on me. DX
I have been so wrapped up in Art I and my personal projects that I hardly have time to do anything for you guys. I feel bad that I don't say Hi that much. I fear I might lose my team and everyone that actually comment. I guess I just wanna say, I feel a bit lonely...
I'm gunna try and comment more on things and hurry up with some art, which ACTUALLY brings me to a new subject.
My Art...yes, you guys know I do most of my art in colored pencils now...well, I dislike that. ...well, a bit. Why? Because everyone respects digital art now. I feel like the black sheep out! And not the cool one out. But, I wanna try and make some digital art...but please guys, I NEED YOUR HELP!
The programs I have are:

OpenCanvas4.5
Corel Paint Shop Pro Photo XI
PhotoImpact XL
MS Paint (ORLY!?)
& a Bamboo Tablet

I have all this stuff to edit my work with...but I have no idea how to use it! How to outline, how to use layers, I don't know! DX
So, PLEASE, if you can: Help me determine what these things are and how I use them. If you can also find some understandable tutorials, that would be AWESOME.

But, I have actually been feeling quite good for myself! I just had PMS. Because everyone needs to know that. Ah well, I'm an open person. Speaking of which. I'm actually working on my own "Shout It Out!" picture. I know, I'm so behind on the band wagon but stfu. I have been planning this since I saw a few of them come out. The other week I just started writing down stuff about myself. Ah...I'm about half down the page in a 11 font? |D;
I don't care, it's so fun! I NEED MOAR INFO.

Oh! And a note for tomorrow:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOU LOU

Praise him dammit. I know he can be a noob sometimes, but he's my noob and you gotta love him. But, He's 16. SO GIVE HIM A NEW CAR OR A DRESS OR SOMETHIN'. SWEET 16 GIRLFRIEND.

Speaking of the conversation of Louis...
Just a reminder for me and anyone who ask:

I'm visiting him June 22-July 1.
O YAAA~

( Wow...I feel a pay way too much attention to him...which is possibly true. ;; )

....Speaking of close people, where is Roxi/ Caitlyn?
I haven't spoken to her in like...a month? 2?
And why aren't you ever online Stacie!? DX
DANGIT!
HOW CAN I STALK YOU GUYS WHEN YOUR NOT ON?!? DX

But Seriously, To Stacie: I wanna show you a sketch I made. It's like...the best Angel I ever drew ( Seriously, all of the other Angel's I have drawn came out noobish. I know. I drew them D= ) and for a surprise, I was able to add Gem in there! HO MY SNAPZ I'M IMPROVING. No...not really. But shut up. XD

Let's see...Oh! Report Cards came out!

Algebra: 99
Art: 100
Keyboarding: 100
English: 96 (YUS. 'A'. WIN<3)

And so far, My GPS is: 97.5
...I like to say I have a 98 though X'DD

Well, In all news, I'm doing good! I just had a mood swing on how many people are starting to put me in the dust because I don't talk....I'll try and be active again. Someday. I'm truly sorry though. But, I'm not sadden. I'm happy! ...Well, sleepy more like it. Damn you Algebra homework! >=C

Well, I love you guys.
Keep it swingin'

P.s: I GOT A MUTHA EFFIN' WII~!!!
...I strained my arm so I can't play right now

http://GemTheFennec.deviantart.com/journal/17411819/ Wed, 19 Mar 2008 14:33:24 PDT

Damn, I wish it was April. >:U
Or like...Summer would be much more awesome.
Ugh! I'm on vacation, but I feel like I I'm going to school the next day! I'm actually REALLY tense and off from Art projects I gotta do this week...but I can't.
I need oil base acrylic paint, BUT, my mum got really mad at me and rushed me out of the house. I wasn't thinking straight either because I had just woke up and I didn't have my contacts in (I have crappy sight) when I went into the store and I got water base paint DX YAAARGH~!!! I'm so angry about that. I totally messed up on my picture now. ;;
I HATE painting so much...I love color pencils, but when it comes to painting, I just struggle so much with it! Hopefully I can get some decent paint tomorrow and I can fix that. I really just wanna finish painting the most of it now. I must admit, I was foolish to put so much detail in it. XD; Aye me.

That's not that only thing though. I was one out of 6 people to do a sketch for this "Doodle 4 Google". My idea is coming out to be a bit of a '....blah'. I need to sketch an idea tonight and finish it before Tuesday.

Man, do I feel pressured! ;

School is doing pretty good though. My exams were easy and my scores were pretty high. The only score that I punch myself about was that English grade: 87. Luckily, I was able to drop my lowest test and assignment grade and also get a free 100 so my grade is alright. I think my grades will look like this:

Algebra: 98
Art: 100
Keyboarding: 100
English: 96

Basically, I strongly know I got all A's this semester. Only one more 9 weeks! Aye!!!
Oh! And while were on the topic of school!
I got into Advanced Drama!
Not to sound so full of myself, but I think I did a AWESOMESUPERSTAR performance on my monologue!
I'm so proud of myself...

I'm also kinda bummed because I was suppose to see Louis this whole week, but my cousin had that heart condition and all and~ yeah. But, It's okay. Hopefully I can get these dumb projects done Dx I'm so tired of bringing paint home!

Speaking of which...My cousin is doing alot better! he needs 4 months of rest now. Sadly, we don't think he can work again. I mean, he can talk now and get up and walk, but he really needs to rest. He has Marfan syndrome so...that's pretty bad ]=. Wikipedia it you lazy bums, don't ask me what it is. D=
My dad also needs to get a desk job. That's okay...but, he won't be getting the money he use to make...well, as long as he's working, I think all is well.

With Art, you guys are STILL gunna need to wait. XD Unless you want me to give you guys another art dump, I suggest you guys have patience with me. I'm in a bit of an art block and I feel so so little on what I can only draw. I'm just feeling bad for myself. Bad me DX.

Anyways, I'm still busy and being a lazy tard at the same time. I wish I had ACTUALLY free time with a free mind. Oh, and what also stinks: Brawl came out. I don't have a Wii. Louis has a Wii.

Louis+Wii+ SSBB-Hillary= FUN(-Hillary)

UUUUGH >:C (I'm actually laughing, don't take me so serious )

Anyway, all is fine. Just plain piled and tense.
Well, Love ya guys: Keep it swingin'

P.S: Anyone hear about the new Skye Sweetnam album? I ordered it from Canada the other day. I'm just listening to samples on Youtube. I LOVE EET <3 Why can't Canadians ship faster?! *Kicked by Canadian deviants*

P.S.S:
[link]
You know it's funny.

Well, I should say how I am...Valentine's is over and all. It was good I must say!
But, I haven't been feeling as active to actually draw or write anything...

You see, my dad had a heart attack not to long ago and had to get surgery to put an artificial pacemaker in. He's fine now (Praise the lord!), just, it's sad to see him so wounded for now...
He might not be able to go back to his job either! He might need to get a desk job...and the bills are going to be painstakingly high...I'm trying to not think about that now. The important thing is that he's safe and that it won't happen again!

But, for my 20 year old cousin... we don't know. You see, this morning, his heart busted. Yes, BUSTED. Or that's what my family said. The hospital sent him to Houston, Texas for surgery...I dunno.
I didn't know him that well, but by God, there is so much drama with hearts and doctors.

So seriously guys, I'm gunna be in and out on the internet. I'm not much in the mood to answer notes or finish art trades. I'm really sorry for the breaks I'm taking. But I gotta get up in School and stuff, which I'm acting doing pretty good in:

Algebra: 99
Art: 100
Keyboarding: 99
English: 94

I really need to raise my English grade. I'm not so good at English as you can kinda see...
Oh! Which I wanna bring up! Another reason I am inactive:

I'm trying out for Advanced Drama.

You seriously don't know how much this means to me! I love broadway! The stage! Plays! I NEED this! Thus, I am trying out. So I am studying my monologue up and down. Bad thing is, I have been thrown into the sickly bandwagon of the sniffles and coughs.
That's right, I'm sick, and with a hoarse throat.
But! My idol, Micheal Cerveris I have you know try out for his first audition with a hoarse voice--and still got the part!
He's so awesome. That talented bald man.

But, I'm okay, just a bunch of personal thing going on and trying to succeed the best I can in school. If you'd like to talk more, please feel free to ask me or just add me to your messenger. I'm mostly there all the time.

But, alas, I am tired of a long day. I need some sleep. But, I'm really okay. No worries please. Just a rough patch. Things will turn out brighter soon.

P.s: Yes, I am trying to work on some art for you guys. Especially Team Curse. I have a great Idea for a picture!

"Two years and still lovin'!"

Ah! Yes! It is!
Oh, It was only two years ago when Louis and I told each other our feelings! Louis went first though...it was really sweet. It then blossomed into a strong relationship we have now. I am so happy it has gotten this far. I know some of you might have doubted us through the days, but listen up doubters!
Were still livin' and kickin'! Our relationship is still going strong as ever!
I'm really surprised though...I mean, this far without any doubts in our thoughts about each other...it just makes me love you even more Lou. Ah, I know I'm going lovey dovey 'blech' on you guys, but it's it's true. Louis is my one and only. I have annoyed him sometimes with how paranoid I got and how worried I got with things, but he really cares, and that goes with me to. I care for you Lou.
The fact we also got to lay in each other's arms and kiss was just as grand too. It's not the way you kiss me or hold me, it's the way you treat me and help me deal with things. Without a doubt, you have been by my side without snapping at me for whining once. I love you Lou...and for this day, let's raise our glasses and wish for the best to make this 2nd year into more years to come!
I Love You! My one and only.



For side notes. Really sorry I'm slugging on roleplays. I'm trying my best in school and trying to do some personal projects, so please be patient with me! I'm gunna be text messaging a few people too, with homework and all, it's hard to actually get in the mood, but I'll be on my YIM and MSN... I always am. Haha, well, I'm just taking a small break I guess...but I really wanna talk to my Team Curse. I kinda feel spaced out from them. Not saying I'm quiting, but just saying, let's get the chance to talk Angel and Roxi! Sometime or soon! I miss talking social like with your guys. Call my cell or note me! I'll always have time for you guys too.
Anyways, my grades are doing great and I'm trying to mail things out.
[Yes, I have a picture, but it's on delay to put up, because it's Louis' gift and that would be weird to put it up before I send it. It's a surprise!]
And I will be working on Roxi's gift. Do wish her a happy birthday! She's not dead yet! I promise!

Well, Happy Valentine's Day!
Hope you will get to hug the one you love or talk to! If you can't find love, love your friends! Valentine's day is about loving and caring for people you like and enjoy in your company! Go love those people! ...Or just eat chocolate if you don't believe in that!

P.s: I want you guys to read this. My friend wrote it and it REALLY changed my perspective on things...
This is NOT a chain letter. Please don't steal. Do read and enjoy:

"Hate-to dislike intensely or passionately; feel extreme aversion for or extreme hostility toward; detest

Love-a profoundly tender, passionate affection

Doesn't it just feel like carpet burn when someone hates you just because they can? I think so.

Well, they have the right to hate. But just because it's permissible doesn't mean it's beneficial. What good is there in hating someone? Does it entertain? Make your life more glamafied? I think a Mean Girls quote would apply nicely here.

"Does calling someone fat make you any skinnier? Does calling someone stupid make you any smarter?"

I've hated people. I've been mean, dishonest, and rude. But here I am with knowledge of truth and a different heart. I don't feel the need to hate. Most likely because I've found true love. Love that conquers all. Love the movies could never compare to. God's love.

I might sound like I'm exagerating, but in all honesty I'm not. Check it out in the Bible. It will rock your socks. " -Juleah, A friend from school.

Even if your religious or not, just think about the other top words. I am indeed religious, but I understand you others. It makes... ]]> ~GemTheFennec http://GemTheFennec.deviantart.com/journal/16696725/ http://GemTheFennec.deviantart.com/journal/16696725/ Sat, 02 Feb 2008 20:08:54 PST

Weeeeeeeell. Much is better in Hillary's world.
Sorry about my little, freaky, emotional freak out. I thought it was time for a small break anyways. The real thing is, I just don't feel much inspiration to draw right now...what I feel like doing is roleplaying~! DX
See?! I just fixed up my Roleplay page: [link]
Now I just need to draw a decent picture...
Hopefully I can make one when I have the time! ...Or actually feel like it.

But, back to school worries.
I got my progress report and goodies like that:
Algebra: 99
Art: ???
Keyboarding: 99
English: 87

Oh, what relief I felt when English came! I know, I should be getting better, but, I could have sworn I would get a D or C! But man, was I just happy...but still! I don't take kindness to 80's! I ordered my OWN personal text book (Teacher won't lemme check out a book for one day. Takes a limb and an arm to get one).
Ask for Art...I dunno what I have in there. I got that 40 and 0 on one assignment, but hey, keyboarding I got a 30 and 70 on one thing, but the rest were 100's! ...but God and my art teacher only knows what I got on my first project. .__.;
But, I'm doing good really I must say. I just had a very high sensitivity week there, and there wasn't really anyone to tell (Or complain) to.
No more worries my friends! No more!

Hm...can't think of much more to say but:
Grades in school are: Okay
Art will be on hold (Until I have a blast of inspiration at least)
My mood is in a optimistic yet content state, but would be happy to talk
and I would really enjoy a roleplay.

Well, thanks for reading and caring!
Keep it Swinging!

-Your new best friend,
Hillary

P.s: The music on Plant Kingdom on Sonic Rush Adventure is...highly addicting.

Uh....yeah, you heard me right my friends.
Since the beginning of Monday (My Birthday), I've just been feeling a bit...depressed. I really don't know why! I don't want to be sad, but, I can't help but get teary eyed over the littlest of things!
One reason I think I'm sad is because of my grades. I know the questions and answers but, not how to set it up. My English teacher is very confusing and when I set it up wrong, it does a damage to my work. I get really mad at myself for anything under a 85. I'm suppose to be a straight A student and I'm just getting so confused on my assignments. My art teacher gave me a 0 for a drawing a leaf wrong. I have no idea HOW I could get a 0 on just a few wrong leaves. I mean...anything higher than a 0 would have just been cheery, but I got really really emotional over my sudden bad grades. I'm scared, very scared at how my mum will think of my grades. I'm scared at how these sudden bad grades can damage me from now to the end of the 9 weeks. I feel horrible and stupid for my unsuccessful grades and it just nips me inside with depression and tears...
But no, I'm not going to ask for your sympathy. I just want to point out how I feel now and that I don't exactly feel the push to be active on here.
Of course, I will respond to notes and sometimes comments but, for now, I'm trying to do the best to raise my grades. I can't stand the sight of me, myself getting a bad grade. It's just sick to me.
That's why I've been so quiet and sad at school lately my school friends. As you guys know, I'm happy and cheery, funny I guess you can say. But, have you guys noticed I've been more sucked into my work lately, a bit whiny, and just more quiet? I hate when I'm like this...I'm dieing to be happy again, but also get the chance to bring my grades up.
For now:
I'm going to do all my work.
Not lose a day of school.
Talk with my ASAP teacher to see if he could pull a few strings for helping me raise my grades.
and Study.

One more thing that's kinda bringing me down...
I don't have much inspiration to draw.
I actually need a new sketch book, but, I just feel like I can't draw now. I feel it difficult and tiresome right now.
So, just don't expect much work right now...

I can't wait for Friday.
We get to take off Monday and Tuesday for Mardi Gras.
I need to draw something for Mardi Gras...Ill try my best.
Might be late, but, you guys know how I feel right now, right? I'm just tired...I need some rest and peace of mind.

Please don't worry about me. Even if you don't, ah well. But, I'm actually really fine...I'm just in a rough patch I need to work out. I need to find my peace and get back to my normal self. I need to let all my tears out all at once instead of trying to hold them back at the one moment I'm smitten with sorrow. I gotta stop being a cry baby. Jeez, I just turned 16 and I feel like a wreck...I need to get myself in order.

But, I'm sorry for the depressed journal, just pointing out I'm not feeling good and I won't be very active.

P.s:

I'm showing off.
Your awesome *chao-chao

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay~!
The day I came into this sack of surprises and fun called the world!
I know many won't pass by.
But I appreciate birthday wishes.
All-in-all really, I'm glad of what I have already.
Friends, family, love, treasures, and a pocket of dreams!
...not to forget the cake.

Anyways...
Happy Birthday to Meeee~<3

Ah, you heard it from me!
I had an awesome time with Louis! We got to ride roller coasters, walk on the beach, and play the Wii! A lot lot more but I don't think you guys would want to read much.
But I had a lovely time with him and his parents.

With school... I got back on Tuesday and I realized English is a butt. It's the way she teaches I guess. I got a 25 on one of the assignments because I set it up wrong. I was like...crying XD
Hillary does not get lower than a 85! But, my progress report was 81 (rest of my assignments were 100's) and it other classes they were above a 95. I guess that's good, but like I said, a lot of studying hours should be pumped up because of my choice of classes this semester.

Any art?
...I got doodles! XD
I would submit them in my scraps, but no one seems to acknowledge my work anymore. So, yeah, I'm just drawing kinda for myself now almost. I only see a few people now that are still with me. Ah, it's okay. It's because I don't comment right?! XD
But, in due time, I should have something new up...soon...maybe.

Oh, and a note to Gem's Profile: [link]

Yaaaah...I don't ask much from you guys on this profile, but, a bit of support would help on this. >< Everything is true and no, she did not self label herself with anything...so...let's just hold hands and take peace with what I wrote on Gem.
She's a 12 year old loony fennec who lives in a mental home with a imaginary friend that isn't as really as she thinks...

So, I'm doing good, just a bit of stress on my shoulders with school and people, but, I'm doing okay. Well, Peace! And Keep it Swingin'!

P.s!



New look?
Yup! Outfit 1#!
Quit your complaining. You can still draw her in her old look, I don't care, but I think she looks much more better like this. She's new but not blane or that detailed if you look at it close. I mean, the colors are going to be basic still and you'll get a better look when I make a better ref. I hope you guys like! And don't hesitate to punch me if your tired of her updated looks
Oh, and I KNOW this is like Kuniko's new look...but, I'm thinking about taking Kuniko down or just giving her a new look...no one really acknowledge her anyways...and Gemmy Teen's look started the trend first. *Referring to early art post*

P.s.s

Her skirt and long sleeve outfit is her Outfit #2 look x.x

Yeah, I'm leaving with my Grandma on Friday to go California!
Yeah, I'm missing two days of school.
Bad me! But it's worth it!
Oh my Louiey Lou! Here I come!
That's why I'm mostly going. My grandmother has a fashion run thing to find clothes for her dress shop, but I get to spend time with ~SionKitsune. Oooooh, My Lou.
Man, am I gunna' be tired on Tuesday! *Doesn't get back home until 12:40 AM but is still being forced to go*
But yeah, just one more reminder:

Friday 11th - Monday 14th.
I will not be on DA.
Not like you guys care though.

Oh! and my birthday is...
JANUARY 28TH!!!
So, at least wish me birthday wishes if you care much.
But, whatever, I'm just as bad at saying happy birthday.

And there will be a shortage of art from me.
I have a tiny art block.
And my School schedule is a looney bird.
Oh God, this semester, I have:
Algebra
Art
Keyboarding
English

Art is okay...the teacher is a mean poo head though.
Ah well, if I could stick with it in Biology, I think I can do okay in Art .
Anyways, that's pretty much it. Oh! I did get your gift Caitlyn! ILU *Clings Tails plush and covered in Gwen Stafani stickers*
But yes, she sent me some wonderful sticks, a very shiney necklace, and a fancy Tails doll she fixed c: (It had a few holes, but she sewed them up pretty nicely!) One of the best quality Tails doll I received yet! I also got a few drawings from her, which I love, there going on my wall right now! Thank you soooooo much ~RoxiVioletstreak! I'm also glad you enjoyed your gift too *AngelTheHedgehog! Keep your toes and heart warm with the pony and socks! As well as the locket! If you haven't guessed yet guys, yes, it does kinda connect to each other!
"Best" "Friends" "Forever"
I'm such a dweeb, but, I need to get you guys something better next time.

But, all and all, much love to you guys! My mind is going pretty smooth and happy. I just hope you guys are taking it cool too. Take it easy and keep it swing'in guys!

HAPPY NEW YEAR MY FRIENDS~
*Smells of smoke*

Yep! I like spending New Years with my dad. We get to blow up stuff! And this time, my uncle brought this pulley things you pull at both sides and it explodes, and it was really fun! My cousins were a joy to have over! Anyways...I should be saying my resolutions!

- Actually study for school
- Improve in drawing realistic and cartoon
- See Team Curse (They pushed me )
- See Louis every chance I can get
- Get more into an acting program
- Put more effort in looking pretty (ier?)
- Ignore and over come my nuisance
- Draw more Team Curse and gifts XP
- Actually help if anyone asks (I tend to try and help without permission DX)
- Enjoy Life as much as I can, and grab ever opportunity I can get my hands on


Really cheesy at the end, I know, but it's true. You just can't live life being so paranoid and low down. If you have a chance to reach towards the stars, then take it. Take your head out of the gutter and look up to a brighter sky!
I'm so cheesy right?

But, for ignoring my nuisance, I talked it over to myself a bit...and well, it's true. I shouldn't be worrying. I worry about what is to come...I'm a hypocrite aren't I? I'm living closed minded. I was scared of getting hurt. Well I shouldn't. I trust Louis with all my heart, and he has indeed been true to me these past four years. I'm not gunna let this person ruin our relationship just because I'm paranoid. So, indeed, I'm gunna try and keep to my word. I shall try my best to ignore ignorance, and keep to myself. But of course, if anyone asks me, I shall try my best to help them. End~

Well, not exactly yet. Last journal was all true from what I got. I feel really spoiled though. XP
Oh! And I also got the new Sonic game for the DS!
Sonic Rush Adventure!
HURRAY PIRATES!
Very nices effects and the story line ain't too shabby!
Though I just realized. Knuckles is a crappy guardian for losing those chaos emeralds. Shame on you Knux!
I'm also trying to score an A on almost ever level...so, I'm collecting alot of material and rings and lives. I'm thinking that's a good to go captain.

For now, I leave you with a sign of peace, and I wave a flag of happiness, just to say:
Happy New Year one and all!
And hopefully, we will be able to stay friends for quite awhile, and not to forget make new ones too!
Love ya!

And a Happy New Year~
Aye, how is everyone feeling?
I'm feeling quite good myself!
So no! I'm not dead yet!

Anyways~ I wanted to say:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY JESUS~!!!
Go make ravioli and throw confetti on the bushes for him.
Today we opened gifts and we went to eat brunch. We took a bit of a stroll in the city and had tons of laughs and pictures! Hopefully we will be able to take more pictures and go ice skating. I love taking pictures.
Anyways, what did I get? Only a few things (I seriously didn't ask much. I thought the NY tripe was the only gift!) ...but just enough to say I'm spoiled. That's really not all of it though, I asked for the most of my gifts from my dad! Anyways...what I got:
-A Red DS Lite
-A small water fountain
-A Chicken Noodle Soup for the Soul Book
-Sonic Complete Mega Collection for Game Cube
-Browser for my DS
annnnd
FRANK AND THE SKUNK ALL STARS: HATRED OF A MINTUE CD
AHHHHH~*Breaks windows*
You can see that I was most eager for that yes? Yeah, it's only sold in Germany, I'm just so happy I got it!

And on my dad's side...I'm just gunna guess, but I know for sure I'm getting:
-A Locket
-ANOTHER Tails Doll
-Knuckles Doll
-A Camera
-ANOTHER Tablet (Just for my dad's place )
-A shirt that says: "Free Hugs" (Yes, from the free hugs campaign ^^)
and...
I forgot what else D|;
I KNOW THERE'S ONE MORE THING.
But I did get 550$ from Grandmum.
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaay rich granny~

But! I seriously can't forget Louis' gift...one of the best he gave me yet. Inclusing his necklace of course.
He got me a very sweet quality of colored pencils! A great art set I must say! You know I'll be using that! Oh! He also got me a darling little bracelet with his name inscripted on the heart in the middle. Aye, he will be on my heart indeed. He also gave me a picture of himself, I mean, a better quality picture for framing of course. He looks sooooo Cute! He could have just given me the picture and I would have been like, HAAAAALLILUAH!~
But, I very glad for what he gave me...I need to get him something grand for Valentines Day now! I feel I slacked on my gift I gave him this year... Cut me some slack! What the hoo ha do you give a boy for Christmas!? ><

Oh, and to Caitlyn, I haven't been able to open your gift
It's been in Mississippi! Hit me, Mamma, with a wooden spoon! >.<
I will open it ASAP once I get home though!

And let's see...I really want to say to all my friend's and watchers:
Happy Holidays you guys...Do know that I care about you guys, even though I may not notice at times. I don't judge any of you for what you do or how much time you spend on me. I just enjoy you guys for who you are and how you act! And I would love to thank the people who have helped me through the year, who have given me advice and who stayed with me thick through thin. I might be annoying, but the whole lot of ya mean alot! I'm not gunna list any people well...because I just like all of you! For respecting me, for trusting me, and for helping me! You guys are too great and kind! Have a great Holiday and I hope you guys stay as sweet as you are next year!

And the one person who annoys the hoo ha out of me: I wish you much happiness, but don't mess with what I have, get your problems sorted, and GROW UP AND GET OUT OF MY PROPERTY.
And no. You guys would know which one it is. It's seriously just one person, and you would know if you made me mad or made me cry at a time. You would know if you were in my property. So, don't be pointing fingers! I just want peace for everyone...even for the person I get angry and annoyed with!

My resolutions? Now? Well...I'll tell on the 30th!
Love you g... ]]> ~GemTheFennec http://GemTheFennec.deviantart.com/journal/16021061/ http://GemTheFennec.deviantart.com/journal/16021061/ Thu, 20 Dec 2007 21:22:24 PST

Yup-a-doodle~
And the 'tarded thing is I don't have family over there!
Oh pooter sticks.
I'm leaving tomorrow.
Ogawd Planes.

I actually think I'll have a fun time. I mean, it actually snowed this year! And it should be beautiful...I shall take many pictures for you guys! And hopefully I can get a proper Myspace picture...
Mum has been checking on my myspace page, so...it gets pretty annoying. She's a meanie. Hopefully she won't find this page. Oh Gawd.

Anyways, I can't wait for Christmas! I really don't know what I'm getting this year...I just hope my friends enjoy there gifts.
It's funny really, I gave all my friends at school My Little Ponies XD
It was fun:
Matt: Uh...Hillary...seriously, a My Little Pony? No Thanks... *Looks over at Chase and Elliot*
Chase: WTF Am I suppose to do with a pony?
Elliot: My pony can kick your pony's ass >:C
Chase: BRING IT ON~ *Pony fight*
Matt: ...Okay I'll take one >>

Ehehehe, At least those guys liked them.
And I also gave gingerbread men out. They were sexy, but I think they came out bad. People said they tasted great but I thought they were under cooked. Ah, the life of my own critic~

But, tomorrow, I'm gunna see:
SWEENEY TODD
Though who isn't? XP Needs moar Toby.

But, all and all, wish me a safe trip! And I hope you enjoy your gifts ~RoxiVioletstreak and *AngelTheHedgehog!
It's not much...but it's from me. XD
I want to Open Louis' gift badlly...But mostly his letters. >.<

OH!
On a further note.
JANUARY 11TH - JANUARY 14th
I will be out to see Louis
Haha!
He's my hoe.

Now I'm addicted to this Lollipop song. x.x OH YA~!

Well...for now I give you a watered down version
IT'S SOMETHING RIGHT?!

Now that i reread it...I feel as though it's unoriginal and god modeling DX
UGH! I HATE BEING MY TOUGHEST CRITIC!
Well, be honest guys, tell me what you guys think and tell me if there's something wrong and try to help me fix it Dx
Oh...and for a bit of info:

Full Name: Gemini Reiko
Gender: Female
Age: 12
Date of Birth: 1/ 28/ 1995
Species: Fennec
Birthplace: ???
Height: 2’11
Weight: 40 Pounds
Martial Status: Single
--
Eye Color: Left: Blue, Right: Green
Hair: Dyed red, Blue bang stands atop
Fur: Creamy light yellow

-Gem did live in a small, mysterious village ruled by a king. It's long gone now. But, I need a name for it...REALLY BAD D= (Offer's plz?)

-This can mostly describe Gem's nativity about...stuff...like Cameras and Game boys and electronics. D| She's book smart but she does watch alot of TV.

-Cindy still lingers with her.

-Gem DOES have a list of mental problems/ diagnosis. I did list them...but my computer shut off and I need to list them again DX. One of these are:
Bipolar.
She has a cute and naive side (Side she mostly uses) and then in a battle or a serious issue, she has a more...mature and serious stance. (Prolly the control of Cindy)

-Gem can be too awkward and open to things that make people mad!

Oh! And:
Feel free to ask ANY questions about Gem on anything.

Now...Story time:

Okay, well it first started with Gem’s mum, A Gypsy, and her father, a cobbler (Shoe maker). They got married and peacefully raised there son for 3 years. They were losing money so Mum had to go back to her gypsy ways, until the king saw her, falling in love with her body and what she had to offer. So, she became his mistress for quite awhile but, disparate for money got paid to support the family…then, she happened to get pregnant from her foolishness. The father was totally naïve of what she had been doing, so he seemed cheerful and happy while it was killing her mum on the inside. Well, the king and the mum agrees to let the daughter visit regularly to see her father and brother, the mum would be saying she was one out of the few girls to be a maiden to live at the mansion. Well, the day of the birth finally came and well… the king was horrified with what the baby was. Pupil less eyes and deformed, blacken burnt wings was the first thing that popped out at him. He was appalled, but knew it was his child since she had the royal emeralds in her hands. But still, he thought she was spawned demon from how her mother was a gypsy dealing with witchcraft. So, once all is rested and clean, he immediately kicks the mum and baby out back to the lower class home with her father, banishing the baby and mum from the mansion. Well, 5 years passed and the king was getting older, the queen had died and there would be no one to run the village after…so he takes consideration back to the gypsy and his only royal daughter, hiring someone to assassinate the father and marrying the mum. Now, during those 5 years, Her ‘father’ had thought Gem was a gift from Heaven from her damaged wings and bright eyes, and Gem had grew close to her ‘father’, learning how the little things count, to be courteous and optimistic about things, and to be creative. Once her father dies from a mysterious murder in the dark alleys, she realizes she lost the closest thing to her and to make that crumble, having to move in with the King. During this time of a moment’s peace, her mother was pregnant again with a 3rd baby. Gem didn’t like the king at all, seeing how he was paranoid around her and never made contact to show affection. Her brother enjoyed the life style, getting to be trained to be a solider and earning many friends. Gem on the other hand, was treated like she was some kind of quiet but deadly zoo animal, having to keep to herself most of the time but; She did indeed meet her new friend, her new friend that almost knew everything and seemed very understanding at the time…Cindy. Cindy was able to tell the gender of the unborn sibling and how she would be when she grew up…and how Gem would live happily with a prince. Gem despised the first few days of private school, getting into a name calling mess, being kicked around from her lower class past and odd features, and getting in a huge fight on the third and last day. So, the King hires a Tutor, his closest servant and solider…Beatrix. Beatrix was a kind heart back then and always enjoye... ]]> ~GemTheFennec http://GemTheFennec.deviantart.com/journal/15799384/ http://GemTheFennec.deviantart.com/journal/15799384/ Tue, 04 Dec 2007 20:14:45 PST

Yes!
I suppose so!

First!
I got my Love Musik CD! I cannot stop listening to it! I love it so so much! I think broad way fans with a huge range of love in the arts of broad way would love this, especially if you love the story of Lotte Lenya and Kurt Weil! Oh! And my favorite actor, Micheal Cerveris! (Which I doubt some of you know who those people are. )

Second!
I...GOT A TABLET!!!
Yes yes! Maybe some more digital art from me?! But for now, I'm going to enter a few more traditional art works, I'm just getting use to my tablet, and it's a toughie for me, but I drew like...3 SKETCHS!
Which you guys might never see!

Third!
I GOT OPENCANVAS BACK!
Yes, I lost it like...a year ago. RIGHT WHEN I BOUGHT THE SERIAL CODE, my computer shut off forever and never came on! Once I got another computer, I lost my serial code! So, I went OpenCanvasless for a whole year (Excluding the trial I had). Well, last week I found a way to reissue the code. My mother and I were able to find the paying information from that year and sent it. And now...I HAVE IT BACK! MY SERIAL CODE! OH SWEET JESUS!

So, It has been quite a good one for me...except...I had my Biology State Test on Monday! What a stress! I am very nervous! I do hope I did good! It's so stressful when that teacher really teaches nothing and this comes up. Geezum!
Aside from Biology, which I have a 92 in, I have all 100's in my other classes! A very very great goodie!

Home life...is okay. I mean, just a lot of yelling and unnecessary stress. When will it end?! But, I am able to live through it, even though it does get on my nerves a big time.
I've also been having a personal hate for someone growing more and more...only one person knows, but it really hurts inside. And I just wish this person would...ugh, I don't know. They have hurt me a lot in the past, and it just drives me to a shaky lane now. But, I have confronted my trusted friend, which I feel should only keep this secret, and they told me not to worry...so I won't! I might have my doubts, but I don't think i should get it in the way of my life. It would totally wreck myself and everyone around me!
But...tell me, if you hated a person like this, this much, what would you do?

Anyways, i also wanted to say about Tim Burton's new movie, Sweeney Todd: The Demon of Barber of Fleet Street.
All I can say is: I AM ANXIOUS!1!!
Why? No...Not because of Tim Burton directing...and no, not because Johnny Depp is in it. Jeezum you fan girls .
It's because it was a broad play I was able to see! And it was one of the best I saw! And yes! Micheal Cerveris was in it! But now, the play is no more...boo hoo.
but, I am eager to see what Tim Burton has done to it, and how Johnny Depp sings.

"Attend the tale of Sweeney Todd.
His skin was pale and his eye was odd.
He shaved the faces of gentlemen
who never thereafter were heard of again.
He trod a path that few have trod
did Sweeney Todd
the demon barber of fleet street.~"

...I hope they have that song. ;~;

Oh! and before I go! Louis and I will see each other on Christmas break. Hopefully of course, if I can ACTUALLY make my grandmother tell a truth this time. Which...I'm pretty much forcing her in. But, I will be marching my booty down to see him c: ...so...BE HAPPY FOR US!
AND BE HAPPY FOR ANGEL AND ROXI.
BECAUSE THERE MAI TEAM
AND THEY NEED LOVE AND NORI MAKI
GET IT TOGETHER BAY-BEH.
*Organizes gifts I need to send*
Too...many...responsibilities. D=

...now I want Nori Maki ;~;
Why does Nori Maki need to be so far away from the South?

And everyones (Well, almost) is mad at ~SionKitsune and I...
And it's only Monday!
But, Yes. Lemme explain. A long while, I gave Louis my password to check my messages when I was out of town. Well, It began on Oct 23. Then, he strikes again yesterday. Yes...I was quite surprised myself. He went on a rampage I swear he did... I thought it was quite funny but he did offend a few people...which makes him a very bad boy. *Hits him on the nose with a newspaper* But, I did want to say I'm sorry for that happening. Especially to you, Stacie . But...I'm not changing my password. I know, but hopefully, he has learned his lesson not to go that far! *Whacks him again*

Blah. I might be doing that "Shout It Out" bandwagon thing...it looks cool and a way to express, well, myself! None of you know me! I don't even know myself really...huh.
I also am working on group pictures for Christmas! So...everyone who thinks they are my friend, say something! ^^

But, now I just feel like everyone is pointing there gun at me. But, I'm not depressed. A bit off from one subject, but I talk over that with other people. I'm good! I'm happy! Just, a bit off....I don't like going back to school!

Oh! before I leave, tell me what you guys are getting/ hoping for Christmas! ...or Hanukkah! ..or what ever you celebrate!

Hm...sure could use a piece of Louis right now...

"Speak low when you speak, love
Our moment is swift, like ships adrift, we're swept apart, too soon
Speak low, darling, speak low
Love is a spark, lost in the dark too soon, too soon"
[link]

Oh Micheal Cerveris, you have the voice of a angel.
And I cannot wait to hear you in the broadway soundtrack Love Musik.
But for now, I need to listen 30 second tease. Boo hoo...
Ah, but I saw the broadway play three times, and it's still fresh every time. Too bad it's not on broadway anymore. I miss it.

Anyways, I have been quite well, I have the whole week off from Thanksgiving, and I just wanted to wish everyone a...

HAPPY THANKSGIVING~!!!

Ahhh, I'm not drawing a picture for this. Only because we are like, totally skipping this holiday already. Seriously, once October was over, everybody started putting up Christmas decorations. I wish I was gunna be home for Christmas...but I'll be in New York. AGAIN. I do hope to see Louis though in January hopefully. So, wish that luck.

Hm, now in art work wise, I have worked hardly on anything! I do have this one picture I'm working on, working inch by inch...but I have nothing to color it. So, once I'm done with it. I'll put it in my scraps and you guys can color it.
Oh, and com'mon people, I put stuff in my scraps too! I already put three things up and I think there great! Reason I didn't put it in my main gallery was because they would have never gotten colored or were on bad paper. I am planning on finishing one of them too...
I need to make Team Curse Art work. I procrastinate so much on it, but with Christmas coming up, I need to get my friends something, which I would not lack on...I mean, it's Christmas~! You should guys know not only am I a dentist in my profession, but I am a elf! A Christmas elf!
So....*AngelTheHedgehog...*RoxiVioletstreak....What do you want for Christmas? DX *Facefall*

I am Louis's bitch and I worship him more than life itself!

(Louis may have stopped by here)

Why Howdy doo my friends and visitors~!
How might everyone be? Good I hope.
I have been doing quite fine myself.
the skit from 2 weeks ago went good! The acting was good, we made a few quirks but hey, it was in front of a bunch of 2nd graders! XP
But yeah, I was the lead role, Dorthy!
There were other lead roles...but I had to remember more lines and what not!
And with the talking of school, it has been good. I still worry about Biology but what's new about that, eh?

On art wise, I might start a little comic of Gem's story or start writing her story!
Exciting yes?!
I had the plans and story board for the first part of Gem's comic but...I lost that journal oddly...it should turn up soon I hope. But, even without it, I got a idea of what to do.
And, I need to draw more.
I have! But, I need to get into the habit of drawing my old characters again wouldn't you say so yourself?
I think so.

And in other news, I'm trying to hack Louis' account. I'm watching him on this account... I swear!

But, yeah, That's about it...but, one more thing. I so wanna do this one day:
[link]
Hopefully some of you have been inspired...
It literally almost made cry. Not from sadness, but, it is very touching for me...

P.s:
Louis is my bitch.
MINE. Not yours.
Now, shove off.

LOUIS WAS HERE!!!

Ya...what my title says is oh so true.
It didn't work out so well in Louisiana.
With being a bit closer to my mom, she got really moody for one thing. But, the main reason I left was because they had 7 CLASSES. I was on the block plan at my school...so out of that whole year, I would have gotten...like hardly any credits, because I took 3/ 7 classes (1 of the classes I took didn't even count). But, as I was saying, When I passed to Sophomore year, I would need to take 2 Englishs, 2 Algebras, 2 World Geographys, and possibly 2 Arts. So, I would need to work very hard in Sophmore year for a whole semester to keep up. I did not wanna do that... Now, I live in a empty house with my brother, across the street from my grandpaw...and I feel fine. I must admitt, I am sad I left my grandmother, my sister, my step father, and my mother, but...It's for the best right? And I need to watch my grandpaw now, he needs company bad. But, if I went more into detail, I'll be called emo or something. But, no, I am not sad. God works in mysterious ways and I know he worked this out for me for the best, and I can see how indeed. So yes, I am quite happy.
Hm? Why is my Emote on 'Tense'? Well, I actually have good news.
I am very busy for the next week and I must practice for a skit I'm in. Hey! it might be a little skit for 2nd graders, but it's what's in the momment right? And the fact I got a major part is just great for me! I also must concentrate on my Biology and note taking. I mean, for missing three days, you can miss a bit!
Oh! I also got my report card:
Nutrition: 98
MS Studies: 98
Biology: 92
Speech: 100
And I actually got on the Principal's List!
I'm glad I made a 92 I must admitt, his test are tough!

I've also been tense with...eh, you know that feeling you have when you see someone and it just kinda makes you sick? Or that feeling when you see a certain someone with someone else it just makes you want to cry or possibley go on a blind rage? Eh, I'm half of that feeling now. I remember I made a journal on it, and yet I still feel it. I hate the feeling, I don't want to dislike someone...but, just how we met and came to know each other...also makes you want to question how they think of you. Aye! I should shut up. I just don't know what to think, I don't hate them...just have a very paranoid feeling about them and get angry at some of the little things they say or do, just because of something they did to hurt you in the past...like, hundreds of times. BUT! I will not treat this person diffrently from others that I love. I'm just super senstive and protective and paranoid.

Well, All and All, I'm doing fine. A bit shook up from this week, but I'm fine. Sorry for being lazy and not answering the last journal's comments! I'll try to answer these ASAP...once I get my main computer hooked up (On step father's computer).
Reason I have also been inactive because, I'm doing what a few of you guys said the other day and trying to get my mind clear and off of worrying about my art. I have had only a bit of time to do that, but, when I did have that time, it was relaxing...so, sorry for being slow and all.
I have been drawing a little. Mostly Cindy with Gem (Sorry fangirls/boys, not Yuri...). If it was Yuri, I would not have anymore hope for my art. But, I'm going to try and draw more Team Curse (See? I'm trying to practice drawing more than one person in a art piece!) Gerrick, My other characters, and more action like poses...and work on my backgrounds. I also want to make a alternative look for Sion(oh yes! Please do!)...yes, my project. Don't make me get the mace out girls...

Hm, I just noticed, I feel a bit more relaxed today than usual...Wish me luck on Friday's skit...I'm going to need it. My throat feels a bit rough.
But for now:
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Be Happy

...From a hooome. Not a account...I never knew why so many people switched accounts just because they hated there name. I found that quite weird. But, as I was saying:
Yes, It is true. Hillary has moved her location and is moving into Louisiana...Bleh, I'm gunna be in a part where people are so snobby... I don't like snobs. Hopefully I can find someone nice.

Life has actually been...Okay really. I had my share of laughs and lots of nights with 5 hours asleep. But, It's been fine really. I've just been worrying about this whole moving thing, with making new friends and all...but if Stacie can do it, I can too!
Hopefully my computer will be hooked up and I can get on it...maybe. I will call it officailly moved in tomorrow.

I've also been feeling very low brow on my work. I know I should care about my art, even when it seems like everyone hates it...but I can't help it at all, I see so many defects in my work, and I don't need some so called rater going around and rate my work. I joined Deviant ARt I guess too...well I guess show off my work and meet new friends on the way, which I most certainly did! Some people I am also jealous of too! And mad at! Don't wanna be but it's just like a kanker sore! I made the whole pack I guess you can say! But...DA Is just kinda getting, bitter sweet to me. I feel like my art doesn't belong on a place like this, and there are too many other artist that deserve to be on this. I'm not saying I'm going to quit Deviantart, maybe I'm just trying to say is...well, I guess I need a bit of a break. I mean, I should be able to draw what I want whenever I want and not need to worry about posting something up.
Oh! I also want to at least get some proper Bio's up for my characters! I mean, Gem's seems a bit God Modeling in a way...and some parts I just wanna change. I also want to give her a alternative look (For when she's at least out of the academy. Her red look has been her oldest and signature look). And I mean, I still didn't make a bio for Gerrick, Amanda, Sophie, Neon, or Beatrix! I also want to get right to her story!
I guess I'm just trying to fix the railroad tracks to my art. I really want to get into some original art as well! But...It puts me in deep thought...and I still haven't thought of something! So...yeah.
In conclusion to what I mostly said, I really just need to take a break and get my art and stories back on track, and I will try my best for that to happen soon.
I would love to thank the people who have stayed with me thick and thin, who have been with me through my ignorance stage, to the people who have enjoyed my 'over happiness' or spazztic expression, and to who have beleived that I am well in my art. I might think I'm not so great, but to the people who have backed me up to tell me my art is great, I'm very happy to know.

Now, just because I said all that stuff doesn't mean I'm sad. Not. at. all. I'm quite happy actually! A bit tensed but happy! Plus, I just don't wanna seem too spazztic...heheh, people have been getting onto mean. What's so bad about being happy? Emo Power Rangers~!
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Ahem, but, Yeah, Life is treating me well, and I will have my quirks in life with moving and going to a new school to having paranoia and jealousy problems with a few people...but we can learn to get over that right? =] I know I can...I wish I had a witty quote to say...I miss my Team Curse and Louis and friends.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:

» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

» Personality:
» Art:
» Comments:
» Character Designs:

WHAT ABOUT US:

» Who are you?
» Are we friends?
» When and how did we meet?
» How have I affected you?
» What do you think of me?
» What's the fondest memory you have of me?
» How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
» Have I ever hurt you?
» Would you hug me?
» Are we close?
» Emotionally, what stands out?
» Do you wish I was cooler?
» Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
» Am I loveable?
» How long have you known me?
» Describe me in one word.
» What was your first impression?
» Do you still think that way about me now?
» What do you think my weakness is?
» Do you think I'll get married?
» What about me makes you happy?
» What about me makes you sad?
» What reminds you of me?
» What's something you would change about me?
» How well do you know me?
» Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
» Do you think I would kill someone?
» Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

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