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]]> ~GenticDesignForDying http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/12297112/ http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/12297112/ Fri, 23 Mar 2007 13:27:06 PDT
This morning, im extra happy! Besides the fact next week its my birthday, and this time next week i'll be in a hotel room, in victor harbour! yay! My 'friend' is taking me away for my birthday for 3 nights! how totally awesome?!?!

Also, i haven't spoken to my husband much lately, and i got a message from him this morning!!... Its so awesome! i really hope he i okay. I was hopin this move would make him happy, but apparantly it hasn't so far, which isnot cool. i'd do almost anything for him.

But yeah, i have to start getting ready in half an hour! lol, im going shopping today! yay! im finding clothes for when i go away! so im very excited! faye's comming shopping with me, then about lunch time, or when ever it is raph gets up, we're gonna meet up! lol.

I really couldn't be happier at the moment. Everything seems to be going great! Its wierd....lol

anyways, i'l talk to you all later!

]]> ~GenticDesignForDying http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/12106702/ http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/12106702/ Thu, 08 Mar 2007 14:02:49 PST don't you all feel lucky.

Sorry 'bout the bad typing, these laptop keys suck!!

Anyways, i can't believe how happy i am! is fucking scary! i don't remember ever being this happy, it's so wierd!! lol. yeah......you heard me!!

i know it sounds horrible, but breaking uo with mike was the best thing i could of done!!.....its horrible, but what ya gonna do? i feel bad for hurting him, i really do, its not something i ever wanted, but some things you just can't help.

plus, there is this other person, and he is so fantastic. he makes me smile no matter whats going on. He is always there to talk, or give me a hug, or just be there. When the morons at school are pissing me off he is the first person i'll go to too stop myself from killing some of the people at school.....cause im realy to kill all the morons i have to go to school with.

But.....*sigh* lol. He just makes me smile all the time. Iwake up and smile......its scary, im always fucking smiling, if i saw me, id wanna hurt me, cause im so happy and its sickening.

And on the plus side, yes it is my birthday soon, in about 3 weeks. i'l be 17!! hell yeah! how awesomecore am i?!?!?!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!! im going shopping sat with my mummy!!!! oh yeah! shoping!!!!...yay!!! and hopefully, i'll be going away for the weekend for my birthday!!!

im excited, and hungry.........hmmmm.....what to eat?!?!.......ima go look, then ima get credit!

catch ya!

]]> ~GenticDesignForDying http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/11804444/ http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/11804444/ Tue, 13 Feb 2007 19:47:36 PST
first and formost, i broke up with mike. we were arguing too much, and i just didn't feel the same any more. it was very hard, dunno how to explain how much it hurt to have to do that. i would f surely broken down and not followed through if it hadn't been for Adam, Mick and Chels. they have been awesome.

despite having been at school and work, and having wor the nextmorning, she came over to see me, and hang out and stuff. it was awesome. she was so god to me, i'll never know how to say hank you.

Mick has been a great listner (well they all have)
he justsort of accepts everything whether he likes it or not.he has been great.

Adam has been my advice dctionary, and my hugs. lol. and he helps me do the right thing for me, even if at the moment its the hard one.

i guess im mostly writting this to clear my head, which i will do later with a friend.
i dunno what to do with mike though. i need my space to clearmy head so i know wat it is i want, and what my heart is telling me.

]]> ~GenticDesignForDying http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/11202072/ http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/11202072/ Tue, 26 Dec 2006 15:03:48 PST

lol, i got credit, and I've been talking to a few people. Although i wish my husband would talk to me....more than likely he is still drunk, lol.

Christmas was almost great, spent the morning with me boy, and his family.

Spent mosxt of the day with mine, i was gonna stay a bit longer till Eb came, but my older brother ruined it by being the jerk he is. He was alright at the start of the day, but he got bored, so thought it's be fun to ruin mine.

I ended up eating Christmas lunch/dinner with my mum (she came in with me) inside away from every one cause he upset me. But thats why i love my mummy so much, she does stuff like that.

So i left early before anyone else got there, 'cause jamie was upsetting me, and if i stayed much longer i would of cried! but it got better, 'cause mum took me back and i spent the night with my boy.

I'm trying to spend lots of time with my mum. It'll be much easier when Mike's back at work, 'cause then i won't be upsetting him, and stuff.

But yeah, Christmas was awsome.

I hope everyone had as much fun as i did.

Yes, i got presents, and i loved them, but that wasn't what made the day great. Also cause of a long story (i'l explain later) i have to get my 'big' present after christmas.

OKay, 2 story's which make this journal essintial.

Story 1: Eb and i grew up together, as she livid next door, she's a couple years younger than i, but she looks and actsthe same age, so it makes no differnce. Her brother and her were heaps close, her brother was close to everyone in his family, and him and his girfriend had been together almost 10 years. He died on the 16th of dec. It was very sad.

Story 2: My mum was moving back from interstate, and her car broke down, 'cause her to pay 300 dollars for a rental to get here in time for christmas, whihc is why im lacking 1 present.

and that would be all.

Merry chirstmas and all the best for the new year.

]]> ~GenticDesignForDying http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/11079997/ http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/11079997/ Sat, 16 Dec 2006 03:43:45 PST
I never felt this alone....I've got no credit to try and talk to anyone, and even if i had credit, who could i talk to?

I feel lost, i kinda wish i were lost, at least that would give me an excuse, but no. I dunno, something went wrong somewhere.

I think it was just me.

I dunno what to do. i Need someone to save me.

I dunno who to talk to, or who to trust anymore.

plz, just save me.

]]> ~GenticDesignForDying http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/10729841/ http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/10729841/ Wed, 15 Nov 2006 02:36:20 PST NAME: Angela Kimberley Deas
AGE: 16
BIRTHDAY: 1st April 1990
BIRTHPLACE: QLD
CURRENT LOCATION: Adelaide
HERITAGE: Pluto
EYE COLOR: Blue
HAIR COLOR: Don't know
HEIGHT: 5'1
PIERCINGS: Tongue
TATTOOS:None
WHAT COLOGNE/PERFUME DO U WEAR: Evoke strawberry (tastes like strawberries too!!!....don't ask me how i know that)

*FAVORITES*
COLOR: Blue, Black, White and purple
MUSIC: Rock
SPORT: Swimming and surfing
HOLIDAY: The one coming up!
FOOD: All of them!

*THIS OR THAT*
HUGS OR KISSES: Hugs
PEPSI OR COKE: Pepsi....MAX!
MCDONALDS OR BURGER KING: Hungry Jacks all the way baby
CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: Chocolate
LOVER OR FIGHTER: Lover
FRIENDS OR FAMILY: Friends
LOVE OR MONEY: Love
LISTEN TO SOMEONE TALK OR TALKING: Listening
PERSONALITY OR LOOKS: Both!!...lol, nah, im gonna go with the normal answer, personality...

*IN A BOY/GIRL*
EYE COLOR: Blue...
HAIR COLOR: Mike's color
SHORT OR LONG HAIR: Long
HEIGHT: 6'1
STYLE: His own
PIERCINGS OR TATTOOS: Both!
HOT OR CUTE: Cute



*FRIENDS*
WHOS UR BEST FRIEND: Matt, my husband, Adam and of course mike
WHOS THE LOUDEST: None
WHO HAVE U KNOWN LONGEST: Chels
WHOS THE SHYEST: My husband
COOLEST FRIEND: Adam
PRETTIEST FRIEND: My husband
WEIRDEST FRIEND: Matt

*LOVE*
ARE U IN LOVE: Yes
IF YOU'RE NOT IN LOVE NOW, HAVE U EVER BEEN: ...
DO U BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: No
LONGEST RELATIONSHIP: 6 months
WOULD U GO OUT WITH SOMEONE JUST FOR THEIR MONEY: Never
DO U GO ON "PITY DATES": I did
KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: Ya
SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: no
EVER CHEATED ON A B/F OR G/F? BE HONEST: Yes!
LAST PERSON YOU KISSED: Mike
LAST PERSON YOU HUGGED: Mike
TOLD U THEY LOVED U: Mike
TOLD THEM U LOVED THEM: Mike
TALKED TO ON THE PHONE: Mike
LAST PERSON YOU YELLED AT: Mike
BROKE UR HEART: James
SAID THEY HATED YOU: Forget
YOU TOLD U HATED: Forget

*RANDOM QUESTIONS*
DO U DO DRUGS: Never
DO U DRINK: Yes
DO U WANT TO GET MARRIED: Yes
DO U WANT TO HAVE KIDS: Dunno, probably not
DO U BELIEVE IN URSELF: sometimes
DO U THINK UR ATTRACTIVE: Sometimes
WHAT STAR/CELEBRITY DO MOST PEOPLE SAY U RESEMBLE:none
WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE U SAW IN THE THEATER? WAS IT GOOD: Can't remember
CAN U HANDLE THE TRUTH: Yes
BIGGEST WEAKNESS: naive
BIGGEST FEAR: Mike
MOST MISSED MEMORY: Hanging with lots of friends, and always being busy
FIRST THOUGHT WAKING UP: I love you mike
IF U DONT RECOGNIE THE NUMBER ON UR CALLER ID, DO U ANSWER: Ya
HOW DO U WANT TO DIE:I won't die
DO U GET ALONG WITH UR PARENTS: Yes
DO U SWEAR: Not a lot
NUMBER OF PAST THINGS U REGRET: Too many

]]> ~GenticDesignForDying http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/10728560/ http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/10728560/ Tue, 14 Nov 2006 21:49:27 PST
I'm helping a friend out....i used to do that a lot, I'd always be the person people came to with problems.

Maybe they stopped because i had problems of my own. Oh well.

My husband is coming down this weekend. I want to see him so bad, i wish i could explain it. Besides Mike and Matt he is my best friend. I miss him so much. I don't think he knows, or maybe he does, and he is focusing on making his new life work.

I could never try and explain it too him, for fear of 2 things. 1) he doesn't care. 2) he cares enough for it to make him unhappy. Either one would make me feel worse.

Mike says he cares for me more than i know, and that the only reason he didn't tell me he was coming down was because he didn't wanna get my hopes up because he is really busy, and in case he can't see me.

Mike also says that if i were older my husband and i would have dated, because we were very 'compatible'. I do admit we got along very well, but never that well, mike also says sometimes he gt jealous or my husbands and my friendship, and how much we cared for one another.

I miss seeing him, and working with him. We would spend entire shifts laughing, and stuff. And when things went wrong for him, i helped him when he had to work. I made sure he ate, i got him chocolate (cause its better than therapy and cheaper)

Mike always cheers me up, and I'll feel much better when he gets home. I always do, i still miss my husband though. I love him so much.

Thats enough talk about that for now. Tttyl

]]> ~GenticDesignForDying http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/10669230/ http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/10669230/ Thu, 09 Nov 2006 13:51:37 PST
I will admit i have a pretty comfortable life, I have a fantastic Boyfriend whom i love, I have friends at the school i go to, which i do well in. I have a steady job, it does have crap pay, but while I'm still at school, I'm going places, not many people can say that. I have money to do what i wish with, and I have a good family. I have some of the best friends i could ask for who are always there in time of need.

But i didn't just 'get' this, contrary to popular belief. I had to work damn hard for everything. I had to work hard for all of my friendships, and my relationship with my boyfriend. I have to work hard to get all of my good grades, and it means a lot study time, i work hard at my job, and spend a whole year working practically non-stop while going to school, and let me tell you, its fucking easy!!!!!

So, to all you people out there, bitching cause some people have what you want, I'd like to remind you, they worked very hard for everything!!!

]]> ~GenticDesignForDying http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/10654718/ http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/10654718/ Wed, 08 Nov 2006 03:30:44 PST
One would be my 'Husband' (long story, and on going joke) and the Other my Boyfriend, Mike, both of whom will be spoken a lot about.

My husband, he is the greatest person alive, but he is also 10 years older than me (we're not actually married though) but we're very good friends. He moved, i miss him so much. He is comming down next weekend, but chances are he'll be too busy to see me and i don't know if its good or not, 'cause its also Mine and Mikes 6 months.

We both have the weekend booked off. Mike is sleeping as we speak (or as i do at least), i couldn't sleep, dunno why. Probably 'cause of everything going on with my dad, it occupy's my mind more than i let on, no one acctually knows, Mike kinda understands, but im pretty good at not letting things show when i don't want them too.

Feels like im losing grip on a lot of things, but i still have some of my closest friends which is good, and i still have mike who will always be there for me. Sometimes i think my head would explode with out him, he keeps me going, through everything, i love him so much.

Wish i kew what to say sometimes, i feel as if that i can't say the right thing, and makes me feel bad. Oh well, enough of my emo journals. lol

]]> ~GenticDesignForDying http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/10644028/ http://GenticDesignForDying.deviantart.com/journal/10644028/ Tue, 07 Nov 2006 03:54:28 PST

The rules:
List 11 things you want to say to 11 different people.
Don't say who they pertain to.
Feel free to comment, but don't confirm or answer anything.
Never discuss it again.

But...i think i may do more than it says....okay, i will...and chances are i will break most of the rules above....... but rules were made to be broken right?

Also, I'm going to add a phrase from a song by each comment i think suits the person, or how i feel about them, or something i think they should listen to

[01]
I think you were ment to become what you are, why do you think you need fixing? If people don't like you for who you are now, why bother, there is no point trying to change what you are.

You’re never gonna change inside by lying through your teeth
What about you take the chance, and do things differently
Forget about what others say and create something new
Then you would inspire and they would follow you
Imitate - The White Room

[02]
I regret what i did, and i'm sorry. Things didn't work out the way either of us planned, but im very sorry about that, sometimes i wish it did, just to see where things went, but im happy now, but i still regret us not being as close as we were, i miss our D'n'M's, they helped me a lot, i hope in time we can be as close as we were before.
Everybody, everybody, everybody livin' now
Everybody, everybody, everybody fucks

Everybody, everybody, everybody livin' now
Everybody, everybody, everybody sucks

Everybody, everybody, everybody livin' now
Everybody, everybody, everybody dies

Everybody, everybody, everybody livin' now
Everybody, everybody, everybody cries
Viloent Ponoagraphy - System of a Down

[03]
You have made me more happy than i could of ever imagined, theres nothing more i would like to do then to spend the rest of my life with you.
And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls

[04]
You hurt me so much more than any person i will ever know, and it still didn't bother you...I'm glad your our of my life now.
In this hole
That is me
Left with a heart exhausted
What's my release??
What sets me free?
Do you pull me up just to push me down again?

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy?
Happy? - Mudvayne

[05]
I've never loved someone the way i love you, I've never been able to tell you, or anyone else how much i really care, probably because im scared of it, i can't imagine you not being there, i wish i knew what you feel for me.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
My Immortal - Evanescence

[06]
Why can't you at least pretend to care occasionly, your approval means everything to me, and you can't even pretend, not for the sake of me, or your family?! What have i done that makes you so dissapointed in me. Do you not know how much i look up to you?
There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary
My Hero - Foo Fighters

[07]
I don't even like you, so why do i pretend to?! Why do i care about you, and your life, if i don't like who you are anymore?! Your gonna fail, and i don't care. i don't care when you don't call, i don't care when i don't see you, i cringe when i know we're gonna be near each other.
And everything I can remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I stretched myself beyond my means
Its been a While - Staind

[08]
I need you so much, and everytime it seems we're getting close, you get taken further away from me, and if you didn't care it would be so easy, why can't you be as horrible as everyone says you are?
I wanted you to be with me
For so long I don't even know why now
But now that I've given up on you
Defiantly you see me
Forever Gone, Forever You - Evanescence

[09]
Why do you love me like you do? When we both know i don't feel the same for you? I love you, but just not in 'that' way, i think your fantastic, and i think your a great friend, but i will never lo... ]]> ~GenticDesignForDying