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What I have done, do, and can do: (Whatever you wish in the RP simply tell me.)

Settings tags: (Like realms, and the like.)
Alternate Universe
Celebration (A party, ball, and the like...)
Comfort
Costumes/Regalia
Fantasy
Friendship/Platonic
Historical
Horror (Ghosts, killers and the like...)
Rivalry
Robot/Droid/Cybernetic
Sci-Fi
Spirituality/Religion
Violence (War, fight clubs and the like...)


Mature tags: (What it will come to sex, and the like.)
Anal
Animals
Anthro/Furry
Bestiality
Bloodplay
Body Modification ( To a point.)
Bondage
Cross-dressing/Gender bender
Erotic Nude
Flexibility
Fisting
Frot
Gender bender
Guro (To a point! I do not enjoy extremes.)
Humiliation
Incest
Inflation/Male Pregnancy
Kemonomimi
Master-Slave
Masturbation
Mind Control
Multiple Partners
Non-consensual
Oral
Orgasm/Cumshot
Rimming/Salad tossing
Sadism/Masochism
Shounen-ai/Soft core
Shojo-ai/Soft core
Shota (To a point.)
Slash
Sounding
Strangulation/Asphyxiation
Tasteful Nude
Tentacles
Toys
Voyeurism
Yaoi/Hard core
Yuri/Hard core
Yiff

Those are simply what can occur or not... I just enjoy just about anything.
Now, for characters: I will pair just about anyone... I have not played all these, these are just those I like.

Devil May Cry: (Rusty, will most likely not do...)
Dante
Vergil
Sparda

Digimon: (Season 1 and 2 please.)
Tai
Matt
T.K.
Joe
Izzy
Mimi
Sora
Kairi

Dissidia: (Most likely not going to RP this, until I get this for Bailey.)
Sephiroth
Kuja
Zidane
Cloud
Squall
Warrior of Light
Cecil
Emperor

Dynasty Warriors:
Just about everyone...

Final Fantasy (All): (Just about every single pairing... I am not stuck on one.)
VII: ((Crisis Core, VII, Advent, Dirge.))
Sephiroth
Angeal
Lazard
Cloud
Zack
Cid
Vincent
Sephiroth 1 (Clone)
Kadaj
Yazoo
Loz
Nero
Weiss
Reeve
Red XIII (Nanaki)
Yuffie
VIII:
Squall
Zell
Quistis
Irvine
Laguna
Edea

IX:
Kuja
Zidane
Blank
Freya
Vivi
Beatrice

X:
Auron
Lulu
Braska
Kimahri

Fists of the North Star:
(I would have to look it up again.)

Fruits Basket:
Yuki
Kyo
Ayame
Shigure
Hatsuharu
Hatori
Ritsu

Ghost in the Shell

Gundam Wing:
Heero Yuy (an alias, not to be confused with the assassinated leader)
Duo Maxwell (also an alias)
Trowa Barton (another alias, he was known as Nanashi (No-Name))
Quatre Raberba Winner
Chang Wufei

Halo:
(I will include RvB in this. only halo 1 and 2 )

Hamtaro

Heavy Metal (Heavy Metal 2000 as well.)

Howl's Moving Castle

Interview with a Vampire

Inu Yasha: (Early show third movie and before.)
Sesshomaru
Inu Yasha
Koga
Miroku
Shippo

Jade Empire

Jak and Daxter:
Jak
Daxter
Torn
Sig

Kingdom Hearts: (I and II)
Sora
Riku
Leon
Cloud
Yuffie
Xemnas
Xigbar
Xaldin
Vexen
Lexaeus
Zexion
Saix
Demyx
Luxord
Marluxia
(I know several are missing... for reasons.)

League of Extraordinary Gentlemen

Rune Soldier

Macross (All of them.)

Musashi

Okami:
Amaterasu
Okikurmi
Samickle
Waka

Poke... ]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/24453546/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/24453546/ Sun, 26 Apr 2009 20:35:48 PDT
I allowed AIM to update, and it SUCKS! I lost twenty people from my list, most were good friends! I've lost some logs, but I am not sure how many, and with what user. People randomly go offline (Or it looks that way) and they really are not. And they are not invisible! This is frustrating! And people randomly come online, when they are offline! I lost so much information! I can not tell who is on! I am seriously about ready to reinstall the whole damn thing! Has this happened to anyone else? If so, how did you deal with it?

Please, if anyone knows, because I do not want to lose what logs I have already.

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/24334005/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/24334005/ Sun, 19 Apr 2009 20:56:55 PDT
I and Bailey are in an agreement not to spend too much time online. I caused certain problems to arise, and I have taken a step in making this engagement last. Anyway, as of late, I have a large amount of work to be done in my classes. I decided about three weeks ago of my degree, and I am less than a year and a half away from completing it. My grandmother is rather excited of my plans, but the rest of the family is not. But that matters very, very little to me now. I have almost extricated myself from my family because of their ways. I realize now, that I can never hope to please my mother or anyone else around me until I am pleased. And actually, I am working on it, with Bailey's help of course. Bai has made it clear to me what she thinks of me and what I am doing, and her happiness is all I need at the moment. That is not to say however, that I do not miss my friends. Because I do so terribly, and increasingly more so. I wanted you all to know, that I love you all, and I will return soon! I am working on a number of projects for myself and for Bailey. But until my two research papers, five essays, and four more large tests to complete, it will be difficult to complete anything now. But I will say this, as soon as they are done, I will see you all again! <3
~Brittany

P.s.
Also, I have recently became infatuated with Gundam Wing once more, and I have been watching all the episodes... Oh how I missed the old good animes...

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/21814834/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/21814834/ Thu, 04 Dec 2008 12:19:21 PST [link] ], stop by, even just to say Hi!

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/20319371/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/20319371/ Thu, 04 Sep 2008 05:46:54 PDT
Offical Rules:
What to Do

The point of 'Shout it Out'was to share things about myself I usually don't share with otherpeople, be it something I'm scared of telling for fear or rejection orthings I'm proud of but never express. ^_^

This is your chanceto put things down on paper whether it's good, bad, or in between. Justremember - part of the project is the things listed are true. Liesaren't necessary here. ^_^

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I say I'm okay, but I'm not.
I hate the fact that I love too much.
I love her enough to give my life to keep her close. And make her happy.
I want my mom to be proud of me, for who and what I am... not just because I'm hers...
I still love Debi and wish her life was easier for her.
I still miss Halie, everyday...
I still look in the mirror and see the me I hate... the me I tried to kill.
I STILL WANT TO DIE! AND THINK ABOUT IT AT LEAST TEN TIMES A WEEK!
I love my dog, Beau... More than I can imagine.
I smile when Quincy growls, it makes me happy.
I pamper my cat... Because she doesn't need it.
I don't know what I want to do...
I want to be laughed at, pointed at, yelled at, cried at, anything... Because it is some sort of attention.
I place too much into relationships... They are everything...
I want my Rabbit back...
I hate my body, but comfortable in it most of the time.
I get a rush when a gun fires in my hand. I feel powerful.
She plays with my hair... And it makes me happy.
Love... is a word I use alot... But Adore... is a word for those that are the special ones...
I love Stevie, Rita, Mara, Kitty... but I adore Bailey, Debi, Jesika and Emanuela.
I AM A MANIPULATIVE, HARSH, CRUEL BITCH! And... I know it... And most times... I'm not sorry for it.
I am addicted to sex or masturbation... but no one knows how much.
Your life is not worse or better than mine, I don't need to hear it over and over again for more pity pats on the back.
Life is different for everyone, you don't need to compare everything.
...I am not very sympathetic or empathic as I seem to be...
I don't cry much anymore.... Only at a very few things....
Holding hands can be more intimate to me, than some kisses.
I'm a cuddler...... bad.... And I have to kiss the forehead at least once.
I can explain, and lay out a way to solve a problem, or soothe, or make a plan... But I can never follow it myself.
I wish nothing but the best... but never expect it to come true.
I am afraid of failing my grandfather...
I know I don't live up to what 'they' want from me.... and I never will.
I am not really a seme... I'm a switch, but I do it to make her happy.
They say I look happy... I guess I've gotten better at hiding it.
I'm not good at anything... I just am lucky at times.
I miss late night drives with Halie, going to places with her.
I miss being 'Bunny and Chu'
I love being told that I matter... But I always wonder if it's true.
I never imagined, I'd live to see 21.
I've changed my view of what I think I am.... But... that changes everyday.
I do dream.... But I never tell anyone what it's really about.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
...
I hate feeling like a cheap whore.
Gods, I wanna cry so much... but I can't...
I miss Debs, I miss Whits.
I have a habit of looking to Halie's house everytime I pass it.
Gods, I miss her so damn much... For once... I just want to hug her again, tell her I'm sorry... But I can't... She hates me.
I hate feeling like you are never doing enough to keep someone happy...
I hate being ignored.
I hate being the odd man out...
I wish I was stronger.
I bottle up too many things, but when I talk about them... they are soon forgotten by them.
I want my mother... I miss her.
I hate being walked over, simply because I'm not good enough for them.
I hate being forced to smile, when all they do is go on and on about one thing or another.
I want my time back...even though I know it's impossible.
I want to make things better for everyone who has been in my life... And I know that is impossible.
I hate people walking away, or sleeping away. Even if I'm the queen of it.
I don't really know who I am...
I don't want to think about cutting myself in an argument, but I do...
I hate being the way I am, but it's the way I am.
Gods, I'm a bitch... a cold, ice, determinedly bitch...
I wish I coul... ]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/19742079/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/19742079/ Sat, 02 Aug 2008 20:15:13 PDT
I never really left DeviantArt... I just... Never checked it... I stalked Y!Gallery like mad, and ... all the deviations built up. Over 1,700 deviations to check, and over 830 messages.... You don't really wanna check it right off... So.. I kept putting it off... Sorries! >< I fail!

...Anyway the good news?
i went all the way up to Iowa to see Bai... And.. I KIDNAPPED HER!!! Ah HA..AH HA HAA.. AH HAA HAA HAA HA!
...nah, She moved down here with me. *huggles her* I can do that cause... She's next to me! YAY! *huggles Bai tightly*
...Anyway better news is that our anniversary just passed. Our one year Anni! WHOO HOO! Happy Anniversary Baby! I love you! <3

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/18670386/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/18670386/ Wed, 04 Jun 2008 21:19:01 PDT I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again I pretend I'm OK but that's not what gets me

[Chorus:]
What hurts the most, was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
Never knowing, what could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do


Remix by Cascada.
original by Rascal Flatts


They say
They don't trust
You, me, we, us
So we'll fall
If we must
Cause it's you, me
And it's all about
It's all about

It's all about us (all about us)
It's all about
All about us (all about us)
There's a thing that they can't touch

All about us by t.A.T.u

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/18582047/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/18582047/ Fri, 30 May 2008 18:38:17 PDT 1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most
2. Make them answer the following questions
3. Then tag three people.

.:Characters:.
Damien King [link]
Solan [link]
Shadowscrye [link]
Ishta [link]

.:Questions:.

1) How Old Are You?
Damien: ...Um... Dude, well over 500 years old... My sister Desi is the eldest... *snickers then his hit up side the head by Desira.*
Solan: All lifetimes? Um... Hmmm.... Over 1000 years... JACKY! How old am I? *tilts head*
Shadow: 20 now. 21, three months.
Ishta: ...You should know better than to ask a woman her age! Hmph! *crosses arms*

2) Height?
Damien: .........Tall enough to pick up Koya, and not worry about his tail.
Solan: 5'5 ...I'm little! ^^
Shadow: Does it matter? 5'11
Ishta: *sighs* 5'6

3) You got any bad habits?
Damien: .....Ask Koya... He'll know them all. My main one is annoying my sister and kids.
Solan: I... tend to whimper a lot... And cling to Jacky when he doesn't want me to...
Shadow: ...Being to military-minded. And upsetting Blair when I don't mean to.
Ishta: Yes.... Let's leave it at that... not good to tell everything!

4) You a virgin?
Damien: ...GOOD GODS OF HELL! NO!!!!!!!
Solan: ...*blushes* No! Jacky loves me very much.
Shadow: ....*Looks around, making sure his dad and mom is not here.* ...No.
Ishta: ..Omg... NO! Are you serious? NO! ...Wait... am I? *thinks* ...NO!

5) Who's your Mate/Spouse?
Damien: ...My dearest darling Koya. Husband after so many wonderful years. I love you, Koya!
Solan: He's my mate forever... At least... I sure hope so.. My wonderful Jacky.
Shadow: Blair... He will be my husband in time...
Ishta: If I was to listen to my other.... Bailey.

6) Have Any Kids?
Damien: ..Yes! Blair and Lavender. Koya and I are so proud.
Solan: ...*Nods* Yes... A beautiful baby girl, and a little pup.. Soon I hope to have more!
Shadow: ...No... I was a kid not too long ago... But one day I hope to have them with Blair.
Ishta: ..Not yet.. One day... There will be children.

7) Favorite Food?
Damien: ...Whatever Koya cooks... damn that man can cook... Surprised I'm not fat.
Solan: Um... I really really like sweets... CHOCOLATE! ...Even if it's not that good for me.
Shadow: The way make father makes steaks, and mother's pancakes.
Ishta: Spaghetti.

8) Favorite Ice Cream flavor?
Damien: ...Um.. whatever I can get on Koya.
Solan: Um... A mixture... But I love strawberry!
Shadow: Mom makes a really good strawberry, chocolate swirl....Mmmm....
Ishta: ...Caramel.. or strawberry... or Mint chocolate.

9) Killed anyone?
Damien: ....Yes... I am not proud of it now... But I did.
Solan: ....*looks away and slowly nods, sadly.*
Shadow: ...yes.
Ishta: .....*Looks over at her swords and guns.* ..Um... noes?

10) Hate anyone?
Damien: ...Yes... But Koya has slowly gotten me to relax...
Solan: *Shakes head.* ..Not really... just... I don't like the trouble makers I have to sentence as king...
Shadow: ....Those in the village that still hold to the old ways... and want to hurt my Uncles, myself, my sister and laven, my Blair... Just because of who we love.
Ishta: ..Oh yeah. Doesn't everyone?

11) Any Secrets?
Damien: ....Yes... My Koya will never guess his anniversary presents!
Solan: ...*Nods* ..I've tried to be open with Jacky... But somethings worry me...
Shadow: *Nod nod.* ...Yes... I will never tell Blair all the things that happened at Military school.
Ishta: ..OH yesh! Seriously... who doesn't have some?

12) Love Anyone?
Damien: ...Happily married. So... YES! I LOVE YOU KOYA!
Solan: Yes! I love my Jacky so very very much.
Shadow: *nods* I love my Blair.
Ishta: With my otherself, Bailey.

13) Tacos?
Damien: ...Love em.
Solan: ...Um.... Depends... NO tomatoes!
Shadow: ...Mom makes them well.
Ishta: ..OH HELL YEAH!

14) Ever slept in all day?
Damien: ....When I was injured and Koya helped me.
Solan: ...I used to have to to heal... And now.. Being a King.. I can't.
Shadow: No. Waist of time that could be spent helping, or doing something for my father.
Ishta: Bet your ass!

15) Eye colors?
Damien: Red.
Solan: Blue white.
Shadow: Red and Gold
Ishta: Red.

16) Hair?
Damien: Long silver.
Solan: Short... ]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/18171435/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/18171435/ Sun, 04 May 2008 20:01:45 PDT .>

2) Male/Female: *lifts shirt* ...BOOBS!

3) Were you named after anyone?: ....No... My mother just thought of a name.

4) Does your name mean anything?: No... I am just a region in France.

5) Nick Name(s): Brit, Ishy, *Babe*, DemDem, Demyx, Marluxia, Marly, little sister, OH! ... Ema's little kitten.

6) What do you think you look like: Um... my jackass of a father where ever the hell that bastard is...

7) Date Of Birth: August 20, 1987

8) Place of Birth and Current Location: Dallas, Rand(Kaufman) Texas.

9) Nationality: Irish, German.

10) Astrology Sign: LeoVirgo

11) Chinese Astrology Sign: Hare

12) Religion: Raised Baptist, now, unknown.

13) What’s your favorite smell?: Vanilla Rose.

14) Political Position?: .....Don't like to think about it.

15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?: COKE!!!!!!!!!!!!

16) Hair + Eye color: Deep Red, red, and blond.

17) Do you look like anyone famous?: hell no!

18) What do you look like?: Fat, Huge boobs, ugly, annoying hair, short!

19) Any unusual talents?: No... The uncanny ability to kill computers.

20) Rightly, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?: Right

21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?: Middle, Bi!

22) What do you do for a living?: Student, was a tutor

23) What do you do for fun: Rp, write, draw, play games.

24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?: Photoshop, and my tablet

25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?: Acrylics again.

26) Have you met your grandparents?: Yes, I live with them.

27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend: Girlfriend!!!!

28) Crush: No, In love is more like it.

29) What celebrity would you date if you could?: ...None.

30) Current worries?: Love, my cat, Bailey, Ema.

31) Favorite online Guy/Girl(s): Bailey, Emanuela, Luffy, Rafy, Mara, Whit

32) Favorite place to be?: Bed.

33) Least favorite place to be?: In the shop.

34) Do you burn or tan?: BURN!!!! BADLY!!!!!

35) Ever break a bone?: No, just seriously shifted place.

36) What is your favorite cereal?: Fruity Pebbles, Cocco Pebbles... some others.

37) Person you cry with: Haven't cried with anyone recently... Debi was the most recent.

38) Any sisters: Yes. Two real life... Both of which I do not speak, Then.. I have Debi, Skye, Amber, Whitney, Mara.

39) Any brothers: No... but the gurgi clan has some.

40) Any pets: Kitty (My darling Gizmo.) And Dogs (My bubba (Beau), Quincy and Sophia)

41) An Illness: Not that I know of... Doing pretty good now..

42) A Pager: Nope.

43) A Personal phone line: ..My Cell?

44) A Cell phone: Yes... Damn thing... needs updating! ><

45) A visible birthmark: Yes. TWO! Both in the shape of strawberries.

46) A Pool or hot tub: Hot tub, have one.

47) A Car: Yes. Step-Dad got it for me... Had to be just like my step sisters.

Describe Your...

48) Personality: Dork, Happy, Mopey, Random, ....So much it's too much.

49) Driving: Pretty good... and fast...

50) Your clothing style: Dressier... With really revealing shirts.

51) Room: ....IS BOXES!!!! AGAIN!!!!

52) What’s missing: .......A lot of things.

53) School: Trinity Valley Community College

54) Bed: Small, owned by my cat

55) Relationship with your parent(s): Dad... is off fucking himself. I am controlled/loved by my mom, who I do love. StepDad... Is ok.

56) Do you believe in yourself: No.

57) Do you believe in love at first sight?: Depends on the people... But Lust in first sight. Yes

58) Consider yourself a good listener: I try to be.

59) Have a future dream that you would like to share?: I want to be married and have children.

60) Get Along with your parents: ...........I have to try not to upset her...

61) Save your e-mail conversations: Gmail automatically does.

62) Pray: No

63) Believe in reincarnation: Not sure. If so... I want my bunny back.

64) Brush your teeth twice a day?: Nope.

65) Like to talk on the phone: Not really, no.

66) Like to eat?: Yes, that's why I am fat! Even if I cut back!

67) Like to exercise?: ...No...

68) Like to watch sports?: Uh..no, I used to love Nascar. Even if I still support Dale Jr.

69) Sing in the car?: Yes. Often I sing with Deb

70) What is a dream that you have all the time?: Stuff in the past, what I could have done.

71) Dream in color: Sometimes.
~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/18016592/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/18016592/ Fri, 25 Apr 2008 02:09:18 PDT I swear it on my damn fucking life, babe! I love you sissy.

Suzanne slowly flopped down on her bed, not a second passes before the body is rolled and tears soak the satin pillow. 'It's the same... All again...' She feels the pull, the want... The utter fear in something that close to death. If she was to die... She didn't want the cliche cutting or shooting... She likes drowning... The feel off the water coming in, the coldness burning and hurting. The wishes that it was all over again. But... She always sits up, tears mingling with water plastered bangs on her face. Suz never knows why... She just... always sits up. Even when all she wants to do is sleep... to not feel... Not not dream. But she has friends, a love, and a hope. She hates the idea of being selfish, and tries to think of what may be wrong with them, wanting to help them.

Suzanne gets up from the bed and searches for now... the meaning and dependant on her life. Oh she's here... Her ball of Fuzzy whose mission in life is to protect for food, and to be spoiled. Once found Suz lift's the rather large, fluffy cat, then cradles her."I am not alone..." Is all Suz can say or wishes to hear. "I. Am. Not. Alone.... As much as my mind feels... or I think... I have you, my light, my Gizmo. " The girl sighed and petted the cat until it ran off to eat. She sighed in defeat again, her face returns to the pillow. About to cry again, her hand reaches up and gently fondles her necklace, a simple, silver note... A small smiles played over her lips and she sits up. If there was one thing to do... She could slip into someone else's persona... and cheer up her own.



Emanuela darling. I love you to pieces hon. And Don't worry, I will say the same thing in gmail. "I'm fine, dear. I know I can come to you. But it is rare to be sad when I talk to you, I am giggling far too much." :3 <3 <3 ^^

Luffy: ....FAIRY!!! I love you! *huggles* I promise that whatever you say to me, I always listen.

Skye: I am NOT drunk. It's ok for me to drink things, I swear. This was a small Dabble I wanted out. *huggles* I love you Sissa!

Debi: ...My dear big sister... Dear it's fine, and I am sorry I left. *huggles*

Bailey: No use iming me, it's alright. Love you, so much baby.

Everyone else: Rafy, Bren, Kitteh, Whit.
I love each of ya! *huggles* It's alright! Promise!

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/17918734/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/17918734/ Sat, 19 Apr 2008 20:00:47 PDT SKYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You are SOOO getting tickled when I see you!!!!!
*sighs*
AND BAILEY!!!!!!!!!!! YOU ARE SO.... SO GETTING RAPED! >3
*Has the handcuffs and ice ready.*
_________

* 1. Post these rules.
* 2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
* 3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
* 4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
* 5. No tag-backs

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1: ..... I dearly, dearly, dearly love a certain someone! *Huggles her puppy* And if I am not talking to her I am lonely, and miss her terribly. (I love you, baby girl.)
2: I am a bad influence on my sister Debi. ( I AM! >< She would have never gotten pierced if I had not wanted it!)
3: I love and bow before my cat.... She rules my life.... She really does... Poor Gizzy... She needs hugs...
4: I love having others be jealous over me. (Hey, makes me feel that I am worth fighting for.)
5: I am recently addicted to teen Lock/Barrel from Nightmare Before Christmas.
6: I am STILL into Church/Griff, or Church/Caboose from Red vs Blue.
7: I still cry when I watch The Last Unicorn, and the cut scene in Okami where Ammy awaken and finishes Yami.
8: ....I AND DEBI THINK THAT SCIENTISTS NEED TO MAKE A TELEPORTATION SYSTEM!!!! MAKE LIFE EASIER!!! I could see my Bailey, my Ema, my Luffy, my Skye, my Rafy, Dad, AND! Debi and I can go to walmart without worrying about the damn traffic and stupid people!

I do not tag... Only with water balloons!
*throws them at everyone who reads.*


............
I have just realized... My damn wireless router signal cannot reach my room across the house! >< I wanted my grandmother to place the router somewhere in the center of the house... But no, it has to go in her new office WAY! WAY! on the other side... And she yells at me for camping out in the living room, because I want some d*mn signal!
....it does this weird thing every few minutes... I am going to call and ask Thomas about it tomorrow.... BEFORE MY GRANDMOTHER CALL THE PEOPLE AND CANCELS THE INTERNET BECAUSE IT'S NOT WHAT THEY SAID! ...... It is exactly what they said it was. She just does not get it.... It's with the router, not the actual service! ..... *sighs* ....I want to run some wire and move the router, you know... make it easy on everyone, cept buy some cord.... BUT NO! " IT"S NOT WHAT THEY PROMISED SO I AM GOING TO CALL THEM, FOR THE FOURTITH TIME!!!!" Nevermind that it has to travel through like close to 9 walls to get to my computer! ..... *Facepalms* ........ Seriously... And the worse part? She calls them, yells at them, saying they were doing wrong, and it was all their fault... Then when they kindly ask what is the problem, she says "Well... I really don't know. Here I'm going to let you talk to my granddaughter because she knows everything about it." .........AND I DON"T!!!!! I don't know shit! I was calling thomas, while he was sick to help me, and talk me through it! .... So I am the person who always has to talk to them. Me... I HATE TALKING ON THE PHONE!!!! ... I just clam up! I have no idea what the hell to say. I freak out trying to call in a pizza!!!!!!! .....Anyway..... I pray Thomas can help... If not... then I am going to be wrangled into talking to a scared little man again... *sighs*

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/17708754/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/17708754/ Sun, 06 Apr 2008 02:20:54 PDT Stolen from the cuter!

1.Do you like me?

2.Are there times when you wish I'd just be quiet? go away? die?

3.Do you have a nickname for me?

4.Could you write the story of my life?

5.Do you admire me?

6.If I and a briefcase full of $1 million were hanging off of a cliff and you could only save one, would it be me or the money?

7.Speaking of $, would you give me a loan if I really needed it?

8.How late/early could I call you?

9.Would you lie to me just to make me feel better?

10.Have you ever thought mean thoughts about me?

11.If I asked you to go on a roadtrip with me right now, would you go?

12.Would you give me a ride if I needed it?

13.Would you help me wash my car?

14.What's your favorite thing about me?

15.Have you ever wondered what I was doing at that very moment?

16.Have you ever gossiped about me?

17.I'm cold. Can I wear your sweatshirt?

18.Do I make you laugh?

19.Could you see yourself doing something stupid with me?

20.If I died, would you be sad? Go to my funeral?

21.Am I attractive (in a friends-way)?

22.Wanna throw a *fly* party with me?

23.Do you think that there's a side of me that you have yet to discover?

24.Do we have much in common?

25.Do we hang out? Would you like to?

26.Do you regret anything that you've said/done to me?

27.Have I ever surprised you?

28.I need a place to crash....is your couch available for me?

29.Would you forgive me if I said something mean to/about you?

30.Would you been seen in public with me and not be embarrassed?

31.Have you ever been embarrassed of me?

32.Ever been proud of me?

33.Would you talk to me over cups of coffee?

34.Would you ever make a snow man with me?

35.Would you visit me if I was sick?

36.Would you send me a letter/postcard if you went on vacation?Buy me a souvenir?

37.If it was my birthday tomorrow, would you remember? tell me "happy birthday"? give me a gift/card? throw me a party?

38.What about me would you change?

39.What would you keep the same?

40.What makes me different from the rest of your friends?

41.What are some song lyrics that fit me/remind you of me?

42.Sum me up in a sentence:

43.Do you want to be my friend for as long as possible?

44.Would you stick up for me?

45.Do me a favor?

46.Introduce me to your family?

47.Write me a letter of recommendation?

48.Give me advice?

49.Come over if I needed you?

50.Let me cry on your shoulder?

51.Hug me?

52.Miss me if I moved?Would we keep in touch?

53. At school: would you help me with my homeworK?locker?would you loan me a pencil/pen/peice of paper?

54.Do you consider me a mooch?

55.Do I need a style makeover?

56. How do you feel about me?

57.What would you do if I picked up a bad habit?

58.Would you spend your lunchtime with me?

59.Would you ever ditch me?

60.Have you previously hated me? Had a crush on me? Thought "what the hell"?

61.Have I ever appeared in one of your dreams?

62.Would you ever instant message me?

63.Would you clap if I did something cool?

64.Still be my friend if I was "different"?

65.Would you try to steal my gf / bf (if I had one lol)?

66.Would you tell me a secret?

67.Would you do something really silly with me (like go bowling, go to the mall wearing grass skirts, ride the bikes at Toys R Us, have a sleepover in which we throw snacks at eachother's mouths, etc....)?

68.Am I lame or cool?

69.Ask me a random question.

70.Will you repost this so that I can tell you how I feel about you?

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/17587207/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/17587207/ Sun, 30 Mar 2008 10:05:08 PDT


How Much of your Teenage Life Have You messed up?

[x] Gotten detention.
[x] Gotten your phone taken away in class.
[] Gotten suspended.
[x] Gotten caught chewing gum.
[x] Cheated on a test

Total: 4

[x] Arrived late to class more than 5 times.
[x] Didn't do homework over 5 times.
[x] Turned at least 3 projects in late.
[x] Missed school cause you felt like it.
[] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class.

Total so far: 8


[x] Got your mom/dad etc. to get you out of school.
[x] Texted people during class.
[x] Passed notes.
[x] Threw stuff across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher.

Total so far: 13

[] Pulled down the fire alarm
[x] went on myspace, facebook, xanga, etc. on the computer at school.
[x] Took pictures during school hours.
[x] Called someone during school hours.
[x] Listened to an iPod, cd, etc. during class.

Total so far: 17

[] Threw something at the teacher.
[] Went outside the classroom without permission.
[x] Broke the dress code.
[x] Failed a class.
[x] Ate food during class.

Total so far: 20

[x] Gotten a call from school.
[] Couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly.
[x] Didn't take your stuff to school.
[x] Gotten a detention and didn't go.
[x] Stuck up your middle finger at a teacher when they were not looking.
[x] Cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear

Total so far: 25

[x] Faked your parents signature
[x] Slept in class.
[] Cursed at a teacher to their face.
[x] Copied homework.

Total so far: 28

Total: 28
Multiply by 3 ------> 84
Then repost this as "I screwed up ____% of my teenage life"


DAMN! 84%? Well... being in a private christian school your whole life... you rebel when you can... *sighs* ....i'm bad...

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/17512178/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/17512178/ Tue, 25 Mar 2008 15:51:44 PDT

.................

I hate being used...

.................


...



I mean... who would like it... it feels terrible... and makes people sad. But... that does not stop it from happening.... does it? *sighs*

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/16840368/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/16840368/ Mon, 11 Feb 2008 21:12:40 PST
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WARNING!!! This is a rant about alot of things. So BACK THE FUCK OFF!!!!
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OK... First off.... This might be a pain medication rant... but i don't fucking care!!


First thing....
I am seriously thinking of leaving the Gurgi Clan.
Reasons?

One: ........No one really fucking cares.
Two: ........I am sick and tired of being ignored.
You can call my sister and talk to her for an hour about a video game. But not me... They can stay up hours and hours... but not even say "hello" to me. You say you are always there... but not really... I can always call... but i can't really... ((i don't want excuses... i am just pointing it out))

......and you want to know the bad thing? I love you all so fucking much that i can't tell you one goddamn thing, so i type it in a rant! Ok... Yes it might hurt them to read... but ... i doubt it now... another bad thing? a terrible thing? i get more love and support... FROM MY OWN FUCKING MOTHER NOW!!! My verbally and mentally abusive mother... THE VERY SAME ONE! I spent hours crying over with dad!

AND IT'S SO GODDAMN BAD... I WANT TO FUCKING DIE AGAIN!!!! I hate.. HATE losing those damn support blocks!!! because it all comes crumbling down...

..... I am... or i try to be a happy person... I try to love all i fucking can... and i always get this shit back... I just... I'm tired of it...

Second thing:
I think i know what i want to do with my life.... and the bad thing is there is not alot of schools that offer what i need. so i will most likely have to move away and into a city... I HATE THE CITY!!!! I FUCKING HATE IT!!!!

Third thing:
I AM AS SICK AS A FUCKING DOG!!!! And with my pain meds i cannot drive. But my mother still wants to push me to drive to class.... I went off the damn road three times!!! THREE TIMES IN A FUCKING DITCH ON A STRETCH OF ROAD I KNOW BETTER THAN MY HAND!!! I can't see! My head hurts! I lose things! Forget things! I CAN"T FUCKING THINK!!! BUT i never tell anyone! why? I fucking hate... HATE to be a damn burden on people! It would make it all better if i just disappeared!

Forth thing:
I HATE HOW WEAK I AM!!! tired... of being afraid of speaking my mind... Of being rejected... of being alone.... of being hated... of being shunned... OF MY FUCKING PARANOIA!... that everyone is trying to make me fall... to push me into that damn hole that no one can climb out of... and... i hate... hurting people... anything... even if a twinge of pain... i... i can't stand it... i will go out of my way to help them... make them better... give them my heart so that they can at least have one... and... being to weak... to ask for soomethng back.. being so damn weak.... that i still suspect, hope that they, anyone cares... that they even love me... that i get my hopes up at one line saying "i'm still here for you. You are precious to me....ect" ...and have them fall the very next hour...


I... i'm jsut stick and tired... of ALL TEH DAMN FAKERS!!!!!! and knowing deep down... that i am one too... and knowing it... tears me up even more...



.........so if you are not saying something real pertinate to this. I don't want to hear it. I don't want to hear the "im here. I'm sorry. all that crap." because i will finally stand and say shut the hell up.

In fact.... DON"T COMMENT AT ALL!!!! JUST FUCKING LET IT GO! I'll be better in an hour. Maybe...


..................................................and what do you do... when your reason for living basically says you aren't good enough.........................

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/16792096/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/16792096/ Fri, 08 Feb 2008 21:17:38 PST
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Heaven Tonight
by, Him
.....................

I hold your hand in mine
I hold your hand and you're so lonely
Oh so lonely
Your eyes have lost their light
Your eyes have lost their light and you're empty
Oh my God you're so empty

(I'm in love with you)
You are my heaven tonight 2x
(I'm in love with you)

Trying to find the heart you hide
Trying to find the heart you hide in vain
Oh in vain
And you're my haven in life
And you're my haven in death, Baby
Life and Death my Darling

(I'm in love with you)
You are my heaven tonight 4x
(I'm in love with you)

*instrumental*

(I'm in love with you)
You are my heaven tonight 4x
(I'm in love with you)

that's right
(I'm in love with you)3x
*******************************************

..............................
Resurrection
by, Him
..............................

There was a time
When I could breath my life in you
One by one
Your pale fingers started to move
-And I touched your face
And all life was erased
You smiled like an angel
(falling from grace)

We've been slaves to this love
From the moment we touched
And keep begging for more
Of this resurrection 2x

You kissed my lips
With those once cold fingertips
You reached out for me
And oh how you missed
-You touched my face
And all life was erased
You smiled like an angel
(falling from grace)

We've been slaves to this love
From the moment we touched
And keep begging for more
Of this resurrection 2x

This resurrection
Of this resurrection 2x

We've been slaves to this love
From the moment we touched
And keep begging for more
Of this resurrection 2x

Of this resurrection, my darling
this resurrection 2x

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/16773332/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/16773332/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 16:46:23 PST And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
Its hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you cant take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump Ill break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
Youre not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
Youre caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you cant face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump Ill break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
Youre not alone

And there has always been heartache and pain
And when its over youll breathe again
Youll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump Ill break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
Youre not alone

.....................................
Crash and Burn
by, Savage Garden.
.....................................

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/16629579/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/16629579/ Tue, 29 Jan 2008 14:15:44 PST
I love you all so much! Thank you all so very very much! I truly appreciate it. it means so much to me!!! ^^

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/16620006/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/16620006/ Mon, 28 Jan 2008 20:48:40 PST
i have no idea.. i was just sideswipped by that damn bug!!!! KEEL ET!!!! KWEEEELLLL ET!!!!


>.>
<.<
anyway...
I am on my new computer... and it is a good one... so my friend Thomas says.
AND HE IS A COMPUTER MAN! WHOO!!!
..but i lost everything on my old one... so that is alittle sad...

Oh. well... i can rebuild.. after all... I am still here! ^^

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/16617633/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/16617633/ Mon, 28 Jan 2008 17:49:55 PST




.......





.......
When are you so sad you don't even realize it?
I feel something is pushing on me... and it's pushing hard...
I really want to cry... but i know why...
.......
I feel like something is going to happen and i am going lose again.
.......
.........
well... i am going to ... i don't know... i really don't feel like do anything...
....


........i guess i deserve this... i really think i do...

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/16573419/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/16573419/ Fri, 25 Jan 2008 21:33:47 PST
001. real name → Brittany
002. nickname(s) → Ishara, Ishy, DemDem, Brit, bitch
003. single or taken → spoken for.
004. zodiac sign → LEO VIRGO!!! Betch!
005. male or female → female!!! BOOBS!
006. elementary → Tca
007. middle → Tca
008. high → Tca... Hell yeh! Private Christan school! ><
009. eye color → Blue-greenish. mostly blue
010. hair color → roots: dirty blond, tips: a pretty red that needs more color...
011. long or short hair → Middle... used to be long...
012. shoe size → 7 1/2 to 8
013. asthma? → no. Used to have asthmatic Weaves
014. are you a health freak → Um.. no... not really...
015. height → just under 5' 3
016. do you have a crush on someone → >.> <.< yes and no...
017. do you like yourself → No... No i really dont...
018. piercings → double earslobes. two on each side.
019. tattoos → Love too... if i could stand the pain... and i think i finally made the one i want
020. righty or lefty → righty

FIRSTS:
022. first surgery → Leg. had to have a cyst removed from muscle tissue
023. first piercing → earrings at... three months..
024. first best friend → Mary in kinderguarden... i threw blocks at her
025. first movie → can't remember... fav was the Last Unicorn.. and the TMNT
026. First sport you joined → VolleyBall
027. first pet → Buford... my bunny.... YOU ARE STILL MISSED MY LOVE!
028. first vacation → Corpus Cristie ((my spellng is totally off))
029. first concert → Don't remember bunch of bands... i was knocked out with a steel chair
030. first crush → ....don't remember... so many...

CURRENTLY :
049. eating → um.... nothing...
050. drinking → coke
052. i'm about to → comment back in Puppy SaiSai's rp
053. listening to → Over the Hedge
057. wearing → OMHFG! BLUE JEANS! >.> its a fucking miracle.. not a skirt... what the hell is going on?

YOUR FUTURE :
058. want kids? → YES!!!!!!! I WANT KIDS
059. want to get married?→ YES!!!! EVEN if it is to simply say vows and change rings.
060. careers in mind? → ...no fucking idea..

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :
068. lips or eyes? → lips. I like lips
069. hugs or kisses → ....HUGS! ... KISSES!!! >.> BOTH! ...but i am a snuggle, huggle, and cuddle bug..
070. shorter or taller → it does not matter... after all... i am short!
072. romantic or spontaneous? → Romantic.. but spontaneity is good to!
073. stomach or arms → arms
074. sensitive or loud → sensitive
075. hook-up or relationship → relationship

HAVE YOU EVER :
078. kissed a stranger → yes
080. lost glasses/contacts → I have lost them both... and found them too
081. ran away from home → tried to
082. broken any bones → No
084. broken someone's heart → Yes... and never mean to
085. been arrested → no
086. turned someone down → Yes... and it hurt like hell.
087. cried when someone died → yes... have that habit
088. liked a friend→ OH hell yes!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. yourself→ ....no
090. miracles → sometimes...
091. love at first sight → it varies on the person if it is love or lust...
092. heaven → want to... but no
093. santa clause → .....yes... its my grandfather...
094. fairies → yes... i want to grow up be a pixie!
095. kissing on the first date → If ya liek them enough
096. angels → in my dreams..

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
097. Is there one or more people you want to be with right now? → ...Yes...... and i cry about them all...
098. Is Superman really better than Batman? → ugh....
099. Have you had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend? → No... but gotten dangerously close...
100. Do you believe in God? → .....after being in a christain private school for so long... you get desensitized.... and it's terrible that your dissapoint your grandparents who really want the best for you..

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/16381962/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/16381962/ Sun, 13 Jan 2008 03:50:14 PST

I realize i have a habit... now it may not bad... but members of my family and my rapidly diminishing group of friends say is a bad thing and i should stop immediately...

The thing to stop: RPing. (Role Playing, for some)
The "bad" habit: Getting terribly attached to my RP partners.


My dear Luffy: You make the most in depth beautiful worlds. The characters seem to be alive at times. You weave a story, a tale that is simply captivating. And i moves my heart to see and read all that we type. I love you to death. I get so happy to see you online! And i am so glad that we started talking again. I missed you terribly when I could not get access to AOL. I am so glad that I met you on Y Gallery, my little monocle kitty! ^^


My Wonderful SaiSai, My Smex: Oh my dear sweet Bailey, I swear you have a staple of my day recently. My dearest Puppy, you are so... caring. Always trying to make sure that nothing is upsetting your DemDem. Being so protective, and loving. Thank you from the depths of my heart, for so many, many things. I love you, SaiSai. I wish the world for you, for you to be happy. I pray that we can keep RPing until... ever! ^^


And now for you, My dearest darling, amore mio, My Xaldin: ........I can't even begin to say anything... You know how much you mean to me. And i know how much i mean to you. It started as a simple XalDem RP... Grew into a friendship, then crushes, then something more. You are my heart, darling. My gmail is full of love, ours and XalDem's. I can't wait for you to pop up with an "Hi love! -hugs and kisses-". Il mio amore, avete mio cuore. e lo terrete sempre. ti amo oltre vita e la mia anima. ti amo.... and in our new trend... "I just fucking love you!" ^^


And of course i refuse to stop because, .... It makes me happy. it allows me to think on my feet, to have fun, to make new friends (ok.. i get attached... big deal), to express myself, to think on different things. of course it makes me want to be a millionaire so i can fly these people out, or me to them to see and give them a hug!!!

OH!!!

My dear SheerKhon, you are too cute kitteh!!!! ^^ I can't wait to talk to ya again hon!!! Oh.. and there is still a pawprint!!!! ^^

My dear Sissie, HY SKYE!!! *huggles* You will get your dem updates! I promise!!! ^^
>.> and you might get your meme...<.<

My Dear Ciara, HEY little sister! I love ya!!! and we will hang out soon, i have few hours break before my late classes, maybe starbucks again? >.> <.< *huggles* Oh! and your ass is SO getting glomped and tickled!

and all the other's who read this... Thank you!

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/16244753/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/16244753/ Thu, 03 Jan 2008 19:30:46 PST
I am at mammaw's and Aunt Vicki is still not gone... 2 weeks turned into 4 months and now it is still going... My grandmother is dealing with moving her office... BUT! i am not at home.. i am camped out at Deb's again.. cause.. I HAVE NO BED! >< *giggles* its covered in books... *giggles* I love that woman!
I am camped at Deb's, having problems with the Clan ><, trying to keep my face on my face (LADY ANN! NO LICKING!), dealing with these damn pills... Since when do powerful antibiotics make you depressed?! >< Or not hungry?! and why does fate always seemed determined to make me fucking suffer ALL at once?

><
I am still beating myself up for losing one of my best friends, I am sick of being a "fad" in the clan, problems with my comp and phone, my grandmother's constant crying, saddness, anger, and her tiredness and feeling old. feeling like i am intruding on deb's .... I AM DEB! HUSH! *smiles* Love you sissie! oh well. also having a weird New Years.... nothing seems to work out right now! ><

And ... Deb is bringing the spring catal. for classes... and she is going to make me make a class schedule... >< i hate doing all this now... i wish i could take classes i wanted... *sighes*




Then tonight, while i am happily rping... my mother randomly calls and yells at me.
out of the blue.. YELLS!
there went any good chance of making my day happy... because i could deal with her yelling been doing that for 20 years... but when i call up my grandmother to explain... she's gonna call momma, then Mom is gonna call me and yell more for making grandmother upset, and for "coping a attitude" with her on the phone! ><
I let Deb drive to Walmart. the only time i didn't go with her!!!! Cause i wanted to stay and rp with Sai and play Okami! >< I CAN"T DO ANYTHING FUCKING RIGHT FOR THAT DAMN WOMAN!!!

But the really really really sad thing... I love her... i lover her so much it hurts... and i still desperately want her approval... so... I shoot for the stars and always end up falling short of the perfect daughter she wants. ............. i can't do anything anymore..

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/15910304/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/15910304/ Fri, 14 Dec 2007 02:35:17 PST
1. Beer: um... Xally (*giggles* she knows why!)

2. McDonald’s: ...closest to Debi's... ><

3. Relationships: *blush*

4. Favorite color: Blue

5. Power Rangers: memories (( >< running around the yard with Erica, yes step-sister erica, >< dressed in a pink power ranger costume....))

6. Weed: dude... trippy! >< (or Mindy)

7. Steroids: BAD!!!!

8. Cartoons: TOM AND JERRY!!!!

9. The President: no comment

10. Tupperware: >.> Mud pies.... (we used tupperware to mix them in)

11. Florida: >< SEEN TO MANY TIMES!!!

12. Santa Claus: My grandmother! (she collects them! ^^)

13. Halloween: DRESS UP!!!

14. Alice in wonderland: um... painting roses

15. Grammar: overrated!!!

16: Myspace: .... damn i gotta check that... >.>

17. Worst fear: ..... ;.; .... lose someone i love.

18. Marriage: >.> ..... someday...

19. Paris Hilton: South Park

20. Pat: *purrs*

21. Redheads: I am one...

22. Blondes: .... Ema.. *huggles*

23. Pass the: love around

24. One night stands: sad

25. Donald Trump: FIRED!

26. Neverland: ><

27. Pixie Stix: SUGAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

28. Vanilla ice cream: YUMMY!!!!!!

29. Hooters: o.O

30. High school musical: ......HATE!

31. Pajamas: sexy

32. Woody: Kill!!! (inside joke)

33. Wet Socks: EW!!!!!!!

34. Driving: Independence!

35. Love:


And I stole this from

1.) Who is your favorite Kingdom Hearts character(s)?
Demyx, Saix, Xaldin, Xemnas, Xigbar,

2.) What is your favorite pairing?
Xaldin/Demyx (my Xally totally got me hooked!))

3.) Are you a Kingdom Hearts yaoi or hentai fan?
Yaoi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELLZ YEH!!!!

4.) Ever cosplayed Kingdom Hearts characters? If so, who, where and how many times?
I'm DEMYX!!!! at Akon this year!

5.) List your collection of Kingdom Hearts junk and merchandise, if any.
Geez, I have some.. but can't name them all.

6.) Have you ever felt that you were destined to be with a Kingdom Hearts character? If so who?
OH shit! DO WANT!!!!

7.) SoraxKairi or RikuxKairi?
Uh.. HELLO! RIKUSORA!!!

8.) AxelxKairi or AxelxRoxas?
out of those two? AkuRoku

9.) Which path is your favorite? Light, Darkness, Dawn, or Twilight?
Light

10.) Do you support the XemnasxSaix theory?
>.> NAH DUH!!!!!! XEMSAI ALL THE WAY!!!!

11.) Do you support the 'Axel is gay for Roxas' theory?
I really don't care. if you wantto put him there. Go ahead!

12.) Your favorite Organization Xlll member(s)?
*looks at #1* .... um.. i-it's different?

13.) Are you pro-Kairi or anti-Kairi?
Anti! I just can't get into her. like an off Zelda..

14.) Have you played all the Kingdom Hearts games?
no... i wanna play CoM!!!

15.) Have you read the manga?
Yes i have read some!!!!

16.) Do you believe Sora has ADD?
I dont know... i know he has SOME problem... But i dont know if i has a name...

17.) Japanese or English?
huh?

18.) Pro-Naminé or Anti-Naminé?
Anti with some pro. I like her better than Kai.

19.) Demyx = Annoying or funny?
....I AM DEMYX!!!!

20.) Do you believe Demyx's Somebody was from Atlantica (Splash Island)?
How the hell do i know? Dem is mysterious! *giggles* W/E!!!!!

21.) Zexion = Sexy beast or Emo?
EMO SEX BEAST!

22.) Which character would be the best crossdresser?
.....all would be could.. can't choose.

23.) Axel = Gay or strait?
Bi

24.) Which character would be best OOC? Who and how?
SAIX PUPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

25.) Do you like Kingdom Hearts fanfics?
Yesh, i do. but i manly look at Yaoi

26.) Do you write Kingdom Hearts fanfics?
Yes. I do, and i Rp them!

27.) Do you like lemons?
HELLZ YEH! Any other kind?

28.) Do your parents know any Kingdom Hearts characters?
No..... my mother is.........

29.) Have you watche... ]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/15797328/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/15797328/ Tue, 04 Dec 2007 17:44:13 PST

Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
-Go to Italy
-turn my grandparent's house into a bed and breakfast.
-make my mother proud of me....

Three Names You Go By:
-Ishy
-Demy
-Dem Dem

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself:
-um.... I'm a bubbly/happy person?
-short!!! in heels! *giggles*
-my eyes/lips

Three Things That Scare You:
-MY MOTHER!!!!!
-to lose a certain someone.
-SPIDERS!!!!!!!!

Three Of Your Everyday Essentials:
-COCA-COLA
-GMAIL!!! or my clan site!
-.......um.... my kitty waking me up... cause my phone is stupid!

Two Truths And A Lie (in no particular order): truths then lie
-I am SO IN LOVE!!!
-I LOVE being called Kitten by a certain some one! >.> *giggles*
-I like really sunny days

Three Of Your Favorite Hobbies:
-RPing!!!
-drawing
-reading, just about anything.

Three Things You Want Really Badly Right Now:
-to hug and kiss someone right now.
-um... number one...
-um... to have all the clan here.

Three Careers You're Considering/You've Considered:
-Artist
-Interior designer/ hair stylist.
-Psychiatrist

Three Kid's Names You Like:
- Damien
- Dante
- Donovan
((can ya see i want boys? ><)

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Girl:
-I can be clingy to someone i love.
-I LOVE to hug ad kiss.
-I LOVE to cuddle and lay around naked with someone i love.

Three Ways That You Are Stereotypically A Boy:
-I like blood, and action movies
-I like porn and SEX!!! I LIKE SEX!!! >< .... wait... i didn't just say that... >.> <.<
- um.... i like guns and swords.

Um.... i tag my sissies.. PLEASE DONT YELL!!!



also My Luffy!!!
and My Smex!!

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/15787614/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/15787614/ Tue, 04 Dec 2007 01:11:28 PST



-What year were you born in?
1987

-What Spice Girl were you when you were young?
Baby Spice, and Ginger

-Backstreet Boys or 'Nsync?
um... i liked them equally....

-Did you watch S Club 7?
No!

-What was your favorite, Smurfs or Snorkels?
I like them both! Snorkels under the Sea, and Smurfs in the Woods.

-Did you ever have light up sneakers?
Yes.... ><

-What was your favorite thing about recess?
The Tag games, or the Soccer games, and the imagination games!

-Cinderella or Snow White?
um... Cinderella?.... really dont like them....

-Did you wake up really early just to watch cartoons on Saturday morning?
Yes..... now i am up already. and i still catch the Magic School Bus!

-What was your favorite holiday?
Halloween, Christmas.... 4 of july

-Did you ever try to stay up on Christmas just so you could see Santa?
didn't need to... i was awaken by the noise at 2 am.

-Did you leave milk and cookies or milk and carrots?
yes... once or twice

-What grade did you like the best?
first sem in college. um.... junior and senior year.

-Ninja Turtle or Power Ranger?
Ninja Turtles.
then once my mother made me stop watching them it was power rangers.

-What Power Ranger were you?
Pink

-Did you ever own a chinese jump rope?
uh.. no?

-What was your favorite thing to eat?
um... my grandfather's spaghetti, still is by the way!

-What was your favorite color?
um... it changed so much. Blue mostly. and it is now.

-Barney or Sesame street?
.......barney.... >< gods... what the hell was wrong with me?

-Do you ever miss being a little kid?
um... i used to.

-Did you wish you were older?
No. Right now i am happy.

-What was your first pet's name?
um.... a dog adopted me when i was 2 and 3. He was my Doc.
But first owned.... Buford... omg.... i still miss you my little bunny. I love you! RIP!
that reminds me to go see his grave.... >< *cries*

-Who was your best friend in kindergarten?
um... Mary and Roseann. I was friends with everyone i could be.

-Are you still friends with the person you were best friends with in the 3rd grade?
um.... i really dont remember who it was.... so no.

-Where did you live when you were 9?
Terrell

-How many times have you switched schools including preschool?
3. two were pre and kinder schools.

-What was your all time favorite movie?
The Last Unicorn (Still is... I GOT ITS DVD!! YAY!))

-Which did you like more: "Are You Afraid of the Dark" or "AHHHHH Real Monsters?"
Are you afraid of the dark! only saw a little of it though.

-Did you watch Rocko’s Modern Life?
no.

-Who was your favorite character in "Doug"?
uh... didnt see it.

-Did you ever want to watch Slime Time Live?
no.

-Have you ever wondered what the "slime" was actually made of?
NO! and i dont want to!

-Who was your favorite Rugrat?
didnt watch them. was too old for those.


I love you Ema! sorry i stole it! >.>
<.<
....
not really, but i do love you, so very very much! *giggles*

Good night all!!

I Love you AXEY, SISSA, and DADDY!!!!

oh... skye... sorry for not updating my rp yet... lol! I love you, Sissa.


Ti amo molto, amore.

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/15501540/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/15501540/ Wed, 14 Nov 2007 01:12:08 PST *luffles her*

HAVE YOU EVER...

[x] Said "Got it Memorized?" in a normal conversation?
--................. >.> <.< maybe.... DAMN YOU AXEL!!!!

[x] Said "As if!" in a normal conversation?
---yes!

[x] Put your hair up like your favorite character? (To the best of your ability.)
---......... yesh i have.... too bad im not brave enough to do it completely like demy!

[x] Had a "sword fight" with your friend?
---....... -_- yesh....

[x] Wished that you owned a cosplay outfit?
---YESH!!!! but soon i will have an orgy XIII coat from my Axel! *glomps Amby*

[x] Gotten obsessed with something like fire (Axel), instruments (Demyx), books (Zexion), etc?
---l..........yesh ... is that a bad thingy? o.O

[x] Memorized every member, their element, "code names" and weapon in order? ("Code names" are like, "Superior", "Freeshooter", etc.)
---Yesh, only very few i ever check on.

[x] Role played?
---................ YESH OMHFG YESH!!!! I'M DAMN ADDICTED TO IT!!!!!

[x] Wanted to dye your hair the same color as your favorite character?
--- maybe. i often do want Marly's (not fav more like 3 fav) hair. but i used to be Demy's color, so. yeh...

[x] Heard someone say a number I through XIII, and immediately thought about the Organization member that has that number?
---................................................ -_- ..... its sad when in math class all you do is drool.....

[ ] Wished you were a Nobody?
--- ...no, but i wished i had a pet demy!

[ ] Wished you were a Heartless?
--- no, cause ... i love too much!

[] Done the 1000 Heartless battle without using any reaction commands?
--- ......no. damnations! ><

[x] Been careful about using the word "Nobody"? ("Nobody" can defeat me!)
--- ...yesh, cause i'm afraid xiggy will poof in and shoot me.... cause if it was anyone other member i might be running to hug them.... Xiggy would be floating so.... no hugs.. *sniffles*

[x] Gotten the Ultima Weapon?
---yes. damn thing

[x] Completely finished the journal?
---yes..... after i came back to answer this one.... why isn't at the bottom? o.O

[x] Refused to believe that Organization XIII has actually faded?
--- ..... i recently had this convo with my Xaldin! ..... creepy weird mans...

[ ] Played Re:Chain of Memories, FM+, etc?
........noes i wanna, i wanna!!!!

i tag.... *evil giggle*


now sissies i better sees thems in yours journals!!! come on! makes a demdem happies!!! *giggles and glomps*

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/15473303/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/15473303/ Mon, 12 Nov 2007 03:34:17 PST ......... >.> <.< ...... *giggles* ..... isa highs on sugars!!!! *giggles*

Um.. anyway LIFE FUCKING ROCKS! I am living with my grandparents, I LOVE MY MAMA!!!!, I have an awesome car, ...and a license, i um... is still going to college.... but that's not all that rocks...

I HAVE A FAMILY!!!!!!! ....outside blood....
OMG! DAD, AMBY, DEBI, SKYE, EMMA, MUM..... I LOVE THEM BEYOND DAMN LIFE! omg! i have never gotten supporters, sisters, hugs, glomps, praises, poking, ANYTHING like i have gotten from them. after knowing me little less than a hour i was informaly inducted into the Gurgi Clan. But the fun thing was as soon, THE MOMENT i met Amber, we were screaming so loud you could have heard us over a mile away...... kingdom hearts rocks! I became the Demyx to her Axel ...anyway gods. i spent all night talking to dad. I cried so much that night, and he cried with me. Amby was so sweet, so like a perfect big sister. I LOVE YOU AXEL! Debdeb is ... Debdeb. I LOVE YOU SISSY! Skye.... crazy, loony, absolutely PRECIOUS! I LOVE YOU SISA! Emma so sweet, crazy... the huggle queen! LOVE YOU, EMMY!...........I'm da baby in da family!
And OMG! beign with them for less than 3 hours we began planning to go to AKON! gods i cant wait! ORGANIZATION XIII!!!!!!!!!!

Me: Demyx!!! OMG! I LOVE DEMDEM!!!! *giggles*(I wanted to be Marluxia... but I'm not mean or tall enough!)
Amby: Axel!!! omg! I love my axey!
Dad: DiZ!!! WHOO!!! go dad!
Debi: Namine!!! ........... o.O ... debi and memories.... omg.. what have we done!
Thomas (YES YOU ARE GOIN!!!): Luxord..... o.O ... blond british gambler...
Emma: Riku!!! (she's coming all the way from England!!! WHOO!!)
.....Hopefully we can find more peoples cause we only have 3 Orgy 13 members in there! gods would kill to have a Xigbar... or Xaldin... just NO SORAs OR KAIRIs!!! EW!
.....*giggles* .... and i am really... really.. REALLY addicted to RPing... especially..... YAOI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOO!!!! *giggles* ... um.... *clears throat* .... anyway... um.. so far all is good... and..... cookies for anyone who reads all this!

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/15220572/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/15220572/ Thu, 25 Oct 2007 18:44:34 PDT

Songs.
Last song you listened to? Passions Killing For HIM
The song playing in your head at this time is? um.... Butterfly
Song that reminds you of your last boyfriend/girlfriend? ...I REFUSE TO THINK OF IT! DAMN YOU JOSH! > <
Song that makes you laugh every time you hear it? HAMSTER DANCE!!!!
You favorite song of all time?......um.... Some Hearts by Carrie Underwood (cause that's me!)
Why is the song above your favorite song of all time? Cause it is so ME!

Movies.
Name the last movie you saw. In theaters: Happy Feet
Rented: GHOST SHIP!
On TV: ummm... BLADE
Owned: ICE AGE
Can you quote a line from it? Yep.
If so, which line? : "The sooner we get there, the sooner i get rid of Mr. Stinky drool face. And the baby too!"
Your favorite movie as a kid? The Last Unicorn (GODS I LOVE THAT MOVIE!!!)
Your current favorite movie? The Nightmare Before Christmas(LOVE THAT ONE TOO!!)
The movie you watch every time you need to laugh is...? um.... too many(all cute movies).
The movies you watch that makes you cry every time is...? um.... cant say...

Others.
Are you currently in a relationship//friends with benefits//dating//etc.? No
Who is the one person you are thinking of right now? um... *blush*
Who was the last person you kissed? Debi (cheek) (gotta loves BFFs!)
Hugged? Aida (cause she's sweet!)
Made out with? ....um... *blush*
Who slept over at your house? Channing
Whose house did you last sleep over? .....um.. Debi... i think...
Are you in love? MOVING ON!!!!!!!! MOVING ON!!! ><
Ever been in love? How many times? yesh.... way too many!!!!!

Telephone Questions!
What does the last text message you sent say, and who? AW! I MISS YOU TOO!!!! (to Aida)
What does the last incoming text you got say, an who sent it? Where are you? I miss you! (from Miss Aida)
Who was the last incoming call from? Aida
Who was the last person you called? ....Josh *gags*
Last missed call was from who? Mama... SRY MAMA!!!
What is your main ringer set to? Breaking Dishes by Rihanna
Do you have a picture phone? Yep.
If yes, last picture taken? .....my cat on my squishy pillow! GO GIZZY!

Random.
Death scare you? Yep.
Spiders scare you? YESH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sharks scare you? um... little
What is your worst fear? and why? To be totally alone. because... my mind goes crazy and i start to hear things...
Look to your right, what is there? A coke can, buncha crap for my grandmother's teaching job!
Name a word off the top of your head. KITTY!!!!!! *giggles*
Color your hair? What color do you color it? What's your natural color? yes. rich red and burgundy with black tips. ..... dirty dirty sand blond.
Kind of car you drive? 01 Chevy monte carlo BAD ASS RED!!))
Clothes you are currently dressed in? Black dress pants, and black dress shirt. (i have classes tonight)
Last word you heard? meow?(cat)
Last word you said? WHAT?(to the cat :sweatdrop: )

Favorites.
Store? um... hobby lobby? Borders? Hot Topic?
City? Terrell
Past time? Drawing
Sport? Bowling
Color? Blue, black, purple, crimson, silver.
Moment? When someone says i love you, thank you for being here....
Ice cream? carmel
Drink? (Alcoholic or Non) COKE! MINE MINE MINE!!! *giggles*
Animal? BUNNY, Tiger, wolf, and.... ottsel
Celebrity? ...dotn know
Phone Company? Cingular
Time of Day? between midnight and dawn
Season? Fall

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/15170835/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/15170835/ Mon, 22 Oct 2007 09:44:15 PDT OK!

i'm an idiot! I fell in love with a guy, who can not show any emotion. he seemed like.. perfect when we first got together. then we broke up, and like almost a week ago he called me back and sounded all depressed and said he wasn't sleeping or eating. he was deeply deeply depressed and he thought he had made the biggest mistake of his life by letting me go. Well..... i'm a hopeless romantic, so i took him back. We were both very very cautious, and never said i love you, like we did the first time. Well.... I GOT FED UP!!!! I WANT SOME FUCKING EMOTION BESIDES ANGER AND SADNESS!!!!!! At least show me that you are happy we were dating! DAMNIT!!!! THIS SHIT ALWAYS HAPPENS!!!! I CAN NEVER FIND A PERSON WHO GETS ME!!!! *cries* ........



anyway..... cookies for anyone who reads these things....
~Ishy

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/15024027/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/15024027/ Fri, 12 Oct 2007 03:20:59 PDT



Brittany Fortner
Friday 9:20 am
English 1301
The Conflict in the Art World
Art is often looked at like expressions of the soul. No matter the age, experience, or prestige of the artist, their works are loved. In the world of art, nothing should be discriminated against. However, discrimination occurs everywhere. But should an artist be hunted down and often harassed for drawing, painting, or digitally finishing a piece of art? It is my opinion that the harassing of artist, simply because of their style of art, is unacceptable and cruel.
Art should be a generally forgiving field because it is always changing and evolving. And with the addition of the computer as an art tool many artists are going to digital works than more traditional methods of working such as paints or pencils. And should a person be discriminated against for simply moving to the computer? Surely not, because most artists still work with pencils then scan it into the computer. An example is would you not read a book, poem, or story someone wrote because they typed it instead of writing on paper with a quill? Of course not, So why should the artists who use the computer be harassed? No, because they just took the next step in dealing with technology.
So if the harassers can deal with the technological jump then why can they not accept a style change, for instance anime? Anime is a short term in reference to Japanese, American, or European animation. And Fan-art is a drawing, painting, or digital work that an artist does with a character, characters, worlds, or story line of a show or Manga they enjoy. Not too bad, seems harmless, right? Well, it is not good enough for some of the more traditional ones who are mainly in it for “ pageviews”! Because the fan-art is pertaining to a series of pure fiction and are “cartoony”, Anime fan-art is not view as an art form. And that statement is very unfair and is infuriating. Being a fan-artist myself, it is difficult for me to keep a level-head with this subject. For the simple matter of understanding I can not see the difference between the “true artists” to us “fan-artists”. Simply because we draw fan-art does not mean are talent less, crazed, idiotic, mindless fan girls!
It is rather difficult for one on either side to try and articulate what art truly is. The “flamers” say that digital art is not art. We counter with fan-artist that use traditional means of making a picture. “Flamers” say that large eyes and “anime style” is not a form of art. We retaliate with Greco or Picasso styled art to look that way. Does quality of an art piece matter? Should not, because so often the very talented fan-artists make excellent renditions of a character or whatever they wish Sometimes the people say that we are simply sheep in a herd. We counter with the fact that most of the fan-artists broke away from the norm and make their own style of drawing, coloring, or design concepts to put “their spin on it”. Many do copy some other artists, but does that not happen in other art forms? In a sculpting class do they not try to copy a figure that is famous? What is the difference as long as the student does not try to claim it as their own work. Art copying is a punishable offense in the Online Art community. Often it is immediate expulsion for a few weeks from whichever site the offendant posts. If they keep stealing then they are banned permanently. It is a harsh but fair rule.
The next question is, can the harassers leave us alone? No, because there will always be someone looking; either for the chance to prove himself as a “true artist” to his friends or they are too conceited and stubborn to open their eyes to new possibilities. Whatever the reason, it does not make it right to verbally abuse the fan-artist or their fans just because of the way the artist draws. Is it too much to ask to simply enjoy the art for what it is? If the art makes people happy let them enjoy it. But why take it to such an extreme as abuse? Even a child would walk by and say, “Ooh. That’s pretty”. So why can’t others, it must truly be too much for them to comprehend.
Art is a window to the soul and is rightfully seen that way. So one can not be discriminated against because one soul is different from another. A child’s drawing of a dog is treasured by the mother. A drawing of someone’s favorite character is treasured by the fan. Is there a difference? There shouldn’t be. If art is truly the limitless world that it seems to be, can we not forgive and forget? Art is something to be admired, not torn to pieces before anyone has a chance to see the piece. Rules are necessa... ]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/14347134/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/14347134/ Sun, 26 Aug 2007 10:19:48 PDT

bad week to good then back
OK....so.....this is gonna be an emotional roller coaster so please stop. if you don't want any emoness ok?

OK! so on the 22nd i went and took my driver's test and i passed... but the night before i could have sworn life was determined to see me end my life. However Thanks to My Lovey, who sacrificed an hour or more of sleep to try and cheer me up..... to set the scene:
I was staying at a friends house so we could get to the DPS extra early after picking up my car. ok I was supposed to take the test on Monday, well I made myself sick, then on Tuesday, i did the same thing. Well, Debi, my friend, yelled at me and said you have got to get this done. while my mother was like. "If you fail you get to go back the next day, and the next, until you pass or can't take the test, if that happens, then the shit's gonna hit the fan." Anyway at my friends place, (her and her husband are staying with his mother and father. His mother keeps the house at 90 or more.... well i am raised in a 70 to 72 degree house.....), they are kinda cheap and eat little healthy meals, instead of big meals like my family. well let's just say i went hungry for the night.... anyway, i started getting nervous, but my main thing was getting some sleep at that point. well Thomas'(debi's husband), his father set off a bug bomb in the den where i was supposed to sleep in 78-9 degree temp which was looking pretty cool to me at that point in the day! However since he did that i was forced to sleep in the guest bedroom........ no AC.... 93 degree outside AT NIGHT!!!! with nothing but a noisy box fan in my face..... well i didn't care by that time, the test hit me........ all that week(MY F*CKING BIRTHDAY WEEK!!!>< i had a overwhelming sense of dread and doom! I knew i was going to die, or come close to it! ...I feel apart.... I never cry... i have not cried since my rabbit died 5 years ago, not even at my step-dad's mother's funeral. I just could not cry... Well the dam broke, and i was inconsolable. i wanted to die! I was wishing my heart for it. but i signed onto aim on my phone and said hi to someone..... HI~! LOVEY! she already knew stuff from talking to her earlier. well.... it got worse..... i was sobbing my eyes out to a girl in NORWAY!!!!!! I WAS FREAKING CURLED IN A FETAL POSITION SOBBING SO HARD I WAS SILENT!!! I HURT!!! My heart, my soul, everything hurt! but she gave me some hope back that everyone else kept taking away. I wanted a driver's license so that when she could come to America i could take her on a road trip. I really wanted to take my college classes again. I wanted to be Top psychology tutor again. I wanted freedom...... but i didn't want the fear of it. She saved my life. Thank you again lovey! *kiss* I meant it, you truly have touched my heart and soul for the better.

......anyway I PASSED!!! ....barely... BUT PASS!!!!!!!!! WHOO!!!!!!!!
...............................then my mother says i cant have my car because her's is broken and i start classes on Monday, AND DEBI IS MOVING AGAIN AND I HAVE BEEN RECRUITED AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -_-' I spent a full week getting her pack and moved into storage and her inlaws, without anyone's help but hers!!!!!!! we did it alone! a FULL HOUSE!!!!!!! PACKED! ........and i have to do it again.... BUT I WANT TO!!!! *giggles* we have the weirdest convos ever! while moving! i don't mind the heat.... ok i do... i don't mind the heavy boxes or all the walking. but i promised to lend my grandfather's truck if i drove and he said ok! well he leaves for Arizona tomorrow.... wait today! and he needs his truck. SO back to no ac cars in 100 degree weather, moving them into a rent house..... I'm gonna die! *giggles nut it will still be fun!......... but i am also doing 5 detail cg pictures.... a present for lovey, a present to Kai, coloring for gemelli . and some pics on DA....... damn..... then classes, and I HAVE NO FREAKING BED AT MY HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!! they have the frame but no mattresses. I have to drive an extra hour to school and back late at night! during first week of having my license!
...........Fate fucking hates me.......... -_-' NIGHT!!!!!!!!! *glomps and cookies for anyone who reads it all!* LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!!!
~Ishy

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/13384058/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/13384058/ Sun, 17 Jun 2007 17:53:09 PDT so...much...art............... YAY!!!!
okay! i have my seven sages, then the mirror seven sages to do, i have Zelo and Zelda, i have a special picture for an awesome artist , i have the "secret" for , a vampire for , The yaoi/yuri shirt, our KH charas, and a special gift for my Haddie , oh...so much art.... YAY! OH! A total of 24 picutes in all.... WELL I WILL GET THEM DONE!!!*vows* YAY!

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/13247571/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/13247571/ Thu, 07 Jun 2007 03:24:10 PDT i have so so so so much to do without doing a dinner party! Ans after the party everyone is going to stay and watch a few movies! BUT IT IS GOING TO BE SO MUCH FUN!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, requests!

i have got to finish Hal's yaoi and yuri shirt. Cuz we gonna wear it to anime fest!

I am doing a "secret" pic for sheer. you naughty naughty kitty!

Also YES! halie whether you request one or not, i am doing one for you! SO SHUT UP!

And i might be doing something for someone else later. not sure who yet...

]]> ~Goddess-Ishtara http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/13156858/ http://Goddess-Ishtara.deviantart.com/journal/13156858/ Wed, 30 May 2007 20:58:10 PDT
1: Cat: a grown-up kitty! tee hee!
2: Chaos: my list of artwork. ...
3: Crazies: A certain friend and I
4: Crock-lee: An awesome person and artist.
5: Cs2: PHOTOSHOP!!!!! ... sry i had too!
6: Clip: a vital object to hold up an artist's hair
7: Calculator: cuz i cant to math..
8: Curls!!! : I love anime girls with curly hair
9: Clubs: Deviant fanclubs!
..... final one!
10: COLD!!!!!!!!!! I LIKE THE COLD!!!!!


there i did it!!!!!!


Also! I AM DONE WITH CLASS NOW!!!!!!!!......until next semester... And i have been cleaning for more than a week straight to box EVERYTHING in my room and move it out while renovations are going on. i hurt my back and i was working non stop on that and could not draw.... that hurts. and now.... ART!!!!!!!!! and i can finish all that i promised! YAY! I WILL GET ALL THAT DONE AND MORE SURPRISES I SWEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Completion

(100%) A Kittaliciuos Day: SheerKhon

(36%) Blue Harem: Crocklee

(15-21%) Yaoi and Yuri shirt: Hal (goddessoftheSkye)

Hope to have those done soon! Thank you so much!
and if someone wants a request message me and I'll see what i can do!
~Goddess Ishtara

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