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Listening To: 'Nothing' - No-body

Hmmkay.

I ain't been on for like AGES. Reason being? Really couldn't be bothered?? Or just too addicted to perfecting my Myspace! Yes, I'm a Myspace whore.

Recently I started taking photo's of Bands at local gigs and such. I discovered that I have a talent for this...So I created my company Oh Snap! Photographics, which aids me to produce my Photo's on a website where the Bands can see them.
I currently do live Gig shots, but I'm looking for Local Bands who would like Promo Shots too.

Anyway, I'll upload some photo's when my Brother re-connects my internet


Peace kiddo's.
Emz
x x x x x ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/8898064/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/8898064/ Sun, 28 May 2006 01:32:34 PDT Current Mood: ...Yeah.
Listening To: "Words Are Real" - Heartless Vendetta

Okay.
Here's a short entry...


Shittest day. Here's why.

Jaide died this morning. R.I.P. She'd been in a Coma for 3 weeks.

Andy sorted shit out with his Girlfriend last night.
We hung out all of Saturday afternoon. Was fucking awesome.
Now he's back with his GF so I doubt that I'll be able to go further with him. *Sigh*

Jaryd went to see Bleeding Through & Carpathian on Friday night...AND HE DIDN'T EVEN INVITE ME.



Oh, it's my birthday this Thursday. Hoo-fucking-rah. ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/8800786/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/8800786/ Wed, 17 May 2006 17:49:52 PDT Current Mood: Happy as fuck!
Listening To: 'I Don't Need It' - Heartless Vendetta

Okay so this week has gone so much better than every other week..

At the last Underage Pelly Bar show, I was dancing to this awesome band called Heartless Vendetta.
Anyway, during my stages of Moshing and Headbanging, I looked at the bassist and I thought he was pretty hot. He saw me, and smiled. It made me smile even more.

So after the Pelly show, I went onto the glorious world of Myspace, where I found that Heartless Vendetta had added me. I found the Bassist in their Top 8. His name is Andy.
So, I added him. He accepted. And we got talking. xD

The other day I was talking to him, and he asked me to Webcam him. He kept saying "My god, you're so hot" or "You're gorgeous" and I was excited because...He wanted to see me! =O
So we planned to see eachother tonight (Thursday night), but I have a Cafe Concert (where I'm playing Bass) and I have Cadets too. So it would've been impossible to see him.
So...
He came to my house last night (My parents went to the Gym so I had an hour to myself)!!
We just chatted in his car about heaps of things.
Then when I had to go, I gave him a kiss on the cheek...Hopefully it will be on the lips next time

On Saturday, we're going to the Somerville Mechanics Hall to see B.T.K, Her Nightmare and heaps of other good bands play...So it'll be AWESOME!

Anyway, Bell just went.
Yes I am at school.
Now I have...Drama =]

Peace kids.
Emz
x x x ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/8712904/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/8712904/ Mon, 08 May 2006 17:00:51 PDT Current Mood: ...Nggh.
Listening To: 'The Great Golden Baby' - Circa Survive

Okay alot of things have happened since the last time I was on..

1-I broke up with Alex (even though I didn't want to), because he'd been a bastard towards me for about a month or so and he never wanted to see me...Had "better" things to do. I still like him...heaps. We had an argument last night via MSN..He kept calling me an Emo 'cause I have "feelings". He's too arrogant to care anyway! He doesn't give a fuck about anyone at all. He keeps saying that he'll never change for anyone, including his Girlfriends. Thefuck?? Aren't you like MEANT to be nice to your girlfriends?! And he did change his personality after ourn second date, so therefore he lies.

2-Daniel has been stalking me. You might say "Hang on, didn't you love that cunt?", but no...I got over the prick!! Now he'd come back for more, and also to tell me that he still loved me. After numerous amount of un-answered phone calls and door bell rings, he caught up to me after school. He gave me a present. You know what it was? A fucking framed picture of himself. WHAT THE FUCK?!! I took one look at it, and nearly screamed. I'm going to burn all his photo's and letters tonight...Watch all the bad memories burn away I'll take some photo's too!!

And more has happened, but I can't remember most of them 'cause I'm too fucked up to even think of things. When I remember, I'll jot it down.

Science is so boring...Although our Substitute teacher (Mr Neumann) OWNS! He lets us listen to our iPods and shit..And lets us do whatever we want

Gonna use Photoshop now...and talk to Dani, 'cause she owns my heart.

Hope everyone is well..
Peace,
Emz
x x x ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/8483170/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/8483170/ Sat, 15 Apr 2006 21:14:18 PDT Current Mood: Happy
Listening To: "Savin' Me" - Nickelback

Ahoy...

So bored.
Oh...I have a new boyfriend!
His name is Alex.
And he's the absolute sex.
I submitted a picture of him before my newest one, but if you wanna see a few photo's of us...click here: [link]

Anyway, Comment my pictures or something....


Lovvve Emz
x x x



Alex ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/8184594/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/8184594/ Fri, 17 Mar 2006 03:08:12 PST Mood: ...I'unno..
Listening To: 'Hide And Seek' - Imogen Heap

I'm bored.
And lonely.
And I think I might be turning Lesbian...or just Bi-Sexual.
Reason?
.I.Hate.Boys.

Problem One
I told Brady (old friend who "loves" me) that I didn't love him in that way. And now he hates me, and is getting his friends to hunt me down, and is calling me a slut whilst publicising it almost everywhere. I'm not a slut!! ARGH!! ='(

Problem Two (Although I don't know if it's a problem...read on though)
Okay, so Daniel decided to ignore his mother's rule and has now been seeing me since a week after she forbid him from seeing me! So now we're just Best Friends, which I'm extremely happy about 'cause we can hang out heeaappss without his mother knowing! But, I still miss him...I miss his cuddles and kisses...We have the best chats though. They go on for ages and we can just chat about ANYTHING. We can talk to each other about anything in the world, and trust each other. It rocks =3

Problem Three
A Hardcore 23 yr old guy has my Mobile number, knows where I live, thinks I'm hot, wants to meet real soon, and wants to fuck me. What do I do? Tell him I'm lesbian??! ..Actually, no. That'd make him even more interested. Oh god...

Anyway, I'm bored. And scared of the 23-yr-old.

Visit my Myspace, bitches!
[link]

Peace out,
x E m z x ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/7884963/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/7884963/ Mon, 13 Feb 2006 15:48:55 PST Current Mood:
Listening To: 'www.nevergetoveryou.com' - Prozzak

I have had such a change from my last journal.
I am Valentine-less, depressed, and heartbroken. What could be worse?
Please Lord, let me crawl into my grave now

I spoke to Daniel over MSN on Sunday night, as you do.
He said he needed to tell me something serious:
His mother gave him a "lecture" about Me, saying I'm a slutty skank and that I'm obsessed with him. Therefore, she's forbidding him from seeing me.
Ever. Again. She said if she finds out that we've been seeing eachother, she'll ring up my Parents and tell them everything.
For fuck sake, I don't even know the woman. How does she all of a sudden find out all these rumours about me? It's just not fair!
So now I cannot ever see Daniel ever again. And it's killing me.
He keeps saying "Things happen for a reason, and my mum is usually right when she is worried about something". I feel as if my life has been taken away from me!! I loved him so much, and I feel like I can't move on. He was the one. He was the only one I loved. And now I can never see him ever again.
He wants me to get over him. As if that is going to work!

I don't know what to do. I really love him. I love him more than anything.
If you have been through this before, please help me :worried:

To all those who have Valentines today: I hope you enjoy your special day.

<3 ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/7869247/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/7869247/ Sat, 11 Feb 2006 22:45:09 PST Current Mood: Booorrrreeeeddd & In love
Listening To: 'A Change In You' - The Black Tie Affair

I have a Valentine.
His name is Daniel.
And I love him more than anything.
We've gone through so much together,
And we've broken up & gotten back together alot too.
But I don't know where I would be without him.
He's my everything.
He always knows how to make me smile.
And that's what I love about him.
'Friends are siblings God forgot to give us'
And he is true to that.
I respect everything about him.
I don't want him to change for anyone.
He's always so right about everything,
Because he's just perfect.
...And I LOVE him.

Happy Valentines Day, Daniel.
I love you more than ever before.
And that will never change xx ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/7822420/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/7822420/ Mon, 06 Feb 2006 19:16:46 PST Current Mood: Hungry. |
Listening To: 'Adagio For Strings' - Dj Tiesto |
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Mmkay.
I now have 2,000+ Pageviews!!
And...I captured it!...But, the picture is at home and I am currently at School (The place where everyone tries to commit suicide from failing their Exams...Not really...). SO you will have to wait xD

I'm Hungry.
And Bored.

Toodle-oo!
<3 Emz xx
]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/7802834/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/7802834/ Sat, 04 Feb 2006 19:27:38 PST Current Mood: Happy
Listening to: 'Duality' - Slipknot

Okies, you know that I absolutely hate writing looong journals, so here's a little note:

I have about 3 more pageviews to go until I reach 2,000 pageviews! But, I probably wont capture it (As I will be out...and yeah, not online!). SO, if anybody see's that it has officially reached 2,000...PLEASE TAKE A SCREENSHOT AND SEND IT TO ME!!! xD

Thanksmuchly
<3 Emz xx ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/7437021/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/7437021/ Wed, 28 Dec 2005 04:15:10 PST Current Mood:...I don't know...HUNGRY.
Listening to: 'If Looks Could Kill- Carpathian

'kay....Lets keep it s h o r t...Starting NOW...

Past couple of weeks, this has happened:
-Went on a Cadet JLC (Junior Leaders Course). I passed.
-Went to the Green Day concert with friends. Loved it.
-Got my job back.
-Worked all week...and earnt over $300. Woo.
-Had Christmas (Didn't everyone?!!). Got a new phone. Camera!!

And yes...If you're a HOT guy...and you live in Frankston...and you want to make a friend...add me: kill-the-teenies@hotmail.com

Peace out, y'all.

Emz
xxx ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/7179342/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/7179342/ Tue, 29 Nov 2005 18:09:01 PST Mood: Sad, Confused, Huh?!
Listening to: "Amy" - The Cupid Initiative
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Yo Homie-g's, yo.

Just want to share something with you. I said in a previous journal, I got my first job...at Dusk, in Frankston. Well...I no longer have that job. Read on for more info.

I was fired for the most ridiculous reason/s:
-The Assistant Manager didn't like me...and she told the Manager all these bullshit stories about me not "working hard enough". Puh-lease! Thank fuck she resigned.
-The Manager felt that not enough work was being done. That was because I was HELPING Customers AND other workers. Bah!!

But it's okay. I've already applied for two other jobs since yesterday afternoon! (I applied for Sanity and Cotton On last night and I'm handing my Resume into PSC and Gloria Jeans tomorrow!)

If anyone knows of any jobs avaliable in the Frankston region, please note me or something!! Ta.

Anyway...Life is...the same!
Catch xx ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/7146105/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/7146105/ Sat, 26 Nov 2005 02:47:21 PST I Tests/Quizzes/Thingy's like these.

Put a X next to what ever you've done
( ) crashed a friend's car

( ) stolen a car

(x) been in love

(x) been dumped

( ) shoplifted

( ) been fired

(x) been in a fist fight

(x) snuck out of your parent's house

(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back

( ) been arrested

( ) gone on a blind date

(x) lied to a friend

(x) skipped school

(x) seen someone die

( ) had a crush on one of your internet friends

( ) been to Canada

( ) been to Mexico

(x) been on a plane

(X) purposely set a part of yourself on fire

(x) eaten Sushi (Emily: I hated it!!)

( ) been skiing on a veeery small hill

(x) met someone in person from the internet

(x) taken painkillers (when I needed them)

(x) miss someone right now

(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by

(x) made a snow angel

(x) had a tea party

(x) flown a kite

(x) built a sand castle

(x) gone puddle jumping

(x) played dress up

(x) jumped into a pile of leaves

(x) gone sledding

(x) cheated while playing a game

(x) been lonely

(x) fallen asleep at work/school

(x) used a fake id

(x) watched the sun set

( ) felt an earthquake

(x) touched a snake

(x) slept under the stars

(x) been tickled

( ) been robbed

(x) been misunderstood

(x) petted a reindeer/goat (Emily: Baaa!

(x) won a contest

( ) run a red light

( ) been suspended from school

(x) been in a car

(x) had braces

(x) felt like an outcast

(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night

(x) had deja vu

(x) danced in the moonlight

() like the way you look

(x) witnessed a crime

(x) questioned your heart

(x) been obsessed with post-it notes (Emily: Huzzah!!

(x) squished barefoot through the mud

( ) been lost (Emily: In NY. Scarwy!!)

(x) been to the opposite side of the country

(x) swam in the ocean

(x) felt like dying

(x) cried yourself to sleep

(x) played cops and robbers

(x) recently colored with crayons

(x) sung karaoke

(x) paid for a meal with only coins

(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't

(x) made prank phone calls (Emily: 'Hello, This is Kerpal!'

( ) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose

( ) caught a snowflake on your tongue

(x) danced in the rain

(x) written a letter to Santa Clause

( ) watched the sun rise with someone you care about

(x) blown bubbles

( ) made a bonfire on the beach

( ) crashed a party (AKA a partypooper)

(x) gone rollerskating

(x) had a wish come true

(x) worn pearls

(x) jumped off a bridge

( ) ate dog/cat food

(x) told a complete stranger you loved them

(x) kissed a mirror

(x) sang in the shower

(x) had a dream that you married someone

(x) glued your hand to something/got your tongue stuck to a flag pole

(x) kissed a fish

(x) sat on a roof top

(x) screamed at the top of your lungs

(x) done a one-handed cartwheel

( ) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours

(x) stayed up all night

(x) didn't take a shower for a week (Emily: Army Cadets, yo! It's all part of the fun.)

(x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree

(x) climbed a tree

(x) had a tree house

( ) are scared to watch scary movies alone

(x) believe in ghosts

( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes

( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say

... ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/7134857/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/7134857/ Thu, 24 Nov 2005 17:47:02 PST Death Cab For Cutie - 'Brothers On A Hotel Bed'

You may tire of me as our December sun is setting because I'm not who I used to be
No longer easy on the eyes but these wrinkles masterfully disguise
The youthful boy below who turned your way and saw
Something he was not looking for: both a beginning and an end
But now he lives inside someone he does not recognize
When he catches his reflection on accident

On the back of a motor bike
With your arms outstretched trying to take flight
Leaving everything behind
But even at our swiftest speed we couldn't break from the concrete
In the city where we still reside.
And I have learned that even landlocked lovers yearn for the sea like navy men
Cause now we say goodnight from our own separate sides
Like brothers on a hotel bed
Like brothers on a hotel bed
Like brothers on a hotel bed
Like brothers on a hotel bed ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/7117017/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/7117017/ Tue, 22 Nov 2005 18:14:46 PST Current Mood: <---Give me food GOD DAMN IT!!!
Current Music: 'Dragoste Din Tei (Numa Numa)' - Ozone

Howdy.

I'm making alot of Avatar's recently...thanks to ~Lu-Sam-Fer and his ingenius brain; I can now make heaps of crap!

So yip (I have to say it, Sam...Yip; Y-I-P. Why? I pee!..."Quick! We're looking for someone who pee's!" "Why? I pee!"...*Laughs intensively* Sam: You're a fuckin' funny fuck. Ha!)
If you're wondering why I change my Avatar alot...you now know why!!

Anything I've missed...? Hrmm...Oh yeah!
I <3 my Daniel
(Even though we're not going out...anymore...unfortunately......I still love him...H-E-A-P-S!!)

My <3 to all...
Say "Howdy" to your Mum for me!!...
Actually don't, 'cause then it'll look wierd

<3 Emz xx ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/6949524/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/6949524/ Thu, 03 Nov 2005 22:44:33 PST
Well it's a Friday afternoon, and I had an alright day of School;
1st Period: English in the Library
2nd Period: Music Tech
3rd Period: Activities
4th Period: Sport
What a great way to finish off the 3 day week! I love Fridays.

I just got a job! I work at "Dusk" in Frankston, which is opening up on Monday *Does a happy dance*. My first shift is Thursday night from 4:30 til 7:30pm, so anyone who lives close around Frankston...come in and visit

-->~Lu-Sam-Fer<--My Father Take a look, he's a rad artist.

Catch xx ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/6663384/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/6663384/ Sun, 02 Oct 2005 20:18:56 PDT
I made a club! It's called ~TheConverseClub...cause I love my Chucks and I know alot of Deviant Artists who do!! The club currently has 2 members: ~brittbrat & ~sissismay...I'd like to see those who love their Chuck's to sign up and submit some art!!!

Remember kiddies...
Labels are for Soup Cans!

xEmilyx ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/6622781/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/6622781/ Wed, 28 Sep 2005 06:01:40 PDT
Guess what?!...*waits for an answer*...Well I'll tell you what!

It's my 1st Birthday on Deviant Art!

Everybody grab some and a slice of and let's P-A-R-T-Y...and for all you Straight-edgers/Non-drinkers...have some !

Anywhoo...have some free cake...just because I'm nice tonight...--> ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/6569652/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/6569652/ Thu, 22 Sep 2005 04:39:28 PDT Current Mood: Wise & Rebutful
Current Music: 'The Ghost of You' - My Chemical Romance

Hello, kiddies...

Well I haven't written to the world of Deviant Art for quite some time now so I felt I might as well...no one is online because everyone went on Holidays without taking me with them...bastards

But yes...what have you lot gotten up to, eh? Well, I broke up with Jaryd a few weeks ago (thank god...) and yes I began to hear that he cheated on me and that he was spreading rumours and other crap about me...but nothing bothers me I soon shut him up with my witty remarks...that'll teach him.

Ugh...I'm going to submit some stuff...to pass the time, y'know?

Oh and remember, kiddies...
Labels are for Soup Cans ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/6338312/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/6338312/ Fri, 26 Aug 2005 22:43:08 PDT
I'm pretty bored. Production is starting to annoy me...the teachers always have to yell because people won't shut the f**k up...! God it's irritating. But anyway...

Uh yeap...Howdy to all of my friends...you know who you are. And remember kiddies...Labels are for Soup Cans.

Toodle Pip.
x3m1Lyx ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/6183730/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/6183730/ Tue, 09 Aug 2005 23:58:27 PDT
Britt gave me a picture before saying I had 1,000 pageviews.....So thanks heaps!! *Does a happy dance*

Toodle Pip,
x3m1LYx ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/6074826/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/6074826/ Sat, 30 Jul 2005 06:03:34 PDT (Why did I just write like that?) O_o

I've been a very busy bitch lately...the band (For all you scumbags that don't know who my band are...shame on you) have just done a gig at Nathanael's Party (Fun for all!!) and it was awesome....we borrowed his dad's Church hall (his dad is a Minister) and we rocked the stage down Twas fun.

Um yeah what else to say....oh yeah: I luv Daniel....As you probably already know. Sorry. I'm infatuated with him. O_o

Toodle Pip. ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5854770/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5854770/ Wed, 06 Jul 2005 08:15:51 PDT Mood: O_O Meh
Mood: "I'm not okay (I promise)"-My Chemical Romance

I don't know what to write...Im so bored! So why not write a journal about nothing!?!?!

What has been happening lately? Um not alot. My computer crashed so I have been living hell without it whilst it has been in repairs with my brother. I hate not being able to use my computer!!!! >_< And yeah, I'm staying at my brothers house right now and it's pretty fun. The roads are great for skating on: They're so smooth and steep, with lots of turns and road bumps. It's fucking awesome.

So anywhoo...Im bored...Add me and talk to me on MSN....Nggh... ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5603937/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5603937/ Thu, 09 Jun 2005 21:29:11 PDT
Mood: Exceptionally Happy
Listening to: "Go Go Emorangers" - Emorangers
Watching: "The Longest Yard"...Saw it last night. Hilarious!

Oh so many good things have happened since my last Journal...!

1st June
My Birthday...I got an iPod!
Music Exam...Damn Nazi's...

5th June
Recieved my exam results...87%=A!!
Bloody band rehearsal cancelled...grrr

9th June
Movies with my besties!!
MASSIVE fight with parents...Jesus Christ!!

And yeah it looks like nothing but bleh...thats all I could think of! Generally, I've had a good few weeks.

Ciao

...What's a Footer?... ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5426449/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5426449/ Sun, 22 May 2005 04:10:00 PDT
Missy Higgins "The Special Two"
I've hardly been outside my room in days,
'cause I don't feel that I deserve the sunshine's rays.
The darkness helped until the whiskey wore away,
And it's then I realize the conscience never fades.
When you're young you have this image of your life:
That you'll be scrupulous and one day even make a wife.
And you make boundaries you'd never dream to cross,
And if you happen to you wake completely lost.
But I will fight for you, be sure that
I will fight until we're the special two once again.

And we will only need each other, we'll bleed together,
Our hands would not be taught to hold another's,
When we were the special two.
And we could only see each other, we'd bleed together,
These arms will not be taught to need another,
'Cause we were the special two.

I remember someone old once said to me:
"Lies will lock you up with truth the only key."
But I was comfortable and warm inside my shell,
And couldn't see this place would soon become my hell.
So is it better to tell and hurt or lie to save their face?
Well I guess the answer is don't do it in the first place.
I know I'm not deserving of your trust from you right now,
But if by chance you change your mind you know I will not
Let you down 'cause we were the special two, and will be again.

And we will only need each other, we'll breathe together,
Our hands will not be taught to need another's,
When we're the special two.
And we could only see each other we'll bleed together,
These arms will not be taught to need another...

I step outside my mind's eye's for a minute.
And I look over me like a doctor looking for disease,
Or something that could ease the pain.
But nothing cures the hurt you, you bring on by yourself,
Just remembering, just remembering how we were... ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5408127/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5408127/ Fri, 20 May 2005 01:34:56 PDT Mood: Sad
Listening to: "Bye Bye"-Finkel has Fallen
Doing: Waiting for MSN to reload...Grrr

Well it has been, lets see, 4 Days since my last journal and I am rather bored >_< I tried to log onto MSN but it said it has to download ANOTHER version of Beta...So I can't talk to anyone!!

Daniel has also cracked at me because I didn't turn up to his Grand Final football game on Thursday. He won't listen to me when I say "I had band and it totally slipped my mind...I am sorry", so now I don't know how I am going to get through to him. But the thing is...He did he get cut at me for not turning up, and we're not even going out... But then his mate said it's because he still likes me...Which is sweet! But he doesn't have to treat me like shit. ARGH!!!!! I just want him to be happy, as well as me.

Note me...I am BORED. Ooh! MSN is nearly done...*does a happy dance* ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5369620/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5369620/ Mon, 16 May 2005 01:29:13 PDT Mood: Unbelievable
Listening to: "Dissimulate"-Morning Glory
Doing: French Homework....*cough*

Hallo All

Just thought I would drop a quick line...As I am doing French Homework.......(not!). I also have Maths homework to do (due tomorrow) and I haven't even started it yet!! All I have to do is a Revision "Cheat" Sheet for the Algebra test we have tomorrow . I hate Algebra...So boring. I ALSO have English homework to finish off...But I never do my English homework because I can pass without it

Anywhoo, I think Daniel & I are getting back together...!!! I'm excited, cause this time our relationship will be stronger. Ooh yeah!!

Visit my Friends' Pages!!


Clubs I joined
]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5325959/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5325959/ Wed, 11 May 2005 01:24:13 PDT Mood: Sad
Doing: Making iPod Posters
Listening to: Green Day

Okay I just had to mention this to my fellow Deviant Art friends...

Daniel & I had been together for about 4 months & 3 weeks when...*BaNg*...Daniel says he is "Falling-Out-of-Love" with me. It hurt me, but the both of us had broken up 4 times before (Yes we have been together around 5 times now, but I love him so there's the reason.).

I'm kind of happy in a way, because now I can perve on hot guys without feeling guilty (Like Jeremy Purcell in year 10...*drools*). But I'm also sad because I love the way he cuddles me and makes me feel like there's no troubles in the world...At all.

Daniel, if you are reading this, I love you with all my heart. You will always be the one to which I dearly love. A break will be good for the both of us, Just don't leave me alone for too long. ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5217832/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5217832/ Fri, 29 Apr 2005 00:41:10 PDT
Ja. I'm that sure everyone who was abused by !die-poser-die is now be reasured that he won't be abusing you anymore. And if he makes another account and abuses the f**k out of any of us...Just copy the comment number and send it to the Deviant Help Desk [link] This way we can keep Deviant Art free of people who couldn't care less about what he says about other people.

Enjoy being free of this mole ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5191636/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5191636/ Tue, 26 Apr 2005 04:28:39 PDT
1-If you think I'm a poser, then piss off outta my page. I, quite frankly, don't give a rats arse about what you think of me. It is much better to keep it to yourself, because I don't lose a fight. I just keep bringing it to your doorstep until you give up.

Right, now that I got THAT off my chest...

If you come on my page, feel free to have a look around. I'm fine with that. But when you come in and abuse the f**k outta me...Then you are just begging for trouble. And I'm quite happy to give it. I'm sure the Deviant Help Desk would love to ban you...

This is a warning to every deviant out there (especially ~die-poser-die) who just adores to abuse people in every f**king way. And I'm getting bloody sick of it...But I'm not getting sick of banning deviants. So let this be a warning to all of you...I don't lose a fight. ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5075712/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5075712/ Wed, 13 Apr 2005 06:03:07 PDT I hate it, especially when he goes to "Le island"...

So lonely without him. I watch movies and TV shows and they all stare lovingly into eachothers eyes, then slowly (yet passionately) make out with each other...And then I think "Hell, I'm never going to get the chance to do that with him when we're on holidays."

He doesn't have credit so he can't ring me at night, and he's always busy so he can't come round >_< Im so annoyed!!!!

Anyways,

Peace out

x x x Emily x x x ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5022626/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5022626/ Thu, 07 Apr 2005 05:46:05 PDT
Damn Nazi's!!! (Sorry, I like to say that >_<

If you have done a tutorial on Manga, Portraits (like the ones in my favourites), or digital arts (see fav's)...Please leave me a note!!! it would be greatly appreciated

Thanks,

x X x Emsie x X x ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5013517/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/5013517/ Wed, 06 Apr 2005 05:19:34 PDT

I miss alot of peoples.....

Luke, Daniel, Yaan, Pete, Mike, Mikey, Macca, Britt (luvs ya babe!!), Lana, James, Nick, Jake, Lil Davey, Rob, Claire, Nick D & many many more pplz!!!!

Ne ways hey to everyone. Please say howdy on my page, it'll be funny

Peace Out,

Emsie x x x ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/4842583/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/4842583/ Fri, 18 Mar 2005 02:02:50 PST
.: Music :.
Everyone puts music into different genre’s. They might class Punk as Metallica or Slipknot, or Pop Punk as Blink 182 and Good Charlotte. Well here’s what I class my music as…

Punk: Blink 182, Ramones, Placebo, Green Day, Thursday, Evanescence, Morning Glory, Avril Lavigne, Rufio
Metal/Goth: Slipknot, Metallica, Him, Murderdolls
Pop: Missy Higgins, Placebo

.: Dress Appearance and Attitude :.
TheCareBare thinks that if you dress in black and listen to heavy music, you’re a Goth. Well that’s just not true. Many people can dress themselves, but obviously TheCareBare thinks she can be god and dress us up like Barbie dolls. This is how I like to dress and what I think your appearance means.

Punk Appearance: May like to wear Black, Red, Pink, White. May wear a trucker hat or other head wear. Decorative sweat bands are also popular, as well as coloured hair. Make up is also popular.

Girly Appearance: Wears skirts a lot, and heaps of jewellery. Girly girls love to apply lip-gloss and other bright make up products. Their hair may be coloured. May be called a “crunchie” (brown haired, blonde brain).

Gothic Appearance: Favourite colours: Black and Red…Occasionally Blue and Purple. Goths usually express happiness by being sad. They aren’t very social, but if they are talking…It is probably to other Goths.


So you see, what TheCareBare thinks “Goth” is…Really isn’t what we are. Yes we may be scary and damn right cruel…But that’s how we are and it won’t change. TheCareBare thinks she's "Poser Free"...PFFT! More like "Poser equals Me!".


By the way, Don’t listen to anything (and I mean ANYTHING) TheCareBear says…Because she thinks she’s god and thinks she can change the way everyone lives their lives. ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/4307572/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/4307572/ Thu, 13 Jan 2005 03:07:40 PST
Anyway, What else has happened in my life in the past week? Not much. Cody hasn't rung yet. Dunno why. But meh! I will see Daniel when he gets back...Which is hopefully soon. He actually messaged me yesterday!!! Which was amazing!!!

Anyway, Im going to play Habbo now. Or i might make another Manga girl on [link] You should visit it. It's totally awesome!

Peace Out,
Emsie ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/4138262/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/4138262/ Thu, 23 Dec 2004 16:55:07 PST
Well it is now officially Christmas Eve; All the presents are under the tree and I have finished my christmas shopping. It's so hard to buy things for everyone these days.
Anyway, Im not as excited as I am usually every year about Christmas. After all, it comes every year and only lasts one or two days. But the best part of it is the food and just having your family and friends around you. The presents, well. I think they matter, but not always!!!

Have fun on Christmas day everyone!!

Peace Out,
EM$IE ]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/3944413/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/3944413/ Mon, 29 Nov 2004 02:04:55 PST
1st Period: Science. We are doing study's on the 5 Senses, which we had a test for. I think i passed, but it doesn't really matter coz i already got my report Anyways, the guys who were sitting behind me were PISSING ME OFF!!! Don't you worry Cam and Chris...You'll get yours!
2nd Period: English. Talk about boring! Mrs White is giving me the shits(< --That's my plan!!) We're studying Poverty and it's boring. And im not going to go out and pay for a present!! Meh, im not going to bother! Anyway, at 11:30 we had a take-cover/fire drill We were sitting there and we didn't even notice the alarm going!! Funny as
3rd Period: Activities. Im making a movie in 'Create the greatest movie with little or no experience'. It's called: "Jackass 2: Reality Uncovered". Hopefully it'l be good, i have Oscar going down a big hill in a wheel chair!!
4th Period: P.E. The last of our 4 swimming sessions. I swear that pool teacher is gay!! I mean seriously, he shaves his legs??!! But im sick of that pool, my eyes hurt too much!

Well that was my day, Most of u won't see what i did! Oh well, ur loss.

Peace Out,
Em§îE
]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/3929092/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/3929092/ Sat, 27 Nov 2004 02:51:02 PST
I went to see Morning Glory LIVE on the Beach, and Pete was playing drums(by the way, if u don't know pete...i him!!)
He's in a wicked band!!! Their website is [link] So go and check them out!!! Pete, the blonde one(known as 'Sidey'), is the cutest guy i have eva met!!! You Pete!!
I have the Cadet formal on the 3rd of December(friday this week), and of course Pete will be there!! Im gonna look gorgeous 4 him

Have a good week all,
Peace out

Em$ie
]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/3898098/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/3898098/ Tue, 23 Nov 2004 01:37:34 PST
Here's sum linkz 2 ma friendz Webpages...I only just figured out how to do it!! ( Thankx britty!)

.:Britt Brat:.


.:Road Kill Will:.


.:Bling Bling to da Max:.


.:Robiben:.


I get sum more l8er,

Peace out,
.:Em$ie:.
]]> ~GothicEmsie http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/3897609/ http://GothicEmsie.deviantart.com/journal/3897609/ Mon, 22 Nov 2004 23:06:48 PST
and come to think of it, i've been on ~DA for ages and......why didn't i add one earlier??!!
But skool has been a drag l8ly. So boring!! I hate English, my teacher (Mrs White). She's such a bitch!! I got my skool report back, was FUCKING SEXCELLENT!!!(lol, that's britty's word!! )

Ne ways,
Peace out

.:Em$ie:. ]]> ~GothicEmsie