http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Gothicluva&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Gothicluva en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 07 Dec 2009 00:42:38 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/12656785/ http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/12656785/ Thu, 19 Apr 2007 15:33:15 PDT
Scornful, relentless memory
Ripped of all but drive
Undressed by betrayal
Zero tolerance for the souldead
Wish I was the violence,
Inflicted upon you

Fuel for Hatred, air raid siren to mankind

Little you,
Still like a claw in my eye
Pulsating organic rage
I should have let you off of the hook
Mind drifts
Into dynamic pain
Universal onslaught
I'm on my own (One soul, one hate)

Fuel for Hatred, air raid siren to mankind

Damnation, holocaust
Devil horns for you to ride
Time for the angel
To spread his wings and fly
World opponent,
Wishmaster of gruesome pain
Stormtroops' frantic fury,
Demoniac spitfire!

Abortion of religious life, distinguish the rot
I hate you
To a level of intoxication
Don't feel alone,
I've got enough
I wish you slow death,
Slow death by grinding

Fuel for Hatred, air raid siren to mankind

]]> ~Gothicluva http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/12656780/ http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/12656780/ Thu, 19 Apr 2007 15:32:50 PDT
Scornful, relentless memory
Ripped of all but drive
Undressed by betrayal
Zero tolerance for the souldead
Wish I was the violence,
Inflicted upon you

Fuel for Hatred, air raid siren to mankind

Little you,
Still like a claw in my eye
Pulsating organic rage
I should have let you off of the hook
Mind drifts
Into dynamic pain
Universal onslaught
I'm on my own (One soul, one hate)

Fuel for Hatred, air raid siren to mankind

Damnation, holocaust
Devil horns for you to ride
Time for the angel
To spread his wings and fly
World opponent,
Wishmaster of gruesome pain
Stormtroops' frantic fury,
Demoniac spitfire!

Abortion of religious life, distinguish the rot
I hate you
To a level of intoxication
Don't feel alone,
I've got enough
I wish you slow death,
Slow death by grinding

Fuel for Hatred, air raid siren to mankind

]]> ~Gothicluva http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/12116393/ http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/12116393/ Fri, 09 Mar 2007 09:48:58 PST
a girl stabbed me in the back of ma head with a pen on wednesday... reason.. CUZ IM DIFFERENT.. well im not changin 4 any1 I LUV MA HEAVY METAL n MA BLACK so theres no changin me

she got suspended bt told sum sob story sayini hit her bak so i got a demerit which is not true cuz i DID NOT hit her bak... didnt get 2 anyway a couple of ma frenz hawled me off before i got 2 do anythin ( THANX GUYS muah)


bt seriously tho im not takin tht demerit fxck no!


mite as well i did hit the bxtch at least i kno i gettin punished 4 sumtihn i did BLAH!!!



BT Y ME!!!!

im seriously tired of takin shxt frm ppl SERIOUSLY!

tired of ppl askin about ma scars tired of ppl askin dumb questions n makin rude comment...

TIRED OF THE FXCKIN LABELS

]]> ~Gothicluva http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/12116239/ http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/12116239/ Fri, 09 Mar 2007 09:30:51 PST
]]> ~Gothicluva http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/10903899/ http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/10903899/ Thu, 30 Nov 2006 16:24:16 PST
Once agen i hungry n theres nttn in this damn house 2 eat n im sick woot woot great.... Damn physics lab still need 2 write up *sigh*
When will this fever end

Anyway sowy bout all tht... so anyway in deceber i will submit sum more stuff cuz i will be alil free-er

*sigh* damn


]]> ~Gothicluva http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/10077958/ http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/10077958/ Fri, 15 Sep 2006 07:12:43 PDT
The greatest thing that can bring the best joy anybody has ever had is death. Death is the end of my suffering and pain. Once I lost you death was my only source of seeing you again. I was once in the darkness and you were the light that came to me, to fill my life with light. Our love is an everlasting flame. As long as you were in my life, I would be forever happy. When my heart was shattered into a thousand pieces, you came to me and patiently put it back together. And ever time a piece of my heart broke you were there to put it back together. You were like a brick wall protecting me from getting hurt. But when you left the wall came down and my heart once again shattered. The light no longer stayed. My love I know you don't like seeing me this way. Right now you think I'm crazy. But my life depended on you. The only thing that mattered to me was just you. My only reason of living was you. I wanted to be with you for the rest of my life. I couldn't imagine not being with you. So since your gone I have nothing to live for. My love if there is another way of seeing you, please tell me. For without you I'm lost and I need you to find me. I'll be waiting for you forever. Without your answer death is my only remedy. ]]> ~Gothicluva http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/9535142/ http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/9535142/ Sat, 29 Jul 2006 16:34:04 PDT
I must be sum bad fxckin person 4 this shit 2 happen 2 me repeatedly...
Y ME??.. this shows tht no one actually cares

2 top it off i may hav 2 end up joinin the army .. the only gud thin frm tht is i may get shot yay 4 me.

GOOD NEWS: The fxcked up depressin tiffany may jus return... YAY ]]> ~Gothicluva http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/8828116/ http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/8828116/ Sat, 20 May 2006 17:53:56 PDT I dont think anybody can be more confused than me right now. As in i dont know why the hell im on this earth. I just dont want 2 be here anymore. Sometimz i wonder wat ma dad would say if he waz here..................... *SIGH* I know he would probably be really disappointed in who i am jus like how i am. I try reachin out 2 ppl but it never does work it suks. I mean i kno i hav a lot of frenz n stuff at skool but they all think i have the perfect life n that im always happy, when really im not im jus a really good actress cuz i don't actually show how hurt i am.
Wat i really wanted waz a new set of frenz who can undastand how i feel n sum of the shit im goin thru BUT i cant.
*SIGH *
Anyway point blank is that i jus dont wish 2 be on this earth anymore n i also wish ma dad waz here seein tht i cant tlk 2 ma mom lik eva.



Point blank i jus feel really depressed n hurt n cuz of wat happened ova the weekend im reminded of ma dad n it hurts 2 kno he's not here [R.I.P.]

*SIGH* ]]> ~Gothicluva http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/8634483/ http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/8634483/ Sun, 30 Apr 2006 19:03:42 PDT WHO THE FUK DOES THIS?
If u not goin tell me nuttin dont fukin call me.
I tell her i dont want 2 be her fren much less her best fren anymore n she still wont leav me the hell alone. Is lik she want 2 tlk 2 me but she dont want 2. y she wont let me be. All she doin is gettin me angry n rite now i wuld lik 2..... let me not say.
I hav CXC comin up as a matter a fact it is here n i cant deal wit her cuz i need 2 be studyin n shit.

I wish she would jus piss off n if she readin this now hopefully she gets the message. ]]> ~Gothicluva http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/8513283/ http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/8513283/ Tue, 18 Apr 2006 17:25:42 PDT
well i sed i would neva keep a girl best fren but i trusted dis bitch name @#$#*a
who i thought waz different but screw tht cuz all she does is piss me off n treat me like crap n everytime i want 2 end the entire frenship she draws me bac in. *SIGH* i dunno wat 2 do n another thing wit her is tht she cant accept the type of person i am n she wants me 2 B someone else which is ridiculous cuz although i hate who i am i would neva change 2 B like someone else.
Right now i am avoidin her n stickin 2 my male best frenz cuz i dunnno wat 2 do.



SCREW IT. ]]> ~Gothicluva http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/8493803/ http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/8493803/ Sun, 16 Apr 2006 20:57:38 PDT Cold, shattered, torn in to blurry pieces,
I laid on the floor waiting for someone to save me,
But no one ever came, just as I knew,
I used all of my strength to make it to the bathroom,
And find my old best friend the razor,
The one thing that never let me down,
Always did its job
Met my wrists once again

I know I promised you all,
But you all promised me,
To always be there for me,
But you aren't,
You all worry about yourselves,
And don't care what happens to the girls
Like me

I try to speak,
But no one listens
Which is why I reached for it,
Tonight the razor
And cut to the bone,
Because I've lost it all
No care in the world,

I fell to the floor harder,
No one to save me once again,
So I stayed in the tub,
Sinking into my own pool of blood,
Still feeling isolated,
I sank even more,
Till I finally drowned in my own
Poor blood with no one there
To stop this

I fell into my final slump,
Floated in the tub,
Waited to be found,
And when I was found,
That's when everyone
Started CARING! ]]> ~Gothicluva http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/8493762/ http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/8493762/ Sun, 16 Apr 2006 20:52:19 PDT
The sharp edge of the razor cuts my skin easily,
I’m numb to the pain,
Numb to the blood,
Now numb to the hurt,
Too numb to realize what’s happening,
To realize what I’m doing.
One cut follows another.
And another
Till I can stop.
The razor falls from my hand,
Dropping to the floor,
Blood drips down my arm,
Tears roll down my cheek,
What have I done? ]]> ~Gothicluva http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/8462747/ http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/8462747/ Thu, 13 Apr 2006 19:39:22 PDT
This rose is gone and withered away,
Much like the happiness of today.
She loves you more then she will confess,
And much more than you can digest.
Her scars show a broken heart,
it was not ruined from the start.
The blood that drips will burn when touched,
The blood falls often once clutched.
There is acid seeping through her veins,
this is brought about by her captive chains.
so pick the petals one by one,
nothing will be left when you are done. ]]> ~Gothicluva http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/8462693/ http://Gothicluva.deviantart.com/journal/8462693/ Thu, 13 Apr 2006 19:33:34 PDT
Another Chance

Darkness, loneliness, despair, pain
Long companions of my life, Old
Friends that have been my company
For far too long

Feeling lost in darkness for so long
No sign of light or hope coming near
Just emptiness and despair of ever
Having a normal life

Going from one high to a low waiting
To find something other than the pain
I feel like getting high to forget trying to
Hide behind a veil

Hazy memories of what I've done, while
Floating high from artificial Highs while
Coming down to deepest lows filling me
With self loathing and hate

Running out of excuses noose around
My neck tight as I jump off the chair
A final darkness closing in around me
Leaving nothing behind

Sudden pain flooding my being as light
And feeling suddenly returns as I'm
Pulled back to life screaming and
Yelling wanting it all to end

Time has passed and I look back
To days with darkness, pain and
Despair now filled with hope and
New friendships

Thanks to those who've been there for
Me who pulled me through the darkness
And brought me kicking, fighting back to
Life that I've always wanted ]]> ~Gothicluva