http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:GreyAndBurgundy&section=today deviantART RSS for by:GreyAndBurgundy en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 06 Dec 2009 01:52:33 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://GreyAndBurgundy.deviantart.com/journal/17916700/ http://GreyAndBurgundy.deviantart.com/journal/17916700/ Fri, 18 Apr 2008 18:31:38 PDT Spring Awakening, which is, in my opinion, is just a really queer and obscene version of High School Musical. Sadly, most my theatre friends are obsessed with the first, and even worse, some are in the local youth theater's production of the second. ><

But that is, in a way, how I feel. That this isn't my life. Maybe my outlooks on some things have changed; I don't know. But I DO know that some aspects of my life are about to be changed, and very much so. I'm going to a new school next year - an art high school in San Francisco. I was so ecstatic and astonished when I found out I got in. I've made some new friends, and I'm now closer to some old ones. And... I've lost some. I'm certainly not one to hold grudges, but that does not, under any circumstances, mean that those who lost it will not have to work to gain my trust again. If you can't be nice, and if you can't put in a little effort to the relationship: I give up on you and on us.

On the other hand... even though I've gone through a lot over the past few moths, most of which I'm not going to mention now, I'm really looking forward to next week, the months to come (summer!), and next year (it'll be weird to go to school and actually enjoy it) .

Also, I'm going to delete this account and make another one... soon... I'll probably post an entry right before I do, though.

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But there's something I want. So I suppose all that doesn't matter because I've finally gotten my real wish. I was tired of being immune to desire, and now that I'm not (for this at least), I WANT. With every part of me. I know the downside, but I don't care a bit, not anymore.

So I'll wait. Wait for that and for her. I've given up on everyone else, but she's worth more than all of them combined - by a long shot. So for those of you who think I should "take a moment to think of someone else for a change," I do. Just not you, or the rest of you who follow me like a lost puppy.

Relationships, like many other things, depend on mutual effort. But I've given you far too many chances, and you were so blind to how I felt about you. Why do think I put up with you for so long?

I've made some new friends, and I've learned some things in the process, but being human (and American) I want MORE. which brings me back to my original point: I want. So bad it hurts. It's a weird, brand new feeling, but still, I'm glad it's here.

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*groundhog*
lol

]]> ~GreyAndBurgundy http://GreyAndBurgundy.deviantart.com/journal/16737555/ http://GreyAndBurgundy.deviantart.com/journal/16737555/ Tue, 05 Feb 2008 11:37:38 PST Life is so stressful and complicated right now.
So this kinda made my day complete.
[link]

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On another note, I'm still fretting over the TV thing mentioned in the previous entry... And an... erm... "friend" thing. But at least she's back home, and all in one piece. (Is it wrong to be sad that I didn't get a chance to see her?)

Oh, I forgot. I'm sore as hell.

]]> ~GreyAndBurgundy http://GreyAndBurgundy.deviantart.com/journal/16482755/ http://GreyAndBurgundy.deviantart.com/journal/16482755/ Thu, 24 Jan 2008 19:26:03 PST A second cousin and his parents,
Another second cousin and her fiancé,
My second cousin once removed, his wife and her sister.
And, naturally, my parents and myself.

And I'm up here, drinking tea with honey because I'm sick and losing my voice.

And I'm so confused.

And I don't know if I've done the right thing.
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Right before the beginning of this school year, I had decided that I was going to stop all my theatre stuff aside from working backstage, simply because I wanted to focus on things that I was better at. A lot of people can act, wich is why so many actors are unemployed a lot of the time. There is very high supply, and limited demand. I'm not bad, but I thought that I had acted because it helped me be less self-concious, a better public speaker, and, well, gave me friends who were weird, like me, rather than because I had a shot in hell of pursuing it as a career. However, I can draw better than most my age, and that's not boasting; it's the truth.

But then I realized that I would be going into a high school with almost no friends, and since it was unlikely I would be making any there, I decided to audition for one last season with my theatre group, so I could have a chance to, you know, be around people and stuff.

Naturally, a few weeks after I auditioned, this girl who had been pretending to be my friend for a few months, but really cannot stand me, used me to get to one of my best friends, who she was madly in love with (he has no idea she likes him), and turn all my close friends against me. Luckily, he hasn't totally ditched me, but still, it's not the same.

So today, I was backstage, and I was thinking about how it had all become a chore. I wasn't enjoying being around anyone I was friends with before, aside from the guy who I was fighing against the odds to hang out with at all, but when he's around HER, he becomes really immature, and they go off with all their inside jokes. Not only that, but the show I was in was really bad. It was the Jungle Book, which I detest, half the cast couldn't act worth shit, one of the people controling the lights and music/sound cues was stoned, and I have a really bad cold, so it was really really hard to project.

After the show, there's this thing where the actors answer questions and the little kids who see the show tell us their names and favorite colors and crap like that.

And this lady, this posh, upscale, chic, yet older lady comes up to me.

She's from a TV station. Like, the producer or something, I have no idea; I know nothing about TV.

She wants me to be on this children's show that is airing next year.

And the worst part?
I said YES.
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Obviously, there are more issues in my life than the few mentioned above, but this could, honestly and obviously, change my life.

I really like this one guy... And I think he might like me too, I dunno. But I wish that if he did he'd just ask me out already, and if he doesn't, I wish he'd ask the girl he does like out, and I hope she likes him back, so that he'll be happy.

The only person who I can bitch about all this shit to in person lives a thousand miles away. I love her dearly, and I'm pretty sure I will permanently have puffy eyes now due to how much I've been crying lately. See, she ran away from home, and no one had heard from her until yesterday. I was terrified that something had happened. I don't know what I'd do without her.

I used to have another friend around here, one I could depend on, but things aren't working out so well right now. Now, when I need someone the most, they're off in their own little world obsessing over pointless shit in order to give their life meaning because without their obsessions, they have nothing. I almost miss the days when I was that obsession, simply because then she paid attention to me... Or at least, I thought she did, because I am naïve and lame. But also pretty, apparently.

I've met a few new people here who I like, but they are very few and very few between.
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So I'm going to San Francisco tomorrow, with one of the last people around here I can talk to. Naturally, she's never around when I am, and since our... uh.... lifestyles are very different, we rarely get to chill.
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On another note... PETA terrifies me. Me, who is mostly vegan. Not that being vegitarian or vegan is easy, perfect or, in most cases, even close to what is right.
Not according to PETA.
"Going vegan is a no-brainer"
A NO-BRAINER?!?!?!?
Is that propaganda, or what.
(That wasn't a question).

Liberal propaganda is the worst kind, because liberals are suppossed to be ACCEPTING.

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]]> ~GreyAndBurgundy http://GreyAndBurgundy.deviantart.com/journal/16313510/ http://GreyAndBurgundy.deviantart.com/journal/16313510/ Tue, 08 Jan 2008 10:11:21 PST Snowflakes fall like velvet
from iron colored skies.
Somehow, I can't help it
I feel my spirits rise. ~Groovelily, Striking 12

That pretty much summed up my new years eve/day. Minus the shower incident, the movies, the 9:00 curfew, watching my very stoned/drunk friends trying to behave properly in front of their parents and having to cover for them constantly (I love being the sober one), falling horridly while attempting to snowboard, and talking to people who apparently liked me. Huh. So that's Colorado.

I miss it.
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So here goes:

1. Spirit
2. Coal
3. Winter
4. Fire
5. Lust
6. Greed
7. Gluttony
8. Love
9. Hate
10. Vanity
11. King
12. Queen
13. Throne
14. Cult of the Holy Marshmallow
15. Wish
16. Dream Boat
17. Happiness
18. Guns
19. Peace
20. Hunger
21. Rotting
22. Utopia
23. Still Life
24. 5:17 PM
25. Gone.
26. Eggshell
27. Old-fashioned Telephone
28. Dirty Laundry
29. Infestation
30. 87%
31. Voodoo
32. Fetish
33. Through the Looking Glass
34. Drowning
35. Hell
36. Disappointment
37. Forgotten
38. You
39. Fossil
40. Goddess
41. Punishment
42. Insanity
43. Perfection
44. Promise
45. Crash
46. Memory
47. Broken
48. Innocence
49. Missing
50. Unfulfilled Potential
51. Halfway
52. Window
53. Shine
54. Freedom
55. Treasure
56. Childhood
57. Darkness
58. Portal
59. Anti-Depressants
60. Need
61. Democracy
62. Majority
63. Wrong
64. Mother
65. Empty
66. Confines
67. Money
68. Coffin
69. Serge
70. Terror
71. Tease
72. Lost Baggage
73. Train Station
74. Goodbye
75. Dead
76. Wake Up
77. Longing
78. Limp
79. Myself
80. Renaissance
81. Fall (the verb)
82. Lost
83. Evil Shoelaces that Demand Revenge
84. Rapunzel
85. Pandora
86. Hex
87. Tree
88. Clown
89. Feed
90. Time
91. Cheat
92. Away
93. Conscience
94. Betrayal
95. Why?
96. Fun
97. Cirq
98. Accepted
99. Irregularities
100. The End.

Bwahahaha. Now I'll have something to do in English class.
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EDIT::
(because I don't feel like writing a new blog)
Gahhhhh. I have a massive crush and it's driving me mad!
[It's hella obvious too]
Even MORE than Cirq!

...that is all.

Oh wait! I lied. That's not all at all, just what's occupying the majority of the grey matter right about now.
'Cause guess what?
I'M GOING TO COLORADO!
I'M GOING SNOWBOADRING!
[I'M GOING TO CRASH INTO A TREE!]



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