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I have decided that I am going to start making my jewlery, to sell it
I want to atleast say I tried. Because I would rather try and see, rather then never knowing. There's an experience lost right there. An opportunity gone.

I want to try, and see if people, you guys and others...would actually buy what I make.
And if the ones I make are going good, I will start taking/doing commissions



I came to this goal/idea, by ever wearing what I make for myself.
That being; patches, my now done pants(coming soon, I promise), my vest, my shirts, my purses, my jewlery, everything that is my style. Lol.

I want to see. I think I have a shot.

Anyyyywhoooo Lol.



I am going to get organized before I start selling anything.
I have to get everything figured out and structured.
Do it how I think it should operate for myself- inorder to make things work smooth.





But, I will keep all of you updated with this journal,
I will just add to it as I figure things out. One step at a time though


But, anyways, I would love to know what you guys think
About this, do you support me, because I am very close with alot of my watchers,
They help me stay true, and so your opinions mean alot to me.


But yea, that is all for now.



This week has been amazing, this is the golden age of Grotesque



Goodbye for now my loves

]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/25009253/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/25009253/ Fri, 29 May 2009 04:27:57 PDT
Hello all of my sweet loves!


Well, I thought I would give you all some updates on what is going on with me & what will be going on with me. Lol.

Sorry, about not having any new blood/different make-up series' lately. I haven't been in the mood, and I wasn't getting really inspired to work on one. But that is going to change, because I have about 4-6 ideas, for photoshoots, and making my own Appliances that are just glued on, and then make the wound look more realistic. So, yea, I am going to start getting started on them. My ideas are rather simple, its the making & designing of the actual appliances that will take some time. But yea, I will be doing more blood and gore soon though, so no worries


I will be getting some new tattoos soon I have some taxes that I have been sitting on for some time now, they will buy my tattoos. Yay. Because, damn, I cannot control how much I want & crave tattoos. But not the kind of craving like people talk about. Its different, my craving is to get closer to how I see myself in my mind. I want my insides and outsides to match. So, anyways, I will be getting my left bicep finished. Underneathe my Danzig tattoo basicly. Not touching my Danzig tattoo though, I just think that would be kinda wrong, he is just that amazing. I am getting an old styled cemetary, with a full moon and maybe some shading to make it look like theres a thin line of smog. Lol. I have it all drawn up, but its going to have to be enlarged about 2 sizes larger, to capture the detail I desire. And I already know whats going to do it, an artist that loves horror and the darker/finer things in life. So we click. I want him to take my drawing, throw his spin on it, and then we can start the tattoo. I love his work, and he's told me he really likes mine, so he will not dissppoint me And then after I get my lower bicep finishe, I am going to get my Type O Negative tattoo completed. All I have is the symbol and so I am going to add to it, and I already have that design drawn up and ready to go Thats all I got planned so far.


And I am going to be asking my friend Kyle if he would want to work with my sometime, like we can both model for one another and both be a photographer to the other eachother. Which is really cool and would be badass, because he is an amazing artist, I love his stlye, and I love him. And he feels that same way about me. I think it would bring us closer, and we will both grow as artists.


Since I still haven't found a job, I have pretty much let my hope die on that wish. Because fuck, Its getting even worse. I am trying not to go crazy, its uber hard though. So how I have been coping, is to start many projects at once, and keep myself busy with all of them at once, to take my mind off the lack of job situation. So, I am almost done with my patch pants, I need to add zippers, make more patches & maybe buy a few, and then stud/spike empty areas, and then add pins, also maybe add some small chains & fishnet. Lol. Not certain about the last idea And after my pants are done, I can really begin on my jean vest, which is going to be tricky, but I love a challenge. And literally when you see them in my photos, and when others see me in person, I dont think anyone realizes, but how much time I spend on my clothing projects, are literally, a walking piece of art when I wear them Because I put time and effort, hard work and passion into what I make. I love that my view of the average canvas is rather small, theres no room to really grow. My type of canvas, doesn't have one found, but a thousand forms. I am always willing to grow, and expend my horizon.


I need to get a subscription, because it's been a hella long time. Lol.


AND, final one though I will be doing some modeling soon, with professional photographers, in the area. That I have been talking to, and that I have met through people we both knew. At the moment... ]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/23936332/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/23936332/ Sat, 28 Mar 2009 15:18:41 PDT


Hello all

So, I have realized that by googling myself, I can now find out when people have stolen my work, fuckin awesome!!!

So, I know I cannot do much...and I didn't realize how much this was going to really enrage me....but it really has. Like fuck...people are real pieces of shit. And I have always known this, but fuck, to see this little fuck taking credit for my passion, my work, my pain, MY ART! Goddamn, I was about to have a heart attack!


So, those of you that have been complaining about my watermarks, I guess your really fucked now...because I am going to make it so that DeviantARTs watermark is also on the little version as well Its going to be alot of work. But fuck, it will make me feel better, so fuck it, I am going to do it, because its going to be even harder to get several watermarks off of my work, good fuckin luck stealin it!

And I am just basicly going to do it to my FX make-up & my other make-up...and maybe a few other albums too. I'm not sure yet. But yea, I just wanted to warn you all about this, so theres not soooo many fucking questions when you see my work covered with watermarks....this is the reason why.



And if you upset, blame some little fuck in Canada who thought it was a good idea to steal my work & claim he did the make-up....and take credit for it. Because now, I am going to stand and fight the best I can....and I WILL FIND OUT IF ANYONE ELSE USES MY WORK WITHOUT MY PERMISSION!


ALSO- I am here to tell you all, that the ONLY TWO places my work is, is here at DeviantART & on my myspace, [link] No where else.


And if ANY of you see something of mine anywhere else, PLEASE let me! It will be greatly appreciated, I really mean that. Because this fuck ripped my heart out, and he just thought he would steal my work and not notice I fuckin found out. I always find out. And I am not a happy camper anymore.


FAKERS, STEALERS, YOU ARE JUST TALENTLESS PIECES OF SHIT....AND I WILL TASTE YOUR BLOOD!





That is all. I had to vent, now I have to get ready for a party






Please....if you see my work ANYWHERE ELSE, please send me a note. Or you are more then welcome to stick up for me and rip the person a new one too. Either way.



]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/23295003/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/23295003/ Thu, 19 Feb 2009 18:52:33 PST


When I first started my gallery, I was certain that I wasn't going to like it here, but to my surprise I love it here But theres one big thing I hate about DA...

The fact that ignorant fucks come here, set up accounts, and they never upload any actual work of their own. But instead they go around DA causing trouble. And basicly ripping apart other artists work. When they have no right to be here.

DevaintART is a place for artists, all kinds. And DeviantART is NOT here to post negative bullshit over and over because you are loser with nothing better to do.


So, I really think that the people who run DA should watch every new account member, and see what they are doing for DA or what they are destroying. I know I am not the only one who has had this problem. I have gotten notes from many other people, and then asking me how I deal with it. And my answer is, because I have to. Because I have met sooo many amazing people and amazing artists on here, that I deal with it, because of those very connections I have made. And I don't wish to lose.

I strongly think, that if someone is only putting negative comments and faving, and never uploading any work of their own. That they should be deleted.

Because what "these assholes" do to DeviantART gives DeviantART a bad name, and makes us all look bad. Because they are losers, who envy us. Because they are untalented pieces of shit, so they have to try and bring real artists down, with their ignorant jealousy.

Why should we have to suffer? When we are helping eachother and supporting eachother? And they get away with being childish & ignorant for no reason, but we have to pay the price for them being jealous? It makes no sense.

It's bullshit, thats all it is

And I am not writing this blog, because their words hurt me, hahahahha.
I am writing it, because I don't care for immature, childish games that little boys & girls play to try and get some attention because they know they have nothing to offer when they come here. And they hate it.

They wanted to pull me down, hahahaha, thats impossible, just as impossible as them getting a clue.

NOTHING & NO ONE CAN BRING ME DOWN!


Okies, well I will ttyl! Love you all






]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/22608082/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/22608082/ Fri, 16 Jan 2009 04:16:50 PST 1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.


1. My plan/goal is to be heavily covered in tattoos when I am 25years old. And when that happens I will be perfect, in my eyes!

2. I remember everyone by their scent and everyone has a different scent to me.

3. I am the youngest of 4 children.

4. I am the tallest one in my family, at 6'0-6'1-ish.

5. I have loved metal & punk music even before I could walk.

6. I am a firm/strong believer that marijuana should be legallized.

7. I now never take people in my life forgranted, because I have been to too many funerals for my friends & family, so I know the people whom I love, won't be in my life forever.

8. I was born in Detroit, and live in Metro Detroit, and so I have alot of pride and respect for my city, my home. And I will defend it no matter what.

And I tag...(and I put their links, because, I don't know how to put their icons in my journal. And B. it really shouldn't fuckin matter anyways!)

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]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/22282592/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/22282592/ Tue, 30 Dec 2008 15:12:36 PST
When I was 5-16years old, I was teased horribly in school. It was so bad, that when I was younger, I would dread going to school, school was the enemy, it meant fear & crying to me. And the teasing got worse when I went into Jr. High. And died off in High School.

My peers were so cruel to me, they would tease me about everything, and anything. And they ruined my life, my schooling experience was replaced with kids throwing rocks at me, and chasing me home, they would even follow me home so they knew where I lived, sit infront of my house and yell things at me. I never understood why they treated me this way, and I think that it's something I will never know. And it's not about kids being kids, it's about no one ever stepping in & stopping it. The school did nothing & the parents did nothing. I was all alone. I had no friends.

Ever since I was like 1-2years old, I have been obsessed with Horror movies, the classics and the movies that were coming out when I was young. And the classics comforted me, Frankenstein, he was a torted soul, he just wanted to be loved. And he wanted to be accepted, but how he looked, no one would ever love or accept him the way he wanted. And they looked at him as if he were a monster, but in all reality, the people who treated him like a monster, were the real monsters. Freddy became my friend, all the villians, the crazy killers, were my friends. I knew that whatever I looked like they would be there at the end of the day, when I spent my day at school crying in the bathroom, because the popular girls pushed me in the mudd, when I got home, they would be there, to comfort me, and to tell me things will be alright. And so, horror movies, became my comfort, they were always there for me. They made me see, it was okay to be different, that it doesn't matter what anyone says, they made me happy.

And so, I grew up watching their movies, falling inlove with their stories, knowing that they were different. That I was different. While other little girls wanted their prince charming to come, I wanted my frankenstein to come, I wanted my monster to come, because he would understand me & accept me better then any old prince charming. When other kids were listening to The Backstreet boys & Britany Spears, I was listening to The Misfits, Type O Negative & Danzig. I hid who I really was in school, because I still wanted to be accepted by my peers, but when I came home, I watched The X-Files & Freddy and listened to Type O Negative, and I felt better. They saved me from my life.

Wes Craven, Stephen King, to name a few. They were the people who made & created, who were into the same stuff I was into. And they were weird, but they were being themselves, showing their interests, passions to the world, and yet they were going some where with how 'weird' they were. They weren't afraid of what people would think. They knew what they liked & they were passionate about it. And thanks to them, I found my passion.

My FX make-up is my therapy.
When things are bad in my life, when my heart hurts, I use it to express myself. Because in my eyes, the blood, the gore, are beautiful. Watching a horror movie to me, is like watching a 'love story' lol It gives me that warm, fuzzy, happy feeling.

And thats how I feel when I do my FX make-up,
I feel revived. When I sit and do it, I fall into my own world, and everything that is causing me pain, falls away. And it's just me and the make-up.

Horror, the strange, the weird, the misfits, the outcasts, the teased, the tormented, they were always there for me, in my darkest hours as a child, and in my darkest hours as an adult, they are there for me. To tell me I am weird, but thats okay.

So being teased as a child, to growing up with that fear, with that pain, has fueled me for years, has fueled my fire, to my art, to my make-up.

I am happy that I went through so much heartache as a child, because it makes me a very aware adult, that theres so much hurt & pain in this life, but thats life, and you can allow all your hurt & pain to sit inside you to rot, or you can plant it into your passions, and watch it grow into something that makes you happy, that shows the world your talents. That shows the world what your made of.

And thats what I am doing with my FX make-up...
I am showing everyone, what I am made of.
And I am not afraid of anything anymore.
Judgements, and comments that are meant to hurt-
Will not hurt me. Because I know what pain
Really is. And I will not allow such petty commen... ]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/21241604/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/21241604/ Fri, 31 Oct 2008 01:41:56 PDT

Hello All

So, I have been getting alot of people asking me about my art, such as how I make my blood & how I do something, or how I make a wound. And many more. And I am flattered that people like my work sooo much and they want to know how I do things. But I have my reasons for not answering your questions.


I have worked soooo hard to get my art, my style & my work to this point. And I take a great amount of pride, love & respect in it. And so when someone just randomly asks me for my blood mixture, it kinda pisses me off. But I am calm & nice about it when I tell them that I will not tell them. Then once they get pissy, I get painfully blunt.

I have worked sooo hard, put in many hours, tried things just to have them fail. But I kept working. And working, through trial & error to get the result I wanted. And so when someone asks me, I think its rather rude; that some people just expect me to give them the secrets & tips I worked soo hard to get, and to learn myself. Just because they want the "easy" way to do something. Or they are too lazy to fiddle around and learn for themselves. And to those people FUCK YOU! Art is NOT about copying others, your supposed to make your own style, do your own thing, and create yourself & your talents, your own way. I have done that. And MANY other people I know how here have done it too.

Theres a fine line between flattery & rudeness.
And I have seen flattery and I have seen rudeness.

When someone asks me, and I tell them why I will not tell them how I do certain things. They understand, and tell me that they do. Because they wanted to know, and asked me, but weren't pissed off about my answer. But when someone walks right into being rude, when I gave them an honest answer, is just childish. Grow up.

I am sorry. But this is how I am.
I take soooo much pride in my work, and to have someone come up to me, expecting me to just hand them something I worked soo hard & long to get, is just bullshit. So I refuse to let someone get something that means the world to me, for free.

I worked, I deserve to be this way when it comes to my art.
And you can think I am a cunt, I don't give a shit.

Atleast I am honest.
And thats better then just ignoring you altogether.


I have told a select few people different things, BUT
Those select few have been talking to me for a long time. And so therefore, they have shown me they are trust worthy and actual friends. And not just another person trying to score something free of me, because they are too lazy to learn through trial & error!


So....therefore, ya want to know how I do something or how I make my blood? Too bad, Because a true artist never reveals their secrets!


End of story! But I do want to thank you, because I do appreciate being asked, but, when people get pissy about my answer, is when I get pissy about the question


Love ya all, I really do

Take Care


]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/20309988/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/20309988/ Wed, 03 Sep 2008 15:23:37 PDT
Hello
I decided to write a journal about the rules and prefences of others using my work. Be it as a refrence or using my photos as stock or in a photo manip. And I never covered this topic before. Probably because no one has asked me if they could use my photos. So I never felt like I needed to address it.

And my answer is YES

I am flattered that someone would want to use my work-
All you have to do is the following:

If you want to use a photo, either comment that photo & ask me there or note me about it.
If you use a photo, you must put a link to the orginal photo in your caption area.
You must credit me.
Note me with the link so I can fave it.
Only use it on DA & if you want to use it somewhere else, ask me, and I will tell you my opinion.

I don't do STOCK work...but I am willing to share my work if someone wants to use it. But that someone has to ask me. Thats all. Because I want credit. Otherwise its just stealing...and we are all artists here, there shouldn't be any of that bullshit on here

Thanks for reading!

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]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/19524793/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/19524793/ Mon, 21 Jul 2008 19:12:45 PDT
FEATURES!!!

This is my very first Journal where I will be featuring some of the artists that inspire me, and who also can make my jaw drop with their work. This is my first time featuring, so I tried not to go over board. Lol.

I didn't know how to feature someone, but thanks to Anton he walked me through everything. Thank you Anton

Lets begin


Blood & guts!




Photography!





Drawings!
~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/19308185/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/19308185/ Thu, 10 Jul 2008 10:20:55 PDT My heart is in EVERYTHING I do...

Lets get to the point of this journal-
I deleted an entry, that ALOT of people liked,
I deleted it, because I realized something.

It feels like my heart is being ripped out
When someone asks me if they could use it.

I am sorry to be blunt.
But FUCK YOU!
Yes, I appreciate your kind words &&
Telling me that you thought it was amazing
And good enough for you yourself to use it.
But you have no fucking idea, what I put into that piece.
How long I worked on it.
And to ask me, after I have it clearly started, that I would
Draw you your own- if you could use it.
I am angered.
Because that is my heart, my tears, my pain, my past,
My leasons, my regret, my honor, my...everything...
Thats what that drawing means to me.

I drew it, and ya know, it took SOOOOOO long to get to that drawing you all saw. And to just have someone come along && steal it. I would rather you shot me in the heart, because thats basicly what you did already.

I am an artist, this is my LIFE, MY HEART & MY WORLD!
My passion.

And whoever did see it && you want ONE OF YOU OWN DRAWN-
I will draw you YOUR OWN!

Because stealing someone elses art is fucking wrong, and you should feel like a shitty fucking person. Because thats what you are. Because if the artist doesn't say, "Yea, whoever wants to use this design ya can." Most likely, they dont want you to use it. Its not yours, so back off.

And if you liked it, and feel kinda disappointed-
Fuck off again. Look for an artist, at a parlor like EVERYONE else. They can really help you out, thats their job. I dont get paid to draw designs up for you people && I dont charge you. And I dont get paid for you people stealing my shit either.

So simply...
If your gonna come and rip my heart out, atleast let me do the same to you. Ya know. An eye for an eye, kinda thing!

:End of rant:

]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/18776640/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/18776640/ Wed, 11 Jun 2008 00:54:13 PDT I will be making alot of photos from my "Beautiful Blood" folder made into prints, so you guys can buy them if you really do love them.

&

I will also be making alot of my sky photography & some of my photos from my photoshoot folder into prints also. But if you want any photo made into a print, and I didn't make it into a print, just comment this blog or the photo, and I will make it into a print for you.

So yea, just a small heads up

Incase you were woundering!

]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/18283119/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/18283119/ Mon, 12 May 2008 02:36:15 PDT

Hello,

I just wanted to express my anger about how people think Self Harm is art.
It's not. And It really pisses me off when I go through this site, in its searchs and I see REAL wounds up here as art.

Listen up kids, I did that, I used to cut myself once apon a fucking time, and I never called it art, maybe its because I have a firm grip on reality, and you don't. But fuck, what the fuck is the matter with you??? I never showed my cuts to ANYONE.
Because I was NEVER proud of them.

And this is something that pisses me off even more,
Because I do Special Effects Make-up...so sometimes my work gets deleted mainly because people do not know how to read. Because under every special effects, bloody, gore filled photo of mine, I have it stated, that IT'S FAKE! Just make-up. But yet, my work, that I put time, energy & love into gets deleted because some little dipshits, aren't artistic and they do not have enough common sense, and have to literally cut themselves and have DeviantART make that policy (and thank Christ for the policy) That CLEARY fucking states that Self inflicted wounds are not allowed.

It really just pisses me off.
I can tell what is make-up and what is real.
I am an artist, and I used to be a cutter, for like 10+ years I cut.


So, I guess I am just saying this or making this journal incase one of those ignorant assholes happens to come across my profile and maybe read this, and maybe I could have helped them bit.


Simply....

YOU CUT YOURSELF, ITS NOT ART, NO MATTER HOW BADLY YOU WANT PEOPLE TO SEE IT AS ART. IT'S NOT. WHEN I DID IT. I DIDN'T CONSIDER IT ART, BECAUSE ONCE YOU CONSIDER IT ART, ITS JUST AN EXCUSE TO TELL YOURSELF & EVERYONE AROUND THAT YOU ARE ALRIGHT & DON'T HAVE A PROBLEM, WHEN YOU REALLY DO.

IF YOU WANT TO CONTINUE TO CUT YOURSELF, PLEASE KEEP IT YOURSELF, AND LEAVE IT OFF OF DEVIANTART IT DOESN'T MAKE YOU AN ARTIST THAT YOU CAN RUN A RAZOR ACROSS YOUR WRISTS, ALL IT SHOWS PEOPLE IS THAT YOU NEED HELP.


Simple as that.

I have been down this road, I know what its ALL about.

]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/17438174/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/17438174/ Fri, 21 Mar 2008 07:06:55 PDT



For all the details about this and yadda, yadda, yadda... go here:
[link]

Thanks

]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/17340583/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/17340583/ Sat, 15 Mar 2008 01:15:15 PDT

I have been doing alot of special effects make-up lately,
And sometimes I do not have any ideas, I cannot think of anything.

So if anyone has an idea,
Check out my "Beautiful Blood" album
And check everything out, and if you have an idea
And realized that I have not done anything like it.
I would love to hear it

In detail,
And if I like the idea and it seems to be
Different and interesting
I will do it and credit you in the caption area for the idea

So, if you have an gorey ideas,
Please, I would love to hear them.
Simply because everyone has a different
View on things, so I would love to hear what
Some of you think or would like to see

If you do have an idea, note me about it
And I will tell you if I will use it!
And then I will send you the link so
You can check it out!

Thanks


]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/17171124/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/17171124/ Mon, 03 Mar 2008 19:42:15 PST
I am gonna say this once...
And only once...

*DO NOT put comments on my art that has NOTHING to do
With my art. If its something your doing, something that I wouldn't know
Because I don't know you, anything, that is not related to the piece you
Are commenting on, don't comment me about it*

It's a waste of comments.
If it has nothing to do with it, then why even comment me about it?
Uhmmm, I am not sure.
But SOOOO many people do it.
And it really pisses me off.
I only comment on other peoples work-
With what I think or my opinion.
Not what it reminds me about
Or how my cat got hit by a car..
Ya get me?
It's very simple. And I don't think I
Am being THAT BIG of a cunt when I say
This, simply because it should be
Easy to see why I am saying it.

And if someone does put a stupid
Comment on one of my pieces I will
TRY and be AS nice as possible.
But really, lately, its getting to be tough.

So I wanted to say this now...
And in this journal and maybe to get it
Out of the way.

If you think I am being a cunt/bitch about it..
Thats fine. But its my art and I would only like
Opinions, thoughts, help, or improvements on my art.
Anything else, is just a waste.


So, I hope this is all crystal clear now


Thanks

]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/16699890/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/16699890/ Sun, 03 Feb 2008 01:50:12 PST
From the darkness, I walk into the light
From the day, I walk into the night
From the shadows, I will appear
With a message, for all who will hear

For the weak of heart, I will be strong
To the defenders of faith, I will belong
To the last of us, fight till we die
Till the keys, of the kingdom, are mine

All stand together
For the world to see
Now the time is right
To live out all our dreams
Say the words forever
Your strength will never leave
If you want to win the fight
Say, "I Believe"

From the darkness, I walk into the light
From the day, I walk into the night
From the shadows, I will appear
With a message for all, who will hear

For the weak of heart, I will be strong
To the defenders of faith, I will belong
To the last of us, fight till we die
Till the keys, of the kingdom, are mine

All stand together
For the world to see
Now the time is right
To live out all our dreams
Say the words forever
Your strength will never leave
If you want to win the fight
Say, "I Believe"

By: Manowar, "I Believe"

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A close friend gave me these
Lyrics, in a blog on my myspace,
And I read them, and then I had to
Download the song, and I love it.
It makes me feel empowered
And makes my spirit happier.
I cannot explain it.

It's simply AMAZING though.





]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/15069948/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/15069948/ Mon, 15 Oct 2007 08:18:00 PDT
So My emotions have been very screwy lately.
I am going through some heart break, so my way of dealing with it is to create.

To draw, to paint, photography, make-up, clothes, writing, anything...and everything.

That is why I add more to my gallery each day.
It helps me to cope with what I am going through mentally and within my heart.
It makes the taste of heart break not burn soo bad within my heart, it makes my mind not think all depressive, which I hate.

So that is the reason, why I am gonna have ALOT of art added to my gallery, so this is mainly for the people who watch me. Lol. Because I know it could get very confusing with all my new deviations. Lol.

This is my way of dealing. And I have just noticed it too, lol. I always want to draw or write or to take photos. And I was wondering, "What the hell is up with this explosion of creativity?" I am sad, and sometimes angry, and my emotions change every day, same with my mood. So I turn to my art to help me get over the fuck that broke my heart. And it is REALLY helping. I love my art, it helps me to live and to live more happy and calm. Its there for me, in every way, and it doesn't judge me. I can do whatever within it.

I am free, to create.

So that is what is up with my booming gallery. Lol.


]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/13586339/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/13586339/ Tue, 03 Jul 2007 00:29:52 PDT
I am a multi-artist..
Meaning everything you see that I have posted.
Is done by me!!!

I don't have/use photoshop.

I take my own photos,
because I am a fucking photographer.

I model in my own photos,
Because I am a fucking model.

I do my own make-up,
Because I am a fucking make-up artist.

I am a clothing designer,
Because I know what I like.

I paint,
Because I actually can.

I draw,
Because it comes fucking easy.

Everything is done by me,
The make-up, the photos, the paintings, the drawings,
Everything.

So if you ask me a stupid question, that has
Been clearly said within this blog.
I am not gonna be nice.
Stupid people need to know and be told that
They are stupid.
There is a such things as stupid questions and uhmm, stupid fucking people.

There are some altering details that I do use
Like the cartoon affect and the shadowing..
But I do that shit with my
Kodak EasyShare program that I NEED to get
my pictures off of my camera and onto my computer.
lol.

But other than that.
Its all me people.
No one else.

But you may be seeing new models
In my gallery shortly
Simple because I am getting tired of always
Being the model.
It gets boring.

lol.



Now you know whats up.
]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/13325818/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/13325818/ Wed, 13 Jun 2007 06:28:03 PDT

I agree with this.

MTV is nothing but bullshit..
And bullshit shitty music.

It's not what it used to be when it first came out..
It's a waste of time.

It's not helping music..
It's destroying music.
Making it all about the mone..
Not the music and the artists.

Bullshit.

"MTV GET OFF THE AIR...NOW!"

I think there should be a survey done
And it should go around and we can see how many people want that bullshit removed from the air.
I would like to see who has my back.




MTV get off the air, get off the air...get off the air..now!

]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/12797421/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/12797421/ Mon, 30 Apr 2007 23:47:51 PDT I live in Detroit, Michigan. Fun shit. Not really, lol. I am not working at the moment, and I hope that changes very fucking soon. Because I need money, for several things, and without it, I feel as if I am trapped.


I love Art and many different forms of it. And I have always been that way.
I paint, drawing, photography, tattoos(I design them, and collect them), FX make-up, Design clothing, make clothing, make pins, posters, jewelery, alot of different things. I love to play guitar, I have to buy my own very soon. It's very relaxing. I love how It seems to peel off all the sorrow and pain of the day and soon you are left with a soothing feeling.

I love music...it's the glue that holds me together...I need it to live, it's my blood. lol. The following bands I love:
~Type O Negative
~Danzig
~Rob Zombie
~KITTIE
~Lordi
~Pantera(R.I.P Dime)
~Murderdolls
~Ramones
~Dead Kennedys
~The Misfits
~Slayer
~Cradle Of Filth
~The Damned
~Calabrese
~Mortiis
~Decide
~Superjoint Ritual
~The Clash
~Shadows Fall
~Skid Row
~System Of A Down
~L7
~Lamb Of God
~Dissection
~Hatebreed
~Bullet Of My Valentine
~Marilyn Manson
~Black Sabbath
~Ozzy
~AC/DC
~Guns N' Roses
~The Cramps
~SamHain
~Black Flag
~Johnny Cash
~David Bowie
~Iggy Pop
~Blondie
~ICP
~A Bunch Of Oldies & Rockabilly & Horror Punk!
And a Bunch of other bands too
I love music!

I am Metal-Punk-Geek.
I can label myself, because these three best describe me to people who want to know.

I don't care what ANYONE thinks about me, I really dont. And frankly, I don't understand how one could care. Because it's your life. Live it however you see fit. Don't depend on others to make you happy, because if you do that, in the end you will be disappointed and then you will have to realize that all you have is yourself. And that right there is a fact, that I learned through to tears, and the bitter chill of the winter wind.
Like I mentioned above, I collect tattoos, I have 6 so far and working on getting more. It's a HUGE part of myself and my life, and alot of people don't understand it, and thats okay, because tattoos and getting tattoos makes me happy and content. And thats how life should be, doing things that make you happy. Because if your not living for yourself, who are you living for? Think about it.
I love The X-Files, I love it...and I miss it alot. And I do still watch it almost everyday. X-Files has made me the person I am today, lol. So if you have ever seen The X-Files, you can just guess how weird I am.
lol.



I love being me, and being me means being weird! So be it. I least I do not wear anothers smile and make the world think I am someone that I am not. I am absolutly unique and real

]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13 http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/12796826/ http://GrotesqueDarling13.deviantart.com/journal/12796826/ Mon, 30 Apr 2007 22:07:38 PDT
How can you date someone you have never met?
And you are gonna close yourself off to everything
And be faithful to them, when they live in another state, different area code? Haha.

Reality.
Does it even exist?
Not to these kinds of people.

Its like picking up a person off of the street, and asking them out. It's so foolish and stupid. You don't know anything about them. And yet, you are dating them? Why does this make sense to them?

Living in their own little world, where stupid shit becomes reality. Hahaha.

They will perish in this world, where reality and common sense over rule everything else.

Stupid bastards.
Haha.

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]]> ~GrotesqueDarling13