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In the past, I've never taken Thanksgiving seriously. I don't think I've ever been mature enough to appreciate it and what it stands for. Nor have I ever brought my head down to earth long enough to seriously consider what I'm thankful for. But so much has happened to me since the summer that has made me realize how lucky I am and how thankful I am for all of it.

I'm so grateful for my school and my education. Here I am, a junior, getting closer and closer to the real world. And I'm in the best school in the country for what I want to do. I am receiving an amazing education, even if fit does steal away any thoughts of a social life or even time to do homework. I am doing something I love and will be happy doing for the rest of my life.

My job...is amazing. Hahaha, it's eating my break, but that's okay. I'm the costume designer for one of our local high schools in my city. My boss is one of my dear friends that I became attached to at our camp this summer. She's so talented and does so much to make my job easier. I am so thankful for her guidance and friendship. Not only that, but I have been having so much fun doing this show with and for her. I can't wait for the Spring musical.

My friends. I can't name all of you, there are so many of you that mean so much to me in my life. Recently, with all the close friends I made at camp and all the people I've bumped into and worked with that I haven't seen in a while, it's donned on my how much I really love you all. You each bring a smile to my face and remind me that people really do care in this world. I guess I have to do a few shout outs...

Ash: I love you. I love love love love you! I can't say how happy I am to have you in my life, even if it is through a computer for now. I am so thankful that DA brought us together and I can't wait for us to get stuck together in the theatre world (YAY CIRQUE).

Kate: My dearest room mate and beloved friend. How do you put up with me? How do I put up with you? I don't know, but I'm so glad we're stuck together for the rest of this year.

James: I don't really know what to say. I'm so thankful that camp brought us closer this summer. I may not always understand you, but I love you no matter what. You will always be one of my closest friends.

Evie: I am so glad we've reconnected these past few months. I know we had a few bumps in high school, but I think college has done us some good. We've grown up and grown closer, especially through tough times.

Aryn: YOU. ARE. MY. BEST. FRIEND. PERIOD. I don't know what I would do without you. I love how we can get so frustrated with each other but then in five minutes it doesn't even matter anymore. You complete me and I'm so scared about not seeing you all the time once college is over. I love you soooooooo much.

My family, I never really gave you all credit for anything when I was growing up. I've taken so much for granted and technically still am. Especially with my current living situation, I have been so selfish recently. I am so humbled by your gift to me.

To my sister, we don't always understand each other and that's okay. We're too different to make sense of each other. But you are amazing and so talented. I know school is hard, but you're almost done and when you do finish, you'll be one amazing vet.

To my dad, you drive me crazy. Honestly. But you're always there supporting me no matter how insane my life is.

To my mother, you are amazing. You are the most amazing person I know and mainly for being able to put up with me. I know life isn't easy but you've made two beautiful daughters and raised them to be good people who have a passion for what they do. You should be so proud. I know I give you a hard time and haven't always wanted you around. There was a time (oh, about a year and a half ago?) when I didn't want any help at all. But with my time away from home I've realized how much you truly do for me out of love. You are my mother and I couldn't ask for a better one, even if we do drive each other crazy.

Lastly, I'm so thankful for my life. I'm healthy (most of the time) and active, doing what I love.

May you all be as blessed as I feel right now. Have a happy Thanksgiving and please take a moment to think of what you're thankful for.

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For those if you who don't know, school has eaten my life this quarter. First I assistant stage managed a show in which Saturdays were my only free days up until two weeks ago. As soon as that show closed, I began crewing the monster show that was Hair. It was makeup and wigs, what I actually go to school for, so I was happy. I was in my place. I was ready for that two week run! We had Monday and Tuesday off between weeks and that Sunday before our days off I CRASHED. I stumbled through the two shows on that Sunday and collapsed the second I got home. Monday morning I woke up, staggered to the doctors, and managed to drive my splitting head home to my parents. I then spent the rest of my free days not going to school and simply sleeping in bed. Luckily, all I (still) have is a sinus infection. It's much better now, but it's still there and driving me nuts. Hair closed yesterday and now my focus is my job. SOMETHING I ACTUALLY WANT TO DO THAT I GET PAID FOR--YAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! I have two weeks and a shit load to do, but my two girls that are helping me are fantastic. My thanksgiving break is going to be spent eating and sewing and I am thrilled to be doing so. I love this show and I love what I've done so far. Don't worry, pictures of the final product will be up when the show closes. So I've still got things to do but I feel free. I feel...so light and happy. Not that I wasn't happy before, it's just different. I've got life!

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So life right now is...BUSY. I'm assistant stage managing a show right now, working as the costume designer at a local high school, keeping up with classes, trying to find a job for the summer (yes already), and beginning to make a wig for my dear ShadowMageEvelyn's mom who has just recently been diagnosed with skin cancer (please send her your prayers). That's a big handful for any of you who understand the crazy intensity of my school. I'm doing okay. I mean, it's really hard, but I'm okay. All I have to do is stay healthy through it all.

Aside from that, I finally saw the new Harry Potter today. "What? You just saw it now???" Dude, chill, I was at a camp all summer cut off from civilization. Yes, I just saw it. I loved it. I always do. But one thing that ALWAYS happens is that I suddenly have a longing for England. I want to be back where my grandma grew up. I want to be eating fish and chips surrounded by cheerful fellows singing pub songs. I want to be surrounded by history. Maybe it's because I grew up listening to my grandma, but English accents are just so comforting to me. It's in my blood, even if my fake accent sucks.

I just want some darn fish and chips! ...And my union jack tied to me forever.

]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/27498841/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/27498841/ Wed, 30 Sep 2009 06:19:05 PDT
...I'm 21 now.

And I don't want a drink. (well maybe a small one.)

All I want to do is go back to Vegas and stand by the slot machines. They can't shoo me away now!!!

Yeah...that happened the last time. I was only 18 then. Don't go to Vegas before you're 21. It's just not worth it.



^___^


Also, I can't say how thankful I am. I have the most amazing friends, a loving mother, father, and sister, and I'm in such an amazing program, even if it can be a real b*tch sometimes. Life, you've blessed me well.

Please just get me a good job after I graduate. That's all I'm asking.

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I am ASM (assistant stage managing) the play Orpheus Descending by Tennessee Williams this quarter and crewing Hair for makeup. I'm gonna be SUPER busy with that, but I'm not worried. I'm only taking 14 credit hours instead of the normal 18 so I'll hopefully be okay with homework and stuff. I'm already on top of things. I have all the homework I got today done minus ASMing because well...I have to read a script for that and I saw a show at the Playhouse to write my Theatre History paper on which is't really due until November 13th. So as long as I work on my paper tomorrow and Friday I can do all of my ASM homework this weekend and be ready for my next class on Wednesday.

Also, I'm working at one of the local high schools as their costume designer! They're doing Jacob Marley's Christmas Carol which, if you haven't seen it, I suggest you do. The script is quite good. So yes, I'll be busy. But it'll be okay! I really am excited about this year and being on top of everything. Not to mention I'm going swimming every morning before classes. I missed you Olympic sized pool...

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So I went to the zoo today. I love my zoo. I grew up there in zoo camps and other places in my town where kids can learn and have fun. So now that I'm old...haha, old. Almost 21, whatever. Anyway, so now that I'm old, I usually go maybe once a year. Usually on the day I get in for free because I "survived cancer." Sure, uh huh, I TOTALLY had cancer. If the zoo wants to think that, I'm not gonna stop them. So I went and spent the day with my mom which was nice since we really don't spend much civil quality time together. Usually I'm ignoring her because she's nagging at me or we're going at each others throats for something. I love my mommy. So we spent the day visiting our old favorite exhibits and checking out the new changes and expansions that have happened in the past two years. Today I saw three of the animals I saw almost everyday at camp: wild turkeys, bobcats, and black bears. Oh it was lovely to see them behind cages where they couldn't eat me for once. I also got to see my brothers and sisters the penguins (apparently I am one), my cousin the wallaby (apparently I'm a kangaroo as well), got smacked in the face by a bonobo (he ran right up to me and hit the glass really hard!), and had a giraffe lick my hand while eating the cracker I held (SOOOO COOL!). It was a lovely day and I was sooo happy to get to see everything again.

GEEKY PART! So I got home and while I was decorating my birthday cake (its got a banana on it, yay dethklok banana stickers!) I was watching stuff on youtube, an all too frequent hobby of mine. I came across a music video, Date my Avatar. [link] Curious about his RPG type thing I explored and discovered this short series about a guild that RPGs. OMFG SOOOOO AMAZING! It's hilarious and just...go watch it for yourself at watchtheguild.com

Epic. Yes I'm a geek and I am proud of it.

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For those of you who don't know, I have a tumor in my right foot's baby toe. I don't have cancer or anything, but it's the kind that you don't want to mess with just to be safe. So my toe is rather pudgy looking and doesn't bend anymore. When all of this happened to me back in 7th and 8th grade and I found out that my tumor was benign, I wanted that tumor gone. My doctor, however, wouldn't allow it. So I sat around through high school pouting about it, not okay with it. But as the years past I finally accepted it as a part of me. I realized in senior year that I would always be this way and it wouldn't change. Senior year was also the year I started considering tattoos and what to get. My mother forbid the "deformity" and it wasn't until I moved out of the nest I actually went and got a tattoo: last year right before my 20th birthday. I now have the kanji symbol for love on my foot near my baby toe. It's my way of saying that I love myself no matter how I am, tumor or not.

Now my birthday approaches again. I itch to get something new permanently inked on my skin. I am an impulsive person, I know this. My best friend Aryn (batophilliac) reminded me of this today as I discussed this exact subject with her. Since I haven't had anything meaningful in mind I've just been trying to design something "pretty" that will appease me. If I don't have time and meaning behind this tattoo I know I won't be happy with it later on. I grow tired of my impulsive ideas very quickly. Her advice to me was get something meaningful.

My original idea was to get a pirate ship on my shoulder blade. I adore pirates, I do soooo much. Not to mention that water has always been such a big part of my life. Swimming for 6 years, I never appreciated it until this summer. At camp, I was most content when at the lake and could at least hear the waves, if not be completely in the water. But part of me says that this pirate ship doesn't mean quite enough, not to mention I am struggling with the design.

Next I designed a bird tattoo. I'm not sure why I chose a bird. I think I was just browsing tattoos for a good idea to base something off of, found this [link] and came up with this [link] It's my impulsive "pretty" tattoo that I probably won't go with, even though I love how it turned out.

Lastly, I thought of the Cirque du Soleil logo, the sun. [link] Cirque is my main goal in life. I hope to graduate and work as a wig and milliner (hat maker) for them. I don't think I want to stay with them forever, but I definitely want to get my feet wet. They are my dream, my inspiration, my motivation, my everything. I've been in love with them since I saw Quidam of however many years ago it was. Then the vacation to Vegas, oooooo the love that grew for them! But even though Cirque means the world to me, their logo just doesn't feel right. I think it's because I'm still in impulse phase with the idea of the tattoo.

I think I need time...I hope that's all.

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But all the same, I still really want to be a pirate! I mean...I do. I know it'll never happen since well, pirating is out of fashion and I wouldn't want to be a modern day pirate because their boats are motorized and lame. I want to be a pirate in the golden age of piracy. I know their lives weren't as glamorous as the movies make them. I know. I've done research and read books and studied their lives. It was hard. Lots of people died due to diseases, not to mention the battles and limbs lost. It wasn't pleasant. And then there were the multiple countries always on the look out for you. But still...I would do anything to live back then and just be on a ship. I realized while at camp that the thing that eases me most is the sound of water against the shore. The gentle waves singing a lullaby and breeze against my face, there's nothing better.

But I could be a pirate, right? I could be the awesome lookout...or something like that. Someone who stays out of trouble. But was still awesome. Yeah.

PIRATES!!! ^_______^

]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/26304971/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/26304971/ Fri, 31 Jul 2009 19:11:47 PDT camp

I honestly don't know what to say. This camp has been the most amazing experience of my life. It's so much work and all of us have been zombies this past week but its so rewarding. Not only are the tech people awesome but all of the counselors are the best people I have met in a long time (besides my best friends). Working with the entire camp can be stressful but somehow we all know how to keep our spirits high through late nights and tight schedules. Right now I'm listening to the kids as they are performing Wedding Singer. One of my favorite campers is singing "Growing Old With You" and it's so amazing to have seen him grow over these past two sessions. I don't want my favorites to leave since their time will be up in two days. I don't want camp to end in three weeks. I want to stay here and I want this madness to go on forever. I'm the luckiest person in the world to have gotten this job.

I love everyone here. You guys are the best, campers and counselors.

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1. Apparently I am a kangaroo. Don't ask.

2. I'm more comfortable in the water than I am on land.

3. I like mermaids, but I'd rather be a fish person than a mermaid.

4. Moose is my favorite animal.

5. I love cosplaying but I only tend to go to one convention a year.

6. The Renaissance Festival is THE BEST THING EVER!

7. I work with the most awesome 4 people in the WORLD.

8. I have a pond where I watch tadpoles become frogs.

]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/25993318/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/25993318/ Thu, 16 Jul 2009 19:53:16 PDT
I'm getting tons of experience in synthetic wigs and speed makeup, as well as designing. I'm designing my first show this session--Hindenburg! It's really quite fun and the kids seem to be great. I really really can't get over how much I love this place.

]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/25705756/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/25705756/ Thu, 02 Jul 2009 22:44:07 PDT 1. Post the rules
2. Each tagged person must tell 8 things about themselves
3. At the end you have to tag 8 people and post their icons in your journal
4. Then go back to their page and leave a comment saying you tagged them
5. No tag backs

8 Things About Me

1. I was a synchronized swimmer for 6 years of my life.
2. My dream is to work with Cirque du Soleil sometime in my life.
3. I love being able to transform someone into a completely different person.
4. I am currently employed as a costumer at a fine arts camp.
5. My grandmother, after more than a decade of living in America, is still an English citizen. I am 1/4th British and darn proud.
6. I am learning how to tumble. It's awesome.
7. I just chopped all of my hair off into an asymmetrical bob.
8. I went to an all girls catholic high school.

I TAG: Batophilliac, XxSpyderxX, lifeisbroadway, horbanjd, athena5897, zeowynda, nymphinrainbows, and websurffer.

]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/25340389/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/25340389/ Mon, 15 Jun 2009 22:34:05 PDT
Yesterday, I had the hardest goodbye. My parents were tough and I was sad to leave, but when I went to say good bye to my Nan, I just couldn't let go. The hardest thing is that she won't be here when I get back. Her visit with us will be over and she'll be back in CA with my aunt. Every time I have to say goodbye I feel like my heart is being wrenched out. I LOVE my Nan so much I can't possibly try to express it. And I'm so afraid that something's going to happen to her while she's out in CA and I'm never going to see her again. She's getting old and there's no telling how her health is, especially after the stroke. I mean right now she's strong but anything can happen in a year. I won't see her again until next Spring when she comes to visit again. I miss her so much already.

And before I went to bed I said goodbye to Aryn, my best friend and room mate. Now James and I are making quick checks to see that we have everything and off we'll be. Brandon's stopping by the say goodbye to him and I'm sure it'll be a tear fest for the two of them. Oh how I love them both. Wish us luck, we'll be in the car for 14 hours.

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Kendo is AMAZING. Every time I go it kicks my butt and I learn sooooo much. And even though I'm sore every morning after wards, I can't help but think about how much fun it was. Not to mention the people there are great. I'm really happy about our team and how close we all are. And speaking of closeness, I've found myself a boy. President of the Kendo club, might I add. He's super sweet and ridiculous. Unfortunately I can't see him as much as I would like since he's always busy with the school paper, but that's okay. He understands when I'm swamped with my shows. And he's got to put up with the fact that I'll be 14 hours away this summer. Which STINKS. (but camp will be awesome so it's all good!)

Hope everyone else is doing alright and is enjoying summer/hanging on in the last days of school!

]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/24800403/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/24800403/ Sun, 17 May 2009 07:54:01 PDT
So yeah, Falstaff is almost over with and this is my last show this year. We've got two more weeks of school, not counting finals. Wow, two weeks. Then I've got maybe a week before I go to NY for work this summer. I'm uber excited about CAMP but I'm even more excited about this show being done and over with today.

Other news, the week before Falstaff I joined my school's kendo club. OMG IT'S SO MUCH FUN! And totally great exercise, too! What's great is I get to spend time with two of my friends who I rarely see anymore and everyone else there is great, too. Life is pretty darn good right now.

Hope everyone else is just as peachy as me!

]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/24539699/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/24539699/ Fri, 01 May 2009 22:45:18 PDT
So I'm watching this and it's all about different types of people in Medieval time. I'm on the Monk episode and he's talking about monk history around all these old cathedrals and abbey ruins. Some of them I've been to when my family went "home" in 2002. For those who don't know, my grandma is British. It's a huge deal to my dad that we are aware of where we came from. So of course I've been to my grandma's childhood house, the church where my grandparents got married, and my great and great great grandparents' graves. Yeah...don't ask. So I'm watching this show and seeing these places where I've been and places I'd love to see if I ever get back over there, it gives me this feeling that this is where I should be. I've always kind of considered England my country, my home no where near where I am. It's one of my dreams to work and live in England. Maybe not forever, but for a couple of years possibly. I get this warm, comforting feeling when I see the beautiful country. I've also had my fair share of run-ins with the English these last two weeks. Two weeks ago I went to Starbie's sister's wedding, who married a charming English gent. So all of Chris' family and friends came over for the wedding. Awesome. And this week one of the costume crew is our British exchange student. So I've been spending tons of time around...English things and people.

And watching Terry Jones is totally awesome. I forgot how much he makes his R's into W's. Love my Python. And glad to hear that his cancer has not resurfaced.

]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/24489454/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/24489454/ Tue, 28 Apr 2009 22:36:18 PDT Stolen from Shadow-Mage-Evelyn who stole it from vidramidra

What Mythological Creature Are You?

Centaur:
[x] You are rather wild, and let your instincts run you.
[ ] You get drunk a lot.
[ ] Bravery and boldness is second nature to you.
[ ] You have a deep love for astronomy and the universe.
[ ] You like to read your daily horoscope.
[x] You have a high level of pride in yourself.
[ ] In the woods is the best place for you to be.
[x] You are spiritual.
[ ] The horse is your favorite animal.
[ ] You are possessive and territorial.
Total: 3

Elf:
[ ] Your ears are slightly pointed at the tips.
[x] You are very intelligent.
[ ] Your five senses are extremely keen.
[ ] Your weight is quite a bit lighter than the average person at your particular height.
[ ] You always wear elegant clothes and speak as politely as possible.
[x] You are most at peace when you are gazing at something beautiful, like nature.
[ ] You look very young for your age.
[x] You rarely get sick.
[x] You are a very hard worker.
[ ] Above all other superpowers, you would love to read minds or see the future.
Total: 4

Fairy:
[x] You are happy a lot of the time.
[ ] The best superpower to you would be to fly.
[ ] You are very shy.
[x] You love the forest and plant life in general.
[x] You are always willing to help others, even if you might not be the best to offer aid.
[ ] You are young and short.
[ ] Dancing is one of your favorite pastimes.
[ ] If someone ticks you off, you are very clever with getting them back.
[x] Your clothing isn't always presentable, but you are comfortable with what you wear.
[x] Circles are a wonderful symbol of unity to you.
Total: 4

Gnome/Dwarf:
[x] You are excellent with crafts and handiwork.
[ ] In social situations, you tend to be a little awkward.
[ ] You are short for your age.
[ ] You are an isolationist.
[ ] You love to play practical jokes on people.
[ ] You are extremely fascinated with jewelry.
[ ] You look older than your age.
[x] You love the woods and the mountains.
[ ] You are well off, or come from a family that is well off.
[ ] You have a short temper.
Total: 2

Harpy/Siren:
[ ] You are best at talking bad about people behind their backs and not to their face.
[x] When you are annoyed, you will go to a great extent to torment whoever did so to you.
[x] You often take things that aren't yours.
[ ] You are easily angered.
[ ] Death fascinates you.
[x] You are female, or a feminine-looking man.
[x] You associate yourself with the wind element.
[x] You can switch quickly between your light and dark side.
[ ] You love to trick others.
[x] You have a ravenous appetite.
Total: 6

Mermaid:
[x] You love the beach moreso because of the water than the shore itself.
[ ] Fish are some of the most beautiful creatures to you.
[x] The ultimate superpower to you would be to breathe underwater.
[ ] You enjoy looking at ships, but not riding them, as well as you like ships for traveling, not hunting in the sea.
[x] You are good at swimming.
[x] You like to collect shells.
[x] You use sea items as jewelry or decoration.
[x] You enjoy learning about the ocean and the life inside it.
[x] You are extremely against ocean pollution, and someday, perhaps (if you haven't already), you will work to stop that.
[x] Legs on land are not as important as a fin in the sea.
Total: 7

Vampire:
[ ] You're a night person.
[x] You have a fascination with blood.
[ ] You are extremely pale.
[ ] You wish you had a bat as a pet.
[x] You are not religious at all.
[x] Tight spaces are not scary or uncomfortable for you.
[ ] The sun's glare annoys you all too often.
[ ] You hate food with lots of garlic in it.
[ ] To you, a kiss on the neck is more romantic than a kiss on the cheek or lips.
[ ] You don't like sharp objects near you.
Total: 3

Werewolf:
[x] The full moon is the most beautiful scene to you.
[ ] You have a lot of body hair.
[ ] The ability to shapeshift is the best superpower to you.
[ ] You prefer gold over silver items.
[ ] You lack self control.
[ ] You find it easier to have sympathy for animals than for humans.
[ ] You have a deep respect for wolves and wild dogs.
[ ] You like to be alone.
[ ] You have a terrible secret and you only tell people you trust 100% about it.
[ ] You'd rather be outdoors than indoors.
Total: 1

Wizard/Witch:
[ ] You love chemistry.
[ ] You are intuitive and good at analyzing people, to the point that people s... ]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/24270358/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/24270358/ Thu, 16 Apr 2009 08:28:23 PDT
Falstaff and Blood Wedding, my two show assignments for this quarter, are coming up and I'm not really looking forward to them. I don't know why, I'm just not enthused about shows this quarter. Probably because I want to go to CAMP!!! Oh well, gotta hang in there. I'm taking a break from my sewing and focusing on school work...and I've been watching a show online lately. I re-discovered Third Rock from the Sun when it was on TV this weekend and now I can't stop watching it! All 6 seasons are on youtube so I'm set. But it's a good background noise when I'm doing my art homework. Nothing like progress to a good sitcom!

Other than that...nothing is really happening. Oh, I'm doing the makeup for starbie's sister's wedding on Saturday! I'm so happy for her! ^___^

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I am currently working on two costumes. The first is a fire nation Aang from ATLA for darknesseclipsed. The second is Rikku from FFX-2 for myself. I will be wearing it at Ohayocon 2010. I'm soooo excited about this, I'm making the wig from scratch and working out like mad to be in shape. I'm not gonna run around in a bikini if I'm not in shape! Anyway, Batophilliac, XxspyderxX, and I have a little something in store for Ohayo that will hopefully knock everyone's socks off! Teehee...

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What is your cospl​ay alias​?​
...I am me. I don't need a fake name.

How many years​ have you cospl​ayed?​
'06. This is my fourth year starting about now?

How did you get into cospl​aying​?​
My friend in my theatre program told me about it and I got drug into their big group cosplay!

What was your first​ conve​ntion​ and how did it go?
Ikasu '06.

How many cons have you been to?
7

How many cospl​ays have you done?​
7

[​Your Cospl​ays]​

What was your first​ cospl​ay and why did you choos​e it?
Sakura from Naruto. My friends needed a Sakura!

What is your favor​ite cospl​ay you'​ve done so far?
My own creation, a little steampunk character I named Zzylphie Jezamine.

What is your least​ favor​ite you'​ve cospl​ayed?​
Sakura...because I sucked at sewing then.

What cospl​ay is the most uncom​forta​ble?​
Probably my steampunk but only because after being in a corset all day, all you want to do is bend your back--but you can't because you're still in the corset.


[P​roce​ss]​

How do you resea​rch the cospl​ay befor​e you make it?
I make sure that I have pictures or screen shots of the costume at all angles. I will also watch or do character development so I can choose appropriate fabrics and colors.

Do you sew your cospl​ays yours​elf?​
Hah, my minor is costume construction. Of course I do.

If so, how did you learn​ to sew? If not, do you plan to learn​?​
My dad taught me to hand sew, my mom taught me machine sewing, and I've learned a hell of a lot more here at school.

Do you make your own props​?​
I tend to get away without using props. But usually, yes.

If so, how did you learn​ to? If not, do you plan to learn​?​
Internet guidance and self learning.

Do you style​ your own wigs?​
I'm a makeup and wig major. I actually use my own hair, but yes, I style it myself. And since I've gone to college I've turned my back on synthetic. If I have to wear a wig, I'll make one.

What other​ skill​s do you use to creat​e your cospl​ays?​
Anything I have to.

What skill​ has been most usefu​l for makin​g your cospl​ay?​
The fact that I can pull together a costume, hair, and makeup to make the whole outfit look together and cohesive.

What is the harde​st thing​ when makin​g a cospl​ay?​
The time it takes to make them and make them well.

What was the bigge​st screw​ up you'​ve had makin​g a cospl​ay?​
My Sakura costume. First of all I used wool from England (wrong fabric choice) that was my grandmother's, secondly I didn't know how to sew very well yet so I look back and it's just awful.

How often​ do you injur​e yours​elf while​ makin​g a cospl​ay?​
What do you mean by injure? If you mean stabbing myself with needles, that's every day at school. Other than that...I don't really do any damage.

[​Budge​t]​

On avera​ge,​ how much will you spend​ on cospl​ay in one year?​ (not inclu​ding conve​ntion​s,​ etc)
I try not to spend over $30 on fabric, and not over $50 for hair for a wig.

Do you try to stay cheap​ or do you splur​ge on mater​ials?​
I try to stay cheap. I look for sales and bargains, decently priced fabric, etc.


[​Conve​ntion​s]​

What is your favor​ite conve​ntion​?​
Ohayocon. It's just awesome.

What conve​ntion​s have you gone to?
Ohayo, Sugoi, Ikasu, and Animarithon

How far have you trave​led for a conve​ntion​?​
a little over 3 hours

Do you usual​ly stay in a hotel​ or stay at home when you can?
nope! I've only been in a hotel twice for a con. I find people I can stay with.

What was your worst​ conve​ntion​ exper​ience​?​
Ikasu 2007. My little brother's cosplay skit got disqualified for saying "uke." We vowed never to go back to Ikasu again.

[​cos-​LAY]​

Have you ever cospl​ayed with a partn​er or group​?​
I've only ever done one cosplay by mylsef. It's always been with a group or with my best friend.

Do you try to act in chara​cter?​
I'd rather be myself than be someone I'm not.

Have you ever done fanse​rvice​ at a con? (​Yaoi,​ yuri,​ etc)
No.

How do you react​ to cospl​ayers​ dress​ed as chara​cter from the same anime​/​game/​etc?​ ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/23164243/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/23164243/ Thu, 12 Feb 2009 20:36:37 PST
On other good news, I've been eating extremely healthy with more veggies and fruit and smaller portions than I normally eat and in a week's time I've lost five pounds. AMAZING. I don't feel skinnier, but the fact that five pounds are gone is mind-blowing. Now if I can keep this up with my exercising, I should be fit in no time!

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I feel useless and helpless right now, and this is not a good time to feel like this. I feel like too much and nothing at all is going on all at once and I feel like I can't do anything about it. Let's start from the beginning.

I go to one of the best theatre schools in the country, the College Conservatory of Music. No one really knows about our Theatre Design and Production section, but it's one of the best and all of our graduates are destined to get jobs. We're that high in demand it's scary. So why am I worried about life after college? I'm terrified I won't get a job for this summer--let me rephrase that. I'm terrified I'm going to be stuck working at Kings Island, our local amusement park again, dressing ice skaters and being paid $8 and hour where anywhere else I'd be making at least $10. I don't want to drive 45 minutes to work everyday again. I don't want to be around some of the people I worked with. Many of them touched my life and I will always love and remember them, but there were some that made it torture to be at work. I want to be doing more, more with my major, more with what I'm good at. But then I panic. What if I don't know enough? I know basic theatre makeup. I don't know how to ventilate a wig, I don't know how to make prosthetics, and I don't know how to do special things like bald caps. I haven't learned any of that yet. That's stuff I learn next year.

On the topic of school, I'm starting to freak out cuz I'm realizing that I don't have a life. My designer is beginning to freak out about our show in 2 weeks, we can't style wigs because we don't have any wig blocks (they're all in use for the current shows at school) and we're behind because of that. She's going to need me and I want to be there for her. That's what an assistant does. I need to stay in a good relationship with my designer because not only am I her assistant for this show, I'm also her assistant for her show in Spring quarter. Lately she's been talking about pulling nights and Saturdays to get the show done, which I'm totally cool with. It's a show and it's what our lives revolve around at school. Not only are they our lives, but they're our grades as well. Not only am I assisting her on that show, but next week, while we'll be styling all those wigs, I'll be pre-showing Barber of Seville, my teacher's show. That means I do the actor's makeup before the show starts, pre-show. I won't have to stay the whole night, but then I'll go into the other side of the shop and style wigs. ALL NIGHT LONG. Uhg...then the show I'm assisting isn't our normal 1 week run, no, it's 2 weeks. So basically 3 weeks of my life are being sucked away. I haven't written my art history paper yet and the midterm for that will be coming up. I'm scared, I'm terrified. My mom will murder me if I don't do well and it's my worst class. I don't do well with memorization, I do well with my hands. I need to pass, and passing, to my mother, is a B, if not higher.

For life at the apartment, all it's been is drama. Ben moved out, Aryn moved in. That was easy. Then Meg threw her temper tantrum over AIM while we were all on Xmas break threatening she was going to move out if Aryn moved in. Well she's moving out. Thank god cuz we didn't like her to begin with. Anyway, we thought we were just going to re-write the lease with four people and the rent would go up a tiny bit, our landlord said that was okay. Turns out he didn't understand and it wasn't okay. SO we put up with Meg freaking out, threatening to sure our landlord, and then she found a sub-letter. We had the approval, so we met her and actually REALLY liked her. She's nice, seems pretty normal, her dad just died so she has to move out of the apartment she had with him. We warned her of our weird ways and she was okay with us. So we agreed and now Meg's moving out and she's moving in. That's going to be time that I don't have to spend, not to mention all of this has been so emotionally draining with stupid winter depression on top of it all.

It also doesn't help that my knee that got popped out of it's socket back in 8th grade is mysteriously hurting again. I think it's due to the cold and walking across campus so much, but I can never be certain. That and I've been trying to get in shape forever, not really lose weight, but lose fat and gain muscle, get in shape, but it seems like I'm only getting fatter. Pants that were comfy on me at the end of last year are tight and I'm just getting bigger! I don't understand it, I eat healthy, I exercise when I can (all the time but show weeks) and nothing working! And I'm not going on some crazy diet because I know the key is eating right and exercising. Ugh.

So basically I'm scared, stressed, not getting fit, freaking out that my life will end in a couple days, and not wanting any of it... ]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/22937700/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/22937700/ Sun, 01 Feb 2009 07:45:41 PST
Anyway, you all are in for awesomeness next year. Keep your eyes open, we'll be around.

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Luckily, I don't have a ton of homework and I can always work on stuff backstage during my show this weekend. Jebus, this came up fast!

Anyway, I'm super excited about the con!!!! ^_________^

Update:
So it's Monday now and all I believe I have left to do is touch up a few details! I've got everything I want to wear, I just need to make sure it's perfect. The wig and top hat are also done as well! Thanks to all you guys for being so supportive!

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So I just snapped at my room mates, and I feel AWFUL. I didn't mean to, I swear I didn't it's just I feel like since my best friend moved in, we're NEVER going to get any work done. It's just too easy to have a good time with her and our personalities just scream to goof off (that's all 4 of us, not just me and her). So I'm actually starting to worry. And every night it seems like my laptop is the one out in the common area, so my computer is the one I sit down to after eating to check mail, facebook, DA, and my other sites. Of course, someone will mention some video and my laptop gets snatched out of my hands and is basically commandeered from me until I forcefully take it back. And today I snapped when I took it. And now I feel bad. I'm sorry I'm the way I am. I have a habit of wanting to do certain things and if that ritual doesn't go as it should, I start to get pissy. I really didn't mean for it to happen, I just need them to understand this about me. I need things to go the way they're supposed to. So now I'm going to exercise in the anger I have at myself and then get to studying for my quiz tomorrow...hopefully. Sorry.

]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/22315073/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/22315073/ Wed, 31 Dec 2008 20:37:12 PST
I wanted to list the best movie I've seen this year and the best show. I really think, for people who appreciate theatre and the arts, should see these. In movies, I JUST saw the mysterious case of Benjamin Button and let me say, that movie was absolutley beautiful. Not only was the acting fantastic, that was some of the best makeup jobs and wigs I have seen in the movies in a WHILE. The story was good, too, and really helped me see a point in life. Show wise, In the Heights is the best show I have seen on the face of the earth. It was so incredibly moving that even I was crying at certain parts, and I don't cry when I see things...usually. The story was great and everything worked perfectly in the design and direction. That and I met the whole cast at the stage door afterwards--SO COOL! It's just, these two show really sucked me into the show, they were so well done. With my schooling, that does't happen anymore. And when it does, it's the best thing in the world. The magic of theatre is really the greatest thing in the world and I wish more people would partake in it and appreciate it.

So at that, I hope everyone had a great 2008 and that 2009 is even better.

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I spent the eve with the extended family and I got to see my two new cousins, they're so cute!!! One's a couple months old and the other isn't even two weeks yet. Soooo cute.

I'll be off to NYC in about 30 hours, I'm so excited! I hope anyone traveling has a safe and wonderful trip. Happy Holidays!

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Although I'm so excited about break, I've actually had a rather depressing day. My room mates and I just found out two night ago that one of our room mates, Ben, won't be at school the rest of the year. His mom and step-dad are finally getting married and someone needs to be home to watch the younger siblings while it's honeymoon time. Ben has been fantastic, he's served as a mediator during small arguments that have broken out, and he's an overall great guy. He's extremely talented and deserves the best. I'm extremely upset that he's being pulled away from his schooling, from us. I understand that it's for family and family is the most important thing, but to me, our house is family. I took him to the airport after my final exam, it was just too sad. But to cheer us up, my best friend is moving in with us sometime this quarter. Hahaha, we'll finally see if we can live together!

I forgot to mention that I'm spending about 5 days in NYC right after xmas. It's really nice that one of my room mates is from there and is letting me stay with her. I'll get to see Cirque's Wintuk and we're going to try to raffle tickets for In the Heights and Lion King. I can't wait for it!

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Just before senior year of high school started, summer of 2006, Quidam came through town. My parents took my sister and I to see it and it was amazing. Unfortunately I said something that upset my mother and even though I truly enjoyed the show, my mind was preoccupied with making amends with my mother. I dawdled on Cirque through the fall, but it wasn't anything close to an obsession.

Summer of 2007, college was about to begin. I had gotten into a theatre school, one of the top five in the country. Makeup, wigs, and costumes, my mind revolved around the theatre and I reveled at the world I would be entering. My mother took my sister and I to Vegas that summer for some girl bonding time. Not to mention that my father, a teacher, had some summer classes and couldn't leave home. My sister wanted to see O. Tickets were too expensive. I wanted to see KA. They were on vacation. Love was also too much money and I wasn't 21 (I'm still not) so Zumanity was out of the question. Mystere was the only option left for a Cirque show, so we got tickets. It was magical. They can do so much more in a stationary theatre rather than a touring tent. My enthusiasm flourished yet again. I got to school and spattered about how I wanted to work for Cirque in Vegas. I made my mind up at that time. I was told that a grad from my school was working on Zumanity, but it seemed to filter through my head. I couldn't really obsess, school was taking my time, energy, and thoughts.

Now it's sophomore year and about a month ago we heard that Claire, my mentor from last year, left for Macau, China, to work on Zaia, Cirque's new show. My mentor, just recently graduated, got a job with Cirque! All of a sudden my dreams felt like they could come true at any moment. I suddenly got the idea into my head that I could have an internship with them before I graduated. How cool would that be? I suddenly let my macbook swallow all the Cirque soundtracks I owned and started playing them on shuffle constantly. My hands itching to do makeup that was abstract, I painted my face, best friend's, and room mate's. I've been working on fixing my resume and writing a good cover letter for two weeks now, squeezing it in with all my school work. I fear my obsession will die down with the upcoming show that I'm working on. I won't have time to dream, I'll have to focus and pay attention. I want this NOW. I know I'm an extremely impatient when it comes to things I want, but this is worse than it's ever been. I can feel it crawling in my stomach.

]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/21401837/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/21401837/ Sun, 09 Nov 2008 09:33:47 PST
"Can I cry?"

"Why?" I ask.

"My dad just died."

I'm confused. Did this remind him of his dad or something? "I'm sorry, but what does that have to do with my artwork?" I ask.

"Nothing, but you looked like you had a face, you know,the face of a good person..looks like you don't care about others and you just think of yourself, you should hang yourself and all your friends."

WTF??? Okay, I said I was sorry, I was just confused about why this person was telling me this. A comment on my page would have been a better place you know, not a deviation. I am a nice person, I love helping people! Sure, I'm busy a lot of the time, but I try to be there as much as possible for my friends. But why would someone seek a stranger on an art website out for council? Doesn't he have friends who would better understand the situation? I just don't get it. And the threat at the end! It just bothers me that someone would say something like that! So I BLOCK him. That's right. Blocked. It's a shame, he had some nice artwork, too. I would have favorited it, but oh well.

]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/21391426/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/21391426/ Sat, 08 Nov 2008 16:10:17 PST
For Halloween I was a punk Victorian Vampire, pictures can be seen in my gallery. I made my entire costume and spent about a night on each piece of the outfit (corset, skirt, and jacket). The Haunt is over with as well, and I am thankful. I am done with that theme park for a while at least. I hope to go to Utah this summer or even Vegas to work. I hope *crosses fingers* so no more theme park!

How to Succeed in Business without Really Trying is coming up in two weeks. I'm only on wardrobe crew so hopefully my life will only be hijacked for a week instead of three or more. And it turns out my schedule is remaining the same ALL YEAR. Ugh. I'll make it.

As of now, I'm OBSESSED with Cirque du Soleil. You can probably tell from my gallery though... I can't seem to get enough of it! I'm constantly listening to the soundtracks I own, constantly surfing the website and watching videos, and constantly trying different makeup designs. What can I say, I just want to be in Vegas now... I want to be a part of that world so badly right now. And I'm scared I won't be.

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I've now gone through a whole week of living in the uberhouse (our apartment) with my five flatmates and I think we're going to be just fine. It's funny, people tell you that if you like the people you live with, you'll hate them once you live with them. The thing is, we all practically lived together last year, our school being so close knit and inescapable. We'll be fine, I know it.

I'm more worried about Urinetown. I was originally supposed to second assist wigs and makeup for the show, but we have less makeup people than normal. Our first assistant got moved to On the Verge so now it's me and Ray, the designer. That means I'm the one in charge of everyone and everything backstage, all the quick changes, everything. And there are a LOT of quick changes. I'm terrified. But at the same time, it's going to be an amazing learning experience and I'm really quite excited.

I'm also working weekends at my amusement park's Halloween Haunt. I'm helping with the makeup and boy is it eventful. Every night we have over 500 people come into our chairs and we gore them up in about two hours and send them on their way. Then we get to go around all the mazes and check on how they're doing. Let me tell you, it's not always a pretty sight and some of the actors can be pretty bitchy, but it's all good. You've always got a couple people to deal with. It makes up for it by seeing the others who are there for a fourth year now, thrilled to be back for more screams. I just can't get over how I constantly have Ben Nye's Fresh Scab stage blood constantly caked under my nails. I'll never be clean again!

Other than that, life is good. I'm really content where I am and sooooooo happy to be back at school. Thursday I'm getting my first tattoo as a birthday present to myself and of course there will be pictures. I'm terrified, I hear feet hurt like hell.

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Where am I? Concord, MA. My best friend from college lives there, so of course, I come to visit. My friend Kate came, too. It's the three of us, just enjoying ourselves. This is the only vacation I'm getting, so I'm just relaxing, letting the time pass. We have seen the sights, Old North Bridge, the Alcott house, "downtown" Concord, Boston, the Museum of Science, the Aquarium, and Crane Beach. Today we might possibly go to Salem, but we haven't really decided yet.

We go home tomorrow.

I'm not ready to go back to the hustle and bustle of work. The ice show closed and everyone's departure was heartbreaking. I'm going to miss the skaters and crew, but hopefully a lot of them will return for next summer. If the ice show's closed, what will I do at work? I'm getting ready for the "Halloween Haunt," our park's terror time. I'll be working on multiple projects, like living statues with Noelle, one of the other costumers. Not to mention I still have the 80s show wigs to keep me company (ick). I've got more days off than I did with the ice show, but I'll still be busy.

School will be starting in a month, to the day. Yes, my school starts late, but we get out late, too. It stinks. Not only will school be starting, but I'll be moving into my apartment. For the first time, I won't be completely dependent on mommy and daddy. And I'm thrilled about that. Luckily, if I need anything, I can just drive 20 minutes unlike my roommates whose homes are hours away.

So yes, I'll be busy. But right now, I just want to enjoy the time I have left here in this beautiful town. It'll end too soon.

]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/19904690/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/19904690/ Mon, 11 Aug 2008 20:00:03 PDT
He came up with the idea of doing a radio show for the school radio program called "Unscripted," where we read and discussed plays, which helped us students with our studies and understanding of theatre, and was rather interesting for the listeners...the 10 listeners we actually had. Chris got our minds thinking in new ways and helped us students involved grow closer as a community and family. We then won an award for the show at the end of the year.

At the end of the second quarter, he declared that our school was not right for him. We understood, our school isn't right for everyone, and we wanted the best for him. He stayed with us till the end of the third quarter, taking academic classes that would transfer to another school, which, he was still deciding where to go. We all assumed we'd meet again, most people in show business do.

I just received the email. "I am very sorry to interrupt your summer with sad news regarding a student who just completed a year of study in CCMʼs Costume Design program. Christopher Elizardo, while on break from his summer stock job at Papermill Playhouse in New Hampshire , slipped into the Pemigewasset River and was drowned in the swift current. Obviously, we here in OMDA offer our condolences to his friends and family. While Chris was not going to return to CCM in the fall, he made many friends during his year with us, and I thought it important you all were aware of this terrible misfortune..."

Chris is gone, and I am very shocked. Never has anyone I have truly known and cared about at this young of an age died. He had so much talent to offer and so many great ideas that hadn't reached the minds they were meant to reach. I am sad, upset, and heartbroken. But those feelings haven't sunk in yet. I'm still trying to get past the shock of the whole event. I'm okay, I have to be. I just hope his family is doing alright.

Rest in peace, Chris. The world will miss you.

]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/19742297/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/19742297/ Sat, 02 Aug 2008 20:29:30 PDT
But I am excited. This week I'm seeing the Dark Knight with a good friend of mine. I haven't seen my "cupcake" in a year and then I go see the show at my old community theatre--and he's in it. "CUPCAKE!" we yell at each other, and we make our way to a giant hug and smooch on the cheek after the show. I love this guy, always did. It was the fall play my senior year in high school. I finally got a big part in the play, one of the more important ones, too. That's something, considering I'm a makeup designer, not an actor. He was a freshman who we all thought was a junior. Blew us all out of the water when we found out. He had one of the male leads and did a wonderful job with it. The two of us bonded quite well, we latched onto each other with the phrase "I love you cupcake," when we saw each other and "I miss you cupcake," when we'd part every night. Guess where that's from? Invader Zim--GIR. We both quoted the dog robot all the time. So anyway, we haven't seen each other since the end of that year and there we are hugging like no time has passed. "I'm a big bad junior now," he tells me. I grin. I feel old, I'm a sophomore in college. He still has so much ahead of him. But we agree to make sure to spend time together, and he suggests the Dark Knight. Neither of us have seen it yet, and I'm super excited. Like I said, I love this kid.

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Change of plans We couldn't find a good evening together so he's coming to my work (an amusement park) on Thursday so we're hanging out when I get off work. Yay!

]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/19099606/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/19099606/ Sat, 28 Jun 2008 20:52:48 PDT
Last Saturday the fly rail broke and we all scrambled during our shortest break between shows to fix it. I also learned that jumping through the smallest gap in the fly rail doesn't work. Totally scraped up my back in the process. But no one died and that's what's important.

Today one of the cables on our star back drop for the America section of the show broke. Cole, the solo skater found the little copper piece that told us something was wrong. The second Josh, our fly rail operator, found out, it was an immediate "F*CK, EVERYONE OFF THE ICE!" So we spent that break trying to figure out which backdrop broke and where it broke. Luckily, the boys found the problem and fixed and I went off on my merry way to fix a torn costume. That is my job after all. But that wasn't the only hellish thing today. Bonnie, the other dresser, was at a wedding. No Bonnie at work today. That was soooo hard doing both my job and her job today. Sure one of our stage managers was backstage running Bonnie's track, but she wasn't exactly sure when and where certain things happened. It was odd telling my stage manager what to do. But we survived. The hardest part was organizing and hanging up the costumes at the beginning of the day. Bonnie and I had made an agreement the first day of work. see, Bonnie HATES vaccuming. So I vaccume while she sorts the costumes to stage right and stage left. Well today there was no Bonnie to sort things. I was so afraid I got everything wrong...but I only misplaced one person's! And she was so sweet about it, too.

But even though today was hard, I still had a lot of fun. I don't know what I'd do without my co-workers (aka black-shirts since we all wear at least a black shirt for backstage). It's amazing how, even though a day can be hard and you can barley walk out to your car at the end of the day, but you're still laughing and having a good time, linked arm in arm with your friends. They're the ones that pull you through the day and leave you wanting to come back for more for the rest of the summer.

And yet...I wonder about people's stupidity. I get home and my dad has the news on. It's about a six flags park and how some idiotic kid climbed a fence that had danger signs, and got decapitated by a ride. How smart are kids today? Totally makes me feel better about working in an amusement park, huh?

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I just booked my flight for my "vacation," in which I'm spending a week with one of my closest friends in Massachusetts. Another of our friends is possibly stopping by! My three closest friends from college are the one thing I'm missing most this summer.

Another happy detail is that someone, a client of mine I guess I should call him, sent me the measurements of his head today! I'm making a wig for him for a cosplay, but he and that cosplay will remain anonymous, in case he doesn't want it out in the open what he's up to. There will be pictures up so I assume you all will figure it out eventually.

I'm also currently working on a sweet lolita dress (for fun) and a fairy costume (renfest) in my spare time. Ha, spare time, what's that? Anyway, I know I'll get it all done in time.

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As for the summer, I am currently dressing the ice skating show at my town's amusement park, Kings Island. Once the show closes, I'll start learning how to do makeup for the Haunt in the fall. It's the Halloween thing the amusement park does. I'm quite excited about it, apparently the Haunt is all about scares and sex (a lot of the attractions are 18 and up). That will be a LOT of fun to work on. Oh yeah, and I'm styling the wigs for the 80s show we have at the park. That's 43 wigs I touch up in 3 hours every other day. It's INSANE.

One REALLY bad thing happened--the day the fly system at work fails and breaks, I scrape up my back helping fix it. It turns out I don't fit through the fly rails. I'm okay, just bruised and sore. And then when I get home, there's a note on the table saying that mom sprained her ankle and the family was at the ER. She's okay and walking (which she shouldn't be), I'm just worried about her. She pushes herself more than she should.

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Anyways, enough about that. As for school, I just have to turn in a project that is finished already and finish a bit of homework that has to be submitted online and my first year of college is complete! Still can't believe how fast it went...

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Still scrambling to study for exams, Work starts tomorrow. That's all.

Thanks for all the love and support!


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My sister found it. In the grass. It was out there in the thunderstorm. Oops. I wonder if it still works...

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In other things, I apologize but I forgot my camera on fat face grading. No fun pictures of me with a super fat face. I had a random four-ish hour break this weekend and went to Ikea for the first time with one of my room mates for next year and another close friend. I bought pretty shades for the apartment that fit our Asian theme soooo well. We got so many new idea for the living space we're super stoked about it.

Other than that...I've been working on my makeup and lighting finals. And trying to survive. I apologize for not being online due to the show. First year of college almost over with!!!

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My mind is totally in other places right now, but I'm not going to let it distract me too much. I know I have to focus and keep my good grades (damn that conditional partening I was raised with!) and I will.

Other than that, I'm learning tons in makeup and couldn't ask for more. I'm REALLY looking forward to making money this summer, hopefully enough pay for the house next year and have some to spend on hair weft and fabric for cosplays. Oh yeah, don't forget those commissions I randomly get! Super stoked about those.

Hope everyone else is hanging in there okay. You all get out of school before me (except for those of you that go to school WITH me) so rejoyce! I'll just...hang on.



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Sorry...I get a little crazy when I'm excited.

Other news, I finally saw both episodes of the Boiling Rock in Avatar and am freaking out over it. I never did like Mai but she totally regained herself in that last episode. She's now up there in my favroite charaters. So what am I gonna do? Make a cosplay of course! ...after I finish the others...

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But right now, I'm just a tad bit sad. I really am going to miss the wonderful hour and a half spent with the actors in the makeup room and the other hour backstage with my class mates. Really, I love them all. And Krissa and Karin are graduating and leaving Wednesday forever! They're going off into the real (fantasy) world to make it! (I call the theatre world the fantasy world because none of it is real.) It's just really sad to see them go! I know they'll be fine and do just great but still...who's going to guide me?

Alright, enough with the sadness! I've got a book to read and a paper to write on it that's due friday and then I SHOULD have some time to be creative. I hope. I plan on getting that Air Nomad costume done for Emond. Off I go!

<3

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WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:

» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:

[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how attractive am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.


[18] Am I lovable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.


[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

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A lot's been hapening. I'm working on two shows this quarter at school, makeup for Rashamon (don't get to excited, its preping the actors and powdering faces backstage, not designing) and spot lighting for Rappucchini's Daughter.

I'm single...have been for a while apparently...it would have been nice if HE had told me that, but oh well. I'm really enjoying the freedom that comes with it. Yeah, it hurt a bit, but I was expecting it. I kinda knew it wasn't...yeah. I'm just gonna stop on that. But that does not mean I want every guy out there who just wants to mess around bugging me. NO!!!!! I HATE that. Besides, I've got my eye on a couple of people that I want to get to know better.

Psych class is a bit of a bore, interesting, but not what I'm interested in. Hah, I'm typing this in that class right now as we speak instead of paying attention.

As for crazy creations of mine, I hope you are enjoying the endless deviations of bone sturcture makeup studies. I get graded on it today so you won't be seeing too much more of it. I'll pobably be messing around with jrock type makeup a lot...it amuses me greatly. The avatar cosplays, I will get them done, I PROMISE!!! I have Sokka and a random air nomad left. That's it. And we're already planning for next year. We've got Dir en Grey all five of them. I'm MAKING the wigs for Toshiya, Shinya, and extensions for Kaoru, styling Die's, and styling our Kyo's real hair. It's gonna be hot. Everyone's picked out their favorite outfit of their band member. I've been studying their makeup as well. This is going to be FUN!

I'll get on it as soon as I finish Avatar. That'll be um...this summer? But that'll be plenty of time.

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Anyways, I was talking to my friend Ben today, one fo the actors, and he laid it out straight. "Carson and Neil were cut."

WHAT??? No this can't be! Steve (Carson) was one of the first people this year to take me in and accept me for the oddball I am! He means the world to me beause of that! And Neil, Neil is my GBF (that's gay best friend)! Sure, I only got to know him this quarter, but he's such a sweetheart and always makes me smile. He gives some of the best hugs, too.

I'm still in total shock and have this giant empty pit in the bottom of my stomach. I really don't know what I'm going to do without them at school anymore. It's going to be so much more...boring.

]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/16948544/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/16948544/ Mon, 18 Feb 2008 15:29:21 PST
now as soon as i get caught up with my school work, i can go back to cosplays. guess that means its homework time!

]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/16877523/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/16877523/ Thu, 14 Feb 2008 08:24:05 PST
But I did feel like a goofball yesterday carrying around my shoe box full of truffles that I made for everyone...I don't see any of my close friends on Tuesdays and Thursdays due to weird class scheduling so I passed out my stuff yesterday. But it made me so happy so see people freak out over the fact that I made them chocolates. ^___^

So for everyone, happy valentines day.

]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/16756833/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/16756833/ Wed, 06 Feb 2008 15:42:12 PST
There's also the fact that it's midterms. I need to study. A LOT. But those will be over with by the 15th so then I'll start working like a madwoman again.

Just letting everyone know. Thanks for all the support, I really appreciate it!

Update 2/11/08: I'M DROWNDING IN MY MIDTERMS!!! ...and I only have two!

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Update: Jin is finished and I have purchased the fabric for Iroh and Zuko. Steve has decided to be Sokka and Brian...well...he's still undecided. Aryn is stil drafting her pattern for Katara but it looks AMAZING so far.

Update again! Zuko is finished and Iroh has begun! Brian has decided to be an air nomad, like Gyatso.

]]> ~GuiltyWithGlee http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/16336199/ http://GuiltyWithGlee.deviantart.com/journal/16336199/ Wed, 09 Jan 2008 20:32:18 PST
I adore art of all kinds, I stick to the traditional supplies, tho, pencils mostly. I love lead--the texure, the lines, the shading, everything. I'm a makeup and wig major in the theater design program in one of the top theater schools in the country. I love cospalying as well.

I'm currenty obsesssed with Firefly (Joss Whedon's TV show) and the cartoon Avatar: the Last Airbender (I BLAME THE DRAMA MAJORS AT MY SCHOOL...love ya!). Jin is my favorite character, along with Zuko. They're my favorite pairing as well...go figure.

So yeah, nice to meet you all. Come say hi, don't be shy!

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