http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:HalcyonicRain&section=today deviantART RSS for by:HalcyonicRain en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 06 Dec 2009 07:11:55 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/4191275/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/4191275/ Thu, 30 Dec 2004 07:30:58 PST Current mood: Empty and lost

This Town, I hate it. This fucknig freezing weather. I hate it.
I found the answer to what I was looking for yesterday. My life has been so shitty for the fact; I have not been alone. I think I am ment to be alone. Becouse when around other people. I let them my concrol my outlooks, or something. It's really strang. Why should I feel bad for not being someone eles? I don't understand the point. And whats the point to overpowering someone? Does it give people a comfort in their life to know that someone is not as good as somethign or are not them? Bleh, The last few days have been weird. I stepped out of my life and what I do everyday and went into some other peoples ways of life, that are nothing like mine, but have purpose. I sit in this damn room all day..trying to be something I just am not. Listening to someone's words for the first time and their annoying. I sure I am also. I think I want to be alone. She thinks shes a Love DOC. She thionks her advice true. When I am affraid the only love shes learned from is the tv shows she watches on cable. She confused caring w/ obbsession. Shes the oppiste of me. I care about people...i let them distoy me...and her. She lives in her own world. She'll sit here, play her video games....sit on her comp until her brain fall out. Thats ok w/ me ,but i am not going to do it. I have other things I want to acomplish. I have lost sight of my life when the sun hides in the winter. I hate it. I alway feel the need to wrap myself in someone...to hibernate untill it all just passes. She says she thinks she knows me more than anyone, more then myself. It's bulshit....
I am still missing my loved one, but I taste a bit of forgetfullness. I think He's forgot abotu me as i have been him, but I try not to think about him. If I do, I miss him ,and want to call him. That wont end up good. He'll jsut blow me off and hurt my feelings. I always feel so pathetic. He's says, he find comfort in me. I make his house a home. Does he miss that. Is the world feeling alien to him? Or has he fond a viod to forget and live w/ out befor he met me. He has to miss me. I would love just to walk in the freezing cold across town right now just to kiss him, but...I am afraid of the results.I forgot what he looked like. I forgot his face..the smelll. I found it lastnight, laying,thinking. I don't know what the meaning of life is...or why i keep living it the way i do....but i know I can choose what to do or where to go. Theres all these atmohpheres i could choose to live in.... and i seem to be picking the one i least want. .. i don't even know what i want at this point. i jsut want the sun to come back. I need to get away. Go somewhere. Do something. Put my mind to use and not lettign people make me feel like i am dumb and worthless. thats what makes people worthless , is when you sit there and make them feel that way. ....thats why i am best alone.


I miss Tyler. <333333333333 ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/4161927/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/4161927/ Sun, 26 Dec 2004 13:26:39 PST ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/4126655/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/4126655/ Wed, 22 Dec 2004 10:23:58 PST maybe. Going to play DDR, go eat Jap. food and See the fuckers or what not. Yeah, I felt a need to write a new journal enrty. I Miss Tyler. My Ummmm, well, freind thats a boy? Hmm, right. Love, Whats the defiinion to this? So labels i fight eyeryday. I wish people wort so scared of their own emotions. I wish people wenrt so scared to love me. No one realises that i am one of the most understanding people there is. I am passive to any beliefs.I have not seen kissed tyler in 8 days. yes, I am counting. lol, pathetic, but true. I miss him so bad. He's been sick. ....and then we just have not hung out in awhile. I miss him so bad. I went to his houese yesterday. He was not there. I went to his room and i found a paper in thetrash. So, me being my slick sellf. I had to read it. To my shock, it was his writing. Tyler, the kid who never writes. had wrote. Yes, It said stuff abotu how he felt bad about being mean to me and such. It jsut kinda made me change my out-look on him just a little bit.
Yeah, anyways, i don't know why i left the need to have to write about it....but i am. anyways. i am not in a good writeing mood right, so ...sorry. I will write latter. Alrighty. ...peace ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/4015237/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/4015237/ Tue, 07 Dec 2004 22:15:04 PST
Listening to : A lot of thinngs......
Room: Sitting on Mollys floor again.
Feeling: empty and lost
Bleh.....night kids -1:12 am ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3997675/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3997675/ Sun, 05 Dec 2004 18:44:40 PST
: Time 34 pm

Feeling: Tired...happy and such

Em0tions-Tired ..Purple..HAppy...connfoozited Thats a word

:bulletpurple Listening To-
Underoath-"when the sun still sleeps"
Jack Off jill " star no star"

Watching- Fear Dot Com
Palying- Nothing at the time

Room-Mollys room sitting on her floor

Reading-School stuff


News- I have a b/f WOW, oh yes...me...i have a b/f. he's purple..and funny and...Hmm, I lvoe him. I


Advice1- Whenever you feel down, just know that things change...look up at the sky remeber its jsut life, and your jsut a dream figure in someones dream.

2. Stand by what you think is right...don't let people make you feel bad about what you beleive in...don't dugd people...love them, let people talk...cofort them.. ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3997666/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3997666/ Sun, 05 Dec 2004 18:43:17 PST : Time:11:37pm

Feeling- Drunk, hands slip from mine...puffy eyes...cold..bleh, hot eyes.
Sweet lil hugs from everyone

Em0tions- Tired, Drawout, Releaved, unprepared, Conforted...Myself

Listening To- The Smiths - I forgot the name of the song...

Watching- Her eyes fall from her face...as she tell me she loves me and i am the best thing has ever happened to her in her life.

Palying-BB- Dark aliance

Room- My Room at my moms...on shitty laptop

Reading-Atobioghaphy Of A Yogi
(Good stuff, read it! )


News-The big stress is falling down on me know, and i am going to have to stick up for myself this time. I


Advice1- Whenever you feel down, just know that things change...look up at the sky remeber its jsut life, and your jsut a dream figure in someones dream.

2. Stand by what you think is right...don't let people make you feel bad about what you beleive in...don't dugd people...love them, let people talk...cofort them.. ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3407681/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3407681/ Mon, 20 Sep 2004 15:54:58 PDT : Time: 8:54pm

Feeling- Drunk, hands slip from mine...puffy eyes...cold..bleh, hot eyes.

Feeling- Tired, bitchy, angry, hopeless, fucked, bleh

Listening To-Bush- Machine Head

Watching- Me fall off a car..ahah

Palying-BB- Dark aliance

Room- My Gramma floor...On a shitty laptop.l

Reading-Atobioghaphy Of A Yogi
(Good stuff, read it! )


News- People can break me...I have maybe seen w/ new eyes
I am feeling what i have never felt.


Advice- Whenever you feel down, just know
that things change...look up at the sky
remeber its jsut life, and your jsut a
dream figure in someones dream.
Someone looked at the sky...some looked...now you look also.

Member Of-


My mates-~Angel-of-the-Onewing ~ chibimori ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3380324/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3380324/ Thu, 16 Sep 2004 20:13:46 PDT ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3335219/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3335219/ Sat, 11 Sep 2004 08:51:42 PDT
Alrighty, this is one of my best frineds, shes one of the most beautiful people...go check out her awesome work! XblondeXinXdisguiseX

: Time: 11:26 pm

Feeling- Bit tired...calm..Re-starteed- Grass in
my toes....

Emotion: In the beginning..of the end..of the
beginning. Pretty happy, a positive blah...

Listening To-Victor Wooten and Steven
Bailey- "cool groove"

Watching- Me killing stuff.

Palying-Disgea..fun game

Room- Sitting in Mollys room...still

Reading-Atobioghaphy Of A Yogi
(Good stuff, read it! )


News- We are re-modling my house.
I am feeling what i have never felt.


Advice- Whenever you feel down, just know
that things change...look up at the sky
remeber its jsut life, and your jsut a
dream figure in someones dream.

Member Of-


My mates-~Angel-of-the-Onewing ~ chibimori ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3290557/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3290557/ Sun, 05 Sep 2004 06:20:26 PDT
: Time: 9:19 pm

Feeling- Gross...Clutered

Emotion: Bleh, happy, but jut bleh.

Listening To- The Smiths- "accept yourself" Perfect song!

Watching- Nothing.....

Room- Sitting in molyls room.

Reading-Atobioghaphy Of A Yogi
(Good stuff, read it! )


News- No news is new its all happened befor or something


Advice- seek out even the shy kids...remeber we all have
minds...we all need to speak. Don't be afraid of
anything, do what you feel is right. BLeh, don't be
pissed at someone just becouse their not going to walk
down the path of life....find your own damn way just
like everyone eles.....Fuck, i have to pick myself all
the damn time......Look inside yourself befor you
look for someone eles..or something.. i don;t
know.. Maybe someone will save you, but it
wont be me.


Member Of-


My mates-~Angel-of-the-Onewing ~ chibimori ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3276108/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3276108/ Fri, 03 Sep 2004 07:42:41 PDT What my words mean to this person seem to be more important than a lot of things...sooo, i don't want to speak and be misunderstood, so, i don't. Feels liek tiems running out, and the things i live for are gonig to end....Like I am gonig to end, but thats the teenageyears ,right, I will grow older and look back ,and wpnder about my childhood. Thats why your so ahead of me, your already looknig back, and i am just sit living in my lil dream liek state of mind. Maybe, maybe not, but i feel like i know people on a diffrent level, That those faces sometimes find confort around me, but thats how i want it to be, i want everyone to feel like i ubderstand them mroe, i want them to know i am not gonig to jugd them for anythign they say ...Becooue i know, its the moment of time and somtiems you jstu need to explain yorself. Are my dreams dumb, Who says so, me? No ones gonig to give me a hand, no one has, sooo, I supsoe i strugle....becouse my own thoguhts get in the way of my path of life...I keep cutting branches and chopping the trees..maknig my path, but i still don't know where i am gonig, but i know it's somewhere that people can join me in. It just a matter of time. We will join me..prolly no one..btu w/e. I am writing a book for a journal enrty...PeAcE I wish i were not afraid.


: Time-10:31 pm

Feeling- Clean

Emotion: Bleh, happy, but jut bleh.

Listening To- The Smiths- "accept yourself" Perfect song!

Watching- Nothing.....

Room- Back at my dadies house

~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3276095/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3276095/ Fri, 03 Sep 2004 07:40:23 PDT


: Time-6:12 am

Feeling- THe damn blister on my finger.

Emotion: Bleh, happy, but just bleh.

Listening To- John Fruscainte-Murderers

Watching- Raganarok chacters kill lil porings...what a fun
game. W007~ ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3233737/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3233737/ Thu, 02 Sep 2004 03:18:00 PDT


: Time-6:12 am

Feeling- THe damn blister on my finger.

Emotion: Bleh, happy, but just bleh.

Listening To- John Fruscainte-Murderers

Watching- Raganarok chacters kill lil porings...what a fun
game. W007~

Room- Back at my dadies house

Reading-Atobioghaphy Of A Yogi
(Good stuff, read it! )


News- No news is new its all happened befor or something


Advice- seek out even the shy kids...remeber we all have
minds...we all need to speak. Don't be afraid of
anything, do what you feel is right. BLeh, don't be
pissed at someone just becouse their not going to walk
down the path of life....find your own damn way just
like everyone eles.....Fuck, i have to pick myself all
the damn time......Look inside yourself befor you
look for someone eles..or something.. i don;t
know.. Maybe someone will save you, but it
wont be me.


Member Of-


My mates-~Angel-of-the-Onewing ~ chibimori ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3200277/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3200277/ Tue, 24 Aug 2004 03:27:51 PDT Time- 6:24 am

Feeling- butterfyls in my tummy!!

Emotion: Really really nervouse but happy!

Listening To- The Smiths/At The Drive In) song of the day- "Back To The
Old House" by Th Smiths

Watching- Molly putting make up on//she does not even need it!

Room- Over AT Mollys house.

Reading-Atobioghaphy Of A Yogi
(Good stuff, read it! )


News: My black cat had her babies...6 new kitties! I get to go see
Eleanor's's Fall on Sat.!! THey are a really good band..And i talked to the
and and i guesse they changed their sound a lot...so, i am lookin forward
to hear their new stuff!! It's the first day of school!!!!!!!

Advice- seek out even the shy kids...remeber we all have minds...we all
need to speak

Member Of-


My mates-~Angel-of-the-Onewing ~ chibimori ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3191137/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3191137/ Sun, 22 Aug 2004 21:57:39 PDT Time- 11:49 pm

Feeling- Clean!! Fresh!!

Emotion: Beyound HAppy!

Listening To- The Smiths ( Meat Is Murder)

Watching- Chick Flicks w/ My g/f..she makes me watch them HEHE

Room- Over AT Mollys house.

Reading-Atobioghaphy Of A Yogi
(Good stuff, read it! )


News: My black cat had her babies...6 new kitties! I get to go see
Eleanor's's Fall on Sat.!! THey are a really good band..And i talked to the
and and i guesse they changed their sound a lot...so, i am lookin forward
to hear their new stuff!! I start School Tuesday!!!!!!
Yeah..whoopies



No great advice for to today ..but don't be made at anyone
for not loving you..if you yourself don't love you!

Member Of-


My mates-~Angel-of-the-Onewing ~ chibimori ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3116067/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3116067/ Fri, 13 Aug 2004 12:42:19 PDT Time- 3:13pm

Feeling- Cold...It's so cold out

Emotion:bored..hmm

Listening To- The Mars Volta

Watching- Nothing, don't really like Tv

Reading-Atobioghaphy Of A Yogi
(Good stuff, read it! )


News: My Black cats going to have her babies
soon!

Good stuff that happened: I got to sit w/ my gramma
at the book store and drink a cup of tea and talk to her
I feel a lot better ow that we both got some stuff out


No great advice for to today ..but don't be made at anyone
for not loving you..if you yourself don't love you!

Member Of-


My mates-~Angel-of-the-Onewing ~ chibimori ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3102960/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3102960/ Wed, 11 Aug 2004 20:35:16 PDT

ride: " Time- 9:44pm
Listening To- Fleet Wood Mac-Land Slide (Repeat)

Emotions-Broke/Weak/Fallen/LetDown/Fake/
Ugly/Pathic/Faithless/Undrerated/Lost/in complete/ect...

Feeling-Wet cheeks/ Burning eyes/Sick..

Smelling-Incents

Place-Sitting in my room

Lighting-Dim

Wish-I could let go of my past
I could remebmber my chilhood
I could make everything O.K
I could save everyone and myself
I could please everyone
I could please myself
I could be myself
I could act normal
I could make you happy
I could take it all back
Ect....ect....ect....."


Anyways, I think that forgwtting the past is one of the hardest things, forgeting who you once loved, someone you spent all your time w/...
Please do not brake the frigile people ...even if it looks fun ...sometimes you can not put that person back together the way they were....Like AL Green says" how can you mend a broken heart" ... I keep looking for comfort in others words, but i never acctept it. I want love, but i always seem to end up reading people the wrong way, things were going ok, but hten something happened, i hope i can be happy... i just don't want to keep braking , i don't want to not know what to do, and blah blah bloah, this will all be changed in the morning... I have to think somemore... I just want to be happy. ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3078585/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3078585/ Mon, 09 Aug 2004 20:57:27 PDT
Time 01am
Listening To:
RHCP-"Raod trippin"
RHCP-"Dosed"
RHCP-"Soul To Sqeeze"
RHCP-"Midnight"
Whenever I get in a bad mood I put some chilli peppers on and it changes my atmosphere to positive! I love them... By far one of the best bands.
My dad told me I used to love the chill i peppers when I was younger.. i don't realy recall, but i do recal havin a huge crush on Anothy w/ his pretty long hair..well, back then...hehe. ANYWAYS!

Hey, if you are into RHCP, the mars volta, ATDI, or de facto. Well, Omar, John, Or flea!.
Check out [link]

Thanks to for telling to check it out THANK YOU!!!..go check out his work kidos!!!

Anyways, i am sure i will write more to my journal when my heads clear!!!! May everyone sleep positive and wake the same...

My buddies:

I joined

Hey, I have like 1000 something page veiws!!! I kick ass!!! ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3064135/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3064135/ Sun, 08 Aug 2004 09:07:38 PDT Deviant Of THe Weekride

(Go check out this beautiful girls beautiful work!)



(Read Farwel For The Flower- Prev. entry)
Thanks To You!

( Added a link to his signutaure to
help get the work out about my words!)


(Posted my journal words in her Livejournal
[link])


Listening To: The Return- Alomost Night
[link]
Go listen to their stuff!
Watching: Romeo and juilet
Feeling:Tired/bored/sick...
Emotions: Tired, Positive,Missing,Hope...
Truth: I am not always nice- I get hurt easly
(You answer)

Advice: Say hello to someone you don't know today
Start a convosation w/ someone you think you have
nothing in common with.



THats all for today, Comment and feel
free to say whatyou want! Be careful not to
hurt the fragile people!

PS. I joined

This R my friends...check um out

]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3058997/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3058997/ Sat, 07 Aug 2004 04:14:54 PDT Her photos are very beautiful And incredibly amazing!

Listening TO- The Smiths- Back To The Old House
Thinking- How long Will It Be?
Watching-Boy Meets World (tapanga is so hott hehe)
Emotion-Lazy
Time: 7:01 pm
Feeling- Fruitful?
Smelling- My dads pipe


Today I did nothing....Blah Blah Blah...thank you everyone who Commented on my last journal entry! Farwell For The Flowers!!!
Thank you For posting my words in your LJ [link]
Thank you for adding a link to signature!

PS. I joinded ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3047918/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3047918/ Fri, 06 Aug 2004 09:44:05 PDT Smelling-my own skin
Feelig-Really Cold
Listening To- ZIGGY MARLEY-RAINBOW IN THE SKY
(my song to everyone) DL IT!
The Smiths-How soon is now

Advice1-Take a second look at someone you
know or don't know...Befor you judge them..think that "i don't know them".You don't know who they are and how what you are saying could effect them.The simplest thing you say that might come off a lil rude..could break that persons heart and you would not even know!

Advice2-Listen to everyone talk..whatever they have to say is just as important what you going to blurt out! Don't listen just to wait for your turn to speak! When you talk to someone, put yourself at the same level as they are..don't you think that your Right..theres no Right or wrong that we seem to know of yet...Share your opinion ..even if everyone kills you for doing so! The worlds best people spoke there mind..and were shot for it..killed ...murder.. All this hate...We have all these words so we can take advantage them..and speek our mind..but first do so w/ an open heart and mind.

Thats about all I have for know...Feel Free to share your opinion...feel free to say as much as you like! Plz do say something..tell other poeple to also! I want everyone to know how important you could be to someone. Let everyone know



Ps. I Joined Whoopies!

Hey these peopel are helping me spread the word about my journal right here... go thank them and check out their work! Thank you!!!

]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3040190/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3040190/ Wed, 04 Aug 2004 07:51:28 PDT If you have never heard of them..you need to listen to them..they are insanely good. Oh man, and Omar, such a good gaitar player!!!! Anyways, I am very bored!

Listening to: THE MARS VOLTA!
Watching: THE MARS VOLTA
Feeling: Tired ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3027288/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3027288/ Mon, 02 Aug 2004 14:18:32 PDT
Watching:Black trucks fly by.
Feeling- Very Tired!
Listening To- RHCP (Blood-Sugar-Sex-Magic)
Time 16pm
Atmoshphere-In a lil room w/ a fun blowing on me


Hey kiddies, You should all wear a button-up shirt...they are one of the most sexy things i have ever seen! Alrighty...PeAcE OuT ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3011289/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3011289/ Sat, 31 Jul 2004 13:12:15 PDT
At This Time
Listing To- The Beatles- BlackBird
Smelling- make up...ewwie...doesnt smell to good
Emotion- Hope, Desire,lust,Pretty,Hope hope hope!
Mood- Halcyon, Positive


For The Day
Say hello to everyone you don't know
Smile to everyone
Have conversation w/ Anyone about anything
Do something you don't other people doing
Pick Up some trash


Anyways, kitties, remember,I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!
PS, Mollys, I miss you! ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3007489/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3007489/ Fri, 30 Jul 2004 22:16:04 PDT I don't fit anywhere......
Anyways... i feel like shit..and i could not stand to look at the pev. entry.
Anyways, Sometimes i hate myself and this place...but like john lennon looks at it..its all in the matter of lookin at that way. I just wish i had someone to make me happy like i do to everyone. Blah blah blah

Listening to: Henry Rollins and NIN (Spoken Work)- "I know you"
If you have never listened to that befor..you need to! Its pretty sad..it reminds me of myself. Blah blah.
Emotion- Grumpy...confedentless...doubtfull..asha med..not fucking good enough..dumb

Feeling- My pain...i swear i am going to cut my stomach open...it hurts so bad somtime...fuck it

Wish- I wish that i could be held by someone...just once...
I wish someone would confert me once...you know sometimes a brik gets leaned on so much that it needs some other briks to suport . Anyways, fuck it..this wish pass away.

Advice- Don't sleep negitive...fight it....then sleep. blah blah ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3006088/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/3006088/ Fri, 30 Jul 2004 18:46:06 PDT
Feeling-Real sick...my tummy is really hurtin bad! Errg.
Listening To- Xeon Switch- Best Fried
Emotion- Ho Hum..calm


That will be all for now.. i can't wait to take this picture he was talking about...! ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2983538/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2983538/ Tue, 27 Jul 2004 21:22:19 PDT
Time:12:21
Emotion: Tired, Happy, Best i have ever felt in awhile
Songink Flyod-Wish You Were Here
Lighting: Dim
Sound: The sound of the outdoors
Feeling: Tired...
Sitting: In A Rocking chair
Drinking: Dream Zen Tea!

Mollys, I miss you so...
I hate the indoors.. i wish my room was outside.
Umm, Do you put tooth paste on your tooth brush then stick in under the water...lotsa people do that....MMMmm..My toe nails are redish purple...yippers.. i am going on and on man, why...cuz i have the hands to do it. Umm, i am crazy...night everyone..sweet dreams! ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2983485/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2983485/ Tue, 27 Jul 2004 21:14:44 PDT ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2872758/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2872758/ Tue, 13 Jul 2004 13:38:54 PDT
Well, I am back...back w/ out my love. She is still in SC. Oh how i miss her so. Least i got to feel her soft hands and see her beautiful face again.
I got to see her tears fall...I got to hold her. She waved to me as we drove away. I miss her... Mollys, i want you to know. I love you! Your a beautiful person...I will get to back to this gay ass town if i walk to SC and drag you here. If things don't work out..you know you can live w/ me. Molly, you mean a lot to me. You know what i was befor we met..you konw whats happened to me...you still love me. You made the most unhappy person into a flower of joy. Molly, i am sorry if i don't listen all the time. I am sorry i am not like everyone for your sake.
I am sorry for any time i left you alone for someone woh keeps killing me. You have done nothing wronge to me..i have never heard any evil from you soft lil voice. Molly, i love you. ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2835246/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2835246/ Thu, 08 Jul 2004 16:54:17 PDT
Emtion-creative
Happy
Blah balh balh
Want
Desire
Peacefull
Aww ( if thats a emotion?)

Something I love-
Hearing my brother scream in a mic playign Counter Strike!
Mollys tan
Sweaters
Swing
you
Car rides

"masterbation is a handfull of creativeity, and you make me a artist" -ME
Masterbation is just self inprovement, now self destuction............-Fight Club ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2828785/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2828785/ Wed, 07 Jul 2004 20:45:59 PDT
Listening tolacebo-Black Market Blood.
Watching-Wakign Life
Thinkign-...Will I bleed if I die? If so...who will taste my death?
Feeling:Grass in my face(rolled down the hill)
Pain in my neck(my brother shot me)
Emotion: lazy as hell
very creeped out
unconfee
confused
blah
thiking about things... stay positive!!!! ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2814237/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2814237/ Tue, 06 Jul 2004 02:06:36 PDT
Listening to: Placebo ( New band someone just showed me..I like them)
THe Beatles- Maxwell's Silver Hammer ( My dad and i sang his song together all time time when i was little ...i thought it was funny...)
In-ter-rest-ing old people sharing thought w/ me.

Felling- food in my tummy!
Sweat on my hands from not wanting to put my camra down! hehe
Fresh air
Natures wonders

Emotions-
Very creative!
Happy
Positive
Desire
love
Carefree



Things I have noticed today: MY HAND ARE ALWAYS IN MY POCKETS!
Even when i was brushing my teeth.. i noticed that one hand was in my pocket. Heh, i think its a confort...mmm....
How much i miss Molly..(I miss you)
How sweet this one person I know really is....Its a secret...but hes super sweet! (not to me) but to others..but i still noticed.

Alrighty.. i am off to sleep befor i write a book for a entry...i hope everyone stays hapy and thinks posiitive things. ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2801575/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2801575/ Sun, 04 Jul 2004 11:22:33 PDT
Music for the 4th- (still)
Victor Wooten-U Can't Hold No Groove
RHCP- Breaking The Girl
RHCP- Soul To Sqeeze!!!!!!!!!!!! `_~

Seeing on the 4th-
The pretty Fireworks flying around
Drunk people-acting stupid..ERRG
Fire fyes go all crazy..you know the fire works make them all horny..lol

Emotions on the 4th
Pissed
Peacefull
Anti social!!!!
Amused
Blah blah blah....

Feeling on the 4th-
Stuffed
Wet ground

I hope today and the rest of my lifes turns out nice....blah blah HAPPY 4th to ya all!!!! ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2796094/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2796094/ Sat, 03 Jul 2004 15:25:50 PDT Anyways...lifes alright.

Listening to: Victor Wooten-U Can't Hold No Groove
If you have never heard this ...you need to...awesome, insane bass player!
Watching:Edd,ed, and eddy (good stuff)

Umm...feeling...blahblah blah... ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2749204/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2749204/ Sun, 27 Jun 2004 17:03:54 PDT
Emotions:
Pissed!
Dazed and Confused
PeAcEfUll
Floating
Pathic

Kickin It To:
RHCP- "Can't Stop"
The Cure-"Lullaby"
Radio Head- "Paraniod Android"

Watching:
Extreme Elimination Challenge (funny stuff)
Requiem For A Dream(scary and good stuff)

Seeing:
Smoke
Sun
Road from the past
Pathic eyes

Feeling:
Cats sitting on my lap
clean water in my mouth

News:
Blah Blah....I am going on Vaction on the 16...W007
I am using parts of my brain never used...but losing parts I use everyday. ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2714122/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2714122/ Mon, 21 Jun 2004 18:39:20 PDT
Emotions: -Positiveeacefull... hoping!! - Negitive:Sad...Missing

Listening to: - The Cure- Pictures of You The Cure-Six Diffrent Ways
Watching: The Rain making an attempt to cleanse the world
Feeling:My wet moccasins stick to my feet ~_~


News: -I may be getting my Ex b/fs kittie, Omar...this cat is kick ass! It's super fluffy and gray. Omar is named after the great guitarest and song writing..oh and dancer!!!~_` I named him! It will be great to take some pictures of him...Blah blah blah.
- Mollys still gone... i miss her so. ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2681685/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2681685/ Thu, 17 Jun 2004 11:12:24 PDT Complaint- Sick of people and evertime I try to be nice they always have some rude gesture to say back. Come on people, if some ones tring to be nice or give you a complement ..accept it. It's not to hard to be positive...TRY IT!

On the other half of black. Lifes a peach when your glasses are rossie...~_`

Kickin it to-
The Return-Gray area (www.itsthereturn.com)
Small Brown Bike-Curiosity killed the cat and i'm the kill

Lyrics to Gray area
can i say? its easier without you here to see my face - did you know? i still miss you this is such a lonely place - and this girl i knew to perfect to be true but her color soon shown through - her heart was always blue - and i know this can't be true it was always me and you - i hope i can pull through - who are all these people standing in your place? - (why on all these people, i still see your face?) - am i late? did you walk away? - can i say? i'm a mess sadness at its best - did you know? i still think of you when your not here to, oh i could kiss you - and this girl that i dream of is still inside my head - one more thought one more moment one less word i said

Feeling
Positve-My Fluffy white kitties fur on my face while I sleep.
Negitive- The calluses forming on my fingers from playing so much~_~

News
Mollys gone....what am i gonig to do w/ out her? :CRY:
I am going to see Eddie money!! HEHE, yes, Eddie Money! !_`

WEll, i wil lbe back, and i will have more pictures and poems to post! Love ya all...STAY POSITIVE! ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2648463/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2648463/ Sun, 13 Jun 2004 05:27:47 PDT ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2597398/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2597398/ Sun, 06 Jun 2004 14:27:28 PDT I am gonig to take pictures of my Zen getaway...so you all can see what is apart of me. Also, i wil have some more poetry to post by then..hope it turns out good. Hear from you all when I get back. ENjoy whatever your doing.
Listening to:Tom Waits and Tracy Chapman
Feeling:The starting of PeAcE
News: I found out that At The Drive In did some stuff w/ Danny magoo(Tom Waits key-boardest) W007!
Seeing: My herb garden grow
Hearing: my lovely pound

Love you all, hope to be back soon.


Oh yes, I wanted to see if anyone could help me make, or give me an idia on a design for a fyler... i am going to put fylers around my lil town to start a group to pick up trash.. Just give me your comment or something if you think of something.~_~ THANX~ ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2578509/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2578509/ Thu, 03 Jun 2004 23:23:18 PDT _-HalcyonicRain_- ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2554511/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2554511/ Mon, 31 May 2004 23:32:41 PDT ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2543662/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2543662/ Sun, 30 May 2004 15:00:44 PDT ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2533906/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2533906/ Sat, 29 May 2004 06:44:00 PDT I am gonig to take pictures of my Zen getaway...so you all can see what is apart of me. Also, i wil have some more poetry to post by then..hope it turns out good. Hear from you all when I get back. ENjoy whatever your doing. "The sound outside drowns out the sound w/in myself"-The Reurn ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2531716/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2531716/ Fri, 28 May 2004 20:08:50 PDT ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2517290/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2517290/ Wed, 26 May 2004 21:44:03 PDT Change is the word on my tongue today. Life is the word in my mind. From the aspect of a child, you would figure i would know nothing of the sort....but, let me tell you i am the chameleon to atmosphere.
I am weak when it comes to negitive and positive energy, auras tend to overwell me without the creator even knowing, thus, me acting like a complete fool in order to sustain ones "comfortableness" as i fall more into misperceived ,misinterpreted, and above all miscommunicated gestures. ( you begin to see the downfall) I am not one to judge, but i have befor. People only speak of what they are comfortable with, as i reach around every circle w/ my philosophy, only to smack myslef in the face befor you do. So, when you see me smiling, don't ask yourself, how could she smile, look at what goes on around her look at the things she talks about, know that a mirror is only a view of a veiw of a view....look beyound the fine line...walk it. Goog night ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2515345/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2515345/ Wed, 26 May 2004 17:16:23 PDT ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2495344/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2495344/ Mon, 24 May 2004 04:45:26 PDT
Trust, Seems to be a big issue in everyone life.
May i rely on this person, will their shoulder brake under just a little presure?
Have i gone to far and this person wont tell me what they think.
trust, this word seems alien to my tongue, but nun the less.... i could never say if i could be trusted, for lately i have ran out of emotion. One who has been drained of herself,can only give so little in the aftermath her life long lesson, thus creating the dazes i fall into. The sheer madness and bliss in the utter most sick places in my head. I am what i make me, i am my own actions. I can controll whats gonig on and i am soon to take advantage of my "Power" .

Another thing i don't get is kids now and days, not jsut kids...but these punks or what not. Seems as if no noe wants to listen to you until your known by everyone. Like my random going on bout things at public places like at a consert talking to these people. Yet, they look and treat me like i am crazy, but no, when some becomes famous and known ...they can so relate to them. Damn , i can't wait to creat music and express myself w/ more than these damned lables. Think how long music has been around...wow, i know. Forever. A simple beat creats an impulse...Controlls my moods. I wants this power. One of the mot controlling bands to me is At The Drive \In and the mars volta... No one write like omar and no one plays guitar like omar.
Well, i think i am gonig to go find somthing eles to do, hope you all enjoy everything, and i'll post some peom later...feel free to give me feed back on anything you think...or what the hell...go off on any fucking subject you want.. i am hear to listen. For the only way to hear is to listen. PeAcE-o OuT-o ~_~ zEn HeAd ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2495341/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2495341/ Mon, 24 May 2004 04:45:15 PDT
Trust, Seems to be a big issue in everyone life.
May i rely on this person, will their shoulder brake under just a little presure?
Have i gone to far and this person wont tell me what they think.
trust, this word seems alien to my tongue, but nun the less.... i could never say if i could be trusted, for lately i have ran out of emotion. One who has been drained of herself,can only give so little in the aftermath her life long lesson, thus creating the dazes i fall into. The sheer madness and bliss in the utter most sick places in my head. I am what i make me, i am my own actions. I can controll whats gonig on and i am soon to take advantage of my "Power" .

Another thing i don't get is kids now and days, not jsut kids...but these punks or what not. Seems as if no noe wants to listen to you until your known by everyone. Like my random going on bout things at public places like at a consert talking to these people. Yet, they look and treat me like i am crazy, but no, when some becomes famous and known ...they can so relate to them. Damn , i can't wait to creat music and express myself w/ more than these damned lables. Think how long music has been around...wow, i know. Forever. A simple beat creats an impulse...Controlls my moods. I wants this power. One of the mot controlling bands to me is At The Drive \In and the mars volta... No one write like omar and no one plays guitar like omar.
Well, i think i am gonig to go find somthing eles to do, hope you all enjoy everything, and i'll post some peom later...feel free to give me feed back on anything you think...or what the hell...go off on any fucking subject you want.. i am hear to listen. For the only way to hear is to listen. PeAcE-o OuT-o ~_~ zEn HeAd ]]> ~HalcyonicRain http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2488913/ http://HalcyonicRain.deviantart.com/journal/2488913/ Sun, 23 May 2004 07:54:56 PDT 'supose' to write here so, by my geussing....i will just write like it's a journal for my own self amusement.
enjoy. It's is 10:40 am. I am at my friends house because i kinda live here. Mollys is her name, and she is passed out on the floor. It's hot in his damn room.
I just woke up a lil bit ago, and made this acount on here. I hope to write some poetry and have some opinionated comments. Positive or negitive will be fine...~_~
Lots of things have happened to me in my life...and still i am waiting for something to give. I am more writeing to come back and read this , so i don't forget ocne again who i may be. See this is perfect for me, the internet is everywhere i go, thus makeing me able to write anywhere, w/ out wripping out the old fasion journals...may i add i have ashit load~_~. If your wondering what that face is ..it's ~_~ ZeN HeAd..kinda a trade make thing.I just had a crazy dream last night...It was grand. I dream so much and i remember them all like their more real than my life.In my dreams people i know are in them, And i remember the people like they are in my dreams, so i think i treat people diffrent. Anyways,Some may say. and by some io mean ME, that i am bipolar.Molly is my gate way and get away from myself. I don't know if she knows ,but she is an escape FOR THE OTHER ME TO VENT. Molly and i are two of a kind..Mollys hyper and happy, and i am more of somekinda whhoo.Zen head person,but when w/ molly...we are just not even in this world. See, i have problems w/ expressing new things, things that don't fit right in w/ who i am. Molly , even know she may not know it, has changed me in many ways. And my next entire w/ be the meeting of molly and i .....PeAcE ]]> ~HalcyonicRain