http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Halouh&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Halouh en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 06 Dec 2009 10:12:54 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/6811426/ http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/6811426/ Wed, 19 Oct 2005 16:32:16 PDT
i feel talentless

thank you so much for anyone who gave a damn
i appreciated every comment ]]> ~Halouh http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/6157148/ http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/6157148/ Sun, 07 Aug 2005 08:36:25 PDT I joined deviantart for the simple enjoyment of being able to see such amazing and beautifully unique artworks. It was a simple pleasure to sign onto at the time, a wonderful site. A site devoted to true artists because without those artists it would not be standing today. Over the years it became clear to me it wasn't about truly amazing art it was about popularity and money. I've seen artists come and go and I followed some of my favorites, but now it's become clear to me that things will be changing for the worse. This community is dwindling, so many of the artists I have been watching for years, way before I even created an account have left. Truly amazing artists that had so much to show- forced to look for something that respected their talent not only how much they could make off of them. But I guess it's why they call it starving artist, because it's not what you can do it's how well you can be marketed.

sorry to see so many of you go, it was fun. ]]> ~Halouh http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/4891317/ http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/4891317/ Wed, 23 Mar 2005 13:47:09 PST The problem is that photoshop and my computer configuration are not matched up. Colors appear lighter in photoshop when I'm coloring so therefor I only see the actual colors when I save and how dark and dingy they really are. So how do I fix that?
What a pain in the butt this is... ]]> ~Halouh http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/4313364/ http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/4313364/ Thu, 13 Jan 2005 18:57:04 PST I still can't figure out my configuration settings in photoshop and on my monitor(if that is even the problem) and my work is still continuing to lose the color quality it once had with every save of a finished work.
I wish I could find some kind of answer or at least be a little more computer literate...I thought I was but this continues to baffle me and really ruins my creativity- not that I had any before but at least before I was excited about submitting, now I can count on creating relatively okay works in photoshop and submitting them with 90% quality and detail destroyed. It's such a pain in the ass!!!!!
I know I don't have many watchers or many viewers in general of my page but please someone help me. ]]> ~Halouh http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/4082959/ http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/4082959/ Thu, 16 Dec 2004 18:18:40 PST Dj Shadow-preemptive strike
just saw Jean-pierre jeunet's new movie
"a very long engagement" not as visually amazing as Amelie but still breath-taking as usual. It had it's moments and of course it's charm, and Audrey Tatou was beautiful as always.
Something about his movies that leave me sad and happy at the same time. they just hit a button inside of me that I can't explain.
Can't wait for the DVD, it's going to be a longgggggg time though-grrrrr....
I suggest it to anyone it starts on the 22nd. GO SEE IT!!!!!!!! ]]> ~Halouh http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/3696675/ http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/3696675/ Thu, 28 Oct 2004 18:40:39 PDT ~Halouh http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/3590523/ http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/3590523/ Thu, 14 Oct 2004 16:55:16 PDT All my life I've wished for the perfect man I had a checklist in my head that no one of course could ever even compare to until I met Barrett. I realized that he did exist only my checklist was a small tidbit of my perfect guys true potential. So it leaves me with a predicament-do I let him go or do I fight to the death in a battle that is not even mine?
I found out yesterday that his father is very sick and considering that his dad lives in California and I live in Florida there is a large possibility that he is leaving. I have really no right to tell him to stay considering only a yr. ago did he move out here planning to stay for maybe a few months to help his friend with his recording studio. He has needed to go back for months now but has stayed for me. Also only 7 mths ago did his mother pass away while he was here and he feels he owes it to his father, whom he is practically best friends with rather then just being father and son. I can't tell him to stay, but I can't let him go-you don't find that perfect man but maybe once in your life and if you know he's the one that you just don't let him go. fuck that saying that if you let something go and it comes back it's meant to be. Whoever said that didn't lose their one true love, or has lived their entire life regretting it.
I'm willing to move to California but I can't now and I'm so afraid when he's gone he's gone for good it isn't supposed to happen like this.

On a sorta good note despite the extremely suffocating news of possibly losing my boyfriend, I saw the Deftones yesterday and of course they were amazing. Chino didn't stand in front of me on the rail this time which was disappointing, nor did he stand anywhere near me and Chi didn't acknowledge my screaming like he did the girl next to me but whatever I'm never satisfied, blah, blah, blah...
I'll always have the first Deftones show I've gone to where I had Chino's crotch in front my face for over 5 minutes, at least that thought will always bring a smile to my face because damn do I need it.
there that felt better... ]]> ~Halouh http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/3364579/ http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/3364579/ Tue, 14 Sep 2004 18:04:29 PDT as terrible as this sounds joining up for deviantart has added more stress then happiness it seems.
I guess I had this idea of endless comments, and more watchers and people who gave a shit about my work. Now I know I have under 10 submissions and maybe 3 of those are worthy of some respect but really-I've gotten nothing. A few replies here and there but in all-nothing. I guess it just hurts I joined hoping for more but now it seems deviantart is once again a popularity contest and everything around me continues to be the same way.
I guess it just bothers me to see artists who are in my opinion not all that spectacular get 10k page views and comments out of the ass and I struggle for maybe one every 2 days.
hopefully if I keep submitting something will change because it needs to it's my turn to feel respected-I deserve it. ]]> ~Halouh http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/3174104/ http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/3174104/ Fri, 20 Aug 2004 16:00:58 PDT Oh how I love birthdays, and getting a jazzy new scanner as a present- woo hoo!!!!! ]]> ~Halouh http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/2882982/ http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/2882982/ Wed, 14 Jul 2004 18:33:29 PDT Hopefully soon I will have my work up and will be a posting whore, It's what I aspire to be.
Stay tuned!

-Shanyn ]]> ~Halouh http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/2436971/ http://Halouh.deviantart.com/journal/2436971/ Thu, 20 May 2004 20:34:07 PDT ~Halouh