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<sub>Hello everyone! (though I think only Ayano reads my journals coz of the lack of activity nowadays).
First of all thank you sweety to donate me a subscription. Im really glad for it though I still dunno y I got it^^ Maybe it will inspire or motivate me to write more often. Anyway sorry that I didnt put any poems or writings onto my gallery but I had no inspiration to write. I have a halfly-finished poem bout twins but I had no time or inspiration to finish it. I am also thinking bout translating my 2 short stories into english. this way they would be available not just for hungarians. The other day i found a poem I wrote at the unviersity at profession-socialization training. Words were given in advance so it was hard, but I think it is quite good. Im tryin to translate it also n then I'll submit it.

University started 2 weeks ago. Yeah I was get admitted to the psychology MA course so I'll be attending there for another 2 years. Its a bit more relaxed than BA was. Now we dont have to proove anything. I have many tasks now as well but I dont feel that pressure and its good. So maybe my muse will come back and kiss me on the forehead and then I can write again. Till then keep watchin if you dont bore me and maybe one day you will find a new artwork of mine^^

Cheers everyone!

Kiss,

Hanalia</sub>

]]> ~Hanalia http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/26852485/ http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/26852485/ Thu, 27 Aug 2009 08:30:13 PDT

<sub>"Sing and I will hear you
No matter where you are
A song to light the darkest night
And guide me from afar

And I will never be alone
Now I know you're somewhere
You're everywhere to me
You're the colour in the sky
A reason to believe
And when the rain falls down
You tell a story
And I will hear you
Always near you
By the boab tree

Lay your arms around me
Like the falling rain
Let the feeling drown me
And life begins again

And I will never be afraid
Now I know you're somewhere
You're everywhere to me
The warming of the sun upon
The earth beneath my feet
And when the rain falls down
You tell a story
And I will hear you
Always near you
By the boab tree

Oh you are somewhere
You're everywhere to me
You're the colour in the sky
And you're the earth beneath my feet
And when the rain falls down
You tell a story
And I will hear you
Always near you
By the boab tree"

Sing me to yourself and forgive me my sin...

Dedicated to the white prince.</sub>

]]> ~Hanalia http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/25648613/ http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/25648613/ Tue, 30 Jun 2009 10:32:52 PDT Hey everyone! It seems that summer holiday began for me too. Well long time no write here and I had no artwork. This was a hectic semester and I didnt really have time to deal with my creativity.
To cut the long story short: I got A for my thesis; I managed to achieve 12 scores on the written entrance exam at my uni n with this I was in the top 10. I got A for my final exams and on the oral entrance exam I got 23 from 25 scores. I was at an other university..hm I think my scores arent so well..24 rom 45 but if I am lucky I get admitted to my uni again. Now one oral entrance exam let at a 3rd unviersity. Its gonna be on the 8th of July. Please support me on that day.

As for my artworks I have a poem wot is kinda half ready. It's on my other comouter. As soon as I get bk to the capital im gonna check it n try to finish it.
I've been planning for a long time to write a story, and one day I'd like to write a book just first of all I have to realise if i had talent for this or not and if yes I have to find my own style. Yesterday a funny story started to shape itself in my head..would be bout teenager years n problems..dunno wot will be from this..I1m just chasin the ideas in my head. I should get a notebook or papers coz at home mom doesnt really like if i sit in front of the pc a lot. Maybe afta goin bk to the capital im gonna start the first sketch

I hope this summer will be so amazing. Im lookin forward next week when at last I can meet my best friend ayano (*arthame) shes gonna accompany me to the entrance exam and we will spend the weekend together

By now i think that's all. I welcome everyone who read my journal n my works. Thank you so much! Keep watchin!

Cheers,

Hanalia

]]> ~Hanalia http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/23929676/ http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/23929676/ Sat, 28 Mar 2009 07:40:17 PDT ~Rám szakadt a távolléted S hiába tapasztottam homlokom az üveghez Léteid zaja a csendet egyszer sem törte meg.~
"your absence has slivered on me. I pushed my forhead to the glass of window in vain because your footsteps didnt break the silence at all"

I gave it a try and tried to translate that hungarian sentence i found on my home-pc. I cant remember when I wrote it. Years ago, and I forgot it. Human soul is timeless and eternal. It suits to my state on this day also. 21 years ago I was born to this world, cried like hell to prove I am alive and ready to fight my fights and walk on the road I started to step onto. How self-confident a baby can be..perfectly can follow the popular quote: "carpe diem". Her little body can be glad for every caress, food and dream and doesnt deal with tomorrow. "here and now" this is what counts for her. 21 years later shes completely changed and cant start anything with this "carpe diem". Sometimes it succeed and sometimes not. But most of times she cant handle this quote, cant live in present.
On this day I can feel the weight of the world on my shoulders, as wrinkles are talkin under my skin : ,,wait wait my dear mates..she has some cool years n then our time will come." I can feel as the lines movin on my face and body and shapin my appearance. I feel how im getting older and older..days pass so quickly that sometimes I cant keep up with them, but despite it something stays so static, immobile, stubbornly clings and doesnt let any development. Its like an old-fashioned stuck in the mud, lyin on its bottom n gasping for fresh air.
Today everything is so sharp, every thoughts in my head is that, and heavy and demanding. I doubted my decisions many times, doubted my eternal hope, doubted my perception and faith oh that blind faith. How can i be sure of that it doesnt lead me astray? Im still hanging on my bones and paying attention...one day end must come...one day I will be me again...one day...so far away but one day..jut wait secretly in silence and dont get mad.

collection of my thoughts and feelings. But if u asked yeah I am "fine" as always.
A poem is half-ready i cant finish it have no time. I cant write nowadays..ancient chaos in my mind and everywhere.

]]> ~Hanalia http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/23396930/ http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/23396930/ Wed, 25 Feb 2009 10:59:38 PST hey! Well Ive just found this test on ~arthames page and I was bored so I filled it in. Feel free to do the same if you have time!



rules of the game:
+ choose a singer/band/group.
+ answer using only titles of songs by that singer/band/group.
+ tag 6 more people.

Band: I choose: Blink 182

1. Are you male or female?

The girl next door

2. How would you describe yourself?

Aliens exist

3. What do people feel when they're around you?

Depends

4. How would you describe your previous relationship?

Alone

5. How would you describe your current relationship?

freak scene, first date, a new hope, I miss you, I'm lost without you

6. Where would you want to be now?

Obvious, Please take me home

7. How do you feel about love?

Rollercoaster

8. What's your life like?

Sometimes, Alone, Boring, Rollercoaster, Another Girl Another planet

9. What would you ask for if you had only one wish?

A new hope

10. Say something wise

Sometimes, All the small things, Obvious



My friends:


Artists I love here:

http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/23237606/ Mon, 16 Feb 2009 14:57:49 PST Hello! Long time no submitted any journal entries or anything. Sorry guys just I am busy nowadays. Last exam-time was a bit hard and wore me out so much with other family-problems. But I report that I am here. This semester will be hectic and so much busy also. Im gonna do my BA final-state-exams and entrance-exams for the MA psychology at 3 universities and well I should work on my thesis also. Besides I'm workin at the hosp with my mates as a volunteer so...forgive me if I have no time for producing poems or proses. Though im working on a new poem..I started to write it today and I think I'm on the half way of finishing it. I hope my dear muse will kiss me on the forhead and I can finish it and show to you. Anyway its in hungarian but maybe I will create an english translation also.
Anyway thank you all for reading me and support my work. Just keep watchin and tell your opinion

Cheers,

Hanalia

My friends:


Artists I love here:

~Hanalia http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/22187217/ http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/22187217/ Thu, 25 Dec 2008 10:05:59 PST Just a quick update. First of all: Merry Christmas to everyone. I hope you have an amazing 3 days n more christmas feeling than I have.

Secondly I was tagged by my lovely ~arthame sooooo lets start


1.Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.

" MAmmy hol van Will? Nem olyan öreg, hogy ne jöhetne ki elém"

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you reach?


My hairbrush

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?


The PArent trap

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:


18:40

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?


18:33

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?


Tv, and our guests downstairs

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?


It was in the afternoon. We visited the cemeteries...yeah good programm..

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?


I have checked who is on msn

9. What are you wearing?


a pair of jeans, my fav blue t-shirt and a red jumper

10. Did you dream last night?


Yes it was kinda strange

11. When did you last laugh?


bout 30 min ago on the movie

12. What are on the walls of the room you are in?


Ayano's drawing, my brothers drawing, a Raul poster, an English flag, Nightwish, Greenday, Avril LAvigne, Good CHarlotte and Amy Lee posters

13. Seen anything weird lately?


no idea...maybe

14. What do you think of this quiz?


nothink im bored so decided to fill it

15. What is the last film you saw?


The Parent trap

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?


an airplane ticket to London and a flat there

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know about.


There was a time when I wanted to learn how to play the violin and almost attended to a violinteacher.

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?


I would try to show the ppl how to realise the little things

19. Do you like to dance?


Yes..and I would like to learn it also

20. George Bush:


looks like a monkey ^^

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?


Elizabeth but shortly just Lizzy

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?


Charles András

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?


Yes I would like to move to the United Kindom, London.

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?

I'm not sure there is God but if yes then ,,Im sorry for those years my child"


25.Tag six people who might also do this in THEIR journal




My friends:
http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/21093086/ Tue, 21 Oct 2008 10:48:34 PDT Hey! Well It's just a quick update. I would like to let everyone know that my 'new' poem is available in my gallery. Feel free to read and comment it. I'm really curious of your impressions and opinion.

As for my mood it's a bit better than last time. I managed to get into an institution...The National Spine Therapy Centre or how i can translate it into English. It is a private hosp halfly and really cool. I will be a volunteer or what there with some of my uni-mates to get into the psychology-practise. I am quite excited bout it and I'm so looking forward our first day in November there. I hope it will be useful to me and I can learn many things. I'm tryin to be more positive in connection with my future though I am a bit confused bout it.

On this weekend there will be a conference at my uni.It is for anyone who is interested in so you dont have to be a psychologist or wotever. Topic is the transpersonal psychology. There will be workshops and presentations. If you live here and are interested in..write to me and I'll give you the details. Come come I'll be there also

Thats all I wanted to tell ya now.

Cheers,

Hanalia


My friends:


Artists I love here:

http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/20872358/ Tue, 07 Oct 2008 10:58:04 PDT Long time no updated my journal and nor my gallery but I have no time nowadays. Now I feel that I have to write down my feelings coz they are like hard stones on my chest. Today was a hard day and I just cant work up the happenings. This is my third year at the university where I study psychology and I think it will be the hardest one. After 2 weeks I got to bed with catching a cold and I just didn’t understand how I could be ill after 2 weeks. But telling the truth its not surprising…coz what’s going on here that’s just ridiculous. In our country the BA and MA education system began 2 years ago when I started the university. Before this new reform university lasted for 5 years here and after it you got your degree. As psychology concerned after the 5 years you started to work with your degree in a hospital or somewhere else and you could started the clinical psychology stuff what meant another 3-4 years at the university and just after this you could say that you are really an independent psychologist. Now this all case has changed with this BA-MA stuff. All subject excluding doctor, lawyer, architect, and don’t know the other 2 so excluding these professions…all the others education was divided into BA and MA studies…so 3+2 years instead of 5. The reform is okay in theory but in practise is stupidity coz if you read back you will see that in the old regime you were a real psychologist just after 8 years and it didn’t change. But what can you do after 3 years with your BA degree if you cant get admitted to MA? Nothing…maybe u will make coffee to the professors and pick up the phones. Coz the clever and specialist politicians didn’t figure out the exam system and the applying system nothing so our teachers trying to do it now…but I think they have unreal conceptions bout the whole stuff. In my opinion this new exam and applying system should be created step by step. They have so high expectations and we students can’t fulfil them. We have the four main subjects like: general psychology, developmental psychology, social psychology and personal psychology. We have to conduct 4 experiments or examinations (workshop essay) in connection with these subjects. We have already done 2 now social psycho is the present one and personal psycho will be in the next semester. Besides we have to work on our thesis…it can be another experiment or an essay from two workshop experiments which are in connection with each other. Besides we should prepare for the final exam and work on the 24 themes which are the exam themes. And now we got know bout the applying stuff for MA. Exam marks, the four workshop essays’ marks and the thesis’ mark will be taken into count and besides there will be an interview or an oral exam they don’t know it clearly. But we have chance to get extra points and here comes the unreal expectations of the teachers:
publications if you have wot is stupidity coz even if you are a Dr. its really hard to publish sg.
advanced language exam from English: and whats up with those who have 2-3 intermediate language exam from other languages or advanced language exam from an other language?
TDK: it is like if u counducted an experiment and it is interesting and ground breaking or sg else you can apply for TDK and you can present your examinations and the results and there are awards you can win (money and so on). But its ridic coz in this year there is no TDK and last year we weren’t inform normally bout wot it is exactly and how to do it and so on. Thirdly we r just learning the experiments and examinations and the whole research stuff so…our researches aren’t so good for TDK.
Any other qualifications in connection with the psychology: well these are interesting when u have a degree and want to broaden your knowledge. But now? At the age of 18-20? Besides the uni? We have no time and no money for it…
Organizing events like Kapszli (it’s a psychological event..lasts for 2-3 days n there are presentations and so on…sychologists come from the profession and hold conferences and so on). But we weren’t involved into it…older students did it always..
There wouldn’t be trouble if we knew it from the beginning I mean from... ]]> ~Hanalia http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/19324094/ http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/19324094/ Fri, 11 Jul 2008 04:01:25 PDT Now I am at home at my hometown and Im tryin not to go on my mothers nerves though we do it with each other sometimes. It seems that I will attend to a course to get my driving licence cot I havent got it so far I had no time for this Im so excited bout it because if everything goes well the first lesson will be next week
As for the artworks...well I havent written nowadays just one poem bout a month ago. Its hungarian and I couldnt convince myself to translate it yet but what is late that wont pass...so sooner or later I will do it I promise n put up to the site. Several lines n words are roaming in my head...maybe one day you will read its results but now I dont feel any creativity in myself...maybe this summer holiday makes me lazy and my brain too ^^ But I would like to thank everyone who check my page so often n read my poems or write me comments it means a lot to me

My dear friend ~arthame took some photos of me when I was at her some weeks ago...and she promised me that she will do a manipulation from one of them...it is under way so soon my new devian ID will come too

Thats all I wanted to say and now maybe I will go and sit down to translate my poem to you.

Cheers,

Hanalia

Ps: I REACHED THE 1000. PAGEVIEWSSSSSSS WOHOH THANK U ALL <3

My friends:


Artist I love here: ~Hanalia http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/18252726/ http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/18252726/ Sat, 10 May 2008 06:26:48 PDT This is our place, it is secret and secure,
There are chains to hold it down,
Where the eyes will keep us warm?

These bright lights won't save our lives they're showing us just loose directions,
(You're a dark star)


The same pain, that I feel, there is nothing there at all,
I won't say how we got here, it is secret and secure.

These bright lights won't save our lives they're showing us just loose directions,
(You're a dark star)


Firefly,
When evrythings dead and gone,
We'll find place to hide from the bright lights.

Firefly,
When everythings dead and gone,
We'll find a place to hide in the dark.

These bright lights won't save our lives they're showing us just loose directions,
(You're a dark star)


I dunno why I feel so disappointed and sore. Why now why again. I think its so awful that people can get used to everything, to every case, every pain, every misery what may come in their life. Some days, weeks, months and you dont feel anything. You get used to it, pain doesnt harm your precious heart, the ice-wall around it becomes stronger and colder...unbreakable. And in those rare moments when you feel again...thats so scary but at least you know you are not hopeless. I was worried I was not able to fear anymore.

I should prepare for exams...open my books n those black lines gettin hazy in front of my eyes, teardrops falling again and I hate myself for this weakness. I am my prison but I dunno the guards face who keeps locked the doors.

What shall i sacrifice to know the chronic of the end? What shall I really do to make sure its not just a dream? How long do I have to pay for my ancient sins.......

How lucky that my beatin heart is in his hands. I couldnt take care of it.



We have come this far
Just crawling on our knees
Standing in the wake
Is just enough to feel scared (of the aftermath)
'Cos we are

It's all gone dark
Twenty feet underground
You're still alive
Why don't you ever learn
You just lost control
Falling all the way down

I was carrying you
So your footsteps disappeared
Save a bitter taste for this emergency break
'Cos we are

It's all gone dark
Twenty feet underground
You're still alive
Why don't you ever learn
You just lost control
Falling all the way down

]]> ~Hanalia http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/18242704/ http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/18242704/ Fri, 09 May 2008 13:48:44 PDT arthame so here it goes!

8 random facts about me

RULEZ

1- Post these rules.
2- Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
3- At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4- Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5- No tag-backs.

Things about me:

1.) I'm learnin psychology, but i am not neurotic, not a mind-reader, and nothing else what people imagine about this profession. I just would like to understand the world

2.) I am an England-maniac I have even a british flag on my wall. British speaking is a song to my ears

3.)I've been loving France and Paris since I read Sandra Gullan's books bout Josephine (Napoleon's wife).

4.) I adore Josephine and Napoleon <3 Id like to call my daughter to Josephine

5.) I learnt how to play the piano for 8 years.

6.) He learnt my language for my sake

7.)I'm planning to do the MA in London. (dream dream dream...)

8.)I'm fond of the old eras like the Tudor era or French revolution so on. I love the dresses, corsets n the whole atmosphere of them. Sometimes I think I was born into the wrong century.


I may wrote a bit too much information but..I cant describe myself with just few words. Im a talkative person.

Now I tag:

*damaskangel

*VictorianGentleman

=lilyhbp

*Shinobinaku

~emiliensson

~firefly107

=Assailant17

*Al-Wafyh


My friends:

Artist I love here: http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/18065625/ Mon, 28 Apr 2008 04:58:49 PDT
Weather is absolutely fine. I feel like going out to the Margaret Island with a book n just read read read n read till sun goes down. Sadly I cannot do this. Im kickin myself to continue an essay..n this would be my task for this afternoon. Very hard but it would be worse if it rained. At least I can hear the birds singing through the window.

Nowadays Im just living into the world..focus on myself...inward. Many other thoughts roaming in my head apart from skl-things. this way Its very hard to concentrate on anything. Im looking forward the summer...I am free then absolutely...Id like to go further...Im waiting for a turning-point. Sometimes I feel its so close..but I dont dare to believe just in secret hoping it will come true

I should pick up myself and start my task.


New pictures and a poem is available in my gallery. Feel free to check them n comment on me!

]]> ~Hanalia http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/17311385/ http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/17311385/ Thu, 13 Mar 2008 05:09:06 PDT
The only reason i stayed in the capital and didnt go home yesterday (spring-break starts next week) that theres a half-way party at Morrisons today. We r at half way in our BA studies n first year-students gonna give us a party. I dont feel like going but i had no good argument y i dont wanna go so my friends made me agree on going...i hope at least it will be good or wotever n not insipid shit. Then i will stand up n come home I decided.

I should do sg useful so im leaving now. Another new poem of mines is available. Go n read it!

XxX

Hanalia

]]> ~Hanalia http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/17282868/ http://Hanalia.deviantart.com/journal/17282868/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 07:47:05 PDT
The reason y i joined here that i have friends here n beautiful artworks of them...and this way i can comment them ^^

If i collect my courage...maybe i will put on my fav poem i wrote. Until then be bad!

XxX

Hanalia

]]> ~Hanalia