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You are far gone...and merci beaucoup...

*Hemingway81 — Sat, 30 Aug 2008 22:12:04 PDT

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I've been in Germany last week... to bring a friend back home in Heidelberg, i felt like going back home right away then.... because it's far from my home in the south of France but.. i just couldn't.... i had a little "dÃ©tour"..... in DÃ¼sseldorf; looking for an answer to that dream i had few days earlier( yeah, i know, long story... ) god must have been on my side this time for i saw the...girl (yes i know thank you) ....the one i just couldn't stop thinking about... just few steps away from me...what were the odds for me to cross her way in such a foreign city to me.... sometimes now, i want to think that i made a mistake, that it only happened in another silly dream of mine, that she wasn't...really there...but the thing is she stood there... and smiled, not to me of course but...and her hands...passing in her hairs... her hairs, and the warm fading wind passing trough her hands...anyway, i just stood there, like warmly freezed by the magic grace of her presence, like everything going slower around her , and my blue eyes slow like a summer sky watching over her... i want to remember that moment...forever ( herz: ) ....by the time i put myself together, she was on her way... away... and i said nothing... i just got my hands in my Levi's back pockets, got my head up and..i took the biggest breath ever...then i got back to my car, where the MP3 Player was still rolling on and singing that lovely french song called " La Javanaise "...de Serge Gainsbourg... later, on the road back home, a smoke hanging on my lips and her lips hanging on my thoughts, i understood that i just couldn't get in her life like that, you know like, "-hey Sunshine! , is that the mark of the sun on your goldy lips or is it just my eyes on the path of heaven? (my private own line!, quote me! lol)" .. no way, she would certainly have thought i'm crazy or something..even when the night comes now, as millions of stars were borned and died, i just can't help myself thinking that i should have say something, maybe get closer... i don't know... silly me, silly romantic frenchy boy.... but... reality, yes reality, bread before roses... real before magic... right............. right............

Nota Bene:

I have to admit i have posted a lot of stuff in my gallery lately, it's just that i had plenty of time this summer... i wish i could give back the attention you have for me, to all of you, my fellow deviants... Merci beaucoup!! .....

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Kk^^!!! It took me like forever to acheive this "Ultra Compact CSS" myself,THAT I JUST CAN'T CENTER !! (Please help me!! ) My second one, no help!... oh, well, ok , i tried to make my own from a base of a layout called "Postcard from Heaven" that you can find on =vaniergt89 pages .....i still have to ask *cashboxx to let me keep this layout on....and i don't know if she will allow me to....but i hope so, for she's kinda' special to me and always 'been nice before, with my...."borrowings"...... <3333......(herz: )

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Yes!!! , I'm suscribed again!!!! Thanks a bunch to my Brother here and on the other side of the world, i named the Great " Peter "!!! , thanks again For this 3 monthy Sub Brother GO GIVE HIM LIKE 1 000 000 000 s and s !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

( Cleaning some soxs right now , lol ) , i can be chillin'every day now, for i'm in holidays at home until late september and that new job in a lovely library downtown, and some exams too at the university in September 3rd, for now i am learning fast and a lot about photograpy, finishing this french Poetry book i am writing also, let's hope i will find someone to publish it then, and of course, anytime i get a chance, i update my dA Journal and try to post some stuff i can share you guys..and ladies

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, thanks again For this 3 monthy Sub Brother GO GIVE HIM LIKE 1 000 000 000 s and s !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am chillin' every days now, i'm in holidays at home until late september and my new job in that library downtown, last exams too at university in September 3rd, for now iam learning fast and a lot about photograpy, finishing this french Poetry book i am writing also, let's hope i will find someone to publish it then, and anytime i get a chance, i update my dA Journal an dpost some stuff i can share you guys..and ladies

Some Songs i'm listening to right now:

-Amerie, Take Control: [link]
-Skunk Anansie, Just because you feel good: [link]
-Skunk Anansie, Secretly: [link]
-Skunk Anansie, You follow me down: [link]
-Skunk Anansie, Brazen,Weep: [link]
-The Four Non-Blondes, What's up?: [link]
-Savage Garden, Truely, Madly, Deeply : [link]

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Chess&Matt

*Hemingway81 — Sun, 20 Apr 2008 01:46:05 PDT

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3.15 am.I just get down the stairs of Kate's room, and everything gets darker as i go further in the light of the kitchen; crazy photoshooting again the evening before, seems like the" instant karma shooter" has just become a toy to start the fire now (even if some shots are pretty intersting...). i grab a glass, still there is a visible trace of lipstick on it, not even Kate's one but i do not care so much now, so i get the Chiva's bottle and sit for a while; i have another shooting this morning, like a preview for the wedding of two complete unknowns but i gave my word during a last family party so, whatever. As my throat's getting warmer i'm slowly passing the glass on my forehead, from the left to the right and that until...yes, 3.45...when my eyes gets a little bit more "open" to that thing they call "the world around" i start to look here and there for i've never seen nothing but Kate's bedroom in that house, damn it, 6 years, lol; well, in the end i barely see a shadow from the room in front; i'm so broken that i grab her Nikon and wanna shoot that form (silly i know, but pretty drown in Liquors and Angel D. too) and i realize it's Matteo, Caterina's little brother, he's like 6 years old (i guess, lol); he is standing there, i mean, sat at the living room table, with a chess plate in front of him, and there, i recall the boy has...Autism...yeah people, i know...i put down the cam, and without a clue of what he is doing and even less of what i am doing, i just sit in front of him... and so i kinda decide i gotta try myself to build what no one has been able to "establish" with Matt....A communicating minute, a real contact with him, for he's always looking up or on the side, like if he was stuck on a rainbow equation that no one could solve but him or something, never the less, i'm out of my mind enough at 4 am to try out....i quickly understand that to talk is not the right way to go, so, guess what, i try to move a pon on the plate (after a quater of hour to wait and think of him and the luck i have to not be "touched" by Autism)and wOow! Mircale, he makes his move too, it was truely like a miracle to me for i've waited like one hour, no kidding, before Matt moved his pon; and no one was there to see it, i knew never no one would beleive me, but we talked in a way!, so i make another move on the plate, and he replies, now, i just don't want anyone to come for i'm doing something very disturbing to me, and very intense for him, i can feel that. i try to beat him, but i realize that, frist, i won't (damn! he's a hell of a genius that's for sure and i'm a confirmed chess player so can say from his choices and his speed of light to think) second, that it may close that window i opened in his mind, and maybe for ever; so i decide to propose him, a tie....it takes like three more hours, 8 am and 20 smokes later, i hear steps in the back, it must be Kate's, but, i don't know, i'm too much occupied to move as fast as i can to keep up and that boy is not even looking at the plate most of the time he's lookin'at the f**kin cellin!, whatever, we're one move left from him to get to that tie, but he finds a way out i didn't predict and so i have to start all over again, it's like he knows what i want but he also knows the way to get away from it everytime, so i know we interact, for sure, whitout a word, that's right, but we do interact!, anyway, Kate's enters the room when i make that "tie last move", and she goes like, what the f**ck you doin!, hairs messin' and cold smoke in her mouth, she was so pale in the light i remember, just like a ghost and i just go like shhhtt!, then it's like that silence before a storm, i'm just waiting for Matt's next move, will he stay there stuck like a momie?, will he shout like i heard before?, will he just leave me like a sh*t at the table?.....as he's looking to the right, and a little above, i wait, i try to catch his eyes, to get a bit more in front....but no, nothing....and then, when i stop lookin' at him, his face turn to the left, and in this "endless black&white movie travelling" i swear it God, his eyes looked at me with a cert...

-Goodbye Alice in Wonderland-

*Hemingway81 — Thu, 06 Mar 2008 23:32:02 PST

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Goodbye Alice in wonderland

- soooooo , it makes now five days i'm in that hotel room #44 i decided to rent for the entire month of March now , i intend to stay alone so i can study really good without the everyday life distractions, i still have my guitare and other stuff with me [link] , but i try to keep focus on books and others "exposÃ©s", hours sliding, and this micro world seem out of reality now....that loneliness start to eat me somehow, i don't sleep for i'm alone, i lose sense of space and time, all these different people speakin so many different languages , because yes, i make a walk sometimes trough the hotel , hands in my poket, open shirt ( and boxer once i had drink red wine , hopefully it was at night and i was smoking on the roof, i didn't even felt the coldness, but inside me ), and it feels , with the time, like being lost in a non-established world where it seems i am the only one to never move,or slower than everyone else, yes, i'm like Alice in Wonderland , a bit lost, alone and i can't get out of this because , like Alice, somehow, i don't wanna leave there neither, and god knows there is a lot of wonderings inside me right now

-PS: besides all those freaky things i wanna thanks everyone for giving me those 7000 pageviews and thanks again guys (and ladies ) for sharing your fantastic knowledge with us!

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Laura Pausini [link]
Laura Pausini [link]
Laura Pausini .flv clip [link] if you need a player:
Hover 4 Blake's Links

Goodbye Alice in wonderland

- soooooo , it makes now five days i'm in that hotel room #44 i decided to rent for the entire month of March now , i intend to stay alone so i can study really good without the everyday life distractions, i still have my guitare and other stuff with me [link] , but i try to keep focus on books and others "exposÃ©s", hours sliding, and this micro world seem out of reality now....that loneliness start to eat me somehow, i don't sleep for i'm alone, i lose sense of space and time, all these different people speakin so many different languages , because yes, i make a walk sometimes trough the hotel , hands in my poket, open shirt ( and boxer once i had drink red wine , hopefully it was at night and i was smoking on the roof, i didn't even felt the coldness, but inside me ), and it feels , with the time, like being lost in a non-established world where it seems i am the only one to never move,or slower than everyone else, yes, i'm like Alice in Wonderland , a bit lost, alone and i can't get out of this because , like Alice, somehow, i don't wanna leave there neither, and god knows there is a lot of wonderings inside me right now

-PS: besides all those freaky things i wanna thanks everyone for giving me those 7000 pageviews and thanks again guys (and ladies ) for sharing your fantastic knowledge with us!

Musica
Laura Pausini [link]
Laura Pausini [link]
Laura Pausini .flv clip [link] if you need a player: , -Kol, B0se, StephanKa,GunnerRomantic,kimjew,lesmick,:wind-swept :,sgthotlips, Werol,ThierryV,Jadden &&&&&& Zemotion(take a look at her [link]) !!!!!! (greatest photograph ive seen).......they are sooo talented.....pay them a visit you ll be surprised of the amazing&wonderful artists they are....a BIG THANKS TO THEM!!!!

(PS=Kisses to my "watchers", the amazin Rikki Ray, the so talented Bu-lally, Her graceness wind-swept, and the too rare cloclo!!!!!!!

THANKS AGAIN!!, ALL OF YOU 'ROUND HERE, FOR SHARING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IF YOU SEE THIS PAGE LEAVE A COMMENT AND FEEL FREE TO TEACH ME SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!(Damn beginner!, lol)

Blake.

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*Hemingway81 — Thu, 19 Jul 2007 02:33:25 PDT