http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:HideThePain&section=today deviantART RSS for by:HideThePain en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 23 Dec 2009 00:38:31 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/4218285/ http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/4218285/ Sun, 02 Jan 2005 06:31:58 PST The old familier sting.
Try to kill it all away
but I remember everything.

What have I become, my sweetest friend?
Everyone I know, goes away in the end.

And you could have it all,
My empire of dirt;
I would let you down
I would make you hurt ]]> ~HideThePain http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/4218040/ http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/4218040/ Sun, 02 Jan 2005 04:10:59 PST completely forgot existed from my trip to Iceland last year.... since I haven't written any poetry for quite a while. This is due really to my general state of mind: Im just too darn happy for my own good right now- I'm sure that'll change soon enough tho

Still plan to dig out my scanner and submit a few watercolours and such.

Merry New Year dudes, and my thanks to everyone who has taken the time to comment on my work here ]]> ~HideThePain http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/4175821/ http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/4175821/ Tue, 28 Dec 2004 09:03:45 PST
hello 2005, good riddance 2004... almost everyone I talk to agrees that 2004 was pretty sh*te for them, heh strange coincidance, or just a jaded number?

My aims for next year include further body modifications... some in the form of piercings... some not.

This year should be a good one. Just have a good feeling about it.

It's time to leave the old demons and ghosts behind in '04, and step into the light and embrace what 5 has to offer us.

Saw In Flames last night at hammersmith... with Lacuna Coil, Chimaira and Caliban in support. God what a good night! and I didnt lose any shoes!

happy new year guys, have a good one and make me proud ]]> ~HideThePain http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/3995008/ http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/3995008/ Sat, 11 Dec 2004 06:15:18 PST "...How can a body so frail, hold this raging spirit?...."
Kosheen

"...Ashes to ashes,
Dust to dust
My hate for you
Defies my lust....."
My Ruin

I've decided that instead of submitting a brand new journal entry each time, I shall just keep editing the same one... since i write so many, seems a bit pointless to have it come up as a message all the time... plus it gets annoying for peoples

One more week of that pointless place called college...

I really would like to try my hand at some proper photography. I've got the camera now, all I got to do is spend the time and effort in learning how to use it properly and since its such a beautiful time of year, im sure there are plenty of pretty images to be taken around the area I live (which is to say, a good few milage of open countryside).

On the other hand, it will soon be that xmas day again, god it comes so damn quickly nowadays...Did some xmas shopping last night, and more to do today! I'm actually enjoying it this year- I love buying the most ghastly and strange wrapping paper I can find, the stuff that gives you a headache to look at for too long.... hehe...

Failed my mock driving test, horah! lol. Apparantly it was a, "good fail." That could mean so many things: I failed in a way which was amusing to watch, I failed so drasticly it would be 'good' to educate learners, 'good' because i didnt kill anyone hehe...

i did nearly hit a cat though. made me smile. Hurts when I smile at the moment, piercings do that. Took my really old side labret out last night... just got fed up with it. Might get a central one put in instead... not sure yet though.


Things need to be more interesting around here. ]]> ~HideThePain http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/3984881/ http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/3984881/ Sat, 04 Dec 2004 04:35:56 PST
How is everyone? This is the first morning in a while I can almost say Im not tired. cool.

It's so still and quiet outside, its lovely.


Got my Madonna done yesterday. Bled a bit more than my others have before, but all was soon well. One shall submit an up-to-date image of oneself as soon as one finds time and enough makeup on face.


Its like the world outside my window is frozen in time.... all there needs to be is a little bit of frost and the lazy drift of the odd snowflake going past, and it shall be beautiful! ]]> ~HideThePain http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/3945114/ http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/3945114/ Mon, 29 Nov 2004 05:54:03 PST Thankyou very much to everyone who has offered my their valuable support and advice to me over the past few days, I am very grateful and do intend to repay your kindness in a more personal fashion as soon as I have more time to spare!

This last weekend gave a chance to sort out my head a little, and bounce back into the rythm of things. Also on the way to actually being on top of my college work is a good feeling too, though I still have a lot of work to do over these next few weeks!

Working 35 hours this week, cant wait to get my 12th piercing on friday, Im excited about that too

The feeling of depression and lethargy is a terrible trap to fall into, but I think Im on my way back to my normal self again... though I couldn't have achieved this so quickly without the help of my friends may you all be blessed with happiness and cheese you guys are great! ]]> ~HideThePain http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/3915022/ http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/3915022/ Thu, 25 Nov 2004 07:53:42 PST
To be honest I cant really focus on anything. I feel drained, numb and cheap. The days seem to fly by but I never seem to be fully aware of whats going on around me...waking up in the same room, sometimes its hard to remember what day it is- sounds dramatic I know, but its most times the case.

Life has become monotonous. and i dont seem to care anymore. ]]> ~HideThePain http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/3910235/ http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/3910235/ Wed, 24 Nov 2004 15:38:43 PST ...Torn in two, you close your eyes for someplace new...

- Just The Way I'm Feeling, Feeder ]]> ~HideThePain http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/3906459/ http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/3906459/ Wed, 24 Nov 2004 05:36:40 PST

I love

My tongue piercing is pretty much all healed now, yay! fun fun... nearly time for my next one!

Favourite quote of the day:
"you disgust me more than a monkey with a period"
-Lizzy ]]> ~HideThePain http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/3890532/ http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/3890532/ Mon, 22 Nov 2004 05:12:59 PST
Well actually it feels like the same day for me since I havent slept... but the meaning still applies!

Lack of sleep numbs things.... so does keeping yourself busy- be it work, chatting or just trying desperately to type so fast that those little thoughts and feelings you're trying so hard to block out of your conscious mind are bullied into submission.


I can tell there will be a lot of new work being added here soon ]]> ~HideThePain http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/3885400/ http://HideThePain.deviantart.com/journal/3885400/ Sun, 21 Nov 2004 11:13:36 PST If only I had been less afraid to open up, if only i had not been so afraid of driving him away by seeming too needy- the result was i was too distant or 'casual' and didnt see him enough.
I wish it didnt affect me as much as it does, i wish i really was the hard exterior most people see me as. Instead, I am weak and foolish. Foolish for letting him in, foolish for almost believing it was for real. it seemed too good to be true.
It was.

I wish i hadnt fallen for him.

I hate myself. Disgusted and the weak and emotional disaster I have let myself down to be. I am a disappointment to myself.

Life, just when it at last seems worth living again: reality rises up to laugh in my face and make me look the fool.

Alone. yet again i've found reasons to relate to what jodie is experiencing, though i wish this wasnt the case. When everyone leaves for university i shall be even more alone. why does it always have to be this way?

I knew I would get hurt, i was already grieving the end of this relationship before it ended.... why do I have to be right? ]]> ~HideThePain