The loves, or just another meme. For the morning.

=Higure-no-Hikari — Mon, 26 Jan 2009 04:56:20 PST

The loves, or just another meme. For the morning was sunny and I sleepy.

For the things I have been mainly engaged with were
a)uni related procrastination
b)imagining a modern day AU scenario in which Itachi was born blind.
c)and this night I dreamt not too pleasant thing about Lux, Alice and SiSi from ' novel (in progress) "Shades of evening". Not too pleasant especially for Lux. The setting been the grandmother's old flat, the windows again the doors and leading to a gloomy dangerous forest instead of the gloomy dangerous streets they usually are... Strange combination, I think I have taken the "relate to" thing to the whole new level. Especially since it is not that much of similarity after all.
d)listening to the album of my dreams. Sadly just one album the interpret was able to write this way afore the change. I wonder shall I be able to change one day as well.

To make this journal entry even more of private and confusing kind, a meme found at '

1st Love vs. Current Fave Meme

Books:

1st love - Mythology of Ancient Greece. I was 4-5 we bought the book after a visit to archaeological museum and I have instantly taken to it. A general favourite books from the childhood summary would look the following though: Myths and fairy tales, Lewis' "Chronicles of Narnia", A little princessÂ by F.H. Burnett, ÂLady JaneÂ by C.V. Jamison. Further: Resat Nuri GÃ¼ntekin's ÂCalikusuÂ and C. Brontes ÂJane EyreÂ. All books about fine girls for a fine girl...

Current fav - The last book I read and held dear, in awe in wonderment overflown by feeling - Hermann Hesse' "Narzissus and Goldmund"

Movies:

1st love - My mother recently mentioned I adored Disney's "Little Mermaid" as a child. My personal guess would be one of Sowjet times music films, like the Russian version of the "The Three Musketeers" (the best in my humble opinion) or that New Year fairy tale "The magicians"... I have to add I did not watch TV much in those days. Nor do I now.

Current fav - BBC 1995 Pride and Prejudice ^^ The movie "marathon" for bad mood. The last impressive new addition to my DVD collection has been "Love me if you dare", a French film about difficult yet de facto everlasting love. In general I favour European and Asian films these days.

Songs:

1st love - Aria of Mr. X from Imre KÃ¡lmÃ¡n's operetta "The Circus Princess" [link] . The Russian version. My mother played it on piano and I sung along. Still my favourite to sing along. The matter of sad loneliness, pride and love desired yet where it is?

Current fav - Ð¡ÐµÑÐ³ÐµÐ¹ ÐÐ°Ð»ÑÐ³Ð¸Ð½, "Nigredo". Divine music. The accentuation lies on "divine".

Manga:
1st love - not my first manga, but "Angel Sanctuary" of Kaori Yuki established the mangaka as precious to me. Even aside of my obvious fangirling over Sakuya

Current fav - I enjoy "Vampire Knight", I enjoyed "Naruto" and "Ludwig Kakumei" is struggling for the place of my very favourite. *in hopes for the sequel, ne Yuki-san?*

Anime:

1st love - historical : "Maya the Bee". However first conscious attempt at anime had been "Sailor Moon". At least two years of thoughtful engagement, my first fanart and fanfiction. A whole epoch in the life of a teenager.

Current fav - Difficult. "Code Geass" was impressive. "Escaflowne", "Elfen Lied"... The one I watched at least 4 times in cinema and at least as often at home: "Howl's moving castle".

Video Games:

1st love - the ninja turtles played at an acquaintance's game console...

Current fav - still between FF7 and "the Sims 2". Computer games have not a chance against day dreaming and the mandatory use of imagination.

Food:

1st love - My great-grandmother's self made noodles and my obligatory birthday fancy cake.

Current fav - salmon + salad, Granny Smith apples.

Manga/Anime/Novel/Cartoon Character:

1st love - Louis XIV of France as depicted in the novels of Alexandre Dumas the pÃ¨re.

Current fav love - Lu in his reincarnation of being an Itachi...

Feel free to answer yourself, if you feel like it...

Naruto Meme*

=Higure-no-Hikari — Tue, 20 Jan 2009 11:39:46 PST

The entry was too long. For the shiny new DA pages. Slightly different again. I am insanely contended, I may add another useless tag today.

Stolen at 's

The Naruto MeMe

01. The first character I fell in love with:
Itachi, my long-term trip into the series began with a character description of Itachi found at some random fanpage on a September day two years ago. I saw, read, fell, still falling, hard.

02. The character I never expected to love as much as I do now:
Sasuke. I was clueless as to how regard him at first, if I like him, if I care for him. At all. Now it is written "otouto", red letters and my mind.

03. The character everyone else loves that I don't:
Kakashi. Deidara. Minato. Shall I continue?

04. The character I love that everyone else hates:
I love not enough characters. But I adore Hinata greatly, who many believe useless, weak...

05. The character I used to love but don't any longer:
Shikamaru. Not loved but liked. His self-righteous revenge speeches were not to appeal.

06. The character I would shag anytime:
Itachi. The sensual component of everlasting attraction.

07. The character I'd want to be like:
Itachi. For I am not a true genius... For I am not losing myself this way.

08. The character I'd slap:
Kakashi. He needs it. I doubt the effects though.

09. A pairing that I love:
ItaSasu. And ItaHikaSasu of course.

10. A pairing that I hate:
ItaNaru, SasuNaru, KakaIta, ItaDei and practically everything else that includes canon characters to be joined with Itachi or Sasuke...

11. Favorite character:
The raven princess, of course

12. My five favorite characters:
Nii-san
Otouto
Hinata-hime
Haku, snow tender
The red Moon of Dawn. As concept. Not necessary the individual members.

13. My five least favorite characters:
Kakashi, the hypocrite
Deidara, aggressively narcissistic
Minato, the holy
Shikamaru, the lazy...
... Kidomaru. Spiders phobia...

14. Which character I am most like:
Black sun to embrace red Moon.

15. My deep, dark fandom secret:
After initial distaste, mainly doubts and cautions towards him - Madara became to enjoy the position of Hikari's "father"... No it does not meant to be understood.
But me shipping KakaSaku or having read some "Naruto" yuri is I believe obvious by now

What about you? Feel yourself "tagged"

New Year, old life

=Higure-no-Hikari — Wed, 14 Jan 2009 12:22:50 PST

Happy New Year!

Found at ' place. Another silly tag to compete my awesome tiredness and stomach refusal to work properly after having consumed no less than 4 bars chocolate in two days. And some tea. But I am back at home and my lack of appetite reborn... And mutual hatred appears delicious.

And I have seen PeÃ±Ãscola, Costa del Azahar, Spain. The Orange Blossom Coast as a place of old stony castles, beautiful nature parks, the SEA (blue, marvellously blue, we have spoken with each other for a longest while. I think it missed me back, thus the desire to cover me with salty wetness despite my not so full hearted attempts to prevent the happening. Thus boots oh my squishy boots.)

I have been sawing-painting Christmas angels. Some pictures to be updated once I feel like it, some once I dare to complete the task.

And now everything is back, data analysis, papers, term paper, exam preparations, short walks, snow condition contrasts, the feeding a big girl question, the wonderments of sleepsewn dreams.

New time, old time, stolen time, no time at all. Not very perfect still.

-----
_{Rules:
Go to urbandictionary.com and type in your answers to the following questions.
Post the first definition it gives you.
Tag 3 people.

I. Your name.

Kathrine

An extreme action of sexual pleasuring in one place, such as a small ice cream place called Alice's. As in having major orgy's constantly at the Alices's.
Omg, Kathrine Lucarelli had a huge kathrine at Alice's last night...
[What a lovely beginning. What a nice usage for ice cream...]

II. Your age.

21

a)The age at which one is finally considered human.
b)The magical age where it is legally ok to get incredibly drunk. At this time, a young adult spends most of his free time consuming vast amounts of alcohol in a variety of forms, saying that they're "making up for lost years."
c)The magic number in the game of Blackjack.
Croupier: '21 - we have a winner'
CardShark: 'ay me out my one-and-a-half, biatch'

[I do not play blackjack. Barely aged 17 I knew to make my most extravagant experiences into the depths of alcoholic consume, both I and the experience were boring. The rendezvous became close to not existing since. Human is one of the biggest words I am aware of though... ]

III. One of your friends.

Lu

a)short for the phrase love you
b)dirty cheating skank
c)southern italian word
to say "the"
in italian is "il"
and southern italian is "lu" or "u" (pro: 0uu) [shortened up to the first 3]

[I love you, Lu. Lu is (an androgynous) male. Sadly somewhat dirty after our exciting vacation, cave tour and rambling party included... And since his actual birth name is Luciano (my Italian angel)I just discovered the justification to call him lu Lu. After all. Thank you UD!

Interesting is however the definition of Luciano: "When you are doing something (ie. texting, playing video games, reading) and you completely zone everything else out." Add a few points and you get my beloved flow-effect [link])I love you, Lu. I shall never forget how I met you in the teddy bear store on the 29.11.2008. It was a fated meeting, and your fur pure snow, and your cute little wings and your sleepy, flirtatious sweetness... And now you sleep with me...]

IV. What should you be doing?

Nailing down spectrograms also known as to analyse term paper data

[Luckily I favour British English... And never watched diverse sci-fi tv-series. And broken as ever again. Thus no witty UD entry this time to be quoted]

V. Favourite Colour.

Bloodred

[depending on freshness and therefore condition there is a lovely variety between gorgeous crimson and calm Bordeaux, since no entry again, selected results for Crimson:]

A deep rich purplish red colour.
Someone or something that is the greatest example of the color Crimson. The person is usually vastly intelligent, silent but when speaks; speaks with wisdom, somewhat durable, often dark and mysterious at first, and is caring and sweet.
As a color, Crimson is the color of blood and shows that it is dark, bold, and shows a great meaning behind it.
"Look at the cri...}

Killing me. Slowly.

=Higure-no-Hikari — Tue, 09 Dec 2008 10:39:19 PST
I have to apologise for notes and comments not answered-written. After three weeks of struggling with a cold - an even greater impediment seized me:

No, not the black death, merely an university assignment due till the end of next week, data analysis - and them, yes exactly them are trying to kill me... Otherwise known as ought to be at least 102 hours more of high-concentration, pure boredom work till the end of next week... And I am so sleepy... (and presentation next week, and Christmas presents... )

But alas, I miss you, and see you soon...?

Currently quite disturbed, Hikari

P.S:
Your rainbow is strongly shaded violet.

_{What is says about you:} You are a creative person. You appreciate beauty and craftsmanship. You are patient and will keep trying to understand something until you've mastered it.
Find the colors of your rainbow at spacefem.com.

Snow, cold, so on The STAMPS...

=Higure-no-Hikari — Wed, 26 Nov 2008 07:01:50 PST
My WiP:

Retook the Uke/Seme quiz. A year later, some questions I cannot remember to have seen before, yet still the same result:

You are a Badass Uke!

Other uke admire you, some seme fear you. Despite your sometimes flaming appearance, you can even fool other people into thinking you are seme with your mischievous, manipulative attitude, but when push comes to shove, your true submissive nature emerges. It takes a seme with enough intensity to challenge you and keep you satisfied, and your perfect match, the Don't Fuck With Me Seme, knows that all that naughty teasing just means you want the punishment.

Sensual, rebellious, and intuitive, the Badass Uke can truly be a work of contrasts - an innocent appearance clothed in dark clothing, and a shy smile with eyes that suggest a naughty, darker nature. They are at once easy and hard to approach, as their energy draws people to them, while their intensity and distrust pushes people away... for maybe more than any other personality, the Badass Uke hides away deep in a fantasy world of their own creation, letting few, if any, in. Searching for the one person able to understand their need for something more, someone to protect them and share that mysterious world with them, the Badass Uke can seem lost and wandering, their loneliness sometimes reflecting an inner anger - as they cannot be content until they have been found and claimed, sensually and emotionally.

Most compatible with: Don't Fuck With Me Seme
_{Possibly the most easily misunderstood Seme personality - the dark intense eyes of the DFWM Seme silently penetrating deep into your true motives is enough to frighten most away. Only those with a taste for playing with danger, and a craving for sensual punishment, would approach willingly into this fire. Intensely possessive and serious, this Seme is driven by challenge - and the thrill of the hunt, capture, and physical dominance over their partner in their shared game of power and submission. And despite this Seme being silent (unless provoked into anger) and more of a loner, once they've found the right partner - someone who can match their intensity and darkness - they are deeply protective, loyal, and sensual.}, Chibi Seme

Least compatible with: Sadistic Seme, Romantic Seme

What seme or uke are you? Take the experience at SemeUke.com

A result I am quite satisfied with, seeing that my androgyny believes expand themselves to much more than just the question of looks, especially if my own persona is concerned.

_{I may add, the description picks nicely on the manipulation and competition parts..., but, but... where is the classy elegance, refined tastes and ... love?

Though: "The dramatic yin and yang of this seme and uke work perfectly. The physical aspect of the DFWM Seme balances out the emotions of the Badass Uke and creates an intense, sensually explosive relationship of control and submission, as each of them completes the other." Sounds nice}

What about you? Have you taken this quiz yourself?

I shall update a painting this week, in general I am still taking (no) delight in my cold. No bedtime though, since university calls. *h.

Coughed out Colours

=Higure-no-Hikari — Wed, 19 Nov 2008 12:18:28 PST
A random place 8 colours in order of your preference had the following result:

_{Is it that you are working - or even playing - too hard? Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behaviour.

You are a very warm and emotional individual but unfortunately in the past too many people have taken advantage of this sensitive trait. You need aesthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm understanding.

You lack confidence and that is a great pity because deep down you are indeed a warm caring person. This lack of confidence is making you wary of being drawn into any open discussion or conflict and so you feel as if you should let matters lie and leave well alone. But there may be a pleasant surprise in store for you. You are beginning to grow and very soon - sooner than you believed possible - this warm loving new you will be available for all to see and to appreciate.

You pretend that you are a carefree individual and that nothing really bothers you - that you are so self-sufficient that whatever problems beset you they simply flow off you as water flows off a ducks back. You are experiencing considerable stress, trying to conceal yourself from the rest of the world. In actual fact - deep down, you are not at all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can 'Let your hair down' and share your hopes, dreams and high standards. You are imposing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all and sundry.

At this time you don't particularly like yourself. Everything that you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong. This makes you feel that there is no point in trying to start again. Apart from being stressed and tense, you are angry with yourself and have unadmitted self-contempt. Your refusal to admit that you and you alone is the basic cause of your problems leads to you adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude. If you take stock of yourself, smile a little and let go, everything will turn out OK. Have you not heard of the cliche 'smile and the world smiles with you - cry and you cry alone!'?}

Popular psychology, I love you. Always good for a smile. Shall you long for a comparable experience: Colour revelations

By the way another wave of common cold danced around my parental place at the weekend I stayed. Now I am still here. Mostly in bed and coughing my breath/lungs out. At least viva the medication, for anew the girl is able to sit without having her way too heavy head rolling down.

Till our next discussions, Hikari.

My WiP:

The glorious "M"

=Higure-no-Hikari — Sun, 09 Nov 2008 23:10:37 PST
_{My obvious delight regarding tags and questionnaires of all kinds shall manifest itself afresh, with gracious help of}

Comment to this journal and a letter shall be assigned to yours, a list of 10 things you like that start with said letter you may write down...

My letter shall be an

Now to avoid studying for a longer while as well as to add expressiveness, the words shall be accompanied by pictures.
_{~ the opportunity to browse; a conclusion such imaginary of mine not acted out yet, the moment's approximations for us:}

' Mirrors ~ Mer des '

the Mystery of Marvellous and Magical

Masks

Mastery

Moonlight Melodies

Martial Minuet

Musing

Myths

Marks of Matrimony

M...

Pairings and Pictures.

=Higure-no-Hikari — Fri, 10 Oct 2008 05:37:38 PDT
I am delighted to present two wonderful interpretations of an Itachi and Hikari, warm atmosphere, a book, an embrace... imagery.

* First being a kiriban the 1001th, offered, I was lucky (and pretty persistent) to caught. Thank you dear... so much...

*Then my very spontaneous pencil commission from the glorious

Now all is left is my own version of the picture, this one shall be one of my next projects (or so). The difference - Sasuke being included...

(the worser consequence, I probably caught the commissioning addiction, I definitely cannot afford)

~ ~

Found in my tags treasury, otherwise known as

SIX PAIRINGS I LIKE :
1. Itachi x Sasuke /Naruto /
2. Itachi x Hikari x Sasuke /Naruto advanced /
3. Lucifer x Alexiel /Angel Sanctuary /
4. Kaname x Yuuki /Vampire Knight /
5. Lelouch x C.C. /Code Geass /
6. Haruka x Michiru /Sailor Moon /

THREE SHIPS I'VE ABANDONED:
7. Muraki x Tsuzuki /Yami no Matsuei /
8. Cloud x Aerith /Final Fantasy 7 /
9. Severus x Proserpine /Harry Potter slightly altered /

THREE SHIPS I'VE NEVER LIKED:
10. Itachi x Naruto /obviously Naruto/
11. Sasuke x Naruto / ÂÂ/
12. Itachi or Sasuke x anyone else in ÂNarutoÂ

TWO SHIPS THAT HAVE PIQUED MY INTEREST:
13. Itachi x Rei /Naruto, advancedÂ /
14. Severus x Lily /Harry Potter /

1. Why do you dislike #11 so much?
Sasuke x Naruto. Aside of unhealthy possessiveness over Sasuke and tons of fanart, fanfiction and more to make my allergy worse, I simply cannot imagine two persons as different as they are to become more than friends. I am a supporter of similarities attract only, for I hardly see any other way for two persons to truly deeply understand each other, yet such understanding is the prerequisite of partnership to me.

2. Who do you know that ships #13?
Itachi x Rei, not much till now yet it intrigues me, my curiosity for the fairy is unleashed, no retreat available. And I have to discover is she to truly stay at the princeÂs side. Shall be reached through word and colour, my hope is.

3. What would be your ideal scenario for couple #3?
Lucifer and Alexiel, the way their relationship was portrayed in the corresponding manga, silence, longing, passion, faithfulness, strength, hurt and patience; they have the same eyes after all. The only wish left is a greater reassurance the happy end did take place.

4. What is your favourite moment for #1?
ItaSasu, the piggyback ride, ItachiÂs breakout, the hotel hallway almost kiss scene, SasukeÂs desperate proclamation, the insanity of unreal fight leading to the last poke. Tears. So many tears. However my favourite moment was still not published, the little oneÂs death and the last reunion, thus the sunrise may be eventually watched together (like here: [link] )

5. How long have you been following couple #6?
Haruka x Michiru, the first adored anime/manga pairing of mine, I would believe 8-9 years there been. Michiru was the one I related to, gender questions already not of importance, them being the through thick and thin, oh so similar, and completely ÂcanonÂ case. I have a passion for ÂcanonÂ couplesÂ thus the background and interaction shared.

6. What's the story with #8? What made you stop caring?
Cloud x Aerith, there are...

Another 100 questions...

=Higure-no-Hikari — Sun, 28 Sep 2008 12:11:13 PDT
^{I have been sleepy.}_{Pretty much so.} ~~My bed was cuddly and oh so deliciously warm.~~ The pile of the to learn for exam things waited on the window sill next to my head - do you think close enough I might have studied in my dreams?

Are fill out questionnaires good for a brain's reconditioning? Let's try out:

Stolen from

1] What is your pen name?
Hikari

2] Where does your nickname came from?
Japanese for "light"...

3] Do you use PC or Mac?
I am a Sony fan(girl)

4] What software you use most often?
Internet browser, MS Word, Photoshop, Adobe Reader, VLC media player...

5] Do you use mouse, or tablet?
Wacom, Vaio's touchpad. I do not play cats and mice anymore.

6] The color you use most often is?
Red. Various reds I am addicted to. Also black, purple, dark blues and greens. White. In general it is more about contrasts and similarity, most importantly - a playful gut feeling that lead my colour choices.

7] What area of the pictures do you put most effort into?
Faces, especially when them hate me. In general I like the picture to be "complete" in the sense I will care for both persons and background with equal passion.

8] How long does it take you do draw a picture?
Few hours to... years. Drawing is an interest of mine that is most mood depending. I also tend to either work on a picture till exhaustion or/then never touch it for the longest time, then continue in yet another day and night session. Sadly I am just an incredibly slow worker who delights in her "flows".

9] Do you keep your rough drafts?
Yes... At least I like to take some step-for-step photos of my more serious traditional art projects. Just to remind me that I progress. At all.

10] What kind of font do you use most often?
Times New Roman as usual. Elegant Script. Vivaldi or Papyrus are also quite to my liking.

11] What's the dpi when you scan?
150-300. I do not colour digitally. [I tried]

12] Do you do anything else when you're drawing pictures?
Music. Going through all the random albums I have not listened to for a longest while. And never liked much. So it remains fresh, new surprising and even inspiring?!^^

13] How many pictures do you draw in a month?
Maybe some doodles, mayhap a picture. In general I would rather add yet another to-do project to my to-draw list at least once a month...

14] What kind of paper do you draw your pictures on?
My favourite: watercolour paper. Also thick white sketch one, especially for pastels.

15] What kind of paper do you use for sketches and drafts?
185g/mÂ², already mentioned. I hardly ever just sketch if working traditionally... (I hardly ever go anywhere other than a sketch if using my dear wacom).

16] How long does it take to ink something?
Black Copics of various thickness and shape make "inking" swift and easy.

17] Do you do doujinshi or original manga?
I shall try a doujinshi someday.

18] Do you like doujinshi? Is it fun making it?
No, not enough colours, such little frames. My own trial will be done in watercolours...

19] Ever submitted anything to a magazine?
My art is too special for such

20] Did it get published?
... My shall be written books shall be.

21] Who are your favorite artists?
Pre-Raphaelites, Dali, Friedrich, Klimt, Rubens, maestros of Renaissance...

Once upon a time

=Higure-no-Hikari — Tue, 23 Sep 2008 06:15:25 PDT
there was a girl that had fun filling out those (-> see below ->

Once upon a time time passed and she just loved her Alessandro Safina CDs. She also greatly enjoyed taking dance lessons, if not for the constant, ridiculous stomach aches, a troublesome companion of the last month. A medieval castle was visited the Sunday, the hawks flew and thus she celebrated her already 21st birthday with her family. Most of the time she spends learning though. A little about herself, more regarding the coming exams. No time to write - but muse about the virtuous a name Lucio is. As to drawing, a lo...ng list is pinned up the wall, mostly ItaSasu, at least I am true to my preferences. Hopefully there shall be development from October on.

_____
Stolen from

starting time : 13:17
name : Hikari... (~K...)
brother : 1/2
sister : 1/2 + 3/x
shoe size: 40
height : 170 cm
where do you live : Germany
favorite drinks : Cherry Juice, Tea
favorite breakfast : Fruits (apples, grapes...)
have you ever been on a plane : Yes, I had to.
swam in the ocean : sea only
fall asleep in school : Twice, my last but one year, the same lesson, the same teacher. Thus it was definitely not my fault
broken someone's heart : No, I don't think so.
fell off your chair : A few times
saved emails : and ICQ conversations, and Forum posts, or my way to keep a "diary".
what is your room like : it is an adult princess' room, with a touch of antique furniture, a wall of curtains; colours - varieties of red, white, blue-green draped ceiling, wood tunes, flashes of gold, mirrors. Book shelves... More.
what's right beside you : Tea cup and a bar of Lindt's Chili chocolate.
what is the last thing you ate : Salad
do you believe in love at first sight: A difficult question. I think I am more of "love from the first read" person...
like picnics : With corresponding company and some forlorn surroundings.
who was the last person you dance with : An allotted dancing partner yesterday (dance lesson).
last made you smile : the sky, the day, the ravens on the street, the music, nii-san... I tend to smile all the day long.
you last yelled at : can't remember. I am not prone to yelling.

today did you
talk to someone you like : My therapist, myself, nii-san.
kissed anyone : with my mind only.
get sick : I fear of having got a gastro-enteritis...
talked to an ex : to whom?
miss someone : of course.
best feeling in the world : to understand (entrancement peaks), to be understood (mind, soul and body)
you sleep with stuffed animals : Sure. At least with my Mishutka (yellow teddy-bear)
what's under your bed : Clothes (other season), art supplies.
who do you really hate : paternalism, limits and limitations.
is there a person who is in your mind right now : Yes.
do you want children : Maybe. A cute little boy to challenge me. To be loved by me.
do you smile often : There is a Russian children song: "Due to a smile every day becomes brighter...".
do you like your own handwriting : I can read it, what is not to like? I think I can write beautifully given time and effort. I definitely like the Greek influences in the way I form some letters.
are your toenails painted : No. I use my red, black, green and blue nail polish exquisitely seldom in general.
whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : with my little sister.
what colour is the shirt you're wearing now : Black.
what are you doing at 7 pm yesterday : falling asleep. Unpacking the suitcase.
I can't wait till : the exams are over and I can continue working on the first story for my (first) book^^
when did you cry last : Seriously - two weeks ago. In generally I am well to move till tears with movies and especially books. In generally I never cry if not completely and utterly alone, not an act to play in public.
are you a friendly person : I guess I have to be an attentive and tolerant, kind, antisocial [i]lady[/i].
do you have any pets : Not yet. Always desired a cat.
do you sleep with the TV on : a TV is not allowed at mine. Still I shall hardly fall asleep if music on.
have you ever crawled through a window: Sure. And balcony. The way out if your key and you happen to find a door in-between.
can you handle the truth : I hate lies, honesty being in my opinion one of the main virtues. The limitations...

Colourful about Me

=Higure-no-Hikari — Sat, 05 Jul 2008 18:10:35 PDT
It was Abigel's journal update with all those carefully chosen and meaningfully beauteous images that made me to wish to have a Quiz alike done.

1) Answer the questions below
2) Take each answer and type it into Photobucket or deviantart.
3) Take a picture from the results and post.
You can't copy the persons answers who posted this before you!

Of course I had to understand that it is a joy of Deviantart subscription that allows You the use of CSS that is pictures amongst your plain text. Of course I am in no possession of a credit card and even though I have managed to remember my PayPal password after 10 wrong guesses it would still take 3-5 days till the big change. But I wish to do the quiz NOW!!!

Thus dear Deviantart, I am going to subscribe next month or so - but for the moment: screw you! Ever heard about the use of html plus extern homepage?

Thus dear someone who may read these words, allow me to present you the result of multiple hours browsing through the beloved server (I am no goth - and I have not taken the question/rule nr.3 extremely seriously...)

Part 1: [link]

With Regards, Hikari.

Naruto Ch. 400 or reflections of a masochist

=Higure-no-Hikari — Sat, 17 May 2008 04:16:40 PDT
"Onen i-Estel..., u-chebin estel anim" - I gave hope..., I kept no hope for myself

, thus spoke Gilraen the mother of Aragorn the last time she met her child. He looking towards the decision amongst darkness and light, she dying but the same year, lonely and of weariness, far too young for the one of her kind.

Uchiha Itachi's fandom rejoices, from a cold-blooded monster one supported for his strength and style, the young man has grown into the very archetype of a selfless hero, a martyr for the love and peace of his fellow humans. To be loathed in life and be forgotten in death. His only comfort - their strength and happiness. What a wonderful life of an Uchiha Itachi!

We tend to honour the fallen heros, yet being honest: Do yourself, would you wish to become a one? Would you wish to have a life of an Uchiha Itachi?

"Naruto" does not bring me joy anymore, for I gave him my heart and my heart is bleeding. And in my opinion all the forsaken world, all the hypocritic society is not worth but one of his whole-hearted smiles. I do not wish Itachi renown, but happy and full of hope. Of hope for himself. Full of life.

For what right does have a society to demand of someone to become a sacrifice? For them to live. For him to die. Where have you been Itachi? Why have not you defended yourself? Why were not you a little more selfish. A great idiot you are. Idiot! And I am a masochist to watch you fade week for week: misunderstood, alone, in pain, a cursed existence you chosen to accept.

...poor little princess.

Tagged - 8 things about you

=Higure-no-Hikari — Tue, 06 May 2008 14:47:53 PDT
Tagged by dearest :kiwidoll: and a few reflections about myself:

* 1. Post these rules.
* 2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
* 3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
* 4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
* 5. No tag-backs

~ I. In literature my most favourite period is "Romanticism" that is as the "beautiful soul" of (Weimar) Classicism was stained by unholy subconsciousness and inner madness. Darkness, untamed gorgeous nature and fairy tales of old. In contrast I find no delight in the music of Romanticism, the only exception being compositions of Frederic Chopin. I preferably listen to elder music of Medieval Ages, Renaissance and Baroque instead.

~ II. I was about 5 years old my parents bought me a book on Greek myths. Nowadays mythology - further poetry, history and biographies are my favoured reading. No wonder J.R.R. Tolkien who created (and re-used and combined) all of these is an author I truly adore and admire. Yet I have to shake my head about the movie version...

~III. Of archaic Godesses I favour Demeter's daughter the most for I am fascinated by her "two faces": sweet, innocent Kore/cold, well-nigh cruel Pesephone mingled to one. Of what can be called "Gods" I am a lover of Lucifer, morning star, the highborn, who fell. My weakness for "riven" personalities I suppose.

~IV. I was called both "arrogant" and "naive" by fellow humans. I believe I am neither.

~V. I score as an rare female INTJ that is "Introvert, Intuitive, Thinking, Judging" regarding the Myers-Briggs Personality Test and indeed it suits rather nicely... I think MBTI comparable to astrology in general though: amusing but questionable.

~VI. The only celebrity of nowadays I have ever came close to "fangirl" about/be interested in was Mana from "Malice Mizer"/"Moi dix Mois". The interest ended as I decided him to be too much of a child to suit me.

~VII. I am a hopeless sucker for well-versed, diversified, polished language. For cadences and rhymes, metaphors and allusions, word plays, archaic vocabulary. A corresponding experience compares but to ecstasy; the common (internet) speech is more of a drastic mood killer. Poor thing who loves with her ears...

~VIII. Among other things I am delighted by are soft Toys, the Theatre, Particles (physics), Colours, Languages, Rambling, the Sea, the Forbidden, the Dreams.

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Tagging is against my principles, thus feel yourself addressed if such be your desire.

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Hikari.

Spring

=Higure-no-Hikari — Tue, 01 Apr 2008 08:37:34 PDT
Sunny, warm, green with tinges of white and yellow, blue. After a miracle of ice and snowy Easter the true spring has begun. And even with my curtains closed there is still enough ruby light in my room to enjoy everything and myself. Out of the strange mood I am about to leave Tom Bombadil for yes probably 8th time of my short life and shake in fear as to the cairns. And this even though I am still utopistically determined to accomplish the reading through the Schopenhauer and Nietzsche biographies till thursday, that is the day I have definitely to retun the both books to library. But hobbits, priorities and eventually I find back to my Melkor/Varda shipping interest even though the both valar are hardly ever mentioned in this book. Weird mind. (Maybe I should draw my LotR Oc, paired by the way - god help - with Sauron...)

I also rediscovered my sincere interest for Severus Snape of "Harry Potter" which shall eventually result in the 7th book being read at mine. Even though I believe it too beautifully how it rests, so virgin and clear on my shelf.

Then I drew a lot the past week, but mostly animals with and for my little sister. Rather quick drawings not to overpopulate my gallery. I hope to get to seriously paint this week...

I hope.

I am still of the delusion Itachi has not died, Itachi merely "semi-evil", that is human just how I do imagine him, and Sasuke's smile was not of anger or malice but a kind expression of the child who was given to find the thought lost and thought dead. Madara remains as suspicious as ever to me.

The dollfies are too addicting, luckily my money condition is bad as ever. Do you think a clay doll could serve an alternative?

And eventually I am waiting for my Alessandro Safina CD to arrive*-*

Boring Expressions of a Self.

Done.

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P.S. To everyone I have to answer, I shall. I had a little "vacation" of a pretty exhausting kind. But now: I am getting awake

A few words to my WIPs

=Higure-no-Hikari — Mon, 03 Mar 2008 04:23:20 PST
Yes, I am doing WIP (Work in progress) submissions, that is taking blurry, screwed photos of something in middle of nowhere I am currently getting desparate about. I am doing it mainly for myself, as an objective documentation that I indeed progress and perhaps even not suck in my drawing as much as I believe to do.

Thus after a day (or maybe half) of getting mad at myself, I shall upload a wacky far from complete version for all the world to see and that I perhaps also hope for are a few words of encouragement and even constructive criticism .

Please do not favour my WIPs. Since once I deem a version worth of being saved - or even finished - I shall use my blessed for its existence scanner (for I like working with traditional media) and allow myself to delete the WIP entry in order to submit something more approciate for the sight.

And I would deem myself glittering happy shall you comment and favour these "done" versions then.

With regards, Hikari.

Hello Deviantart!

=Higure-no-Hikari — Thu, 28 Feb 2008 13:50:02 PST
Hello Deviantart!

For long I have been lurking and dancing with you, yet avoided you. Eventually you won. And I merely still have to decide what kind of user I will to become...

Your Hikari.

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I am new, but not entirely unexperienced with the page here. And the mature content filter has definitely gotten on my nerves. I favour Itachi, ItaSasu and anything that appeals.

I tend to have an expressionistic touch as to my colour sheme and struggle with digital art. Not that I am at ease with traditional ways though.

I would like to draw a lot and even improve a lot, but in reality the projects of mine have a long way till becoming more than pure imagination.

Eventually, I am.

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