deviantART: by:Hikarino http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Hikarino&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Hikarino en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 12 Dec 2009 02:19:33 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png I'm free! (Hopefully) http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/28479244/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/28479244/ Fri, 20 Nov 2009 23:42:22 PST Gallery | Art Blog | NicoNico

I handed in my last two Uni assignments for the year yesterday. Assuming I passed, this means it's now Summer break, yay! As a result I'm now slowly commenting on all the deviations I have piled up, but I may not comment on all of them because I'll feel weird spamming people with comments.

Still, finally! I've been looking forward to Summer break so much. I can draw agaaain, and play video games, and watch movies, without any guilt. And when Summer break ends, I will finally get to learn to animate! I get so excited thinking about it sometimes that I can't sleep. Now all I need to do is find a part-time job.

I'm getting better at driving, too. I listen to music whenever I drive with mum now, and it makes it so much more enjoyable~. I feel like I'm starting to get the hang of lane changes, which I find really hard, but I still need practice. I'm still terrible at roundabouts though, I never know when to go.

And I think that's all I have to say. How is everyone going?

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]]> ~Hikarino Ffff-Wheeeeee! http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/27480984/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/27480984/ Tue, 29 Sep 2009 06:13:53 PDT :iconhikarino::iconsasuke-uchiha2000:
I'm suuuper happy because I've never had matching icons with anyone before. Cass and I have been planning on having matching icons for months and months but only now have we finally gotten around to it xD

So yeah. Hi all! It's the second week of the two week "Teaching Break" at Uni, and I've been working almost non-stop on assignments until 5pm yesterday (Monday). I love the feeling of elation that comes with having finished assignments though. After the break there's only 5 weeks of classes left, after which I'll never have to take Global Politics or Media Literacies ever again! But aaah, I'm enjoying life so much right now. I spent three days last week with my group for Introduction to Film and Television (ie Jenny and a guy called Jun) recording each of our short films for our second assignments, and it was a ridiculous amount of fun with much laughter and joy.

I've recently been drawing on iScribble with Cass and her friend Dango. (~elite-phantom if I'm not mistaken) in the evenings (only since a few days ago when Cass got a tablet out of the blue). It's been so much fun, and it's forcing me to draw more regularly and try new things. On the other hand, iScribble drawings are, well... scribbly.

But yeah. Lack of art/comments on everyone's stuff have been because of Uni. Sorry about that! I'll try and rectify it before Uni goes back, but the 200+ deviations I have to sort through are putting me off.

I hope life is treating everyone well! And I hope it picks up for you soon if it's not. How are you all?

]]> ~Hikarino Smile C: http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/26985065/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/26985065/ Wed, 02 Sep 2009 19:39:25 PDT
There's so many small gestures we do that can have positive effects on others. So many things like manners, which many seem not to use anymore. A simple thank you, or a seemingly normal gesture like holding the bus door open for the next person getting out. These are just a few of the small things that make me feel happy inside.

It's almost the end of week 6 already, time is flying along at incredible speeds. I've settled into this semester of Uni now, and I think, think think think, I've made a friend! Her name is Jennifer, though she goes by Jenny (ffffff), and she's really into anime and comic books and stuff. She's in my Introduction to Film and Television class, which I'm really enjoying. We have to work in groups of three, and while I usually dread group work, my group is really nice and we all get along. A lot of the people in my Japanese class are really awesome too, so maybe I'll make some new friends there as well.

I also have to admit I'm starting to enjoy driving. It's still scary, and I'm still really reliant on the person in the passenger seat, but I feel like I'm getting there. At least, I'm keeping on the left side of the road now, and away from the gutter.

How are you all going? C:

]]> ~Hikarino That X button exists for a reason~ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/26457700/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/26457700/ Sat, 08 Aug 2009 03:27:08 PDT
I probably should have realised I had a bad week coming up when I ended up in an argument of sorts with one of my closest online friends, after which I was utterly furious with them and spent the rest of the week avoiding them because I knew if I spoke to them I'd probably say something I'd regret. You know I'm avoiding someone when I don't log onto msn for a few days. It's immature but there you go. That was on Sunday.

Next day, Monday, I was preoccupied with not only that, but all the other little thoughts I have going around in my mind at the moment. Mum made me go for a drive since I had a lesson the following day. The second time around the block I drove into the gutter/kerb near one of the corners. Hard. And damaged the car wheel. And then I cried for the first time in many months. Haha, I'm so skilled. And mum thought I was crying over the car, when it was everything -else- I was crying over; the car was just what set me off. Thankfully I didn't manage to crash into anything during my lessons. And the wheel was fixable.

Then I was doubting my Uni course for the bajillionth time. And I actually told mum so this time. I don't think mum even realises it's because of her and my older brother's constant nagging. "What careers is it even going to lead to?". Or those little silences from her whenever I talked happily about what I was doing/going to do. I always make rash decisions when I'm having a bad week, haha;; If I do change I'm planning on going back to concentrating on my Japanese, but I can't change course until next year, and I'm still not sure whether to do so or not.\

Then Friday/yesterday was a decent enough day, though I had trouble sleeping last night, then this morning the friend issue got at least partially sorted out. So all in all the week ended okay.

Haha... Looking back, I guess it wasn't such a bad week. I just let the few bad things get to me a little too much.

Hmm, I had more to say, but this is already a rather long journal.

So uh, if you read this, how was your week? C:

]]> ~Hikarino A question + I can kill people with cars now! 8D http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/26122036/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/26122036/ Thu, 23 Jul 2009 03:52:47 PDT
On a more positive note, I went for my Learner's today! (I should have done this more than two years ago.) Which means I get to learn how to drive a car finally~ But aaaah, Mum stopped at the end of our street and made me drive up the road and park the car, and I had absolutely no idea what to do. I was so scared! Driving cars is terrifying! D: But I'll get used to it I guess xD;

]]> ~Hikarino To-do or something of the sort http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/25929962/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/25929962/ Mon, 13 Jul 2009 20:53:04 PDT
Schedule

  • Get sleeping pattern in order; 11 o'clock beds every night, no half an hour longer, no last cup of tea, bed.

  • Limit time spent checking websites and aimlessly surfing the net.

  • Set aside time for drawing every day

  • Work on assignments/study every day once Uni starts up again

  • Set up a schedule, and stick to it for once



Stuff I want to or need to do before holidays end

  • Clear off my phone's SD card and put some different music on it. Done~

  • Clean room =w=

  • Clean out backpack, throw away stuff I don't need for Uni anymore.

  • Clear out Uni e-mail

  • Sort out message centre on dA

  • Try and finish FF8 so can return to Glenda

  • Finish some pictures

  • Do an art meme or something, just cause.

  • Give Jeni some love

  • Reply in RPs

  • Purchase multitrip

  • Utattemite and up to niconico

  • Buy a glue stick

  • Start a scrap book in which to put art-related stuff

  • Organise Uni stuff from last semmy I might need to refer to



Art goals

  • Improve anatomy. =w=

  • Learn to draw creases.

  • Learn to draw clothes.

  • Learn to draw backgrounds

  • Learn to draw males

  • Actually draw a comic

  • Other stuff I don't remember



Will add to this as I see fit =w=

]]> ~Hikarino Mid-year Break, Nicknames and Tea http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/25323419/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/25323419/ Mon, 15 Jun 2009 07:20:19 PDT
It's been a hectic last few weeks, with every class wanting this and that. The best bit was that ~anim3xangel/Glenda and I got to do our Interculturality Project 2 for Japanese together, despite being in different classes for Japanese 2A. We had to converse in Japanese for 10 minutes, and when we had to start, Glenda went to call me "Hikaru-chan" instead of "Jess-chan", since she calls me Hikaru a lot. It was amusing. Apparently my nickname has stuck in her mind.

Which reminds me, a couple of my friends have recently informed me that "Jessica" and "tea" have a correlation in their minds. I really should not find this as amusing as I do.

And that's all, as I want to keep this brief.
Hikaru out!

]]> ~Hikarino Obligatory Life Update 8D http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/24851009/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/24851009/ Wed, 20 May 2009 04:47:39 PDT

Uni is going oooookay I think. I'm not really enjoying it, and I'm somewhat nervously awaiting the results on a couple of major assignments, but I'm feeling better about it than I was a couple of weeks back. I still haven't made any friends D: But the past few weeks I've been managing to catch up with one of my old friends, ~anim3xangel, at Uni the past few weeks, which has been really great <3


On a side note, I never really know what to write in journals.


As a finishing note, like a bajillion other people I'm planning on trying to get into *TheReal-OCT. And continuing to be redundant, does anyone think I have a chance of getting in? xD I don't, but as I've been telling other people who've been thinking about entering, you can't get in if you don't try :3 Anyone else going to try? And if you don't know what it is, it's an OCT (Original Character Tournament), like the IDD except you, the artist, get to be in it, and you have the ability to summon (up to) three of your OCs. It's such an exciting concept! Take a look and maybe consider entering too, hm? C:


That's all from me for now! Stay happy!

]]> ~Hikarino Taaaaaagged http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/23809644/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/23809644/ Sat, 21 Mar 2009 07:43:48 PDT :iconantichange: ages ago and because meme thingies don't really go out of date. They do, but... they don't. So.

here's how to do it:
1] Post these rules.
2] Each tagged person should post 8 facts of themselves.
3] Tagged people should write a journal\blog about these facts.
4] In the end tag and name 8 people.
5] Go to their dA pages and comment saying that they are tagged.


HERE WE GOES:
1. I'm terrible at coming up with things about myself to say.
2. I'm stubborn, which means I can be good at nagging people when they have things they need to be doing. Except then I become worried that I'm starting to get on their nerves so I stop, aha.
3. To quote my brother, I'm so afraid of getting in trouble that I never do anything. This isn't completely true, but it sums up the way I am fairly well :'D
4. My internet life is a relatively secret one, since mum thinks forums and websites like this are dangerous. I planned not to hide it anymore once I turned 18, but that didn't happen. Sigh.
5. I drink lots of tea, like most of my family.
6. My real name is Jessica, and I have two middle names which I'm quite fond of :3
7. ...Ask just about anyone who has heard and they'll tell you I'm good at singing :'D
8. I don't like tagging people, for fear of annoying them by doing so, yet I'm always happy when I get tagged myself xD;

...I tag anyone who wants to be tagged.

As for actual journally stuff: University, guys! It. Is. Awesome. Though I've kind of gone back to being invisible for the most part xD; Don't really have any friends. But that's okay. For boring classes that I have to take as part of the Media Arts course, my classes are really interesting :3 I have one that's looking at communication in all these neat and interesting ways, then I have this other class which is looking at what makes persuading successful and stuff. The latter is kind of hard though, I don't really understand it much yet. Then there's Introduction to Digital Media, which is one of the subjects I have to do as part of my Animation major before I actually do any animating next year, which is... probably not going to teach me much xD But it's interesting, and fun. And then there's Japanese class, in which I'm learning nothiiiing, but still enjoying xD It's so good to be studying Japanese again <3 I forgot how much I love it. And it's really surprising how little I've forgotten considering I hadn't studied it at all in like 9 months xD Busing to and from Uni kinda sucks though Dx; Although I'm getting the hang of it, just as long as the bus actually -comes- :'D

And that's all I have to say because otherwise I'll ramble on like I do. Thanks for reading!

]]> ~Hikarino ...I'm a grown up :'D http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/23549597/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/23549597/ Thu, 05 Mar 2009 23:02:15 PST
18th Birthday = Overrated.

I started Uni this week by the way. Uni is great, busing is not. Wednesday night, last bus of the day from uni to the bus stop I wanted to get to, never came. I had to get mum to pick me up. Sigh. Then I was really worried on Thursday cause I had to catch the bus at the same time. Luckily class finished early that day. We'll see what happens this week though =/ It's funny how a little thing like a bus not coming can cause you to be down for the rest of the week. Or maybe it's just hormones.

I hope you all had a better week than me xD;;; I need some happiness to fuel me up! >=T

Edit - Lolwait wtf this journal sounds emo. I have no right to complain, my week was good, really. Just the bus thing threw me off so much that I'm forgetting to pay attention to the positives! Uni was amazing, really! I met up with old friends, made new ones, got along with people in my classes. My Aunt gave me an epic tea cup, and tea leaves! English breakfast tea leaves! I got money, but I don't really care about money :'D Give me a block of chocolate, and I'm happy. But you know? No one gave me a block of chocolate D: It's not as special when you buy it yourself >=T (edit - [link] <- I am loling so hard xD BEST BIRTHDAY PRESENT EVER KTHNX)

Edit edit - OH MY GOSH MY SISTER. SHE. MADE ME THE BEST BIRTHDAY PRESENT EVER. EVEN THOUGH IT IS UNFINISHED.
It's an animation :'D And she's never really animated before. And it's like... JENI. and and and FIENNE. And oh my gosh... IT'S SO COOL >A< AND I'M SO TOUCHED AND AHHH.

]]> ~Hikarino Valentines Day http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/23163869/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/23163869/ Thu, 12 Feb 2009 20:09:34 PST
To those of you in a relationship: Don't forget your friends, don't forget your family. There's too many situations where people are so infatuated with their boyfriend/girlfriend that they ignore those around them. But at the end of the day, if things don't work out in your relationship, who's going to be willingly supporting you when things go awry? Try not to hurt them.

To those of you not in a relationship: Don't go getting desperate for love. Being single isn't something to be depressed over, really. If you go looking for love, you're just going to end up hurt. Focus on what you have, not what you don't have.

Though, I have no experience in these matters, so I wouldn't know. I'm merely going on observations. Feel free to tell me I'm an idiot.

]]> ~Hikarino Life Update From a Pile of Goop : D http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/22877711/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/22877711/ Thu, 29 Jan 2009 01:04:43 PST



So. First thing's first. Where I live, we're in the middle of a heatwave. And I mean a serious heatwave. Like, yesterday was the hottest day on record since 1939, supposedly. It got to 45.7°C yesterday o_o; (That's like 114 for you Fahrenheit people =/) The day before that it was above 40°C, and today also got to like 42°C or something. And it's not planning on letting up much over the next week @_@; Even inside, with the airconditioning on, it's still like 30°C xD;;; Which is okay, I think, but it's too hot for other members of this house xD; But whatever. And it's not even cooling down that much at night @_@ It wouldn't be so bad, but I've actually had to leave the house a couple of times this week. Well actually I kind of chose to xD; But still. It is insanely hot, and it makes one feel exhausted @A@ But yeah, that's my little selfish complaint xD; I'm an Australian, I can handle a bit of heat. (But uh... This is a lot ;w;''' )

So, in other news, I've been feeling insanely confused and stressed over doing all this stuff that we're meant to do for University (enrolling in different subjects or whatever for our course, among other things), but thankfully my friend, who is in her second year at the same uni as me, offered to take me there, show me around, and help me enrol. I took up her offer, and yeah, we went there today C: (I don't start uni until like.. March xD; )

Long story short:
My uni looks old but pretty on the outside (yay!)
It looks modern but pretty on the inside (yay!)
I get to study Japanese as a sub-major (yay!) (animation is my major, of course xD)
My course co-ordinator is nice (yay!)
I'm not so stressed now (yay!)

I tried cold rock ice cream today 8D Banana with maltesers in it, oh yum. And also, I went to our art store, and Touch Markers were on special! I've been wanting some for aaaaaages now, but the price put me off. They're like, the closest equivalent to copics I can find around here xD; And they'll do for now c:

One last temperature-related complaint: The problem with temperatures like this, is that it's very hard to draw xD; Especially on the computer. My hand is all sweaty which is making it stick to the tablet, which prevents me from drawing smooth lines :'D Don't expect much art from me until the weather is cooler xP (then again, I'm such an art addict, I may just turn nocturnal for the sake of drawing.)

]]> ~Hikarino Oh hai, journal spam 8D http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/22727538/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/22727538/ Thu, 22 Jan 2009 07:11:46 PST The-Russian-Gestapo and ~Sam-D in round one of the ~I-D-D. Admittedly, even though I was expecting it, I'm a little disappointed to have lost 8D; But I'm not surprised, and it was still a lot of fun. I'm really thankful to those of you who took the time to read and comment on my entry, whether you commented on dA or on msn. The fact that you took the time to read my crap, meant a heck of a lot to me.

Oh and for the record, this won't be the end of Jeni :'D I'm going to find another OCT for her to enter if it's the last thing I do C: Aaand I'll probably also draw her from time to time, so kill me :'D I like her xD; Meanwhile I'm going to support the IDD through fanart and such, so look forward to that C: Or don't, if you hate Jeni and/or the IDD with all your heart and soul. That's okay too.

Neeeext. You might have noticed, but you might not have done too, but I've been experimenting with styles a bit lately. I'm not about to drop mine or anything, but it's one of my goals as an artist to be veeeeeery flexible C:

So, in other news... I got information from my uni today (wait, technically yesterday, since it's like 1.30AM at the time of writing this xD) Like the stuff that means HELL YES THIS IS OFFICIAL. But but... it's confusing... and now I'm kind of confused and feeling a little nervous :'D And mum kinda... isn't helping me at all, so I'm being left to pretty much stumble around in the dark and hope to goodness that I'll be okay 8D;

Oh hey, soooo you took the time to read through all this? Or scrolled down to see if my jibber jabber contained anything of interest? Well gee, thank you 8D You're in luck... Maybe. Do any of my lovely watchers/dA friends want me to draw something for them? U8 I do ever so much enjoy drawing other people's characters xD And I'm pretty sure most people enjoying seeing other people draw their characters. So if you'd like me to draw one (ooor maybe some? 0.o) of your characters for you, just let me know, okay? Okay.

That's it then!
Hikaru out!

]]> ~Hikarino ASDF http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/22588469/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/22588469/ Thu, 15 Jan 2009 00:35:11 PST THEY WERE RELEASED AT 6PM
IT TOOK ME A FREAKING HOUR TO ACCESS MINE
I GOT IT
I GOT OFFERED THE COURSE I WANT TO DO
I'M GOING TO BE STUDYING ANIMATION AT UNIVERSITY
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!

(That was not caps lock, it was shift abuse)

...Yeah back to getting the rest of my IDD up :'D
-skips away-

]]> ~Hikarino HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/22296329/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/22296329/ Wed, 31 Dec 2008 07:30:58 PST
--Begin Journal Entry 8D--

Well, wow. 2008 has finally drawn to a close. I think I can quite happily say this has been the best year of my life so far. So much has happened this year, both online and offline. I'm possibly a completely different person to who I was when this year started. When I think about myself at the beginning of this year, I was a self-centered n00bish idiot who was selfish, lazy and... well... an idiot. Although I'm still an idiot xD; I'm just a bit of a smarter idiot now 8D I've improved in so many areas, and I am honestly proud of the person I am now.

The beginning of the year. Mother and her boyfriend had recently acquired a shack, and so began their weekly trips to the shack; every weekend, without fail. This left myself, my younger sister and my older brother at home by ourselves on the weekends where they didn't force my sis and I to go there. On top of this, mum's boyfriend had started to more and more frequently complain about how all of my siblings and myself are very, very lazy and never do anything around the house. Now, even though I'll often complain about all of my siblings except for my sister, I love them all dearly, and couldn't stand to allow them to be insulted by some man who wasn't even related to us. So I got off my ass and started doing something to shut him up |: I started to clean. And even cook once in a while. Wow. Stuff I should have been doing looong before this year. But there you go. Of course, I -had- to (and still have to) cook and clean every weekend, as my older brother is too lazy to and my younger sister... Is my younger sister. But yes, my point. The weekends have force me to become a much more independent person. Sadly, the whole ';piling a crapload of work onto myself to get mother's boyfriend to shut up' backfired and just caused me a whole lot of stress over the course of the year, as I was forced to do housework or clean instead of working on important assignments and stuff in the ever-important Year 12. Which brings me to my next point 8D

Around about February, I started Year 12. The final year of my schooling. Honestly, I never thought it would come. I never thought it would end either. But it did, and as you all saw, I ended it quite well. In hindsight, I'm proud. I loved year 12, even with all the stress and exasperation and other emotions it brought me. Even though I was depressed at one point. So many positive things happened at school. This year, I started to get along with a lot of people in my year. I made new friends. The most important of which is, of course, Maria. She had come to Australia for the year to do year 12 as an experience more than anything. She's now back in Norway, but she and I became great friends. She taught me to be much more confident, and a much more social person too =3 It was probably under her influence that I started to get along with people a lot more this year xD She also caused me to drink alcohol for the first time in a good few years. Only a little though =D I'm a smart person. I just had a bit in the bottom of a glass... a mouthful at most xD And it's a fairly weak drink. But in any case. She made the year a lot more fun, even if she frustrated me at times xD

I started doing Japapanese off-line so I could do Visual Arts on-line. In other words, in order to attend visual arts classes, I started attending Japanese classes out of school. In order to make life easier. At Jap class I met a number of interesting people, most important of which is of course Glenda. I'm not actually sure why she was attending those classes, being in Uni and all, but I'm glad she was. She was another friend who taught me to be more social xD And she took me karaokeing that one time. Now I love karaokeing >=3 And I can't wait to do it again. GLENDA, IF YOU READ THIS, WHICH YOU BETTER SINCE YOU HAVE A dA, I WANNA GO KARAOKEING AGAIN WHEN YOU COME BACK FROM JAPAN. Please? 8D

I later quit Jap, as it was really just a burden to my load as I had done the subject at Year 12 level last year, while I was in Year 11, and gotten a decent mark. This meant I could focus on my schooling. Or rather, it meant I had more time to procrastinate, as I'm a terrible procrastinator. But at least I procrastinate by drawing?... ]]> ~Hikarino oAo Year 12 Results http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/22020377/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/22020377/ Tue, 16 Dec 2008 17:48:18 PST
Japanese: 18 (A) (I did year 12 Japanese last year, so this grade I already had)
Visual Arts: 18 (A)
English Communications: 16 (B)
Biology: 16 (B)
IT: 15 (B)

and my TER is 89.20

I'm not really all that excited |:'' It's weird. And I feel kinda disappointed cause it was soooo close to a 90 and a 90 would look so much better than an 89.20... But what can you do xD;

But AH! I really can't believe I got an A for Visual Arts!!! I was expecting a low B!!! I got an A! In art! I must be doing something right!

Also, the TER for the uni course I want to get into is 70.15. I'm well above that U8 So hopefully hopefully hopefully I'll get in? >~<; Don't find out until January though. Sigh.

----

In other news. My tablet appears to be dead. Well, I believe it is the pen, specifically, which is dead. But it is a 'cheap' tablet, so as far as I know one can't buy a replacement pen. Instead I have to fork out $130 for a new tablet TTATT;;; Sigh... It lasted me 14 months ;A;' The warranty is only for 12.
I need a job |: Then the fact that I have to spend all my money on a new tablet wouldn't be so depressing.

-goes back to working on her IDD-

]]> ~Hikarino Hmm http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/21952512/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/21952512/ Fri, 12 Dec 2008 18:36:29 PST
Ah well... A shout out to those of my rl friends who are stalking my dA but don't actually have an account. I know you're there, and I just wanted to let you know that I appreciate it =3 Don't go doubting it. There's just a few people whose stalking of my dA bothers me.

]]> ~Hikarino Art Blocks http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/21892904/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/21892904/ Tue, 09 Dec 2008 04:32:45 PST
Art blocks. EVERYONE experiences art blocks once in a while. I've been drawing seriously for five years now, and I have probably had several art blocks a year. Some have lasted weeks, some have lasted months. It happens to everyone. And whenever I have art blocks, it's usually one of or a combination of two reasons. Those reasons being?

1. I come crashing back to reality and realise or remember that my art is horrifically crap. (This is usually triggered by looking at awesome art too much.)
2. I lack inspiration, motivation or ideas.

The first reason is really just an issue of mindset. I'm no psychologist. Hell, I have no understanding of how the human mind works, but from experience this really seems to be something which I imagine. I can usually tell this one is starting to happen when everything I draw looks terrible to me, or doesn't come out right. Often, others (such as my lovely sister) will notice no change. So in other words? The change is all in my head. Totally caused by mindset. But this isn't necessarily a bad thing. At least, it hasn't been for me. Because it means that I'm starting to see problems in my art that I couldn't before, which leaves room for my art to improve. I suppose, one's mind improves artistically before one's artistic abilities can improve. Though I'm talking from my experiences.

BUT. It will NOT DO to be getting depressed because "omg I'm never going to be as good as artist x D:". You aren't meant to be aiming to be as good as artist x!!! If you are comparing yourself too much to artist x, then you're going to be troubled! ESPECIALLY if artist x is just one artist, or if artist x is actually a number of artists who use the same or similar styles. As an artist, you should be trying to formulate your own style, except not, because your own style will come to you in time. Art is something which is meant to 'flow', is it not? So do your best not to force it. Don't try to make your style like another style, in fact don't try to make your style be anything at all. Just draw, or paint, or whatever you do, and let it flow. You're never going to be the same as artist x, so drop that mindset. Art is something you're meant to be doing for enjoyment, because you -want- to do it. Sure, let artist x inspire you to become better, but don't let their 'omg overwhelming amazing talent' push you down. (I seriously have no particular artist in mind as I say artist x, but I'm sure you can all think of one or more aritsts in your 'world' who is artist x to you)

I’ve just told you this is all a mindset issue, and seriously, I think it is. I haven’t had an art block in a while, and I honestly believe it is due to my mindset. Actually right now, I can’t even think of what my mindset is, but I guess it’s like… Yeah, my art isn’t as good as other people’s art, but I enjoy, and that’s what’s important. Sure, sometimes it comes out crap, but I don’t care! Seriously people, stop caring so much about what your art looks like! Sure, you want it to look good and all, but you aren’t professional artists! Art is a hobby, right? Or maybe it’s a passion? Either way, it’s something you do because you enjoy it! You –have- to remember that!

It is a good thing to be aware that your art isn’t ‘omgamazing’. You don’t want to look like some blind idiot because you’re calling shinydesu dodge/burned animu crap good art. And PLEASE don’t anyone take that as an attack if you’re reading this and fall under such a category, because I’m talking about myself. I am honestly ashamed of the days when I believed my art was really good, back when I drew in Katy Coope style, having learned from her books. Back when I got photoshop and found dodge-burn and was like ‘omg my stuff looks professional’. Back when I wondered why the hell nobody paid any attention to my art. Ironically, people now pay attention to my art, and I find myself wondering why the hell they do. Yeah. Mindset change. The difference? Back then, the fact that I thought I was good was what drove me forwards. Now, it’s a pure love of drawing and a desire to improve which drives me forwards. It’s good to be aware that your art is ‘crap’, because it means you won’t have to groan over the way you were years, or perhaps even a year, earlier.

Of course, when you draw and think everything you draw looks crap, that’s really depressing too. And frustrating as hell when you’re inspired! You reeeeeally want to draw this image you have in your head, but you just don’t have the abilities to do it. All you can do is try your best.... ]]> ~Hikarino Round 1 Already o_o http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/21808670/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/21808670/ Thu, 04 Dec 2008 17:02:37 PST
Matchups for the :iconi-d-d: were put up way sooner than I expected xD Got up this morning to find that they were already up. And now I've spent the entire day coming up with as many ideas as I can for my comic, cause, well, it's going to be hard to find a way for Jeni to win xD

I'm up against :iconthe-russian-gestapo: and :iconsam-d:. They're working together with one writing and one drawing, and I think they each do some other things as well but I'm not sure? Still, two minds are better than one so... And they certainly seem to be a creative team. I really am going to have to come up with something good 8D;

Their racers are a pair of ... I'm not even sure. From what I get they're kinda... mad scientists? oAo; But they're in a vehicle. Vehicle > Skateboard. Still xD This is going to be fun, cause it means Jeni has to strategise 8B And the place our characters has to race has freaky gravity... >=3 This shall be fun.

...8D; Sorry, I ramble when I'm excited xD; BUT BEING EXCITED MEANS I'M HAPPY, AND THAT IS A GOOD THING 8D (...It is a good thing... right? 8DDD;;; )

Also I was really relieved to find out that we need to have entries done by January 5, because I know I'm being dragged away for a while around Christmas and New Years' time. :C

THANKS FOR READING MY POINTLESS PRATTLE 8DDDD

]]> ~Hikarino I GOT IN http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/21786269/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/21786269/ Tue, 02 Dec 2008 15:56:10 PST ...Wow wutwutwut >~<;;; It's really hard to believe it when you've only been awake for an hour or so :'D

Aaaaah this has certainly made me feel happy :'D Matchups will be announced by the 7th >=3 I wonder who I'll be up against owo;

]]> ~Hikarino -Shove- http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/21624352/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/21624352/ Sun, 23 Nov 2008 02:59:40 PST
Hey guys, how are you?

xD; I don't... Want to bother people too much by going on about my life or anything. Tell me something, what kind of stuff do you prefer to see in people's journals? Or are you okay with me just... going on about life in general in this thing? I don't want to bother people, is all xD;

Hrm, well I'll put a little life update in here anyways.

I went kneeboarding today 8D Or rather, I failed to kneeboard xD; I could only start from land, and even then I stacked it. I even managed to face plant xD And then I spent most of the time trying to do a deepwater start. And failing. Until my arms didn't want to move anymore. I'm so weak xD And now I ache. Almost everywhere xDD

Uhhh hm. Other news. I'm working on an entry for the IDD; Inter-Dimensional Derby, an OC tournament thingy. Though you'd all know that already if you've looked at my recent deviations xD; I really hope I get in =3 It'll be a great chance for me to get better at comics, and even just at drawing : D So um... yeah. I apologise for all the IDD-related crap I'll be spamming you with during the next week or so ='D Oh, and wish me luck please C: I reeeeally went to get in. Course, I have to get the accursed audition comic thing done first... And I've planned it out, and it's going to be 12 A4 pages in size, orz. I need to start already U8

Okaaay enough spamming. If you've actually read this far, thanks C:

Seeya~

]]> ~Hikarino I'm back! http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/21241442/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/21241442/ Fri, 31 Oct 2008 01:10:52 PDT
I handed in my art approximately two hours ago. After working on it almost non-stop for the past few weeks, with a bit of work for other subjects in-between, and sacrificing a lot of sleep to try and get it done in time... I feel really lost o_o; I don't know what to do U8 It's kinda scary.

Friends from iAnti... Is there anything important I've missed during the past few weeks?

Well... Better look through all the messages and deviations which have accumulated these past few weeks o-o;

]]> ~Hikarino Quick Explanation http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/21104278/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/21104278/ Wed, 22 Oct 2008 01:25:53 PDT
I had to come onto dA to remove some of my art from public view, because all of a sudden a stack of my characters, and possibly one of someone else's characters, have become a part of my final piece. At year 12 level we have two major pieces to do throughout the year, with a whole load of backup, and yeah... there's a bit over a week left to get it all done, so everyone is in rush mode. And the teachers are stressing and rushing us. So I got stuck using a stack of previously made images by accident Dx;; I just chucked them together into a composition so I could see what it looked like and chuck it into my backup, and my teacher said that I have to do that. orz And some of them were on my dA, so I've had to 'store' them. My already small gallery, shrunk D: They will be gone until December D: On the plus side, I will be able to show you all my major art piece backup and stuff at the same time 8D There's some stuff I'm so proud of in there x3;

;_; Even though school finishes Wednesday of next week, the 29th, I return for real on the 31st of October, sometime between 4 and 5 pm my time. That's when I have to have all my art stuff in by. Dx; scary.

I'm missing everyone on here and everywhere on the net ;A; Life is so drab without the internet >:

]]> ~Hikarino BRB TILL NOVEMBER http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/20945179/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/20945179/ Sat, 11 Oct 2008 22:46:23 PDT The holidays end today. I have school tomorrow. It's the last few weeks of Year 12 and I really need to concentrate. Thus... I'm banning myself off of all websites I frequent. I have no idea how I'm going to get through this if I don't.
Wish me luck TT__TT

]]> ~Hikarino A quiz because I felt like it http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/20709805/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/20709805/ Sat, 27 Sep 2008 17:34:30 PDT 2). Fill this out as honestly as possible.
3). When finished, tag 3-5 other deviants.

I wasn't tagged, but I stole it from :iconkoshou:

1. Why did you decide to fill this out? Were you bored?
Not really. I just felt like it.

2. How many people on here do you actually know in reality? Post their avatars.
Um... Lawl I know like... one? :iconanim3xangel:

3. What do you typically post on deviantart?
Typically I don't... Usually. I guess I'm typically posting up iAnti stuff at the moment =/ So I guess I typically post roleplay related stuff? 8D I do plan to post more though.

4. Tell everyone your favorite song, and why it's your favorite.
Presently I'm really loving Drown by F-777. Yeah, from :iconunknown-person:'s first LoT entry. I love a lot of music though.

5. Tell us your favorite color. Is it dark like your personality?
I always say pink. But to be honest I'm not sure. There's a lot of colours I like. I really love pale colours, too. And I like blues, pinks and greens. I really, reeeeally love soft green.

6. How many pageviews do you have right now? What's your goal?
Good... question. -check- OTZ I have 669. Pocky, if you read this and you say something... -shakes fist-
OVER 9000!

7. Everyone's considered leaving DA once or twice. Have you? Why?
I've left before, even. I'm not really supposed to have a dA, that's what drove me away the first time. Then I hated dA for a while. Now I'm back. And you know why I'm here? It's the people. It is NOT dA that keeps me here, it's my favourite artists, and the nice people.

8. What deviant do you admire? Is it because of their art, or their personality?
There are sooo many artists I admire, both on dA and off Dx But my favourite is :iconfrzdragon: because her art is awesome and she seems to have a nice personality too.

9. Tell us about a noob you've helped out.
I... don't like to brand people as noobs. Unless they ARE n00bs. Then I wouldn't help them =/;

10. What does your username have to do with you? Is it a combination of your favorite things, or a character of yours?
Well, let's see. When I was in year 9 I decided I wanted a name type thing to go by on the interwebs. I decided on Hikaru Tenshi, which I guess loosely could mean shining angel. Laaaame as heck, I know. Worst of all it's in Western order Dx Hikaru stuck, though. So, last year I believe, I decided to change my 'last name' if you would call it that, and decided on Hikarino. In other words, Hikari (light) no (of - it's a possessive particle. Like 's), so of the light. And then Hikaru is to shine, so Hikarino Hikaru is the shining of the light, kind of. Hikarino kind of stuck, and you don't see it much around the net, so that's why I use it = )
...Yeah that was more information than you ever needed...

11. Tell us your favorite animal and why.
My cat <: She's cute and fluffy and I loooove her x3;
Cats in general are pretty nice though, so I guess I'll say cats are my favourite.

12. Some people say that they can remember people better if they associate them with an animal or make up a rhyme. Make one for yourself.
...Can't be stuffed : D

13. I can speak bits and pieces of different languages. What about you? What are they?
I can speak a fair bit of Japanese. But, my vocabulary is lacking.

14. How do you feel about your art? Is it where you want it to be, or are you improving?
I... quite like my art at the moment. I like my style, and I'm quite proud of my colouring 83;; But Dx My poses are lacking as can be! And my anatomy... horrific. I can't design clothes for chocolate, and don't even get me STARTED on my inability with creases.

15. Do you use copics, prismacolours, or any other type of marker?
No... If I bought markers, mum would kill me for wasting my money I'm sure : D

16. Wow! Your avatar is adorable! Where'd you get it? And what exactly is it?
...A horrifically crappy picture of me I plan to change sometime

17. Was this an interesting tag, or are you bored... ]]> ~Hikarino WTH, DA. Also, I got tagged xP http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/17859907/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/17859907/ Tue, 15 Apr 2008 05:52:43 PDT
Anyone else finding it annoying? 8D Or am I just weird? D8

Anyway! I got tagged by anim3xangel. This is rare for me xD;;;

The rules:

~1. Post these rules.
~2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
~3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
~4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
~5. No tag-backs.

1. I'm no good at talking about myself
2. I'm presently obsessed with tegaki
3. I constantly think people hate me and/or find me an annoyance. Low self-esteem or self-confidence or something. As a result, I avoid people, because I don't want to get in their way. This has led to people seeing me as anti-social. =/;;
4. I've never dated. Yaaay go me.
5. I'm presently in love with Vocaloids. Wish I had some vocaloid software D8
6. I obsess over Japanese to the point that people hate me for it, supposedly. TT___TT;; I didn't even think I was that obsessed... Especially not compared to a while ago.
7. I sometimes dream in Japanese. What.
8. I want to teach as many people Japanese as possible!

I tag.... anyone who wants to be tagged xD;;; -cheater-

]]> ~Hikarino Hiiiiiiiiiiiii http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/17599854/ http://Hikarino.deviantart.com/journal/17599854/ Mon, 31 Mar 2008 02:51:07 PDT
My page... she is so bland and boring D8 I need to make some arts for her... Yes I do...

]]> ~Hikarino