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<-- O__o There, not here. Yesh. ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2976238/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2976238/ Mon, 26 Jul 2004 23:04:17 PDT
---> ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2769521/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2769521/ Wed, 30 Jun 2004 07:00:16 PDT Mood: I just like boings
Listening to: "You Can Call me Al" - Paul Simon & Art Garfunkel
Reading: Eyes always hurt too much
Watching: What could I possibly watch in this state of mind?

I should be explaining myself, as I possibly worried at least one person out of everybody I know >>; Wow, one or two people..hmm.. Sorry, selfish moment.

Yeah, I was in the hospital, if but for a short time. I would have stayed longer, but I hate machines and the like, so I got out. Starting to regret that now, because I still feel blegh physically. My breathing problems are such a pain, and somehow I fear I may end up having to need oxygen tanks in order to breath. Yet, I fear I'll die without them. So I'm just confusing myself, fun fun.

Had a near-nervous breakdown last night. I was so far gone, I could have ended up in a mental institution. Don't really know what triggered it, but there was nothing I could do to control myself. Couldn't stop shaking, or these horrible urges to do bad things. Lucky for me.. Someone was there [ Online ] and he..saved me. I don't think he knows how much he actually helped. I was so scared, like a puppy who fell in a muddy ditch. And ever so brave, he came and rescued me. I want to thank him so much, because I'd really be lost without him.

Somehow, since then, I've been..well, sorta cheery I suppose. WAY better than I was. Even physically, I'm a bit better, aside from the fact that I need sleep.

Don't worry, I'm not going to let myself go downhill again. Or at least, I'll try to stay out of harms way ^^

Going to try to sleep for a while. I'm worried about a couple people I haven't seen in a while.. Hopefully I'll hear from them when I wake *lights a candle and whispers a prayer before heading to bed*

Side Note: Thank you to all who replied to my last journal

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My Amazon Wishlist

The Bup - Pokecry Online Store

The Stars Fund - Donations

Art Trades:
~lugiagirlz - Somehow, I have no inspiration. And I really owe this to you.

Commissions:
Naki - Manna, Stars, and Mejiru together [ Why have I not started yet? ]
Chari - El Camino [ I so need to finish ]

Greyscaled up to 500x500 canvas = $3
Colored up to 500x500 canvas = $4
For more info, Note me.

Money left to pay off: $33

Subeta Pets - >>; Registrations closed at the moment

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~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2751872/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2751872/ Sun, 27 Jun 2004 23:50:29 PDT
Between the hospital and here..

I don't know..

It's a bad day today.

I'd like to talk, but then again, I don't want to.

People will just end up getting mad at me for what I have to say.

So why make this journal?

Maybe so people at least know I'm alive.

Yeah.. that's it for now.. ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2656115/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2656115/ Mon, 14 Jun 2004 05:45:08 PDT Mood: I'm stupid! Yay!
Listening to: "Everybody's Fool" - Evanescence
Reading: Subeta Forums
Watching: Monkeybone [ o__O; Again ]

Dude, I bent my finger backwards and need surgery. How fun is that?

Okay, let me start at the half beginning.

Thursday, I was letting Ej borrow my bird cage for hamsters he got for free. I rode my minibike, while Ej, Tony, and some other friends were riding regular bikes. Somehow, one of them slipped and crashed into Ej and this car almost hit them. So the lady stops and says she's calling the cops on ME. She pointed to ME. But I was on the legal side of the rode for a minibike and I DIDN'T DO IT! For gosh sake, she was going like 35 on a 25mph limit road! So me and my friends ditched her by going a different way. We get to Ej's house, and his mom wants the hamsters gone, 'cause he never asked for permission. Sooo.. I end up taking them in. After we brought them home, I rode with Ej to his house, and on my way back, cops pulled me over and told me I couldn't ride my minibike anymore. THAT'S NOT FAIR! There's like 50+ kids riding minibikes and I can't ride mine over a stupid lady?! UGH. Anyway, I didn't care. Next day, I took my minibike to the park that's like a mile or two away. Ej was at the skatepark and me and Tony were at the basketball court playing 21, or Rebound for some people. Played a little rough and my finger bent back really far. At first, we thought I broke it, so we went to tell Ej. I showed Ej how far back it could go and they're all like "Why aren't you crying? If it was me, I'd be bawling right now" and they're guys which makes it funny xD I left them and drove my minibike all the way home [ finger was bleeding on the inside at this point ] and then my cousin took me to the emergency room. I was smiling the whole time I was there o__O As I was sure there were others with way worse injuries. I even waved to a little 5-year-old with bandages all over his head, and he waved back and smiled at me. Had x-rays done, then the doctor told me my tendons ripped and fell to the sides of my finger. He gave me a card to a hand specialist, because I need surgery to reconstruct the tendons. turns out my little double joint trick is also tendon damage xD Lovely, I need surgery on ALL my fingers. First, I need to find out if my insurance covers it, otherwise, I can't get the surgery and will live with a finger that's bent backwards .__x; You know, it's funny.. It just HAD to be my right hand, and just HAD to be the middle finger So yes, it hurts to type, but I can type 82wpm with two fingers. But this is a follow-up thing so you know I'm not forgetting the commissions or anything. I'll still work on them ^^ Just going to have to take loads of breaks 'cause of the finger. Too bad I'm not left handed xD

Enough rambling.. I'll update you all later ^^

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My Amazon Wishlist

The Bup - Pokecry Online Store

The Stars Fund - Donations

Artist of the week: ~QueenLizard

Download "Polka O Dolka ( English Version )" Ripped and Encoded by~Sajirou

Buddy List

Art Trades:
~lugiagirlz - RAWR! Starting over 'cause I want to make it way better!

Commissions:
Naki - Manna, Stars, and Mejiru together [ Starting over ]
Chari - El Camino [ Coloring process ]
Bubbles - Pending [ ? ]
QueenLizard - Pending [ ? ]
Clouds - Pending [ ? ]
Jlcchaolover - Pending [ ? ]

Greyscaled up to 500x500 canvas = $3
Colored up to 500x500 canvas = $4
For more info, Note me.

Money left to pay off: $33

Subeta Pets - Join now!

Have mIRC? Wish to come chat with me and other people at Sube... ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2621887/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2621887/ Wed, 09 Jun 2004 15:01:54 PDT Mood: Feeling Better
Listening to: "Aqui" - Jumbo
Reading: Subeta Forums
Watching: the Race by Kite-ridE [link]

Okay, so I was a little.. Off the other day. Make that, really off. To the brink of insanity if you will. But, after talking to some people, and taking my own advice, I'm back to being sane again. At least, as sane as I can get myself to be.

Moving on, I still have a lot to do.. Hopefully I can update later with better news.

Also, Happy Birthday LOBster ^^

Note: I put my friends list back up in random order. If I missed you, let me know so I can add you ^^

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My Amazon Wishlist

The Bup - Pokecry Online Store

The Stars Fund - Donations

Artist of the week: ~cartoonist

Download "Polka O Dolka ( English Version )" Ripped and Encoded by~Sajirou

Buddy List

Art Trades:
~lugiagirlz - RAWR! Starting over 'cause I want to make it way better!

Commissions:
Naki - Manna, Stars, and Mejiru together [ Starting over ]
Chari - El Camino [ Coloring process ]
Bubbles - Pending [ ? ]
QueenLizard - Pending [ ? ]
Clouds - Pending [ ? ]
Jlcchaolover - Pending [ ? ]

Greyscaled up to 500x500 canvas = $3
Colored up to 500x500 canvas = $4
For more info, Note me.

Money left to pay off: $33

Subeta Pets - Join now!

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http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2617860/ Wed, 09 Jun 2004 02:08:01 PDT ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2605093/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2605093/ Mon, 07 Jun 2004 13:39:54 PDT ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2587307/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2587307/ Sat, 05 Jun 2004 05:36:37 PDT Mood: Overecitement!
Listening to: "When All is Said And Done" - Trapt
Reading: Fruits Basket Volume 1
Watching: How can I watch anything in this excitment? xD

I am totally excited right now.. Today I get to meet ~tigergirl009 ^^ We're going to hang out at the mall nearby :3 It'll be so fun! I'm nervous though. I should be nervous about Tiger, but instead, I'm nervous about what she'll think of me @__@; LOL.. I'm such a dumbnut like that. The good thing about meeting at the mall though, is that it's crowded. So we're both safe, right? I'll let you know how it goes later on. I'm going to go pack my backpack and get ready, even though it's only around 8:30am and I don't leave til 12 xD *scampers away excitedly*

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My Amazon Wishlist

The Bup - Pokecry Online Store

The Stars Fund - Donations

Artist of the week: ~cartoonist

Download "Polka O Dolka ( English Version )" Ripped and Encoded by~Sajirou

Buddy List

Art Trades:
~lugiagirlz - RAWR! Starting over 'cause I want to make it way better!

Commissions:
Naki - Manna, Stars, and Mejiru together
Chari - El Camino
Bubbles - Pending
QueenLizard - Pending
Clouds - Pending
Jlcchaolover - Pending

Online Commissions - Note me for Questions/Info

Money left to pay off: $33

Subeta Pets - Join now!

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Channel #subeta ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2574570/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2574570/ Thu, 03 Jun 2004 14:11:06 PDT Mood: Brownies!
Listening to: "Blackbird" - Sarah Mclachlan
Reading: Fruits Basket Volume 1
Watching: The Life And Adventures Of Santa Claus

Bad stuff;

Cleaned the fish tank, mouse cage, ferret cage, kitty litter box, my room, the bathroom, the kitchen, and part of the basement. Washed clothes, washed dishes, took a shower. Baked brownies, washed more dishes, made coffee.

Denahi died [ One of my frogs ]. Domain/hosting still not ready. Caught cold from one of my cousins. Removed spyware from comp, only for it to come back. Perfectnav won't go away. Burnt my hand really badly. Cut my finger. Cut my nose. Gave up on my Subeta Fansite after discovering a site similiar to mine. Getting angry at pokecry oekaki and forums. Exhausted.

Good stuff;

Keith loved the birthday drawing I made for him ^^ There's a Stars Trading Card item at Subeta now. I was asked to join a Subeta Cult and be an admin. People respect me muchly at Subeta.

Was asked to work at another pet site as an artist. I lost some weight. Actually not in pain [ as of yet ]. Watched the Pikachu Short for the newest movie. Meeting an online friend at the mall this weekend. Nearing 15,000 pageviews.


Yep.. that's pretty much all my exhausted mind can think of right now..

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My Amazon Wishlist

The Bup - Pokecry Online Store

The Stars Fund - Donations

Artist of the week: ~cartoonist

Download "Everytime" by Britney Spears

Buddy List

Art Trades:
~lugiagirlz - RAWR! Starting over 'cause I want to make it way better!

Commissions:
Naki - Minna, Stars, and Mejiru together
Chari - El Camino
Bubbles - Pending
QueenLizard - Pending
Clouds - Pending
Jlcchaolover - Pending

Online Commissions - Note me for Questions/Info

Money left to pay off: $33

Subeta Pets - Join now!

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Channel #subeta ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2555635/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2555635/ Tue, 01 Jun 2004 08:22:27 PDT Mood: kjsdkjdskbd
Listening to: "Swing The Mood" - Jive Bunny
Reading: Subeta Forums
Watching: Alice In Wonderland [ The non-cartoon version ]

Edit: Okay, I revoked my cancellation request on my host, but asked them if they'd just change the domain 'cause I've been waiting so long. I certaintly hope they do so soon, because it's urking me

Anyways, I decided to make a quick amazon wishlist for the heck of it: My Amazon Wishlist

Some of that is silly..and some of it's expensive, so don't you dare go buying me something uber expensive xD

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*pounds on her keyboard* jgbfdsnsrdnm... Argh.. I canceled my hosting/domain, but that's because I'm getting my money back to order again. They totally messed up my order, so I'm going to order again, and hopefully they don't mess up this time. This wouldn't bother me, but I ordered on the 25th, and the fact that it's the 1st now just urks me. I know how long it takes for a domain to be ready and whatnot, so why make me wait so long and mess up everything?

I'm a little shakey, 'cause my money isn't back in paypal yet so I can reorder.. It just makes me nervous, you know? Of course, if it isn't back by tomorrow, I'll complain to them...

Once this whole situation is under control, I'll feel so much better and return to my normal self. Everything is so hard, and I'm confused. I'll post again later, when I'm able to concentrate better.. I'm so far gone..

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My Amazon Wishlist

The Bup - Pokecry Online Store

The Stars Fund - Donations

Artist of the week: *jlcchaolover

Download "Everytime" by Britney Spears

Buddy List

Art Trades:
~lugiagirlz - RAWR! Starting over 'cause I want to make it way better!

Commissions:
Naki - Minna, Stars, and Mejiru together
Chari - El Camino
Bubbles - Pending
QueenLizard - Pending
Clouds - Pending

Online Commissions - Note me for Questions/Info

Money left to pay off: $33

Subeta Pets - Join now! ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2539943/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2539943/ Sun, 30 May 2004 04:03:42 PDT Mood: Satisfied but queasy
Listening to: "Everytime" - Britney Spears
Reading: Nada
Watching: Nada

I've calmed down a bit after my last post Sorry if I scared anyone with my franticness.

Thanks to ~Sajirou I was able to pay for the hosting right away. However, I will use my commissions to pay him back ^^ So all commissions are greatly appreciated. And thank you guys for being so patient with me. I've been such a nervous wreck lately Didn't want to drag anyone down either, but I may have anyway x__@; lol, sorry about that.

I can't believe I actually got offers on commissions though o.o Thank you SOOO much *squeak*

For those of you interested, note me so we can set up what I'll be drawing for you and whatnot. And remember, if you don't like the image drawn, I will gladly redraw it, no problem. If you have ref pics for something you want drawn, that would help a lot ^^ Any other questions you have, note me and I will answer the best I can.

The hosting service hasn't set up my account yet 'cause they're swamped with new orders, and apparently got my domain name wrong. Waiting on them to change it. Once they change it and I've finished the layout, I'll tell you what it is ^^

I'm feeling better than I was last week, that's for sure..Once again, thanks to everybody.. My new watchers, my friends who supported me, the favorites and comments.. Everything :3

*gives lollipops and scampers away*

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The Bup - Pokecry Online Store

The Stars Fund - Donations

Artist of the week: *jlcchaolover

Download "Everytime" by Britney Spears

Buddy List

Art Trades:
~lugiagirlz - RAWR! Starting over 'cause I want to make it way better!

Commissions:
Naki - Pending
Bubbles - Pending
QueenLizard - Pending
Clouds - Pending

Online Commissions - Note me for Questions/Info

Money left to pay off: $33

Subeta Pets - Join now! ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2498376/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2498376/ Mon, 24 May 2004 14:26:02 PDT Mood: Freaking out
Listening to: "Everytime" - Britney Spears
Reading: Comics
Watching: My head explode

Okay.. I'll make this as quick as possible.. I'm going for that hosting service. It's $30 for a year of service, and it's a limited time offer. Then it goes back to $60 >>; But it has really good stuff with it, and I really would like my own host where I'm the boss and no second-thoughts about what I can and can't do, you know? Since I can't do much else with my life for a while, I need something that's going to keep me busy and happy..

ANYWAY.. I need $24 more dollars to be able to pay for the hosting..Sooo..For a limited time, I'll be accepting commissions of $3 for any type of online artwork. The largest being 500x500 canvas. Colored versions will be $4 though x__@; But Greyscale is still $3 'cause I'm desperate for the money before the hosting goes back up in price. If I can get at least 8-10 commissions, I'd be set. Only thing is that it has to be paid through paypal, and it's all online only, so I can't print the pic out to send it to you x__x;;; Remember, this is a limited time thing. The prices will change later, so get it while it's still cheap

If I can get this before the limited time ends on the hosting, I will be very happy o.o so happy, I'll cry from the joy *nod nod*

So if you're interested, reply here, or note me..pwease? *puppy dog eyes*

Edit: Once everything is arranged, this is the page to pay for the artwork purchased; Online Commissions

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Online Commissions

The Bup - Pokecry Online Store

The Stars Fund - Donations

Artist of the week: *jlcchaolover

Download "X Gonna Give It To Ya" by DMX

Buddy List

Art Trades:
~lugiagirlz - Rough Draft Done ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2487842/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2487842/ Sun, 23 May 2004 01:53:15 PDT Mood: Go with the flow
Listening to: "Go To Sleep" - Eminem, Obie Trice, & DMX
Reading: Garfield Comics
Watching: The Craft

I finally just got angry enough to hit "clear all" in my messages. Although I feel guilty for it, I'm also relieved to have it all off my back.

I'm so sick.. I need to go to the hospital, but between my cousin and doctors, they've all stopped trying. So I try to will myself to be as healthy as possible. It's almost impossible to breath now, and that's the price I pay for my doctor's ignorance. They just want more money, which means I'd have to have a better insurance.. Only people with excellent jobs could get the insurance these people are looking for. Can't stand living in this state..So friggin' greedy.

For a change of pace, I want to try some online commissions. You know, just all computerized. I draw, send through e-mail, etc, etc. This is the page I made for it "Commissions", however, I still need to add some details to it. So don't go paying for anything yet o__O; And let me know if you think these prices are fair. It's all through paypal, so if you don't have paypal, I'll have to work out some other way of payment I suppose. Basically, You tell me what you want, I draw it, and if you like it, you pay to use it however you wish.

I wanted to say more, but I feel sick again, so I think I'll lay down a while..

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Commissions - Online Commissions

The Bup - Pokecry Online Store

The Stars Fund - Donations

Artist of the week: *jlcchaolover

Download "X Gonna Give It To Ya" by DMX

Buddy List

Art Trades:
~lugiagirlz - Rough Draft Done ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2459549/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2459549/ Tue, 18 May 2004 22:46:10 PDT Mood: Worried about everything
Listening to: It's all sad to me
Reading: ...
Watching: ...

!WARNING! This will be really long and boring, so read only if you are willing


For the last few days, I've been hiding my sickness and pretending to be healthy when I'm not. I'm gaining weight, even though I've been active, but perhaps it's from eating one meal a day. I don't know. I never gained weight like this before, but it's hurting me so badly, and I think my eyesight is getting worse.. If I go blind now, I'll lose it. At least wait til I'm of old age I plead with myself, and so far, my body doesn't want to listen. I can beg all I want, but the physical pain only gets worse. No word from the doctor yet either, and I practically sit by the phone now 'cause I wanted those tests done. I need to know what I'm dealing with here. Especially since I've been wearing a sweater in 80+ degree weather. Plus, having to wear my back brace to bed because of the constant pain.

Mentally.. I've been..alright.. But right now, I'm so far gone. Tears are streaming down my face, and there's not a single soul I can turn to right now online, or offline. In fact, I've hardly talked to any of my friends except for a couple of them who were around for a bit. And I kept getting dragged off to help and unable to warn anybody, or let anyone know what's going on. Then there's here..DA. I've let so many of my friends down, and it's killing me. All I can do is get on my knees and beg for forgiveness and hope nobody hates me.

Offline friends have disappointed me. Telling me they'll come over, and then never show up. Birthmom has disappointed me by never returning my e-mails, or calling me. Disappointment from the little online store as I know no one will ever buy from it. Stress beyond belief here, and again, no one to turn to.

Can't draw..can't listen to music...Can't keep my friends happy. I've become useless once again to my fellow man, and perhaps even useless to animal kind as well. Also let my body down.. you know, it's so darn frustrating when you diet and excercise and only gain weight instead of lose it! I can't stand it!

Wanted to do online commissions, where I could charge something like 50 cents for something done on the comp, rather than having to mail pieces of paper only to worry about it being damaged. Doubt anyone will bother with that though 'cause my art is pure crap..Right now, I can't even draw a circle.

I don't think I'm depressed.. Just overly stressed. 666 new messages ( 9M | 201C | 312D | 144J ) That for one doesn't make me feel better [ Although there'd be over 2k if I hadn't cleared some..And I know I'm on 'hiatus' ]. Then there's the $2,500 I owe for my mom's funeral. The fact that I have to sell my truck doesn't help either. My little cousin might move in with me [ The one who hit me with a bat, and destroyed all the books I ever wrote, and completely destroyed one of my first computers as well. Now he's a crackhead on top of all of it ]. My cousin told me I was lazy after I cleaned all day while I was sick. I have no 'good' way of earning money right now..

The other day, I stumbled upon this awesome hosting service that would only cost me $30 a year [ This wouldn't be for pokecry though ].. But I don't even have a $1 to my name.. so after practically drooling over it for a good hour or two, I snapped back to reality and cried at the thought that it'll take me forever to ever get that much for even just one year.

I'm sorry for dragging anyone down with me. Maybe I'm just lost right now, 'cause I have no parents to guide me.. Or maybe I'm just an idiot. Either way, I think I'll try to sleep and see if this horrid mood leaves me by the time I wake up, assuming I wake before 24 hours [ If I had allowed myself to, I would have slept the entire week without moving, but I'm trying my hardest to be optomistic about things ] Love all you guys, as you're all my best friends


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The Bup - Pokecry Online Store

The Stars Fund - Donations

Artist of the week: ~Nethawi

Download "Tubthumping" by Chumbawumpa

http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2436247/ Sat, 15 May 2004 18:34:36 PDT Mood: Unsure
Listening to: Happy Birthday - Stevie Wonder
Reading: Comics
Watching: Sister Act 2

I had to change my paypal account, 'cause I had the wrong one on there x__@;

Also, once a week, I'm going to change the item in The Bup so you have other options incase you're interested.

Today was indeed my mom's birthday.. And I baked a cake in her honor. And you know, what a coincidence...Tony was having a bbq party and I was invited. Good way to celebrate, I would think.

Anyway, quick update.. My breathing is really bad, I'm annoyed, and I'm tired.. But still, okay and happy-ish..

I'll try to come around during the week or something 's to all

And a REALLY BIG to EKK :3 She knows why

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The Bup - Pokecry Online Store

The Stars Fund - Donations

Artist of the week: ~Nethawi

Download "Tubthumping" by Chumbawumpa

Buddy List

Art Trades:
~lugiagirlz - Rough Draft Done

Currently not accepting trades or requests ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2413101/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2413101/ Wed, 12 May 2004 11:05:36 PDT Mood: Happy :3
Listening to: Creedance Clearwater Revival
Reading: Comics
Watching: Up In Smoke [ Cheech and Chong xDD ]

Just to save time, here's my replies to those who commented on my last journal;

Nethawi: Don't worry about buying something from me.. It's no big deal It'd just be nice to see at least one shirt sold, you know?

Komodofrog: I was going 25 down a hill It was so fun! I wanna do that again, but I don't want to blow my engine.. or get hit by a car xD

Togepi: Definitely enjoying my minibike.. It's the most fun I've had in a long time ^^

Naki: I don't want to force anyone into buying my stuff I just want to see a sale at some point.. It's kinda disappointing to go there and see it still at zero

Spiritfox: The minibike saves a lot of time.. What used to take practically an hour on my bike, now takes me a few minutes on my minibike. Plus, I don't slow the boys down when we go places.. If anything, I have to wait for THEM xDD

Kitteh: Yes! Spread ze happiness!


Okay, onto the real reasons for this journal entry...

I'm really slow to responding to certain things. I've just been hanging out so much offline, and I'm enjoying it so much. I love playing basketball, going snake hunting, watching movies, playing video games, and riding my minibike with Ej & Tony [ Can you tell we're close buddies? ]

I count on DA for my journal entries though, because then I'm guaranteed at least ONE reply

I'm not totally away from the comp though. I like to relax online at night, and hang out at subeta.org [ I want a gold account, but I don't have $5 .__.; ]. I really like it there. It's newish, and still growing. Everybody is so nice there too. Plus, I'm now a forum mod :3 Which is totally awesome 'cause it's the first time I've been a mode for a pet site. *squee*

I've been sketching things on the side, such as some new features for Pokecry, and just plain fun sketches which I might upload later. You don't have to comment. Just knowing you may have looked is good enough for me.

Thanks to everyone who commented, faved, and added me to their watches. I can't believe how far I've come.. And I have all my friends and net family to thank :3 *happy sigh*

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Currently not accepting trades or requests ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2396705/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2396705/ Mon, 10 May 2004 04:19:28 PDT Mood: Happy, Bouncy, Hyper-ish
Listening to: Falling Into You [ FFR Song ]
Reading: Cowboy Bebop Mangas
Watching: Jaws: The Revenge

Well, even though I'm still worried about selling my truck and having to pay for my mom's funeral costs, I'm quite happy. Although I was urked by the fact that yesterday was Mother's Day, which I forgot about until I went out for chinese food and realized why it was so crowded. Ah well, I know my mom loves me from heaven :3 And Tenchi's my net mommy, so I said happy mommy's day to her Go me

I have so many keys now. With the addition of my minibike and the shed key so I can lock it up at night. Plus I have to get a chain for the bike so that's another key. You know, for when I'm at a store and need to chain the minibike up so no one'll try to take it. You may need a key to start it up, but there's lock picks and whatnot, so can't take chances. I'm quite pleased even though the bike only goes 20mph Although that's pretty fast when you think about it

I have messages here, but the ones I was supposed to check will have to wait, so to those of you expecting me to check certain deviations, be patient with me Thankies

The days are getting better once again. No one's bought from my shop yet, but that's ok It's new anyway. And I'm addicted to FFR [ Flash Flash Revolution ] and Subeta.org now. Although I only spend a couple hours between both, then I'm outside the rest of the time, or at least, only when school's out for my offline friends

I'm working on more pokecry updates, so stay tuned for that :3 and that's pretty much it for now. I'll try to keep in better touch than I have been lately *zips off on her minibike*

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Listening to: 100 Years - Five For Fighting [ Naki got me hooked ]
Reading: Cowboy Bebop Mangas [ For the millionth time ]
Watching: Lethal Weapon 2 [ For the zillionth time ]

This is nuts.. It's been over a year, and suddenly the state says "We're not paying any of your mom's funeral costs because she had a truck title in her name". So now, I have to sell my truck and pay off the $2,500+ funeral cost. The one thing I have of value and may need one day for transportation, I have to sell and it's really unfair. Bad enough I had to pay $2,000 in debts because of something my dad did, and now this. The truck is only worth $1,500, so I still have a lot more money to come up with. Guess this means I'll never get that motorcycle I wanted, and I may have to get two jobs at the local fast food resturants, and risk passing out a few times from the extreme heat of the fryers. So much for school, and changing my life

I'm sorry for being such a downer right now.. I'm worried, and upset. Things started to get better, and now things are getting bad again. I need a shoulder to cry on, but there's no one here for that...

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Listening to: Beach Boys, Gene Pitney, The Supremes, Phil collins, Paul Simon, and Art Garfunkel xD
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Watching: Lethal Weapon 2

Edit: @__@ *hugs Naki to death* I now have a store at Cafepress! It has the Bad Day T-Shirt design :3 Check it out here; The Bup

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Naki convinced me to reopen The Stars Fund where you can donate to help me out. Doesn't matter how much. A penny, a nickel.. Anything's good to me. Hopefully I can earn enough to perhaps get better medical help. Or even help me get started in getting a shop ate cafe press :3 That'd help a lot

My drawing spark is slowly coming back. I haven't had such a great feeling since I was 12, so this break is really paying off. Can't thank you all enough for the support ^^

Time to go back to being free and working towards my goals and dreams and all that good stuff :3

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Currently not accepting trades or requests ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2348709/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2348709/ Mon, 03 May 2004 04:23:31 PDT Mood: Need a nice long break
Listening to: The Beach Boys
Reading: Cowboy Bebop Mangas
Watching: Lethal Weapon 4

Well, I've been..absent a while, and I think it's been good for me. And so, I'm heading off on a real hiatus this time. Keeping away from messages except for notes of course. The messages are being cleared, and only things noted to me will be viewed and commented on. This is something I realized I need more than anything. A chance to reclaim my offline life and become a better person. I lost my drawing spark in the last few months I've been attached to my computer. Everything I've uploaded I could have made 50 times better than they are now. 'Course, if it weren't for you guys, I wouldn't have gotten so far. I'm happy about my online life, but now..it's time to be happy offline too.

The only time you'll hear from me is through this journal and if I so randomly upload something. Of course, I need someone who can help run my brother bear club here on DA so that it won't be totally dead while I'm off on my little mind adventure So if anyone knows how to run a club, and can help me out, let me know, k? Don't have to do much. Just keep it going.

And don't worry.. At some point I'll be settled and ready to come back to messages and DA fun 'cause let's face it.. I'm a DA Addict

Thank you in advance Off to live and move..and clear my mind :3

Note: Almost forgot, I updated Pokecry a little bit o.o woo

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Currently not accepting trades or requests ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2335065/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2335065/ Sat, 01 May 2004 02:06:09 PDT Mood: Boing
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Reading: Classified Ads
Watching: Nada

First off, Happy Birthday ~lugiagirlz! *shifty eyes* Need to draw birthday presents this month...

Um, yeah.. Just sorta wanted to say happy birthday xD Only other thing going on besides my utter disappointment about my offline friends not coming over yesterday is the fact that I've been working on Pokecry.. Hopefully I can update soon o.o;

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Listening to: Lean On Me - Temptations
Reading: Classified Ads
Watching: Lethal Weapon 3

Dieting doesn't work. Excercise doesn't work. Vitamins don't work. Prescriptions don't work. I'm running out of options here. The headaches I've been getting, I believe are because of my teeth. Not much can be done about it though, so I have to live with them. My current headache has spread pain into my left ear, and the lef side of my throat. The pain is so bad, I just want to cry. My eyes are bloodshot too. I've been sleeping a bit, but it's like, I can't get fuly rested. I really need a new mattress or something.

And yet, I'm STILL happy, just that I'm miserable from the pain. I'm starting to doubt my dream of being an animal control officer. If I can't handle my own pain, how am I going to train to be an officer? I know if I work hard, I can definitely lose the weight. However, this pain may never leave me, and thus my dreams will fail. Why does everything have to cost money? Medical appointments, dental appointments.. They all cost money, and as long as they do, I shall continue to suffer.

All I want is to be physically healthy, so I can pursue my dreams. Is it really too much to ask?

I hope I feel better when I wake up.. Right now, I'm burning up like a flame to a candle if that even makes sense

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Currently not accepting trades or requests ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2320870/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2320870/ Wed, 28 Apr 2004 23:15:51 PDT Mood: Tired, but had coffee/sugar so can't sleep
Listening to: Simon & Garfunkel
Reading: Classified Ads
Watching: Sister Act

This is going to be a long journal 'cause I don't know when I'll be able to update again...

It's funny how life can backfire...

I keep oversleeping. My dsl connection no longer wants to work. Petco apparently has a policy that you have to be 18 to work there. I have to go in for blood tests as I may have Chronic Pain Syndrome. I haven't been able to score any baskets in basketball. I keep gaining weight when I've changed my diet, and I excercise everyday. Had to fix my cruddy old comp [ 2-3 hours of working on it ] in order to get on my dial-up service. My younger cousin does not know a darn thing about how to raise a puppy and I can't do anything to keep him from smacking the dog in the head.

Now here's the funny part. I'm not in the least bit depressed. I'm kinda happy right now. Sure, I'm annoyed with dial-up because it takes a good 20 minutes to load a stupid page..But this could be good. It's an excuse to get out of the house more. The oversleeping thing is getting to me though. I think I'm suffering from lack of sleep, but it's really not my fault. No matter how hard I try to sleep, my body just hurts too much to do so. What am I supposed to do? Sleep standing up? Haa...riiight, like I can do that [ Although there was that one time in the doctors office when I did that xD ]. Still- I'm happy

Had my physical, and all me and the doctor did was talk. No real examinations were done. She said she wants me to go in for some blood tests, because she seriously thinks I have Chronic Pain Syndrome, considering I've had the pain over 6 months, etc, etc. And I have to pop my ears three times a day or more because my stupid right ear isn't draining right. And..I gained weight from my last visit >>; She said I look a lot slimmer, and perhaps it's all muscle.. Either way, I gained and I don't like that x__O;

Went down to petco, and asked for an application.. That's when I was told they have a strict policy that you must be 18+ to work there. Sorta felt down about that, because I was looking forward to taking my life up another step with having a job. Have money for myself, and be able to save for things I'd like to have. Like a motorcycle. I want one more than anything right now. I'd give up my dsl connection for a few months just to have one[ 'Course, I'd still want dial-up so I have some sort of contact, but it's cheaper! ]. Most of the motorcycles around here though are over $3,000 used. New ones are more like $25,000.

With all this stress, I can still say I'm happy, although I feel bad because I haven't talked to anyone in a bit since my dsl conked out.

Oh, I also have to upload a pic of a new family member.. My mouse, Punk ^^ He's so adorable

Let's recap.. How many animals do I have? Five dogs [ Sasha, Lucky, Rocky, Dude, and Axel ], two cats [ Peaches and Precious ], two frogs [ Sitka and Denahi ], two ferrets [ Peewee and Taitai ], one fish [ Kenai ], and now my mouse [ Punk ].

That's all I can think of to say right now.. Hopefully I'll get the dsl back soon and I can get through some of these messages o.o;

394 new messages ( 1H | 7M | 93C | 183D | 110J ) Yeesh o__O; that's a lot

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Currently not accepting trades or requests ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2297923/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2297923/ Sun, 25 Apr 2004 19:16:19 PDT Mood: Feeling pretty good
Listening to: Beach Boys
Reading: Too tired to read
Watching: Nada

To answer most people who replied to my last journal, most everyone I watch are friends and close friends, so taking out their deviations would be too hard to decide, you know? ^^ And most of the people I watch do comment on most of my stuff, so I'd feel bad if I didn't comment on theirs So er.. I think I may have come up with a small solution for now. I get 100+ DA messages a day... I was thinking, maybe I go through messages twice a week, and then clear the rest, and if someone wants me to see something otherwise, they can note me. It'd let me have time for what I need to do during the day, plus I'd still be going through some messages. I guess I'm just looking for an approval 'cause I don't know what else I can do.

I have to pick up job applications this week, and figure out a way of transportation rather than walking 3 hours to work and 3 hours back. I'm also discussing getting a motorcycle [ Cars scare me. I seriously rather fly off a motorcycle than get trapped in a car if I were to crash, so I'm asking that those who think this is a bad idea, to respect my choice ]. A motorcycle would have cheaper insurance, and the permit would allow me to drive it during the day to work and back. This is something I want so when I work, I don't have to bum rides with anyone. And hopefully with work money, I can pay for the school I want considering my cousin seems to be refusing to pay for it.

When summer comes and everyone's out of school, I plan to walk with Ej everyday so when summer ends I can go and try to get a job at the local police station as a Animal Control Officer. If they want me to go through some sort of training, I'll be ready. I can't wait til then. Dreams can come true, if you work hard, and if you believe in yourself.

Tonight, I'm going to sit back, relax, draw and work on some other solutions in my head...

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Currently not accepting trades or requests ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2292815/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2292815/ Sun, 25 Apr 2004 02:00:23 PDT Mood: tired but feeling alright
Listening to: 726 songs in my winamp playlist
Reading: Too tired to read
Watching: Sister Act

105 new messages ( 1M | 16C | 57D | 31J ) | All this in a days time. This is the problem. 100 messages a day is just too much. I need to find a simple solution that won't hurt anyone, 'cause you're all important to me ^^

Felt better after a little sleep, and had a chance to hang out with offline friends again. I've said before, I rarely smile, but when I'm out there with them, it's like I'm a changed person. I actually smile, and it feels good.

Online life is good to me too though, and I won't abandon it for anything. But, maybe I need some time to hang out with offline people too. The bad part about that is I get worn out so easily, and by the time I get home, I just want to sleep.

I don't know what to do o.o;;

Dislike asking people for ideas and suggestions, because for some reason I can always find the negative in the solution I'm given. I need to start thinking more positively and maybe trying to make some suggestions work.

Worn out again..and need some sleep, so I'll leave you alone o.o; And try to figure out what to do about the message situation later

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http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2285525/ Sat, 24 Apr 2004 01:58:42 PDT Mood: So worn out I don't care right now
Listening to: 726 songs in my winamp playlist
Reading: ...
Watching: ...

Edit: I got down to 36 new messages ( 1C | 26D | 9J )

I'm stopping there, because if I go any farther, I'm going to have a mental breakdown. I've been crying throughout most of these messsages, and my head is so numb right now, I can't even tell if it's on my shoulders anymore. And I'm shaking..

I just..want to sleep.. I can't handle anymore right now.. *curls up besides Tenchi and falls asleep*

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302 new messages ( 3M | 59C | 202D | 38J ) Erk.. I'm sorry I haven't gotten to these messages.. It's spring break for the kids here, and they've actually been hanging out with me..and well, it felt good to be out of the house rather than stay instead 24/7 o.o;; Even walked 2 miles yesterday and today, and rode my bike 2 miles yesterday and today as well.

Also bought a brand new bike today. First new bike in..3 years? 4 years? Don't remember, but my old bike is all rusty and no good, so this was a must. Poor Tony had to ride my old bike home while I rode the new one.. Everyone was staring at him too and he was yelling "It's not my bike! >>;;" xD

And yesterday, I helped get Tony's sister's rabbit who was hiding in the lawn mowers outside [ She lets it run around out there from time to time ]. The problem was, this rabbit is MEAN. It bites everyone, including her owner xD But as I said to Ej "If we're ever going to be animal control officers, we HAVE to get this rabbit" and so, me and him worked together and I snagged the rabbit and put her back in the cage ^^

Bleh, anyway.. I'll try to get through these messages tonight, although I'd sorta rather be sleeping, 'cause I'm exhausted. Had to ride my bike home because SOMEONE fell asleep rather than give me a ride home in the dark *glares at cousin* Hey, I just realized I rode my bike 4 miles today, not 2 lol.

Alright.. I'll quit bugging you guys o.o;

Oh yeah, and big hug to for such brave effort in getting through messages

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http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2267162/ Wed, 21 Apr 2004 10:41:27 PDT Mood: Why must I feel so cruddy Yet so happy
Listening to: How do I live without you - Leanne Rimes
Reading: Messages still
Watching: Nothing ever on 3 channels anyway

122 new messages ( 120D | 2J ) I will get through them..at some point o__o;

I have a chest cold.. Go me.. Tried going to bed at 2am, but whimpered and cried in pain til 6am when I finally fell asleep. I should probably take knock-out pills so I can just sleep rather than worrying about being in pain. I was so frustrated from tossing and turning with the pain, that I just stopped moving, allowing the pain to gradually get worse.

And even though I'm in pain, I'm still content. Not sad, not angry, but not happy..just..content. Although, I have chores, ahhh *bangs head on desk*

I can't even think right now. Everything is a blur in my mind. So I'm just going to wash dishes, and do the rest of my chores. I could kill my cousin for leaving some cigs. near me. He should know better than to leave something like that around an ex-smoker.. Darn cravings.. Gotta resist, if not for me, for my friends..*lingers off with a pile of dishes in her hands*

For those interested in reading, here's part of a dream I had when I finally fell asleep;

So everybody is on a bus.. Everybody being me, tenchi, rini, and naki. We're all in the back seats while the other kids are in the front. And of course, we get this annoying, skinny guy teacher. Suddenly, Naki yells out something [ I forget what she said xD but it was funny ]. The teacher yells at her and Rini defends Naki's actions, and so the teacher's like "Just don't do it again ¬¬" xD And Naki yells "Can I stick my head out the window again?" and the teacher replies "Yeah, whatever..." So Naki, me, Rini, and Tenchi stick our heads out the right side of the bus. That's when I start thinking about this kid who's arm got ripped off when he stuck his hand out, and here we are with our heads out.. So, being the worrywart that I am, I tried to talk everybody into putting their heads back in. The moment I say this, the scene changes and we're on this weird ride and Naki didn't get a chance to get a safety belt thing before the ride started. I clutched onto her hand real tight and said "I'm not going to let you fall, ok?" It was at this point that I didn't know where Tenchi and Rini were. The ride was going fast, high up in this mall area. The whole ride I think my hand got tighter and tighter on Naki's xD So anyway, the ride stops but only because the teacher is standing on this spinning fan that makes the ride go.. He tells us to get off. Naki gets off first, then I see Tenchi.. and Rini is right next to the fan and just as I was getting off, I noticed the teacher was going to let go of the fan and it would hit Rini because of how close she was, so I quickly got off and pushed Rini aside just in time. The fan sliced at my leg and I fell over. Getting up, everyone had surrounded Rini and someone was taking her to the hospital. The teacher turned and started yelling at me and I pretended like it really was my fault and I didn't let him know about my leg. Naki and Tenchi hadn't seen what happened and started pulling me towards a gift shop that was only open to school field trips. Tenchi and Naki were squealing over everything.. However, I was a little off and no one noticed all the blood around my leg. "I'm going to go see Rini.. I'll meet you two there, k?" and with that, I was suddenly in the hospital room Rini was in. "Stars, don't fake around me.. You're the one who got hurt," Rini said while getting out of bed. Then, I blacked out..End dream

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http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2264544/ Tue, 20 Apr 2004 23:02:32 PDT Mood: Too tired..and in pain
Listening to: How do I live without you - Leanne Rimes
Reading: ugh..Messages
Watching: So sick of tv

DIE MESSAGES! 109 new messages ( 109D ) ..I got through some of the journals though, 'cause they mean more to me.. Either this'll kill me, or I'll make it through alright

I have this horrid pain in my jaw and I'm ready to cry because of it. I'm happy in the sense that I got some things done and I relaxed a little too, but I'm unhappy because of all these pains. My left hand became so weak earlier, than even holding something as small as a pen sent pain through it. Don't know what caused it. I never had a problem like that before.

Could just sit and complain about all these pains, but I'll save that for another time I guess. Right now, I'm content and just want to sleep. Actually, I'm in the mood to draw, but since no one's online, I need to make the most of it and sleep before someone comes on and needs me o.o; Why does that seem so wrong? >>;

*sigh* I'm sorry for being who I am.. A total pain in the neck who isn't there when she should be. Too talkative when she's actually around.. and always too lazy to get her important work done, like her art trades and websites -__-;; I let you guys down too much. I sometimes wonder if I should wipe away my current online existence and just start over. As wrong as that is, it'd let everyone move on o.o; lol, now I really do sound like a depressed person.. Darn it, sorry again *scampers away before she makes herself look like more of an idiot*

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http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2262585/ Tue, 20 Apr 2004 11:24:44 PDT Mood: So tired.. But that's good since I'm all alone
Listening to: How do I live without you - Leanne Rimes
Reading: Eyes burn
Watching: So sick of tv

218 new messages ( 10M | 49C | 98D | 61J ) There we go.. it's still piling up, and I still can't get them done.

Dishes piled in the sink after I already washed a ton of them this morning. My fvorite bowl has been stained thanks to my cousin who had pasta with sauce in it and then left it out for days. If I had known sooner, it would have been soaking. It's a white bowl too, and you know it's like impossible to get pasta sauce off of white >>;;

Cleaned fish tank which took about two hours.. Cleaned ferret cage, another hour or so. Let dogs run around outside since it's so nice out [ Although it doesn't look like I'll get to enjoy it today ]

It's getting impossible to sleep. When I lay down, the pain surges through me and all I can do is whimper and hope I'll fall asleep sooner or later.

I think I'll take a nap.. and hopefully when I wake up, I'll feel better and I can get through those messages..

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http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2254920/ Mon, 19 Apr 2004 10:23:39 PDT Mood: Too much black But having fun
Listening to: The Reason - Hoobastank
Reading: Can't read. Too dizzy xD
Watching: Nothing xD Too lazy!

Note to self; Don't wear black shirt, black pants, black shoes, black hat, and have dark hair in the hot sun

153 new messages ( 1H | 3M | 36C | 69D | 44J ) ...I seriously don't think I can handle this.. Why? Because I'm dizzy right now, and the longer I leave it, the faster it builds up *sigh*

I was so happy the other day when I heard a puppy was coming over. I couldn't wait. Puppies just make my day. What happens? Never shows up.

Played Billy The Hatcher yesterday, then played football. Two on two, my team lost by two points. Would have been nice if my partner would have actually ran instead of making me do all the running *glare glare*. And when I came home, I had a temp of 101.. I know it was higher than that, but my eyes were blurry and my head was spinning.

Slept from 10:30pm til 10am. Kept waking in between and crying from the pain. Had a splitting headache too when I got up. Took some asprin, then got dragged out to play baseball [ Although I got all excited about it. Even brought my own bat xD ]. Ended up with the team I DIDN'T WANT. I didn't want that team for the reason that they can't accept my own judgement on swinging the bat. I know when and when not to hit, but they make me nervous and I make more mistakes. At least if Tony were on my team, he would have just let me be. Tony is like, the coolest team mate you could have. He's understanding, and when you need help, he's there for you. Er, anyway... My team lost big time. I kept having to run after the ball, when I wasn't even that close to it. My other team mates just stood there >>; And Jamel drank all the water! Actually, I was watching him pour it into his hands and washing with it.. What a waste. He was just going to get dirty again. I didn't get not one bit of water, while everybody else had at least a little bit *grumble*

Then, we all decided to call it quits. Tony jumped the fence home. I would have too, but my shoes aren't made for it. So I walked home the long way by myself. Came home, plopped on my bed from the exhaustion. But you know what? I'd do it all again, 'cause it was FUN being outside ^^ Should see my clothes though.. I kept sliding into the bases xD

Now, I just want to relax, unless everybody comes back out xD Then I'm going back out too. Fun in the sun.. That's just what I needed to get out of this rut that I've been in. Oh how I long for summer, and all the kids will be home, and willing to come over and get me. "YooMe's good at sports.. Go get her" *happy sigh*

*sings to "The Reason - Hoobastank"*

" I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you "

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http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2240992/ Sat, 17 Apr 2004 08:48:03 PDT Mood: Need sugar!
Listening to: Let it Out - Hoobastank
Reading: Nothing at the moment
Watching: Nothing right now

79 new messages ( 4M | 54C | 21D ) xD Well, that seems like a reasonable amount of messages I can get through..Riiight

Anyway, the sun is out, and..No one's around, which figures.. It's weird. When I woke this morning, my thoughts were the same from when I was 13 "Better get my stuff and go play basketball with the guys" then I realized.. I don't do that anymore. I mean, I still play basketball with my guy friends, but it's like once a week, once every two weeks, or once a month. Things have just gotten lonely around here. In the summer though, I don't want to be a computer geek [ No offense considering I usually am anyway ]. I need to get out of the house, and I don't care where I go, as long as it's out of this house.

Sometimes, I feel as if a dagger is in my heart, and it's being pushed in a little more every time I realize how alone I am offline. I really want to make something of myself, and stop being at the computer.. But I can't do it alone [ Fear of my father snagging me perhaps.. ] and it seems no one can see me for another year yet. I can't drive right now, and my cousin won't quit complaining about money and how I need to start paying rent. And I literally can't leave to live elsewhere due to court order.

You know, but other than those feelings.. I can be pretty happy.. I think. I want to be happy, I really do. 'Course, this frown forever stays on my face, and rarely can one see me actually smile. Aye, I don't know how to talk without bringing people down anymore. I used to be so good at faking this happiness stuff and making people happy rather then wallowing in self pity. Darn it, I'm sorry >>;

*sings to "Let it out - Hoobastank"*

"I'm not afraid to let it out
I'm gonna show you how I feel
I'm not afraid to let it out
(who cares if you dont like it)
(if you don't like it) "

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~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2234942/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2234942/ Fri, 16 Apr 2004 11:16:51 PDT Mood: Warm sunshine, and looking for a sugar high
Listening to: Out of Control - Hoobastank
Reading: Nada ^^
Watching: Jaws The Revenge

HA! TAKE THAT DA! I FINISHED ALL 100-SOMETHING MESSAGES! HAHAHAHAHEHheh..heh.. >>; got carried away there

Managed to eat something xD French fries for breakfast, and now chicken noodle soup for lunch.

My hand is seriously hurting, and it looks like it's about to bleed [ The one that always uses the mouse.. The one I'm always complaining about ] And it figures my doctors appointment is still a bit aways from now. Darn it, I really need my hand checked out, 'cause I don't want to lose it, and I want to be able to draw still. It's my biggest passion besides music [ And of course, friendship :3 ]

Ohh, and thanks for the techno stuff Naki xD I've been grooving all day to them [ Plus that new hoobastank song, wooo, thanks to Sajirou for the new album Moof ].. And I'm hooked to that darn Britney Spears song "Toxic" >>; lol, oh well

I actually excercised today for the first time in weeks ^^ Go me! I may actually regain my health yet.

Hmm, everything done 'cept of course my trade with Lugia *cling* I'm sorry Lugia.. I'll get to it, I really will *gives puppy dog eyes*

So, now I can work on Pokecry and my other sites [ That most of you don't know about o.o; lol ].. I'm realizing though, people are right about me not taking time for myself. I would, but I have responsibilities, and I feel guilty when I leave people out in my messages. I used to play backgammon though, while working on everything, but it no longer works.. o__o; *most favorite online game in the whole wide world..definitely a dork*

Um, yep, that's all I can think to rant about at 2 in the afternoon. I really wish I'd stop bothering you all with my problems and rants xD Man how I appreciate your comments though

*sings to "Out of control - Hoobastank"*

" Where should I go?
What should I do?
I don't understand what you want from me
Cause I don't know
If I can trust you
I don't understand what you want from me "

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Members of my loving family :3
http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2233182/ Fri, 16 Apr 2004 04:39:10 PDT Mood: The sun is shining, need to be happy
Listening to: Out of Control - Hoobastank
Reading: Messages
Watching: Jaws The Revenge

146 new messages ( 1M | 24C | 104D | 17J )

Either I can handle those messages, or I can't. If I'm unable to, I appologize in advance. I'm having a rough morning. Had nightmares about my mom, then about my two best friends fighting and I woke up screaming "STOP IT!" and panting and sweating with tears streaming down my face.

I'm feeling a little better now. A little tired, but I'll live. Gotta go with the flow as I always say. Bring myself to eat, get some of these messages done, then excercise or something.

I'm having a hard time keeping an apetite. I'll feel hungry, but the moment food is in front of me, I don't want it. I've been forcing myself to eat, otherwise I wouldn't be eating at all.

Think I'm also suffering from sugar high hangover xD But I'm going to go for another sugar high today as it helps me to do things. I'm a coffeeaholic, workaholic, sodaaholic, and I can multitask, and I like hot sauce on most foods xD bwahahaha

Thanks to all my friends and the people out there who supported me when I needed it, and still continue to support me. Thank you for the deviwatches, the comments, and the favs. It means so much to me ^^

*sings to "Out of control - Hoobastank"*

" Where should I go?
What should I do?
I don't understand what you want from me
Cause I don't know
If I can trust you
I don't understand what you want from me "

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Deadjournal
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Download "All I Know" by Art Garfunkel

Buddy List

Loudred Dance on Newgrounds!

Art Trades:
~lugiagirlz - Rough Draft Done

Other:
Please no asking for trades or requests at the moment. I have so many things I haven't finished yet.

Members of my loving family :3


My Accounts:
- My main art account
http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2227568/ Thu, 15 Apr 2004 08:22:20 PDT Mood: I need to make the best of the day!
Listening to: Kryptonite
Reading: Messages
Watching: Liar Liar

91 new messages ( 1C | 90D ) | ....AHHHHHH... I hate you DA for going down every time I was ready to go through my messages! >< I could have been done! *bangs head on desk*

Feeling cruddy, and want to shower, but it's so cold in the house and I might catch pneumonia. Though if I don't take a shower soon, I'm going to feel like hell on a stick even longer, rawr.

Dishes in the sink again, no soda [ Suffering major soda lag ], no coffee [ OMG..I need my coffee! >< ], my fish/frogs need attention soon.. Ferret cage can wait til tomorrow to be cleaned thank goodness. My room is so disorganized right now too. AHHH, I just want to be left alone from the messages on here, my e-mail accounts, and yeah.. Messengers are fine..but not everywhere else, rawr! Where's a sugar high when I need one?

I'm ranting because I want to feel better..yep yep, but ranting's not helping x__@;

Hey..when did I go off my hiatus? o.o;

You know, I'm trying to regain my youth by listening to the songs I USED to like o__o; lol

Hmm.. note to self..don't read certain comments in other journals if they're going to make you cry.. *jots it down*

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http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2222060/ Wed, 14 Apr 2004 12:51:54 PDT Deadjournal
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Mood: Can I have a marshmallow?
Listening to: Anything with a dancing beat
Reading: Messages
Watching: Poltergeist

See how fast my mood changes? I swear it's like constant pms *cough*why'dIsaythat?*cough*

I'm now quite pleased *huggles all her friends* You guys are the best ^^

I want to write and draw! But um.. I have too many chores to finish first *low growl*

As soon as I'm done though, I'm drawing! Yes yes!

Coffee with loads of sugar! WOOO! *sips* Can ya tell I'm getting hyper? Huh huh? Weee!

< Rabbachu > I think she's lost it o.o; She's bouncing all over the walls

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Download "All I Know" by Art Garfunkel

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Loudred Dance on Newgrounds!

Art Trades:
~lugiagirlz - Rough Draft Done

Other:
Please no asking for trades or requests at the moment. I have so many things I haven't finished yet.

Members of my loving family :3


My Accounts:
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- Where the fanart goes
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- Comic Series
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http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2220969/ Wed, 14 Apr 2004 09:44:13 PDT Deadjournal
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Mood: I hate this cruddy feeling like hell on a stick
Listening to: Rain - Cowboy Bebop
Reading: Messages
Watching: Poltergeist

Yesterday was..Kind of bad. Got flamed a lot at newgrounds for uploading my video. Although a couple people were actually really nice to me there.

Then, my cousin gave all the ham he bought to his dog. The one time he buys something other than kiev, fishsticks, rice, and pasta. I need variety. I can't stand eating the same thing everyday when I've been trying to lose weight. It's like, if I want to keep the nutrional values and whatnot, I'm going to have to eat like half a kiev a day or something, and that's so not enough food.

I JUST cleaned my room yesterday, and now it's a mess again. Blame the cat though 'cause he's the one who scattered all my stuff everywhere.

Cousin left loads of dishes in the sink for me to wash. I remember the other night, he washed ONE dish, but he had tons in the sink that were his. I hate washing dishes, because it hurts my back.

This morning, I cried because I didn't want to be me anymore. I wanted to be an entirely different person. Why? Because I don't want to drag you all down with me anymore. I want to be the "Happy-go-lucky" person I pretended I was years ago and make people sile again.

And these death dreams.. I'm not afraid to die, but why does every dream I have, have to be about death?

I wrote a 3-minute story on death this morning, just for the heck of it. It's no one in particular, so read if you wish to read;

She was laying there, dying, but she didn't know it. Getting up, she tried to do what she normally did in the day. That's when it hit her. This incredibly horrible pain that sent her to her knees. Kneeled on the floor now, she started crying. "W-what's happening to me? ...why... God, someone help me...please..." Her words echoed in the half-empty living room. No one was home. All alone, and feeling a little frightened, she tried to get back to her feet. The pain struck her again and soon she was rolled over onto her back, losing breath. "If I'm going to die, then I leave all my faith to you oh Lord..." Just as she said this, her family came home, but it was too late. Blinking once, her mind faded. Pain had disappeared a few seconds before her heart stopped. Screaming and panicing, her family tried everything to revive her. Only after a couple hours of the paramedics trying their best to bring her back to life was she proclaimed dead. All of the family regreted leaving her behind. Regreted that their last words weren't "I love you"

The moral? No matter how much you're mad at someone-don't be. And if you're leaving somewhere, don't forget.. please. Say "I love you" or "I cherish you". Anything that would make your last words something meaningful, incase something happens to that person before you get another chance to see them...

That's all for now.. I have to get back to my 141 messages

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http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2214096/ Tue, 13 Apr 2004 10:30:25 PDT Deadjournal
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Mood: I love you mom
Listening to: All I Know - Art Garfunkel
Reading: Lyrics
Watching: My flash video

Special thanks to ~Hailfall who uploaded my flash video here; [link]

Also, I uploaded a lower quality version here [ for those with slow comps ]; [link]

There's actually more added to the lower quality one, but I personally like the other one better.

I'll try to make a better quality version later and upload somewhere that can handle it.

Yes, today is April 13th, the day of my mom's passing. I miss her so much, and I'm trying not to be a baby about it.

If I don't respond to messages today, I'll look into them tomorrow. I'm getting scared of my messages day by day as the number of people I watch rises, which means more messages to go through I'm such a dork

Anyway.. I'll post later or something. I'm tired, hurting physically and mentally, and my ferrets are trying to gnaw my shoes off.

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~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2207478/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2207478/ Mon, 12 Apr 2004 13:12:31 PDT Deadjournal
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Mood: Angry.. So very angry..
Listening to: Burn for you - Kreo
Reading: Comments, replies, messages
Watching: The comments and messages building up

I'm so sorry everyone.. I don't know what to think, or what to say. I'm not sad really. I know I need to obide by the rules just like everyone else. However, this person's comment on my video disturbs me;

" Very personal. Actually, it's almost its fault.

The amateur footage in the ceremony, I mean, that's just too personal to share this with people. Almost too voyeurish. Maybe seeing tapes of her, but seeing the priest and being embarassingly brought to the coffin, that's not what I expected to see.

Otherwise, it's sad that the file got SO huge --a flash file is meant to be small-- although we realize it's made of video, which causes restrictions in regards to DA, but obviously there ain't no submitting QT clips or anything... Still, you could have used the opportunities Flash gives you by using some stills...

I didn't watch it to the end, not because I was too sad (I cry when I hear about stuff like this for my own reasons), but rather because it was mainly too personal. It's like peeking at someone's Journal--it's not meant for everyone to see, at least some of it. But enough about this.

mes condoleances "

Does that mean that person may have reported me? That that's why I had to spend from 7am-4pm replying to people and telling them the horrid news of my video's deletion? Is he/she the reason I'm so frickin' angry?!


DA's note of reason for deleting "In loving memory of my mom";

The administrator who deleted your deviation added the following:

The submission guidelines clearly state: Movies in standard media-player formats (*.avi, *.mpg, *.wma etc.) are forbidden from deviantART entirely. Video files imported into Flash, such as music videos, will not be tolerated either. Deviations that do not meet these requirements will be removed without notice. Thus, please host this kind of work outside of deviantART in future. Thankyou.

Ugh.. Thank you, those of you who offered servers and everything. It means so much to me. Right now, I need to cool down, and I'll post again later, or perhaps post on my LJ/DJ instead.. So check around..

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http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2204797/ Mon, 12 Apr 2004 04:43:32 PDT
The administrator who deleted your deviation added the following:

The submission guidelines clearly state: Movies in standard media-player formats (*.avi, *.mpg, *.wma etc.) are forbidden from deviantART entirely. Video files imported into Flash, such as music videos, will not be tolerated either. Deviations that do not meet these requirements will be removed without notice. Thus, please host this kind of work outside of deviantART in future. Thankyou.

I'm sorry to all of you who commented with your deepest sympathys.. If DA lets me, I'll still go through the comments ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2202325/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2202325/ Sun, 11 Apr 2004 18:55:56 PDT Deadjournal
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Mood: O__O Is this a dream come true?!
Listening to: Burn for you - Kreo
Reading: All these comments
Watching: The comments and messages building up

141 new messages ( 40M | 101C ) |

I..made..the front page on DA. I'm in total shock. I think it blew my mind so much that I'm just wide awake. I was so exhausted moments ago, but this.. It's unbelievable. Incredible even. *cries* Thank you..so very much.. For all the comments, and favorites, and just, everything. You don't know how much this means to me. And trust me, these are happy tears.. Easter has actually turned out for the better. Again, Thank you and Happy Easter

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Loudred Dance on Newgrounds!

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~lugiagirlz - Rough Draft Done

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Members of my loving family :3


My Accounts:
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- Where the fanart goes
- Brother Bear club I run
- Comic Series
- Photography and DA buddies

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~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2201243/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2201243/ Sun, 11 Apr 2004 16:20:45 PDT Deadjournal
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Mood: Mindless zombie
Listening to: Blackbird - Sarah Mclachlan
Reading: too tired
Watching: Poltergeist

*mumbles as she begins to fall asleep at her desk*

Worked all day on that flash thing.. Not entirely pleased, but I'm too tired to think about fixing it anymore. *pokes Togepi and Kasumichan* They got to listen to me complain all the while I'm sorry you two! I shouldn't have dragged you down with me

Got yelled at today about the power going out in the kitchen. Yep.. Something bad happens, I'm the first and only person to be blamed in this house. *sigh* All I ask if a chocolate bunny or something.. Not getting yelled at, but no candy just like any other year. Oh well, just another day.

And the messages are piling up again. 60+ >>; I'm soo tired.. I can't take it

*curls into a ball on the floor, hugging her chari plush* just want to sleep..please let me sleep

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The Good Stuff! - Current song for download there is "Night Shift" - O.A.R

Buddy List

Loudred Dance on Newgrounds!

Art Trades:
~lugiagirlz - Rough Draft Done

Other:
Please no asking for trades or requests at the moment. I have so many things I haven't finished yet.

Members of my loving family :3


My Accounts:
- My main art account
- Where the fanart goes
- Brother Bear club I run
- Comic Series
- Photography and DA buddies

... ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2197017/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2197017/ Sun, 11 Apr 2004 04:56:10 PDT Deadjournal
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Mood: Little sad, but hoping everyone has a Happy Easter
Listening to: Blackbird - Sarah Mclachlan
Reading: Cowboy Bebop Mangas
Watching: Poltergeist 3

Edit Again: More easter goodness! [link]

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Edit: I think I annoyed enough people with my little main page horror of the easter bunnydog thing.. Let's just say, 300 people are probably either thinking "Aww" "Huh?" or "Wtf?" by the time they look at their main page.

I hope I got everyone on my friend list though. Message is supposed to read " I am Stars , the Easter BunnyDog! Here to wish you a Happy Easter! Have a gummy bear! *hops away* "

300-something people got that message, and I'm pleased either way But if it doubled, I'm sorry x__@; My browser's been kinda mean to me. Now time to cook breakfast, go through my 50+ messages here, reply to some e-mails, then work on sites the remainder of the day I suppose *yawn* What a boring day

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Happy Easter everyone ^^

Rearranged my journal again. Online family belongs here with me. And Clubs, you're sort of obligated to leaving them on here anyway. If you really want to see my full list of icons, go to my other account ~Hoshi-Stars

Feeling kind of lousy. Didn't sleep very good, and I feel tremendous guilt for no reason. Like I did something wrong, but I don't know what. If I hurt any of you in any way, please tell me, because I'm sorry if I did

Well, off to celebrate [ Yeah right.. With who? Doing what? Celebrate nothing is more like it ] Er.. I mean work on things

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Artist of the week:

The Good Stuff! - Current song for download there is "Night Shift" - O.A.R

Buddy List

Loudred Dance on Newgrounds!

Art Trades:
~lugiagirlz - Rough Draft Done

Other:
Please no asking for trades or requests at the moment. I have so many things I haven't finished yet.

Members of my loving family :3
http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2190477/ Sat, 10 Apr 2004 06:26:49 PDT Deadjournal
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Mood: Unusually hyper for someone without sleep
Listening to: Sing A Simple Song - Hamsterdance2.com
Reading: Everything I can get my hands on
Watching: Jaws: The Revenge

Edit; Hell yeah, I'm feeling awesome! Maybe it was the four cups of coffee I just had in the last hour.. hmmm..

Hyper! I love being hyper 'cause then I'm all happy happy! Go hyperness! Go sugar! Woooo!

Sing a simple song! *sings with Hampton and the Hamsters*

Tomorrow's Easter, but I'm trying not to let it get me down. I'll be fine.. I know a lot of people will be thinking about me, as most usually do o.o;

WOOO! I want more coffee, but it might make me sick so I'll switch to Pepsi Bwahahahaha!

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Still trying to rearrange this journal to a more fitting manner. Kind of miss my Icon list, but it was getting way too big. Making the page so very slow

Yeah yeah, so if you don't mind hearing me rant, go to one of my above journals then comment there or here. I could post at any time of day, you never know O__O

Darn this rollercoaster of moods.. Happy, Angry, Happy, Sad, Depressed, Bitchy, Happy, Tired, Happy, Hyper, etc. I'm going to get sick from this ride.

Weee.. Still on hiatus, but feeling good enough to comment now and then, and I actually got to use this new basketball I got. Everybody loves my new basketball because it has a better grip, and it's lighter. o.o; I like basketball.. *wants to shoot some hoops but it's 7 in the morning*

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Artist of the week:

The Good Stuff! - Current song for download there is "Night Shift" - O.A.R

The Long List

Loudred Dance on Newgrounds!

Art Trades:
~lugiagirlz - Rough Draft Done

Other:
I will not be accepting any new trades or requests for a while.

My Accounts:
~Hoshi-Stars ~Dalmatian-Stars ~ Stars-Fanart ~brotherbearfan ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2179237/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2179237/ Thu, 08 Apr 2004 13:45:46 PDT Mood: Tired and moody
Listening to: Simon & Garfunkel
Reading: Fruits Basket Manga
Watching: Poltergeist

Deadjournal

I'm supposed to be on hiatus.. Yet I keep trying to get through these messages, and it's giving me a major headache. It's time..to hit..the clear button. Especially because there were a few people who uploaded so many things in the time I was gone o.o; But, you know, if there's ANYTHING..ANYTHING AT ALL you want me to look at, you just give the link, and I'll look. Lot easier that way

Thank you in advance for allowing me to clear the heapload and letting me enjoy my hiatus, even though I'm still in pain o.o;

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I will not be accepting any new trades or requests for a while. ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2178454/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2178454/ Thu, 08 Apr 2004 11:45:53 PDT [link]

Yep.. I revived it o.o go me..weee.. *falls over in pain* ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2176377/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2176377/ Thu, 08 Apr 2004 03:22:45 PDT Mood: Bored, but getting stronger
Listening to: "Headstrong" - Trapt
Reading: Fruits Basket Manga
Watching: Poltergeist

Just 'cause I don't have my subscription, doesn't mean I can't put extra things in my journal like the above

I went through 40 journals when I realized, I should be on hiatus, not answering journals. And I need to start physical therapy so I don't become too weak to leave my bed. I think that's wise, don't you?

Messages left; 212 new messages ( 1M | 1C | 210D ) |

Most likely, I'll look, but lack the comment, unless I'm sure I can say something other than "Omg, that's so awesome" Yes, I'm a total dork for not coming up with better comments.

I'm actually feeling stronger right now after working with my arms a bit, although my legs were trembling last night because I had to cook for a certain someone again. Even after hours of sleeping, he expects me to cook.

I've had the strongest urge to draw, but I'm still too weak to do so. As soon as I've gathered the strength for it, I'll draw again, definitely.

Sorry for boring you with my usual crud o.o;

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The Good Stuff! - Current song for download there is "Night Shift" - O.A.R

The Long List

Loudred Dance on Newgrounds!

Artist of the week:

Art Trades:
~lugiagirlz - Rough Draft Done

Other:
I will not be accepting any new trades or requests for a while. ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2168318/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2168318/ Tue, 06 Apr 2004 22:05:00 PDT
I got to go to Borders today, which made me forget my pain for at least an hour. I got Kanji cards to amuse myself with. And I got volume 1 of the Fruits Basket manga. *gasp* I actually have a manga besides the Cowboy Bebop ones Naki got me But it was Naki who inspired me to get this, so once again, I thank her xDD

Then, my cousin embarrassed me in this chinese resturant. He took one look at the menu prices and flipped out, and then we left before we could order anything. I felt so bad for the waiter who had to be there for all of that. Went to China Buffet. I love that place. Crab rangoon, noodles, egg rolls..

Was feeling a bit off by that time, and ready to pass out on the ground, but I dragged myself to A.C Moore, since it was practically next door to the buffet. Found an art book I was looking for in Borders but never found [ A nice guy there had made an order for it though just in case I were to come back later in the week wanting it ] And for some reason, I also got a 12" Wooden Mannequin. Actually been wanting one for a couple years now, and finally got one.

Finally went home after all of that, and I plopped into bed, took a 6-hour nap, then forced myself up again to write this journal to let you know I'll be fully restored soon enough. And just know, you don't have to call me. At some point, I'm making myself get up to read the comments on this journal and main page, so that's better than nothing, right?

Ok, I'm in pure pain again, so back to bed for me. Talk to you when I can o.o *hates being gone hours at a time* ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2162503/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2162503/ Tue, 06 Apr 2004 05:16:20 PDT [ Why am I laughing at my own pain? ]

I'm so hungry.. Someone bring me food.. It seriously hurts to walk.

Miss you all. *lays back down before she falls on floor*

Sajirou, CALL.. c-a-l-l...Great, now I'm thinking of the stupid At&t commercial with carrot top I'll be awake as much as possible today in waiting for the phone to ring @__@ ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2159163/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2159163/ Mon, 05 Apr 2004 16:56:47 PDT

Sajirou: Meepa buddy, don't worry about me too much. Afraid to tell you what happened as it had something to do with this morning, and you'd probably feel bad so don't worry. Brother Bear DVD came in mail today, and that really cheered me up. I'll try to get someone to play it for me, 'cause I'm anxious to watch. I was going to ask you to call me, but I figured you'd be on the phone with Kat, but if you do call, make it after 10 tonight. I'll have the phone put closer so I can actually reach it.

Naki: I'm so sorry I heard the phone ring all day and I couldn't get at it. Plus I was half asleep, so that was a pain in the bum. But yay, I got to talk to you anyway. Now if only someone would give me my mangas.

Tenchi: Remember how I said I overdid myself just a tad? Maybe I did it more than just a tad, lol. Try not to get lonely without me, k? Everybody is on my mind, and it's driving me crazy.

Natty: Try not to be paranoid about your milk and tea anymore, lol. I'm just kidding around with you. I'm still paranoid about my soda.

Everyone else: I wish I could give individual notes to everyone, but writing while laying down is starting to kill my arm. Just note that I'm ok and I'll be back on my feet before you know it. Thanks for all the hugs and support that I was told was on this page. I really appreciate it. ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2154907/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2154907/ Mon, 05 Apr 2004 02:48:42 PDT
]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2148981/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2148981/ Sun, 04 Apr 2004 07:50:09 PDT
And the trip has definitely been cancelled. I'm quite disappointed, but also too tired to care as I only slept about 2 hours then stayed up in hopes that something would change and I would be able to go. And as I've said so many times before, my hopes always seem to get crushed.

Might go on hiatus anyway, as I'm really too miserable to go through messages. April, the evil month of death and pain and crud like that.

Bed time..finally.. *sighs in disgust*

]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2147421/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2147421/ Sat, 03 Apr 2004 22:24:53 PST Other accounts:
~Hoshi-Stars ~Dalmatian-Stars ~ Stars-Fanart ~brotherbearfan



Just went through 20+ messages, but still have 32 left, and I'm also too tired to go through them so it's back to bed for me *nod nod*

I didn't sleep at all before yesterday, and I ended up getting dragged outside around 9am to play basketball. It was two on two, my team won with 11-4. Then, me, Tony, Ej, and Rodney played GTA 3. Finally, got a little cabin fever and went back outside. Learned I can run just as fast as Ej [ Which is pretty darn fast xD ]. Eck, then me and Ej were dragged into a car ride with his grandparents, and we rode for over an hour [ Me and Ej were both getting car sick, lol ], but when we got back and got to moving around a bit, we decided to go play some one on one basketball. That is, until I got hit in the jaw with the stupid ball after it bounced off the fence. Still, went off to play two-hand tackle football. My team won, wooo. I caught the ball and nearly dropped it, but still got it. It was hilarious because everyone thought I did drop it so started backing off from me. Oy, after that now, we played a game of 21, where we get on teams, and line up to shoot the basketball until one team reaches 21 baskets and wins. The catch is, you have to play from the 3-pointer line. I made quite a few baskets, and with one hand of course. I never use two hands [ But I'm one of the best players, so go me. ] I showed Rodney up when he was like "You can't shoot" and I got two baskets in with my one hand. Ha! Take that Rodney! And we played this game 3 times [ Took forever because we kept missing xD ] and we lost all three times by 1-2 points each round. Ah well, still good. I have NEVER run around so much in one day, especially without any sleep to back me up. I swear, it feels like I lost 10 lb's xD My pants are literally falling *keeps pulling at them* Finally, it was getting dark, and I played Street Hoops on the ps2, but because I was nodding off, I went home. And then I went to bed. Wound up waking an hour later and pulled a muscle in the back of my leg. Ohh the paaaiiin.. Well, that's it.. I've said everything in one biiiiig paragraph because I'm so tiiiiiiired. Bed time..

No word on the trip..Tomorrow, I either get on a plane, or I don't.. I'll let you know.. 'night to ya *plops back to bed*



My top 10 goals;

1. Eat healthier
2. Excercise more
3. Start school
4. Practice cging
5. Try new and unique poses in drawings
6. Design more t-shirts
7. Update Pokecry and BBF
8. Take up German again
9. Work on comic and contest submissions
10. Keep room clean ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2140910/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2140910/ Fri, 02 Apr 2004 23:53:59 PST Other accounts:
~Hoshi-Stars ~Dalmatian-Stars ~ Stars-Fanart ~brotherbearfan



^^ Got this from ~bubblez and if you want to do this, go here; [link]

Hi hoshilight-gazer,
You have 9,708 pageviews total and your 325 deviations were viewed 15,198 times, with 15,493 fullviews, for a grand total of 30,691 views.
Overall, people left 4,811 comments and added your deviations to their favourites 437 times.
Your most commented deviation was Talent Plunger Flash Edition with 60 comments, receiving an average of 4.95 per day,, while your most favourited one was Cowboy Bebop - Edward, with 21 favourites, averaging 1.15 per day.


1 Favourites were given for every 10 Comments.


Every 0.6 days you upload a new deviation, and it's usually on a Friday, with 18% (57 ) of your deviations.


Your favorite time of the day to upload is at 07am with 36 deviations and your busiest month was October 2003 with 76 (23%) deviations.


The majority of your deviations are uploaded to the Digitalart gallery ( 268 ), while your favorite category in it was Misc with 198 deviations


Comments per deviation: 14.8
Favourites per deviation: 1.34
Views per deviation: 94.43
Comments per day: 21.28
Favourites per day: 1.93
Views per day: 135.8
Pageviews per day: 42.95



My top 10 goals;

1. Eat healthier
2. Excercise more
3. Start school
4. Practice cging
5. Try new and unique poses in drawings
6. Design more t-shirts
7. Update Pokecry and BBF
8. Take up German again
9. Work on comic and contest submissions
10. Keep room clean ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2140183/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2140183/ Sat, 03 Apr 2004 03:56:28 PST Other accounts:
~Hoshi-Stars ~Dalmatian-Stars ~ Stars-Fanart ~brotherbearfan



Edit: HA! Take that you hundred+ messages that piled in! I beat you all down and answered all of them! Now no more piling! You got that? Hmph!

xD The fuzzbutt has returned and is exhausted from answering messages. And I keep making weird and random animations [ which will never be finished or uploaded 'cause they're stupid xDD ]

I'm stuck awake for the day. I SHOULD have slept, but oh well. When do I not miss sleep?

Gomen for the randomness, but I'm just plain out of it. Still no word on the trip, but so far, looks like I'm stuck with my cousin for 10 days..I'll be lucky not to go out of my mind because he's annoying. Always poking at me and telling me he's bored when obviously I'm working on stuff. *twitch* Keep control..must keep control..

Breakfast time *wanders off*

-= Earlier =-
96 messages in 15 hours. Fun fun. I'll get to them when I'm more awake. I'm exhausted for some reason. Maybe from being dragged out to play basketball o__o; heh.. Everybody likes me on their time.. I laugh at Tony who says I'm better than Ej. That's scary that someone would think that [ Then again, you'd have to know them personally to understand ]

I have my brother bear lithographs from ~Sajirou ^^ I love them! And they're huge! And, I got the CD's from ~ pdutogepi Thanks so much! I'll watch them when I'm awake enough to enjoy them [ That was fast too.. Didn't think it'd be here already ] Still waiting on my Brother Bear DVD though, but hey, I'm happy with what I have right now ^^ [ Just wish I wasn't so tired ]

Ok, enough talking for now. Don't want to bore you Plus, I'm hungry

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The Good Stuff! - Current song for download there is "Night Shift" - O.A.R

The Long List

Loudred Dance on Newgrounds!

Artist of the week:

Art Trades:
~lugiagirlz - Rough Draft Done


Other:
I will not be accepting any new trades or requests for a while.



My top 10 goals;

1. Eat healthier
2. Excercise more
3. Start school
4. Practice cging
5. Try new and unique poses in drawings
6. Design more t-shirts
7. Update Pokecry and BBF
8. Take up German again
9. Work on comic and contest submissions
10. Keep room clean ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2133677/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2133677/ Thu, 01 Apr 2004 21:42:13 PST Other accounts:
~Hoshi-Stars ~Dalmatian-Stars ~ Stars-Fanart ~brotherbearfan



Ah, at long last, I can eat now that it's April 2nd here. I kept from eating to celebrate Ansuz. This is a holiday created by Naki. So, I tried to be as supporting as possible by celebrating with her and doing as the tradition calls for. Fasting, lighting insence [ I used a scented candle since I didn't have insence ], and enjoying the outdoors [ Hey, I did go outside for at least a little bit, but it was raining so I couldn't stay out long ]. I find it rather fun to celebrate a holiday not known by many people, especially when celebrating with a close friend ^^ And Naki is close enough to be a real family member. So, why not?

I drew 152 frames in that DDawg animation, but I don't like what I put in, so I'll probably go back to where I stopped in the preview and redraw the scene I added in.

I forgot what else I was going to say xD; So um, yeah, that's it for now *goes back to working* [ New song for download below ]

Oh yeah, if you want to learn more about Ansuz, read Naki's journal; [link]

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The Good Stuff! - Current song for download there is "Night Shift" - O.A.R

The Long List

Loudred Dance on Newgrounds!

Artist of the week:

Art Trades:
~lugiagirlz - Rough Draft Done


Other:
I will not be accepting any new trades or requests for a while.



My top 10 goals;

1. Eat healthier
2. Excercise more
3. Start school
4. Practice cging
5. Try new and unique poses in drawings
6. Design more t-shirts
7. Update Pokecry and BBF
8. Take up German again
9. Work on comic and contest submissions
10. Keep room clean ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2129447/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2129447/ Thu, 01 Apr 2004 11:17:32 PST Other accounts:
~Hoshi-Stars ~Dalmatian-Stars ~ Stars-Fanart ~brotherbearfan



I can't believe this.. I MISSED my doctors appointment. This was the important one, and I slept through my alarm and everything else, UGH *bangs head on desk*

What else is going to go wrong? *shifty eyes* I'm not sad.. I'm not depressed, and I'm not angry.. But I'm not happy either. I think I'm annoyed more than anything.

My subscription to DA is coming to an end too, and I got so used to the features, nuuu! @__@

Well.. Off hiatus for now. No reason to claim hiatus...

Don't know what else to say. It's April Fools day, and I despise April..I so can't wait for it to end



My top 10 goals;

1. Eat healthier
2. Excercise more
3. Start school
4. Practice cging
5. Try new and unique poses in drawings
6. Design more t-shirts
7. Update Pokecry and BBF
8. Take up German again
9. Work on comic and contest submissions
10. Keep room clean ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2124555/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2124555/ Wed, 31 Mar 2004 17:25:23 PST Other accounts:
~Hoshi-Stars ~Dalmatian-Stars ~ Stars-Fanart ~brotherbearfan



-= Currently on Hiatus =-

Why do I get excited? Why do I ever get excited? Every time I get that way, something bad happens. This time, I found out the trip will most likely be canceled because my birthmom's work is giving her a hard time and she can't risk losing her job. I should have known something like this was going to happen. Darnit, I should just stay 'content' and never get really happy, but not get sad either, you know?

I'll unpack tomorrow or something, I'm too disappointed and tired to do anything now.

I guess I should get off hiatus, huh? Why be on hiatus when I'm not going anywhere...



Will be gone April 4th - April 10th

My top 10 goals;

1. Eat healthier
2. Excercise more
3. Start school
4. Practice cging
5. Try new and unique poses in drawings
6. Design more t-shirts
7. Update Pokecry and BBF
8. Take up German again
9. Work on comic and contest submissions
10. Keep room clean ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2120563/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2120563/ Wed, 31 Mar 2004 05:37:12 PST Other accounts:
~Hoshi-Stars ~Dalmatian-Stars ~ Stars-Fanart ~brotherbearfan



-= Currently on Hiatus =-

Why do I keep pestering myself with messages? I'm supposed to ignore them, yet I can't. Blargh. Ah well.. I'll have to once I leave on my trip o.o;

I'm extremely exhausted as I've not yet slept. In fact, every time I'm about to go to bed, someone else starts talking to me >>; Which makes it all the more hard to leave, 'cause I'm too shy to say anything to a majority of the people I talk to.

I think winamp is trying to tell me something.. It played these songs;

"The Lion Sleeps Tonight"
"In The Still of The Night"
"California Dreaming"
"Ain't That A Kick In The Head" ...Yes..It IS
"Cats in the Cradle"
"Another one bites the dust"
"River Of Dreams"
"Hotel California"
"Help!" ...Yes, I need it now
"The Sign" ...Omg, I think the songs are trying to tell me something o__O; But what?

< Winamp > Go to bed you dummy! *plays more sleep-like songs*

Sorry for uploading so much.. I seem to draw a lot more when I'm 3/4 asleep Seriously speaking.

Now Stars...go to bed.. *plops on floor and curls into fluffball* zzzz



Will be gone April 4th - April 10th

My top 10 goals;

1. Eat healthier
2. Excercise more
3. Start school
4. Practice cging
5. Try new and unique poses in drawings
6. Design more t-shirts
7. Update Pokecry and BBF
8. Take up German again
9. Work on comic and contest submissions
10. Keep room clean ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2117091/ http://Hoshilight-Gazer.deviantart.com/journal/2117091/ Tue, 30 Mar 2004 16:20:25 PST Other accounts:
~Hoshi-Stars ~Dalmatian-Stars ~ Stars-Fanart ~brotherbearfan



-= Currently on Hiatus =-

Bad Stars! Supposed to be on Hiatus, but nuuu, went through 50 messages today. Tsk tsk, I'm so bad with trying to relax. I could be drawing or something, but I'm a multi-tasker! I need to do a ton of things at once.

Almost done packing my stuff, although I don't leave for a couple days yet.

And, naturally, I'm exhausted, but I'm on a sugar high. I'm laughing at everything, and singing loudly. Man I'm silly..

I'm uh..here..if anyone needs me in the next little bit xD I think I'm boring myself



Will be gone April 4th - April 10th

My top 10 goals;

1. Eat healthier
2. Excercise more
3. Start school
4. Practice cging
5. Try new and unique poses in drawings
6. Design more t-shirts
7. Update Pokecry and BBF
8. Take up German again
9. Work on comic and contest submissions
10. Keep room clean ]]> ~Hoshilight-Gazer