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Ok let me explain kinda since I don't feel like getting into the whole thing, some of you know already sooo~

I have a friend who is really pissed becasue I sayed I would go out with her and then said no after a con. Let me get this clear, we never went on that date, never made any comment to each other, and she mostly kept away from me.

I told her that in all reality we wouldn't make a good couple and she took this REALLY hard. I mean, she's really sad about this, saying she's crying every night, that she doesn't want to go outside and that I lead her on.

There is more to the story and I can fill you in if you want but I'm at work and I dont' have a lot of time left.

Okie...

I keep telling her that I feel bad and that she needs to talk and that I don't want her to be sad. I've been feeling sick becasue of it, I feel like I ruined her life.

I don't know what to do.

I keep telling her that I feel bad

]]> ~Huxaiu http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/28530774/ http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/28530774/ Mon, 23 Nov 2009 14:54:52 PST
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. I'll tell you my favorite thing about you.
9. I'll tell you my least favorite thing about you.
10. If you play, you MUST post this on yours

]]> ~Huxaiu http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/28041435/ http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/28041435/ Fri, 30 Oct 2009 06:54:29 PDT
Let me explain, I have a small video camera that I bought with my money a while ago. So I could film me and my friends being silly, hurrah!
I keep in on my burro (which is a mess). I keep it there, on a tripod (So it's screwed on) and has it's little fleece cover on it.

So my father comes into my room asking to borrow my camera so he can film some stuff and I'm kinda wary about it (for reasons). I tell him that there is a lot of stuff on it so there isn't a lot of space for him to really film. So what does he say?

"No there isn't"

Excuse me? Yeah there is, me and my friends going though the corn maze and some of my Aussie stuff.

"I took it and put it all on the computer, I was bored".

Oh YOU were BORED so you find it OK to go through MY camera and WATCH all the footage and then PUT IT ON THE COMPUTER AND DELETE IT OFF MY CAMERA!!!???

So I got angry and said that it wasn't freakin' cool and that No, he wasn't allowed to borrow my camera because If I did that to him he would be grinding my bones to make bread or whatever.

So my camera is totally empty. I'm glad I didn't work on my Fem-Aussie thing yet.

He comes back in saying her understood and that he would be angry too if I did that to him. Trying to make everything into a joke and starts talking about the cats to make him look funny.
Yeah, I'm still pissed. I don't hate you but fuck damn am I pissed.

I'm really ticked. Sorry for the rant.

]]> ~Huxaiu http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/27917835/ http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/27917835/ Fri, 23 Oct 2009 05:39:58 PDT [ ] You come off as sort of aloof to other people.
[x] In public, you intentionally refrain from showing much weakness.
[x] You have a secret obsession with something cute.
[ ] You pretend that you hate your crush even though you really love him/her. (Not hate, but I act all I don't care either way I 'crush' )
[x] You blush when people point out your sensitivities.
[ ] You blush when people tell sexual jokes.
Total: 3

Yandere (Gentle Outside-Harsh Inside)
[x] You’re very sweet and kind in public (I always seem to be the only one helping the old ladies with their grocieries).
[ ] When romance becomes a topic of discussion, people say your personality changes drastically.
[x] You know some sort of martial art, swordplay, or otherwise.
[ ] You have a crush who you’d literally kill for.
[x] You have a pet-peeve that makes you snap.
[ ] Schizophrenic?
Total: 3

Meganekko (Girl-with-Glasses Character)
[x] You have glasses.
[x] You can sometimes be clumsy, ditzy, or absent-minded.
[ ] You are always very polite in your speech.
[x] You are fairly intelligent in some field.
[ ] You take discipline seriously.
[x] You have some sort of fetish for something.
Total: 4

Tsukkomi (Angry Guy)
[x] You have a friend who often makes dumb or embarrassing remarks.
[x] You smack/beat up this friend in some way.
[ ] You do your best to maintain a calm facade, only to be thwarted by this friend.
[ ] If you & your friend were a yin-yang, you’d be the “yin"
[x] You swear a lot.
[ ] You try to bring out the more serious side of your ridiculous friend.
Total: 3

Boke (Dumb Guy)
[X] You often make silly or embarrassing comments.
[X] You like annoying the heck out of your best friend.
[x] You often get beaten up by your friend in some way, but you take it in good stride.
[ ] If you & your friend were a yin-yang, you’d be the “yang”.
[ ] You are normally very laidback and carefree.
[x] You try to bring out the happier side of your angry friend.
Total: 4

Nadeshiko (Perfect Wife)
[ ] You are always, almost overly, polite.
[x] You love traditional Japanese culture.
[ ] You often wear either a kimono, yukata (summer cotton kimono), or apron.
[/] You’re an excellent cook. (I wouldn’t say excellent but I won’t burn the house down!)
[ ] You are hardly ever angry.
[ ] You have really long hair.
Total: 1.5

Sexy Character
[ ] Your bust/package is...formidable.
[ ] You like making sexual innuendos.
[x] You encourage trips to the beach, pool, or onsen (hot springs).
[x] There are some sexual things that you are ignorant to or need explained to you.
[ ] You’re an expert cosplayer.
[ ] You like the taste of alcohol.
Total: 2

Loli/Shota Character
[x] You like sweets or chocolate.
[x] You adore cute things and/or the word “kawaii”. (I’m a good dork and I don’t shout Kawaii all the time, unless the situation TRULY calls for it.
[/] You use Japanese suffixes like “-chan,” “-tan,” “-sempai,” etc... (I used to)
[ ] You add unnecessary suffixes to the ends of your sentences, like “nyo,” “nyu,” “un,” etc...etc~~~
[x] You are considered gullible or naive.
[x] You have a tall/powerful friend who protects you. (BECAUSE ALMOST EVERYONE IS TALLER THAN ME, I love it :3)
Total: 4.5


FUUUUUU- I'm a freaking Loli/shota character god freaking Danmmit I wanted to be bad-ass! See, I can be bad-ass Hi-YA!! *punch*
Guess I should start wearing skirts now huh? *hangs head in shame*

]]> ~Huxaiu http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/27885967/ http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/27885967/ Wed, 21 Oct 2009 09:40:14 PDT
Like, maybe whatever you think of first when you think of me.
~~~~~~~~~~~

This should be interesting. That and I'm bored *passes out* I don't know why but when I go to school and come back I feel even dumber.

]]> ~Huxaiu http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/27715032/ http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/27715032/ Sun, 11 Oct 2009 20:15:09 PDT
This close *pinches fingers close together*

Ok, not really.

I don't even know what to call me, Bi I guess.
I feel safer with women, men make me want to run away and I just don't feel, I guess safe with them.
I've been confused about this for a long while, since middle school I would say but I've kept my mouth shut since I didn't have anyone to talk too.

My mother and father I guess, are open people. They would accept me if I was Gay, Straight, Trans, Bi, or Asexual. But, it doesn't mean I want to tell them. My mum I guess would be ok with it but my father would probably make fun of me (in his own way not in a mean way) but I feel too embarrassed.
But I think, what if I ever do get a girlfriend or something? I don't have to tell them but I would feel bad.

I told my mum it was national coming out day and she goes "have something to tell me?" I just ignored her and brought up another conversation.
Hurhurhur

She almost set me up with some guy and I'm glad she didn't I would have cried.

I mean the fact that I'm posting this here is a big leap for me. I just started to talk to my friends about this and even then it's hard for me.
*sigh*

I will one day, just not now. I'll think of how I'll tell them. S'not like I'll be letting them down or nothin'. They know there is a good chance they aren't getting any grand kids outta me LOL.

I should find someone to talk to about this, maybe it'll help me build up some courage.

I bet my parents know, they are sneaky and know things.

bastards lol.

]]> ~Huxaiu http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/27617210/ http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/27617210/ Tue, 06 Oct 2009 15:00:27 PDT
But, I thought I might as well get rid of that nasty journal post I made a while ago when I was angry and fill that spot with happiness.

Well, I'll try.

I want to thank everyone, everyone I've met over this year.

Dear gods people I don't think you understand what you've done for me.
We are still getting to know eachother but you've made me feel so much better about myself.

You've helped me get out of my shell that I've been in, I mean I'm still kind of in there but I'm starting to find what I really am.
I'm not the "super kawaii anime" freak that loved Japan with all of my heart that followed all the other fans just to fit in.
Yes I love anime, but there are other loves out there. The whole world is beautiful not just Japan, even my own country is beautiful and I want to make it even better!

You helped me realise I don't need to shape my likes to make friends and I don't have to have drama for people to pay attention to me.

You guys rock, honestly~!!!!


But, I've been doing good in school after just forgetting about those idiots at my school. I might even go to England to study during the summer!

Now I'm going to contemplat my life and listen to Nerdcore Rap.

]]> ~Huxaiu http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/27093357/ http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/27093357/ Tue, 08 Sep 2009 12:13:20 PDT
So it started by a guy asking me to join the Anime club so I showed up and was the only one there. He decided to make me the President and make me go make this club. Sure whatever.

I go to our student thingee and was told there was another girl working on making the anime club named Amber. Sweet, the more help the better.

So I finally meet her and she's a ditz you know those anime fans who try to act like their favorite anime shojo girls. Whatever I try to make friends with her anyway. She tells me she was going to get signatures and help Awesome!

No, I get every signiture, and go and talk to the PRESIDENT of the school all by myself. I made the club true, I made posters and got a location and made meeting plans.
She asks if she can be co-president.
No, we have to hold an election. So we do and I make president. Woo-hoo!

So I try to make meetings work mind you club meetings are ment to plan fun things. I got yelled at by the memebers saying I made things too borring. I tell them whats what. At the time I had a lot of hospital meetings. So I missed some club meetings but the vice-pres. is supposed to take over and I told him to.

So after a while people just started goofing around my membership dropped like a fucking rock and we just watched shitty anime and broke rules.

So almost last day of the semester and I was told that Amber has decided me kick me off of being president and make herself president without a vote and decided to merge the Art club and our club.

Excuse me?! Art and Anime are different. Art is a large scope not just anime and cartoons! What about sculpture, or music?

So last day of club and I gave them a HUGE speech about what they did wrong, not having any of the elected memebers here when making a decision, a merging of two clubs without official work, and a lot of other shit.
I don't get angry very easily, I don't. But, this pissed me off becasue they gave me the look that I yelled at them for no reason and I was a mean mommy or something.

Thats why I hate Amber. I hate them, and they think they did good and I'm evil.
They fucked me over, I didn't. I wanted to make everything fun and even plan a Japanese Festival at BHCC!

No. They wanted to watch semi-porn

Bastards

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Sorry about that. I just wanted to get that story off my chest.
I saw Amber at school today, she tried to be chummy with me and I ignored her. I'll talk to her reasonably when I'm not steaming with anger.
She broke what trust I gave her and it hurt.

But!

Six Flags, I want to go. This Saturday! But I need a ride *pokes* anyone? LOL
I would pay for gas of course~
I miss everyone....

Oh side note, what would you think if I cosplayed Finland? do you think I can pull it off?
I know I can't pull of Russia but I'm going to do it one day anyway >

]]> ~Huxaiu http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/26976277/ http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/26976277/ Wed, 02 Sep 2009 12:09:01 PDT - Available: Yepers
- Age: 19
- Annoyance: A lot of things
- Allergic: Nothing that I know of, but I might be allergic to whatever’s in the Lush bubble bars
- Animal: domestic? Cats and Small happy dogs (Terriers)
- Actor: None really, I never know their names.

B
- Beer: I know of it, I keep trying and I can never like it *sulks*
- Birthday: July 3rd
- Best Friend: No Best friend but a good circle of those I can trust.
- Body Part on opposite/same sex: Face shape? Hair but I don’t know if that counts
- Best feeling in the world: laughing with friends
- Blind or Deaf: Umm, Blind. I can’t live without music or reassurance that people are there
- Best weather: Sun with a few light clouds in the sky and a small windy breeze in 60-70 degree weather!
- Been in Love: Sorta
- Been bitched out?: Yep
- Been on stage?: Yes, I was in theater for a long time and choir
- Believe in yourself?: Changes.
- Believe in life on other planets: Yes!
- Believe in miracles: Ehm, not really.
- Believe in Magic: yes, (and fairies, shut up.)
- Believe in God: Gods and Goddesses but I don’t think they really do anything but watch.
- Believe in Satan: No
- Believe in Santa: *fidgets* Yes.
- Believe in Ghosts/spirits: Yes, and as much as I like to learn about them I’m scared as hell of them *shivers*
- Believe in Evolution: YES!

C
- Car: I don’t drive but one day I will have to and I hope it’ll be a police cruiser
- Candy: Om nom
- Cake or pie: Depends on the situation, but pie

D
- Day or Night: Day then night
- Dream vehicle: MOTHA FUCKING TANK!!
- Danced: Yes, not something you want to see LOL
- Dance in the rain?: Yes, when I was a kid
- Dance in the middle of the street?:Yea, got yelled at? Yes

E
- Eggs: Are yummy
- Eyes: Green/hazel they change.
- Everyone has: cells?
- Ever failed a class?: Yes *cries* Why do I fail!! I’m going to do SO much better this semester I promise!

F
- First crush: Alex Barbados 1st/2nd grade
- Full name: Catherine Isabelle Bonna
- First thoughts waking up: Lately? Is mommy making foods?
- Food: I’m ok right now thanks.

G
- Greatest Fear: Illness, death, and being alone in a dark place I don’t know.
- Gum: *chews like a cow* I usually only chew It when I’m alone or my breath is gross.
- Get along with your parents?: Yes, but we get in disagreements.

H
- Hair color: Dark Brown. Right now it has a fake red highlight.
- Height: Fuckin’ short. 5’0-5’1
- Happy: Happier than I’ve been in a while.
- Holidays: Halloween, Christmas/Yule (even though I’m Pagan) and New Years
- How do you want to DAI: Um Never? Ok, in my sleep or really quick.
- Hate: Fanatics (religion mostly)

I
- Idiot: I like to think not, but I do stupid things but I learn from it.

J
- Jewelry: Sometimes
- Job: I wish I didn’t have to do it yet I need more hours.

K
- Kids: NEVAR!!
- Kickboxing or karate: Karate, but only for a short time.
- Keep a journal?: Sometimes

L
- Longest Car Ride: 6 hours. But when I was three I drove from Florida to Mass
- Love: as much as I can.
- Letter: C? Maybe J?
- Laughed so hard you cried: I love doing that
- Love at first sight: I can understand feelings like butterflies but not love.

M
- Milk flavor: Strawberry
- Movie: Mirror Mask
- Mooned anyone?: No
- Marriage: Maybe?
- Motion sickness?: Sometimes
- McD's or BK: Burger King!

N
- Number of siblings: 1
- Number of piercings: two, I used to have four but they closed up.
- Number: 42, 7, 12, 9, 67

O
- Overused phrases: “Yep” “fail” and “emo!”
- One wish: That people would stop doing shit.
- One phobia: Bees!

P
- Place you'd like to live: Boston, I like Malden but I also like the city.
- Pepsi/Coke: Pepsi.

Q
- Quail: will allow dick chenny to shoot you in the face
- Questionnaires: This.

R
- Reason to cry: Frustration, Loosing, and lose.
- Reality T.V.: Not so much.
- Radio station: Public Radio.
- Roll your tongue in a circle?: Mmhm

S
- Song: Story of a Girl (Absolutely)-Nine Days
- Shoe size: 8-81/2-9 depending on the shoe orz
- Sushi: Vegetable
- Skipped school: Yes, to be “cool”
- Slept outside: Yes, then scared to death.
- Seen a dead body?: Yep, but only in a funeral home and in Forensic science books
- Smoked?: Yes, not cigs so much.
- Skinny dipped? No
- Shower dai... ]]> ~Huxaiu http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/26647102/ http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/26647102/ Mon, 17 Aug 2009 10:13:40 PDT
So, I'm going to update on stuff like, Conneticon, Coffey-Con, Hetalia Olympics and life achievements.

So CC!!

It kinda sucked, ok it really sucked. Well not when I was away from my "job" When I was able to hang out with my friends it was great. But most of is was ass kissing and being treated as a child, that statement alone makes me feel like a child but whatever.

Best part though of the con had to be Friday night. I decided to go to the rave and since NONE of my roommates dance I went alone. I went to go see if a couple of my friends came down (they said they love the rave). I didn't see them and I realized the Hetalia panel was going on. So me being all glowey ran down and caught the last 15 minutes of it.
I met up with peeps and followed them to their hotel far away all stalker-ish *Sneak*

Other than that I worked hard and got yelled at.

Then I went to Coffey-con and had epic lulz, almost too many to write.

I got picked up by Dayvn and then we whisked away to pick up Tabi. Then we went to eat for lunch and went to Mickey D's. I got a kids meal
It was awesome!

We eventually got there, and then it became kind of a blur~ that’s what happens when I have fun hehe.
*Awesome burgers and hotdogs from America~
*Riding in a cart at Price Rite! And Prussia teaching me to be Awesome!
*Playing Apples to Apples and me shouting "Fuck this game" and being sulky. America winning hands down.
*Trying to do the Blair Witch Project, but the camera died D: Me being scared like the pansy I am. I swear I was chanting in my head "I'll be brave, I'll be brave~"
*Getting out of the woods then following France and Spain right back into it to see the stream they found. There was a stream I swear!
*Going into the awesome tents and I took the tent with Austria, Prussia, Spain, England, France and Me (Aussie) in the order.
*Got pants thrown on my head by Prussia and screaming "WHY!!!"
*Got to cuddle, never done that before
*Work up (after falling asleep at 3:30am) at 5:30 having to pee.
*Tried to go back to sleep and had to go again at 6:00am and just stayed awake.
*Took a look around and Austria and Prussia were snuggled, Spain was in the corner and England was stiff trying not to go near anyone. France, oddly enough had her hand down her pants. Giant smile on her face. Okay~?

We all woke up, and had pancakes with syrup and nutella!
Played more games and then we all had to depart.

I then got to hang out with Tabi (Prussia) and Dayvan (Austria) and we went to go eat at a rest stop and we acted like south Italians (me and Dayvan).

Then more driving and we went to the Outback Steak house. In cosplay of course~ I was soooo tempted to act Australian but my accents isn't good enough. But one day I will!

Then I was driven home ^_^

Hetalia Olympics-
They were fun, I should have planned better. And if this happens again I will do much better I promise! *Pumped*
I was taken back to the English (I was Aussie) and I sulked)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

As for life its self, it's quite confusing. I've made new friends so quickly. I love it and I hope we become better friends!

I've still been feeling lonely though. Probably because the friends I've made are pretty far from home?
I guess I'm lonelier on a romantic level. I feel like such a fool when people talk about romance or even intimate stuff.
/Emo silliness.

But hey, no reason to get down about that! Life works in its own ways and things are bound to happen!!!


I need to clean my room

]]> ~Huxaiu http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/25761077/ http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/25761077/ Sun, 05 Jul 2009 19:58:58 PDT
Whatever, I ramble too much.

Things have changed, Hair, friends, fandoms, even just how I see the world.

My art style has matured although it still needs quite a bit of work.

Hopefully I'll get my hands on a tablet one day. But, now I think back and I realized.

I still don't have a scanner OTL

But I want to get the ball rolling, even if I have to photograph my art. I'll try to make it look the best I can.

]]> ~Huxaiu http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/16788536/ http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/16788536/ Fri, 08 Feb 2008 16:59:50 PST I just gotta get there and do it LOL.
For a bit I've been having a bad art mood and it's making me mad. Nothings coming out and nothing can be drawn right, GRRR.

I will be going to a good amount of Conventions this year, Anime Boston, Conneticon, and more I belive. I wouldn't mind doing little portraits for really cheap (since they arn't that good) but whatever I don't think anyone reads this.

]]> ~Huxaiu http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/16178074/ http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/16178074/ Mon, 31 Dec 2007 05:56:36 PST
At one point I'll try to take over a scanner and post it all but danmmit. No one really reads this, this is more for myself so I can get my butt in gear and acctually do it!
And all of it's kinda original which is good, I mean there are Harry Potter aspects but thats becasue me and my friends are making a Harry Potter fan club and we are the house heads and I drew us in the robes and stuff.

But back to the development, I feel confident that I am now drawing in the right proprtions (although the chest sometimes is a little big)
Hands are still annyoing but are known as hands, feet on the other hand yea arn't so much. I've been reading Saiyuki and have been looking at her art and seeing how I could do things.
That is one thing about me, for a bit I'll copy some art but I NEVER say it's mine since it's not. But I'll look at the art and copy what I see and sometimes it's completly different but it's so I can feel what it's like do draw a hand or a foot or someones back and after that I morph it to fit my drawings.
Thats how I started, I did that with Inuyasha (hehe) even though it look NOTHING like it, all boxey and gross ew...

Well thats about it, I also like to take suggestions of what people thought were funny since I like to draw comics. So if you have something just give me a descripiton of the poeple and the text and voila, but now that I think of it I'm writting this on DeviantArt and everyone here is and artist...whatever *faceplant*

]]> ~Huxaiu http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/15356453/ http://Huxaiu.deviantart.com/journal/15356453/ Sun, 04 Nov 2007 05:26:30 PST As for me, I'm a 17 year-old girl with bright pink hair.
I love cosplay and anime, right not Naruto most of all but don't judge me just becasue I like Naruto I like alot of other animes too like,
Gravitation, Saiyuki, Death Note, FLCL, and a bunch more I can't think of right now.
I've been wanting to start a webcomic that I will call "Lifes Little Quirks" and it's been in my head for awhile.
I love new ideas for art alot and I'm attempting to get into an art college.

]]> ~Huxaiu