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]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/22558758/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/22558758/ Tue, 13 Jan 2009 09:59:08 PST [link]

Hannah Forest Photography Merchandise

pretty cool

]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/21443539/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/21443539/ Tue, 11 Nov 2008 18:00:38 PST A camera around my neck has always been my diamond necklace, and looking through a lens always put everything in perspective for me. But after a semester of "real" college I'm afraid it might not be what I want anymore.
I crave to be creative, but I just can't seem to find it in my anymore.
I know people say just chill, relax and let the creativity come to you but it has been so long that I'm afraid it may be gone forever.

So I'm thinking about minoring in Photojournalism
Majoring in Veterinary Medicine or something else.


I just want to change the world,
but I really wanted to do it through photography...

]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/17519669/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/17519669/ Wed, 26 Mar 2008 03:06:31 PDT I miss you.
Please come home.
I need you more than i thought i did,
and hope your not gone forever.
Love,
Hannah


Dear Creativity,
It's me again,
I truly do miss you and really hope you get this.
I pray that one day you'll realize that this was all a big mistake,
I never meant to use you like I did.
I never meant to silence you when you had the most to say.
I know I don't deserve you,
I really do need you in my life.
I'm nothing without you.
Please come home.
Love
Hannah

Dear Creativity,
This is beginning to seem like a pointless plea,
and I hate what you're doing to me.
I'm empty, lost and confused without you.
I'm like a body without it's soul,
and I can't promise that I can keep control,
much longer.
You were the only thing to make me feel like I belonged,
and I searched for years before I truly found you.
Before I was able to harness and understand you.
And with one single breath,
you were gone.
And I just want to know where you went,
and want you to know I miss you.
I'm sorry.
Please come home.
Love
Hannah

Dear Creativity,
You're really starting to anger me.
I know that when you come back,
you'll force yourself in and turn my life completely upside down.
You'll steal my focus and overflow from my fingers.
I won't be able to keep up.
Why must you build up inside me?
I miss you being out in the open for everyone to see.
I miss you being the center of my attention.
I'm sick of this hiding.
I know you need me too.
Why can't you just admit it and come home?
Please come home.
Love,
-Hannah

]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/16970801/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/16970801/ Tue, 19 Feb 2008 23:55:10 PST and my eye keeps twitching.
My heart feels like it's going 120 beat a min,
but also feels like it's completely stopped.
But my pulse is 84 (an average for me).
My head is rocking back and forth to the music,
and my eyes want to close,
but need to focus on something.
Anything.
I've never been so paranoid of nothing,
and i've never craved to be around a crowd of people so bad.
Even though a huge part of me wants to be alone.
I took less than my normal amount of adderall today,
so why is this happening.
Side effects this strong normally only happen during finals,
when I haven't slept for days and Adderall is the only thing keeping me going.
My teeth feel like I've pushed them out with my tongue,
and my mouth is so dry.
All i want to do is create,
but my subconscious is too afraid of what i might destroy.
A perfect piece of paper,
with a stupid little sketch.
My heart wants to draw
but my brain wants perfection.
All i want is to watch Requiem for a Dream and draw away,
but all i can do is sit on the floor in front of my bed
and rock back and forth to the theme.

The side effects of starting Adderall again after a weekend off,
I guess you'd have to be in my shoes to understand.

]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/16767914/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/16767914/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 10:31:40 PST [link]

^^Hannah Forest Photography


Check it out
and tell me what you think.

]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/15785137/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/15785137/ Mon, 03 Dec 2007 19:50:23 PST I have Mono.
Luckily it hasn't been to bad.
I just kinda feel like shit all the time.
But it means i get to talk to my family more which is nice.
I've talked to my Auntie Em/Grandma a lot lately and i love it.
I love them.
I get to see them Jan 3rd-13th.
I am very excited

Ok.
Well i gotta do some homework.

]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/15785133/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/15785133/ Mon, 03 Dec 2007 19:50:05 PST I have Mono.
Luckily it hasn't been to bad.
I just kinda feel like shit all the time.
But it means i get to talk to my family more which is nice.
I've talked to my Auntie Em/Grandma a lot lately and i love it.
I love them.
I get to see them Jan 3rd-13th.
I am very excited

Ok.
Well i gotta do some homework.

]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/15501343/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/15501343/ Wed, 14 Nov 2007 00:28:14 PST I got into a good school, and I am working my ass off just to be as good as the other kids.
I am working my ass off in classes i don't particularly like, on subjects i don't give a shit about.
At my school it is almost impossible to get an A, and a you're lucky if you have a B.
So i have all c's. But I work my ass off to get those C's, and almost all my classmates have C's.
A C at this school means you understand what you are doing and you are decent at it, but you aren't a pro.
I mean my lowest grade is Sketching for Communications, and I have a C-. It's a class based around drawing. I understand how to draw and shade and what not, I just kinda suck at it. I just wasn't blessed with that talent. But my teacher did say he say a great improvement.
And in my least favorite class, Printmaking, i have a C+, which is showing how much effort I am putting into a class that I hate.



But that doesn't matter, it isn't all A's or all A's & B's, so trying my hardest isn't good enough for my dad. He just has this way of being able to make me feel like shit about myself when I thought i was doing my best. I feel like no matter what i do i am not up to standards in his eyes. And that i will never be. All i want to hear is that he is proud, but i never hear that. All i hear is
"Hannah, I'm not paying for you to go to college to make C's."

I don't think he understands how much it hurts when he puts me down. He has made so many mistakes in his life, many that have affected my life greatly, but you don't see me putting him down. You don't see me listing out his flaws. Most of the time I am proud to call him my father, even though he has put me through so much shit. Most teenagers would hate him forever. He ranaway from the things that were troubling him in his life, and he was alot older than me. He placed all of those problems on me and the rest of my mom's family, and attempted to start over. You don't see me running away from my problems. You don't see me crying during class because my stuff isn't the best, or see me attempting to drop the class just because it's hard. I get enough criticism from my teachers i don't need it from him.

He never seems to support me other than financially, and the thing that makes the situation even worse is that i don't think he knows how too.

I'm having like the worst week/month/semester, as much as i like college it's a major stressor. I mean I'm lonely but i wan't my own space, i'm tired but can't sleep ever, I miss home but know i would be 10x unhappier at home. I just feel like I'm stuck in this little rut, and knowing that i get to go home in a week is making everything even harder. It's making me more homesick, but at the same time it's making me nervous. I really don't want to sit through a Thanksgiving of ragging on Hannah for her grades or having Paula's mom be a bitch to me as normal.

I really just want to go home to get away from here for a little bit.
To see my friends and my dogs.
and to try to escape a little of the stress.

]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/15484049/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/15484049/ Mon, 12 Nov 2007 18:53:11 PST I am not a huge fan of Computer Arts... It's so simple that it's hard for me.
Designing a logo out of barely anything drives me crazy. It really is just not the major for me.
I seem to have the worst luck since i've moved here.
I lost my wallet= but got it back, nothing stolen
I got my debit card randomly cancelled= glitch at the bank
I got my debit card number stolen= still waiting for my new card
I got so sick that i had to go to the hospital= i am fine now
ect...

but it's ok.
I've been feeling far from inspired latley. These classes really drain you.
Sketching For Communications is hard just because i suck at sketching and cant go from image to sketching that easily. I just can't figuire out certain shapes.
Printmaking is a pain in the ass, my teacher is weird and doesn't really teach, he also is kinda creepy and always frustrated with us.
Concept, Process and Design is ok, i have trouble because everything has to be so simplistic and shit so it drives me nuts.
And then last but not least
Design Technology, i really can't complain to much about this class. other than me not being very good with illustrator, but i'm improving.

I get to go home for the first time this semester in a little over a week, for thanksgiving. I'm pretty excited about that. I am semi-homesick. I miss my friends more than anything.
And my dogs.

I also am just ready to get a break from this place. I mean the people are really nice, but it's like any place, if you are there too much you just get sick of it, and the people.

A lot of people arent coming back next semester. Hell alot of people didn't even make it through this semester. I guess they saw this school as a slack off school, which is the exact opposite of what it really is. They really want us to be the best we can. Which is nice and also kind of stressful.

but everything lately has been stressful.
It's because it takes me so long to become comfortable with a certain group of people and the group of friends i have here, i am only comfortable around a certain part. I used to be close to comfortable with everyone, until a lot of judging was done. I hate that. When people judge you, and point out everyone of your flaws. And the person here who is doing it is just like most of the other people who do it, arrogant and seems extreamly self-confident, but when they pull bullshit like that it is obvious that they arent confident at all, they have less self-esteem than the rest of us. And really see themself as no where near as good as anyone else hence why they point out others flaws.

or they are just assholes.

in this case i am not sure.

oh well.
i must begin my homework now or i will never finish.

]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/12069838/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/12069838/ Mon, 05 Mar 2007 15:39:25 PST nothing new around here really.
Which sucks.
Oh well i only have a few more months here,
then i'll be in Cali and everything will be new!
I'm pretty fucking excited.
Ok Scratch that. I'm REALLY excited....

anyways...

I want a polaroid camera.
very very much so...

and a fisheye lens.

Peace out Kiddos.

]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/11482545/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/11482545/ Thu, 18 Jan 2007 13:31:24 PST I just want to say, "Listen here bitch, i own you. NOW WORK!"
but the cold weather and rain has our internet running like a rock in a race...

meaning isn't moving at all...

ughhhh
so i will upload it later.
Now i must go do the rest of the RETROSPECTIVE page for the yearbook and my e.media project that i havent started because of editing senior favorite pictures.
oye.

]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/11379573/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/11379573/ Tue, 09 Jan 2007 19:30:19 PST House is one of the only television shows i actually watch now-a-days, since Television is filled with so much reality garbage and repetitive sitcoms. It is filled with drama, satire, and just enough flare to keep the appeal. It has been nominated for Golden Globes and SAG awards, and how do we pay our respects to it? By forcing it's loyal viewers to wait 3 extra weeks, so that pathetic wannabe's can be embarrassed in front of an entire nation.
This is a sad day in Television history, when i say, that i am ashamed to be a Fox viewer. At least i actually use my brain while watching House, unlike the viewers of the tasteless lack luster humiliating excuses for shows that we call reality tv. If you really wanna see reality, get off your ass and walk out your door, don't sit there and watch someone else pursue their dreams, and live their life.


idiots.

i thought the American dream was to be something, not to watch someone else be something...

]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/10906260/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/10906260/ Thu, 30 Nov 2006 19:56:12 PST


like model shots or something that i could photshop...

but i guess i'll always be the photographer, never the model.

]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/10606400/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/10606400/ Fri, 03 Nov 2006 17:22:10 PST

holy shit.
my top choice.


i can't breathe!



I literally just found out like 3 mins ago.

omg

]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/10552772/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/10552772/ Sun, 29 Oct 2006 19:56:36 PST
ughhhh....
and collegeboard.com sucks major ass.
no joke.
it has helped me none.
(other than registering for the S.A.T.S. *Stupid ass Test stuff*)

and it also doesn't help to have colleges calling you/emailing you every freaking second of the day, asking if your going to apply and if you need finacial aid, and all this other stuff. It's like i am the oldest kid in the family, i have no fucking clue/ guidance on any of this shit (cause my school counselor is a ditz), and i don't know what to do.

]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/10424358/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/10424358/ Tue, 17 Oct 2006 14:35:23 PDT What the fuck?
Anyone got any advice?

]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/9990982/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/9990982/ Wed, 06 Sep 2006 17:20:13 PDT So i have a project due in electronic media tomorrow. And well i am normally amazingly creative, like nothing can stop me sorta thing. But i just cant think of anything to edit, i can't find the right photo. And i cant take a photo of myself, because it will never turn out the way i want it too.
I wish there were two of me.
Grrrr.
fuck fuck fuck
need to be creative.
NOW ]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/9888712/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/9888712/ Mon, 28 Aug 2006 19:05:58 PDT scatter the bottom of my mind.
I hold my breath & take another step,
afraid of what i might not find.
Memories.
All I have is tattered film,
over-exposed, over-used,
but under loved.
The hands on the clock froze to fast,
and all the things of the past floated free into the dark.
Clips of images & sounds litter my life,
& disapear at a moment's glance. ]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/9442416/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/9442416/ Thu, 20 Jul 2006 21:47:26 PDT Which sucks.
*sigh*

Anyways Talan goes to the shop tomorrow to get his fender fixed (since the jackass decided to fling his tread at himself while driving on 288.) Poor confused focus.

i really would like to write more.
but i'm at aloss for words.
They're are 8999 billion things i wanna say but i dont know how to put them in words.


damnit



u want my internet on my computer to work again.
boo. ]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/8949666/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/8949666/ Fri, 02 Jun 2006 11:24:46 PDT My Videos
Yah so some are videos i've made with music pictures and video of my friends & others are just of my goofy friends.
Check em out'


....Bleh.... ]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/8754218/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/8754218/ Fri, 12 May 2006 22:15:23 PDT So tonight (we'll actually just a few hours ago), our school had it's HUGE art show.
And i got a WHOLE wall to myself for my photoshopped stuff and slr pictures.
Everyones stuff was amazing.
Like April's... her electronic media stuff was breathtaking.
And this girl named Tina had some really beautiful pictures.
And Paul's artwork was some of the best i've ever seen.
& Of course Mishy was as creative as always and did her name plate through doing peoples makeup to spell her name.
Kyle Fuels stuff was really good too.
Same with Alex's & Jeff's.
& Ofcourse all my photojournalism friend's had some good stuff!
Megan won 2 awards (best action photo, and a principals choice award!)
& Guess what!
I WON AN AWARD...
It was on Anti-drug Trippy (named ART: My Anti-drug in the show), which is in my gallery on DA.
But i won best color and lines picture.
And got a bracelette for winning.
I am very excited.

& Hyper cause i drank an MDX and now i am drinking a monster.
ok must go!
ALEX FIX MY COMP!
CALL ME AND I WILL GIVE IT TO YOU TOMORROW. ]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/8714503/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/8714503/ Mon, 08 May 2006 19:36:32 PDT It was super amazingly fun!
Pictures
They arent all up yet up there are like 23 up so far.
It really was fun,
but it makes me sad cause i realize it is the end of the year.
Next year i will be a senior & a few of my very best friends will be hundreds of miles away.
I am gonna miss all of them so much ]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/8451314/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/8451314/ Wed, 12 Apr 2006 17:22:30 PDT click here
I hope yall go look at them and enjoy them,
i put some on D.A.
but to put all of them would take forever so yea. ]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/7744987/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/7744987/ Sun, 29 Jan 2006 19:10:54 PST and i spent the night at her house with a bunch of people.
Nettles, Jamie, Sally, Nicole, Shawn, Matt & Sammie.
But we went to pick up Alex from his house, Sammie Matt and I. And Matt drove. And on our way back from Alex's we got in a car accident.
Matt was driving to fast, ran a stop sign, it was a wet outside, so we slid a little, he hit the curb then he turned into a tree. We side swiped it. It scared the living daylights out of me. I am terrified to sit in the car right now, it's weird. But yea. No major injurys, alex has a seatbelt burn, sammie's chest hurt, and my toes on my right foot are swollen, one bled and we kinda think they might be broken, or just majorly jammed. Also i got a couple scratches and bruises but other than that i'm ok. I just wish people would drive better. I mean i may not be an excellent driver but atleast i drive safe, i mean i know that i am responisble for the lifes of the other people in my car. I really hate riding with other people now a days. They think they are invincible. When really we arent. Your cars arent. So think before you drive like a maniac.
And other than that the party was really pretty fun.
We watched movies and cracked jokes, and just hung out. It was fun.
poor Sammie bad things always happen on her birthday. Last year a girl busted her head open, this year we hit a tree. Poor things.
Ok then.
Well i got home at 10 and slept till 4:30 and now i am gonna go shower and sleep somemore. ]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/7649390/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/7649390/ Thu, 19 Jan 2006 14:52:08 PST my relationships with friends.
my heart.
my spirit.
and now my camera.
Oh how i loved my camera.
3 long years together and the screen turned with and when i poked up little black/purple/green lines popped up and wont go away.
oh and my MP3 player is all jacked up too.
What the heck is this, electronics revolt on Hannah time.
I mean first it was my dumb computer (still f'd up)
then my stupid MP3 player (now i am considering an IPOD *SHOCK*)
and now my camera.
what next my SLR?
How dare i even mention it.
Or my car?
NOOOOOOOOOOOO....
Stupid Electronics.
and stupid cat being taken away to early from her mother, so she wasnt properly weekend and she sucks on my arms while i am trying to do homework.
Gar.
Maybe the cat is electronic.
Damnit now she is in my lap and walking, no sitting on my history project.
And here comes the licking and sucking.
I HATE THIS CAT!
gar.
maybe it was hired by Bill Gates to distroy me too.
I wouldnt doubt it.
Oye.
Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday.
The weekend.
Amazing.
Ok so i am gonna end my cynical ramble right here.
Without a conclusion.
Because 1. The cat is in my lap sucking on my arm again
and 2. I am hungry.
DAMN CAT! ]]> ~ImYourZero http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/7575025/ http://ImYourZero.deviantart.com/journal/7575025/ Wed, 11 Jan 2006 15:01:00 PST how numb i feel.
i guess it's cause i miss you more each day.
The 4 year mark is coming up soon, and i hurt 4million times worse than the day you died.
3 years 10 months and 29 days, that's how long you've been gone.
If i get any flowers, chocolates, or i love you's on Valentines Day i will crush them, break them, and tear them apart.
You don't know what "I Love You" means until the one you love is gone.
I was only 12,
who will help me get ready for prom?
who will snap photos as i graduate?
Cry at my wedding?
Call me with advice about my children?
Who will they call grandma?
Not your replacement. She could never replace what you were to me.
Ever.
And that's why i am numb, crying, and cold.
I hate this time of year. ]]> ~ImYourZero