http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:InView&section=today deviantART RSS for by:InView en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 23 Dec 2009 09:19:46 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/28883661/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/28883661/ Fri, 11 Dec 2009 13:51:40 PST With steady eyes and a simple sigh
his stories flood out, brimming with a love
one grand love of a long life, and of a time much simpler and honest.
His hair gleaming with the wise old white
his chin prickly with subtle stubble.
He is a gracious man they say.
He could travel the world on a single buoyant strut.
The earth with all its favor settling down behind him
however it does not hold its breath for him.
They know he is all seeing.
They know he is this glorious man
and his acknowledgment is praised.
And we sit in wonder of his age, contemplating what grants him this long.
We wonder and we walk beside him
the trees bow and the wind whistles
then we know.
We know he is this gracious man.
We know the earth is in praise.
And his life goes on.
There is another year.

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/28659238/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/28659238/ Sun, 29 Nov 2009 19:25:35 PST
There is overwhelming soaring of a mind
A deep ecstasy feeling to loath
Or to have insanity prevail
And for death to come knocking ‘til no end
Great end that is full of an absolute
Something wished and feared by sane people
But a sleep that would fulfill my own desire

The need of life for a closed up mind
The beauty that comes into mine eye sight
A loving of chemical deep inside
That nothing and no one can touch on

One great paranoia to overcome
The monstrous addition to feed
Something to steel thy soul of any human
And to fill and feed and overflow and
To twist and turn under a weary brain

Grave sorrow is only but a neighbor
A friend or foe depending on thy pleasure
But to contemplate these overwhelms us
And the wondrous are but overseen
With this pain is born, and fear released
But who am I to ask for these mere troubles

To live and soar are all I desire
And sadness and worry that others hold
Is seen on by me as unimportant
These traits are not what I wish to take charge of
Ask for nothing and receive everything
Who are we to say 'tis not at all right

Loving is what I hope to present
A love yet selfish, brings great happiness
One that will overflow and never end
A coming down for only a new lift

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/28112869/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/28112869/ Mon, 02 Nov 2009 18:24:21 PST We slowly began to flood over
and all around became ours,
we stretched until we could no longer
our bellies looking full and satisfied.
We swelled
like fingers at night,
finding our rings unable to fit our stubble's.
And so what did we become
A heard relying on it's head to keep us safe?
And what are we to become
that one who strays away,
an attacker at its hind?

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/27778721/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/27778721/ Thu, 15 Oct 2009 11:28:56 PDT damn lonely these days.

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I’m sure it was my art that had made her even look in my direction, I’m not about to brag but I am pretty good with a pencil and paint brush. Every time she would look at my work her face would light up as if she were reading something magnificent in one of her novels she so often read. I saw that look often and it made my face feel flush and my heat jump around. We were inseparable for a good year. The day she asked me if we could be more than friends I almost had a heat attack, swear to god. Was this beautiful, magnificent being really asking me if I could be with her? We sat for a long moment while I grasped the question. The happiest day of my life was sitting right before me and I stuttered. Everyday after that day I was floating. I would wake up to her text messages and sleep with her soul filling my dreams.

She taught me a lot those short couple months. Like how to be myself and live a little. My head was full of inspiration and art came freely like a flood with April showers. I remember once at five in the morning I got a text that she was almost to my house. She had walked across the entire city at four in the morning just to make it to my house by the time I woke to get the bus. We laid in each others arms and all I remember feeling is how this life could never get any better. She filled my life with hippie insight and a live free attitude. We would go behind the second hand stores at the latest of nights and jack all the crazy knick knacks we could find. Her little beater Toyota Corolla was one of the many things that was filled with all these treasures we had stolen for each other.

Everyday a new painting was being done. A new piece added to this wall of art we both shared. Both our hearts beating so fast and so free, that by the end of the first hour, we would pass out and wake to find ourselves full of paint. It would get all over our clothes, in her hair, on my face. We would just laugh about it and later make up stories about how when we grew up, and lived on our own, our entire house would be a disaster. The day she came to me I knew something was about to change. Her head was a bit more down than usual and she walked with a slower pace than even her usual relaxed hippie attitude never had. I was about to get on the bus to go home and smoke a bunch of herb with my two buddies when she told me we needed to talk.

I looked at her and I knew nothing was ever going to be the same. She told me her head was too full of pain that taking me down with her was nothing she could live with. She had her demons, I knew, but I thought they were gone for the most part. She seemed to be so happy, so alive the last couple of weeks I was sure she had beaten this Satan that poisoned her mind. When she walked away I just wanted to steal her away and make everything better for her. I was a muse she told me, and my heart sank.

After that I kept her at a distance, she never told me we couldn’t be friends but I couldn’t see her face without wanting to hold her. I fell into a hole. What she told me she was saving me from came into my life like a horrible sickness one could never get rid of. Everyday I felt nothing. There was no inspiration, no light, and no happiness. She would try to talk to me but I would just walk on by, the hurt in her eyes stinging my heat as I moved. I knew I was taking everything the wrong way but I couldn’t seem to get over my own self pity and it was only making me fall deeper. I had lost my soul the day she walked away and now I am to live forever in this carcass. I am roaming the earth for all eternity as a mindless mute.

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/27039467/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/27039467/ Sat, 05 Sep 2009 17:02:20 PDT
Inspiration is the key to all happiness.
I definitely like that feeling of greatness. I think babbling makes
us all more interesting I would have to say. ADD Ha! don't we all
have it.. Yes! Finding ones self is always a great feeling. I had it once,
in a good time, To know yourself is always a good trait to have
it helps make it so that no one can puncture your oneness.
I don't think you are going crazy my friend I think it is simply that you
are growing. Changing. Learning. There is one thing about life that
I do not enjoy and that is that everything can not be a book, or a movie.
You know we always watch movies and read books and they always
take my breath away wishing for something great like that to happen to me.
I am always comparing reality to fiction, I have to stop but it feels so good.
That is insanity my friend haha. But I also think that the world has lost it's mind.
It's too conservative for it's own damn good.

enjoying nothingness,
bailey

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]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/26467112/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/26467112/ Sat, 08 Aug 2009 15:22:24 PDT My own head is still bugging me however. Telling me it's just a faze soon it will all be
over. He doesn't love me. So on so forth. But I'm not going to listen to my head anymore
my heart is much more wiser.

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/26334884/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/26334884/ Sun, 02 Aug 2009 10:15:51 PDT He is my man now. We kiss every spare moment and hold each other til
the sun comes up. Haha I won't go into the other details...they are for me only.
Well since this one is lovely I will tell. All night I was waiting for the rain...
I took him to all of my favorite places, my hill, my sanctuary, and kin coulee.
we ran around the park all night and by 1030 we were in each others arms under my favorite
tree and we made love. I got EATEN by mosquitoes and will probably now get west nile but
I am definitely not complaining. Last night he asked me if it would be all right if he falls
in love with me.
The new days are coming.

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]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/26167182/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/26167182/ Sat, 25 Jul 2009 09:11:33 PDT Cody bought me a wrist band!
Went on rides til I thought I would puke.
Got damn high.
smoked like a chimney.
Loved every moment of it.
Nothing light a hot summers night getting high with good friends and shredding til you puke. I love the way this has turned out.
I missed Casper greatly.

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]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25464144/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25464144/ Sun, 21 Jun 2009 23:43:12 PDT I cut off all my dreads and now I look like a mother fucking Buddha, it's all good though
since I'm all in to that shit and shit.
I'm going to start loving life again just for the sake of loving life
and not dying. NOT dying is defiantly a good thing.
I think happiness will come to me, they say it comes to those who wait and fuck
I've been waiting a long ass time.
I'm pretty much stoked for tomorrow.
It's just another day.

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25312066/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25312066/ Sun, 14 Jun 2009 15:30:09 PDT
"THAT SMELLS LIKE A BLUNT"

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25242794/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25242794/ Wed, 10 Jun 2009 19:33:11 PDT . After a great conversation he took me and gave me the greatest hug on the planet. Just friends is a death sentence but I'll take it. I would rather him be there and know that my mind is open than to not have that at all. He makes my insides sing and hurt and flutter.

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25215863/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25215863/ Tue, 09 Jun 2009 12:01:20 PDT
Me+Fairy=great trip

We will write to the richest man in Spain telling him how great his country is, how we love tomatoes and how we want to smoke a shit ton of weed. Plan goes right we will go to Spain and live in a shitty ass boat house and smoke shit tons of weed while eating shit tons of tomatoes.

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25202099/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25202099/ Mon, 08 Jun 2009 16:57:59 PDT his beauty catches my eye
I have never seen simplicity
lack any trait
who are you she asked
He replied with
I'm just a figment
a figment?
of beauty, creativity, happiness,
simplicity
I am all these things
you my girl must choose
what do you believe

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25196685/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25196685/ Mon, 08 Jun 2009 11:54:59 PDT
I GOT MY FUCKING CAMERA ALL WORKING AND SHIT! FUCK I'M EXCITED! YOU
PROBABLY CAN'T TELL BY THE CAPS LOCKS BUT I'M FUCKING STOKED! GONNA FUCK SHIT UP! TAKE
ALL THE MOTHER FUCKING PICTURES IN THE WORLD.

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25196116/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25196116/ Mon, 08 Jun 2009 11:19:35 PDT
PUT DOWN THE NEEDLE! hahaha.
(just kidding)
but seriously smile the drugs will come back eventually.

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]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25182763/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25182763/ Sun, 07 Jun 2009 16:06:28 PDT To have lived and never learnt
To be content with who you are
We all want the same things don't we
To find the one who opens channels to our hearts
A path you never found upon your own.

Forever can be...
Something to believe in...
But this was one of those times

So you dug deep down inside yourself
You revealed an old man
So pained to be what makes you who you are
We all want you to see the you we see
The one that carries the worlds tragedies alone
The cross you choose to bear upon your own.

Forever can be...
Something to believe in...
Wish this was one of those times.

Forever can be...
Something to bleed for...
And this is one of those times, for those you left behind.

Save the world so you don't have to save yourself.
You save the world so you don't have to look at yourself.
And fill the void left inside your fragile hearts.
Those haunted images never left you alone........

Forever can be...
Something to believe in...
This was one of those times"

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]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25169465/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25169465/ Sat, 06 Jun 2009 21:36:48 PDT Not tired at all but how you sleep.
They call this depression and I think it's bull shit but
I'll take the meds to calm them down.
I probably do need help.

I'm in love with this man
oh how he's hurting my head
But I can't explain how my insides sing
His beauty is oh so great
as his words burn through and through
oh how does he fuck with you
spit in my face
and yes I will come back
because I'm broken
and somehow I can only live
with pain

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25162436/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25162436/ Sat, 06 Jun 2009 13:37:17 PDT Jesse- "Dirka."

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25158558/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25158558/ Sat, 06 Jun 2009 09:27:10 PDT a smile across the beaming face
inside there is a deep greatness
inside is where we will all out live the cold
For the hear is the heat source
and in this one it never runs out
my friend, there is always that louder voice
saying it's time to give up
But remember the one
softer and more delicate that's telling you
you are far from the finish line.

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25157050/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25157050/ Sat, 06 Jun 2009 07:31:19 PDT a whole weekend planned of fun. Then you get up. You brush your teeth and wash your face. All ready for the day. Put your pants on one at a time and then you stand. Standing to figure out what comes next... SNOW. You look out the window and there is snow falling from the sky. You think for a second. How long did I sleep. Is it still June? Everything points to yes it's still June and that's right it's snowing. You know you jinxed it because yesterday you said it wouldn't snow. Well what do you know you live in Medicine Hat and that kind of shit happens all the time.

Merry Christmas everyone

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25149250/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25149250/ Fri, 05 Jun 2009 18:35:11 PDT Chilling and smoking some weed.
Drawing some shit and listening to some Volta to break in
the new CD.

Great Fridays rule.

smoke a joint just for old times sake.

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25140665/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25140665/ Fri, 05 Jun 2009 10:01:42 PDT fucking shredding that shit for sure.

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25138687/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25138687/ Fri, 05 Jun 2009 07:24:25 PDT Last night I had a dream my mother and her boyfriend were selling ecstacy. I was their little bitch so it fucking sucked.

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25126919/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25126919/ Thu, 04 Jun 2009 14:40:43 PDT Last night I had a crazy cocaine dream. Me and a buddy Richard did cocaine together and
walked around down in the Flats here. I felts so high it was like I was actually high in
real life. I thought if I kept my eyes closed I'd stay high forever. Then miraculously
I was doing it with someone and I can't really remember any of that part haha.

I have the craziest dreams at times.

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he asked me to come over. that shit doesn't happen. FUCK! this is like the world alternating right now. Fucking totally flipped around. SHIT BALLS.

man.
I don't know what the fuck to do.

...

on another note.
I wish my fucking battery charger was here.
I miss my camera

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25107649/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25107649/ Wed, 03 Jun 2009 13:31:43 PDT . Plus a stellar peace sign. I think this will be pretty epic.

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25087116/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/25087116/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 11:31:28 PDT Blonderedhead shit they blow my mind. So fucking good

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Straight edge let's start over. people just make it too hard.

This time it's for life fuckers...
I hope

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great time
large popcorn and a large coke.
no shoes
hippie
wonderful night

great way to end a night...figuring out ones ipod.
GREAT NIGHT

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We said we love you
they replied with I love you too.

Greatest show in history..almost.

TV on the Radio
come back soon

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/24986039/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/24986039/ Wed, 27 May 2009 19:01:47 PDT
I ask this question over and over to myself almost every day.
I have come up with many conclusions, none oh to spectacular. I personally think it's because Beauty is stronger than our body. Since without beauty there would be no body than that must be the solution.
Bodies are beauty
and beauty made bodies.

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/24967082/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/24967082/ Tue, 26 May 2009 18:26:22 PDT
got my fist speeding ticket
kind of stoked and shit!
hahaha now I'm officially a driver!
hellz yeah mother fuckers move out the way.

OH!
We found Betrice!
3 tickets later...

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/24966695/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/24966695/ Tue, 26 May 2009 18:06:03 PDT damn vegan shit.
I don't eat cheese! nobody in this damn house eats cheese
yet somehow there is always cheese in the fucking fridge

when I loved cheese and ate it it was never in the fucking house
now i get haunted by the shit.
I mean I LOVE CHEESE!
but fuck I DON'T EAT IT!

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/24950171/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/24950171/ Mon, 25 May 2009 19:36:30 PDT shits filling but damn it's tasty.

Had a wonderful day with my man friend.
It was going to the shits but then he told me to
get it together because I'm a fucking downer.
HAHA a good kick in the ass always help get the day
going in a good direction.

Marshal I defiantly owe you one.

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/24931257/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/24931257/ Sun, 24 May 2009 20:07:17 PDT like whenever you look for them they're just there
sitting in their house chilling like always.
BUT NOOOO!
fucking show up and the mother fuckers are gone and shit
and the computer is missing them as well
fucking try and get a hold of a hermit.
it's hard shit.
I want my hermits to stay in their mother fucking house
so that I can find them when I want them
FUCK!
hahaha yes this is all about me haha.
FUCK!

]]> ~InView http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/24914161/ http://InView.deviantart.com/journal/24914161/ Sat, 23 May 2009 20:36:32 PDT
no questions asked.

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