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JENNA.
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DOUCHEBAG.
WHO.
LEAVES.
MY.
COMPUTER.
SCREEN.
UNATENDED.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.

]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/24257600/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/24257600/ Wed, 15 Apr 2009 13:59:36 PDT
I freakin' miss all you guys! D8> I'm so sorry I'm like just now getting around to updating, I'm such a loooooooossssssssseeeeeerrrrrrr raaawwwwrrrr

Weeellll, anywho, how the heck is everyone? Great I hope. If you've got any crap goin' on or any news, I'd be glad to hear it 8D I'm soooo behind lol.

I've been doing ok I guess. My dog Lucky ran away awhile ago though. It hurts. I miss him so flippin' much I can't stand it. And my grandpa's not letting us get another dog at the moment... so yeah. I guess I just have to deal with it. It's not so much that it hurts that Lucky's not here anymore, but it hurts more that I have no idea where he is, or if he's even alive. I just hope he finds a good family that'll take really good care of him.

School has been going good too, there's just so much drama here. I guess it's because this town is so small, the people here have nothing better to do lol. There are also a bunch of young pregger girls at our school too, which really scares me. I'm still a baby, I could never imagine having a kid of my own right now D8

U GUYS WANNA HEAR SUMTHN LIKE RLY FRKN GAI!?!?!?! duuuude, I like went to gym today and put my crap down on the floor where I always put it right? (including my sketchbook)And our class went up to the weight room. When we came back, my sketchbook was FREAKIN' GONE. I have no idea who took it, and I was like almost in tears. I had just finished a picture of Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart, that I spent at least 6 hours on. I was so freakin' proud of it. And now it's gone. Knowing my horrible luck, it won't show up. Oh well, I can just hope that it does.

I've just been kinda down in the dumps lately, not for really any particular reason. just a bunch of stuff I guess. It's done nothing but rain here, for like the past flippin' week, there's a guy at school I'm like MADLY head-over-heels freakin' in love with and I know that I'll most likely never have him. He's seriously like the most amazing dude in the universe. Wow, I just noticed I'm bitchin' about a guy. What a loser XD.
Plus, all the jocks do is mess with me and my friends and act like assholes, which they are. They think they're better than everybody else. And the sketch pad thing isn't helping my mood lol.
Sorry for bitchin' everyone, if you've got some complainin' to do, just lay it right on me. 8D

Oh dude, I saw Twilight, and I thought it was pretty amazing. They did pretty good for havin' to squeeze an entire book into a 2 hour movie XD haha. I love Kristen Stewart. She's mah fav <8O

Weeeeelllllll, I think I'm about done here lol. not much else to talk about. OH! I got Thrice's Live at the House of Blues album and it's AAAAMMMMAAAZZZIIINNNGG. just like I knew it'd be though haha I FREAKIN' ADORE IIIITTTT.

Well I'll catch ya guys later Love you guys, and I hope you're all doing well.

And I PROMISE as soon as I get access to a freakin' scanner, I will put some art up. 0:

Peace out fools

]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/20235002/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/20235002/ Sat, 30 Aug 2008 11:38:20 PDT
Anywho, sorry once again for the fact that I've neglected dA for about a month or so, I've just been busy with school now. I like all of my classes, I've even got one junior class, because I took the sophomore one last year. But I feel all alone in there because I don't know anybody. xD

Everything else is going pretty good, my puppy had mange, but we took him to the vet, and found out that it's the kind that you can cure, so we got the medicine, and his coat is all shiny and pretty now. :3 I love him so much already.
How's everyone else? If I've missed any of your birthdays or anything, happy birthday! And if not,... then not happy birthday I guess. XD Sorry again about not commenting and all that junk, I'm gonna try to get to some of your pages and stuff before I have to get off of the computer.

Well, I'll try to write again soon, love all you guys! :3 I'll try to have some more art up soon too. :3

P.S. I FINALLY got around to reading the Harry Potter books (I'm on the Deathly Hallows now), Which are way, way, way awesomer than I thought they would be. I like, cried when Dumbledore died. D': I'll have to do some fanart. Especially of Ron and Hermione. <8D->--<

]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/18837437/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/18837437/ Sat, 14 Jun 2008 12:03:26 PDT [link] It's Daedalus by Thrice, it's off of thier new album, from the air volume. It's probably now my favorite song by them. It's so magnificent. (But when do I have anything negative to say about Thrice?) It's about a man and a boy who are imprisoned on an island. The father makes wings out of wax, string and feathers. But the son flies too close to the sun,and his wings come apart, and he falls into the sea. The father loses the only thing that meant anything to him.

Even if you don't like Thrice, I will love you forever if you listen to it.


Anywho, I'm doing pretty good right now acually. Once again, the only way I can get on the computer is at the library, and with the gas prices going higher and higher, I'm not sure how often I can make it here.
The child support got all messed up for some reason, and my dad just sends whatever he feels like it. One week he sent $50. Who can live off of fifty dollars for one week? We did though. Oh well. Poor me.

Some luck did come our way though, guess what came marching up on our porch last week? A puppy! He didn't look like he was taken care of, he had really bad ticks, and he was kind of skinny. He's so cute. I'll try to borrow a camera off of someone so I can take a picture of him to upload if I can. I'm not sure what breed he is, or what mix. I think he's just a mutt, but those are the best dogs anyway. He's friendly too. I think he likes me best. :3 He's got really big paws, so I'm pretty sure he's gonna be a big dog. I love big dogs. Oh, my grandpa said it was good luck for a stray to make up with you, so we named him Lucky. I feel wierd calling him that though, because my aunt Sheila has a bird named Lucky. XD

Oh, on that note, if anyone saw the picture that put up recently, in the description, she talks about puppy mills. You should NEVER buy pets from pets stores. They come from puppy mills, overpopulated, stuffed, nasty, little breeding centers for animals. Well, she and I briefly talked about it, but maybe, if anyone has the chance, we could all do an art piece, depicting the mistreatment of animals, and then one of us could make a slideshow, and put it on youtube. I'll see if I can bring my tablet in, and if the library will let me use it, so I can do an oekaki for it or something.
Try to get the word around about it if you can.

Oh, has anyone read The Host? I finished it in a day and a half. XDD I couldn't put it down! It was so awesome. I love the way it ended. Stephanie Meyer is a GOD. XD

Once again, if I owe you any trades or requests, I'm sorry about the humungo delay. I really am, I feel bad about it. DX Like I said, I have most of them done, I just can't get my hands on a scanner. If I get up to my dad's anytime soon at all, I'll scan them, he's got one. It's hard to get there though, since I moved, he lives two hours away.

How's everyone doing? I know this was a long journal, I'm sorry. Feel free to rant to me if you want.
I'll try to get around to some of your art and stuff too. I've got a little more time on the computer here before I have to leave.
Take care guys, love ya!

]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/17285331/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/17285331/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 11:54:06 PDT
Inferno is back to getting-around-to-writing-journals-once-every-million-years. 8D

LOL.

Hey everyone, how are you doing? Things are going better for me.
I started the new school, if I hadn't told you guys already. It's pretty nice, not nearly as violent as my old school. But Airdrifter should know all about that.
Everybody there is really nice, really laid-back and stuff. And there's a lot of cute guys, so I'll be alright. I miss my old friends though. Speaking of that, I need to call them. D:

I'm up at my aunt Shiela's right now, near where I used to live. We came up the weekend before last, and were supposed to leave that same weekend, but out car broke down, halfway here. D: So my uncle Mark had to come get us in his truck, but with my mom in the front, there wasn't enough room for my brother and I, so we had to ride in the truckbed. In 15 degrees. It was cold. For an hour.
My aunt Sheila's friend Walt was going to fix the car today, but he didn't have the parts, so he won't be able to do it until tomorrow. I'm afraid that they're gonna make me go to summerschool, because I've missed so much. But I guess that a few weeks of summer school isn't much compared to repeating Freshman year. So I'll live.

I'm hoping that we're gonna get another dog soon, I think that we are. My mom says that when it warms up we will, and that's soon enough for me.

I got a Plain White T's t shirt yesterday. 83 I lubbs them.

Oh, oh, oh, and, and, and, Thrice (a.k.a. the greatest band that ever inhabited the universe)'s new album is coming out next month. It's part three and four of their Alchemy Index project; Earth, and Wind. And I've got the money to get it. 888DDDDDD

I'm got a CRAPLOAD of art to get scanned in, and upload, whenever I acually get a scanner. >.> I'll probably just do another Spamdump, it would take me forever to upload them all individually.

BTW, I haven't forgotten about the trades and such, I've got most of them done, I just don't have a scanner. I'll try to get to them as soon as I can.
And sorry I haven't been able to get to your art and journals and such, I'm gonna try to do a little of that now.
When I got on, I almost had a cow, there were 1,846 unviewed deviations at the top of my screen. XD And like, 400 messages. X333

Well, I hope you're all doing well, I'll try to keep in touch more often now. We got dial-up now, even though it sucks. XD

]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/16448536/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/16448536/ Thu, 17 Jan 2008 16:28:58 PST
Things are a bit better. I'm starting the new school on tuesday and I went and got my old paperwork at the school finished. I started crying when I said bye to my friends.

We're getting internet at the cabin though, so no worries. I'll be on more often soon.

Another thought, if you haven't listened to Thrice, a.k.a the greatest band in the universe, go here, this is their best song.
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Bye guys, take care.

]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/16253865/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/16253865/ Fri, 04 Jan 2008 11:14:59 PST
Well, four days before Christmas, and while my great aunt Ruth is in the hospital dying from lung cancer, my aunt Sherry thought it would be nice to kick me, my brother, my mom, and my dog out. So now here we were, in a car with no heat, and a dying dog. My dog had really bad toumers (sp?dc) on her legs, and I think that the infection was spreading throughout her body. My aunt Sheila was kind enough to let us stay at her house for a couple of nights.

Well, then after about a day, my mom called my Grandpa, and told him about everything that had happened. He offered a small, old cabin by his house that he owns, and told us that we wouldn't have to pay rent, just utilities. It was the only place we had to go, so we went there. And the drive was horrible, it's two hours away, and our car has no heat.
About an hour after we got there, my mom and I went to the grocery to get some food, because there was none there, we hadn't been there in a long time.
When we got back, my dog was dead.
My very best friend, of over fourteen years is dead. Virtually one of the only beings I fully trust in the world.
My mom and my brother were in hysterics, so I had to put her in a bag and lay her outside until morning, when my Grandpa helped us bury her. It was horrible, seeing her like that, I closed her eyes before we buried her.
My mom wants to wait on getting a new dog, but I don't. I think that the faster we have a new friend, the quicker we'll heal. But that's just my opinion.
It's hard for me to live without a dog.

The worst of all though, I have to switch schools. I'm losing all of my best friends, some of the most important people in the world to me. And it hurts. Really bad. My mom keeps telling me that I can make new friends, but I guess I'm being stubborn. I want my friends. Most of them I've known practically my whole life. It's horrible. They're really some of the only things that make me happy in the world. Half the time, I just go to school to get a way from the shit I go through at home.

:
Hey, Cristen, I know that it's a big favor to ask, but is there any way you could get some numbers from everyone, that way I could call and explain what's going on? When I get my cell phone turned back on, I'll give you my number. And I gotta find a way to get Sarah and Tony's numbers again, because they're on my aunt's phone, and of course she won't let us in the house, so I can't get them.
I don't know if I can get right back to you, I'm at the library right now on the computer. My mom's trying to set it up for us at the cabin, but it'll probably take awhile. Don't be mad, please.

Love you guys, thanks for being there for me, and thanks for listening to my whining, I'll get back on as soon as I possibly can.

Oh, and Happy New Year everyone. Hope you had a good one.

]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/15374679/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/15374679/ Mon, 05 Nov 2007 10:32:40 PST
Weellll, nothing much different here. My mom's sick again. She's throwing up about every 20 minutes now. I thought that everything was finally turning out good, but then this goes and happens. I have no idea how the fuck I'm gonna get to school tomorrow. I guess I'll have to call the school or get on thier website or something and see if they still have their bus schedules up. I hate riding the bus.
She started getting sick yesterday, we were walking through the grocery store, and she almost fainted a couple of times, she was crying through the whole store. We finally got out though, and got home. I brought all of the groceries in, cooked dinner, washed the dishes, fed the dogs, and did the laundry, while she laid down. I hoped that she would feel better, but no. Of course not. It never happens that way.
So we missed school today. I didn't get up on time, and my mom was too sick to take us, so I had no way to get us there unless we walked. Which would take awhile, because we live quite a bit aways.
I have no idea what to do. My mom's probably going into the hospital tonight, she promised me she would, but she doesn't always keep her promises. And since I didn't go to school today, my stupid bitch of a probation officer is breathing down my neck, and won't leave me alone.
I mean, I'm only fourteen, I don't know what to do. If I could go out and get a job, I would. If I could go out and get my driver's license, I would. But I can't. I'm too young. I'm trying to enjoy my childhood, and I'm trying to be at least halfway happy, but it seems impossible.
Don't worry, I'm not going to go all suicidal on you guys. Just another emo day.
It's just... so hard. I just don't know what to do. I'm almost halfway-tempted to go live with my dad. But I don't wanna hurt my mom. Sometimes I think that it would just be easier if she didn't have us, then she could just focus on getting well. It's been five years since she first had that goddamned surgery that fucked her up in the first place.

Enough of the bad.
Here comes the good. 8D

I got Thrice's new album, and it is amazing. It's a lot softer than thier other stuff, but it's the best I've heard. The volumes I have are Water and Fire, and the next two, Earth and Wind, are coming out in April. So that's one thing that makes me happy.
I'm almost done with Eclipse; it's not as bad as I thought it would be. I just don't like the fact that Jacob's in it so much. He's a douchebag. He kissed her, and she broke her damn hand punching him in the face. I laughed. It was acually a little funny.

Oh and sorry if I'm not getting to your trades, there's just... a lot going on here. I'll get them done as soon as possible.

Well, I wish you all well. I'll talk to you later.


Trade/Requests-open
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~Friends~
http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/14976323/ Mon, 08 Oct 2007 19:10:38 PDT
First off, I'd love it if y'all went and visited this deviant:

I've been friends with her for awhile, and she is SO freakin' awesome. All of her art is amazing, and the anatomy is always perfect. Absolutely beautiful. She's WAY too underappreciated on here. I will love you forever if you go see her. :3 She's so nice.

Anywho, nothing really goin' on here. :/ Just the same ol' stuff. I wish something exciting would happen. D: Good exciting... not bad. I've had enough of that. x3
Went over to my uncle Scott's on saturday; it was my cousin Brett's 21st birthday and we had it over there. He got a Wii, and I got to play it. x3 It is SO MUCH FUN. I 'bout died when we had to leave.
...
Well. That's it. XD
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ONLY EIGHT FUCKING DAYS UNTIL THRICE'S NEW ALBUM COMES OUT. <8D

Oh... and trades and requests are open, if anyone wants to do any... not that I'd know why anyone would want to do one with me. x3
Wellll, bye bye's everybody.
Need to go get gifties done. 8D
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Trades/Requests-Open
Slot 1: Pyronicblaze (NDA) - Sketching
Slot 2: (empty)
Slot 3: (empty)
Slot 4: (empty)
Slot 5: (empty)


~Friends~
~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/14785849/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/14785849/ Tue, 25 Sep 2007 12:21:16 PDT Sorry.
Been busy,... with stupid crap, like my probation officer, and school and stuff. Started highschool, I like it a lot more than junior high, so yeah.
My internet's been down, because the wireless card in my uncles computer broke, so we had to go get my other broken laptop fixed, so now it's fixed. 8D So hopefully, I can keep y'all updated with my boring life. XD
Sorry to everyone whom I keep ignoring. D: I feel bad, I guess I'm gonna delete all of my messages, and just start from there, because there's just too many to go respond to.
I'm seeing my dad again, I'm still a little leary about trusting him, but it has to be done. I can't just hide from him forever. We're on good terms, so hopefully I can get a good relationship back with him. :/
I'm workin' on doin' more art, but everytime I try to upload something on oeakaki, it doesn't let me. x_x So I'll just have to keep taking screenshots. Or work with paint.net., Since my stupid computer won't let me download the gimp.
Well, I miss all of you guys, I hope I'll be able to stay on here regularly now. >.> If my little brother isn't hogging it all of the time. :/
Lol, well.... bye byes. XD

]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/14175641/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/14175641/ Wed, 15 Aug 2007 06:11:44 PDT [link]

XD
First off, I'd like to apologize to anyone who tagged me, and I haven't had the chance to do the stupid quizzes. x3 And sorry, for my always complaining on here, and sorry for not being able to get to your stuff. The only time I have to do anything, is in the middle of the night, when my aunt leaves for work. :/ And I usually spend that time drawing, so I don't lie dormant on here for long periods of time. x3 I've been doing a lot of oekaki, so I'll be needin' to do another spam dump soon. Lol. Developing new characters... sketching, and what not.

Anywho, my mommy is out of the hospital. *squeal* And she's feeling pretty good. Which makes me happy. And I just beat both Kingdom Hearts, and Kingdom Hearts II yesterday, for like the nine millionth time. x3
For my birthday, my aunt ordered me a Thrice hoodie and backpack from alchemyindex.com.
THRICE'S ALBUM IS COMING OUT OCTOBER 16TH. GONNA PISS MYSELF. XD j/k. I can't wait. I wanna buy eclipse too, but I'M MAJORLY PISSED BECAUSE SOMEONE ON NDA THOUGHT IT WOULD BE FUNNY AS FUCK TO SPOIL THE ENDING FOR EVERYONE WITH A STUPID ASS FANART PICTURE. STUPID SON OF A BITCH.
And it makes me mad, I dun know if I wanna read it now. >.> But, I will. >.< Stephanie Meyer pwns. So, I can forgive her. lol.
Well, I need to get on the trades I owe... I think that I"m down to two now. ... :/ I'll have to go back and look. x3
Well, everyone take care, I'm out. 8D


~Friends~
~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/14069453/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/14069453/ Wed, 08 Aug 2007 03:00:17 PDT Another ranty journal entry from Inferno. O.o Yay...

Well, my mom got out of the hospital, but she's back in now. Her gastro perisis -a disease which makes her stomach just stop working - is acting up again. I don't know what the hell we're going to do.

And again, my stupid ass probation officer won't get the fuck off of my back. She says that I'm just making up excuses for not making it to the stupid therapist classes that they're putting me in, when I ALREADY have a therapist. It's rediculous. I mean, I'm not trying to throw a pity party or anything, but I AM only thirteen, how does she expect me to deal with it? Not many thirteen year olds are on freakin' probation. Apparently, the bitch doesn't really understand how serious my mom's illness is. I don't know how many times the doctors have told us that she wasn't going to make it through the night, and she did. It's been about five years now.
But, my aunt called and told her off, and was telling her about all of the shit I've been through. She was telling her about how when she first got sick, and she would be in the hospital, we wouldn't have enough money to pay the electric or water bill, and it would be shut off for months at a time. In fact, the water was off for so long, that they started charging us $500 a day for every day that we stayed there beyond a certain date. We moved into the trailer park after that, and then that's when I started getting involved with theO, and stuff, and met all of you. :/
Ugh, so anyway, my officer scheduled a meeting for my aunt and I to go to, so we went. I was glad that my aunt was with me, I hate facing that shit alone, it scares the living hell out of me. *sigh* Buuutt, maybe I'm just a sissy. XD Lol.
She was a lot nicer though, apparently my aunt got the point across when she told her to lay off a little bit. God, she has no idea how much weight that lifted off of my shoulders. Whew. The other day, I was stressing about it, so much that I threw up, which I rarely do. Damn, that stuff scares me. Juvy has got to be the worst place on the earth, I never want to go there again. If they want to take me there, then they're takin' my ass kickin' and screamin'. I think that I'd commit suicide if I got stuck in that place for a long time. I'm not suicidal or anything, you would understand what I mean if you ever go there, which I pray to God that you don't. Heh.

Aaannnd, my mom and my stepdad are officially apart now. The bastard cheated on my mom while she was in the hospital. I swear to God if I ever see his fatass again, I'll shove a damn baseball bat down his throat. That just pisses me off so much. Nobody messes with my mom, no matter how corny that may sound. People are just so damn stupid.

Still haven't talked to my dad, it's been about 3 weeks now. I've tried calling him, but he won't call me back or answer his phone. And my probation officer likes to bitch about that to me too. She says it's my fault, but oh well. Nothing I can do about it.
Hah, I've barely got either of my parents in my life. I don't even talk to dad, and I very rarely see mom well and healthy anymore. She's always in the hospital, or sleeping.
It just really hurts, you know, I see my friends, and my cousins with their moms and dads, and I never get to do any of that. Unlike most teenagers I think, I like to be with my parents a lot, but I don't even have that. It really just breaks my heart, because I know that I don't really have much time as a kid left, or much time with my mom left, and I'm just watching it fly by. All summer, we've just been skipping from motel to motel, homeless and stuff. I guess that I'm just thankful that i have a mom... some people don't have that. I guess that I'm just really lonely, the only person I really have is my brother, thank God for him, I love him to death. We're close. Through all of the time that my mom was sick, and my dad wasn't there, we've pretty much been all we've had. I guess that's not a bad thing though, the tough times have made us stronger.

Well, on a lighter not, away from my complaining, I got to see my uncle scott the other day. He had to go to the doctor, because he smashed his hand in a car door, and almost... ]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13836923/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13836923/ Sun, 22 Jul 2007 18:41:59 PDT Just when things got better, they fell back down again. I've gotta call my probation officer on monday and tell her what happened. Oh joy, sounds SO fun. Damn I hate her. >.> I don't even see why they really put me on probation, I really didn't do anything. That on top of everything else, I think I'm about to have a nervous breakdown.
We went to a waterpark a few days ago, and they had a wave pool. >.> They scare the hell out of me. And it's the same wave pool at the same waterpark that I almost drowned in when I was eight... or seven.. or something, I can't remember. >.< The anti-depressants I'm on make me forgetful. I got caught under the waves a couple of times, and I had three or four panic attacks, I didn't even swim half the time i was there. Sorry I'm complaining so much, ugh.
I really just want to have a long cry, just by myself, that's one thing that helps me a lot, calms me down. But I don't have any privacy here whatsoever. I just want to be alone for awhile, I'm not the most sociable person, which really isn't a bad thing, I'm just not... exciting I guess. I usually get a bad grade in school for not participating. >.> Stupid ass teachers.
I was gonna go to the movies with my boyfriend, and some other friends yesterday, but my mom going in the hospital delayed it, hopefully I can go next weekend. Sorry to for not calling you. Ugh. I tried to get a hold of Sarah and Tony, but niether of them answered their cellphones, so yeah..
Well, I'll stop here.. so the journal won't be so long as my others usually are.
Well, byes, I might get some art up later.
Thanks to everyone who comments, supports and helps. I really appreciate it. I'll still try to keep my head up, there's no point in being negative, I guess.

~Friends~
http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13798363/ Thu, 19 Jul 2007 17:35:24 PDT I WENT TO CHUCK E. CHEESES YESTERDAAAYYYY!!!...
Can't help it. Thirteen and I still freakin' love that place. I won like, 600 tickets on skeeball alone. :3 It was funny, because there's this little soccer game, and this little girl crawled into it and was playing with the soccerball. I got to hug Chuckie. :3 I'm 3 years old on the inside.
Anywayy, gonna upload a picture of myself later, it looks wierd because I wasn't looking straight at the camera, and my brother refused to take another one. Oooohh, you get to see what I look like, jooooyyyyyy.
I'm gonna go to the movies with my boyfriend Chris tomorrow, I'll probably invite my friends Tony and Sarah...
Hey, if you wanna go, note me with your phone number, although, we'll probably get kicked out with Tony and Sarah there. XDD
Haha, byes everybody. x3
~Friends~
http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13711497/ Thu, 12 Jul 2007 18:21:39 PDT
GOOOOTTT MYYY DIIIGGIITTALLL CAMMMERRRAAA WOORRKKIIINGG!!!!! XDDDD x3
Been drawin' quite a lot lately. Finally off of my stupid artist's block. x3 Draw some more later too. I'm perty happy right now.
Well, byes. :3 talk laterz. x3 OMG!! FINALLY A SHORT POST FROM INFERNO!!! D:

~Friends~


~Inspirati... ]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13649087/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13649087/ Sat, 07 Jul 2007 16:55:57 PDT Which is a good thing.
My grandpa had made up with my mom and stuff, so my aunt suggested that we go down to his house, about 2-3 hours from here. He owns like, 40 acres of land, and GOD I love it down there. There's a little cabin down there, that my grandma and grandpa used to stay in. Right beside the cabin is a large pond, which stretches out to a hill across from it, where their brand new log cabin is. They didn't get it finished before my grandma died though, so I think that my grandpa might leave it unfinished, because it might bother him or something...
Anyway, my mom was too sick to go, and my brother wanted to stay with her, so I was the only one out of us three that went. My uncle Scott drove me, my cousin T.J, and my great aunt Ruth (the one with cancer) down there. And my aunt sherry rode with her boyfriend. We had fun on the way down, we were like, blastin' music as loud as we could, and watchin' other drivers get mad at us. My cousin got mad though. x3
But once we got down there, I started feeling better. I love that little cabin, it just reminds me SO MUCH of my grandma, in a good way, because it looks exactly the same as it did before I was born. If it were up to me, I'd live down there.
Well, we had a bunch of family over for a 4th of July party. We had a ton of fireworks, and I got to see a lot of family that I hadn't seen in a long time. But, bunches of little kids. >.> lol. Everybody left about 1 in the morning, and my uncle scott, my aunt sherry, and I sat outside for about another hour, and just talked about stuff. Like stresses, and problems. And just stupid random stuff. After Sherry went to bed, Scott and I kept talking, and we literally stayed up all night, just talking. I love being around him, I just relate to him so much. I don't get to spend nearly as much time as I would like with him. But about 5:00 a.m. we got some sparklers, lit them and threw them in everyone's faces, and we lit a firecracker in my aunt's room. XD God, she was mad.
I just love bein' with family so much, and it felt good to talk to someone, he's really the only person that I have to talk to. But I feel so bad for him. His wife just left him for another man, a couple of months back. And he was SO in love with her, it broke my heart when he started crying. I swear to God, if I ever come in contact with that bitch, I'll kick her ass. >.> She pisses me off. You don't mess with my family. But, he was tellin' me about that and stuff. And I was telling him about the stuff that I've been pretty much tellin'you guys about. He was kind of grateful, because noone else really listens to him, I think that he and I are bit of outcasts from the family. XD j/k. But he was complimenting me, on how much of a good kid he thinks I am, believe it or not, I am the only one there that thanked him for putting the fireworks off, and I thanked him for everything else he did. Hmm, I guess I'm a good person, everyone seems to think so.
It just did me wonders to go down there, I just feel a lot happier now. The only really sucky part about going down there, is having to come back. *sigh*
It gets better, when I got back, I found out that my mom is feeling a LOT better. She started taking a new medicine that it doing wonders for her. I'm just so glad. I knew things would get better. I'm on the verge of tears, I'm so happy, yeah I know that I sound like a sap.
Thanks to everyone who's helped me through all of it, you're all very much appreciated. Gifties are on their way! :3
Talk to y'all later. x3 And cross your fingers that things don't get worse! XD j/k.

]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13600723/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13600723/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 01:06:25 PDT <---- Got the idea from her.
I've got Lips Like Morphine on repeat on my ipod... GOD I LOVE THAT SONG. If you don't go listen to it right now... I'll have to.... spam your page or shoutbox with stupid ass stuff.
Okay,... enough of my retardedness.
Well, as you know I came in contact with the police... and I didn't call my probation officer, because, one, I didn't have her number... and two, I forgot... Apparently, my asshole of a bitch I call my father, called her and ratted me out. So she called me, and told me to get down to the detention center immediately, and I did so. But my aunt Sherry had to drive me, because my mom was in the hospital. GOD, she was pissed. She yelled at me, telling me that I needed to call her and stuff like that. God, I felt like telling her off, but I decided not to, because if they really wanted to, they could put me back in juvy, all though, it would be for NO DAMN REASON, LIKE WHAT HAPPENED THE FIRST TIME THEY PUT ME IN THAT DAMNED HELLHOLE. Ugh... sorry.... I just get mad, because she has no idea what I'm going through, she's the naive, goody two shoes type of person.. I hate her... But hating is wrong, so I'm just going to say that I HIGHLY dislike her... >.>... yeah... I still haven't talked to my dad, I don't even know when I'm going to try. I'm just so caught up in all of this confusion. I really shouldn't hold a grudge, I mean... he is my dad,.. If he died tomorrow, I guess I would regret for the rest of my life that I never talked to him again. *sigh* I don't know what to do anymore. I bet that sounds funny coming from a thirteen year old.
My mom's out of the hospital, but she's not doing any better. Today she ate some chicken broth, the first thing she's eaten in about a week. But I don't see that as really bad, because a couple years back, when she was extremely deathly sick, she went ten weeks withough eating.... Heh... But, I'm not going to think about those times, because they'll just bring me down. >.> I can't believe it's been 5 years now.
I'm still really scared, I don't know what's going to happen to my mom, sometimes I think that she's never going to get well. God forbid, if something really bad happens I'll have to live with my dad, which is the last thing I want to do. I was moping around earlier, and my cousin Brett came over, and was telling me that there was only so much I could do, and I believed him, I think that sometimes I come on a bit hard on myself. He's awesome, and he makes me laugh. So, that cheered me up a bit. Love and laughter are the best medicines in the world.
On a lighter topic, I'm gonna do some more arts later. I really want to do some SakuSasu art, because I freakin' love that couple. x3 I'm not much for the whole series of Naruto, the English dub freakin' puts it to shame... But I do love the characters.
Plus some more gifty art. :3
Well, goodbyes, talk later. ]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13523247/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13523247/ Thu, 28 Jun 2007 09:23:54 PDT Well, you know that we were staying in the hotel with my stepdad, while my mom was in the hospital. One night, when we got back to the hotel, from being with my dad, I felt that he was hiding something.
Earlier that day, my mom and stepdad had contacted my aunt Sherry (the one who kicked us out) and Sherry said that someone from child services had been coming to her house each week looking for me. So we made plans for Sherry to come pick us up in the morning, and let us stay there while my mom was in the hospital. Well, about 1:00 o'clock in the morning, the police showed up at the hotel, saying that my dad had sent them to make sure we weren't staying by ourselves. Well, we were by ourselves, because my stepdad went back to Chicago that night. So, I had to call my aunt Sherry, and pretend she was at the store, and then she would come pick us up. So the police waited until she got there, and then they left. We went back to her house, and that next morning my dad called me. Oh joy. He and I got in this huge fight, and he kept saying that my mom was being neglectful, and just about cussed his ass out. I was crying my eyes out, screaming at him. My mom called and then I was ok for a little bit, but then my dad called back. We were screaming at each other again, but finally it calmed down. He wanted to come get us, but I told him no, because my probation officer might stop by today. He called back awhile later and said that he had called my probation officer, but that confused me, because there's no way that he could have gotten her number, but I trusted him anyway, being the idiot I am. Around 2:00 o'clock, my dad showed up, with the police, saying that we HAD to go with him. But, he doesn't have custody, and he didn't go through the court system, so he had no right to take us. Well, my aunt Sherry told the police officer that my mom had entrusted her with taking care for us, which is the truth. I was scared out of my mind, I didn't want to leave my mom. Not after all that I've been through with her. And I can't believe that he did this when she was sick in the hospital, that's low.
My dad said that he had talked to my probation officer, when acually it was a caseworker, working for his custody of us. So he lied about that too. The caseworker wanted to talk to me, and the woman practically screamed at me, saying that I'm a minor and I have absolutely no say in the matter. My aunt then grabbed the phone, and yelled at her saying, that they had no court papers, so they had no right to come and get us, which is true. She finally worked it out, and got to keep us there. My dad called back, yelling at me again. I asked him why he cared now, he certainly didn't care when we were homeless, he didn't care when we had to worry about the money that would put food on our table at night. My mom practically begged him to come to court to testify for my when I went into juvy, and he wouldn't come. I told him that, and then hung up on him. He only cares now, because he's finally having to pay child support. It's a shame that he cares more for his money than his kids. Right when I was FINALLY getting that family bond back that I had with him before he left, he goes and does this shit. I don't think that I'll ever be able to trust him again.
I'm just glad that we have a roof over our head... for now anyway. My stepdad is looking for us an apartment, so hopefully we won't be living with my aunt for too long. I seriously think that I'm about to have a friggin' nervous breakdown. Yesterday, after my dad and the police left, I was shaking really bad, and almost felt as if I could faint. I thought that I was going to puke. I still feel sick now, it's hard for me to eat anything, and I haven't slept much lately. I'm just so tired... But I'm sure that things will turn up... soon I hope. I still try to keep my positive attitude, but it's really hard, when things keep on happening on top of each other. I haven't had a break in it for about 5 years. The worsening things, just KEEP happening right after each other, again and again. I just hope we'll get a break from it soon. I'm scared half to death that I'm going to end up in juvy. I'd rather stay with my dad than go there, I hate that place. I'm just.... really scared, it's just so hard. I think that I really need a good long cry, but I have no privacy over here either, and I don't like to cry in front of people, I feel really weak and pathetic, like I'm trying to gain sympathy or something, which I don't do,... or I think I don't do... And I'm worried about my dog,... ]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13496155/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13496155/ Tue, 26 Jun 2007 08:43:11 PDT I think... that I'm REALLY starting to miss having somewhere to call home. It just... sucks... Knowing that you really have, well, no home. I don't know how to explain it. Just having another gloomy day.
I found out recently, that my best friend, Sarah, got raped by a guy named Kyle that lived close to her.
...
I swear to God, she had to hold me back from going over to his house and slitting his mother fucking throat. I HOPE TO GOD, that he never comes within my eyecontact, because I swear, nothing will hold me back from beating the brains out of his damn head with a metal bat. You mess with my friends, you're messing straight with me. I don't see why some people have to be so DAMN retarded, and ignorant. I am just so pissed about it, it's not funny. >.>
Plus, I was on the phone with my ex-boyfriend (who is now Sarah's boyfriend, when I was going out with him, they messed around behind my back, but I'm not going into that, because I don't hold grudges) and he was drunk out of his mind last night. I couldn't understand half the shit he was saying, and he was acting suicidal, and said that he had a knife and was going to slit his throat. Sarah had called me, and told me about it, and by the time I got on the phone with him, she was having panic attacks, and almost had to go to the hospital. I tried calling his dad, but when I told him what was going on, he just hung up on me, because he's a dick. >.> *sigh* But everything turned out alright. He just passed out later that night, unharmed. I laughed at his ass when he said he had a really bad hangover this morning. I have just such good friends huh? Egh...

Well, in other oh so fascinating news, my mom is back in the hospital. I was hoping that she would come home today, but she probably won't. They're doing some kind of test on her stomach, and they're probably going to keep her tonight. I'd go visit her, but I almost have a phobia of hospitals, I almost faint when I walk in. I've just been in them SO many times, that it just brings back too many bad memories. I'm getting sick just thinking about it. T______T *shivers* Uggghhh.....

Anywhooo, gotta get my mind off of that, so I'll probably go ahead and start Blacky's contest entry oc right after I post this. :3333 I'll have to do it on paint though, because my computer won't let me download Gimp or Paint.net. >.>
Well, I'll stop complaining now. x3 Talk to everyone later. Oh, and sorry for my potty language.

]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13455711/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13455711/ Sat, 23 Jun 2007 05:08:45 PDT Yesterday, we had no food, no money, and we were running on fumes for gas. We were taking our camera to pawn, because that was our ticket for food, if we couldn't get any money on that, then I guess we wouldn't eat. Well, we left for the pawn shop at about 4:00, and we believed that the pawn shop closed at 5:30. It takes about 45 minut5:es to get there, so we had plenty of time, right? Well, we get all the way to the pawn shop, and we forgot the damn camera. Boy, I got in the hugest fight with my mom. And we had virtually no time to go all the way back to the motel, and then back to the pawn shop, but we were willing to try. When we were about halfway back to the pawn shop, from the motel, it was about 5:30. Well, my mom called my aunt Sheila, and she told us that it closed at 6:00, not 5:30, so that gave us a sigh of relief. When we were ALMOST there, we run out of gas. *sigh* My mom just about had a nervous breakdown.
Well, my mom and my stepdad are back together now, (I think that they were only fighting, because he's so far away, in Chicago) but he had no money to send us. He practically begged the bank to give him a loan, and the gave it to him. So he sent us $300 through Western Union, but we had no way there. We called my aunt Sheila again, and my uncle mark came, and gave us gas, and bought me and my brother dinner. God, food tastes so much better when you're practically starved to death. >.< When we got to my aunts house, my mom had a sugar attack. (she's a diabetic) She started shaking really bad, and started crying. I went and got her some pop, (which has sugar) and gave it to her, so she was ok after about an hour.
Soon after, my stepdad called back and said that he had gotten $2000 for us, to find an apartment when he comes back from Chicago. When I heard that, I practically bawled my eyes out, I was so happy. Just to have a roof over our head, that would make me so happy. I knew things would turn up eventually. The less you have, the more it hurts to lose it. But, but the greater it feels to earn something. *sigh*
But... as you know, as soon as something good happens to us, something bad happens too. My mom's laying here sick, throwing up. And she has a disease called Gastro Perisus, which, if her blood sugar is too high, it starts turning into acid, and it makes her deathly ill. And right now, I'm pretty sure that her blood sugar is over 600, which is damn high. I'm almost positive that she's going to have to go back into the hospital. I hate seeing her sick, it's just so... depressing. It reminds me of the times when I'd be laying in bed at our old house, and I wouldn't be able to sleep, because she'd be puking all night. And I was about 9 then. I can't cry, because my brother is here, and that makes him upset, I'm so close to him it's not even funny. Through all of this, we've really only got each other, family-wise. He was at the pool here the other day, and there was some kid calling him fat, and he had to hold me back from kickin' his ass. Some people just piss me off.
But, I'm confident that we'll get through this... like we get through everything else... I just try to do what I can.
I'll probably draw later, to calm my nerves, and to get my mind off of things. I swear I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown, I don't know how much longer I can take this.
Well, I'll talk to you later, everyone.
And please excuse another long post.

]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13417966/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13417966/ Wed, 20 Jun 2007 10:13:16 PDT
We talked about my community service, and about where we lived, and about if I had ever done drugs, or gotten in trouble, and all of that kind of junk. She was fairly nice, she didn't yell at me or anything. But they did a urine test on me, because they thought that I may be on drugs. And she stood there and watched me. *shudders*
It's not nearly as bad as getting strip searched though, like I got when they took me to juvy a couple of months ago FOR NO DAMN REASON. Egh, I hate the friggin' court system. Oh yeah, I'm SUCH a trouble maker huh? I've had good grades, and have been a perfect student from kindergarten, and I miss some school last year, and all of a sudden, I'm a criminal.
Ah, well. At least it isn't worse. They could've put me back in juvy if they really wanted to. *sigh*
We went over to my aunt Sheila's again last night. I love going over there, it just feels so homy. Well, I've known them my whole life. She's not really related by blood to my mom, but they've known each other for over thirty years, so I just consider her my aunt. She's got such a good heart. Whenever we're down, she and my uncle and cousin help us. Just like we do for them if they're down. It's sad that our really close friends treat us better than our own family. My mom and her sister still aren't talking.
My grandpa had the nerve to tell my mom and my uncle Scott, that my grandma would be turning in her grave, if she knew the way that they were acting. Wtf? He has no room to talk. When I was about 10 and my mom was REALLY sick, he kicked us out of our house, and we were on the street. Thank God that my aunt Sheila was there. That's when we moved to that damned trailer park. Buuut, I'm not going into that.
I'm in a bit of a gloomy mood today, but I guess that I'm entitled to have off days every once in awhile. I acually got some sleep last night though, so that's good.

I might do some oekaki later to calm myself down, I don't know, my little brother is bugging me to death to get on the computer. Plus the dial up here is REALLY slow.
Hmm... I've noticed that I write REALLY long journal entries....
Well, I guess I'll give you all a rest. Buh bye.

]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13391827/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13391827/ Mon, 18 Jun 2007 09:27:22 PDT Well, things haven't gotten worse.
We haven't had to sleep in the car yet, so I'm happy about that. My dad's been paying for the last two weeks, so we've had a steady income. I'm on the crappy dial up in the hotel room.
I just found out though.. that my dad might have cancer. He smokes, and they think that they might've found something on his lung... I know that, I'm not really close to my dad or anything, but he IS my dad, you know? I still love him, I just don't much appreciate the things that he does. We've lost so many people in my family to cancer. *sigh* I don't know what we're going to do. I don't really know how things could get worse, but whatever.
Yesterday, we were riding in the back of my uncles truck (me my brother and my cousin), going to his house. I was watching the sunset, and it was cool out, not too hot. I just felt at peace for some reason... So last night, I sat down and thanked the lord for everything I have. And I'm not trying to sound all deep or anything. O.o
I feel kind of bad, because I don't go to church or anything, but we just... don't have the time, money for gas, most of the time we don't have a car, so I guess that God must understand. I don't know, I'm so confused with the world right now. -__-
Lol, when I'm stressed, I carry all of it in my back, and shoulders, so my shoulders are freakin' killing me right now.
I got to see my sisters yesterday, and we went swimming with my nieces and nephews. I had fun, but I'm so self concious I didn't really stay in the pool too long. I really hate it when there are like, friggin' fifty little screaming kids in the pool that dive in right next to you. XP
I can't stand crowds, clostrophobic. I don't much like water either, unless it's not too deep. I almost drowned when I was like, 9 or 10, so I'm a bit of a phobic. >.> Ugh, I can't even stand to watch scary movies where they drown someone, it scares the living crap out of me, and I almost faint.
OH, and I amlost forgot, I went back to court. I'm on probation, and I have to do community service, because we couldn't pay the court fees. -__- But that's ok, I'll get through it, I guess. The judge wasn't a bitch this time.
Well, bye guys, I'll talk to you later.

]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13297837/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13297837/ Mon, 11 Jun 2007 01:36:51 PDT Well, my mom and my stepdad got in another fight today, a BIG one. I think that they're apart for good, they were only engaged anyway though... So my stepdad, being the bitch that he is, cut off his credit card, so now we practically have no money. The motel for tomorrow is paid for already though, after that, I guess we're sleeping in the car. This is probably the last update I'm gonna have for quite awhile... We'll probably go to my aunt Sheila's house to take showers and stuff, I just worry about how we're going to afford food... I guess we'll figure something out. At least things can't get much worse right? I'll still try to keep strong, although it's hard. I think that these are the roughest times yet. And my dad shorted us $100 on child support last week, so my mom can't get the car fixed now. And he hasn't paid this week. I don't know what the hell his problem is, he really doesn't understand how hard we have it. I'd rather live with my mom in a car, than live with his pathetic ass in a house. I'm confident that we'll get by, but I really don't know how the hell we're going to do it. If I could go out, get a job, do something, I would... But sadly, I'm only thirteen, I do as much as I can. My mom says that she doesn't think that she deserves me after all that we've been through, but I don't think I deserve anything I have. I take care of her, I call 911 whenever she's deathly sick, I keep track of the medicine she takes, and I try to remind her to take it. I just wish, that there was more I could do... But, I don't think that there really is. I'm really just sad about the fact that I have to mature so quickly, I really haven't had the time I wanted to be a kid. I think that I know way too much for my age, and my family agrees with me, but I don't know.
Well, sorry for the deep ass rant, just need to get some things off of my chest.
I'll still try to keep my head up, that's really the best thing for now. What's the point in living life, if you hate it all of the time?
Well, I'm tired, it's like, 4:30 in the morning. Yeah, I know, I'm a freakin' vampire. I sleep all day, and stay up all night. I just like night better.... it's calmer, and cooler.

]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13279914/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13279914/ Sat, 09 Jun 2007 15:46:53 PDT Not really in the best of moods... I was supposed to go to court yesterday, but as soon as we left in the car, my mom tried to stop at a stoplight, and found that her brakes didn't work. We almost smashed into another car. So my mom called the courts to tell them that we couldn't make it, but they didn't answer. I'm worrying my self freaking sick whether they put a warrent out for my arrest or if they just resceduled.
...Stupid big fatass whore bitch judge. lol.
Oh wait it gets better... after monday we'll have no money left for the motel, so I guess we'll be sleeping in the car a couple of days... And we're going to a cheaper motel tomorrow, so I don't really know if it has internet service, so I may not be able to post for awhile, so don't get mad at meh.
I guess everything will work out somehow. I'm just glad that I'm not alone in all of this. Just try to keep my head up, that's all I can really do.
Some people choose to cry... which I do sometimes... but I often choose to laugh.
I guess I'll make it... just wish me luck on not getting arrested.

]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13176759/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/13176759/ Fri, 01 Jun 2007 12:57:47 PDT Schools over!!! YEAH!! ... sorry...
Busy workin' on trades and stuffs, hopefully I'll get them done today. OwO All hail the super procastinator!! D:

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]]> ~InfernoWolf http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/11899409/ http://InfernoWolf.deviantart.com/journal/11899409/ Tue, 20 Feb 2007 18:36:16 PST Gotta freakin go work on gettin my manga started and all of this crap. Almost done with the cover, just gotta finish coloring it.
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