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I'm going through my friends' galleries and picking their top ten most favorited. Each week will be someone different (provided my internet works) and this week is

My girlfriend and best friend, without whom life would be very dull and bland indeed.


1.
Photography classes paid off this semester! I predict that this one will take over her top ten for some time to come. Excellent lighting and a great shot, to boot, and not to mention the inevitable yaoi pairing that is Dai and Kyo.


2.
An excellent picture of her hybrid, and as always, so full of personality!


3.
Sadly, one of the last photoshoots of Skye, but she went out with a bang and has taken over her gallery to this day!


4.
This is an excellent example of what to aim for in certain pictures, or in her case, how to use the crop tool to your best advantage. Like the first one, it shot right to the top of her gallery and held sway for a long while before settling to this slot.


5.
Making use of close-by scenery and angles. It's really emotive and one you can't help but enjoy.


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I finally came home yesterday... and while many good things happened over my 11 DAYS OF FAMILY FUN TIME, it was just... maddening! Seriously, C'thulhu has nothing on my family in inducing madness.


My cousin is a douchewaffle. Yes, I went there. Despite being the apple of his grandmother's (my aunt's) eye, he's lazy and selfish. He disappeared on Xmas eve on some pretext of helping his "friend" set up a generator, and didn't show up again until two days after Xmas. And only called once, on Xmas, saying he'd try to make it down. Yes, it snowed, yes, it iced, but damnit those roads were clear enough for him to go to Pryor and find out how bad the roads were there! For the record, Pryor is twenty minutes away from where we live. Plus, he claims the car, my uncle's car, needs all this work because of something that happened about five years ago. Despite my driving it constantly for over a year after it happened, despite it being driven nearly constantly all that time. That all these parts are wearing down and falling apart all at once, despite all the driving and work it's been under. I don't buy it. My mom doesn't buy it. No one I know buys it. And the car has been needing a tire since before I arrived there, and still needs it 12 days later. *sigh*


I had to spend Xmas with my brother, which I was expecting. I don't like him, and it has WAY more to do with his recent escapades and what he put me through when I was a teenager. I don't want anything more to do with him, but for my mother's sake, I'll put up with him and even make some attempt to "forgive" him. I can't, and I shouldn't be expected to, and I won't. I refuse, but I'll leave it at that.


I was trapped in the woods for 75% of the time I was there. There's not music, no movies, no TV of any kind, no internet, and no computer. I could read, or I could draw. As it snowed on my bday, and remained cold and icy until after I left, I couldn't do much outside, 'cause like a dumbass, I left all my boots and such at home. I was so fucking bored. ;-;


But for all that happened and for all the insanity that I dealt with (oh, yeah, there was a reason I ran away from home in the first place), it wasn't all bad. I got in touch with my twin and one of my good friends, both of whom I hadn't seen in a long-ass time. I exchanged numbers with my good friend. I got to see my nephew and hold him and buy him presents! ^^ I got to spend time with my mom, who after she's finished venting her frustrations (she needs a friend or a counselor to talk to ), is wonderful to talk to. I got a Japanese tea set, which is awesome, and an Oxford dictionary/thesaurus set, which is HEAVY!


Things weren't all bad, but it was stressful and very frustrating. I'm SOOO glad to be home, and I just want to sleep and drink.

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I'm sobering up... wide awake, which is NOT how I hoped to spend my b-day night. I want more alcohol, but know if I consume any more it'll make me sick. I want my sleeping pills, but it's a baaaaad idea to take THOSE when drinking. That's how Heath Ledger died


Anyways, I'm now twenty-three... Bleagh. I'm typing this up in hopes that by the time I'm done, I'll still have internet service. I'm so bored, I'm reading the Twilight series, which I've been meaning to do, just haven't wanted to do. bleagh again.


I want sleep, but can't sleep, I want to go home, but everyone's asleep. I want to go HOME by can't. *sighs* At least it wasn't freezing all throughout my b-day, which is something, though it's supposed to snow all through x-mas. Bleagh, yet again.

snow makes my knees hurt. Yes, at 23, I predict the whether with my knees. i also have grey hairs, had them since 15.

I wanna be at home, with B & C, celebrating.

The good thing is...

I GOT TO HOLD MY BABY NEPHEW, ARYLIUS!!!! I GOT HOLD HIM AND BY HIM B-DAY AND X-MAS PRESENTS AND I GOT TO HOLD HIM AND I GOT TO CUDDLE HIM AND I GOT TO SEE HIM!!!!!

Yes, I'm that happy about it. and he's the sweetest, happiest, and most well behaved baby I've ever met, and that's no aunty exaggeration. I've only known him to cry once, and that was when he was to sleep by himself for the first time in a week and a half. He missed his mommy. And that was the ONLY time I've heard him cry. He giggles and laughs and flirts and smiles better than any other guy my age, and he's totally stolen my heart. I love him soo much.


too bad his father's such a douchewaffle. I hate him so much. He's such a dumbass. He doesn't even realize the gift he has in Ary. Seriously. Arylius is such a precious little guy, and I can't imagine not wanting to see him on a regular basis. and this is something, comeing from me.



I GO TO SEE MY NEPHEW, I GOT TO SEE MY NEPHEW, I GOT TO SEE MY NEPHEW!!!!!!

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Technically, he won't be a year old until tomorrow, but seeing as how I'm heading to the family's in a few short hours (holy crap, just three and half left?!), I'm going to go ahead and wish him a happy first birthday now.

God, it's hard to imagine that it's been a year since my little nephew was born. And it's so depressing to realize that since his birth, when I spied him in his little infant bed, I haven't seen him. All I have of him are these pictures, which I'm going to put up in his honor.

All I have of any of my nephews is just pictures of a long time ago. Little Angelo is on the fridge with alphabet letters (his initials) holding his picture up, and Arylius is on DA in ~cheshiresmile86's scraps. I wish I could see them, and hopefully when I'm down there, I'll be able to see at least one of my nephews.

Anyways, Arylius is a year old tomorrow. ;-; Time passes by so quickly.






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AAH!!!

This is me secretly spazing out. O.O My mom got me a bus ticket so I can visit my family for the holidays. Which means I'm going to be at my uncle's house from tomorrow until AFTER X-MAS!!! :nervous: I don't know if I can be around my family for that long without having a nervous breakdown. I wanna bring my rum with me so bad... or the vengeful Jager, Zwack. ;-;

I'm really happy to be seeing my family again - I haven't seen most of them for over a year! It's just... God, the sheer stress that permeates the place at X-mas time is one of the things that finally forced me to run away from home the first time. It's not that I don't love my family, I really really do. And I really really miss them! (And I can finally get my hands on my old phone and get my dad's number! ;-; I haven't called him in over a year....!!!!)

The house is amazingly peaceful most other times, and the area surrounding it is amazingly beautiful, even after a fire, two or three ice storms, half a dozen minor floods, and various city services cutting trees down. At least, I hope it still is after all that! ;-; I'm so depressed about all the loss of nature. But Dai's first real photoshoot was taken there, and the pictures came out amazingly beautiful. Well, the nature did, and more out of beauty of the place itself rather than my own skill (or lack thereof)...

But for all the perks (family, nature), there are some significant drawbacks. The whole place is in a valley - between two really big hills - so it's impossible for any phone anywhere to get any kind of reception at any given time. Seriously, I won't have a cell phone, but as my family does indeed have phones, that's not a big deal.

The second thing is no internet. O.O While I can live without the webmeats, I dunno if I can go so long without hiding from my family. Last year, had her baby, so I was able to get out of the house to visit her, her lovely, lovely, beautiful son, her family, and all that jazz. I also had a camera to escape and take pictures. I have no such distractions. I'm going to be stuck at home, with only X-mas specials to watch, X-mas music to listen to, and family to talk to. With very little else to do.

My god, I'm going to lose my mind!!!!!

I'm also not going to be able to get on at all until after X-mas, when I return.


On another note, Fitz is doing so much better now. He's healthy as can be, but I misplaced is antibiotics. ;-;

As for the car... It'll be $532 to get it fixed, which decimates my car payment (which was sketchy anyway). So I either pay to get my car fixed and lose it, or have it towed back home and have the apartment complex tow it away from me again, and have to spend another $250 to get it back.


Motherfucker, I hate the holidays.

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First, good news. Dallas came down for a business conference last week. I haven't seen him since May, so it was really good to see him again. I just wish he'd been able to hang out with B & C more, but ah well. He's my oldest friend (8 years, nearly 9) and we've kept in contact for six of those years, when we couldn't see each other daily. Talking to him is both excellent and a little nostalgic. And fun. Invariably, we talk about sex, which is weird, 'cause he's VERY gay, and I'm VERY female. Sorta... in body. Anyways.

But it was good being able to see him again.


Okay, now time for the bitch fest... you can go ahead and skip this shit, since that's about what all my journals are anymore.


I feel like such a freaking pussy about the shit going on in my life. I mean, it feels like every journal I write is me complaining about shit. And I'm doing so much better than when I first got here. I've gained weight, I'm healthier, I haven't had a to use my inhaler in months... Seriously, things are so much better now than they've been in YEARS. Damn near ten years, to be precise.

But my cat's at the emergency vet for a urinary blockage. I'm so worried about him. I know he's in good hands, and that he'll be fine, but I can't shake the fear that something is going to happen to him. He was doing alright when we took him in, he was walking around and conscious and aware and all that good stuff. He was just in pain and so much discomfort, and he wouldn't even eat chicken, and wasn't drinking...

And to make matters worse, my car got towed the very day B's loan money came in, and I have to pay for all of that before noon tomorrow to avoid more charges of the impound. Even after we've told them that we were going to get it fixed the day we had money to do so. B wants to make them pay for the initial towing and impound, but I don't think they will...

Cat and car are going to cost us nearly $800, and that's not including boarding my cat at a vet for tomorrow, or getting my car fixed. I gotta stay up to take C to work at 4 this morning, and sleep for two hours to wake up in time to call vets to see who will take in my cat for the cheapest. Then it's off to pay for my car and get it towed to an automotive place. Barring that, fuck the apartment managers, I'll have the car fucking towed back here if the boarding fees are that high for my cat. I'm sure the apartment manager will understand that I value my cat more than my car. At the end of the day, Fitz is a living being, and my car is just a hunk of metal and plastic. If they can't stand having my car sit there until we can get the other $140 to just have it towed and diagnosed, they they can suck my giant purple cock.

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Wah, I'm so tired... So, here it goes. Go to your gallery and find your top ten most favorited pieces. Put up thumbnails (or links) along with how many faves they have. Add some short commentary if you have any.


1. 16 faves

Holy crap, sixteen faves?! I feel... special. ;-; I never expected my first photomanip to do so well.


2. 11 faves

One of my personal favorites of Haven, and from the first session at Sequiota Park.


3. 10 faves

~TeslaMonty's AR Ren, known as Koby. We had a lot of lighting issues in the beginning, but as you can see, the results were worth the lamp-holding, search for white fabric to drape, and general headache of trying to get that One Shot.


4. 8 faves

Possibly my favorite from the Sequiota series. ;-; I just love how well his hair behaved and how epic he looks right here.


5. 8 faves

This one climbed the popularity latter fast. I hate the snow and cold, but this was an amazingly fun and awesome shoot. I especially loved the fake blood. >.>;;


6. 7 faves

Most popular pictures of Nola. Funny story about this one. B & I were trying so hard to get a certain picture to come out this way, when the one underneath was exactly what we wanted. Still don't know why this one is so popular. I think it's the fountain.


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Face-Ups - $10 USD
Body Blushing - $20 USD
Face-Up + Blushing - $25 USD
Scar Mod (Blushing or Face-Up) - +$5 USD
Extensive Scar Mod (Blushing or Blushing + Face-Up) - Negotiable

Materials Used - Prismacolor Nu-Pastels, Prismacolor Colored Pencils (72 ct), Watercolor Pencils, Elmer's Glue (Scar Mod/Eyelashes), Testor's Dull Coat, Acrylic, and Acrylic Gloss

Eyelashes are free if they are sent in with the head. They will be trimmed to a more natural-looking length, unless requested otherwise. I'll wipe previous face-ups/blushing for free, but only if you commission me.


Prices do not include shipping or insurance. You are responsible for shipping and/or insurance. If you decide not to purchase insurance, please understand that I am not responsible for damaged or lost goods in shipment. That said, PLEASE PURCHASE INSURANCE!



I'm willing to do any style of face-up, from natural to fantasy, anything you want. Just be sure to give me a good description of what you want, or a picture of what you have in mind.

Body blushing includes the whole body, plus the genital area, manicure, and pedicure. Please note I will NOT blush child or kid doll genital areas. I'll do any and all resin colors, with the blush being a shade or two darker than the resin color, unless you request a different color. If you like, I can tighten or loosen your doll's stringing for better posing ability while I'm at it at no extra cost.

As for scar mods, I'm willing, even eager to do whatever you have in mind. However, because more scars equals more work for me, I unfortunately have a limit to the $5 USD extra charge. For face-ups, it's about three large scars, or five smaller ones. Blushing is five large scars, or eight smaller ones. If you want extensive scars on your doll, or want scars on both the face-up and blushing, you'll need to tell me exactly what you want, and I'll set a price that I think is fair. Most of the time, the price won't go above $10 USD, but if the scars cover 25% or more of the body, I'll charge more than that.


And finally - there's nothing worse than finally getting your doll back from the face-up/blushing commission only to be disappointed with the results. I'll keep in touch with you through the entire process, and send you pictures of my progress. This way, if I do something you're not happy with, or start in a direction you don't like, you can tell me, and I can fix it before I ship your doll back to you. This will hopefully help to prevent you from being disappointed, and having to spend more money to send the doll back to me be fixed. However, if despite all of my attempts to prevent this, you can send your doll back to be fixed, or redone, at no charge. We all deserve to have our dolls exactly the way we want them.


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Life is a sexually transmitted disease, and is always fatal. I think it might have been a more virulent and deadly progenitor of syphilis. Both are known causes of insanity.


So, update on my life. Still no job, but I applied at a temp agency. I did get a call for a job, but unfortunately, missed the call as I was sleeping with my phone nowhere near me. Pessimism failed me for once. O.o But with our phones temporarily out of order, I can't call or receive calls about jobs. Until Mon. Ah well... the price of the holidays, I guess.

The Jinx comics have hit a snag... called procrastination. I fail so badly at deadlines. I've drawn up Jinx, his inventory (sans DS, damnit), the Harold, and five expressions of Jinx (out of 25). Also, much of the first few pages is written down on my computer, which pleases all involved talents.

In other news, I did something unexpected and fun. No, sars, B, it was not visit your parents for Thanksgiving, though it was fun... ish. lol *pokes*

I blushed Urielle, the redheaded Archangel of Passion which belongs to ~nevermorechronicles. We haven't yet given her a proper photoshoot, and I haven't been able to take detail pictures of her blushing just yet. I also re-faced and blushed Nola, for all my bitching of her body.

I'm in love with her all over again. ^.^ I'll have to get some pictures of her up. I'm not 100% happy about her blushing, but as she's for me, and as I'm planning on getting her a new body anyway, I figure I don't need to be 100%. Though trust me, if it were for B or a commission, I'd redo several things. And remove those damn stains.

But all things considered, we're doing better. Things are a little tough right now, and B & C are stressing, but we're doing alright. We've been taking the hits as they come, dealing with them as best we can, and truckin' along just fine. When things get a little hectic, I just repeat an excellent, if trite, piece of advice I learned a while ago... just don't remember where.

"God grant me the courage to change the things I can, the grace to accept the things I can't, and the wisdom to tell the difference."

Ahhh, quotes to live by.

Surprises in store for my next journal, when I get that put up.

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Yeah, the whole job thing is failing. I mean, Piercing Pagoda (which you'd think I'd be unnaturally suitable for) didn't even have a real application, and they haven't called! ;-; So, since I can't get a job, I've decided to do something productive with my free time.

I'm going to start a comic. Starring Jinx Casimir (I need to check the spelling on that last name). Yes, Jinx, C's character from my Demon Hunters campaign. The rest of the cast isn't with him (think of this as one of the alt worlds ^^), but it's about his adventures, misadventures, and shopping trips.

I've got his first picture done (mostly - damn details). He looks great and not too terribly like the majority of my guys (long hair, muscular, sexy...). So I'm pleased with the result, and more importantly, the guy who created him originally is pleased. More than pleased. C's helping me with the initial storyline, and probably the entire thing, but the drawings up to me.

The only problem we've run into is a title. We can't think of a good one. We have about four of them, so I'll put up a poll for you guys to choose. But here's some information about Jinx to help you decide.

Jinx is what is called a probability mage, an uncertainty mage, or an agent of chaos or luck. O.o It's based on the concept of nothing being impossible, only highly improbable. Jinx can raise the probability of things happening either unconsciously (finding loose change on the ground, small stuff like that) or at will (don't even ask). To dumb it down even more, there's very little that Jinx can't do or figure out a way to do. And he's incredibly lucky.

Ex 1:
Jinx is grocery shopping and picks up a block of mozzarella cheese, but he needs cheddar, and checks his list to be sure. He finds out he really does need cheddar so he puts it down and picks up the block of cheese next to it, which is cheddar. The thing is... he's in the colby-jack section of cheese. Unlikely, but not impossible.

Ex 2:
Jinx is in the Savage Land, running from a zombie T-Rex (liberally taken from a Deadpool comic C & I read) when all of a sudden, he sees something shiny. He stops and bends down to pick it up, narrowly missing getting decapitated, and discovers it's a penny. He flips it, catches and grins, saying "find a penny, pick it up, all day long you'll have good luck." Highly, ungodly unlikely, but again, not completely impossible. Lots of people have been to the Savage Land - who's to say they didn't lose a penny?

His favorite past times are listening to happy hard core (think Alvin & the Chipmunks do techno) and playing on his Nintendo DS. Which is also bespelled to sense magic & the like. We don't know. He's a raver kid who loves candy and bright colors, with a generally cheerful, happy-go-lucky disposition and the confidence (but not arrogance or cockiness) that everything will turn out all right in the end. He's ADD and can be a bit of an ass at times - playing games or listening to music and ignoring you.



Anyways, that's Jinx, Destroyer or Worlds, Defender of Puppies, Eater of Cheese. Plz to has help f... ]]> *Inimicality http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/28306592/ http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/28306592/ Thu, 12 Nov 2009 04:01:56 PST LOVES






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Should I feel bad for cutting and pasting thanks when random people fave my stuff? O.o 'Cause I don't, and I wonder if I should.

Still no job, still looking. *sighs* C'mon, Piercing Pagoda, I thought you were desperate!

I realized while trying to sleep (and failing miserably - again) that I haven't seen my family in almost a year. And I've seen Dallas's family more recently than my own, and they live farther away! ;-; I hate the holidays. Already the typical depression that hits this time of year is starting to creep up. To add that I don't have a job yet... mur! And I don't know what my Dad's phone number is, haven't had it since I lost my phone in OK, so I can't call him and wish him happy b-day or Merry X-mas next month. Bleagh, hates the holidays! >.<

Ya know... if Rorschach was turned into a zombie, no one would notice...


Meme Time, 'cause I have nothing better to do. BTW, there are some minor spoilers for the Heretic Saga, so be warned. I tried to censor as much as I could.



1) First list all your OCs by first name so we can see your list of all your wonderful OCs:

Oh, jeez... I have too many OCs to list them all... we'd be here all night. How 'bout if I do my smallest universe, one that won't require (much) explaining...

Heretic Saga
1. Ada
2. Hunter (not mentioned yet)
3. Noctem (working name)
4. Stormy
5. Yuri


2) Who is your favorite OC?

Stormy! ^.^ She's hard not to love


3) Who is your least favorite?

O.o Hunter. He's not quite developed yet...


4) Who is your most developed?

Yuri... or Stormy


5) Which OC would you want to date if they magically came to life?

Plz to has skip? O.O I's scared of my characters...


6) How many girl OCs do you have? Boy OCs? It OCs?

Girls - Ada & Stormy
Boys - Hunter, Noctem, & Yuri
Its - countless... hordes upon hordes... *cough*yeahright*coughcough*


7) If you were stuck in a burning building what do you think the third OC on your list would do?

Is Stormy with me? 'Cause otherwise, I'm a crispy critter!


8) Name one thing you regret about one of your OCs.

I regret nothing... I just feel bad about Stormy and what she's been through...


9) Which of your OCs do you think would make the best father/mother/it parent out of all your OCs and why??

Noctem, for obvious reasons. But otherwise, I'd say Ada.


10) Which of your OCs do you think will most likely be put in jail?

Noctem! And he'd likely deserve it, too!


11) The fifth of your OCs was put into the future! What will their job be?!?

*ponders* Teaching? A priest? A... travel agent?!


12) Name the first OCs catch phrase!

"I'm nothing like you!"


13) Do all your OCs live together or are they separated?

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FINALLY got around to emptying my inbox of all my messages and deviations. I sars in advance if I didn't comment/fave/reply to anything of yours... but 300+ deviations is a LOT to go through.

Still don't know how long the internet thing is going to last. As I've said before, since I'm on C's computer, I don't want to go to any sites he... well, might object to. I'll see if B's computer will accommodate me (ha!) so I can finally get around to my other actually important things.

In other news, I'm sick.

Nothing new, right? Nope, ear infection. At first, I thought it was just water in my ears (it happens), since I suddenly had like half hearing in one ear. Then... then the disorientation began. BAD disorientation. Then the uber sick of doom. Nausea, headache, ear ache (I think), crud in my throat (still)...

I think I'm getting better... I'm started to be able to hear out of my ear, but I'm worried it might've spread to the other one... or I'm just paranoid. I'll wait and see. 'Til then, sweet oil in the ear, 'cause I'm too po' to buy ear infection crap.


In other news, I have terrible luck with my Heliot head. I feel like such a bad dolly owner. ;-; We know about the face-plant, cracked nose thing. Easy (ish) fix, little sanding, some scar mod if that fails...

I could kill the kitten.

Cosmo has decided that the top of the entertainment center is specifically for HIM to jump up on and play. I've been having interrupted sleep for the past few weeks trying to keep him off of it, and consequently, off of the dolls and their wigs that he so desperately wants. Well, the inevitable happened.

He jumped up on the entertainment center, and I heard a clunk. Of course, I chased him down, swatted him a couple of times, and checked to see what he knocked down. My sleep-addled eyes saw nothing, and I went back to bed. The next day... I discovered that Lucilius' head was knocked over. Worse, because of the damn kitten, a chunk of his ear was snapped off.

;-; I didn't harm the kitten, just so everyone knows, wasn't even tempted to. He wouldn't have known what I was beating him to death for anyway. But I'm middling depressed 'cause the doll head I spent $200 on is broken in both nose and ear, and I haven't even really had him that long. *sigh of doom*

woot, my days are full of win.

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No, seriously... it is.

It's also a cold-hearted bitch at the moment. Just letting everyone know that I'm probably not going to respond to any comments or replies, or comment/fave any deviations. Faves I will >eventually< get around to responding to, just for politeness sake, but everything else? Hell no.

Our internet hates me. It's a pattern. Every time I get online to do anything (and by anything, I mean click on a link, a log-in button, change a page, refresh a page) I get booted because my connection is so pitiful. BUT, if B or C were to get on their computers, it fires away with very little lag and I'm staring open-mouthed. I get on to do my thing, and I'm booted. I has the gremlins.

Don't believe me? Check out or B's been able to update all her crap, respond to replies, the whole nine yards. This will actually probably be one of very few journals or any communication I'll be doing for a good long while. I just don't have the patience to sit through the half-hour load screens and refresh the page or the connection 20 times just to see a deviation.

I apologize to everyone out there who are being so patient with waiting for me to get my ass in gear and start doing my internet thing. Unless I can get the internet on my computer again, or get B's compy to work well enough, I'll still be MIA.

The most I've been able to do for the past few weeks is delete some deviations and/or journals. And they keep popping up. >.< I'm trying to get this sorted, but... *sighs*

Anyways, putting this out there. This is the best I've done in weeks.

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While I'm usually a terrible person in the fact that I keep my head down and pretty much ignore the rest of the world, I couldn't ignore this. Maybe 'cause it hits so close to home. It's a petition to repeal the death penalty or imprisonment for homosexual acts in different countries. I know that these are different countries, and that I'm an advocate for keeping our eyes on our own country... but being bisexual and having gay and lesbian friends... I just can't ignore this.

Yeah... they want 1000 signatures, there's... I dunno, I haven't looked. Nowhere close to their goal.


SIGN IT [link]


I'll leave this up for consideration. But I'll add a meme to make things shiny.

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Finally finished uploading all of the pics of my new boy. ;-; It took so long! I want my old internet back!

B got her wireless card, which works slightly better than C's, and it's namely thanks to hers that I was able to upload the last handful of pics. These are my favorites, the ones with the broken headstone. While I adore the pics I got, it makes me a little sad. There were a lot of broken ones out there. I hope it wasn't vandals, but I'm not so sure. I mean, we run amok in cemeteries all the time, taking pictures and such. But at least we don't break anything, and even if we did, we would be so wracked with guilt as to let someone know immediately so it could be fixed. We might not admit we're the ones who did it, but at least it won't be senseless destruction.

For the record, I have never damaged a headstone. Even when I was jumping on them in B's wedding boots.

I think I'm coming down with a cold. I'm tired and bone-weary, but that could be a lack of sleep there. Plus, I have a slightly sore throat, been coughing some and sneezing a bit more. I don't want a cold. I hate colds. I hate cold weather. I want my summer back!

But despite all that, I feel I've accomplished something with Lucilius' pictures. He has some epic going on there, and takes amazing up shots. Despite his accident (which I'm still annoyed with) I'm pretty happy with him. I can't wait for his lover to come home, so I can see what B's going to do with him.


I should go to bed, but I just can't bring myself to fall asleep. I'm tired, and exhausted, but can't sleep. Geez, story of my life, there.

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I'm so frustrated I could just beat something... seriously, I want to beat something into submission, just so something in my life will go my way for once. And today had such beautiful potential, too...

I should've known this day would be full of fail when B left her phone out to ring all morning... and the cats kept me up. Gah, I'm so tired. Still, despite the lack of sleep, I wasn't in a bad mood. In fact, it could be called decent.

I snagged Dai's body to take some proper dollie pictures of the Heliot head. The resin match SUCKS, but hey, it's a body that doesn't make me want to giggle maniacally. I put him on Ere's body, and nearly died laughing...

But anyway, Dai's body needs to be sueded so badly... Trying to dress, style, and pose him is starting to just piss me off more than it should... But hey, the Heliot head has a body, right?

Yeah... figures that Lucilius would face-plant himself the first photoshoot. And not only that, he broke his fucking nose. It's barely noticible, the cracked resin at the tip of his nose, but goddamnit, it's the first time I fucking took him out for pictures and he fucking face-plants and breaks his fucking nose! *resists urge to beat Lucilius about the head until he behaves*

Besides that, the photoshoot was a marginal success. I got some truly epic pictures of Lu, for all that I can show you, 'cause guess what?

WIRELESS INTERNET SUCKS DISEASED DONKEYS BALLS!!!

It's been nearly an hour and a half since I started tying to upload ONE freaking picture... And you know what? It's still trying to upload. I want to beat my head against something until that something crumbles. I'm feeling very destructive right now. I'm so frustrated with everything I want to just hit something, or cry. It's pissing me off, royally.

I hate the world right now... I really do...

I think I deserve some fucking cream.

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So thanks to the awesome support of B's work friends, we have ONE wireless card, which is on C's compy. B will be getting a wireless card from her parents at some point. I don't think my compy could support a wireless card... it's so damn slow. ;-;

We also got a camera that works fairly well, if what B says isn't an exaggeration. And from the pics she took of Kyo a few days ago are any indication, it isn't. So, hopefully, I'll be able to take some pics of the Heliot head, introduce him properly, and some of Kyo's scar mods.

So, I think Bobobie's resin hates me. Water color pencils don't show up too well on Nuri, so I had to resort to acrylics. I'm hoping it's the resin, and I'd have to check to see. But regular colored pencils worked wonders on the Heliot head, so maybe.

My commission info will be opened as soon as I can get to a less awkward computer. O.o I don't want to mess anything up for C's compy, so I'm restricting myself to just a handful of sites.

Also, I'm trying to play catch-up on DA, so some things aren't being replied to or commented on. Mostly, any deviations on file. I apologize in advance, but I had over 200 of them in my inbox, and I refuse to comment on all of them. O.O

That's about it...

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We've had to turn off our internet/cable due to my lazy ass not having a job. >.>;; We should have internet back in a few weeks or so, but I'm not holding my breath.

Heliot head came in a few days ago. Gave him a great (for me) face-up that I'm extremely proud of, plus some scar mods. Need to get him some eyes that fit, as all we have are size huge. Birthday wish, then.

Blushed ~nevermorechronicles DZ Yuu and gave him some scar mods. Restringing him bruised my finger, so I'll have to keep that in mind when I start to take commissions.

Also, I'll be taking face-up and blushing commissions as soon as our interwebs is returned to us. My idea of using colored pencils turned out great, but watercolor pencils work so much better, I've found out. So my skills have greatly improved.

Our lovely camera broke, so there's no pictures of the Heliot head or Kyo's blushing. Fortunately, ~nevermorechronicles was able to get a camera on loan from her school, so she can finish her classes, but still. BUT until we get the internet fixed, there'll be no pictures anywas.

I think that's everything important.

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Alright, alright, I have a lot of things I have to do, but... I can has an entertain? Self entertaining J is not self entertaining forevers.

*sigh* I don't miss KK, but I do miss having something to do during the day... and a reason to not sleep until the sun goes down. Seriously. I think a job would clear up a lot of this insomnia bullshit. I've using my anxiety pills as sleeping pills for about two or three days (I lost count) and last night was the first night I felt confident that I didn't need them...

Yeah, three hours of sleep there.

My uncle will be having (another) surgery this Mon. Fortunately, this is one of those planned ones, where everyone is expecting it. But still, you're supposed to wait at least six months before you have another. Kinda like a tattoo.

Erm, anyway.

I also think it would be uber helpful if I could have some damn speakers. Why, oh why, didn't I take the speakers when I had the chance?! Now, in order to listen to my music, the crap that I like that no one else does (it exists), I have to be sitting at my computer.

The good news, though, is that I found my wallet. So as soon as we have money, I can get my license renewed and start using C's truck to job hunt. >.>;; Yeah, good luck getting cash together. It's all going to food and bills. *sighs* But I want to get my license renewed. I've needed to do it for so long!

I'd take the bus, but we don't even have enough change for that... plus, where would I go? Damn, I wish my car worked...

I just need to be patient though... And though I was impatient and headstrong when I was younger, I've learned patience... Those who've known me for any length of time would be shocked to hear this, but guess what? J has turned out to be very patient. It just took climbinb Mt. Everest... figuratively speaking. I mean, I wish I had, 'cause then I'd've had the money, and if I had the money, well...

Maybe I can gank B's speakers for today... She might like the change, come to think of it. Using my Pandora station (and hours) instead of hers... we like the same sort of music... usually. It's a possiblity.

So, hopefully, we'll be able to finish paying off that head today. We made plans for it, but... GAH!!! *headdeskslam* Why is it every time I try to buy anything for myself, a totally selfish buy, something has to come and ruin my happy?



I want to fix my pendant.

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I really need to stop sleeping until 8 in the evening... it can't be good for me.

Musings from a deranged mind...

What's with glitter? Why does every girl I seem to meet/know/hear of have this absolute LOVE of glitter? I mean, yeah, its shiny, but that's about it. And, once you have glitter EVERYTHING'S shiny for the rest of eternity, whether you want it to be or not! And there will always be that spot of glitter, no matter what you do, it will always be there!

So what's with the obsession? Is it a ploy to misdirect attention to oneself in the case of make-up or clothing? What about art projects? AND WHY MUST YOU DUMP IT EVERYWHERE??!!!!

It must be some girl thing that I'll never understand... I mean, one would think I'd understand the girl thing, being one myself, but seriously, I don't understand glitter.

It's like Sailor Moon, one of those girl things that everyone loves, but I just never really got. I mean, the show's been off the air for, how long? More than a couple of years by now, and how long has the manga been over with? I have no idea, really. Never kept up with it.

Which therein lies my point. Never got into it.

But even now, you can go through the DA's most popular, and invariably you'll find Sailor Moon drawings, fanarts, characters as senshi, comics... The list is, like DA, endless. There's still a fairly decent-sized following for this perverted little show.

And yes, it is perverted. Fourteen year old girls wearing tiny mini skirts and stilleto high heels, fighting tentacle monsters and dating college-aged men. Dude, if I tried to walk out of the house wearing a senshi outfit, my mom woulda bitch slapped me!

*ahem* Got off topic. Back to my main point...

Did I miss some integral girl gene that likes things like glitter and Sailor Moon? Do I lack something inherently feminine?

Either way, I hate glitter.

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So, the repairmen came this morning to fix the AC. Bad wire, had to be threaded through the wall... I didn't pay that much attention. But for the time being, we have AC again. Hopefully, it'll last longer than five minutes.

I'm an insomniac. It's offical. I'm still up. Haven't been to bed yet. It's nearly noon. But I've discovered something vastly entertaining and interesting.

Insomnia seems to inspire me.

Seriously.

Either that, or I just have lots of free time to myself when everyone else is sleeping. But still. I mean, back in the day, writers needed alcohol and absinthe and drugs for inspiration. And it worked for them. Me? Insomnia.

I've reached the point where I'm amused by it. It'll pass, then I'll be annoyed. Then I just won't care.

Well, enjoy the new short. I don't know if it'll go anywhere or not. Heck, I might not even write more on it. I don't like it that much. But we'll see what more insomnia brings.

I've decided against using my ultra-cool sleeping pills. I've noticed a trend with them... They make me terribly nautious when I wake up. That's not a good side effect in my book. So I might try my anxiety pills, which are supposed to make me drowsy. But the one time I tried them, I almost had a panic attack.

So... I'm going to try to stay up today and try to go to bed at a more reasonable time... like 2 or 4 am rather than... well, noon. Try to be up when the suns up, rather than tossing and turning and eventually waking up when the sun's going down. I'd really like that. I need my vitamin D damnit!

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I suddenly want, no need to play Halo: ODST...

or join the marines...

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So, our air conditioning is offically out. It's between 75 to 80 in our apartment, and it is not comfortable. At ALL. Especially considering the apartment usually stays about 65 to 70. Which means, my ability to sleep is totally gone. Zombie J is zombie.

I haven't had any luck on the job front... mostly because I haven't tried in a while. *headdeskslam* I blame the insomnia. When I finally get to sleep, and the neighbors are finally quiet, I wake up a few hours later... in the evening. Mur.

So... yeah... I'm going to go take a shower, throw open the windows (again) and get me an ice cold soda from the machine!

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Dude, since when does Wolverine hang out with Aladdin? Seriously, Marvel... what were you thinking?! Disney will make you dumb down Deadpool! Or... change the name, so no one knows you do porn... *cough*mci*coughcough*

Anyways, my insomnia's come back with a vengeance. I haven't had much more than 4 hrs of sleep since last week. I'm so... well, slow. And silly. And full of A.D.D.

Yeah... still no luck on the job front. Was working on it, but got, erm, greviously injured, if ya know what I mean. Couldn't walk very well... Then the insomnia kicked in, and I find that I'm still up at 10 a.m. and trying to sleep through everyone getting ready for work and such. -_-

Well, we'll be changing our sleep schedule to see if that helps any. If nothing else, we'll now be up during the day, rather than still up at 5 a.m. Or 10, in my case.

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Yes, yes I am.

While trying to get Dai to stand last night, I finally had enough with his stringing, his joints, everything. Rather than gently tossing him down and going to do something less frustrating, I decided to... UNSTRING HIM!

I have a tutorial bookmarked, which was extremely helpful. And I followed it as best I could, but Dai's a different kind of doll than in the tutorial. But, I got him apart with very little difficulty. While apart, I decided to finally give him a much-needed bath. He's been out in the snow, surrounded by fake blood, hanging out in parks, near creeks, and in graveyards. He needed a bath!

Once he was dry, I figured, "Hey, while I'm at it, why not blush him as well?"

So I did. It turned out better than I could've hoped, and it was easier than I thought it was. Dai has nipples! ^.^

*sighs* I love you, ~nevermorechronicles... But... GAH!!!

~nevermorechronicles decided to unstring one of her dolls, Ere. Now, just so you know, Ere has a Bobobie girl body. Unstringing her wasn't that bad, nor was cleaning her ('cause she got soda all over her), nor was drying her off or blushing her! BUT IF I HAVE TO RESTRING ANOTHER BOBOBIE GIRL BODY, I WILL SHOOT WHOEVER UNSTRUNG HER!!!

They are freakin' impossible to restring! Their joints aren't like all the others, you have to thread the elastic through them, and that has problems all it's own, which makes it difficult. Then you have to string it through the limbs, then you have to split it up ('cause it's one string to the legs), and do it for the other side! Then the arms have their own strings, and can you imagine trying to pull up two strings (now four 'cause their folded in half) through a tiny neck hole to tie them off and put an S-hook through the tied-off strings, so the strings don't snap out and disappear somewhere inside the body AGAIN!!!

O.O It's a nightmare, a freaking nightmare! Seriously. I am never, ever, EVER owning a Bobobie body, OR restringing one, unless I'm getting paid for my time, frustration, sweat, and near-blisters!

BUT I DID IT! I restrung a Bobobie girl body!


I AM FUCKING AWESOME!!!!


And btw, the job hunt is still underway, but I think I have some nibbles...

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I ganked The Universal Mary-Sue Litmus Test from . She took the test for the Twilight character of Bella Swan, who scored a 33.

I took the test for Laurell K. Hamilton's Anika Blake.

It's a point system, where a counter racks up the points based on question you answer. There's a section of "de-suifiers" to lower your score.

0-16 means your character isn't a Mary Sue, and could do with some spicing up.
17-21 is a probably not, but could be if you're not careful.
22-29 means you have a Mary Sue, but it can be redeemed.
30+ means you seriously need to redo this character.
36+ means you probably need to start over.
50+ means you need to kill it. Dead.


Now, I've scored the "kill it dead" once or twice.

As I've said earlier, I did it with Anita Blake in mind. I've read it up to Harlequin, and sometimes, I've re-read the books, so I pretty well know the character.

Anita Blake scored 147.

I shit you not.

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"Post a single sentence from each WIP you have. No context, no explanations. No more than one sentence!"


"What in the name of all the unholy, damned saints were you thinking?"

"Good evening," he says nonchalantly, as though he beats up werewolves every night in burning churches.

"It's smaller than what I am normally used to, but the heating, plumbing, and electricity more than make up for the lack of size," he says as he starts to unwrap the scarf around his neck and face.

"No Shea, bad Shea. Remember your degree, Shea. Bad girl. No cookie."

And, by the by, I am not a furball. I'm just fluffy.

"That didn't turn out exactly as I had in mind..."

"Then do you trust in my self-righeous suicide, woman?"

“You should know by now that Leccubi don’t have lovers, just demons willing to fuck them.”

"I had a fourth cousin, thrice removed on my father's mother's side that was allergic to cotton."

“You do, and I’ll make your life a literal hell,” she growled.

“Hell has a new reason to fear us.”



Okay, now that we've had our imaginations & brains tickled, on to other news. It's a good news/bad news scenario. The good news is that you'll never again read my bitchings about KK. The bad news is I no longer work there.

Yeah... I was fired. I WANTED to spend all of today looking for new jobs, but I fail at tech stuff and thought the internet was down. *sighs* So there's tonight and tomorrow.

I'm... ambivalent about this. On one hand, I'm worried about our new financial state. I brought in around $200 every week with my checks. That's nearly $800 or more a month that we no longer have.

On the other...

DUUUUUUDE I don't work at KK anymore! I don't have to settle for less-than-stellar co-workers who try to boss me around even though I have been there AT LEAST nine months before them! I don't have to skip my breaks/meals in order to get the job done on time! I DON'T HAVE TO WORK OVERTIME DESPITE LEAVING 4 1/2 HRS EARLY ON THE WEEKEND, GET IN TROUBLE FOR IT, AND ACCUSED OF BEING SLOW, AND HAVE TO BE SHUNTED ASIDE AND WATCH AS WORTHLESS IDIOTS TRY TO DO WHAT I DO ON A DAILY BASIS!!!!

So... yeah... ambivalent.

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AND I FEEL FINE!!!

Sorta... Been sick the past three or so days. Not fun, I tell ya. Fortunately, it's not the kind of sick that keeps me in bed, though the prospect is rather appealing. Sleeeeeeep.... -_-.oO(ZZzz)

Yeah... insert typical work rant here. I'm sick of my job and the fucktards who "work" with me, but really make it sooo much more difficult than it really needs to be. Anyways, I called in on Fri. The world was spinning and listing so much that I couldn't get outta bed. And I was extremely nautious to boot. For the record, I TRIED to get outta bed and get to work... I just... couldn't sit up... >.>;;

So now my store manager wants to talk to me. It's either about me being sick on Fri. (the last day before my four-day weekend >.>;; ) or it's about the complaint I lodged on Thurs. night when I left. About my co-workers. And their lack of help. Seriously... I mean, how do you justify just sitting around with your jaw flapping, laying on boxes, on the clock? HOW?!

Yeah... I might just be in trouble at work... But sadly, I don't care. I really don't care. I should... and I feel bad... for not caring. But I don't. Not anymore. They have me scheduled for 11 hrs a day now, or they did up until just recently. But I've been busting my ass for 11 hrs, WITH NO BREAK NOT EVEN A LUNCH BREAK AND NOT EATING ANYTHING ALL DAY, with no real help from the idiots that I work with. Yeah... if my managers want to bitch at me, I'll wave that in their faces. I'm a DAMNED good employee, who busts my ass every day I work and I make sure my job gets done, and that it's done right.

*ahem* Sorry, tried to avoid the work rant. They keep cropping up in every journal lately. I need to start looking for another job. And I'm gonna put in a application just as soon as I figure out someone's last name. ^^ References who used to work at places (and were let go after the holiday season and were asked back) are awesome to have.

In better news, the countdown has begun. February, after V-Day. Also, will be getting a Soom Heliot R. Head. ^^ I've always loved that mold, been in love with it since I first saw it. It's on layaway ('cause I can't afford full price), and I'll prolly have it sometime next month or so.

AND DID YOU GUYS SEE THE TRAILOR FOR LEGION?!! OMG I WANNA SEE THAT MOVIE SO FREKAING BAD!!! It's like The Prophecy meets The Omen!!!

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1. Fill up the blanks with your OCs, BJDs, or favorite characters. Put their names by the numbers, too.
2. Answer the questions, or try to.
3. TAG 3 people.


1) Haven/Daisuke
2) Nuri
3) Apollo
4) Nola
5) Mulloch
6) Lysandor
7) Gelith
8) Dmitri
9) Illyon
10) Pierce

[HURHUR jealous of my character choices, I know]


1: What if 7 (Gelith) and 4 (Nola) kissed?

This would totally have to be before Cecily... Um, they'd kiss? Heh, Nola'd prolly try to take it farther, and depending on his mood, Gelith might let her.


2: Where would 2 (Nuri) bury a treasure?

In a dimensional pocket given to him by Haven...


3: 3 (Apollo) and 10 (Pierce) get into a fight. Who resorts to violence first?

Apollo... and he'd be justified. Pierce is a snarky asshole and likes to goad people.


4: 1 (Haven) is kidnapped and their kidnapper demands a ransom of 1,000 dollars from 5 (Mulloch).

For one, the kidnapper obviously doesn't know who the hell he just kidnapped, or who he's asking, if that's all he's asking. Though Mulloch would pay the ransom and use it against Haven... which might or might not work. Gah, I refuse to think of this!


5: Who is stronger? 6 (Lysandor) or 4 (Nola)?

Lysandor, no contest.


6: Who is 3's (Apollo) secret love?

Erm... His mask?


7:Can 2 (Nuri) juggle?

Probably... He's a trained courtesan and spy... It seems like something he'd be able to do... But then again...


8: 1 (Haven) is asked on a date by their favorite actor/actress. Do they accept the date?

Yes, to either, though Haven'd be shocked if John Wayne asked him out on date and would be sure that he somehow misheard.


9:What is 5's (Mulloch) biggest fear?

That everything he's sacrificed and worked so hard to build and protect means nothing.


10: A meteor is about to hit the planet, can 7 (Gelith), 2 (Nuri), and 10 (Pierce) stop it?

Ha! No...


11: Is 9 (Illyon) single?

Yes, actually, though I wouldn't recommend it. Incubi are notorious whores and bed-jumpers, and in Illyon's case, he's a slaver.


13. Does 1(Haven) wish this TAG was over?

He's actually rather amused by the proceedings. Who says he doesn't have a sense of humor?


14: 8 (Dmitri) and 7 (Gelith) are dancing to the waltz. 2 (Nuri) comes in and sees them dancing. 2's reaction?

Confusion... Nuri didn't know that Gelith could watz, or for that matter, was into men. Men like Dmitri, that is. He feels bad for Cecily...


15: 2 (Nuri) and 4 (Nola) go to the movies. What movie do they see?

Oh jeez... Either a major chick flick, or something that makes you stop and think. Like The Proposal, or District 9.


16: You are attacked by 1 (Haven), 3 (Apollo), and 10 (Pierce). Can you survive?

O.O I'm either dead so fast and hard, I'm wondering why it's suddenly a dry heat I'm feeling, or I just got myself captured and tortured for a very, very long time... Or I'm forced into some sort of bargain that enslaves me to Haven.


17:What is 4's (Nola) favorite color?

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So, I'm going to be uploading the pics from a few... days? Seriously, was it days? Am I that mixed up? ... Ok, the pics from a few days ago. Hopefully, the internet won't crap out on us...

In other news, I got myself slightly injured at work. Yeah, we've been expecting this to happen for a while, and poof! Injury.

Yeah, a box fell on my relaxed, sideways hand. Fortunately, it only fell about, hm, a foot, and no corners were involved. BUT I still had to go to the hospital, get irradiated, and make sure my hypothetical drug problem wasn't the issue. Not broken bones, and I wasn't on drugs at the time (or ever), but I was diagnosed with a contusion. A really bad bruise, from what I gather.

Which doesn't sound that bad. BUT I CAN'T FREAKIN' DRAW!!!! And typing is a little... off. My hand works just fine, just a lil stiff and sore. They say that the third day (today) is the worst, so I'm in for a good time! *sarcasm*

Anyway, off to get the pics up. *sighs* Argh, we had such potential, and I can't edit well enough... So much graininess...

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Yeah... sometimes, going to all-night restaurants in the middle of the night is not quite such a good idea. For instance, a guy who could only speak in vowels he was so drunk. His poor friend was bright red... I felt bad for him... when I wasn't laughing. I tried not to, I really did... but... it was just... too funny.

Finally finished going through the pictures from a few nights ago, when ~TeslaMonty came over. Of all the pictures I took, I only like about half of them. Sooo grainy, soo dark. It makes me sad, 'cause Tesla made Haven & Uri look amazing, and her dolls are gorgeous. I'll... post them... sometime... in the next few days... maybe...

Okay... I need sleep. What else is new?

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Well, ~WyldAngel and I are going to be meeting ~TeslaMonty today. And as I'm sure Tesla's asking, why MO of all the random ass places? Not that I can say much... I mean, I moved here, too. O.o Guess MO is just "the place" to go. *shrugs*

But I'm definitely excited. I just... need to wake up more. Seriously, sleep is starting to elude me again. Fortunately, nowhere near the extent it likes to, though. Mostly 'cause ~WyldAngel and I have stumbled onto an epic plot that's keeping us up 'cause we just hate to leave it.

O.o I need to clean some... spot cleaning mostly...

And... I need to get dressed... Where are my pants???

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As I'm sure you've read in ~WyldAngel's journal, she and I have been getting verbally abused every time we go for a walk. Exercise aside, a walk is my way of relieving my stress. Any kind of stress, I'll feel better after a good, long walk.

Unfortunately, idiot boys seem to think that she and I need to be attacked. Obscenities and vulgarities such as "show me your tits", or "how much?", or "where are the rest of the fat chicks." Honking, and even the occasional wordless call of approval isn't exactly acceptable, but I won't do anything in retaliation to such harrassment. But when mindless, dickless morons decide to use one of the above mentioned phrases, it pisses me off. When it happens more than once, I'm really ticked. But when it happens more than that, I'm enraged. I want to get their license number. Not to report them, but to pour sugar in the gas tank, key their car, slash their tires, and overall make them feel as powerless and victimized as they make all the other women feel.

Now, I don't slouch when I walk. I have excellent posture, from a combination of a strict mom, strict choir teachers trying to get the best from me, and an overall sense of self-confidence. While my clothing may be remniscent of provocative, I don't dress provocatively. An inch, or inch-and-a-half of skin may show between pants and shirt, but no more. In fact, I'm very conservative with how much skin I show. I don't wear clothing to attract anyone's attention.

When my girlfriend and I go for a walk, we don't hold hands, we don't kiss or make out, we don't grope each other, we don't do anything to provoke a verbal attack. In fact, we don't do any of those things on a walk. Mostly because I'm a private person who doesn't want to show affection in public. It embarrasses me.

As far as I can tell, we do nothing to provoke these kinds of verbal assaults. And yet they persist.

When they occur, most of the time, she and I ignore them. We do. We don't stoop to their level of name-calling, or obscenity-heavy vulgar comebacks. We go about our merry way, ignoring them. Having spent my entire teenage years around drug-abusing teenage and older boys, I've learned to ignore quite a bit from them. I don't even give them the satisfaction of my even acknowledging their presence or their existence, despite the fact that inwardly I'm seething and wish to cause them violent pain.

I'm a very peaceful person. Yes, I'm anti-social. But for the most part, I will avoid confrontation. I don't feel these cretins should have the honor of my acknowledgement.

But when a verbal attack occurs for the sixth time in less than thirty minutes, a verbal attack that steadily grows more vulgar and more obscene, it enrages me. It spurs me to violence. Not on my behalf, because I would have ignored them were I alone. Not for me, but for my girlfriend. When someone, verbally, mentally, or physically, attacks my lover, or anyone I love, I will be spurred to hurt them, to make them feel the pain she feels, to make them feel as intimidated, as hurt, and as victimized as she feels.

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Okay, so we've identified the problem here with my computer. It steals C's IP addresses, so there's a conflict between the two and one or all of us don't get the internet as a result. O.o I wonder if maybe it might be because this computer used to be C's. But, I know next to nothing about computers. You turn it on, it needs to be plugged in to work (sometimes), and I'm not allowed to do any (even) basic maitenance.

Work... Work is work is work is work. Which means it sucks hairy, diseased donkey balls. One of my favorite people is quitting. She works in the back as well, has been with the company for five years actually. But she's sick of the bullshit, and had an out, and I don't blame her at all. I would run as fast and far as possible given the chance. But it also means that, once again, those left behind will need to catch the slack. Which means overtime. Which means, in my prediction, the week after next, I'll be accused of being too slow and sent back to retail because I can't magically to the work of now THREE people. Granted, we've got at least two new people. But if you figure that a new person does pretty much the work of half a person, we're still down two people. And I'm the most senior person in the back, but still on a retail schedule. Meaning that the manager in charge that day can put me on retail without being penalized.

So, next week I have four nine-hour shifts scheduled. I predict overtime despite lacking four hours of forty.

Pessimistic, but also realistic given KK's history. They'll screw over anyone, anytime, as often as possible. For instance, C had to work an 18-hr shift 'cause their donut-maker that day didn't feel like working. It's bullshit. But he might have a weekened off.



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For some reason or other, both and I are experiencing problems with the interwebs. >.>;; So far, she has the internet still on her computer, but I don't. Hopefully we'll be able to get this figured out, via our resident computer geek/boyfriend/husband.

So far, work is still full of fail. They SAY I'll be moved to the back, but I'm no longer buying it. Still trying to look for a new job on my off days, but without a license or working vehicle at my disposal, it isn't working out too well.

Will be ordering a wig & eyes for Nuri, the floating head. Should come in in about a month or so. Mail is so slow overseas.

Kisses and loves to all and we'll be trying to figure out the internet thing.

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OMFG!!!! It's official. I hate, hate, HATE my job! Serious hatred going on for the entire KK coorperation. >.<

I haven't been able to do ANYthing social (interwebs or real life) for nearly three weeks 'cause of my job. I'm not exactly on top of the ball with the interweb socializing, but I've never been this bad. Nine straight days in a row, no day off. Sounds illegal, or at the very least like I should be getting overtime, but no. It's just how they "happened" to schedule me. That's fine... I can handle that. I'm a tough she-woman. Rosie the Rivetor, and all that. I can do it.

But I would like to point out that we've lost two back employees in the past two or three months. Which means that we're shorthanded in the back. We need people who know what to do, and can do it in a timely fashion. Or at the very least are willing to work hard to get it done. I meet all these requirements.

Or so I thought.

After working my ASS off last week (left both Sat. and Sun. to a total of 4 1/2 hrs and still got overtime), I start working this week. So far so good, only stayed over half an hour for the two days I worked back there. Things are picking up, getting people. Yeah, they're worthless and refuse to help out, but we have them.

But when I get in on Wed., guess what new thing they decided? Apparently, I'm too slow. Too slow. I've been getting too much overtime, and they've "never really had overtime." Yeah, but that was before you BACK MANAGER AND EXPERIENCE BACK PERSON QUIT!!!!!

I bust my ass, work overtime, neglect my after-work responsibilites, exhaust myself only to be told that I'm TOO SLOW?!!! Not only that, but you send a NEW RETAIL PERSON back there to cover for ME? As irony would have it, she fucked up sooo bad I don't think she'll be back there ever again. Then, someone who just walked in, still wearing a creased new shirt, is sent back there on the busiest night of the week, instead of me?!

I was told, basically promised, to be sent back there back in fucking April. It's July, and I'm still having to work retail. And will be doing so for the unforseeable future.

I got so much fucking overtime because I had no help. The people back there left. One left early. Nearly every night. Then has the gall to complain about a small check. *seethes* And I, who work until after midnight, I who is willing to put in these sorts of hours, who still comes in and does what's needed to be done, even if it isn't my job. Catching the donuts that should've been already caught, pumping them, topping them. And no one helps me. They dick off in the back, helping each other leave early, but who helps me? Who helps me, when they leave at the end of their shift, or early, and I'm left alone?

No one.

And I'm TOO SLOW?

I'm trying not to stress out too much about this job. It's fucking donuts. I shouldn't feel the need to turn to cigarettes or alcohol, or other self-destructive habits, to try and calm down. Not over donuts. I'm really trying.

But they crossed a line. They lied to me, lied about me, and insulted me with their lies.

I'm going to look for another job every chance I... ]]> *Inimicality http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/25684139/ http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/25684139/ Wed, 01 Jul 2009 22:07:37 PDT LOVES






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So, the back manager quit earlier this week. No warning. Just called in one day and quit. Turns out she's leaving her husband, who also works at the store. While I can appreciate that they didn't put us employees in an awkward situation, it also means that there's only three people working in the back (if I count myself). With another girl quitting a few weeks earlier (turned in her shirt one day, no warning), it means we're like two short in the back (which is consistently short people anyways).

The good news is, I am definitely going to be transferred to the back permanently. The bad news... Well, the past two days I haven't been home before midnight, and it doesn't look very good for the next three that I work this week. We'll be short-handed until we can get another few people hired for the back. Luckily, we're good with retail people for a while. What with all the people we hired when I was trying to get back there and not being put back there... grrr.

And, of course, something new and different is happening with my family. One, my aunt is terminal. All the medicines she's taking now is pretty much to make her last days/weeks/months/years? more comfortable. I don't know how much time she has left, but I do know it's not a whole lot.

And my nephew, my brother's son, had a seizure so severe his heart stopped. He's not even a year old yet. While it does mean he's definitely my brother's son, it also means he's inherited my brother's epilepsy. I can only hope his sixteen year old mother, and my brother, can handle having a special needs child. My mother was, for all her faults, an amazingly strong woman for having to put up with my brother they way she did. And I worry that my brother, or his soon-to-be-ex-wife won't be. I worry for my little nephew. I've never even got the chance to meet him yet (damn vehicles and their breaking down).

In better news, the truck's fixed. Again, this comes with worse-ish news. There was nothing they could do to a fan-thing connected to the water pump (connected to the radiator, I guess). Basically, when Whag wrecked the truck some time ago, this part was damaged, and is now going out. Unfortunately, the only way to fix it is to completely tear apart the water pump, which they are reluctant to do because the water pump is in excellent shape. And it would be too much money for us to spend at the moment. We have to let it run until that craps out. Don't know how long that'll take.

In even better news, I might be seeing my family soon. My uncle was talking about them coming up here to see me, since I can't go down their to see them (damn vehicles and their breaking down). I need to call them and set up a time for that.

And tomorrow, B's decided to drag me & C out for stock photos. That's when I'll catch up on all my other social-stuff I let slide this month with trying to play catch-up at work.

Seriously, guys. Never, EVER work at Kripsy Kreme. The past two days, I've worked nearly ten-and-a-half hours with one ten-minute break each... ]]> *Inimicality http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/25615984/ http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/25615984/ Sun, 28 Jun 2009 20:34:47 PDT LOVES






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So, ~whag32s and I went on a little roadtrip to see his brother & meet his friend/whag's future boss. Basically, just to make sure this guy isn't an upside-down racoon effigy. Yeah, Whag's truck over-heats BAD, and his radiator is now shot. We spent the night on his brother's un-conditioned house boat, in the sweltering heat. Fortunately, we were able to move to their parent's house boat where they had air coditioning.

Which I'm sure was all sorts of awkward to explain to their parents, 'cause they don't know about ~whag32s, ~WyldAngel, and I. O.o

And if Whag's brother is reading this, we totally had sex on your bed.

In all seriousness, I ended up missing a day of work 'cause I was stuck an hour away from town. Which sucked, and doesn't do a whole lot of good as far as me being put to where I want to go. Not in light of me also missing a day due to being uber sick. But I think things might be looking up (sorta) for once. My favorite manager, the one who works in the back, just quit. So, that leaves two people to work in the back, which they need at least four. SO, that means that I'm going to be put back there real soon, I hope.

But, I work until Wed., which sorta sucks as I haven't even had time to catch my breath. Between Whag's truck breaking down and having to take a cab to work, and walk home, working nearly seven days in a row again, and being really exhausted here lately, I haven't had any time to even upload Haven's new pictures, or try to talk the scanner into working for my two new (semi-finished) pics, or even write a lil' something 'bout the Heretics.

Murr... I'm tired... want to buy a nap...

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Hee, couldn't resist it.

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WHY is KK made of so much fail? Seriously. My infamous week after my trip? When I worked 7-straight days? Yeah, you remember how I said I worked over those last two? Well, the rest of the week was the same. I worked over every single day, except for Sat. Mon was an hour over, Tues was two hours over. Fri was an hour over (clocked in early), and Sun? Ha, Sun was just about three hours over! Yes, that's six hours of overtime.

My boss wasn't pleased, but I told him it was because I had to stay and finish my job. He had nothing to reply to that.

But, apparently, I've reached an obstruction with my moving to the back. It's the assistant manager. Let's do a role-play experiment, shall we?

You've got two employees, Employee A and Employee B. Employee A wants to work in the back, is trained to work back there. Everyone who works back there wants her to work in the back. And you've got Employee B, who is still very new and is trained to work up at the front. Who do you send to the back? Employee A seems like the logical choice to me.

But apparently, it's not. 'Cause I was stuck up front all day Mon. while the new girl (whom I love, don't get me wrong, she's freakin' awesome) is sent to the back. Where is the logic here?

That's okay, because I've got a new person to add to my list of allies. A driver, who was impressed by my work ethic and ability to still be nice even though I'VE PUT IN 11 HOURS that he's going to talk to HIS boss to try and get me back there.

Soon, my diabolical scheme will be in motion, and the assitant manager will have no choice but to put me back there.

I mean, seriously guys, we've got three new people to replace the three who are leaving. And one of them for only a month. Isn't it time to send me to the back?

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I know... I know... I promised to post earlier LAST week... I SARS!!!

I just finished my 7th day of work in a row... For the past two days, I've worked over. One hour last night, two hours tonight... *sighs* It's a conspiracy, I swear. o.O They're trying to get back at me for not being in state on Sat. Not this past one, but the one before that. Yeah... the day after I got back from my trip, which I didn't sleep on fyi, I worked a 12, and they wanted me to work a 14. Seriously.

I mean, who in their right mind would ask someone who just got back from a trip to work a 14 hr shift? A TRIP!!! A 6 HR DRIVE TRIP!!!!

*shakes head*

Yeah, then they caught me the very next time I worked and asked me to work Tues. (today), and having not seen my schedule yet, I thoughtlessly agreed... to a 7-day work schedule! Mur...

Needless to say... I haven't been worth anything after work for the past week... I haven't slept much, been working my ASS off...

And seriously, who schedules the new guy to start on a freakin' Fri.?! I mean, he's brand new, and he's starting on our busiest day of the week? Who's bright idea was that?!

BUT I will be starting to work in the back here in the next few weeks, which means I won't have to deal with customers anymore. ^^ Also, means I'll be working a lot more overtime, if recent events is anything to judge by...

*sighs* Tomorrow... I might just sleep all day...

Yeah... this is the first time I've stirred since I got off work at nearly midnight...

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Not my stamps or my peeps...

has some totally awesome jewelry, you should really check it out.





Click on the pics to find the links to Etsy. She has great prices, in addition to awesome jewelry.




EDIT: OMG I totally forgot to add to my loves/friends list! ;-; It's been fixed!

http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/24972626/ Wed, 27 May 2009 02:45:26 PDT has given me a 12 month sub. for our 1 year anniversary June 1st. ^^ Soooo, I decided to celebrate by doing something I've always wanted to do. REDO CALIBAN'S MEME!!!


Instructions-

1. Copy and paste this into your own journal.
2. Search, then link or thumb the answers to the questions. Only use the first page of results.
3. Do not use actual images of your OC or your own art.
4. Tag folks!

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1. What do you look like?

But I can make a simple glamour to look like anything I want...



2. What sort of clothing do you wear?
Simple, durable...



3. What does your home look like?
My first one doesn't exist... so my second one?




4. Got any pets?
Does this answer your question?



5. Got a job? What do you do with your time?
It's not as terrible as you'd think...



6. So everyone has problems what's one of yours?
.....



7. Got any friends?
I really shouldn't...



8. How about enemies?



9. Someone special?



10. Do you have any great strengths?
I DO have the blood of legends in my veins, you know....



11. What about weaknesses?
It gets in the way...



12. Any regrets?
I didn't kill them when I had the chance...
http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/24913966/ Sat, 23 May 2009 20:22:37 PDT
O.O So one of my best friend's little sister graduated this week! Since his family is my family, I had to go see! Unfortunately, I didn't get the dates in time to put in enough warning to work that I'd be gone... I was able to cover my shift Fri., but not Sat. Heh, like I care...

Say happy birthday to 'cause it's his birfday this week!

Alrighty, so back to the topic at hand. lol ADD, ADD, ADD is - hey look a penny!

Riiiight... SO the trip down was 6 hrs by car, woke up INCREDIBLY EARLY for it!!! Or, early by my count... lol Didn't get much sleep for all the time I was gone. Basically, Wed. - Fri. I had to cut one day off my visit, 'cause of stupid work. *sighs* Promised I'd be there Sun. so I had to leave hella early on my trip & get stuck in the midway city. Jeez, I got no sleep, except when I got back home. Fell into bed and passed out. Only got up like two hours ago... or an hour ago... Yeah, it's fucking late even for ME!

In other news, got a new phone. >.>;; It's on it's second charge right now... *sighs* Good-bye not having a phone and being able to avoid calls without seeming like I am... lol

To my QoD people - I WILL POST I PROMISE!!! I'M JUST SO TIRED AT THE MOMENT!!! EITHER TOMORROW OR MON. I WILL POST, I PROMISE!!!

Now that that's over and done with, on to the meme of DOOM!!!! O.O


[x] smoked.
[x] consumed alcohol.
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
[x] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
[x] kissed someone of the same sex.
[x] had sex.
[x] had someone in your room other than family.
[x] watched porn
[x] bought porn.
[ ] done drugs.
TOTAL: 9

[x] taken painkillers.
[x] taken someone else’s prescription medicine.
[x] lied to your parents.
[x] lied to a friend.
[ ] snuck out of the house.
[x] done something illegal.
[ ] cut yourself.
[x] hurt someone.
[x] wished someone to die.
[x] seen someone die.
TOTAL: 8

[x] missed curfew.
[x] stayed out all night.
[x] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
[x] been to a therapist.
[ ] been to rehab.
[x] dyed your hair.
[x] received a ticket.
[x] been in an accident.
[x] been to a club.
[x] been to a bar.
TOTAL: 9

[x] been to a wild party.
[ ] seen the Mardi Gras.
[x] drank more than four beers in a night.
[ ] had a spring break in Florida.
[ ] sniffed anything.
[x] wore black nail polish.
[x] wore arm bands.
[x] wore t-shirts with band names.
[x] listened to rap.
[ ] owned a 50 Cent CD.
TOTAL: 6

[x] dressed gothic.
[x] dressed prep.
[x] dressed punk.
[x] dressed grunge.
[x] stole something.
[x] been too drunk to remember anything.
[x] blacked out.
[ ] fainted.
[x] had a hickey
TOTAL: 9

[x] snuck into someone else’s room.
[x] had a crush on your friend.
[x] been to a concert.
[x] dry-humped someone.
[x] been called a cunt.
[x] called someone a cunt.
[ ] installed speakers in your car.
[x] broken a mirror.
[x] showered at someone of the opposite sex’s house
[ ] brushed your teeth with someone else’s toothbrush
TOTAL: 8

[ ] consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
[x] seen an R-rated movie in theater.
[x] cruised the mall.
[ ] skipped school.
[ ] had surgery.
[x] had an injury
[x] gone to court.
[x] Been nearly kidnapped/raped
[x] caught something on fire.
[x] lied about your age.
TOTAL: 7

[x] owned/rented an apartment.
[x] broke the law in the police’s presence.
[x] made out with someone who had a gf/bf
[x] got in trouble with the police.
[x] talked to a stranger.
[x] hugged a stranger.
[x] kissed a stranger.
[x] rode in the car with a stranger.
[x] been harassed.
[x] been verbally harassed.
TOTAL: 10

[x] met face-to-face with someone you met online.
[x] stayed online for 5 hours straight.
[ ] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
[x] watched TV for 5 hours straight.
[x] been to a fair.
[x] been called a bad influence.
[x] d... ]]> *Inimicality http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/24778472/ http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/24778472/ Fri, 15 May 2009 22:19:55 PDT ) and asked if I had any other piercings, then asked if I had tattoos. Long story short, he gave me his card and asked if I would model for him for his project on tattoos. Offered to pay me, to boot.

Totally unexpected. Here's his site ---> [link]

I'm considering taking him up on his offer. I'm going to see if will go with me, since she can be satisfactorily intimadating and I think she'll get a kick out of this. The only concern I have is... how much do amatuer models make for this sort of thing??? 'Cause I do want to ask for money, but I don't want to ask for too much. I also don't want to be scammed. Anyone know how much I should ask for?

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Not really...

My cat, my 17-18 yr old cat, I have found out just hours ago, has died. She did not die alone. My mom was with her. Her brother died 6ish years ago.

This is the straw that breaks the camel's back. So I bought $50 of alcohol and I'm planning on getting very, very, VERY drunk, forgetting that my life is so stressful. And it's all mine, all my alcohol. All others must abase themselves to me in order to get some. Do not think that I'm joking.

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Shameless self-promoting over with...

Going to see the midnight showing of Wolverine. I can't wait. Wolverine has always been my fav of the X-Men, not to mention Gambit. And hey! Ryan Reynolds is going to be in it, and he's one of my favored actors! ^.^

Oh, yeah, I'm such a nerd.

]]> *Inimicality http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/24436962/ http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/24436962/ Sat, 25 Apr 2009 23:21:37 PDT
Aphids are born with an exact genetic copy of itself inside of it, ready to be born? They in effect, clone themselves. They can still breed, but they are born pregnant, with their clone baby.

Didn't know that? Well, now you do. And now you can share the knowledge of Aphids to someone you love.

]]> *Inimicality http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/24436887/ http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/24436887/ Sat, 25 Apr 2009 23:14:04 PDT
It's almost funny how all of this happened. 'Cause C just got his truck fixed, which has been broke down since Oct. *nods* Anyways, last Tues. night, B & I were coming home from Wal-Mart getting stuff for dinner & whatnot when just blocks away from home, my car breaks down. And this is not the small kinda break down that it did a few weeks ago, no this is out and out dead break down. Smoke & stuff. Not cool. After several attempts to get my car started, this nice police officer comes up and offers his assitance... and informs us that he's worried the car might catch fire 'cause it's smoking so badly. From the exhaust. O.O Yeah... so, we got out of the car and then we had to wait in the cruiser for Ca to come pick us up. Poor, Ca, 'cause when the officer called her, he said "Is this Ca? This is Officer *****, do you know a *insert my name*?" She panicked. Until he gave the phone to me to tell her what had happened. Police humor, huh? Anyways, so that was the first and only time I'm ever going to be in the back of a police cruiser.

Call a tow truck and get my car back to where it belongs. Which is MY spot, damnit! >.< Hopefully it won't be too much to fix, 'cause I had plans for my tax return

So, we go on to make dinner. As I'm fixing the bacon ('cause I make awesome bacon), I get a call. It's from my mom. It's after midnight. My uncle's in the hospital again. *sighs* Yes this is the same night my car broke down. I fixed only four slices of bacon upon returning home (almost immediately) and was in the middle of another four when I got the call. Fortunately, they didn't have to do surgery, but they did do a proceedure called "Angio-plasty"... phonetically spelled out. Basically, it means that they'll either go through the carotid artery or the femoral and put a "balloon" in there to help with circulation. FYI this is what keeps putting my uncle in the hospital is circulation problems with his legs. Should be okay, actually. They caught it in time.

Another piece of information dropped in on me. Now this is where all you Christian-bashing people need to just shut the fuck up, 'cause I know I'm about to give you soooo much fodder. But seriously, I don't need it.

So my brother - yeah, you remember, arrested for assaulting a police officer, has a 16-year-old wife with a 7-month-old son? Yeah, him. He's deciding to take the plea bargin for his crime. Which would label him as a violent offender. And he won't be able to be around children. Including his son. Yes, he's actually going to willingly be separated - permanently - from his son, whom isn't even a year old yet. While in some cases I can understand why these sorts of things happen, and what no. But, dear brother of mine, if you are going to do this thing, don't say it's because "God doesn't want you to have a family." Do right thing, the CHRISTIAN thing, and tell the truth, why don't ya? You're afraid to have a family, 'cause you're afraid that you're going to fuck it up just like your father did, or like how my father and our mother fucked it up. You don't want your family to fall apart like ours did, and you're afraid that's what it's going to do. Well, dear brother of mine, it IS going to fall apart. What you don't understand is that what Angelo really needs is for his father to be around. You remember what it's like to not have Dad around, don't you? Of course you do. You remember what it's like to think that it's becaue of you. Do you think Angelo is going to be any less resentful if you tell him "God told you"? Do you think it's going to help him out any at all if you use that pithy, pathetic excuse to get out of his life?

*ahem* Sorry for the mini-rant there towards the end... but as you can see, I feel very strongly about this. It totally baffles me, this entire situation. Of course, I'm also pissed 'cause I'll never get to see my nephew now. I had little enough chance before, now I have none.

But I mean, "God doesn't want me to have a family"? Seriously? Since when did that ever matter? Fuck God. If there is a God, he's just as confused and lost as the rest of us. If not more.

Yeah, I went there. *nods* I got there before everyone else did, and now I don't want to hear about it anymore. 'Cause *mini-rant alert* I don't want to hear Christians being bashed, or Christianity. I was raised Christian, and have a healthy respect for the religion even now. When put into practice, it's a good, solid religion. "Judge no lest ye be judged", "do unto others as you would have others do unto you", "love others as I have loved you", and so forth. I personally don't follow the relig... ]]> *Inimicality http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/24361042/ http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/24361042/ Tue, 21 Apr 2009 13:53:58 PDT [x] you love hoodies
[x] you love jeans
[ ] dogs are better than cats
[x] it's hilarious when people get hurt and fall
[x] you've played with/against boys on a team
[x] shopping is torture
[ ] sad movies suck
[ ] you own a XBOX
[x] you played with Hot Wheels as a little kid
[x] at some point in life you wanted to be a firefighter
[ ] you owned a DS, PS2 or Sega
[x] you used to be obsessed with Power Rangers
[ ] you watch sports on TV
[x] gory movies are cool
[ ] you used to go to your dad for advice
[ ] you have at least 1 trophy of a sport
[ ] You used to play Yu-Gi-Oh
[ ] baggy sweat pants are nice to wear
[x] it's kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people
[x] green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors
[x] you love to go crazy and not care what other people think
[ ] sports are fun
[ ] you sometimes talk with food in your mouth
[ ] you sleep at night with your socks on
[x] you have fished at least once
TOTAL = 13

YOUR GIRL SIDE
[ ] you like to shop
[ ] you wear eyeliner
[x] you wear the color pink
[ ] you go to your mom for advice
[ ] you consider cheerleading a sport
[ ] you hate wearing all black
[x] you like going to the mall
[ ] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures
[ ] you like wearing jewelry
[ ] you cried watching The Notebook
[ ] skirts are a big parts of your wardrobe
[ ] shopping is one of your favorite hobbies
[ ] you don't like the movie Star Wars (How is this a girl thing?! D: )
[ ] you are/were in gymnastics
[ ] it takes you around one hour to shower and get dressed
[ ] you smile a lot more than you should
[ ] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes
[ ] you care about what you look like majority of the time
[ ] you like wearing dresses
[ ] you like wearing body spray
[ ] you like high heel shoes
[x] you used to play with dolls as a kid
[ ] you like putting makeup on others
[ ] you like being the star of almost everything
Total = 3


Boy - 13
Girl - 3

Yeah... 'cause no one saw that coming...


UPDATE:

Two new things... First, tonight my car officially died. On the way back from Wal-Mart, getting groceries for dinner, my car died. The current thought is that the exhaust it clogged. I told my mom it wouldn't cost much, but somehow...

Second, my mom called in the middle of me helping cook dinner. Yes, I do help cook, and sometimes I do the cooking. It happens. But my mom calls. My uncle is in the hospital again. No sugery, not really. Something called Angio-plasty, or however that's spelled. Phonetically here. Anyways, it means that they will put a "balloon" in his artery so he'll have circulation in his legs. FYI, that's what his sugery was for the last time he was hospitalized, and the time before that, and... you get the picture.

I got what I wished for, though. A stretch of days where nothing happened. Nearly two weeks. I think that's a record.

Was going to get a new doll when my tax return came in, but now I have to fix my car. Sorry, Uri, B, he'll be coming home MUCH later... maybe Christmas of next year... right before Haven's shoes come in.

]]> *Inimicality http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23975771/ http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23975771/ Mon, 30 Mar 2009 19:54:07 PDT
I want... five days. Five days in which absolutely nothing is going on, there's no emergencies, no court dates (that I care about), nothing... Five days to get my stress levels under control, to stop feeling as though I'm going to have grey hairs within the next month, just five days to breathe freely. Is that really so much to ask?

I mean, in all seriousness, is this really frickin' necessary that I constantly have something going on in my life? I LIKE boredom! I LIKE having no drama! GAH!!! >.<

*sighs* Anyways, on to bigger and better things...

My uncle will be released hopefully sometime in the next week. Unfortunately, he'll be on a walker... I'm not sure how I feel about that quite yet... I mean, it's excellent he didn't lose his leg, and that he's alive, and he'll be walking, and all that... but... I mean, it's my uncle. He's always been so active. In his garden, taking care of his lawn, doing CASA, things like that... and on a walker...? I just can't see it... I really can not.

AAANNND

More pictures of Haven and Ereshkigal. You can visit to see what she has of Ere. I'm going to say this right now... WE HAVE SOME FUCKING AWESOME SHOTS!!! I mean, seriously, these pics are awesome! They came out so well... I wasn't expecting much, to be honest. I mean, overcast day, looks like rain, kinda chilly out... windy... But damn!

Yeah, so I've tooted my own horn (and 's) enough now. I'll have them posted as soon as I get them done...

]]> *Inimicality http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23864756/ http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23864756/ Tue, 24 Mar 2009 11:44:17 PDT
Yeah... ya know how my uncle visited me just last Fri.? He was in surgery for 10 hrs. yesterday after being admitted in the ER yesterday morning. I found out about all this at 5 am this morning, after it was all said and done with. Gee, thanks Mom, it was really nice for you to tell me all this when it happened. I so very much appreciate learning all this AFTER THE FACT!!!

And I'm sure you all remember my whiney journal entry, in which I expressed great concern bordering on paranoia about receiving calls from home? Yeah... once again, I'm not freakin' paranoid! It's a viable concern! I only wish I were paranoid, and exaggerating my worries.

]]> *Inimicality http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23807201/ http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23807201/ Sat, 21 Mar 2009 01:59:37 PDT
And in other news...

It's not paranoia when what you fear is actually a viable concern. More on this later. O.O

New char floating around in me head... He seems like fun. *shrugs* Of course, as tired as I am, nearly everything either seems like fun, or seems like nothing I want a part of. Either way it happens, I don't want to move much or exert much effort.

Anyways.

So, I got to see all of St. Patrick's Day, which was awesome. What wasn't awesome was that, with the exception for four hours in which I dozed on and off, I saw EVERY MINUTE of St. Patrick's Day. Trust me, when you're alarm clock reads 11 am and you're due to be up at noon... and you STILL HAVEN'T SLEPT... the day is just already made of fail. I stared at the phone for a good ten minutes before calling in. I didn't want to, it was the first time I'd been scheduled to work for five days in far too long, but I hadn't had any sleep whatsoever. Seriously, folks, no friggin' sleep at ALL.

Dozed off and on for four hours thereafter. The rest of the day pretty much was spent in this weird fog of being tired one minute, and wired the next. Was not fun. Also, wasn't very smart the whole day. So calling in was kinda a good thing, on my part, but damn, I need the hours.

Finally got to sleep around 8 am Wed morning. Mostly due to drunkeness and dirty things, but ah well. At least I got to sleep. And I got some heavy-duty sleeping pills, not the $4 cheapos, no, the ones that actually have tons of warnings on them. One being "must be over 18 to use product" and "do not take more than prescribed amount in a day" or something like that. Good stuff. Gives me WEIRD dreams, though! O.O

Thurs. was spent fairly well... got sleep. Realized at 7:30 my shift was due over in another 30 min! O.O But... it didn't happen. I ended up staying an extra hour, helping out. Which was good on my part, as it proves that I am willing to work. But I was sooo tired when I got off work. O.O Exhausted really.

But today, hooo, today was a day.

Took a sleeping pill to help me fall asleep (and stay asleep damnit!), about 6 in the morning. Well, at 7:30 C gets up & ready, which wakes me 'cause it always does. I'm used to it. What sucks though is that he had to get up that early and be at work. O.o And at 9 guess what happened?

Now, this is where the fact that I am not paranoid comes in. See, just days ago, I was telling my friends about how I was feeling paranoid, that I was always expecting to see people I new in OK up here. Weird thing to expect, I know...

Turns out, my paranoia was a viable concern, 'cause at 9 this morning my Uncle Ron knocked on my door!

So I only got 3 hours of sleep, on top of taking heavier sleeping pills, and having little sleep this week. BUT I GOT TO SEE MY UNCLE RON AND HANG OUT WITH HIM FOR 4 HOURS!!!!

Soooo happy to see him. I really missed him. ^^

Unfortunately, I also had to work today. God, I was so tired at work, a zombie really. Never happier when my shift was over and I could go home. I kicked poor B out of the apartment and took a 2 hour crash nap as soon as I got home. Which would've been good, expcept I dreamt about work the entire time. O.O

So, my day was pretty spiffy, even if I was exhausted. Hey, anyday I get to see my family is a good day. Unexpected though it was, I was happy to see my Uncle. ^^

OH ohohohoh!!! He's weigning in at 150lbs!!!! He was just around my weight for the longest time, and he's a good five inches taller than me! He looks soo much better now!

]]> *Inimicality http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23773388/ http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23773388/ Thu, 19 Mar 2009 00:28:06 PDT

It's been wonderful outside these days! And and I have taken our dolls for a walkies! So, new dollie pics are up, and I had VNV Nation going through my head while putting them up. Prolly doesn't help that Haven's been missing Kyo a lot here lately, but we've been making it up to him with plots.

And in our plots, B & I figured out all of our Mythos universe characters! ^^ All those stories we loved and never finished... for some reason or another... are now getting figured out! And all because we didn't have all the actors, as it were. Funny how my former bandit brings everything together, but then again, he was pretty much a warlord. >.>;; Just starting it all over again. *sighs*

And the promised Meme! Which I ganked from another Dev's journal.


Years role-playing: Wow... right around 10 years is when I actually started role playing... Which is when I met people to RP with.
Least favorite character?: Charon... amoral doesn't even begin to cover it. There's nothing he won't do, no low that's too low for him.
Male or female characters?: Mostly males, but I have some females.
Oldest character played?: Oh, snapple... *thinks* Nicci Cobra was my first. A Jedi who switched sides.
Longest character played?: Lysandor, my crazy Fallen Angel in the online RP, Queen of Darkness. I've played him for four years straight now.
Newest character?: Aylin, a silver-haired vampire chick... a gift to ^^

Which character of yours would be most likely to...
Jump off a bridge?: Lysandor, in any variation he has... It's not like it's going to kill him.
Get drunk and pass out?: While all but a few of my myriad of characters drink & get drunk... Raphael and Omega are the only ones to take it to those extremes. One because he likes it, the other to escape his memories.
Kill somebody in a very unorthodox way?: Oh jeez... Which ones wouldn't is an easier question to ask... they're all messed up enough to kill someone with chopsticks, hair brushes, dice, and even the piece of paper! O.o
Be far too hyper for their own good?: Lysandor tops them all. Something about having manic episodes...
Be raped?: *coughs* Well, just about all of them have either come close, or have been raped. But truthfully, Gabriel. He's the one most likely to be unable to say no.
Get lost and refuse to ask for directions?: Cassiel (both versions), Pierce, Ryder, Gelith, Omega, and Caliban. Pride, much? Oh, yeah.
Get lung cancer?: Aisling... she's the only true human, and therefore, the only one capable of developing it.
Star in a horror movie?: Arracht... His actual name means 'monster' in Gaelic.
Star in a whore movie?: Oh jeez... Lucien has probably starred in some.
Star in a video game?: I'd have to say Omega.
Make the world a better place?: Annabelle and Omega... Annabelle is just too sweet to NOT make the world a better place, and Omega is driven to.
Have a torrid gay love affair?: Without a doubt, Haven/Daisuke. Especially if it's with a certain Tengu warrior.

Relate each word to a character of yours:
Love - Mulloch... he gave up everything for love, and not just romantic love, either.
Hate - Ooh, tough one... I'd have to say Cassiel. Hatred consumes him now.
Money - Easy... Illyon.
Seduction - Lucien
Lies - Again, Illyon
Tragedy - Haven
Manipulation - Illyon or Haven... both are fully capable and willing
Violence - Mad Dog Suriel... he lives for it.
Politics - Illyon.
Fire - Nuri... y'know... firebird, and all.
Ice - Mulloch or Haven/Daisuke... it's like they're made of ice.

Would you ever...
Play a prostitute?: Ember, much?
Play a musician?: Annabelle and Raphael
Play a pilot?: Have had some...
Play a homosexual?: A true homosexual...? Haven is the closest I have, and he's bi.
Play a pedophile?: Never! Even Charon draws the line somewhere!
Play a politician?: Heh, Illyon de Verrin dabbles in court politics. Close enough, right?
Create a character for the sole purpose of smut?: Actually, I haven't. I wouldn't put it past me, but as of yet, I don't have any character created for the sole purpose of smut.
Play a character who commits incest?: Metatron and twinsest, and there's questions about Mulloch and his twin brother. But I would like to make a point about Lucien. He didn't know the relation at the time,... ]]> *Inimicality http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23665647/ http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23665647/ Thu, 12 Mar 2009 18:46:37 PDT
BUT in more exciting news, my car is running again. Not well, mind you, but it's running. Of course, that means that my days of sleeping through my days off are over once more. *sighs* Ah well, the price of having your own vehicle, I guess.

On a completely different note, I am shocked. Absolutely, 100% and irrevocably shocked. I spent five minutes being speechless. And while five minutes of quite isn't exactly a tall order for me, having nothing to say, knowing no words to express the pure shock and I suspect indignation and anger, is something that I don't experience often. As soon as I found my tongue (which only happened because I read said shock-bringer to C), I went on a ten minute rant. Which did nothing to help my shock. I mean, I am totally, completely still in shock, and it's been at the very least, forty some odd minutes.

I learned that one of my old friends, who through her own doing, has earned her way on to my black list. Break in thought, she is directly and indirectly responsible for me being where I am and the basket case I am. But I have just recently learned that her betrayal of me is nothing on one of my closest friends. I mean, learning what she did... I'm shocked. Shocked, indignant, and getting to be pissed off.

]]> *Inimicality http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23501053/ http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23501053/ Tue, 03 Mar 2009 03:07:18 PST
Yeah, this isn't a plea for attention, or a "subtle" attempt to get hugs, sympathy, pity, whatever. I actually kinda want to avoid that eventuality, if at all possible. I just have a lot of shit on my mind, and they say that talking about it helps. But I don't want to vocalize any of this shit, so I'm going to try typing it out to see if it works just as well. If not, oh well. Here goes the good ol' college try.

Family - can't live with them... and where would we be without 'em? Sometimes I wonder... what would life be like without my family? This is not to say I want them to go away, or to get out of my life, far from it! I love my family, but... *sighs* Everytime I call home, or I get a call from home, it's more bad news. I swear, sometime soon, I'm going to get a phone call that someone died and I have to go to a funeral. I wouldn't be surprised. I expect it everytime the phone rings now. I really do. I just know something is going to happen, something big, that's going to top off this entire season.

My brother is in jail. For child abuse. He didn't do it. I am my brother's worst critic, and have every reason in the world to think ill of him and hate him. But I know he didn't intentionally drop his 3-month old son. Yet he is in jail, his trial is in one week, and I don't know what the verdict will be. While on one part, I am vaguely amused and feel vindicated, if he goes to prison it will only add to my mom's stress level. And she's topped out as it is.

My aunt has diabetes, yet she refuses to stick with her diet or anything that could keep her healthy. I don't know her very well, being kept from my family as a child, but I can't help but to worry.

My uncle's health keeps fluctuating. One season, he's fine, the next he's on death's door and hopsitalized. I love my uncle - he took me & my family in, gave us a home & everything... Kinda like a surrogate father in my life, despite that I was 16 and past the point where a father would have done me much good. Still... I love him, and this has me going grey.

I'm worried about my mom. She's soo stressed. She's sleeping worse than I am, yet she's in the hub of all this. If anything happens, I'm worried she might just snap from all the pressure.

One of our cats, our oldest and the one that's been in my life for as long as I can remember, needs to be put down. She's in pain, and I don't know what we can do for her. Who can afford a vet these days? She's 17 or 18 as it is... And my rat has a tumor, that my dumbass cousin convieniently "forgot" to mention to anyone until my mom had to take care of her.

One of my older friends nearly died just last month. Stabbed twice, lost sooo much blood. And now he's forced to stay with the very people who turned his own childhood into a hell to make the one I went through like a walk in the park. Recover with them?

My own life is doing better than it has in a while, but things are nowhere near peachy. I'm behind in my car payments, and it's like I'll never be able to make one on time - what with me not getting the hours. It's all I can do just to scrape the money together in the four to six weeks in a month just for the car payment itself. And now it's broke down. Chad's truck still isn't fixed, and we need to fix that before we can even think about my car. Not to mention my laptop that has all my information for stories, drawings, and all that good stuff on it is still broken. No money for car payment? No way can I even afford to have my laptop looked at, much less fixed.

I'm still getting no time to myself. I love that I'm not alone anymore, but I can't handle constant companionship. And having someone just being out of the room is no help. Or putting on headphones and ignoring everybody, like I'm doing now. 'Cause if I do it for the hours and hours that I want, that I need to just get all this shit sorted in my head, B & C will worry & ask questions.

And I don't want to talk about this. I mean, now it's all written out, it'll probably be the last time I mention any of it on this journal, save for updates on the shit that's happened. I mean, no one wants a "Debbie Downer" around, no one wants to read these kinds of journal entries. People want happy, funny journal entries. Ones that make them smile, chuckle, laugh out loud, or at the very least, amuse them. Seriously, deep down, do you really want to hear me whine about my life? It brings people down, and they don't want that. So, say it once, maybe, MAYBE twice, and then that's it. They've heard it before, so why repeat it? It doesn't bear repeating. Oh, I'm sure my friends care, I don't doubt that, but why bring them down with what's going on in... ]]> *Inimicality http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23425113/ http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23425113/ Thu, 26 Feb 2009 22:29:29 PST
That is all.

]]> *Inimicality http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23375681/ http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23375681/ Tue, 24 Feb 2009 04:43:04 PST
On a lighter, and more humorous note, I tried to break my finger the last Fri. I worked. No, seriously, this is funny!

I'm taking orders in drive through, and as I'm going to pack a dozen donuts, the drive through windows slam shut on all three of my fingers (excluding pinkie). Hurts like a bitch. I get all of thirteen seconds to hop around and say "ow" when I get another order through drive through, have to take it, and finish up the dozen donuts. I have to do two more orders after all this before I can limp my way to the back to put ice on my throbbing, agonizing finger. My middle, finger.

Now, Tues. and it's still a bit swollen. The fingernail is a nice shade of purple, blue, and red, and the other side, the finger pad, has a lovely bruise, too. All of which make me wonder if I didn't crack the bone after all. Well, since there's nothing anyone can do about THAT particular fracture, if it does indeed exist, I'll just watch it and giggle maniacally to myself. It doesn't hurt, except when I bumb the fingernail, so IF (and note the all caps, very big if) I did crack the bone, then I must've not done that good a job, 'cause it doesn't hurt. I've broken bones before, and they hurt like hell for longer than a couple days. Trust me.

... Okay, so maybe I'm the only one who finds it funny. At the time, it was pretty hysterical. I was cracking up. Everyone else was being sympathetic, but it was all funny to me. 'Course, I'm a huge supporter of the quote "It's all fun and games 'til someone loses an eye - then it's hilarious!"

And it's true. Someone gets hurt, especially at work, and I have to bit my lip to keep from laughing at them. It's worse if it's myself. I don't know why it's so funny, except maybe I've finally cracked. *shrugs* Meh.

Alright, now to the real point of this journal entry. Now that I've bitched and whined enough to last me a while.

has a new dollie. Actually, she got a Bobobie body for her doll head of her QoD character, the character the game is named for. Ereshkigal deLucifer. Very awesome, go check out her gallery. She has some beautiful pictures of her new doll.

But, as stated in my newest pics, it left us with a floating head of unknown character. After careful consideration and much deliberation (we tried it with different wigs and eyes), we found a combination that sparked something. And a wave of brainstorming hit.

Now we are bastardizing the old Russian fairytale of the firebird, the original can be found here ---> [link] . It's a very interesting tale, which has been done, and done, and done again, with varying success. The deal is, we're doing it from the perspective of not Ivan or Helen, but the firebird and the grey wolf. Possibly the two most overlooked and underappreciated characters in the story. I mean, at least the wolf gets some lines in, gets to do things. The poor firebird, after it's initial theft of the golden apples, gets nothing. I mean, how do you transport a bird on horseback... or wolfback as it were.

Yeah... the whole point of this rambling journal is actually in hopes that I might get the idea that sleep is a good idea. So far, no luck. Insomnia is started to settle in, but this time I think it's stress-related.

I'll take some sleeping pills tonight. Maybe that'll help.

]]> *Inimicality http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23187004/ http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23187004/ Sat, 14 Feb 2009 03:03:33 PST
And rather than fill up a journal entry over a rant about gay & lesbian marriage rights, or about polygamy, which wouldn't do anything but make me irritated...

V-Day is sucking it up majorly this year. I've been sick since Sun. Extreme nausea, headaches, and some dizziness. No fever, no cough, and no sneezing. It's really bad when I wake up, levels off, then gets worse again after I eat. But if I don't eat, when I wake up, I'll be nauseous because I'm hungry. It's a circle I can't escape from, so I just have to deal until it goes away.

Just for the record, no, I'm not preggers. Not in the slightest. The only things growing in me are possible fungi and bacteria. But that's what grows in everyone, regardless of gender. Makes you feel special inside, doesn't it?

Anyways. Valentines Day. Celebrated "early." I say early, but it was V-Day when this whole "celebration" occured.

Got roses for the first time in my life. On V-Day. In a blind panic of not knowing what to do with the roses, I tried to eat them. B made me stop, though, so now they're in water. I still want to eat them, though... O.o

Also got a printer/scanner thing. So I can now scan some of my doodles and drawings and prove to the world that I can draw! *clears throat* Yeah... anyways. >.>;;

Jackass is... interesting today. Domenatrix... what is the plural for that? Domenatrixi? Domenatrixes? O.o

I know I like to leave my journals on a high note - humor, good thing that happened, stuff like that. But I'm tired, not getting much sleep, I'm sick, not getting a lot of hours at work (3 fuckin' days? WFT?!), and for some really strange reason, I'm depressed. WFT do I have to be depressed about?!

]]> *Inimicality http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23064663/ http://Inimicality.deviantart.com/journal/23064663/ Sat, 07 Feb 2009 15:48:00 PST and I have been struck by a creative frenzy - all centering around two very awesome characters.

For everyone who watches me, and not you should go and check out what she just did. It's completely awesome, and you'll love it. Trust me.

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You know you want to...

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