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The next days i will upload all deviations there, and then, i won't log in in this account anymore...

cya!

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Not much to say...well, our Parkour-Team arranges a new Workshop in a few days...this schoolyear is nearly over, great weather...

Oh, ehrm, I cannot change my mood, don't know why...any help?? Well, just imagine there would be an emoticon like 'overjoyed' or sth. like that^^

Have a nice day...

]]> ~InsaneGrafixx http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/18854263/ http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/18854263/ Sun, 15 Jun 2008 12:08:42 PDT Some things have turned, and I feel much better...seems as if my life gets back in line...once again^^
Quite too much to tell, so I end it now
Have a nice week

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Have a nice day...

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]]> ~InsaneGrafixx http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17915950/ http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17915950/ Fri, 18 Apr 2008 17:39:39 PDT am i angry? ehrm, not yet....maybe the next few days....
will we be friends? i don't know...it says that there can't exist a friendship without amicable feelings....don't know if it's true, yet....maybe the next few days....
so, once again i'm going to break the biggest promise i ever gave to s.o., and believe me, i'm NOT happy about this!!!
so godd night, and have a nice day!!!

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Perfect timing, today a Parkour-Team from another city will visit us We become popular, arrange trainings for beginners, workshops and now the fifth time that another team want to visit us!! Yes, and a TV-Channel want to give an account of us^^
If you want to see our autumn/winter vid, here's the link: [link]
(yeah, i know, bad music, but it was not my idea xD)

Anything else? Yes, today I'm already waiting for five months for that special girl, that's nearly half a year!!! Omg, I hope it's worth it. I guess I have to wait another few weeks, cause she got some problems with her family and so on...I feel sorry for her, she didn't deserve this...

Still something to tell on my mind? Don't know, maybe later

Soooo, have a nice day!!!

]]> ~InsaneGrafixx http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17726191/ http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17726191/ Mon, 07 Apr 2008 04:42:24 PDT This time I'm really pissed off -.-
And please, don't ask, it's just to release some anger...but I don't feel better anyway -.-
So, have a nice day

]]> ~InsaneGrafixx http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17698789/ http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17698789/ Sat, 05 Apr 2008 12:25:11 PDT
just some lyrics:

Good Charlotte - Wounded

Lost and broken
Hopeless and lonely
Smiling on the outside
Hurt beneath my skin

My eyes are fading
My soul is bleeding
I'll try to make it seem okay
But my faith is wearing thin

So help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault

That I'm open
And I'm bleeding
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me sew them up

I only wanted a magazine
I only wanted a movie screen
I only wanted the life I'd read about and dreamed

And now my mind is an open book
And now my heart is an open wound
And now my life is an open soul for all to see

But help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault

That I'm open
And I'm bleeding
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me
So you come along
I push you away
Then kick and scream for you to stay
Cause I need someone to help me
Oh I need someone to help me
To help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault

That I'm open
And I'm bleeding
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me sew them
I need someone to help me fill them
I need someone to help me close them up

hope you had a nice day

]]> ~InsaneGrafixx http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17574364/ http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17574364/ Sat, 29 Mar 2008 13:51:15 PDT
I don't like school, not at all...but it's nice to see some friends again

Anything else? Yes, the girl...well I dont know...yes...no....who knows??? Im not sure, I guess she needs some time...Then I'll see, and of course I'll tell you^^

Still something I need to tell you? No, not really...quite boring huh? Maybe I add some lyrics??

Good Charlotte - The Day That I Die

One day I woke up woke up knowing today is the day I will die
Cashdogg was barking went to the park and enjoyed that one last time
Called my mother told her I loved her and begged her not to cry
Wrote her a letter that said I’d miss her and signed that goodbye...

You know the happiest day of my life
I swear the happiest day of my life is the day that I die

the day that I died
Can you feel the cold tonight?
(the day that I died)
It sets in but it’s alright
(the day that I died)
Darkness falls I’m letting go
(the day that I died)
All alone but I feel fine

We took a drive and we drove thru d.c.
To see the places we lived, long conversations
We talked of old friends and all the things that we did
Summer nights, drunken fights
Mistakes we made...did we live it right?

You know the happiest day of my life I swear the happiest day of my life
Is the day that I died

the day that I died
Can you feel the cold tonight?
(the day that I died)
It sets in but it’s alright
(the day that I died)
Darkness falls I’m letting go
(the day that I died)
All alone but I feel just fine

You know the happiest day of my life
I know the happiest day of my life
I swear the happiest day of my life is the day that I died

the day that I died
Can you feel the cold tonight?
(the day that I died)
It sets in but it’s alright
(the day that I died)
Darkness falls I’m letting go
(the day that I died)
All alone but I feel just fine

Did I live it right?
I hope I lived it right
I hope I lived it right, I know I lived it right
Did I live it right?
I hope I lived it right, I know I lived it right



If you know something I could write in my next journal, or if you want to know something, or anything else, just comment or write me a note, ok??? Hehe *I'm not this creative*

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]]> ~InsaneGrafixx http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17446375/ http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17446375/ Fri, 21 Mar 2008 17:07:55 PDT When I think about that all, I think that it was wrong to spy on him, but it was right to tell her these things...so it's in balance, isn't it?! And because she is more important to me, I would say that it was right, huh??
That's what I think, but what do you think??? I'm interested in your opinion, even if it won't change anything

Yes, I'm really happy, cause I'm this close to a new girlfriend.....selfish, huh?? well, nevermind^^

Good night y'all

PS: don't judge too hard

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]]> ~InsaneGrafixx http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17390408/ http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17390408/ Tue, 18 Mar 2008 05:54:12 PDT On saturday I promised a friend they I'll be online (ICQ) as long as she needs me. Well she came at 1 a.m. on sunday, and we talked for about 3 hours, then I couldn't sleep for two hours, because I thought about how I could help her. It also remembered me on myself and my ex, so I thought about this time (long ago), too. Then I slept for one hour...The whloe sunday I fall aslepp every few minutes, so I wanted to go to bed a bit earlier. Yeah, I slept for 2 hours and this night she called me at 4 a.m.!!! Talked to me for more than 2 hours...I know that it's worth it, cause I help her a lot (she said so^^), and I really want to be a good friend....but it reminds me of my own past, and it was a torture for me when my gf and I broke up, so it isn't easy for me too help her through
Now she's the second one who talkes to me about her problems with her bf etc. (remember the other one, who broke up about two weeks ago?^^) Yes and I don't know how much longer I can take it, because I'm really tired (slept about 6 hours since saturday morning -.-)
OMG, but you're probably not interested in my problems anyway, so why I write this? Ehrm, I think just to release some feelings...Well, you don't have to care, I know that you all got your own problems...



Lyrics: Billy Talent - Pins and Needles

Never understood how she could,
Mean so little to so many
Why does she mean everything to me?

Is it worth the pain, with no one to blame?
For all of my insecurities
How did I ever let you go?

Questioning her good intention
Jealousy's a bad invention
When you push on glass, it's bound to break

Even when she was defensive,
It just gave me more incentive
The more you squeeze, the more it slips away

I never walked so far on a lonely street
With no-one there for me
Is it worth the pain, with no one to blame?
For all of my insecurities
How did I ever let you go?

Accept this confession! ...I'm walking on pins and needles
You're not my possession! ...I'm walking on pins and needles
My conscience is vicious! ...I'm walking on pins and needles
And I'm begging forgiveness! ...I'm walking on pins and needles

I never walked so far on a lonely street,
With no one there for me
It took too long to see her in misery
And now it's clear to me

That it's worth the pain, always take the blame
For all your own insecurities
How did I ever let you go?


At least: Have a nice day!!

~Maybe I'll take some pictures of my rats..~

]]> ~InsaneGrafixx http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17377741/ http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17377741/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 11:14:26 PDT Then I talked to some folks in ICQ (anybody want my UIN? lol^^) but this wasn't fun at all....Later I tried to work a little bit on some projects for DA (I finished one new poem, will upload it soon). Now I want to do something new on Photoshop, but I've got no ideas...there are too many things on my mind, too much problems I have to think about...
Now I try to clear my mind by drinking a lil bit beer (of course not too much^^)
And I'm planning to go to Lisses (France) in summer with some friends...It's literally the capital city of Le Parkour...

Yeah, any lyrics? mhhh...maybe the song i'm listening to right now? ok...
Here it is

You know me, I used to get caught up in everyday life
Tried to make it through my day so i could sleep at night
Tried to figure out my way through the maze
Of rights and wrongs, but like you used to say
Nothing feels like it's really worth it
Forget perfect, i'm trying not to be worthless
Since i last saw you i been lookin for a purpose
Well i met this kid who thought like i did
He had a weird way of lookin at it
This is what he said

Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you dont wana be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared
Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you dont wana be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared

I dont remember where i met him or remember his name
But he walked funny like he was too big for his frame
Just over five foot but he weighed a buck fifty
And what he said just seemed so right it stuck with me
Listen its like poker you can play your best
But you got to know when to fold your cards and take a rest
And know when to hold your cards and hold your breath
And hope that nobody else is stacking the deck because
I dont need to tell you that life isnt fair, it doesnt care
It arbitrarily cuts off your air, and like you i want someone to say its okay
But in the truest parts of our hearts everybody's afraid
But just underappreciated and overwhelmed
Fighting so hard to hide our fear that were scaring ourselves
You understand when im saying that you always did
But its different in the words of a cowardly kid

Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you dont wana be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared
Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you dont wana be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared

Im no hero, you remember how i was, you know
All i ever did was worry, feeling out of control
To the point where everything was going end over end
Im spinning around in circles again
This is where you come in
All of this to explain to you why
I had to separate myself away from yesterday's life
Please remember this isn't how i hoped it would be
But i had to protect you from me
Thats why i slipped out the back before you knew i was there
I know you felt unprepared
But every single time i was around i just bring you down
And i could tell that it was time to be scared
Thats why i slipped out the back before you knew i was there
And i know the way i left wasnt fair
I didnt want to be around just to bring you down
Im not a hero but dont think i didnt care.


Anything else? No, not yet...maybe in a few hours...When I've drunk enough beer xD

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2 weeks to do everything I want to, Le Parkour, my friends, and of course she
And i want to work a lot with photoshop, so i'm going to upload some new stuff...i hope so^^
We'll see

]]> ~InsaneGrafixx http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17256362/ http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17256362/ Sun, 09 Mar 2008 13:18:47 PDT

Can somebody tell me how to figure out what she's feeling?^^ Nah, just kidding, I know that you can't help me this time^^
I'll see what happen, and you'll know it as fast as possible
But I think I've got good chances....
Yeah, something else? Oh right, I nearly broke my wrist, it hurts a bit, and I can't do Parkour for a few days...but never mind^^
Ahhh, and I'm going to present something in school....and I don't know what...but I've to do this tomorrow?!!!! This will be a long night


At least some lyrics

This is who I am
and this what I like
GC, Sum and Blink and Mxpx´ rocking my room
if your looking for me
I'll be at the show
I can never find a better place to go

until the day I die I promise I wont change
so you better give up

I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
I just wanna have fun
I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
so you better give up
cause I'm not gonna change
I don't wanna grow up

I like to stay up late
spend hours on the phone
hangin' out with all my friends
and never being at home
I'm impoilte and I make fun of everyone
I'm immature but I will stay this way forever

until the day I die I promise I wont change
so you better give up

I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
I just wanna have fun
I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
so you better give up
cause I'm not gonna change
I don't wanna grow up

I don´t wanna be told to grow up...(grow up, grow up)
I don´t wanna be told to grow up...(grow up, grow up)

I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
I just wanna have fun
I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
so you better give up

I don´t wanna be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change
I just wanna have fun
I don't wanna be told to grow up
and I don´t wanna change
so you better give up

No I don´t wanna change
so you better give up
cause i'm not gonna change

I don't wanna grow up!


I love this song, cuz I think the same...


Good night all

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I don't know what to do, yet. I think I'll do somethinf for school, and then be al little bit creativ....
And maybe I'm going to improve my english -.-^^

Have a nice day

]]> ~InsaneGrafixx http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17191669/ http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17191669/ Wed, 05 Mar 2008 08:15:33 PST
Well, I talked here about my problem with that girl and her bf, remember?
So...now, they broke up, I can't believe it...I felt often that it would happen soon, but so fast?! Yeah, and there is no chance, that they'll be a couple again...He's ok, he doesn't love her anymore, he told her and me so....but she's down, really really down...Just talking to me...
I still want to be with her, I love her, so this is the best thing what could happen to me, but I feel sorry for her, too...I know how hard it is, this terrible feeling!!! I told her I'll be there, and she knows that I'm there....So, I'm helping her to get over it I'm excited what will happen next, of course I won't be too fast, I'll give her all time she needs!!!

Please don't think bad about be, I would have waited even longer....

So, have a nice day

]]> ~InsaneGrafixx http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17176425/ http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17176425/ Tue, 04 Mar 2008 07:57:05 PST It's a really good song, I think some of you heard it already^^

"I thought that I could always count on you
I thought that nothing could come between us two
We said as long as we would stick together
We'd be alright, we'd be okay
But I was stupid and you broke me down
I'll never be the same again

So thank you for showing me
That best friends cannot be trusted
And thank you for lying to me
Your friendship, the good times we had
You can have them back

Yeah

I wonder why it always has to hurt
For every lesson that you have to learn
I won't forget what you did to me
How you showed me things I wish I'd never seen
But I was stupid and you broke me down
I'll never be the same again

So thank you for showing me
That best friends cannot be trusted
And thank you for lying to me
Your friendship, the good times we had
You can have them back

When the tables turn again
You'll remember me my friend
You'll be wishing I was there for you
I'll be the one you miss the most
But you'll only find my ghost
As time goes by, you'll wonder why you're all alone

So thank you for showing me
That best friends cannot be trusted
And thank you for lying to me
Your friendship, the good times we had
You can have them back

So thank you, for lying to me
So thank you, for all the times you let me down
So thank you, for lying to me
So thank you, you friendship... you can have it back"

If you read till here, I can tell you, that I'm feeling this way about a good friend...She was important to me, but well....things are changing, right?^^ I don't really care about it, cause I'm used to those things

PS: If someone wants to have this song, just send me a note with icq nr.

]]> ~InsaneGrafixx http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17149945/ http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17149945/ Sun, 02 Mar 2008 13:38:09 PST Yeah, I told her that she should carefully think about it...but it doesn't matter what I said, she really ignored it and told herself that it'll be all ok...well, i'm a angry, of course, i know, she doesn't has to make what i say, but she doesn't has to ask for help, if she ignores it anyway...I told her so, too....Now I'm waiting for her answer....I will edit it then....
I don't want to lose her, but right now I think it would be much easier to get over her hating her, than loving her...but no matter what will happen, I'm going to hold my promise, that I will be there for her, if she needs me....there's nothing more I can do...

I want to end it with a little quote, which is on my mind for a long time:
"It's so funny that things could change so much and you wouldn't even notice..."

//Edit: Well, she'S going to try it once again...I don't think that this is a good idea, but I'll stand behind her...I hope that she's doing the right thing, 'cause they argue a lot in the last weeks, and i know it can be much more horrible, when you think you have to do so...We'll see...

Have a nice day!!!

]]> ~InsaneGrafixx http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17143475/ http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17143475/ Sun, 02 Mar 2008 05:17:49 PST
Yeah, but you were right, i couldn't get her out of my mind, but this was no problem at all, just once...It was a really simple jump, like I done it thousands times before, but I missed and crashed on the ground...this didn't hurt, but I slipped about 5 metres against a wall...I lost conscience for a second, than stood up...I felt that all were looking at me, a little bit shocked...well, i just laughed and said that that's the way you can feel that you're still alive...yeah, I kept on teaching, whether I rather want to run away...it didn't hurt, not physically...mhhh The whole day was a great, but even painful experience...

Mh, maybe I'm going to see her todayd, and maybe I'm going to talk to her about this all....well, maybe....I'm just tired, drunk too much yesterday^^ (but don't think i'm trying to drown my problems )

But I've got nothing new to upload, maybe some pictures of the workshop, or I try to make something new today We'll see....

Have a nice day!!

]]> ~InsaneGrafixx http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17114569/ http://InsaneGrafixx.deviantart.com/journal/17114569/ Fri, 29 Feb 2008 09:02:39 PST
maybe i'll be a little creative, so i can upload something new for you....
but i'm not happy at all...well, nevermind, it'll all be fine^^

yeeeehaaa

--->but first of all, i'm enjoying my freedom

//Edit: F*** it....woah, i hate it, hate it to be like this....why are these things happening?! can't it stop, simply go away?! yeah, i think this weekend will not be like i hoped it would be.... i got nearly over her, nearly, and now she's bringing all back....
f*** this 'freedom', whatfor?! just to think of her over an over again?! aaaaarghhhh....-.-

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