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It's been way too long since I posted here so I won't even try to update... it would take too long.

TEN DAYS TIL HALLOWEEN! FWEEE!

]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/10459401/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/10459401/ Fri, 20 Oct 2006 19:18:12 PDT

The day went pretty bleh, but it was a short day and I got to miss most of math for a lockdown procedure practice. After school I went to the mall with Kai, Carla, and Amie for more Halloween stuff. I finally got a garter belt for those fishnets I got a while ago for Rocky Horror. Woot. Now all I need is a maid costume to go as Magenta. Not going as Janet anymore because I don't want to walk around in a bra and panty skirt thigny.

And I figured out what to do for party tomorrow. It's just going to be the same as usual - have everyone over, go out for dinner (not sure where yet - I've gone to Pizza Hut the past three years or so lol), come back, play some DDR (courtesy of teh Kai), and sleep. Or not sleep - whichever. It sounds like it's going to be boring, but we can MAKE it fun!

OH! I've also been drawing. I might scan something in as soon as I'm happy enough with it. It's going to look like a scrap, but it won't be because it's taken me a long time lol.

]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/10428529/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/10428529/ Tue, 17 Oct 2006 21:20:26 PDT
I'm going to post some personal stuff here instead of my Blogspot because I know only two of my IRL friends read this and there's almost no way anyone else I know (IRL) would find it. Like specific people.

So things have just been shit lately. A week or two ago, it was an entire week of bad moods and bad luck. Almost nothing went right. Then things started to look up for a few days, until I got horribly sick. Then they were okay again for a couple days, and now they're crap again. I know I have tons of awesome stuff to look forward to (starting a little bit on the 19th, then REALLY awesome on the 20th, etc.) but right now is just... blah. Things are really weird with my boyfriend. Which is mostly the problem. He recently moved in with a couple roommates in Rundle (quite far from here in terms of transit) and has started working a lot more. At McDonald's. I haven't talked to him since I spent the night two or three weeks ago, unless you count that time on MSN when he barely talked at all. I understand that he's busy, tired, and stressed, but this is still depressing. And I can't help but take it personally, because things like this happen in all my relationships. The guy loses interest in me, decides he didn't actually like me at all in the first place, drops contact, etc. I thought things were going to be different this time, but like always, I was wrong. At least I think I am. I'm just saying that it destroys my self-esteem, basically. I hate feeling like this.

Also, Limewire gave me two new viruses. Now Firefox won't open (yes, I tried reinstalling it), and IE isn't working properly because of the other virus. And iTunes has started skipping again.

Well this entry was a waste of time. I didn't say close to all I wanted to get out. Oh well. Fuck it.

]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/9656576/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/9656576/ Tue, 08 Aug 2006 22:33:34 PDT
First of all - calm the fuck down. Everyone who went completely nuts over how much they hate the new layout, just calm down. Are you that afraid of change? dA is trying to improve the site for OUR benefit - not to piss us off. They worked really hard on it. Maybe if you POLITELY tell them you're unhappy with the new layout, in the future they'll have an option to go back to the old one. Kinda like how you can choose different skins on message boards. It's not the end of the world.

At first, I didn't like the feel of the front page. It felt too... Open. And naked. But now that I'm used to it, I like it. The only thing I don't like now is the message thing at the top - all it says is how many deviations and how many messages I have. I miss how it would say if you had comments, notes, journals, etc. and have a separate link to them. And that's about it. At least it's not hideously ugly with giant ads everywhere or whatever. I also like the new color. The old one was nice too, BUT IT'S NOT A BIG DEAL. Are you going to stop using the site just because it looks different? Wow.. When I put it that way, it sounds kinda racist. Or whatever word you use for web sites *rolls eyes*.

I think the first thing that caught my eye and that I like is having my avatar and username etc. on the right side of the page. I don't know why, but I like it.

So just calm down, stop shitting your pants, and get used to it. ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/9338639/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/9338639/ Tue, 11 Jul 2006 01:05:46 PDT

Leave your name and:
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest/funniest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours.


OMG I'm a Jesus lizard LMFAO ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/9174643/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/9174643/ Sun, 25 Jun 2006 01:40:46 PDT ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/9079416/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/9079416/ Thu, 15 Jun 2006 17:02:17 PDT
So fuck you, dA. ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/9078803/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/9078803/ Thu, 15 Jun 2006 15:52:00 PDT
I think I can safely say that the lsat day of classes this year was a HELL of a lot better than last year. The day did start out pretty badly, but drama class was hilarious and as soon as I stepped inside the band room I felt better. Then when Kai, Neo, and me were walking down the hall to leave, we saw a detached locker door just lying on the floor. I grabbed it and we nonchalantly (lmfao) carried it out of the school. The bus driver just laughed at us and let us on. Then we named it Pete. Jenn's sister had a good laugh haha. So now I have a neon yellow locker door resting against my basement wall. Good times, good times. ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/8839560/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/8839560/ Sun, 21 May 2006 21:55:47 PDT [link]

Enjoy and use them if you want. Some credit would be nice, but I'm not picky about it. ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/8764285/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/8764285/ Sun, 14 May 2006 00:56:31 PDT
1. Full Name: Andrea Nicole Melito
2. Nicknames: Kri/Krishna, the friendly girl in purple (only once but it made me smile lol), and um.. Spockula I guess.
3. Birthday: October 21st, 1990
4. Place of Birth: Calgary
5. Zodiac Sign: Libra
6. Male or Female: Female
7. Grade: 10
8. School: The large brick building with the awesome band room in it
9. Occupation: Unemployed geek
10. Residence: Calgary
11. Online Alias: Kri or Spockula

__Your Appearance___

12. Hair Color: Brunette. Specifically, brunette with natural copper-colored highlights.
13. Hair Length: About one centimetre below my shoulders
14. Eye color: Varying shades of brown
15. Best Feature: Fuck off
16. Height: 5'3"
17. Braces?: No
18. Glasses?: Purple, light blue, and green emo geek glasses
19. Piercings: Ears and left eyebrow
20. Tattoos: no
21. Righty or Lefty: Righty

___Your 'Firsts'___

22. First best friend: Jasmine
23. First Award: Highest Mark in Band Class (grade 7)
24. First Sport You Joined: Quidditch xP
25. First pet: My bunny... Mittens. My uncle got him for me because he wanted to eat it. Mittens died before he could though. Jerk.
26. First Real Vacation: Probably that horrible camping trip with my aunt. We ended up staying in a hotel >_>
27. First Concert: Aaron Carter at Cowboy's. Shut up, I was in grade 3 and crazy about that kind of shit
28. First Love: I don't know love. I think the person who came closest is Deven though.

___ Favorites___

29. Movie: The Star Trek movies, Harry Potter movies, Nightmare Before Christmas, Corpse Bride, Rent, Rocky Horror Picture Show, Free Enterprise, blah blah blah.
30. TV Show: Invader Zim, Star Trek, Star Trek TNG, Star Trek DS9, Star Trek VOY, Futurama, American Dad, Family Guy, Simpsons, Kaput and Zosky, Venture Brothers
31. Colors: Purple, black, and lime green.
32. Rapper: Ew.
33. Band: *deep breath* OINGO BOINGO!!!
34. Song Right Now: 4am by Our Lady Peace
35. Friend: Don't have a favorite - I love them all.
36. Candy: Air Heads because they don't have animal ingredients in them. OH! And Bawls Mints.
37. Sport to Play: *is a lazy blob* Fucking hate sports. I used to lurve basketball though.
38. Restaurant: BK - good veggie burgers.
39. Favorite brand to wear: Brands suck. My favorite pair of jeans are Silver though.
40. Drink: It should be obvious, but I'll say it anyway - The caffeinated kind. Lost, Monster, Bawls, Jolt, Beaver Buzz, Full Throttle, Red Rain, etc
41. School Subject: BAND!
42. Animal: *giggles* Kitty!
43. Book: The Harry Potter books, Star Trek IV: The Voyage Home novelization, and anything by Cornelia Funke.
44. Magazine: WiReD
45. Shoes: The kind that prevent me from direct contact with the ground.

___Currently___

46. Feeling: Lost, stuck, the need to escape, nostalgic, cold, like crying, sick, hungry, blehhhh
47. Single or Taken?: Why is this always such an important question on these things?
48. Have a crush: Not really. I think I've lost the capability to feel that way.
49. Eating: Air. Yum.
50. Drinking: HATE. (Love those Zim references >_>
51. Typing: Fucking retarded question
52. Online?: MSN yes
53. Listening To: My Immortal (full band version) by Evanescence.
54. Thinking About: The lyrics to the song
55. Wanting To: Talk to Nate, get the fuck out of here, go on tour
56. Watching: The words I type magically appear on the monitor. How do they do that!?!
57. Wearing: Lime green Minnie Mouse pajama bottoms, panties, light blue tank top, bra, black Nike hoodie that's way too big for me.

__________Future__________

58. Want Kids?: Fuck no
59. Want to be Married?: FUCK NO
61. Where do you want to live: Australia would be cool. Or Italy
62. Car: If I HAD to, an old 60's Volkswagen hippie bus

__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex___

(Why does it have to be the opposite?)

63. Hair color: Redhead xD
64. Hair length: Whatever
65. Eye color: meh
66. Measurements: *rolls eyes* yeah, like I have every last milimetre planned out for someone who doesn't exist.
67. Cute or Sexy: Cute i guess
68. Lips or Eyes: Shouldn't people have both?
69. Hugs or Kisses: Hugs. Keep your lips away from me >_<
70. Short or Tall: Tall
71. Easygoing or serious: Both
72. Romantic... ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/8656307/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/8656307/ Tue, 02 May 2006 20:14:01 PDT
I haven't updated in a while, but I've been meaning to. First of all, I'm falling apart. I don't know if I should post this or not, but I feel like I need to get it all out there. So read beyond the cut if you feel like it. Or whatever >_> And if you don't, to put it bluntly: I've been having little breakdowns...



A couple of nights ago, (can't remember when exactly) my mom was out late again until 1 AM, but I didn't know if she was drinking or not. I went to bed pretty early - around 11:30-midnight, and was just lying there. Until my thoughts started to collect and I went through all this fear and desperation. I was thinking about how things were never going to change. I couldn't stop crying and shaking. I felt very strongly that I had to fucking DO something about it. But I couldn't. So I sat up and saw some paper and a pen on the floor. I can't even remember how it happened exactly, but next second I was on my knees hunched over the paper, scribbling as fast as possible whatever came to mind.

Run your fingers through your hair
Cry your silent tears
Create your own kind of pain
Lock away the years.

After that came out, everything after was just words overlapping words. I filled two pages. I finally stopped when I realized what I was doing and dragged myself back into bed, terrified. I fell asleep soon after.

And pretty much until today I've been on and off with depression, but mostly on with random periods of manic happiness that only makes it worse afterwards. It gets worse though.

It happened again in art class today, only I think it was worse. I don't know what triggered it, but it was pretty much the same thing. I blocked everything else out with my headphones and just started worrying. I went very deep into my mind and was pulling out the thoughts I usually keep in those metaphorical dark corners. I was wondering if any of this is even real. Maybe my entire life is the daydream of someone in the mental ward, alone in a room with a straitjacket who has nothing better to do than create fictional worlds. I had a lot of other scary thoughts, but I think I subconsciously blocked them out of my memory. No one noticed my shaking and almost crying too, so that was good. And my non-pierced eyebrow kept twitching really badly >_>

Oh, and to add onto this, I saw Jenn's sister on the bus on the way home today. I don't know why that's a bad thing, it just makes me all anxious and desperate again. Probably because she reminds me of some of the negative aspect of my past. ANYONE I see from that time except for friends makes me react this way. Especially when they recognize me and say hi. I get this plummeting sick feeling in my stomach.

I hate this...

Oh yeah - and I have reason to believe that I am asexual. I have no desire to "date" another person, male or female. The thought makes me sick... I just have no idea how to be in a relationship. So both genders suck ass! *rolls eyes*. I'm so lame >_>

OMG I broke my bed... LMAO. It broke before a long time ago, but it was just the wooden slats under the mattress. This time Carla was already on it and I kinda hopped up onto it and the whole thing collapsed. It was hilarious. I have a picture but I'm too lazy to post it for now.

And my pierced eyebrow is all swollen and gross >_<. Yesterday morning it was leaking a lot of greenish-yellow pus - just as I was about to get on the bus. It was disgusting >=[

And I think that's it... ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/8615859/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/8615859/ Fri, 28 Apr 2006 21:04:35 PDT
Too much to say, not enough words. ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/8311021/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/8311021/ Thu, 30 Mar 2006 04:28:16 PST

That is all. ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/8290708/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/8290708/ Tue, 28 Mar 2006 01:56:02 PST It's almost done, I just have to take a picture of it ^_^

So, about this icon I want to make - I pretty much woke up this afternoon with the idea already in my head, and an mental image of exactly how I want it to look. I just need the right font, but couldn't find it anywhere. I'm really hoping it wasn't one of those psychic vision things though, because that means the icon already exists lol. Anyway, the font I'm thinking of is like a typewriter style, but more modern and kinda... wider. Somewhat hard to explain. If you have any idea what I'm talking about, please let me know - I really want to make this icon before I forgot about it >_<

Yeah... I kinda stopped posting journal entries here because I have a LiveJournal now, but I figured since this was dA related, it should go here. Also, I was getting pretty sick of looking at that huge quiz/survey thing o.o;

Oooh... Met lots of awesome people in the new ZADR chatroom!!! ([link]) JOIN NOW!! Heh... It's not very populated... But anyway, the second I joined that room, I automatically belonged. It was amazing I got almost all of them on AIM or MSN too ^__^ Um... What else? Don't remember... Ah well. Happy Spring Break, everyone ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7653282/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7653282/ Thu, 19 Jan 2006 22:52:57 PST , RIP

What is your name?: Andrea Nicole Melito
Are you named after anyone?: My grandma's first name was Nicola (Italian version of Nicole).
What's your screename?: Kri, Invader Kri, Tallest Kri
Would you name a child of yours after you?: I don't want kids
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: Andrew maybe... not sure
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: I don't need to switch names - I can create my own
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that people inflict on your name constantly?: No constantly, but it annoys the crap out of me when my name is pronounced "On-dree-ah". Oh, and my last name is kinda confusing too. I was once called "On-dree-ah Melt-io" over the school PA sysem >_>
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: I wanted to when I was young and stupid and wanted to be famous :rolls eyes:

Basics

Your gender: Female
Straight/Gay/Bi: Straight
Single?: I don't even know anymore
If not, do you want to be?: That doesn't really apply to me right now lol
Birthdate: Sunday, October 21st, 1990
Your age: 15
Age you act: Sometimes 5, sometimes 35 ((original words of Sun-Suto ^_^))
Age you wish you were: 21
Your height: 5' 4” or 6”
Eye color: Brown.
Happy with it?: Sure, but some unnatural color like purple would be cool.
Hair color: Same as eye color question
Happy with it?: ^
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: Righty.
Your living arrangement: With my mom, sister, and mom's boyfriend
Your family: Not too close with them
Have any pets?: No
What's your job?: Unemployed hippie. Unless "Trekkie" counts.
Piercings?: Ears and left eyebrow.
Tattoos?: Soon
Obsessions?: Invader Zim, Star Trek, the Internet, the word "pie", LJ, my cell phone, and many others.
Addictions?: The Internet, and bordering on caffeine lol
Do you speak another language? No, but I can write and read Irken.
Have a favorite quote?: Too many to list, but right now it's "There is help for everything, except death." - A Danish saying
Do you have a webpage?: dA and LJ

Deep Thoughts About Life

Do you live in the moment?: I try. I’m always in the past though. And fantasy.
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Tolerant of their differences (I embrace them), but it's very hard to be tolerant of certain people...
Do you have any secrets?: Everyone does
Do you hate yourself?: A little sometimes
Do you like your handwriting?: Fuck no
Do you have any bad habits?: Nail-biting relapses, complaining, being too loud and annoying, staying up past 7 AM, etc
What is the compliment you get from most people?: Lately it's been "You're so cute!" and "You're funny and fun to be around".
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: T3h Kri
What's your biggest fear?: That this is all there is. That there's no hope.
Can you sing?: FUCK no
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: LMAO that's just too pathetic.
Are you a loner?: When my friends forget about me.
What are your top priorities in life?: =\
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Probably.
Are you a daredevil?: When the mood strikes
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: My inability to see the bright side during depression. And my inability to stop the depression.
Are you passive or agressive?: Both sometimes
Do you have a journal?: LJ <3. dA not so much anymore
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: I have no idea
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: Nothing - too long of an ex... ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7635099/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7635099/ Tue, 17 Jan 2006 23:13:26 PST 2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When’s the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn’t?
15. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you? ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7523047/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7523047/ Fri, 06 Jan 2006 02:28:46 PST -----

I don't understand it. I've been so happy for almost this entire two weeks, then tonight I clean my room and get all OCD about it, come down here to check some stuff, and my mood just crashes. It's become kinda obvious that I do have slight OCD and it affects the chemical imbalance that causes depression. But for some reason, last night, (I think it was as I ws trying to sleep), I decided that I don't want medication because this is me. And after having a pretty long talk with Astrid about body image and accepting yourself for who you are, it would be self-contradictory to think otherwise. I may change my mind if things get worse, but maybe I just have to accept it.


I almost didn't go on the computer today. I didn't until about 2:30 AM, which made my mood decrease even more. I've been feeling a lot of emotion lately, along with the strong urge to express it, but I've also realized that maybe my emotions can't be properly expressed through MSN display pictures and MSN names, or LJ entries.

There is more to life, I just can't find it.

I also feel the need to be out in the night, where I can feel even more insignificant, so maybe I'll feel like my problems aren't so bad. I want to be out there where I'll be more ignored and hidden. Alone, tiny, lost. I want to breathe in the air not contained within wood and concrete walls. I want to go off somewhere to wait for the sun, I want to be completely unnoticed and expressive. I don't want anything else to matter to me but right now. I want to be free in my denial that there's something chemically wrong with me - this happens for no reason, I'm insecure, I can't talk to the people who are supposed to be closest to me... It's like I'm just - waiting. I keep expecting things will change, giving myself false hope, but no matter how much things around me physically change, I'll still be the same inside. This could be me creating stability - a constant - in my life for myself because I have very few in the real world. But then I think-- what's so fucking great about the real world? Why does it matter if you function better within fantasy than in the real thing? But everytime, I'm pulled back into the reality that has rejected me. A seemingly endless cycle. Forever lulled into a false sense of security by my own blind hope.

P.S - I miss Nate ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7473038/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7473038/ Sat, 31 Dec 2005 23:06:47 PST
Yeah, my countdown wasn't that great. I went upstairs one minute away, and watched the ball drop on TV with my mom and sister. My mom hugged me, I said good night, came back down to my freezing basement and said Happy New Year to the two friends I'm talking to on MSN. Wow. We exchanged the little party emoticon (the one that wears a party hat and blows the... thingy that makes noise). Mmmmyep.

But I do feel a slightly different... vibe.

Whatever.

P.S - Fuck you, Jenn ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7376917/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7376917/ Wed, 21 Dec 2005 20:26:28 PST [link]

Gordy came on MSN panicking and asking me urgently to help find information on this symbol. He says it's VERY important so PLEASE contribute anything you may know about it. All we know so far is that it's Celtic. But he really needs to know the name of it and any other info. Thank you! ^_^ ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7221796/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7221796/ Sun, 04 Dec 2005 15:48:22 PST ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7164639/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7164639/ Mon, 28 Nov 2005 06:01:03 PST _> So I didn't cry, because she was there. I also missed a good chunk of it because she was talking to my sister almost the whole time.

Then I saw the movie again last night, again knowing what was coming and knowing I should avoid it but I didn't. Every commercial break I was like "You can just go to sleep now and not see this!" But I ignored the voices. (Too bad some other people can't do that).

Yeah. For some reason, seeing it again was worse than the first time or knowing about it before seeing it. Well it wasn't that much worse, because it made my summer that much worse - for some reason it really fucked me up. But yes, I cried, and now it's going to be on my mind today. Blah blah blah, I'm pathetic to cry like this about movies.

I has to go to school now >_< ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7153728/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7153728/ Sat, 26 Nov 2005 22:32:04 PST
Now I've got this crazy thing where one of my friends thinks we're going out because of some stupid joke last night. Like Kai and Amie being "married". But I don't think she knows it's just a joke... even though I said it was. I also think I might like Nathaniel, but he's devoted to another girl who he's not even dating... I don't know, he said it was really complicated and he didn't really want to talk about it. So chances for dating happiness are tiny. OMG listen to me bitch and be all emo... ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7151369/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7151369/ Sat, 26 Nov 2005 17:10:43 PST 1. Pie!
2. Star Trek: The Original Series - Spock!
3. Invader Zim
4. deviantART
5. Fan fiction
6. Emoticons
7. Daniel Radcliffe
8. Jhonen Vasquez
9. ZADR
10. Fake meat

5 things that make you happy:
1. All my friends
2. Getting comments and watches on DA
3. Ice cream ^_^
4. Playing clarinet and alto sax
5. sleeping in

10 things you hate/dislike:
1. homophobic bastards who spread mean hatred around like a fucking plague. (but I am contridicting myself by hating them. Pshh, whatever, they suck.)
2. Flamers
3. Racism
4. When my favorite shows are canceled
5. When people act like they are "so great"
6. When I am treated like a child
7. when I can't fucking draw
8. Speedos... eep.
9. mullets
10. watching sports >.<

3 facts about your name:
1. It means "strong"
2. My mom took forever to pick it
3. My other names are "Jade Krishna Spock Martini Zim Venture Vasquez", "Kri", "Lemon Sex Muffin", "Teh Emoticon Whore", "'Drea", and "My Zimness"

6 facts about yourself:
1. I am a vegetarian
2. I am somewhat addicted to caffeine
3. I can't draw worth shit
4. I've seen Nightmare Before Christmas more than a hundred times.
5. I luuuurve Pocky
6. I am in a cult (lol just kidding)

2 things you expect (at least for now):
1. That I will be up kinda late tonight
2. That I will watch the first two Star Trek movies tomorow! XD

4 random thoughts:
1. I LIKE BEANS
2. Must remember when the Star Trek movies are on!
3. I really hope I'll be able to watch The Wrath Of Khan witout crying too much...
4. Old people scare me... ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7126844/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7126844/ Wed, 23 Nov 2005 20:13:25 PST
Yesterday I was so bitchy because I didn't get any caffeine, and I was actually more insane than when I DO have some. I kept screaming about beans and pie... Then when my friend came online and said my MSN display name was funny ("Will flash for caffein -_-") I freaked out and bit his head off. Now I feel bad... Later that night at about 6:30 PM, Gordy called, so I went to meet him at the bus stop. He bought me a SoBe NoFear (or something like that...) because I was bitchy and tired, and him and Nathaniel think I'm fun when I'm hyper. So we went to Gordy's house and we watched him play Resident Evil for a while, trying to stop Nath from tickling me. It was hard though, because we were all cramped up on Gordy's simgle bunk bed. We all smashed out heads at least twice while they decided to force me to watch Monty Python's The Meaning Of Life. It's not a bad movie, Gordy just knows I fucking hate the part where that morbidly obese man explodes. So that was a big fight, them both restraining me, me screaming and biting Gordy's arm. They finally settled on letting me look away and listen to Slipknot full blast on an MP3 player. Nathaniel REALLY wanted to see the guy explode... O.o Anyway, I got home an hour late because the buses suck, but the bus stop was fun. We somehow got into a little wrestling match, resulting in Nathaniel lying on top of me until I rolled over. We then looked at the stars until I was tickled again, and the bus came. So I didn't get home until 10 PM so I had to go to bed without a shower. The energy drink I had before kept me up until about 2 AM (even though it was only 94.6 mg), and I had to wake up at 5:30 AM for my shower. I thought I'd end up passing out halfway through band, but I asked my mom for $2.50 for a "drink". I didn't specify which kind... So I got one of those really big Jolt Blue things. That kept me alive until after school when Kai and me had to go to an interview at the seniors home where we are now volunteering. I kept falling asleep with my eyes open (kinda...) and my brain kept wandering.

Yeah... I think two different people said I look like a zombie, a couple people standing by agreed. I agree too. I don't think I've lost this much sleep since the summer, and I don't even want to get into that right now.

But speaking of fucked up patterns, I've also been more hungry than usual. Lol I say this as I eat a sammich. IT'S GOT FAKE TURKEY IN IT! XD

Anyway... I skipped counselling again today. I don't know why I stopped going, but that's three weeks in a row now.

Whatever. ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7106024/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7106024/ Mon, 21 Nov 2005 14:21:48 PST Just letting you all know... Don't know why. Not like many people ever read this thing... lol ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7088297/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7088297/ Sat, 19 Nov 2005 11:06:30 PST < But the others came back and only missed the first 3 minutes or so and Gopher insisted on giving us all our money back... 'cause that's what she does lol. I'm not going to say anything about the movie, 'cause I'd get shot for spoiling it

So after the movie, I called Kai, because she was going to pick me up at 3 for the speech and debate tournament. We all got onto teh train, and Kai was gonna pick me up at the tain station and go to my house really quick so I could get my stuff, so we waited for a while. Then Nathaniel called Gordy's cell and I was screaming "HI!!!" into the phone every 2 seconds, so Cory just walked away and we never saw him again... Anyway, Nathaniel came running and screaming from out behind a police van, glomps were exchanged, and we waited some more until I realized how long we were waiting, then I called home to see if Kai called there, and Russ said she had, saying that she wasn't coming. So we went to the mall until about 5:30 PM, then mine and Nathaniel's energy levels crashed and we sat at the food court until Gordy's dad picked us up. We went to his house, listening to Metallica really loud on the way, and had dinner. I ate salad ^_^ Then we watched The Simpsons on Gordy's laptop for a while. It's really hard to fit three teenagers on one small bed. But we found a way, very close to eachother. Nathaniel is really cuddly o_O So at 10, we all got back into the van to drive me and Nathaniel home, listening to Disturbed really loud on the way. But before we had even gotten seatbelts on, they guys decided it would be a good idea to both attack me - with tickling. So I flew into the back of the front passenger seat, grabbing the brush thingie that scrapes ice off windows and whacked Nathaniel in the forehead with it. For some reason though, at that second, it seemed more logical to hit him not with the softer brush end, but the ice scraping end. So he wiped the blood off (it kept coming back lol) and we calmed down for about three minutes as I contnued to cower on the floor against the seat. Gordy's dad was driving really crazy on purpose, so that got everyone all crazy again, so I was tackled again. When we got to my house, I slid the door open and almost fell out... So now I owe Nathaniel for making his head bleed, and making his headache come back. Whoo! So I was pretty dead by that time, but managed to stay awake until midnight - I HAD to watch Clone High XD.

And even though yesterday was so tiring, I managed to wake up at 8 AM for Star Trek! Wh00t. But I fell back asleep right after it was over lol. Oh shit! I just realized how long this is... Sorry!

P.S - So I guess I'm pretty glad I missed the speech and debate thing. I wasn't prepared anyway. Actually, it was good that I didn't go. I didn't even have the 7$ fee thing, or nice clothes clean. I would've just embarrassed myself ^_^ ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7072988/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7072988/ Thu, 17 Nov 2005 15:30:28 PST
The reason I had the blood test taken is because I'm vegetarian and only take one Centrum multi-vitamin a day (unless I forget, which I do quite often) so I wanted to see how I was doing nutrition-wise. It took a while to actually go to the lab to get the test, but I finally did. I didn't think the results would be in so soon...

I'm really nervous though because if my results are that bad, chances are I will be forced to eat meat again. Something I am very opposed to. I may be able to pursuade my mom to just let me take more vitamins though. Hopefully ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7031804/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/7031804/ Sat, 12 Nov 2005 23:55:31 PST ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6857679/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6857679/ Mon, 24 Oct 2005 17:52:19 PDT
Anyway... ~InvaderKai and I are writing a VERY long RP (over 300 pages - lost count), and we don't want to type it all out. Would you want to do that much typing?lol So we might scan all the pages that aren't already typed (about 5) and create a new DA account specially for it. The question is - would anyone want to read it?

Basic premise: This story is centered around our fan characters Kai and Kri, who both come to EArth for different reasons, not knowing each other at all. They meet up with the original characters after meeting each other, and they become friends. It later turns into a ZADR involving some mind control and a LOT of amusement, then we get all political and militaristis. Kinda. Kai had been sent to Cerberos, a prison planet, and comes to Earth after escaping. She is a convicted killer and was caught trying to assassinate the Tallests because of betrayal of friend, Larx. After meeting Kri, she realizes that SHE could be Tallest, so they plan to go try the assassination thing again, since they would never just let Kri rule, being a Defective. So they build a ship that's an exact replica of the Enterprise NCC-17O1, only smaller (when they were designing the ship Dib absentmindedly sketched the Enterprise - yes, Dibby be a Trekkie in this). Some stuff happens, including a drunken party, and some visitor, making our RP a crossover. Hint hint lol. At the very moment, the characters have just finished a huge fight between Kai and Kri, out of their minds because of technological stuff involving metal device thingies attached to them to help them function. There's a lot of electricit flying around and our "guests" communication is no longer working. There's a wedding or two being planned too. Mmmmyep. I know it sounds boring, but it's pretty much been my life for the past year almost (we started sometime last March - can't remember actual day). I don't know about Kai, but I've been living in this world when I'm not in this one lmao. I ish pathetic...

So yeah, let me know if you'd actually want to read this, and I'll answer any questions.

^_^ ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6785342/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6785342/ Sun, 16 Oct 2005 17:25:04 PDT kippixin's book and post an IM conversation here - please don't sue me! Anyway, the guy I'm talking to here is Nate (duh) my Trekkie friend who lives in Austrailia (I met him on a Star Trek message board). And this is on MSN, so all the blank spots are emoticons and the bigger bank spots are us sending files to each other. Oh, and we also have display pictures - mine is a digitally doctored picture of Spock from TOS holding a martini and Nate's a pic of himself. Okay here you go... I is apologizing in advance...
Oh, and TAS stands for The Animated Series (of Star Trek)
~~~~~~~~~~

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:

Nate says:

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
whats up?

Nate says:
what did u do to spock?

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
nothing. it was from [link]

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
i didnt get him drunk on martinis... *whistles innocently* lol

Nate says:

hehe
Nate says:

surrrre
Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:

i like Spock ^_^ lol
Nate says:

so do i

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
probably not in that way though... lol. pr0n

Nate says:

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
do you ever write fan fiction?

Nate says:
nope, not creative enough! wish I could!

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
lol i write it anyway. me and my friend have this huge RP going and we recently made it a Star Trek crossover (well, it was all me lol) and im really having trouble getting into Spock's character. my character (Kri) is currently clinging to him in a huge glomp

Nate says:

Nate says:
sounds interesting

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
i cant write worth crap.

Nate says:
surrrre

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
well if i can i refuse to admit it

Nate says:
wait till youre a famous author

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
lol

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
i'd let you read some of my stuff, but it's all written out
Nate says:

written out?

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
yeah. the RP is about 300 pages now. we lost track a while ago

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
we started it in email, but she has it all

Nate says:
thats a lot

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
yep. it's the reason im in math and science 14 this year ^_^

Nate says:
hehe

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
it's better now though. im starting to take care of all my psychological problems

Nate says:
your what?

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
psychological issues. i see counsellors now

Nate says:
as long as youre getting help

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
im so happy right now though. i was able to wake up for Star Trek this morning XD

Nate says:
yeah what star trek?

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
Journey to Babel

Nate says:
ooooooooooooooooh

Nate says:


Nate says:
I LOVE that one

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
good ep

Nate says:
one of the very very best

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
really funny how when the Andorian stabbed Kirk in the back the wound some how got up to his left lung

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
lol

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
i still havent seen Amok Time

Nate says:
you will love AMok Time

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
i already know. lol

Nate says:
sure you can hurt your lungs if you get stabbed from behind?

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao! says:
no, when he got stabbed he put his hand on his lower back and there was blood on it

Nate says:
hmm lol ok

Hell hath no fury like a Vulcan pr0n'd! lmfao!... ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6710755/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6710755/ Sat, 08 Oct 2005 08:17:01 PDT
This is how I vent... There is so way I could ever rant like this to someone to their face. Maybe my lack of that ability is why I'm alone.

Whatever. ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6646588/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6646588/ Fri, 30 Sep 2005 22:21:14 PDT
It was another of those really insanely hyper days too... Mainly 'cause I had cookies and a Coffee Crisp for lunch (everyone stole my fries lol) and I jacked some of Alyssa's pop. Oh, and Kai learned what the opposite of pedophelia was! LOL! She was so horrified, but we both lurve ZADR (), so... But anyway... as it happens with all days like this, I feel retarded about being so scary and hyperactive. And I'm tired of it. I hate not being comfortable with my own emotions and how I feel about myself in general. Some days I simply hate myself. :sigh: How much longer until the next counsellor meeting? ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6637643/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6637643/ Thu, 29 Sep 2005 19:57:38 PDT Rain, rain, go away
Come again another day
All the world is waiting for the sun

- Rain by Breaking Benjamin

Mood: Cold
Listening to: How Long - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Reading: Tarot for Beginners (or something like that)
Watching: None...

I talked to another counsellor on Wednesday, and told him a lot about what's been going on since I was about 5. He (Derek) said he doesn't think I'm bi-polar, I'm just depressed because my life has been absolute shit. I just never realized exactly how bad it was until then though. We came to the conlusion that I'm simply just not used to being happy. Isn't that just fucking wonderful? And now, I feel so alone that my present isn't great either. I am alone because people cannot stand to be around me. I know people tell me that they're there and I can always talk to them, but no one has ever said that to my face. Everything meaningful that's been going on has been over the Internet. It's just so frustrating when I bring these things up while talking to my friends, and still I get no response.

I just want to know why.

I wish I could confront them face-to-face, but I'm afraid they just won't care. Just like everyone else. I'm screaming, and either they can't hear, or they've decide not to listen. And now I feel stupid about telling people all this now because I can't be free with my emotions without someone asking me if I'm okay. Well I'm not, so stop asking. PLEASE. Today was NO indicator of how I'm feeling. All that insane hyperactive screaming was just... pathetic. Everytime that happens, I feel so foolish and moronic. I know it'll be over soon (like the second I'm alone again), but I do it anyway. I know I don't want to be doing it, but when they try to stop me, I get angry because I'm sick of being repressed. I'm sick of repressing myself. Like today I was taking the bus with friends, and when the last one got off, she didn't even say goodbye. She didn't even look at me. So, what is it? Are people just embarrassed of me? If it's just because people hate me, I have no idea why. I am ALWAYS willing to help them all, no matter what the cost is. And i don't know why. No matter how horrible I feel, someone needs help, and everything else is forgotten. And I am nothing to them. I know they tell me otherwise, but it's so hard for me to believe them.

For everyone who actually does care, I thank you, but I also apologize if I've been difficult. It's so hard for me to open up completely. I can't even confront the people closest to me. Well, I thought they were close...

Special thanks to:

Alyssa
Jenn
Jessica
Gordy
Derek
~lunasparks/~thepurplemonster
Rei
and any others I may have forgotten.


P.S - Congratulations to my friend/cousin Shawn on getting sober!

From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were; I have not seen
As others saw; I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I loved, I loved alone.
Then–in my childhood, in the dawn
Of a most stormy life–was drawn
From every depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still:
From the torrent, or the fountain,
From the red cliff of the mountain,
From the sun that round me rolled
In its autumn tint of gold,
From the lightning in the sky
As it passed me flying by,
From the thunder and the storm,
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view.

-Alone by Edagr Allan Poe ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6619982/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6619982/ Tue, 27 Sep 2005 19:25:42 PDT I came to burn the sky
And tear away the beauty that it sows
If I could rape the day
And find the things I thought I'd always known

Leave it alone again tonight
Leave it alone again tonight
Leave it alone again tonight
Leave it alone again tonight


And it takes me back
From this place here
From this place here
It takes me over
Tonight

-"Leave It Alone" by Moist

Mood: Not well
Listening to: Leave It Alone - Moist
Reading: Tarot for Beginners (or something like that)
Watching: None...

Yep. I finally decided to stop lying to myself and get some help. It was another one of those days, too - I'd just sit and be distant, numb to everything around me. I went after lunch, so I missed some gym. Kai persuaded me to go at lunch (however indirectly), and Jenn had a hand in it too. I told the counsellor (Dale) pretty much everything. How fucked up my life has been, mostly in the past 6-8 years, my moving history (that took a while), my relationship with my parents, my fiction obsession (Zim...), and I asked her if it was normal to completely shut off emotions. I said "I don't know if you've seen the old Star Trek, but I was acting a lot like Spock for a lot of the summer. Sometimes for weeks on end.", and she said sometimes it's our way of coping when we're overwhelmed with emotion and it's okay to think completely logically at times. But a big topic was my friends and how I always feel so cut off from them. She asked me if I've ever told any of them this, but I told her I'm just really bad at confrontations. I can't even say stuff on the phone usually. It's so pathetic because all I can do it rant meaninglessly on MSN and my DA journal. And all I get are meaningless comments. No offence, Kai, it's just that an "army of glomps" in emoticon form just doesn't help. Everyone I've ever had leaves, and there's nothing I can do about it. I am trapped inside myself and the only people I can really talk to are random strangers. And it's now a fact - I am alone. Dale even said that by the way I was talking that I feel very alone. I know I've learned from experience that I shouldn't trust my feelings, but I know it's true this time, even if I also know in the back of my mind that I'm not going to feel this way later.

All day, I was close to tears. The only time I actually cried was when I left the band room after speech and debate and all my friends there were questioning me, so I just left and broke the facade as soon as the door closed. It was cleared up fast enough for no one to notice though. I saw most of my other friends at the bus stop too, and they all waved and stuff, but it didn't mean anything. Sorry, but... nothing mattered to me today. Although it was a little creepy, because it was like they could all sense it or something. I think I got more hugs today than... well I can't even remember. I am alone and broken. Thank you for listening.

From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were; I have not seen
As others saw; I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I loved, I loved alone.
Then–in my childhood, in the dawn
Of a most stormy life–was drawn
From every depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still:
From the torrent, or the fountain,
From the red cliff of the mountain,
From the sun that round me rolled
In its autumn tint of gold,
From the lightning in the sky
As it passed me flying by,
From the thunder and the storm,
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view.

-Alone by Edagr Allan Poe

I wanna heal
I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long
Somewhere I belong

- Somewhere I Belong by Linkin Park ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6612024/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6612024/ Mon, 26 Sep 2005 20:58:04 PDT I've been thinking about everyone, everyone
You look so lonely
But when I look at the stars
I feel like someone else

-"Stars" by Switchfoot

Is it just that hard for me to belong?

My friends are always having fun with each other, and I get to hear alll about it on Mondays. Yeah, I have other friends, but it's not the same. They're all way older than me, and I know that's not that bad, because we all have so much in common (talking about my band geek friends), but it really does not feel right. Everyone always makes these empty promises and they're so sincere about it, and I am so pathetically gullible that I believe them. Every fucking time. Good things happen, and I live off of the natural joy-high for a few days, and I start doubting. I try to just let myself be happy, but I'm afraid I'll only be hurt again. I wish I could just believe people, or even yet, just confront them IRL and tell them how I feel instead of just journalling. I can tell my IRL friends who I don't see anymore, only on MSN how I feel, but it's... unfulfilling. They just tell me to get help, but I can't. I always tell others that, but I can't follow my own advice. I try to talk to people, and it's just awkward. I want to say that I'm better off alone, but am I really? Seeing as how it's caused me so much pain... I am just nothing but contradictions.

I thought all this was over. But the happier I am, the harder I fall. There's just too much for words.

Jenn misses me, I miss her, talking to Deven is awkward, and my mind is saturated with memories of a past I miss and can never have back. Ever. All that's left are the memories. I hold onto them because I have nothing else. So don't be surprised if any positive emotions I have now are fake. Because I can't express my real ones. I try, but I lie. When I say I'm sick, I'm in horrible emotional pain. There's no point in trying to provoke anything else in me, so it's pointless. Just pretend to believe me, because I really am sick, just mind-sick. So very, very sick.

I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it's be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things that I said
If you could see it in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it's the only thing that I have.

- "Pieces" by Sum 41 ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6602425/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6602425/ Sun, 25 Sep 2005 20:12:09 PDT (from teh song)

OMG! I'm a DA subscriber for the week! Yeah it's awesome... i don't think I'll have enough time to fully explore it or anything, but it'll do ^_^

Today, I went to da zoo with my new band/music geek friends Alyssa, Melissa, and Kat! It was so fun. I saw teh monkees and decided I must own a spider monkey in Kat's stories. Yeah, she writes stories with Michael Jackson in them and decided to put me in them lol. And we saw tigers. One kept running through the pond thing and attacking its floaty ball thing. Myehhh Oh, and we went to the gift shop. More magockal crystal jewelry for Kri XD

Katrine spent the weekend over too... At first it was so fun, but then she got kinda annoying and moochy. We went to 7-11 with 20$ and she kept grabbing stuff, and she kepy stealing my keyboard lmao. And her and her girlfriend are starting to annoy me too. Like at the zoo, they were always hanging off each other and nibbling... lol. It was fine before, but they always talk to each other with baby-talk. And more mooching from Kat lol. Other than that it kicked ass. I ate food and stuff. And when I got home, I found some REALLY kawaii zadr from that just make me giggle, and Jenn came online!!! i haven't talked to her since that night she met her modelling guy and really wanted me to come with her. lol sorry - random bit of stupid information. Oh! also last night, I sent a fan-note -- and she replied! i was so happy! i just thought i was some random scary fangirl people tried hard to avoid! the only thing missing from today is talking to Deven - holy shit! he JUST signed in too! XDDDD Creepy coincidenceness... I have also converted Brandi to zadr fangirliness! I was sending her random links to the cutest stuff I could find, and she liked it! i gots her hooked One more, Kai! actually, 2 more. Kat lykes it too XP

and I already can't wait until next weekend! I made plans with Deven to rent a dvd and watch it at my house! Jenn's teasing me and saying "Are you guys actually going to WATCH the movie?" LOL!!! I honestly don't know lol this is going to be my REAL first date. that technical first one didnt count because i didnt really care about the guy and he doesnt care at all about me. lol i didnt even care enough to dump him myself! so glad though! im gonna stop rambling and ranting now...

When I ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6531585/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6531585/ Sat, 17 Sep 2005 19:38:44 PDT . hee hee.

lol yeah, so Calaway Park is awesome. I was getting pizza from this booth thingie and the guy was so flirty! lol. it's always people selling stuff that flirt a lot. the 7-11 guy who was like 18, the guy at the convenience store by my old house, and now this guy. lol it's weird. oh, and that girl that one time but she was only joking around. I think. lol im so giggly and hyper now! i think the darkness is finally over. about fucking time.

oh and Kai, you're going to laugh at me - Katrina has convinced me to join the dance club. and i think they're making me a Michael Jackson fan. dont disown me, i like some of his songs! and Kat told me about the dance tour they go on and it sounds really fun so im joining! they're doing "Thriller" by MJ right now so im going to go join on monday. and hopefully also the yearbook club. yyyep. im gonna be busy this year.

geek!Kri ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6524440/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6524440/ Fri, 16 Sep 2005 22:00:36 PDT
Well I am now his girlfriend! I'm so happy because I've really liked him and missed him since the last day of grade eight when he moved and went to a different school. But he came online and I was so nervous because I've been planning to tell him for so long now! I've been talking to him ever since. I've liked him more than a friend since grade seven and now... well, you know. *giggle* lol. I think this is the end to my horrible karma all my horoscopes and Tarot cards were predicting. ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6522910/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6522910/ Fri, 16 Sep 2005 18:42:17 PDT
I love my new band geek friends because they're so different and unique. But I still luvs you, Kai! lol. And I think most of them are bi, so we have really funny conversations about slash and stuff. I told them all about ZADR and why martinis are awesome. I also explained the honeydew thing... if you want to know about that, I'll gladly tell you if you ask... it's quite funny if you like Star Trek.

AND OMFG!!! Spookayness!!! I found out that Gopher reads and writes fan fiction too and I told her my ff.net pen name and she said she read one of my fics before!!! She said she was just randomly searching and found my ZADR songfic to Ordinary Day by Vanessa Carlton! I freaked out and glomped her and screamed "OH MY GOD SMALL FUCKING WORLD!!" I asked her if she remembered anything and she said no so I was glad. because that sucked. real bad. im glad it was deleted off the site for being a song fic. kinda. mmmyeah...

And what's so great about having these friends is that THEY have more friends just like them that I'll get along great with. some I've already met like Kat's girlfriend. She's really nice and plays clarry too ^_^ OH! and Gopher's mom is really homophobic (stupid disgusting ignorant BITCH) so we're going to tell her mom that I'm her girlfriend! She's hate me sooo much... *evil-ish giggle*. It shall be funnay.

And one last note...

No matter what, I will not ditch my other friends, NO MATTER WHAT!!! If anything, we shall join into one giant supergroup of screamyness and insane abnormalness. I'll luv you all no matter what! Okay bye now! XD

P.S - have you ever noticed how some goths wear ridiculously tight pants? LMFAO!!! ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6281667/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6281667/ Sat, 20 Aug 2005 17:59:46 PDT ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6281175/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6281175/ Sat, 20 Aug 2005 16:55:19 PDT
Some good stuff has happened too, believe it or not. I got a new bed set thing. The comforter and pillowcase is purple satin and i got this cylindrical "eyelash" pillow thing that's lime green. oh, and a purple, lime green, and light blue striped rug. my room almost looks normal! all i need is some furniture other than my bed and that ugly little table thing i made in shop class (that Kai really likes. lmao). and my laptop has been functioning at a satisfactory level. it only freezes when i hide my files now. lol. at least i got some new colorful transparent floppy disks to keep stuff in. Wal-Mart kicks ass. no matter how much i hate to be seen there. it's so red-neckish! lol. holy shit... i'm really sorry if im sounding snobby here... please shoot me if i am. thats not like me at all. i dont realy feel like myself right now... odd.

Ooh! And the sci-fi channel I get (Space) is airing Star Trek from the first episode now! I saw "The Man Trap" on friday. it was good, but really creepy because they ahdnt really gotten Spock's character down and he was freaking out and beating some creature in the form of a woman around the face. so very creepy... there are some episodes im REALLY looking forward to, like "Amok Time". If you're a Trekkie, you can probably guess im a huge Spock fangirl. Fangirlism is so great ^_^. Shna... (UnderGrads fans will probably get that "shna" thing).

Wow... i think this is the longest DA journal entry i've ever done! the ones i do on my laptop are probably longer though... oh shit! im probably really boring you all now... i'll stop soon, i promise

In conclusion... I am going to convince my mom to let me have a Zim Day (Sept. 1) party just like the Probing Day one. So Kai, don't make plans for then! lol. it probably wont be quite as good as Probing Day, becaues of lack of shnax, but it'll be better because we'll most like be able to actually watch Zim this time! myeh. gonna go now... thanks for enduring my OOC ramblings... I LUVS YA ALL! XP ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6041905/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6041905/ Tue, 26 Jul 2005 17:36:10 PDT ) and when i got upstairs there was a bunch of random drunk people in my living room. I walked into the kitchen () and one of them said really politely "Hello, how ya doing?" and I just stopped dead, still half asleep and backed out to say "Fine..." and he said "Rouch night?". So when I went back into the living room to watch the last of Star Trek (which didn't make any sense at all, but had a really good Spock moment) and the guy saud something like "I heard you really liked rotten ronnie's" and I didnt know what the fuck he was talking about until Terry said "she's a vegetarian" and someone else said they meant McDonald's and I told them I hated it. I really have no idea why they were asking me about this.

Then my dad came home ranting about someone he was supposed to meet (probably to sell him drugs) got picked up [by the police] and he woldn't tell me anything. Then everyone went downstairs to do secret stuff they think I dont know about. lol. Then my bf called and we met at Gordy's house (where I am now). They're playing Halo 2 (). I played for about five minutes. I hate that game so much. lol. But everything's good now because im on . ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6017787/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6017787/ Sun, 24 Jul 2005 02:41:23 PDT 's pictures (Watch the World Die) and I noticed how almost everyone in the ZADR community posted. It gave me a wonderul, rare feeling of belonging because I am part of that community (at least I think I am) and it's like having another family besides my actual blood-realtives and friends. Yes, I consider my friends to be family. Kai, Neo, Lee, Astrid, Gordy, Jenn, Jessica, Nina, Tasha, and even Carter because sometimes you can't pick and choose who's in your family.

What I mean to say, is that I love how I've found somewhere to belong, no matter how secret it may be to some (mom, dad, sister. etc.). I just wish I had more of these people to talk to on MSN.... So if you are reading this and have MSN Messenger, please send me a note with your hotmail because I'd love to talk to you! yes, I'm in a rare good mood and am just full of good feelings for everyone! LOL, I know how weird and cheesy this must sound, but it's the best I've felt since like 2 weeks before school ended. ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6017436/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/6017436/ Sun, 24 Jul 2005 01:17:37 PDT
Anyway... lol. I'm going to buy a crappy, used laptop from Larry with Win95 on it just for word processing and stuff for $50! I can finally stop using so much paper and ink! He also said if I need to print anything I can just bring it to work and use his. Hear that, Kai? No more indecipherable writing for RP! WH00T! lol. This is the happiest I've been almost all summer, even though I still have no contact with any of my friends. Kai doesn't even come on MSN anymore... Unless it's just because I'm on at 11PM-6AM+... I'll also be renting a clarinet for the summer! So... HAPPY!!! (There's a Keef clip playing in my head right now. lmao)
Larry's really nice, too. Him and some other guy left for a while and when he came back he randomly gave me a dark chocolate Kit Kat. I was slightly shocked. LOL I didn't even know his name then. Oh, and my boss's dog came in too. He's this tiny little fuzzy thing that just rampaged down the stairs and started barking at the TV.

Work is actually going to get a lot better too. Less manual labour and more taking pictures of nearly every pieve of merchandise in the store and putting it on the website. I finally get to do something more technical than turning on the lights. ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5971586/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5971586/ Mon, 18 Jul 2005 19:53:31 PDT
I've also been stressing about my fiction obsession. I think I get WAY too involved with fictional cahracters. Like crying when Spock died in STII:TWOK and not being able to stop thinking about it. I think it could just be that my reality is so incredibly boring that I have to rely on UNreality. Seriously, I think the only thing keeping me slightly-less-than critically unhappy is Star Trek. I don't even have Zim because my incompetant ass-hole of a dad pawned MY tv and dvd player that my mom got me and my sister for x-mas.

So, on another topic, I have concluded that people simply hate me. All my friends are avoiding me, not taking my calls, etc. I'm beginning to think that Kai wasn't really sick that day and just went home to get away from me ASAP. But it has happened before... Fuck, I don't even know what to think anymore. I am doomed to spend my summer alone and becoming increasingly more anti-social and unaware of reality.

I think my last day of school was foreshadowing to how shitty my summer will be. I thought it would be fun, having the opportunity to do stuff with my friends outside of school, but it turns out that my friends were only forced to hang out with me because it WAS school. And now I relate myself with those people who no one in our "group" really likes but hangs around anyway because everyone's to polite to say anything to their faces. Have I really become one of them, or has it always been like that? It's not a good feeling to suddenly realize that everyone in your life hates you and wants nothing to do with you. No one cares if the farthest I go this summer is to the library, and no one cares if I slowly (or rapidly) develop even more psychological problems. I'll just wait until I go completely insane and maybe none of this will matter to me. And hey, if it does, who cares? I'll just let my emotions fade away completely and become less human. ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5833945/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5833945/ Mon, 04 Jul 2005 00:58:39 PDT .

oh and my hair is finally black! I thought I was going to need 2 bottles, but I only needed less than one, so i have the other bottle for touch-ups. And Jessica really wants to do my hair and make-up tomorrow, because, well, that's what Jess does. But I love how my hair looks and I can't wait to get some bright red in it ^_^

It's very quiet here... No music. Just the sound of random moving upstairs and the whirring of the fan in the computer tower. Oh, and the keyboard. Holy shit I apologize for how incredibly boring this is and hope I'm not decreasing your IQ by too much. Well, nothing more than a slightly-less-than-lethal dose of LSD would...

OH! And now I have a "girl's night" to look forward to with Jessica and Amber. They want to have the facial mask things and they want to put me in a skirt. That made me laugh. Loud. *looks randomly around room* I like green... Whoa... I'm a little insane right now. And it seems ZJ is leaving me alone. Which kinda sucks because talking to him is fun! Maybe my brain just needs all its power in typing and keping my body from shutting down. That would hurt 'cause of the chair I'm sitting in. omfg if this is too insane and pointless, please flame me until I am nothing more than a smoking ruin. Then use my remains to fertilize a tree or something. Just don't let a cat piss in them. Or... something. o_O

I need sleep. And music. I've been listening to Jessica's crap since I've been here. You know, hip hop, rap, R&B, etc. I need my screamy stuff like Disturbed and NIN. I really can;t think of any others, I'm that fucking brian dead

G'night ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5831338/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5831338/ Sun, 03 Jul 2005 18:29:42 PDT
But anyway, remember that hair dye I was talking about? I finally have it in my hair. The plastic bag is all around it. Oh shit, I think it's time to take it off. more later ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5825713/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5825713/ Sun, 03 Jul 2005 00:44:40 PDT
1 glass of Coke
1 large Iced Cap (which is actually kinda small)
2 donuts with sprinkles
1 big Slurpee
That Slurpee cup re-filled with Coke
What was left of my mom's Coke (like - half of a large Wendy's cup)
And probably another donut later.

Some crazy shit going on. My friend, {name censored}, thinks he's a demon.

ZJ:CHANGE THE SONG!!!
K: FINE! Just be semi-quiet, I'm trying to journal here!

And he thinks this because his friends told him that they were and that he is. I just think they're all shitting him. lol. And he also says his friends told him they had to hold him down for like half an hour when he was really mad and he changed into his "demon form". So, do you think he's insane or just really gullible?

ZJ: He gullible.
K: I agree. Thank you. *rolls eyes*

Mehhh... Anyway... I'm also feeling really helpless because all my friends have so many problems and I can never do anything about it! I always just sit on my ass and hear about it. Like when my friend was missing for a few days (she was just at her friend's house doing extacy) and her mom kept talking to me on the phone and crying... And when Kai's bored and lonely at home and I can't hang out with her. Or when she has those nightmares... Them be scary nightmares. Oh, and when my other friend tried to kill herself. I feel so stupid because I could've stopped her way earlier than her mom did, but I just didn't. I didn't have the courage, which is even more stupid for reasons I don't really want to get into.

Some positive things that happened today:

Pink Floyd reunited for Live 8
I went out for dinner
I fixed my headphones
I talked to some awesome people online today
I finally saw Meet the Fockers (and loved it)
I'm looking forward to staying up all night

And that's about it. ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5823492/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5823492/ Sat, 02 Jul 2005 19:08:10 PDT
Kri: I want a moo-latte
Zim Jr.: You just had an Iced Cap!
Kri: I know, but it was gross
ZJ: Can we stop listening to this song?
Kri: Why?
ZJ: It's disturbing. (Closer by NIN)
Kri: Come on, it is not
ZJ: Please?
Kri: Fine. How's this? (Scum of the Earth by Rob Zombie)
ZJ: Great! ^_^
Kri. Good. Now are you going to be a nice little voice?
ZJ: Maybe. *sings along*
Kri: Right...
ZJ: Change the song.
K: I don't want to. I love it and it's almost over anyway. See? It's over.
ZJ: Well I don't like this one either.
K: FINE! What would YOU like to hear?
ZJ: Hmm... Blink 182!
K: FINE. Aliens Exist.
ZJ: No they don't! Who told y- oh, the song.
K: Yes.
ZJ: Sorry. I'm bored. Entertain me. And don't let Jenn insult us like that!
K: Screw you.
ZJ: SAY THAT TO MY FACE!
K: You... don't have a face...
ZJ: Oh yeah... Ha! You'll never get rid of me!
K: I don't want to. I luv you! ^_^
ZJ: Yay!
K: *gasp!* Jenn wants us to see a doctor!
ZJ: *shock! Drama!* No way!
K: Uh huh!
ZJ: Nuh uh!
K: It's okay, I told her we're friends. Only I said it like "frieeends"
ZJ: I know
K: Then why are we having this conversation?
ZJ: Nothing else to converse about.
K: 'Kay. Wanna go watch the movie now?
ZJ: I guess
~

Okay, that got alittle out of hand... Blame the caffeine and sugar! Hi, Jessica! ^_^ ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5822133/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5822133/ Sat, 02 Jul 2005 15:53:26 PDT
Oooh! I watched Star Trek: Tthe Next Generation last night too! The episode was called "Q Who" and it had Q in it (obviously) which is the whole reason I started watching Star Trek, because Q is played by John deLancie, who plays Agent Darkbooty on Zim. (Listening to Awaken by Disturbed). It was a bitchin' episode too! It was when they first "meet" the Borg. When Data and some others were exploring the Borg vessel (or "wessel" LMFAO, I watched Futurama last night too, the ep "Where No Fan Has Gone Before" which ahd the original Star Trek cast) and Data (my favorite on TNG) went into one of the Borg compartment thingies and Zim Jr. (the voice in my head) was screaming stuff like "No, Data, get out! Get out, it's not safe! GET THE FUCK OUT!!!" LOL! Then he got off and my athsma stopped suffocating me. Yes, I'm insane and obsessive. And that is now officially my favorite episode of Futurama. Leonard Nemoy was crying! lol. The funniest pars was probably when Fry took Leonard off the head museum shelf and Johnathan Frakes (Riker from Star Trek TNG) jumped into his spot and said something like "Woo hoo! Front row!" (Listening to Down With the Sickness by Disturbed)
Oh, and if anyone else has seen that episode, did anyone else get the joke when Leonard Nemoy is talking to William Shatner before leaving Earth, and Shatner says something to Nemoy like "I'd hug you, but you don't have a body and we're both men". That was a little stab at how Star Trek shows all kinds of diversity, but no gay couples, no matter how many letters the Gaylaxians send. Either that, or it was a joke about how Captain Kirk falls in love with a woman every episode. Which reminds me of how him and Leela were making out on that cliff and I was thinking "LMFAO! It just isn't Star Trek without a Kirk love scene!" and when he whispered "I love you so much" I laughed too because he falls in love WAY too easily. Holy shit, I'm really rambling here... (Listening to Turning Japanese by Incubus - Thank you, Kippixin!)
I don't think I have anymore rants for now, but when I do, you'll hear about it. Lol! And as a closer remark, I'm telling you all again to go to [link] and sign the petition! ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5821262/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5821262/ Sat, 02 Jul 2005 13:56:54 PDT [link] and sign the G8 petition to make poverty history! They don't want your money, they want your name! I've already posted this on the BBRP Babble, and the IZFAS forums, but I want lots of people to sign. Everyone can change the world. I think you can also make donations, and you can join the gallery by posting your picture along with your first and last name, and a description. I couldn't do it because it wasn't the right file type though
Also watch Live 8 live on TV, they have tons of great bands. I'm waiting for Pink Floyd, myself

Some other crap that's very unimportant compared to the above paragaph... I finally got my hair dye! I couldn't find any purple, but I for some permanent black stuff. I just can't get off my ass to do it. I'ma lso kinda scared because there are a little too many warnings on the box for my comfort. All this stuff about allergic reactions and breathing problems (which I already have). I also have chlorine in my hair, so if that isn't washed out, I could have some pretty interesting colors. ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5808026/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5808026/ Fri, 01 Jul 2005 02:28:18 PDT ) and my sister's Jesse McCartney CD, bathing suit, and some other crap, then - MORE MOO-LATTES!!! That was like - six hours ago and I'm only starting to feel them now! I AM SO FUCKING WIRED!!! I've been listening to heavy Gothic metal AS LOUD AS I FUCKIN WANT for the entire time. Marilyn Manson, Mindless Self Indulgence, Killswitch Engage, Disturbed, Slipknot, Linkin Park, Incubus (I THINK I'M TURNING JAPANESE, I THINK I'M TURNING JAPANESE I REALLY THINK SO!!!), and holy 90's flashback, Batman - BLUE BY EIFFEL 65!!! Oh and to just make it all so much more delicious - I'm Too Sexy For My Shirt by Right Said Fred!!!

And something you should all know: WEB CAMS ARE THE SHIT! Me and mah buddeh Jessica both have web cams tonight and it was quite interesting. But it also filled me with a terrible rage because she showed the the huge fuckin bruises her dad gave her. She could even hear my music it's so fuckin loud. Even though people are sleeping and we're in an apartment building which I'm not sure is sound-proof or not. Oh well, everyone's drunk anyway. Except me, my sister, and my cousin. Everyone's head banging. LOL. Holy shit, listen to me! I'm using the caps lock button so much I'm reminding myself of that Danny guy from the IZFAS! NYAHHH!!!

Voice in my head whom I have names Zim Jr.: Kri, take your finger OFF THE CAPS LOCK BUTTON!
Kri: HAHAHAHAHAHAA!! NEVER!!!!!!!
Zim Jr.: Yes!
Kri: NO!!! YOU ARE NOTHING MORE THAN A CAFFEINE INDUCED HALLUCINATION! WHO THE FUCK SPIKED THE MOO-LATTE!!!
Zim Jr.: I thought that last one tasted funny...
Kri: Sweet angry Jesus. It was... TRENT REZNOR!!!
Zim Jr.: No...
Kri [singing]: I WANNA FUCK YOU LIKE AN ANIMAL!!!
Zim Jr.: Um... How 'bout NO ya crazy Dutch bastard!
Kri: I do not be Dutch! I be... IRKEN!!!
Zim Jr.: Y-
Kri: TRENT REZNOR IS SHMEXAY!!!
Zim Jr.: I agree, but you have to calm down.
Kri: Why?
Zim Jr.: I really don't know.
Kri: That 15th floor balcony is tempting.
Zim Jr.: Yes, it is, but you must resist. Suicide is not the answer.
Kri: Who the fuck said anything about suicide? I was tlaking about water balloons.
Zim Jr.: Oh. Go on then.
Kri: I don't wanna.
Zim Jr.: *sigh*


Holy fuck, people, I don't know where that came from AT ALL. BLAME CANADA! No, blame the caffeine. DELICIOUS CAFFEINE!!!!!!! *Zim Jr. sneaks up behind Kri with strait jacket*
Kri: *gasp* IT HAS BUCKLES! ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5797055/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5797055/ Thu, 30 Jun 2005 01:21:47 PDT . Yes, I had a horrible day, but that's no excuse for flaming my own friends. I'm glad I was able to rant for a while, but I'm okay now, until next bad day. Now, onto some happy stuff!

I'm finally getting the fuck out of my dad's house! I've had to live there since winter because my mom's an alcoholic and went to this re-hab thing for a month, but anyway, I finally get to move back in with her! My dad wasn't going to let us (me and my little sister) go back though because he doesn't think my mom's ready. He was even going to call child welfare and have them delay things. So I got really pissed off and completely spazzed on him. I told him I was old enough to make my own decisions (he even said that himself) and that I want to go back. He refuses to believe how shitty it is living over there, though.
About an hour after that, he went out for a bit and came back and said that I was right and we could go back if we felt that strongly about it. He was really angry for the rest of the night, what with the slamming of the (empty) cupboard doors, and almost smashing a mug when he put it down too hard, etc, etc.
I'm at my mom's house now, I took the bus right after I got home from that really shitty day, and I've been happy on DA ever since. We're also looking at houses to rent and move into ASAP. With three bedrooms! My own room!!! Squee! I finally get some privacy and ALL FOUR WALLS to cover in Zimness. Mmm... Zimness...
I'm so very, very tired... But also looking forward to tomorrow! (technically, later today 'cause it's 2:10 AM) because I might be getting my purple hair dye, I'm going out for dinner to celebrate the end of the skool year, I'm getting money for my report card, (no matter how low some of the marks were) AND I'm spending the night at my uncle's house where my cousin is staying! They got a spiffy new computer and I get to burn CDs. Whoo... Mood swing!
Oh, and a little note about my songfics. Yeah... I was in the process of typing one up but then and I started this really insane RP with her characters named after eating utensils and my character, Kri. It involved donuts, and explaining why SsTk is scary when hungry.

So, in closing, I'm very sorry if I may have started a fight with you, Kai! I luv you and please don't be mad at Kri! ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5792343/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5792343/ Thu, 30 Jun 2005 00:59:02 PDT
THEN after the ceremony I went to my homeroom to get my report card and this is what my band teacher's comment was: "Needs to put more effort into learning how to play an instrument. Have a good summer!" If he knew what my band marks were like in grades 7 and 8, he wouldn't be such a moron. I didn't do well this year because he forced everyone to play guitar. I got 100% the last two years because I chose clarinet. I took the extra effort to learn clarinet because my band teacher then was a dumb ass too! He was teaching us ONE NOTE A DAY! I was learning six or seven! My mark went down in band this year because I started hating the teacher SO MUCH. I'm glad I never have to see his ugly self-righteous snirk ever again or hear his hideous singing voice. He's a horrible singer and thinks he's good because he "teaches" us.

And then after all that, I met up with my friends again in the hallway. Again, being ignored. They started talking about going to Neo's house. So everyone went off to Neo's and I went the opposite direction to my hell-hole. I'd tell you why I call it a hell-hole, but that's a whole other rant.

So in conclusion, I am pissed off. I feel like I don't have any friends right now because no one cares. ]]> ~Invader-Kri http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5727479/ http://Invader-Kri.deviantart.com/journal/5727479/ Wed, 22 Jun 2005 20:47:05 PDT
If people know I exist, they're probably wondering why I don't have any submissions. Reason 1: I can't draw, and if I could, I don't have a scanner or any fancy paint programs. Reason 2: Lethargy. I have some prose to add but every time I go to type it into here I either get distracted or can't figure out how. I also don't know how to add friends, watch users, or join fan clubs. Yes, Kri is stupid and should've learned all this BEFORE joining... I apologize to all who hate lurkers like Kri.

What I am eventually going to submit: I have one Invader Zim song fic coming to The Game by Disturbed and one that could be called a song fic because it was originally written to the lyrics of Passive by A Perfect Circle, but they were taken out because I think it worked better. Well... Coming soon! See you then! ]]> ~Invader-Kri