http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:JadedOptimist&section=today deviantART RSS for by:JadedOptimist en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sun, 06 Dec 2009 17:12:32 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/11914329/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/11914329/ Wed, 21 Feb 2007 20:48:22 PST right now my heart is in my photography. is the window to me right now.

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/9689023/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/9689023/ Fri, 11 Aug 2006 09:54:57 PDT I am excited to have so many page views.
did anybody get a screenshot? ]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/9199642/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/9199642/ Tue, 27 Jun 2006 12:40:56 PDT I'd like to propose that all of my watcher's go and watch my photography account.

pretty please? ]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/8904813/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/8904813/ Sun, 28 May 2006 18:47:31 PDT my internet is down all kinds of crazy.
plus, it's hectic with grauation and such.
oh, and I'm uninspired. ]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/7999870/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/7999870/ Sat, 25 Feb 2006 14:00:28 PST and I posted waaay too many pictures on
but hey, until I start writing or take up some sort of visual art, that's all my output.
I kind of like it like that.

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/7858665/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/7858665/ Fri, 10 Feb 2006 18:18:52 PST anybody want to make me a new avatar in exchange for a personalized love poem? (that would require you to tell me about the person I'm writing about.) please? ]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/7348376/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/7348376/ Sun, 18 Dec 2005 18:48:54 PST

that lovely little star is on my ankle.
I just felt like sharing it with all of you.
happy holidays!
oh, and there are no bigger pictures. I don't want anyone seeing the scar directly below it.

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]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/7058124/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/7058124/ Tue, 15 Nov 2005 19:26:37 PST that some of you might like. if you want me to post more, let me know.

oh yeah, and there is more art coming... eventually



ps: give a hug 'cause he's rad.

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/6698086/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/6698086/ Wed, 26 Oct 2005 16:56:56 PDT I'll be 17.
that's old enough to give blood.
I fully intend to.
you should too.
in lieu of a birthday present, I am asking all my friends to give blood if they are eligable.
please?
it means a lot to me.
my stepdad went through five bags of blood the day he died.
I want to make sure that anybody who needs blood can have.
consider it my way of being a mature, caring, loving young adult.
I want to make a difference.
I want to save lives.
if you do too, I'll love you even more than I already do.
just let me know and I'll give you hugs.



[edit: so far I've got 6 pints. my goal is 42. anybody who wants to give, please do. after the hurricane, we need it even more.]

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]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/6539781/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/6539781/ Sun, 18 Sep 2005 18:10:33 PDT yay!
my phone now rings to "bananaphone"!
life is complete

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/6198592/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/6198592/ Thu, 11 Aug 2005 13:53:04 PDT , , and , who talk to me almost daily), but I'm finally taking an art class at school.
expect me to hate my scanner a lot more than I do currently.
oh, by the way, expect me to be uploading traditional art stuffs. mostly sketchbook doodles, but tradional nonetheless.

today we had to make a poster in marine and atmospheric sciences. one of my friends said, and I quote, "you draw it. you're the artist." when I refused to, he started with "artist for sale: twenty-five cents or a stick of gum." it was funny.

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/6089916/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/6089916/ Sun, 31 Jul 2005 14:33:59 PDT Byrnard told me to), so I figure I'll just ask you here:

for those of you that don't know about taking back deviantART, please read this [link]

I want to take pictures of all my friends on DA, my personal community if you will, and make a star-filled sky out of your faces. please, please, pretty please with sugar on top, I'm begging you... please let me use yr pictures. the best way to show community spirit, at least in my opinion, is to show that I've found a niche in the community and have all my friends around me.

°jark and °matteo founded this website as a community and that is what it has been to me. I chose to get a subscription to support the site (although the 'extrasupaspecial mode', to quote ~JoeFrench, didn't hurt). all I want to do is preserve the community spirit.

I joined this site because ~XNephilimX/~DejectedEvermore suggested I come here so I could make friends and get constructive criticism. since I joined, my talent has actually appeared. (to anybody who remembers my first photo manipulations, I apologize and beg you to forget them.)

this is my home. when I fought with someone and I asked him to leave the site, he said that it was his home too. and I'm sure if I asked you, I'd get the same answer. 'home is where the heart is' and all I'm asking is for a chance to try to show the admins that our hearts are in the right place. maybe, just maybe, theirs can be too.

I know that a) I never personally knew °jark and b) he's gone so it's a little late to try to, but I'd like to make sure that anybody who is a member because they love the community knows that the community loves them back. no, I don't have that power by myself. but if we all have a general outpouring of community spirit, we can make the website all sunshiny for as long as it takes to show that in our hearts, a little yellow alien dances and encourages us to support one another.

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go look at my fireworks. please?

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a friend of mine had gotten some pictures developed and threw the negatives away. I fished them out of the (empty) trashcan and decided to put them to good use. I chose my favorite negatives from the two rolls of film, including a snazzy picture of myself acting like a five year old. I laid out the negatives on a sheet of contact paper and put around them the lyrics to "time of your life" by green day (on sky blue construction paper). because the contact paper and negatives are see-through, when you hold it up to the light, you can actually see the pictures in the negatives.

if I could have scanned that and submitted it, I would have reached a new level of cool: actually being cool.

if there's enough demand to see it (and I remember to borrow it back), I'll submit it.

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/5670202/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/5670202/ Thu, 16 Jun 2005 19:34:29 PDT
eventually I'll take pictures of the tile coasters I'm making.

and someday I'll scan my faerie mixed media piece.

someone please inpire me. and pass the tissues.

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time
fame
fall

September 20th
An artist can be defined as somebody talented enough to capture beauty and preserve it (on a 24” by 12” canvas) for other people to see.

September 30th
There is no line between genius and insanity. It is merely perception and intention. What you present to the world is what you see. Perhaps you aren’t insane, but the world is.

January 10th
Another day and the time flies by as silence fills the lonesome hours. A momentary reprieve, brief and exhausting, separates the seconds ticking by on the clock. “Just another day” the bells seem to declare as we shuffle slowly towards more gaps in conversation. Only a feast of words and snacks allows us to suspend the disbelief for just a little while and be kids for one more moment. Time flies by and we grow up, silent and lost in the swift passage.

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]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/5307618/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/5307618/ Mon, 09 May 2005 02:28:29 PDT Let's get going once again
For once in your life just let go
I'm getting sick of everything
Tired of what the next day brings
What I need is for you to follow my lead

The sun is shinning bright outside
I think I'll go for a ride
I plan not to ever return
Let's run away from here for good
Forget this dusty neighborhood
The open road is calling and begging for us

Go roll down the window
Go crank up that radio
Lets drive until we hit the sky
It's not about where we will go
Let's start living life before we die

If you want you can stay
But you'll regret the day
That you didn't follow your dreams
Imagine the wind in your hair
Blowing away all of your cares
So take my hand let's plan never to look back.

The sun is shinning bright outside
I think I'll go for a ride
I plan not to ever return
Let's run away from here for good
Forget this dusty neighborhood
The open road is calling and begging for us

Go roll down the window
Go crank up that radio
Let's drive until we hit the sky
It's not about where we will go
Let's start living life before we die

True, it's all in my dreams
Yeah
You are all in my dreams
Yeah

What I need is a long holiday
What I need is to get away...
From here for good tonight
Let's fly away tonight

On this bright spring morning
Send our spirits soaring
Now is the time

The sun is shinning bright outside
I think I'll go for a ride
I plan not to ever return
Let's run away from here for good
Forget this dusty neighborhood
The open road is calling and begging for us

Go roll down the window
Go crank up that radio
Let's drive until we hit the sky
It's not about where we will go
Let's start living life before we die



have you ever been torn because you want someone to follow their dreams but you also, selfishly, want them to stay? his dreams down follow the same path that mine do, but I wish he didn't have to decide between them and the people he loves here.

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/5293376/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/5293376/ Sat, 07 May 2005 12:25:22 PDT
basically, Alan and I got all dressed up, didn't dance to the crappy music, tried swing dancing to booty music (that was funny!), and looked really pretty slow dancing to "Whole New World". they went a little too far with the Arabian Nights theme. I felt like a little princess, right down to trying to lose my glass slippers.

I posted a few pictures on my photography account in case anybody wants to see them.

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/5203866/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/5203866/ Wed, 27 Apr 2005 12:59:56 PDT
ps: I love you guys (and gals).

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]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4879133/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4879133/ Tue, 22 Mar 2005 06:44:01 PST
my stepdad just died.

a part of me just died.

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the other artist who inspired me in my dream is none other than *misericordia (Aisha). her beautiful use of color in the Seven Deadly Sins series has gotten to me. in my dream, I was making a Death of Color series and I wanted to use her as the model for orange. (in case you're wondering: orange would melt like a crayon.)

if I had a camera and some willing models, I would love to make this possibility into something awesome. in the mean time, I dream in color about beautiful artwork.

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4805404/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4805404/ Sun, 13 Mar 2005 19:51:10 PST "So here's a health to the company, and one to my lass.
Let us drink and be merry all out of one glass.
Let us drink and be merry all grief to refrain.
For we may and might never all meet here again."

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4771584/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4771584/ Wed, 09 Mar 2005 17:57:24 PST
in the mean time, does anybody ahve any ideas for new projects?

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4757710/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4757710/ Tue, 08 Mar 2005 06:04:48 PST it doesn't suck!

anyway, Tiger Army's coming to Florida again (thanks Rob!), so I need someone who wants to go with me. on April 14th, a lovely Thursday night, they are playing at the House of Blues in Orlando. somehow, I will get there because I like Tiger Army a lot. I will even miss school the next day for the musical greatness. anybody care to join me?

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4662764/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4662764/ Thu, 24 Feb 2005 13:38:01 PST
I'm still logging into DA several times a day and looking at your artwork, commenting on it, and sometimes faving it too. in addition, I'm actually working on a deviation to be posted in the near future. just thought I'd share...

by the way, Constantine was an awesome movie.

discuss away.

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4514077/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4514077/ Thu, 10 Feb 2005 17:36:25 PST
mayhaps this week I'll get married more.

between faire and school, I have had no time to be creative and inspired and write pretty things. all I've been doing is singing about naked nobles.

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]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4459934/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4459934/ Mon, 31 Jan 2005 07:33:27 PST [link] I feel like I'm floating on a cloud.

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4360784/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4360784/ Wed, 19 Jan 2005 14:01:31 PST sweep it all under the rug and pretend that nothing ever happened. isn't that your motto? is that all you can think of?we're standing in the aftermath of a huge explosion. spontaneous combustion never looked so good compared to the rubble of broken hearts we're standing in.


oneword.com***one minute

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]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4288694/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4288694/ Mon, 10 Jan 2005 18:24:42 PST Another sleepless night turns color black and white
With all the things I've said
There is just regret, repeating in my head

Hands into a fist, static in my head
Now I'm sitting face to face with loneliness
What did I expect?
Did I see forever in you?

I never wanted it to hurt more than it should
I hope you're satisfied I never could

Time to close my eyes, forget about this mess
And try to fix this tragic loss of innocence
But how could I forget the things I have inside,
When everything is dead?

I never wanted it to hurt more than it should
I hope your satisfied, I never could

Can't you see, you left me here on my own
Give me one good reason why I should let go
With my hands around your neck,
Who will stop me now?"

-Finch



this is one of those times where the lyrics say it all.
this is also one of those times when I realize how stupid I was/still am.

have you ever held happiness in the palm of your hand, only to have it slip away?
that's all that I can dwell on. and perhaps it's for the best to punish myself for being so stupid, gawky, and awkward. maybe next time I can get things right.

in the mean time, I'd settle for being able to write. or draw. or make sculptures out of my food.

PS: entry title "copied" from JTHM. (I wanted to post the picture but I'm having technical difficulties.)

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4265415/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4265415/ Fri, 07 Jan 2005 21:36:49 PST
Wicked was amazing.
RENT is still holy to me.
Jekyll and Hyde blows my mind.
I went to Ellen's Stardust Diner 3 times to see/hear the singing waitstaff. and there was a cute one who sang to me.

NYC was 40 degrees colder than home.

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4223615/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4223615/ Tue, 04 Jan 2005 20:44:04 PST er...make that two days.
scratch that... one day more.

as I write this last update to this journal entry, it's almost midnight, so it counts as no more days. I'm gonna miss you, but I'll be back soon. with pictures. of me. of New York City. of the awesome people at the Jeckyll and Hyde Club.

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4207218/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4207218/ Fri, 31 Dec 2004 22:22:20 PST "so this is the new year? I don't feel any different."
-Death Cab For Cutie

honestly, it doesn't feel like a new year to me. I wanted to have a great party with all my friends. "everybody put your best suit or dress on. let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once. lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn, as thirty dialogues bleed into one." unfortunately, I didn't get that or my midnight kiss.

in other news: 5 more days until I leave for New York.

lastly, I must say that although I want *justinaerni for Christmas, I really really really want ~JoeFrench for every day.

[edit: "New Year's Eve was as boring as heaven. I watched flies fuck on channel 11. There was no one to kiss, there was nothing to drink except some old rotten milk someone left in the sink."
-Alkaline Trio]

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4193395/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4193395/ Thu, 30 Dec 2004 12:52:30 PST
I have a new poem to post, plus I did some actual "artwork" (I use that term loosely) with crayon.

um... who wants to give me *justinaerni as a late holiday present?

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4127477/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4127477/ Wed, 22 Dec 2004 12:14:38 PST
I will be away from my computer (the beloved, unnamed terror that is is on occasion) for a little over a week. I expect to come home to between 300 and 500 messages. that's because I love all of you, you seem to like me ok, and we talk waaay too much.

so, Happy Winter Break!

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4116271/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4116271/ Tue, 21 Dec 2004 02:15:29 PST amethyst-rain for writing such an awesome poem. "Perfect Present" [link] was apparently inspired by my "all I want for the holidays is..." journal entry [link]

I'm very slow at getting around to buying people presents. mostly because I don't really feel all holiday-like. heck, I can't even think of what to write in the card for Miranda and all she wants is a card and a guitar pick.

I want to go to Rocky Horror on Christmas and bring mistletoe, but that's inviting trouble.

I still insist that all I want for Christmas is someone to love me.

in the mean time, it wouldn't hurt to get everybody on my list (wow: a whole 6 people as of now) something to show I care.

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4104421/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4104421/ Sun, 19 Dec 2004 16:47:27 PST now I get to write the script and codirect our third quarter film project. it's going to be a takeoff on the Breakfast Club and is intended to be cheezy and 80s-like. that means 80s music, crazy clothing for me, and a chance to run around the halls in almost no clothing. (maybe not the last one...)
I'm turning out to be like Mark, I suppose. well, except for knowing what I'm doing. but I can make it up as I go along.

in other news, I finally saw Donnie Darko. Justin, I think I'm afraid of bunnies now. but it's ok, because the movie was awesome. and those bonus features... the deleted scenes were amazing. (at least, those I watched before going to bed.)

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4075857/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/4075857/ Wed, 15 Dec 2004 18:50:35 PST
seeing as that is most likely an impossibility... if anybody feels the urge to buy me a print off my wish list, that's almost as good. I mean, it is showing love for the artists that I'm chosing to obsess over (most of whom are superbly kind to me).

if anybody wants to leave a comment telling me what they want for the holidays, I'd be happy to hear it. I just doubt I'll be getting anything for anyone.

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3998742/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3998742/ Sun, 05 Dec 2004 21:24:31 PST
the piercer was very nice. he told me what he was going to do before he did it. although I didn't actually see anything, my aunt filled me in on what I missed. he started by getting fresh, clean, sanitary needles. he put one through the top hole and another through the bottom. then, he slid in the earing and went to screw the balls on. he dropped one(!), so he had to take out a fresh one. it only bled a little (but just enough that Kevin would have freaked out) and he cleaned it for me. then, he gave me some witch hazel to reduce the swelling. I also took some Aleve and bought some saline solution to clean it with. the saline did sting at first, but it's the sting of cleanliness.

I am so in love. it's almost vertical, but that's better in the long run. it won't get stuck in my hair or headphones (as easily).

my cameraphone is being a jerk or else I'd post a crappy quality photo of it.

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]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3899920/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3899920/ Tue, 23 Nov 2004 09:57:04 PST I got sent home with a 102F fever. if anybody wants to make me a get well card, I'd love one. *nudge nudge* um... I love you all, especially a certain depressionism master who rocks my socks off.

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3893902/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3893902/ Mon, 22 Nov 2004 14:45:40 PST
I've pretty much accepted that this is the end. I can't even close this entry with a poem. I may even stop writing poetry.

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3835656/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3835656/ Sun, 14 Nov 2004 18:10:37 PST
this year, I was afriad that I wasn't going to make it. I honestly did cruddy at my audition. however, I made it. today was our first rehersal. during introductions, I stood up with my friend, Mary. she's the cereal to my Lucky Charms marshmallows. it was great fun.

they were assigning some scripted parts. our new director decided to cast Mary and I as "petty nobles" and make us sisters. I still get to get married off and have lots of fun, but now I have to bow to less people.

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3808356/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3808356/ Thu, 11 Nov 2004 09:29:15 PST
mostly, this entry is to get rid of the old one. I'm tired of seeing its ickyness.

PS: Mark, you rock my socks.

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3721980/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3721980/ Mon, 01 Nov 2004 05:51:22 PST
Ryan and I went as Jack and Sally. I wish I had a picture. it was one of those adorable moments that makes me want to gag...

for a concert that was listed under the heading of "emo," it was awfully violent. people kept flying out of the mosh pit into me.

during the Fall Out Boy set, we kind of fought our way to the front. I got knocked to the ground at least three times, and there were a lot of other times when I didn't hit the ground but I still hurt.

some guy was crowdsurfing and fell on top of me. I hit the ground and my ankle went one way, my back went another, and the rest of my body went where it was supposed to. I ended up watching most of Fall Out Boy's set from the back, and we left before Taking Back Sunday because I was crying.

I didn't even get to go trick-or-treating. it's ok though because I'm going to raid my brother's candy bucket.

]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3683971/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3683971/ Wed, 27 Oct 2004 02:41:39 PDT
in addition, I have a project due next Thursday in one of my classes. that's not going too well. first, I saved it to the hard drive... which gets erased every time you log off. then, when I was redoing itm the power fluctuated and I lost all my work. now, for attempt three.

I also have a lot of work for my other classes. hence the whole only signing on DA early in the morning, late at night, or during school. *sigh* this is insane.

if anybody knows how to lengthen the day without making me any more tired than I already am (5am to 10 pm is my life), please share your wonderful secret. thank you.


PS: I accidentally gave away the piece I needed to scan for all of you.

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what else would explain giving away an original visual poetry project without scanning it?

honestly though, there's something very wrong here and it scares me a little because I'm way too hazy and detached.

save me?

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my boyfriend's band (One Night Stand) played and I posted some of their photography on my photography account. ]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3542978/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3542978/ Fri, 08 Oct 2004 14:23:24 PDT
it's my birthday on Sunday. I'm turning 16. although I really don't expect floods of birthday greetings and such, I still feel I have to let everybody know.

and I do expect birthday hugs from Beth, Miranda, and maybe Morgan. because I love them sooo much. ]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3512652/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3512652/ Mon, 04 Oct 2004 16:44:11 PDT
in other news, I read "A Density of Souls" yesterday and "Fight Club" today. wow...

so, who wants to sit up all night and help me memorize? ]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3462766/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3462766/ Tue, 28 Sep 2004 01:19:07 PDT now playing: "I Hate Everything About You"//Three Day's Grace
now watching: my computer screen. (previously, it was my eyelids.)
now reading: "the Devil in the White City"

I am so exhausted that it's not even funny. I came home yesterday from school at about 6. I hadn't even done that much in school or at the homecoming float meeting and I just crawled into bed and didn't get out until about 15 minutes ago. mayhaps I am overworking myself. but it's hard to do less than I do now because I usually do the minimum I can to have a 4.0 GPA. (yay for 4.2, because I'm not failing AP American History!)

in other news, I have not made anything in a while. it's not that I'm lacking inspiration. I'm just lacking tangibility. and I don't know what that means to you, but it certainly spells trouble for me. because now, I'm going dot paint my arms and say I have the "chicken spots" or do something equally stupid.

let me sum it up by saying: sleep deprevation lead to exhaustion. exhaustion + inability to create = me being an idiot. and I'm sorry to those of you who may actually value what I say. but nothing wise is going to be said for a while. ]]> ~JadedOptimist http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3422428/ http://JadedOptimist.deviantart.com/journal/3422428/ Wed, 22 Sep 2004 15:19:14 PDT and you may all ignore it if you'd like.

in other news, I moved a lot of stuff to scraps. but I didn't delete anything (yet...), so there is proof that I had less talent when I started than I do now.

finally, I must offer a gigantic "thank you" to , , , , , and for putting up with me driving them insane while I tried to get all of this done. ]]> ~JadedOptimist