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tell me where are you when I smile. are you thinking the same thing about how, I wish where together cuase things always seem taht much better luaghs sound that much sweeter you are my totters teeter.

Carefree never seemed so good. Smiles never came so easy. I know that there is no out there who cares about how I feel discomfort when folks try an please me.I hate to be the burden but you I've never been one and that why on my darkest night you'l always be my mornings first ray of sun.

Theres no way for me to explain how much you changed me, brought me back from the brink of my own self endulgent stupidity. ya gave me back my smile when I thought it was lost made me feel whole again no matter what the cost for this I always thank you even though you say there's no need. but you gave me back stability brought me up off of my knees, payed attention to my needs and I'll never have the right word to tell you what this means.

Carefree never seemed so good. Smiles never came so easy. I know that there is no out there who cares about how I'm feelin. discomfort when folks try an please me.I hate to be the burden: but to you I've never been one and that why on my darkest night you'l always be my mornings first ray of sun.



This one is dedicated to all ya'll that I love. Just remeber you are always gonna be my inspiration there are few unconditional truths we all live we all die and we all love......you folks are my reason to live for whom I'd die. and most importantly who I love my friends my family and tabby love you all and hope this one helps brighten your day.......

]]> ~Jadededge http://Jadededge.deviantart.com/journal/8957381/ http://Jadededge.deviantart.com/journal/8957381/ Sat, 03 Jun 2006 08:17:09 PDT
I know that not all things are meant for all people and that somethings will somehow help some people but nothing is the inevitability for no one except for those who know no more than what they think. Enclosed in the captions of there own thought. But in me is the Thundering silence of uncertainty and insecurity not realizing that I am the keeper of my prisons key I am the abusive partner in my relationship with me but for some reason I can't just be.....

happy.....

ness.......

fades.

From..

Me.. ]]> ~Jadededge http://Jadededge.deviantart.com/journal/8676257/ http://Jadededge.deviantart.com/journal/8676257/ Thu, 04 May 2006 20:25:05 PDT
The realization of how people view me saddens me truly cause they believed all the show just as it where a movie. I thought to my self that they knew me much better. That they could see inside the small child wounded but cleaver. The child who has been abused and abandoned used and conflicted. the child that once was considered so gifted, until around him came those who's intentions where twisted. that his identity was lost in the mixes, of tears, and blood, of sorrow, and hurt. That in him some one some where could find worth. but alas poor child no one does care your a thief in the night and only your lie's are still there.

I wish for a second to delve into the depth of the archives of life so to make witness to you all. All of my strife to make some one notice what it is that I've seen. Been torn from emotion and been raped physically. Time and time given only to find himself left wanting. With no hope to escape his past that is so haunting. I gave what I could I tried and I fought then your words cut right through me straight to my heart I know now that I am truly unworthy that there will be no praises for I am undeserving. So my notice to you shall this be that never again should you worry for me. Like the thief that I am into the night I shall steal until my heart again I reach. Until I re-learn how to feel. ]]> ~Jadededge