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]]> ~Jalima oh hell http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/17954832/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/17954832/ Mon, 21 Apr 2008 07:08:45 PDT
today I logged in to find inspirations for an upcoming photoshoot and I was shocked and disgusted. TITTIES, ASSES and VAGINAS all over the place! cheap looking barbie dolls. anas. whatthefuck! i kinda accepted that the manga section is not worth looking for me because I'm not attracted by girls drawn like cows with uber-titties. I just didn't realize this happend to the photography section so soon.

I'm absolutely disgusted by this whole place.

and don't bother to say something like "then go and leave." because I'm already deciding about that.

]]> ~Jalima Rot // Red // Rouge http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/15340747/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/15340747/ Sat, 03 Nov 2007 04:10:52 PDT

~Jalima jumpstart http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/14615144/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/14615144/ Thu, 13 Sep 2007 09:59:41 PDT Ladies and Gentleman
Nerds and Geeks
Pretender and Understander

I'm glad to announce a new fresh start concerning my life and most important my photography. For the next 6 months I'm concentrating only on developing skills, understanding, empathy, ideas...anything as long as it means a development in a matter of photography.

Yet I'm sure that I will keep on neglecting deviantArt in a certain way. Something is bothering me here, can't really put my finger on it. But we will see. Right now I will update and show some shots from my trip through Europe plus the developing series of "Menschen".

Things happen.

Oh. And I looked up my statistics today for my gallery and I was proud that the piece I like most has also been most appealing for the audience.

Favourites: 62. A number that made me smile. Big time.

And because I lost track of all the favs and watches I send the biggest Thank you!!! out to all those who support me in one way or the other. I have to delete the so far received favs and watches because I know myself and that I won't be able to get back to you. I just need a fresh start here.

Irina

]]> ~Jalima extraordinary & subscription http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/13394765/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/13394765/ Mon, 18 Jun 2007 13:52:19 PDT I'm doing extraordinary good!
After being finally done with school forever I'm glad to announce that life is now going to be awesome. Not that it hasn't been lovely before. But we're talking about awesome right now. Do read this out loud : Awesome!

I just graduated with an superhyperfantastic Abitur (= German university entrance qualification).
I'm going to move out in Oct or Nov this year and move in with my boyfriend - which is in my eyes extremely cool.
I'm going to study Media & Communication at the University from Oct 07 to Oct 08 and then hopefully switch to study Visual Communication and Design including Photography, Film and Design.
I'll be on InterRail from August to September and see Italy, France, Vienna and you-don't-know-what-else.

let's face it

I'm so lucky
lucky lucky lucky

and photography things are going well too. got commissioned to do the supporting photoshoot of anna yinas epk and got PAID for it. HA. Maybe I'll even get published this year, HA!

p.s. : did anyone buy me a subscription?
I thought it would only last until july and now it says Nov 21, 2007, 3:07 PM ?

]]> ~Jalima i found myself photographing flowers today http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/12815098/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/12815098/ Wed, 02 May 2007 11:54:43 PDT and laughed at my pathetic self.
don't get me wrong, there are some good ones and finally getting myself behind the camera again was a good thing. but flowers? oh dear.

i need to get myself a scrapbook. but a cool one. i wouldn't use an uncool and unhandy one because i'm so fucking vain. haha me. i'd consider a moleskin if a) they weren't so damn expensive and b) so damn trendy.

]]> ~Jalima random update http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/12081409/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/12081409/ Tue, 06 Mar 2007 13:57:36 PST
+

I'm going to see Incubus in Berlin next week.

+

I'm going to see Die Ärzte, The White Stripes, Velvet Revolver, Travis, 30 Seconds To Mars, Smashing Pumpkins, Linkin Park, Beatsteaks, Muse, Billy Talent, Mando Diao, Evanescence, Wir Sind Helden, Korn, Slayer, Dave Matthews Band, The Hives, Arctic Monkeys, My Chemical Romance, Kaiser Chiefs, Jan Delay & Disko No. 1, Mia., The Kooks, Wolfmother, Stone Sour and many more in the summer and get piss ass drunk!

+

I'm back on the track concerning webdesign & stuff and

it although it feels like forever, haha.

+

I won a new black shiny iPod with 30 GB storage and video and all cool stuff. I'm not kidding. I won an iPod.

+

We're figuring out where to go on holiday. It feels like it's going to be Italy, Tunisia or Turkey/Greece. I'd love to go to Thailand though. Doesn't seem as expensive as I thought and - goddamn! - would that be cool or cool?

...

ahhh..

as if anyone would care. hehe.

]]> ~Jalima remember kids : http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/11447281/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/11447281/ Mon, 15 Jan 2007 12:16:59 PST

]]> ~Jalima 2007 http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/11348228/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/11348228/ Sun, 07 Jan 2007 10:14:50 PST This year I'm going to :

pass my A-levels
improve my photography skills
build a portfolio
apply for Art College
see Incubus live in Berlin
live in abnormal happiness

]]> ~Jalima Merry Christmas! <3 http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/11171271/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/11171271/ Sun, 24 Dec 2006 06:42:20 PST

]]> ~Jalima word of the day http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/10212087/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/10212087/ Thu, 28 Sep 2006 07:16:11 PDT
My absolute favourite today is : Clitrock.
Damn that was one good laugh.

In other news : I am going to visit Prague from 21st Oct. to 25th Oct. Any recommendations or warnings I should or should not follow? Because I'm an excited hippie-girly I started a countdown on my (german) website.
Right now I have to wait 22 days, 22 hours, 13 minutes and 10 seconds....9...8...7...6....

]]> ~Jalima well... http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/9939298/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/9939298/ Sat, 02 Sep 2006 10:21:18 PDT
]]> ~Jalima Random Updates //*edit http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/9490859/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/9490859/ Wed, 26 Jul 2006 10:42:23 PDT

- I successfully finished the first year of prepreration on my way towards graduation. So in a bit more than one year I'll be a happy ex-pupil not knowing what do with life - sounds good? Hell yeah. Anyways, finishing a semester means nothing but...free time! For the last two weeks I haven't done anything besides tanning, sleeping and relaxing. For a change of this exhausting lifestyle I'm going to visit Amsterdam with Anna from Thursday to Sunday. A fun trip, yay! :]

- In more private news : I had to face a lot of confusing situations in the last couple of months and because of that had to discover sides of my personality I haven't known of before. Yet knowing what I have and who I can count on is a wonderful outcome of such difficult times.

Don't worry :] I'm fine again and surrounded by the most wonderful persons on earth.

- Any suggestions for a good trip in autumn inside of Europe? Not too expensive of course. I'm already considering Prague or Venice.

- Did I ever tell anyone here about my photoblog? [link] A bit more of a trashcan but who cares.

- I'm going to applicate for a one-week internship as a photography assistant at a lot of local photographers so keep your fingers crossed!

- Also keep your fingers crossed so that my latest drama-project is not going to end before it starts (and local deviants might be able to see me on stage next year).

- We all have to hatehatehatehate hormons, don't we?

- Renovations of my room are 90% done - wanna see my new bed? [link]

- or wanna see
...me killing wisents for *Killermassaker ?[link]
...the proof that indoor rain is possible in Hamburg?[link]
...*Killermassaker and me applicating for the next 007 movie? [link]
..."week"-little green animals that love to fall on my lense while shooting?[link]
...=Invidia and me being our lovely selfs?[link]
...what talented Mr *moeliw conjures with my cam?[link]

//edit
YAY!!! I now own my driver's licence and am allowed to terrorize Germany's roads. So you better watch out

Irina

Der Sommer kam mit dir zusammen. Du hast ihn mitgebracht.

]]> ~Jalima The DaVinciCode omg //*edit http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/8885003/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/8885003/ Mon, 29 May 2006 03:47:29 PDT

Went watching "The Da Vinci Code" yesterday and it sucked. Biiiig time. If it hadn't been for my absolutely lovely accompany (

) the whole evening would have been messed up. But watching him nearly freak out because of 45 minutes of advertising totally made my day

. Anyways. As long as you're not homeless, hopeless or dating a Dan Brown-Freak (which I'm obviously not so trust my judgement!) : don't watch this movie. I'm serious. It's a waste of money and time.
What totally killed me was the one glance of Tom Hanks character just before the end. He leans on a mossy warped stonewall in front of the green idyll of the Scottish highlands just like Auguste Rodin's "The Thinker" deeply sunk in profound thoughts concerning life and such, then turns around and starts an overwhelming conversation with the one sentence "When I was a young boy, caught in that fountain..." - I swear I nearly burst in tears of surpressed laughter.
Oh Holy Pathos, ye will walk on earth forever and ever more!
Oh and now for the spoiling part :

HAHA, I so knew that Audrey Tatou's character is going to end up as the great-great-great-great-great-great-great-granddaughter of Jesus.

That's what I call big boots to grow into.

Why am I writing this? Because I'm endlessly bored and besides that life isn't that great at the moment so I need to dissipate disappointment every now and then by doing useless things. Don't bother, my struggling will keep me from drowning for a little while. I'm alive and almost kicking

Enough babble for the moment. Will go to bed now. Cheerio folks.

//edit :
migraine.
how I hate it

// I want you to notice
I want you to care
Oh Horatio
Please don't go

]]> ~Jalima on the road again // *edit http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/8608752/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/8608752/ Mon, 08 May 2006 11:23:50 PDT Hello everybody!

I'm at =Invidia's at the moment and am finally (while she's on the phone) able to take some time to update. Well, although there ain't anything to update - humm..

anyways. All I want to do is talk about my experience yesterday (so if you don't care - just stop reading bitch!

).

I met the most awesome guy from Utah yesterday on the train from Frankfurt to Heidelberg. Mike (greetings to you, my dear) - the poor guy - was accidentally stopped on his trip through Europe (Frankfurt to Paris) and the kind and intelligent German Trail Company took the chance to give him the unique experience of a journey to nowhere. 6 hours on the train to get from A to B would be too easy - you need to see C, D and Y as well and take 10 more hours! Yay Deutsche Bahn!
Well it must have been fate anyway that we two met. I, being a nonsmoker, was forced to take a seat in the smoking area - just because of being too lazy to reserve a seat early enough - and he, being a lost American soul in the middle of the German loneliness called "Ruhrpott", was forced to take this train to get at least a bit nearer to Paris. Fate, darling, this was meant to be.

I had the most awesome conversation that is possible on a train. He was smart and a bit tipsy (yay for German beer!) and totally freed myself out of the boredom that surpresses you after 5 hours riding a train with un-funny persons. Literature, poems, music - so much in common and so unexpected! I promise I will read the books you recommended to me as long as you go and get your ass in some more exhibition halls!

Why do I tell you this?
Good question. Be open. Be kind. Talk to people. Open your ears and eyes and heart to the world and you can't be disappointed.

Irina,
who's in the best mood ever right now and is about to leave the house in her new dress to go and kiss the sun.

edit :
while cleaning up my message center I found this quizzle-shizzle that ~kafros wanted me to take. So here we go! (and this is what he said [link])

Post any comment in this journal (anything you want) and I will reply to it with...

1) I'll respond with something random about you.
2) I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3) I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4) I'll say something that only makes sense to the both of us.
5) I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6) I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7) I'll ask you something that i've always wondered about you.
-
8) If i do this for you, you must post this on your journal!!!

//If I should die this very moment I wouldnt fear
For Ive never known completeness like being here
Wrapped in the warmth of you loving every breath of you
Still in my heart this moment
Or it might burst

]]> ~Jalima The Body Part Contest http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/8252071/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/8252071/ Thu, 06 Apr 2006 14:08:47 PDT 50th Anniversary - Body Part Contest

The next sub =Gwarf will give out is the 50th and that's reason enough to start a little contest.

Show us a close up of a body part (not covered by any clothes) either from you or your model.

_{(no porn please)}

Example

1st and only prize: One Year Sub or a dA Print Account (& a 4 day feature in =Gwarfs journal)

Submission Guidelines:

Deadline of the Contest: April 16th, 2006
Type of image: Closeup/Bodypart (nude)
Number of entries allowed per user: 1
Size of the image: max. 1000px width and 750px height
Note to: =Gwarf (notelink)

...Your deviation must be a new work. That means DO NOT submit one of your old photos to this contest!

Jury:

[entries]

_{Awesome contest - if you ask me - perfect headline to make something fresh and shiny. So have fun and be creative!

< personal edit>6 weird habits/things about yourself

got tagged by *moeliw

Rules : Write 6 weird habits/things about yourself. Post them into your journal.

Then tag 6 other people.

Have fun.

1. I wrote on the empty pages (first and last) of 80% of the books I own. Not very interesting stuff, just random thoughts concerning the book, connections to other authors or fragments of dreams. Name it, I wrote about it.

2. Weird habits? You ain't seen nothing yet if you haven't seen me and *Killermassaker when we're bored/drunk/annoyed/rehearsing, pffhh!

3. I've got itchy feet 24/7. Every 3 months I have to get out of my familiar environment to keep myself sane. (And I haven't been out of Hamburg for 6 months so you might imagine how I feel atm!)

4. I always forget my earrings and studs at my boyfriend's place. I fear it's starting to annoy him as hell... sorry for that honey

5. Whenever I'm nervous I start to play with my earlaps and my rings. It happens that my ring wanders from hand to hand and finger to finger and I forget about it so after a while I'm totally panicked because of "losing" the ring while it bling-blings on my left thumb.

6. wikipedia is my bible. I look everything and anything up. You might call me a geek because whenever something remains unclear in a conversation I usually am the one mentioning the possibility of looking it up online. I've got nearly the whole bunch of my totally useless knowlegde from wikipedia (like : Did you know that exhibitionism is forbidden for men only in Germany? Women are allowed to flash everybody they want to!)

Don't feel like tagging someone right now. If you want to do it- do it, if not - leave it.

Irina}

]]> ~Jalima about diseases http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/8195756/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/8195756/ Sat, 18 Mar 2006 08:25:17 PST I'm sick again.
this bloody little assmuppet-virus-bastard should better throw himself into boiling oil before i get my hands on him. sucker.

right now I'm a moody bitch and swear way too often.

shit.

p.s : the pills I have to swallow are about as big as my thumb. goddamn it! feels like swallowing an elephant's ass twice a day.

]]> ~Jalima Happy Lovely Valentine Thumbs Day http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/7873019/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/7873019/ Sun, 12 Feb 2006 11:19:30 PST

http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/7674033/ Thu, 02 Feb 2006 00:19:44 PST

Ich will da sein, wenn die Zeit gefriert.
Ich will da sein, wenn sie explodiert.
Und wenn sich dabei mein Verstand verliert.
Ich will da sein, wenn es passiert.

° I'm absolutely addicted to last.fm

all this lovely music and buttons and colours stuff and whuh and yeah. (btw : my favourite Global Station atm is "Porno Lounge" - try it) But the pony they promised me before subscribing hasn't arrived yet, hope it's ok

° Got the portraits I wanted and look (nervously) forward to use them for the application. Anyways, I don't think you'll see them in my gallery, because I don't feel like posting myself again and again. Feels like my face is all over this place and this bores me as HELL

so if you'd like to model for me, and live near Hamburg -> note me!

° Redesigned my whole room during the last two weeks. It's absolutely awesome right now, although not completed yet. Pics posted as soon as possible.

° Looking forward to Valentine's Day

°I'm going to see the fabolous Foo Fighters tonight!

]]> ~Jalima with all my heart http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/7308848/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/7308848/ Wed, 14 Dec 2005 11:12:24 PST

Lösch mir die Augen aus: ich kann dich sehn,
wirf mir die Ohren zu: ich kann dich hören,
und ohne Füße kann ich zu dir gehen,
und ohne Mund noch kann ich dich beschwören.

Brich mir die Arme ab, ich fasse dich
mit meinem Herzen wie mit einer Hand,
halt mir das Herz zu, und mein Hirn wird schlagen,
und wirfst du in mein Hirn den Brand,
so werd ich dich auf meinem Blute tragen.

(Written by Rainer Maria Rilke)

Extinguish thou my eyes, I still can see thee,
Deprive my ears of sound, I still can hear thee,
And without feet I still can come to thee,
And without voice I still can call to thee.

Sever my arms from me, I still will hold thee
with all my heart as with a single hand.
Arrest my heart, my brain will keep on beating,
And should thy fire at last my brain consume,
the flowing of my blood will carry thee.

(Translated by: Albert Ernest Flemming )

]]> ~Jalima all I want for christmas... http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/7226749/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/7226749/ Mon, 05 Dec 2005 07:12:30 PST

Ha, you thought, didn't you?
Well, you all should know that I somehow love you, but still there are material things open :

a scarf (click)

white/black or red/black striped overknees (click)

white dotted overknees (click)

skull printed girl shirt with huge cleavage (click)

nightmare before christmas undies (click)

awesome green skirt (yet again another skull print) (click)

rochella lunchbox (click)

Brandon Boyd's "White Fluffy Clouds" (click)

a pink Bean Walkman from Sony (click)

Emily Strange's Book Of Strange [link]

roducts_id=301

Liquourbrand's pink nerdstyle cardigan [link]

roducts_id=1857

any undies from [link] (click)

Happy Tree Friend's Russel Cap (click)

David & Goliath's Dumb Blonde Sleep Mask (click)

David & Goliath's Lil' Slut Lip Balm (click)

a 14 inch Bear In Underwear (click)

a "Kiss My Butt" Belt (click)

don't mind, I've just been bored and surfing around some shops. and I posted, because I know my mum drops by occasionally

(Es leben der Kapitalismus und der Konsum!)

]]> ~Jalima playing with hearts but not with lives http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/7192039/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/7192039/ Thu, 01 Dec 2005 06:32:23 PST

(click)
(click²)
(click³)

Jalima

]]> ~Jalima why not play with your heart, honey? http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/6962245/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/6962245/ Thu, 24 Nov 2005 07:33:56 PST First of all : I'm going to buy myself a new camera.
Let's see when I'll be able to afford the one I want. The famous EOS 350 D - I know this is nothing to most of you, but for me it's the world right now.

Reason for this is my muse. (Thank you honey for returning in the very moment in which I thought someone else finally stabbed you to death.) Muses are such bitches, arent they?

oh well...what else could I tell you?
Go and see Tim Burton's Corpse Bride as soon as you can! I'll definitely watch it next week and since I'm a huge Fan of Tim Burton I'm sure this one is going to kick ass!

And go and buy yourself some Tees from david and goliath. They so kick ass, too!

[update]
Haha, I finally managed to break my camera which forces me to buy the new one as soon as possible because I really have to get some things done before christmas.
stupid me!

[edit]
I wanna take photos RIIIIIIGHT NOOOOOW! Damn it. [Insert other bad curse here]
Memo : Have to buy myself a heart. Although I'm kind afraid to see and touch it. Hearts are scary things, aren't they?

(uh how poetic and ambiguous

- I should continue reading Goethe instead of molesting innocent watchers. tz tz tz.)

]]> ~Jalima got tagged? http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/6862609/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/6862609/ Tue, 25 Oct 2005 09:04:16 PDT

I'd need 803,19 Euro to get everything that's on my amazon wishlist right now.

If I was a colour I'd be red. If I was an animal I'd be a cat. If I was a song I'd be Break Me Gently by Doves.

I don't regret a single thing in my life.

"change is the only constant in life" is something I truly believe in.

I drink beer.

I'd do anything for my beloved ones. I'm serious.

I easily open myself towards new people and I tend to forgive a lot, but when I'm seriously hurt I won't give anyone another chance to repeat this experience.

I want you to be strong, upright and open-minded.

I know a lot of people like to talk about me and I started to feel honored. If they spend so much time talking about who I am right now, the response to what I do in future must be overwhelming!

I cannot stand ignorance, arrogance, stupidity and malice at all.

Cancer scares the shit out of me.

My IQ is above average - which means absolutely nothing.

Although I'm not musical at all, music is an important part of my life.

I have a serious problem with "right" and "left" but I'm working on that.

My immune system is weak but that doesn't mean I can't dance in the rain whenever I want to.

I'm a sucker for literature. You should see me reading Goethe's Faust! I'm always like :

whenever I stumble upon a cool sentence.

I tend to mix up idioms.

I own a webcam and I love to act silly in front of it.

I hate horror films.

Whenever I feel bad I take a very cold and very long shower.

I tag :

*Killermassaker =dasmihi *katnap ~K-A-F-roS

]]> ~Jalima [imagine..] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/6640112/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/6640112/ Fri, 30 Sep 2005 06:19:01 PDT

_{You're weird, in tears, too near and too far away,

He said, saw red, went home stayed in bed all day,

Your t'shirt, dish dirt,

Always love the one you hurt

It's a crack, I'm back yeah standing

On the rooftops shouting out,

Baby I'm ready to go

shout it out

Abused, confused, always love the one that

hurt ya hurt ya hurt ya

I SO know how to do my new ID! mwahaha!}

]]> ~Jalima [bouncy] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/6546019/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/6546019/ Mon, 19 Sep 2005 13:21:15 PDT

_{going to visit Scotland in 5 days.

I'm sooooo excited!

I WANT COLOURS!

pink/red/yellow/green/blue and BUBBLEGUM!!!

and I want you to visit with me an old and tacky mansion in the candle light.

July

1. - 15. - New York

August

1. - 9. - =Invidia

11. - school starts again

September

24. - 30. - Glasgow / Edinburgh

October

2. - 9. - Spain / or London? We'll see!

March

- Heidelberg

ichtsnutze}

]]> ~Jalima wishlist http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/6448264/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/6448264/ Thu, 08 Sep 2005 07:36:52 PDT

_{I want a new ID []

and a new avatar []

and a new website []

and time to take photos []

and a decent portrait of myself for my new website []

and I want to go to the stereophonics concert (10/2/05) []

I WANT COLOURS!

pink/red/yellow/green/blue and BUBBLEGUM!!!

and I want you to visit with me an old and tacky mansion in the candle light.

July

1. - 15. - New York

August

1. - 9. - =Invidia

11. - school starts again

September

26. - 30. - Glasgow / Edinburgh

October

2. - 9. - Spain / or London? We'll see!

March

- Heidelberg

immermehr sprach der Rabe.}

]]> ~Jalima Dear Mr. Law http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/6348379/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/6348379/ Sun, 28 Aug 2005 06:14:02 PDT

Mood:

horny
Listening to: James Blunt - You're beautiful
Reading: Tortilla Curtain by T.C. Boyle
Watching: L.A. Crash

_{Dear Mr. Law (or may I call you Jude?),

Dear Mr. Jude (sounds silly),

Dear prospektive Mr. Scares-Them-All,

Jude-Baby!

In the (somewhat improbable) case you read this :

Come back home! I know we don't know each other for very long, but I'm sure we're meant to be. I know you don't care about Ghwen, Sienna, and all those other bitc...girls. And I really promise not to think about Brad and the other boys any longer. Just come back to me, please, will you? I'm very sure you won't regret it, baby.

Josie

In other words :

I watched "Music From Another Room" the other day it reminded me of how desperately I want to watch "Closer" and "I Huckabees". Isn't he adorable when it comes to play romantic stuff? And didn't we all love him as "Alfie"? I surely did

I WANT COLOURS!

pink/red/yellow/green/blue and BUBBLEGUM!!!

and I want you to visit with me an old and tacky mansion in the candle light.

July

1. - 15. - New York

August

1. - 9. - =Invidia

11. - school starts again

September

26. - 30. - Glasgow / Edinburgh

October

2. - 9. - Spain / or London? We'll see!

March

- Heidelberg

uff said!}

]]> ~Jalima [the top 5] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/6213354/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/6213354/ Sat, 13 Aug 2005 03:49:32 PDT

Mood:

satisfied
Listening to: Foo Fighters
Reading: Tortilla Curtain by T.C. Boyle
Watching: L.A. Crash

_{yeah the new term started on thursday and I'm absolutely satisfied. I've got the courses I wanted and absolutely cool teachers in most of them...and with some luck I'll be able to change my math course so that I'll have at least a decent teacher not to mention my tutor who I adore and worship for the person she is since I was able to catch a glimpse of her personality.

As you might have noticed : I'm a subscriber now. @chix0r (who I'll love for ever and ever and ever ) donated me a 2 years subscription on dA's 5th birthday just for exposing my ass with her name on it to the camera. how f***ing/freaking amazing is that? I'm still unable to find the right words. In addition to that my dad donated me a prints account. I guess he did it just to have an easy way to get to see my stuff and get his hands on some prints of the photos I took of my family but I'll don't ask what his motivations were as long as I'm able to enjoy this awesome service.

my apologizes to everyone who watches me for re-uploading some stuff to the prints service but I guess you already know the deal. I promise not to do it all on one day but one or twice a week so it won't be too disturbing for you.

I hope to do a shooting with Anna during the next week. I bought all the stuff I need and I know where and what I wanna do but she'll settle over to the U.S. for 10 months on the 24th so I pray that she won't be too busy the next week. we'll see!

She'd make an awesome model, because she's a very sexual and very open person and has a lot of charisma. But my knees shake while thinking of me failing the opportunity to catch her personality and appearance on film

my mum received a letter today and I knew what it was about before she started reading. a few months ago she applied for a place at the university of hamburg in the faculty of psychology and today she received a "yes!".

as you might know my mum and I are very close and I'm glad to call her one of my best friends (although we have some of the typical fights) she's very important to me and that's why I'm absolutely enthralled to see her getting one step closer to her dream come true.

my private life calmed down during the past week. I feel very good at the moment. there are a lot of good things going on at the moment and because I'm a very empathic person I benefit a lot by the luck of my dear ones of course I miss =Invidia a lot but I'm already saving up money to see her again in autumn.

yeah I guess that's it. kinda long entry. sorry for that and a cookie for all who read it !

top 5 songs :

Foo Fighters - the best of you

Double N.O - 140 bpm

Morcheeba - everybody loves a loser

Queens of the Stone Age - in my head

Die Firma - Die Eine ( '05 & '96)

I WANT COLOURS!

pink/red/yellow/green/blue and BUBBLEGUM!!!

and I want nearly naked girls on washing machines (and you're going to see it all here on [link]!)

and I want you to visit with me an old and tacky mansion in the candle light.} ~Jalima [moving on] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/5801849/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/5801849/ Sun, 31 Jul 2005 15:24:09 PDT

Listening to: 140 bpm
Reading: phyllis & rosamond
Watching: mr & mrs smith

_{in the first place : I'm a lazy bitch. Surely I mentioned this before but it's just so true.

I should write a lot about NYC (which wouldn't even cause me more than just typing the stuff I already wrote in ny) but it's all kinda personal and well ... you wouldn't want to hear half of it so I won't say more than : it was amazing.

if you have the opportunity to go and visit the city : do it. at any cost! feel it, touch it, smell it, taste it, breathe it and be it! the good and bling-bling things just as the disgusting mudd. I'm pretty sure this city changes a lot of people. at least it did change me. in a very positive way.

of course I'm speaking as a European, so beware and be critical. blahblah whatever.

You probably won't see too much of this trip here in my gallery. I'm still waiting for the last film to get developed and blahblah. I'm kinda lazy to scan them all and if I do I'll just expose the best ones.

in addition to that : I'm working on a lot of other things so there hasn't been too much time for photography. but this will definitely change during the next week !

she's coming tomorrow

and I feel fuckin' good. Haven't felt this way like years it seems.

send you so much love

I WANT COLOURS!

pink/red/yellow/green/blue and BUBBLEGUM!!!

and I want nearly naked girls on washing mashines (and you're going to see it all here on [link]!)

March

13. - *hamburg

17. - Annett Louisan

20. - King Lear

23. - "Begierde im Blick"

31. - "Im Park"

April

6. - "Im Park"

25.-30. - Praha

May

11. - 15. - =Ecilia

June

too many exams

July

1. - 15. - New York

August

1.8. - 9.8. - =Invidia

ichts ist besser!}

]]> ~Jalima [7k?] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/5443819/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/5443819/ Tue, 28 Jun 2005 09:41:56 PDT

I WANT COLOURS!
pink/red/yellow/green/blue and BUBBLEGUM!!!

I had a sudden inspiration today as I returned from my hairstylist : you guys donated me nearly 7k pageviews! If I visit a site I spend at least 30 seconds on the userpage to decide if I want to go on further. Then I spend at least 1 minute in the gallery (without looking at certain pics in fullview mode) of that person. And sometimes half of a minute in the scrap section. that's just the average including all the galleries I skip because they don' attract me and the ones I really love. it really depends on the person and my mood.

let's say that everyone follows my system ( I know you don't. it's just a game I want to play

) and spends at least 30 seonds on my userpage :

7.000 x 30sec = 210.000 sec
210.000 sec / 60 = 3.500 min
3.500 min / 60 = ~ 15 h

and then 1 minute in my gallery :

7.000 x 1 min = 7.000 min
7.000 / 60 = ~116 h
116 h / 24 = ~ 5d

and thinking of someone (a placeholder for all) who donates 5 days and 15 hours of his life looking at my shit is so amazing that I want to make a gift for the one who hits the magical 7k.

teasing : I'm going to NYC and you're not

I'm going to NYC and you're not

March
13. - *hamburg
17. - Annett Louisan
20. - King Lear
23. - "Begierde im Blick"
31. - "Im Park"

April
6. - "Im Park"
25.-30. - Praha

May
11. - 15. - =Ecilia

June
too many exams

July
1. - 15. - New York

August
1.8. - 9.8. - ~Invidia

ichtsnutz aus Überzeugung!
]]> ~Jalima [freedom] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/4833996/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/4833996/ Thu, 19 May 2005 00:19:09 PDT

Mood:

Zen
Listening to: Smashing Pumpkins - Disarm
Reading: The Tortilla Curtain
Watching: CSI

_{freedom / fri:.dem/ noun 1 [C or U] the condition or right of being able or allowed to do, say, think etc. whatever you want to, without being controlled or limited: I felt such a sense of freedom, up in the hills alone. ° Children are allowed much more freedom these days. ° [+ to infinitive] At university you have the freedom to do what you want. ° Everyone should be allowed freedom of choice (= the ability to make their own choices). ° Freedom of speech and freedom of thought (= the ability to say and think whatever you want) were both denied under the dictatorship. ° They are campaining for freedom of information (= for any information to be allowed to be given to anyone who wants it). ° We demand freedom from injustice/persecution (= the condition of not having to suffer these things.) Compare ->Liberty FREEDOM. 2. [C] a right to act in the way you think you should : Being able to vote as you want to is an important political/democratic freedom. 3. [U] the state of not being in prison : They regained their freedom after ten years of unjust imprisonment.

March

13. - *hamburg

17. - Annett Louisan

20. - King Lear

23. - "Begierde im Blick"

31. - "Im Park"

April

6. - "Im Park"

25.-30. - Praha

May

11. - 15. - =Ecilia

June

too many exams

July

1. - 15. - New York}

]]> ~Jalima [suck me in] & [spit me out] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/4390848/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/4390848/ Sun, 23 Jan 2005 04:31:09 PST Day : 23 January 1849 - Elizabeth Blackwell is awarded her MD by the Medical Institute of Geneva, New York, thus becoming the United States' first woman doctor.
23 January 1986 - The first induction into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame (Chuck Berry, James Brown, Ray Charles, Fats Domino, Everly Brothers, Buddy Holly, Jerry Lee Lewis and Elvis Presley)
23 January 1989 - Salvador Dalí, the famous artist born in 1904, dies
Mood :

Listening to : <>
Thinking of :

My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock~ hypocritical-stock
Member of : *hamburg ~deutsch
if you're looking for an open book
look no further, I am yours

Dear 2004,
I wanted to say goodbye to you, and your ups and downs. I want to say goodbye to all the things I never want to face again, because for all that, you were a good year. And the perfect preparation for a perfect '05, I don't want to miss. Although I'm kinda offended that you saved the best for your end ().
Yours faithfully

Irina

P.S : Going to be busy soon. I got a new cam as christmas present (love you@mum&dad!) a canon eos 300d and I'm so curious what the analogue world will show me. But atm I'm desperately looking for inspiration.

P.P.S : did you know that the st valentine's day is also my birthday? (what a inconspicuous broad hint!

) ]]> ~Jalima my babe's gone http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/4199628/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/4199628/ Fri, 31 Dec 2004 06:34:11 PST my bestest friend *Invidia is ill and in the hospital, I miss her terribly and I'm full of worries because the fact that she's ill is bad enough, but to know that she has to get an ass full of infusions and syringes and that she'll be alone tonight (at new year's begining!) breaks my heart.

I love you baby and I pray to all their gods I don't trust in, that you'll be ok soon!
Send her all your love, because she's the best!

Irina, worried. ]]> ~Jalima [dreaming of summer] & [sunshine] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/4049400/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/4049400/ Sun, 12 Dec 2004 11:57:02 PST Day : 12 December - Independence Day in Kenya (1963)
12 December 1870 - Joseph H. Rainey of South Carolina becomes the first black U.S. congressman
12 December 1915 - Frank Sinatra, an American singer and actor, is born.
12 December 1981 - The Chaos Computer Club was founded in Berlin.
Mood :

Listening to : <>
Thinking of :

My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock~ hypocritical-stock
(Proud)Member of :

Der Letzte macht das ewige Licht aus!

list of free hugs for ~Profiratte : II

today is the day I should start my winter-blues. but my mood is too good at the moment.
I got a few ideas for new stuff, but I bet nothing will turn out the way I want it to be..that's just how it goes at least, I have a great soundtrack to take pictures (big to the rock), so the 'only' things I need are inspiration and creativity...ha...lovely bad joke.

I've to get a lot of pressies for x-mas and to be honest : there are more persons to make a present than good ideas. what are you doing on christmas? are you celebrating it or not? I should definitely kick my lame ass and go shopping. but shopping is quite frustrating because the shopping-queen xine is in the US atm, and I bet all my prayers won't help and bring her to good ol' Germany for a few hours

There are quite a lot of things to do for school before the holiday starts, but at the moment, I'm just a lazy piece of warm flesh. And I'm enjoying it a lot! At least I can't make excuses because of my disease anymore, because the laryingitis is completely fought.

Edit : Please don't worry if dA tells you I added you to my watchlist again, I'm trying to get all of you in a good order.

Irina, who feels like

]]> ~Jalima [fire] & [ocean] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3992700/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3992700/ Sun, 05 Dec 2004 05:35:04 PST Day : 5 December 1492 - Christopher Columbus becomes the first European to set foot on the island of Hispaniola (now Haiti and the Dominican Republic).
5 December 1791 - Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, a famous composer, dies
5 December 1932 - German physicist Albert Einstein granted a visa
5 December 1974 - The last new episode of Monty Python's Flying Circus is broadcast on the BBC.
Mood :

Listening to : << poems&aeroplanes >>
Thinking of : :fire:&

My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock~ hypocritical-stock
(Proud)Member of :

Love is somewhere in between - what you believe and what you dream

list of free hugs for ~Profiratte I

last night was so fine so I guess this journal entry will contain just a looong "thank you"-list. I enjoyed these hours so much, although I went a little sick after all these merry-go-rounds..but it was my fault and I feel very guilty for calling my neighbours names...ehem...cough cough...
anyway thanks a lot for the and the ! I'll keep them with me, promised

my special greetings go out to my 'siamese twins' I'm so (incredible) looking forward to see you on thursday! btw thanks a lot for letting me squeeze your hands, I'd have died without that! Also big thanks to pico (again for your drops! yay!), her sister sitar and her friend sheep-chan for being there and having an eye on my things ( I still know where my earring is!), and to the poor ill lily and her 'friend' and to profiratte and marc, although they were running away!...and last but not least to Alder "Hulk" man, Flo, I hope it'll be possible to see the "neon tigers" soon it's always great to see you all!

but..well...can we 'sit' the next time and not walk for more than one hour through Hamburg's streets?

All in all, I was very happy to see you and to be able to talk, hope I didn't frighten someone..hehe. But my feet are hurting and I'm way too tired because I wasn't able to sleep and ..well...yeah, that was all.

gobbels gobbels!

Irina ]]> ~Jalima [devmeet²] & [laryngitis] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3962725/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3962725/ Wed, 01 Dec 2004 08:48:56 PST Day : 1 December - UNAIDS
Mood :

Listening to : <>
Thinking of :

My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock~ hypocritical-stock
(Proud)Member of :

Come on! Let's break a taboo!

Bah I'm ill. Again. And it sucks. It's just that I'm not a shy person, but I have to shut up and nodd and smile and talk with my hands, if I want to say something and this is terrible hard, because I'm talking quiet a lot, when I'm in a good mood. Damn laryngitis!

Nevertheless, the Devmeet on sunday was nice enough to compensate the illnesses! I'll come back to that later.

At first I have to to *Invidia who's back in Heidelberg again. I miss you a lot, girl and I hope that my family decides to visit Heidelberg in the wintertime! The 4 days with you were again incredible nice and amusing and lovely and funny and I enjoyed every minute of them. (Excuse me for being ill and silent and dig my claws in your arm in the cinema and alltogether at the last evening ) Knowing you makes me so very happy, especially because you're the closest friend I ever had. Just remember what we went through.. And having no voice sucks big time because I can't call you now

Back to the devmeet. I didn't like bowling before, mainly because I suck in sports like that. And I sucked on sunday, too but let's forget about that I'm very sorry for being so calm, that didn't mean that I don't like you or didn't know what to talk with you. Don't think of my as a shy girl, you wouldn't get me right I enjoyed the evening so much! AND I want to send my special thanks to my bowling team : ~ zygrael(the one who's doing the strikes), *Bouncer2000(The rockstar), ~ Alderman(the one with the camera), * WuRklash(the one with the monster-grin) and *Invidia(the one without explanation) and to ~Profiratte, who sat next to me in the restaurant(the one with the fisheye), for bearing my scratchy voice and to ~pico-pito(the super-teddy!) for her drops! And to everyone who voted for ~Kill... ]]> ~Jalima You want to do me a favor, don't you? http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3854367/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3854367/ Wed, 17 Nov 2004 02:07:15 PST [link] has started the voting for her contest. My submission was my (also featured) piece, called "Schwarze Moewe . Black Mew"

I'm not asking everyone to go and give me his or her vote. BUT :

If you like the piece and you think it fits the topic (you might find it underneath my description or here : [link]) I'd be very glad if you do

The procedure : You go to the userpage of [link] , send her a note with my username and the name of the picture in it. That's it. The voting stops on the 19th, so you have exactly 2 more days to go.

just my 2 cents
going back to bed now

Irina ]]> ~Jalima [wehahaha!-] & [omg-effect] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3784941/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3784941/ Mon, 08 Nov 2004 13:00:38 PST Day : 8 November 1520 - the massacre in Stockholm, commanded by the King of Denmark, Christian II., should break the swedish resistance and will.
8 November 1847 - Bram Stoker, an american writer, is born
8 November 1895 - Wilhelm Conrad Röntgen discovers the X-rays
8 November 1988 - George H. W. Bush becomes the 41st President of the United States of America.
Mood :
Listening to : <>
Thinking of : &&
My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock~ hypocritical-stock
(Proud)Member of :
What does your soul look like?

I'm a lame ass.
I really am.
I didn't notice that you hit the 3.000 mark until someone told me today.
I'm sorry, cause I haven't got anything as a present and well...anything as a real piece, too
Lame boring ass! Stupid Me!....
'nuff said -> THANK YOU for all your support, comments, favs..comments...did I mention the comments? Well for everything!

Preperations for a collab with Killermassaker are running. I love spontaneous ideas in the metro! I'm looking forward to the sushi-meeting with him and pico aaaaaand... :insert drums here: Invidia is going to visit me soon! She'll visit the devmeet (28.11.) with me and before and after that we'll have horrible nice 4 days, enjoying Hamburg's autumn and crazy but creative ideas Do you have a good idea what to do with the time?

My feet are hurting. My back is nearly killing me and no I don't want to go to see the doc again. She doesn't like me and I'm not ill! Everything's fine...lalalaa (almost kidding)

BTW : Music can save days/lifes/moods! Today the Monkey does it.

A thing of beauty is a joy forever, its loveliness increases. It will never pass into nothingness. (John K.)

Irina ]]> ~Jalima [just want your extra time] & [your ...kiss!] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3663878/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3663878/ Sun, 24 Oct 2004 14:38:01 PDT Day : 24 October 1648 - The Thirty Year's War ends.
24 October 1929 - "Black Thursday", the beginning of the worldwide economic crisis.
24 October 1996 - a white policeman shoots a black driver during a vehicle spot-check, the following acquittal of the policeman causes political discussions and riots.
Mood :
Listening to : <>
Thinking of : &&
My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock~ hypocritical-stock
(Proud)Member of :
Someday - I am wanting you
Someday - I'll find you
I don't believe in nothing - I believe in Someday

Gosh. I'm so tired The first week after holidays is usually stressful, but this one has been extremly tiring, too.
I met ~pico-pito and ~Killermassaker yesterday and we ate Sushi. It was so nice! @both I hope pico will like the photos I took...because..well...there's not one usual portrait, because I had a special idea in my head and well..I hope the result will turn out well and she won't put me on her grill. Well, it was kinda fun, she's a lovely girl and a double of Audrey Tautou! (just think of THAT [link] xD and the running hamsters. I bet I'll never be able to eat this salad!)

There's just one more day to bear at school and then I'll be off till Friday. Spending 4 days with my more or less crazy schoolmates and a more or less tolerant tutor. Hum. I'm pretty curious how things will work out.

And again I've been a lazy bitch. I wanted to finish at least 4 pieces but I didn't had the inspiration to do it. (Hörst Du? Mu-Seee! *point* ) I need a kick in the ass..and some silent hours. Hopefully the next weekend will bring both of them, because I want to know your opinion.

Everyone seems to be in love with the dA-Emoticons. Me, too! I wonder if it would be possible to do a little quiz concerning emoticons. Like "what song do I mean? " (That's easy, I know )

All in all things are going on nice and calm and I hope you all had a nice weekend

Irina ]]> ~Jalima [I can't take this] & [that anymore] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3596841/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3596841/ Fri, 15 Oct 2004 14:31:47 PDT Day : 15. October - the day nothing worth mentioning happend.
Mood :
Listening to : <<>>
Thinking of : &&
My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock~ hypocritical-stock
(Proud)Member of :
Yes, I'm gonna go for gold

well...finally I did it. I have a new haircolour. Nothing too special but the following shots will be with a dark brown, so don't be scared, it's not my evil twin called Lucy.

I enjoy the fall and I finally agreed with him to bear some shady thoughts for walking through the fall without missing the summer is nothing.

School starts on monday. And I simply don't want to go. It feels so useless to me. I know I could work a lot harder, than I do if the consequences would allow it. Well I guess my bad mood concerning going back to school is influenced by my circulation for it sucks at the moment. I don't want to see the doctor. Brrrr.

Give me a smile!

Aber was mache ich nur, wenn das Leben wirklich schön ist?
Wenn ich mich nicht mehr vor dem Morgen fürchten muss, sondern Wärme spüre?

Irina ]]> ~Jalima [comfortable] & [peaceful] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3531877/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3531877/ Thu, 07 Oct 2004 03:51:25 PDT Day : 7. October 1849 - Edgar Allan Poe, an american writer, dies.
7. October 1949 - the DDR is founded
7. October 2001 - the beginning of the war of the USA against Afghanistan and the dominating Taliban, as a result of the terrorist attacks on 9/11.
7. October - the festival of the rosary in honour of "the virgin Mary"

Mood :
Listening to : <>
Thinking of : &&
My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock~ hypocritical-stock
(Proud)Member of :
Ice, Rain & Ocean - I am Water

I feel so good, that all my feelings and thoughts seem to bubble out of me, as though the limitedness of my body is nothing but a rumor. It must be damn arduous to bear me now but ..well...Being happy in the autumn is a very nice break to all the gray and the moodiness around. And I hope that this will last longer than just two weeks. (Except my strange attraction for strange pop-songs, which I'd ignore totally without this mood )

I decided to clean up (!) -> To all those who don't know : this is a fantastic step, because I hate to clean up my room. I'm usually living in a tender chaos, that surrounds me on every step I do. Well I've got some new posters (Marilyn Monroe, Breakfast at Tiffany's, Le fabuleux destin d'Amélie Poulain etc ) and it would be a shame to have them in a messy room. Beside that I decided to clean up my gallery, too. After a depressing conversation with someone who used to be friendly to me, before he fell in love and received a "No", and told me afterwards that I'm totally untalented and unartistic, was my decision easy : I wanna scrap everything that doesn't fit my taste anymore and re-do all those pieces to demonstrate myself that he's a whiny bitch and definitely wrong about his judgment. Ha! .... I sound like a little pouting kid. Well. I am. Let's see if I'm going to get this done.

Oh! BTW! I want to eliminate another rumor : My username has nothing to do with the vocalist "Jamelia". Both pseudonyms have their roots in the african name "Jamila" which means "the dark one" (I guess, but I'm not sure..correct me, if I'm wrong ) So no way. I don't like her. I hate the song "superstar" and I chose this name because of one of my characters ine some shortstories - and because everything else was already taken

Irina ]]> ~Jalima [wanna have fish]&[ketchup?] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3486789/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3486789/ Fri, 01 Oct 2004 09:48:28 PDT Day : 1. October 1949 - The Republic of China is founded
1. October 1958 - The NASA is founded
1. October 1960 - Nigeria is independent
1. October - The international day of the older people
1. October - The international day of the vegetarians

Mood :
Listening to : <>
Thinking of : &&
My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock~ hypocritical-stock
(Proud)Member of :
Could you teach me how to cry?

Phhhhhhw...I survived this week full of maths and chemistry! Strike! And now I'm able to be a lazy bitch for 2 fantastic weeks
I'd love to go to Cologne and visit ~ Ecilia but I dunno if I could get the money for this trip. F...does anyone want to pay for me? (if you want, what about another travel to Berlin? *waves to her "ex-boyfriend"* BRUMM! )And if not : Does anyone want to bear me the next weeks? I have no ideas what to do with the time. Mpf.

A real close friend is going to leave on Tuesday for 4 months, she'll visit the USA and live in "Forest Lake", MN. Does anybody know someone over there? I hope she'll have a good time, but I'm also a bit worried so...we'll have to see what comes around.

I've been a lazy bitch the last time, but I can't make up my mind and I'm driving from one idea to another and nothing satifies me and aarrh....there's nobody who wants to try to make a collab with me, eh? :-/ Anyways.

I wanted to say "thank you" to all of you who commented on my last journal. No need to explain, hu?

best regards to all supergirls, supermans and dr evil!

Irina ]]> ~Jalima [anxious]&[bitchy] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3396519/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3396519/ Sun, 19 Sep 2004 06:02:49 PDT Day : 19. September 1988 - Israel starts while using the Shavit-rocket the satelite 'Ofeq 1'
Mood :
Listening to : <>
Thinking of : &&
My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock
(Proud)Member of :
Wer hat verloren?
Du dich? - Ich mich? - Oder...wir uns?

Listening to Reamonn day and night. I'd love to see them live, must be amazing...but I missed that chance in august and I have no money at all.

I'm so sorry for being bitchy and cold, I'm totally upset at the moment. Frustrated with myself and everything I do. I feel like I'm running against walls, that I build on my own. But everything becomes clear every now and then and I know that I'm simply upset because I don't know if I'll live in this house, this city, this country next year. My parents talk so often about the US, because the buisness is heavy in Germany and there could be a bigger chance in Boston or Atlanta or fuckingsomewhere. I've never lived in a house longer than 2 years. Now I'm at the same school and living in the same house for nearly 6 years, this is really new to me and I don't want to miss it.

My parents don't want to move, they say "It's just a possibility, we have to think about. Don't worry, sweetheart." But even the thought scares me.

Work clears the thoughts, so I'm going to work now

Irina ]]> ~Jalima [back again] & [nearly gone] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3290023/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3290023/ Sun, 05 Sep 2004 03:16:59 PDT Day : 5. September 1187 - Lois VII. (The Lion) a french king is born
5. September 1638 - Lois XIV. (The Sunking) an other french king, is born
5. September 1735 - Johann Sebastian Bach, a famous german composer, is born.
5. September 1847 - Jesse James, an US american gangster, is born.
5. September 1877 - Crazy Horse, chieftain of the Sioux, dies.
5. September 1997 - Mother Theresa dies.
Mood :
Listening to : <>
Thinking of : &&
My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock
(Proud)Member of :
Although you won't see me fall from grace
you step on my solace you walk away

Have I already told you that this dumb stupid guys from the photo-studio-thing fucked my b/w film up? Hate them for doing that...Because there were situations that won't come back again. Everything's underexposures..they told me what happend (I have no clue what this man was talking about ) and gave me a ticket for a free development. I guess I won't use it.

So.. that was the most important fact
I'm almost fine again and looking forward to the next 2 weeks.

I wish you all the best

Irina ]]> ~Jalima [sick] & [tired] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3253321/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3253321/ Wed, 01 Sep 2004 03:57:01 PDT Day : 31. August 1888 - the serial killer 'Jack The Ripper' commits his furst murder in London
31. August 1948 - Van Morrison, a british songwriter and singer, is born. S
31. August 1997 - Princess Diana dies
Mood :
Listening to : <>
Thinking of :
My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock
(Proud)Member of :
what you see ain't what you get

Hate being sick.
Feel ballooned and miserable.
Am too sleepy.
Can't concentrate.
Got terrible headaches.
TV program's annoying.
Want to be alone.
Hate to be lonely.

Irina
]]> ~Jalima [who ate my heart?]&[soul?] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3236596/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3236596/ Sun, 29 Aug 2004 09:47:00 PDT Day : 28. August 1476 - Kano Motonobu, a japanese painter, is born
28. August 1749 - Johann Wolfgang von Goethe, a german poet, is born.
28. August 2004 - INVIDIA's BACK
28 August 2004 - I got 2.000 pageviews
Mood :
Listening to : <>
Thinking of : &&
My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock
(Proud)Member of :
the wind wouldn't blow me home

Full Name: Irina Elizabeth You'd-Like-To-Know

Nick Name: -

POE: hospital of Barmbek (I guess)

DOB: february 14

eats: melon

drinks: water, orange juice and COFFEE

sings: "daddy cool"

thinks: too much

girls are: weird, sensitive, wonderful and very bitchy

boys are: amazing, weird and ...weird

enjoys: being behind a camera, music, learning, being with friends

believes: in herself

collects: -

love is: hard to find

place to be: at night on the "beach" in hamburg, listening to the waves

place not to be: school

movies are: good stories you can lose yourself in and be challenged or inspired by

music is: beautiful and stress relieving

people are: intricate

trust is: something that is broken all too often

money is: unfortunately necessary

you are: a lost soul

you feel: tired

you know: that everything will work out hopefully

goals: finish school, visit the USA, be happy & know what to do with 'life'

fears: loneliness

loves: family & friends

people don't know: much about me

clothes are: gorgeous

it's sad that: there is so much hurting, hating, and stupidity

last kissed: wasn't good enough to mention

last hugged: Christine

most beautiful: pregnant women

most ugly: people who have to put others down to feel better about themselves

has a crush on: nobody - except Brandon Boyd

favorite band: too many, maybe Keane, ...and all-time :Incubus

favorite type of music: alternative, classic rock, melancholy metal

favorite physical feature: eyes

first looks at: faces

drinking is: okay if you don't molest

smoking is: nothing that great

computers are: important to communicate

phones are: even more important!!

idols: -

prefers: atm : sleeping

wishes: to find soul-peace

regrets: being cold

would rather: be assertive sometimes

books are: sweet nectar of mind

this form was: taken from the sweet dionne

I want my b/w pictures!!!

thx a bunch for all th... ]]> ~Jalima [hopes] & [fears] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3185082/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3185082/ Sun, 22 Aug 2004 03:29:02 PDT Day : 22. August 1963 - Tori Amos is born
Mood :
Listening to : <>
Thinking of : !
My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock
(Proud)Member of :

I feel like I wanna smack somebody
Turn around and bitch slap somebody
But I ain't goin' out bro (no, no, no)
I ain't givin' into it (no, no, no)

Lately my whole aim is to maintain
And regain control of my mainframe
My bloods boiling its beatin' out propaine
My train of thoughts more like a runaway train
I'm in a fast car drivin' in a fast lane
In the rain and I'm might just hydroplaine

I don't fear none of my enemies
And I don't fear bullets from oozies
I've been dealing with something thats worse than these
That'll make you fall to your knees and thats the
The anxiety the sane and the insane rivalry
Paranoias brought me to my knees

oh please please please
take away my anxiety

Irina
]]> ~Jalima [lalala] & [hands up!] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3145511/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3145511/ Tue, 17 Aug 2004 07:55:46 PDT Day : 17. August 1579 - flotation of the capital Real de Minas de Tegucigalpa(short : Tequicigalpa) in Honduras.
17. August 1629 - Johan III., King of Poland, is born
17. August 2004 - Invidia's still gone
Mood :
Listening to : <>
Thinking of : !
My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock
(Proud)Member of :
Don't teach your grandmother how to suck eggs.

It's intersting how a single person can change everything. How one person can make my day become disgusting..

Yeah, got some good news today! My (beloved, benevolent & large-hearted) daddy gave me a new camera ..well she's a real lady, means she saw some days elapse, but she's a real pretty thingie * the * and I finally received my B.E.P LP nr2. But on the other hand : I'm a lil bit ill my back hurts like hell and I could die when I wake up and have to leave the lying position. But well ... like my english techer says : there are children dying in china.

Dying leads me to the next aspect...I remembered an interesting conversation I had with Xine. We talked about death and of what we think will follow that. Not like "I'll go to god and become a real nice angel with golden wings" (I'd be more this kind of angel : I tend to lose everything!) but more : "what would my parents say? what would my friends do? what would YOU do?" ..mhm...this thoughts haunt me.

I definitely have to kick my ass to bring some work to an end ('new life/she was only 13' / 'Am I perfect?' & some stock-requests). At the moment are 3 ideas spinning around in my head..no wait, 4, the one for the hamburg-contest, too. And I can't bring ANYTHING in the right order. EVERY shot was disgusting, EVERY stroke of the brush in PS, too. I lost my muse! ....Invidia WHERE ARE YOU ?

Ouh! Yesterday was my lil bros birthday and today's the visit of my grandparents - that's why do I have to leave..and..that's whay am I not able to do anything I want

BTW : thx a lot to those who answered my last journal entry....this was quite interesting http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3098004/ Wed, 11 Aug 2004 08:36:51 PDT Day : 11. August 1897 - Enid Blyton, a female british author, is born
11. August 1919 - the constitution of the republic of weimar becomes effective
11. August 1956 - Jackson Pollock, an us-american artist, dies.
Mood :
Listening to : <>
Thinking of : &&
My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock
(Proud)Member of :
I won't be your plastic toy

Recommend to me:

1. a movie
2. a book
3. a musical artist, song, or album
4. a deviantArtist
5. what I should have for dinner
6. a website
7. a quote
8. a subject for a new picture

just go ahead...I'm bored...take that chance and advise me.

Irina
]]> ~Jalima [too strong] & [too proud] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3081956/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3081956/ Mon, 09 Aug 2004 11:16:38 PDT Day : 9. August 1178 - the foundations of the leaning tower of pisa are lied
9. August 1945 - airdrop of the second atomic bomb on Nagasaki
9. August 1969 - the wife of the polish regiesseur Roman Polanski, the (advanced in pregnancy) american actress Sharon Tate and four friends of them get killed by the followers of Charles-Manson's sect in their house.
9. August 1968 - Gillian Anderson, an american actress, is born.
9. August 1968 - Eric Bana, an australian actor, is born.
9. August - Women's Day in South Africa!
Mood :
Listening to : <>
Thinking of : &&
My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock
(Proud)Member of :
though I smile and my friends are near, it's a lonely time of day

Hm.
The very best word do describe my mood : Hm.

Feelings are just something for wuzzies, aren't they?

I hate describing myself, I feel upset when I have to answer question about my inner secrets, I feel like I drowned in my own mind, I feel lost without love but I try to hide, when it comes around. Especially when I feel nothing for that person. Seems like this happens too often to me.

...

I'm going to take some stock-photos tomorrow...or upload the old stuff, dunno yet. I have to do something or I'll go crazy. I could do this two websites, hm. Don't want to - takes too long - and I really need the feeling of success. *smirks*

*waves to Killermassaker*
Prepare yourself, everyone! Tomorrow is Killermassaker's Birthday. HEHE! (I'm such a tattletale )

regards to everyone - have fun in the sun!

Irina
]]> ~Jalima [press the reset button] & [let me fly] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3050004/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3050004/ Thu, 05 Aug 2004 14:15:08 PDT Day : 5. August 1884 - the foundations of the statue of liberty are lied
5. August 1955 - the vw-beetle nr 1.000.000 rolls out of the factory
5. August 1963 - the secretaries of the states Great Britain, CCCP and the USA sign the deal of storaging all nuclear tests inside of the atmosphere, under water and outer space
5. August 1962 - Marilyn Monroe, a famous american actress, dies
Mood :
Listening to : <>
Thinking of : &&
My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock
(Proud)Member of :
and I feel like I'm moving in slow motion,
while everyone else is running at full speed.

Looks like I'm usually writing my journal entries late "at night" - or at least, when I'm tired. And again : I'm tired on the one hand and full of thoughts on the other. School started again today, and although my timetable looks like one year of hard work, do I like to go back. I discovered that I've learned to keep my distance to my schoolmates. This cuts both ways, because I'm usually a really open-minded and participating person, but I enjoy to recline and think .oO(do whatever you want, but don't touch me..) ...stupid thoughts. But I guess I'm one step closer to decide what I wanna take as specialized course next year, and I'm happy because I can do this computer science-course (AND THIS IS A BIG DEAL AND NOT WORKING WITH EXCEL, CHRISTIAN! )

I want to send my greetings to Eugen, because this *)§)"§ visits his g/f for two weeks.....in the US! Anyway : I hope you're enjoying your holidays there, boy!

Now, I'm looking forward to my book (Tunes of Eternity out of the Shadowrun Circle) and my bed...it clamours for me..really!

best regards to everyone - and a nice weekend.

Irina
]]> ~Jalima [..they just lie..] & [..they just die..] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3035003/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3035003/ Tue, 03 Aug 2004 14:56:21 PDT Day : 3. August 1778 - the opera Teatro della Scala in Milano opens the doors
3. August 1954 - Colette, a female french author, dies
3. August 1960 - Niger gets independent from France
Mood :
Listening to : <>
Thinking of : &&
My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock
(Proud)Member of :
call me 'Ms. thorny-heart', 'cuz love is just a feeling, anyway

Are you warm, are you real Mona Lisa
Or just a cold and lonely lovely work of art
For that Mona Lisa strangeness in your smile
Do you smile to tempt a lover Mona Lisa
Or is it your way to hide a broken heart
Many dreams have been brought to your doorstep
They just lie there and they die there
Are you warm, are you real Mona Lisa
Or just a cold and lonely lovely work of art

I dunno where I found that lyric (originally by Elvis Presley) but it reminds me so much of deviant Art that I had to put them into my journal.
As you can see, I'm back again. Heidelberg was wonderful and I'm counting the days till I can go back although it's also very nice to be home again..it's just that I love this city. And my family can be so nice, when they don't see me every day *takes a look at the 3 roses, lil pressies of mother, father and brother*

I'm sorry, because I'm too tired to write a lot...but my head keeps on spinning and too many thoughts are running through my mind. Just like : the drama-course I'm going to visit. That the school begins the day after tomorrow. That I'm missing some persons. That life's a fuckin bitch. That I currently love to live. That I have to finish the costume of my lil brother (it's a bit like baby-"doc oc" XD)

I need some sleep

G'night folks

Irina ]]> ~Jalima [..reach me..] & [..my stock..] http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3009052/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/3009052/ Sat, 31 Jul 2004 05:44:57 PDT Day : 31. Juli 432 - Sixtus III. becomes the pope
31. Juli 1498 - Christopher Kolumbus discovers Trinidad
31. Juli 1932 - With 37,7% is the NSDAP the largest faction in the german "Reichstag"
31. Juli 1944 - Antoine de Saint-Exupéry the french poet and auther of "The little prince" dies
Mood :
Listening to : <>
Thinking of : &&
My Stock-Account : hypocritical-stock
(Proud)Member of :
Have you ever thought I'd be that kind of person saying
"I miss you." ?

I'm a bit tired now..because these two weeks were overwhelming as usual and that costs me a lot of sleep...but : hey I'm young and I'm a survivor
If you want to know exactly what and I did that summer(ouh what a bad joke...but I couldn't help ) you have a really unique and great chance to do! ...Maybe do you remember that I talked about making my own stock-account...well..now here we go : [link] She kicked my ass to do some pix, and now we two are going to be the greatest stock ever......just joking
Seriously : I'd love to see you walking through that gallery, maybe use some pics, maybe leave some comments...or some inquiries for stocks/poses. So I hope you'll enjoy it

I wish you all the best

Irina ]]> ~Jalima all my bags are packed now, I'm ready to go http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/2894916/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/2894916/ Sun, 18 Jul 2004 04:37:46 PDT Day : 16. Juli 622 - Flight of the prophet Mohammed from Mekka to Medina
16. Juli 1918 - Russian czars and four attendants get killed in Jekaterinburg
16. Juli 1918 - Haiti declars the war against Germany
16. Juli 1945 - Trinity-Test : The first atombomb ever is lighted in New Mexico
16. Juli 1969 - Start of the Apollo 11
16. Juli 1979 - Saddam Hussein becomes the president of the Iraq
16. Juli 1999 - John F. Kennedy Jr (Judge & Publisher) dies
Mood :
Listening to : <>
Thinking of : &&
Member of :
I'm just like a cigarette, baby.
I'll fill you totally and kill you, if you get too close

OK, I'm not ready yet. But I'll be in a few hours. I'm leaving tomorrow at 10 am to see my sweet luv
I'm really looking forward to this, although I have to pay the price of sitting 5 hours in the hot train, but I'd surely bare more than that to see her again. As planned will I stay there for two weeks. And I hope you all will have at least half of the fun we'll surely have. (Not the sex, drugs or other way..just fun..like you have with friends! Mind your thoughts, boys )

I'll take that time to relax & to enjoy everything that's going on there..and to reflect the last 4 days, because they were loaded with impressions and events. And I'll hopefully take some nice shots from that beautiful old city...we'll see.

Goodbye folks

Irina ]]> ~Jalima so.. http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/2853162/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/2853162/ Sun, 11 Jul 2004 01:13:35 PDT
So, I wish you all the best.
Irina ]]> ~Jalima Happy 1k!!! http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/2826272/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/2826272/ Wed, 07 Jul 2004 14:46:11 PDT wouw..you're all so special and great
As I signed up two months ago, I wouldn't have dreamt of this situation. You were all so incredible nice, helpful and warm to me, and now I've arrived the 1k pageviews and..although this might sound silly...this makes me happy.

So, I want to say thank you to :iconsrebni:

and all the other nice persons, that commented or faved my work.

You're just great.

Irina ]]> ~Jalima summer son http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/2814475/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/2814475/ Tue, 06 Jul 2004 03:28:51 PDT I just decided to forget about that summer-thing... (maybe that's the right trick to get the sun out of her hideout! )

and I guess I won't go to the graveyard at Ohlsdorf (for the Hamburg ppl) or the municipal park, because my granny will visit me today and well...I don't see her that often, so I'll be a nice grandchild

Thx for your comments, your watches and of course for every single Pageview We nearly arrived the 1k! ]]> ~Jalima Devious Journal Entry http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/2810713/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/2810713/ Mon, 05 Jul 2004 16:22:02 PDT or jump from a bridge - both sounds really nice to me.

The boys I don't want fall in love with me...and the guys I'd love to come closer don't understand my signals or just...don't want to. Is THAT the thing they call destiny, or...is it just that something wants to protect me against a healthy relationship...or at least the feeling to be loved and to regive that love?
WHERE ARE THE PILLS THAT I CAN SWALLOW TO FIGHT THAT VIRUS? graaaar

just 4get about that...I'm tired...shouldn't write entries late at night. ]]> ~Jalima just a smile http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/2762855/ http://Jalima.deviantart.com/journal/2762855/ Tue, 29 Jun 2004 11:03:56 PDT
I came out of the train, walked to the street and waited for the signs turning green. I was tired and a bit sad, just because I'm uspide down since the day before yesterday and I helped a friend to paint his kitchen today.
There was this guy, genuflecting on the ground in front of a flower shop. I looked at him, just because I'm usually looking at everybody. Then I stood still and concentrated on Motley Crue's "New Tattoo".

He got up, turned around and went to the street. Stood next to me. He turned his head, smiled at me and lifted his hand up. There was a rose in his hand. He gave it to me and grinned a bit unsure. The rose wasn't perfect, but the moment was it.

I couldn't help, I had to smile at him ... and I was so sorry that my only way to thank him was saying "Thank yee" ]]> ~Jalima