http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Jamielle9&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Jamielle9 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 21 Dec 2009 07:14:08 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/26669859/ http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/26669859/ Tue, 18 Aug 2009 11:31:51 PDT .< I know! I'm sorry for ALL the journals!!!

Note me for the new account.

kk so I'll be on this account for like the next week or little longuer but after that I'm done. I really won't go as often on it...like not at all, probably I'll pop up some time then but aww well -_- whatever...you're warned.

]]> ~Jamielle9 http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/26666654/ http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/26666654/ Tue, 18 Aug 2009 08:21:27 PDT It was my DA B-day

I'm quite happy, actualy, that it's been two tough years on sweet DA. tough because lolz I almost quit drawing last year. but, I'm catching up..well I think I am. Anyways hurrayz for me now let's move on... I have to change accounts.. Like I said in my past journal~Devious Entry. For many reasons I have to change.. umm I found a name, I'll be using it from now on. But quite, I'm not letting family memberz know about this so I'll still sometimes go on this account so that they won't be suspiscious of anything. (I'll somtimes make drawings and put them on here, but for my other account I'll change my signature too..maybe? ugh whatever) AND because I'm unnable of giving up this account yet... *sigh* I'll go make the other one right now and let you know...which is going to be hard, cuz zomg I watch 70 poeple and plan to watch them ALL back. And well the poeple who watch me, could you note me? I'll give ya the name account, or I'll just go and note you. But if you have the chance to do it please do..

]]> ~Jamielle9 http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/26545246/ http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/26545246/ Wed, 12 Aug 2009 10:05:57 PDT m< great error. Like I said it's not private enough, she's always looking through my stuff, and I don't want that. Some things aren't ment for her to see. It's not nice hidding stuff from my family but I have to. Cause then they'll nose in on me and ask me questions o\-/o grrrrrr.... I really don't want that. so yeah... I just have to change accounts, well, I don't quite want to abandon this account because Jamielle9 is me and for all I know jamielle9 to me is everything else, lol I use that name for everything and everywhere. ARRRGHHH >W< DAMIT! I'll think of something...well I guess I don't quite need to give up on this account.. but ...I could continue going on this one?? *sobs* nuuuuuu!! I don't want two accounts >m< but I don't want to stay on this one because of the error I did. O.o fudge... but I don't want to leave it either... O.o Well that's complicated ..ugh Anyways, One thing for sure, I'm going to find another name to make another account...

sorry for the loads of journals in like two days. I have to change them constantly so my family won't see them.

anyways, I got a HUGE buzz on Harry Potter movies...and I like the mood/emoticon thing I chose lool... -_- anyways...I'll think of something for the accounts.

ohh and even though I'm going through all of this, I'm still interested in doing comissions, but it will have to wait, cause I can't start anything right now..

]]> ~Jamielle9 http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/26535168/ http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/26535168/ Tue, 11 Aug 2009 19:47:19 PDT ) MEEEEEEEEEP! Plus I've just hit my 3000 pages views *tears* I thank you so dearly poeple All of this is important to me..

BUT... I must say;

Drawing for me, is difficult; because I want to impress poeple. not being show off. There's a difference. I want to impress poeple so bad, that it can be sometimes frustrating for me, because I try so hard, and still I don't think it's enough. It always has to be better. I get discouraged quickly too. Therefore My patience is deadly low and I have no confidence in myslef *sobs* it sucks to feel this way. Drawing to me...Is Everything. It's my way to see things, to show, invent explain...to talk almost. Even at it's most stressfull times...I get myself to try and work hard.

Drawing is the other Half of me. That's what I do. That's how I think, it's how I see, and, how I talk.(expression matters) It's my life. It's my love, I want to become someone, that will mark it's place in time, I want poeple to know me.. I want to be myself but also someone that you can look up to, I'm always ready to help. Always, I'm there.

It's painfull for me to draw, when I think of all these things and mostly, that I want to impress. Because yet again, drawing is my entire univers my life, and I just can't cope with it. Then again, I don't know to where I stand... It's hard because I can't get myself to think I'm good. It's alwasy to be better. It's like a challenge or a competion but with myslef. I'm not trying to be better than anyone, exept myself and it pisses me off royaly.

I HATE IT. For some, drawing is peacefull, never stressing. which is good, but in my state -__- I would rather not draw to not be stressed and chew my thumbs right off of my hand.

It's like fire, and water. Even though somehow you can manage to love each other, they're bound enemies. It's freaking hard, both to explain and bare. I, to ALL artists, no matter what situation you are in, you are capable of drawing! you are everything. You are like a thousand words but within a simple lines. Wether they're curved, straight or complex. No matter what, when or how, never give up...Don't seperate yourself from your gift, your talent and possibly your everything.

Like Fire, that burns away you hope, this is my right half, my life, my gift, talent.
I draw.

Like Water, that cools down emotions, refreshing ideas, this is my left half, my mind, my surrounding, myself.
This is who I am.

Now, I've just touched the tip of what I have in mind. The mere tip. I can't bare what I'm going through right now. What poeple are telling me. The grudges I keep forever. The thoughs that tear me appart. Words hurt, even though they're not sticks or stones. I've been hurt by many poeple and now it's the hardest point of my life, I keep it all in, I'm not able to block it, I can barely separate myself from my broken mind.

Every single thing. I hate, I'm ashamed, I'm hurt, I'm what I am. it truly is the hardest point in my life. I'm not able to fogive the grudges I've held even to this day. I'm sick..and tired...of this.. and yet, my friends...you may think of something, that I would be thinking of, but trust me, you've barely spared the tip of what is in my mind.

But...Then again, I feel more alone then ever, and I can't get myself to accept it because I've started to hate so many poeple. Just because I hate, of the things some did to me, it's finaly turning back on them, late, but finaly, I'm letting some out. I don't know what to do, I feel just so mad lately, at poeple not my Best Friends of course and my watchers ( I'm not mad at youz that's for sure) but the way I feel right now, I can't explain. But it's madening. Terrifying. I'm not like that usualy but just to let you know that's how I feel. even though I'm trying not to let it show...

I.H.A.D.W. find that out, and then you'll have the scare of your life. but then again you might just not care.

--Drexor btw I hope you get better very soon, I wish I could be there to cheer you up my dear friend, but nuuu I wouldn't want to be a bother to you. lolz anyways take care and rest well--

--nouuuu and btw, can't wait to see ya on the 13th step-nii-san http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/26255415/ Wed, 29 Jul 2009 13:15:44 PDT I really dun know but I want to know, so umm could I ask you a favor? Just to anyone that does comissions, how do you manage?? Though yeah, what do you guys think?? bout me doing comissions?? -.- naww you probably dun know or dun really want to comission me, but still, lol do you think I'd be good I'm discouraged already >...< nawwwww the hell with it, I really want to try, omg omgomg and yeah if ever I do comissions PLEASE NO DIRTY StUFf >~< I dun do that kind of stuff..

o_O' oh yeah bout Target view, I was asked to join but err yeah I checked the site out with my friend Drex, and yeah there's like wow AMASING POEPLE WHO DRAW AMSING STUFF. I'm actualy like really not that good compared to them but I still want to try >.< cause yeah i'm thinking of starting to sell my art, never thought I would but yaa, I want to..kindda.

neeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhh I dun know what to do, I'll try and find poeple who can help me out with comissions, but if randomly you know please let meh know

]]> ~Jamielle9 http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/25972244/ http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/25972244/ Wed, 15 Jul 2009 20:22:52 PDT
(UPDATED THIS------> I GOT A NOTE FROM ~semmosamo KYAAAA TO BE IN TARGET VIEW!!! I had no clue at first what it was but it's a site were I can put drawings enter to contest win prizes and sell my art I could have up to 80%of the price (I read quickly and i'm tired so this may not make sense) HE CHOSE ME!!!!*again* AND HE TOLD ME I HAD Awesome pics and WOW that made me even more happy <--hehe took that icon from ~noona-ninna. lool Anyhow I'm totaly going to check out the site! )
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WELL most of my drawing are posted on DA, see I told ya I started drawing again SWEEE maybe not as good BUT just AS good!!! sorry that was lame. ANYWAYS!!! To let reveryone know, I'm still alive...kindda JUST KIDDING sorry im in a great mood. Probably gonna change in a few hours but still, yes to let you know that I'm still alive but that I'm less AND less on DA sorry about that my summer vaccation is driving me nuts, going everywhere that I don't want to be... like moving to my moms for 2 days then back at my dads REPEAT OVER AND OVER! I don't like moving. well yes I do but like, I like to settle down at one place and stay there ya know? Sure I'm adventurous and all and I'd love to go everywhere but to move from my moms to dads to moms to dads sorry but I don't like that. >.> OKOK what am I ranting for again...err nothing, but still im in a good mood which means I'm probably gonna read this another time and think this was so stupid to write haha lol *tries to hide smile* EPIC FAIL

Umm yeah I won't be much on DA, cuz i don't have the time at all I'm busy doing everything and nothing, so I just had to let you know that if I don't go on for like a week it's perfectly normal

ohoh I also want to thank all the poeple who faved my new stuff kyaaaaa you were all so fast...and hey you're up late!! lol so am I *slaps forehead* ok i think I need to go to bed.

G'bye

One more thing..... I ADORE MY BOY GABRIEL!!!!!!!!!! http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/25366072/ Wed, 17 Jun 2009 04:44:39 PDT
]]> ~Jamielle9 http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/25090747/ http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/25090747/ Tue, 02 Jun 2009 14:51:00 PDT atleast I'm not like that guy ----->


GOOD NEWS this is what I wanted to say, I've made up my first video and uploaded it on Youtube!! YAY I CAN'T BELIEVE I MADE UP MY MIND TO PUT IT ON YT! [link]
Do ya remember drex, when we were filming? well, since I couldn't work with videos on Windows Movie Maker, I decided to take snap shots of some of the videos we recorded. Actualy, I'm realy proud on how this came out. I think that for a picture slide show, the work and all that I've put in it, is realy worth it, and I'm realy happy on how this came out. Though Yes I am afraid that poeple will steal my stuff, NOW PLEASE DON'T STEAL MY STUFF


thank you pwease enjoy. Now... I'm going back to bed.

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]]> ~Jamielle9 http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/24991243/ http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/24991243/ Thu, 28 May 2009 04:07:23 PDT
so umm... yeah, I think that's it.... How are you poeple?

]]> ~Jamielle9 http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/24985629/ http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/24985629/ Wed, 27 May 2009 18:40:05 PDT ~< neeeehh!!! Tears, Laughters, slaughters, pain, dammage, Eveything is going on at the same time! I can't bare it! Emotions, distractions, So many thoughs! DAMN! I'm literaly killing myself with my thoughs!!! *alright deep breaths*

- - - .......... Why me? Just everything is going on wether it's wrong or awesome, >o< I get so down lately, then couple of mins later I'm fine or inverse I'm so hyper then I become down! What's happening!???? It's so weird!!??!! I'm confused!! ARRGGHH I was fine just a couple of mins ago actualy as was realy fine! Now I'm just soo lost in my thoughs! I hate to bare this! I'm scared to come to a point I think that's it, I damn SCARED! For what I don't know, so much to think about and so much that I don't know, I've been through this stage before, to a point were I knew I couldn't hold on to the fact that I wasn't moving on and that I couldn't go back! I'm so dead afraid that this feeling is coming back! weird dreams have been going on too... GRRRRR.. STUPID DEMENTED COUCH!!!!! >~< okay, I know that's the funny part, lol as in the weirdest dreams ANYONE would ever dream of in the hole world. Like things I don't even know where it comes from XDDX. MK I'm a little better now, frustration is leaving a bit.

Dreams don't reassure me anymore. They're painfull ever so more, I use to love dreaming.(well I still like the good dreams...I just hate the ones I'm having lately) Thing is I remember my dreams as if they were a graved memory, that scared me for life, I remember most of my dreams. And most of 'em are bad ones. But I don't want to hate dreams. Cauz I love dreaming! Aint that confusing???? that's only one part of it, there's so much I'd like to rant about, but it's just useless. cause of my mood swings, so here... -_-' I'll be fine tonight and probably tommorow, I'lll show up at school with a smile. neeehhhhh >~<

It has nothing absolutely nothing to do with anyone I swear! I reassure you, and I swear it on my head... it's just that........ There's something about my headaches that scares me. my headaches and stuff, i don't usualy like to share this with anyone, but I always have headaches and well I've tried eating better and stuff, it's true I don't eat all the time like sometimes I skip a few hours after lunch time before eating, though I do eat. Every day in the morning I wake up with a headache. I trie to go to bed early as in usualy I'm in bed at 8:30 (don't comment on that please) I wake up ALL THE FREAKIN TIME at 5:00am. I realy don't know why, though on weekends I get to sleep more ^v^ errrrr....whut else wus I gonna say? OHH yeah, and well eummm... what else could possibly cause me a headache? it's not my eyes I've checked them just recently, and well, the eye doctor thigny said it wasn't 20/20 but still I dun need glasses. and From another doctor I've ask this Troubling question.

Could it be a cancer, I mean like a tumeur or a brain cancer...... and she.. she just looked down, trying to find her words, to find something to tell me! SHE DIDN"T TELL ME ANYTHING! she did not answer! I'm just afraid, my dad thinks it's my diet and well do you blame me for not eating well?????? for all what's going on in my mind!!??? even, another doctor told me I should go get scans, listen up, it's been over two years, I've been having those headaches, I'd say by now it's been three years, it's not normal, some poeple eat less then me are skinnier than me and even they pass breakfast and dinner withough eating, and THEY don't have headaches!!! What if?? What if something goes wrong, and it's too late. I don't want to leave. I.... T.T

And to say that this huge crushing feeling I have right now only lasted an hour or three

ohh..pickles.. oh hey that's one of my dreams that I remember! the one where my grand-parents turned into pickle slices!!! XDX wow I'd tell ya the hole story but my journal is long enough. (If your interested by any chance lol note me XD I'd love to tell ya dreams.)

Now here's a happy part of my life. I'v started drawing again...oh wait one bad part to add. I have a headache. XP as I was saying, I'm drawing!
>o> mood swings again.

... And there, I'm gonna stop wrighting my non-sense

Sorry for bad typing.... lol I'm typing in the dark XD

]]> ~Jamielle9 http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/24617046/ http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/24617046/ Wed, 06 May 2009 11:47:49 PDT
I've started drawing AGAIN!!! I never thought I would and certainly the way it was going!! WOW I can't believe it I'm actualy drawing!!! It's been almost a whole year I havn't drawn!!! WAAAAZZAAAAAAAA!!!! *cries* ALright it's not the best I've ever done, like I'm realy not as good as before but I realy think I can get better if I try!!! Plus I've started coloring every work I do! It's marvelous and and and!!! OMG!!!! YAYZ!!!! Though I can't put anything on DA cuz I got no way to put anything on right now

Actualy I have nothing to add... thought I did butI'm not going to add anything on this journal. and though I say I'm happy about the fact that I started drawing again, I am pist off, and yes my mood is righ. That's just part of another story.

Have a good day everyone

]]> ~Jamielle9 http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/24256842/ http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/24256842/ Wed, 15 Apr 2009 13:14:37 PDT ---> Dont drink that Bleh

OKay thats it, hmm okay i've been pretty good lately. but I'm still not realy drawing anything It might come back soon I hope. Anyways, I'll always be checking in, as usual and maybe will I post something if I get this art buzz again (pwease! why won't u come back??????) anyways. meh dun have much to say. so goo'bye



oh oh! I gotta joke! gotta joke!! hehehehehehe

What did the volcano, say to the other volcano???

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I LAVA YOU!!!!









awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

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]]> ~Jamielle9 http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/22513924/ http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/22513924/ Sat, 10 Jan 2009 20:39:12 PST I know I'm not always on DA. And I appoligize for that. But this is just to let you know, that from this instint, I will be spending even less time on DeviantArt then before. I want to take a break, mostly because I'm sick and tired of drawing, so I think this is a good time to take a good long break. And for the story I'm writting, just to let you know, that I still have the intention to put it on DA as promised. So please If you have ANYTHING, important to tell me, contact me on my hotmail Jamielle9@hotmail.com ( or the famous phone call ) if you have my number of course....right Drex? Right step-nii-san??

Is there any rejections to this journal? If not, then I will silently take my retreat.

Anyhow, an other reason to leave DA for a while is to try and get healthy again, I've started to have migranes and head-aches again, I don't sleep well, I don't eat much because of my f***ing holes in my mouth( by the way step-nii-san ---> OUI C DES ULSERES!)

I've lost like over 7 pounds! wich I realy don't need to loose since I'm already so skinny... geez, I'm now having trouble to walk because I started shaking again, It's been 3 days now that I've started to shake again, I'm always constantly freezing....my skin is so white, I can hardly believe it myself.....

one thing though, that shocked me the most...Is, that I just don't care.

]]> ~Jamielle9 http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/21630086/ http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/21630086/ Sun, 23 Nov 2008 11:45:47 PST
Just a welcoming, to you, I've heard you were supposed to visit this site sooner or later. Don't know when, but hey, it's your first time here on Deviantart. On this site you can find the many creations of hundreds of poeple here. All of them has there own style and most of all, has a very great talent in art; Photgraphie, paintings, traditionnal art or Digital, fanart and many more. I realy hope you enjoy my little section of Deviantart, I havn't had the time to add all of my drawings on this site, so enjoy what I have with me now Oh, and you can find the horse section in the 3rd page of my gellry, you'll find the pages written at the bottom of my gallery.

have a great day, to all of you BMO's. Good day to you as well Jen <---- gotta love that bonhomme!

]]> ~Jamielle9 http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/21568399/ http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/21568399/ Wed, 19 Nov 2008 15:30:01 PST
I looked again toward Sakima11, she still had her big smile and started laughing. She said two word; Death-note.
I was tramatized but I tried to not let it show... Drex, you know what this means, You do, and it scrares the shit out of me.
So I answered back: You wrote her name in your death note? I said now with a sly smile.
-Yeah! she said again with her big smile, but lately all it's one is make poeple sick, I've tried it on.... (someone she told me I can't remember) and it made her sick, and now our teacher.
Sakima11, I said, what if she gets a heart attack??
She hooked me another smile. and our day continued, withought seeing our teacher for the rest of the day.


Today.... No sign of her yet. scared and happy in same time. weird mix. She's maybe just sick because they didn't announce her death in the microphones yet, but what if she's in the hospital? because her heart failed? Eeeshhhh.. Ahh well, restfull art class won't fail to hit me if so happens. but still, think of it, If that was a heart att. could it be do to the death note drex? Yeah I know I'm going histerical, I know, poeple don't think it's possible, but I believe, and now stronger then ever... Third attempt, with the death note and it didn't fail.

]]> ~Jamielle9 http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/21487695/ http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/21487695/ Fri, 14 Nov 2008 16:01:04 PST I've been non-stop, trying to think over this situation. It's in my head graved, deep into my head and closer than ever. Quit, just quit, no more problems. It's constantly on my mind, of course it would be easy, two words : I quit.
But what if I want to start drawing again, what if I get the erge of drawing for fun? I can't quit, but I want to. It's right on the tip of my tongue. two words, and it's over.
plus school doesn't help at all in this dillema, every single day, I have art, I don't have the patiences anny more to enjoy it. What happened to the girl I was who always loved to draw, and now, take a second look at her and she's disgust by the thought of drawing. 1h15. everyday. not long, but way too much. [link]..... It's long. my bitch face teacher supposedly proffesional who's way over the age of teaching now.... that should of been on the retreat for long now, doesn't respect my limits. She pushes me non-stop, forcing me. I hate it, It's driving me nuts, I don't feel like drawing, I'm not in the mood. Oh but wait, since when? days? weeks? months? Yes it's been months I've been over thinking this. And still yet I havn't quit. I probably had close calls, but I took my senses back and startted over. But now, yeah, now.

I don't know, what to do, I can't take a break, because I'm forced to continue, don't even bother to argue about trying to talk to that bitch, she won't let me instead she'll kick me out of class, and I'll just be stuck with my still-not-done-drawing for next class. And I barely have time for myself because I don't feel like I should take the time annymore but please, I need help, advice, What should I do? I'm realy stuck out here, Should I stay or should I go...

plz comment on your descision to help me move forward.

]]> ~Jamielle9 http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/20476259/ http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/20476259/ Sat, 13 Sep 2008 17:35:35 PDT For all those, who have anny suggestions of drawings or request(wich ever) Don't send it to me on DA,(eccept if you cant) Send it to me on my hotmail. Annyone is free to add me contact me or send stuff to me(drawings mostly) on this following hotmail;

jamielle9@hotmail.com

Annyways, suit yourself.

now....ummmmm.... well I cleared myself on that chapter, so I guess I could talk about my story;
First off, SOOONER OR LATER!!! my story will be plubished, hopefully with the Intouchable house edition thing, I'm realy getting exited and never the less, I'm quickly finishing my story. I've talked to onw of my french teachers and she tols me that she knew alot of publishers and she would care to correct my messy work(Because I suck in french and of course I had to write my story in french).

Thanks alot Mme. euhhhh.... I forgot the name of.... annyways, you must know a couple of my character's. But their's only one problem.... in all my story I only have 2 girls.... and well, the first one doesn't realy count because she's not there(dead from the start), and the second well, disapears... so I need to find more girl character's and to find girl names... that are never the less a tincy bit japanese. So please if you have an Idea for names, please let me know.

]]> ~Jamielle9 http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/19554787/ http://Jamielle9.deviantart.com/journal/19554787/ Wed, 23 Jul 2008 12:12:26 PDT
It's been about a year and a half now that I'm working on my book, titled ^^(french version)Sur le reflet du Metal^^ I know it's a french book and I hate myself for that, But I'm planing to re-write my book in english and put it on DA, well, it's gonna be long but also fun.

Ok this is what Iv'e been doing Lately, I've been stuck on drawing my lil' boys! Gabriel and Byron, here's a quick description Gabriel, 16years old, he's 5feet11inches with long black hair. His cloths are still being changed every so often, so I can't realy tell. He has one red eye and the other in purple. As for Byron, he is 15 years old and he is 6feet2inches. His hair is a short red-ish with a touch of brown. His eyes are light gray, with a sparkle of green. His cloths to are still being changed often... Both of my characters are boys. Before I used to take them like if they were just a character for my book, but now, They became my lil' boys! I have more pics of them comming up soon!

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