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deviantART: by:Jazbagz http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Jazbagz&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Jazbagz en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 25 Nov 2009 01:47:07 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png Perfect Media :3 http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/28551589/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/28551589/ Tue, 24 Nov 2009 16:00:02 PST
Such diversity.

To be edited I reckon.

Wanting to sleep.

I am currently doing Media;
Photography & Film

Absolutely adoring it

It's so me, I just can't believe a place like this exists, yknow? :]
<3
after years of having weird classes, this is just too good

Been in CSM darkroom finally. It was pretty exciting, I find I am so quick now in the darkroom, so much practise previously.

If anyone is interested in film/has any advice on working in video, I'm curious as a lot of this is very new to me. Very exciting stuff.

No doubt I'll update fairly soon with more detail. :]

Currently working on like 4 projects a week

Lots of work!

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]]> ~Jazbagz Vintage Girls Shoot http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/28058495/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/28058495/ Sat, 31 Oct 2009 05:35:31 PDT
I'm inbetween being busy at the moment, so I thought I'd take this moment to write this journal! Just had a rather successful driving lesson, off to north east london in a few minutes to photograph some lovely students who dress in vintage clothing for a poster of a WI society for younger women they are setting up. I love how word gets around when you're studying with new people. It's so exciting. Already had two people ask me for portrait commissions, well a few more but these two are serious types of jobs. (Then again... nothing's ever serious with me

)!

Slightly nervous as I haven't sussed out the location they want to be photographed in but I'll make do, got my 18-55 lens ready. I probably should get a new lens but I'm one of those people who is happy to make do unless it's necessary. I will be finishing a gorgeous roll of medium format on monday, getting it developed for wednesday hopefully! It's all rather exciting actually. Especially now I'm studying Visual Communications, I think it's almost more my type of thing. I'm sortof... in between fine art and vis comm, personally.

If any of you like to follow 'blogs' of types. I am currently writing things 'daily' in a wordpress site. [link] It's called my Concept Box because right now all my thoughts are just full of ideas, I write them in sketchbooks all day long. When I think of things that are a little bit more than silly I write them in there. :]

My love life took a bit of a dip earlier this month or so, but I'm gearing up for happy and motivated with my art now. I can't believe how busy I am really. So many things to do all the time. I love it.

]]> ~Jazbagz So How was your day? http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/27953403/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/27953403/ Sun, 25 Oct 2009 04:54:32 PDT
That's nuts!

[link]

Please can you take part in this project I am doing in media at university?

I'd appreciate it if you did it as soon as possible. Tell anyone else you know to give it a go too! The more the better!

I'll be writing some lovely journal again soon. Life is hectic.

]]> ~Jazbagz America + UNIVERSITY <3 http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/27422033/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/27422033/ Sat, 26 Sep 2009 04:56:10 PDT
Of course I've been so away from the computer recently as I've started UNIVERSITY. I'm doing Art for a year, then choosing my full degree next year. It's like a year 0. It has turned out to be absolutely fantastic so far, some parts are long and drawn out compared to other times but it's sooooo cool.

I feel like I've been there a month but it's only the end of my first week! Then again I've been feeling this course for the past few months, so no wonder really. I love my new friends, I have lots of asian friends who are perfectly hilarious! A few other really good friends that are english too! So many fascinating people, I just love going in everyday (gosh that is sad).

I have started with two weeks in 3D & Spatial Design which is pretty intense, I've finished a sketchbook of sketching from galleries and observations around me, 3xA1 (594mm Ã 841mm)sheets that are filled with more sketches and observations, as well as 12 small scale sculptures that will inspire the next stage of making a large scale model, with some sortof purpose. It's all rather exciting really! (Though 5 hours making sculptures out of boxes was a bit slow haha)

Something that made me smile the other day was, we were talking about people at uni and how some people are unapproachable 'cos they come across as grumpy or something. Then my new friend Than said I must find that 'cos I'm always out for a laugh! Either the past week has changed me substantially or this guy doesn't know me AT ALL yet. I find myself being the one in the background wishing I was having fun, rather than going out there and making it happen. Whereas this week, I've had the most fun in months, maybe even years! I really appreciated what he said though, I've always wanted to be 'fun' in real life, I'm quite happy online but in day to day life I tend to turn into a big pessimist.

HOORAH FOR OPTIMISM. I hope it sticks.

I'll be journalling sometime -soon- with the link to the emails.

Hope you're all having fantastic times.

]]> ~Jazbagz Health Fair http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/27010475/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/27010475/ Fri, 04 Sep 2009 07:27:59 PDT
]]> ~Jazbagz Brenham and Supermarket! http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/26991389/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/26991389/ Thu, 03 Sep 2009 07:08:51 PDT
I'll edit this later I reckon! Byeee

]]> ~Jazbagz In Texas http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/26972121/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/26972121/ Wed, 02 Sep 2009 06:55:12 PDT I feel like a complete goon here, just giggling at absolutely everything. I've fantasized about coming here way too long, I reckon. I used to want to come visit Lyndon all the time for a long time. I went to my first american mall yesterday and that was just insane. The shops here are so weird, like you have a really weird shop that does one thing and in england would have a tiny stall, but it's in a massive warehouse size room, right next to a classy Calvin Klein shop. I went in my first diner on my own too, and there was like no one in there. So the waiter came over and I asked him how big the burgers were and he was like, WELL LYK THEY'RE HUGE MA'AAM, MOST PEOPLE CUT THEM IN HALF AND TAKE THEM HOME WITH THEM, WANT FRIES WID DAT? And I giggled like a muppet and was like, oh god it's going to be huge it's going to be huge i'm so scard. And it came and it was a normal size and he grinned at me. I'm so bad at figuring when people are kidding. All in all, I can really understand why people like being here. x] I guess for me it's just all so different.

]]> ~Jazbagz Weird Photography + Facebook Page http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/26888896/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/26888896/ Sat, 29 Aug 2009 04:54:49 PDT
Expect my work to be of the weird kind, my work in generic photography will become less and less. I don't get nearly as much pageviews/favourites (not that they matter) for the work I actually enjoy making or thinking up. That can only mean two things,
1. It's not as strong as my other work and I need more practise in it, or
2. Deviantart is not the place to be a diverse and wacky artist, it is built for the majority and stereotypes.

I reckon it's a bit of both personally, a little bit of everything else. I'll go with dominantly the first idea, as I do enjoy being on dA and to think it's not for me makes me a little sad inside.

But yes, more and more I can't bring myself to photograph things like daily life/events/memories. This makes me ever so sad, but it's because of what I attach to my big Canon. I need to rummage through my old things and get out my banged up 4mp point and shoot I started with, and snap away to my hearts content. This was newly inspired by a friends view against this idea of "art". It's never been art to me, it's just been part of the essence of life.

I've been preparing for University, I have a project which I'm fulfilling today and tomorrow morning (need to get up early to shoot it). Wonderwall + Crossroads.

Sometimes my room feels like it's got a wonderwall. Well most of the time, ever since I first set foot in it, I've always felt like I'm being watched. Perhaps it's a good thing, perhaps not. Perhaps why I'm never in it.

I'm off to Houston, Texas soon. I want me some lucky charms. Rather excited of course but nothing too crazy.

Keep my grandfather in your thoughts right now. Though my little soul worries a little too much I reckon.

Facebook Fanpage
I thought I'd give it a go, basically I made a facebook fanpage for my work, so people can follow me on there as well as on here etc.
[link]

]]> ~Jazbagz Booked up Summer http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/26371974/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/26371974/ Tue, 04 Aug 2009 02:01:50 PDT
I've booked my flight to houston, Just need to get my VISA sorted now and insurance. It's all happening at once and it's awesome. I went round my best friend Lydia's house yesterday, ~Yamapikaya and I totally won at Cluedo, naughty Professor Plum, in the ballroom with the Rope. Hahahaha.

I still have loads of work to scan in and put on dA, loooads of it. I need to do a hell a lot of drawing and I really don't feel like it, I need to boost myself somehow.

If you go on dAmn, I think you should at least check out this place:
#triggerHAPPY
[link]

Hmm... To be honest, my whole summer is pretty much booked up now. It feels weird... to think... it'll go so quick then I'll be in London and aaaah. x] I can't wait but also I'm freaking out like crazy. Ah well, Life goes on. I'll need to think about next year soon.

Inspiring Deviation
I really must say, I adore this deviation right now.
Absolutely adore it.

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]]> ~Jazbagz *Rubs Teethies* http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/26248696/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/26248696/ Wed, 29 Jul 2009 06:34:07 PDT
It's put the beta tester symbol even though I haven't had a sub for months now, and they fixed it and gave me a week subscription. I'm quite pleased as now I can try out some of the new features. I have nowhere near enough money to spare for a real subscription so I guess this is a cheer up moment.

I tried out the new portfolio system: [link]

Quite good, I am designing my website at the moment and it's a similar process, even doing this has helped me think out a few things.

I had another glitch where dA thought I was 18+ ever since I can remember even though I put my real date of birth in. When I went to check it says my date of birth is the year 2000, which is of course impossible for me. So yeah, I could see mature deviations like anyone else and when they blocked that for under 18s, I could still see them o_o.

Ah well, wasn't such a great thing but it made me laugh.

Jesus I've got a huge stomach ache, I need to get offline and do something else.

Gah.

Talk soon.

Some Favourites

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]]> ~Jazbagz Such a Long Time http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/26205416/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/26205416/ Mon, 27 Jul 2009 06:36:03 PDT
[link]

Here's my exhibition, as promised (like a month ago rofl)

I've been to Devon for a week to see =WALLWAGER, I've been on a course in London at Central Saint Martins for a course in Alternative Photographic Processes. The best course I've been on so far, soooo brilliant. I'll be scanning in a lot of my prints and everything for you all to see. ^_^

I'm finally down to designing my website ^_^

I really can't wait

xxxx

]]> ~Jazbagz FINISHED http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/25487065/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/25487065/ Tue, 23 Jun 2009 02:46:21 PDT I finished all my exams, I'm just putting the finishing touches to my exhibition then I'll photograph it all for you lovely goons to see. Not that a lot of you are on dA much anymore. x]x]x]

I'm quite excited at the moment as I am planning my trip to America I'm going to make in September. I've never been to america before and most of you lovely people on here that I have befriended are americans and I just can't wait to actually experience your country. I know I know, what a muppet, America is like everywhere else, but everyone knows that everywhere is different. For years america for me hasn't physically existed, just a place in the movies, a place people come from... and now I get to see it with my own eyes. It's going to be a shock, I tell ya. Haha.

I better be off, I have to get my prints ready to staple into the wall.

]]> ~Jazbagz Almost There... http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/25294151/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/25294151/ Sat, 13 Jun 2009 16:08:06 PDT
Till then I will be reading and doing as much french as I can, as well as preparing my end of year art exhibition. Photos will follow, I promise.

I feel a little... strange, at the moment. Being 18... About to study in London... Having all these opportunities ahead of me. It makes me feel all sick and freaky. I guess loads of people go through this all the time. Silly Jaz.

My Birthday was nice, I just had my best friends over, we went out to an eat as much as you like chinese place, yumyumyum. Then we came back to mine and tried to watch Spirit (the Disney film ^.^) but our DVD is damaged, and then just as we were going to start watching my Ouran Host Club DVD (that I got for my birthday), my brother found my DVD of Fifth Element (my favourite film of all time). I think one of my friends in particular was glad he didn't have to sit through Ouran.

Then we had sandwiches and a cake. My oma bought the cake! :3 It was a white kitty. Lawl. Soooo cute. I have left it's cute little icing cheeks for nommings later.

I still haven't been able to toast to my birthday, I've still got the wine in the kitchen. RosÃ©, my favourite. ^_^ I got a Holga from my best friend Lydia for my birthday, which is yummmmy. I popped an Ilford B/W 400 ISO film in there and I'm already on 13 shots out of 16. Haha. Ah well. I was such a noob at the beginning, I was like, OMFG WHY DOESN'T HTE NUMBER 1 SHOW UP OMFGMFGMDFMGMDFMGDMF1?>!?!?!

It made me remember one of the first times I used my Pentax, I put the film in, then thought it wasn't working, so I wound it back into the canister (by accident). I went on and on about how this ruddy film had got stuck in the canister and that it was a problem with the camera or the film. Oh how that makes me giggle now. Life is rather funny, one second something makes no sense at all and with one explanation, a whole series of events makes perfect sense. *shakes head*

Anyway, I'm just about to go to bed, I feel a bit woozy today. It's been that sortof day, so tiring.

Ah well, life goes on.

Hope you're all okay, I think about a grand lot of you everyday.

]]> ~Jazbagz We're getting there http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/25191567/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/25191567/ Mon, 08 Jun 2009 05:04:18 PDT
I'm not really getting any presents this year, which sometimes happens. But yeah, life is weird at the moment so I'm trying to keep my spirits up.

I love the Sims 3, it's so strange how obsessed I can get about a little bit of code heh. I even dream as if I'm in the Sims the past few days. I keep dreaming about being in my grandparents house as well.

I'm so fragile at the moment, keeping my face smiling though.

I was thinking of getting myself a Holga for my birthday. I wanted Freaks n Geeks DVD for my birthday, but it's Region 1 DVD :[ so yknow I haven't got that sort of DVD player.

I'll do my little Sims 3 blurt now heh... The first time I played it, it felt like what I felt like the second before I played the first sims. The same feeling, the same wishes, and the majority of them were fulfilled. It's a fantastically recreated game.

There are surprises everywhere and lots of old memories merged into it. I love how the neighbourhood gets on with their own lives, marrying, divorcing, having children... etc. It's so subtle but so clever. There was a family called the Atkins family, who were all very very obese, and I invited them round my house for a campaign fundraiser and they were all stick thin. It was such a shock, just like I hadn't seen my old boss in a while and he had grown old. It's not just about the characters interacting with eachother, it's to do with you interacting and "experiencing" their life.

I love the traits! You can have sims with commitment issues, some that are crazy and talk to themselves, some which are workaholics, some that are absent-minded... daredevils... kleptomaniacs... hot-headed... etc

When I go out with my sims to the town to meet a new friend, I'm confronted with not, LETS MAKE THEM FRIENDS AS QUICKLY AS POSSIBLE. I am confronted with, oh they don't have sense of humour... right I'll tell them about my recent promotion... ooh they thanked me...okay I'll ask them about their career... Ooooh they're a few promotions below me... Let's talk about the Office... etcetcetc

Or if you're the mother figure, you walk down the street to the grocer's for your baby's birthday cake, and tell the people on the way about your children and announce that you've got another on the way, then she can stop off at the art gallery on the way home for a few hours... then walking back home the way past the school and catching her kids before they come out and going to the park for a picnic before heading home for the birthday party.

Parties can have like 10-15 people or something (I never counted), which is pretty damn awesome. It really feels like a party. I have lots of work/campaign fundraising parties etc as they helped my man get up in both the careers he started.

My daughter became a fulltime author, trying for Â£4,000 a week in royalties. My little child daughter is a chess champion, always going to the park for the tournaments. Her aspirations are to be a top Surgeon, so she'll have no trouble in the logic department, but only have to read lots of medical journals to get her research up to scratch.

My other son, is a brave boy and goes out fishing early in the morning till late at night. He has a pet jellyfish in a bowl next to his bed, I called him Squishy. ^^ omg kawaii.

My other sons are twins with red hair, one's a excitable daredevil, and the other is insane and neurotic. They're sooo cute, with their big eyes looking up and giggling and riding their bikes everywhere. I just love it to be frank.

It's the distraction I really needed at this time in my life, as sad as it sounds.

I'm doing okay though, I probably wil lbe accounting sims things in my Tumblr someday soon.

BUY THE SIMS 3 :3 srsly

unless you're a tough man who thinks it's silly, Â¬_Â¬ then you don't deserve to play it *lol*

Happy birthday Jaz for tomorrow xxxx

]]> ~Jazbagz Today's the Day http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/25100067/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/25100067/ Wed, 03 Jun 2009 02:07:20 PDT Today's the day.

*gestures for a hug*

I have 2 big exams tomorrow, wish me luck...

I keep muttering under my breath, Come on Life... Hurry up. I want these exams over, and then hitting myself for wishing my life away. Every second alive, every heartbeat, every breath, every blink of the eyelids, they're all sacred moments of being alive.

The Sims 3 is coming out this Friday, that's enough to make my heart beat faster.

I just hope so badly that my computer will take it, I will be so very upset if it doesn't.

Pathetic? I know x]]

Ah well, not much of an update. I just need a lot of support the next few days.

]]> ~Jazbagz Luke's Stay http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24980637/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24980637/ Wed, 27 May 2009 14:17:44 PDT Luke is going home in a few hours which is a sad feeling but it's been a great week.
I really needed him to give support and things right now, I feel much stronger and happier now.

... a couple of hours later...
Luke's gone now, feels sorta strange, having him here for so long. I must put my head down and get on with life now though, so much work and ideas to do, not enough time to do it. As usual haha.

We went to see X-Men Origins, finally haha. It wasn't SPECTACULAR, as in I would never buy the film but it was a good night out, and I love Hugh Jackman as Wolverine. *girlygiggle*

We also went to a train model exhibition in my town which was brilliant! ^___^ Oh the White Middle-class Elderly Males! But all in all, it was amazing, especially the ones with steam. I'm the sort of person that appreciates art in many forms and a lot of those set-ups were incredible pieces of art, in physics and aesthetics.

I can't wait till after all my exams where I can sit down and go, LETS GO DO THIS.

Oh my... it will be absolute bliss.

For years I've sat here and gone, gah i want to get away, a few weeks ago I was going, AHHH I'M LEAVING OMG... Now I'm back to, omg win omg leaving and moving on.

My grandad has his first doses of chemotherapy at the end of next week, I want to give as much support as I can, even though I have my exams.

Man I want a hug right now. x]

]]> ~Jazbagz Ganbatte Jasmine! http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24807907/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24807907/ Sun, 17 May 2009 15:36:25 PDT
Today we watched the Sound of Music and have been singing along to the songs ever since haha.

I have my photography exam tomorrow, the last of it. Here's to a day of hell tomorrow.

GANBATTE JASMINE GANBATTE

Last thing, I am much better than yesterday and the day before now. I was in such a state of shock, as can be understood I guess. I'm slowely NOT losing my mind but I do still feel rather fragile. Though this news I guess is quite irrelevant to most of you. Nice to think some (/a lot) of you care about my wellbeing. ^.^

xxxx

_{_{(Ganbatte = You can do it/Good luck)}}

]]> ~Jazbagz *hugs her grandad* http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24781198/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24781198/ Sat, 16 May 2009 05:13:34 PDT
I went to a friend's birthday evening as such, watched an amazing film; Survive Style 5+
[link]
I haven't seen such an amazing film for a while, just what I needed to get my mind off things

I'm just about to go see my grandad, since I haven't seen him since I nursed him the night before last. I miss him and I feel all screwed up inside.

I really need luke now, and I'm so glad he's going to be here soon.

Just gotta keep strong and keep on going.

I don't know when I'm going to be able to take my final images for photography, it'll have to be a close shave on monday... :[

Unless I don't go to see my grandad and rush the actual images... Hmm...

Maybe wasn't suuuch a good idea using film but tbh I really wanted to, and b/w film is really sexy...

If the film dies or something, I am actually screwed \o/

But yeah... enough yadda... I gonna go.. do something haha

Bye you guys! Thanks for being there for me

xxxx

]]> ~Jazbagz Sorry Guys + (edit: darkroom photo) http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24732028/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24732028/ Wed, 13 May 2009 04:32:51 PDT
I wanted to ask you all to keep your thoughts with my grandad who had some tests done yesterday to see what this tumor in his lungs is, if it's cancerous yaddayadda. My father is fairly well now, he's trying to get better to go abroad to work etc.

Luke is coming next week which is rather exciting, coming to fix some PCs and give me some moral support and that.

This past two weeks I've had my last studio session and also my last darkroom session, the last ones for quite a while. In honour of this, I thought to put up a picture of me in the studio one of my models took a few weeks back;

[link]
What a goon, eh?

I'm the one on the left, obviously 8D
And yes that is my Totoro plushie in the middle there
Â¬.Â¬;; It's sooo not my lucky mascot

All in all, Life is stressful but I'm feeling exceptionally creative, I guess it's a huge release for me. Come onnnn Freedom!

EDITEDITEDIT
I found this photo I took of me in the darkroom on my phone, like agggges ago
[link]
Definitely appropriate <3 ;.;

]]> ~Jazbagz Green Boots http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24680295/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24680295/ Sun, 10 May 2009 05:19:30 PDT I'll be off to do a load of work in a second.

Last day of school tomorrow, I'm wearing my infamous green boots
[link]

:[ they're just a little too tight now, I need to lose a lil bit to fit in them perfectly
but they still fit :3 <333 my precious babies

I need to buy some new boots, guhhh they drive my insides crazy
<333

Anyway, I've been stupidly looking at university things for next year
I should be focusing on the work I have to do now, but I was worried about Open days coming up, which I can't attend in the first place ;.; how lame

Lots of work to do.

*gets on with it*

Can't wait to stop doing the life-sucking creative work I'm doing now, and get back into what I truly love to do.

]]> ~Jazbagz Home again + Moving on http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24534541/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24534541/ Fri, 01 May 2009 16:58:10 PDT
My dad is out of hospital, and home. He's got more medication to take, probably makes him that tad bit more grumpy but at least he's home and safe, as such. He's been helping me with my french now and then.

French oral next tuesday, then an art exam wednesday, thursday and friday.

Then that's it, I have one day of "fun", and that's it. No more schooling ever, just exams.

7 years of my school... 11 years of the english school system.

I was walking down the corridors of my school and as I walked on and on past these doors, I realised how much of my life so far I've spent there, walking through those halls, talking to people, getting somewhere...

As much as I hate parts of it, it's made me who I am, whether I like it or not.

All the times I felt like running away, all the times I made a new friend in a class, all the times I isolated myself in the library, all the times someone appreciated my photography work... all of them, are going to be stuck in me forever.

I guess that's what Secondary/High School is for, eh?
Maybe I'll be allowed to forget one day.

Here's to the future, whatever that holds.
All there is to do is embrace it.

]]> ~Jazbagz Heart attack http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24448069/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24448069/ Sun, 26 Apr 2009 15:04:27 PDT
Due to all this and many other reasons such as my schoolwork. It's the last push, you guys.

This summer is going to be so good. It will be. I keep promising myself that. I can't wait. Oh yess come on summer.

]]> ~Jazbagz Boots Issue Resolved http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24308259/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24308259/ Sat, 18 Apr 2009 13:07:23 PDT
Now isn't that jolly nice?

I have my art dissertation to finish whilst I have a japanese oral looming.

I wonder which one really IS the lesser of two evils.

Oh god, this is just no good.

]]> ~Jazbagz Thumbs Up Manchester :3 http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24268586/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24268586/ Thu, 16 Apr 2009 05:29:15 PDT
I found my craft shop that I really needed to buy this ImageMaker substance from and it was huge! Much larger than I thought it would be. It had some really interesting things in there, including some yummy holgas and supersamplers, for quite cheap by the looks of things. Alas, I had no other money to spare but I might check out their online shop for that.

I took my little brother's to the Science and Industry Museum which was pretty damn awesome. I'm goon for planes and steam engines to tell you the truth. Absolutely awesome stuff!

I really wanted to check out the galleries, but I didn't want to put my brothers through the pain of me in a gallery x] No worries, there's always next time! And there will be a next time for sure!

The China town was immense, we got a takeaway and oh my I wanna eat it allover again. Then again I am a mega super duper sucker for chinese food, whatever it is. x]x]x]x]

I'm salivating at the thought, eeeeeeep.

I am currently getting SUPER excited about the new X-men movie coming out about Wolverine. Guhguhguhguh. Such love I have.

I have my Japanese teacher coming to tea tomorrow :3 to give me a practise oral and that, how exciting? TEEHEE.

My grandma's given me her keys to use her house for it! WIN!

Right, so I'm off to write my japanese oral speech, not sure about the topic yet but I'll get there.

Love Y'all! Just a quick update!

]]> ~Jazbagz Pretty damn smashing http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24212874/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24212874/ Mon, 13 Apr 2009 02:06:57 PDT Lots of work, only 4 weeks left to do it in.
A Japanese Oral in a week.
4 books to read, two being in french.
Hours of Photoshop to be finished off for Photography.
Costume ideas and settings to be thought up for my identity project.
Canvases and Canvases of artwork to be created, and explored.
I'm running out of time.

Gosh my academic and artistic mind feels exhausted.
I'll get through it though, and then I'll be free!!

Which is why I feel pretty damn smashing at the moment.
My film is loaded, I just need to keep looking for photographs to create.

I'm off to Manchester now, it's a gorgeous loft apartment we're staying in.

See you on Wednesday xxxx

]]> ~Jazbagz Awesome Weekend + Off to Manchester http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24141425/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24141425/ Thu, 09 Apr 2009 05:29:30 PDT Oh my, best weekend like everr.

So many funny and cute memories!! ^_^
I forgot how much I love X-Men!!! <3 Wolverine = God. Plus snuggles are awesome too. :3
Devon is super nice, I'm a bit of a strange one, I love Sun and that but I absolutely love Rain too. The feeling of wind against your cheek, looking at the sea or over fields of countryside. Nothing can beat that yet, unless there was something like Nightwish playing at the same time. Oh my, I'm bringing Nightwish next time.

But in all seriousness, it was ever so good. So much fun. Got to do a lot of things, and finally let myself relax and let go of a lot of worry and baggage. (Though I always worry about everything anyway, I'm a goon like that). I'm sorta missing Luke now, he's off camping till tomorrow, so I'm off to my friend Conagh's for some fun too.

Next week I am off to Manchester or something, not sure how long. I've got to sort out all my revision notes (and potential art work to create), I have my Japanese Oral on the Wednesday after next. (I am seriously not prepared yet :'l) I'll be online during that time in Manchester anyway, just yeah, my parents need to go on another business trip and I'm quite excited about getting to know Manchester a bit better. None of my old friends in Manchester are really contactable at the moment which is a shame but I'll probably be back up there sometime again next year.

I had an interview yesterday morning at a University and got a place straight off! I was super chuffed! The guy was amazingly nice and we were chatting about all sorts of things. I shared with him my "signature" art technique and he was really impressed that I came up with it myself! :3 I was so proud! Yeah I'm silly but oh well.

My next Photography project is on Identity, so I was wondering if any of you guys had any ideas on the theme of identity? :3

xxxx

]]> ~Jazbagz Geeze O_O http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24038365/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/24038365/ Fri, 03 Apr 2009 10:25:22 PDT
Geeze.

This is unexpected. vastly unexpected. I'm one of 500 chosen from a few thousand.

GEEEEEEEEEEEEZE.

]]> ~Jazbagz 40,000 pageviews http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23986985/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23986985/ Tue, 31 Mar 2009 14:17:58 PDT =
WIN

Thanks you guys

Anyway, Subscription's gone. Life's really fast.
Going to be going to =WALLWAGER's for a couple of days this weekend which will be fun. I'm desperately nervous about it, not really sure why. Jittery... iono. Not really the place to talk about it anyway.

Eurgh I hate the adverts for dA
I really don't come on dA to be inspired and then find myself surrounded by bellies overlapping jeans going, YOU CAN SAVE WEIGHT THIS FAST!

It's like, D: Go get yourself a bike and get on with life.
I know "hypocrit" but srsly, not on dA kthxplz.

I threw up this morning too :[ I have been so sick the past few weeks, I think I'm making myself ill again with worry so I'm trying to just carry on and put it to the back of my mind. It's kinda working.

Half the time I feel like an empty shell. A really fragile shell haha.

Ah well. As my nan always says, It'll be over soon.

Sorry for a pretty lame journal, D: Haha

]]> ~Jazbagz I won (edit + Red Tape gone wrong) http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23815765/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23815765/ Sun, 22 Mar 2009 08:08:37 PDT Inspiration Blog Twitter Facebook
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Portrait of a Dog

Since my subscription is dimming and I have good news about some SUCCESS on my part, I thought another journal would be a good idea.

I won Regional Level at the Rotary Club's competition for Young Photographer's in the Senior section. This is the last year I can enter now, and my entry has been put forward to National level I believe.

I got a tasty nibble of money to spend in Jessops, yayay. Once again, no idea what to buy, and neither much money elseway to spare.

My back muscles are starting to spasm, not good! Haha! *stretches out*

"Making Dreams Real"
That was the theme of that particular competition.

*pats her back*

I've really wanted to win a competition with that photograph, all year, just something about it for me is spellbinding. Plus it was my first real "commission" shoot, even though it was unpaid (since it was for a friend).

Edit:

This is the third time I have been denied access to my photographs from photograph printers because they have looked suspiciously professional. This is one of the most annoying things ever since I am on the verge of millions of deadlines and I really needed my 100+ prints ready for me to stick in my book etc (since I've been sick all week ;.; ). But alas I have been refused them completely, not allowed them until I get a letter from my tutor telling them they are mine. It hurts really, and I think it's desperately unfair quite frankly... My photographs may be good, but they're not incredible, nothing I'd ask people to pay me for really. I have been in my bed almost all week, I gather strength to get out of my bed and out of my house to wait an hour for these prints to be done, and I'm faced with, LAWL GTFO UR LYING...

Utterly shameful. No such thing as customer service these days, eh?
We're all faceless people in a world full of anonymous liars.

My mum just blew her top off at them, which my mum never does. She may yell at me, but outside of the house unless someone is attacking her or something crazy, she'd never yell. This is the third time, and it's not fair. :[ They're not even good.

My poor tutor has to write a letter now when I'm sure he's got a million better things to do.

Red Tape gone wrong. Really wrong.

Just a sprinkle of optimism for you all!

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~Jazbagz School Grades Up \o/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23780247/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23780247/ Thu, 19 Mar 2009 13:21:46 PDT Inspiration Blog Twitter Facebook
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I've been rather ill recently, sorry guys. Plus my grandmere died, which was a little knock to life really.

I had my first portfolio dropoff last tuesday, which was nervewrecking really.

I've got a lot of work to get done for the next couple of weeks.

I should be going down to see =WALLWAGER in a few weeks, which'll be brilliant.

I got my re-sit marks back, gone from an E (omg it was a fluke I promise :'[) in Classics to nearly an A, and also, two almost full marks in french, so I went from a C overall (omg i was having a bad day) to a solid A.

Which overall, is pretty damn awesome. It means my grades are boosted allover, which is what I desired.

I must get back to lying down. I've hurt my hand/finger at the moment, so using my cameras hurts quite a bit, so i'm trying to put it off for a little bit.

Gosh I do sound lame.

;.;
I'm still watching all of you guys and reading your journals.

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]]> ~Jazbagz Nonsense http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23595925/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23595925/ Sun, 08 Mar 2009 16:38:41 PDT Inspiration Blog Twitter Facebook
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It's a wonder how I got this far in the first place.

Very strange indeed. Fate or something?

Perhaps, perhaps.

At the moment, I'm trying to work my butt off for my subjects, and in particular my portfolio for the interview I have next week.

I'm feeling many emotions at the moment, so I expect no sense to come out of me for a while.

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]]> ~Jazbagz ENOUGH WITH PORTRAITS http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23462635/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23462635/ Sun, 01 Mar 2009 03:24:19 PST Inspiration Blog Twitter Facebook
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I hear you say, well I'm afraid now that I've started this new project on distorted portraits and I've been asked to do a few shoots for "clients", I probably won't be stopping with portraits. However, you may find some more paintings etc coming your way.

Once I've finished all this coursework, my holiday will consist of me trying to boost my portfolio for getting into university next year. I have booked a course on Alternative Photographic Processing, which I am so excited about. You actually have no idea how excited I am! Doing sexy crazy stuff with my negatives = heaven.

My mum also wants me to go on an art&architecture photography course but I don't know, I'm not a fan of photographing buildings in london at the present time. All these photographers being stopped and questioned etc by police, it scares me quite a bit. I'm just not ready to put myself in that position, especially a week of it. I'll be worrying nonstop, it's okay if it's just a day of worrying!

I can't wait to go down to Cornwall hopefully after Easter! I'll have my portfolio all ready by then anyway :3

Oh yes! I got an interview at all three of the universities/colleges I applied to! I am so super excited, the first one is on the 17th March, so I've got a fortnight or so to get that on the roll. I've made all the labels and printed them on the computer! Jaz is going pro!

Enough for today I think, I've been working hard, I'm going to play the Sims 2 for a bit.

<3

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http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23412706/ Thu, 26 Feb 2009 08:54:59 PST Inspiration Blog Twitter Facebook
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I'm doing alright everyone, I was getting super worried about art applications this week. Then I called Chelsea and said, where's my interview omg? and they said I was in the next batch of letters. So at least I got that kindof off my mind, and chelsea gives you like 2 weeks to prepare anyway. So much work to do!

Was wondering if any of you incredible people knew of any photographers/artists that work with distorting Portraits/Figures. I'm looking at Francis Bacon, Michal Macku... a few more but not that many. Also, if you know any animation artists that would be really cool too because I want to take it into something like that. Otherwise, if you can think of any ways I can distort a face/figure using any media really, i'm up for anything, just comment your thoughts.

I'm gonna be trying to do a few things to boost my confidence. Yay I got one interview so far! It's my third choice but still something!

^_____^

More later/another day

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]]> ~Jazbagz First trip to Camden Market http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23336032/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23336032/ Sun, 22 Feb 2009 03:53:59 PST Inspiration Blog Twitter Facebook
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So yesterday I went to London again. Luke and I went to see an exhibition as such in a small gallery near Marylebone which was cute. I really liked the man who owned the gallery, and seeing Michal Macku's upclose was... incredible. Such beautiful craftmanship. I can't wait to see more of his work! I had a feeling I was going to see the work of Andrew Krasnow, who uses Human Skin as his medium, all legal, but still. That was an experience in itself, very controversial.

Then after that we went to Camden through a crazy tube route (since loads of the lines were closed, just my luck). I'd been to Camden itself quite a few times before but never the market, so that was a new experience for me. As much as Luke thought I didn't like it there, I actually did. I just wish I hadn't brought my camera and just brought necessities. When I'm in crowds with my belongings, I can't deal with it, my mind panicks and I get aggressive and angry at myself and then obv at other people. I dunno, I like my personal space. The food was reallyreally yummy ^_^ and the fake japanese people were super cute too.

If there hadn't been that many people there I would've probably stopped off and bought a few things that caught my eye, but when I'm in those situations with that many people, No way can I make a decision on something. If Jazzy goes to Camden again it'll be at the crack of dawn and she'll wait till they've just opened.

We sat by the river in the sun which was really nice, I was contemplating getting up and getting Luke a drink myself for us to just sit there longer without him complaining he was thirsty x]x]x] Bless him. It was really nice there though, I really like just lying there as if I have all the time in the world.

I'm the kindof person that hates shopping and if she does go shopping it's either so early they haven't opened yet or so late that they're just closing. It was pretty cool though, gave me some ideas for photos, some of the things I saw there. Obviously some things I really didn't like at all and made me feel sick to the core but I'm a bit like that, I can deal with it... just about... haha.

I saw a girl that lives near me in Cyberdog, I forgot she said she worked there. I didn't say hello 'cos I hadn't spoken to her directly in years. That was cool, 'cos I'd been wanting to go there since... well... a long time ago when I first heard about it. Been wanting to go to Camden for years really, but never found any friends to go with. Glad I went with Luke though.

I used to idolize punks and alternative fashion in general really, and I still think it's pretty awesome. There's just this new edge to me that I've grown in probably only the last year and a half that's pushed me further and further away. Perhaps it's growing up, I'm not sure. Now when I see girls dressed up as Lolitas, I see wannabe idiots, whereas before I saw them as cute girls with a fashion sense. Perhaps I'm just jealous haha, who knows? who cares? Anyway, that was cool, seeing people like that again, it's been a while.

Met my Cousin at Bakerstreet and went for a coffee, which was super awesome stuff. Then we sat in a park in the dark, which wasn't so awesome. In fact we got locked in and had to climb over the gate, which I personally still have bruises from... OWOWOW. That really did suck tbh, but it was beautiful in there. My cousin and luke were talking for ages and I kept zoning out and listening to the birds on the water. If I'd felt a little bit more safe I would have taken a photograph before it had got too dark, since the subtle light was beautiful.

Then Luke sat with me in the station and we bought some food, chatting and things till I got my train. I got a super brain freeze from a Burger King milkshake. Man those things are crazy!!

On the train back, these people hadn't got a valid ticket and were going crazy at the train staff refusing to pay. It was actually retarded in my opinion. They were obviously in the wrong, the train staff have a zero tolerance policy on people for a reason, yet they were still taking it out on the poor guy. It makes me pretty cross.

Alas they left... ]]> ~Jazbagz That is all. http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23308214/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23308214/ Fri, 20 Feb 2009 15:01:27 PST Inspiration Blog Twitter Facebook
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=WALLWAGER is awesome.

That is all.

Until tomorrow...

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]]> ~Jazbagz Need Help ;.; http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23229576/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23229576/ Mon, 16 Feb 2009 06:58:57 PST Inspiration Blog Twitter Facebook
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Okay, no THAT urgent, but I was wondering which photograph to you out of my gallery, portrayed the them, "Simplicity" the most.
It's a local competition I'm entering so I want to hit them in the face kinda thing, but nothing with OVERLOAD photoshop work.

So what shouts out; SIMPLICITY

Please halp ;.;

Btw, I'm feeling much better at the moment, =WALLWAGER is coming to see me again this halfterm. Awesome stuff! Plus a girl came up to me and asked if I'd photograph her with a price. w00t! :3 I'm not really sure what people mean by "regular photos" are, but anyone got any ideas for me? I'm always looking into photography and making something creative out of it, not sure how to do a good job of "regular photos", gosh I am a goon, aren't I?

I went to my uncle in london with my portfolio, and we sorted some of it out! So happy about that

Hope you're all happy happy chappy's :]

Please tell me what you think about Simplicity
Plz

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http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23152842/ Thu, 12 Feb 2009 09:10:18 PST Inspiration Blog Twitter Facebook
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My brain wants to just shrivel up and die
I want to smash anything that crosses my path into a wall
and I've just had a generally bad day, that's all...

I got my photos printed for my portfolio and they've got scratches allover them and they aren't the size I asked for. It's like, OFDMGDMFGDMFGMDFMG... So I'm just printing them on a massive A3 printer, 'cos my soul wants to die right now.

My one canvas I was going to put in my portfolio, is too big. Either I risk leaving it outside my portfolio and letting it go along with all my other work, or I have to use a photo of it (of which I cannot get good prints of). I think I'll risk leaving it out side but i'll label it properly and put it in at least a sleeve to protect it. ARGG. :/

My mum cancelled going to france, well cancelled going anywhere this holiday. So I'm stuck at home, AGAIN. I'm actually fed up. I've got loads of work to do but I wanted at least a holiday, a rest away from all this stress for like a day or two. But alas, no. I am bound to stay at home, and go to london to see some exhibitions.

I want all this waiting and stressing to be over, life is going so slow at the moment. Maybe I should sleep more, make the days go faster. -____-

I'm just seriously pissed off, everyone's going to parties and having fun, apart from me. How do they even find the time to do any of that stuff?? I haven't even left my house and gone and done something (apart from gone to london for courses etc)in like almost a year... :/ That's bad... It means my brain is getting all stagnant and boring. I need to see more, experience more, etc.

Man I'm sorry for anyone who's still reading this. I promise it's just a bad day... week... month... phase... I'm not sure.

I need a big fat hug.

I'm fed up of disappointments atm.

;.;

_{Thanks for the 38k pageviews :3}

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http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23118479/ Tue, 10 Feb 2009 10:32:20 PST Inspiration Blog Twitter Facebook
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Just a couple of Updates really.

First of all, My new art project is Discord. I plan to DESTROY things. I am going to play around with video, and psychological feelings people have with things being destroyed, whether they're sentimental or not. Looking at the suspense just before something shatters, toying with the human mind by never showing the actual smashing. Oh my I get jitters just thinking about it. Might put some videos up on youtube if they're any good.

Second of all, I've been giggling to myself over Tumblr. It's so cute and fantastic, I don't usually WANT to start to use another "blogging" website, but this one feels like so much more. Easy to use, completely customizable (yeah I know mine sucks atm, I haven't really customized it yet

)...

So you can find me here: you know you want to

Thirdly, I'm trying to find professional photographers that used long exposures in portraiture, I've looked at a bit of Richard Avedon which wasn't quite what I wanted, and then played around with some of Nadav Kanders' portraits. Any ideas/links would be great... I'm just having trouble finding what I want as a reference. Haha.

Fourthly, I should be going somewhere on Friday/Saturday. Perhaps France, it'll be nice to get out of this house and just go somewhere and take photographs. I'm finding it very hard to deal with being rooted to one place. Though I've got to remember to get all my portfolio things done otherwise i'll be panicking like hell. I already am, I bet I'm going to get an interview in the middle of my holiday. Ugggggh.

Fifthly, I just got an email from Chelsea (FINALLY) about how their interviews work... I'm freaking out now. They don't have interviews, they just ask you to drop off your work and come back later to pick it up. I had a feeling it might be like this, but the chelsea staff lady didn't sound like that's how it was going to be. So now, I've got to make sure it looks perfectly understandable and things. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I can't deal with this... I'm freaking out.

Jazzle needs some cuddles. Oh man she needs some cuddles.
She needs to be more diverse. After I've done my work on long exposures, enough with portraiture. I've done it literally all this year... which is very odd, for me. I was just so obsessed with improving my portraiture skills. I still think I suck, ah well. Better get on with another area of photography.

Perhaps I'll look into doing Stereoscopic images. Oh man they look so sexy.

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... ]]> ~Jazbagz Fine art Arg + Portfolio http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23033980/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23033980/ Fri, 06 Feb 2009 04:34:05 PST Inspiration Blog Twitter Facebook
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Ever since I went to this open day for art foundation a few weeks back.

I've been thinking to myself, I'm a hellamore of a fine artist than a traditional photographer. I'm thinking to myself, gah I've been looking for the best of the best universities for photography, but what if I'm more suited to a fine art course... I haven't even considered fine art as an option because to me fine art is painting, making sculptures that no one understands and things people don't understand in general.

I know Photography is what I want to do, but my photography reaches out into printing and other works. I guess that's why I'm going on a foundation in arts course but I better look out for which fine art courses are the best.

Anyone got any ideas on the best of the best for fine art in the UK?

;.; Gosh I'm such a goon ;.;

Another day off school has made me get my portfolio ready :3

In a few weeks I'll photograph each page of it and make a journal out of it so I can see what you guys think!

I got an email from the university that I want to go to next year saying they got my application, so that made me real happy! (I thought it might have got lost in the post, yeah i know paranoid jaz)

I can't wait! I just need to do a few more pieces of art in the next few weeks, mainly in colour hopefully because that's where I am lacking. Damn monochrome phase. ;.;

Hope you are all snazzy today!

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]]> ~Jazbagz Snow Pictures :3 http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23015824/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23015824/ Thu, 05 Feb 2009 07:04:51 PST Inspiration Blog Twitter Facebook
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Snow Tiem

Today was uber fun in the snow.
As you can see, we made an uber super snowman in our backgarden.
We were making massive snowballs first, then lifted them to make the snowman, and then hugged him after we hit him with snowballs when we had a snowball fight.
Then there's my brother acting like a goon pretending to be the snowman!

:3
Thank you snowman in the sky. I love yooooous!

Btw, the pram next to him is the snow baby! ;D

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]]> ~Jazbagz Snow Day: Take 2 http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23013712/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/23013712/ Thu, 05 Feb 2009 02:06:47 PST Inspiration Blog Twitter Facebook
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Yes yes yes
Once again, the British Isles is put to sleep under another white blanket of snow. Around here, it's much worse than before. (OMG SO MUCH DEEPER HOW CUTE OMG I LOVE SNOW)

This time I might use the snow for my art, I got my art exam paper theme, "Discord." Yummy! ;] Just a bit of destruction eh? You'll probably never see any of it unless I find it well enough suited to the "tastes" of people on here. My art isn't always to everyone's tastes. x] Not that it's bad, just some don't get it. Which is fine, I don't mind really but yeah... :]

It's my brother's 16th today, and it's a snowday! How awesome is that for him? :3

So yes, any ideas on how I can take something pure and add "discord" (ie. destruction, defilement, chaos etc) to it to create something new?

Just off to get myself stuck into the snow :3

Pictures laterrr xxxxxxxx

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]]> ~Jazbagz Snow Day :3 http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22963161/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22963161/ Mon, 02 Feb 2009 12:21:16 PST Inspiration Blog Twitter Facebook
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Snow snow snow snow snow

So today School was cancelled 'cos of the yummy snow :3
Woopeee

But yes, I have sat here and watched it pile up outside. Someone said school was cancelled tomorrow but I just found out it isn't, so I better get to work in finishing my work. GAH. I have a sneaky feeling there'll be no school tomorrow though.

In which case I might actually do some proper work, iono. I felt rough when I got up this morning hehe. I've been playing games all day to make myself feel better and then found out school was back on. Great. x]

Hope y'all having a groovy day.

SNOWSNOWSNOWSNOWSNOWSNOWSNOWSNOWSNOWSNOW

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]]> ~Jazbagz The Number 9 http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22924835/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22924835/ Sat, 31 Jan 2009 14:25:20 PST Inspiration Blog Twitter Facebook
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I have always found a calling to the number 9. It crops up with me everywhere. It's my favourite number. Absolutely and utterly my favourite number. Just above the number 13, but it's definitely number 9. Here's 9 facts about my silly self.

#1
The most important philosophy I live by is, to be fulfilled is to be oneself. If one is nothing else, they should be their self. It's the basis of probably the majority of my upsets. x] Whut a goon, I am.

#2
More than anything I want to be a mother. I guess that's a bit, "duh" being a woman and all that. I want a big loving family. :3

#3
If I had a specific sport it would be skiing, though i've never been to the snowy slopes. ;.; Poor deprived Jazzle.

#4
My feminine initiatives are null. Trust me. You ask me to identify a halter top from a tank top and I haven't got a clue. Then again, I know style when I see it. ;]

#5
I wear a baggy black hoodie and black jeans 24/7. It's a habit I've stuck myself into.

#6
If I feel someone is out of order or irrationally incorrect, I will lose my temper very easily. It takes a while for me to figure out the best approach to the issue, but once I'm off... I'm off... >:l

#7
I love my cameras like my babies, surprise surprise. I feel so guilty at the moment because they need a bit of a clean and I've lost my cleaning kit. ;.; Gosh I feel awful for it.
#8
I don't wear makeup. Like ever, lawl. I don't think I really own any makeup either. I only really wear it if I go on a "night out" kinda thing. I've never seen the necessity for it. I'm just jaz, plain and simple. @_@

#9
Last of all, I find it very difficult to define home. Be it for loads of reasons, I'm always on the breach of leaving, rather than still settling. Perhaps I'll never find home! D: Oh noes!

^{Thank you all for 37k <3 kisskisskiss}

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]]> ~Jazbagz New CSS + mental3pal!! http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22908127/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22908127/ Fri, 30 Jan 2009 16:25:30 PST

Of course, it needs some changes made, but I'm far too tired to do that right now.

I've had a so-so week, bit up, bit down. The highlight came when I suggested a tutorial by =mental3pal as a DD and he got it! Eeee!

But honestly, I was super excited for him.

^_^

There'll be a proper update tomorrow, I've got a model tomorrow. Yay!

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]]> ~Jazbagz Unusual Portraiture http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22817984/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22817984/ Mon, 26 Jan 2009 07:01:00 PST

Art's a funny thing. Constantly I'm tearing myself apart about it.

How very very strange.

Today at College we're doing a hair photoshoot, gonna take my darling Canon. <3

Hopefully I might have some shots to show you guys by the time I get home.

I'm trying to keep ontop of my dA stuff, since it gives me that extra drive, to see other people's awesome work and read about the awesome things they are doing.

What I miss the most is not having a dA friend that is into unusual portraiture...
I need to do more of it, and I just want someone to get giggle with... I don't know.

I am rather silly, ehh?

Not much an update apart from I'm trying to keep my spirits up. x]

Love y'all

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These things have made my blood pump twice as fast this week, I swear x]

]]> ~Jazbagz Drama Studio Photography 8D http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22694580/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22694580/ Tue, 20 Jan 2009 13:43:01 PST

I'm feeling real good you guys

REAL STRESSED
but I've got that certain buzz in me that's saying,
SCREW ALL THAT, YOU'RE ALLOWED TO BE EXCITED/HAPPY ABOUT SOME THINGS
which for New Years-ish time is HIGHLY unusual for me

Anyway, I'm on here to say, I had this brilliant idea
Which I'm kinda WHY ON EARTH DIDN'T I THINK OF THIS BEFORE about,
but then again I haven't had THAT much experience with controlling lighting etc

Then I thought to myself, I need a big space... like a studio but I don't have time nor the models to go all the way to college just for a few images...

So I thought of big spaces at school and remembered the Drama Studio...
It seems so perfect! Lighting set up, one that is different and interesting etc
Plus it's on site at school, and it's hardly ever booked up for anything at lunchtimes etc

I was wondering if any of you guys have used something similar for an alternative approach to Studio Photography?

:3

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MY NEW 's
These things have made my blood pump twice as fast this week, I swear x]

]]> ~Jazbagz Inspiration Attack (srsly) http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22556891/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22556891/ Tue, 13 Jan 2009 07:12:56 PST I've had major BOOM inspiration
I don't mean, YAY AN AWESOME IDEA
Like in a space of half an hour I went from Girl A to Girl B
Obviously I am the same person etc, but my attitudes to things went berserk

My old optimism (well the little I had haha) has returned with more logic than it had before
I'm ready to state my opinions on things (like I used to more or less)
For about 2 years I've been sitting here going, I HAVE STRONG VIEWS GODAMNIT LET IT OUT
and my mind just wouldn't...

I keep getting these stomach aches from so much excitement
This is such an AMAZING feeling
It makes me not worry about anything but what I'm doing
I'm going to go places, wherever that is, and I'm gonna do it in style etc.

I keep a little book with me AT ALL TIMES
I have to

Otherwise I go crazy and write all over my hand

Nothing specifically has done this to me, which is probably the strangest thing
I was just browsing dA and all of a sudden this rush of feelings came over me
And it still hasn't left (and that was a few days back now)

I keep acting silly, like I'll be sitting in my art class doing my assignment
and then i'll get this idea for something different and let out a squeel and start scribbling in my little book
obv everyone turns around and are like wtf
then I carry on with my work and then go to another girl,
"HEYHEY WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THI-...
OH WAIT DON'T WORRY I'LL EXPLAIN IT WHEN I WORK IT OUT!
YOU WON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT I MEAN JUST YET!!

and everyone's left to Wtf at me

Gosh I am a right weirdo sometimes

It's fantastic though, It's like being in love
<3

I freaking love Inspiration

_{Thanks all you kids for 36k btw}

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These things have made my blood pump twice as fast this week, I swear x]

]]> ~Jazbagz French = Winnnn http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22484515/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22484515/ Fri, 09 Jan 2009 09:17:31 PST :3

I did my french exam today
I was so determined in it
I've never really thought about exams before, but this time I really KNEW the exam
like I realised I was doing the exam, not just finishing a paper so i could get out of there which is my usual attitude
I felt my stepping stones and seeing the end...

The only thing I felt when I left was, damn... I have got to do this again in the Summer.
Haha I'm silly, ehh?

I think I did super good :] I understand all the questions and there was only a few words that I was like, errr... damnit what could they mean.

I'm worried about feeling good about it but mmm... i'm sure it's alright... much better than my previous marks I hope!!

I preordered Sims 3!

I'm such a silly, I said to myself I'd wait a few months to get it...
but i think I need it... I need something to keep me with a smile on my face
It's released February 20th!! OMFG! <333

All is not finished exams-wise and work ofc, but my french was what was making me the most worried. I'm pretty sure I'm going to improve by like 2/3 grades in my classics exam next week if I revise like a good girl. :3

Anyway I'm off to check my phone and play the sims to cheeeeer on up etc.

Love y'all

xxxx

btw. My ears are still hurting, but I can hear a bit better now. It was that damn Celine Dion whispering sweet nothings in my ear last night when I was revising.

EDITEDITEDITEDITEDIT;

Omg how could I forget to mention!
I got a dA print in the post anonymously omg! I figured out who it was! It was my darling UNCLE OTTY, ~Seroni! We go way back indeed! ^_^

I was so happy, it made my week!

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MY NEW 's
Since I'm in such a good mood, I thought I'd share some lovings. <3
The deviations that have made me LOVE art recently.

]]> ~Jazbagz It never snowed http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22452775/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22452775/ Wed, 07 Jan 2009 13:35:48 PST Well it never snowed... it may tomorrow...
there's still some snow left outside though. Weird weather.

I have had cottonwool ears for the past couple of days, and now I am half deaf, and it's painful.

Just came back from having my head over a bowl of steam for half an hour, mmm minty. :'3

I feeling a bit better, and I'm revising my french grammar.

I can't believe how bad I am, but I guess I just got lazy/started speaking french without thinking about my accuracy and it got worse.

So yes, I'm screwed if my ears don't fix themselves by Friday because I have my french listening exam... and it's a re-sit because I didn't so well in my last paper. *CRIES*

I'm feeling OKAY at the moment, Ill of course but I'm okay.

Cuddles everyone? :] Much appreciated.

]]> ~Jazbagz SNOWSNOWSNOW http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22413617/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22413617/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 12:28:46 PST It snowed today, I can still see the snow outside on the ground.

OH PLEASE PLEASE SNOWMAN IN THE SKY, PLEASE LET IT SNOW SO MUCH THAT SCHOOL IS OFF TOMORROW PLZ.

I have my exams this week and next, 3 of them. And loads of work to do. Lots of art.

I am ill, coughcoughcough.

:'[

COME ON SNOOOOW MAN IN THE SKY, MAKE IT SNOW EVERYDAYYYY!

xxxx

]]> ~Jazbagz Merry New Year all you goons http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22331044/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22331044/ Thu, 01 Jan 2009 11:52:44 PST So here goes, some of your might remember
No of course not, why would you?

I made a list of 100 resolutions to complete in 2008
[link]
Here they all are if you wanna read them: [link]

I made this list as a kindof experiment
to see what I'd be like now
and to see if all my plans worked out well

I got a grand total of 57% of it complete,
which to be honest, as far as new years resolutions go,
is pretty darn good!

What interested me as it went along was how I really was changing and how most of them didn't matter anymore and how those aims just passed.

I was also interested in those that I made not expecting to complete and I completed quite successfully.

One of the best things about 2008, really had to be meeting up with =WALLWAGER
I've never met anyone I have so much in common with and who is so friendly and honest
It's absolutely brilliant :3

I get to see him tomorrow too yaaaay!

]]> ~Jazbagz Presents :3 http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22208685/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22208685/ Fri, 26 Dec 2008 11:50:37 PST
So as Boxing day winds down for us brits I sit here contemplating all the work I've got to do, and the presents I have recieved. So I thought I'd share with you guys!

My favourite present ever!

FANTASTIC, no?
_{I look dumb there 'cos I'm pulling it down for you to see ;.;}

Remaining seasons of Frasier! <3333 Woohoo!

Books
Vanity Fair Book
(Zomg it's HUGE <333)
Lomo Book
(from ~Yamapikaya omg it's soooo cool)
Taschen History of Photography Book
(WOOT)
60s Pop Photography
(from my sister <3)
Ways of Seeing - John Berger <3
Camera Lucida - Roland Barthes <3
On Photography - Susan Sontage <3

Art
Lots and lots and lots of yummy paintbrushes
Pastels ;D

+ some moneys yaaay :]

some other stuff but yeah :]

What did you all get?

I hope you're all fine and dandy

I just can't wait till =WALLWAGER comes to see me next week

]]> ~Jazbagz Merry freaking Christmas http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22168651/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22168651/ Wed, 24 Dec 2008 14:23:21 PST

I'm acting as Santa to my brothers as we speak.

Gosh Christmas is a wonderful time of year.

The one time of year I can say, SCREW EVERYTHING ELSE, just for that one perfect day.

Where I can sit there surrounded by people smiling back at me.

It's not often enough that people show their love for eachother in this world, but I think if any time of the year, it should be Christmas.

So yes, Merry Christmas, all my wonderful friends.

I must give a massive huge thank you to one of my dearest and oldest friends on dA, ~Seroni. To me he's like an Uncle, looking after me from afar, guiding me... and we've both had our rough times and got through them, even though we weren't together. He donated me a few months subscription as a christmas present. It really has lit up my gloomy winter.

May you all find Joy in your hearts this December 25th, whether you're celebrating Christmas or not.

]]> ~Jazbagz Christmas Blues http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22127285/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/22127285/ Mon, 22 Dec 2008 17:44:43 PST
But yeah Christmas Holidays started and my sister came to stay and now I'm free but I have so much work to do. GREATGREATGREAT. Who wants to see the panoramic shots I'm doing of my family/house for my new coursework project?

I would like you all to keep my Aunt in your thoughts these next few weeks. She has had 4 heart attacks in the last week, she has found out her heart is failing, she has critical diabetes and Lung cancer pretty much all at once. As the heart attacks keeps coming, the worse they get, and the weaker she gets. She has been through so much losing my cousin in a car crash and having a mental breakdown. This is just... terrible. It crushes my spirits just thinking about it.

Home life is very up and down at the moment. It always is as it gets closer to the new year. You only have to reread all my journals from around this time to see the pattern. Yay Christmas Blues. I feel my good old christmas cold coming along. Great. Everything Christmas has been for years.

I must admit I've felt tingles of the old feelings of christmas this year, and you know who let me see christmas again? Children I volunteer with at a school. I could feel tears coming to my eyes when we played pass-the-parcel and all these christmas songs kept coming and they'd scream along to the music. Children really are magic. They spark something incredible in all of us. I can't wait till I have children, I really can't <3

So yes, MERRY MERRRRRRY CHRISTMAS :3

What have you all asked for? <3 xxxxx

]]> ~Jazbagz Skulking, Geldof and the Saddo http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/21814142/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/21814142/ Thu, 04 Dec 2008 11:24:09 PST
I just take so long to do things I want to recently. It really sucks.

Here goes though, I went on my course at the National Portrait Gallery, and I've got my last Chelsea one coming up soon. The NPG workshop was on Large Format Photography in the Studio, Ã la Leibovitz. During going around the exhibition I was standing infront of the the Photographs of the Queen by Leibovitz, and who was standing next to me, admiring them also? None other than Bob Geldof. It was very surreal.

What really hurt, was that on the same course but a few weeks before, the one I wanted to go onto but I just missed a place. Apparently they were walking around the exhibition and who comes round the corner? None other than Annie Leibovitz... Just popped in to check out how the exhibition was set out. I died when I heard that, oh how I wished and wished. We never know what we are missing with our procrastination, it's made me think twice, at least.

The course itself was fantastic, I learnt a lot. I learnt how much I LOVELOVELOVE Large format film. Soooo beautiful. I'm still awaiting my negatives. I'm soooo much more confident with a lightmeter and the lights. I just want to try it out Â¬_Â¬. So next week I am going to use the studio! YAY!

I've been putting my portfolio together, it's quite exciting. I've got a load of things to put in it, done the most of it so far. Not including my photographs. I've got about 13 pieces in there so far, not including my photography. So I guess I've got to take away a few drawings, and add some printing/computer work. It looks jolly good so far though.

I'm honestly rather boring recently. Apart from going on these courses in London and going to school, I haven't left the house. Not for a few months. How sad is that? I don't really notice of course, but still. Bit of a shame to waste time like that.

I got a new phone, w00t. It was so weird, I ordered yesterday EVENING, and it came this morning! o_o S'like, CRAZY OMG. I thought it would take like 3 days. It's right sexy. Well it does the job. It's cute though, all my phones have always been awful. haha.

So Christmas is coming up! I wonder what you all are getting, I find that more fascinating than what I am going to get. I've been looking at Lubitel's vaguely for a little while, they are so adorable. Though I would prefer to have something with a bit more accuracy and precision. Just looks like a cute little toy though, anyone who doesn't know what I'm talking about: [link]

It's just plain adorable. Then again I've always been attracted to the look of twin-lens reflex cameras. So perhaps it's best if I spend a little more on something less "lomo". x]

Not that I'd buy it this christmas anyway, my presents are probably going to be photography books i've asked for, a few things I plan on asking for soon. Including a Tate Gallery membership (finally lawwwl). Maybe a few game-like things. Though I am waiting for Sims 3 to come out in February, don't think I'll be getting it straight away. Perhaps for my 18th (June 9th bichz). How sad is that? The present I'm most excited about for my 18th is the Sims 3. Godamnit Maxis, you got me again.

I feel I'm so boring in these journals these days. I've been sucked of my zest. I am still sitting around ranting about random topics. Perhaps you'll get a few soon.

Actually I promise you that I will.

]]> ~Jazbagz New Gear + Stress Management http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/21546503/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/21546503/ Tue, 18 Nov 2008 07:16:04 PST
Well, As you can see my dA Subscription just ran out, so I still thank *5onov and *witchlady750 who each bought me a subscription for my birthday present. That was so kind of you.

All is not lost though, at least dA has thumbs for nonsubscribers teehee.

At the moment, I'm having a pretty okay but rough time. It's my own fault I guess. I don't know how many of you know the english education system, but at my age, most people will be studying 3 A levels, some even two. Whereas last year I was studying 5 and this year I'm studying 4 A levels as well as a GCSE (lesser of A level) in a year (rather than 2), of Japanese. This is pulling me apart but it's teaching me a lot about the world and myself.

I'm starting to see how far I can push myself without even noticing. Obviously, I've had time to stop and think about that at the moment since I've been ill. I need to calm down a little bit, I'll see what the Doctor says about me.

So yeah, no whining yay!

I'm in London most weekends leading up to Christmas, either on courses, checking out exhibitions or visiting my uncle. Lots of expenses, yaaaaaay. With money I don't have? Yaaaaaay! OPTIMISTIC WHINING DOESN'T COUNT, kay? ;'

At the Christening I was the photographer, I chatted with my Uncle's Business Partner and his other half. Just chatting about photography, and what I'm up to, and y'know small talk. I must admit I must have sounded like a right goon going, GET IN THE DARKROOM SRSLY IT'S THE BEST THING EVER. lololol. Anyway, I told them how my Pentax was broken and how I was absolutely gutted and feeling low about it.

Then last week I got a call from my Uncle telling me that his business partner had brought in a camera to give to me. Of course I was extremely excited, but I put it to the back of my mind because I had so much to work on. So saturday came and I went on my course in london and mum picked up the camera. When I came home, I opened the bag to find such treasures! I still can't get over it.

It's the same camera as the one that broke, but it hasn't been used in years and years, and everything is in mint condition, unlike the old one I had which had been hit by a car before I had recieved it. Teeheeeee. All my old lenses for my Pentax work, obviously. So yeah, I got the camera, and 2 lenses, 2 teleconverters and two other lenses-ish things which I'm not too sure about, I've got to do some research. A few filters for all of that and then a flash gun! How great is that? It's loads, it's like a massive camera bag full of things. All for free. All for lil ol' me. :'3

New Photography project coming your way, taking shots AS we speak, whenever I see anything I'm grabbing my camera. My aim is to have my film camera on me at all times. Even if I take no pictures, at least I'll have it there. Such a blast to the Photographers' heart to miss the moment. At least to this Photographer's heart. ;D Speaking of hearts, I can't begin to thank and cuddle =WALLWAGER for all the support and love he's given me over these past few weeks. He's such a strong guy, and he's the secret behind me keeping sane. :3 I love him to pieces.

Right so, this was a little opening in my time to tell you about what's going down, I've been meaning to for ages. I've now got a 2 hour japanese class, plus 2 hours of life drawing after that, and I've already had 4 hours of sixth form this morning. INTENSE! That's me.

Y'all better be good!

Until next time.

]]> ~Jazbagz Christening + Ill + 34k http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/21232432/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/21232432/ Thu, 30 Oct 2008 13:24:34 PDT
I've spent the past 4 days with frosty hands and frozen toes.
And what does Jack Frost give me? Another cold, or something.
He's holding my throat in tight embrace and making my body fire up in a temperature.
Gosh I love Winter sometimes.

I'm busy away doing my photography coursework, and other things too. I must thank you so much for the 34k that I found this morning. Jeebus leebus. :]

I wanna take loads of portraits, but not having a new SLR and me feeling rotten is creating a fusion of fail and double fail.

/me falls on the floor half dead

I miss having fun, I need to get out of here.

*grumble*

...

I photographed at the Christening, it was weird and stressful.
There was hardly any light, and the best photos came from film but that's 'cos film is damn awesome and I worked outside with the film. They're a bit "halo-ey" but they'll do. I still haven't been paid but that's mainly 'cos I haven't presented them yet, I'm way too ill. I was so faint at the christening. Half the time I couldn't take photographs because my body was shaking out being ill. I dunno what was wrong really, I drunk loads and had lots of sugars etc.

I fail.

...

I think I'm gonna go to bed early tonight -_-

xxxx

]]> ~Jazbagz RIP Pentax + C-41 for Life http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/21125464/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/21125464/ Thu, 23 Oct 2008 13:02:22 PDT
I decided to try out some more b/w C-41 film (check out my recent photographs in my gallery), to get ready for the christening photographs on Sunday. They came out incredibly well, I've never been so impressed! It makes me love film even more. I've been asked at least 6 times in the past week by different individuals, Why I prefer film/talk about it more than digital. All I have to do is show them my prints and then they get an earful in highpitched fangirl noises. Hahaha. I'm so weird.

Anyway, Yesterday I was taking another batch of photographs with some C-41 film, Half the film. And yeah... My Pentax is gone. It just went. :'l My heart broke, I cried a lot, gosh I'm so lame. I've never had a camera of mine break before. I'm ever so careful and precious... But yeah, I kept optimistic, went to see the camera guy in town and asked him what he thought, and he spent ages just to say, Yeahh you gotta get it Estimated for Â£25 and then you can send it off to be repaired for however much that comes out to. I said I'd think about it and left.

I walked ever so slowely back to my nan's car who was waiting in the Car Park. My poor darling darling darling Pentax, sits here next to me... Soul-less... :[ It was like a cute little person, I didn't use it nearly as enough as it deserved. Oh my the feelings this brings me are terrible. My Uncle said that there wasn't much point paying out for it since it's not worth much, best to move on and get a new one. At least it'll mean I can go and buy another film camera without any guilt, though looking at things now I really need a spare one when I have one.

So yes, here's me yesterday, feeling quite empty and just yeah... Not a great sight. I think I told everyone and anyone about, even the life-drawing model today. After getting over it a bit, I realised I have a Christening to Photograph on Sunday, and I have no camera to do it with! I was panicking, as I hadn't even thought of this situation. I mean, I could use Digital but I really wanted to use Film in the first place. So I rang round all my relatives begging them to lend me their old SLR's. Loads of people had given theirs away! I was like, aww no worries, when inside it was like, ARGARGARGARGARGARGARGARGARGWHYYYYYY?

All in all, It's alright. I rang my Great Uncle and he had a spare SLR around. He hadn't used it in five years! So I have to buy a battery for it. It is a Minolta Dynax SPxi, all automatic, which kinda sucks, but it's a film SLR! Plusplus, He's lent me a regular lens, plus a telephoto lens, which I've never tried before, so I might check out how that goes haha. I plan on testing a roll of film out tomorrow for it. Jeebus, I finished 3 rolls of film already this week, how crazy is this.

Otherwise, I'm not too bad, stressed but not too bad. I have my art dissetation introduction in for tomorrow, like 500 words methinks. Not too bad.

Life is a funny thing, isn't it? :3

Hope y'all alright!
_{w00t half term tomorrow \o/}

Edit:
You know what hurts me the most? The fact that I told it that it might be the last time I do films in it properly, literally the day before, when I thought I was going to buy an Olympus OM-1. I know it's an inanimate object, but oh my, how it hurts.

]]> ~Jazbagz University of Creative Arts, Rochester http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/20941033/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/20941033/ Sat, 11 Oct 2008 17:32:27 PDT
University of Creative Arts, Rochester Campus = Absolutely totally and utterly Fantastic!
If you want a really friendly atmosphere, really creative, laid back as in letting you get on with your own style rather than making you into the "perfect nansy pansy" photographer, with a load of incredibly interesting tutors and students, then Rochester is SOOOO good. Plus it's only like 45 minutes or something train ride into Waterloo, London!

Seriously, had a fantastic time today! I had a talk with a woman about my portfolio for like 2 hours. I showed her some of my photography etc. She nearly made me cry I was so happy. I was expecting like, Good put this don't put this, etc. She looked like her mouth was gonna drop off for some of my work, and I'm pretty modest, honest. It was the most amazing experience photographywise I think I've ever felt. She told me that any University would be absolutely insane not to take me on, so it was all down to me choosing the perfect one for me.

I don't know if she knew how happy that made me feel, but I've been worrying about it for AGES. Worrying about my level of photography compared to others work, it's very hard to figure out what level they expect since I don't really see other people's Portfolio's for Uni, I just see the amazing work on here or the not so amazing work elsewhere.

I was just so happy, that's the only way I can describe it. It seems like a dream to me now, even though it was only a few hours ago.

Life is a bit hectic atm, but I'm feeling a lot more inspired these days.

Thank you all!

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]]> ~Jazbagz Mama I'm a Big Girl Now (33k<3) http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/20827776/ http://Jazbagz.deviantart.com/journal/20827776/ Sat, 04 Oct 2008 15:37:08 PDT [link]

Secondly, Thannnnk you very much for 33k <3
(Jaz likes to see how it progresses) x]

And Thirdly, THE ACTUAL JOURNAL! HAHA!
Well today I visited Kingston Uni, Fantastic Place. Such awesome equipment for such a tiny class. I think there's only 20 photography students in a year. (obv the uni is big)
But yeah, they have like 2 darkrooms, and loads of extra darkroom rooms. It's mega awesome. Also with like 2-3 digital editing/printing rooms. Plus the tutors are realllllly awesome. :]

Alas, I just don't feel too comfortable in a London environment, at least not yet. Though Kingston wouldn't be too bad. It half feels like you're in the country anyway hehe.

Though thinking about things, I don't know if I'm ready to go yet. I mean, I could do something before I go, a gap year I guess, but mm. I don't really know. I feel so confused and it makes me want to break down. I think it would benefit me to have a breather after a levels doing a course or something that's a little bit of a destresser.

A levels are KILLING me. The more I put in the less I get out of it. I feel no love in my school anymore. At all. I love College but I've only had two classes of it so far and it's weird getting used to a new tutor and all that. French is what hurts the most at the moment, I really struggle in it, and I shouldn't do. I've got no room for creativity to flow in me at all. I'm even finding my portraits project at college really hard... HOW LAME IS THAT? x]

Sorry, No one wants to read a boohoolifesucks journal, but that's how I feel at the moment. I want to go to Japan, I want to go to America, I want to go to South Africa, I want to go to Mauritius. All in good time Jazjaz! x] ;D

Something stuck out from today, I realised I hadn't been on a plane since I flew to Egypt about 3 years ago. That's crazy insane! I love flying! It's good for the environment yaddayadda I guess, but yeah I've been taking trains everywhere! I need to get travelling! GogogoJaz! Time to get out there and see the "world". :']

I think I'm gonna do a little mini portraits project on my grandparents. Perhaps tomorrow... I have such ideas! (just now ofc, and they probably suck, but hey MUST DO THEM OR ELSE) :]

I've kinda calmed down since the above. Talked things out. Just need to focus and not dwell on things too much.

I just remembered my course in London in Decemberish time. I'm real excited/REAL scared about that. Just some fun really! Then I can soon start to choose which CSM 18+ course I can do in the Summer! Yaaaay! Jaz's gonna be 18 in a year. How scary is that?! :3

I got a whole life ahead of me.

Gogogogogogo Jaz :]

Bye you guys ;D Thanks for listening to my silliness once again.

xxxx

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