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Rules!
1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about their self on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

8 things about me:

I love stripes and checkers like no other.

I am the cheapest person you will ever meet, im the kind of person that would use leaded gas if it was still around, so long as it was cheaper.

I have a terribly flawed sense of humor.

I cringe at the feeling of cotton balls in my hands. * shudder *

I love dreams and nightmares.

Im easily embarrassed and ill fold like nothing.

My hair takes many hours to dry out after it has gotten wet.

If you watch me closely when im not paying attention, sometimes you can catch me singing in public, I usually only do it when it loud enough to drown out my voice, but I will yell my lungs out in the car.

Sorry, but i don't have the time to tag other peoples back XP.

]]> ~Jazdude http://Jazdude.deviantart.com/journal/22231122/ http://Jazdude.deviantart.com/journal/22231122/ Sat, 27 Dec 2008 18:17:54 PST
I still have no real interest in actually telling people about whats going on in my life since I personally don't think anyone would really care. Nor does anyone need to, we all life our own lives so theres no need to have another one to read up on.

However, I am kinda curious as to what other peoples opinion's are on certain things. I know that this idea can easily fall apart, for reasons that I'm sure I will bring up at a certain point if this ever goes anywhere. But oh well, everything is worth a shot once and who knows, I may actually be more active on this for once if it does go anywhere.

Are we predisposed to feel bad more than we are to feel good?

This is a question I've pondered for sometime. Please lets not go into how EMO this sounds, but just consider what it means. It just seems like we as people have a tendency to dwell on the bad far more and appreciate all the good in our lives. For example, lets say we were beaten by our father and later our parents divorce and we are separated from our father. We are far more likely to remember all the bad that our father did, all the beatings, all the drinking maybe, all the gambling most likely. But this same father may have done plenty of good as well. Maybe they always showed up to our basketball games, maybe they took us fishing every weekend, maybe they gave the best gifts on our birthday. So why is it, that if asked, we would only bring up that he was a bad person? Is it because the fact there was a divorce justifies the idea that they were a bad person, as in something like a divorce confirms that this is who they were? Or is it because that we have a tendency to remember the bad faster and longer then all the other things?

Just try asking people about how certain things went or how they feel on certain things, usually people will add far more details or speak far more passionately on things they dislike than anything else. So why is this? Not only does this usually apply to opinions and such, but it almost seems biological in a way. Consider something like drugs, many drugs make us feel a degree of happiness or euphoria that is virtually unobtainable in normal existence. So with this the case wouldn't it be logical that is our brain wanted us to be happy, then we would either just continue to feel the same good feeling with no changes, or it would adapt to attempt to deaden many of the bad side effects that this drugs cause? Instead our mind appears to punish us for attempting to feel this level of pleasure. Often people need more of the drug to get the same high, and often the first time is the best. Often it seems like the side effects become worse too, like a hangover or the crash seems to only become worse, its never something people get used to, and it never becomes easier. Or consider something like a hangover or a crash, often in comparison to the high, the crashing and its effects far outweigh the high. A high that lasts for 30 minutes is likely to result in some sort of crash that last far longer than 30 minutes. So why is this?

This is a trend that seems to come up almost everywhere too. Consider the News, we see far more crime and tragic events on the News than anything else. Additionally, we flock to such News than anything joyous. Do rumors about good things ever circulate about a person? Do tabloids usually feature cover page stories about good events? It almost seems as if talking about good things is bad as well. If someone brings up how great something they made is they often come off as bragging or too proud.

The solution I have toyed with the most on this issue is that it is more a biological factor than anything. Just like the drug example consider it in terms of natural selection. Lets say that there are two bird, ummmm two geese. And these two geese live on a lake that has never seen long term human activity before, in fact there are hardly any predators at this lake. Now one of the geese is far more friendly, or accepting of other creatures and does not spook that easily. The other goose is jittery and paranoid and cautious of everything and will take flight at any slightest thing. Now lets say for the first time hunters arrive at this lake. The one goose stays in its spot at their appearance and is shot, the other goose manages to take flight quick enough to avoid being shot continues to live.

Does this same principal work for this idea? Do we biologically remember bad things more often in the hopes that we will not experience them again? Is this trend more genetic then anything if that is the case? Do most people remember most bad things because they also tend to not make those mistakes again? In the example above with the birds, if those traits were genetic, then the bird that flew away is the one that is going to continue to live and make more birds tha... ]]> ~Jazdude http://Jazdude.deviantart.com/journal/12382276/ http://Jazdude.deviantart.com/journal/12382276/ Thu, 29 Mar 2007 22:07:25 PDT
1. ATM I am very behind on this thing already....... So if you want in you gotta be quick and follow a few parameters.

2. It needs to be an anthro character, since imo it would be awkward to have the entire first half of the thing full of anthro characters and then have some non-anthro ones in there..... So I wanna keep it somewhat consistent.

3. I need some sort of reference, a picture is the best, but I can try something like a typed description, but leaves a lot of things up in the air for me to decide....

4. You need to be fine with the idea that so far all my transitions between characters have so far been pretty ummmmm....... violentish stuff soooo, idk why but if you don't like the idea of that happening to your char, then don't ask....

5. You need to be fine with the idea of me totally butchering your character...... I haven't drawn many characters other then my own, so im still not to good with that.....

6. You need to deal with a cartoonish rendition of your character, i can't be very detailed in this, so if you give me a char, expect a very detailed limited product.

7. You need to be ready to just ease up on me if you get denied..... Im doing this thing for a grade, and granted that im already behind on this thing, I really don't have the time to deal with lengthly conversations and such about it, also since this segment will most likely be mostly diagrams, don't expect many people to get in if they ask.

8. Deal with the fact I have the right to reject your request for reasons not addressed on this, im very busy atm and I may have to go for the speed option over the nice one....

]]> ~Jazdude http://Jazdude.deviantart.com/journal/11478901/ http://Jazdude.deviantart.com/journal/11478901/ Thu, 18 Jan 2007 06:54:19 PST
Anyway tagged me...... so there will be redemption of some kind probably in his future but people who get 'Tagged' MUST write a Journal about their 6 weird habits/ things/ hates as well & state this rule clearly..... In the end you need to choose the next 6 people to be 'Tagged' & list their names.... Don't forget to leave a comment that say's, 'you are Tagged' in their Deviant page comments, & tell them to read yours.....

So.....

1. I do pretty much everything in bed, I do my homework in bed, my reading, etc. I've never even drawn at a table outside of art class ( which I've yet to submit anything from ).

2. I have like an invisable perimeter that is someone stands in I'll start to twitch and shift around uneasily from paranoia. ( i know knows what im talking about )

3. I'm different around everyone, like my voice and habits and everything change. I hardly talk at all out of school, which is the polar opposite of what my friends know from me at school.

4. Most of the time pain or discomfort is a plus to the situation for me for some reason.

5. I love being cold, I hate it when its too hot, I'd rather be freezing then a few degrees too hot......

I tag ummm.....

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Im kind of torn now about taking pictures of things like that, and just having to get used to the police. Or if I should only take pictures from place like the point so that I don't freak people out and not have to waste the police's time. Im not sure atm, in one way Im saddened that they have to look into people just doing hobbies and such like me, but on the side I know their only doing their job and trying to keep us safe....

O well, I got one thing out of this, its that Im going to for sure carry around my ID and permit and stuff around so they don't have to ask me a billion questions, of which I actually had to think..... I felt retarded when I had to think about what my age was, and I actually messed up and said I was 15 not 16 and then I had to tell him I was 16..... and I also said that I was in the 11th grade not the 10th grade, so I had the clear that up as well......

O and im not gonna carry the utility knife anymore either... I'll see If my dad just has a torque I can use instead of carrying that whole thing around....

And I know you guys are gonna make cracks about me getting pulled over by the police.................. * sigh * X3

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]]> ~Jazdude http://Jazdude.deviantart.com/journal/10032629/ http://Jazdude.deviantart.com/journal/10032629/ Sun, 10 Sep 2006 19:46:57 PDT
School so far has been ok, I still wish it was summer, but school is a nice change of pace too i guess.... I just hope i dont have too much HW. So far Geometery looks pretty easy, except it uses all those little tools I hate to use in art.... I hate using compasses and straightedges and stuff T.T... Im not sure why but i get so flustered when i use them T.T;... Then Japanese looks intersting, it seems pretty easy as long as you say with the group and don't get behiend. AP world history and pre-ap english ( yea you can totaly tell i take those classes from all the basic spelling mistakes i make ;~ look fun and intersting since I've already liked the discussions we have had in that class and the way the teacher teachs is effective and nice. Um biology is hard to tell atm, its a rly full class and there are a lot of ppl that usually just screw around and try to copy off everyone so this maybe a harder class peer wise... but I still can't tell. And my drawing and painting class I also have mixed feelings atm, it seems like there are a lot of rly good ppl in there as well as it does not look lioke we are doing much character or cartoon drawings so im going to be out of my zone.... but I think the practice and experiance i gain from it will be worth it.

Anyway just so thoughts and stuff. ]]> ~Jazdude http://Jazdude.deviantart.com/journal/9707682/ http://Jazdude.deviantart.com/journal/9707682/ Sat, 12 Aug 2006 22:40:11 PDT
Anyway im not too hot on the idea of having a brother or sister actually..... Its not that i wont love it but its the fact that im not to intersted in having one aswell as i turn into a nervous wreck when im around children and i don't like to push my authority over them which does'nt make my job any easier when i have to care for children. Im always afraid there gonna go chug a bottle of antifreeze or fall in a box of nails or something and so I usually end up following the childs every move nervously looking at everything from bowls and knobs as potential killing machines in disguise waiting to unleash thier deadly intent upon the innocent child that is under my care.......( yea im kind of paranoided..... ) But im even more nervous at the prospect that im gonna have to care for my mom and the child during what i think is going to be my most difficult year of highschool since its all on subjects that im not really go in and that i find time consuming... so a child or a needy/moody mother is not going to help me stress wise...

However i am happy for them. I've seen a look especialy in that of my step father's that I see nowhere else on his face of pure joy and love when he is around his sisters children and my mom also loves children and its one thing she makes me feel guilty about when I tell her I have no interst in having grand children.... She gets quiet angry with me when i say stuff of that manner so this will give her another chance i guess. But I know how much they have been trying and hoping and even though I personaly am not crazy about the idea I know that it will make them happier in a was I am and anyone else is incapable of.

Anyway just an update =3 ]]> ~Jazdude http://Jazdude.deviantart.com/journal/9604164/ http://Jazdude.deviantart.com/journal/9604164/ Sat, 05 Aug 2006 02:44:30 PDT ~Jazdude http://Jazdude.deviantart.com/journal/9572156/ http://Jazdude.deviantart.com/journal/9572156/ Wed, 02 Aug 2006 00:36:32 PDT
Anyway my Cousin is a different matter.... she is very difficult.... I don't know how many time me Grandma and I discused her problems and faults but we where very limited in our progress aswell as we lacked the positions to put it in action. She seems to lack compasion and has a one track mind, with almost no feelings off guilt and does'nt know when to stop, she is also extreamly elitest because of her higher than average knowlage for her age along with her skipping a grade, however she acts just as elitest around adults too so she is often wrong but she will never admit it.... If she though the world was flat there would be nothing even with all the evidence in your favor nothing could persuade her otherwise. She enjoys bragging and needs to have things her way or no one is happy....

Lol anyway she is only 9 going on 10 but i've always been a bit consirded for her because she has been this way for so long. I already she that it has made her an outcasted already because of how she acts and she is very limited in friends. I see her doing things that I learned to do when all I had was myself and I don't want that for her because..... well thats another area I won't go into unless you ask and still maybe not even then...

O well I can only hope things go alright for her but anyway I got home today and found that Comcast had decided while I was gone to come over and replace my modem and @%#^ up my connection so I had to spend the first 2 hours fixing it... Then for some reason one of my speakers was not working (probaly one of the wires was being over stressed or something) so after getting tangled in the wires and risking electrocution atempting to fix it I got pissed off and disconnected everything and rearanged everything. However I must say now I am much happier with the new arrangement, all my networking stuff in in one spot so I can easily see if there is a connection problem and I have much more space on the desk and room to use the table which I may beable to start using again. The thing im happiest about is I did'nt feel like fixing the speakers so I asked if I could use my parents set which they stopped using for some reason Im not sure off but they said yes and I was suprised and how much more fun games where with a subwoofer. I was going on CS and buying guns just to shot with no intension of shoting people but just had a blast pumping up the base and shoting the AWP,para,deagle,shotty just to hear and feel the base.

Anyway I've been having a pretty good time ill probaly upload some stuff tonight or later this week I noly have traditional stuff atm so ill problay put them in scraps but i still hate what my scanner does to them but also start my driving classes soon and I still have to work more on my summer project..... ]]> ~Jazdude http://Jazdude.deviantart.com/journal/9424627/ http://Jazdude.deviantart.com/journal/9424627/ Wed, 19 Jul 2006 09:16:07 PDT ~Jazdude http://Jazdude.deviantart.com/journal/9316904/ http://Jazdude.deviantart.com/journal/9316904/ Sat, 08 Jul 2006 23:54:49 PDT
Also updated my scrapes and ill be leaving for the East pretty soon. ]]> ~Jazdude