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Times goes by so fast! I just sat down and printed out my wishlist. Gosh. I also noticed how much less (lol, can you say that?) stuff I wish for every Christmas. I am greedy and spoilt XD

So most of my friends have decorated their houses already. I'm like "It's not even December T.T". And yeah, the 5th of December I am going away with my parents and relatives to Gran canaria for a week. (The day after my boyfriend comes home from HIS vacation with HIS family. T.T) And then it's gonna be Christmas and everything comes at once and I'm all "WAAAAH NOT TOO FAST PLOX!" So I'd have the biggest reason to decorate my house that early!

but meh. Whatcha gonna do.

]]> ~JenJessie Yay, purple! :D :D http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/28261364/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/28261364/ Tue, 10 Nov 2009 05:00:01 PST

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I love purple <3

Lookit my journal now! All purple and pretty. Thanks dA!

I don't have much to add. Sorry for being a lazy pixel artist >< I might upload some crappy stuff I've done when I was bored. ^^

]]> ~JenJessie For those who wants to know more about me... http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/25756802/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/25756802/ Sun, 05 Jul 2009 15:52:51 PDT
Just a bunch of questions, tried to answer as truthfully as possible.
If you're not interested, there's no need to go through it. I have not tagged anyone or so, it's just questions all the way through

[x] I am shorter than 5'4. (lolz. I'm about 5'3)
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars. (but they're pretty small

)
[ ] I tan easily.
[/] I wish my hair was a different color. (I kind of do. I am blond, but dye it black. on the other hand, blone is the best hair color to have if you want to dye it into another color!

)
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.(^^ I looked like Greta Garbo, he said)
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears. (not right now, but I had one i my nose once)
[x] I've got one scar.

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
[x] Have a spoilt sibling (we're both spoilt lol)

School/Work
[ ] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework. (kinda have to, eh? sooner or later)
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years. (don't know what that is o.o)
[x] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.
[ ] Do Home Schooling.

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing. (XD just a little (a))
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've had my pants rip in public
[x] I've fallen down on my face

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctors office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day. (well, I was in the car)
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe. (lol, I live there)
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[x] I've been out of my home country.
[ ] I've Been in Thailand
[ ] I've been in Phillipines

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city. (all the time XD)
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[/] I've gone out in public in my pajamas (well, it was a pyjama top that was cute XD)
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving. (I want to!!)
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace. (not myspace, but my bf, for example, is from the internet)
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[x] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten sushi.
[/] I've been snowboarding. (Had a snowboard when I was little, tried it once, didn't like it XD)

Relationships
[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[x] I've gon... ]]> ~JenJessie New Journal Entry! http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/25387040/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/25387040/ Thu, 18 Jun 2009 04:46:34 PDT

So I've been a bit inactive with dA lately and I admit it. But I've been busy with real life a lot and not until now do I have some time for myself

I won't say much now really. I'll be hanging around Roliana for a while and you are welcome to send me a PM if you wish ^^ My username is still lolli62 there.

If you're not already a member, please let me refer you with this referral code:
[link]

All you have to do is click the link and follow the instructions

Also, you have to post at least once in the forums (the New Here? forum would be suggested

) within 24 hours, or the referral won't be credited.
If you don't want to be referred but still join the site, feel welcome to browse over to [link] and register there. See you there!

]]> ~JenJessie Roliana! http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/18874229/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/18874229/ Mon, 16 Jun 2008 13:29:54 PDT
Long time no see.

Well... I'm just gonna do some shameless advertising, so if you click this link (clicky ---> [link] <--- clicky) I'll refer you to Roli and get gold from it and you'll be introduced to the best community yet. ;D

Lol okay maybe not but almost. I love avatar communities, and this is a really nice place. It's forum-based, so it's not really like gaia, and waaaay smaller and friendlier too.

In order for me to get the gold though, you have to post at least ONCE in the forums, doesn't matter where. I advice you to read the rules and stickies in the New Here? forum.

Yay for helpfulness. ^^

And yes, I have a charity there, so like, if you want to stay and chat with me, and get gold at the same time, go there. My name is lolli62 on Roli by the way. ^^

]]> ~JenJessie Against the Homophobia http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/18236827/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/18236827/ Fri, 09 May 2008 04:19:45 PDT Noelisa

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I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the Realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.

Re-post this if you believe homophobia is wrong.

Love knows no religion, race, age, or physical disability...so why is gender any different?

]]> ~JenJessie Sorreh people D: (+mini-rant or summink) http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/18116777/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/18116777/ Thu, 01 May 2008 12:19:19 PDT :
But it'll be for a good cause, I'll get money. XDD
I don't really know what I need them for but why not save a little for when I do need them?

It's in a little local store and they're pretty nice to me.

But I'm a little scared too, I'm starting to feel the anxiety kicking in again, you see. It does feel quite good when I'm there, but it's the time in between.. Before I get there, and after. I don't know if it's worth it, if you know what I mean? Is it worth the anxiety, to feel like that, every morning and every night?
Is it because of them or is it because of me?

*sighs* I don't know what to do. I don't want to miss the opportunity, to actually have a job that could turn out to be better than I thought (or worse..).
I just feel this big... thing, in my chest, every time I think about it.

I don't feel like work-material. :/
I feel much better than I did a year ago, and I actually consider my depression over and done with, but... Yeah, there's a big but. Why do I feel this anxiety? Or whatever it is. I don't want to live on pills for the rest of my life.

I feel like I'm having the time of my life, so why can't I smile?

]]> ~JenJessie Facts http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/18080990/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/18080990/ Tue, 29 Apr 2008 04:13:42 PDT

Rules:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person should post 8 facts of themselves.
3. Tagged people should write a journal\blog about these facts.
4. In the end tag and name 8 people.
5. Go to their dA pages and comment saying that they are tagged.

Kay, here goes...
1. I have been to the hospital three times all between the age of 11 and 14.
2. I've never smoked, done drugs or been drunk, like many others have done several times at my age (19).
3. I love cats. I can't have a cat pet yet (mom's allergic) but I'm dying to get one when I move from home. (I have a collection of cats though: posters, porcelain, plushies, other fabrics, all sizes)
4. I'm a playaholic

I'm addicted to the Sims 2, World of Warcraft, and all the games I have so far on my Nintendo DS (about 6 of 'em).
5. I still play with lego and love to watch Disney movies.
6. My wardrobe is 90% black clothes.

Yet I don't call myself "emo" or "goth".
7. I have had a depression since a year back now.
8. I... have been pixeling/dolling for at least 5 years now, on and off. XD

That's it. XD Maybe not that interesting. But it's facts.

I don't tag people... So many have done this one before (including me

) so they usually ignore it, but feel free to do this if you feel up for it.

]]> ~JenJessie Stupid Girls (in lack of a better topic) http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/17916541/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/17916541/ Fri, 18 Apr 2008 18:21:03 PDT Comments!
My message box is so empty. Stop by and say hi, or comment on my submissions, reply to a comment I may have sent you etc? Please? It's so boring to only read new journals EVERY. SINGLE. DAY!
I'm sorry, but you're boring. XD

Anyway, I'm on my way to go to bed.. soon. God, I've said that for like three hours now XD It's 3 am! sheez. Oh well. I'm gonna see eric tomorrow night, hell lighten up my day. <3

]]> ~JenJessie Better be http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/17608622/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/17608622/ Mon, 31 Mar 2008 15:24:24 PDT
I think o.o

Eh, besides that, I started hanging out on Roliana again. Was a while ago I created that account... But yeah, anyways, even if you don't like pixel stuff and avatars, you should hang out there anyway. It's pretty new, but it's filled with happy and nice people. (:
Check it out: [link]

And, if you ask nicely, I'll maybe tell you my username and add you to my buddylist ;D
ISN'T DAT RITE, KITTEN? *poke*

I want a kitty. ._.

]]> ~JenJessie Happy easter! http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/17480037/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/17480037/ Sun, 23 Mar 2008 18:07:18 PDT
In other news, I'm gonna be on a funeral this tuesday until the next day (wednesday if you didn't know ;D) sooo I'll be gone for a little while... I don't think I can borrow a computer there since we're staying at a hotel. Oh well...

If anyone plays WoW, PLEASE, tell me your name and server.

I'm dying to find nice company... Everyone else are 9-yeard old n00bs trying to be smartasses. >:

Hmmm... Yes.. I don't know if I have so much else to say right now. A little down atm but I'm working on it, don't worry. I'm good, I'm good. :3

]]> ~JenJessie Not Moving! http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/17282052/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/17282052/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 05:59:25 PDT
In other news, I cleaned out my gallery, moved some things to scraps. I'm a little slow in submitting stuff but don't worry, it'll come. ^^' I'm currently working on a pixel game with my bro. It actually started out as a scribble, but since he's studying about computer programming and stuff like that, he thought of a game.

So yeah... Maybe I'll give you a look of what it looks like so far. Not the game, but the characters and stuff. The things I draw, in other words

If you wanna see?

I quit school, so I'm not up to much. I hope I'm gonna get a job. Who knows.

]]> ~JenJessie Moving :D http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/16864091/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/16864091/ Wed, 13 Feb 2008 13:13:47 PST I don't know when or how or ANYTHING. But, I'm going to visit him tomorrow, and stay there for a week (until next weekend).

May be a little bit longer.

Depends.
And guess what? We're gonna get a kitten

Dunno when, still, but we have plans for it anyway. But first things first: I need to move there and get a job or something. I'm quitting school cuz well.. it's too annoying, kay?

I'm not gonna be active for a week or two now, but you can still comment and such. See ya later. ^^

]]> ~JenJessie Happy birthday to me http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/16768762/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/16768762/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 11:49:55 PST
AND I'M GONNA GET A NEW DIGITAL CAMERA MUAHAHAHA. Well, I'm 98% sure I'll get it anyway. I thought I would've got it on Christmas but nooo. I have to wait two months.. God, I sound so spoiled. XDD

But I don't care! Yay for me. So yeah, tomorrow (friday) you can all say congrats to me if you wanna.

Gah, I'm old. 19! soon, anyway.

]]> ~JenJessie Sorry for all the lateness D: http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/16600683/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/16600683/ Sun, 27 Jan 2008 16:43:26 PST School only makes me feel really low and then I stay home. But even if I did go to school, I wouldn't learn anything. I can't concentrate and just... I dunno... Having all these musts all the time makes me sick. I mean, really sick. Bleh. School is not my thing... Shut up.

So yeah. I'm gonna love in with my boyfriend when I finish/leave school!

And then we're gonna get a cat. Cuz cats are cool. Yeah. That and we love cats. At least I do XD So lala... that's the way it is. I may not be able to update my journal so much or submit so much pixel art but yeah, I'm still here and you can still talk to me and comment or someting if you wanna. I promise I read and appreciate everything <3

Peace out.

]]> ~JenJessie Merry Christmas! http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/16069188/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/16069188/ Mon, 24 Dec 2007 03:31:35 PST
I think you celebrate Christmas the 25th of December in America, right? Well, we do it the 24th here in Sweden, so I won't be on so much today. Not that I have been lately anyway. But that's only because I've spent some time with my new boyfriend

So I'm running around with this X-mas hat on me, giving ppl hugs and stuff. Just because I can ^^ (No, I'm not hugging strangers, jut my family).

Grandpa will be here soon. Dad is picking him up and mom is trying to decorate and convice me and my bro that we need to help her when we're busy. She can do the decorating herself. She just doesn't feel like doing it I guess. Oh god, the lazyness

But who am I, I'm lazy too!

]]> ~JenJessie Phew | I was wrong... http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/15797032/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/15797032/ Tue, 04 Dec 2007 17:23:49 PST

I still don't get why mom has to mess with me like this though...

I'm still a little worried anyway, I know the school counsilor won't tell mom about anything unless I say it's ok (I've been telling her the exact opposite now anyway, so) but she said that she wanted to see my mom and I too. Like, for something else. Like she was waiting for a call or something. I dunno. :s Oh well... no turn back now.. At least I'm a LITTLE more relieved now. :3 Don't worry about me!
I'll go christmas shopping tomorrow! Yay! Finally

And I have to make a wishlist for me too...

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Edit:

She told her. Right before my eyes. Well, almost anyway. She almost told her and I panicked. WHAT THE FUCKING HELL!? I DON'T WANT TO, I DON'T WANT TO, I DON'T WANT TO

I need someone's shoulder to cry on and I don't care how fucking emo I sound right now.

]]> ~JenJessie Counting the hours :/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/15763941/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/15763941/ Sun, 02 Dec 2007 11:49:39 PST < I'm trying to convince the school to cancel the meeting, or at least delay it. I don't wanna go there... Maybe they'll accidentally tell mom about my problem. I don't want that. Why can't people leave me alone. >< tried to tell her that I didn't want the meeting but they had arranged it BEFORE they told ME about it. And it's about me! Sheez. Thanks a fucking lot.

64 hours left. *takes a deep breath*

Hey, I need to go Christmas shopping tomorrow...

]]> ~JenJessie Scared... Help? http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/15621465/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/15621465/ Thu, 22 Nov 2007 13:06:07 PST
Since the beginning of this year, I got this depression thing mainly because of school. So now, after the summer break, I fixed an online course for me so I din't have to go to school, at least. I can do all work at home.

I guess all my teachers know about this, well, they should only know that I'm sick-listed, not why or anything. Everything is conf

But today, just like, an hour ago, my dad came in and asked me some questions about school and how I should go there even though I have my courses online, just to get "some fresh air". Sure. But why to school? ><
And then he said, all sudden, that a teacher from school (I don't know who but I can guess...) called mom and asked for a meeting with her and me. I only know that it was because this teacher wants to see how I'm doing and such.. and it would be suspicious to my parents. I mean, I have no reason to cancel it either. See, I haven't told them I'm taking meds and stuff.. They don't know. They only know that I have online courses and that's all they need to know. I don't want to tell them.

But now it feels like this teacher is gonna blow my cover, so to say. I haven't told my school (except the counsilor) that I haven't told my parents. GAH I hate that sneaky teacher! She only wants good, but it's quite annoying when I want to hide something... like this. I mean, the only reason she knows is because sh'es been to the meetings with the counsilor and the headmaster, when I wanted to fix the online course. And then she called me 5 times a day before I told her to stop.

I'm sorry for all of this, but I needed to get this off my chest at least. I'm so scared. >< I don't want my parents to think of me as some kind of Teen with teen angst or something. Or what if they only think that it's "not that bad"? It has happened before, like when I've been ill and so on. I'ts just.. grah. a big mess right now.

Bleh.

]]> ~JenJessie Snow :D :D :D http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/15489962/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/15489962/ Tue, 13 Nov 2007 07:58:45 PST :

*cries in corner*

btw, it's like, REALLY snowy here, so if I'm not here on dA, gaia, msn, whatever, it's because our electricity/internet is down. ttly.

]]> ~JenJessie Don't stop me now http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/15463019/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/15463019/ Sun, 11 Nov 2007 11:35:56 PST
Or well, in two days. But ya. SADNESS. I want MOAR. T.T

and wto (What The Oompa-lompa) happens to people around me? It's like they're getting a life... without me T.T Just... pass by, give me a hello, so I know you're alive and well fed and change your underwear every day.

oh, and happy fathers day to ALL of you XD

]]> ~JenJessie no WoW anymore. T.T http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/15415432/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/15415432/ Thu, 08 Nov 2007 03:58:07 PST
Buuut, maybe I'll buy it anyway. XD Like... When I am sure I can afford it. I'm gonna buy some more Fruits Basket now. <3 I NEED MOAR.

Btw, does anyone know a good site that sells tablet pens? Mine's like.. dying.. T.T

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I has little gifts from *Paxjah, check her out! free gifts from her journal^^

]]> ~JenJessie HALLOWEEN http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/15297876/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/15297876/ Wed, 31 Oct 2007 07:12:31 PDT D

has little gifts from *Paxjah, check her out! free gifts in her journal that will hatch soon^^

*waits*

So what are you all up to? Gah, I have so many things on my to-do-list! *dies* T.T
Give people some money I owe them, do my laundry, clean my room, do my homework, draw, write, borrow a sound book from the library, buy candy... oh noez. T.T

...my ass hurts.

Actually, I haven't started celebrating halloween yet. It's not until the 3rd here. XD Don't ask me why, cuz I have no idea...

]]> ~JenJessie Lololololz EDIT http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/15138790/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/15138790/ Mon, 22 Oct 2007 04:58:03 PDT
*LazyMuFFin

Cuz he's teh awesome.

Or I'll KILL J00 ALL!!GO THERE! NOW!

Btw, I'll be gone for a day or so now. Maybe. We'll see. Cuz I have other stuff to do than sitting here all day. >D

.... *falls on floor laughing* HAAHA okay srsly, I DO have other things to do. Yes. :l

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Edit:

Meh. Umm, I'm back. And I wasn't gone for long XD gah. oh well, hello there all. show yourselves T.T

I has little gifts from *Paxjah, check her out! free gifts in her journal that will hatch the 31st ^^

...ok, the images works now. XD Sorry pplz, for all the updating!

]]> ~JenJessie How much are you worth? http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/15091711/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/15091711/ Tue, 16 Oct 2007 17:51:05 PDT Tagged by ~spinbutterfly

See How Much You're Really Worth!
NO CHEATING!!

Natural Hair Color:
[ ] Black = $100
[x] Blonde = $50
[ ] Red = $75
[ ] Brown = $15
[ ] Bald = $5
[ ] Other=$2

Total: $50

Eye Color:
[ ] Brown - $150
[x] Green - $75
[ ] Blue $50
[ ] Hazel $100
[ ] Other - $15

Total so far: $125

Height:
[ ] Over 7' - $200
[ ] 6'8" to 7' - $175
[ ] 6'0" to 6'7" - $150
[x] 5'5" to 5'11" - $75 (I guess. I have no idea how tall I am in inches.. or.. whatever you use. T.T)
[ ]4'9" to 5'4" - $50
[ ] Under 4'9 - $45

Total so far: $200

Age:
[ ] 41 to 50 - $150
[ ] 31 to 40 - $100
[ ] 26 to 30 - $75
[ ] 21 to 25 - $50
[ ] 19 to 20 - $25
[x] 0 to 18 - $100

Total so far: $300

Birth Order:
[ ] Twins or more than twins - $300
[ ] First Born - $300
[ ]Only Child - $250
[x] second born - $150
[ ] Middle child - $100
[ ] Last Born - $200
[ ] third born - $100
[ ] fourth born - $100
[ ] fifth born-$375

Total so far: $450

Drink?
[x] No - $400
[ ] Only Holidays - $250
[ ] Sometimes - $215
[ ] YES - $200
[ ] only weekends - $300
[ ] Every other day - $50
[ ] Once a day - $15
[ ] I live from the bottle

Total so far: $850

Vision?
[ ] perfect vision $300
[x] need or have glasses/contacts but don't wear them $200
[ ] No correction $100
[ ] Glasses $50
[ ] contacts $25
[ ] Surgical correction -$135

Total so far: $1050

Car Color [or family's car(s)]:
[ ] White - $2,000
[ ] Maroon - $800
[ ] Gold - $700
[ ] Gray - $600
[x] Blue - $900
[ ] Pink - $475
[ ] Black - $450
[ ] Red - $400
[ ] Green- $350
[ ] Silver $300
[ ] Purple- $250
[ ] Metallic - $200
[ ] Yellow - $100
[ ] Primer - $75
[ ] Tan- $20
[ ] Rusted - $15
[ ] No Car - $0

Total score: $1950

Shoe Size:
[ ] 13+ - $300
[ ]12 and a half to 13 - $250
[ ] 11 to 12 - $700
[x] 7 to 10 - $600
[ ] Under 7- $550

Total so far: $2550

Favorite Colors (three):
[ ] Green-$750
[x] Black - $600
[x] Red - $800
[ ] Yellow -$475
[ ] Brown - $50
[x] Purple - $225
[ ] White - $400
[ ] Aqua - $350
[ ] Orange - $300
[ ] Blue - $300
[ ] Pink - $100
[ ] Other - $ 50

Total so far: $4175

Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[ ] Yes $0
[ ]No-add $1000
[x] on some- $750

Total so far: $4925

how many people are you going to tag?
[ ] 100-150 = 250,000
[ ] 90 - 80 = $100,000
[ ] 70 -60 = $50,000
[ ] 50 - 40 = $10,000
[ ] 30 - 20 = $5,000
[ ] 20 - 10 = $1,000
[X] 10 - 1 = $500

See How Much You're Really Worth!

Total so far : $5425

now add your number of pageviews

Total: $9141

I taaaaag.... *drumroll*

kay that's enough. ^^

]]> ~JenJessie Art meme | rant http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14973706/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14973706/ Mon, 08 Oct 2007 16:13:05 PDT
The problem is that I'm not good at drawing and well... Ya.. I don't have an avatar of myself, and I don't have a "personal style" really. XD Let's face it, if I do it, it'll suck.

So, have you done it yet? Why/why not!? o: Should I?

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I think I hate the world right now. >< and life. And.. everything. Meh, I don't even know why. I'm not sure I have enough strength to have any self-pity anymore either... T.T

I try to be happy and whatever, but I just end up being a total ass to people I really care about. Because... I have no idea. Because my brain is completely upside-down? I think mom dropped me on my head when I was little.

And oh, I hate love too. Fucking made-up shit that just makes me feel even worse. I don't know what to say. I'm just... ranting. Kay done.

]]> ~JenJessie New CSS! http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14893351/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14893351/ Wed, 03 Oct 2007 00:51:24 PDT I know I don't have to credit, but meh, she's so great so she deserves to be mentioned here:

made this CSS, there's lots of it in her scraps gallery that's free to use. Be sure to read her journal though. Most of them are free to modify as you want, except a few. Read about it, there's lots of helpful stuff there. ^^

]]> ~JenJessie Heeelp T.T | ANIME EDIT http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14850486/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14850486/ Mon, 01 Oct 2007 03:37:40 PDT
So... help? Ideas? Colors? Also, if anyone knows a good place where I can change the look of the journal, like.. rounded edges maybe or something like that, yanno. Please tell!

Andandandand, me gots a new tamagotchi!

But me is keeping the old one, so I has two now. ^^ They're a handful.. literally, lol. Bleh, my friend is gone to see another friend of hers, in LINKÃ PING, that's like.. two hours away. With car. Probably even longer if you go by train... MEH. She just left. Like dat. So now I'm ll alone.. T.T She's coming back some time today I think, well she should. School tomorrow. XD Bleh.

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Edit:

Okay, so... I've been watching Ouran Highschool Host Club (thanks to ~Spikeygal ) It was fun, yeah, I like the characters and such. But now I've started watching this NEW anime, Fruits Basket, and it's like.. ALMOST THE SAME CHARACTERS AND WAHWAHWAHWAH *flails arms* They look alike anyway.

What'shisname(Momiji?) and Honey!
Haruhi and what'shername!
Mori and Idon'tknow!

Lol, I need to learn names better... X'D Please tell me I'm right! T.T

I hope the links works now!

Over and out.

]]> ~JenJessie Show yourselves!? http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14782842/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14782842/ Tue, 25 Sep 2007 07:10:36 PDT
I have over 30 watchers but almost none of you are commenting my stuff or even my journals... o.o I'm sorry I'm so boring! T.T
What can I do to make it interesting? I don't really care if people fav or comment, but it's nice when it happens, I used to get at least 5 comments per day (I start small, so what?) but now it's like.. 5 comments per week! ._______.

Just stop by and say hi or something? So I know that you're alive and still luff me. *sobsob*

Also, I'm gonna change the CCS for my journal... Any ideas for like, colors and such? I like purple (duh) XD But this is kinda boring...

]]> ~JenJessie Lul new avvie http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14757187/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14757187/ Sun, 23 Sep 2007 11:57:00 PDT

Meh. I need something else to think about, than my current crappy life. Yes, it's crappy. And the persons I usually vent and talk to are offline... Just my luck. ALWAYS when I need to talk. Meh. What to do... I wish life was esier. No, I'm not gonna "suck it up". Fuck that. I seriously want to kill someone to stop this torture.

]]> ~JenJessie SCHOOL WHUT? small edit http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14695405/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14695405/ Wed, 19 Sep 2007 12:02:59 PDT

I haven't been in school since friday, and that was only the last half of the day. I don't know what my problem is! GAH. I should go to school and have fun and meet friends and get homework and sit in a cold classroom on an uncomfortable chair with a teacher that's boring my to death... and.. no...

I have a serious problem. Please help? Now? Pretty please?
I am NOT going to tell my parents ><

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JÃVLA SKIT JAG SA JU ATT DOM SKULLE BLI SURA PÃ MIG. MEN HERREGUD, SKANIPRATABAKOMRYGGENPÃMIG_OM_MIGSÃGÃRDETNÃRJAGINTEHÃRERAJÃVLAFITTOR. Vill dom byta liv med mig eller? Fan. Jag har lust att sura pÃ¥ dom hela veckan nu men det gÃ¥r inte fÃ¶r jag ska pÃ¥ camping med dom och blÃ¤.. FANFANFANFAN. helvete. JÃ¤vla svin som tror att dom vet allt.. jag Ã¤r bara en liten Denize som hÃ¥ller pÃ¥ och lÃ¥tsas, sÃ¤kert. Det tror dom. JAG HATAR ER JÃVLA BITCH FANSKAP!

Sorry, I really needed to get that off my chest, don't worry. And for you that know swedish... congratulations. .___.
If you really want to know, ask.

]]> ~JenJessie Pleasepleaseplease? http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14568961/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14568961/ Sun, 09 Sep 2007 22:57:49 PDT need to go to school. FUCK. I haaaaaaate this. hate hate hate. damn school. Damn feeling. Damn everything. -.-

I really don't feel like going... I don't know why. It feels better now than before though, when I've been taking the pills for a few months. I don't cry as much/easily as I used to, but it's still a little... meh.

GAH.. Just. kill. me. now.

]]> ~JenJessie Fucked up things http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14542285/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14542285/ Sat, 08 Sep 2007 08:22:07 PDT

Yeah. Things are fucked up. If life had a Undo button, I'd press it. Right now. Or press Esc. Either way is fine with me. But I only know the way to escape, sadly...

]]> ~JenJessie Devious Journal Entry http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14454614/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14454614/ Sun, 02 Sep 2007 11:02:40 PDT
nd yeah, I almost thought Ouran High School Host Club would be a great anime for me, once I started watching it, but neh, it seems like the endings of animes I've been watching lately have bad endings. But hey, I shouldn't say anything until I'm finished with Ouran. Muh.

on the good side, I got my first and second choice in school, which are English C-course and Latin A-course. I think Latin will be a little bit of a challenge, but still not too much for me to handle.And it's something new. Me like. <3

]]> ~JenJessie Depressed http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14375812/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14375812/ Tue, 28 Aug 2007 05:48:18 PDT I don't feel very well. When is this going to end? :/

]]> ~JenJessie Devious Journal Entry http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14351628/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14351628/ Sun, 26 Aug 2007 15:35:57 PDT
I think a friend of mine irl likes me a little bit more than "just a friend" yanno, but bleh. She's my friend. I don't want to ruin our friendship. It's really complicated... And I just.. Don't like my life atm. I can't think about stuff without crying. Don't take it the wrong way, I do have happy memories and such, but they're too distant right now, it's like chaos and... just... no. >< It's hard to even sleep at night.

I don't know if I'm ever gonna get out of the depression. It's so depressing (lol irony >< ). It feels like an emotional rollercoaster and I dunno how it's gonna end. If it's gonna end at all. Or if I'm gonna have to end it..

I need someone to talk to. Seriously. And yeah, I have a few friends I know I can turn to but I don't want them to get sick of my emo-ness all the time or feel like they're not helping.
I'm so down all the time, and I keep snapping when I don't mean to, and everything goes wrong and I need a hug or something. ><

I don't know where I'm going with this. Don't ask. I don't know. I don't know shit. Leave me alone ><

]]> ~JenJessie Gone http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14317219/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14317219/ Fri, 24 Aug 2007 10:12:58 PDT
So ya, I'll be gone. I'll maybe find a way to log in to msn but I won't promise anything. Don't miss me too much (:

]]> ~JenJessie *pixelnerd* http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14251058/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14251058/ Mon, 20 Aug 2007 06:01:42 PDT
| Good things |

I have a new fandom, Ouran High School Host Club X'D It's win. INNIT RIGHT, EMMA!?

Aaaand... I still love raisins.

AND OH I GOT A NEW HAIRCUT!

well, it isn't that new, I just cut it shorter... to my shoulders. T.T oh well, I don't need to use so much shampoo when I shower. XD (Lol I almost spelled it "hampoo" instead... shampoo made of ham. mm..)

| Funny things |

Lol, just a few minutes ago, two girls rang the doorbell, and they were dressed in thick jackets, scarves, mittens etc. And they shouted and pointed all "OMG LOOK A SNOWMAN OVER THERE!" "AND THERE!" and then they ran away.
Note that it's still summer-ish here... Oh meow.. I remember when I used to do that kinda cracky stuff with friends of mine when I was younger. X'D

I bought two new expansionpacks last week, for my TS2 (The Sims 2) and I haven't even installed them yet. XD I created a Death Note family though. Lul, it's so cute. Mello starts pillow fights with everyone and annoys the shit out of people together with Matt. Oh god. XD

]]> ~JenJessie Omgomglookatme editeded http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14150487/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14150487/ Mon, 13 Aug 2007 21:21:47 PDT bah, you probably don't XD

oh ya, I have a new favourite song X''D Teenagers by My Chemical Romance. I think I've listened to it for.. two days in a row now. On repeat. >''D *repeatnerd*

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Kay, now you should notice a difference. But This is just temporary, I need something better. T.T We'll see what I come up with. XD

(YES IRIS RAISINS RULES THE WORLD. STILL.)

btw, tell me if the text is too small to read or something. T.T Or if there's something I needa change. No, not the color. I like purpul. D:

Is it just me or is the background turning out fucking dark red? o.o

]]> ~JenJessie Bat county :EDIT: http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14115663/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14115663/ Sat, 11 Aug 2007 16:12:01 PDT Time for an update

Stolen from ~Tamlett

RULES:
1. Put your itunes, windows media player etc on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name

OK, here we go!

If someone says "is this okay?" you say,
No problems (^^)

How would you discribe yourself?
I love you just the way (...right)

What do you like a guy/girl?
I'm with you (I guess I'm with them already o.o)

How do you feel today?
Hold on (Pretty much o.o)

What is your life's purpose?
Numb (wtf? It's not. D: )

What's your motto?
Kids of the future (wtf I guess I am XD I'm before my kids... *coughcough*)

What do your friends think of you?
Thank you for the music (Cool! I never even play any music for them!

)

What do you think about your parents?
Closet romantic (Yeah, I gues they never show their real love except in.. the closet)

What do you think about very often?
Skater boy (OMG I LOVE TEH SKATER BOY I'VE NEVER MET IN MY LIFE! >o!)

What is 2+2?
We didn't start the fire (lol, two matches plus two lighters equals FIRE)

What do you think of the person you like?
The best damn thing (aaaaaw.

yeah. ^^)

What do you think of the person you like?
One night in Bangkok (omgwhut? o.o)

What is your life story?
Betrayed (Actually.. it's kinda fitting o.o)

What do you want to be when you grow up?
I have a dream (lol, I won't tell you what it is)

What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Don't tell anyone (DON'T TELL ANYONE WHAT I FEEL ABOUT THEM)

What will you dance to at your wedding?
Unwanted (ooh yes, very fitting, Maria. >< )

What will they play at your funeral?
Fuel (GIMMIE FUEL GIMMIE FIRE GIMMIE THAT WHICH I DESIRE! o.o I guess I wanna be cremented...)

What is yor hobby/interest?
Shattered by broken dreams (...I need a hobby)

What is your biggest fear?
Thick and thin (I guess I don't wanna be BOTH thick AND thin at the same time ;o)

What is your biggest secret?
Why (WHY DO YOU WANNA KNOW!?)

What do you think of your friends?
Throw it up (I guess I throw up when I see them.. o.o)

What will you post this as?
Bat country (Alright! XD)

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Btw pplz, GIMMIE IDEAS FOR A COSTUME PARTY!! Something to wear, that is. Just.. anything. Not too complicated though, I don't wanna spend all my money on it XD It was enough with a cowboy hat but I want something more than that or it's no fun. :l
I heard the birthday girl was going as snow white XD

I'm probably gonna fix my hair a little too, but I dunno. I was planning to go to the hair dresser's anyway. XD

Over and out.

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Edit:

1. Post these rules
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves
3. Tags should write a journal of these facts
4. At the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged

My Random Facts:
1. I hate blood. Always. Except my own. .__.
2. I once had a pet lizard called Bamse. (named after a swedish cartoon for little kids I once liked XD)
3. I don't like Legolas/Orlando Bloom so THERE! *shot*
4. I'm afraid of heights
5. I'm afraid of spiders
6. I'm obsessed with raisins
7. I'm 18 and I still love Disney movies.

8. Another disturbed fact about me is that I don't know what to put here.

I got tagged, so now I'm supposed to tag others... well. here goes:

http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/14048638/ Mon, 06 Aug 2007 18:42:15 PDT
Warning for ranting and random bullshit. >< I need to tell someone how I feel... You don't need to read.

Well... Some may already know that my life got very messy not too long ago, and I started going to a doctor and got pills against my depression. Now I've forgotten to take them for a while, yes forgotten, I'd never intentionally stop using them until my doctor said so ><
I'm starting to think of school coming up soon, and all the stuff I need to do. I don't know how big the pressure will be, but just by thinking of it, typing, makes tears run from my eyes and I blame only myself for it >< I'm starting to become a wreck soon, again, and just... blah. >< I can't seem to stay happy for long and I don't get fucking why! >< I want to hit someone. So bad.

I remember, the last day in school before the summer break, I was so happy that I didn't need to worry that I missed out stuff in school. But I got a book and an assignment to do during the vacation, so I wouldn't miss too much... But I haven't even looked at them yet and school is starting in.. well.. what? two-three weeks? I'm so slow at ready books, I HATE to read. Well, books anyway. Because I don't find it interesting I guess... it's just blah blah, turn page, blah blah. >< Boring. But I need to do it.

I wish life turned out the way I wanted it to. But it seems like there's no way I could have my own life. Everything's becoming so stressful again and I don't know what I'll do if the pressure gets too big again. I don't want to think of it.

I wish someone could help ><

I guess people are tired of my whining by now so you don't even have to comment. I need to vent and update with what's going on, that's all.
I think I need a hug.

]]> ~JenJessie WAAH INTARNETZ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13985546/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13985546/ Thu, 02 Aug 2007 11:38:05 PDT It was only raining and such... Nothing big yanno. And then this big thunder came and POOF everything died. T.T But now it's back. <3

I'VE MISSED YOU, INTARNETZ.

And yeah, since I had a lot of time to do other stuff, I went to see this movie with a friend, guess which one it was... okay okay, it was the new simpsons movie! :'D I've never laughed so much during a movie. nd I never thought they could stuff new, original simpson-jokes for 1Â½ hour straight. So kewl ^^
And oh yeah, I came home from town again a few hours ago, I forgot my jacket at the cinema so I went there to get it back XD Nothing stolen, thank god. ^^
I was sitting on a bench to rest my feet a little, and a girl randomly popped up in front of me, asking if I wanted to participate in some kind of survey about some new soda. It was kewl, I tasted new sodas for free AND got a free movie ticket, to any movie I want to see. ^^ YAY ME! See what could happen when you are lazy and tired and confused.

]]> ~JenJessie Devious Journal Entry | Edit http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13895057/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13895057/ Sun, 29 Jul 2007 10:15:32 PDT Yes I know I'm stupid. I need my time so back off.

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Edit:
I'm so sorry, everyone. I got a little upset but it really helps to get some time alone, yanno? ^^' I missed you guys.

]]> ~JenJessie Back http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13841589/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13841589/ Mon, 23 Jul 2007 03:59:12 PDT

The end.

]]> ~JenJessie Update from Skellefteå EDIT http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13777547/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13777547/ Sat, 21 Jul 2007 15:28:54 PDT
At least my grandpa remembered me this time, or actually, I dunno, he kinda ignored me D: He's so quiet, poor one.. He was all "o:" all the time. But grandma seems to be kinda gewd. For her age. They look like they're gonna fall down and die any second though D: old people. *shudders*

Ugh, I hate this keyboard. It's nothing like my usual one back home XD Well, it's my own keyboard that looks weird, so... but ya. Anyway.

I'M LONELY AND I WOULDN'T MIND SOME COMPANY!
We're going to visit this old haunted house

wheee. I love those. I hope we can see something weird happen. Too bad we're not gonna sleep there D: We're gonna sleep over at my dad's ooold old old classmate. Kay, he's not that old.

And well.. I dunno. Tell me what's up?

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EDIT:

So we went to that place, the haunted house or whatever, but they had demolished it. T.T but ya.. there were lots of other weird stuff there. And we saw a lot of reindeers, I guess that's what you have to expec to see when you're so far north in this country. sheez.
And we visited my grandprents again. They didn't seem to remember that we were there earlier this week, and noone could remember my name. But they could remember the rest of the family... uh-huh. OH well. They'll die soon... We're all gonna die sooner or later actually so why do I care ><

Anyway, I should be off to bed now actually, there's a long day ahead of us tomorrow, I'm gonna sit in a car for like... 10 hours. bleh. It's probably gonna be "nice" weather outside too, meaning lots of sun.
I HATE the sun. I don't mind some sunlight, but it gets too hot, and I get tired but it's too hot to sleep and it attracts mosquitos and other annoying insects and it's just... No. I hope it rains. I wanna drive during the night but NOO my mom gets her way through because she acts like a big baby. The only thing she needs are some diapers and people would probably mistake her for a baby. I mean, sheez. *shakes head*

Enough of that though, I'm only writing some stuff down before I go to bed...Soo you around. Leave me somethign nice to read when I get back home?

]]> ~JenJessie YABBO (leaving and shizz) EDIT! http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13697319/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13697319/ Fri, 13 Jul 2007 10:09:33 PDT TWO DAYS WITHOUT INTERNET!). I'll probably be back on Saturday or something, hopefully anyway. You never know with parents. They missed me and wanted me to come over to them, they're at our summerhouse. But I didn't want to leave two weeks with no internet and barley any TV in the middle of the forest. D: Soo.. I stayed home. But now they want me back. I'm going to be picked up by my aunt, she and her husband are gonna visit their daughter (my cousin if you didn't figure that out yet. XD) in Wein. Yes, Osterich (wtf sp?).

So ya, then I'll be home for some days and then We'll leave again. This time I have to go with them, we're going to say hi to the rest of our relatives, WAAAY up north. *deds* I'm not sure if they have a computer, internet, and if I'm even allowed to use it, but, I'll try to find a library or something otherwise. I know I sound like a brat now but I REALLY hate visiting my grandma and grandpa, they're so old and last time I saw them they remembered my dad (their son), my mom and my brother... BUT NOT ME. T.T So I was liek "well, who's daughter do you THINK I am you old fuck?" okay, I didn't say that, but I almost wanted to XD aw poor ones:/ *sighs* They were lovely when I was younger. Oh well.

Aaaand I'm gonna stay there for liek, two weeks. Sheez. I'm gonna miss you all so much. *hugs* Lots of love.

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EDIT:
I'm back, with good and bad news. XD Well, I guess the good news were that I'm back so early, but meh. But it's also good that I won't be gone for two weeks, I'll only be gone for one. ^^ And I have the permission to borrow my aunt's computer so hopefully I'll keep in touch with you guys anyway. If I'm not on MSN, I'll be here and probably over at gaia and stuff. I swear, if I didn't have a computer, I'd... pass out. XD
the BAD news are that I have to leave in like, two days, and I'll be really busy tomorrow.. I have to mail stuff to people andandand pack my stuff (and who knows how slow I could be...) and just.. yeah. O.O Aaaand I'm invited to a party tomorrow night!

wheee. I still haven't had time to buy her a gift, cuz I didn't get the messege until like, a few days ago, so... But I'll be there.

and OH! If anyone knows something simple I can wear to a costume party (not this one tomorrow, it's not until August) please TELL ME X'D I have no idea. I have fangs so I'll probably use them and be all vampire-ish if I can't find anything kewler X'D

well, buh-bye.

-----

Yup, I got one of those give-me-a-hug-thingies.

give JenJessie more *HUGS*

Get hugs of your own

]]> ~JenJessie Devious Journal Entry http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13679730/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13679730/ Tue, 10 Jul 2007 04:18:32 PDT Ignore this. I'm just venting my feelings. I need to do this here because there's noone else there for me to listen..

Isolated, lonely, neglected, rejected, insulted, hurt...

I don't know where to start. For a little while ago, I felt great, like I had nothing bad on my chest I needed to get out, or anything negative going on around me. but, why am I trying to convince myself everything's gonna be alright when it seems like it's impossible? I mean, sure, it's life, there's always gonna be a few things to drag you down sometimes, but NOT FUCKING 20 THINGS AT THE SAME FUCKING TIME. and so it goes on, for fucking ever. It never stops. Even when I try to AVOID it, everytime I can, it always seems to end up hurting me or someone I love. It jsut plainly sucks. I hate this world. If I could, I'd run away to another place. To hide. To be myself, with no troubles. Where I could do what I wanted. I think that place is called heaven, but I'm not sure.

Why do you do this? If you hate me, just say so. If you "don't feel like talking" to me, just say so. Straight to my face. There's no point in making me feel this way, it'll only get worse. Maybe not for you, 'cuase you have NO IDEA how I fucking feel. I'm the one ending up getting hurt, though I'm not allwed to 'cuase then there's always someone there to tell me to fucking "get a grip" and get back up on my feet. YOU DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT ME, just yourselves your selfish bastards. I'm trying to be nice, I'm trying to tell people how I feel. If someone's pissing me off, I'll tell them and ask them to please stop. Or if I feel like venting, I ask someone I trust to at least listen. and then I vent. All I can. but right now, everyone's leaving me outside.

I feel like the little nerdy, retarded bitch that didn't get invited to the cool party, and now she can only hear their laughter in the far distance. She didn't have a clue they had a party. She didn't know she was so hated. Fine, then she'll give them what they want. She'll leave them alone. She'll leave them the fuck alone.

]]> ~JenJessie I KNOW WHERE YOU HIDE! http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13608511/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13608511/ Wed, 04 Jul 2007 14:33:48 PDT The topic that is.

Sooooooo. I'm liek, all alone. Everyone dumped me D: I was like "Hi (:" and they were liek "*GOES OFFLINE*" and I'm like "NO WAY ):"

OOHHH I'M SOOOO GONNA GET A CAT! A KITTEN! WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO SAY ABOUT THAT, BITCHES!? I've always wanted one I'm like "omgdatssocuteIwantonetopurrinmylapplease canIhaveone" and mom's like "no." cuz she's allergic but THERE ARE CATS BRED FOR THOSE THAT ARE ALLERIGC TOO AND I'M GONNA FIND ONE AND BUY IT AND LOVE IT AND GIVE IT TOYS AND YEAAAHHHHHH.

purr (: ]]> ~JenJessie I needa play sims D: http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13542148/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13542148/ Fri, 29 Jun 2007 17:12:49 PDT
I'm in a happy mood now so DON'T EVEN TRY TO UN-HAPPY ME! >o

I don't have much to say. I should go to bed though... But I wanna play TS2, it's been like.. weeks since I played that D: *deds* I have to clean up my neighbourhoods too. They're full of new families I never or rarely play... I just like to try out new outfits and making new faces and such. XD it's suuhh fuuunnn. But that's like, not the point of the game, so yeah... Actually, what is the point of the game? It doesn't have a point. just to have fun and see them eat, sleep and have sex. and then die. (:

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]]> ~JenJessie I'm back! http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13474744/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13474744/ Sun, 24 Jun 2007 17:02:29 PDT o

Soo... I'm feeling a lot better. Sorry if I might appear a little... umm... weird. It's just me being me. Lots of things to do. Right now I've been telling myself to go to sleep for like, two hours or so... But bviously I can't listen to myself. ^^'

I'll go to bed now, for srs, and like... dream. Pretty dreams. About butterflies. And... drooling goggles. (XD only ~Mourning-Soul will get that one X))

btw, why does it say de

iantART? o.o

Bye.

<--- OMGZ BUTT OH NOEZ!!!11one okay I'll go now.

]]> ~JenJessie I fucked up http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13428870/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13428870/ Thu, 21 Jun 2007 06:17:47 PDT real break for once, so people can settle down and I can try to figure out why I'm like this.

I don't have much else to say... It's for our all best, I'll be gone just for this weeked or so. I hope things get settled and everyone calm down.. Especially me.

]]> ~JenJessie e-yay. I'm married! http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13384344/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13384344/ Sun, 17 Jun 2007 18:20:22 PDT Cyberquake

anyway. Yeah. So now you know. XD I'm a bitch and a e-wife...

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]]> ~JenJessie I kick ass http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13336646/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13336646/ Wed, 13 Jun 2007 23:53:32 PDT

Anyway. Last day in school before summer break. ^^ And last day for me to get up so EARLY *half-dies* I'm used to get up like, 10-11 am something, right?But nooo, they make me get up 8. T.T That's... almost three hours earlier! Gnnnhh. I'll... kick their ass. "Hi! ^^ *kicks ass* Okay, bye! (:".

Aaand... hmm.. Well, things seems to go better and better for me now actually. At least I feel better and better on the inside. ^^ I may be a bit down sometimes, for one thing or another, but I'm really starting to feel that I'm getting better, and I probably won't feel down as much any longer. :3

Kay, hugs for you all even if you don't want them. >D

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]]> ~JenJessie Devious Journal Entry http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13277031/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13277031/ Sat, 09 Jun 2007 11:08:12 PDT
Have a nice life.

I don't belong here

]]> ~JenJessie Oh God! http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13224960/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13224960/ Tue, 05 Jun 2007 08:12:01 PDT

So anehwai!
I watched Spider-Man 3 today ^^ Yay. It was... Good, actually. I thought it was gonna stink cuz I heard a lot of criti...cism, about it, and yeah. I didn't think I was gonna see it. XD I'm not sure if I liked the end though, but I'm not gonna tell you what it is cuz that would ruin it for those that haven't seen it yet.. D: If you wanna discuss with me though, like, note me or something. ^^
I don't mind notes yanno! Those are kewl. ^^

Aaaand... I think I saw a mouse today too. Gawd, I need to getout more often. But my clothes and the sun don't mix and match very good XD I mostly wear black, so everytime it's like, sunny, I'm liek "HOMG OH NOEZ! *hides in the shadows* hisssss...." X''DD *shows fangs* Imma vampire. >o

Yaa. I'm gonna get a new freaking ID. I think... But I'm too lazy to do anything right now, like I said.. so. We'll see.

Tell me if there's anything I missed T.T

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]]> ~JenJessie Meep. (yeah, I'm so creative) http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13198427/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13198427/ Sun, 03 Jun 2007 06:22:51 PDT Gah, those stupid new buttons look so... stupid X'D

ANEHWAI. That wasn't what I was gonna say... Actually, I forgot what it was. But I remember I dreamt about a cat with a body fluids problem. It started to lick the pavement (in a pattern, like it was drawing.. with it's tounge. O.O) and when it was finished, or whatever, it stood up on it's front paws and kinda let the rest of the body up in the air and.. pissed... O.O And I was looking at it from my window, and a few of my friends were there, so I was like "uh.. guys? Do any of you have any cats at home? Do you know anything about cat behaviour? O.O" X''D it was so fun.. And just a lot of other cracky stuff.

I think I have a headache. And a stomachache. And... Nah, that's about it. I wanna sleep but I can't. Irony...

Nyah, that's about it.. ^^' cuz my journals are SO interesting. X) I still want some cool stuff like that Comment-thingy. Please? T.T

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]]> ~JenJessie Bleep. http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13162151/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13162151/ Thu, 31 May 2007 09:52:45 PDT So any ideas are appreciated. T.T
But don't think I don't try, cuz I do ^^ I doodle a little every day.. Just to see if something's coming. *sighs* W'ell see... ^^'

And lawl, I think either a guy on the bus home today had neck problems, or he was checking me out. X'D
I was like, sitting a few seats behind him, and he started to look back at me a few times. And I was like "O.O wtf?" X''D Poor him. *sends a [insert random object here]*

So yaa.. If any one of you have another one of those funny stuff you can put in your journal, like the one in my "Comment!" journal.. That would be fun. ^^ MORE FUN PLZ!

Aaand another good thing is, that I didn't get yelled at at all when I was at the dentist. ^^ Last time I saw her, she was like "OMGWTFSEVENCAVITIESYOU'RENOTTAKINGCAREOFYOURTEETHYOU'REABADERSON >o" And all I could do was to listen and take all the crap and basically be like "T.T Sorrysorrysorry..."
But now I suspected I had cavities again, plus I had to check on that weird thing I had on my tounge. It wasn't from my teeth as I suspected, it was some sorta.. I dunno, but it was caused of probably hormones (damn teenage body >o) and she gave me a thing I could use on it and it'll heal in about one to two weeks. ^^ And, I didn't have any cavities as I suspected as well. YAY! ...But I still think I do, she didn't really look. I told her to but she was all like "I couldn't see any" when the only thing she looked at was my tounge. -.- very well. Her fault. ^^ I got some toothpaste I could use for my miscolored teeth as well. It's for smokers and such but it will work on me as well. XD

GAH this was longer than I expected it to be.. Oh well. *shrugs and starts dancing*

]]> ~JenJessie Comment! http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13127488/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13127488/ Mon, 28 May 2007 15:54:17 PDT

So here goes:
If you comment...

1- I'll answer with something random about you.
2- I'll dare you to try something.
3- I'll say a color I associate with you.
4- I'll tell you something I like about you.
5- I'll tell you something I always remember about you / a first memory about you.
6- I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7- I'll ask you something I always wanted to ask you.
8- If I do this for you, you must put this in your journal.

Soo... I'll try my best. XD c'mon? D:

]]> ~JenJessie *bounces up and down* http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13085371/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13085371/ Fri, 25 May 2007 06:57:13 PDT

Yay!

So now I'm full of... Happiness. ^^'

See!? This was what I was talking about in my previous journal. Things easily bring me down, but things can also make me slap happy too ^^ Like now.

I LOVE LONDON! I've always wanted to go there. There, and America. But I've already been there. But now I have a new reason to go there a second time <3

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]]> ~JenJessie Le sigh http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13076334/ http://JenJessie.deviantart.com/journal/13076334/ Thu, 24 May 2007 13:20:28 PDT Okay, so before anyone goes "You have to try not be so negative and things will be fine!" on me, I wanna say that I am trying, I'm trying my best, but it doesn't seem to work to keep me up. Any little "emo-thing" drags me down more than it should, and it just keeps me there. Which just wants me to slap myself. But it seems like I'm not allowed to, so I won't...

Don't worry about me though. I'll be fine. I will. There's just too much going on... I would leave dA and MSN if I could, but I have nowhere else to go. I have no reality left to hide in, this is my little corner of "reality". It keeps my spirit up, and without all of the people I've gotten to know from the internet, I don't know what I would do. But it could also sometimes drag me down, like now. But I'm sure I'll find a way to feel good again.. *shrugs* Just a filler.. Again. I have nothing else than fillers, or should I say rants. The only thing I do is talk about myself.

So I just got a letter from my school, inviting me to the "breaking-up day" for the third graders. Gah. Soon I'm gonna be one of them... Well, next year. NEXT YEAR! GAH!
I feel like there's too much in school now, but at the same time.. One year left. That's not much at all. What do I do after that? I will most certainly take a break from all school work, that's for sure. Maybe get a job. But there's like noone that wants one so young and unexperienced like me (Never had a job before that either, just because of that.. So I guess it'll just go on like that. T.T) so I'll just sit at home and do nothing. I'm good at that.

Get back on your feet pretty girl, there's someone waiting for you, can't you see?...

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