http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Jenazia&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Jenazia en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Tue, 24 Nov 2009 15:32:39 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/27441206/ http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/27441206/ Sun, 27 Sep 2009 04:12:45 PDT Ketsana (locally known as Bagyong Ondoy). We were not expecting an epic flash flood, in fact, we weren't expecting anything extreme that could have driven us to this condition. Yet, it happened. The Philippine Government has declared a STATE OF CALAMITY in over 20 places in Luzon. More than 70 people are now dead, 20+ are missing and an estimate of a hundred thousand are homeless. ^{Those missing people... some of those are people who my friends and I know.}

This is the first time I have ever experienced such a calamity in our country. Although, Bagyong Milenyo was a disaster itself, the impact of Ketsana has far exceeded four decades of any flooding calamities. Water reaching until one-storey houses' rooftops. Although my experience inside my house is nothing compared to those who were/are still waiting for rescuers at the top of their houses, it still added to my desire to let people see that this is what we reap with the things we have done. We have to prevent this rather than thinking of what we can do after the danger has passed.

I'm not able to personally offer any help to the people who are suffering from Ketsana or in general, so all I do is just pray and try my best to let other people realize that there are those who really need our help. May it be little or not. So please, if you can (and I know you have the ability to) please pray for our fellow countrymen.


I wish to see people happy, and I'm sure that whoever is reading this wishes for that too... even if it's a bit of happiness, I wish I can offer that to the people around me. So, pray with me and let's do something about it.


Thank you to all my friends, watchers, acquaintances, teachers and everybody out there who I met...

--Diana


Click on this [link] to know more about what has happened in the Philippines. *behindinfinity has the contacts and other paraphernalias that would help you with your aid and donations.



Doujins:

SasuSaku:

Vestige

Anata wo Aishiteru

Xie Xie Ai

The Actions We Speak

ItaSaku:

Sich Revanchieren

Frei Faszinosum


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]]> ~Jenazia http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/25893656/ http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/25893656/ Sun, 12 Jul 2009 06:29:39 PDT

I love my sixteenth year. It was definitely full of surprises, both good and bad, but still welcomed. I faced a lot of difficulties, especially with friends of the past, along with love. For a month or so, I was horribly depressed, but I still held my head high. I know myself more than anybody in this planet would ever do, so I didn't let snide remarks about my personality or any false actions get to me. I was able to achieve one of my goals this year... to become a scholar. I'm able to help my family somehow with this, and I'm truly happy.

I thank God for everything He has blessed me with; for keeping me safe in his arms; for loving me as I am; most especially, for being there.

I wish that this year will be even more fruitful, and that I'll be able to help more people, make them smile, and become a better person.

Thank you to all my friends, watchers, acquaintances, teachers and everybody out there who I met...

--Diana



Doujins:

SasuSaku:

Vestige

Anata wo Aishiteru

Xie Xie Ai

The Actions We Speak

ItaSaku:

Sich Revanchieren

Frei Faszinosum


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]]> ~Jenazia http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/25247007/ http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/25247007/ Thu, 11 Jun 2009 01:55:44 PDT this isn’t enough.

So, I’m feeling like total crap at the moment. I’m developing such low self-esteem, that I’m being pushed to a wall full of makeover choices. But, I don’t want to! I mean… I feel the need to look beautiful, but I just want to be satisfied and happy with how I am.

It’s definitely driving me nuts; more so when I get to see beautiful girls out there in the magazines and television. There’s like an automatic response in my head telling me, “You look so ugly compared to her.”, or something along those lines. It feels like I'm so underdemiciated (for any of you who aren't familiar with the word, please do not search it up in the dictionary, for it was created by the adorable kids of BEDTIME STORIES, which means not appreciated) Argh! I love uniqueness, and I love myself because I am different, but there are times when I just…*groans in frustration*

Now, do you see why I titled this journal that way? @_@ Am I schizophrenic? Wahaha, okay, getting way over my head. Seriously. Am I? Or am I just going through a really really tough time in my teenage years?

BOTTOMLINE: I'm low on self-esteem.

I’m posting it here to vent out my frustrations. Sorry if I insulted or offended anyone with this, but that was never my purpose.

Anyway, I’ll try to control this persona inside me. :\ In the meantime, I’ll focus on my drawings and yeah~~ studies. College life sure is hectic. Haha.


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Doujins:

SasuSaku:

Vestige

Anata wo Aishiteru

Xie Xie Ai

The Actions We Speak

ItaSaku:

Sich Revanchieren

Frei Faszinosum


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]]> ~Jenazia http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/21307926/ http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/21307926/ Mon, 03 Nov 2008 20:12:22 PST
But then I watched it, and then....just watch the video

[link]

wow...just...wow......

About the doujins...*dodges deadly weapons*...I'll be uploading some artwork once I'm finished with my projects and such. ^^

Thanks to everyone for supporting me. Love you guys.



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on a sadder note...I hope our class will be better before Christmas.


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Doujins:

SasuSaku:

Vestige

Anata wo Aishiteru

Xie Xie Ai

ItaSaku:

Sich Revanchieren

Frei Faszinosum


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]]> ~Jenazia http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/18777562/ http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/18777562/ Wed, 11 Jun 2008 03:26:55 PDT SCHOOL HAS FINALLY STARTED!!! DDDX

That means...yeah, I think everybody know what that means...

Slower updates and not much to see anymore. I'll probably be straying away from the anime-verse for a while, cause I need to learn to do other styles as well. So I'll be practicing a lot on it (and hopefully, get to finally buy a friggin tablet!)...but I'll stile be posting some doujins/fanarts, here and there...^^

Doujins:

SasuSaku:

Vestige

Anata wo Aishiteru

Xie Xie Ai

ItaSaku:

Sich Revanchieren

Frei Faszinosum


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]]> ~Jenazia http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/17678917/ http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/17678917/ Fri, 04 Apr 2008 07:00:29 PDT
How come..it's so hard? ...

I'm doing my best...I'm giving my everything...and they just...left me...only to go back to either pity me or to show off that somehow they care but really they don't give a bull anymore...

THAT HURTS A LOT!!! HAHAHAHA!!! It hurts so much...that always at night...it makes me sicker by the moment...

*crying really hard...*

EDIT: I just noticed I spelled the title wrong...huh...

Doujins:

SasuSaku: Vestige

ItaSaku: Sich Revanchieren

SasuSaku: Anata wo Aishiteru


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]]> ~Jenazia http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/17446327/ http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/17446327/ Fri, 21 Mar 2008 17:05:08 PDT
...honestly speaking...what's happening in the manga has been...erm...hurtful as well...that it deflates my hope that SasuSaku will happen...

*laughs bitterly*

I'm not giving up on this couple though. No. I'll still love it. Haha...

Anyways...if there are still SasuSaku fans there, and I know there are. Make yourselves be heard, yeah? We can't stop Kishi from doing what he pleases...but let's at least stay loyal to the pairing we love the most? Not turn your backs on it.

Flamers...you have been a pain in the back...can't blame you for hating SasuSaku cause that's your opinion, but think about the SasuSaku fans. Some are hurt as it is. So SHUT UP. You wouldn't like us doing that to your favorite pairings. Trust us.

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]]> ~Jenazia http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/14110330/ http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/14110330/ Fri, 10 Aug 2007 19:29:47 PDT
I did all my book reports & projects (except for Chemistry... my goodness, I'm so confused!) Probably, the only thing I need to do now is to memorize all speeches for Public Speaking, Wika and Panitikan and oh yeah, we have SABAYANG PAGBIGKAS AND BANDANG PINOY, in which all of the class has to memorize EVERYTHING!!!

Phew, talk about major pressure, huh? *note sarcasm*

But, at least I have more time to draw and hopefully, i'd finally be able to continue my fanfics that i have left untouched for soooo long. I think I'm reaching 5 or 6 months already? *dodges flying pans and spatulas being thrown*

Seriously, I do believe in Shikamaru when he says (in fanfics), "Life IS troublesome..."

Sigh... I'm so tired, and everbody suspects somethings wrong with me, cause I can't stop (even at least for a day) having bruises marring my skin. I'm also very very underweight (I weigh 88 pounds right now) and that is a very very serious problemo.

Urgh... what else do I have to say?Ah yes, besides my classmates stricken in horror for they have read a very private but UNTRU message about me, life is still wheeling on it's ragged wheels.

I don't think I'll be continuing Vestige though, because I'm setting up another story that'll replace it. The drawings for Vestige will be kept in my other account but besides that, I think I'll upload a new doujinshi. >>

Oh yeah! If anyone is interested to read more here:
I've successfully managed to draw a whole 63-paged (I cut the pages from 70+) manga. And yes, they are all my original characters, although the story is messed up a bit, cause I only did the whole thing inside 2 months, so imagine the pressure, again. i'll be uplaoding a link here in DA, if anyone is interested but other than that, that's all I have to say for now. Buh-bye!

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]]> ~Jenazia http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/13828069/ http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/13828069/ Sun, 22 Jul 2007 00:47:23 PDT I'm not kidding! He looks like an darker version Naruto!!! It's so cool!

Now... the problem is... since I'm drawing a fanart of... eherm... must I include them or not? Ah...

Well, I just posted the journal for whot he hell cares but anyways...

The Harry Potter 7 has so much excitement! XD No spoilers from me though and you shouldn't spoil others too if you know what's gonna happen! Or else I'll Avada Kedavra you!!!





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]]> ~Jenazia http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/13703068/ http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/13703068/ Thu, 12 Jul 2007 02:03:16 PDT

Fuckin Hell...

Gah, oh well, we all grow up somtime, ne? But, I get used to seeing myself as a 14-year old and not 15. I DON'T WANT TO BE 15!!!

Oh, as per deviantart submissions... well, I can't exactly post any right now, but maybe later on, I'll give you guys a tease on what I'm working on while I have little spare time from school. I'll post it soon. ^^

Again, I'm so sorry that I cannot continue any gifts that have been requested. My deepest apologies. ><

Thanks again for the support!

My last words in this journal as a fourteen-year old:
"Life is fuckin hell, but when you think about it, it's nikcuf heaven as well."




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]]> ~Jenazia http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/13320276/ http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/13320276/ Tue, 12 Jun 2007 18:13:13 PDT Sakura haters makes me want to do so much better in drawing her. I don't know, maybe it's a way of trying to tell them, Sakura's grown up already! She ain't as weak as before and for pete's sake, HER LOVE FOR SASUKE IS REAL!!! Dammit! That's why I made my own kind of... er... thing, I'll support Sakura as much as I can and make every drawing of her my very best.

I just hope people will continue to support me that way though. I'm really really just pissed off right now.

Family is broken--nothing new

Arguments about almost everything--nothing new

Now you tell me, what's a girl to do?



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]]> ~Jenazia http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/13183750/ http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/13183750/ Sun, 03 Jun 2007 19:10:05 PDT
"Uchiha... Itachi!!!"

Oh, the drama! I tell you!!! It might not be the love ItaSaku but there's definite hate there and I wish that Masashi could exploit that hate of hers to show the readers of what sakuras true potential is. Sure her battle with Sasori managed to make everyone, "Whoah, Sakura did get stronger!"

But I don't think that that was only her strenght. She had the help of Chiyo so she really didn't get to plan everything on her own. But I loved their teamwork, it was amazing. I just believe that there's something more to sakura than just that. And that's what I like about her, she ain't from any ninja-clan, doesn't have a bloodline and yet how far she's gotten is quite the achievement. Now that's real strenght!

I know the ItaSaku hate was already read in the manga, but I'm telling you! The ItaSaku hate in the anime is a lot stronger, and I don't know why!!!
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I just read chapter 356, and it pisses me off, really really pisses me off to know that there ain't SasuSaku at all! I mean come on! There's always the NaruHina, why can't the SasuSaku appear as well? Even just small hints of it! DAMN IT!!!

I'm not kidding when I say this, but the NARUTO manga... I'm slowly faling out of it. I know I'm a little over dramatic about it, but you guys can understand can't you?!? It hurts to know that they can't put more SasuSaku moments! I envy the NaruHina fans. Truly envy them.



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]]> ~Jenazia http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/12936237/ http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/12936237/ Sun, 13 May 2007 00:34:51 PDT
I don't watch Naruto fillers, why you ask, because they suck. Seriously, everything goes gaga because of the fillers. It also particularly ignores one of the main characters and focuses more on the minor ones. Another thing is, since I don't watch the fillers, I just got some info that someone had the nerve to go copy someone as well. Useless and pathetic. What is going on anyways? It feels like everything in Naruto is so fucked up that the characters there are either jumbled up or just copy-cats. I hate it!!!

Don't get me wrong, I love Shippuden, more than I love the chuunin preliminaries, or of any other part in Naruto besides the SasuSaku moments. I'm pissed, no, furious at the whole fillers. It's ass! I don't care really if it had to do with prolonging the Naruto Part II, it goes with the saying, better something than nothing, but the way the fillers are... I feel as if I want to HATE NARUTO (the whole anime) itself already!

Damn, it's just, gah! I know some of you will hate me for this but I need to vent out my frustrations somtimes cause I always keep them bottled up, somehow praying it would go away a little later.

I hate all of it. I hate the fillers. I hate how every character (specifically Sakura) -hater out there.

That's another thing. Most Sakura-haters say that they hate her because she's weak or blah blah blah. I know we're entitled to opinions and such but how you say it ain't true at all. Sakura's no weakling now, dumbasses. They even say she's a flirt, slut or whatever name for a harlot you could come up with. To HELL with you!You should take a look more at the other characetrs and see if Sakura is still a slut as you, haters, would like to call her. I hate those kinds of Sakura haters. However, I don't really hate Sakura-haters who have valid reason because they think she's just annoying or just, an irritant to the eye. THOSE REASONS are the OPINIONS. The slut part are all biased discrimination. I'm sick of all the Sakura haters.

Sue me for all I care about how you think I'm too OA for writing this, but if you're entitled to opinions like those, why can't I be entitled to have my own set of harsh comebacks? Suck it up.



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]]> ~Jenazia http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/12302350/ http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/12302350/ Fri, 23 Mar 2007 20:42:19 PDT
To my other gifts and requests that should be done, forgive me but I must see to it, if I can still do it. I've done already various gifts, and will post them in due time, however, I'm a little bit busy at the moment; and I want 100% of my concentration to be on this thing I will do.

Don't fret, though! Since I've done the pages for both doujins, I'll be posting them in random days. What I mean is that, I won't be drawing anything new, cause my sole purpose for now is to make a... yeah...

Thanks for all the comments you guys gave me and yeah, I hope you continue to support me!!! ^^

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]]> ~Jenazia http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/12136553/ http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/12136553/ Sat, 10 Mar 2007 21:03:29 PST
I've started on a new SasuSaku doujinshi and it's titled Vestige, and I really really am requesting you to read it. I made it for all SasuSaku fans (and for ItaSaku fans because of the first few pages XD) all around to read it and yes, don't worry, it's SasuSaku even if I throw some other pairings. There will be hints of other canon pairings as well, but I can't promise you that.

Vestige is set on the original world of Naruto, the ninja-world, but the time skips at least 2 years from Shippuden.

Setting: 2 years after Shippuden
Genre: Romance/Angst/Action
Pairing:SasuSaku (Inever get tired of saying or typing this XD)

Hope you guys like it!

Vestige

And don't worry, I'll still continue with Tri-Angle ^^ That won't be left alone. Although, I pray that the drawings for Tri-Angle to improve, I suck at it. >.>

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]]> ~Jenazia http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/11544537/ http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/11544537/ Tue, 23 Jan 2007 17:19:26 PST
This is one thing I want to avoid, and that’s why for the past 3 years, I didn’t want to fall for another guy. Crush or puppy love, I didn’t. During the year when I was in 6th grade, he was the last one, and eventually, I fell out of it. It was unrequited, most common love for all, or crush, but to say it hurt was something I don’t agree on. Sure he didn’t love me back, but what can I say? I can’t force him, now can I? Besides, I think just seeing him out there was already enough for me. Friendship matters the most, and I knew very well that the two of us can only go that far.

However, this past year… there were two people who managed to take those feelings again. And after doing so… I ended up hurt again. They never did know much of me and yet they tend to say they do.
I shouldn’t dwell on the past… but who says you can’t remember that good times when you were close them.

I want to say my farewell to the two of them. I’d rather move on, than cry at nights wondering what had happened. I don’t hate them though, and I don’t think I will, maybe dislike them a bit yeah… but I could never hate somebody especially when they give you good memories of each other.




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]]> ~Jenazia http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/10331133/ http://Jenazia.deviantart.com/journal/10331133/ Tue, 14 Nov 2006 03:34:06 PST Family Problems and other Issues
Haven't been active around quite lately here on DA, haven't I? DX It's all just stressful seeing as there's this BIG family problem that's currently taking over around us. Che... it's aggravating, I swear to you guys. But I did get to start the artworks. All I need is to buy a pen and color it in and then I'm all done for it. ^^

Another good news is that:
I FINALLY GOT TO START ON MY DOUJIN, "TRI-ANGLE"
Once I'm done inking and cleaning it ( I have poor art programs in the computer and I don't have a pen tablet, so don't expect it to be with tones and all that other special effects, cause I can't handle that with doing it the traditional way. *Sigh* But I have confidence that it'll be a doujin where you're sure to expect the next page and if possible threaten me to update the pages as often as possible. XDDDDD Too confident perhaps. Anyone gots a confidence-sucker?

So anyways, my stupid brother is hugging the computer to himself, >.> and my time on the internet has dropped dramatically, and when I mean dramatically, I mean the maximum time that I can reach per week is three hours. I'm even lucky to get three hours with all that's happening. Sheesh. talk about super-duper downer. >.>
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Oh well... I'm back to say the least! ^^

My DA account was hacked so I couldn't log into my account. That was a real shocker to me, but fortunately I managed to get the account back. Troublesome. And if you'll visit my DA gallery, there's no artworks in there. Even my avatar is gone and so are my notes.

Mm... at least I learned a lesson to always double-check if I've logged out or not and to make passwords more complex. Gah! I hated it! I even sent a note to this account of mine using my new account If you want to go there you can, because I have better but b/w artworks there. ^^

If you do to my other account ~jenmia you'll see my drawings have taken it's change, especially while drawing my own characters.

I'm proud I still haven't given up on this account. I'll repost my artworks so expect heavy load as well. Sorry guys, but the contests entries of mine have to be reposted as soon as possible. And also, I have to inform leafy-girl and mitsukishiroi about the new links. Sigh...

Thanks to those who supported me! ^^

Although I won't be reposting any of my journals anymore... >.<

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I don't know if I even forgot any of my clubs...

The way I'm gonna go on things now will be hard since faves and comments will be less when I repost all of my lost artworks. I'm still glad I got it back though...

And if you notice that ~Jenazia is in inviscible, doubt it as fast as possible because in this account, I never go inviscible. Note me through ~j... ]]> ~Jenazia