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what a hipster. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/7433841/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/7433841/ Tue, 27 Dec 2005 18:21:43 PST Golden light.

If I could be just one ripple in those waves.



You left me here alone again.
No response to my "mk,"

and only Her lonely Space Holiday to keep me lonely company. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/7248654/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/7248654/ Wed, 07 Dec 2005 16:13:50 PST i think i need to bleach it crazy, black under-layer, some blue somewhere.



and a new cut.


*sigh*

i need more money if i'm to do this right. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/7121401/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/7121401/ Wed, 23 Nov 2005 08:45:33 PST






Happy Thanksgiving, everyone.
Oh my god.
Bring on the food! ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6948248/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6948248/ Thu, 03 Nov 2005 19:26:01 PST
it's all so self-centered, it's all about me.

i mean so maybe other people can relate.

but nothing really has much of a point... right?


hm.
we'll have to work on this. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6922362/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6922362/ Tue, 01 Nov 2005 03:45:14 PST and a small girl dressed as a chicken sat and handed us candy.


i kissed a skeleton under a steetlight.
and in the front of his car. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6795846/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6795846/ Mon, 17 Oct 2005 20:18:18 PDT "The Colors And The Kids"

It must be the colors
And the kids
That keep me alive
'Cause the music is boring me to death

It must just be the colors
And the kids that keep me alive
'Cause I'd wanna go right away
To a January night
I built a shack with an old friend
He was someone I could learn from
Someone I could become

Will you meet me down
On a sandy beach
We can roll up our jeans
So the tide won't get us below the knees

Yellow hair
You are a funny bear
Yellow hair
You are such a funny bear
Slender fingers
Would hold me slender limbs would hold me
And you could say my name
Like you knew my name

I could stay here
Become someone different
I could stay here
Become someone better

It's so hard to go in the city
'Cause you wanna say hello to everybody
It's so hard to go into the city
'Cause you wanna say hey I love you to everybody
When we were teenagers we wanted to be the sky
Now all we wanna do is go to red places
And try to stay outta hell

It must be the colors
And the kids
That keep me alive
'Cause the music is boring me to death

it must just be the colors
And it must just be the kids
That keep me alive on this January night.

Yellow hair
You are a funny bear
Yellow hair
You are such a funny bear







I <3 Nate.
And this song.
I need more Cat Power.
Yay for sweet jams. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6630952/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6630952/ Thu, 29 Sep 2005 03:36:11 PDT ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6385861/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6385861/ Thu, 01 Sep 2005 08:26:30 PDT
do you know, I don't really remember what it was supposed to prove, what was supposed to happen.

There are definite flaws in the Devious Agreement.

But right now I don't really care about DeviantART stealing my work.

Let them.

That isn't to say that anyone can. BUt we all owe DeviantART a lot for bringing us here, and I think I'm going to place my uncertain trust in their hands, and take my deviations out of storage, and begin submitting again.

I have loads of photographs for you.

And I must admit, I have not been writing at all. I'm ashamed and rather disappointed. Writing is my passion.

I think I was no happy with my final project at Brown and didn't want to think about writing for a while because it was an intense three or four weeks of my summer. I needed a break.

Well, I love you all.

And it's good to be back.

Happy September, everyone. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6212650/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6212650/ Sat, 13 Aug 2005 00:42:39 PDT
But so yeah. That's why all my deviations are in storage.

In case you're wondering.

love and support,
the folky one.


p.s. you oughta do it too, man. good cause. read
this* if you don't believe me. there is some serious nastiness going on in the artist agreement. not cool.

*www.justthorne.deviantart.com/journal/6182638/

ok. i'm done. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6173076/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6173076/ Mon, 08 Aug 2005 21:27:08 PDT
"he said,'man, i think too much,' but i wonder if it's enough."
-cold duck complex ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6130176/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6130176/ Thu, 04 Aug 2005 08:01:09 PDT
and a boyfriend!

named Nate!

What a day!

^^ times like seventy zillion and a HALF, man.

>.< ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6117152/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6117152/ Tue, 02 Aug 2005 21:40:38 PDT
i find it horribly interesting that $jark's page is drenched in anger and spite and whatnot (sad avatar, sad recent submission, sad displayed deviantgtion ("ninja target practice")) and $spyed's is all "ooh look at me i'm a LOVED co-founder" and even his littlemood icon whatsit is the "loved" one.

tsk tsk.

politics are interesting.

$matteo's page is interesting as well. very loyal to $jark.

as it should be.

hrmmph.

(omg i have totally turned a corner into dorkhood. in so few hours.) ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6115307/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6115307/ Tue, 02 Aug 2005 18:03:45 PDT
wow that was dumb.

anyway. let's rock that yellow deviation thing and i think i'm gonna set all my deviations to deactivated on that thingy and not submit anything hardcore for a while.

take that you evil whatsits being mean.


do silent day or yellow day on the 7th. rock it man.



LeAvInG dElAwArE tOmOrRoW... gOnNa ChIlL wItH tHe NaTeStEr. ^^ hearts and hugs, y'all.

<3 ali ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6071953/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/6071953/ Fri, 29 Jul 2005 21:16:52 PDT
oH bUt It HuRtS sO mUcH aNd I kNoW iT's DoNe BuT i CaN't FoRgEt AnY oF iT.

i FeEl DuMb. Or SoMeThInG.

i LoVe YoU.

<3 aLi ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5973289/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5973289/ Mon, 18 Jul 2005 23:46:46 PDT
namely sestina withdrawal and that of Massachusetts.



goddamn i miss my town.

and nate's car, actually.



and the stars. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5950178/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5950178/ Sat, 16 Jul 2005 10:44:03 PDT
]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5947186/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5947186/ Sat, 16 Jul 2005 00:12:26 PDT or for the times when you realize that your skin smells like someone else?
or when you don't recognize your face or your thoughts or your... anything?
or the moment when you realize you've grown up, or something, and everything has changed suddenly?
or the sound you make when you find out he could have stayed longer, there between your arms?
or for the thing, the idea, the emotion, whatever, that makes you want to end it all so it won't end in seven days?
or the word for "i hurt because you make me feel wonderful?"


I love how this place only makes me feel like home. I hate how this place makes me never want to leave. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5908499/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5908499/ Mon, 11 Jul 2005 21:17:20 PDT
But alas.

We are such a lonely folk, sitting under streetlamps writing poetry late into the night.





I have to stop, it's simply too hard.

*snorts with laughter*

ttfn loves. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5881476/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5881476/ Fri, 08 Jul 2005 22:10:07 PDT
yeah.


and if you do, apologize fast and then run the fuck away. and maybe go out the back door. and hide in your dorm room.



just a tip. i swear.

**shifty eyes** ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5864294/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5864294/ Thu, 07 Jul 2005 07:02:05 PDT while you were running for your lesson
which might explain why years later all you could remember
was the terror of the question
plus you weren't listening-
you were stock piling canned-goods,
making a bomb shelter of our basement
and i can't believe you let the moral go by
while you were soaking in product placement

and where was your conscience?
where was you consciousness?
and where did you put all those letters you wrote to yourself
but could not address?

i'm a good kisser
and you're a fast learner
and that kind of thing could float us
for a pretty long time
then one day you'll realize
you've memorized my phone number
and you call it and find
it's a disconnected line
cause i got tossed out the window of love's El Camino
and I shattered into a shower of sparks on the curb
you were smokign me weren't you
between your yellow fingers
you just inhaled and exhaled without saying a word.

and where was your conscience?
where was you consciousness?
and where did you put all those letters that you wrote to yourself
but could not address?
-"marrow" by ani difranco


That's not the whole thing. I was listening to it and I only meant to type up the first foour lines or so. I ended up doing all but the last verse or so.

Great song.

I wish I knew what to say.


But I did never need words with you.

And I hope you understand.

<3always.
ali ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5845866/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5845866/ Tue, 05 Jul 2005 09:56:39 PDT
I lie.

I may do a series of location poems that right now is seeming like a series of Odes to different places. I've just started one about the Haymarket (not the fiction piece I recently submitted).

And I'm listening to ska.

Existential Max would be pleased.


Or I might write sestinas. ^^ The Nelson Man has told me how to start compiling lists of words that have lots of definitions or can be different parts of speech or what have you.

And now to fiind something to do. Possibly sunbathing and writing. It's supposed to rain tomorrow and Monday as well. Might as well get sun today.

This requires burning new CDs. I can tell.

<3 ali ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5839350/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5839350/ Mon, 04 Jul 2005 15:49:23 PDT
One made me proud of my determination to fight through the aftermath of my relationship with Alex. My determination to move on and forget him and everything I felt.

Reliving pain is interesting. Especially when you've forgotten the cause: a dream, a person, a word.

Whatever. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5839259/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5839259/ Mon, 04 Jul 2005 15:35:24 PDT
it makes me hate myself.

don't ask me why.




i just can't look in the mirror.
and i'm not getting work done.


and i can't look you in the eye. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5833644/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5833644/ Sun, 03 Jul 2005 23:53:32 PDT we lie
and maim
and--

there was something about a

bitch

and
something about a

girl and

something about
i don't know anything about love
or

you.

i remember flashing lights-
swirling in the night

not tonight but

sometime soon.

there was something about not soon enough
not fast enough
not

i don't know.

there were ripped jeans and
spoken words

questions/mixed answers
and something in between.



<3 ali. queen of the vague poetic entry.


yeah... so... not such a great mood. not really definable. i just don't want to be around these people.

well not all of them anyway. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5825229/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5825229/ Sat, 02 Jul 2005 23:06:20 PDT
which is exciting and i only realized it after i speant the day taking great pics of kat and myself.


yayyyyy.

major postage coming.

<3 ali ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5814443/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5814443/ Fri, 01 Jul 2005 18:26:00 PDT kat: omg i love you. will you have my babies?
ali: um okay.
jewisher jacob: that's impossible.
kat: *in a singsong voice* not if you're egyptian.


because she's in hieroglyphics and relates the almost-porn she has to read for class.

oh good times, good times.


kat: SAY YOUR NAME!
alex: *long french name in gorgeous french accent*
ali: *claps hand over mouth* oh my god i want to sleep with you!



heh. oops. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5806616/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5806616/ Thu, 30 Jun 2005 22:20:27 PDT
TODAY:

on the phone:

kat: what are you doing?
me: talking to jeff
kat: who?
me: jeff... nashville.
kat: oh, jeff, i thought you said josh and i was like "who?"
me: oh, him, he's my OTHER boyfriend.
kat: can i be your third?
me: well alright. but i really don't have any. i think. i'm just... well whatever.
kat: awww
me: wait but i don't believe in love!

and there was oodles of good fun at the meals but i can't remember for the life of me.

just remember that Jewisher Jacob is amazing in a toga.


YESTERDAY:

(hang on let me get my purse, i wrote this stuff down, i swear.)

at some meal:

Jewisher Jacob: did someone just say something about a harmonica?
me: i'm a harmonica! PLAY ME!
Jewisher Jacob: *unaware of my statement* can someone play a kazoo in our band?

Jewisher Jacob: these are really bad eggs.
me: hehehe AND REALLY BAD EGGS!
Jewisher Jacob: YES! *single sylable chortle*


and that's all you get for now. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5801533/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5801533/ Thu, 30 Jun 2005 12:13:34 PDT

and you don't sound so good.

(nate.)


"It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss"
.the killers. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5795244/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5795244/ Wed, 29 Jun 2005 20:52:14 PDT
We never reached any sort of resolution.

Around 7 PM I was tweaking like no other and wished I was high on pot or valium.


Katherine thinks I'm very mad at her, or at least that she is making me miserable.

It's not true.


I think I'll be staying up late tonight. Maybe. I'll attempt my masochistic denial of rest and draw and write all night long.

But I hate myself at present.

So more likely I'll force myself to sleep after drinking a lot of Ibuprofin.

So that way I can lose consciousness for a while and maybe forgive myself somehow.




It was just a kiss.




I brought Jacob his sweatshirt and water bottle he left in my room earlier. I wanted him to talk to me or something, but he was headed to bed and didn't realize I need people-help when I'm upset. He closes off; I let only a select few in.

I even called Nate, but he was asleepish and my phone was being crap.


I have roadmaps on my stomach.






I want to be so far away from me right now. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5786209/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5786209/ Tue, 28 Jun 2005 22:25:58 PDT
walking down the street:

jewish jacob: i'm going to go put pants on finally! i'm so excited!


at dinner:

other jacob: what do they call people from idaho?
*several lame answers*
jewish jacob: potato farmers.



I'd like to add that I've decided to rename Idaho "Imaho," for the comedic entertainment it creates. And also that I have new shoes.


And that as a result of having six or seven intertwined bodies on my bed, it has been renamed the Loveshack.

And I kissed Katherine. A little bit. Yeah.


But so tomorrow night we're going out to dinner and then to see Mad Hot Ballroom.


And since Harry Potter 6 comes out at midnight on the 15th which is a Friday, me and Christina are gonna go stand in line and somehow get back before curfew.


And since Jacob and I need to be doing something at all times so we don't die of bordom, we have decided to start a fake metal band.

The members: Me, Jewish Jacob, Other Jacob, Katherine, Christina.
The name: Spanking Satan
The creedo: We don't do coke.
The first hit single: Your Mom Spanked Satan Last Night (to be sung sort of to the tune of "I saw mommy kissing santa claus." added irony for the letters involved in both santa and satan.)


I've drawn the logo and it is the shit. We're going to re-do that soong and buy blank t-shirts and i'll logoify them and we'll sign them and destroy them. we will be grungy and awesome and totally hardcore.

And we're gonna buy Mac&Cheese and have a macaroni and cheese party on Sunday night and watch Monty Python and the Holy Grail.


And I am pretty sure that's all for today. There was more amusement on the quotation front but I don't remember. Mom and the Canadians showed up too take me for ice cream and give me a mirror, so that was rad.


And I'm afraid I've mucked things up and to tell the truth I don't know how I feel about anything and I am seriously putting my life on hold while I'm here and I think I'm starting to see what Mac meant about Providence doing weird things to you.


And now to artify. And stuff.


I am so...

Delirious. Delighted. D- ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5776588/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5776588/ Mon, 27 Jun 2005 22:14:03 PDT

during the Capture the Flag (FRISBEE) Game:

me (in jail, linked arms with everyone else in jail): why is no one cancaning with me???
jewish jacob: we just aren't in a cancaning mood...
me: WE MAY BE P.O.W.S BUT WE ARE NOT BROKEN.

me: maybe if you ride on my back they can't tag both of us.
katherine: ...

jewish jacob: i liek canadians.
me: i have a canadian at my beach house!
someone: really?
me: THREE! (while holding up three fingers)


earlier at the library:

jewish jacob: why does it smell like fish?
me: i dunno.
jewish jacob: the tide must have come in.
*siren goes off in the distance*
me: yup, there's the foghorn.
jewish jacob: but really, why does it smell like fish?
me: (in an ominous tone) they're coming for you.

later:

me: they're going to hit you with their FINS.
jewish jacob: and their tails. with their blank open eyes.
me: and no eyelids.


good times were had by all.

and we cheated.

but not as bad as the other team.

BASTARDS. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5749461/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5749461/ Fri, 24 Jun 2005 23:31:11 PDT ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5743330/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5743330/ Fri, 24 Jun 2005 10:15:35 PDT
Mine eyes have seen the glory of the coming of the Lord;
He is trampling out the vintage where the grapes of wrath are stored;
He hath loosed the fateful lightning of His terrible swift sword;
His truth is marching on.
Glory! Glory! Hallelujah! Glory! Glory! Hallelujah!
Glory! Glory! Hallelujah! His truth is marching on.


I have seen Him in the watch fires of a hundred circling camps
They have builded Him an altar in the evening dews and damps;
I can read His righteous sentence by the dim and flaring lamps;
His day is marching on.
Glory! Glory! Hallelujah! Glory! Glory! Hallelujah!
Glory! Glory! Hallelujah! His day is marching on.


I have read a fiery Gospel writ in burnished rows of steel;
“As ye deal with My contemners, so with you My grace shall deal”;
Let the Hero, born of woman, crush the serpent with His heel,
Since God is marching on.
Glory! Glory! Hallelujah! Glory! Glory! Hallelujah!
Glory! Glory! Hallelujah! Since God is marching on.


He has sounded forth the trumpet that shall never call retreat;
He is sifting out the hearts of men before His judgment seat;
Oh, be swift, my soul, to answer Him! be jubilant, my feet;
Our God is marching on.
Glory! Glory! Hallelujah! Glory! Glory! Hallelujah!
Glory! Glory! Hallelujah! Our God is marching on.


In the beauty of the lilies Christ was born across the sea,
With a glory in His bosom that transfigures you and me:
As He died to make men holy, let us die to make men free;
While God is marching on.
Glory! Glory! Hallelujah! Glory! Glory! Hallelujah!
Glory! Glory! Hallelujah! While God is marching on.


He is coming like the glory of the morning on the wave,
He is wisdom to the mighty, He is honor to the brave;
So the world shall be His footstool, and the soul of wrong His slave,
Our God is marching on.
Glory! Glory! Hallelujah! Glory! Glory! Hallelujah!
Glory! Glory! Hallelujah! Our God is marching on.






and i don't even really mind.

<3 ali

(who lives to annoy you. ^^)


long day yesterday. lovely evening. fantastic. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5716501/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5716501/ Tue, 21 Jun 2005 17:50:11 PDT
and maybe a moleskine. ^^ ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5707179/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5707179/ Mon, 20 Jun 2005 18:29:34 PDT

but I'm so excited.


Here's to playing Dylan til 4 AM, drinking chai, and writing poetry or drawing amazing things.

Ah, insight. Oh, creativity.



Bring it on. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5680641/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5680641/ Fri, 17 Jun 2005 21:04:55 PDT
You’d think we would have had enough
of one another
after all the rain streaming down these windows,
the walks out to the garden when it clears,
the same yellow and white flowers,
all the sleepless nights –
the toy car going in circles on the bed table.

But still, you stay perched on my shoulder,
cricket or bluebird,
wild parrot digging your claws into my loud shirt.

Is it because I do not pester you
with the invisible gnats of meaning,
never release the whippets of anxiety from their crates,
or hold up my monstrous mirror,
a thing the size of a playing field?

Whatever makes you stay,
I hate to think of that morning
when I will wake up to find you gone,
heading toward the open sea,
dragging the cables that bound us together,
leaving me with nothing more to say.

But don’t get me wrong.
It’s not that I cannot live without you,
cannot sit under an ordinary green tree
with no desire to reach for the pen in my pocket,
or lie contented on a couch all day,
one hand over my mouth.

It’s not like I have a crush on you
and instead of writing the five paragraph essay
I am sailing paper airplanes across the room at you –
It’s not that I can’t wait for the lunch bell
to see your face again.

It’s not like that. Not exactly.

-Billy Collins


and i swear that's the last journal entry today. ^^ ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5679943/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5679943/ Fri, 17 Jun 2005 19:38:07 PDT

I remember the first time I met Brian – it was June 1983 at the LBHA conference in Billings, Montana. The late John Carroll used to have a welcoming party for the members in his motel room. When I first entered the room there was Brian receiving a hug from Carroll. Carroll told me that this young man was one to watch in the field of history. Carroll was right. 


Brian established himself early in the television world of history. He was a consultant for the long running, “Civil War Journal” which aired on the History Channel. He was also used as talking head – any episode of this great program you are fortunate to view, you’ll recognize Brian throughout. 


Brian also made his mark in the film world providing consulting services for “Gettysburg”, “Sommersby”, “Glory”, and most recently, “Cold Mountain” where Brian can be seen and heard on some of the extra features of the DVD version. 


I was very lucky to spend many Junes walking the Little Bighorn Battlefield with Brian, riding beside him on the bus during the CBH&MA field trips, or sitting across from him each of those evenings at Little Big Men pizza parlor discussing the battle. 


Brian loved the battlefield and the people that protected it. Brian gave countless hours of his time helping the National Park Service. In the 1980s Brian’s research proved that the white marble marker for Myles Keogh had been moved to a different location from its original spot. Why, no one knew, but Brian convinced then Chief Historian Neil Mangum that Keogh’s marker should be moved. And it was. One of the photos below is of Brian standing beside Keogh’s marker in its correct location. 


My most memorable experience was working with Brian on the CBH&MA 1995-1997 symposiums, which I chaired. Brian presented papers at the 1995 and 1996 symposiums, and he participated in the panel discussions all three years. 


The 1996 symposium especially stands out in my mind. As I prepared for the symposium, I called Brian and asked him if he’d be willing to participate again as a presenter. He asked what I had in mind and I explained I wanted to touch the hearts of the audience for the first time. I had grown tired of the usual presentations explaining where soldier companies were positioned, or papers asking questions like, did Custer and Benteen disobey orders, or was Reno a coward? I wanted to move the audience by bringing the human side of the story to the forefront – to remind the audience that the men who fought and died at the Little Bighorn were men who loved, had wives and children. 


Brian said he had something in mind. He had access to Annie Yates diaries. Her husband, Captain George Yates of Company F, died not far from where Custer fell. They had a precious love, Brian said. Brian called his paper, “Romance and Tragedy with the 7th Cavalry: The Story of George and Annie Yates” and it moved the audience for sure. Brian expanded this to a book, which he released during the summer of 2004 titled, “A Summer on the Plains with Custer’s 7th Cavalry: The 1870 Diary of Annie Gibson Roberts.” 


Brian’s last book will be published in the fall of 2005 and I think it will be a wonderful legacy. “Where Custer Fell: Photographs of the Little Bighorn Battlefield Then and Now” is authored by Brian along with his friends James Brust and Sandy Barnard. It will include countless photos of the battlefield over the years with contemporary photos taken from the same vantage point as the historical photos. 


The most comfortable moments I had with Brian was when he and his wife Cricket would spend Sunday mornings with my family eating breakfast at the Kendrick House Bed & Breakfast in Hardin, Montana. Brian and Cricket stayed at a different motel, however, the owners of the Kendrick House graciously opened their doors and breakfast table for Brian and Cricket. It was always a warm time seeing Brian and Cricket together – they beamed with happiness. 


The breakfasts were hardy and the stories Brian happily shared with us were always most interesting. He always had my son, Austin’s undivided attention especially when Brian spoke about Gettysburg. I’m really going to miss moments like those with Brian gone. 


Brian’s personal battle against cancer finally ended today, but he finished life with grace, dignity, and love. In a card he sent me dated February 3, 2... ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5678097/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5678097/ Fri, 17 Jun 2005 15:42:33 PDT
sunday is fathers' day and we are rhode islanding. jeff shows up randomly. yay.

tuesday jeff leaves. sadness. alas.

wednesday we drive down to wherever. mom flies.

thursday is the funeral.

friday we drive home. (i hope.)

saturday is my birthday.(yay for being old enuf to see R rated movies legally. what now, punk?) i pack. we go to rhode island (maybe).

sunday i go to brown. WOOHOO. giant twister game and ice cream social. i scope out the scene. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5676172/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5676172/ Fri, 17 Jun 2005 11:39:46 PDT me: i plan to do whatever comes to me
me: ...
me: or whoever
me: i mean
me: WHAT
ally: hahahahaha
ally: ali!!
me: yes????
ally: raunchy *growwlll*
me: yes
me: indeed
me: bwahahahahahaha
ally: you're like a little sex pistol.
ally:

but my ankle stings and i think i may have tetnus.

THIS IS WHY YOU DON'T HEM YOUR PANTS WITH SAFETY PINS. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5667683/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5667683/ Thu, 16 Jun 2005 14:46:57 PDT 2. i'm still going to smack you with a baguette.
3. i hate someone's reaction to a current event. (IT WAS THE RESULT OF DENIAL. this is why i cried when he was only sick. i wish she'd let go- though i understand why, in her naiveté, that she would want to hold on and insist he could survive.)
4. three days
5. batman is open
6. i am so fucked up. but it's okay. because nobody knows.
7. mwahahahahahahaha.
8. i <3 pavement (the band)
9. i forgot about mac being hipper than thou.
10. stupid fights are stupid so suck it up and just chill out. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5658208/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5658208/ Wed, 15 Jun 2005 17:11:08 PDT

why didn't i ever tell him i cared? i had it two years coming. i knew. and still.


and nothing. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5613333/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5613333/ Fri, 10 Jun 2005 20:59:04 PDT
1. if mosh pits were safe sex, i'd still be pregnant after tonight.
2. i'm covered in sweat, and i'll be damned if all of it is mine.
3. indie boys are cuter.
4. the highlight of my night: skanking into one of the hardcore skankers, who was standing still at the moment, making me hardcore by affiliation.
5. showa.


my away message on AIM right now:

1. if mosh pits were safe sex, i'd still be pregnant after tonight.
2. i'm covered in sweat, and i'll be damned if all of it is mine.
3. i miss you, i heart you, night night and lots of goodnight kisses.

i am blissfully stupid. but at least there are fireflies. ^^





night night, all of you. ^^ and *sigh*


p.s. the flamingos are SO playing in providence while i'm at brown. *ROCK* ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5604046/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5604046/ Thu, 09 Jun 2005 21:43:02 PDT and I always say let's run away when I mean just stay the night."


good things from the day: batman costume, blue paint, "smelling overwhelmingly like preppy teenage boy," phone calls where i recognize the voice at the other end, vengeful laughter at the expense of someone who was evil (and also not), listening to the magnetic fields late at night when i don't mean a thing, mac's home on wednesday, ska show anticipation, thinking about the rain yesterday.

and just to put at that in perspective, the bad (sort of): awkward silences, discovery ofpossibly reason for noncontactness, looming threat of friendless rhodey, distances, the way that place makes me feel, the way i wish i was somewhere else.



why me?

i just don't get it. when did everything change?


i used to be lamer. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5553729/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5553729/ Sat, 04 Jun 2005 17:41:06 PDT

Simply fantastic.


Aside from all the graduates leaving and all the other whatnot. *crosses eyes* I'm insane. Ergh.


I miss youuu.




Somebody come entertain me; soomebody come hold me tight. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5541696/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5541696/ Fri, 03 Jun 2005 11:12:38 PDT

SUMMER.


FUCK yes. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5512717/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5512717/ Tue, 31 May 2005 14:52:50 PDT There's a low moon caught in your tangles
There's a ticking at the sill
There's a purr of a pigeon to break the still of day

And on we go drowning
Down we go away
And darling, we go a-drowning
Down we go away
Away

There's a tough word on your crossword
There's a bed bug nipping a finger
There's a swallow, there's a calm
Here's a hand to lay on your open palm today

As on we go drowning
Down we go away
And darling, we go a-drowning
Down we go away
Away

There are angels in your angles
There's a low moon caught in your tangles

-The Decemberists



You're the tough word on my crossword...




i like this emoticon. it reminds me of liz. so do and and (i'm sticking to things!!!)

and these are just downright adorable.


and these are my best friends.


and if anyone can tell me the name of the FIFTH teenage mutant ninja turtle (that my mom made up to annoy my brother) or at least the color of its mask, they win a prize. (for the hell of it.)


and that is the end of my emoticon tangent.

~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5502615/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5502615/ Mon, 30 May 2005 13:33:01 PDT me: yar
alie: is that a yes? like in pirate terms?
me: haha yes
alie: ok cool. don't cry though. no crying.
me: hahahaha righhhtttttttt...
alie: or i'll beat you with an ugly stick.
me: i'll only get prettier.





-I am listening to Pulse by Ani DiFranco.
-Last night, I finally felt beautiful again.
-Today, that feeling was gone. Very gone.
-I'm close to accepting the fact that I will be a senior next year.
-I'm not seven years old anymore. Add ten. That's me in a month. Remind me. I'm not seven years old anymore. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5451076/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5451076/ Tue, 24 May 2005 18:34:29 PDT
With Splinters in Their Fingers and Paint on Their Hands: If Pop Art Had Ovaries.

. . . . .

I have no idea what the idea behind it is, but the works will be like artists on crack. My "If Jasper Johns Had Ovaries" is the first I will make, I think. Techni-colored targets pretty much bouncing around a page. My Jackson Pollock piece (yes I know he is an abtract-expressionist and not Pop art at all, it is still in the works.) will be similar, but with the targets in grey tones, white, and black, with a dash of odd pink here and there, like that painting I just saw in New York.

I will work in several mediums- hopefully colored pencil, watercolor, ink, acrylic, and possibly oil paints.




There you go. An artist's statement. Finally.



And most of it will be done at Brown. Hopefully I will have a single or a suite so I won'tkeep up the roomate with my artsyness and music.

Rock on.

And I am so depending on all of you to help me brainstorm. Especially those of you who are visiting me this weekend. ^^

<3 ali

p.s. I have more than that, or at least I can see it better in my head. I swear. Must go do sketches. Toodles. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5439985/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5439985/ Mon, 23 May 2005 15:18:54 PDT
(to the point that i was prepared to have a two word journal entry. "so excited" being the two words. ^^ yes, i know i'm a complete goon. it's why you all love me.) ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5436105/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5436105/ Mon, 23 May 2005 06:56:29 PDT
Prom was... amazing.

Fantastic.

Tearful, near the end. I miss my seniors. I hate them for being seniors. They're still sophomores and I'm just a silly little giggly freshman girl.

Great food, awesome music. Britt and I planned to request 500 Miles but they played it before we could- awesome. I grooved all night.

"This song is so eighties! Like my dress!"

Several highlights of the night:
-Seeing Mrs. McCarthy and the look on her face when she saw me.
-the amazingness of my outfit- hot pink and black dress, bright blue handbag with bright yellow flower, new aviators.
-Jane still being a stuckup little girl who hates everything "This is boring- It's ugly- Blah blah blah."
-talking to Theo (Thea? Cleo?) on the way back on the bus. Amazing talk. We talked about time and our fears concerning it. I'm want it to stop because it keeps passing and I can't control anything and I miss being a little kid, and she's scared of it stopping because she's afraid if it does she'll get stuck in the stoppedness and then time will start up again and she'll get left behind. Understandable. We talked about our terrible simalarities- trading stories and memories.
-The whole night I wished you were there.
-I love bass. It gets me. It wins. That is all. It just... is. I need it. It gets me going.


I had a good night. That's all. ^^ ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5427514/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5427514/ Sun, 22 May 2005 08:12:01 PDT
good mood. yesterday rocked. photoness with allison all day.

Chelle has an apartment in Noho and she moves in June 8th. So soon. Yayness.

Prom tonight.

Omigawd.

And Yes.

And yay^8124892375890764230607.593.




And now I must groove off into oblivion and hate mac for leaving at 6 am. Ah well, the country called.


I love the way music makes me crazy. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5423829/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5423829/ Sat, 21 May 2005 19:40:21 PDT Or at least, the two.

When he's home- it's a dream, and I wonder when I'm going to have to wake up.
And I'm not kidding. And it's weird.

And I hate not knowing him anymore.


And I hate forgetting that I knew her, or that boy.

Well, her, anyway.




It's interesting, the way lives intertwine and then disperse, and you wonder whether you'll ever see someone again.

I'm going to go think profoundly again.



Earlier today I was thinking all of this, and somehow ended up at the conclusion that the Matrix does exist, and I wondered what the program or equation must be for how many dents get in the floor in front of the stairs in my living room- what the formula is for the way one dent feels. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5415290/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5415290/ Fri, 20 May 2005 19:57:16 PDT
^^ it's a party in my mouth. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5409327/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5409327/ Fri, 20 May 2005 06:29:54 PDT
So today I go back. During my free period. And then remember I have it in the afternoon.

I am sick of forgetting things. I am sick of my half-assed, cocaine-addict memory.


Can everyone just ignore me for like a week? I'll be in a better mood in a few days, I swear.

Thanks.
<3 Ali ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5401721/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5401721/ Thu, 19 May 2005 11:58:27 PDT at mt. tom's ice cream and candy shop.
with lots of mooching on my part- therefore not resulting in my owing people money.
chatting with the faculty advisor about dumb people.
and then having a read-aloud.
with everyone in the club except the gross one.
reading one page at a time, switching people.
from a curious george book.


^^


and the boy. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5400794/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5400794/ Thu, 19 May 2005 09:58:56 PDT
plus now i'm late for class. FUCK. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5391863/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5391863/ Wed, 18 May 2005 12:23:52 PDT

fuckkkkkkk and three quarters.

do i know my dance?

let's hope so. and also that we stop changing things. because all of a sudden i have to carry amelia.

not that it's hard.

but still.



AHHHHHH!

last night:

*running around doing tech work*
*ali runs by nate in the dark*
ali: I'm too short to strip!

^^ the joy of switching gels. because i am in one dance. and therefore- am required to help. we should have a stage left party at my house. ^^ it would be me and nate and nate's holga. which is silly. but the headset is fun and sarah halloran cracks me up.

*dancers yelling african things during rehearsal of african piece. things like "bnawajajfhjjwdnak" (it starts with a "b", anyway...)
sarah, on headset: YOU'RE a bnawajajfhjjwdnak!

plus lots of amy swearing cause she misses cues. "shit, shit, oh, no, wait, is that it? did i miss it? no... oh shit, that was it, shit, oh no... go, go, GO! cue 67, go! oh shit. was that a turn? was it twirly?"
sarah: nice one amy.
amy: shit, we missed it.
sarah: the thing about her is if you do it (il?)logically, you're probably right.

that's nearly what they said. with bits of gordy coming in saying that he was dooing what amy said. or something. twas fun. plus they had no idea i was listening.

wait my pizza finished like ten minutes ago and i'm wasting my time on you folk?
hellllll no.


AHHH WE OPEN TOMORROW! AND WE GET FILMED TONIGHT! o.O

earlier i grabbed all of my makeup and hair products EVER and shoved them into a bag with my digital camera and james earl jones (my 35mm) and that was that. ^^


love and hugs.
ali ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5390474/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5390474/ Wed, 18 May 2005 09:00:46 PDT

and not-sleep. ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5376946/ http://JustALittleFolkyGirl.deviantart.com/journal/5376946/ Mon, 16 May 2005 19:17:49 PDT :woot:

and blow it up really big. like the whole screen big.


that's how happy i get. ^^ ]]> ~JustALittleFolkyGirl