http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:K1ll4llcl0wn5&section=today deviantART RSS for by:K1ll4llcl0wn5 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 23 Dec 2009 01:22:29 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://K1ll4llcl0wn5.deviantart.com/journal/28908302/ http://K1ll4llcl0wn5.deviantart.com/journal/28908302/ Sat, 12 Dec 2009 18:19:46 PST I am now officially moved. I ride my bike to work every day, not much of a workout but still better than the 20 min I use to spend in my car.
I'm trying to do different things in my photography in case you didn't notice my background. I'm kinda bored with how my life is going but I'm trying to change some things, including my schedule at work.
This is kinda random because Taylor Swift is on the SNL I'm watching... DAMN ADHD. It's been a long week at work. I'm loving my new place I need to do some more unpacking and organizing. I have a new baby niece that I still haven't been home to see. Christmas is coming up and I haven't bought any gifts yet.. I'm such a slacker. That's all I really have right now. Just wanted to update everyone and test out my new skin.

]]> *K1ll4llcl0wn5 http://K1ll4llcl0wn5.deviantart.com/journal/27860543/ http://K1ll4llcl0wn5.deviantart.com/journal/27860543/ Mon, 19 Oct 2009 18:42:10 PDT On top of moving, Renaissance Festival was amazing as usual. I got a new belt and a desire for a new hobby. Some time in the next week I will be looking to start leather working. I figured I could make myself a cheap belt using less harmful dyes than traditional leather working. From what I've found online it seems easy for what I want to be able to do.
When I get my new place I'll go back to considering a lighting studio setup for photography. I still have a few in mind along with a shiny new 7D, (Merry Christmas to me) if all goes well.
I am trying to eliminate as many chemicals from my life as possible.. I watch and read too much on tv and online.. its scary. So my cleaning supplies are from Green Works and I am attempting to get as close to 0 waste as possible. Sadly due to the limited availability of clothing my size in 2nd hand stores I can't make quite the impact on my cotton usage as I wanted. I am trying to look for places that sell bamboo clothing my size so if any one knows of a place let me know. Cotton Facts: [link]

That is all I have for now...

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Misssamiesam =

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1. Do you like bleu cheese?
With buffalo wings...

2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
Never touched drugs in my life

3. Do you own a gun?
yup, 1911 a1 standard

4. What flavor do you add to your drink at Starbucks?
Cinnamon Dulce

5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
nope

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
camp fire roasted

7. Favorite Christmas movie?
How the Grinch stole Christmas

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Mountain Dew or Hot Chocolate

9. Can you do push ups?
ya

10. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
my watch?

11. Favorite hobby?
Photography

12. Do you have A.D.D?
Nope... I have adhd!!

13. What's one trait you hate about yourself?
Being emotional

14. Middle name?
Kyle

15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment:
Why would she do that to herself
Why do I still care
When will I be able to sleep again

16. Name 3 things you bought yesterday?
2 pairs of swimtrunks and a tshirt

17. Name 3 things you drink daily.
Water milk mountain dew

18. Current worry?
How many other lives will I ruin

19. Current Dislike?
Emotions

20. How did you bring in the New Year?
with my ex in our apartment

21. Where would you like to go?
The moon, or australia

22. Name three people who will complete this?
samie already did

23. Do you own slippers?
nope

24. What shirt are you wearing
no shirt

25. Favorite color?
red

26. Could you be a pirate?
nope I'm too nice

27. What songs do you sing in the shower?
Any song that comes to mind... sometimes I make up my own

28. Favorite food?
PB&J

29. What's in your pocket right now?
not wearing pants...

30. Last thing that made you laugh?
Samie with a piece of paper on her head and a monster drawn on her acut

31. Favorite sheets?
the ones on my bed...

32. Worst injury you have ever had?
Stage 2 concussion

33. Do you love where you live?
Kinda.. it has some bad memories..

34. How many TVs do you have in your house?
1

35. Who is your loudest friend?
umm.. Chris

36. How many dogs do you have?
0

37. Does someone have a crush on you?
Probably not

38. What is your favorite book(s)
The Long Mynd

39. What is your favorite candy?
skittles

40. Favorite Sports Team?
Notre Dame

41. What songs do you want sung at your funeral?
If I'm married when I die I'd like it to be the first song my wife and I danced to at our wedding

42. What were you doing 12 AM last night?
Driving

43. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke this morning?
Why? followed by about an hour of crying.

44. Favorite place to be?
I don't want to be anywhere anymore...

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There has been a song stuck in my head for several days... it feels like it's a point I should be at in my life.. so here it is.



Lyrics Blackbird by The Beatles

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

Black bird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
all your life
you were only waiting for this moment to be free

Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.

Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly
Into the light of the dark black night.

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise,
You were only waiting for this moment to arise,
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

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Speaking of questions, I asked me ex if she missed "us." We were good together despite all that transpired in the end.

I feel empty again, like there isn't something to look forward to. My ex is texting my back now and there is a sharp pain in my chest... "Sometimes..."

There is so much I want to do in my life I just don't want to do it alone. I guess it's back to taking one breath at a time, one step at a time, and one day at a time. Remembering to have fun while I do.

On a lighter note I had a wonderful time in England. Saw lots of amazing stuff.. I really enjoyed the culture over there... sorry for my last few posted being so emo. I'll try to write some happier stuff in the future.




Song stuck in my head... Linkin park New Divide.


I remembered black skies / the lightning all around me
I remembered each flash / as time began to blur
Like a startling sign / that fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason / to fill this hole / connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide

There was nothing in sight / but memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide / the ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in / between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Across this new divide

In every loss / in every lie
In every truth that you'd deny
And each regret / and each goodbye
Was a mistake too great to hide
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason / to fill this hole / connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide

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Lyrics stuck in my head:

There's a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend;
There's a fine, fine line between reality and pretend;
And you never know 'til you reach the top if it was worth the uphill climb.

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

There's a fine, fine line between a fairy tale and a lie;
And there's a fine, fine line between "You're wonderful" and "Goodbye."
I guess if someone doesn't love you back it isn't such a crime,
But there's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of your time.

And I don't have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don't think that you even know what you're looking for.
For my own sanity, I've got to close the door
And walk away...
Oh...

There's a fine, fine line between together and not
And there's a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got.
You gotta go after the things you want while you're still in your prime...

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

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So I guess people on here know very little about me. Somewhere close to a year or so ago I got bored and decided to pick up a new hobby. I had some extra money from working too much and I decided I wanted to get into photography, so I started researching. After a few months of research I had camera's limited down to Canon's XTi and Nikon's D60. It came down to me watching the adds for one or the other to go on sale... Then it happened.. Canon released the XSi... A prosumer grade camera that fell well below the price line of other camera's like it. I was excited and sped from work to Best Buy in 20min (about 10 min faster than it should have taken) and began the process of purchasing my camera.
Since then I have posted most of my work up to this point... A sloppy assortment of Macro photography... in other words very poor quality by my standards. If it weren't for the quality of the camera my work wouldn't have seemed as nice.
I am trying to change this. I am reading books and manuals trying to find ways to improve my photography as well as beginning the journey into the editing world of digital photography.
With winter upon me I feel unmotivated to go take pictures... It's cold.. but soon I will need to as I go into withdraw.
I am planning on in the near future taking a class on digital photography. Having yet to find some mentor in the real world my next best solution is an instructor. I have recruited my sister (a Graphic Designer) to assist me in the learning process of Photoshop. Although she uses CS4 and I am playing with CS2, she will become a valuable asset to my tools as an artist.
I am done ranting.. So now you know a little more about me and my photography.

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So it is that time of year where the ghouls and goblins come out to play. I'm kinda stoked for this Halloween since I'm dressing up for the first time in years... And what is my costume to be you may ask... I am going to be An Emo Kid.... I am going to wear tight jeans (by tight I mean underwear won't fit) nail polish, eye liner, vans, and a studded belt. I will be taking pictures.. and might post one or two..

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