http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Ka-tisu77&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Ka-tisu77 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Wed, 09 Dec 2009 02:48:50 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/16322334/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/16322334/ Tue, 08 Jan 2008 21:00:42 PST I know I know
I havent been on DA at all in like forever, thus have not uploded anything, the thing is I was going thru some problums a few decades ago and just fell out of everything I was into, including Drawing and DA.

So now that I got everyting takin care of and finaly got to see all 50 Episodes of Eureka Seven in only three days, I forgot what Anime ment to me, but once I saw Eureka it all comes back.

I will now atempt to regain my skills (little skills, but at least some skill) of drawing again

wow, I really havent been doing anything with pictures, all the lost time that I can never get back...

*sigh*

......

I really need to get back in

]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/15044571/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/15044571/ Sat, 13 Oct 2007 13:33:53 PDT
IM NOT DEAD!!!

I've just been sleeping...a lot

but ima try to get more things up, I'll start draling again, really soon

and Im trying to go to collige for art

probly wont happen, I dont like schools, notice that I use run on sentenses and I cant spell to save my life

the only thing I thank I was good in school was are and math

and this school requiers an essay......*now I am dead*

]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/14291165/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/14291165/ Wed, 22 Aug 2007 16:10:04 PDT
okay, well hers the dill,
I kinda meet this girl last year, well I didnt reallt meet her, Just knew of her thru friends. but shes soo cute and I like her, and she seems happy alot, and she just does cute little things, she has a soft voice and is just like, so pretty and I liked her, and toled her friends I liked her. Well she was a fresman last year, and I was a Senior, so after I graduated, I didnt thank Id ever see or hear from her again, but she sent me a message over myspace and I didnt know it was her, wel I found out it was her, and I was like, WHOOOWWW, dude shes talking to me!!! Well we started to talk, and I toled her I wanted to tell her something, and and and

well I toled her that I like her, and she was like,..spetchless, becasue she didnt say anything, I was expecting her to tell me offf, and all kinds of crap, but then she like...scared the holy living something outa me...she sead "I like you too"

um..now what do I say??
im scared now, this girl is 16, and im 19, is that too old?? I dont thank iv really recoverd enough from my last relationship, should I just star a new one with her?? I want to, but what about the problums we'll casue?? Im 19, her dad wouldnt like that, her friends would thank bad of her, and people would thank im a cradel rober

I like this girl a lot, more than just like, but not really love yet, I have like the biggist crush on her iv ever had, and, I would be really happy if I could start dating her, but then what about her dad?? I dont need him chasing me with a pair of bolt cutters or a shotgun, I wouldn't hurt her, I wouldn't try to hurt her, I want to like..just be happy with her, I could be happy with her, but would she be happy with me?? She sead she liked me, but that was me from last year, does she still like me?? Ive changed a lot, got pircings and just went a little crazy, and, I dont thank Im really good enough for her, thats why im so scared of her, I dont want her to thank I was a mistake, and I dont want it to be just s temporary relationship, I dont want to have her for a few months and lose her to someone else like I did last time, if I get her, If I get this girl, I want to keep her forever, you know, I thank im ready for just having one girl in my life that means everything, maybe, I hope she can be that girl, BUT, is she ready for a relationship like that?? shes only 16, she still has the rest of her life to be her, free, does she want a serious relationship like mine??

I really really like this girl, and she may not know it, but she means a lot to mel

*sigh* Id love to be with her, would she feel the same way?? ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/13454354/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/13454354/ Sat, 23 Jun 2007 00:53:50 PDT Forgive the spelling

okay so I didn't leave for AIT this year, sorry to just now inform you...like...a month late I know.

but anyway, I got a job (woot woot) I work from 3 to 11, kinda sucks, I have no night life anymore, not that I had one, but now garentied not to have one till I get a day job.....
.....
.....
um...
everything is good I guess, brother moved back in, kinda sucks...a lot...all he does is cause problums, \

I'm getting my car in like a week (yay yaaay)

um...
...
I get paoed next thursday (WOOOOT)

well thats bout it, I graduated, can't remember if I toled you that before....
...
...
um...
I found a new love for .hack// (dot hack// for those who don't know what a "." is)

..and...well....
everything is totally posem except for a few relationship problums that me and her need to eoork out, I'll probly run off and kill myself If I ever lost her, and I'm not ready to die yet


so yeah....I got a new cell phone, natonwide, so I guess if you want, send me a message and I'll send you my number, now remember, I'm a 19 year old "boy" (kid at heart ^-^)
okay so I'm not a perv, I don't try to meet little girls, or yung women some wired place, just talk is all i'll do...so yeah...I'm, not a perv, and it would be really cool to talk to some of you people, really awsome,
Crystal Dragon.....Moonlight kitty...um...and others I can't really thank of right now, sorry I'm brain dead lol

wel send me a message, I'm bored!!!!!!

]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/13156376/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/13156376/ Wed, 30 May 2007 20:15:56 PDT Forgive the spelling

okay, so

yeah

I will be going away tomarrow afternoon
I will be gone for about 7 weeks
last year i was gone for 10 weeks but it didn't bother me
now I'll only be gone for 7 weeks and I'm scared to deth

I didn't have anyone to wait for me last year
now I have someone who means the world to me
and now I have to leave her

I'm so scared
I'm so scared that I will lose her
I'm so scared that she'll find someone else

but

I love her more than anything
and I'll do anything for her
I am the happiest I've ever been when I'm with her
and tommarow, at 1:00 p.m., I'll leave school,
and be gone for 7 weeks

I love you Amanda

I Amanda ~Kawaii1991 ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12836870/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12836870/ Fri, 04 May 2007 06:59:46 PDT Forgive the spelling

okay Amanda, In my mind, what you toled me about that one friday night, I believe it, becasue I want to, I thank that what you toled me is what really happend, and evin if it didn't, Amanda, I still love you, evin if your the one who started it, Amanda I still love you, I love you more than anything, you asked me why I wanted to stay with you, well, I just do, okay I love you, why?? I just do, you make me soo happy, Amanda, I just love you, your soo cute and yeah, sometimes you can get outa hand, but I still love you, you took me from cutting to hugging, I love you

I Amanda ~Kawaii1991 ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12680670/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12680670/ Sat, 21 Apr 2007 13:12:30 PDT Forgive the spelling

yeah, so yesterday was my birthday, sorry I didn't tell you guys' yesterday, I was at school all day with no contact with a computer

I am 19 now, gosh I'm old

well anyway, I figured out that if Hitler was still alive today, he'd be 99 years older than me, kinda creepy hu??

yeah and the columbine high school shooting happend 8 years ago to so wow,

and its suposedly "national smook weed day" on 4-20

yeah so anyway,
yesterday, I got into a fight with My girlfriend, becasue she toled me that her friends are mad that were back together, and I kinda got mad about it, and I was like soo what?? who cares if ther mad that were together and she mentiond the one, and only time that I ever did anything bad to her, when I grabed her arms and shook her, but that was only once, then she sead thet once turns to twice, so once she sead that, I walked off, it was just going to turn intop another fight, and I don't want thatm it kinda seems like if she is pushing me away, I don't really know what she is thanking, but she tells me that if I don't want her around to tell her, but wtf!! I love her, and I don't care what anybody else seays, I want to be with her, but she seays things like "if you don't want to be near me, then I'll leave" WHAT?!?! why the hell would she say somthing like that?? does she not know what she means to me?? holly crap, I love her more than anything, that really fucking herts when she seays shit like that


its starting to be like the last time, I have to fight everyone just to be with her, but you know, now I don't care who's mad that were together, the only ones that really matter are her parrents, and us, everyone selse can pout and cry all thay want to, I won't lose her again becasue people are mad that I have her


I write more about all my BS later in another journal

I love you Amanda ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12637477/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12637477/ Tue, 17 Apr 2007 20:23:11 PDT Forgive the spelling

okay well thers nothing wrong right now

I'm acually happy you know??

I got Amanda back, I love her soo much

but I'm hert now, and thers nothing wrong, but I just feel like going in a corner sitting rocking back and forth crying, or just sitting in the shower of likr hours, and yet ther is nothing wrong with me, but why does it hert so much??
people at school say I look pissed off, or I sound upset, but thers really nothing wrong with me, I feel great, but I feel all this pain and nothing is wrong, what the hell is it??
I feel like just laying in bed all day, not doing anything, just lay there and let all the time go by, I hate it, but thers nothing there you know??

I love you Amanda ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12509184/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12509184/ Sun, 08 Apr 2007 11:29:32 PDT Forgive the spelling

you know what??
I'll Always be here for you
I'll always love you
I'll do anything to see you happy

I love you Amanda
just as long as your in my arms, nothing will hert you, not as long as your right here with me

I love you Amanda ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12436345/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12436345/ Mon, 02 Apr 2007 19:50:43 PDT Forgive the spelling

okay, so me and my ex kinda got into this fight last thursday right, so I hing up the phone on her, and I didn't hardly talk to her at all Friday, but she came up to me and sead that I should probly stay away from her, she sead that one of her friends went down to the counselers and toled tham that I hit her at school and abuse her, then she toled me that the counseleres toled the secirity, that if thay see me near her then I'll get suspended for the rest of the year and not graduate, okay, so then I go down to finid out whats going on, and the counseler toled me to go see the dean about it, so I go down to see the Dean, but shes delling with two girls who got into a fight, so then I get to talk to the Assistant prioncible or the Dean of boys (I don't really know what he does, except for hes part of addministration), but I made a report to him about all of, and them my ex calles me that night, and I toled her what I did, and then, on saterday, she calles me again, but now the story has changed, insted of her friend going down to the counseler, her teacher toled her to go down, then the counseler started to talk about my family, that we had problums becasue of what my brother did in school, well, thats confidintall information, thats invasion of privacy, to give information about my family out to someone who has no right to know about my family, and what my brother did in school doesn't have anything to do with me, the only trouble I got into at High school was I had a hat on, my brother got expelled for fighting, my brother droped out of school, I don't have anything incommon with my brother except for our parrents, my brother used my name when he got caught shoplifting at wal-mare, while I was In basic traning 4oo miles away from wal-mart, well, were getting a lawyer for the counseler and probly take her to court.....

and she seas she won't help me, she seays she knows I didn't do anything to her, but she won't help me, and she tells her friends that I did do all that crap to her, she'll help her friends, the ones who take her to places she doesn't want to go and get drunk and pass out leaving her to find her own ride home with people she doesn't evin know (how dangerous is that for a 15 yo girl??) she'll help thye ones who started the lieing about me to breack us up, and she tells her friends that I did do it and askes i9f thay'll tell the school that

man, after all this crap is fixed, thats it, I ain't gona go near her again, that way I know I didn't come withen 5 feet of her, so now thers no way I could leave a mark on her

well, so anyone wgo read this, whats up with all the crap??

Yeah, I really don't care ( ._.) ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12356666/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12356666/ Tue, 27 Mar 2007 22:22:21 PDT Forgive the spelling

yeah so I finally have my Senior Pictures, I'm stil debationg on rather or not if I should uplode them on Myspace, I have 72, I'm not going to uplode them all, maby about 10 or 15, but yeah, what do you thank, should I??
send a message or I'll jump off a bridge

It took the fight of a real good friend to show me what I can do
I still love you ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12316642/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12316642/ Sat, 24 Mar 2007 23:28:13 PDT Forgive the spelling

okay well actually this would be the first, but ahywho

I have a new scetch pad and I need somthing in it,

the thing is, you guys get to throw ideas at me and the best one will be drawn in the new book, and I'll also send you a copy so you can have your verry own on DA
now isn't that nice??

this will end wednsday 3-28-07, yeah I know its not long, but I don't want to wate and if noone responds to this...I'll jump off a bridge to my untimly deth....now how would you like that on your mind when you try to sleep at night??

It took the fight of a real good friend to show me what I can do
I still love you ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12251697/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12251697/ Mon, 19 Mar 2007 21:30:25 PDT Forgive the spelling

hahahaha!!!!

watch out watchers

I have descovered a photoshop on my computer, but its not really photoshop, its the Microsoft Digital Image Starter Edition 2006 Editor

so... and I also have Irfan View 3.99

so...hehehewatch out, I'll play with your pictures ^-^

It took the fight of a real good friend to show me what I can do
I still love you ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12216081/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12216081/ Sat, 17 Mar 2007 07:25:53 PDT Forgive the spelling

I thank I'll end my DA life
I don't draw or anything anymore, so whay have it you know??

omg I hate myspace, its full of perverts and child molesters and stupid people who say things thay shouldn't over myspace, like give out phone numbers, and addresses, its dangerous, and you'll get hert from it

but omg I hate it, its so stupid, I thank I'll kill that one too

It took the fight of a real good friend to show me what I can do
I still love you ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12039922/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12039922/ Sat, 03 Mar 2007 12:30:24 PST Forgive the spelling

For thouse of you who wanted to know what FFO was about
I couldn't tell you before
but its like A New World Order
were here to help people who don't like anything
who hide behind walls
the worls isn't a bad place, some people may be evil but were here to help you
I'm here to help you and If I can't thers only one other person I know that can help
and that is
=CrystlDragn
she was probly the first person to ever understand FFO, evin before she knew what it was 8D
shell help you
we helped eatch other
and we will help you


how many of you are laughing rite now??
I know most of you are, but that just your nature

It took the fight of a real good friend to show me what I can do
I still love you ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12020444/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12020444/ Thu, 01 Mar 2007 22:41:57 PST Forgive the spelling

then.....this is it??..
no more....ever again....
whos trying to erase who now??
I might sound paranoid
but you don't know that I do know
but I do know, so
why did you hide it from me??
why not just tell me in the begining??
was it good then
and I did somthing wrong??
that might be it
but I won't belive that
the thangs you say to your friends
are diffrent from what you tell me
the things you tell me
are diffrent from the way you act
but the way you act
matches that of what you tell your friends
so I'm the odd ball out
the only thing you know is
I know somthing
that you know
but you don't thank I know
so...FYI
I do know
Now I might act diffrent
but you had plans
now I have plans
you played your game
now let me play mine
the end of my game won't bother you
like the end of your game bothered me

I will only ask you onw question

why did you go thru with it if you didn't want to??
that makes no sence to me
but whatever
people are not that hard to read once you get to know them

one day....
just one day...
it will all hit you
and when it does
I hope its like a ton of bricks
so don't come back to me
I gave you my heart
and you threw it to the ground
I never thaugh you would turn out like this
I guess I just wanted to actually be happy
evin if it was fake
evin if it was short
at least it gave me the illusion that I night have been happy

DO NOT REPLY TO THIS, BECAUSE I WON"T REPLY TO YOUR REPLY
DO NOT ASK ME ABOUT THIS AT SCHOOL, I WON'T TALK ABOUT IT

just let this sink into you, and just know, that I know something that you didn't thank I know, I have a picture of the desktop and the messages were clear
you can't tell me you didn't do it this time
because unless you wen't behind my back to tell someone something, your the only one who should know
but I don't thank it matters anymore does it??
no, it doesn't
do me a favor and stop playind dumb okay
you only insalt my intellegence to do so (not that I have much of it, but I still do have some)
so
if you read this in the morning, don't talk about it at school
just answer my one question
and if you read this at night
don't bring it up on monday
just answer my one question
your gona say I'v been talking to April again
but no I havent
April....is a secret
your gona ask what I'm talking about I'm sure
but if you honistly have no idea
then don't talk about it
and if you know what I know
(I know you do) but don't know I know
then don't talk about it
the ride was fun
evin if it wasn't real
the dream was nice
evin thou it was just a dream

you really had me fooled
I really thaught that I was happy
but you taught me a verry imprtant lesson
to never open myself to anyone
not evin to the one I love
because love does not exist in this world
...
now thank about that
you say you love him and you'll always be there for him
but you toled me that he knew that you could just get up and go and thers nothing he could do about it and that it wouldnt bother him
but honistly thank about that
if he could just let you go and not care
then did he care at all?
I'm not trying to atack him
I'm just asking a question

but now thank about this
if someone loved someone else
and that someone else broke up with them
then that someone would be devistated
would he not??
but if that someone found out that THAT someone else had planed it and was behind it with other to fool that someone into thanking THAT someone else actually did love them??
then that someone would be dead

is this confusinig??
I'll try to explane it better
some other time
when you stop pretending
and start actuall living around me
like you live around all off your friends
and now that I talked to someone
(you know them, In fact, your really close to this person) I've lernd what happened at home (your home)

but....I bet your soo lost right now??

just know

I KNOW IT
but you don't know that I know IT

so, stop playing dumb
because now its my turn
....wow..that was a lot
well, I have nothing else to say
but
I really did love you
and I wonder what happened to you to make you go the way you... ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12020430/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/12020430/ Thu, 01 Mar 2007 22:39:02 PST Forgive the spelling

I was so happy that I had Amanda

but others wern't
one kid doesn't like me dating Amanda


okay, we begin

I'm not the type to hit a girl for any reason, espashialy Amanda
but to me, I like some pain...SOME pain okay
like....biting, not hard but bites
I don't like peing pinched, thats a sharp pain, I don't like sharp pains
I like slow pains...like pulling hair

So Amanda ciomes over one day
and were back in my room
and she gets playfull
so she starts to pench me...
maybe its not that hard to her, but it herts like hell to me!!
so I tell her to stop
and she keeps doing it
so I tell her to stop again.......
and she keeps doing it.....
now I'm geting really pissed....
so I tell her 4 more times to stop....
and she keeps doing it
so I get up to leave
and I come back and shes curled up in a little ball on the bed
we talk about it and everything is good.....untill she does it AGAIN
so this time I throw myself to get up
My hand is comming down to push myself of the bed
Amanda moves her arm over
but by now its too late to stop my hand
My palm hites her wrist with a lot of force
okay, I weigh over 200lbs...
so I leave a bruse on her arm

(remember that she was penching me and that it pissed me off soo badly
it comes back later)

so she comes over again one day
and we started to play again
and this time she didn't piss me off
I was actually having fun
I was playing too
but I go to get up
and I put mey elbow out
and I guess she came up and hit my elbow
and I gave her a black eye (I din't evin know I did it)
so the next day at school, I see it
I got pissed becaus I thaught someone hit her
she tells me that I did it
so we talked about it
and we got it settled
but this one kid sees it too and thanks I hit her on perpous
this kide doesn't like me because I'm going out with Amanda
He wanted to go out with her
but I got her insted
so now he thanks I beat on her (I don;t know he thanks this)

SO again we are at my hose back in my room
(remember the pinching??)
well she starts penching me again
so I tell her to stop
she dosen't stop
I tell her to stop again
she still won't stop
so now its pissing me off again
so nnow I get up and try to leave
but she stops me
and she does it again
so I try to leave again
she stops me
and does it again
I tryed to leave three tmes
now, I just don't care
so I go and lay down on my bed
she comes over and askes :whats wrong??"
I won't answer her because she SHOULD know whats wrong

so she asks again, I tell her "nothing"
she keeps asking
I keep telling her the same thing
she asks again,
I tell her I'm mad because she wouldn't stop penching me
so she asks me again and again and again
I've already toled her like five times
and she asks again
pissd offf now
I grab her sholders and shake her back and forth
I didn't shake her a lot, only about 3 seconds
and I tell her
"you wouldn't stop when I toled you too!!"
I grabed her too hard and left brusis on her arm


well that kid who likes her sees the brusis
and...he works with Amanda's aunt
so, not knowing what goes on in our relationship
he asumes I abuse her
he tells her aunt that I beat her
and thats why she has all the brusis (witch isn't true at all)
bur her aunt tells her parrents
and her parrents tell her she can't see me

not once did thay ask her or me what happened
thay belived a lie that some kid thay don't evin know toled her aunt
Thay automaticly asume that I was beating her too
but thay don't ask questions
thay tell her she can't be woth me
I'm not aloud to call, come over, or see her outside of school

so now I want to fight this kid
this is the first time I actually will get into any kind of fight
I don't get into fights
thats not me
but I don't care anymore
this kid took Amanda away from me
so I tell her whats going on
how much I hate this kid

and back in january
I tryed to get her to stop being his friend
because I knew what he was doing
but we got into a fight over it
she sad that I don't trust her
I've toled her a million times that
I do trust you, its the rest of the world, like HIM, that I don't trust ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11992162/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11992162/ Tue, 27 Feb 2007 18:46:53 PST Forgive the spelling

hay guys...
sorry I haven't uploded anything yet

I've been kinida buisy

I'll start drawinig more now, I have a lot of free time, and no,
I won't clean my room..I don't wanna

FFO!!! ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11973482/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11973482/ Mon, 26 Feb 2007 11:30:02 PST Forgive the spelling

I just don't really care anymore, you know

I'll go back to the way I used to be, back to the normal little kid that everyone knows...so...yeah

FFO!!! ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11949288/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11949288/ Sat, 24 Feb 2007 14:59:14 PST Forgive the spelling

You know what??
Unlike the others
your not so easy to read
but none-the-less
you are readable
it just took some time


you know it wasn't true
but you tell the same lie to your friends


its like to me
you spred the lie that killed me

but why??

this must have been what you wanted

but why didn't you say that??

yes, it would have hert, but now that I figered it out, it herts evin more...

remember what I sead about the lies??
evin in good intintions, it will still hert more than the truth

the truth will hert, but any lie will make the pain worse..

the questions you asked

will I bee here??
no, I'm dead to you know

I still don't know why you wouldn't just tell me??

I bet you toled him the lie
then he told her the lie
the she toled them the lie
then thay broke us

is this your excuse??

people are readable
but know that I know
It really doesn't hert anymore
the only thing that does hert
Is knowing I gave it all to you......for nothing

FFO!!! ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11947793/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11947793/ Sat, 24 Feb 2007 12:56:43 PST Forgive the spelling

first, my computer get a virus from a friend request of myspace, so I start a system recovery, that literitly destroys all the files on my computer, so now I losy all my music from limewier.....FUCK!!!
then, my Girlfreind calls me to tell me that we can't be together, becaus her parrents don't want us to be together, because her aunt toled her parrents that I abouse her, her aunt was toled this by a person who doesn't want us to be together, because he likes her, evin thou he allready hs a girlfriend, he wanted to date Amanda, but I got her insteed, and it pissed him off, he started to say that I abuse her,....

I gave her a bruse from when I grabd ahold of her and shook her, he saw it and started saying I hit her, she got sick and caughed up blood, he tooled her aunt that I hit her in the throught
....
I'll hit him in the throught the next time I see him, probly at school, and right now, I don't care if I do get expelled for it, he came into our life and fucked everything up..
he wants to fight me because he thanks he knows whats going on in our relationship??
shit...bring it on
its been awile since I had a fight
and this guy wrestles??
I don't
I don't wrestle, I'll knock you the fuck out

this was the one girl that...changed everything for me
I would have done anything for her

dispite everyone telling me all this bullshit about her,
that she isn't a good person
dispite what everyone toled me
I dicided to date her
and you know what??
I don't regret anything
except letting her be friends with eddwerd
I toled her about him
and we got into a fight
I don't want to be controlive
but I didn't want her to be his friend, because I knew he would do shit like this
so I toled her, and she thanks I don't trust her
I don't know how many times I sead that
"its not you I don't trust, its the rest of the world"

she was the only thing that keept me from going active in the military, she was the only thing that ever made me this happy
I loved her with everything

evin if she didn't tell me everything that goes on
"its none of your bisnis what goes on in my life"

maybe if she toled me what goes on....
maybe i could have helped it more
she wouldn't let me near edward
she wouldn't tell me what goes on between them
and now look where we are

thers nothing that can be done

and the really fucked up thing about this is
this is my longest relationship
today was our two month aniversiry

yep...life is fucked up
(more will fallow, I'm brain dead right now)

FFO!!! ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11898675/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11898675/ Tue, 20 Feb 2007 17:43:36 PST Forgive the spelling

.......
just to git rid of that anoying, 200 question journal from before...

FFO!!! ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11884209/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11884209/ Mon, 19 Feb 2007 15:52:22 PST Forgive the spelling

200: My name is:
Curtis

199: I was born in:
Clarmore, Oklahoma

198. I am:
a Soldier

197. My eye color is:
Hazel

195. My shoe size is:
10.5

194. My ring size is:
11 or 12

193. My Favorite Color is:
RED< Black, Green

192. My height is:
.5'9''

191. I’m allergic to:
I dunno

190. I live in:
Tulsa, Oklahoma

189. The last book I read:
Reading: Wickedha like I can read

188. My bed time is:
whenever I goddamn feel like it!

187. First Screen name:
Ka-tisu77

179. My favorite Holiday is:
don't really ahve one

178. The perfect kiss is:
unexpected

177. The last band/artist listened to:
My Chemical Romance

176. Last song that made you cry?:
Welcome to the Black Perade

170. What did you do last night?
sleep and be lonly

167. My skin's reaction to the sun is:
I'm never in the sun

===============================
:::::I Do (YES)/Do Not (NO) Believe In:::::
===============================

143. Santa:
no.

142. Love at First Sight:
Hell no

141. Luck:
no

140. Fate:
no

140. Karma:
yes

138. Aliens:
no

137. Heaven:
yes

136. Hell:
yes

135. Ghosts:
no

134. Horoscopes:
no

133. Soulmates?
no

====================
:::::Which is Better?:::::
====================

129. Hugs or Kisses:
both

128. Drunk or High?
nither

127. Phone or online:
online

126. Red heads or Brown hair:
don't care

125. Blondes or Brunettes:
don't care

124. Lamb and tuna or peanut butter and jelly?
Ramen

122: sci-fi or horror:
Horror

121: eat at home or eat out:
both

120. Night or Day:
Night

118. Curly or Straight hair:
don't care

============
::: Last time? :::
============

103. Missed someone:
today. right now.

102. Hugged someone:
....like before Amanda got on the bus

101. Seen someone you haven't seen in a while?
yesterday. I saw Spook!

========
:: MISC ::
========

90. Who's the ditziest person you know:
I am

87. One thing I'm mad about right now:
everything

83. The last movie I saw in the theatre was:
The Good Sheperd

82. The thing I don't understand is:
why everyone can't see the truth

78. This past summer:
went to Basic Combat Traning in Ft. Sill

77. Next year:
I will go to ITT

76. Something I will really miss when I leave home:
Amanda

75. the thing I’m looking forward to the most is:
ITT

::::::What are you doing?:::::::
======================

71. Tomorrow:
school, sleep

72. Today:
school, sleep

71. Next Summer:
AIT

72. For Christmas:
ha, like I get anything for christmas

====================

62. The person(s) who knows the most about me is:
Amanda, Dewane, Matt

53. The one person who can't hide things from me is:
I'm to gulibal to see anything

51. Right now I am talking to:
no one

48. I have a job:
U.S. Soldier

47. I have a pet[s]:
5 cats

46. I wish:
I could travil time

45. The worst sound in the world:
everything suks

44. The ONE person that made me cry the most is:
yeah......

43. Have you ever done drugs:
yes

42. Have you ever smoked?
yeah...

42. Which parent are you most close with??
Dad, but verry distant

39. What's your favorite movie?
don't have one

36. Last person you talked to on the phone?
Dad

35. Someone you've gotten closer with this year:
Amanda ^-^

33. My favorite piece of clothing is:
hats

32. My favorite sport is:
football

27: Last person(s) you got mad at:
yeah.....

26. My worst experience was:
whitch one??

22. The all-time best movie is:
...thers not one
<... ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11871564/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11871564/ Sun, 18 Feb 2007 17:38:16 PST Forgive the spelling

You know what??
I love you guys!!

Clubs
]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11777386/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11777386/ Sun, 11 Feb 2007 18:24:47 PST Forgive the spelling

the storm is gone, and now I see all nice clear skies!!
^-^

Clubs
]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11763577/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11763577/ Sat, 10 Feb 2007 17:42:53 PST Forgive the spelling

.....
I'm sorry
.....
.....
.....
.....
I really am, no matter how much you thank that I don't really care
I do, I do care, I was readdy to give it all away.
....
....
....
now.....
I just don't know anymore
I need to know

what are we??

I still love you, and I always will

you are to me what he is to you

ecept I know that if your gone, you won't come back

Clubs
]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11740342/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11740342/ Thu, 08 Feb 2007 20:09:06 PST Forgive the spelling

well okay
I just got back from ITT
I took the addmition test
and I passed it
now all I have to do is finachel aid forms
and I'll start school in the fall
after I get back from AIT(the Army)
......
....
*so happy right now, nothing can bring me down!!)
^-^!!!

Clubs
]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11647731/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11647731/ Thu, 01 Feb 2007 13:18:02 PST Forgive the spelling

okay I'm in the lybrary (I know I can't spell)
siting at the computer
being bored
the school's internrt has filtered just about every word in the english language
My girlfriend isn't here today, shea th the doctors office
lexy was on..like an hour ago...now shes not...
I have absolutly nothing to do, I'm soo bored
why did I evin come to school today??
what is here thak could acuse me to lose much wanted sleep??
that I just had to come her today....no, I couldn't stay in bed this morning, where its safe and worm, and the secerity guards won,t herass me about eye liner...yes I do where ey e liner (I am a boy),
soo...whats doing on??
you havent talked to me in such a long time, well not on DA anywaze
I fell so unloved
why don't you like me anymore??
what did I do that was so wrong??
well I'm about to go sit in a chare and pass put for twenty minits, then I get to go outside in the cold and pass out for another twenty minits, go home and sleep for ten hours, come back tomarow and do the same thing again....so what is the perpous of school??
to sleep in an unsafe inviornment

Clubs
]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11628268/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11628268/ Tue, 30 Jan 2007 20:11:23 PST Forgive the spelling

I'm soo happy

for no reasson
I just wanted to get rid ot that last nasty Journal


it made me mad



now I'm glad(not about the last journal, but just because I wana be happy)

Clubs
]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11511091/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11511091/ Sat, 20 Jan 2007 21:40:54 PST Forgive the spelling

holy shit, all this internet shit is for, is to get all the stupid girls to have sex with child molseters!!
Chat rooms, Myspace, all this shit!!
It fucking pisses me off!!
first
the perverted child molester should have his balls cut off and his D**** slowly...verry slowly, sliced off and forced to eat it!!

second.
the stupid girl should be slapped silly for being soo stupid!!!

I KNOW!! that everyone knows this.. so why does it STILL happen??!?!?!

Girls
you need to stop talking to people online about sex or perverted shit...such as.."can you send me a necked pic of you"
If you can't get the fucking Idea that if the other person who is asking you for it doesn't really give a damn about you, thay don't evin know you, you'll talk dirty to them online and some of you will actually get on a web cam and send them a movie of yourself...how fucking stupid can you be.. ther going to post the video all over the internet, so don't thank that its only them who will see you...anyone who has a computer..let alone limewire can see it...don't thank its just harmles fun to talk sex to a person online because you don't know him, somehow he'll get your information and he'll show up one day, fucinig just stop doing that stupid shit!! don't answer any questions about you sexyally, don't give out discriptions of yourself, don't tell them what kind or color your underwhere is, you'll only excite him and get in evin more trouble....SHIT!! SHIT SHIT!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!

mu friend was just raped for this stupid shit

how the fuck can someone be so fucking stupid??!!!???!!??!!

For the stupid perverted child molester
you
you better fucking pray that I don't fucking find you
I don't care what you have, a gun, a knife, I don't give a fuck!!
you better kill me before I kill you!!


I'm fucking mad!!.....--Shadow, Ka-tisu, Soldier boy

yeah..I am A fucking soldier
whitch makes another question
Why am I going to go over seas and put my own life on the line so that people can continu to rape, molest, and beat girls in the US??
why am I going to fight so people acn do this??

Dear Child Molesters
You better pray to whatever God it is that you pray to that I don't find out where you live, I already know where one of you live, and I was sworn not to do anything to you, you may be close to my High School, I should start a pitition to have you relocated....
to all the others (Child Molesters, Rapers, Abusers, and users)
pray that I don't get to you, or that I figuer out who you are
I'll.......just pray I don't

--Ka-tisu

Clubs
]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11488362/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11488362/ Thu, 18 Jan 2007 22:50:31 PST Forgive the spelling

yay new css



FFO!!
































End journal 8D

Clubs
]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11421399/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11421399/ Sat, 13 Jan 2007 11:29:25 PST Forgive the spelling

COMMENT ME!!!!
*Roar!!!*
I'm a dinosore!! or maby just a large Iguana??

-----------------------------------------------
I love you ~Kawaii1991

Clubs


Funny crap:
[link]

real life friends

My best friends on DA 8D
=CrystlDragn
~finalxmeaning
~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11413300/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11413300/ Fri, 12 Jan 2007 17:46:19 PST Forgive the spelling

Okay I see
I see how you are
I see how everyone is
but okay
I'll fix this right now

FUCK YOU ALL!!!

I'm selfish, I have what I want, and her name is Amanda
If you don't like it, I don't give a FUCK!!

-----------------------------------------------
I love you ~Kawaii1991

Clubs


Funny crap:
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real life friends

My best friends on DA 8D
=CrystlDragn
~finalxmeaning
~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11403523/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11403523/ Thu, 11 Jan 2007 20:25:09 PST Forgive the spelling

Okay
I got myself a nice girlfriend, and now all I get is HELL from everyone, you know this same thing happened when I toled my "friends" that I liked this one girl, and now I get it again??
well you know what?/
I don't care what thay thank, or what there friends thank, I've known her for two years, I know more about her then her ownparents do!!
She knows more about me than anyone I know!!

I don't care what your friends think about her, because what I thank is more important to me then what some people I don't evin know thank, but thats just simple
If I toled you that one of my friends, that you don't know, thanks your boyfriend/girlfriend is a total Bitch or dickhead, and you know your bf/gf, what are you going to do??

I don't need to know what the fuck you thank about her, you start talking crap about her and I'll get mad,

if you can't be happy for me, now that I have someone who actually gave me a chance, that are you really my friend??

A friend, yes, would care who I date, thats just what a friend does
but to just start talking shit after I've known her for over a year, and liked her when I first saw her, to me, is just..stupid.

People I don't evin know are telling mr that she isn't good

I've been going out with her for 2 weeks and 4 days, a short time I know, but its also my longist relationship with a girl, shes the first to give me a real chance, and shes the first to make me happy!!

Now I have to ask this question

Are you jealous??

you didn't start acting like this un'till you found out that I had a girlfriend, YOU totaly changed,not me!!
I do everything that I've done before the same as I do now,
as far as I'm concerned, I gave everyone a chance, some evin got two chances, and none of you grabed it, some of you evin played me!!
and now I can't thank why I ever gave some of you a chance
some of you just terned out to be total bitches yourselvs!!
After I get to know you better, your real colors start to show

but you know what??
I love her!!
I don't give a fuck about what you or anyone else thanks about her!!
I'm not going to go back to the sad, cuttin wrist little emo ass that I was last year, NO!!, I found someone who makes me happy, and honistly, thats all THAT I CARE ABOUT!!

I asked some of you out, I evin toled some of you that I loved you, and some of you started to like me whrn you were already taken,
sorry but
I won't date you if you have someone,
I know that I tried to take some of you away from them
is that what your trying to do with me??
but If I do break up with her, you'll just forget that anything happened and we'll just be friends again
but that WON'T HAPPEN!!
I'm not going to give her up...for anything
I am happy now!!
I will NEVER LET HER GO!!
your time ran out
you either had someone or you didn't give me a chance when I wanted you, but I don't thank I could be happier with anyone else...thats just me being honist, she makes me happy
so much that I don't care, My BEAST FRIEND, my brother, for three years evin toled me that I could do better, that I didn't want her, If I didn't want her, I wouldn't have asked her, and NO!! I couldn't do any better, because this is the best girl in the world to me, she gave me a chance when nobody else would....

ok here is the point
If your mad that I have a girlfriend....then fuck off!!
I don't care
if I have to lose all my friends to be happy..then soo be it!!
I'll be friendless and happy, than have friends and be sad

just like money can't buy happyness

a rich man can have everything and not be happy
a poor man can have nothing and be happy

-----------------------------------------------
I love you ~Kawaii1991

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My best... ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11206756/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11206756/ Tue, 26 Dec 2006 23:21:19 PST Forgive the spelling

get your name in Japanese at this link

[link]

hope you like them!!

I love you ~Kawaii1991

Clubs


Funny crap:
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My best friends on DA 8D
~Lexy-Niccals
=CrystlDragn
=curry23
~finalxmeaning
~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11167391/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11167391/ Sat, 23 Dec 2006 21:29:54 PST Forgive the spelling

Happy Happy Happy!!!!!!
......
Amanda!!
I love you!!
^-^

I love you ~Kawaii1991

Clubs


Funny crap:
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My best friends on DA 8D
~Lexy-Niccals
=CrystlDragn
=curry23
~finalxmeaning
~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11152251/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11152251/ Fri, 22 Dec 2006 15:49:58 PST Forgive the spelling

well. um..lol....
I am so
HHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAPPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you Amanda!!

Clubs


Funny crap:
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My best friends on DA 8D
~Lexy-Niccals
=CrystlDragn
=curry23
~finalxmeaning
~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11087994/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11087994/ Sat, 16 Dec 2006 20:26:08 PST Forgive the spelling

Well I have decided that next year will be a good year.
I'll whait..for an answer..
she has untill midnight December 31
After that..she may hate me..
but it WILL be a good year!! regardless if........

Clubs


Funny crap:
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My best friends on DA 8D
~Lexy-Niccals
=CrystlDragn
=curry23
~finalxmeaning
~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11085011/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11085011/ Sat, 16 Dec 2006 14:51:45 PST Forgive the spelling

to all my watchers
Sorry to bother you with all the pics from back in the day.
I just found a box full of pics so...sorry!!

Clubs


Funny crap:
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My best friends on DA 8D
~Lexy-Niccals
=CrystlDragn
=curry23
~finalxmeaning
~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11054638/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11054638/ Wed, 13 Dec 2006 18:30:54 PST Forgive the spelling

alright screw this, I can't be that guy.
I can't play that game, I just can't live like that.
I hate that type of person.
I won't become the verry thing I hate!!

Nop thats not me!!
I'm the one who will sit in the dark and watch as this world kills itself,
I shall whitnessw the destruction.....

just like =CrystlDragn said
>>It's just the thing that God made us in the first place. We are all but just lifeless beings that walk the earth with no knowledge whatsoever of how to see the things through blind eyes. I'm saying that we all can't see what He sent us down here for; he wants to show that he's not the only person who knows how to use the 5 senses, even in this case, the 6th sense. So right now it is a world full of confusion. That's all I'm gesturing as of now...<<

Clubs


Funny crap:
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~Lexy-Niccals
=CrystlDragn
=curry23
~finalxmeaning
~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11041428/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/11041428/ Tue, 12 Dec 2006 15:12:50 PST Forgive the spelling

man I'm so tired off all this bullshit!
no one is real anymore, I hate the way thay act.
At school, all my friends stab me in the back.
so fuck this, I'm tired.
no more.
I didn't want to play this game, I just wanted to watch, but no,
so I will play this game
pepole will hate me for it, but what will be the diference??
I'll have the same amount of friends playing this game, then I'll have without playing.
So....now.....I will start playing, I'll be the same as all the others, so now My life can move forwared instead of siting still.
Really thats the only way life can go on is to play the game....
I guess thats the way that the story goes,
will it ever make sence?? somebodys gota know.

Clubs


Funny crap:
[link]

My best friends on DA 8D
~Lexy-Niccals
=CrystlDragn
=curry23
~finalxmeaning
~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10997600/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10997600/ Fri, 08 Dec 2006 17:08:57 PST Forgive the spelling

Tagged by

Rules: The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "6 weird habits/things/hates about yourself"
People who get tagged MUST write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things/hates as well and state this rule clearly.
In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names.
Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" in their devpage comments and tell them to read yours...

1: ok I hate pepole who use pepole
2: I'm in the Army
3: I keep making Lexy mad at me for sumthing that I did, and I don't know what
4: I stopped playing football, and the school starts to win.
5: Started cuting again
6: I have a strange "don't date Ka-tisu" odor


and I tag

Clubs


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~Lexy-Niccals
=CrystlDragn
=curry23
~finalxmeaning
~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10985251/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10985251/ Thu, 07 Dec 2006 15:15:13 PST Forgive the spelling

I just seen a friend that I haven't seen in like 4 years

she's kinda mad at me, but its for somthing soo stupid, its about the person I like, shes mad at me because I like somone, shes not jelous or anything, and All but one of my other friends a kinda mad at me for the same thing, my friends say that I can get better or I can do better, but I tried, I can't, I can't evien get the one I like now, so if I can't get her, than how am i suposed to get someone better??

I toled my friends that I liked someone and thay all got happy for me, but when I tooled thm who it was, theay just....looked at me werid,

I like who Ilike

everyone I'm friends with thanks shes not good enough, that she isn't all that pritty
I DON'T GIVE A FUCK!!
Just because you guys don't thank shes pritty dosen't mean that I feel the same way,
SO WHAT?? I don't care if shes ugly, stupid, fat, really fucking skinny, short, tall, or whatever!! I STILL like her!!

If you can't be happy for me, than are you really my friend??

Clubs


Funny crap:
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My best friends on DA 8D
~Lexy-Niccals
=CrystlDragn
=curry23
~finalxmeaning
~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10978313/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10978313/ Wed, 06 Dec 2006 22:44:04 PST Forgive the spelling

I alwas thaught I was here for somthing...
For a long time, I didn't know what it was...
But now that I have read your comments and actually looked at what this world is all about..
I have come to the conclusion (forgive spellinig) that I am the one guy, like in the movies, the misterious one who knows what others don't, the one that sets in the corner away from the world and gives advice to anyone who will listen, and then....
I'm the whitnes, who is here to look at the world, to see what it is...
Maybe.....this world really doesn't want love anymore????
Pepole...see only the prize at the end f the "game" but don't care about the cost.
Theay see panties, and lose ther minds

What I thank....
Pepole should....Pick one person...stay with them...love them...and go thru the game together.
but...pepole really arn't like that...like I sead...panties...and *%%#* is all most men care about. and its disgusting really. that no one can love someone anymore...it is so sad..
but....thats the rules of this horrible game, and really..if this is what it is...then today, kids are starting to play, and its a game for adults only, thers too much sex in this world...
sex just used to be somthing of real love..an act that two pepole who LOVE each other do,
now...it has become..somthing nasty..and truly..I'm afrade of it..
It has become somthing that you can find in a guter on 11th street, that will only cost you about $20....
is that all a girl is worth??
20 bucks for twenty minits??
NO!!
A girl is....somthing wonderfull...pritty, cute and just so......
not just some pice of.....merchindise that you can pick up and take back later
not just some artifact to .... missuse and.....degrade
NO!!!
A girl is....sweet, love, cute, pritty,
and I don't know what else...but, its like, to me, a girl is a "trophy", not a trophy for wining a game, or for collecting somthing.....more like an award..somthing to be proud of...that you can have and keep forever

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~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10954533/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10954533/ Mon, 04 Dec 2006 22:09:13 PST Forgive the spelling

Loveless...Yeah thats me part 2


I'm the type of guy that....I don't know, just can't get a good girlfriend,.

In a way, mayby I'm also blind, every girl I thank is cute and that I would like to go aout with really doesn't want to go out with me....

so far I'v only had three girlfriends in my life, tha first two, I didn't really know about,

but once I came back from the Army, me amd my friend went to Bells.

there we met my third girlfriend, when I first saw her, I was like wow shes cute

My friend gave them our numbers, but I'm like...Yeah like shes really going to call me, I thank she was blinded by my uniforw, that was my first day back in tulsa so I was in my ACU's
the new pixle camoflage, I thank what she saw was a soldier and not me.

Well she calles me and we start talking...........she says she wants to go out with me.....??
I saw her once, she doesn't even know me......??
well.....ok.....so we start dating.....right?? ok

So were talkng on the phone for like two weeks before our first date right...

ware do we go for our first date?? Bells duh

Wow shes really cute, but now I know somthing....shes only 14 (o.o)

well...ok....so were doing what a normal boyfriend/girfriend do on a date

well....I give her my Army ring........My Army ring.....1st Pltoon ring!!!
and one of my army jackets.....shhhh...don't tell my comander ^_~

but all good things must come to an end right??

so now the date is over.....i'm a really happy soldier right now....my first date...^_^

so like I try calling her the next day....shes not home...in fact I try calling for two weeks.

She finally calls me when my buddy Dewany(didn't spell that right did I??)
comes over...we sit down and eat Subway..remember that D??
when she finally calls me.....to break up with me.

she saied that it was hard becaus I don't talk to her and we hardly ever see eachother......what???

I tried calling her for like two weeks and she wasnt home

but whatever...ok...I'm single again.....

that was the first three weeks of school '06-'07 my last year in school

well.......I really should have seen that coming...like I could get a nice girlfrend
why did she break up with me??

honistly I thank it would have been better and lasted longer if we just stayed on the phone...she was nice up until the time she saw me without my uniform.....hmmm..



well thers a new girl.......read the other blogs...Iagain when I saw this girl I was like wowowowowowowowowwowo!!!!!!!!! holy crap this one is cute

I didn't really plane on geting to know her....I didn't thank it would work,,I mean come on I'm Curtis right?? "no girlfriends for you."....that should be my singneture

well she gave me my first kiss

I fell in love

I would have given her everything.

she toled me she didn't lke me

I was heartbroken..
if you don't like someone why would you kiss them??

the way everyone talked about her boyfriend at that time, sonded just like all the other guys in part 1

so we had a fight about it......I decided I still wanted to at least be friends...

but I did it again...fell back in love

she toled me that she brok up with her boyfriend

and I started to get ideas....but she shout me down without knowing it

she is now going out with an old boyfriend

This girl......
wow.....

I don't know what to say
friends tell me that she isn't woth it....but i don't know.....
wow

I would have done anything for her
it it ment that I would have to die just to put a smile on her face....
This girl.....
I never felt like this.....just.....
I wanted to be the one whos sholder shed cry on wen she was sad, I wanted to be the one to make her feel better, I wanted to protect her, I wanted to be her shild, I would have givin my arm for
she changed my life....for thous of you who knew me befor this year..you know what I mean


I just wanted to hold her, tell her I love her, kiss her on

her forhead, hold her hand, and hug her everyday for the rest of my life........

......................

there will probly be more...i'm tierd of typing up how bad my life is

GOD.............................

Loveless

Clubs
~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10953967/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10953967/ Mon, 04 Dec 2006 20:55:33 PST
I don't get it, almost every girl I talk to says I'm a really sweet and nice guy.

I try to...I guess be nice to every girl I meat.

But why is it thatif I'm so sweet and nice, even girls who don't know me and live in other states say the same thinf about me, when I try to go out with a girl, I always get turned down??

I'm the guy who whon't just use a girl for sex or just to have someone "hot or sexy" to show off to all his friends.

I'm the one who will love you forever, unconditionally, well 1 condition, you have to love me back.

I'm tierd of relationships that only last a few weeks or months at a time, I want a girl thats minie, I want to stop playing these little games, how long will we go out??, how long will it take before you put out??, I hate the gys that use girls for sex, I hate ethe way that most girls are blind and can't see..

I have this one frined at school who is really cute, she likes to date the popular kids, yes I said kids,
I gave her warnings about the guy she was dating, I didn't want to see her get hert, ahe thanked me but didn' heed my warning, now she is no longer a virgin, that guy left her, and she went out with another guy who, wouldn't you know it?? is the same way!! I even warnd her bout him, but no she didn't listin again, she toled me that theay wouldn't have sex, she lied.

I hate to see girls get hert, espeshaly when I try to help them and the don't want to listen.
Just remember, I tried to help you, you didn't want my help and now look at you, you used to be cute and now your viewed as a hore, prostitut and slut

I'm the guy who will be there, the one eho will help when your in truble.

I'm the one who will love you and not use you

thank about that!

every girl tells me that thay want a guy that will never hert them,
theay keep looking over me behind me and around me

this is not a ple to get a girlfriend

if you don't want me, fine, it you don't want love, go to those other guys, just at lest take a condom with you, your too young to be having a baby when your still just a baby yourself!!

If you want someone eho loves you, lookthe guys that you overlook are the ones that will love you, thank about it, why would someone who can have sex with 5 girls stay with just one?? it won't happen, youll catch him with some other bimbo and get into a fight, and I'll be the one in the back, watching, crying, becaus I told you what would happen and yet you still, still went to him

thanking that I was wrong

I tell you what, you don't thank I know what guys are like?? I am a guy after all, I know what guys want, and its sad to se cute girls get hert becaus ther blind.

But you know what at lest I can say I tried, I tried to help you, I tried to protect you, but this comes with an obligation,

you HAVE to accept my help, it means nothing if you let lay there,

what good is somthing wen all it does is set on a table and collect dust

To those girls, to all girls, open your eyes, the guy that your with right now, thank really hard, I'm not trying to ruin any relationships but thank, what type of "man" is he??

I just don't understand I guess

mayby girls don't want love today, just a quicky and its over untill tomarow



(man I wrote a lot,...didn't expect that XD)

Loveless (curtis)
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do not give me any comments about this journal

Clubs


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~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10926735/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10926735/ Sat, 02 Dec 2006 15:39:49 PST
I still feel like crap!!
maybe its tha wether??
Were suposed to get like the worst winter, here, ever in like 40 years, but thats just what I heard from dad

My head still achs
I al...
I feel more and more tierd every day
I havent gone outside sence I got home from school wednsday(11/29//06---12/2/06) thats three days I've been here at home and havent even gon out on my porch
I used to love the snow, but now I really don't care for it

OMG my head herts

I feel all hot and dizzy

all I do is eat, get online and sleep now, I just woke up from a two hour nap.

ate some spegate, now I feel like sleeping again

I have a fever of 101F.....thats hot! i've never been this sick
am I going to be ok??
Its friggin freezing outside and only about 70 in here but I'm sweeting like a fat pig on the sun

I was suposed to go to the Docters today, but Dad totled the only working vehical we had, and the only one that can get thru all this snow shit

this is four days I've been sick
I think I lost one of my good friends
my best friend is mad at me
I found out that my first girlfriend is noe pregnent with a baby, and the "man" (little boy who is only 17) left her and toled her it wasen't his....FUCK THAT, hes the only one shes been with, unless its the reincarnation of Christ, its his!!

wow
I'm sweting but I'm freezing cold
What the hell?!?

well enough about this nonsence
you guys have a good weekend and happy hollidays


Clubs


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~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10919343/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10919343/ Fri, 01 Dec 2006 22:42:22 PST
1.]
While I hold your hand, I'll play with your fingers...

[ 2.]
Tickle you & make you laugh. ..

[ 3.]
Kiss you. ...

[ 4.]
And not only kiss you on the lips, but kiss you on the cheek and forehead too.

[ 5.]
Hold you by the waist....

[ 6.]
Hug you while I'm behind you and rest my head on your shoulder....

[ 7.]
Whisper I love you in your ear

[ 8.]
Tell you you're beautiful...

[ 9.]
Look you in the eyes and smile when I'm thinking...

[ 10.]
Tell you I never want to let you go....

[ 11.]
Come visit you while your sick (not just visit. but never leave your side, rent endless block busters, and make u as much chicken soup as ur lil heart desires , as well as bring you a hot rag to place on your head to make u feel better...)


[12.] If you cant sleep, hold you in my arms untill you do, and if u dont fall asleep, its just more time i get to spend with you.

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~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10901666/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10901666/ Thu, 30 Nov 2006 12:59:58 PST
Welcome to where time stands still
no one leaves and no one will
Moon is full, never seems to change
just labeled mentally deranged
Dream the same thing every night
I see our freedom in my sight
No locked doors, No windows barred
No things to make my brain seem scarred

Sleep my friend and you will see
that dream is my reality
They keep me locked up in this cage
can't they see it's why my brain says Rage

Sanitarium, leave me be
Sanitarium, just leave me alone

Build my fear of what's out there
and cannot breathe the open air
Whisper things into my brain
assuring me that I'm insane
They think our heads are in their hands
but violent use brings violent plans
Keep him tied, it makes him well
he's getting better, can't you tell?

No more can they keep us in
Listen, damn it, we will win
They see it right, they see it well
but they think this saves us from our hell

Sanitarium, leave me be
Sanitarium, just leave me alone
Sanitarium, just leave me alone

Fear of living on
natives getting restless now
Mutiny in the air
got some death to do
Mirror stares back hard
Kill, it's such a friendly word
seems the only way
for reaching out again

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~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10900871/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10900871/ Thu, 30 Nov 2006 11:39:39 PST
I hate the way you look at me..
I hate the way you laugh..
I hate it when you cry..
I'll hate it when you die..

I hate it how you played me..
I hate it how you let me free..
I hate it how you call the new boy your boyfriend..
I hate it that you have no clue..
But even more than all that I hate that I cant have you!

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~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10896149/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10896149/ Wed, 29 Nov 2006 22:00:52 PST
LOL LOL LOL LOL
Man I can't stop laughing!!hhahahahehehehe

FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NO, not again, what the fuck you stupid pice of shit you~!!!!
Holy crap.....no no I can't fucking do this, what the fuck!!!
hell no, not again, this won't happen again, no, not this time..I won't let it

If anyones gona do it, its gona be me!~!!!!

man how the fuck culd I not see this shit!!!??

3 feet in front of my face and I couldn't fucking see it.!!~
well you know what........FUCK OFF!!!!!
hell no hell no helllllllll fucking no!!

screw you BITCH!!!!

I'm fucking tired of you!!

I tried and tried and fucking tried but fuck no fuck off!!!!

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~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10895543/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10895543/ Wed, 29 Nov 2006 20:46:35 PST
HAHA the new CSS journal of Ka-tisu77








































haha I did it!!! I finaly didd it!!!!

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~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10892373/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10892373/ Wed, 29 Nov 2006 15:52:15 PST
I finaly got limewire!! *jumps with joy*
Now I can listin to whatever music I want to!!

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~aquaxfrost ]]> ~Ka-tisu77 http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10885599/ http://Ka-tisu77.deviantart.com/journal/10885599/ Wed, 29 Nov 2006 00:54:17 PST
To all those BETA TESTERS who got the css to work....Please halp!!
I don't get how to work this thing
this is what it says


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