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Wow it has been a loooooong time since I did a journal entry.

Sooo updates. We have a new roommate, soon to get another in october.
I made a new, awesome friend. Guess what, he's male! Bout time, been a while since I had a close male one ;_;

My illustration program has been great so far, though I already have lots of homework. Speaking of, finally uploaded my pictures from march XD Hope you all like!

My concept class is makin me do a journal, and I'm starting to warm up to the idea. Might be nice to have all my story ideas/drawing ideas/ poetry in one place.

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/24518471/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/24518471/ Thu, 30 Apr 2009 17:35:03 PDT "Fear can stop your love"
~
School year is done!
Lots happened this year.
I got into illustration, which means another 4 years of school. I'm now living in an apartment with other Sam. Looking for a job, and enjoying the summer break so far. Lots of my friends aren't coming back, and the ones that are mostly chose a different program than me. I think only two of my friends got into illustration.
It sucks, getting close to people only to see them leave. But I believe I made a lot of friends that I'll always keep in contact with.
Lately I've been decorating, blaring music, and getting back into all my new age stuff. <3
I can feel myself growing as a person, and I'm very happy with where my life is headed right now.

"Love can stop your fear"

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/23831458/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/23831458/ Sun, 22 Mar 2009 12:37:42 PDT *dances*
Randy comes tonight, and Kate tomorrow. I'm going to drag them to my GSA meeting.

Sorry I haven't uploaded any of my art, there is a lot I could put up but my favourites are too big to scan. Sam needs to find her camera again >: O

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/23568509/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/23568509/ Sat, 07 Mar 2009 04:54:05 PST ....
...
Pulled an all nighter working on it. Not even drawing! That was all done. No it took that long just to work out the order, get the positioning, glue them down, do a table of contents, do labels and glue thooose on, etc. etc. Not getting home til 12 kinda helped.

Now I have just found out that I made a mistake in the table of contents. Sooo I'll have to go print a new one. Then take off the old one, position the new one and glue it on.

Then it will be finished. *zombie stare*
Out of my hands, and hopefully will be enough to get me into the program.

Here's hoping!
*collapses on pillows*

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/22703356/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/22703356/ Tue, 20 Jan 2009 20:29:34 PST "This, my every passing look, into the deepest part of self, where I perceive the glory that you are to me."

For once, i like the ending :3 maybe I'm getting better at it. Dunno how, I definitely don't write poetry often enough. Tis fun.

Anyways, biiiiiiig update.
I have finally made the decision to apply for illustration. Tough stuff, especially since I'm behind. As for information, I think I'm caught up and know what to do now.
But maaan my portfolio is my main concern right now, it has invaded my mind and nags me constantly. XD probably a good thing though.

It was a tough decision though, one of my toughest. <3 Jade

I got good grades for my first semester at college. 3 Bs and 2 As. Not bad, and for some reason I can just feeeel that the quality of my work this semester is higher
Oo dunno how that happened, maybe I realllly needed that x-mas break.
Which, was awesome by the way. For the most part. Visiting my family was great, bonding time with mother=awesome.
Theeen I went to Connecticut and saw ma lover-poo. *insert sickeningly sweet couple talk*

I'm hoping to drag Kate to oakville soon, and move out of rez and into an apartment. Maybe get a kitty ;_; was one so bad. Even though I'm a dog person, I'll wait for a doggie...*sniffles*

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/20650035/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/20650035/ Wed, 24 Sep 2008 11:09:25 PDT
Well, I got into art college. I'm all settled I get Wednesdays off, which is nice. Usually ends up as a sleepin day, then do homework in the lat afternoon XD

My classes are great, though painting is a pain. Wish I could do watercolor instead.
I need to decorate my room more! I'm just glad the walls aren't entirely white, they have a subtle speckled pattern.
I miss home, bet of course I would. I'll fight with mom to let me have part of thanksgiving there and part with her.

I hear that in college you either get lazy and have take out and gain a bunch of weight, or you go the other way and forget to eat or are very cheap bout your food and lose a ton. I think my weight is staying the same XD

Me and my roomate get along great, but ofcourse one would hope so since I've known her from childhood. Suuuure we lost touch but we've picked things right back up again. *Shakes fist at her* She got me addicted to Supernatural.

I'm updating a bunch of stuff on here. My desktop pic, journal, maybe my photo and icon thingers. My info is already updated, will have to again when I turn....20! *gasp* in early novemeber.

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/18026793/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/18026793/ Fri, 25 Apr 2008 17:41:55 PDT
For those who don't know, I was accepted to Sheridan ^^ Will be attending this september. So strange, from the very beginning it was the college I always wanted to go to. Second biggest art college in Canada.
Ahhhhhhh *bragbragbrag* :3

Today was the best day, though ofcourse I miss Jadejade.
Was at her place for a few weeks, going back again in a week.

Back to my great day..........got an awesome biker jacket. Smooth black leather with tons of "character" :3
Finallt got a hold of an ancient copy of Aladdin. Man that took forever.

AND I got a crazy hardcore laptop. Turns out the type of comp I need for art school is the same type I need for online gaming-tons of memory and a great video card. >:3
I owe my grandma so much!! She rocks my mis-matched socks *nods* She spoils meh

"Love can stop your fear."

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/16322832/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/16322832/ Tue, 08 Jan 2008 21:53:49 PST
I think I understand better the term "the starving artist".

A metaphor not just for the man on the street with magic talent but no roof overhead.
Emotionally, physically, mentally it can starve you. People seem to think that the talented have it made. That is their ticket, their direction. They don't have to float and find a niche.

I am lucky in the sense that I have some artistic talent, that I have passion, that I have known all along that it is my dream-my goal-my height to reach for. I have something that consumes me, and that is for my whole life. It is not a flighty lover, it will stay with me and possess me for ever. It will always be with me.

Explain that to your mother, to your landlord, to the bank. Explain that to a government who needs you to support your woman before she can live in your country.

People see a piece and tell me every compliment in the book. Fabulous, beautiful, talented, amazing, whatever. I doodle at a minimum wage job and they look at me with incredulous eyes and literally ask "What are you doing here? Go sell that, go work off that!"
They look at me like some jem they want to polish and show off.
They think I'm humble but it is starting to turn into resentment. If only it was that easy just to take a talent, walk out the door, and turn it into nourishment and shelter.

It's my dream, and some day I'll do it. I'll live off my art. I'll show everyone, y'know? But until then I get everyone around me "expecting more", saying I need a stable income. Saying I need to move out on my own and get a real job. I've seen so many people give it all up, bury their talents in a mundane world. Bet you never guessed your bus driver could play beethoven. Lame I know, but so true. Seeign my closest friends settle for the lowest, with no hopes of better. Their amazing talent just a pleseant suprise that hides beneath the surface.
I admire the self control, but I can't live like that. I can't be that. Maybe I'm a landlord's worse nightmare. maybe I'm unreliable and difficult. But I will never stop and wonder where my will to live went. I will never feel like I sold my soul and my heart.

I'll find it. A way to live within this culture and reach my dreams.

And you know, I've been very very good with money. Work a month and live off the savings for 3 months after. Maybe I should stick to that. Work a little when I need to, then go back to my drawing. That's not so bad, is it? I like it that way, wish everyone else could accept it.

Anyone want to buy a print?

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/15405256/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/15405256/ Wed, 07 Nov 2007 11:52:39 PST And I am now a deviant subscriber, so I will be selling it on this site!!!!!!!!!
As well as buying a few myslf and selling them in local stores >:3

^____^
I didn't know you can mae calenders on here, so all my friends you better by one! >: O

And and I love my Jadey *huggles* Can't wait to tell her alllll about it. XD
AND Mike is coming today!! *cheers* Bout time ^^
AND I went out for lunch with Vall and Lindsay then to the mall with Lindsay *cheers again* ^^ Hadn't seen her in waaaaayy too long. Her hair is short I loves it.

OH! And MESSAGE FOR ALL
If you think an of my other art pieces should be sold as prints, please let me know. I have no clue which ones people would actually be willing to buy u.u

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/15256920/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/15256920/ Sun, 28 Oct 2007 11:32:00 PDT

One zodiac sign left! Havin trouble comin up with a background for Pisces u.u
2 of my Negative series left.

Went to a halloween party with Adem, got hit on by a guy in a pimp suit but Adem sorted him out. Otherwise boring, just watchin movies.

Have to make an appointment with doctor and publishers tomorrow, fun fun. Got paypal and had nuthin to use it for until I found out theres an anime site that accepts it. Bought P's yaoi shirt from there. Might get myself a hoodie and bag.

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/14991289/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/14991289/ Tue, 09 Oct 2007 20:02:44 PDT
Tired from work but happy from drawing XD
Treated myself to cottage cheese, special olives, chips, ummm what else. Something else.
Oh well, a suprise for me I guess.

OMG Jade says my name like kate says it!!!!!!!!!!!! *is on mic with her >.>*
Gettin my haircut tomorrow!

Can't think of anything else, too busy laughing. XD

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/14884223/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/14884223/ Tue, 02 Oct 2007 11:58:20 PDT
Second day I've woken up horribly nautious. Havin temperature fluctuations, sore, tired, and really bad headaches.

Other then that, things are ok. Slight amount of drama, but I cna just laugh it all off. No biggies. Why do I always feel ike dancing when I'm sick? u.u Maybe cuz I know I can't move arpund too much and it bugs me.

So I'm starting a new series, each will be titled with negative words. First in animosity, fear is next.

Completed Series:
Zodiac
Japanese Queens

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/14534010/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/14534010/ Fri, 07 Sep 2007 17:20:20 PDT .>

Work is tiring, and can be boring, but it fun too. I like all the people I work with, so that's awesome.

Still workin out my comp time mwith Misty >< So who knows when I'll be on.

More artwork on the way to my adoring fans!! (Jade >.> lol
Got asked out on a date by an asian boy tonight
Lmao didn't go though

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/14398956/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/14398956/ Wed, 29 Aug 2007 16:54:43 PDT
Btw, I'ma be workin from 8:30 to 4:30 this and next week. Cept for friday and the weekend. Don't know what my schedual will be like after that but for now I assume its weekdays at that time.

So....tired...and...sore.
8 hours on ma feet is ouchie ><

K, needed that time for complaining. All done!!

Okies, next...um...went away for a couple days to see Mom, my grandparents, and the kids. Yay Joy and Spencer are back ^^

My current plan-> Work (XD), save up and then maybe go in this program for teaching english in Japan where the only requirment is knowing english. After that year go to Sheridan for the one year fundamentals program.

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/13932801/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/13932801/ Sun, 29 Jul 2007 20:40:03 PDT <

I've never had anything that seemed like real insomnia before until the other night. I don't like it. o.O Staying up late is fun but not if you sit in bed and do nothing for 5 hours straight.
When I finally got to sleep I had a lucid dream, it was really weird. I couldn't tell if I was dreaming or not so I asked someone, and then I "passed out" in my dream. I could feel, hear, and see everything very clearly. The dream ended when they were taking me to the hospital for being mal-nourished and having anxiety attacks.

>.> I dun need one of those weird dream interpreters to tell me that I'm stressin too much and should relax.

Not worried though, things will be fine. It seems like everything that has happened since the weekend I spent with mom has been going up hill, all the bad things have been good wake-up calls. Some times you have to breakdown to go forward. ><

I'm ready for more responsibilities, I'm starting to get back to my old self. Anxiety, worrying too much can really warp your perception and how you do things.

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/13893708/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/13893708/ Thu, 26 Jul 2007 22:38:36 PDT Went to Wonderland with Natasha. Got sunburned on my shoulders and knees XD
We went on a lot of roller coasters though, funfun. Also went to the science center. Its been lots of fun and her parents want to adopt me, cuz I'm oh so cool. >.> I think its cuz I'm quiet. XD

Also finished the second of my Japanese Queens, and then did a new pic of characters I made 5 years ago ^^ As if I remember them o.o
Stupid Canada's Next Top Model, they only let the chick win cuz they liked her hair! -_- Shinead was much better. Jerks.

Cleaned the bathroom here yesterday! Lol the bathtub was difficult, took too long.
Oh okay Nat cleaned the sink, but I did the rest.

Have had about 18 missed calls. Finally the battery power was goin down so I turned it off.
Sorry Vall and Tiff, will talk to you when I go home Monday.
(Edited >.> )

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/13575198/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/13575198/ Mon, 02 Jul 2007 08:32:13 PDT

Went to a New Age seminar this weekend! *swoon* If you despise new Age do keep it to yourself you 3-D closed-minded....jerk! XD

Seems like the rest of the summer is getting filled up, Gonna visit Nat, go to a Women's retreat and sell art, go to Mom's, sell more art at a craft show, go home for when Xandur comes to visit, then go back to Mom's and visit grandparents coming up from Florida. ]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/12856856/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/12856856/ Sat, 05 May 2007 20:50:11 PDT
Jade and Nata haven't been on since I went on at 7 -_-

Strange how as you pass into new phases you pick up new friends. It can be so difficult meeting new people, starting anew and getting to know each other. Who knows how long it takes for the akwardness and for you to relaxe. That is what irritates me, feeling scared just beacuse someone is knew, and seeing it in theier eyes. And I get so sick of censoring what I say and constantly thinking of how the person must be perceiving me. After a while I just give up and become blunt-which is probably a good thing and I should just start that way. But its insecurity causes the fear in the beginning. Everyone gets a lil nervous when around a new person right? Sure.
Uhhh random rant >>
It's nice too, having new people in your life. They are free from the prejudice of knowing past mistakes. Knowing someone for a long time can unfortunately make you assume they stay the same. I love talking to the new people in my life, they're awesome. And I still have those close friends that will always be in my life.

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/12796570/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/12796570/ Mon, 30 Apr 2007 21:31:27 PDT
Haven't been getting up early enough to work on my manga in the mornings when its my time on the good comp. And weekends P has been bribing me into givin her my time at night. Hehe

Getting Reiki lessons soon, also got some projects from my trip to the cafe.
I feel like I have a lot of work to do but when I break it down its not much at all.

Been trying to get ahold of kate and can't *cries*

Been talking to Nata and Jade more then anybody else lately, its the best. *mood suddenly swings up again as I hug them both*
Yay talkin to Natanatnat right now.

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/12682024/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/12682024/ Sat, 21 Apr 2007 15:15:56 PDT Met Natnat, had her sleep over. (woo)
Ummm not playin WoW much anymore. Might start selling artwork in a cafe.
Mom's away for the weekend so I have invaded her house. Not gonna mention a certain someone who has reappered in moi life, so far nothin has happened between her and I-hope it stays that way.
Had two people fighting last night over me, they were trying to convince the OTHER to date me. Dunno if I should feel special or not >>
Weird day on thursday, P and I went to the mall with Nat and we came back to find her sisters ex in the house. He annoyed me a lot and I yelled for him to go home but he wouldn't. Jerk

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/12237885/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/12237885/ Sun, 18 Mar 2007 20:15:38 PDT
Last time I worled on it there trhe computer froze and I lost 4 hours of work. Le cry. Don't tell me, I should have saved. Well I learned my lesson!!

Anyway. Hi Cal, I know you're reading this! Right? You better be or I look silly right now. o.O
Anyway hi, right now I wanna jump up and fly overthere. Spread some imaginary wings and set down right on your roof. Hope you don't mind. ^_^

So a certain someone's sister has become a huge fan of Stephenie Meyer's book, all because of moi. And how did I discover the wonderful book? Why Lindsay introduced me. I love you Lindsay! Did you know the third book is comin out in sept and a movie is comin too? Aaaand I've got some canvas now and I'm going to paint Edwarsd, Bella, Alice, Jasper, Rose, and Emmett. May be Jacob too, haven't decided.

If you can't tell, I'm in a fabulous mood.

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/11310826/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/11310826/ Thu, 04 Jan 2007 08:29:33 PST Now I'll stop before I go on and on about it.

I miss Aka-chan, I haven't talked to her enough. Ello if you're reading this.

The holidays were good, I got oriental stuff. P's family is funny.

I'm more then half done inking Pirouettes, I'll be scanning it soon.

Mom is moving soon. Everytime I move it makes the chimes go off.
I've been talking in my sleep lately. That's about it.

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/10826500/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/10826500/ Thu, 23 Nov 2006 18:21:13 PST
~~~~~~
List twenty odd facts about yourself, then tag a friend or two to do the same.

1. I like heights.
2. I now know that I really like school, more then graduating. Working sucks, it doesn't stimulate the mind enough.
3. I hate ham more then I hate chocolate, but most remember ham because me not liking much chocolate is so "weird".
4. I used to love strawberries, but I don't like them as much now.
5. I have an eating problem. I never eat, but it isin't anorexia because I have no problem gaining some weight, infact I'm trying really hard to.
6. I've changed dramatically in the last two years.
7. I like black cherry vanilla coke, but I hate any other cola.
8. I'm obssessed with many things. Neptune, 11, huskies, greek mythology, anything japanese, and bottles.
9. When I think I randomly stick in japanese or french words, sometimes I think in accents.
10. I don't practice what I preach.
11. I really like socks, yet I can't sleep in them.
12. I've been buyng lolita style clothes lately.
13. I'll get bored of one of my friends randomly, with a few exceptions.
14. I can handle huge problems perfectly well, but some little things throw me off the deep end.
15. I got a huskey stuffie for my b-day named Hammy, and it was my favourite gift. I don't think christmas can beat it.
16. I like plaid.
17. I'm bad for quiting jobs.
18. I have an intense curiousity about people, I can't get enough. I want to know how they think.
19. I'm secretly very jealous and possessive.
20. I love scents, I'm sensitive to them. I never where anything too scented though, because it takes away from the scents around me.

Aka-chan, I read all yours and laughed when you said "I'm very very uninteresting", cuz everything beforehand was interesting. You confuse me

Vall and Lindsay! You now.

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/10425235/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/10425235/ Tue, 17 Oct 2006 15:59:38 PDT
Page 17 of 22, Pirouettes is almost done being drawn. I hope inking doesn't take so long, I know toning it will take forever.

I got Leaf Green the other day, I was playing it at Adam's and being really silly. It was nice, even though Adam and I aren't getting along as well as usual.

Ling-ling has been really helpful this week, giving me lots of tips for getting a job. He is doing a lot for me. He had a headache though today, and said he wanted to go back to bartending. Poor guy.
I've been to the school a lot this week, I'm goin back thursday because I have a dentist appointment tomorrow. It was nice seeing everyone again, I didn't realize how much I missed the social interaction of school.

A friend of mine is on his way to teaching english in Japan. I think I would rather do that then go to art college right away, I'll pursue art after I get there. I forgot that was what I wanted to do, many people expect me to go to college soon.

I've been having trouble breathing when I get stressed so I've started meditating everyday. It fixes it completely.

*hums the I'm your Japanese Queen chorus*

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/10165753/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/10165753/ Sat, 23 Sep 2006 19:50:52 PDT Adem's b-day party today. Kate, Tom-tom, and I decorated his room with insane amounts of purple. He's been odd lately.
Mmm red apple green tea... au ginseng ^_^
It hurts to sneeze again, stupid throat.
Page 14 done of Pirouettes.
I want to wirte more but I've been drawing and playing video games too much.
I want to burn a CD but ionno who's computer I can use.
So anyway...that's about it. I might be visiting Widd every once and a while. I may visit Chipp or Northern too.
...
Ja.
*Waves*

]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/9716568/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/9716568/ Sun, 13 Aug 2006 18:28:50 PDT I beleive that is true honesty, but it is an ideal I can't live to yet.
Is it possible to be totally and completely honest with someone?
Is there anyone who can say absolutely anything to another person?

Can you speak of every weakness, every thought, all you secrets? Can you admit when you have thought negatively about the person (its bound to happen), can you admit all your feelings for them? Everything lame, unreasonable, and foolish?

I think it requires not only extreme trust, but strength of character. You need really tough skin to take the true amount of negativity that another person feels. But I'm wondering that if you have enough trust...it will not be negative, just truthful. Either the two people can work out the persons negative feeling so they no longer feel it, they can accept it as advice, or just accept it and move on.

I would love to have a relationship like that...but it must be hard to come by. I have the love for such a friendship...but not quite enough confidence. I have a very healthy love for myself, but thats not enough.
I'm hoping that we could have a more honest friendship with a close friend of mine. She is brutally honest, and she is often seen negatively for it. But I never see it as negative. Others think she sometimes treats people badly, but she doesn't. She just has the strength to be honest and true to herself. I admire that in her.
I am sometimes that coldly honest, depending on the person, but at other times I'm sweet and secretive about my true feelings and intentions. Others see it as such a positive thing that I'm so nice, but it can be a bad trait-it is not my true opinions.
I think that if your opinion is asked, it is better to be honest. But no one is so perfect...small lies make simple conversation a lot easier, when its not important I often lie. Which can be weak, in my eyes.
I also think it is possible to be beyond brutal honesty...where it becomes negative. That is using honesty with an intent and tone to hurt the other person. I think honesty is always good, as long as your only intention is only to be honest.
I think if you are strong enough...your weaknesses aren't your weaknesses anymore. If you have enough confidence, and faith in yourself..it won't matter if everyone knows everything about you...because you know yourself. You are proud of your good qualities and you are fixing your bad...you have accepted who you are and are completely comfortable with it. It is possible to be immune to insult, and I strive to be that way. ]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/9660273/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/9660273/ Wed, 09 Aug 2006 07:21:53 PDT I just finished page 8 of my manga colaberation with Lindsay. No inking yet, thats for when I'm done drawing it all. I'm not sure how I'm going to scan it...the pages are pretty big. I'll have to go piece by piece. Then I have to add screentone, print it all out again, and photocopy it.
Then I'll send it to Tokyopop.
Heh...I'm done allll of the zodiac signs other then Sagittarius...maybe I'm all zodiac burned out. I can't seem to get the last one done. Or its from the excitement if makin Pirouettes and moving out. It feels like theres not enough time in a day.
I went to Lace's house the other day for a party. Her family is awesome. I got along with her boyfriend too, I'm happy for them.
I had some wine in a slushy, it was at 22%. then I added somethin else later...it was 40%. Each was like...one quarter of the cup. I didn't really have much of a reaction other then feeling warm. Vall says its cuz I take alcohol well. If thats the case...go me? The wine was yummy, but I still prefer non-alcoholic drinks -_- they taste better.
BTW the name of my journal entry is the name of a manga I downloaded and read, it is now one of my favourites...I wanna write one just like it. ]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/9471920/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/9471920/ Sun, 23 Jul 2006 20:13:43 PDT Well I wish I could
I got some stuff done but not much. P-san has me tryin out oekaki now. I have one photoshop pic on the go of Kirby-angel.

I might be movin out soon. *Dies from anticipation*
Can't wait ^_____^

Some people are against where I'm goin but thats barely worth mentioning other then to go HA silly people. So there, done.

*Music vibrations from downstairs* Bye people downstairs, bye crappy comp, bye Xena*sniff*, bye small room, oh and bye family. ]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/9286562/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/9286562/ Wed, 05 Jul 2006 22:01:14 PDT
I just finished watching a movie called Waking Life. Ionno whos seen or heard of it. I got introduced to it through Ling-ling, he had shown my art philosoply class a clip from it.
It was really intersting, I don't think I recommend it to everyone though. Its a thinking movie and if you don't keep up its pretty boring.
It was full of many philosophical theories on just about everything, though the main theme was dreaming. One idea was particularly interesting to me. A woman said that it is impossible to communicate properly, to completely connect. Which I beleive is true but she took it even furtther saying that any feeling we are feeling cannot be expressed to another person. Words have many meanings to different people. Images have different symbolic meanings and invoke different feelings and memories. She said that there are dar more things that simply cannot be explained and thus cannot be understood. No one can undersatnd an experience you have and what communication we have is fragile and often useless.
Pretty depressing. I think it is partially true, but I also think that people can understand you in a broader sense. Yes, they will never no your exact feelings, but they are human and so we share basic emotions. We can understand each other to an extent.
Is that why people, especially teens, flip out about being missunderstood? They cannot express what they are experiencing, as they find out who they are they try to reach out and explain to others. I'm sure everyone has felt that, where they experience something and want to share how they feel but can't make someone understand. Frustrating, but sometimes can't be helped.

Another part of the movie was when the guy was walking and passed by a girl, they said hi and kept walking. Suddenly she ran back and stopped him. She said that she was sick of acting like an ant, going to her destination, getting what she needed, and returning home. She didn't want to pass by a stranger that could offer her a genuine human experience. She went on about her metaphor and the lack of human interaction, how one could pass by someone, and the opprotunity to have a moment with that person. I guess you have to be in a big city to really understand what she was talking about. She was extremely bothered by the distance between her and strangers.
Have you ever wanted to stop a total stranger and introduce yourself? Have you ever looked at someone and wondered who they really were?

Ionno...just thinkin. If anyone read all that then good for you, you must be bored (like me). ]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/9255440/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/9255440/ Sun, 02 Jul 2006 22:17:48 PDT I'm done all the zodiac signs but Aries. Yumm vall gave me a Free-toe.
Kate downloaded Imesh, so now I have lots of VNV Nation and Within Temptation.

...The windows were left open and now there are SO many bugs. ]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/9087724/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/9087724/ Fri, 16 Jun 2006 13:42:22 PDT Last day of school is OVER. I got all my work done and in, I got my tickets for grad, and I did my presentation no problem. Sugoi ^_^
I have two exams next week but I'm not worried. I'm just happy that my homework is done and I can draw whatever I want.
I wrote another poem, everybody run. All my drawing energy was being used up so I thought I would express myself through writing.
Anyway, I am so releived that the school day is done. I skipped out on the presentation during third. turns out the teacher that received my drawing thanked me in front of the whole school, and I wasn't even there. Bahaha. Oh well. ]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/9077554/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/9077554/ Thu, 15 Jun 2006 13:39:44 PDT I really should be working on all the art stuff I have to do...I think I'm avoiding it. Bad samsam.
Which reminds me, why the heck is everyone calling me Sammy? Its weird, I only let close people call me Sammy cuz it seems very affectionate to me(don't worry Aka-chan, I don't mind when you call me Sammy). Just a little rant there. I've corrected a few people-"Its Sam dammit, not Sammy" but I know its useless to tell certain people. Like Caprina. She randomly calls me Sammy and I don't think I can get her to stop. Maybe I just won't answet to it, mahahaha Jerk.
(Is obviously still avoiding her art homework).
Wahhh everything is changing, grade 12 is ovvveeerrrr. Everyone is graduating or leaving. I'll miss people. Some. A little. For others..."Goodbye forever" (like I said in Kara's yearbook signy thingy, mahaha o.O)
Oh, the title of this journal refers to a joke I heard on t.v. I know you were curious..... ]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/8960344/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/8960344/ Sat, 03 Jun 2006 14:50:21 PDT oh. I JUST found a flower that Vall left here yesterday. Its a white and purple carnation. Random. I'm not a huge flower fan but they can be uplifting. *pets it*

New quote- "There will be plenty of action behind the scenes. Observe what everyone else is doing so that you are able to surpass even your toughest competition."
I like it. ]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/8838226/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/8838226/ Thu, 25 May 2006 06:21:14 PDT I'm done Vall's pics.
I've started drawing Zodiac signs and working on Pirouettes(Lindsay's story).
I'm also doing some costume designs for Jasmine and a portrait of Vall's friend.
Oh and I'm doing a cartoon for the funeral director guy.

Thanks to all who have helped me get through stuff lately. I'm doin well so far. ]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/8654684/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/8654684/ Tue, 02 May 2006 17:33:05 PDT My comp is broken again. So we're finally gonna get a new one. Until then I probably won't be posting much art.
Also, because of the lack of photoshop and scanner, I will be colouring the characters for Vall with ink.
Art trip on Friday. Should be funfun.
Social stuff is alright. It seems I've been the object of some people's affections lately. Yay. (sarcasm)
Vall and Chels are moving in this month. Adam is moving out in two months. Wheee.
I'm still waiting for the results from the x-ray. My back is feeling better though so it can't be too bad right? Right. ]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/8476979/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/8476979/ Sat, 15 Apr 2006 08:42:59 PDT So I have to drawings I'm doing for other people. One of them is another for Aka-chan, it should be oh so interesting when its done. I also have a drawing idea thats just for myself.
My/Lindsay's ballet manga is still lurking in the back of my head. I wanna work on it so bad. I was having a drawing block the other day and so I worked on some character sketches for it but I don't like them. Probably because I drew them during a drawing block
Oh and heres a random little tidbit: I saw the northern lights last night. Stupid light polution...I could only see green light.

Oh, and to explain the titles of my journal...I just put what my msn name is at the time. My back has been hurting all week and I've been sneezing a lot lately. For those who haven't seen me sneeze...I bend over every time so now it freakin hurts cuz of my back. I have to wait till tuesday to see a chairopracter. Ah well I'll just try not to sneeze or lean much. ]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/8357756/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/8357756/ Mon, 03 Apr 2006 19:58:01 PDT All my buddies have been nice lately, which is good-less stress. I got my latest Shoujo magazine in the mail today and haven't been able to read it. I've been busy watching Memoirs of a Geisha and trying to download Photoshop CS2. I also got a book today that I want to start reading but haven't been able to even glance at it yet. I'm up late so I'll be tired tomorrow, woo.
SO yeah, just another update. WHo reads these things anyway? ]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/8273700/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/8273700/ Sun, 26 Mar 2006 10:47:31 PST Anyway, I'm getting ahead of myslelf. My painting is coming along well. I'm done the main stuff, now I'm working on the background. Unfortunately I went crazy with the hair, doing all the little detials, so now that I'm doing the background its hard to get around and imbetween the hair. Ling-ling(my nickname for my art teacher) says that I should have done the background first but I don't beleive him. I don't think the colour would have turned out as nice if I put it ontop of the green background. I'm inexprienced with oil paint and whenever I put a colour ontop of a very different colour it messes up and sumdges and gets streaks of the colour underneith and grrrrr. As shown by the tree trunk. I changed the colour of the tree from a bright brown to a more mixed dark brown and theres streaks of the under brown. It looks ok because its a tree and tehy're only shades of brown but I think the hair would have turned out horrible. Unless ofcourse I let the background dry before doing the hair (XD) but it's oil paint so it would have taken waaay to long so too bad. The background has many layers of paint because the colour is a weird light forest-grey green. Its hard to recreate that colour and theres supposed to be different levels of leaf blades and stuff so it would have taken a long time to dry.
Anyway, who cares about my painting...on to my new projects (like I didn't have enough to do). Since my drawing/painting energy has been all used up my new provects happen to be writing. When I'm tired of drawing and everything I draw turns out like crap cuz I've been drawing too much, heh, I've been writing poetry. Which hopefully help me with my short story skills, for both stories and poetry I can't seem mto end it. Though poetry is easier that way. I'm workin on my third now. I have to toughen up my skin if I'm going to submit them though. I can't be self-concious of my poetry because I'll probably be getting some rough criticism -_-
I'm also working on a manga (gasp!). I got a short story from a friend of mine. It's an awesome story, by the way. She gave me freedom to do whatever I want with her story. Which is nice, but I'm going to keep it mostly word for word. I'm too bust to draw it out but I've rewritten the story so that dialogue and scenery are seperated. Then I wrote out panel for panel what I'm going to do. All thats left is the drawing. I looked up rules for submitting manga to tokyopop and they're pretty strict. I can only send them 6 pages and they have to be a certain size and such. Theres also a form I have to fill out and legal papers I have to print and sign.
Thats about it. I think my "update" here was bigger then the previous journal entry. o.O ]]> ~Kaiousei-megami http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/8248692/ http://Kaiousei-megami.deviantart.com/journal/8248692/ Thu, 23 Mar 2006 17:39:54 PST I shall take the time now to thank all the people who helped my creative process. Character creation is tough. Those people include Vall(obviously), Kate, Adem, Penguin, Tiefling, and Chels(if I've neglected anyone, please tell me). I would also like to thank Aka-chan for her support, she didn't want to influence my art but she encouraged me. (I'll work on Moondance and perhaps Puppet as soon as I'm done).
I'm also working on a painting for Art, so my drawing time is all used up for now. I should be done...eventually. Not too long I hope. ]]> ~Kaiousei-megami