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What do you think?

Maybe when I start updating again regularly, I'll need to find a way to host my own.

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/21376124/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/21376124/ Fri, 07 Nov 2008 16:56:16 PST
First, what was I hoping to accomplish? The successful PC alarm clock makes the best use out of existing software rather than having to install other stuff, does its thing without having to be "turned on" every evening before bed, and is "mute proof" (able to turn the system volume on).

The first item needed is NirCmd. The command "nircmd.exe mutesysvolume 0" will turn the volume on. I put nircmd.exe in a folder and created a new batch file with this line.

The second item needed is the ability to play an MP3 from the command line. In Windows, this can be pretty easy and it opens in the default player ... just type in the path to an MP3 file. I have iTunes, and opening an MP3 also copies it to the library (behavior that you can change, but I don't want to just for this), so I made a shortcut file to an MP3 file in my library, and then put the shortcut file in the same location as the batch file and nircmd.exe. Then I added the shortcut's filename to the batch file.

nircmd.exe mutesysvolume 0
s39.lnk

Of course, there are many options and many ways to open a specific MP3, random MP3, or a playlist in various MP3 players. The shortcut worked well enough for me, so I kept it simple.

The third item needed is a scheduler. Windows comes with a task scheduler that's like Unix "cron" but ... ya know ... more Windows-ish.

You can schedule tasks through nircmd.exe, but if you go to program files, accessories, system tools, task scheduler, you can create a scheduled task to run the batch file every weekday morning at a specified time (or any of the other basic options for recurrence). Then just make sure that the computer has power enough to last through the night, and the next morning, the alarm will go off.



So... why? Well, I used to have problems waking up for work. It wasn't every day, it wasn't even very often, but it seems that no one else ever forgets to set their alarm clock and I was forgetting about twice a year. That was too often. So I became much more careful about remembering.

Then I got a Zaurus PDA with a pretty nifty alarm clock app on it. All I had to do was set it once and then make sure that the system's alarm volume wasn't muted and I was able to get multiple alarms every morning that were pretty much idiot-(me)-proof.

Well, I switched to a newer Zaurus PDA and it had some issues with its alarm scheduler. I got out of the habit of using the Zaurus alarm, and started to use the alarm on my cellphone, which was also pretty good. It would come on loudly even if the phone was on vibrate (which it usually is because of work).

Eventually I got my Sony Vaio UMPC (which I'm using right now), and I didn't use a PDA anymore because that was just silly. And I traded the cellphone for a newer one, and it's alarm program just sucks. If the phone's on vibrate, the alarm is on vibrate, and it only alarms for a short time and then it dies. It's annoying when it wakes you up, and annoying if you don't turn it off in time, and easy to miss because the phone's always on vibrate.

So ... the ideal solution is to make my Vaio a programmable alarm clock. And now I have done so. And there shall be much rejoicing. Of course, I'll keep setting my main alarm clock before I go to bed, but now I have the backup option that I need.

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/20996058/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/20996058/ Wed, 15 Oct 2008 03:05:35 PDT
]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/20646465/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/20646465/ Wed, 24 Sep 2008 04:51:42 PDT
I think it is because if no one can function while being deliberately inconsistent, and that creates resistance against seeing the inconsistencies. I'm not saying that I'm consistent in everything I do, and there are probably many ways that I am inconsistent and unaware. But I do hope those inconsistencies will become visible to me at some point and I'll be able to correct them.

Here's one that's been bothering me lately. The whole America's Financial Sector Sucks issue that began early this week. And now the Executive Branch is trying to bail out the financial sector. But Congress is asking for safeguards against CEOs leaving those doomed companies with "golden parachutes" (why do we always have to use such awful cliches? A parachute made out of gold would cause devastating failure and death to the jumper).

Well...

I don't know where I stand on the "bail out" proposal. I'm not an investor and I don't have an economics degree. I think the best course of action is not to poll congressmen, but to poll economics professors and economics experts who are NOT ranking leaders in any major investment firm. Whatever the majority of them favor, that's what Congress should do. That's who will know the answer and who will collectively (not individually) have the least personal bias.

But the inconsistency that I'm talking about is the golden parachute language. If we do anything other than nothing, it's already the so-called golden parachute. It seems hard to believe that there can be blame with any specific individuals (if so, they would already be named). It's corporate policies that are causing the problems. All corporations are at least somewhat corrupt. It's how you do business. If you sold all of your items for what they were worth, you'd never make any money. You have to make a profit. Other businesses assume you are making a profit, but no one ever tells anyone what that profit is, how they accomplished that margin, and what they did to separate themselves from the competition. All of this is "a healthy corruption", I guess. So who's to say when this business scheme goes too far? It's hard to figure that out until damage starts to occur and by then, as history has shown with Enron and the like, it's already too late.

These businesses have already failed, right? If not, they wouldn't be needing government help. So we, taxpayers, are going to be supporting entities that are already to blame. It may or may not be a moral blame (tisk tisk, you should have known better), but at the very least it's a fact-of-life blame (natural selection, survival of the fittest, you just didn't cut it in the business world). Any action at all is handing them benefits that they don't deserve.

The only reason to do such an action is to cause a benefit to the market, the economy, and the nation as a whole. But still, it is an action that will unfairly benefit those people who made the problem. You can't avoid that if you do any bailing out at all.

It's also an issue of inconsistency when you say you respect the Secretary of the Treasury but then don't listen to his recommendations. This guy is beating this thing hard because he's sold out in his belief that it is the remedy we need. If you lawmakers respect him, then you'd respect his recommendations.

Again, I can't say that I respect him because I don't know him, but they do (or at least more than I do). I probably know less than the average American what the right plan should be, but at the very least the right course of action is about what will work for the nation, and the entire global economy, and not a bunch of emotionally driven inconsistencies and blame-pointing. We have a problem, we figure out what the most elegant solution to the problem is, we implement the fix. That's all there needs to be to it.

Stupid politics.

Makes me think of those Nextel commercials that pose the question ... "What if firemen ran government?" I'd sure like to see more firemen-types in government right now.

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/14685045/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/14685045/ Tue, 18 Sep 2007 09:10:33 PDT 3APD homepage

Episode 002 - New is live! I still have to update the design of the homepage. I'm such a slacker.

Let me know what you think?

Hopefully on September 30th I'll upload the new version of Episode 003. I think Episode 004 will be the end of Jack's first arc so I will cut over to new content -- Episode 080! It's been awhile since the story progressed, eh?

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/14462932/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/14462932/ Sun, 02 Sep 2007 22:05:31 PDT here and I hope to have the next update done on September 16th.

The storyline should extend through more than 700 episodes that span three books, which all have their own specific fights to face. The first book details Jack's journey of self-discovery as a super hero. The second introduces the main conflict that is coming and deals with Jack's efforts to fight against the people who don't accept him and don't believe his warning, and his attempts to ready defenses and build an army to prepare for the upcoming fight. The third book finishes the series by having him fight the battle he's prepared for this entire trilogy.

Yes, aliens are a plot device. It's really about a collection of other things. Probably the main idea I hope to convey is you can make your characters real, with real weaknesses and very real failures, and still have the story be exciting. It's clear by watching any action movie like the Bond series, the Bourne series, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, and many more that they think success is what makes the story popular. Well what if the hero fails, and I mean fails in a BIG way, as in the only object of the mission is this one little goal, and he not only fails at that goal but also manages to be directly responsible for the death an innocent? What would Superman do if that happened? We know what he'd do, he'd turn back time on the earth and still manage to save the girlfriend from death. In my comic, there won't be magic ways to save the day after all hope is lost. This isn't to say Jack won't be successful at all by the end of the war, but my goal is to more clearly than ever portray his journey as one with real danger to himself and to others, real possibilities of failure, and that it's not just luck and a warrior spirit that gets him to the end of the war alive.

At least for now I plan on using this journal as a place for more in-depth 3APD information. If you want to discuss 3APD, you are invited to use the journal forum. If you want to chat with me (I'm not around much, but always idling) then try logging on to my IRC chat room at [link] in the room #3apd and feel free to leave a message. Also, I love receiving emails. There's a link somewhere in dA to my email address, and you can also find my email address on 3APD's homepage.

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/14173713/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/14173713/ Wed, 15 Aug 2007 01:13:54 PDT
You know you wouldn't think it'd be that hard, but it is. I love taking salad to work but I don't love fixing salads every night. All the chopping and tossing and throwing away of stems and end portions ... it gets unjoyful fast.

So the first thing I do is grab styrofoam plates. Paper plates get soggy and plastic bags will cause your greens to stick to the plastic and by Friday you'll see that nasty soggy rot stuff on them. So, start with your good 'ole polystyrene plates. Get one for each working day.

Divide your greens into each day's portion on the plates. Then add any "dry salad" ingredients you have. The following vegetables can go right on the plates with the greens. You can chop them up as needed and they will still be okay a week later.

green, red, yellow peppers
onions, red onions
green onions
radishes
carrots
pea pods
button mushrooms
sprouts
olives (green, black, kalamata, etc -- if from a can, drain as much water as possible)
baby corn
cabbage, red cabbage
broccoli
cauliflower
unsliced cherry or grape tomatoes
dried fruit (cherries, etc)
(and more)

If you want your salad to have meat or protein ingredients (ham, turkey, chicken, pepperoni egg, etc), you can add these things with the dry salad ingredients. Or you can keep them separate and add them each day. I like those little packets of lunch meat.

So all these things can go into the salad on Saturday before your work week. But a dry salad is pretty boring, so I like to add tomatoes and some wet vegetables too. What I do with those is chop them up on Saturday and put them into plastic baggies with some salad dressing. This marinates the wet vegetables and they have more taste during the work week. Here are some things that I will put in with the tomatoes and dressing.

sliced roma, vine ripe, hydroponic, or regular tomatoes
pickles
canned pickled yellow peppers
giardinara (pickled vegetables)
roasted red peppers (you can buy these in jars and they are wonderful)
(and more)

If you get a wet dressing like ceaser, italian, or greek, you can put it in with the wet vegetables in baggies. If you want to use ranch, thousand island, or any creamy dressing, you probably should bring a bottle of it with you to work and leave it in the fridge if you have one available. Otherwise, you can find small plastic containers. Check the baby section of a local store that sells baby clothes and stuff. They probably have a set of containers that hold only a few ounces. These work well.

Cheese can be tricky. Feta cheese is the best because it has a lot of flavor and you can add it right onto the plate with the greens. I prefer to get the uncrumbled kind and crumble it myself. The popular soft cheeses like cheddar, mozz, jack, and colby will melt if you put them in with the greens, so if you buy shredded cheeses in the bag you can try putting them on the plate but off to the side or use a separate container like another plastic baggie. I kind of like buying individually wrapped cheese snacks like string cheese and then putting that on the salad the day of.

Cucumber is one salad ingredient that's caused me issues in the past. I have learned how to handle cucumber in a way that will keep it "fresh enough" for a week. 1) Avoid cutting it any more than necessary until the last second and 2) place plastic wrap over the fresh cut to seal it and then wrap the cut pieces well.

What I will do is take smaller cucumbers, with the goal of having 2 or 3 of them feed me for a week, and cut off a hunk of the first one for Monday. Then take a piece of plastic wrap and place it directly over the sliced edge. Stick it down and wrap it around the cucumber. It's the same procedure as how you seal up a bowl with wrap. You draw it tight over the opening. We want to avoid disturbing this cut section any more than is necessary. Wrap more plastic around the cucumber so that the seal stays put. Do this with the remaining portion of the cucumber as well. You can either slice the cucumber in the morning before work or slice it at work at lunchtime. So all you have to do to prepare lunch for the following day is every night make sure you have a new cucumber hunk. By Friday, your cucumbers will still be pretty fresh. If possible, keep them in the fridge in a colder section, but not so cold that they freeze.

There's a greek restaurant in Detroit called Opa Opa which puts pickled beets on its salads. That's pretty tasty. I would imagine you'd want to keep beets separate because they would stain any ingredient they are kept with. I don't know about you, but that'd bother me. If not, you probably could put the beets on the plate with the greens, but off to the side,... ]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/14012275/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/14012275/ Sat, 04 Aug 2007 08:16:27 PDT this picture and its comments will help you out. I detailed the Zaurus specs and my setup on it.

It's cool to have a PDA that does almost all a big computer can do. I'm away from home often, so this is actually better than a laptop, since I can take it with me all the time, and it's on hand if I find myself with unexpected down-time.

I'll still use my iPod for media playing, because that's what it's good for. Compared to the Zaurus, it's still pretty small. The bonus of getting the small USB 120GB HDD is it's currently the biggest hard drive I have anywhere, so I can back up ALL of my files on it.

What do you do with a PDA like that? Well ...

PIM: Address book, schedule, journal, a way to jot down notes and keep everything I need to remember all in one place, available whether I'm at home, at work, or somewhere in between.

Games: Space Trader on the QPOSE (qtopia palm operating system emulator)
SNES9X, NES, and other console games (Chrono Trigger is the only one that matters to me)
Solitaire for when I am bored and in the mode for something mindless
Nethack for when I'm in the mood for adventuring

Graphics: GIMP, a full blown version

Development: Java 1.3 compiler and runtime environment, also jeode mini Java environment for running other apps I've created -- it's Java 1.1 compliant, which is pretty limited. I'm a Java programmer, so this is how I plan to continue development of a 2 player strategy game I've been working on. I have wanted to have the ability to draw and edit sprites for it on the same PDA that I'm using to develop the code for it, and now with the help of GIMP, I can do that.

So overall ... it was a very nice use of the mandatory overtime money that I've been getting lately as compensation for working more hours than I want to.

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/13632216/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/13632216/ Fri, 06 Jul 2007 09:31:26 PDT
I've learned how to do long exposure shots. Now I kind of wish I had chosen the 10x optical zoom Nikon instead of the Nikon P5000 high iso one. I assumed I could add a zoom lens to my camera and it'd be just like having high iso + good zoom. Problem is ... I haven't quite got the hang of my new lens. The camera has a hard time focusing with it. Too bad my silly point and shoot camera doesn't offer manual focus. The auto focus works great ... usually. But when it doesn't, I wish I could just fix it. I've come up with a few tricks that help, but when you are trying to photograph a bird you are too rushed to get the photo before the bird flies away to be dinking with the camera.

So what I'm saying is even though it's "point and shoot" ... it's really anything but.

I found the cheapest Nikon dSLR is about half as expensive as I thought it was. I could have afforded one. I could still afford one now ... but I'm starting to collect digital cameras like they were baseball cards and it's a bit ridiculous when my gallery gets so little traffic.

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/13317722/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/13317722/ Tue, 12 Jun 2007 14:31:34 PDT
Here are all of my flowers, in descending chronological order ( indicates one of my personal favorites):

(daisy) (pink)
(lilly) (iris)
(pansy) (iris)
(violet) (wild strawberry)
(yellow daisies) (lilac)
(trillium) (grape hyacinth)
(lilac) (apple blossom)
(lilac) http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/13257431/ Thu, 07 Jun 2007 20:13:12 PDT
Don't let the name "sorbet" fool you, this is really a recipe for frozen fruity goodness that's nicely portable.

1 lb bag frozen peaches
approx one third bag frozen red raspberries
3 fresh kiwi
1/2 cup sugar
1 small package peach Jell-O
1 cup ice water
1 cup boiling water

Mix Jell-O with boiling water until dissolved, add sugar and stir until dissolved. Add ice water and stir until ice melts.

Puree the frozen and fresh fruit together and add to gelatin mixture.

Place in a shallow dish (example, 9x13 glass baking dish), freeze until partially frozen. Blend or chop mixture, then place in a loaf pan and freeze until solid.

My plan is freezing the mix in baggies to make them portable for breakfast. Not sure how that's going to turn out yet. The partially frozen mixture is very tasty.

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/13166109/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/13166109/ Thu, 31 May 2007 16:01:02 PDT
The following statements should be considered hypothetical. My purpose for making the statements is not to debate with people who believe differently but to expose inconsistencies that people have in their opinion concerning God.

If you disagree with any of these points but your argument against it doesn't create an inconsistency in your beliefs, then great. Go and be happy without any worry that I'm judging you. Please believe differently than me. If it works for you, there shouldn't be any person who has any problems with that.

But if you happen to read what is written here and your only argument is an emotional one, or one of dislike without any rational reason why, then your problem is not with me, but with an inconsistency in your own belief system.

I'm aware that people don't believe like I do, and that's okay, it's just fine with me. But it's a disservice to you if your beliefs are inconsistent because then they are sorely lacking. Just the same way, there are inconsistencies in my beliefs, but my desire is to have them be brought to light and eradicated. Maybe it'd be good to ask yourself, why would you fear finding cracks and loopholes in your beliefs? Isn't that really a good thing, so that your view of the world can become that much better?

So, without further ado, a hypothetical presentation of who GOD is and who HE is not.

God has a single limit upon Himself: He cannot be contrary to who He is. This could almost be the singular constant in the universe. Whatever your essense is, your being, who you are, your spirit, the stuff of who you are at your very core, whatever this is, you can't go against that. Isn't that a big motto of the homosexual movement? I gotta be me, I need to be true to myself, I can't live a life that is a lie. How could we possibly expect anything different from God? So, for God to be God, He must be Himself, and that means that we as human beings are not capable of shaping Him into anything He is not simply because we believe something about Him, wish, hope, refuse, dig our heels, or in any other way try to stuff Him into a box. He is God, and that is who He is.

One aspect of God is that He is good. This idea is a circular concept. You can try to argue that in any way you want, but if I were to ask you how to define "good" then you'll realize how difficult that task is. How about, the definition of good is simply "God". Now anything that is God is good, and anything that is not God is not good.

There, we now have a simple and precise line between what is good and what is evil. So if you were to argue that there is some aspect of God that is not good, then you have changed the definition of goodness (God=good) and therefore you are left with the task of having to redefine what is good.

Let's say that God is capable of something that we readily accept as something that is "not good", for example: lying. Okay, so now hypothetically we say God is a liar. Then lying is good and telling the truth is not good. We can't even wrap our brains around a world where it is good to lie. You might be thinking "I can!" but that's just on the surface. If it's good to tell a lie, then parents would have to teach their children to lie and discipline them for telling the truth. How can you teach your children to lie without telling the truth? "James, you must always lie, because that's what is right." There, that was just the truth so the parent was evil for trying to teach the child to lie. So either truth is good or the entire fabric of our universe unravels and is remade into something different entirely that we aren't capable of fathoming. That's a funny thing about a character quality of God, if you change it, the universe as we know it ceases to be plausible.

So that proves another aspect of God, that He is truth. He has to be, truth is good. And since He is truth, there is no lie in Him and He cannot lie.

But God is also just (as in justice). For one thing, we know that justice is good, and God is good, so by transitivity, God must also be just. No one can argue that justice is bad because if it was, it would be wrong to punish murderers. Our species wouldn't survive if there was no concept of justice, if people could violate, kill, steal, and commit evil towards each other and not only is there no punishment, but it would be morally wrong to punish for those evils.

The last aspect of God that I will present is that God is all-powerful. Aside from violating His own character, God can do anything, including transcend time and space and death, create anything out of nothing (unlike mankind who is limited by such a petty thing as material resources), and be able to understand everything at all levels... ]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/13117302/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/13117302/ Sun, 27 May 2007 20:09:56 PDT
I really like this one:


And it looked like it was going to just be another random flower picture when I had the filmstrip view of that round of photos open.

The sad thing is I bought 500 clicks on dA's adcast and I'm not really sure when or how I'm going to get to use them. I'd like for more people to come and see my pictures, but ... well ... I just gotta get this thing rolling and hope for the best, I suppose.

Anyway, happy memorial day to you.

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/12987639/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/12987639/ Thu, 17 May 2007 09:11:54 PDT


Why do we so quickly forget that truth is not open to interpretation?

Opinions are interpretation. Questions that begin with "what do you think..." and "do you like...", those things are obviously subjective. Subjective questions are ones that are looking for value, appreciation, speculation, interpretation, and in the end we can acknowledge that subjectiveness is about communicating a piece of me to the world. It's what I think and what I like.

Any question that people ask that's looking for a scientific or rational answer can have only one correct, truthful response. The answer to a yes or no question isn't always yes or no. Truth is a lot more complicated than yes or no, because real truth takes all the exceptions and limitations and plots them out for their real answers.

When you ask questions like "how many people graduated high school with you?", even though this is a question aimed at me, if the question is completely understood the same way by both sides, there's only one reality that can be communicated. The question isn't looking for a piece of the subjective me, it's looking for a truthful piece of my history, which was not defined or controlled by me, but happened around me.

When you ask questions like "how many of the people you graduated with were idiots?", now this is subjective because it is defined and controlled by me. The answer depends on me and what I think, my judgments and my viewpoints.

Here's the point of this ... Religion and the universe. All of our religious debates and speculations. You really don't want my subjective opinion. My opinion can't define the reality of the universe. Why? Because the reality of God, what He wants or does not want from us if He exists, creation or evolution, big bang, Armageddon and the second coming, karma, reincarnation, afterlives, heaven and hell, limbo, and so on ... the existence (or non-existence) of all these answers are not a matter of opinion, but a matter of fact. Anyone who says differently just looks like an idiot. "Well I believe that what we believe in, if we are enlightened and believe in it enough, that's what is true" (the concept of personal truth). That type of belief is about as valuable as spitting into the wind. You know why? I believe strongly enough that you are completely wrong about believing that we can believe in things strongly enough to make them true. Uh oh, now I just negated your whole religion. Do you see how completely illogical that belief system is?

That belief doesn't even work with things that we can see and explore. If I believe strongly enough, can I fly like Superman? If that were true, why hasn't anyone ever done it? Don't you think it'd have been accomplished by now? We've had some truly miraculous people in our history, people who've helped thousands, killed thousands, inspired millions, gave, took, bled, healed, wrote amazing books, developed incredible theories, invented and changed our whole world. No one thought to practice flying without mechanical aids?

An even more simple example ... think about the movie Liar Liar if you've seen it. If not, the premise is Jim Carrey's son wishes that he's not able to lie for a whole day, so some magic happens and now he's physically incapable of it. In his frustration, he tried to do a simple lie. He held up a blue pen and tried to make a statement that it was a red pen. He wasn't able to call it a red pen. He couldn't even write "this pen is red", because it wasn't red, it was blue. Could all of his wishing and hoping and believing and trying ever make that blue pen become red? No, the reality was he was holding a blue pen.

Now this is opinion, but I have a hard time finding any legitimate argument against it ... If the simple things in life can have only one truth, how can the complicated things be different? Even worse, what if you are wrong? Do you really want to be wrong about God? By the very definition of what "a god" is, He is bigger and stronger than all of us. So if He exists, it's in our best interest to not be wrong about Him. It'd be like going into Iraq with cold weather gear, believing that if we believe hard enough, then our cold weather gear will help us. How ridiculous do you think that kind of belief system looks to God?

I've heard it several times: "I refuse to believe in a God that does [blank]". What if God is that? What if God does that? What if He wants this or that thing from you? Do you honestly think you can escape from God if He wants something and your answer is "I refuse to believe that God would ever [blank]." If God does exist, what kind of response do you think God will have for you if that was what you told Him to His face? Is that a risk you really want to take? Do you know what this says about you? It says that you d... ]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/12932754/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/12932754/ Sat, 12 May 2007 18:00:45 PDT
I went for another nature walk today. I was so excited to go, I could barely sleep, and this is my sleep-in day.

Today, I went to the lake. Next week, I might go to a park that was built from the remains of a rich lady's personal garden. There's also a nature trail about 10 miles away that I just found out about. In the words of one of my favorite musicians: "There's so much beauty 'round us, for just two eyes to see. But everywhere I go, I'm looking."

I thought that the whole 3 to 5 people who visit my dA page each week might be interested in seeing an entire collection of photos from a single outing. One reason for posting them is because you can see the selection process. I might take 3 to 10 pictures of a single subject, each time adjusting the lighting, angle, and composition, or hoping to get something better. Of course it's impossible to determine how good a photo is from the LCD screen of your camera, especially when you are out in the bright sunlight and can't even see the LCD screen.

Anyway, I made this little page that shows off today's photos well.
[link]

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/12909348/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/12909348/ Thu, 10 May 2007 09:37:11 PDT
This one is a photo I've been wanting for a long time now, a dog with his ear cocked to one side. I love how this turned out.


More are coming.

I like how about 95% of the photos I take don't end up on dA. I've taken over a thousand since I got my new Nikon and there are less than 20 here, with probably 15 or 20 more just waiting for me to have time to post-process them. There are probably 100 more that are good and worthwhile shots but boring (yet another pretty picture of a tree???) or lacking enough visual interest to put them up here.

I love digital cameras. What did photographers ever do without them? I doubt even the best professional photographer takes 100% coffee-table-ready photos. They've got to throw away lots of shots too.

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/12794402/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/12794402/ Mon, 30 Apr 2007 18:25:15 PDT
I posted the first picture I took. Kinda pretty and lilacy.

I love that it uses SD cards. I have lots of SD cards!

Some of the highlights of my photography gallery:




]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/11570612/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/11570612/ Thu, 25 Jan 2007 22:05:27 PST
I have said many times before, and will repeat it here, never mock popularity. If you want to have a beef with something, come up with logical reasons why it is inferior, damaging, deluding, or otherwise stupid. I know there are many pod-haters out there, and some of them probably have reasons that are, to them at the very least, valid and would hold up under rational scrutiny. However, at the very least the only valid complaints I can come up with are degrading the moral fiber of our youth by teaching them to disrespect everyone around them and bury their heads inside their music world. But kids have been doing that for ages.

I try not to make a habit of purchasing or endorsing things based on their popularity. The "everyone's getting it" concept is just idiotic. But sometimes things are popular because they are just that awesome.

Now despite whatever you think or believe about iPods, after purchasing mine almost a week ago, I have come to wonder how I ever managed without it. Actually that's kind of silly, I'd manage just fine without it, but I am really enjoying my musical freedom now and I'm very glad for it. I used to pack up my laptop and take it with me to work every morning. We are allowed to listen to music and I like to have all of that music available to me. I took very quickly to the concept of smart playlists. I liked how iTunes presented my music to me, and my appreciation for it has only grown with time. Again, whatever you believe about iTunes is your opinion, but I love it simply for the versatility it provides. I'm an artist, a programmer, and an engineering designer ... which means, I like to be able to create, control, and customize to my liking and I'm never satisfied with "the software does not support that" answers.

So yes, iTunes. Well I got my Sharp Zaurus SL-5500 (which is awesome) and started putting my music on it to bring to work, but the only problem is I'm limited to 3GB of music. Only 3GB? That means I have to constantly choose which music to bring and which to leave at home. I'm too lazy for that! But that's what I did for the longest time.

IPod initially won me over with its fancy 30GB hard drive and its long battery life (best I could get on the Z is 3 hours, which meant I had to plug it in every morning when I got to work, like clockwork, I was sure my coworkers talked about how lame that was behind my back). I've been talking about getting an iPod for more than a year. So then I got a Neuros MP4 recorder so I could record TV but of course the Zaurus can't play MP4s, and then I bought a conversion program, and then the Z's mpeg player has very poor support for stopping video playback in the middle and starting back up again later. So now I want an iPod because I have this great ability to record my TV but nothing mobile to play it on.

I made the decision to buy after I started getting some overtime in the last couple of weeks. Once purchased, I fell completely in adoration with the sleek, thin, black and mirror polished chrome pod. I put nearly 1600 files on it, 1 movie, 3 games, and 36 podcasts within the first week I owned it. I purchased $150 worth of accessories including new headphones (my existing ones have a 16' cord which is just ridiculous), a charger, FM kit for my car, and a sleek textured aluminum case to protect my pod from scratches.

But the best part about it is recapturing my lost music. I found songs that I rate 4 or 5 stars that got obscured in my music library. One 5-star song had gotten lost among a 4-disc collection that I purchased, and with that much new music to hear at once, while working, I wasn't always paying attention. Other songs I knew were good but never seemed to make it onto my Z's flash drives. Well now they are all there and all get another chance. I quickly trounced all the 1's and 2's so they will only come up about twice a year now. And with the rest I have lovely visions of playlists I can make so that ... soon ...

the iPod

and I

WILL. BECOME. ONE.

It is foretold.

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/11367462/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/11367462/ Mon, 08 Jan 2007 19:36:11 PST

ESFXI: Part 1 is now online!




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Along the way, I was also considering calling in sick to work because I felt *extremely* tired, like practically exhausted and I wasn't sure I could make it through work today.

So I ended up standing in front of the computer desk where my alarm is with pants half on. I looked at the digits on the alarm clock and they morphed from saying 6 something AM to 12 something.

That's right, it was not 6 am and time to wake up, it was nearly 1 am. My alarm was not going off. I didn't have to get up for work for several hours. I'd only been asleep for maybe twenty minutes.

I have never sleep-walked. I'm not even sure if this counts since I remember my steps and my thoughts; I just don't know why I halucinated the alarm going off and why I was so sure it was time to wake up. For the record, I was not on any kind of medication, legal or otherwise, or alcohol or even cigarettes. I do have a history of weird things happening in my sleep, but nothing like this.

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/10005351/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/10005351/ Fri, 08 Sep 2006 03:12:08 PDT
This dragon

is my own design. He's too neat looking to not be colorized, so I'll see what I can do on that.

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/9912357/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/9912357/ Wed, 30 Aug 2006 20:34:28 PDT


Here's the stock photo.



]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/9813971/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/9813971/ Tue, 22 Aug 2006 09:19:55 PDT
If you've missed it, I've uploaded a couple of scraps that build on some photos I took in the last two days. The latest one is going to become a normal deviation eventually, I just have to get home and play around with my tablet and Photoshop.


I also uploaded the original photos.


So what am I going to do with them? I'm not telling! Nor do I know for sure yet, but I have ideas ... which I'm not telling!

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/9499218/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/9499218/ Wed, 26 Jul 2006 09:38:18 PDT



I took a couple of pictures of my landlords' daylillies too, but I'm not sure if they are going to be used for anything.

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/9494267/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/9494267/ Tue, 25 Jul 2006 20:27:56 PDT
For any photographers reading this, don't take it the wrong way, but it's not always easy for an artist who creates by holding pens, pencils, pastels, or a tablet stylus to watch photographers get all that publicity. After all, nature creates such beautiful things and all you have to do is capture it.

Before you get offended, even before I got my digital camera, I knew there was much more to it than that. But, you have to admit, that even with years of practice making photorealistic digital paintings, it is so much easier to just take a camera, take a photo, and BOOM, instant deviation. Even my popular "Clouds and Corn" picture only took me about a half hour of playing around with the colors before I was ready to upload it and it took almost no time to snap the photo. No digital artist can recreate a scene like that in that short of a time.

However, now that I have a digital camera, I wanted to play around with it. I've uploaded 3 pictures already.


There will be more photos for sure. For, those of you who are fans of my traditional work, I'm sure there'll be more sketches, pastels, watercolors, and digital pictures coming up after the newness of the camera wears off.

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/9339283/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/9339283/ Tue, 11 Jul 2006 03:39:30 PDT
But I really like my latest pastel piece (the dove that just became a print). I love how the colors are so much better digitally than in the real piece, although that also frustrates me because I couldn't have done that on purpose. It seems that when you layer pastels on top of each other, it messes the scanner up because they are more transparent when light is shining directly through them (ie: being scanned) than they are when they are lit with normal room light. Therefore it's pretty impossible to determine what the scan will look like until after the piece is finished and I start to scan it.

Some people photograph their work instead of scan it? Not sure how that would be accomplished but it sounds like with pastels I may need to do that.

Prints:


Water Colors:


Honorable Mention:
=KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/9299113/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/9299113/ Fri, 07 Jul 2006 07:25:54 PDT
AFI is playing at The Vick in Chicago tonight and I gots tickets. I'm going with some friends of mine from Battle Creek (where they make the cereal).

So I think it's going to be a fun time. I hope so, at least. I got most of my stuff around and I think I'm just about ready to go. Yaaay.

Prints:


Pastels:


Water Colors:
http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/9274001/ Tue, 04 Jul 2006 18:14:56 PDT
Update: 07/06/06...
New ones!!! I got a black sketchbook and I am playing with it.


I purchased a set of Prismacolor Nupastels a few weeks ago. I have created 7 pastel works since that time, one is already sold but the other 6 made it into the gallery.

I've been sketching (doodling, drawing, stick figuring) all of my life and then I tried watercolors and pretty much sucked from the word go. Well, not sucked, but it was hard and I had to work at it to get a final product that I liked. Not so with the pastels. As I already mentioned, I've only done 7 pieces, and all of them were ones I liked. I'm sure it'll happen eventually, but so far, I have not had a single failure. So that makes me happy and makes me think that pastels might be my medium of choice, at least for the near future.

Here are thumbs of the 6 pieces that made it into the gallery. The one that sold is very much like "Dragon's Lair" in subject matter and coloration, but was done last Saturday at the art fair. A little girl bought it to send to her grandfather who lives on the west coast. I thought that was sweet. But I loved the picture so I did another one.

Dragon's Lair
Light from a Broken Vessel
Teddy Wings
Swan
Yellow Dress
Purple Roses

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/9167010/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/9167010/ Sat, 24 Jun 2006 08:21:25 PDT
So next Saturday there's a street fair outside the courthouse of a nearby city. Mom has made a commitment for her and I to run a booth together. It's not like carnival booths where we'd be selling tokens or running a game, our booth is all about us as mother and daughter artists. It's taken a lot of work to get ready, but I think I'm finally there.

I made over a hundred business cards. I used the simply dragon picture on the cards and they look really cute.


I ordered 5 copies of each of the 5 prints that I had available early last week. I'm going to sign, number, and mat them then offer them for sale as prints.


Of course this is leaving out my latest print, but I won't have time to get prints sent to me. I will be offering the original of that piece and several others for sale next week as well.


Also, I'm printing out copies of several of my pieces that are here in this gallery and building a "not for sale" portfolio to be set near my business cards so people can browse through other things that I can do. Even though White Tiger is not available for sale, it shows what I can do with a photograph and some time, so it's going to be in there near the front.


]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/9058200/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/9058200/ Tue, 13 Jun 2006 15:05:44 PDT
PRINTS:


OTHERS:


I think this is a good sampling of my work.

Mom told me today that there's a street fair on... ]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/9026479/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/9026479/ Sat, 10 Jun 2006 09:32:18 PDT
Last night I submitted a new piece that I am calling Exceptional. I don't mean the piece is exceptional, that's just what I call it.



I had the idea of what if there were a field of daisies, and one stood out above the rest? But that daisy is not the exceptional one because it's still plain just like all the rest of them. It just happens to be taller. I put the tall daisy in a position in the picture where your eyes would not go to it immediately.

There's a yellow daisy mostly hidden among all the others. And that's the exceptional one. I put the yellow daisy in a position in the picture where it becomes the focal point.

The point here is, not everyone who has something special to offer will be tall and brilliant and stand out in the crowd. I'm sure everyone has experienced this at some point in their lives. Thinking, "hey, I DO have something to offer" but no one is noticing them.

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/8704401/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/8704401/ Sun, 07 May 2006 19:50:45 PDT
So I googled "trash heap". Why, you might ask? Because I have an idea for a piece. I always have ideas but never enough time to finish them. Oh well.

Lots of things are happening. Lots of things aren't happening. Eventually I hope to do more big, beautiful, finished, professional-looking pieces so that I can actually have a portfolio that shows off the potential. Right now I am not sure my gallery is quite up to what I know I can do. Some of the pieces are good, like Reflection ( [link] ), Angel Hug ( [link] ), Puppy Dog Eyes ( [link] ), and Broken Wings ( [link] ). Others, not so much.

I'm hoping the trash picture will be a great sort of surreal, armaggeddon, futuristicy anime-sorta good picture. If I ever finish it, that is. That one, and my figure skater pieces that I want to do.

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/6665365/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/6665365/ Mon, 03 Oct 2005 03:40:16 PDT
Been a long time since I submitted a piece. I think I will do my best to get a new one in here soon.

I am quite busy right now working on a comic project, trying to graduate college, and work overtime at work.

But, I would like to get something finished so I have something to show for myself.

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/4623531/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/4623531/ Sat, 19 Feb 2005 17:16:23 PST
I just activated my prints account, which I guess makes me an official DeviantART subscriber, although that's not what I expected it to do ...

Now to figure out how to submit a print...

]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/3600016/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/3600016/ Fri, 15 Oct 2004 22:17:30 PDT
I just uploaded one today. I wish it was easier to tell that I do them from my gallery page.

Anyway, if you get a moment, you might want to look there sometime. ]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/3534977/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/3534977/ Thu, 07 Oct 2004 13:58:13 PDT
I gots lots of new music. My main playlist (all the music I would be interested in listening to on a regular basis) has 325 songs in it. I know this is small compared to others, but it is a lot of music to me.

I've done quite a bit of work for AQ lately, a new comic plus more work for the one that will be released tomorrow, artwork for my Jane Doe comic series that may make a come-back, and several pieces that were purely for fun. I've also done a lot of sketching that will never become finished pieces.

So, yay for creative inspiration. I think it's all the caffeine. ]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/2889469/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/2889469/ Thu, 15 Jul 2004 14:25:55 PDT
Puppies.

Awwww she is so cute.

*Goes back to listening to My Immortal on track repeat* ]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/2754953/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/2754953/ Mon, 28 Jun 2004 11:26:02 PDT
I'm having writer's block to a nearly infinite level. And today I have a migraine too. At least I updated my comic.

Current workload:
1 commissioned piece
Immeasurable amount of stuff for AQ ( [link] )
Work for 3APD ( [link] )
Design for new comic idea that I hope to get published.

Speaking of the new comic idea, I just uploaded a character sketch for that comic. You can check that out by looking here ( [link] )

I'll probably have more info about this later. ]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/2462731/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/2462731/ Wed, 19 May 2004 12:55:35 PDT
Ok no.

But it would be nice.

I started working on a cast picture again today. It looks really good. It's got Jack and Mary Anne in the prominent spots and so far only Jehu and Nano join them. I want to make sure the 3 dogs make an appearance as well as Fourth Wall and probably Thomas. It's going to take 2 sheets of paper. I want to do something *really* good for this.

I did a guest comic for Tau of Geek ( [link] ), which went off well. If you want to find it, look for the May 15th comic. The neat thing is the pictures in that episode were not scanned. Nope. I made them useful for digital editing by taking a digital camera picture of them. I had to apply quite a lot of cleanup filter to get the spotlight from th flash removed, and digital camera pictures catch more of the grain of the paper than a scanner does (probably because scanners are designed to ignore that as much as possible?).

I did some work for AQ. If you play the game you'll see it eventually. I'm not sure why, but people have been complimenting me an awful lot lately for drawing trees. I don't even know why they would do that. I've never drawn trees for AQ.

I have a "new" game addiction. I have been playing for a little while now, concidentally since about the time I started my hiatus. The game is Kingdom of Loathing ( [link] ). I really like this game.

Hmm. What else is going on with me? Well I signed up on the Megatokyo forums. I know it's probably not even a possibility but I would love it if some day I were able to be noticed by Fred Gallagher. I'm not star struck or anything, it's just we are both from Michigan, we both make comics, he's good, and I'm not. I have a friend who has promised me that he'd get an autograph sketch from Fred for me when they have a con in Atlanta. I'm looking forward to that.

I got the Samurai Jack season 1 DVD. For the next couple of days it will be my most prized possession, even though the DVD case is sprawled out on my living room floor right now, opened up with one of the discs in my PS2. I'm disappointed they didn't stick some kind of leaflet or booklet into the case. Oh well. At least I have all of the episodes. I wonder what's happened to Samurai Jack. I hope it hasn't been canceled? That'd be a real shame. It's the biggest inspiration for my comic.

My laptop is "in the shop" right now. My brother-in-law took it back with him to Northern Michigan. It completely doesn't work now. You can't charge the battery or power it on. I broke some of the connections in the onboard keyboard so that's junk. Last time I saw it it was in pieces. My brother-in-law accidentally left the harddrive behind too, so it has no operating system. In short, it's in pretty bad shape, and he's leaving for Washington state at the end of May, so I hope he gets it fixed before then. ]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/2369499/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/2369499/ Thu, 06 May 2004 05:22:08 PDT
I took 2 months off the comic ( [link] ) unexpectedly. Now I am back. Well, by back I mean I did one comic. I guess you can hardly consider that as "back". I need to have a track record of updating again before I can declare that I am, in fact, back.

However, I think I am so right now that's all that matters.

I have a day off next week. I am so looking forward to it. A lot of things are "getting in the way" right now. It's like someone put my life in a food processor, put it on "chop", and then threw the pieces up into the air to see where they would land. And since I don't believe in evolution, I don't have any reason to believe that they would land in something like order without extra work on my part.

So I guess this is me stepping up to the plate.

I have a lot of artwork to do. I promised a guest comic for Tau of Geek by Sunday. I have a quest to do for Adventure Quest. I have to do a comic by tomorrow. I have to finish up a picture that I am doing for a friend of mine in honor of Mother's Day (it will be posted here most likely). Oh, and Tony wanted me to do a picture of a member of Fourth Wall's species for AQ to use as an NPC. That sounds like fun.

Amidst all of that, I have a desire to do a picture that's just for me. I am not sure what the picture will be, but I want to play around with digital coloring and stuff to try to do some more mainstream pieces like what Oishii does ( [link] ).

But, at least things are moving again. ]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/2136279/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/2136279/ Fri, 02 Apr 2004 09:57:22 PST
I'm not sure how many other artists experience this. There's a connection that I feel when I am drawing. It's like my artistic ability and everything related to talent and skill are not my own, but borrowed, and that I get these abilities by tapping into a connection I have with the thing that owns the talent.

Now of course this is a silly concept. Of course it's my talent. I worked hard to develop it, after all, but think metaphorically for a minute here.

When I am sick, BlaaaAAaaaaAAhhhed, or otherwise drained, the connection dies. It is like losing one of my senses. I pick up the pencil, touch it to the paper, and there is absolutely nothing. Not even music can bring it back when it's at its worst. I feel completely cut off from my own talent and it's almost like I've never had it in the first place.

If you have ever experienced it, I'm sure you will relate instantly to what I am saying. If you haven't, count yourself as lucky. I don't want to have a talent that blinks on and off like a TV with Dish Network. I'd rather have it be reliably there, especially since people don't seem to understand when I explain "look, I just can't draw right now."

Although that's not true. I can draw. Usually I can draw stuff that still impresses most people (not artists, who would know better). However, the life is gone from the drawings. They become just renderings of images. No emotion. No feeling. No meaning. Just form.

That's kind of where I have been the last couple of months. I just recently got pretty badly ill with bronchitis and upper respiratory infections, but that's finally waning. Now I'm starting to get my creativity back. It's a really soothing feeling to put my pencil to the paper and start to feel that connection again. ]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/1817704/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/1817704/ Mon, 09 Feb 2004 11:28:05 PST " -- Demento of Adventure Quest ([link]).

The only problem with that is, um, tonight's comic night so I can't have a day off!

But even though I'm not going to get a chance to rest my art skills, it's still nice to hear that they are happy with the amount of work they are getting from me. To me it seems like they aren't getting very much. I would totally love to just work for them only and not have all this other stuff going on.

No, I'm not quitting the comic. I meant real life work that I get paid for. The comic's staying until the story is told. ]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/1797131/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/1797131/ Thu, 05 Feb 2004 07:30:17 PST
Anyway, I think I'm going to be a part of the iTunes revolution. Yay.

Only problem is, I don't have Windows 2K on my computer at home. I'm going to have to sneak into my parents' house and steal their computer/cd burner to get my 99 cent music.

I find I'm really excited about the possibility that I can get some of my favorite music without having to find the cd in a store and then paying $15 for maybe 2 or 3 songs that I like. Plus there's the option of getting audio books and music you can't even buy in a store anymore. ]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/1749924/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/1749924/ Tue, 27 Jan 2004 11:00:29 PST
That sucks. ]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/1717136/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/1717136/ Wed, 21 Jan 2004 09:15:20 PST
There are 2 people at my workplace who do Data Management. I am the one who handles internal data traffic and my coworker does external. By far, external has more volume and is more stressful. Due to some family problems, she's gone this whole week. I have to do both jobs. It's only Wednesday and I'm exhausted.

I want to draw something, though, so I probably will. The more I'm being kept away from it, the more I want to do it. I haven't felt the rush of finishing a really good piece in so long I'm forgetting what it feels like. I hope to add something that is brand new (unlike most of the stuff in my gallery right now) this week sometime. ]]> =KaleyObsidia http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/1685434/ http://KaleyObsidia.deviantart.com/journal/1685434/ Thu, 15 Jan 2004 14:49:03 PST
Alright, enough with the puns. I'm not very good at them anyway.

I've found that if I listen to certain songs on track repeat for long enough to fry my brain, it will make me high. Not like a drug induced high and nothing that would cause me to fail a drug test. No. What I mean is an altered mental state in which I almost have no choice but to draw an image from my brain and put it on to paper.

The drawing that I did today (the first submission to my gallery) was one of those. I was listening to my Meteora CD and when it got to track 9 ("Breaking the Habit" I was enjoying listening to it, and then the song got over. As sometimes happens, I thought to myself that I wanted to hear that again. So I put it on track repeat. Of course I've been busy doing things that have taken my mind off the song, but I have been playing that one song for several hours. I'm sure a lot of people out there just groaned. I am slightly odd in this way... I can listen to one song over and over and over again.

Like I said: Deviant. ]]> =KaleyObsidia