http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Kanio-83&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Kanio-83 en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Sat, 05 Dec 2009 11:12:52 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/17958947/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/17958947/ Mon, 21 Apr 2008 12:30:40 PDT Peace for now ^_^ just wanted to say im alive!

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/16629374/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/16629374/ Tue, 29 Jan 2008 14:03:16 PST
]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/16285495/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/16285495/ Sun, 06 Jan 2008 11:53:01 PST
]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/15918076/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/15918076/ Thu, 13 Dec 2007 13:41:13 PST
]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/15799681/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/15799681/ Tue, 04 Dec 2007 20:42:13 PST
We drove around tonight looking at the houses with lights up... that was nice, fun times with mandi hehe. *yawn* im bored and the eve servers are down for a big patch so im outta eve for a day lol. Mandi is up wrapping presents for me ~_~ wont let me in the room lol. and thats about all thats up lol. anyway. ya im outta stuff to write so im gonna go listen to some tool and play a game peace!

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/15657975/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/15657975/ Sun, 25 Nov 2007 00:37:22 PST
i work 11 hours tomorrow haha, so that should be fun. then i have to read Othello... well not all of it just the first act.

Brandon being down has reminded me of my past. But ya know im better now, shit went the way it did and theres nothing about that i can change. I have Mandi now and i love her. so thats enough for me. lol.

My family makes me sad... we used to be so close and now were not. I dont know what happened to rose, and i mean that only because she has been to busy to answer her phone and i havent talk to her in like 2 months haha so i literaly dont know what shes been up to lol. But i know shes a grown woman and can handle her self so i dont worry at all. But... what i mean is that its the year after g-ma passed away, its only been like half a year but we didnt do thanksgiving, im sure we will next year, but i worry that g-pa is sad all the time now. admittedly i would be as well but i do my best to cheer him up, though i felt bad when my bird bit him... lol. Amy and nick have been having issues, didnt know she could be so mean to him... like normaly i dont care but she just sorta went over the top in my mind. anyway... lol im looking forward to christmas, madre was really sad that thanksgiving went how it did, but after she enjoyed spending it with her grandkids.

Mandi and i are moving again. By January, though we dont know if its to denver or if were gonna stay up here for a while more. But its a secret so dont tell anyone xD

I hope everyone is well, i talk to tommy more now then i have for the past year or so. I miss him, he was more like a brother to me then anyone in my life... he was closer to me and knows things about me and knows me better then anyone ever did lmao. but were both growing up. and i like that were staying close. its sorta cliche but its cool.

Anyway im sleepy so im out.

Peace!

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/15463033/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/15463033/ Sun, 11 Nov 2007 11:36:48 PST
]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/15419787/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/15419787/ Thu, 08 Nov 2007 12:16:36 PST
The guys, Nick, Luke and Zach came up and we played D&D and got drunk and wandered around campus. and not really drunk, though that would have been nice. but they left sunday and i had to go back to working lol.

Saturday also my great grand mother passed away, she was 101. I love her greatly and allways will. so Mandi and i drove to denver tuesday and back home on wednesday... alot of driving T_T didnt get home until about 2:50 last night.

Now im reading poetry for homework cuz i get to write something about the one i like best. how exciting ^_^ anyway, hope everyone is well, thats my little life update haha, TTYL!!!

-Trowaa

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/15043358/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/15043358/ Sat, 13 Oct 2007 12:04:12 PDT
]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/14879189/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/14879189/ Tue, 02 Oct 2007 00:27:15 PDT
]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/14830888/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/14830888/ Fri, 28 Sep 2007 17:51:10 PDT
Dodge roll!!!!

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/14519984/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/14519984/ Thu, 06 Sep 2007 16:54:08 PDT Its not a test, in case anyone thinks it is. I just want to see what people think of me... honestly i dont think people will comment it much, mabey one or two at most lmao. well see... but what do you think, which world do you think i yearn to be in...?

Lets see ^_^

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/14497306/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/14497306/ Wed, 05 Sep 2007 03:44:29 PDT

There was some sorta raid by the cops about 4 blocks away, saw a flash and a loud bang and was like wtf... heard megaphones saying "the swat has surrounded your house, come out with your hands up." and long walks through deserted streets at 3am. to long talks on the couch about myself and my world and its interactions with all the other worlds and lifes. *yawn* well im sleepy so im gonna go crash, night yall!

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/14434492/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/14434492/ Sat, 01 Sep 2007 01:13:22 PDT

Grand Junction is fun... HOT, but fun lol. the school is nice lol, though im so shy again its retarded. I hate it and wish i had more control over it... but its stupidly hard. anyway... blah haha. ~_~ ok gonna go clean.. lack of anything else to do... you cant really apply for jobs at 2am.

Night yall... i miss yall in D-Town, lookin forward to the anime con!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Peace!

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/14239615/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/14239615/ Sun, 19 Aug 2007 11:44:37 PDT
]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/14069070/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/14069070/ Wed, 08 Aug 2007 01:52:46 PDT
]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/13858827/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/13858827/ Tue, 24 Jul 2007 11:11:05 PDT
But ya, getting school worked out for the comming semester. just want it to start, im so bored.... but i need a job again ~_~ still doing the moving thing but they havent needed a hand in about a week or so. Im applying to the clear creek sheriffs office, workin either in the prison or in the dispatching possition.

*yawn*


I miss the old days haha, but dont we all? More then that im looking forward to the future, everything thats gonna happen and all the possibilities... well regardless im pumped haha.

Well im gonna get started see yall!!!

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/13755210/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/13755210/ Mon, 16 Jul 2007 09:52:32 PDT
]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/13684599/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/13684599/ Tue, 10 Jul 2007 15:03:36 PDT

but mabey harry potter will make it better tonight... better be a good movie...

~edit~
Ok well i took a nap and im feelin better haha. but that movie better be good, with all the hype i hold it to high standards... so if it fails me... lol









6 days until my birthday! haha two decades old... i feel old ~_~

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/13665985/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/13665985/ Mon, 09 Jul 2007 01:38:29 PDT








7 days until my birthday! haha two decades old... i feel old ~_~

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/13617509/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/13617509/ Thu, 05 Jul 2007 07:07:12 PDT
Im still tryin for a editing program thats free and can put borders on pics and resize and crop... alllll i care about right now, lol for pictures anyway.

So my week so far...

Monday, Drove Tess and Luke to the airport, which was really cool and fun, even though it was at like 4 am haha, i was awake anyway lol, they got to go to Mexico, but im gonna make Tess a Caribou Lou when she gets back ^_^

Then i slept for an hour or two until we went rock climbing up by morrison haha, that was uber fun as allways.

Tuesday, Woke up hella early to go to work, worked, went home and got called to a move lol, some lady getting a divorce, but she was mean as all hell lol, so i felt bad for her ex who was there. She refused to tip me after i spent hours hauling boxes and desks and chairs and crap up a narrow dollhouse staircase... But her ex-husband gave me 10 bucks because i helped him carry stuff and take care of the ladys dogs haha.

Wednesday, Well it was teh 4th of july, only had one mortar left... but Lowry and Kyle asked me save it then didnt come back haha... oh well i still have a mortar xD. Oh ya and i worked yesterday, not alot but some... Happy 4th Of July yall!

Today, Woke up early to take Mandi to work, and now im waiting to see if i have to work today, i hope not im soooooooooooo freakin exhausted lol, but i need the money so its a trade off lol.

How is everyone doin? i see the guys less and less, but its more comfy this time like i dont feel stressed about it all the time now haha, but dont worry guys we still chill haha ^_^. i just cant afford gas to come see yall all the time.


Ok well im out, see yall!








11 days until my birthday! haha two decades old... i feel old ~_~

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/13117223/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/13117223/ Sun, 27 May 2007 20:02:37 PDT
]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/12953111/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/12953111/ Mon, 14 May 2007 12:43:16 PDT
Went to tool, on Wednesday, that was uber leet haha, they had a sic laser show. Never seen a laser show like that, but it could have used some work all the lasers were just sorta going in circles lol.

Gonna have a party this weekend hopefully lol, just dont want peeps to cancel on me but well see lol. ok well i guess thats all i have to say, have a fun summer everyone! see yall

~edit~

Nevermind, party cancelled v-v

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/12732495/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/12732495/ Wed, 25 Apr 2007 16:00:47 PDT
anyway, im writing a paper on Morality and Religion... lol can one exist without the other? good question.

but ya, bored. not really stuck on the paper just taking a break cuz i wanted to check Dev. and not much here actualy lol, iv been taking my camera out some more and getting pics so if at any time i actualy get something good il post em ^_^.

Ok well im bored so im out, see yall... hope all is well.

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/12644222/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/12644222/ Wed, 18 Apr 2007 15:08:20 PDT
I like how i just sorta put all my ranting into a giant paragraph... maybe i should space out subjects, but i don't really expect anyone to read all this, even though i know people will lol, its just sorta my outlet for mental angst. maybe... iono ~_~

Well im bored and i have 2.5 hours until class and no cell phone... so im outta things to do haha, chillin in the comp lab, thinking, and writing this journal. its been forever since i wrote a real journal on here. so are yall glad or do you remember now why i suck so much lmao xD j/p

I hope everyones been well, iv been worried about Tess its tuff T_T. but other then that just trying to live my life. things are crazy and i don't have much time to just sit down and relax, just sit there and read a book or watch the clouds. that would be so nice.

Today smelled like summer... well i guess its cut grass that makes me think of summer. and not only were they cutting it at the school but all down Kipling on my way to school haha. so that was really nice.

Well im out, i could rant for another like million pages but *shrug* lol, even i dont want to hear it xD

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/12498681/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/12498681/ Sat, 07 Apr 2007 15:42:02 PDT
Been watching movie trailers that luke sends me, At Worlds End... omfg im excited haha, Resident Evil 3 looks intriguing, The Silver Surfer just makes me laugh and remember the kid from highschool... and i dont remember the rest, oh ya The Machete hahahaha, sorry once you see grind house you will know whats funny about it, oh and thanksgiving lmao. anyway ya grindhouse is such a good movie, sorry i went without everyone didnt have any concrete plans for it we just sorta decided to go.

TOOL... god i want to go, everyone allways gets together and go with each other and buys tickets together, but somehow i cant catch up to them ever. the whole concert thing leaves me in the dust. *sigh*

oh well, its been a VERY long week, im looking forward to a more relaxing week soon. hope everyone is well, ttyl!

-Sam

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/12435641/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/12435641/ Mon, 02 Apr 2007 18:59:23 PDT
Anyway... back to my week, boring week... well not bad but didnt do much, wish my friends would go on a road trip but i gave up asking em because they allways said no lol. but ya, been thinking about road trips and just getting out and away. but oh well.

The girls came down this weekend, cept morris didnt do anything but play guild wars... haha its a fun game but not that fun, actualy its very redundant without much change and very little advancement in my eyes... anyway i digress, got to hang out with the girls which was fun. They are balls of endless energy... i wonder if all kids are like that or if its just morris haha cuz most kids need to sleep more then 3 hours a day while being that active haha. gotta love em though. We all got to go play at the park haha cramming me mandi and the girls onto the tire swing was fun lol so dizy couldnt see right for like an hour xD. So ya, it was a good weekend.

Artemis is sitting next to me, watching me type like its the coolest thing in the world. Reading roses journals allways makes me think lol, but it also makes me laugh because its the same things i think about but i cant find the words to say or explain any of it like you can. lol oh well, im gonna go rent a movie, see yall! ^_^

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/12351716/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/12351716/ Tue, 27 Mar 2007 15:23:44 PDT
Scott webber found a 200GB ATA HD in my basement hahaha, so im pumped about that, and other then that its just soooo beautiful outside, though a little chilly and a little windy, but i still like it. and its not windy enough for tess to be having a bad day haha xD

Whateve... im out, ttyl later! msg me or call me or something lol im bored ~_~

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/12242431/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/12242431/ Mon, 19 Mar 2007 08:15:00 PDT
Allways love ya G-Ma. ]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/12133900/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/12133900/ Sat, 10 Mar 2007 16:59:57 PST





















Allways love ya G-Ma. ]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/12052259/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/12052259/ Sun, 04 Mar 2007 10:26:56 PST
Iv had alot on my mind haha, more then i want on it anyway. Well... hope everyones been well, and hope yall have a good weekend and a good upcoming Spring Break.

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11961865/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11961865/ Sun, 25 Feb 2007 13:37:57 PST
Yesterday woke up and wasnt even really hung over lol, but was so outta it and so exhausted i could barely function. Went to Maggiano's with mandi and her co-workers. that was fun and good food lol. then took her home and came home and crashed.

Today, madre woke me up, seems that my grandma fell this morning. We were worried she broke her hip and would have to have surgery but she didnt, she did however shatter her pelvis. So that bassically ensures she cant walk again for the rest of her life. so were gonna talk about what do do, were not sure g-pa can take care of her anymore. so well see.

New week, new worries haha no j/p. acctually iv been very unhappy with where my life has been and i want to fix it up some but its hard right now. oh well.

Miss yall, hope to talk to everyone soon. /wave












"Caribou Lou"

It's Like
151 Rum
Pinapple Juice, Malibo, Caribou, Get Them All Now
Make Baby Girl Come
Out Of Her Shell And Raise Hell
Don't Stop Till The Cops Come

Half A Bottle Of 151
Off Of The Jug With Cup Of Malibou Rum
Baby Thats Whats Up
Then You Fill The Rest Of The Jug
With Pinapple Juice, And Its Crackin
The Only Defect Is Wakin Up Like "What Happened?"
I Like Red Light Parties And Fed Right Bodies
Who Like, Red Like Dolly And Head Right Totties At Night?
Aribou Kay
Ou-La
Terrible Day
You Pay The Liquor Store Teller With No Hair-A To Braid
Tu Shay.
Get The Party Jumping
Keep The Hotties Humpin
I Like Them Thick And Juicy
So Don't Palatte Nothing
Drinkin To Much Lou
You Might Be Karate Punchin
Or At The Back Of The Club
Pretending The Naughty Lunchin
Satin,
Kool-Aid Getchu Hella 151
November Dog
So Run Kitty Run
We Gon Drink It Untill We Done
Diddy Dum
Bum Biddy Bum
Here Kansas City Come So Give Me Some-

151 Rum
Pinapple Juice, And Malibou, Caribou Get Them All Now
Make Baby Girl Come, Outta Her Shell And Raise Hell
Don't Stop Till The Cops Come-!
[X2]

I See Double
I See Triple
Might Be Trouble
Might See Pistols
We Aient Tryin To Hear You Hata's Suckin On Sickles
We Livin It Up In To Double It Up On Sizles?
One To Your Maybro
Unto Your Day Go
Why I'm The One To Drink It
Under The Table
And All The Ladies That Were Doing Time
Want You To Become A Member Of My Drinkin Club
You Will Find Tech N9ne
Tryin To Tell Her Truely Get Nudey
Yes I Even Do El Words
In The Fruity Bazoodi
Like To Drink It And Yell Slurs At The Movie
If I'm Hitted, Im Off To Get A Caribou Lou To Cool Me
(Created) By Tech Nizzle And T-Wizzle
One High Day.
We Mixed It Up
And Then I Say We Drink Caribou-Bizzle Like
I Ladie
Originated In Kasnas City, Missouri
Since 19-95 Baby.

151 Rum
Pinapple Juice, Malibo, Caribou, Get Them All Now
Make Baby Girl Come
Out Of Her Shell And Raise Hell
Don't Stop Till The Cops Come

151 Rum
Pinapple Juice, Malibo, Caribou, Get Them All Now
Make Baby Girl Come
Out Of Her Shell And Raise Hell
We Gon' Party Till The Cops Come

151 Rum
Pinapple Juice, Malibo, Caribou, Get Them All Now
Make Baby Girl Come
Out Of Her Shell And Raise Hell
Don't Stop Till The Cops Come

Tar Bender I Need A Drother Nink
Release Caribou Lou And The Party Is Utter Kink
Insane Mainy
Keep Em' Comin Then I'll Remain Zainy
Cause I'da Say Baby
I'm Tryin To Make You My Main Gamey?
For The Rest Of The Night
Girl You Sexy And Tight
Come To Mi Casa And See These Shock Reflects And Your Right
Groupies At 12 O' Clock
Man I'm Prawl I'll Go
Ya I'll Recruit Em
But Aien't Betten On Crap And Thats All I Know
Yeap In My White Tee And Nikes
You Might Sight Me Slightly Heifin
Might See Dry Heav
Die We Shall Not Need I-V's
Beside Me Siamese
(Tech, Huh, You Not Makin Any Sense)
I Might Make Her Wanna Swa-Wing A Prada
But Once I Get Up On Em' I Can Do My Thing I Gotta
Hey Batta Batta Batta Batta Swa-Ing A Batta
He Cannet He Cannet He Cannet Swa-Wing A Batta

151 Rum
Pinapple Juice, Malibo, Caribou, Get Them All Now
Make Baby Girl... ]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11861038/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11861038/ Sat, 17 Feb 2007 22:03:51 PST
]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11831040/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11831040/ Thu, 15 Feb 2007 15:06:48 PST
]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11621263/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11621263/ Tue, 30 Jan 2007 09:20:14 PST
ya i got school in 45 mins so i have like 15 mins to get ready haha. Italiano first off then some free time followed by chemistry. Im sleepy and not happy about going to school today. most days im pumped to go to class because its fun but today i just want to go back to bed. *yawn*

Well, i have a new pc... havent had a new one in years but i built it and after it cut me down to the bone i got it to work. and i love it but there are still some things i need to get working.

Ok well i cant really think what else to say but im tryin to go to a rave on the 17 of Feb, which would be fun. Ok well i gotta go get ready see yall!!

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11454664/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11454664/ Mon, 15 Jan 2007 23:58:53 PST
School starts back tomorrow, im pumped haha. Not a damned clue how im gonna afford it, but oh well lets do it anyway and have some fun ^_^.

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11371210/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11371210/ Tue, 09 Jan 2007 06:13:12 PST
]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11304052/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11304052/ Wed, 03 Jan 2007 17:02:08 PST
I can barely believe that its over, it was such a long and crazy year. Hope yall dont mind but im gonna skip out on my normal year end review. Not that it was necasarily a bad year... just a bad late spring and HORRIBLE summer haha. oh well, i still wanna thank my friends even though most of em wont read this, Thanks yall for standing next to me when i know i was difficult. So thanks yall. And im happy again though, like i still have stresses and such but i have alot of things that are better then a year ago so im happy. *hug* ya ^_^

Hope Everyone Had a Good New Year!!!

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11137732/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11137732/ Thu, 21 Dec 2006 11:27:20 PST
]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11099509/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11099509/ Sun, 17 Dec 2006 21:27:27 PST

So... the more the day has gone on the more this has sunk in. Iv had people i care about pass away before, but Roman was one of my oldest friends here in denver... iono, its just sad heh.

Heres a link to the news story so yall know im not crazy.


[link] ]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11068743/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11068743/ Fri, 15 Dec 2006 02:21:01 PST
]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11055661/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11055661/ Wed, 13 Dec 2006 20:06:15 PST That I'll never ever choose to be
Oh so many ways for me to show you
How the savior has abandoned you
Fuck your God
Your Lord and your Christ
He did this
Took all you had and
Left you this way
Still you pray, you never stray
Never taste of the fruit
You never thought to question why

It's not like you killed someone
It's not like you drove a hateful spear into his side
Praise the one who left you
Broken down and paralyzed
He did it all for you
He did it all for you

Oh so many many ways for me to show you
How your dogma has abandoned you
Pray to your Christ, to your god
Never taste of the fruit
Never stray, never break
Never---choke on a lie
Even though he's the one who did this to you
You never thought to question why

Not like you killed someone
It's Not like you drove a spiteful spear into his side
Talk to Jesus Christ
As if he knows the reasons why
He did it all for you
Did it all for you
He did it all for you

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11023806/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/11023806/ Mon, 11 Dec 2006 00:41:21 PST Che scivola sul velo della mia pelle nuda
Se oltrepassassi il confine che mi hai dato
Forse io non sarei qui

Ma adesso ormai che senso ha
Cercare di abbracciare un passato piu puro
Guardando avanti rischierò
Ma riesco a rispondere ai miei perchè

Tutto ciò che sarai
Era già stato scritto
Se davvero esiste
Questo dio ha fallito

Ogni parola pronunciata
Sarà lo specchio del tuo dolore
Riflette la colpa
Alimenta l'odio

Madre

Il mio destino scelgo
Se riesco a resistere

Scorre lento il mio tempo
Quell' ultimo respiro
Mi rassicura sento gia

Agonia senza fine che
Mi hai dato forse no
Non sarei qui

Ma adesso ormai che senso ha
Opporre resistenza a un destino segnato
Non restero a guardare senza
Riuscire a resisterti
Risvegliarmi

Madre

Il mio destino scelgo
Se riesco a resistere

Risvegliami

Non c'e scelta senza me
Non c'e vita senza me

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10955436/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10955436/ Tue, 05 Dec 2006 00:58:22 PST
P.S. sorry i didnt answer when you called tess, i forgot my cell was on silent from when i was taking the test. Il ttyl

you Mandi!

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10874606/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10874606/ Tue, 28 Nov 2006 01:01:53 PST
"Rosetta Stoned"

Alright then, picture this if you will:
10 to 2 AM, X, Yogi DMT, and a box of Krispy Kremes, in my "need to know" pose, just outside of Area 51.
Contemplating the whole "chosen people" thingy when a flaming stealth banana split the sky like one would hope but never really expect to see in a place like this.
Cutting right angle donuts on a dime and stopping right at my Birkenstocks, and me yelping...
Holy fucking shit!

Then the X-Files being, looking like some kind of blue-green Jackie Chan with Isabella Rossellini lips and breath that reeked of vanilla Chig Champa,
did a slow-mo Matrix descent out of the butt end of the banana vessel and hovered above my bug-eyes, my gaping jaw, and my sweaty L. Ron Hubbard upper lip and all I could think was: "I hope Uncle Martin here doesn't notice that I pissed my fuckin' pants."

So light in his way,
Like an apparition,
He had me crying out,
"Fuck me,
It's gotta be,
Deadhead Chemistry,
The blotter got right on top of me,
Got me seein' E-motherfuckin'-T!"

And after calming me down with some orange slices and some fetal spooning, E.T. revealed to me his singular purpose.
He said, "You are the Chosen One, the One who will deliver the message. A message of hope for those who choose to hear it and a warning for those who do not."
Me. The Chosen One?
They chose me!!!
And I didn't even graduate from fuckin' high school.

You better.
You better.
You better.
You better listen.

When he looked right through me
With somniferous almond eyes.
Don't even know what that means
Must remember to write it down.
This is so real.
Like the time he floated away.
See my heart is pounding,
'Cause this shit never happens to me.

Can't breathe, right now!
It was so real.
Like I woke up in Wonderland.
All sort of terrifying.
And I don't wanna be all alone when I tell this story.
And can anyone tell me why
It was a repeat experience
Will I ever be coming down?
This is so real.
Finally it's my lucky day.
See my heart is racing,
'Cause this shit never happens to me.

Can't breathe, right now!

You believe me, don't you?
Please believe what I just said, see they're telling true.
And this wasn't all in my head.
See they took me by the hand and invited me right in,
Then they showed me something.
I don't even know where to begin.

STRAPPED DOWN MY BED. FEET COLD AND EYES RED.
I'M OUT MY HEAD. AM I ALIVE, AM I DEAD?
CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT THEY SAID.
GOD DAMN. SHIT THE BED!

(high... I I I I I... high... I I I I I)
(high)
[repeated]

Overwhelmed as one would be, placed in my position.
Such a heavy burden now to be the one.
Born to bear and read to all
The details of our ending.
To write it down for all the world to see.
But I forgot my pen,
Shit the bed again,
Typical.

STRAPPED DOWN MY BED. FEET COLD AND EYES RED.
I'M OUT MY HEAD. AM I ALIVE, AM I DEAD?
SUNKIST AND SUDAFED, GYROSCOPES AND INFRARED.
WON'T HELP, BRAIN DEAD.
CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT THEY SAID.
GOD DAMN SHIT THE BED!

I...!!!

CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT THEY SAID TO ME.
CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT THEY SAID TO ME.
MADE OUT TO BE, A HERO!!!
Can't remember what they said.

OH NO, HELP NOW.
Can't remember what they said.

DON'T KNOW.
WON'T KNOW.
[repeated]

GOD DAMN SHIT THE BED!

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10739860/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10739860/ Wed, 15 Nov 2006 23:05:46 PST
]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10711790/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10711790/ Mon, 13 Nov 2006 12:44:02 PST
Things are going great in my life lol, stressed as usual but doing good. hehe well ya not much else to update on, heh... ok well il talk to yall later hehe ^_~

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10587494/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10587494/ Wed, 01 Nov 2006 21:18:47 PST

/bird

ya thats all i have to say ^_^

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10514369/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10514369/ Thu, 26 Oct 2006 06:47:35 PDT
]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10440649/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10440649/ Thu, 19 Oct 2006 00:46:08 PDT
Work is killin me haha. workin 10 hour days and getting a better soon hopefully. The prep guy that started right before me got fired and tess is leaving so im gonna get even more work. but hey il have the money to move out by next spring.

School is going well. my eye is gonna be all screwed up tomorrow but i think il be ok haha. just gotta buy some sun glasses. anyway, if i can keep my grades up i can get scholarships and such for a better school with a pre med program.

The rest of my life things are going well. not up to that much haha. well i hope everyone is well. Il ttyl

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10358079/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10358079/ Wed, 11 Oct 2006 12:28:59 PDT
]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10332210/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10332210/ Mon, 09 Oct 2006 02:49:06 PDT

~~~Next Day~~~

Lol, ok well i got some sleep. so i feel a bit better. but god damn 9 hours of driving after only getting 3.5-4 hours of sleep the night before heh. exhausting. if vash wasnt in the car i prolly would have just driven off the edge lmao. anyway, the con was fun heh, i had to work friday and saturday and that combined with waiting for mom and the kids i didnt get to do anything really at the con friday or saturday. But oh well, i had sunday that i got to walk around for a bit.

I had to call in for work today, i got back from my 9 hour drive only a few hours before i was supposed to be at work lmao, and that place in exhausting enough so i wouldnt be able to have done it and been able to take my anatomy test tonight. So thats what im doing now lol, studying and writing this.

I have some good pics of the con, there were some great costumes this year, cept hte ones in the masters catagory sorta sucked lmao. but oh well hehe, um ya, il post the pics later sometime. Again this year there arnt any pics of me lmao, keeps happening to me. oh well. ok back to studying, ttyl!

Footer:
lol, all i can say is *sigh* haha. ]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10217949/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10217949/ Thu, 28 Sep 2006 17:28:14 PDT lol no more ranting for now. ok well classes are going well, chem is fun, philosophy is fun, and anatomy is sorta boring because of the teacher lady but still, fun haha. Ok well i guess im out, gonna head over to tess's, see yall later!

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10127266/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10127266/ Tue, 19 Sep 2006 21:36:19 PDT Listening to: This Ring - Tech Nine
Reading: Looking for Spinoza
Watching: Boondock Saints

Atleast your happy, thats what really counts.

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10104401/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10104401/ Sun, 17 Sep 2006 18:19:24 PDT Listening to: This Ring - Tech Nine
Reading: Looking for Spinoza
Watching: Boondock Saints

lol, im so sleepy. Long day at work and the past few days were long to haha. But working at Einsteins is sooooo much fun lmao, the people are great, even the customers, which i wasnt expecting since they are cherry creek peeps. which is the rich area for all you peeps not from denver hehe. Anyway, between school and work i have one day off a week hehe, and thats wednesday. which im fine with, hehe, but mondays exhaust me, i close on sunday, Work early on monday morning, and then have class monday night followed by class tuesday. So mondays are exhausting... haha woot for tomorrow T_T. oh well hehe, things other then that are going pretty well hehe. Ok well il talk to yall later.

-Sam

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10055633/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10055633/ Tue, 12 Sep 2006 23:28:58 PDT Listening to: This Ring - Tech Nine
Reading: Looking for Spinoza
Watching: Boondock Saints

To: DK_Trowa@yahoo.com
From:lovelypixiegirl@aol.com

Subject: In Response To Your Waiting Journal
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
you were an ass to begin with

and at least now your class knows the truth...

i figured it would be nicer to not humiliate you infront of all deviantart...

so there you go
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

So there. You dont contact me for like 3 weeks, you only did before that to yell at me, and now your doing it again? I wanted to stay in contact, but you didnt and i wish you would have atleast told me. instead of just saying your busy and you will call me back. Oh what does it matter. I hope your having a good time up there. Ttyl. Listen i dont want any more shit. I have been kind to you and bothered you or harrassed you like i know you wanted. So why cant you seem to be nice to me???

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10051551/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10051551/ Tue, 12 Sep 2006 15:38:29 PDT Listening to: This Ring - Tech Nine
Reading: Looking for Spinoza
Watching: Boondock Saints

Got outta chem a bit ago, its funny watching the people who have never taken chem learn Bohr's model of the atom and then watching them all get oh so confused when we talk about the Quantum Mechanical Model haha. and then the Heisenberg Uncertanty Principle throws them into a deeper level of confusion. I feel bad for them but i try and help them understand best i can lol. anyway, still loving my chem class, its rather fun. So now im waiting for Mike to get outta class, i drive him home on tuesdays and thursdays. but he gets outta class an hour or so later then i do.

Something i realized, now that im not with joy, and im standing up for myself and such against everyone. Im not as nice. Which i feel really bad about, but i think its because my emotions are all fucked up still, i dont know what im feeling ever. But im feeling really bad because vash moved in with us or arranged to when i was still my nicer self. So im trying hard to be nice still and not be an ass. Things this summer just changed me alot v-v. oh well, life moves on i suppose.

I have a job now, proof that life is moving on. I work Friday through Monday, monday being my uber hard day, i have to be at work at 7:30-4:00 and then i have anatomy class from 5:00-9:00 so that day is gonna be hard as all hell lol, but having a job will help me get over this depression i think so im gonna do it ^_^. But with that schedule it means my only day off during the week is wednesday, and i know thats more then alex and kyle have since they work so much, but its nice, i need atleast one day to pay back my sleep debt that i accumulate.

Anyway, tomorrow is my day off and im gonna go climbing. I was supposed to go with Tommy, but he canceled on me cuz he has work and didnt know until this weekend. anyway, im going alone haha, so if i dont come back it means i fell somewhere where no one else is and im dead or hurt lmao xD. But the place im going climbing is apparently a really well used area so there should be alotta peeps. Its near morrison, but oh well. I havent been climbing in WAY to long haha so im going and i dont care what anyone says.

I had anatomy last night, and the girl next to me accused me of cheating on the test infront of the whole class ~_~ which i wasnt. But we grade our own papers and after she gives you the answer she tells you what page they can be found on, so i was writing the page #'s below the ones i got wrong. She thought i was changing the answers ~_~. So now the class thinks im a cheater. Lame, but oh well. I have a report on a resperatory disease due in like 2 months lmao, 15min long presentation, but i just have to read it. shouldnt be to hard, just havent picked a disease yet.

Things at the moment are ok. Just makin it through each day and trying not to think about anything but my future and what i wanna be/do. Ok well mike should be out soon so im gonna go wait in the main area for him. See yall around, take it easy.



]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10034513/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10034513/ Mon, 11 Sep 2006 00:21:00 PDT Looking for Spinoza By: Antonio Damasio

Listening to: This Ring - Tech Nine
Reading: Looking for Spinoza
Watching: Boondock Saints

Enter Feelings
Feelings of pain or pleasure or some quality in between are the bedrock of our minds. We often fail to notice this simple reality because the mental images of the objects and events that surround us along with the images of the words and sentences that describe them, use up so much of our overburded attention. But there they are, feelings of myriad emotions and related states, the continuous musical line of our minds, the unstoppable humming of the most universal of melodies that only dies down when we go to sleep, a humming that turns into all-out singing when we are occupied by joy, or a mournful requiem when sorrow takes over.

I just liked this paragraph... it sorta clicked *shrug* lol, oh well, start work tomorrow woot. well i have the training anyway haha. which means i really should be getting to sleep now. night yall.

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10027488/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10027488/ Sun, 10 Sep 2006 11:20:41 PDT

I hate it when friends dont stay in contact with me. even if it is for the best. oh well, school is alotta fun this semester, and i have alotta anatomy hw to do haha.

]]> ~Kanio-83 http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10007844/ http://Kanio-83.deviantart.com/journal/10007844/ Fri, 08 Sep 2006 10:38:26 PDT
]]> ~Kanio-83