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It's my 23rd birthday.

Yay.

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And it is definitely something everyone should experience at least once in their lifetime.

Oh. I got to see my grandparents again. Just driving through Georgia, remembering where I drove my first car, where I learned to ride my bike, where I slept when I had chickenpox...

There were a lot of memories that came flooding back.

For the first time that I can remember, they weren't bad memories at all. Maybe I'm finally moving on.

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His mother looked at him, their tear-stained cheeks ruddy with the suffocating cold and their emotions bringing blood to the surface. As she reached her arms around him to comfort and console him, she couldn't help but stifle her own choking sobs. Her best efforts this year had failed them. She was unable to procure anything for her son, but instead had spent the money on alcohol and broken solace. She sought company in the arms of her many nameless lovers, but found that they were as ephemeral as the hopes and dreams of her oldest son. The words of the last man to break her heart and ravage her femininity; "Fuck Christmas. It ain't nothin' but a holiday built around lies and disappointment."

Lies and disappointment. Lies. Disappointment. There was no Santa, no reindeer, no magic, no hope. All he wanted was a teddy bear, something to cuddle with on those long cold nights when his mother was out finding their next meal. Was that really too much to ask? A teddy bear was unattainable? The tears flooded the boy's gaunt face as he saw his friends begin to exit their homes with the more rugged toys of their Christmas haul. One had a complete foam baseball set, with a ball, a bat, and four bases. Another had a sled, and was gathering the others to help her start her journey from the top of her ice-covered, hilly yard to its inevitable conclusion. They were smiling, laughing, happy and healthy. He turned from the window, into the gaze of his mother. Her heart felt like it was snapping as her son whimpered; the combination of broken dreams and malnutrition was killing him right before her eyes.

The mother returned to her room and began to pack her suitcase again, vowing this time to find a way out of this mess in which they were immersed. The son followed, knowing his mom would be gone for days at a time, and would probably come back drunk and poor. His eyes were running dry as he ran to his mom and gave her the biggest hug his weak little body could muster.

"Merry Christmas, Mom. I love you."

A faint hint of a smile traced the corners of her lips as she bent over and kissed him on the head.

"I love you too, sweetheart. I'll be back soon, and then we can eat."

Days passed, the sun rose and set, and the children grew tired of their toys. His mom never came back. Lies and disappointment.

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If you know my life, or can read the subject of this very post, however, you know that nothing good came of this attempt.

Two weeks of tickets, that totaled over 400 dollars, went missing. Because of this, I was unable to purchase insurance for my new car. The title for said car came 3 and 1/2 half weeks later than originally expected, making the chance that I could actually purchase, plate and insure this car slim to none. And to top it all off, I've been unemployed for a few days because all of the cabs I'm contracted to drive have mysteriously broken down. So I'm broke, not making money, and I had to disappoint my family by calling them up and saying "Look, things happened..."

There's one person I want to be with this Christmas. I don't think she wants to be with anyone though. I don't blame her. If I didn't have her to think about, I'd want to be alone as well.

Such disappointments.

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]]> ~Katalysator http://Katalysator.deviantart.com/journal/9233679/ http://Katalysator.deviantart.com/journal/9233679/ Fri, 30 Jun 2006 15:33:44 PDT -Birthday: March 2nd
-Birthplace: Detroit, MI
-Current Location: Virginia
-Eye Color: Changes hourly
-Hair Color: Chocolate
-Height: 5'11" and 3/4ths
-Right Handed or Left Handed: Right
-Your Heritage: German/Irish on mom's side, unknown on dad's
-The Shoes You Wore Today: Reebok sneakers that Kelli bought me
-Your Weakness: Just one? My inability to completely trust myself or anyone else
-Your Fears: Abandonment, Lack of presence
-Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: "*nods*"
-Bedtime: No determinate time, usually whenever I'm tired enough to sleep
-Coke or Pepsi: Not a cola guy
-McDonalds or Burger: BK, McD kills my tummy
-Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton Green Tea?
-Chocolate or Vanilla - Chocolate
-Cappuccino or Coffee: Neither
-Do you Smoke: No
-Do you sing: I can, but I rarely do
-Have you Been in Love: Yes, still am
-Do you want to go to College: I want to go back.

-Do you want to get Married: Yes, but not right now
-Do you believe in yourself: Only during sex, PC repair or music-related activities
-Do you get Motion Sickness: No
-Are you a Health Freak: Getting there
-Do you like Thunderstorms: Yes, depends on how heavy the rain is though
-Do you play a Instrument: Violin, guitar, bass, viola, cello, double bass

-In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Yes
-In the past month have you Smoked: Yes, but not tobacco...
-In the past month have you been on Drugs: See above. Oh, and add Vicodin
-In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Nope!
-In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: No
-In the past month have you eaten Sushi: No
-In the past month have you been on Stage: No
-Do you work (as in official work): Hahaha. Soon

-Favourite Eye Colour: Blue, brown, green, grey... they're all beautiful
-Favourite Hair Colour: Brown, then red
-Short or Long Hair: For me, short. For the ladies, long
-Height: I don't like standing on tiptoe to kiss. Otherwise, anything around or below me
-Best Clothing Style: NOT TRENDY

-Number of Drugs I have taken: Three including alcohol
-Number of CDs I own: Around 15, used to be much more
-Number of Piercing: None
-Number of Tattoos: None yet
-Number of things in my Past I Regret: Trying to reestablish a relationship with my paternal DNA donor ]]> ~Katalysator http://Katalysator.deviantart.com/journal/8587042/ http://Katalysator.deviantart.com/journal/8587042/ Tue, 25 Apr 2006 23:00:57 PDT
My previous account was ordius. If I've friended you, it's because I had you friended on that account as well and I want you to see why I've chosen this name.

I want to be the agent of change. I want to mix things up. Let's see what happens, shall we? ]]> ~Katalysator