http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:Kati-Tiko&section=today deviantART RSS for by:Kati-Tiko en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 07 Dec 2009 06:01:16 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/27636213/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/27636213/ Wed, 07 Oct 2009 15:57:48 PDT
In all of two weeks my life went from a living hell, losing all the friends I cared about, into a neverending spin of being with people, having fun... Being happy. Always happy.

I've just been so god damn cheery since this summer.

I have my ups and downs, sure. But it's to be expected.

I would defend a long distance relationship to the end of the world,

But having something right there.. In your grasp, someone you can hold onto, cuddle with, hug, kiss, love... It's amazing. Really, amazing. I would have never guessed.

Yesterday was my two month anniversary, and I did spend it with my boyfriend. Then saw the next day that he had programmed a notice into my ipod on the 4th of every month to say it was our anniversary and tell me he loved me. I b'awed. It was nice.

ANYWAYS, getting so off topic here.

During my periods of self-help-change I ditched this account for another one.

Frankly I'm ashamed of the petty venting and angst present on this account. So...

Also, thank you to anybody and everybody who have added neverending favorites to Sadness. I definately didn't think that piece would be popular in any way.

Right yeah.



I bich a lot less and vent a lot less on there.



]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/23873016/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/23873016/ Tue, 24 Mar 2009 19:16:22 PDT Worried about the looming possibility of putting the dog down.

I love her too much to lose her.

Only company I have at night.

Bleh.

Feeling lonely right now. I don't know how much more lonely I'll feel if she's gone.

On the upside; I have tons of games to play.. Yey..

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/22613921/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/22613921/ Fri, 16 Jan 2009 12:31:32 PST It seems like I only ever make journals as an excuse to do quizzes. ;o Oh well.

We're having a cold front now. Not appreciating the cold, it makes my hair frizz like an afro. Not attractive.

Anyways.. What was I on about? Right.

Step 1: Fill this in, and as such everyone on your watch list may then tell you you are not a bad artist. This will let you know how splendid you are, that way you can boost your monstrous ego just a smidgeon more.

Step 2: Now that you've got that great ego boost that you needed, you can sit and revel in it, and believe (falsely) that you are so superior to everyone else.

1. [ ] When you doodle, you say it's a simple drawing.
2. [ ] Always provide excuses such as "Still in development"
3. [ ] Can only create an excuse of "I used a mouse, not a tablet"
4. [ ] You only draw faces.
5. [ ] You always draw faces at the same direction.
6. [x] The proportion is awful.
7. [ ] Every character looks the same.
8. [ ] Uses different hairstyle to distinguish characters.
9. [ ] Cannot distinguish left and right direction.
10. [ ] "Sketch? Who cares about that?"


11. [ ] You only draw sketches.
12. [ ] What's a LAYER???
13. [ ] You always draw one character.
14. [ ] You always draw characters in same angle.
15. [x] No matter how you draw, it's the same expression.
16. [ ] You couldn't draw characters with movement.
17. [ ] You barely draw feet.
18. [ ] You can't draw figures from high or low angles.
19. [ ] You don't even know the definition of high and low angle drawing.
20. [ ] A shitty figure drawing in dynamic pose can be turned into a 4th Dimensional abstract.


21. [ ] Same character looks totally different when it is drawn in different angle or direction.
22. [x] You can't even draw anything other than characters or draw everything except characters.
23. [ ] You can only draw cute characters.
24. [ ] You can only draw handsome characters.
25. [x] Hands are your nightmare
26. [ ] Your character's hands are always hidden behind.
27. [x] The idea sketch is professional but the actual quality is shitty.
28. [ ] You try to cover up one of the eyes with hair so that you can draw only one eye.
29. [x] Your works are always asymmetrical.
30. [ ] Line art only = Finished piece.


31. [ ] Rough sketch only = Finished piece
32. [ ] You have no anatomical knowledge.
33. [ ] You only draw eyes.
34. [ ] Character's hand and eyes are huge.
35. [x] You're poor in drawing the position of boobs.
36. [ ] Your artworks are free from all logic. Awkward anatomy and proportion.
37. [x] You lose confidence when other people's works look great.
38. [x] You think they are genius when they come up with satisfied quality.
39. [ ] You collect other people's works as practice references but you actually collect them as a collection.
40. [x] While drawing, you easily lose patience and go do something else.


41. [ ] Tablet is your god item.
42. [x] You regain confidence when other people's works look crappier than yours.
43. [x] You are more than willing to draw but you lose the spirit so easily.
44. [ ] You completely lose the confidence when you see the works of true genius.
45. [ ] You draw once a month or even once a year.
46. [ ] You get mad when your favorite artists are being lazy.
47. [ ] When you draw hentai art, you end up drawing grotesque horror pictures because their proportion is so fucking awful.
48. [x] You don't even have faith in yourself.
49. [x] You can't even draw since the beginning.
50. [x] You realized there are problems and know where to fix but you never do.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/22575715/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/22575715/ Wed, 14 Jan 2009 10:34:58 PST Weather is beyond strange down here lately.. *Shakes head*

1. Put your MP3/iPod or other device that plays music on "Shuffle."
2. For each question, skip to the next song. Whichever song appears is your answer.
3. YOU SHOULD WRITE THE NAME OF THAT SONG WHETHER YOU WANT TO OR NOT!
4. Tag seven other people using a note (including the person that sent it to you) that you believe will have as much fun with this game as you did.

If everyone says, "everything is well," what do you say?
Breathe Today - Flyleaf

*Kinda makes sense. It's okay, you can BREATHE TODAY. Yay..


What best describes your personality?
Bent - Matchbox 20

*8D


What suits you today?
The Road To Jericho Is Lined With Starving People - This Providence

*Cough, long title much?


What is your goal in life?
Everlasting Friend - Blue October

*Yessir! <3 I want an everlasting friend and to be an everlasting friend~


What is your motto?
Less Than Zero - Drowning Pool

*Not.. Emo.. At.. All. *Eyetwitch*


What do your friends think of you?
Tale of Woe - The Retrosic

*They call my life emo behind my back? Wonderful.


What do you think about often?
Beauty - t r y ^ d

*Shallow, just a bit.


How much is 2 + 2?
Down And Out - Tantric

*Is there a legitimate way to make this question make sense? Is there a song called four?


What do you think of your best friends?
Whoa - Paramore

*That about sums it up.


What do you think of the person you like?
Inevitable - Anberlin

*D'aw... Good love song...


What is the history of your life?
Falling In Love Again - Eagle Eye Cherry

*NO SHIT.


What do you want to be when you grow up?
Crawling - Linkin Park.

*...


What will you do when you meet the person you like?
Hit My Heart (Featuring Dhany) - Benassi Bros

*Someone get my mallet..


What do your parents think of you?
Certain Words In Uncertain Times - This Providence

*More like the last thing they think of me.

What will you dance to in your wedding?
Somewhere - Within Temptation

*That will be a damn epic dance.


What music will play during your funeral?
Newport Living - Cute Is What We Aim For

*Yes, I hope the people I can aim this song to come to my funeral.


What is your pastime?
Ladykiller - Hocico

*Thumbs up.


What is your biggest secret?
How To Save A Life - The Fray

*No one else deserves to know how!


What do you think of your friends?
J'en Ai Marre - Alizee


What is the worst thing that could happen?
Staying Alive - Cursive

*...Even more emo.


How will you die?
Holiday - Green Day

*Remind me, no more holidays.


What is the only thing you regret?
Never Enough - Grave Worm

*Less angst, iTunes...


What makes you laugh?
My Dream Is You - This Providence


What makes you cry?
Until Tomorrow - Paramore

*This song does bring tears, actually.. o:


Who will you marry one day?
I'm So Sick - Flyleaf

*Ehhmm.


What scares you the most?
Wonderwall - Oasis

*All walls, actually.


Does anyone like you?
Never Too Late - Three Days Grace

*For loovee.


If you could go back in time, what would you change?
Finger Twist and Split - Cute Is What We Aim For


What hurts you now?
Dream Of The Shore - Chrono Cross

*The other shore, that is.


What will you name this post?
Borrowed Time - A Fine Frenzy

*Sounds like a journal about my eminent death, yay.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/22549281/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/22549281/ Mon, 12 Jan 2009 18:00:58 PST Exams are coming soon. Apparently every bus driver in the region is supposed to go on strike the day they start.

Good timing guys.

Really. I like postponing exams.

Got my new schedule, though semester 2 isn't starting until the 2nd of Feb.

A-Block (Homeroom) - Math 11 Academic
B-Block - Art 11
C-Block - Design 11
D-Block - History 11.

Now, two things bug me.

1) My math teacher. He has an extremely strong accent and I can't understand a word he says. Ftw.

2) I fucking HATE my History teacher. He's a jackass with a stick up his ass. ><

So. Fun. Love it.

Art and design are fine though.

Also, I play WoW again.

..I blame Rayne.

Yeah, you heard me BIYATCH. D:<

---

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE,
WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc.)
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button.
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool.

Opening Credits:


Waking Up:
Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy.

*Why the hell am I waking up to a depressing song? BULLSHIT.

First Day At School:
Never Gonna Give You Up - Rick Astley.

*Fucking.. LOL. Great, I'm going to Rick Roll everyone on my first day of school.


Falling In Love:
Lost My Music - Aya Hirano


During a sex scene, you scream:
Star Crossed - Scary Kids Scaring Kids

*Makes so much sense.


Fight Song:
Come Here Boy - Imogen Heap

*Because we all fight to soothing music?


Breaking Up:
The Devil Went Down To Georgia - Primus

*"I told you once you son of a bitch, I'm the best there's ever been." Chya.


After getting drunk you say:
Crushcrushcrush - Paramore

*Obviously when drunk I turn into an ogre with a hammer. *Nods*


Prom:
Your Guardian Angel - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

*Sad, but atleast I can relate.


Life's OK:
So I Thought - Flyleaf

*Yeah, I only thought I loved you for years, I really don't. LIFE'S OKAY. D:<


Mental Breakdown:
Girl Like That - Matchbox20

*Thumbs up.


Driving:
Paint it Black - Rolling Stones

*Fuck yeah.


Flashback:
The Point Sometimes - Gregory and the Hawk

*I could see that, flashing back on my more angsty times of seperation from SWEEDEENN. Grr.


Getting Back Together:
Warm - Claire Voyant

*This doesn't work at all. D:


Wedding:
Bent - Matchbox 20

*Just hold me, and then just hold me again~ Still a bit angsty for a wedding.


Birth of Child:
Pushing Me Away - Linkin Park

*Poor... To-be emo child...


Paying the Dues:
Seishunii Janai Katsu

*Because we all listen to happy about life jpop when paying the dues.


Your deepest secret:
Everyday - This Providence

*Deeeppp.


Night Before War:
Ghost Love Score - Nightwish

*This song would totally get me pumped for war, hell yes.


Final Battle:
Letters - Utada Hikaru

*...Yeah sure.


Moment of Triumph:
Do You Ever Wonder - Blue October

*...BAH.


Death Scene:
Let Me Be Your Armor - Assemblage 23

*Fuck being someones armor if it gets me killed! D:<


Funeral Song:
I'm Sorry - Flyleaf

*Song that in my mind implies pedophilia and rape? FTW.


End Credits:
Best Friend - Toy Box

*HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE? HE'S MY BEST FRIEND, BEST OF ALL BEST FRIIEENDDSS. Happiest song evur for end credits considering I just died.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/22417009/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/22417009/ Mon, 05 Jan 2009 15:11:05 PST -.FI R S T.T H I N G S.F I R S T.-
[my name is]: Ashley.
[in the morning i am]: Grumpy.
[all I need is]: <3
[love is]: Awesome.
[I'm afraid of]: Needles and insects/arachnids.
[I dream about]: Rubbish.

-.F A V O R I T E S.-
[COLOR]: Purple.
[NUMBER]: 4.
[SUBJECT]: Sociology.
[CLOTHING BRAND:] Vexy.
[SHOE BRAND:] Anything.
[SPORT TO PLAY:] Hockey.
[DRINK:] Tea.
[ANIMAL:] Wolves.
[HOLIDAY:] Christmas.
[FAVORITE LINE FROM A MOVIE:] /
[BAND:] Too many.
[MOVIES:] Madagascar.
[FLOWER:] Lilies.

-.H A V E.Y O U.E V E R.-
[pictured your crush naked?]: All the time.
[actually seen your crush naked]: *Cough*
[had sex]: Lulz.
[made love]: Not quite.
[been in love]: Very much so.
[cried when someone died]: No.
[lied]: Everyone has.

-.W H O.-
[makes you laugh the most?]: My friends~
[makes you smile]: <3
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: (:
[has a crush on you?]: Teehee.
[easiest to talk to]: A lot of them.

-D O.Y O U.E V E R.-
[sit on the Internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. you?]: No.
[save aol/aim conversations]: Nope.
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: Hell no.
[cry because of someone saying something to you]: Not anymore.

-.H A V E.Y O U.E V E R.-
[fallen for your best friend]: Technically.
[been rejected]: A bit.
[rejected someone]: Yeah.
[used someone]: No.
[been cheated on]: Don't think so.
[done something you regret]: Yes.

-.W H O.W A S.T H E.L A S T.P E R S O N.-
[you talked to on the phone]: (:
[hugged]: Piper~
[you instant messaged]: Bill! o:
[you laughed with]: Teejay.

-.D O.Y O U / A R E.Y O U.-
[smoke cigarettes]: No.
[obsessive]: No.
[could you live without the computer?]: Never.
[how many peeps are on your buddylist?]: 266..?
[what's your favorite food?]: Sushi.
[whats your favorite fruit?]: Strawberries.
[drink alcohol?]: No.
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: Sure.
[what hurts the most?]: Hm.
[trust others way too easily?]: No.

-.N U M B E R.-
[of times I have had my heart broken? ]: Once?
[of hearts u have broken?]: I don't know.
[of continents I have lived in?]: 1.
[of drugs taken illegally?]: 0.
[of tight friends?]: Quite a few.
[of cd's that I own?]: No clue.
[of scars on my body ?]: Idk.
[of things in my past that I regret?]: Eh..

-.P I C K.O N E.-
[MARRY PERFECT FRIEND OR PERFECT LOVER]: Depends.
[CATS OR DOGS:] Dogs.
[1 PILLOW OR 2 :] 2.
[W/ OR W/O ICE CUBES: ] With.
[TOP OR BOTTOM :] Bottom.
[WINTER/SPRING/SUMMER/FALL:] Summer.
[NIGHT OR DAY:] Night.
[GLOVES OR MITTENS:] Gloves.
[DRESSED OR UNDRESSED:] Depends.
[BUNK OR WATER BED:] Water bed.
[MTV OR VH1: ] MTV.
[OCEAN OR POOL:] Pool.
[SHOWERS OR BATHS:] Baths.
[LOVE OR LUST:] Love.
[SILVER OR GOLD:] White gold.
[DIAMONDS OR PEARLS:] Diamonds.

-.I F.Y O U.C O U L D.-
[Move anywhere]: Sweden.
[Meet one famous person:] Rob Thomas.
[Live with one person the rest of your life:] <3
[Name one thing you love:] Too much.
[Name one thing that embarrasses you:] My clumsiness.
[Do you like school? :] No.
[Do you like to talk on the telephone?] Not really.
[Do you like to dance? ] Heh, no.
[Do you sing in the shower?] Yes.
[Do you think cheerleading is a sport?]: *Shrug*
[What's on your ceiling?] A light.
[What's the hardest thing about growing up?] Being on the other side of the ocean.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/22393217/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/22393217/ Sun, 04 Jan 2009 12:08:21 PST I wish it wasn't nessecary to look through old journals to find music. Humiliating.

Anyways. Found a quiz, I'm bored. Put two together.

SEVEN THINGS YOU WILL FIND IN YOUR ROOM:
1. Christmas presents, everywhere.
2. Candy, everywhere.
3. Dog hair, everywhere.
4. The dog, sleeping.
5. Clothes, everywhere!
6. Big TV.
7. My laptop.

SEVEN RELATIONSHIP QUESTIONS:
1. do you like someone?
Fuck yeah.

2. does someone like you?
Yes. :3

3. Who was your last crush?
Crush, haha.

4. Have you ever been lead on?
Yes. (:

5. Have you ever been cheated on?
Not to my knowledge?

6. Do you want to be in a relationship?
Pft.

7. Do you wanna get married?
No.

SEVEN THINGS YOU CANT LIVE WITHOUT:
1. Music.

2. Friends.

3. The doog.

4. My brain.

5. My colon.

6. My couer.

7. Still monopoly.

SEVEN THINGS ON YOUR MIND:
1. Love.

2. PRINCE.

3. School, tomorrow.

4. Seeing my friends.

5. The fact that I don't feel like making my bed, at all.

6. How much I'd like to play Guitar Hero. Or Rock Band. Neither of which I own. D:

7. Everything conceivable.

SEVEN OTHER THINGS - DO YOU:
1. Believe in God?
Hell no.

2. Had a dream come true?
Yes.

3. Read the newspaper?
Not really.

4. Pray?
Gross.

5. Have a best friend?
A few.

6. Had braces?
Need them, but no.

7. Wish on stars?
Sometimes, for the hell of it.

SEVEN HAVE YOU EVERS:

1. Fallen in love?
Yes.

2. Kiss someone of the same sex?
Sigh. D:<

3. Cheated?
No.

4. What
In the butt..?

5. Ran away from home?
No.

6. Played strip poker?
Not yet.

7. Pulled an all nighter?
Last night.

SEVEN THINGS IN THE LAST 48 HOURS HAVE YOU:
1. Cried?
No.

2 Had fun?
Yep.

3. Been kissed?
Naw.

4. Felt stupid?
It's my life.

5. Talked to an ex?
Nope.

6. Bought anything?
Clothes.

7. Used chapstick?
Like 10 minutes ago, Mr. Psychic.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/22321327/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/22321327/ Thu, 01 Jan 2009 00:33:39 PST Being obsessed with a Meat Loaf song = bad. Playing a song 150 times in less than 24 hours = bad.

Curse you Meat Loaf...

2009, is it? I can't believe I've been around to see 17 different years, though I am not quite 17 yet.

Beings that late 2008 was when my life started looking up, I can only hope 2009 brings the same good tidings.

I have a lot to look forward too, though nothing I am directly aware of. Mostly the fact that this puts me one step closer to the rest of my life.

Graduating class of 2010, here I come.

No New Years resolutions for me, they're pointless for me to make.

But I wish you all the best in whatever resolutions you may have made.

And I hope 2009 treats you all well.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/22222054/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/22222054/ Sat, 27 Dec 2008 07:41:18 PST And it wasn't my fault.

Funny how often and fast life changes. o.o

I'm so confused right now.

It's a good confused.

But I suppose it could have it's badsides too.

Haven't I been down this road before?

Oh well, I'm willing to take it as many times as I have to.

If only to prove myself as being worth it.

I hope I am.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/22181366/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/22181366/ Thu, 25 Dec 2008 04:30:45 PST Christmas was good. I won't go into the trouble of listing all my presents - but it was good.

Anyways - since I'm bored!

What is your name? Ashley.
Are you named after anyone? Nadda one.
What's your screen name? Xeira, or Ashley.
Would you name a child after you? No. My name fails.
If you were born the opposite sex what would your name be? Ash? Lawl.
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be? Hmm.. Let's see. Of all my female friends.. The name I like most.. Euh.. Would be Hanah's. So. Her. =3
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly? People always spell my name incorrectly.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous? I'd never become famous - I don't want to be.

Basics
Your gender: Girly-girly-girrllll.
Straight/Gay/Bi: Strrraight~
Single? No, no.
If not, do you want to be? Fuck no.
Birthdate: July 24th, 1992.
Your age: 16.. And almost a half.
Age you act: Older than I am, generally - atleast, that's what I'm told.
Age you wish you were: Right now? 18, or 19. Or llaatee 17.
Your height: 5'4".
Eye color: Blue/grey/green.
Happy with it? Not at all, I miss when my eyes were bright blue.
Hair color: Dark brown naturally.
Happy with it? It's fine, but I rather fancy dyeing it.
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous: Righty!
Your living arrangement: Live with mom, see dad every second weekend.
Your family: Dad, mom, Denise (dad's girlfriend), Richard (mom's boyfriend), two step-brothers, grandmom, granddad, and my Uncle and his wife.
Have any pets? Piper, dog. Spike, cat.
Whats your job? None.
Piercings? Nopee.
Tattoos? Hell no.
Obsessions? Computer.
Addictions? Computer.
Do you speak another language? French.
Have a favorite quote? Eh.
Do you have a webpage? Lulz no.

Deep Thoughts About Life
Do you live in the moment? Not really.. o:
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? Getting better.
Do you have any secrets? You know? Not really, anymore.
Do you hate yourself? No. I've learned to appreciate myself, thanks to good people in my life.
Do you like your handwriting? I don't handwrite. My printing? Yes.
Do you have any bad habits? Bite my nails.
What is the compliment you get from most people? Lately? Cute, and silly (in a positive way).
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? No clue!
What's your biggest fear? Loss of people who matter to me.
Do people say you resemble a celebrity? Nope.
Can you sing? Yep.
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? Past that point in my life. I am me.
What is your number 1 priority in life? Family, friends, school, and him - of course.
If you were another person, would you be friends with you? I wouldn't get along well with "me", hehe.
Are you a daredevil? Not even close.
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? A bit, I suppose.
Are you passive aggressive? Very.
Do you have a journal? Online? Besides DA? Yes - I don't use it. IRL? No.
What is your greatest strength and weakness? Not sure.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? I'd make my eyes blue again.
Do you think you are emotionally strong? I'm getting there.
Is there anything you regret doing or not doing in life? No.
Do you think life has been good so far? Wasn't. It definately is now.
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? You make true friends by being yourself. It's through pretending that you make the fake friends you'll end up losing.
What do you like the most about your body? Ehm.. Hard to say. I rather fancy my arms legs and my bum.
Do you think you are good looking? I'd say I'm average.
Are you confident? Not really.
What is the fictional character you are most like? *Shrug*
Are you perceived wrongly? Not anymore.

Do You...
Smoke? Fuck no.
Do drugs? Hell no.
Read the newspaper? Very, very, rarely.
Pray? Never.
Go to church? Never.
Talk to strangers who IM you? Depends.
Sleep with stuffed animals? No, I have my dog.
Take walks in the rain? No, I would if I had someone to take them with.
Talk to people even though you hate them? Yes. I hate one of my good friends being the boyfriend of an absolutely cock sucking whore. ...=3
Drive? Not yet.
Like to drive fast? Nooooo.

Would or Have You Ever
Liked your voice? Yes.
Hurt yourself? Yes, but not cutting,etc. Used to be a side-effect of my temper, I'd hit myself - and stuff... ]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/22082408/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/22082408/ Sat, 20 Dec 2008 09:50:04 PST There's something ridiculous bad about getting the flu, a cold, and an ear infection all at once, all less than a week away from Christmas.

Especially when you have tons of gifts to do and are so sick you can hardly function.

When your mom just keeps yelling at you for dumb shit and making you do a bunch of crap even though you can hardly move.

Grrr.

On the brightside, 4 days and it's Christmas Eve! I'll be at my uncles with my dad and his girlfriend having a huge pre-Christmas feast and I am super excited. <3

There's somewhere else I'd rather be for Christmas.

But that's beyond the point.

Christmas will still be good. :3

I'm supposed to be getting Okami for my Wii, AND I WANT IT SO BAD. T_T Sooooooo baaaddddddddd. I hate waiting.

Anyways, just a little pre-note so that I don't forget, wishing you all Merry Christmas. ;D I hope everyone has some good times and a nice festive spirit. <3

And happy holidays to those of you who don't celebrate Christmas, of course.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/21952171/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/21952171/ Fri, 12 Dec 2008 18:12:54 PST I've got too much to do!!

Gotta start working on my Christmas presents for everyone. Making a huge scrap book for one of my really good friends, and raawwrr.

Going out to buy my dad his present tomorrow. (: His girlfriend is getting him a new guitar, I'm helping pick it out~ And then I gotta go get all my craft supplies for my presents!

And then digital stuff for a few people on here.

Blah. This year I WILL ACTUALLY DO IT.

No being lazy.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/21883077/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/21883077/ Mon, 08 Dec 2008 14:26:41 PST Apparently I wasn't much cut out for being active.

Truth is, I can't draw without a desk - and with my laptop, I lack desk. It sits in, my lap. You know. I asked for a desk for Christmas though, so hopefully that'll get the show on the road. And such.

I totally wrecked my leg yesterday out of sheer idiocity, it was.. Fun. Lots of, "fun."

Life is still good, I still can't complain.

Good friends, good company, mother is being agreeable, and shit tons of wtf lol worthy moments. And I''vvee goott a lloovvee aanndd it's allll miinneee.

It seems the happier I get, the more depressed the friends around me get. o_o

And I am terrible at giving advice for depression. I like a method that's just very straight forward, "yes you have a problem, yes it sucks, yes you can fix it, yes it will be hard." But that doesn't exactly make people happier. >.> Ashley-advice-giving ftfl.

Supposed to be up and moving in May. No big thing, nothing disastrous happened. But our rent is up in May, so it's either rent the house for another year, or move. And mom wants a bigger house, so full steam ahead for that.

Dad wants to get me in Drivers Ed and looking for jobs after Christmas comes. Which means I FINALLY start saving up for moving away.

Euh.. What else is new..

Nothing! Life is boring, but it's fine by me.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/21096603/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/21096603/ Tue, 21 Oct 2008 14:52:30 PDT Getting back into the swing of things makes me realize how much shit I have to do, hahaha. xD Ah.... Good thing it interests me, or I'd be ripping my hair out.

It's kind of funny that life is good right now. Nothing's wrong. I mean srsly. xD How many months has this been? I should have learned to cope a long time ago. O:!!

Anyways, just taking a break from the onslaught of makeables I've had to do. Haha. I'm not done, and still got more to do.

Atleast I'm flexing my creative muscles again though.

Anyways, ciao mi amigos. I hope you're all muy bueno.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/21039135/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/21039135/ Fri, 17 Oct 2008 21:52:54 PDT Someone aptly pointed out to me, why should I care what people I don't like, nor do they like me, think about me? xD It's not like it'll affect our "friendship" or anything.. As a matter of fact it won't affect anything.

Anyways, I got most of my shit sorted out in these past few months. Doing pretty good, learning not to sweat the small stuff.

So I'm back, fo shizz, for good I hope. No more of this dumb disappearing and stuff.

Anyways, school started. Grade 11. Scary crap, soon I'll be out in the real world.

This semester I've got Oceans 11, English 11, Sociology 12, and a free block.. Next semester I've got Math 11 Academic, Design 11, Art 11 and Canadian History 11.

Pretty easy stuff, too bad I'm still too lazy to do any of it. But who really cares.

Anyways. With a not-so big bang, I'm back to Neo and whatnot.

[link]

Don't be queer, add me if you're still playing. That would be wicked cool.

(Does anyone read these anymore? Lolol.)

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/20000775/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/20000775/ Sun, 17 Aug 2008 08:38:16 PDT Instructions:
Start with 100%. Bold everything you've done and subtract 1% for everything that you've done. Then repost as you're __% virgin.

1. Smoked.
2. Drank alcohol. (dumb ass mother and her bad parenting... lol)
3. Cried when someone died.
4. Been drunk.
5. Had sex.
6. Been to a concert.
7. Gotten/given a handjob.
8. Gotten/given a blowjob.
9. Been verbally/sexually harassed. (verbally.. not sexually, mind you..)
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody. (i was a real bitch when i was depressed.. bitch with a loud mouth..)

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 95%

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
15. Been to prom.
16. Cried at school. (mental breakdowns during big science tests ftw.)
17. Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
18. Went streaking.
19. Given or received a lap dance.
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 92%

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
23. Kissed a stranger.
24. Hugged a stranger.
25. Went scuba diving.
26. Driven a car.
27. Gotten an x-ray.
28. Hit by a car.
29. Had a party.
30. Done serious drugs.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 91%

31. Played strip poker/darts/basketball.
32. Got paid to strip for someone.
33. Run away from home.
34. Broken a bone.
35. Eaten sushi.
36. Bought porn.
37. Watched porn. (i'm great.. really..)
38. Made porn.
39. Had a crush on someone of the same sex. (back in the "i thought i was bi" days.. mind you since i wasn't actually bi, maybe it wasn't a crush? ugh, that's confusing.. haha.)
40. Been in love.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 87%

41. French kissed.
42. Laughed so hard you cried.
43. Cried yourself to sleep.
44. Laughed yourself to sleep.
45. Stabbed yourself. (not.. on.. purpose.. >> i stabbed my right palm and both arms against a nail. those were emo looking wounds, let me tell you.)
46. Shot a gun.
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day. (i suck at telling people i don't like then..)
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours. (much longer. )
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
50. Watched an animal die. (FUCKING PETA VIDEOS.)


PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 81%

51. Watched a person die. (dumb "shocker" videos online..)
52. Kissed and/or messed around somewhere with at least 1 person present.
53. Pranked somebody.
54. Put somebody in the hospital.
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
56. Kissed somebody of the same sex.
57. Dressed punk.
58. Dressed goth.
59. Dressed preppy.
60. Been to a motocross race.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 76%

61. Avoided somebody.
62. Been stalked.
63. Stalked someone.
64. Met a celebrity.
65. Played an instrument. (clarinet and electric bass.)
66. Ridden a horse. (never again. >[)
67. Cut yourself.
68. Bungee jumped.
69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
70. Been to a wild party.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 70%

71. Got caught stealing something. (when i was like.. 4.. i stole a gummy worm.. badass!)
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls. (he deserved it.)
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74. Gone out with your friend's crush.
75. Got arrested.
76. Been pregnant.
77. Babysat.
78. Been to another country.
79. Started your house on fire.
80. Had an encounter with a ghost.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 67%

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
83. Cried over a family member of the opposite sex.
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for 3 months or more.
85. Sat on your butt all day.
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
87. Had a job.
88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
89. Been called a whore.
90. Danced like a whore.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 63%

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity.
92. Been in a car accident.
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94. Been told you have beautiful ha... ]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/19474991/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/19474991/ Sat, 19 Jul 2008 00:17:05 PDT
My artistic side has completely died with nowhere to put my creativity.

So, I figure I may as well submit things.

I do not need to be involved with the community to share my art with it.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/19348538/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/19348538/ Sat, 12 Jul 2008 04:37:02 PDT
Since quitting DA, life is still going fine. I no longer draw, and have taken a new interest in Graphic Design. This is a much less stressful form of art, one I prefer greatly - and also the career I am planning on pursuing later in life.

I made it through my first year of high school, I'm alive, I'm sane. My marks were shit, I don't care, I still passed all my classes. Grade 11 next year, only 2 years to go.

I'm turning 16 in just 12 short days. I have fewer friends to share this joyous occasion with now, but I know the friends I do have will make it worth while. <3 I'll be attending Drivers.Ed very soon to get my hand on a teenagers greatest prize - their license. I'm also working on getting a part time job where my mother works, which is a company that revolves around Graphic Design, more specifically - the design of toys.

I'm really excited about all this, it's quite overwhelming. I'm getting older every minute! Jesus Christ, soon I'll be an adult and I'll be old and cranky all the time.

I've officially made it 3 months having quit DA, Neopets. I'm still good about it. <3 Now that I've quit, I have no clue how any of you can even play this shit, let alone deal with all the constant retarded drama pixels seem to envoke.

My love is back with WoW, though I no longer play the Retail servers, I prefer to stick with Private servers.

I've seemingly developped Insomnia, however. Which is a slight damper to my flame - but I'm dealing with it. My temper is nowhere near as bad as it used to be, and the lack of sleep is not making me cranky, as it would have done in the past.

I'm glad to see everyone is trudging along their day to day lives all the same. I don't know how you do it like you do. I'm waiting for the day when the pressure makes you crack and someone is forced to pull an Ashley spur-of the moment.

I honestly didn't think this would work out, that I'd be back here groveling at your feet for forgiveness, but. Lol. I think Neopets and the whole community involved around it is, honestly, BULLSHIT. I don't need forgiveness from anyone for leaving.

(:

Anyways. I thought I'd do this, because, like I said, it's 8:30am, and I ain't got shit else to do with the SubetaDrama going on.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/18436612/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/18436612/ Wed, 21 May 2008 18:43:56 PDT not back. Not by a long shot. xD

Just wanted to let you all know things are going a lot better.

The first two days were a little gloomy, but I haven't been depressed since. Or angry. I've been... Happy. o_o

So, no, I'm not dead or anything. xD Alive and kicking.

Hope your guys' lives are going well.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/18185515/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/18185515/ Mon, 05 May 2008 17:50:40 PDT
-wave-

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/18085854/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/18085854/ Tue, 29 Apr 2008 12:35:45 PDT
I've got the flu, and no medication for my headaches and neck pain.

AndI spent all morning nauseous.

Ick.


]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17963998/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17963998/ Mon, 21 Apr 2008 17:32:22 PDT
Teenage angst ftw.


]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17855231/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17855231/ Mon, 14 Apr 2008 19:31:08 PDT
Well - I like a few tiny aspects.

The rest can fuck itself.

Two more months to live through, just two more months...


]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17808158/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17808158/ Sat, 12 Apr 2008 07:01:42 PDT
I'm sensing a bye bye laptop, bye bye tv.

This is what I get for sitting next to my friends.

And shunning school.

But we'll skip that last part.

Fuck.


]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17765371/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17765371/ Wed, 09 Apr 2008 14:37:56 PDT
Fuck that movie is a laff riot. Her mother aptly pointed out that the little kid they take in looks like a guy we know named Thomas. So I had to say. "THOMAS KILLED SWEENEY. OHEMGEE." I think we said it about 20 times after that. Sad.

And after it was done, we decided to be the barber and the wife! And live their life story. So in her room I did a spaztic mini-dance, and then butchered her with a Tifa pillow.

Yes, in my world, we hurt people with Tifa pillows.

Anyways. Lol. So, that's it? I just felt like updating.


]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17672245/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17672245/ Thu, 03 Apr 2008 18:11:38 PDT I'd like to say that my friends Gabby and Erika are..

Well retarded.

I'd just came back from the guidance counsellors office into my english class, so I went to the back to talk to them. And shit hit the fan.

Gabby was all like. "DID YOU KNOW LIKE REFINED SUGAR EXPLODES WHEN YOU PUT A LIGHT TO IT?" I was like. "NO WAY!"

So then we got into this discussion.

"WOULDNT IT BE THE BEST EVER, IF I CALLED THE SCHOOL ON A BOMB THREAT? AND I SAID. "BITCHES IF YOU DONT CANCEL SCHOOL, IVE DUMPED ALL THIS FSKING SUGAR ON THE ROOF. AND I SWEAR TO GOD. I SWEAR TO GOD I'LL LIGHT IT. I WILL."

I had to laugh. It was so retarded. And then we went further.

"WHAT IF WE BROUGHT IN PEANUT BUTTER, AND WAVED IT AROUND. AND SWORE TO GOD WE WOULD USE IT!?" "NO NO NO. WHAT IF WE COVERED OURSELVES IN PEANUT BUTTER. AND CAME TO SCHOOL AND WENT, 'WERE GONNA KILL ALL THE PEOPLE WHO'RE ALERGIC. OH SHIT MAN OH SHIT!!!!"

And then... We got into training birds.

"WOULDNT IT BE AWESOME IF WE TRAINED BIRDS TO DO OUR DIRTY WORK? WE COULD TOTALLY COVER THEM IN PEANUT BUTTER, THEN GET THEM TO FSKING CRASH THROUGH THE WINDOWS. AND TOTALLY DIVE BOMB EVERY ONE. HOLY SHIT YES."

And then. The "ultimate" suicide.

"IM GOING TO COVER MYSELF IN PEANUTBUTTER." "...DONT FORGET THE SUGAR." "OH SHIT, YEAH SUGAR. AND THEN, AND THEN. GO ONTO THE ROOF, AND COVER THE ROOF IN SUGAR. THEN IM GOING TO FSKING LIGHT EVERYTHING ON FIRE. AND EXPLODE."

"HOLY SHIT. SUICIDE!"

"ATLEAST IT WOULD SMELL GOOD. IT WOULD SMELL REAL GOOD."

"OH EM GEE. IT TOTALLY WOULD SMELL GREAT. WOULDN'T IT!?"

"OH OH OH. WHAT IF WE BROUGHT A BOTTLE OF PERFUME IN THE SCHOOL, AND THREATENED EVERYONE WITH THAT? YEAH YEAH YEAH. WE SHOULD. WE SHOULD COAT OURSELVES IN PERFUME AND RUN THROUGH THE SCHOOL."


We were laughing so hard Erika almost went blue in the face. xD She couldn't breathe.

It's sad that this is how we act when we're sober


]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17592317/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17592317/ Sun, 30 Mar 2008 15:24:39 PDT
So now I don't know what to do. It was the only thing I had to do.

And I wasted 10 bucks on a gold account.

I thought I couldn't get more angsty. But, so yeah.


]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17587342/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17587342/ Sun, 30 Mar 2008 10:15:16 PDT
They treat me like dirt! How am I supposed to deal with that for the next 2 years of high school.

Ughhhhh. When I graduate I swear to god I am moving so bloody far away.

-end rant-


]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17544432/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17544432/ Thu, 27 Mar 2008 16:10:17 PDT
But now my mom's doing it too.

How fabulous! 8D


]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17466449/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17466449/ Sat, 22 Mar 2008 22:39:33 PDT
[link]

I desperately need 1 months gold account. xD I have two pets that need replacing.

15 with no job and a mom who won't buy you shit? xD Yeah, gotta rely on some kind folk buying the 1 month token and sending it to me.

WHO'S WILLING TO SPEND 5 DOLLARS ON THE ASH-MEISTER, HMM?

xD -shot-

Anyways, anyways. Got Brawl. It's awesome. Nuff said. 8D


]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17450048/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17450048/ Fri, 21 Mar 2008 21:36:58 PDT
Anyways. Cut down on the stamps to the bare nessecities.

Getting SSBB for easter tomorrow, so I'm pretty stoked.


]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17380246/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17380246/ Mon, 17 Mar 2008 13:58:41 PDT
Haruum. Well, as some, very few, almost nobody, knows, it's my "sweet sixteen" this year. I feel like I just got dumber saying that, too. Get to start taking drivers ed., forced into a proper part time job, blablabla. But atleast I can say "I'm 16!" And not feel like quite so much of a little kid. xD 15 is such a failing age.

Anyways, enough with the rambling. One of my best friends, one I went to Animaritimes with, mentioned to me that this summer in Quebec there's an Anime North convention, which is a shitload bigger than Animaritimes. Her big sis' already said she'd drive us down, as long as we were well behaved, and didn't bring any friends she didn't know. xD I've known her since I was 12, so, no biggie on my behalf.

I'm thinking of asking my parents to not give me presents for my birthday whatsoever, and instead give me the 200$ I'll need for my full LuLu costume, and then like another 150$ for the hotel room, and then 200-300$ to shop at the con. I mean, my dad was going to give me 200$ alone to buy clothes for my birthday, so I'm thinking they wouldn't mind splitting the approx. 700$ I want to go down there if I tell them to not buy me birthday presents instead.

'Course, this isn't a definate plan. I still have to discuss it with them, and I won't do that until Animaritimes is a bit further in my past. XD My dad is pretty reasonable, I'm not worried about bargaining the money out of him, it's more my mom I'm worried about.

Got a presentation to give this week, barf. Luckily my seminar was postponed... Until the 31!? o__O I have no clue why it was shoved 10 days ahead, but, fuck, I'm not complaining. Any postponement is met by a happy Ashley. ^__^;

It's easter soon! I know it's childish to still get excited over the holiday, but, come on, give a girl a break. Extra long weekend, and lot's of fsking candy. I LOVE candy. 8D -dancedance-

Oh, I've been preoccupied lately with my new old obsession. StepMania, but... ONLINE. Bahahahahahah. I love SM, it's addicting when you find DDR addicting but can't buy DDR. xD -prods dusty dance mat-

That's about it though, Im done rambling.

Hope everyone's doing well!

http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17339425/ Fri, 14 Mar 2008 22:24:14 PDT
Not to mention I'll have maybe 2 presentations to give next week, one a 60 min. seminar.

And my bi-polar disorder kicked the hell back in overdrive because of so much shit, I don't know how to handle it anymore.

Anyways. W/e. Just me being emo, as always.

<... ]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17294766/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17294766/ Tue, 11 Mar 2008 23:21:25 PDT Ugh. I miss Animartimes.

I want to go back and never come home.

Blahh.

I still have the freaking flu. Not fun!

http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17269797/ Mon, 10 Mar 2008 11:32:19 PDT Alright. I officially have journal CSS that's good enough for me.

Not too complicated, nice and simple.... Simple is nice.

<... ]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17255957/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17255957/ Sun, 09 Mar 2008 12:51:50 PDT Back from Animaritimes! I'm a mixture of sad, and relieved. xD

I got the flu when I was down there, so... I had to miss the huge dance to sleep, which kind of sucked, and I ended up getting super bitchy. But oh well.

Went as L the first day, then went as a random Akatsuki member the second day.

Went on a shopping spree. Bought a helluva lotta plushies. A Cloud plushie with his FFAC outfit on, buster blade on his back, and frown on his face. Then a Sora plushie, which looked almost exactly like this:
[link]
Then I bought a plushie of the Shinigami from Death Note (Ryuk.)

Bought a Kodocha no Omocha hat, this exact hat:
[link]

Bought a LoZ Twilight Princess wall scroll:
[link]

Um.. Then I bought three double-boxes of chocolate covered Pocky...

Then I bought a Special Edition Ghost In The Shell Stand Alone Complex DVD. xD Came with the OST and I'm pretty excited to listen to it.

And then I bought a print of Roxas and Axel holding hands and blushing. Its adorable. xD

OH. xD I also bought 3 chibi pins. One of Cloud (FFAC vers.), one of Axel, and one of L. And I bought a bookmark with Vincent on it.

Got to meet the author of DramaCon and talk to her too. My friend was with me and she was very nearly having a heart attack. xD

All in all, besides being sick, it was great. Lotsa fun.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17202034/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17202034/ Wed, 05 Mar 2008 20:47:05 PST Almost time for the Animecon. T_T Sooo close.


I have to kill Britt before I go though, sooooo!

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17120504/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17120504/ Fri, 29 Feb 2008 16:29:46 PST [7] days to Animecon!

Got my baby (aka laptop, aka Steve) back!

My mom completely fucked up the adaptor connector IN the laptop, (and blamed it on me. great. lol.), so the guy managed to fix that.

He also added a spyware/anti virus protector, cleaned my fan, defragged, cleaned up my memory, and got me a memory stick so I can loud bigger programs off of the memory stick onto my comp.

It only cost 100$ o_o He felt bad when he told them the actual price, and how hard it would be to fix, so he ended up staying up until like 5am to fix it, did a bunch more than we asked him to, and reduced the price.

Unfortunately it's impossible to completely fix the adaptor input, so it's a tad sensitive if I move my laptop, it'll deconnect. Its' fine though I don't walk and use it or anything.

THERE WAS SOMETHING ELSE I WAS GONNA SAY. BUT I FORGOT.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17104082/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17104082/ Thu, 28 Feb 2008 14:37:21 PST [8] more days to the Animecon!

So I decided on going as L from Death Note. This is mostly due to my lack of money, therefore I had to pick someone fairly simple.

ANYWAYS L is AMAZING. So it doesn't even matter.

Next year I'm going to get ready in advance. I'm going to go as Lulu from FFX. And then for the big dance they have I'm totally going as Elli from Harvest Moon.

So at the dance for this year, I'm going to LURK in the SHADOWS because I have no proper outfit, so I'm staying in my L costume for it. I'm going to be a creeper and.. Creep. Roffl.

I want to join in the Karaoke too and sing Passion or Invoke. Haven't decided. BUT I WANT TO SO BAD. It'll be great. XD I'll probably chicken last second. BUT ITS THE THOUGHT THAT COUNTS.

And then I'm totally joining in the DDR TOURNIES. Hahahaha.

I finally got a glance at our Course Selection Book for next year. Grade 11. Scary. GETTING OLD. I haven't got my proper Book yet, which is really pissing me off because everyone got one. But I did have enough time to pick the courses I want for next year. Ran them by mom' too, she's okay with them.

So I'm thinking about taking Mathematics Advance 11A and 11B, because I know I can do it, and the Advanced Courses will be a lot better for me. I had to take the damn 10 Plus course this year because I missed so much because I moved, what, 5 times last year? But I'm all caught up and now the pace is just way too slow, and it's aggravating. So.

I'm also taking English 11, because it's mandatory. Eh. It's English. Nothing to explain there.

I'm taking Canadian History, because my damn IB Histoire Ancienne doesn't get me the credit I need to graduate, so I have to take another History Course.

Taking Oceans 11 for my science. I refuse to take Bio 11, I just don't like Biology. Definately not going to be a doctor anymore... Hahaha.

That and I'm taking Design 11 and Art 11. For the obvious reasons, that they're both awesome (imo) courses. Design is just helpful for what I do, and I'm taking an Art course every year, I vowed that to myself.

And then my 8th course is my free that I'll have for one of my semesters. I'm hoping I get it 1st semester. I just don't want it for my 2nd. Lol.

Anyways. LONG JOURNAL. And I didn't rant once. Proud of myself. Hahah. Anyways. Yeah.

Not to mention I probably won't be doing my 60 minute Seminar presentation until AFTER March Break. Presentations are supposed to star this Monday, and we're supposed to be the 5th group to go. Which is Friday right before the Break. Every one skips that day, and I'm skipping so we can drive to the Con in time for noon when the Opening Ceremony starts.

Bit o' stress off my chest for now.

~<3

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17077194/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17077194/ Tue, 26 Feb 2008 16:55:02 PST So my laptop broke a few months ago?

Well (no thanks to my mom) something's finally being done about it.

My dad found a guy who could fix it, but it turns out it's not worth fixing. Too much money when I could just get a better one for not much more.

So my dad (big shock he's doing it all... Not.) is going to try and find me a good laptop by the end of the week, when I go to his place.

Thank god. I hate sharing a computer.

Of course, it means no new iPod. But, oh well. It's worth it. I miss having my own comp.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17060605/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/17060605/ Mon, 25 Feb 2008 16:06:30 PST Bye bye baby balloon
My feelings are blue
One day you were mine
We're now just apart

Bye bye baby balloon
My feelings were true
We thought it just right
To pass it bye

I feel really alone.

Lol.

But whatever. I only feel that way, what, every day of the week?

Depression was so much funner than despair.

Every day is the same. Same routine, same people, same classes, same work.

Will it ever change?

Ignore my angsty emoness. Just having some problems dealing, as usual.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16996286/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16996286/ Thu, 21 Feb 2008 16:21:51 PST RULES:
1) Answer the questions below
2) Take each answer and type it into dA search box
3) Take a deviation from the first page of results (may use ' popular' or 'newest' ) and post thumb (for subscribers) or link (non-subscribers)
4) You can't copy the persons answers who posted this before you


1. The age you will be on your next birthday: 16


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2. A place you'd like to travel: Italy


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3. Your favorite place: At home. -loser-


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4. Your favorite object: My dad's electric bass~


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5. Favorite food: Sushi!


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6. Your favorite animal: White Bengal Tigers


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7. Your favorite color: Sky blue


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8. The town/state/etc in which you live: Halifax


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9. Name of past pet: Tigger (raddest cat ever. D


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10. A dream come true: Becoming rich.. :/ -shallow'd-


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11. Your nickname/screenname: Dark


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12. Middle name: Alexandra


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13. Favorite Smell: Vanilla


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14. Bad habit of yours: Being angry


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15. Your first job: Babysitting.. Roflmao..


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16. Favourite Movie: Madagascar!!!


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17. What are you doing right now? Working on a Project


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18. Whats The Weather Like? Cold and cloudy


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19. Favourite Sport: Hockey<3


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20. Favourite Music/Style/Band: Matchbox 20


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]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16907040/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16907040/ Fri, 15 Feb 2008 23:19:09 PST -----------• × • A L L A B O U T | M E • × •--------------

Name: Ashley
Single or taken: Single
Gender: Girl
Birthday: 07-14-92
Sign: Leo
Hair color: Dark brown
Eye color: Blue
Height: 5'4
Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Straight

-----------• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •--------------

Where is your favourite place to shop for clothes?: D-Tox. It's awesome.
Favorite designer?: Nadda clue.
What is your sexiest outfit?: Me. Sexy. Yeah fucking right.
What is your most comfortable outfit?: My devil hoodie.
What do you usually wear?: Jeans/t-shirt/sweater

--------------• × • S P E C I F I C S • × • -------------------

What kind of shampoo do you use?: Some crap anti-dandruff stuff that doesn't work.
What are you listening to right now: No one.
Who is the last person that called you?: Gabby to talk about the Animecon.
How many buddies are online right now?: Some.

-------------• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •-----------------

Foods: Sushi.. Shepherds Pie.. Pumpkin Pie.. COOKIES.
Girls names: Samantha, Cadence, Addy, Alexandra
Boys names: Dante and Damien
Subjects in school: Math

----------------• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •-------------

Given anyone a bath?: Lulz.
Smoked?: Nope.
Bungee jumped?: I love me my heights, not on a cord that could lead to my death.
Made yourself throw up?: Nah.. Too chicken.
Skinny dipped?: Ick.
Ever been in love?: HAHA.
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Nah, I'd feel too guilty.
Pictured your crush naked?: HAHA.
Actually seen your crush naked?: HAHAAH. Lol. This is so relevant in such an unrelevant way. Ooer. Almost. God damn you and your cellphone and your girlfriend telling you to take a picture and me being forced to see. I CURSE YOU.
Cried when someone died?: No. No one who's been close to me has died.
Lied: Sure.
Fallen for your best friend?: HAHAHA.
Rejected someone?: HAHAH.
Used someone?: No.
Done something you regret?: Every minute of the damn day.

------------• × • C U R R E N T • × •---------------

Clothes: Black hoodie with white stars, tiger-striped hearts, and polka-dotted guitars. Dark jeans. Pink t-shirt. Black and purple striped socks with stars.
Music: Nadda.
Smell: I can kind of smell Piper. Stinky dog.
Desktop picture: Harvest Moon~
CD in player: Don't Play With Matches - Tabitha's Secret
DVD in player: Season 1 of Fam. Guy I think.

----------------• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •----------------------

You touched: Michelle.
Hugged: Michelle. Lol.
You IMed: Uumz. Sassi?
You yelled at: Chantal. We had a yelling war.
You kissed: No one~ I've never kissed a person. -loser'd-

---------------• × • A R E | Y O U • × •---------------------

Understanding: I try to be.
Open-minded: Yes.
Arrogant: I'm sure I can be.
Insecure: All the time.
Random: Extremely.
Hungry: Yah. Doesn't mean I'll eat though.
Smart: Define smart.
Moody: 24/7.
Hard working: Not at all.
Organized: No way, jose.
Healthy: Not particuliarly.
Shy: Yes.
Difficult: All the time.
Bored easily: Very.
Obsessed: Sadly.
Angry: Usually.
Sad: Usually.
Happy: Kinda.
Hyper: Always.
Trusting: Not anymore.

---------• × • W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A • × •--------

Kill?: Nah..
Slap?: Lol. The world.
Get really wasted with?: No thanks~
Get high with: Lol. Me. High. Right.
Talk to offline: No one particuliarly.
Talk to online: Britt. But she won't get the hell on.
Sex it up with: ...

------------------• × • R A N D O M • × •---------------------

In the morning I: Lay there and pet Piper. Wonder what the fuck day it is, and why I bother going to school.
I dream about: Things that play on my insecurities.
Sexual preference: Boys.
What do you notice first in the gender you're into: Hair and clothes. -shallow'd-

---------------• × • W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R • × ---------------

Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi.
Flowers or candy: Candy.
Tall or short: Tall.

---------------• × • W H O • × • ---------------

Makes you laugh the most: No one anymore. Lulz.
Makes you smile: Some people.
Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: Failing to answer.

--------------• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •-----------------

Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: Sure do.
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Never.
Wish you were younger: Yeah, if everyone de-aged w... ]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16901436/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16901436/ Fri, 15 Feb 2008 15:56:32 PST My mom finally did something to make up for my misery!

I finally got around to asking her permission to go to the Animecon in Moncton this March Break. I told her I'd give up buying a new cellphone to get the money.

So I get to skip the last day of school before March Break, which is when me and my two friends will be driving down to Moncton. We rented a hotel room. It's gonna be super fun! There's Karaoke, Vendors, DDR Tournies, a Soul Calibur Tournie, Free Wii Play, Anime Movies playing (Princess Mononoke, Kiki's Delivery Service), Plushie Making, and so much other stuff. There's even Yaoi, Yuri, and an 18+ Garage Sale, which sadly we can't get in to. XD

I am super super excited. <3 My mom promised me my share of the hotel room money (100$), spending money for the Con (100$), and to take me down to a costume store to make a costume.

Fahasnbdsamdb. I can't wait!

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16882516/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16882516/ Thu, 14 Feb 2008 13:57:37 PST Today was such a miserable day. I hate Valentines day. I hate school. I hate my home. I hate my life.~

I'm almost hoping now that my mom will break up with her boyfriend and want to move out just so I can look her in the face and say. "Fuck no, I'm gonna live with dad. I can't take you anymore."

I keep telling myself, two and a half more years. Just have to survive two and a half more years. But I'm cooped up in my house all day, at school I'm surrounded by people I barely like. My life is a mess.

If I couldn't get more miserable my heart has decided to be all "Blahjdsdak." On me. It's hard to explain. I'm too confused. Way too confused. I wish this would all end. Not my life, no. No. I'm not suicidal. Just this damn irrevocable feeling I've got inside.

I hate that I can't live my life normally and be happy just because of love. I hate love.

I'm being mopey. Sorry to be mopey on you guys. I need to vent. I can't stand being depressed anymore, I'm not used to it. I feel like an ant in a world of giants.

Anyways. Bah. Ignore me. It doesn't even really matter. My friend keeps telling me. "You're one of my best friends, I don't want to see you waste your life away You've gotta get over it."

I can't stop wishing it was that easy. Sadly, as time has proven over and over, it's not that fucking easy.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16853735/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16853735/ Tue, 12 Feb 2008 18:29:55 PST I am in a slump.

Not a depressed slump. A creative slump. I just.. Can't do anything. oO My art marks over all and on my final exam boosted my spirits.. For 20 minutes. Eh heh. Fabulous.

I've also started contemplating what the meaning of my life is. It's really lacking, not sure what to do there~

Valentines day is coming, fuck I hate Valentines. It's a day where I get to sit around and feel 20x lonelier than usual because no one can be bothered to gimme candy. None the less a hug. No hugs, no candy, no love for Valentines.

I need a boyfriend.

Too bad I haven't met any guys.

I need a neutral country to introduce me to guys who would actually like me. Rofl.

How weird am I, that I sit around contemplating these things? I need a god damn life. 83

COME ON SNOW DAY TOMORROW. Mama needs another day to relax.




I'm starting to have way too much time on my hands to think. I keep thinking in the past, I can't get my mind away from it. I can't help but feel like a jerk, an idiot, and remorseful.

I wish I had a time machine.

Maybe my life wouldn't be so screwed up.

Maybe I'd be normal.


But don't take that as an "I'm depressed" cry for help. I'm not right now. Just kinda confused.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16784661/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16784661/ Fri, 08 Feb 2008 12:49:48 PST To making journal's. xD Venting and ranting is fun.

I decided to remake four of my old old characters~ Old old. Wolfy might remember one.. Or two, depends. She should remember one concidering she roleplayed with her. Haha. You might remember the other one because I roleplayed her with.. Miso? A longlonglong time ago.

Anywho, I'm remaking Jigig and Angel my first two Neopets roleplay characters ever, and.. Glacia and Heik, who were my first serious Lupe's. xD

I was such a nerd back then~ They all had these damn geeky names. Like Jigig567234, Angel_Aisha567234, Glacia_The_Ice_Lupe or something along those lines, and Heikla_Muna.

I think I pulled the names out of my ass.

I should say, this weekend my sketchbook will be my faithful companion.

I can't stop hiccuping. T_T I've been hiccuping for like 20 minutes and it's driving me insane.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16769146/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16769146/ Thu, 07 Feb 2008 12:18:15 PST Sorry about my inactivity~

My new classes packed a bit more on than I expected. I went from having 1 class with strict homework, to 3. x3 Definately have to get used to that.

My history class is fucking hell. We've had two classes, already had a mini project, and I have a seminar. For those of you unaware, the seminar is done in groups of 2-3 people (I have a group of three), and is a 60 minute long presentation for each group. There are 9 groups, each assigned to different areas. (Mesopotamians, different information on Greece, China, different info on Rome, and Aztecks/Incas/etc.) I got China, which is fine, but I really wanted to do Greek mythology/religion, or Roman mythology/religion. They were the first two picked, big shocker.

Did I mention the whole thing is in french? Wonderful.

My english class is boring as FUCK. My teacher doesn't know how to teach. o_X I just spend the whole time passing notes to one of my best friends drawing picture's and squealing about the animecon coming up.

But, I was really looking forward to one part of english. Shakespeare. Call me weird, but I have ALWAYS wanted to do one of his works in school. I finally get a chance (we're going to be doing Julius Caesar) but I just know it won't be as good as I want it to be because of my bitch of a teacher.

CLM and Math are fine.. My math teacher is pretty good. Makes up for losing my other one. Not to mention he's a tech-geek, so it's really funny because I can relate to the hidden nerdiness. Though.. His isn't so hidden. XD

I have to go job shadowing soon for CLM, and I have no clue what to do about that because I can't go with a parent. I think I'm going to ask my dad if I can stay the night before the job shadowing and go with his girlfriend. She trains people with mental disabilites how to do jobs properly, and helps them get proper jobs. She says it's really rewarding, and it seems like fun.

And, asjdbajsdba. I AM SO GOING AS ASH TO THE ANIME CON. How perfect is that!? He's like my not-so-soul-mate. I used to lurve him when I was little. He was the best. Not to mention the costume will be cheap, and I can make it myself, so I won't have to stress so much about the costs to rent the hotel room and to shop.

Anyways, that's about it~ Sorry for no drawings, I'm fresh out of inspiration.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16719482/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16719482/ Mon, 04 Feb 2008 07:53:34 PST I've got nausea so bad right now I can taste what I had for lunch yesterday. I haven't even thrown up. And I hope it stays that way. =_= Throwing up is like my rival. I would kill it if I could.

Anyways~ Anatomy practice is really uninspiring so I haven't been able to draw anything at all lately. xD Except for little heads that don't fit the screen because I've decided I can't draw side view muzzles. -prods icon-

I'm only really writing this to try and combat the nausea, so if It sounds even more half-assed than usual, that's why. I WISH THE KEYS WOULDN'T CLICK SO LOUD.

I started playing Flyff last night for fun. It's actually pretty cute. I can't see myself getting addicted to it, since it's reminiscent of Maplestory for me, and I never could get addicted to Maplestory.

Anyways. The nausea keeps coming worse and worse, and this isn't working. My Gravol is taking too long to work. It's only been 5 minutes, but I took it in the first place because I wanted FAST RESULTS. Bah.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16677891/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16677891/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 16:37:51 PST
There is nothing worse than taking what has been your home for years for granted, and then getting rejected by it.

I don't know what to do anymore~

I just sit around and be emo and stare at my computer screen.

I can't even draw.

Why the hell did I convince myself I had a shred of talent?

Whatever..

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16673607/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16673607/ Fri, 01 Feb 2008 11:56:35 PST Feeling better today. Cooled down. Not so angry. I have the urge to stop drawing and never draw again.. But that's it. xD

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16665867/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16665867/ Thu, 31 Jan 2008 20:53:18 PST I'll be damned if I EVER draw on another fucking oekaki again.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16651692/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16651692/ Wed, 30 Jan 2008 22:21:52 PST I've been hard at work drawing (YUSRLY), so I need a break. xD I've been at it for over 2 hours now. Bahh.

Quiztiem!

x = Yes
/ = Half
o = No

[x] I know how to cook toast.
[/] I can do my own laundry.
[/] I can cook for myself
[x] I actually enjoy intellectual conversations.

Total so far = 3

[o] I show up for school all of the time unless I'm sick
[o] I always carry a pen in my pocket/purse.
[o] I've never gotten a detention.
[x] I've watched talk shows.
[x] I drink coffee/tea at least once a week.

Total so far = 5

[x] I know how to run the dish washer and/or do the dishes.
[x] I can count to 5 in either Spanish/French /German/Italian/etc
[o] When I say I'm going to do something I always do it.
[x] I can mow the lawn.
[x] I remember to water my plants.
[o] I study when I HAVE to.
[/] I pay attention at school most of the time.

Total so far = 9.5

[x] I can spell experience without looking it up.
[x] I can go to the store without getting something I don't need.
[/] I always understand jokes the first time they are said.
[x] I can type fast

Total so far = 13

[x] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour.
[x] I realize that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 20 and have a job.
[x] I can read a book and actually finish it

Total so far = 16

[x] I knew that the alphabet and twinkle twinkle little star have the same rhythm
[x] You just checked.
[x] You actually watch the weather.

Total = 19
Actual age= 15

I won! xD

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16626261/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16626261/ Tue, 29 Jan 2008 10:22:42 PST This looked like fun. >>

ANOREXIA
[ ] you have dry skin
[x] you eat 1 meal
[x] you're very weak [physically weak. xD i cant lift heavy things. >> -glares at stick sized arms-]
[x] you hate yourself [now hey. i think that is a symptom of numberous mental conditions.. not just anorexia. xD]
[x] you starve yourself [you try eating when there's nothing in your damn house.]
[x] you have low self esteem
[ ] you use laxitives
[ ] you need to be more skinny
[x] people always say you're skinny, but you think you're fat
[ ] people think you are too skinny
Total: 6 out of 10

ADHD (ATTENTION DEFICIT/HYPERACTIVITY DISORDER)
[x] your mind is all over the place
[x] you are hyper most of the time
[x] you barely pay attention to anything
[x] you can't cooperate well
[x] you talk all the time
[] you need attention 24/7
Total: 5 out of 6

BIPOLAR DISORDER
[x] you can act wild at times then the next day you are depressed.
[x] you are very irratable
[x] you are anti social [not freakishly anti-social.. i just need to be left alone sometimes.]
[x] you have very high self esteem sometimes
[ ] you are abusing alcohal, drugs, or sex
[x] you have thought of/attempted suicide
Total: 5 out of 6

BULIMIA NERVOSA
[ ] you throw up all of your food.
[ ] you throw it up even when you don't feel sick.
[ ] you have no control over how you eat.
[ ] you use laxatives.
[ ] you have overly exercised to where you almost fainted/passed out.
[x] you always say you are fat, when you aren't.
[ ] people think you're way too skinny
Total: 1 out of 7

CONDUCT DISORDER
[ ] you are a bully.
[x] you threaten other people.
[ ] you often find yourself in fights.
[ ] you have used a weapon that could cause injury to others.
[ ] you are cruel to humans and/or animals.
[ ] you have raped/molested someone.
[ ] you destroy property on purpose
[ ] you always lie.
[ ] you stay out all night.
[ ] you have ran away from home.
Total: 1 out of 10

DEPRESSION
[x] You are aways sad
[x] You find no hope in your future
[x] You find no longer excitement over the activites you use to love.
[x] you always find yourself in bed/around the house all day
[x] You have low self esteem
[x] everything bad happens is always your fault
[x] you always seem to be weak or have physical features hurt.
[ ] You are failing school
[x] You have thought of/attepted suicide
[ ] you have ran away from home
[x] Hope is no longer there for you
Total: 9 out of 11

OCD (OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER)
[ ] You have daily rituals
[x] you have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate.
[x] you have to do a certain thing until it feels right.
[ ] you have to keep things in a certain order.
[ ] you have harmed yourself.
[x] you are afraid you will get a std, aids, or any kind of germs.
[x] you have to check some stuff over again
Total: 4 out of 7

PTSD (POST-TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER)
[x] you repeatly have flashbacks of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[x] you repeatly have dreams of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[x] you sometimes think the event will happen again.
[x] you can be/are anti-social.
[x] you have lost interest in the things you used to love.
[x] You have not had a lot of sleep lately
[x] you worry about dying at a early age or dying at all.
[x] you can have angry outbursts.
[ ] You act younger than your age (I'll mature later. You're only a kid once u_u)
Total: 8 out of 9

SCHIZOPHRENIA
[ ] you often have hallucinations
[x] you have strange, unusual dreams or thoughts.
[x] you can be confused about reality and fantasy.
[x] you think people are always staring or talking about you.
[x] you have extreme anxiety or fearfullness.
[x] you have difficulty with relationships with family, friends, and opposite sex.
[ ] you do not take care of your hygeine like you should.
[x] you are very shy.
[x] you often talk to yourself.
Total: 7 out of 9

I suffer/ have most symptoms from/of-
ADHD, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, PTSD, Schizophrenia.

FABULOUS. I am a basket case.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16617479/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16617479/ Mon, 28 Jan 2008 17:40:43 PST I finally get the urge to play Pokemon Crater, to find out it was taken down.

My luck. xD Sigh.

Ah, I wasn't prepared at all for my science exam, but it was moved ahead a day. <3 My stress level went down a notch.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16597043/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16597043/ Sun, 27 Jan 2008 12:46:59 PST I've got an idea for a picture.. Buuttt. I don't have the capacity to make a real picture any more. The artistic part of my brain needs saving. :/

Anyways, whatever. x3 Back to coloring in makeables.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16542376/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16542376/ Wed, 23 Jan 2008 19:11:07 PST Yes, I'm back. Sort of.. I only go on DA for like 5 minutes a day. oO But, whatever.

There's an anime-con coming up about 2 hours away from where I live in March, and me and two of my friends are planning on going. It's going to be fucking awesome, I can't wait. I've got the choices for my cosplay narrowed down..

1) Aeris - FFVII
2) Lulu - FFX
3) Tifa - FFVII (her FFAC outfit.. Not the FFVII one. Lol. Too revealing. xD)
4) Yuffie - FFVII (her FFAC outfit.)
5) Rinoa - FFVIII
6) L - Death Note

Just not sure who yet. :/

Anywho. Got some of my exams done. My math is over, and I'm finishing the second half of my art and french tomorrow, thank god. Then I have to come to school next Tuesday to do my science.

Then term 2 fun. I've got friends in all my classes thank god. Makes life so much easier.

Anyways, that's it~

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16347730/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16347730/ Thu, 10 Jan 2008 17:43:23 PST The internet doesn't hold great interest to me anymore. <3 So, I'm gonna be disappearing for a little while. Bringing my grades down just to sit here and stare at a screen for hours is so useless. ;o;

And anyways, since I'm not confident in my computer-drawing abilities anymore, I'm going to give it a break. Take back to drawing by hand, since I have more fun doing that.

Ahh. Plus, my irl life isn't very great. I, uh, don't want to combine it with my online life not being great. I can barely handle one, so, maybe taking one of the list would be a smidgeon easier ! xD

Plus, I haven't been sleeping well lately, let's just say both my mental and physical health haven't been in the best of ways. x3;; I need a recouperation.. However it's spelt.. Break. I definately wasn't ready to plunge face first into the internet after such a long break.

I might post a picture-ific update or something when my mom let's me get my hair done.. Of course she's being an almighty bitch, as always, so who knows when that'll be.

Anyways, I'll see you guys later!

Toodles! xox <3 -Ashley.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16315036/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16315036/ Tue, 08 Jan 2008 12:20:18 PST Rofl. Yesterday was just great. My Adobe decided to have a seizure while I was finishing up my fursona ref, and closed itself. ^_^ It was a good moment. A good. "Yay, there goes 2 hours of work!" Good moment.

And the Furry-Paws people's are assholes. T_T Sigh.

But whatever.

I found a lot of good music to tie myself over. So... I suppose that's nice.

]]> ~Kati-Tiko http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16263387/ http://Kati-Tiko.deviantart.com/journal/16263387/ Fri, 04 Jan 2008 23:22:02 PST I was going back and reading all my 2006 and previous journals. And holy hell. How did you all put up with me? Good lord, no wonder I had no friends. I was an overtly suicidal freaky maniac girl. O_O I was embarrassed for myself reading those journals.

How does one mature so much in 2 years? I don't know. Shit happens. I always tell myself after everything that happened I just kind of went cold, and that's why I'm not bothered by anything anymore. But I know there's still some warmth left in this ol' heart of mine.

Anyways. Oh my. Why did no one tell me I was such a fruit cake? Sigh. xD

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