http://search.deviantart.com/?q=by:KawaiiCurls&section=today deviantART RSS for by:KawaiiCurls en-us Copyright 2009, deviantART.com Mon, 07 Dec 2009 09:10:13 PST deviantART.com http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss http://s.deviantart.com/minish/widgets/apple-touch-icon-precomposed.png http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/27404037/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/27404037/ Fri, 25 Sep 2009 04:55:02 PDT
01 - I will NOT draw your request until I see this in your journal.
02 - In your comment, include a link to a reference picture of the character you want me to draw. Or write me a description.
03 - Only one character per person- Remember, this is FREE.
Have fun with this, it's a great way to pass your talents to your fans.

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xD I don't mind drawing girls or guys as long as you don't mind the guys being a little more androgynous. I will try not to take too long either... Fire away on those requests!

Yay, now I qualify for a Debbeh sketch x3!

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/27249746/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/27249746/ Wed, 16 Sep 2009 17:29:31 PDT Low tolerance for BS

8D

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/26872206/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/26872206/ Fri, 28 Aug 2009 08:43:30 PDT I went home early from college for the first time in my life. Seem to have caught some pukey bug, but I think it's been a combination of the heat and stress over work for the last couple of days.

Renovations are finally done! My new bathroom looks sexy, pity there's no one to share it with, fufufu, kidding.

Aaaah, I've got a lot of people coming to me these days to gripe or ask for help on like, a dozen things \: I don't mind it so much, but I think I need a break sometimes... But it's still good karma to help when you can I guess.

I think I've grown too fast again and kind of moved on from a lot of things in my life, I feel the same, but kinda better too. I'm not too interested in what my own age group does, I'm working on two business plans, and I'm pretty sure I have something. I dunno, I certainly don't plan on working like a dog my whole life xD lol.

I feel like my tiny box I was caught in has been opened and there's a whole lot more things to look forward to now. I guess I've a couple of people to thank for that personally, and I will do so (:

It's paid to be in my situation for a long while, caught in some state of suspended animation, but it's almost time to take off.
x3

~Kay

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/26441802/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/26441802/ Fri, 07 Aug 2009 10:08:42 PDT My sister went home to Germany tonight, the renovations at home aren't done yet but should be soon.

I loooove the new bathrooms, they're really chic. Pictures will be on my blog eventually I guess, when the work is all done.
(when it finally is, I'm so hosting a girl's night on the patio or something... Mog, you and I are definitely having a cooking day together.)

I've still got to do my uni applications to do. D: Looks like my portfolio is going to have to be online too, thank God dA decided to come out with this whole online portfolio service! (Ju-chan, if you see this, I have NOT forgotten that I want to make you something wonderful, just rather LATE on it x-x)

Looking forward to December, my brother comes home and I'm off to Europe again. Trust Dad to see an article on 'vanishing Venice' and wanting to go.

Life's definitely a lot more fun now than school was, that's for sure. x3 Discounting the fact I feel like a walking answer sheet in college sometimes >>; Geez, if people need to suck up for stuff they ought to practice a bit more.

Uh. Now just to get through assignments and the rest of college.
Going on a field trip tomorrow to a village, castle and beach. Expect some interesting photos. (Photos, because I have had no time to do anything BUT assignments as is the situation with most everyone right now...)

Signing off,
The girl who's working as hard as she intends to play.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/25706988/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/25706988/ Fri, 03 Jul 2009 00:36:48 PDT
Took a snooze for about two hours today WAITING for my family to get their plans straight, and they end up leaving without me.

Bah, what's new?

I don't suppose anyone wants to adopt me into their family?

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/25565570/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/25565570/ Fri, 26 Jun 2009 11:40:54 PDT
Michael Jackson was one of my favourite singers as I'm sure is the case for most. Seeing as how I'm secretly 32, I grew up on his music and his death is really a tragic loss.

To me, Michael Jackson was one of those people who had a passion for his work. I can only hope to emulate that zest in my own career.
There will never be another Michael Jackson, but he will live on through his music which will continue to inspire generations to come.

It is sad, but the gifted die young.

Michael, you are one of the greats and will be terribly missed.

<3 One of your billions of fans.

P.S. My favourite MJ songs are: Remember the Time, Rock With you and Thriller.

What's yours? Leave a comment.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/24880662/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/24880662/ Thu, 21 May 2009 19:54:00 PDT
boo-hoo.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/24578794/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/24578794/ Mon, 04 May 2009 06:20:04 PDT
A real headache has started with the final Business class assignment:

My lecturer arranged us into groups to supposedly "balance" language, and I'm stuck with the boy from Indiana, and the two Koreans who don't speak a WORD of English.

The assignment is to make a 2 minute advertisement on a product or service of our choice (it can even be made up) and then to make a powerpoint presentation on the tactic used to advertise.

I have a very good concept and idea in mind but my group took forever because someone wanted to do a remake of Transition lenses and the other wanted to create an add for Baseketball (this is an apparent blend of Baseball and Basketball) >>;Don't ask because even I don't know.

So that's the competence level there.

By the way, no one in my group knows how to even utilize movie-maker and all of them are international students without camcorders. Guess who will end up with the work?

Even where filming is concerned, for the concept I have we need to use a house. Which would be mine since they live in dorms. I KNOW there'll be transport issues. Sheesh.

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On top of the stress, there's the Family Funeral to plan for. There's a 1000 word essay attached to that.

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English 1250 essay is also due on May 11. Need to do it on the weekend.

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I get a baby in Families class next week. And by baby, I mean a water balloon I'll draw a face on name.
We need to keep it in tact for a week.

Some of us will apparently get twins xD
Hee hee.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/24339055/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/24339055/ Mon, 20 Apr 2009 07:47:02 PDT
College from 10 - 4 daily.
- A business test in 3 days, covers 3 chapters
- A families test in a week, also covers 3 chapters
- A brochure on the roles of businesses in practicing Corporate Social Responsibility, due in the morning.
-A 500 word personal response essay due in the morning on a set statement.
- A 1250 word essay on T.S. Eliot's The Wasteland due in 4 days, with a minimum of 10 references and correct bibliography
- A 1250 word essay on Albert Camus's The Outsider due May 11th (minimum 15 refs)
- A 2500 word essay on Shakespeare's Hamlet due in May. (min 10 refs)
- A 15 minute skit on the funeral rites of a culture of my choice, presented by a group of 4 people, accompanied with a 1000 word essay complete with bibliography, plagiarism will be an instant 0 of course.
-I'll definitely have more work by morning.

So, who said my course was easy again?

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/22537358/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/22537358/ Mon, 12 Jan 2009 04:39:13 PST
Entry requirements into Curtin need some proof that I can hold a paintbrush. Durrr. Art school.

See, I knew this when I was 6, but have I ever put a portfolio together?

NO!

*scratches head* Gee. I don't know what I'm going to do, going into a Fine Arts course with mostly digital work >>;

<<; I have to work on this before the year is up *nod nod nod*

T___T I really want a neato portfolio bag for my birthday now...

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/22427881/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/22427881/ Tue, 06 Jan 2009 05:12:17 PST
Well this is delayed, but I might as well update now lest never have the chance.

Minutes ago it was decided the best that I should attend college this month rather than have a month or so to pick other things up first.

Women were born to multitask afterall, right?

So! I'm off tomorrow despite the fact I missed orientation YESTERDAY XD

Hope everyone else isn't off to a rather hectic and dramatic start to their new year. : )

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/22138270/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/22138270/ Tue, 23 Dec 2008 09:48:39 PST

[ ] gotten kissed
[ ] gotten a phone taken away in class
[ ] gotten suspended
[ ] gotten caught chewing gum
[ ] gotten caught cheating on a test
Total so far: 0

[ ] arrived late to class more than 5 times (only Art, but at most, 3 times)
[x] didn't do homework over 5 times (Who the hell DOES homework?)
[ ] turned at least 3 projects in late.
[x] missed school just because you felt like it -cough-
[ ] laughed so loud you got kicked out of class
Total so far: 2

[ ] got your mom, dad, etc to get you out of school
[ ] text people during class
[x] passed notes (for other people)
[ ] threw stuff across the room
[x] laughed at the teacher (oh and so much more...)
Total so far: 4

[x] been in a fight at school, fist or verbal (primary, with other students, secondary, with teachers. I evolved.)
[x] took pictures during school hours (technically for school)
[x] called someone during school hours (if I was sick)
[ ] listened to iPod, CD, etc during school hour
[ ] skipped a class period
Total So Far: 7

[ ] threw something at the teacher
[x] went outside the classroom without permission
[x] broke the dress code (no blue tag, that's it)
[ ] failed a class (failed a test, never a class!)
[x] ate food during class
Total So Far: 10

[ ] gotten a call from school
[ ] couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly
[x] didn't take your stuff to school (everyone has forgotten a pencil case at least once)
[ ] given a teacher the finger when they weren't looking (I'm not so crude.)
[ ] curse during class/school
total so far: 11

[ ] faked your parents signature (it's impossible, dad was a banker, mum a lit lecturer, they have great penmanship)
[x] slept in class (probably sick or feigning sickness)
[x] cursed at your teacher
[x] copied homework (only if it was THAT important)
[ ] got in trouble with the principal/vice principal
total So Far: 13

Multiply by 3


Post as "I SCREWED UP __% OF MY TEENAGE LIFE" and tag 3 people!
Do it.

And the best part? I don't think any of those things on that list really are "screw ups"

Now kissing a girl in school for a camera phone?
That my friends, is a screw up.

Didn't miss out on much either, I think I can claim to have had a heck load more fun than other people due to the severe lack of suffering Peer Pressure.

Love, your almost flawlessly perfect Princess <33

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/21641383/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/21641383/ Mon, 24 Nov 2008 02:58:24 PST

THE GUYS

1 - Joker
[x] You have a dark sense of humor.
[x] People often tell you you're 'crazy', 'weird', 'a freak'and other words to that effect.
[x] You like wearing bright colors even if they clash.
[ ] You don't tend to make a lot of sense.
[ ] You are self-obsessed.
[x] You will do anything for a laugh.
[ ] You can't laugh at yourself very easily.
[x] You're smiling a lot of the time.
[x] You are intelligent.
[x] You like to be the centre of attention.
[ ] You enjoy the work of the Marx Brothers.
Total: 7

2 - Two-Face
[ ] You are a Gemini.
[x] You seem to have two sides to you that different people see.
[x] You have taken revenge on a bully.
[x] You have/had a burn or scar or something similar visible for over two months.
[x] You believe in chance and fate.
[ ] You tend to be paranoid.
[ ] You consider yourself unattractive.
[ ] You feel no-one can truly like/love you for who you are.
[ ] You have trouble making decisions by yourself.
[ ] Blackmail is a completely acceptable method to use in getting what you want.
Total: 4

3 - Penguin
[x] You love birds.
[ ] You consider yourself a complete gentleman/lady.
[ ] You have/had an overprotective mother.
[ ] You always keep an umbrella in your bag just in case.
[ ] You are always dressed smartly.
[x] You were/are bullied in your youth.
[ ] You consider yourself obese.
[x] You have a lot of connections.
[ ] You want to work with animals in some way.
[x] You want to run your own nightclub.
Total: 4

4 - Scarecrow
[x] You like to scare people.
[ ] You have a reclusive nature.
[x] Your life is ruled by research/work.
[ ] You are scared of birds.
[x] You are tall and skinny.
[ ] You take/have taken psychology at school/university/college.
[ ] You feel your parents were loveless towards you.
[ ] You were born out of wedlock.
[ ] You used to pick on animals as a child by hurting them or scaring them.
[x] You have/had religious fanatics in your family.
Total: 4

5 - Riddler
[ ] You love puzzles and riddles.
[ ] You have red/ginger hair.
[ ] You have OCD.
[x] You are quirky.
[x] You consider yourself a 'smooth talker'.
[x] You are an intellectual.
[x] You get high marks on your texts/exams. [When I try. Though I'm not bad for a slacker.]
[ ] Most of your body is covered in tattoos.
[ ] You seldom win in physical fights.
[ ] You complete computer games with ease.
Total: 3

6 - Mr. Freeze
[ ] You prefer cold weather.
[ ] You want to be cryogenically frozen.
[x] You have lost a loved one to a terminal illness.
[ ] You go/have gone to boarding school.
[/] You are a loner. [Half right - Not as bad as it used to be]
[ ] You go all out to hurt someone who hurt you.
[x] You would do anything for the ones you love.
[ ] Winter is your favorite season.
[x] You have poor blood circulation.
Total: 3 1/2

7 -Ra's Al Ghul
[x] You are manipulative.
[ ] You would love to get rid of everything and start the world again from scratch.
[x] You want perfect environmental balance.
[ ] Science is/was your favorite subject.
[x] You consider yourself a spiritual person.
[x] You consider your age to not be an issue.
[x] You want a son.
[x] You keep yourself fit.
[ ] You want to live forever.
[x] You see the world as decadent and corrupt.
Total: 7

8 - Bane
[x] You consider yourself as physically strong.
[ ] You go the gym a lot.
[ ] You have an addictive personality.
[ ] You have been to prison.
[x] When you were younger, you had a teddy bear that you took everywhere.
[ ] You had a classical education.
[ ] You have/had nightmares involving bats.
[ ] You are violent.
[ ] You do not explain your actions.
[ ] You have a Mexican heritage.
Total: 2

9 - Clayface
[ ] You like B-Movies. [Nope. Bring on the expensive explosive actions and sets that cost the earth!]
[ ] You want to be an actor/actress.
[ ] You are a good liar. [-_- Everyone can tell when I try. Sucks.]
[ ] You make sculptures.
[ ] You enjoy the work of Boris Karloff.
[ ] You have had plastic surgery.
[ ] You have been in a car accident.
[x] You hate remakes.
[ ] You can't swim.
[ ] You reference films all the time.
Total: 1

10 - Killer Croc
[ ] You were born with a medical condition that affects your body on the outside.
[ ] You were/are raised by a member of your family that wasn't/isn't your parents.
[x] You enjoy your own company.
[x] You have quick reflexes.
[x] You enjoy wrestling.
[x]... ]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/21332749/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/21332749/ Wed, 05 Nov 2008 03:02:16 PST
OBAMA IS PRESIDENT ELECT -dances around-



Such a historic day and my internet connection is STILL crap, this is like Beijing Olympics season all over D:

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/21230227/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/21230227/ Thu, 30 Oct 2008 10:24:48 PDT gave me the letter 'C' XD
How this works: Comment and get a letter, list ten things you like beginning with that letter! (So random, and fun 8D)

1. Couture
2. COMPUTER
3. Creative Arts
4. Conversation
5. Chili
6. Character Development
7. Comics x)
8. Crepe
9. Cats
10. >> << >> CLIMAX (xD Couldn't resist.)

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/20281415/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/20281415/ Mon, 01 Sep 2008 22:34:07 PDT
YOUR BOY SIDE:
[x] you love hoodies
[x] you love jeans
[x] dogs are better then cats
[ ] its hilarious when people get hurt
[x] you've played with/against boys on a team
[x] sometimes shopping is torture (especially shoe shopping)
[ ] sad movies suck
[ ] you own an XBOX
[x] you played with Hot Wheels as a little kid
[x] at some point in life you wanted to be a firefighter
[ ] you own/owned a DS, PS2, or Sega
[x] you used to be obsessed with Power Rangers
[x] sometimes you watch sports on TV
[x] gory movies are cool
[x] you go to your dad for advice
[ ] you own like a trillion baseball hats
[ ] you used to/do collect football collector cards
[ ] baggy sweatpants are cool to wear
[ ]its kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people
[x] green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors
[x] you love to go crazy and not care what other people think
[x] sports are fun
[x] sometimes you talk with food in your mouth
[x] sometimes you sleep at night with your socks on
[x] you have fished at least once
TOTAL = 17



YOUR GIRL SIDE:
[ ] sometimes you love to shop
[ ] you wear eyeliner, sometimes (and not just sometimes.)
[x] sometimes you go to your mom for advice
[ ] you consider cheer leading a sport
[ ] you hate wearing the color black
[ ] you like going to the mall
[x] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures
[ ] you like wearing jewelry
[ ] you cried watching The Notebook (ugh, we should burn every copy of that movie)
[ ] skirts are a big part of your wardrobe
[ ] shopping is one of your hobbies
[ ] you don't like the movie Star Wars
[ ] you are/were in gymnastics
[x] it takes you around one hour to shower
[x] you smile a lot more than you should
[ ] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes
[x] you care about what you look like
[ ] you like wearing dresses when you can
[ ] you wear body spray/perfume
[x] you like high heel shoes (mainly to solve height issues)
[ ] you used to play with dolls as a kid
[ ] you like putting makeup on others
[ ] you like being the star of almost everything
[ ] pink is one of your favorite colors
TOTAL= 5

Boy: 17
Girl: 6

Hah. Ale, this thing is inaccurate. D:

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/19585719/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/19585719/ Fri, 25 Jul 2008 07:07:12 PDT Thankgodschoolisalmostoverrr.......in 4 months XD

And Malaysia needs to be closer to America N.O.W

NOW I SAY.
*froths*

<3333333333333333333333333

Sorry dear watchers, no art from me until exams are over.My school art teacher is already killing us with her uninspiring questions from the land of creativity:negative458farenheit

P.S. I don't have anything to say about dumbasses for once! It's a miracle.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/19366387/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/19366387/ Sun, 13 Jul 2008 05:07:55 PDT So, there are probably enough different documentations on the internet airways now regarding the Jubilee: Blogs, Youtube, Friendster, dA, myspace, etc!

But here's my contribution, at least something small before I put up pictures elsewhere with all the mushy Heart to Heart speeches.

Everyone did a really smashing job, after all the months of rehearsal and all the pain, sweat and blood, I have to say that it was a very good show and everyone who was both up on stage and backstage really gave the audience their money's worth!

Cinnamon Rainbow, Eureka, Ballerinas and last, but certainly not least: Much Ado About Nothing -- All of you guys were great and certainly unforgettable!

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/19070714/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/19070714/ Fri, 27 Jun 2008 07:24:59 PDT I have completely lost my respect for any and all teachers of my pathetic school.
No wait, my school isn't pathetic.

We may harbour a couple of psychotic students and some retards but... The rest of the population is quite talented.

I mean. Artists, writers, singers, dancers, liguists, science geeks, mathematicians, chess geniuses, one bowling goddess, super leaders, among manymanymany other things.

Assuntarians are really something special. You'll find us all over the world, we're like the Delta Nu of real life.

And trust me, we're in every nook and cranny of the world, most of us doing something great.

*cough* the same doesn't apply for the teachers who are...
Suppressive, immature, narrow minded, fling religion around like a stripper with their underpants, are so easily swayed, indecisive, temperamental, eternally menopausle, stubborn, have God-complexes thanks to the fact they never made it in life and are stuck with low paying jobs, have little exposure to pop culture and real life *coughGoldenShowerscough*, believe that respect is a one sided thing (sorry, this is the twenty first century, it works both ways now), believe age is equivalent to wisdom, believe they have better English than professional copyrighters, shun you when they feel like it, try to tear your personality to shreds (even you meek/small ones), are overly judgemental but blind to their own faults, externalize: blame students for
a) their husbands who divorce them.
b) their bad health (coughing,diabetes, younameit)
c) the ugly banners that turn up as a result of NOT LISTENING TO THE STUDENTS.
d) The even uglier NEON ORANGE JUBILEE T-SHIRTS
e) the weather
f) the world ending.

-_-

I must conclude us Assuntarians are all fighters because...

IF IT DOESN'T KILL YOU, IT MAKES YOU STRONGER.

for all my bitches who have suffered every example listed above

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/18887230/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/18887230/ Tue, 17 Jun 2008 07:01:22 PDT I don't think I've stopped crying for the past six hours. Plenty more hours to go still.
Bottling stuff is a bit bad for me, I'd be a ticking time bomb of self-loathe then.

Yeah. Don't ask about the puffy eyes at school.

Just. Do. Not.

Pity fests suck, and no one is going to be subjected to reasons of why because let's all accept that we face shit on a daily basis.

But...

I will welcome hugs.
I will ask for them too.

Thanks guys.
Kay, signing off.

And if you guessed Pre Menstrual Syndrome, you've won the stuffed Panda plush.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/18744631/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/18744631/ Tue, 10 Jun 2008 07:56:42 PDT Yay, an update.
I know I haven't been making much art, things have been busy with the school's 50th Jubilee.
On that note you'll see my recent deviation is in fact the *horribly bastardized* banner for this huge concert being hosted by the English club.

*cough*

So.
The theme picked was Memories. We've been having one-word blah themes since forever though I understand the former students used to theme these Literary concerts on meaningful phrases (50 years later no such luck)...

So Memories, everyone involved starts planning for their items/designs etc. to be based on the word Memories....

That is. Until some outsider comes along and asks the already indecisive teacher in charge - "WHAT DOES IT HAVE TO DO WITH STUDENTS OF THIS SCHOOL?"

So, there was an argument that this word memories celebrates too much of the past instead of the present/ future.
The analogy used was a married couple - anniversaries show you're happy for the past, and the fact you're still together.

My argument (unheard as it was), was that the students of yesterday have made the school what it is today and we of the present are giving a tribute to the past.

AT ANY RATE...

What was suggested as opposed to this simple word that can't possibly be taken out of context related to this school?

perverts, prepare to laugh.

GOLDEN SHOWERS



<sub>*cough* For those of you unfamiliar with the tern....

[Thank you Urbandictionary]
golden shower

To urinate on someone with the intention of humiliating them or sexually satisfying ones own twisted desires.

Assuntarians reading this, I hope you are both horrified and laughing.

P.S. I don't honestly think they'll change it even if they say they will.
Here's hoping anyway.

[Edit] - If Golden Showers is picked for whatever bizzare reason, then I warn that the final banner will truly be some kind of weird, weird tribute to the S&M and LGBT community.

....And I will be sure to point all those out when they've got it printed 40 times its size. (To my friends: I did try my best to deter them from some things but you know how bad a failure it was).

[Edit #2] - M.C., Our dear president was educated on the innuendo and will now apparently print a page on the above terminology and present it to severely uneducated teachers.

Rejoice, the sun is shining.
It's golden too and sure doesn't smell like pee.</sub>

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/17776397/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/17776397/ Sun, 20 Apr 2008 07:27:59 PDT And so, the number to look out for -
the big 10,000

;_; Thank you so much everyone who has supported me this far, my watchers and friends even if I'm pretty slow to update these days xD

I love you all!

Ah yes, Kiriban prize will be as usual, a request : D Just keep in mind I can hardly draw animals so try and stick to OCs, fanart , vegetable or mineral thanks xD!

As always, If you catch it - put a screenshot of it in your scraps (at least until I see it xD)

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/17600105/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/17600105/ Mon, 31 Mar 2008 03:37:15 PDT

Meme made by ~mct421
Here: [link]

Kat is
Panda is
Ale is
Ness is
Neko is
Mogget is
Nicole is
Debbie is
Jo is not on dA xD;

ROUND 1

1. If Mogget and Panda were locked in the same (really small) room for longer than a day, what would most likely happen?
I don't think Mogget will emerge the same person she was going in.

2. What musical instrument would Nicole most likely play?
Something classy xD; Violin?

3. Have you eaten around Neko?
Maggi Ox Tail soup o3o!

4. If Jo and Neko teamed up, what would they most likely accomplish?
Everything and nothing at all xD; *avoids incoming bricks*
Fine, many funny skits between LJ and Tony.

5. In a race between you, Nicole and Mogget, who would win?
Me. Unless Kazuya Kamenashi was at the finish line.

6. What's Jo to you?
Deceivingly cute. She will take over the world, I warn.

7. What is one thing Jo isn't exactly made for?
A career which involves writing a lot.

8. Will Neko eat those green eggs and ham?
No, but she can rhyme as well as Dr. Suess.

9. If Ale and Ness teamed up, what would they most likely accomplish?
Bonaventures + many, many, many more projects currently in progress? xD

10. What is or would be a good nickname for Debbie?
Defender of Brownie Rights

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ROUND 2

1. Does Panda make you hot?
*snorts milk from nose* I can't answer this question in public.

2. What was your first impression of Ale?
A rival to the title "Miss Know-it-All".

3. Jo got turned into an animal! What animal is it?
Hands down, it's a Pariah Squirrel (this meme seems to love Jo a lot)

4. Do you trust Nicole?
Uberly : )

5. Do you love Ale?
Like the younger sister I never had.

6. Have you ever been in Panda's house?
No, but I have a photo of it from Google Earth xD;

7. If Neko and Panda teamed up, what would they most likely accomplish?
Making fun of me.

8. What was your first impression of Jesus?
"Mummy, why is that man wearing a dress?" (I was 4)

9. Have you eaten around Neko?
What is with this question?

10. If Kat and Darth Vader teamed up, what would they most likely accomplish?
Daddy V and Darth Vader? They'd establish a company titled DV & DV and proceed to rule the DVD empire and the world.

XDDDDDDDDDDDD;

The funnies
Random ones that came up after the last ones:

1. What if you found out that Kat was secretly an alien plotting to take over the world together with Ness?
The scary part is that this is a completely believable question.
I would hinder their plans till they promise to let me become an overlord! >D

2. If Panda played in a movie, what kind of character would they play?
Sweeney Todd, the Queen in Narnia, Cruella de Vil, Lestat, Rogue etc.
Any an... ]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/17485379/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/17485379/ Mon, 24 Mar 2008 01:57:06 PDT Randomly, because Farblade did it xD;
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I Am A: Neutral Good Human Fighter/Sorcerer (1st/1st Level)


Ability Scores:

Strength-15

Dexterity-14

Constitution-14

Intelligence-15

Wisdom-16

Charisma-17


Alignment:
Neutral Good A neutral good character does the best that a good person can do. He is devoted to helping others. He works with kings and magistrates but does not feel beholden to them. Neutral good is the best alignment you can be because it means doing what is good without bias for or against order. However, neutral good can be a dangerous alignment because it advances mediocrity by limiting the actions of the truly capable.


Race:
Humans are the most adaptable of the common races. Short generations and a penchant for migration and conquest have made them physically diverse as well. Humans are often unorthodox in their dress, sporting unusual hairstyles, fanciful clothes, tattoos, and the like.


Primary Class:
Fighters can be many things, from soldiers to criminal enforcers. Some see adventure as a way to get rich, while others use their skills to protect the innocent. Fighters have the best all-around fighting capabilities of the PC classes, and they are trained to use all standard weapons and armor. A fighter's rigorous martial training grants him many bonus feats as he progresses, and high-level fighters have access to special melee maneuvers and exotic weapons not available to any other character.


Secondary Class:
Sorcerers are arcane spellcasters who manipulate magic energy with imagination and talent rather than studious discipline. They have no books, no mentors, no theories just raw power that they direct at will. Sorcerers know fewer spells than wizards do and acquire them more slowly, but they can cast individual spells more often and have no need to prepare their incantations ahead of time. Also unlike wizards, sorcerers cannot specialize in a school of magic. Since sorcerers gain their powers without undergoing the years of rigorous study that wizards go through, they have more time to learn fighting skills and are proficient with simple weapons. Charisma is very important for sorcerers; the higher their value in this ability, the higher the spell level they can cast.


Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?
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]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/17421043/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/17421043/ Thu, 20 Mar 2008 05:23:12 PDT ^_^ Hello dears!

In the spirit of rediscovering old passions, I've taken to writing again.

It is true I treat my little comfy nook here like a MySpace, so I went out and got an actual spot.
My camera has been sitting in a corner and collecting dust, so I'd like to pull it out again and have a better record of my (regularly drama-filled/interesting) life where I can write about everyone and everything instead of limiting it, and at least somewhere that I don't quite have to censor myself.

I don't have to clog this account up with entries anymore~ hurrah! xD

x3 G'bye!

Don't worry about the current pause in submissions, haven't been inspired lately.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/17339720/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/17339720/ Fri, 14 Mar 2008 22:56:53 PDT
I know I've been very busy this week, and I'm very sorry for canceling a lot of plans and not spending time with the ones I said I would.
Truth be told, my head has really been killing me for the past week.

Today I finally made an appointment and went to see a neurologist.

It took some hours, I passed all head checks with flying colours - the problem turned out being my neck.
Now, my neck is longer than most peoples >>; I kid you not. Imagine Nefertiti, my neck is just the same. Pretty but PAINFUL.

Ultimately, it's a muscle that's been strained. There's no way to rest it since it supports my head 24/7, but I've got some Flurbiprofen patches for it, and thus far they're working like a charm.

Next appointment is in 2 weeks.

Another related symptom was nausea. That however, was a combination of my neck and emotional stress. Um, bottom line.
* Computer time is limited now
* Stress levels must be monitored
* Posture must be watched

I'll be right as rain soon. Just happy that the head is F.I.N.E.

(Ale/Ness, sorry I didn't say anything about the check up, really didn't want you to worry)

I'm off 'en.
ALL OF YOU TAKE CARE!

P.S. I can upload my neck x-ray if you want to see how creepy/funky it is : D just ask.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/17299483/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/17299483/ Wed, 12 Mar 2008 10:49:58 PDT So, it's been ages since I've updated.
Let's see what's new:

- currently on a restless break due to
a) elder sister whom I'm determined to spend time with
b) house being revamped
c) school work/revision
d) sickness that hasn't gone away?

>>; If you think I'm hesitant to see a doctor, your guess is right. One day I'm borderline diabetic, the next day I'm being suspected as hypoglycemic? D<
Plain truth of the matter, I don't eat properly/at regular hours/wisely.
I swear it all goes back to eating habits, and I admit, mine are horrid.

Other news, CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL YOU SPM DEARS!
Especially ~Zelkats, : D You done good!

I've been thinking a little deeper as to the sort of things I might find myself doing after SPM. To be perfectly honest I've got a strange set of skills and I'm not exactly sure what career it all goes under.
Among the lines of what I know I could see myself doing:
a) Animation o3o! [Character design/ Concepts/ etc.]
b) Bartending! XD [Hey, why not? I know some German bars willing to hire exotic looking girls. I could easily put myself through college too]
c) Photo Journalism [Its a hobby for me, but I'm good at it, just severely uneducated on how to use my camera to get the best shots. - but I could also do photo shoots for families/weddings/etc. I'm good with kids : D]
d) Tailoring [Not that I'm a professional seamstress, but I do know how to put things together even if I'm not the best at putting it to paper. I know I would work very closely with two people in particular if ever exploring that road]

If you wonder why I obsess about what I'll eventually do, I suppose it's because I'm not entirely about stability. It worries me. I agree with the opinion that if you go into something you're passionate about, you're sure to succeed. So, I'd list my options.
Life isn't always about straight, sure paths after all.
It's a scary truth, I wonder if I'd be prepared.

My sister even offered a partnership; which, is cool. There's another person I would totally team up with though, *winkwinknudgenudgeyouknowwhoyouare*

^-^ Things look up.

Take care everyone. I need to go back to sleep.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/17001759/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/17001759/ Thu, 21 Feb 2008 23:21:15 PST Here Yuu.
Everyone else, do it if you're bored, yay! It's a good way to get to know your friends. xD I learned something at least.

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What level of education are you at? Or, what have you completed?

I am currently schooling in a supposedly Catholic All-Girls High School in my home state. I'm in my final year and thusfar I've gotten through the government examinations almost flawlessly, let's hope it keeps up.

Do you work? What do you do?

For a short time, I made comics and got paid about RM50 per page. Unfortunately my employer followed work to Japan and I had to get back to studying. As for ambitions, it's also along the lines of artistic creations: animation, perhaps.

What are your hobbies?

*mumbles* Proctrastinating
I draw and write to blow off steam in my spare time. The other more typical activities include: reading, jewelry making, paper crafts, creating random money making schemes and devices and sticking to this computer screen to the point of starvation.

What kind of Car do you drive? What color?

I don't drive yet, but the car I'm most likely 'inheriting' is a dark grey 2004 Proton Putra. I have little to say about Malaysian Cars, but it's a pretty zippy coupé, so I don't mind.

Did you name it?

I have trouble remembering people names, I don't want to start offending inanimate objects too!

Describe your room

It's very snug because I've got rather large furniture (due to my magpie nature of hording everything under the sun), but my friends think it's pretty cool, and frankly, so do I. Three walls are very light brown and I have a feature wall which is a raspberry pink. It's more red than pink or purple, very warm. I was very sick when my room was being redone, my dad actually did an ace job at getting the paint folk to mix the right shade.
The theme is centred around that shade of raspberry - I have sheets from Ikea vertically stripped with raspberry pink, dark purple, orange, lime green and grey. My curtains are a shade of yellow which turns my room golden in the afternoon. The colours are incredibly pop-artsy and I have random things to tie it all together. My table is a perpetual mess though.

Describe your friends

Eternally patient for one, though all of them tend to be very strong personalities - but I admit I can't get along with people who're too quiet. My friends are music junkies, the odd ones out in society and definitely the most dramatic, entertaining bunch.
They're all artistically blessed in one way or another - drawing, writing, photography, directing, singing, acting. Birds of a feather stick together I suppose. They're loyal, I love them all to bits. With my friends - it's exceptionally tough to get caught in a dull conversation, I always appreciate their company.
: D <3

What is your wardrobe like?

For one thing, huge.
Very brightly coloured, then again, lots of blacks and whites. Lots of unusual shades of red, turquoise, olive greens, oranges, blues, pinks. I wear yellow the least.
There's any fabric too: chiffon, cotton, velvet, polyester, jersey, nylon, lace, etc. etc.
Style: Traditional Chinese/Indian, slightly more gothic styles *Though I am not any part Gothic-Loli*, Outrageous costumes reserved for things like school events and a couple of suits.

Despite all of the above and all the many, many, accessories like earrings and necklaces, belts, hats, bags, jackets and things - I like to stay home in oversized T-shirts and shorts, and go out in jeans plain shirts.

Jewelry?

I used to be rather obsessed with changing my earrings daily. Chains aren't allowed in school, though I'm rather fond of a snowflake pendant I bought last year and a red star that a friend gave me.

Butterflies or birds?

Butterflies. They inspire me, and I can look at them for hours - dead or alive (prefferably the latter). Birds come with unwanted blessings. >>;

Name some of your fears.

Having everyone around me just die and being left alone.
Having my personal journal published or read by anyone other than myself.
Drowning.
Cockroaches (one X-file episode ruined me for life)
Suffocating in my sleep.

What are your strengths?

I'm able to analyze and form honest opinions. I have leadership qualities and I know how to relate to people on most levels. I'm not afraid of voicing concerns and problems to those who can solve it. I can take stress very well, and thusfar I've had good luck in life and I have God to thank.

And...weaknesses?

I take a long time to trust.
My temper flares too easily and I'm always overly judgemental... ]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16970859/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16970859/ Wed, 20 Feb 2008 00:06:21 PST I feel somewhat better today, thank you everyone who commented on the last entry.

Tagged by

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1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
3. Then tag three people.
4. Feel free to go ahead and add some questions yourself!!
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1. Ezra
2. Ely
3. Sto
4. Nen


A.Are you a boy or a girl?
1. On most days, male.
2. Very much, male.
3. I’m an incubus. [But you’ll never see my inner succubus >> Ever.]
4. I’m a Queen ;D

B.How old are you?
1. A day less than Ely
2. Old enough
3. eight years and two millenniums
4. eighteen

C. YOU WANT A HUG?? XD
1. From my love, yes please <3
2. I’m a little too stiff for that, rigor mortis and all
3. ^3^ C’meeeeere.
4. -tackle glomps-

D. You got any bad habits?
1. Berating myself for all my imperfections = D
2. Leaving the toilet seat up. But I live with men anyway.
3. In my job field, I can’t afford to have any.
4. Running with my tailors scissors. I suppose rushing in general.

E. Favourite food?

1. Parfait that my brother makes.
2. Geisha
3. Addy Pie
4. Luke’s cooking, Yam basket, Spicy Nasi Lemak, Bah Kut Teh, Ice Kacang… -rambles on-
F. Favourite Ice cream flavor?

1. Pink Bubblegum @ Baskin Robbins
2. Mandarin Chocolate and Marshmellow Vanilla
3. Lemon Sorbet -wink-
4. Red Bean

G. Who's your mate/spouse?

1. It’s -car alarm goes off and name is unheard-
2. Fara Asahii
3. YOU MEAN WIFY-KINS? -points to Adriel-
4. The Godfather : D [Constantine: -hopeless sigh-]

H. You a virgin?

1. No.
2. No.
3. What the hell is “virgin”? Isn’t that some brand name?
4. Yes ^-^

J. Killed anyone?
1. Yes.
2. Yes.
3. Yes.
4. Yes. ^-^
All: -look up at Nen- o_O;;

K. Hate anyone?
1. They’re dead to me.
2. They’ve all been pwned. =_=
3. Make love, not hate : D
4. She -was- betrothed to my lover. -cough-

L. Any secrets?
1. I have two children, not one.
2. I use my brother’s identity to get to his lover still, and no one knows.
3. >> << I “visit” Margot when Mephisto is away.
4. I make Ethan and Jude’s clothes smaller when they tease me about being short and tease them back about getting fat.

M. Favourite season?
1. Spring! My garden does best then.
2. Winter. I like the cold.
3. Autumn. Not too hot, not too cold.
4. Autumn. Has more clothing options.

N. Who's your best friend?
1. My brother
2. Sto
3. Lirk
4. Ethan, Jude and Luke.

O. Hobbies?
1. Gardening
2. Collecting weird artifacts, travelling
3. Card games, Rook and Lirk are tough to beat in…Rook. >>; (Hah! I bet you thought I’d say strip poker!)
4.

P. Favourite Drink?

1. Vanilla milkshakes.
2. I share Gatorade with Rook.
3. Adriel o3o
4. Baileys with milk


Q.When's your birthday?

1. June 1st
2. May 31st
3. September 13th
4. February 3rd

R.What age did you die and why?
1. 19, someone thought it’d be fun if I was turned into a Vampire.
2. 19, someone thought it’d be entertaining to rip my internals out.
3. I don’t recall the age. I died once from some nasty injuries and having my weakened body possessed.
4. I have a feeling I’m going to die from a bullet wound, that’s just me.

S.Are you nice or mean?

1. I’m nice I think.
2. I’m mean, generally it’s not intentional.
3. I’m a real sugar daddy when need be :3
4. I’m nice, but I can be ferocious mean.

T.What's the highest rank you achieve before you die?
1. Survivor of Life
2. God of Death [yes, laugh at the irony]
3. I inherited Hell, somewhat.
4. I’m not dead yet.

U.What's your goal in life?
1. He’s out throwing wine glasses in peoples faces.
2. Comfortable retirement.
3. Getting over my fear of commitment to propose to Adriel. >_>
4. Growing a foot taller.

V.What were you known as and who gave you that name?

1. My parents wanted me to be a girl. I’m not stating any more than that.
2. Elyza, It’s my parent’s idea of turning “Elizabeth” int... ]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16957997/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16957997/ Tue, 19 Feb 2008 07:38:26 PST It's roughly 11.05pm at the moment and I really ought to be doing an art assignment that's due tomorrow. But I don't have the patience to sit still and draw.

What spurred this journal has been a recent string of events, but it was ~Zelkats 's most recent entry on Shironu [R.I.P] that prompted this:

I'll admit to you, the general public, that very often Death is a subject that plays out in my mind. I live like that every day: "What if I get hit by a car today, what if this headache doesn't turn out to be as simple as it seems, what if I really do die of laughing?"

As absurd as that seems, it's always there, a gentle wondering whisper. I'm very much sane, I don't have any mental issues I'd safely say, I just ponder it a lot.

Relating to that, I'm always -trying- to make sure that everyday gets lived to the fullest, without regrets - hug my friends and say goodbye before leaving them, turning to look at my parents car when they drop me off, waiting for the person on the other side of my msn box to go offline, fix issues when I quarrel with anyone who means something.
I plan for my own future too: what to I want to do, how do I want to live?

You know, the funny thing is that I plan it like I'm going to die tomorrow, and yet I know by some instinct that I'm going to be one of those people who lives a very, very, very, very long time. Of this I am very sure, thusfar I've survived nearly drowning on three separate occasions, nearly being hit by heavy duty fireworks, nearly being run over, viral fevers and even rolling down a flight of cement steps with a loaded schoolbag and coming off with just scratches. Am I just lucky? you decide.

That said, it feels like it won't be the same for everyone else.
In the last three years, I've lost a good load of family and some old friends to accidents and diseases.

Cutting to the chase: Does anyone share my sentiments? Fear outliving everyone precious, being left alone.

If I have a true fear, this is it.

At the same time? I'd go on living my life to the fullest, trying my best to show everyone precious in it just how precious they are. Living to try and emulate loved ones lost.
The people around me, my family, my friends, my companions, they are my strength, they keep me alive.

There's a lot more I would say, but here is not the right place to say it.

Good night everyone.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16872429/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16872429/ Wed, 13 Feb 2008 22:34:21 PST To some, to others, "Happy Singles-Awareness Day!"

^-^





dA is spazzing, we'll fix the icon problem when it actually decides to change! XD;

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16844003/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16844003/ Tue, 12 Feb 2008 06:45:44 PST My mum is leaving tomorrow for Australia to meet up with her baby sister a.k.a the evil aunt who equates black nail polish wearers to homosexuality.

I don't know how she's going to survive ten days with that lady AND my two cousins, but she's optimistic enough.

A lot is going on I guess, my aunt's divorce has been settled and my ex-uncle's "lovechild" with his new whore is due on February 21st.
My crazy aunt wants the child to be born 3 days later a.k.a her old wedding anniversary. o_o; She's gotta be nuts.

-huff- my cousin, who we'll refer to as E, has a boyfriend who seems to be proving himself more and more to be a nut job, he yelled at her for sending money to her mother (who needs it), she got pissed off at him and went back to her mum.

her elder sister, my other cousin, has also been down lately for various reasons and is going to be on my mum's flight to Australia, so generally, my bright sweet ever-optimistic mama is going to a house full of three miserable woman.

Power to her.

On the other side of the world, my more Indian cousins are faring... just as bad? An arranged marriage has suddenly been cancelled. There's more drama over that.

Currently we don't know which side called it off, and frankly don't care. I think arrange marriages in any way are creepy.

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My brother got E-coli from drinking cold water from an Indian restaurant last night. Just to any of you who don't know this already - it's a FACT, a piece of general KNOWLEDGE that might just save your life: Never drink water that isn't bottled in any indian restaurants, same goes for the country. Seriously, you don't want to die.

Over here, they take the hose that's been sitting in the toilet (usually of the squatting sort), and use the water from there to wash dishes and make tea and such.

Heck, in my own town, we had a case where a popular restaurant was discovered to have had used (I don't know how they knew) underwear, sitting in the big pot of curry.
It caused some real noise you can imagine when the owners tried to explain it was a charm to attract more customers.

If I'm not mistaken the restaurant is still up and running.

I don't mean to bash these restaurants, but I should have guessed. I mean, in my brother's case: we should have guessed the food was unsafe after seeing two cat-sized rats dead outside near the car.

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I'm not sure what 10 days is going to be like without mum, usually when she's gone away I've always had my elder sister to keep company with, but this is the first time it's going to be just myself, my brother and my dad.
If anything I'm worried because they can be unreliable at times and it's very stressful being too young to drive (but heck, I'm too young for EVERYTHING right now D< )

Then there's the matter of food, which I have to make myself, I'm going to be living off of fat Adam sandwiches, campbell soup, yoghurt etc. etc. I can cook, it just takes extra time, and normally I'm at starvation point before eating.

There'll be laundry to do, need to make sure my dad remembers to lock the front door, need to make sure that the curtains are drawn every night and the lights are on, need to tape American Idol, need to make sure when my alarm goes off I won't turn it off and go back to sleep.
>_> BRING IT ON.

It's a week and three days, I'll live.

's birthday is this Sunday ^____^ Drop by, check out her art and her gorgii fishies and wish her!!!

Edit: To schoolmates and friends: Due to transport issues, I will not be staying back in school for
a) raptais
b) study thingies
c) interviews
d) meetings (unless it's Editorial)

Please understand ;3; Thanks.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16795585/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16795585/ Sat, 09 Feb 2008 06:02:16 PST I've been meaning to journal since the end of January. Time to update the log of what's gone on as of late.

January 30th: Exchange students from Osaka visited my school. It was basically a trip to expose them to Malaysian culture and show them around Kuala Lumpur. I swear I'll never forget how it went.
The entire trip was divided into two parts in one day - the school segment (which consisted of speeches, cultural displays and dances, lunch, ketupat making and congkak) and the KL trip which was after school and consisted of a lot less Malaysian students.

There was a lot of dispute over this visit because dozens of students from other classes, particularly the Sub-science stream class, were disallowed to have anything to do with visitors to the school. It's prejudice I guess, the class has a bad rep. I'm in a class that was looked over entirely, that's for sure. But I got involved to try and do my part in translating, which, while it was far from perfect, got messages back and forth.

I was paired with Ale (kumiko-1991), and her partner, a guy named Takeda Naoya. He's just a fraction shorter than I am, perhaps just nicely 5 feet and he looks like a mini j-rocker. In fact, most of the students looked like they had their own takes on fashion. We're talking about cowboy hats with leopard rings around, pants dripping with chains, heavy make-up, and so on and so forth.

Considering Ale was very busy coordinating everything that went on, Nessa and I kept Takeda company.
The school part ended pretty quick, then came along the KL trip - all the while in school it had been 2 Malaysians to one Japanese, but now due to bus fare and all that, it would be 2 Japanese to 1 Malaysian.
I took over for someone who pulled out from the trip, and got two girls to look after. Ayaka and Runa. They were sweet, but it was a lot harder to look after two rather adventurous spirits in the bustling streets of KL while they wanted to shop.
Speaking of Shopping. The school dropped us all off at KLCC around 1.30pm and told us to be back by 5pm sharp.

The crazy rush started thereafer.

The Malaysian students were meant to lead our little groups to wherever they fancied. Some went to the planetarium, some to the Butterfly park and the rest wanted to see Bukit Bintang for Shopping.

My girls wanted to shop. So it started from there.
Let me rewind a bit to something that happened in school.

I had changed out of my uniform and into my street clothes, and about half an hour later, realise Aunt Flow decided to visit and my pants were jolly well.... you get the idea.
~mogget gave me her prefect skirt from her uniform and that was what I wore for the rest of the day ;_; It was such bad timing. Anyway, I somehow managed to forget my wallet, and the only way to get anywhere from KLCC is taxi or more convinient and cheaper: the LRT (trains).

I thank all my sponsors who got me from point A to point B.

The trains were another mad rush. We were meant to buy tickets from KLCC to Pasar Seni to get to the Monorail(another train), to get to Bukit Bintang. After we bought the tickets though, we realized the Monorail is in KL SENTRAL (that's a station after Pasar Seni)

We took them to walk around Pasar Seni anyway, the translated name means "Art Markets", and generally you see a lot of traditional things. Wood carvings, soft pastel portraits, kites, pewter works, etc etc.

Then from Pasar Seni we took the LRT to KL Sentral. On the way to the station, these two African fellows stop this whole mob of us, wanting to get pictures >>; Anyway. We ran to the Monorail (There's a huge field separating the KL Sentral station from the Monorail) and took it to Bukit Bintang.
By the time we REACHED Bukit Bintang, it was 4.30pm, we needed to be back by 5.
So in broken Japanese, I tried to explain that we didn't have too much time - Ayaka chose to stay in one shop and Runa was with me, buying bracelets.
Then you can imagine the rush it was to get BACK.

From the Monorail to the KL Sentral station.
There were lots of people from the trip at the KL Sentral LRT station, and the LRT itself was so full that some people had to get OFF.
Back to KLCC we finally came and after that was more bus rides to get to a hotel where everyone said their goodbyes. The Japanese students went in to eat dinner while the girls from my school waited under the front of the hotel as it rained cats and dogs.

I swear it was the longest wait ever.
When I got back to school? It was close to 7pm - the school and certain responsible teachers had locked away our bags in the Counselling room. I was so pissed. A friend and I ran all around looking for keys, we found a canteen lady who was willing to open it for us an... ]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16560870/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16560870/ Fri, 25 Jan 2008 03:26:44 PST *puts self through shredder*

Here.

-throws one to class,school-

-one to raising money to pay off a school that extorts money-

-one to ELDS/Editorial-

-one to the computer-

-one to homework-

-one to art development skills-

-one to planning future?-

-one to assignments/kerja amal/presentations-

-one to sports-

-one to family issues-

-one to everyone else's issues-

-one to bed-

-one to nearest and dearest/friends-

^____^ Now everyone has a piece of me, woot!

...There are not enough hours in a day. XD;

And when you know your work life takes off, it's most likely your personal life crashes and burns.

MOERUUUUUUUUUUUU.

XD ahaha.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16516796/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16516796/ Tue, 22 Jan 2008 06:37:43 PST As most of you know becauseImentionitelevenmonthsayear. Today is my birthday.

^__^ I'm seventeen.

Here's something you never want your birthday eve/birthday to go: run 2 kilometres under the hot sun to the point you're sure you're going to pass out, get stressed over something stupid like designs and homework that continues to pile as useless as it is in making one smart (just as the running 2km will not build stamina instantly for a stupid road run), only to come home and have your computer decide it wants to do another Physical Memory Dump when half your life's work is on it (Literally), and have your parents not understand you require new equipment because hey! Your computer is like... 11 years old? (No really), and then to have just about everyone that you try to talk to say "Yeah, you're having a bad day, get back to work."

And then you call your best friend only to suddenly burst into tears over the phone and repeat the process again later when another best friend calls and then have your brother say things that do not help the situation and practically rub salt into a wound when you've already fallen on your face, and then you sob your eyes out because you can't even get online to talk to the one person who's going to ease the pain someone, and through everything your head feels like it's about to split and you just feel like you're going to snap and you finally hit the sack at 9.30pm and you absolutely can't bear to face your loving schoolmates the next day because you're emotionally exhausted and you've practically cried till your eyelids disappeared.
And later you're reminded it's your LAST year to ever celebrate your birthday in school with everyone and you just feel like utter crap?

Yeah.
Happy Birthday.

^____^ I'll plan something uber next year. Just excuse me a bit while I look for some marbles I lost.

Really though. Despite staying holed up all day and through all the Shit, my dear family and friends have been sending me wishes through all means possible, phones, msn, sms, skywriting and all, and it means a load to me to know that even if I wake up insane one day, there are people who love me who'll always be there.

The past MONTH has just been a bit MUCH, so it really means a lot to me that everyone has just been there.

I love you all and I was really just not in party mode this year, but I pledge to be an awesome hostess to an awesome 18th birthday bash NEXT YEAR when we are all FREE FROM SCHOOL and hopefully most of you are STILL IN THIS COUNTRY XD

At any rate I will be back in school on the 24th and I am expecting to be strangled forvariousreasons ^___^

VIVA LA SEVENTEEN!

P.S. Alebean and Yuu-kins gave me art for my birthday, of my favourite couples >3 They've both given me things to drool over in my spare time? TEE HEE HEE
ILOVEIT <3 Thank you dears~!

Inessa, my dear Green Bean gave me the coolest birthday gift ever PolyShrink is the next big thing since T-Shirt markers! at least it ought to be ^____^ I'm really loving it because I do love personalizing my things and she remembered that.

Thank you dearest.

^_^ I'm updating this thing later with all the other neat things I got.

Update:// 24/1/08
Tengku gave me an UBER snazzy orange leather waller from Pierre Cardin along with a bunch of party pack goodies that I love abusing in public places >3
It's a really thoughtful gift because she noticed I am almost always walking around with notes stuffed into random places. xD Thank you sweetheart!

Arisha, Alebean and Talitha gave me the latest Anne Rice novel *squeeeeal* Blackwood Farm, which I've already sunk my teeth into and is proving to be veeeery yummy.
Along with a bundle load of the most intriguing wire earrings I've ever seen. ^___^ I really adore all my gifts!

Thank you guys ;3; Love you loads!

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--- and I really do appreciate it when the people around me realize I'm into very practical or creative or personalized things. I mentionthisnowforfuturerefference -coughcoughhintcough-

^_________^ohI'mshameless. I love you all.

P.S.2 and on ANOTHER note... I recently made 4 logos of sorts for a representation of -something- that's school related. Since I come from an all-girls school, I thought it would be cute to make 4 girls presenting the certain event.

One girl was coloured to look mixed, one looked caucasian, one looked asian and the last one looked indian/african.... also known as being brown skinned, hitam manis, africano or whatever floats your boat.

So.

I suppose you could say I was DISGUSTED when someone pointed to this one little image and asked about the colouring?

I'M SORRY BITCHES, WE CAN'T ALL BE PALE NOW CAN WE?
Suck eg... ]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16383636/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16383636/ Sun, 13 Jan 2008 07:28:06 PST It's been 13 days, it's definitely time for a journal entry - Just for my own sake of recording things that've happened. I really should get a blog
Let's skip through recent developments:

The year started out smoothly - classes actually started on the first day of school, which is a rather unusual thing. Homework has started piling ever since? -stares at wheelbarrow of papers behind her-

In 2007 I was supposed to design a mural for the English/Lit club at school o_O; And with my friends a.k.a team of highly capable people I trust - bring it to life.

There was a problem - Everyone being in different streams meant that all of us still had classes going on and it made things difficult to plan when to do it. There are a lot of things in between - the wall would have needed to be scraped, repainted, allowed to dry, drawn on, painted again and sealed with car wax. Don't ask why we use car wax, I don't buy the materials. That too: Someone would have needed to make a list of things needed, someone else would have needed to follow a teacher out to buy the stuff, they'd need to know what colours, how many brushes, what type, what other materials might be needed (like masking tape). From that paragraph alone, you understand that a simple job like this isn't so simple.

I didn't have time, nor did my companions.

So though the design was completed, the job was left unfinished.
This year, the teacher makes noise about it.

There was someone who'm I trust greatly who was entrusted to take over, and they had the option to use/scrap the design and do whatever was needed.

On the day I take this person to this... this... child of a teacher, she has a FIT. A right royal FIT.
There's this speech about responsibility and such? Excuse me, It's an exam year for me, I have a greater responsibility to myself - besides, what do you call replacing oneself when one is lacking time as opposed to doing a shoddy job? RESPONSIBLE?

At any rate. Said teacher demands a letter from my mother.

My mum writes a letter, you can imagine how she feels:
"My daughter has done enough walls for this school and you do well to not threaten her grades, or do so at the price of your own conscience D<"

Teacher reads letter in class.
Teacher flips.

Cue the screaming match between teacher and student?

"NEVER FLINCHED FROM YOUR DUTIES? HA! BATTED LASHES? THREATEN MARKS? CLEARLY YOUR MOTHER DOESN'T KNOW BOTH SIDES OF THE STORY!"

"Well if YOU have a problem with it why don't YOU call her? D<"

"I DON'T WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU OR YOUR MOTHER!"

"But YOU were the one who ASKED FOR THE LETTER!"

"Can you please keep quiet, I can't stand hearing you."

"I can't stand hearing you either."

"Well then little miss smarty pants, it seemed you haven't learned your lesson from last year. Very well. GET OUT OF MY CLASS."

"..."

It was time for another class then, so everything stopped. I know I sound downright rude here, but you can imagine my frustration? The woman is barmy.
At any rate, she denies ever saying my marks would be low etc. etc.
I need a tape recorder in class, I swear.

-sigh- that was the 8th of January.

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The next time she came into class, she made everyone who isn't taking her subject move to the back - then she took my friends who're sitting behind me and put them in the front. We sit in pairs in school, she took my partner off and placed her in front (she's short, so that's actually a pretty valid reason, though last I checked her hearing was fine).

So I'm sitting alone in my spot? Methods of intimidation.
Unfortunately, when you put a loner by herself, it's actually... pointless? XD I'm having plenty of fun drawing with that free time. Besides that, she doesn't say anything about it.

She just said "anyone who changes their places will be punished and anyone who SPEAKS during her class will have to stand for the rest of it."

Pfftlame.

I just think that there is seriously a problem with the school and this society for the kind of teachers they hire. I imagine in any other country, someone like this would have their teaching license revoked. At the same time, the Principal is too much of a lost cause to realize much, and I think most of the other teachers aren't crazy for this colleague. At least, I would think if they were someone would have come to try and "counsel" me by now.

That seems to be the cure for everything isn't it? You speak in defense of your own pride and hard work and suddenly you have "serious issues"? I think it's even more ridiculous when a 50 year old woman throws a tantrum... ]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16201643/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16201643/ Tue, 01 Jan 2008 07:35:47 PST Let me start by saying: Happy New Year Everyone!

If you have a pet rat, give it a hug : D!

So, I had a lovely New Year start: aside from spending New Year's Eve with someone fun, my sister called from Germany before New Year's, at 11 something or so. I guess my sister is one of those few people who don't think I'm crazy for screaming HAPPY NEW YEAR the moment it turned 6p.m. Malaysian time o_o
Kiritimati, Christmas Islands, Kiribati is the first place was the first place to hit 2008 as far as I know. (and Apia, Samoa the last, in case you're interested.)

It was lovely to have a long chat with her, and my brother did the same.

Basically, it was the two of us home alone because my parents, the hipsters that they are, decided to go on a Hot Date xD;
Good for them!

So we cracked the alcohol ourselves and threw our own party.
Well, actually, my house overlooks a lot of things - and not that far away from home is a field that ALWAYS has fireworks for whatever the occasion - we opened up the balcony and went out there - 10 minutes of super awesome fireworks (plus some that seriously looked like sperm.)

And all around strange people were howling and whistling and making strange calls into the night air. (and I proudly joined them)

But what was the most interesting?
My brother and I saw a red star - at least we thought it was a star - but it was moving, and it got closer, but it was definitely NOT a plane! Thinking about it, it might have been a balloon or a flare tied to a balloon - but whatever it was? It went up really high, and it seemed to be able to steer pretty well.

I personally don't believe shit in Alien life forms, but that was some strange Unidentified Flying Object.

STILL, what a great New Year!

I come inside and the phones are ringing off the hook!
My handphone inbox is full to the brim!
My MSN is blinking like crazy xD

And then you have me running all over my own house with the music jamming up loud.

I guess what made me happy was that someone actually signed on early in the morning to usher the New Year in with me even though that person had to get ready for work. Still, awesome. <3 xD

New Years day itself...

Ah, much quieter. I couldn't continue my 48 hour party because Aunt Flow made a pest of herself. XD;

I'm fine now, no worries.

The forecasts are good for 2008, if you're a Child of God, a Horse, an Aquarian and downright Optimistic xD;

Hell, whatever you are, it's going to be a great year x3 That is my New Year's wish.

So TAKE CARE MY PRETTIES!
Go have fun with the partying and don't drink if you're going to be driving. Play a game of Monopoly with your friends and family if that's what you'd like or deck out the leather and go PARTAY, whatever it is, stay safe and remember that this is the start of a new day - you want to hit the ground running!

I love you all!

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16164148/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16164148/ Sun, 30 Dec 2007 09:27:20 PST So, what are you going to do for New Year's?

I don't know. I think I want to go clean my room right now.

On New Years Eve? Well, that's fine I guess. But don't clean it on New Year's.

Oh? Why?

It has something to do with bad luck. I don't know, one of those taboos. Also, they say it's bad to clean on New Year's, because they have this saying that you tend to continue to do the things that you did on the first day of the year throughout the year.

Really? So if I clean my room on New Year's, I take it I'll be cleaning up my life for the rest of the year, I like that.

Well, yeah. But it's sort of like dealing with trash and all that shit.

Good. I LIKE dealing with shit, unlike complacent Malaysians who sit on their shit and go on about how there IS no shit.

... I'm going to spend my New Years like a Queen. Spend time with my computer, my friends, pamper myself, eat well, relax....

But. You do that EVERYDAY.

I told you, what you do at the start of the year follows you through.

I see, character development lies where?

I got better at pampering myself! ^-^

-hopeless sigh-

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XD; Elder brother and myself.

Happy New Year's Eve, all of you!

(and remember, don't go-a-cleaning on New Years! PFFT, WHO WANTS CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT? -preens-)

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P.S. Don't take any of our conversation seriously, we just random like that.

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P.S 2: It's 8.10p.m. December 31, I've finished "reflections" for the year - but there's just one problem.

It's driving me nuts that I've forgotten the date I met someone o____O;
I know it was ANYTIME before September 17, and definitely AFTER September 9.

I have a guess it's September 15...or 13?

D: I GUESS I'LL FIND OUT NEXT YEAR.

HAPPY NEW YEAR FOLKS.

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P.S 3: It's 8.25p.m. at the moment.

Yes, so it was September 13, approx time? : 3:59:00p.m.

XD Yes, Yes, I am nuts.

Yes.



]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16133097/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16133097/ Fri, 28 Dec 2007 03:36:49 PST I had been recounting some strange old memories with a close friend about my school life.
One particularly vivid memory of Primary School was when I was 10.
Everyone in my class and in the entire school was personally checked by the head mistress for any bodily scars that might mean we were into a cult.

What cult I had not understood then, being very... unconcerned for matters of the world at that innocent age.

Years later, I looked it up and it rings bells. There's one particular part that really made me laugh:

Regression

But now in October, 2005, officials are once again claiming that black metal music is a part of satanic rituals carried out by members of the occult. These cult members, “who dress all in black and wear eyeliner,” are accused of hanging out in shopping malls to recruit young people. This alleged activity, now suspected to be lead by a foreigner, has recently prompted officials to place “undercover officers to monitor the situation” (AP, October 5, 2005).



[link]

that's the full article.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16106563/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16106563/ Wed, 26 Dec 2007 09:13:16 PST I return back to school in less than a week. It's a horrible feeling, but let us ignore that for now.

Christmas was lovely: I spent it with family and friends. The sermon in Church on Sunday had been about Christ being a gift. Truth be told, I remember not what the priest had said, save for a few sentences which I had mocked outrightly for being so very cliche.

A dear friend who often buys books of various genres that I enjoy delving into myself had purchased a couple of Anne Rice novels. She loaned them to me, and since Christmas night, I've had my nose in "Vittorio, The Vampire."

Anne Rice is my guilty pleasure in the sense that I get lost in her poetic descriptions of places and times long gone, of the tortured lives and trials of her charming characters, of politics and revolution and all things of those nature.

Romance wise, this book had been a let down. But that is only my take, I did not enjoy the dynamics between Vittorio and his beloved.
But that is besides the point.

The book mentions in calculated detail the life and works of Far Filippo Lippi - of angels and many Holy icons.

There are in fact, angelic characters in this story.
There is a portion of the story when Vittorio sees these guardian angels of the great eccentric painter, in all their glory of immaculate peacock- feathered wings and ethereal glow, beautiful faces and hair of spun gold. He sees his own angels then, and they are much more plain, sombre, more quiet and less spirited.

When he questions this difference, he is merely replied with the explanation that he has never quite believed in them in the first place.

That small statement, in this fictional book struck a chord somewhere within me. More than the story, I question my own faith - my lack of it.

Somewhere at the end of the book, there is some mention of all creatures, human and inhuman, holding a golden glow of the Creator itself.

I know for a fact as an innocent child I used to draw people with hearts that glowed with light.

I suppose, I am both saddened by my apparent loss of thinking and caring for those things, that strange closeness to God that seemed to exist so easily as a small child.

Why is it so easy to walk on the broad road than the narrow street, when flowers grow so sweetly beside them, promising more goodness than what lays ahead of the easier path?
The human condition, perpetually conflicted.

As a person, I feel compelled to grope for this strange dying faith, to come out of complacency. As an artist, I feel inspired to draw that which I once, and still love.

My Christmas came a day later - in the form of a book loaned out of love and friendship.
What a wonderful Christmas it was.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16065819/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/16065819/ Sun, 23 Dec 2007 21:24:18 PST Hello everyone, it's finally Christmas Eve! -confetti toss- I hope all of you have a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year and all.

Aye, okay updates:

-My parcel safely reached Seattle, that snowflake necklace has blown far from the East and is currently with the one it's meant to be. xD
glad you like dear!

-My cousins and I really hit it off when we re-met, agreeing that 2 years felt like 10.

-went for a Christmas concert with Ale and Rachel xD; It was like an astronomy class, but so very enjoyable.

-watched Alien Vs. Predator 2 with Nii-chan, Ale and his very nice friend, Tim: the preview tickets were from my dad, and they came in pairs - to our horrors the tickets seated in totally different cinemas and we all got split up - until Ale and Tim snuck in o___o! Go them.

Um. I won't spoil the movie for those of ya'll who haven't seen it besides saying it'll appeal to Alien fans and the makers must be sick in the head because what they do to pregnant women was just nasty.

Other than that, Face huggers still freak me out. It didn't help Ale RAN HER HAND ON MY THIGH LIKE ONE during a suspenseful scene and totally made me scream. In public D<
Evil woman.

Well. All I know is I give fair warning to my friends - try and do something like that again and I may just hack your hands off. (or just avoid you completely)

D<

We had KFC after. yey fun.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15989937/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15989937/ Tue, 18 Dec 2007 16:55:57 PST There's one thing about the holidays I never fancy: having my sleep cycle screwed up. I've been falling asleep early evening for the past couple of days and waking up at 2am or so.

Last night was just the same: I stumbled out of my room at 4 in the morning to find my brother playing his video games.
At 6 my dad is coming down to go out to church and makes fun of the fact I'm awake, watching TV and actually eating breakfast.

:B

On the Christmas present front: the gift I'd been working on for someone speeecial went ka-flop.
So I'm quitting while I'm ahead and going to move onto making my general Christmas greeting/ Happy New Year card. xD;

Other presents are finished and ready to be delivered ^^

Hm, other news...

My computer has been relocated. This spells good news for... things! xD -wink-

Recently, due to boredom/ loneliness/ vanity's sake a bunch of friends of mine have been passing around one of these emails that require one to answer questions and share just to get to know other better.

I'm proud to say I know all my muffins pretty dang well, but I'm amused to learn:
a) We all sound like we wear funny pyjamas.
b) Most everyone likes Post's Banana Nut Crunch cereal xD -except a rare few-

Another thing:
It surprises me to learn that people think they have black eyes o_o;
I mean, come on people - grab a mirror and take a closer look.

Most of you are asian - your eyes are dark brown. xD
If not?
You probably have Aniridia D; (or colour blindness )
-shrugs-

More real news:

There's a field called "Astaka" just a walking distance from my place.
My mum and half the residence of this town go jogging in that field every morning.

Yesterday, the said joggers found a man hanging from a tree with a hood over his head and his legs bound. Some say suicide, other's say homicide (why would you bind your own feet before hanging yourself?)

I haven't looked at the papers yet, but I'm rather creeped that something like murder could happen so close to home. >O<

Then again, it seems there have been a lot of abnormal deaths this year.


Family related:

My favourite cousins are coming to visit today - they migrated to Australia a few years ago and I haven't seen them since.

For sure, both sides have grown - it's the Christmas season and all I've wanted is to see some cherished family, but now I wonder if we'll all still be able to hit it off.

Well, that'll be another entry on another day. They're here now and I'm off.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15841388/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15841388/ Fri, 07 Dec 2007 22:20:11 PST Time for updates.

My computer monitor died a day or two ago, which left my brother to switch it with his friend's monitor which happened to be around.

That said, I realize that a lot of deviations are a different colour than what they ought to be and I've botched several CGs thinking they're darker than they actually are. :B
Sorry about that~

Bit by bit my computer is dying, although the OS was fixed: my speakers are totally techno fizzling with static all the time and my mouse/keyboard fails when it feels like it.

;-;
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Went to see a movie with the usual darlings yesterday: Alebean, Nessa and Niko-chan - we did the usual puri kura thing xD I daresay I'm getting a hang of it?
Btw, Heartbreak Kid deserves its rating of 5.6, but it was amusing to watch anyway even though we suspect they totally censored off a couple of thousand jokes.

Had lunch, randomed around in Ness's house and had a memorable day doing odd things xD x3
[Though One Utama's shopping totally disappointed me. D; I didn't find this specific gift I've been hunting for.]

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From not wanting to have any trees this year: my household suddenly has two. My mum set up two trees and both have been very tastefully decorated like my sister usually likes doing them up every year. I'm just happy there's something to put presents under.

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For years I've been using a Nokia 8890 - all of a sudden my dad gave me a Nokia 3110 Classic, okay, perhaps not suddenly: He gave my mum a 2630 model and I was having fun playing with it (and poking fun at my mum who is not a gadgets person), they took it as a hint and now I've used my Christmas wish o-o;

Truth be told? I'm not a phone person.
BUT THIS PHONE JUST MADE ME ONE. -laughs insanely-

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On the Christmas present front?

Ale and Nessa's present arrived yesterday. It's turned out pretty cool and I know they're going to at least get a good, long laugh out of it if nothing else.

My mum's gift is ready, wrapped and hidden in my room (if I put it under the tree, she'll know what it is)

She told me Dirty Dancing was her favourite movie one day and that she loves it when any music fills the air and she can just relax in sound. Also, she listens to music when she jogs.

So I got her the Dirty Dancing Sountrack on CD.
I hope she likes it.

The final gift was what I stepped out to a third mall to look for today.
On weekends, there's a bazaar in this place and lots of various vendors of all sorts of things come about.
Right outside, we found what I'd been looking for. Staring me right in the face.
Now all to do is mail it.

^___^ I'm most pleased with it and I'm sure the recipient will be tooooooo.

Other presents are slowly progressing, I know I ought to pick up the pace. D;

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My neko-neko 's birthday is tomorrow.
This sweet kitty will be turning the big 16 xD

Dearest, you're a brilliant writer, singer and have been an aweeeesome friend. We've gotten up to a lot of mischief together and you know I cherish all those memories and hope you have many more birthdays to come as we go on wreaking havoc!
May all your birthday wishies come true, and may you always be the fierce, fiery creature that you are even as years go by.

And even then, take comfort in knowing you're always younger than your batty friend. xD
I lauuuu you!!!

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15775519/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15775519/ Mon, 03 Dec 2007 07:22:36 PST
Every year my dilemma is the same: I tell everyone I want nothing for Christmas, and in turn I get them nothing, and they agree.
And then I still go out and get a present and it's a total surprise.

I remember doing that to a close friend one year, and she totally flipped out because despite everyone making deals not to get presents, people still did.


At any rate.

I'm totally in the mood/halfway making my presents.

Look out my pretties. Lots to come >3

AND I'M NOT EVEN GOING TO BOTHER HINTING

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15657883/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15657883/ Sun, 25 Nov 2007 00:22:19 PST There was this case in the papers about a twelve year old girl who killed herself because she didn't get any As in a major government exam (UPSR, maximum As = 5) and she wanted at least four.

Apparently her father had promised her one ring for each A she brought home.

One A, just one lousy grade and that child would still be alive. It was all she wanted. I wonder how much she wanted to have something to show for her hard work, some small token to be able to stand up and say "Hey, I'm not stupid! This proves it!"

It really pains me to think how much that child must have been hurting to achieve something for her parents and herself.

At the same time, that little girl's death has brought awareness to this country about how screwed up our system is, that there are those who are struggling with language barriers and the fact that the tests are aimed for those with good memories as opposed to thinking skills.

On a smaller scale?
My parents patted me on the back today and my mother said it herself that she'd rather I aim for my own goals instead of busting my ass to bring back perfect grades.
Even my dad - he told me he knows I can bring back the results, but just focus on achieving whats important to me.

I don't want to think that it took a suicide for them to realize that the times have changed and the pressure today's students face is beyond ridiculous, but they can see reality a little clearer now.

I'm really sorry for the family that lost their little girl and give my deepest condolences.

I know suicide is suicide, and that one happens every 40 seconds somewhere in the world, but I believe God looks after all of his children. At least, I can have faith that He shows compassion for cases like this.

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So friends: 2007 is almost finished and done with.
Don't give me that sad look - there must an ending before there can be a new beginning, right?

It's been a rough year and I think it's probably time to buckle down and reflect on how the year has gone - see what needs to be fixed.
I'm happy that there's shalom in the home again with my parents. Mum spent all morning wandering down memory lane with huge albums
My brother is involved in a production of Lamb to the Slaughter, so he's away.
I miss my sister, dreadfully, and Alethea too, though she also counts as another sister xD

There were many dramas in school this year, but all that seems so very far away and toootally meaningless now.

Discovered a thing or two about my family's past, good and bad, I'm happy (and exceedingly proud) that my great great grandfather was not such the bastard he had been made out to be - that although he was a sarcastic, difficult man, he was exceedingly intelligent.
Enough to be immortalized on Wikipedia,baby! xD
-clears throat-

I'm happy that things broke off with certain people for good (and the angels sing!), and things mended with others again, also for good! - love you Nessa, my dear Green Bean!

Fate took a twist in other places, and people I'd never think I could ever speak to rose to surface, totally tripping me up with their sassy attitude to life and startling green eyes.
What an angel! My dear lover of blue roses.

I realized also there are always people out there ready to listen - with their great advice and kind personalities, ready to spread joy. Be proud of yourselves, my dears, you really helped this bat pull through some tough times: OddWritings, Farblade, Raephire, BoiledFrogs, Jyezze, Bianca-Murasaki, ygmulianeko, darkened-days, kumiko-1991, xjaggedsky, the entire #AA chatroom and so many others. I love you all

Power also came knocking about this year in several places, and looking at it, I'm happy to have accepted some of it and turned down the rest - but it flatters me to be trusted that much.

We can't forget the drama of being confirmed - of seeing Europe - of the many camps and trips and sleepovers - of the awesome 16th birthday party - Law Olympiad - of artistic accomplishments within and beyond school - a number of many other strange achievements...?
(damn, I have been busy, don't say I haven't! ;3; )

I guess I can't say 2007 was a bad year, because more than treasured memories and easy times - I had a really tough time. It taught me many valuable life lessons, and at some point, I also rediscovered my thunder. So. I gained things of great importance.

What about you guys?

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15600452/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15600452/ Wed, 21 Nov 2007 06:05:31 PST Kay: *reads label*...Ridsect. Symptoms of poisoning: Irritation in eyes, nose and throat.

xD Yey! I been poisoned! *walks headfirst into a wall*

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.... Hello my darlings, I return.

My computer table recently acquired a huge nest of red ants from out of the blue and I've been happily ignoring the little blights and getting my fingers chewed to bits. o3o Today I totally fumigated... (and did not leave the room because I wanted to talk to people xD ily guys)

__ But ooooh my poor peepers.

Enough about my genius now, I'm sorry for the scare everyone's had .___.; Life tends to be a pain sometimes, you know?

But things mend with time, and I guess some of us are having lots of... growing pains to say the least.

Still.

I cannot thank those who have been here to support me all this time, for all the advice and hugs and calls and cookies and love and I love you all to bits ;3;

*squishes you guys*

It really meant a lot to me to have friends there with a shoulder, hankie,slap, tub of ice cream and such warm words when I needed it.

Okay... so before I make myself cry without the aid of Ridsect xD We ought to move along!

Holidays have started! Wohoo! but my drawing muse has escaped me ;___;
And I don't have any Ale ;O; Aleeee!!!! Ness and I MIIIISSS YOOOOU.

-ahem-

I want to go visit Seattle. >D
They have arty metal pigs >_> What could be cooler than THAT?!


~Christmas~

I want to hop on a plane and go to Germany to spend it with my sister (this was her idea, by the way) - though what are the chances of my parents letting a runt like me go on my own? I be a tiny runt. You could pick me off easily.

Even if I bite.
;3;

But even if I'm staying here, it's not terrible at all.

I've nothing too serious to update, just wanted to confirm I'm alive and happy and will make art soon.

I really love all of you darlings, happy birthday to those who's birthdays are coming up or have just passed, and I'll update again soon!

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15324580/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15324580/ Thu, 01 Nov 2007 22:47:26 PDT After close to seventeen years being left on my own, trying to break and retrain me to become more like the person who's shadow I stand in will be futile.

I've been left to fend for myself from a young age, and I've grown up like that. I like my friends and family, but I love my solitude more. At least if not outside, within my own home. Understand that I am happy this way. That I chose it for myself.

I cannot take it that someone is trying to break through the walls I've made and stay behind, only to try and remake me into what they think I should be.

If I had wings, I would fly away from here.
This cage is being shaken up and I'm still in it.

Tell me, is this what parental love should be?

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15311405/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15311405/ Thu, 01 Nov 2007 04:40:13 PDT Hey, I heard this on the radio this morning in my semi-awake state and found it amusing: Maybe you will too!

xD I sleep on my side with my knees slightly bent. I can't judge myself, but hey, if you got bed mates, this may be useful.
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Personality & Sleeping

Did you know that your sleeping position says a lot about your personality?
So find out now - its time do some soul searching.

Do you sleep on your tummy the entire night?
While you are balanced and level headed, you tend to be slightly narrow minded. You have fixed ideas and are unlikely to accept another person's opinion easily. You force people to comply with your needs, and you rarely adjust to others. In spite of this, you are popular and have many friends.

In a foetal position
If you sleep on your side with your knees curled up towards your stomach, in a foetal position, it shows that you are vulnerable and sensitive. You can get easily hurt, and get upset very easily. You also tend to be selfish, and put your needs ahead of others. This is not necessarily a bad thing, but it will do you good to lighten up a bit. You have a short temper and are easily irritated.

On your side, with your knees slightly bent
If you sleep on your side with your knees very slightly bent, it shows that you are a sincere and loving person. You are sensitive, polite and gentle. You would never hurt anyone intentionally - you're too nice a person. You have a good heart, and everyone is fond of you. You get along with most people, as you see the good in them and ignore the bad. This is a rare quality. However, at times you tend to be too harsh and critical of yourself. If you make a mistake, you will brood about it for hours - or even days.

On your back with your legs crossed
If you sleep on your back with your legs crossed, it shows that you are slightly vain and self-obsessed. You find it difficult to accept change. You like things to stay the way you are, and are constantly looking back into your past. You are a solitary person, and you are also very tolerant and patient.

On your side, with your knees curled
If you sleep on your side, without your knees bent but not totally curled in towards your tummy, it indicates that you are a confident person. You usually are successful in most of your undertakings. You are hardworking and dedicated. Your lack of success at anything is more due to your neglect and laidback attitude than incompetence. If you sleep on your right side, with your right arm stretched out under your head, power and fortune are not far from your grasp.

On your side, with one knee bent
Do you sleep on your side, with one knee bent and the other straight?
You are a quiet and introverted person. The saying 'Still waters run deep' seems to have been made for you, because though you don't talk much, you observe and listen. You talk less because you don't believe in indulging in unnecessary conversation. You are intelligent, and are of a balanced nature. Rarely will you lose control of yourself. You know what you are doing, and where you are going. However, you don't have too much patience with those who are less intelligent than you. Loosen up! You don't discuss your feelings, and are not a very emotional person. You are rational and think with your head, not with your heart.

On your back, with your arms crossed under your head
If you sleep on your back with your arms crossed under your head, it shows that you are an intelligent person. You are not a chatterbox, but you are friendly, and have a few close friends - who are all you need. It takes you a while to get to like someone. Men who sleep like this make good providers, but they don't love easily. Too choosy perhaps.

On your back with your arms and legs straight
If you sleep on your back with your arms and legs spread out straight, it shows that you are a free spirit! You love your independence. And, you love to gossip! You also don't brood over things too much. You are laidback and don't get tense easily - which is a good thing. In addition, you enjoy the luxurious things in life, and are a spendthrift. But, thankfully, your optimistic attitude helps you along the career ladder, and you probably earn a lot as well. you definitely are capable of it.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15282748/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15282748/ Tue, 30 Oct 2007 05:36:12 PDT I'm moody and most definitely depressed, but thank you Raephire and Farblade. You're sweethearts, thank you for cheering me up. I'm going to believe you both.

I know this difficult patch will pass, so no worries. But anyway. I listen to this song a lot, It's called HEMUROKKU by Mika Nakashima.
I realized what part of the song meant and looked up the rest. I thought I might share it, so here:

Hey, You! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. READ THIS!

Credits to Cherryblossom-Garden

HEMUROKKU

The repeated sins keep piling up
but too much love remains
These morals were pushed into you
You have to be calm
Close your eyes, and then start walking
I’ll be alright
I wanna figure out the puzzle that is you

How long has it been since I read Grim’s fairytales?
In order to protect you, I need to polish up my wisdom
The deep darkness grips me by my foot
so please don’t let go of my hand

If I have to replace you
it’ll be too much of a burden
Don’t worry though, I wanna always be here laugh by your side
When it becomes midnight
the monsters will probably come for you
So when they do, throw yourself if the water, but don’t lose your way

I can’t sleep at all because of this
'cause too much love remains
The marionette in my dream has become you
So before I become worried
I’ll just think that nothing concerns me
I swear I won’t use this magic spell twice

When you extend your small hand
you can even save the round stars
That’s the spirit!
It seems like you’re no longer useless to me after all

When it’s this hot, you’re sad
But it’s good to remember me
And when you’re serious, wish to
be flying forever
But if you hate it
Take the hemlock in your hand and
believe that we can meet once you’re reborn

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15268558/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15268558/ Mon, 29 Oct 2007 06:53:04 PDT So. Today was something...
I snuck out of class and went to the art room in school, which is currently a makeshift one using a small classroom.
There was a foreign teacher with us who conducted a class on charcoal sketching a few days ago, and today our school was giving her a lesson on Batik, which is a popular folk art here in Malaysia which originally hailed from Indonesia.

So. We used up half the corridors - the smell of hot wax strong in the air and many coloured inks ready for use.

I helped a couple of friends with their pieces and they were very generous with the praise and thankful. I don't mind helping people who're thankful, but I didn't deserve the praise. They were too kind.

Still, it's nice to be appreciated, it's what I wanted as mentioned yesterday.

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I lost an earring this morning. It must have come off when I slept, but I can't find it anywhere on my bed or on the ground, which is a pity because it was one of my more dainty pairs, a favourite if you will. Let me clarify that given the amount of earrings I own, having a favourite pair is an unusual thing.

My mother and I dislike losing earrings a lot, because it's like an omen of sorts that something bad will soon come to pass. I know it sounds supersticious, but the 'coincidences' happen often enough. The more precious the earring, the greater the happening.

Sure enough it took place and I said something dreadfully stupid to someone who means something to me.
It was worse because I said what I had keeping in mind someone who's well being isn't my concern any longer and...
I'm not even sure what had prompted me to say it.
It was one of those stupid slips of the tongue and it just came out in the open.

But...
I am still dreadfully sorry that it happened, and I hope this person knows that I never once meant to be a jerk, and that I care for them and really hope that the friendship here will be unaffected.

They should know I hold them in very high esteem, and totally, completely feel like crap at the thought of having upset them.
So much so it's been a little over 4 hours later and I'm still here berating myself.

There is more I wish to say, though I will do so privately.

Take care my dearest.
Daughter of man is flawed, and I am more so than others, so please forgive my inadequacies, because I haven't a clue how to sort them.
You're very kind for having not shut me out as I deserve.
-hug-

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I really put my foot in my mouth today with a few people, and it kills me because they all play important roles in my bittersweet life, and I love each and every one of them more than they can imagine in different ways.

It kills me to be the source of pain to any of them.

I am sorry.
Truly and sincerely.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15253942/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15253942/ Sun, 28 Oct 2007 07:28:16 PDT Well, it's been quite the week.

First and foremost. I can't recall having enjoyed any meal this past week. I am, however, thankful for having food to eat and that with all the nutritious goodness I've been pumped with, I'm sure to live a very very very very very long time. Without confectionery.

Here's an example of what my breakfasts have been like:
Enter Death juice. Composed of juiced carrots,cabbage, gherkins, celery, tomatoes, apples, mixed up with pure concentrated orange juice and served chilled. Yummy yummy. It has the consistency of puke, and the taste STAYS with you, long after finishing. It's the celery.

I feel a little bit like a tool as of late.
Every time my phone has rung, it's been a new person asking something of me.
I need "people" to understand I'm a person as well.
Not a phone directory.
Not a source.
Not an encyclopedia.
Not an art-generating machine.
Not a psychologist or a counselor.

and most definitely Not a Mind Reader.

Don't you hate it when you're in a situation with multiple tasks and people are going on about how it should be done in a whole different manner of ways to everyone in the damned world, except you?
You get criticism, without actually hearing about it.
It makes doing any job hard.

What's worse than that? Group work.
Stupid me for thinking people would know how to pull their own weight.

-grumbles-
Sorry for this unpleasant entry.
I'd tell you it's almost time for my menses and the hormones are all jumping about, but my brother would probably say Bull, because.. you know, his female friends all get super nice if anything at all. Even mother agrees. So yay! I'm just, you know... some retarded special case.
I just feel very sick and very cold under all this... this... stress?
No. I deal with work stress fine.
This is People Stress + my retardedness.

Gah.
My phone is off until further notice.

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Relaxing is out of the question in November. My mum has decided I need to "do things with my life" and I'm going to be rotting in language classes and doing mod. maths till I go barmy.

It's a bright bright future up ahead.

But why look so far?

I have school tomorrow. Where I go back to a WONDERFUL literature teacher who's permanently labeled me as a person with half a dozen "mental issues" just from observation (because didn't you know? Lit teachers are also buffed up as professional psychologists, able to diagnose with a couple of sessions of class where they repetitively put you down and see how you take it.)

And she will pester me for a design I was meant to have finished but haven't. For lack of... motivation.
And the fact I sincerely doubt there will be any time at all to do it this year because there's still so much left to cover with class work. Materials need to be bought and... such.

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I apologize for all this bantering. It feels good to get it off my chest, just to know some random people that chance on it can cheer up and figure that everyone suffers crap all the same.

I'll be... back to my optimistic scarily cheery self tomorrow, probably having found more silver linings by then.

For now I'm going to go to bed.
You'd probably agree I need the sleep.

Take care folks, I sincerely hope you have a pleasant week ahead.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15136486/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15136486/ Fri, 19 Oct 2007 22:59:05 PDT
Okay. So. This week has gone through a couple of extremes of being really bad to REALLY FECKIN' AWESOME.
My computer went out on Monday and Tuesday - my brother had to change the PC, it'll do for now but we need funds to build a new computer. Basically the days I didn't have the comp were bad.

~kumiko-1991 and ~darkened-days came for a sleepover on Wednesday to Thursday - we watched Ghost Hunt, did some...other things, chatted, and worked on a new story for a new project
The story is still a work-in-progress.
The next day I went out for a movie, with ~darkened-days and ~nicolehook - Due to the fact I don't look 18 at all, I don't think we could've gotten in to see any of the good movies - but honestly: I didn't mind seeing Bourne Ultimatem again xD, it was awesome.
After the movie, Nic dragged us to go do something called Puri Kara which I believe means print club - we camwhored and now there are awesome lil' stickers to prove it!
X3
Damn that was fun. Managed to get them to try something called Durian Float as well from New Zealand Natural Ice Cream - I suppose its good in small doses. ~___~

I can't think of school on Monday.

and... I want to ROLEPLAY MOOOOORE. <3
*hijacks Yuu*

Okay. Puri Kura or Puri Kara, I don't know which, so whatever you'd like to call it, let it be so. I'll stick to "Print Club" xD

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15038701/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/15038701/ Sat, 13 Oct 2007 04:25:27 PDT Okay, Happy Raya to aaaaaaaaaall who visit this page: May you have a pleasant time gorging yourself on lemang and rendang as I have.
Yes, I spent Raya at the house of a long-time friend and we had fun torturing each other with make up, truth or dare, consulting a giant 8 Ball among very many other strange activities.

So then. This friend had a poster on the back of her door that said "Everybody knows Shit Happens". Go ahead and have a laugh: Here is the list. Along with some others I found.
Have a laugh.

TAOISM - if you understand shit, it isn’t shit.
HINDUISM - this shit happened before.
CONFUCIONISM - confucious says “shit happens.”
BUDDHISM - shit will happen to you again.
ZEN - what is the sound of shit happening?
ISLAM - if shit happens, it is the will of allah.
SIKHISM - leave our shit alone.
JEHOVA’S WITNESS - knock knock. shit happens.
ATHEISM - i don’t believe this shit.
AGNOSTICISM - can you prove that shit happens?
CATHOLICISM - if shit happens, you deserve it.
PROTESTANTISM - shit happens, amen to that.
JUDAISM - why does shit always happen to us?
ORTHADOX JUDAISM - so shit happens, already.
TELEVANGELISM - send us money or shit will happen to you.
RASTAFARIANISM - let’s smoke this shit.
HARE KRISHNA - shit happens rama rama.
NATION OF ISLAM - don’t take no shit.
NEW AGE - visualize shit happening.
SHINTOISM - you inherit the shit of your ancestors.
HEDONISM - i love it when shit happens.
SATANISM - sneppah tihs.
CAPITALISM - this is my shit.
FEMINISM - men are shit.
EXISTENSIALISM - what is shit anyway?
SCIENTOLOGY - if shit happens, see dianetics p.137.
MORMONISM - excrement happens(don’t say shit).
BAPTISM - we’ll wash the shit right off you.
MYSTICISM - this is really weird shit.
VOODOO - shit doesn’t just happen, we made it happen.
DISNEYISM - bad shit doesn’t happen here.
SURREALISM - fish happens.
CYNICISM - we are all full of shit.
TANTRISM - fuck this shit.
HIP-HOP - motherfuck this shiznat beeatch.
STATISTICIAN - shit is 84.7% likely to happen.
AMERICANISM - who gives a shit.
ENVIRONMENTALISM - shit is biodegradable.
FATALISM - oh shit, it’s going to happen.
VEGETARIANISM - if it happens to shit, don’t eat it.
MATERIALISM - whoever dies with the most shit wins.
FAMILY GATHERING - relatives are shit.
EINSTEIN - shit is relative.
POLITICALLY CORRECT - internally proccessed.
NUTRITIONAL - drained biological output happens.
DOG - i just shit in your shoe.
CAT - dogs are shit.
MOUSE - oh shit, a cat!
ACUPUNCTUARIST - hold still or this will hurt like shit.
LAWYERS - for enough money i can get you out of shit.
FREUD - shit is a phallic symbol.
DESCARTES - i shit therefore i am.
SHAKESPEAREAN - to shit or not to shit, that is the question.
TREKISM - to boldly shit where no-one has shit before.
OPTIMISM - shit won’t happen to me.
SUICIDAL - i’ve had enough of this shit.
AMISH - modern shit is useless.
DARWINISM - survival of the shittiest.
PSYCHO-ANYLYSIS - tell me about your shit.
CONSPIRACY THEORISM - THEY shit on us!
MARXISM - you have nothing to lose but your shit.
COMMUNISM - let’s share the shit.
WICCA - you can make shit happen but shit will happen to you three times.

Extras:

DRACONIANISM #1 - "If you shit on another person, the governent shall have you shat out of a camel three times."
DRACONIANISM #2 - "Because you have shat on me, I shall devise a contraption that will be unmistakably too complex for eveyone's inferior mind to comprehend that will enevitably shit on you when I feel like opperating it..."
RELAVATISM - "How can excremiment 'happen'? Therefore, how can anything happen? I don't know....
PERVERSION - "Shit is an aphrodisiac AND a contraceptive! The more is happens the better."
RETARDATION - "Shit! Shit! Shiiiiiiiiit! Shity shit shits! (rubs himself with his shit.)"
HOMOSEXUALITY - "I shat the same shit twenty times, oh yeah, it happens!"
LESBIANISM - You don't want to know.
SITHOLOGY-"Sith happens." -or- "Shit happens... so fling it back already! The one who's the cleanest wins, after all."

And more:...

# Agnostic 1: Shit might have happened; then again, maybe not.
# Agnostic 2: Did someone shit?
# Agnostic 3: What is this shit?
# Atheism 1: can't believe this shit!
# Atheism 2: Shit happens for no apparent reason!
# Atheism 3: What shit?
# Bahaism: All sorts of Shits happen and it has One Source.
# Branch Davidianism: David Koresh was the shit. Shit.. ouch.. Hot.. Shit burns
# Buddhism: If shit ha... ]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/14951639/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/14951639/ Sun, 07 Oct 2007 07:23:22 PDT
-Edward Dowden

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/14939876/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/14939876/ Sat, 06 Oct 2007 11:13:18 PDT Hello darlings!

Well, I've started making an effort with my diet and exercising, but my family is pretty much in denial over the sugar situation, besides my brother *who has been watching me like a hawk and vice versa*. My mum insists the reading was wrong.
In fact, I just had a huge slice of possibly the sweetest cake I've ever eaten, thanks to the fact it's my sister's 27th birthday.

Before you throw rocks at me, I'm going back for a checkup next week with my mum. There IS a possibility the reading was wrong.
Or rather, Some people didn't take into factor that for my weight, my blood sugar level -might-actually be NORMAL. N-O-R-M-A-L.
But really, I will see the doctor again and make sure I've fasted properly before the test.

end of health subject.
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I'm so so so so Soooo very proud of a dear friend who's art has been given recognition, I'm not sure she'd appreciate me mentioning any details, but if she sees this, I'd like her to know I think she really deserves it for the effort and love she puts into her creations. The sheer details and love are ridiculous, and the results are wonderful. Congrats darling~ Hope this really opens up some doors for you.
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Next up,
It's my sister's 27th Birthday! (as already mentioned) Wohoo!
I love her to bits even though she drives me crazy on occasion. It's a pity she'll be leaving in 2 days .____.; Thank God for the Internet.

My dad gave her quite a bundle of money and my mum bought her a pair of snowflake diamond earrings - she's quite quite QUITE ecstatic as you can imagine. I'm happy to see her happy.
^_^
And her fiancee better start working harder, because I think she's decided she really likes expensive jewelry.
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And other news,
My mum thinks she's found the exact identity of who her great-great grandfather was. She wants to drive down to another state to check out records and such, but so far all info we've found online seems to match up where dates, births, names and locations are concerned.

It doesn't affect anything in the present, but it -is- pretty awesome if it's true - the man has a wikipedia entry even.


It's been a very interesting day.
^_^ *thanks God for all the little things*

(I told you you'd only like to hear me rant, wasn't that entire post so very boring to you?) xDDD

Bye darls!

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/14919852/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/14919852/ Thu, 04 Oct 2007 21:55:06 PDT
So. I went for a blood sugar test today.

Um. The results are no good.

XD Time for a diet change, more exercise and less eating sweet foods when stressed.

:B I don't actually LIKE sweet things, I just seemed to consume the stuff without much thought, without enjoying it -
We're talking: Curry mee, ice cream, cookies, soft drinks, candies, chocolates, sweet liqueurs, donuts, jam filled buns etc.

This is another bump on the road, but I'm confident that if for so many years I could change myself to please so many people, I can certainly make some permanent changes for myself. To please myself.

I am quite honestly scared though, but its time to toughen up and move on.

Friends in real life: Watch me in the canteen o__o; I only eat when I'm stressed and that always seems to be in school. Just in case my self control sways on certain days e__e;

[Ale, We need to dig a pool in my yard for daily use]

AND PLEASE, DON'T USE ME AS SOME KIND OF GOSSIP TOPIC >___> IF YOU HAVE READ THIS, IT MEANS YOU'RE THE ONLY ONES MEANT TO KNOW.

Thanks.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/14908766/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/14908766/ Thu, 04 Oct 2007 06:09:48 PDT Sorry folks, no rants today or funny stories. This journal is about Me. So move along, unless you're that curious or bored.

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It takes a little over 48 hours in an international chat room before you realize how many broken people there are out there.

When I say broken, I mean those with shitty relationship issues, low self esteem, pessimistic ways of life, seriesofneverendingunfortunateevents disorder yada yada yada, before it hits you: Everyone has had some negative life changing experience, some let it get to them, other's don't.

I'm not dissing anyone here, I'm just making an observation.

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An online friend made me take a graphology test just for the helluvit the other day and while the accuracy of such pseudo science is questionable, it came out saying some very bad things about my character I've known to be true since a certain time.

-I lack internal confidence.
-I'm constantly watching myself, afraid to draw negative attention.
-my self-concept is artificially low
-I can't improve because I'm afraid of rejection and failure.

etc etc etc. The diagnosis was very long.

The exact lines were that I was "an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken."

>___>;

I know exactly when that happened. I know I wasn't always such a doormat.

On top of it all, my (some are unreasonable) fears, worries, doubts, anxieties, pressures have made me sick for the past few days.

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If I'm sick of anything, it's of this inner voice telling me I'm not good enough. I also KNOW that some things that happen in life are out of my control and are, in no way, my fault.

I don't want to end up like one of those people who let anything and EVERYTHING get to them. I want to be cheery and helpful where I can be.

I also know it's dreadfully hard/dull to be around a person who'll give in as soon as you twist their thumb, and that is NOT who I am.
I like being pushy and difficult to a point that you keep wanting to come back and spar with me in whatever the game may be. xD

So here's my starting point, my personality makeover. I might have been a doormat once, but that lifestyle is not for his KBB...

I know I won't be able to grow self confidence overnight, but I am going to make the effort to stop letting the words of others and myself drag me down from achieving and doing well.

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To some of you who know me IRL and who bothered to read this far, I know it's shocking to think that I am this sensitive. But heck, first step to recovery is admitting there's a problem.

Thank you, xjaggedsky, for always being my listening ear, someone who lifts me up even through your own difficulties, whether you know it or not, you DID give me back a huge chunk of my confidence. You're really One in 7 Billion. and ILY very very much

Thank you alebean, for always distracting me from my own mind - You're the only person with a gift for doing that and I really, really cherish you. I cherish you enough to want to drag you swimming. <3

Thank you darkened-days and Mogget-chan for always trying to cheer me up and sending all sorts of strange IMs and SMSs to make me smile, you're the best. <3

*kicks self*
Also, Zelkats - you have always come to my defense.
You've also always had some form of advice for me and you know I will do all that is in my power to see that I can help you as much as you have helped me.

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SO THEN

IN YOUR FACE BIZNATCHES! KAY IS BACK!
>D

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/14865997/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/14865997/ Mon, 01 Oct 2007 05:14:28 PDT All of a sudden, I feel very dreadfully, horribly out of it.
Dreadful isn't even the right word.

And you know what? I haven't the slightest clue why. It's an instinct thing - and it's making me highly paranoid, jumpy and downright feverish.
I know I've got some problems to sort - but they aren't that big that I should feel this way.

I haven't felt this ghastly since...
Nevermind.

HAKUNA MATATA! -nervous laugh-

*curls up under a nice cold rock*
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Projects that need to/should be finished, in random order:

a) Nightmare before and during christmas [Final Mafia comic]
b) Leadless [Random comic inspired by Loveless]
c) New label for jointed projects with and
d) 's kiriban request
e) A present of a friend's character, inked, which I have not been able to draaaaaw. ;-;
f) Art Meme xD [link] I'm doing this because it's fun and I want to relax.
g)Another mural design for yet another wall in school.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/14835301/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/14835301/ Sat, 29 Sep 2007 01:51:00 PDT [Edit] Congrats ~Mogget-chan for catching 7000 pageviews xD T'was muchly unexpected. <3

Stolen from ~kumiko-1991
I've done this before, but I must have deleted it :B

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Requirements:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title to answer the questions. ( Lyrics may be inserted as well, depending on your preference.)
4. DON'T CHEAT.
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1) How am I feeling today?
Nitro Microphone Underground - Burnin'
_{Actually, my reynauds is killing me}

2) Where will I get married?
Rodney Carrington - Donald Duck Orgasm
_{Um. I don't know why this is on my player. MARK!}

3) What is my best friend's theme song?
Bone Thugs N Harmony - Take The Lead (Wanna Ride)
_{XD Hahahaha Ale.}

4) What was high school like?
Philip Bailey + Phil Collins - Easy Lover
_{I'd have to be insane to agree to that.}

5) What is the best thing about me?
Santana + Chad Kroeger - Why don't you and I
_{... No comment, but Yey, Chad Kroeger <3}

6) How is today gonna be?
Dir en Grey - Filth
_{What a coincidence, I am basking in my own filth.}

7) What is in store this week?
Kaya - Paradise Lost
_{Boo or Yay?}

8) What song describes my parents?
Alanis Morissette - You Ought to Know
_{O-o; No, this is the song my parent's ex's sing}

9) How is my life going?
Britney Spears - I'm a Slave for you.
_{.... *falls off chair*}

10) What song will they play at my funeral?
Dir en Grey - Myaku
_{XD OMG AWESOME}

11) How does the world see me?
The Academy Is... - Skeptics and True Believers
_{Okay, that's fair?}

12) What do my friends see in me?
Utada Hikaru - Colors
_{XD I'm bright? flamboyant? made of paint now?}

13) Do people secretly lust about me?
The Audition - Does This Sound Familiar?
_{What an emo song}

14) How can I make myself happy?
Panic At The Disco - There's A Good Reason These Tables Are Numbered Honey You Just Haven't Thought Of It Yet
_HAHAHA

15) What should I do with my life?
Garbage - I'm only happy when it rains
_{Be the weather woman on channel 5?}

16) Will I ever have children?
Rihanna - Oh Baby
_{Oh ...dear.}

17) What is some good advice?
Schwarz Stein - Rise To Heaven
_{YES. Can I take my own advice? XD}

18) What do I think my current theme song is?
Nickelback - Throw Yourself Away
_O-o;

19) What does everyone else think of my current life?
Natalie Imbruglia - Torn
_{Who isn't? XD}

20) What type of man do you like?
Mika Nakashima - tears [Instrumental]
_{o-o; I do like men who can cry.}

21) Will you get married?
Rascal Flatts - Too Good Is True
_{O__o Is anyone else seeing a pattern here?}

22) Where will I live?
Malice Mizer - Transylvania
_{Coincidence much?}

23) What should I do with my love life?
Relient K - Who I am Hates Who I've Been
_{Heck yah. *pats mp3 player*}

24) What will your dying words be?
See-Saw - Anna Ni Isshoni Datta No Ni
_{We were so close together... [wtf]}

26) When I meet a guy/girl for the first time I say...
Ragnarok Online - Curse'n Pain
_{... MARK!! WHAT MUSIC DO YOU HAVE ON HERE <__<}

27) When my parents are angry I say....
FMP Fumoffu - Sorega Aideshou
_{I guess that's love [aw. well. I don't say it, but I do know it.]}

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Thus concludes my randoming. o-o It appears I have... a wide variety of music to sit and SORT now.

*listens to that Donald Duck song one more time*

]]> ~KawaiiCurls http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/14825886/ http://KawaiiCurls.deviantart.com/journal/14825886/ Fri, 28 Sep 2007 11:08:48 PDT Today's developments merits a journal entry :3
Well. Lots of things have "happened" this past week,

First off, thank you for the profile feature
You're a real gem ^_^ (and I REALLY hate the time difference.)

=3 moving on...

A friendship has been... rekindled xD

Some time earlier in the year, ~darkened-days and I had a fallout.

If you ask why, I can only reason that we're both people of strong personalities and sometimes, things clash - when we met, we were quite instantly close and so never actually fought.

I know where things are concerned for myself, the people closest to me in life are the ones I've had at least one big fight with. (Like a certain Bean I'm related to, and even another much loved bitchy cat)

But.. with the big fights come the later understanding of personality quirks and even growth.
and like that... we clicked again.

It's been terribly difficult to answer everyone's questions on WHY we are friends again, especially to our families.
Knowing them, they probably think the other has some evil plan hatched or something horrible like so. @_@

But, I assure you, it is not.
So shut up, stop asking and let friends be friends. The world needs more peace right?
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and have been and are very important people in my entire, short life. Although I have other close friends and people I've known longer, I trust -just- them with very many things I'd dare not utter to others.

My relations with them is like...having a great sister and creative partner if it clears confusion: which was why it took some time to bounce back from previous squabbles. But heck all that, we get along great together.

I hope that the friendship between us will continue to grow and last.

]]> ~KawaiiCurls